#also note down any sketchy shit at work in a different notebook/file/whatever

[other-peoples-coats]

so if you have the anxieties at work -- which, uh, big mood -- and have the specific breed of anxieties of 'fuck I am fucking up at my job so much, I am about to be fired for sucking so much', you might find it useful to note down -- not on a work device for the love of god -- how often everyone else at your job fucks up.

not just like, Huge Fuck Ups, like 'john deleted the only copy of Important Report and we had to run it again, so the project was delayed by two weeks past its due date and Big Deal Client will never work with us again', but like. 'james said he'd send me the file last monday, it's thursday, I asked where it was and he was like lmao soz forgot', or like, 'sarah processed [thing x] and accidentally missed [minor step y], or even like 'my boss set up a meeting with me on a day I am not in; and then tried to reorganise it on a day she is not in'.

Not as like, a grudge list, but just as an external 'this is how much everyone else in [your team/org/whatever] is fucking up all the time, and they're not about to be fired/fail their annual review/even getting a talking to about it, here is a benchmark that is not based on your own brain's perception (which is probably dogshit)'.

it doesn't have to be detailed (bc it's not really about the specifics, beyond maybe a vauge 'this is the scale of fuckup in question), but you do probably want dates, even just so you can look down your list (or whatever) and be like '2nd feb: john fucked up. 3rd feb:kate fucked up. 4th feb: mark fucked up. 5th feb: jane fucked up. kate fucked up.'

Or like, don't do it, I'm not your parent, I'm just an idiot bootstrapping a profoundly stupid mix of neurochemicals into an approximation of functionality enough to like, keep paying rent and not have a break down while doing it.