#also me joining the MHA fandom so late into the game?

[antisociallilbrat]

I just need to say that the beauty of being a multishipper in the My Hero fandom.

I have read Tododeku and Todomomo fics where Shouto doesn't realize he's dating Izuku/Momo in each respective fic. He'll be months into a relationship with them and finally have the "I think maybe we're more than friends?" moment. Momo/Izuku out here confessing their feelings and it goes right over Shouto's head.

Alternatively I read a Todobaku fic where Bakugou was the one who didn't realize he was dating Shouto. This was also Shouto's fault though bc he just decided him and Bakugou were dating and didn't tell him.

It's beautiful to be a Shouto Todoroki multishipper 🥲

[laraiza]

[RANT]

I've recently been in social media and noticing how mean the people in different fandoms (anime, video games, etc) have become so I just wanted to rant about it.

Things mentioned that could be potentially triggering: shedtwt, cyberbullying, slight mention of grooming.

First of all, let's look at how it happened. As of 2023, there was an anual growth of 4’2% on the social media use, and an average of six new users per second. Users on social media have an average of 2’5 hours spent in them, posting and liking posts.

Another reason is COVID 19, specifically the lockdown, in 2020. During the lockdown people were stuck in their homes with nothing better to do than walk their pets if they had one, cleaning, and using their phones or computers, so social media again.

A lot of young teenagers have free access to internet and different media, too, as seen on Twitter/X (which I will use as a reference from now on).

Before all of this, people who were into things that were considered abnormal like anime or video games, would use it to post things from their communities without having to fear being hated on because of it. Social media was basically a safe space for “weird” kids.

However, what we could consider “highschool bullies” have joined these spaces. Highschool bullies are people who are mean to others for no reason, and will laugh at them if they disagree with something they say or if someone says something wrong on accident.

Let me mention anime, as it's the biggest example I can think of. I've been an anime fan since 2018 or so, when it wasn't as popular and was deemed as a “weird kid” thing that only people who “didn't shower” would watch. When I first watched anime, I watched shows like My Hero Academia and Demon Slayer.

However, now these two series have gained a significant amount of popularity. While MHA is still getting a ton of backlash, Demon Slayer has been deemed as good by these highschool bullies, although lately it's been getting some more hate too for some reason.

Highschool bullies will only tolerate anime if it's Dragon Ball, Hunter x Hunter or Attack on Titan. These are rated by others as good and incredible, while the rest tend to be treated as trash and will be laughed at.

Before, there were apps like Amino or Project Z that would help these “weird kids” that are fans of these medias to share their interests and their opinions. Neither of these apps are safe anymore due to being invaded by groomers, since it's easier to get to kids through them.

But now, thanks to how the social media algorithm works, people who are DS or MHA fans have the risk of posting something and being called weird for it by the bullies who are normally boys.

On the other hand, we have actual cyberbullying. Let me create an example using the most common thing:

A thirteen year old girl posts a mirror selfie on instagram showing a new outfit. However, this girl isn't conventionally attractive or skinny. Other people, especially other girls her age, will start leaving demeaning comments and laugh at her for it, some going to the point of sharing it with others to laugh at her.

I don't think I need to explain why this is a problem.

Now, back to our Twitter examples. Lately, a community on this app has been formed, commonly known as “shedtwt”. No, these are not people who live in a shed, but users — most commonly young girls, but there's also boys in there — that self-harm and have eating disorders and post about it, almost bragging about their “accomplishments” with these disorders.

I'm not going to expand too much on this, but this is exactly how the cyberbullying on the Instagram girl post I mentioned before could have an effect on her.

Social media, most prominent Twitter, is no longer a safe space for “weird kids” to share their likings in, or for people to post innocent pictures of themselves without receiving backlash for it.

Have a good evening, morning or night and please don't become one of these highschool bullies. ♡

[uhhhyaenbyjade]

@mimbotomy tagged me in a fun tag game for fanfic writers, so here's my answers!!!!

