#also just like noticing so many small issues with it and being like. welp don't have time to fix it now guess it's staying in lol

[lesbianpikachu]

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[shadow-kings-legacy]

"She says, "We've gotta hold on to what we've got It doesn't make a difference if we make it or not We've got each other and that's a lot For love we'll give it a shot." Alyssa the aasimar, Oath of Devotion Paladin, of the faith of Lathander, God of Dawn. (Known by the party as the captain, the mom friend, the himbo, will cut down anyone who touches her adopted kids.) Last post I gave you some post-campaign lore, so before I continue into the nooks and crannies of what's happening in the world as our heroes moved through it, I'd like to introduce them properly, and sprinkle in some of my personal thoughts about them (in other words, fangirl about how awesome they are).

H e r b a c k s t o r y Alyssa, the world, world, this is Alyssa. The gorgeous mom of the group, she forms strong bonds with everyone, always worrying about everyone's wellbeing before her own. She may not be the sharpest tool in the shed, but she makes it up with her shining hearth of gold. Always strives to better herself and be a proud paladin of her Lord Lathander. Not much is known about her past, she was born into a small village in the Sword Coast, where here holy aura was noticed pretty fast by the local church, who... Kidnapped took her in with her parents' blessing and raised her as a pretty doll to paraded around divine symbol for everyone to be proud of. Young Alyssa, while feeling blessed for the opportunity to serve Lathander so closely, strived for a more exciting life. Her local church gaslighted her assured her she would also receive fighting training to protect the village, and so the young aasimar waited. And waited. And waited some more for a promise that would never be accomplished. Fearing this would be her whole life, the young woman made a decision; she had to run away and make her own life, a life she wanted to live. Still wet behind the ears, Alyssa departed from her small village for a brighter future. Not long after she encountered the perfect quest to die a painful death start being the paladin she was born to become. Inquiring at the local tavern in this new city about companions to share the glory of slaying a beast who threatened the locals, she... Became a laughing stock. Nobody was taking that suicide mission for a reason. Nobody approached her, except for a curious red tiefling in the back, who saw this smokin' hot aasimar all for himself offered to keep her company in the quest, if only to keep her from dying (I mean, look at her, that'd be a huge waste of a beautiful woman). He introduced himself as Kradus, your local, devilshy handsome thief flirt player rogue. With the man at her side, Alyssa started the first of many adventures that would lead her to meet the party and meeting an unfortunate fate setting off a chain of events for our main plot.

P e r s o n a l n o t e s

Whew, quite the curious life our heroine has lead, huh? Don't worry, she survived the quest, mostly thanks to Kradus hauling ass to keep them both alive. Even earning herself the tittle of Kradus' girlfriend after some time together. The happy couple enjoyed simple happy times for a while, right before the mysterious disapearence of the tiefling by some silly kobolds. Which lead Alyssa into joining the original party for Lost Mines of Phandelver, as Gundren, one of the main NPCs of the book told her one of his brothers had some information on the location of her lost boyfriend. Being a paladin has lead Alyssa into behaving as lawfully as she can, being incredibly selfless about problems they encounter in the world and stressing the fuck out making sure everyone is healed and safe during combat. She's a very straighforward character, has some family issues (but really, my whole party has mommy or daddy issues, that's what makes a good adventurer apparently) but really just wants to end this whole mess with a happy ending with her ex? (more on that on another post) boyfriend and have a couple kids in a nice house. T̷o̷o̸ ̴b̷a̵d̵ ̴y̵o̴u̸ ̸m̶e̸s̴s̴e̸d̸ ̴w̶i̸t̵h̸ ̵t̷h̴e̴ ̷w̵r̸o̵n̸g̵ ̷l̸i̶c̶h̷ ̴l̶i̵t̸t̷l̷e̷ ̶a̶n̸g̸e̵l̷. But seriously, I love her, and her being the classic hero arquetype makes it easy to predict her behaviour in combat so I can balance things around her whole tankiness build. We've even had some moments where Lathander reached out to her with his holy light to assure her she was in the correct path. After the LMoP book I had the PCs go through some personal quests, and in her's she got dropped down to 0 HP, which lead her to roll a d100 in a injuries table, and loosing her right arm in the process. Thankfully by that point they had an artificer in the party and I allowed them to make a cool mechanical arm so she could keep on fighting. She doesn't have a low Int score, but her player is so unlucky with those kind of rolls we call her a himbo jokingly. She's also a very sweet, gentle person (out of combat anyway) who wants the world for her adopted children the party. Writing this entry has made me realize that, aside from a post to every PC and important NPC, I should also probably make one for each quest they've been through... 🤔 Welp, this outta be good. Stay tunned and beware of the shadows 💀 Alyssa and her art (except for the first illustration) belongs to Purpleish, check her out on Insta! ✨

