#also maybe im totally off base but im appreciating the parallel anyways

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Hey dont cry, Dr Serizawa's self sacrifice in Godzilla is directly responded to by Koichi's decision to live at the end of Godzilla Minus One, okay?

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let's do a classic Primez ask

thank you lol Prime Time is.....6 am is when im posting this, christ lol what else is new around here........Good Morning in advance lol and [rise and shine sailors it be monday]

2: Favorite book?

i don’t have one lol

3: Favorite fictional character?

i also don’t Properly have like, all-time ultimate Faves in these kind of categories either, but there’s still standouts at least lol......obviously lately it might show that i’m enjoying winston billions a lot, and natch that’s just One of the many wrol roles i’ve been glad to discover. natch winston, jared, and jeremy are fave raves amonth them

5: What’s your favorite fictional ship? (Canon or otherwise)

this is the same as the [fave fictional characters] thing in that like, sometimes i’ll Consume something where i don’t have any, and generally i’m out here multishipping and not like live or die by one Specific Pairing, if i like a character i’ll also probably like Many of their dynamic/s with various other characters, unless the options are That limited.......tying this in to the fave fictional character thing, re: winston, naturally tayston and benston, aka the fruits of us all combining our Genius, are top tier and here’s riawin where we don’t know for sure where it’s going but we’re getting some great Dynamic(tm) stuff anyways.....and natch re: jared i Enjoy Kleinsen (as something to make up ideas about that are outside canon and also as a perspective thru which to analyze canon) and re: jeremy.....stagedorks is beautiful, wild to have canon just give you some content that’s already as good as that

7: List 3 negative traits you have 

well i can be fairly anxious about certain things, which is mostly negative for me lol.........a more negative 2-way street is that i’m just generally in defensive mode around people lol, often i’m like, just trying to avoid Attention entirely and/or like uh oh attention, gotta try to just avoid taking damage from it lol.......on a gradual journey to just being default More Unpleasant / less accommodating lmao......not that i can’t be sometimes, or that i can’t be Genuinely Friendly with randos coz i like their vibe and actually Like socializing lol.........and then re: the challenges of socializing, it seems like maybe when i’m in an interaction i get caught up in [uh oh how do i Respond a) at all b) in a way that’s Good(tm)] and it maybe makes me less attentive to the other person / a worse Listener smh

11: How do you decide when it’s time to cut someone out of your life for good?

idk luckily it’s not something i’ve had to do left and right lol.......but ime it’s Also not exactly like. usually a “ah Now Is The Time to have zero relationship with this person” and most often it’s like [gradual distancing period that is mostly passive] and/or just choosing Not to reinitiate any sort of relationship........though re: more active approaches lol it’s more like. time to try to tune into my [does this feel like something indefinitely sustainable / something you actually Want to have continue in any way] gauge or whatevs. and then still it’s like, sometimes easier if moments happen to come along that provide an [opt out?] choice presented to you kinda lol.........if it’s someone You don’t want to be involved with really but they don’t feel the same and it’s “on you” to decide to peace out at some point it’s more difficult coz such [do you want to opt out]-distilled Moments probably don’t seem to manifest but i think that’s a useful thing to be aware of in itself........i.e. that there’s not always going to be a Narrative-Friendly “point of no return” / clear Line Being Crossed and even if it Doesn’t feel like “i can’t / don’t want to deal with this for Literally one more day” that doesn’t mean you should totally stick it out / don’t have enough reason to decide that you are Done at this particular moment even if you haven’t been Done prior or think you plausibly hold off on it. don’t need to have some kind of story where you think if you Explained it to anyone or everyone it’d universally be understood and everything would applaud like “Yes, the Right Decision” lmao like. not their business....

