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therealplaguedoctor · 4 months ago

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Never do a shoey.

Daniel Riccardo x Podcast.host!reader

Summary- classic case of he fell first and also fell harder. So y/n is a popular podcast host known for interviewing/having really famous people on her podcast. She was reached out to by mclarens media team to have their two drivers on the podcast. The episode did really well and mclaren invited Y/n to join them that weekend for the Miami Grand Prix! Where she meets a fan of hers that she just so happens to be a fan of... what will happen? Will they get together for just the podcast? Or will there be more?

Warnings- suggestive implications, mention of 'love' marks/bites, alcohol

Stupid warnings- reader is in Florida (surprising i know), author is a dumbass and pretends she knows shit(she doesnt), American spelling, I never spell check, also has refs to some of my twt moots 🫶

F/c- various people on pintrest

A/n- So I had this idea for a minute but I didn't know who to do it with so I had my moots on Twitter help me (hi guys!!) So thank them for the DR3 fic!! (Also i got lazy with texts dont mind it) And as always: sorry if it's ooc and I hate everything I write lol

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Y/n L/n a name that quickly rose to fame. She started to become famous on tiktok due to her 'face time' series. Talking about events in her life but acting as if the audience was a friend she was on face time with.

Y/n is known for her impressive conversation skills. She can hold and carry a conversation like it's breathing for her.

She had created a podcast as she rose to fame originally named 'facetime' which was scrapped after legal reasons. She changed the name to 'celeb seats' as she was able to secure an interview with YouTube and tiktok influencer 'Kallmekris'. She was able to continue this trend with having a celebrity on her podcast almost every episode-

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You closed the tab. They had just posted an article about you! You're a new type of famous now, the article was just a get to know you article. It was pretty accurate actually. It talked a bit how you rose to fame, then it talked about how you claimed that fame with your podcast 'celeb seats'.

The podcast you hosted was normally just you and one other guest, only a few times it was just you. Your guests were all celebrities, some more famous than others, some more liked than others.

But there is one main reason on why people enjoy your podcast: you're still a person. You don't act like your famous (whatever that means) and you prioritize your guest comfort over content. The main example is when you had YouTuber Markiplier on and had cut a large portion of it out. Him later talking on it saying something along the lines of 'she told me that she's going to cut that convo out. Cause I mentioned that I was iffy on people seeing it. She didn't ask she just said she was going to when I said I was iffy on it'. Him being a largely trusted person boosted your character and your popularity which widened your audience.

You were able to interview people from almost everywalk of life. Politics, actors, youtubers, streamers, tiktokers, voice actors, and even singers!

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Y.n: great to have you on @/billie.eilish !! This episode of the Celeb Seats Podcast will be posted next week on Wednesday!

User1 OMG GURL HOW

User2 WHY CANT IT BE WEDNESDAY ALREADY

User3 I still can't believe that she has Billie's number

User4 WHAT

User3 It's in episode 12 she mentions it, it was her first QnA episode with the q: who's the most famous person on your phone!

User4 IMMA GO REWATCH THAT HOW COULD I MISS IT

Billie.eilish: thank you for having me it was a blast

Y.n 🫶🫶🫶

User5 I love them sm

danielricciardo oooo can't wait!

User6 WHAT DANIEL HUH?

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You see the verified name pop up in your notifications. Clicking on the profile, daniel ricciardo, the name seems familiar, you then read a little: formula one driver. Huh, it was currently Saturday night. There was a race tomorrow you decided to give it a watch setting an alarm to wake you up for the race, you put down your phone and eventually drift off to sleep.

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Daniel arrived early the next day at the paddock signing a few things and walking in, with his classic smile on.

He stepped up in front of the camera as the truck drove around the track for the drivers parade.

"Hello Daniel Riccardo" the journalist greeted

"Hey" he smiled

"So today is a big race today" she said "your home race and all"

"Yeah, it's always exciting you know?" He chuckled waving to the crowd

"Of course" she smiled "well we actually only have a quick question for you today: I'm sure you've seen it but people are surprised you listen to the Celeb Seats Podcast. Care to add anything?"

"Oh yeah" he smiled "I've listen to that podcast I think since the first episode it's actually really entertaining. And I think Y/n is a great host and I'd love to be on it"

"Alright thank you Daniel" she said as he stepped off to the side. As Oscar was next to get interviewed

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Your alarmed blaried in your ear. Turning it off you sat up and made your way to your living room and turned on the TV turning it to the EPSN channel. As you started making some coffee.

You sat on the couch as the race started sipping your coffee. You had to google some terms after they were said causing you to miss some overtakes. As the race wrapped up you turned off the TV and quickly went to YouTube and searched: formula 1 explained. Adding a few videos to a watch later playlist.

You quickly made yourself some breakfast before making your way to your office and settling down to start editing a video as well as finish the next episode of the podcast.

Deciding to take a break from editing you check your business email. Deleting the spam emails as well as the ones that were definitely scams. Before you glanced over a familiar orange logo you saw earlier that day. You clicked on the email:

Hello Y/n L/n

We hope this email finds you well. We have seen you podcast called "Celeb Seats" and we would love it if you were able to host our two drivers: Lando Norris and Oscar Piastri. We know you're located out of Florida and we have a Grand Prix later this year (may 3-5) in Miami. We would love to be able to invite you actually!

Sincerely, the Mclaren media team.

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You quickly typed out your own email that basically amounted to:

I would love too be able to host them! Thank you for the invite I accept!

After a few messages back and forth you were able to set a date to record with enough time so you could edit and post it before the grand prix.