How many works do you have on AO3? I have 62 total works, and I am so disappointed in a lot of them 😅

What's your total AO3 word count? 339,839 words!

What fandoms do you write for? Lately I've been working a lot on fics with AC: Odyssey, Monsterverse, and VicTORIous. However, I did recently do a fic for Mean Girls (2024) and I used to write a lot for BNHA/MHA, when I was very big on that fandom, but all those fics are really bad and cringe so I try to pretend they don't exist. I also have some batfamily fics, and a few for Dynasty. A few oneshots here and there with that fic being my only work in the fandom. And how could I forget, Horizon!

What are your top 5 fics by kudos? Confidence - What a Hero Needs - this annoys me so much, it was my first fic, EVER. I wrote it 4 years ago, and it's still my most popular, I've written much better stuff. I've even REWRITTEN THIS ONE AND THE OG IS STILL MORE POPULARR GKHDGHJHWJHK Apects Unknown - or are they? - a fun batfamily and wonderbat based fic off of my own mini-universe. Very cute, and very proud of this fic Perseverance - What a Hero Needs - the immediate follow up to Confidence. Again, I've written a lot better stuff "What? I like hero merch!" - My favorite crack fic I've written. Also BNHA/MHA based, but this was just fun and cute Among (Us) the Villains - yet another BNHA/MHA fic, but this time it's based about Izuku being friends with the LoV. And gaming with them. Made around the time of Among Us, hence the title

Do you respond to comments? I try, especially once I post something new. But honestly, a lot of my responses end up being just hearts or "thank you's" and it personally makes me feel like I'm being disingenuine when i respond with them too much

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? I suppose Kumandra's Heart? But that was more sad than angst, I think?

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Pretty Girls, my Mean Girls (2024) fic!!!! I love this one so much, it's one of the few I go back and reread often! Basically a rewrite of the movie to be a lot gayer.

Do you get hate on fics? Oh yeah, there was this one marvel fic I did, and this one commenter was really mad that I wasn't going exactly as canon dictated. Because of course

Do you write smut? If so, what kind? I have a few fics with smut, and it's mainly kink-based. Definitely love involved too, but very kink-based.

Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written? Yes! I enjoy it a lot! My craziest one would probably have to be the one I'm currently writing, combining the Assassin's Creed universe and Legendary's Monsterverse. It's called Ancients Risen Anew, and based on Kassandra joining MONARCH after the G-Day event in 2014!

Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not to my knowledge! I made all my fics available only to registered users for the purpose of keeping them as safe as I can while still sharing them.

Have you ever had a fic translated? Nope! Would love to see it happen though!

Have you ever co-written a fic before? Nope! It sounds interesting to do though!

What's your all time favorite ship? I would have to say Jade West/Tori Vega. The good old classic gay couple from Nickelodeon, as much as we hate how that era of TV was behind the scenes. A close second would probably be Aloy/Seyka, from Horizon. I just love them so much, they're my little blorbos (i think i used that term right :D)

What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? I have a few, but I'll talk about Cascade for now. It's the marvel fic I mentioned earlier, and I kinda lost all interest in marvel recently. The last media I saw was The Marvels, and I enjoyed it a lot, but I kinda got oversaturated with too much Marvel stuff, and not enough of it was as amazing like Shang-Chi was to make me wanna stay interested. Will definitely watch the stuff I'm interested in though (anything with Kate Bishop and Yelena)

What are your writing strengths? Hmmmm, tough one. I would say lore. I love writing lore and explaining lore. I am also very good at writing outlines.

What are your writing weaknesses? Fight scenes. Especially fast paced ones. I love the choreography in movies, but how am I supposed to translate the fast-paced combat into writing in a way that feels natural????

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? I have done this for a short story! Please go check it out, its non-fandom related so it didn't get traction, but oh my god i did so much research for it and I love it. It's called Children of Níðhǫggr!