13: What are your favorite lyrics currently?

well with our groupchat in the replies to that Eternally Crying Over The Bar Song post..........just enjoy the “stay here for a while / cuz it’s nice / cuz it’s holy” part of the refrain, a fun part of the music, and that classic iconis like, lyrics being in a sort of character Voice and yet getting the idea / feelings across effectively even when the words are sort of general or simple.......”shooting from the heart / but we’re all a lousy shot” is great lol and also “say you will always be here” ending with “for one more” is like, there’s another Broader Idea / Sentiment expressed so effectively :’|

17: If you could make a wish, what would you wish for if you knew it would come true?

i can’t do any fun answers lmao it’d just be like [political commentary] but that’s warranted lbr

19: How do you handle heartbreak? Is it something that’s easy for you to get over, or something you struggle with?

lmao i think it is like By Definition not easy for anyone to get over / Not struggle with.........can’t say i’ve had Romantic Misadventures exactly but uh yeah it feels bad to feel bad but i like......wait it out???? idk lmao you can’t really just timeskip past.....Heartbreak Sucks For Everyone Cuz That’s Kind Of The Whole Thing

23: What do you want your future to be like?

pandemic-less, fascism-less........i can’t say i’ve ever been someone like “yea i Know what i want to do and have this whole plan set out how i’m gonna do it lol” i remember when i was like 4 or 5 or whatever being asked What Do You Want To Do When You Grow Up and i was like “shit idk.......i like dinosaurs so i guess paleontologist??” and it was as much a mystery going forward.........always and still mostly playing things by ear with a few vague “if / then” type ideas......aren’t we all though ig

29: Do you think zodiac signs can influence someone’s personality to an extent?

what do i know but i Don’t like or respect the recent years trend ppl being way into it like this isn’t [being really serious about hogwarts houses] or Earnest Myer Briggs Types energy that everyone’s bringing to it......like what are you getting out of trying to be this Prescriptive based on when ppl’s parents got into it. meanwhile i’ve been on the edge of my seat since someone tweeted about “when will we get the first astrology discrimination lawsuit” re: a story about ppl wanting a housemate with a certain sign for compatibility reasons. and like again if it Is like “yes there are time-of-year Personality Types for Objective Real” like. okay, still, what is this Approach that ppl have....doing for anyone.....

31: What does ‘self care’ look like for you?

not very fancy lol i’ll be like “damn i think i haven’t eaten today” and then do it......or be like hey here i’m gonna Do A Stretch or some shit. walk around. step outside if it’s nice. both true that Self Care has inherent limitations re: like we can’t just cancel out all the detriments to our wellbeing via Personal Choices and yet also we can’t Not look out for ourselves how we can......i’ll watch something that i Enjoy. or just knock out if it’s like “christ i need a mood reset” or i’m trying to timeskip through a headache. pet a cat. i like to try to be Appreciative of everyday ordinary shit......also messing around Making Stuff whether drawings or otherwise can be a good helpful use of time, i like talking to people who i like talking to, and other stunning stuff like that lol

37: Have you ever been surprised by someone staying in your life?

not really lol coz again with how i’m pretty slow to realize that someone is like, nonzero actively interested in interacting with me on a regular basis, and then once someone’s In My Life there’s no particular point where i go “whoa....You’re still here??”......ig sometimes there’s like, Friendly Acquaintances where it’d be Unsurprising if they just sort of dropped fully out of the orbit but they do not

41: How do you show you care?

hmm i sure like to do ppl favors / give them gifts / help them out w/ whatever, hang out / generally be Around them where like, doing [parallel tasks] works i.e. maybe we’re doing different things but in the same room.....just like to Talk and all and listen to ppl and Learn Things About Them, try to pick up stuff re: ways that ppl express like “hey to me it conveys Being Cared About when ppl do ___”........food/cooking is a love language......that thing where shit you’d be way too anxious to do on your own For Yourself is like, oh i’m absolutely gonna do it on behalf of someone i care about.......all this stuff is more like, Possible in person lmao rip. i Care you guys

43: Which of the seven deadly sins do you feel represents you the most?