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You were adjusting the angle of one of the cameras as you heard a knock at the studio doors.

As you settled down after adjusting the mics in front of them.

"Okay," you said "Welcome to the Celeb Seats Podcast I'm your host Y/n. And today we are actually joined by two people" you motioned over to them "both formula one drivers for mclaren, Lando Norris" you motioned to him "and Oscar Piastri" you then motioned to him.

"Hey" Lando said

"Hello" Oscar smiled

"Okay so this is actually the first episode with two guests so let's see how it goes" you chuckled

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After calming down from laughing "okay okay we" Lando motioned between him and Oscar "have a question for you"

"Shoot" you smiled

"Well you did mention earlier that you watch a little bit of formula one" he said as you nodded "well who is your favorite driver?"

"That's tough" you said "well hmm, I'd want to say Logan cause he's you know he's American" you chuckled "but I'd have to go with the other aussie, Daniel Riccardo. Sorry Oscar" you chuckled

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Y.n: Guess what! I know I normally post as soon as the episode is recorded but I had to wait to post this 🫣. But I had both mclaren formula one drivers on my podcast! @/LandoNorris and @/OscarPiastri, thank you for joining me!! This episode will be out tomorrow before media day!!

User7 HOW

User8 SHE ALWAYS GETS EVERYONE ON

Mclaren Thank you for taking care of our boys 🙌

Y.n it's no problem!! They were entertaining to say the least!

User9 I LOVE HER SM

LandoNorris Thanks for having us!!

Y.n it was great to have yall on!!

OscarPiastri Best interviewer ever!!

Y.n you just wanna become my favorite driver?

OscarPiastri ...maybe

Y.n dw Osc you'll always be in front of Lando

LandoNorris WHY AM I CATCHING STRAYS

User10 I love the bickering

User11 they are all siblings your honor

User12 wait...

User12 WDYM HER FAV DRIVER SHE WATCHS F1???

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Daniel was happy about another podcast episode dropping he put it on and started his work out. He was taking a break when he almost choked on his water. He was your favorite driver.

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You were walking through the paddock making your way back to mclaren hospitality with Lando. You two walked side by side before Lando tapped your shoulder and said:

"Hey let me introduce you to some of the other drivers" Lando smiled innocently. There was nothing innocent about that smile.

"Hey Daniel" Lando waved to a man you recognized, Daniel Ricciardo, your favorite driver. Oh fuck you Lando you thought to yourself. Lando then motioned at you "This is Y/n L/n she's a guest for Mclaren this weekend" Daniel looks over at you, fuck he's kinda hot. "And y/n, this is Daniel-"

"-Riccardo yes I know Lando" you chuckled

"Wow I was just trying to be nice and introduce you two" he huffed, you just rolled your eyes and turned your attention to the tall Australian.

"Nice to meet you" you smiled "I don't know if you watch my podcast but I mentioned that you're my favorite driver"

He nodded quickly "yeah I'm actually a big fan of you podcast" he smiled "I've been watching it since episode 1"

"Wait that long?" You asked a bit shocked that he watches it

He smiled "yeah!" He said "I was actually listening to the most recent episode while working out and I almost choked on my water when you said I was your favorite" he said scratching the back of his head a little bit embarrassed

You laughed, he smiled.

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Media day by passed way to fast. You wished you could spend more time with Daniel but he had practice the following days so sadly you couldn't.

Sunday

The race had began. Each lap passed the next one faster than the last. Next thing you knew you were celebrating with his team in the garage. Lando had just won the Miami grand prix, his first race win.

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Y.n thank you for the invite mclaren 🙌. Can't belive I was there to celebrate this first win for @/LandoNorris congrats man, you deserved this!!

User13 ONE OF US ONE OF US

User14 NEW F1 INFLUENCER

Mclaren you were great company!! We'd love to have you again

Y.n stopp I'm blushing 🤭🤭

Mclaren 🧡🧡🧡

Y.n 💙💙💙

User15 mclaren admin and Y.n flirting was NOT on my 2024 bingo card

AlphaTauri You should visit our garage..

Y.n is that an invitation 🤭

AlphaTauri ...maybe 👀

User16 ARE WE GONNA IGNORE THE LAST PICTURE

Y.n yes

User16 OMG HIIIII

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Lando had invited you out. In Miami. After his first win. You should have known how wasted youd get, too say the least. You and a small group of his friends went club hoping. The night was fuzzy, but everyone in that group drank their weight in alcohol and then some....

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You woke up with a killer headache making you remember the highlights of last night: the dancing, the clubs, and the fucking alcohol.

The room was plastered in darkness which you thanked the blackout curtains you invested in. You went to get up but couldn't. You were held down by something around your waist. Or someone.

The arms that were wrapped around your waist were strong. You tried to escape them again, which just made them tight around you and the man next to you burry his face in your back.

You thanked God that you were clothed, thankfully in your own pants but the shirt was definitely not yours.

The man let out a groan as he moved, you froze before closing your eyes and pretending to sleep. The grip around your waist loosened as you feel the man move slightly. Based on the movement he was on his back. He began to move again sitting up, you felt his body heat leave which left you a little colder.

You moved slightly as being frozen there was a bit uncomfortable. This movement in turn caused him to freeze:

"Did I wake you?" A familiar voice asked you. No fucking way.

"No" you said softly as you shook your head sitting up.

As your eyes adjusted to the darkness and you looked the man in the eyes your suspicions were confirmed: Daniel fucking Riccardo.

"Well good morning I guess" you said, if there was even a little bit of light in the room it would show you being beet red.