[adultingautistic]

Heyyy! So, when I was a kid, I was able to do a lot of things - I was on the gifted list for english lessons and in a seperate class, I was p decent at math, and science was easy peasy. Now, I'm much older and heading into higher education,, but It seems my needs have changed. My sensory issues are a lot worse, but the thing that strikes me the most is how my needs for support have changed. I now need help reading questions so I don't miss out on important information, and I need extra- (1/2)

(2/2) time to process things in order to be able to answer things or give a coherent reply. Bombarding me with questions verbally causes me to go nonverbal. I have meltdowns a LOT. Is this a common occurance in autistic people? When I was small I didn't show as many traits, but as the world has changed around me, I've begun to show more traits, and been in need of far more support. Should I be worried? Does this happen a lot? How can I deal with it? Thank you for your time. -🦈

Ask Date: September 10th

Hi, are you me?  Did I secretly write this ask?  

Because you are describing my life exactly.

I was also very bright in gradeschool/highschool and flew through the lessons with one eye closed because they were so easy for me.  Forget needing extra help, I was giving it!  I tutored a whole bunch of my friends and helped other countless kids understand the assignments.

Then my first year of college, I failed out.  My grades for my first semester in college were F, D, F, I, and P. (Fail, Fail, Incomplete, and “Pass” which is code for “your grade was extremely low”). Basically, you can’t do worse.

Now I was also going through some incredible emotional trauma at the time involving my family that I won’t go into here...but had I been in high school at the time, I know my grades wouldn’t have suffered as much as they did.

So what happened?

This is only a theory, because I can only base this on my own experience as an autistic student.  But I think what happened was it was too much change, too fast, with a sudden lack of support that was once there.

So here’s the thing.  Autistics struggle in huge ways to learn social rules.  This makes it really hard for us to make friends, gets us bullied, gets us called “weird”, etc.  We need things explicitly spelled out for us, we need to be told what the rules are But school, as it is for a kid, is the MOST structured environment most of us will ever be in (the only thing I can think of that’s even more structured than school is the military).  And this enables autistics to thrive!

School is all about routine!  It’s about doing the same things and going the same places every day.  The rules are explicitly explained, and they are clear, and we can understand them and follow them!  Raise your hand if you want to speak!  Don’t talk during a test!  These rules are concrete and we can understand them, and follow them.

So then you spend 12 years learning the ins and outs of “School social”.  By the time you get to the end of high school, you’ve got it down.  You’ve spent your whole life at this and you’re pretty good at it.  You know what to expect, you know what to do.

And then it’s gone.

Boom.  Nothing.

College is nothing like grade school was.  Your day isn’t pre-determined for you by others, you determine your schedule.  If you forget a homework, no teacher is going to remind you the next day or ask you again.  You just get a 0, nobody says anything, and life goes on.  If you missed how the professor was informing students of what the assignments were, then well- you just don’t know what they are.  Nobody’s going to check up on you.  Nobody’s going to care that you’re failing.  The professor is not there to support you.

In fact, you suddenly have NO support, at ALL.  It’s hard to see when you’re IN gradeschool how much support you’re really getting, but it’s a lot.  Teachers guide you.  They explain things many times.  They bug you when you forgot an assignment.  They let you complete things late.  There is so much help that you’re used to, and it’s enough support that you’re able to actually use your brain for what it’s supposed to be used for - learning.

When I first got to college, I had a bunch of zeros for my grades, and I didn’t even know where they came from.  Apparently, the professors had been giving out assignments- but I missed that social cue, and I was unaware there were assignments.  And it was different in every class.  Some of them just quietly wrote it on the board, never said a word, and dear God you hoped you noticed it.  Some of them just sent an email.  If you didn’t know to read your email, welp.  Some of them just handed out the syllabus with due dates and that was that.

It was impossible for me.  My communication struggles suddenly hit me head-on like a brick to the face.  

On top of that, the precious, precious routine from grade school was gone.  Suddenly I was supposed to plan my day, and decide what to do with my time- when I had spent exactly 0 minutes learning how to do that or building those kinds of skills in gradeschool.  

This was beyond stressful.  And what happens when I’m stressed?  My ability to handle sensory input crashes.  Normally, I can handle a Bad Input or two for awhile, but if I’m already stressed, I can’t handle anything.  So that yucky smell coming from that person next to you?  What was before a little annoying is now “I have to leave the room” levels of intolerable.  

Forget trying to be social, or to communicate.  You mentioned being asked questions as sending you into near overload territory to the point that you go nonverbal- and this can absolutely happen if you’re stressed.  

Autistics struggle hugely with change.  Change is very, very difficult for us.  And going from high school to college is one of the biggest changes there is in a person’s life.  It’s a huge thing to handle.  It’s going to cause stress.  Which is going to lower your ability to process verbal questions, and all other sensory input.