who is your hellsona and what is their origin story (how they got condemned to hell).........if i’m irritable / argumentative am i wrathful? you could presumably someone saying yep it is inherently the one deadly sin of lust if you’re queer.......at any given time i’m passed out and dreaming about “fuck capitalism and the protestant work ethic” and that’s sloth i guess. and okay i went “who named an animal after a The Deadly Sin as if it’s like ‘wow fuck this animal for choosing not to zoom around as though they could and i apparently think that they should’ tf” and in looking it up i immediately learned the Sloth Fact that apparently their shits are insane and also the most dangerous thing they do?? like they poop only maybe once a week and All At Once so that a single dump might knock off a third of their total weight........and it’s pretty much the only time they leave the upper branches of trees, in that they crawl down to hold on to the trunk and take this monster shit and naturally they’re not great on the ground so Pooping is like the leading cause of death for sloths in the wild. and i think they ought to be named after that. 

47: What are you passionate about?

oh man [i am passionate a lot.mp3] lol.........always having a variety of Interestes which i like to talk about / potentially make things about.......decent amount of subjects i like to learn things about even if  i’m bad at like, actually learning things generally lmao, what’s Not losing focus on shit.......idk it’s not that hard for me to like go off about Whatever, got these jack of all trades interests / areas of Some knowledge, i’m opinionated and probably have something (extensive) to say about anything as just part of my charm lol, and just in general i can get Enthused / worked up about things..........also passionate about various [niche gay shit] things eternally. whoms among us isn’t

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Primes :)

oh tsym! an #Ally

Do you drink tea or coffee? How do you take it? 

i do! uhh with tea like, sweet tea + lemon or better yet Lemonade is great... i like green tea, and fruity teas like raspberry especially or the like, and i’ve had mint too and i think it’s great....i always like to sweeten it....with honey if there’s any. also i usually drink it hot b/c that’s just like, the easiest. iced sweet tea / lemon/ade is great but like, what a hassle waiting for it to get cold, right? 

re: coffee, i haven’t had nearly as much experience drinking it as with tea, so like......well hang on, i’d go to the Coffee On The Corner (now called something else which i forget) place a couple blocks from my college campus b/c of otherwise being lonely and being like “oh god can i be around other people for a while,” and i’d get mochas there, and sometimes add raspberry to that. usually i go for something like that, or once i had like, a lavender frappucino or something at the best place to get donuts in the world (sugar shack) and it kinda fucked. i’ve at least sampled iced coffee and thought it was great, i get what everyone’s on about. anyways i Usually just have like, plain hot coffee, though that’s not exactly a preference lmao.....and i sweeten it and add creamer because like, i love myself and like to enjoy things.

What was the last song you listened to?

i was listening to wrol performances most recently while washing dishes......i remember teenage dirtbag, That amphibian, and flesh & bone being among the ones i was listening to towards the end

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?

sorta, there’s this ostensibly-a-fox really soft like throw pillow guy that’s not even mine but i’ll lie against it sometimes

What’s your ideal number of blankets to sleep with?

i usually sleep with this one really solid blanket i got from target, or if it’s cold i’ll add the faux-down comforter i also got from target. s/o to the person who recommended its ikea equivalent that time i was sleeping in real cold temps and like “please recommend me blankets” b/c that one is Very insular and like, it’s always Enough when i add it to the other blanket when it’s too cold for just the one. cuz like, i guess ideally i’d like to sleep with as few as possible But i want to be warm enough. also, i’d probably enjoy a weighted blanket. i’ve never really had one but i like heavy blankets and am Pressure Friendly. and then plus there’s this thing i do ever since this one semester at college where i’ll lie something over the whole top half of my head while i sleep like to cover my eyes, and it’s weird trying to sleep without that ever now. rn i use a bathrobe. so that’s kind of another Ideal requirement ig??