"Mornin' " he muttered in response "well uh" he said "fuck, what do we do know?" He asked

Which just caused you to start laughing

"What? What did I say?"

"No, nothing" you said "just funny"

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You stood in your bathroom as you looked in the mirror. Daniel offered you to shower and get new clothes on first (mostly so he could get that shirt back). As you stare at yourself in the mirror hand tracing the love bites and love marks that covered your body. Damn. You thought to yourself.

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You awkwardly handed him his shirt after you exited the bathroom. He thanked you as he grabbed it and walked into the bathroom going to take a shower himself as he stilled smell of alcohol and the late night activities.

You walked into your kitchen not knowing what else to do you started making breakfast. It was pretty basic: toast, eggs, and some sausage.

Daniel exited the bathroom, his hair still a bit wet. He looked even hotter than before, how is that even possible. Shaking your head of those thoughts you slid a plate across the counter in front of him. You both ate in silence before he spoke up:

"Do you remember anything from last night?" He asked

You shook you head "I remember getting drunk but no I don't remember what your referring too" you said

"I don't either" he said softly munching on a peice of toast

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After a little bit and a extreme amount of awkwardness Daniel left. It was weird you house almost felt empty now that he was gone.

It had been a few hours since Daniel left before you got a text:

??- hey this is Daniel, I asked Lando for your number I hope that's not weird

Yn- No it's not,

Daniel- good lol

Daniel- so I just wanna talk about last night real quick....

Yn- let's just not mention it again like ever

Daniel- agreed.

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After that awkward first string of text messages you actually started talking to Daniel. It started off with just some comments on his racing or one of his posts soon you were texting him almost everyday. Text turned to calls, some calls turned to facetimes.

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"Hey Danny" you smiled as you answered the face time placing your phone back on the counter facing you as you cooked.

"Hey y/n" he said, "what are you making today?" He asked

"Well I'm making this stir fry-" you started "wait what time is it for you?" You asked him

"Uhhh doesn't matter" he said the screen to your phone was almost completely black. You could only see bits of his face.

"Daniel" you said in a warning tone

"It's, 1am" he said muffling himself as he talked

"Daniel-" you started. "You litterly have a race tomorrow. Go to sleep"

"But-"

"Nope you need to sleep before the race"

He huffed "fine." You heard a little bit of shuffling before a quiet "goodbye"

"Good night danny" you said before grabbing your phone and hanging up the face time.

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"AND LEWIS HAMILTON WINS THE BRITISH GRAND PRIX-"

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After the celebration you got up and texted Daniel:

Yn- tell yuki I said congrats on points!

Danny- I get no congrats... 🥺

Yn- maybe if you went to sleep earlier youd be in points and you'd get a congrats too

Danny- :(

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"Danny isn't it like past midnight over there or something?" You asked, you two were currently facetiming eachother again, while you worked on editing the next episode of your podcast.

"Yeah" he yawned "but I like talking to you" he said groggily

A notification popped up on your phone as soon as you looked over, "what the fuck?" You said

"Hmmm?" Danny asked

"Carlos just signed to Williams"

"What" he asked "he what? Williams" you heard some shuffling as he checked his phone looking through Twitter. "Damn" he chuckled "glad I was up to witness this with you"

"Youre just trying to get out of me scolding you" you chuckled

"...maybe" he smiled "well hey if I was over there I wouldn't have to stay up" he said sleepily

"You just want to be on the podcast huh?" You joked

"Maybe" he smiled "come on let me be on it"

You smiled "okay okay" you chuckled "I actually have recorded a bunch of episodes for over your summer break so, you can come over anytime"

"Really?" He asked hopefully

"Yes Danny" you said as you went back to editing. "Just schedule a flight and let me know how long you want to be here"

"What if I wanted to be there the rest of the summer break?" He asked

You freeze a bit in surprise but before he could say something you spoke "I wouldn't be apposed"

He smiled as he hummed softly. Soon you heard soft snores coming from your phone.

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You heard a knock at your door. You walked over and opened the door a large smile on your face. As you opened the door to: Daniel Riccardo.

"Hey Danny" you smiled letting him inside

"Hey" he smiled walking inside nodding a quick thank you.

"Here let me show ya to the guest room" you smiled shutting the door behind him

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BREAKING NEWS: DANIEL RICCARDO SPOTTED LEAVING AN AIRPORT IN MIAMI BEFORE HEADING OUTSIDE THE CITY

User17 HWAT WHERE IS HE GOING???

User18 it's probably a media thing guys

User19 WAIT ISNT Y/N BASED OUTSIDE MIAMI???

User20 PLEASE YOURE FEEDING MY DELUSIONS

User19 😭😭😭

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Had this guy on my podcast he said he is a famous f1 driver...I don't see it 🤔

But anyways- it was great having you on the podcast @/danielricciardo !! As always look out for these upcoming episodes!! (had to rearrange my posting schedule for this man 😒)

User21 I KNEW IT

User22 dieing. Dead.

danielricciardo thank you for hosting me!!

Y.n it was great having my fav f1 driver on!

LandoNorris :(

Y.n know your place, youre behind Osc

OscarPiastri :D

User23 SHE CALLS OSCAR OSC IM CRYING

Frankie THE DANIEL PICS THANK YOU YN

Shelbyrose Get back in the cage

Olivia kinky.