First fandom you wrote for? Boku no Hero Academia / My Hero Academia. Please, end me

Favorite fic you've written? How the fuck am I supposed to choose just one?!??!?! I'll limit myself to five, to keep this short, lol Ink & Sparks - which is my favorite Jade West/Tori Vega fic. I rewrote it several times, and the version linked is the best one I've done. Please check it out, I love it so much! There's More To Life Than Surviving! - Honestly, this one is a contender for top fic. A crack fic, but for Ninjago! Loved it a lot The Titan of the Pearl - A very nice fic I wrote combining the Pirates of the Caribbean and Godzilla. Because I can Kumandra's Heart - A slight ending rewrite of Raya, the Last Dragon, which is my personal favorite Disney Princess movie Pretty Girls - the Mean Girls (2024) fic I mentioned earlier. I love this one so much, and like I said, I keep going back to reread it, that's how much I enjoy it Going to tag @aeide, @hartlesshart, @foibles-fables, and @spectres-n-knights for this! And if anyone else wants to, please go ahead!

[dazais-guardian-angel]

I’m sorry this blog has been so dead-feeling and sporadic for a while now. Not that anyone probably cares, but if any of my followers somehow still enjoy following me, I’m sorry to you all. (tmi health issues below)

I haven’t “updated” in a long while, mostly because I don’t feel like I’m on the verge of dying anymore, like I did all throughout 2017 to maybe halfway through 2018; my health has been pretty stable for a while now. But it’s almost like once my thoughts didn’t have to be preoccupied with constant terror and depression of the worst kind 24/7, now it’s made room for other things to take hold of me. I don’t have panic attacks anymore (at least that I know of; I definitely had one the other night, though), but I have mental anxiety more than ever about really random and ridiculous things, and intrusive thoughts. I’ve gotten a lot of writing done but at the same time feel more unproductive than ever; I’ve always had bad executive dysfunction, but for the last couple months it’s felt worse. I’ve nearly dropped off of drawing entirely; I wish I did it more, but I’ll never be good enough and it’ll never get enough attention to feel like it’s worth the exhaustion it takes. And I probably have actual depression, if I didn’t before then I probably definitely do now; I’ve started to be able to tell the difference in my moods between days, where I feel really invigorated and into something and wanting to do something, and when I feel really down and can’t bring myself to do anything I mean even more than usual lol and feel like I want to cry sometimes for no reason.

I don’t feel as passionate about stuff anymore, which is probably a BIG WARNING SIGN cause I’ve heard other people say this, but yeah. I’m constantly feeling like I should go “give myself a break from writing”, so I just end up playing small, shorty video games that don’t hold my attention very well, instead of working on my backlog of big games that I know are gonna keep me busy for a while each once I start them... otherwise I just stay at my computer thinking that surely I’ll feel like writing something else soon, because I know deep down I want to work on filling my remaining ideas, and I know I can because I have been steadily uploading the last few months, but then I’ll just end up sitting here doing nothing in the end. Or if I get lucky, write. But it just feels like literally everything I do is happening at a snail’s pace now, for no reason. Getting through anime episodes now is tedious, at least for seasonal anime that I’m just trying out and not stuff I already know I’ll love. Keeping up with manga is hard too, I’m so behind on so many series, except for MHA because the chapters are short and weekly instead of monthly, which somehow helps. I like to read at night before sleeping, but I usually fall asleep so quickly after laying down, it’s frustrating. And none of this should matter because no one cares but me but I can’t stand it, especially when my anxiety is constantly making me worried about how long my lifespan is gonna be and that I need to hurry up and do shit quicker. :))))))

All of those mental health diagnoses are just speculation though, since I haven’t been officially looked at by anyone, cause we don’t know where to find anyone. Maybe adhd meds would help me, but who knows when I’ll be able to try any if I do, because I’m already taking so many physical health meds that my parents are always wary about adding unnecessary ones, especially since we’re so uneducated when it comes to the delicacies of mental health meds.