So basically, yes, this is absolutely normal for an autistic person who is facing such a huge change.  When we are stressed, all our autistic traits “show more”.  That’s because we have less energy to mask.  We can’t compensate.  

But what you are doing is exactly the right thing.  You’re using the supports that are given to you, and bravo to you for doing that!  Rather than needlessly struggling, you’re making use of the accommodations that are available, so that you can still succeed!  This is wonderful, and excellent self-care.

It took you 12 years to learn how to do grade school correctly.  Learning how to do college is much harder and a huge change from that.  It’s like you’re starting the game over from level 1- all the skills, items, and experience you earned is gone, because it’s a totally new level and the rules are so very different.

You do not have to be worried about yourself.  It’s not really you that has changed, it’s your environment.  The support system of routine, familiarity, and consistency that you had relied on for all your life are now gone, which is making your autistic traits “show” more, but they were always there.  You were just compensating for them without realizing it.

Now you’re realizing you’re compensating for them, by using accommodations, but that’s okay.  That’s exactly what you SHOULD be doing.  The point isn’t what accommodations you needed- the point is to get the degree.  And once you get it, it will be just as valid and count for just as much as anyone else’s, and you will have earned it, and you deserve it. 

 You’re doing amazing and I’m super proud of you.  Keep going!

[iwaqchan-archive]

-author's note; i reaLly am super surprised how so many of you seem to like my denki headcanons, that i got like quite a few requests (okay it was like 2 but psshh) to make them for more characters!!

also i forgot to add:

gn!reader!!!

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(this is set when shinsou already joined the hero course)

getting together

• welp

• so, trying to get this guy to date you turned out to be more nerve-wrecking than any exercise Aizawa could come up with. shinsou said before, that he wasn't at UA to make friends (liar; hE has liKe 20 people that consider him a friend, even fuCking monoma), and especially not to get into a relationship. but you were determined to get him to at least notice you.

• and you tried every goddamn trick in the book. subtle flirting. bold, right in your face, flirting. giving him small presents. making him bento boxes, inviting him to class-outings, asking him to train with you. nOtHING WORKED. AbSolutely NoTHING.

• r i p to your patience, my friend

• little did you know though, that the only reason none of your advances were working, was because hitoshi shinsou is a devious little shit.

• all this time he took great joy in watching you make a complete and utter fool of yourself.

• but fun fact: he actually likes you too (imagine this part is said in like a low whispery voice). to be honest, he just wanted to see how far you would go. that's why he never said anything to you (what an ass)

• also he was quite intrigued. no one had ever put so much effort into getting to know him before. especially not in a romantic sense. for most of his life, people perceived him as a potential villain because of his quirk. but instead of being wary of him, you found him interesting and quite lovely, and that bamboozled him, a lot

• so he just decided to let you off the hook and tell you that he, in fact, recipocates your feelings and would like to go on a date with you

• first date: cat café (you can rip this headcanon out of my cold, dead hands)

finally dating

• as a boyfriend, he is awfully perceptive. if something is bothering you, be it family issues, school or anything, shinsou knows. and he will try his GoDDAMN hardest to make sure you are feeling better!!

• not only is he very observant, he's also unbelievably caring. to some, he might look uninterested most of the time. like, as if he really couldn't care less about things you had to say. but most miss the barely there smile he shoots you every so often, the one that he reserved only for you.

• date nights are best nights. even though you guys don't often go out, or do extravagant things, they are still wonderful every single time. he puts a lot of thought even into the most miniscule things. for example: the movies you watch, what food you'd eat together, etc.

• he tends to get jealous though, occassionally. it's not necessarily the posessive kind, rather a mix of insecurities and years of people perceiving him as someone evil, because of his quirk. this makes him shut off emotionally from time to time, but you always, without fail, know when something is up. and being the marvelous partner that you are, always help him overcome his worries and doubts.

kisses

• GENTLE, SO SOS SOSOSOOO GENTLE

• i am not kidding, his kisses are the softest things you'll ever feel in your life. he loves you so so so so much and wants you to know that, more than anything else. and his kisses are his way of showing you this

• he much prefers soft and tender kisses over heated kisses. heated kisses are for desperate times, or for lust filled nights. but soft pecks to the lips, a quick smooch to the cheek or forehead, thOse are the shit!!

• while he is practically a pro at smoochin' now, he wasn't at the beginning. your guys first kiss was all tongue and teeth, and just noT that good. neither of you really know what you were doing, especially not shinsou. but with time and practice (and a couple of wikihow articles) his kisses gradually became better and better.

• after every kiss, he makes those really cute faces like, dopey smile and his eyes are slightly scrunched, jusT idk man it's cute!!

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