Nics 😰😰😰

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"Okay" you said adjusting the mic arm in front of you as you sat down. Clearing your throat you start:

"Welcome to the Celeb Seats Podcast I'm your host Y/n, and to day I am joined by: DANIEL RICCARDOOOOOOO" you smiled

"Y/nnnn L/nnnnnnn" he said back

You chuckled "it's great to finally have you on"

"Great to be here" he smiled "sad I can't say that I'm the first f1 driver on the pod"

"But you can definitely say your the favorite" you chuckled

"True" he smiled

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"Okay okay" you said as you breathed stomach hurting from laughing, you turned to the camera "Thank you for joining us for this episode of Celeb Seats! We'll see you later!"

You got up and stopped the recording on the cameras as well as the mics. "So what ya wanna do?" You asked Daniel as you packed up the camera

"Well I don't know what you have around here" he shrugged "you have anything in mind?" He asked

You smiled "You don't mine if we go on a bit on a trip before we get there right?" You asked

He shrugged "I think I'd live" he chuckled

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As you pulled into the small dirt parking lot Daniel looked at the tall trees that surround it.

"Welcome to Highlands Hammock" you said "we don't really have mountains or the like for hiking trails but we have these cypress boardwalks" you smiled as you both got out of the car.

You two slowly walked the boardwalk, you pointed out the different types of trees, some animals and other plants.

"I love cypress swamps" you smiled "they're so beautiful" you chuckled

Daniel who was right behind you whispered "yeah beautiful" as he looked at you

"Hmm what did ya say?" You asked turning to face him

"Oh nothing don't worry" he smiled

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You kinda forgot when you got here but you both ended up at a small park next to a lake. Sitting on a small bench as you watch the sun set across the lake and eating ice cream.

"This was nice" Daniel said

"Yeah" you smiled looking up at him

He looked back at you. You stare into eachothers eyes.

"I wouldn't mind spending all of summer break like this, with you" Danny said

"I wouldn't mind spending the rest of my life with you" you said

With that you leaned into eachother, lips touching you melted into the kiss. His lips were slightly rough but the kiss was gentle. He placed his hand on the side of your neck just under your jaw.

The kiss broke.

"God I've been wanting to do that for so long" he said

You chuckled "me too"

"So can I call you mine now?" he asked

"Yes you can, but I will never do a shoey" you said

Causing him to laugh before pulling you into another kiss.

You did in fact ended up doing a shoey. It was fucking disgusting. Never do a shoey.

Fin.

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#f1 fanfic #f1 imagine #formula one fanfiction #formula one x reader #lando norris #oscar piastri #daniel ricciardo x reader #daniel ricciardo #daniel ricciardo x you #daniel riccardo imagine

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sleepless-rain · 3 months ago

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Death Mark DLC - Amusement park of no return (Summary? Rambling? COMPLETED)

Spoilers and stuff under the cut. I am half translating/rambling... I have no Death Mark friends (I only started the game like 2 weeks ago) but I wanted more Mashita and Yashiki content so here I am......

Preface: this is more for my own referance but thought maybe people are interested about the DLC as there doesnt seem to be an English translation yet. WARNING I HAVE BASCIALLY SUMMURISED THE CHAPTER and this it all spoilers (+ my own thoughts scattered in) READ AT YOUR OWN RISK. Some parts I directly translate + some are just vague outlines of what happen.

Please dont quote anything as canon as there may be small mistranslations and lots of the commentry and stuff is skewed by my own perspective of the game. Also I have played the game in Japanese the whole time so im not familiar with some of the terms they use in the English game. So please take note of that as you're reading. Anyways enjoy.

The game prefaces that certain interactions/options can influence the outcome/ending you get, atm I am not sure how many endings there are or how they may be influenced (there seem to be lots of small conversational options you can make when you talk to someone, I am unsure whether these options influence the ending).

You play as Moe and you're with Tsukasa, and start in a big pinch, attacked by humongus flies. and it flash backs to how they got themsleves into this situation. with Moe and Tsukasa knocking at the Kyuujou mansion door in search of Yashiki. He seems to be out but the door is unlocked and she invites herself in. (similar to the red riding hood DLC there seem to be a lot more voiced lines)

While inside you hear a noise from the second floor and go up to investigate. You end up in Yashikis room but the lights arent working for some reason. Banshee suddenly appears and jumpscares the crap out of Moe, stating that hes looking after the place while Yashiki is gone (he also invited himself in, probably not really a request from Yashiki himself).

Moe had come to the Kyujou mansion in order to discuss a rumor that she had heard, it was about the " Amusement park of no return" (The Japanese name is Kaerazu no Yuuenchi. Kaerazu meaning 'no return' but the rumor also mention's a spirit called 'Kaerazu-sama' which may mean the title could be a double meaning, Kaerazu's Amusment park OR the amusement part of no return )

Banshee is all 'I'll hear you out in place of Yashiki!' and, despite being reluctant, Moe tells him anyway because he'll be a pain if she doesn't.

H amusment park was closed down and abandoned 5 years ago and became a place for the test of courge (going to scary/haunted places) and it was said that people went and never returned, so was dubbed "The amusement park of no return". A witness was said to have gone, and when appraoching the ferris wheel, heard a sound. He thought it might have just been the ferris wheel moving but when he looked up, he saw a body, hanging from one of the carriages. Parts of her face seemed like it was jumbled up, melted even, and she had burn-like marks all over her body. The guy left out of fear and eventually forgot about the place, only to re-enter the amusment park again and never coming back out. This was said to be caused by 'Kaerazu-sama'.

Despite not being able to speak with Yashiki, Moe makes up her mind to go to the amusement park, she wants this to be her big scoop!

Tsukasa, out of concern, goes with Moe and they head to the amusement park by bus (this part I thought was kind of nonsense because why is a bus running so late at night? and why would a bus driver be okay with seeing two kids get off in the middle of nowhere without being suspicious or concerned about it????anyway). They enter the park and follow the signs and to head towards the ferris wheel.