My health problem has morphed into a swallowing problem; I have extra saliva and mucus that gets “stuck” and won’t go down all the way unless I swallow a lot, and I can’t drink or eat anything anymore, which is literally the most agonizing thing in the world, I’m so thirsty (I’m still getting nutrition; please don’t ask how). I’ve done a couple tests and they’ve been fine, so no one knows what’s going on, and my parents have been lax about setting up to go to a better hospital because things aren’t urgent anymore like they used to be now that I have a reflux med. I mean, at least as far as I know; who tf knows what’s happening to me I also have leg nerve pain from sitting in a wheelchair all day every day, which is nothing new at all, it’s been a thing for years, but lately it’s been absolutely agonizing because I’m too underweight to pad my body and my wheelchair isn’t a good fit for me and getting the people to take the steps to change things takes literal months because they’re slow and lazy as molasses. My back is constantly tight too, to varying degrees, sometimes better, and I don’t know what that is, maybe anxiety, but that’s frustrating too cause it makes breathing ever so harder. So yeah, I’m not fearing for my life anymore, at least consciously, but things are still hard and I’m so tired that they’re still like this and they’re just making my mental health worse. I spend most days not doing anything, suffering in some small annoying way that’s enough to keep me from being able to focus on anything, and going to the relief of bed, to repeat forever.

I’m realizing that I’m just lonely. I’m so lonely. Everything is so different now than it was even three years ago; so many of my online friends are gone, even if we’re still mutuals on tumblr; the first online community I ever joined that first got me into online friendships and animanga has long since disbanded. Various mutuals on here I never really talked to but was used to seeing in my activity are gone. Other friends have changed slightly, though they’re still dear to me; I have new ones that are dear to me too, but yet others that I don’t feel a real connection with, and it feels like we’re just surface level acquaintances. One of my two closest and best of friends, one of the first friends I ever made years ago, abandoned me late last year, and to be honest I don’t know why. I did hurt her, but I feel confident in saying that it wasn’t to a degree that was unforgivable, or at least wasn’t worthy of a chance to redeem myself, so.... yeah, I don’t know why. She had changed a lot by that point, shut down a lot, and when I set her off and she left, it was as if all that time we’d spent so close together meant absolutely nothing anymore, had never happened... I don’t understand it. It hurts so much. I tried to contact her in other ways multiple times, by letter and by email, apologizing profusely, and she ignored all of them. It hurts and I’ve thought about it so much, I know I haven’t truly coped with it yet, but have only tried to ignore it, and I desperately need someone to tell me that I didn’t do anything wrong (at least, not wrong enough for that reaction). Cause right now I just still hate myself for it deep down, am so worried about her, worried about how she is right now, wish I knew what she was thinking/thought then, all because of my mistake..... I don’t understand, I don’t know what to do, and it makes me think that all this time I’ve been a lot more terrible of a person than I’ve ever known, and that I’ll just keep accidentally pushing people away by trying to get too close, just like her.

She abandoned me, the few “adult friends” I’ve had irl abandoned me and never talk to me anymore once they stopped working for us, so I guess I’m just cursed this way. The main thing is that I’m seeking and craving interactions with people that no one I know want to have; I love analyzing fiction and getting into the meta and all that stuff, said online friend who abandoned me and I were on nearly the same wavelength when it came to this kind of thing, and we talked for hours and hours about different series and what made them work and why they didn’t work, getting real Deep(tm), and going against popular fandom opinions we thought were wrong (cause we were/are in the minority who disagreed with some of the praise for certain big name series lmao) lol, and that was my normal for a few years... and to have all that be gone is so alien. We were going to collab on a fic together, and that barely got off the ground before she left. I’m dying to have it all back so much, but none of my other friends are into that kind of discussion like she was, and I feel like a piece of shit for acting like they’re “lesser” than her for that, but that’s basically how I’m unintentionally acting.... and I hate myself for it. But I can’t help it; I don’t know what to do. I just know I’m bursting at the seams practically with so much I want to talk about and do that I can’t and I’m so lonely and it’s all so frustrating and depressing and I’m so tired of it all. So aimless and tired and bored and unmotivated and afraid and wishing more than ever that I had 2016 back, before everything became so fucked up in so many ways.