What color are your eyes?

blue

Fears?

the idea of global catastrophic climate change literally haunts my dreams......when i think of “certain health issues that could happen” i am like guess i’d die..........i fear prison in that well i know i could endure it like, ha ha what else is new (some aspects would be new) but it’s the “being cut off from the outside world which is where everyone who knows me is” part where i’m like, well i’d really really rather not have to go through that.......i have some like not-quite-phobias which are sort of manageable if i really really have to deal with it, and also possibly have a long time to steel myself........though i guess i’m sort of nervous about heights Always. it’s yknow, like, uh, most of my Fears are more of “i really Dread this”. oh and i find some other stuff like, not quite “i have a phobia” but intensely perturbing. i do not like very large mechanical things, for example, that operate automatically. like very large engine-type stuff. possibly because it is a very large and loud moving object, or because a machine can kill you easily without knowing. maybe in a past life i was a child in an industrial society pre-child-labor-laws reform. hope not! not my fave way to go! also even though i like swimming, sometimes Thoughts About Pools make me nervous. flowave perturbs me, for example, b/c i can’t help thinking of how bad it would be to be in that water with all these moving mechanical parts generating large waves. also there’s some large like art installation that’s this large Eternal Circling Drain Into Vague Stygian Depths which disturbs me for similar reasons. anyways we’re getting kinda elaborate here but. oh!! same as prison basically but if i can’t be in touch with the outside world it’s like haha........aha....a.....

Want any piercings? Where?

at one point i was like “i kinda like fun earrings, maybe it’d be fun to be able to wear them” but lbr now im like ugh the whole getting a new piercing process is such a hassle and i would probably end up never / hardly ever wearing earrings anyhow, what’s the point. so i guess No

Do you have a best friend? How long have you been friends?

soph is my best friend u_u we started talking last november so, going on about eleven months. our Innovation within that time frame.....our minds........also can you believe soph Just got to see deh? that was a historic occasion and i hope everyone fully appreciates that

Do you believe in aliens?

you know what they say: the only two possibilities are that we are the only Life in existence or we are not, and either is extraordinary! :o but like really if this universe is one of infinite, limitless space, and/or there are parallel or alternate universes, then like...other life totally exists, since when you’re dealing with Infinity stars and planets and such, and there’s a nonzero chance that other planets could have developed life (which there is), that means that there Would be life on other planets. infinite planets, really. but it’s neat that when you’re dealing with the observable universe and the range of what we can estimate based on what we Know so far....there’s still a decent chance it really Could be just us rn. and the scale of Time and Space are so wild that it’s like, easily true that we might as well be functionally alone whether it’s because we’re too far apart in space or b/c our “time during which life exists” doesn’t overlap, much less the surely briefer time range in which life capable of communication exists...drake equation time.........but also like if it’s all “oh yeah contact’s been / will be made” i wouldn’t be shocked like wow thought that was impossible. life from other planets is just like, statistics and shit. and the scientifically-informed answer to that math is still “shruggg”....but why Should we be literally unique in all of existence. and if they exist or not has nothing to do with my belief either way so it’s not that important to me that i decide

Does it take you a long time to make decisions? 

pretty much lol i am very passive. though if i feel like i’m left to my own devices Truly? i can sort of be impulsive

What are you looking forward to in the distant future?

well i Could say season 5 of billions, since tbh “early-ish 2020″ counts as the distant future and it seems extremely likely it will give us more winston content, but you really can’t say you ever “look forward” to billions. it’s cursed and like, can give you brief and shining moments and some kind of neat elements, but like. it really overall brings Dread and Repulsion and Agony and etc and we’re in hell!!!!! but uhh beyond that i have nothing concrete lmfao rip

Do you prefer dogs or cats?

well i really like cats but i like dogs too

What’s your favorite cartoon? 

idk atla really did all That didn’t it

Do you have siblings? How many?

two! i’m in the middle

Have you memorized your phone number?

well every time i’ve had a phone number i’ve had it memorized lmao