Along the way Moe sees a tori gate (gates that lead up to a shinto shrine). Looking at it, it doesnt seem to be an attraction/built as an attraction and has been there for a long time. If you attempt to go in Tsukasa interjects, saying that thats not the way to the ferris wheel.

To get to the ferris wheel they pass a tea cup ride, after searching around they come across a tool box in the ticket booth. It's encased in some sort of slime, so Moe doesnt want to touch it. They move along and head to the Ferris wheel. Nothing seems out of the ordinary, however the carriage for the ferris wheel is chained shut.

Moe thinks that maybe the tool box from earlier might have something to help. She goes back find the box and despite the slimy coating, she pulls it open. Inside the toolbox is a tonne of live slugs, squirming around but Moe swallows her fear and manages to pull out a pair of pliers and some duct tape. She notes that because the slugs are still alive, they must have been put in there quite recently.

They head back to the ferris wheel, open the door and climb into the carriage to investigate. Inside, they find a box of old sakuma drops (a tinned, hard candy) and a sheet of frog stickers of the amusement park's frog mascot.

Suddenly the carriage door closes and the ferris wheel starts moving, theres nothing they can do to get off. As theyre up high, a loud thud is heard and the body of a woman hits the side of carraige, suspended upside down, her face melted like the rumor. Along side that a large swarm of gigantic flies begin to infiltrate the carraige. Moe gets rid of them by eating the sakuma drops that have a scent which repels bugs and (strangely) wards off more flies by sticking the frog stickers by a hole in the carraige window. Once everything calms down the flies and body from earlier dissapears.

Crisis averted, the ferris wheel has made a full rotation and they manage to leave safely. Moe and Tsukasa begin to head home and they pass the tori gate once again, but Moe spots a figure beyond gates, and gets a strange feeling. The figure says very clearly 'Wa...ta...na..be... '. Out of fear she runs out to the exit of the amusement park where Tsukasa was waiting for her.

Moe drops Tsukasa home and gets home herself (she gives context about her being from a big family with a lot of siblings and because her family arent really close, she comes and goes as she pleases).

Moe wants to go back to the amusement park because the figure there clearly said her name, along with being curious about the rumors... but shes too scared to go alone. She also cant put Tsukasa in any more danger. So she decides to ask someone else, and the because Yashiki isnt here, the first person she thinks of is... Here you can make an option and pick someone. But as I am here for my Yashiki and Mashita content I automatically picked Mashita.

Moe heads over to Mashitas agency/office which is located underground. The door is unlocked so she again, invites herself in. There she meets Sho. Sho said that hes helping out and seems like he has been aiming to be Mashita's sidekick, however has been turned down and instead cleans up the place once a week. Moe asks Sho where Mashita is but seems like Mashita and Yashiki headed out a week or so ago on a case.

(I immediately eye zoomed at Mashitas BRANDY COLLECTION this man truely is just an alcoholic sad man. Moe thinks it a bit unprofessional to have all the expensive brandy there but Sho mentions that its Mashita's office so he can have whatever he wants there, and seems like he drinks it quite often.

Also interesting to note that Sho calls Mashita 'danna' which is like boss, which I think is extremely cute)

Moe has a rummage through the office to see if she can figure out where Mashita has gone off to and searchs through the filing cabinet where a file labelled 'H amusement park' catches her eye.

She flips through and it seems like 2 weeks ago a company wanted to reopen H amusement park but the strange rumors impeded this and they wanted Mashita to look into it.

The files contained the rumors she knew about but she spots some new information.

Before H amusement park was built, there was a shrine in its place during the meji era. But 30 years ago H amusement park was built there and the shrine was demolished, the tori gate is left from that shrine. The angered god of the shrine was said have given birth to Kaerazu-sama.

(You can inspect different parts of the office and you get tidbits like Mashita doesnt watch TV (according to Sho) and Moe is dissapointed because she wanted to see the contrast between his serious demanor and him being into watching animal documentaries or variety shows.

Theres also a clothing rack with suits/shirts but theres one that catches Moes attention, a bright red dress shirt. (which I frankly think he uses to court Yashiki (maybe))

On his desk are lots of ciggarette boxes and papers and theres a drawer labeled in bright red pen 'DONT TOUCH' Moe opens it anyway (because she reasons that the message is Sho, not her) and theres a loud alarm that blares. Here you get a few options but I chose to make Moe destroy it.

She decides to look inside and theres a few things she can chose to look at.

Old photo

paper bag

black device

Old photo: It shows Mashita and another man. The date shows that its from 5 years ago. Mashita is wearing his police uniform, so Moe concludes it was when he was working on Police box duty (In Japan, a police box is like a small police station scattered throughout neighborhoods and do patrols/look into crime, help citizens etc) as detectives wear casual wear. But what surprised Moe was that Mashita was smiling in the photo.

Black device: A square device thatg fits neatly into the hand, with two metal prongs protruding from the end. Moe figures that its a stun gun. She decides to keep it, as it was light and felt like it would come in handy for self protection, even if it might not work on spirits.

Paper bag: A normal brown paper bag, but something is inside. Moe reaches inside and its an object about the size of her hand made of metal and she breaks out in a sweat. She figures its and gun and pretends that she didnt see it.

It seems like, according to the files, Yashiki and Mashita had gone off to H amusement park in order to invesitigate as per the client's request. Moe states that she is going back to the amusement park to find Mshita and Yashiki and Sho agrees to come along. Stating that if the two are in trouble, Sho would be able to pay the two back for the trouble he caused during the Red Riding Hood incident.