I’m so sorry, anyone who’s friends with me now reading this; you’re all so important to me and I don’t mean to act like you’re not. I’m just sorry I’m such a mess. I need a new purpose, but I don’t know what that is. Maybe I should use this blog to write more meta posts, besides that one. Maybe I should actually post my fics here, although as everyone on tumblr knows, fics get even less notes than art does, so even though my MHA fics get a decent amount of attention as it is, maybe it wouldn’t matter if I put them here too. Is it obvious I’m just a lazy greedy lonely ass craving validation and attention and friendship at this point.......... lol......... I’m just a wreck, I feel so suppressed and aimless, trapped in a life that’s too suffocating and alone for me. And I don’t know how long I and this blog are going to stay this way, so........ I’m sorry, anyone who cares.

Thank you, everyone who’s followed me and still follow me; I appreciate you all so much, and haven’t forgotten a single one of you early ones I’ve talked to before. Hopefully eventually this blog will feel more alive again, eventually........ eventually.............. whenever I find what it is I need, somehow. In the meantime I’ll just keep reblogging MHA posts like a broken record I guess lol.

[aerisleis-fics]

Next Story Poll (Repost)

So the poll thread I was reblogging has, ah, grown passed it’s original usage, a little. Below are the four ideas I’m currently working with, along with some additional detail as most of the ideas have fleshed out somewhat since their original posting. At the bottom are the current standings.

I still don’t intend to start this before I get a lot further into Burden to Bear, because running multiple heavily intricate stories in the same fandom is hard to keep on a regular update schedule. But all of them have some currently written content, so this may change depending on my muse. If it does I’ll set up an update schedule on a rotation or something similar.

So for voting you can comment on the post or you can send an ask to this blog to let me know what you’re most interested in seeing.

So without further delay

Idea 1: “Rise from the Ashes”

Touya runs away with his young siblings and best friend at the age of sixteen. Endeavor reports them as either runaways or potentially kidnapped. The group survives as best they can trying to stay out of trouble and avoid Heroes who would take them back to their father and Touya+Aeris essentially become vigilantes, Fuyumi tries not to think about it too hard (but is essentially group first aid and Mom figure). Natsuo and Shouto are growing up in this chaos. But at least they’re all together. The story probably starts with a chapter (or a few) explaining their settling into life and then skips to when Shouto is old enough to be joining the vigilante pair. It is end-game Tododeku with a pretty clear thread of TouyaxAeris

Idea 2: “The Truth We Know”

Touya has relied on Aeris to make it through for a long time, but he’s coming rapidly to the end of his rope - and the end of his ability to tolerate watching his father’s actions. Aeris has been recording his reports of fights, and taking pictures of his injuries for the last few months - Touya knows this, but still sees it all as their word against Endeavor’s. And then she asks him to start recording conversations in the home. Together they collect enough information that it is no longer their word against Endeavor’s and make a bold accusation citing their evidence. Still, nothing is without consequences and undermining the number two hero certainly leaves ripples. Story likely remains focused on Touya, Fuyumi, and Aeris, with as they attempt to navigate this and protect Natsuo and Shouto from the backlash.