(I think the two of these are really cute, the way they speak to each other is quite casual and friendly? I dont think theyve interacted much before in the previous chapters so its sort of refeshing in the way Moe teases Sho, and calls him Sho-kun???)

The two head to the amusement park. It looks the same as before and Moe approaches the tori gates from earlier and tells Sho about what she saw. Sho looks a bit scared and asks "Did he look a bit like a slug?" (here you have options to respond, I picked, "it was too dark so I couldn't really tell").

It seems like there is another rumor at H amusement park about 'the slug man'.　Apparently he had heard it from one of his old delinquent friends.

A group of them were being silly around the rollercoasters. They were all pretty hyped up and were scared at all of the rumor of Kaerazu-sama. Just as they were about to finish up one of the guys who were a little drunk jumped into one of the roller coaster seats and for some reason it was soaking wet, not that he cared because he was drunk. He was there for a while and when he sobered up he tried to stand up, but he couldnt because the safety bar has come down. Despite there being no electricity, the rollercoaster set off and shot into the darkness. After a while the rollercoaster returned and when they took a closer look, the guys head had turned into a massive slug. His friends all left him, scared, and the guy never came back from the amusement park. It was said that it was Kaerazu-sama's curse.

Moe decides that she wants to check out the rollercoaster for clues and also head back to the ferris wheel to look over things again.

Arriving at the roller coaster docking bay (I dont even know the english word for this, the area where you get onto the roller coaster). the two look around in search for clues. It seems like the safety bar for the roller coaster has been lowered, so there is no way to sit in the seats. Moe feels a bit relieved. Looking around some more they find a spade and some weed killer.

Moe and Sho talk a little about whether Sho is the kind of guy to be scared on roller coasters and he mentions that besides ghosts, hes not really phased by anything. Moe remembers that Sho rides a motorcyle and Sho tells her that he rode it around the T mountains and dreams of having 750cc motorcycle and worked part time at Izakayas to save up for one.

After they head over to the ferris wheel again, but Moe notices someone sitting in the tea cup ride. They run over and find a corpse, slugs writhing out from the nose, mouth and eyes. From the corpse's apperance its seems like the delinquent from the Slug man rumor. Sho is quite calm from all of this and examines the body closely, stating the slugs are quite abnormal.

Sho picks something up from beside the body, its a coat. Sho recognises the familar colour of it and says that it belongs to Mashita, inside the pocket they find a box of cigarettes and a lighter which further confirms that Mashita was here. The two continue on.

(After some back and forth youre able to use the shovel to open a counter near the entrance to grab a large flask which you then fill with some road salt.)

Returning to the roler coaster docking area Moe notices that something is different. The safety bar on the roller coaster is now raised. Making it possible to sit into the seats. Moe, thinking about how Yashiki solved mysteries, she decides to sit down into the seat. Sho, frustrated, sits down next to her.

The two sit down and nothing happens. Just as Moe tries to start conversation to fill in the awkward silence the safety bar swings down. Moe begins to panic and she screams at Sho to help them. As Sho is thrashing about trying to lift the unmoving bar, Moe notices something. A figure moving twards them. It's the slug man.

Stuck in the seat, the two panic, they dont know what to do. Sho says hes going to beat the shit out of the guy. (I find it cute that Sho says that 'A man who cant protect a girl is pathetic' i find it very endearing). Moe wracks her brain for a way to defend themselves and she pulls out the stun gun to ward off the Slug Man.

The Slug Man suddenly speaks "Wa...ta..na..be.." it calls Moe's name again. The slug man wails for a moment and then dissapears into the darkness. It seems like it's left. At the same time the safety bar raises and Moe and Sho breath a sigh of relief.

But suddenly the Slug Man reappears before them, Sho yelling that they're going to end up as Slug people. But looking closely at the Slug Man's face Moe notices that it looks familiar. It's Mashita.

Moe thinks that if it really is Mashita, there should be some way to remind him of his true self. Moe takes out Mashita lighter and lights it, and after looking at the flame, the Slug Man falls over onto the seats screaming. The two take the chanse to escape, not looking back.

Sho suggests that they retreat for now and get someone like Yasuoka to handle it as theres nothing they can do. Moe agrees that it would be the right option to leave but... despite the words being spoken by the Slug Man might have been some kind of coincidence, Moe heard them as a plea for help.

The Slug Man is appraching and Moe decides that she want to save Mashita, first she needs something to help calm the slug down. She uses the taser once on it and stops moving. Now she needed to get rid of the slugs that were attached to Mashita's body. Slugs were weak to salt and with the road salt they had gather from earlier, the slugs dissapear in a puff of smoke.

Mashita collapses to the ground and doesn't move. It seems like his concious, but there is no life in his eyes, he isnt responding. Sho remembers that Moe had a phone and directs her to call Daimon for help. Moe takes out her phone and noitces that it has no reception. From memory, the entrance of the park had reception so Moe leaves to make the call while Sho looks after Mashita.

Moe, at the entrance of the park calls, praying under her breath before Daimon picks up. She tells him that they need help and that Mashita isnt waking up. Daimon sends an ambulence to H amusement park and would meet them there.

Moe runs back to where Moe and Sho are to update them but Sho is nowhere to be seen. Only Mashita is left, where he had collapsed earlier.

Moe can sense someone watching her as she calls out for Sho.

"Whos there!?"

From the tori gate comes strong,rotting smell and a voice "I won't let you escape either."

Help arrives and Mashita is loaded into the ambulence. And before Moe can tell them about Sho she is ushered into Daimon's car. Moe tells everything to Daimon while hes driving and he listens patiently.