Idea 3: “Wingbeat of a Butterfly”

A time travel au. In which Todoroki and Deku are sent back in time and have to go through high school again, equipped with the memories of all the disasters they will face current notes: each does not know the other was also sent back (at least not at first). Unfortunately each change they make shifts the timeline a little more until events start to become more than a little unpredictable. They were established partners as pro-heroes and in their personal lives before being sent back. Pretty early on they manage to realize the other is back, and prepare to go forward. Unfortunately their casual behavior with each other draws attention, but more importantly their attempts at making things better draw the staff’s attention. Unfortunately, the staff begins to think they may be the traitors.

Idea 4: “Brittle Glass Beneath My Skin”

MHA+ Door to December elements. This will be a very dark story, especially at first. Midoriya Izuku had gone missing when he was 6 years old. By the time he turned 14, he was certain the world had forgotten about him. But Sensei hadn’t - if only he had, maybe he could have gone home. But Sensei says he has a job to do. If only Izuku had better control of the quirk he’d been given, maybe he could have gotten away before it came to this. Izuku has a quirk that essentially exists as this invisible force that reacts when his emotions are running on high or his safety is threatened. He has little control over it and the clock is ticking for him to figure it out before it’s too late. After All Might’s fight with AFO Izuku was “gifted” a quirk and after some training was sent out on missions to kill low-level pro heroes, the goal being to work up until he made quite a splash, keeping attention off of Tomura. Unfortunately sending him to the USJ attack was a dangerous miscalculation and everything Izuku had come to believe and stand on begins to crumble.

Current Standings: 11/14

Idea 1: “Rise from the Ashes”: 0

Idea 2: “The Truth We Know”: 0

Idea 3: “Wingbeat of a Butterfly: 2

Idea 4: “Brittle Glass Beneath My Skin”: 1

[queenofangrymoths]

Well here we go at three fucking am. I should sleep but naahhhh

1. I got into BNHA/MHA. Am I like 2/3 years late??? Yeaaah. Do I care??? No! Also the Hades game fandom,

2. Didn’t really leave it but I abandoned the Newsie fandom in 2020. Just completely dropped it. Didn’t mean to and I’m back in now.

3. Greeks mythology/Percy Jackson. I got so burned by this year I reverted back to my good old basics of Greek myths.

4. Uh this year was a mess since I was in college for most of the part so BUSY but BNHA content started being my go to. Also Greek myths of course.

5. Wasn’t all that creative but have you seen that protest piece @the-gay-trashmouth made??? THAT.

6. Fucking tons as always, are you kidding???

7. Chisaki Kai and Bakugo Katsuki. Basically avoiding the plague and yelling at extras.

8. “I wanna join Circe and weave all day and turn men into pigs” - Me

9. I stared reading the Odyssey. Yeah it’s an old ancients Greek poem but damn if it’s not an interesting and witty read. Seriously, it’s survived 1000+ years for a good reason.

10. I learned corsets were bras and aren’t torturous machines that we are taught they were .

11. We didn’t really start talking again until nearly the end of the year but @the-gay-trashmouth and of course my daughter, @iamthebonecarver

12. I want us to have a good year. It’s going to be hard, there will be healing but everyone stay safe and WEAR YOUR FUCKING MASK!

13. I want to have to do less Covid testing because everyone will be vaccinated and Covid will be a lesser threat.

14. I want to read and write more but more importantly I want to live.

15. Getting the vaccine and not having to worry every single fucking day my mother will catch Covid and die. Was that grim? Probably.

Tagging: @iamthebonecarver

end of 2020 fandom asks

What fandom(s) did you join this year?

What fandom(s) did you leave?

What fandom(s) from the past did you return to?

What show/book/movie etc. was your comfort and/or escape this year?

What creative work are you most proud of (your own or someone else’s)?

Did you have any new ships this year?

Which character did you relate to most this year?

What quote really sums up how you’re feeling at this point?

Recommend something that you really enjoyed in 2020.

Share something you learned in 2020.

Name a fellow fan who you really appreciated this year.

Share your wishes for your fellow fans in the new year.

What do you want to do less of next year?

What do you want to do more of next year?

What are you looking forward to coming out in 2021?