Moe waits at the entrance of the hospital and Daimon, after speaking to his coworker comes over. It seems that Mashitas vitals are normal however he's not responding to anything.

He thanks Moe for saving Mashita but however sternly, but kindly, scolds Moe for dragging Sho into this and that it was okay to be curious but she should be old enough to be able to control her own feelings. And lastly he says that the rest should be left to an adult.

Moe replies that she understands and allows Daimon to drive her home.

That night, plagued by the thoughts of the case and Kaerazu-sama, Moe has a nightmare about being surrounded by Slug People and stripped naked and covered in slugs (WEIRD OUT OF PLACE MOE IN HER UNDERWEAR CG BEWARE). While she is helpless on the ground she is approached by an enormous figure, and slowly it approaches...to eat her.

Moe wakes up in a cold sweat and figures that this might be a message from Kaerazu-sama, a vision and wanting to talk about the dream and Kaerazu-sama, Moe finds herself once again at the Kyuujo Manor despite knowing that Yashiki isnt there.

As she approaches the door, out pops Banshee again. Upon seing Moe's troubled face and states that he cant leave a youngster looking so down and hands her a bag with some food inside. He sais that its hard to have energy on an empty stomach and leaves.

Inside the bag is a chocolate cornet and a nashi pear. It seems like something Eita had left behind.

Alongside the food it seems like there was a note inside. Moe examines it and iut seems to b be a page about "The Gama princess mound".

On it it mentions the shrine that was built in order to enshrine the god of the skies. Publically it was a Tenmangu shrine, however it was actually enshrined with a god from A mountain (the place that H amusement park was built upon). Its divine body was a mound that created in the Sengoku era called "Princess Gamamound". As the name suggested, it was a mound enshrining "Princess Gama". (a 'divine body' is an object of worship that is said to contain a diety or a god)

It seemed that Princess Gama was a goddess of frogs. Offerings of rice and vegetables were given for divine protection. However there were cases of people that went into the mountains being spirited away and never returning. With only very few people knowing that it wasnt Tenmangu, but Princess Gama that was enshrined there.

On the document were also some notes written by Yashiki.

Before H Amusent park was built, proper proceedures were followed in order to move the Tenmangu so it was unlikely to have borne any grudges. But what about the Princess Gama mound? What if there was no one left that knew about it? Perhaps the mound was destroyed during the construction of the amusement park.

After finding this note Moe's passion to solve the case is reignited and she figures that she still needed help from Daimon, and heads to the hospital he works at to ask for his help.

(Here you can look around Daimons office and it gives you a few crumbs about Daimon. He has record collection along with a player, with many of the records being western music.

Moe also mentions that Daimon used to be part of a band. It's also mentioned that Daimon is a surgeon.

Theres a memo on Daimons desk reading "Yasuoka away, call again tonight".)

Daimon appears and says that he thought he had made himself clear the night before.

But Moe is persistent, saying that she knows the most about the case and wants to help Yashiki. But Daimon also stands his ground.

(From the dialogue you can tell that Daimon is worried about Moe's safety and pretty set on not wanting children involved in such a terrible case... Daimon O<-< )

Eventually Moe brings up the nightmare about Kaerazu-sama. She believes that it wasn't just a nightmare, but Kaerazu-sama's grudge and that she might be cursed. And that if thats the case, she cant run away from it, if she sits around doing nothing she might possible die.

Daimon reluctantly allows Moe to come with him, as he believes that she shouldnt leave her life in other people's hands and that he would need Moe's help in saving Yashiki and Sho.

Moe then tells Daimon about the note she found about A mountain and Daimon hypothsises that Kaerazu-sama might just be Princess Gama and Moe agrees.

Daimon talks himself through about doing more research in regards to Princess Gama , but concludes that theres no time left. And decides to do the investiagtion on site (like Yashiki).

The two arrive at the gates of the amusement park once again. As they approach the tori gates theres a figure just beyond it. Moe thought that it was the Slug Man but after taking a closer look it look to be Yashiki. The figure dissapears into the darkness running towards the clearing beyond the tori gates. The two walk into the clearing and Daimon pauses.

He saids that if the shrine were still here, the area they were standing on would have been where the divine body would have been.

"So Princess Gama mound would have been here?"

"Yes, maybe."

Moe's sixth sense tingles and something is telling her this place was bad news.

(You are now able to look around the field and investigate (also i think there was a jump scare for this one) after investigating everything Mope noitces a large shadow in the distance)

Moe again, has a bad feeling, the shaow is gigantic and fills up the background and the two fall unconcious, waking up in what seems to be the the same clearing but the sky is purple and a thick fog lingers about, just like the nightmare Moe had had earlier.

Daimon says the place looks like the aferlife, the land of the dead and Moe panics, "Does that mean we're dead?"

Daimon replies saying that he doesnt think theyre dead, it just happened to sort of fit the situation. But regardless the place was similar to H amusement park and this must be some sort of spiritual domain that is linked with the park.

Moe decides to attempt to leave and runs towards the tori gate, only to find herself in the field again after passing through it. Daimon hypothesises that the facts of this world work differently to that of their own.

As theyre conversing about the idea that this world is fairly unpredictable, they are suddenly ambushed by hoards of Slug Men. As it happens, Daimon continues to analyse the situation, saying that like Mashita, anyone who has been spirited away to this place must have had their bodies transmformed by the curse. Moe is pancing, theres no time for this!!!

Following Daimons earlier observations, Moe makes a dash in the direction opposite the tori, dodging Slug Men with the help of the left over frog stickers, they manage to escape and end up at the base of the ferris wheel. From the ferris wheel hanges the corpses of people that had been spirited into this domain, their bodies and faces disfigured. Daimon excuses himself to go and calmly examine the bodies before returning.

Moe explains to Daimon what happaned last time her and Tsukasa had entered and Daimon ponders, why flys and slugs? Moe takes a guess that it's because those two insects are food for frogs and if Princess Gama, aka Kaerazu-sama is a frog, then it may be related. Daimon agrees, saying that the frog stickers prove that point.

"Then what about the burns and melted face parts?"

Daimon explains his own observations, that the burns are chemical ones, however the clothing on each corpse remains intact. Meaning that it was some kind of acid that may have caused this and it is possible that Kaerazu-sama had attempted to eat these people. However after being partially digested, they were thrown back up.

Moe continued with her questioning, "Then why hang the corpses up on the ferris wheel?"

Daimon suggests that there is more likely a psychological explination rather than a biological one. Moe takes another stab, "As a warning?"

Daimon again agrees with her, Kaerazu-sama would see this place as her territory, she wouldn't be happy with people loitering about. He also aknowledges that these are just theories.

They keep looking around Daimon says that its best to check the carraige as well and so reluctantly Moe complies and they enter the ferris wheel carriage.

Inside nothing is really out of the ordinary, however Moe spots s small stack papers on the seat, the papers titled with "H city in the Sengoku period". Moe wonders why theres a historical paper here but decides to give it a read.

The first page was the same as the document she had read about A yama and the Gama princess mound, which leads Moe to conclide that this might belong to Yashiki, thus prompting her to read on.

At the end of the Sengoku period Unable to endure the attack of Totoyomi Hideyoshi's army, the northern part of H city castle had fallen. Even though H castle was the more well known of them, both S mountain castle and Y moon castle couldnt escape their fate of being destroyed. But what was interesting about those two castle were the tradgedy of the two yong princesses. S mountain castle's princess was called Chiyo. She was prepared to die in her bed however was made to escape the castle by her parents. Thus she ran into the mountains. But her where abouts after this are unknown. It was rumored that she committed suicide with her retainer in the mountains. On the other hand the princess of Y moon castle was called Kiku. Before the castle fell she was made to escape the castle. Rumors say that as she was leaving, she was betrayed by her retainer and abused thorughly before being discarded in the mountains. Here whereabouts are still unknown however it would have been difficult for two princesses both brought up sheltered from the world to survive long in the woods.

On it written was the tragedy of two princesses. However the story itself seemed to have no baring on the Amountrain, the Tenmangu or the Gama princess mound. Moe wondered why Yashiki had kept this peice.

"But perhaps" Moe spoke aloud and Daimon finished her sentence, "Yashiki may have found a clue that tied A mountain and the two princesses together."

It did seem like case, however the two didnt know what the relationship of these things were, making it difficult to figure out the identity of the Spirit.

In order to clear the grudge of the spirit they needed to figure out the Spirit's identity. and as Moe begins to spiral the carriage door to the ferris wheel closes on it own once again.

As she looks around she feels a presence, similar to the presence she felt near the toori gates on her first visit. As she wonders where the spirit is watching from a large face appears at the carraige of the window. Kaerazu-sama reaches in a grabs them, throwing them out.

Moe hits the ground and looks around, finding themselves in the clearing where they had found themseleves in earlier, strangely enough neither of them were injured despite falling from such a height.

As Daimon and Moe discuss why Kaerazu-sama would have thrown them here, Daimon's face freezes, looking at something large behind Moe.

"I won't let you leave"

Moe slowly turns around the see Kaerazu-sama and her blood runs cold, she cant stop shaking.

"I hunger..." (this is said in an old fashioned way, which is not modern japanese, Daimon has to interrupt to tell Moe that, amazing comedic timing. )

Moe, fearing that she'll be eaten by the gigantic spirit takes the pears she got earlier and holds them out to Kaerazu-sama.

"F r u i t"

A tongue reaches out of Kaerazu-sama's gaping mouth, snatching up the pear. Moe watches as Kaera-sama reacts positively, and it seems like it enjoyed the offering.

"Who do you respect?"

Moe hesitates, interpreting the question as which god she worships. and answers with 'Princess Gama'.

"What is my name?" (again, here Kaerazu uses older Japanese words which is deciphered by Daimon)

Moe panics, theres no way she would know the God's actual name... unless... "Your name is Kiku." (she deducts this by the way that Kaerazu-sama refers to themselevs is using the pronoun "Warawa" generally speaking used by nobel)

"Correct.

I am Kiku, Princess Gama

Human, forget not my name.

Do not forget to show

you heart of respect"

And with that Kaerazu-sama dissapeared into the wind.

And as Moe sighs a breath of relief, a searing migrain hits her and she can feel her concious slipping.

When they wake up they find themseleves back in the real world. Daimon comments that he is impressed that Moe was able to deduct that Kiku was the identity of the spirit. Daimon mentions that it could have been Chiyo or Kiku that was the spirit but the nature of how they passed away was very different. Thise without grudges or regrets were less likely to become a spirit and thus Kiku was the more likely candidate.

Moe wonders whether Kaerazu-sama is gone, but Daimon, being rational, says spirits are not something that humans have the power to control. However she is still curious as to why the spirit let them go.

She recall's Kaerazu-sama mentioning the 'heart of respect', and realising that earlier she had picked up some rubbish from the area and left a wilting boquet of flowers by the tree, which was most likely an offering from someone who still remembered the Princess Gama mound existed.

As the two head out of the park they find Yashiki and Sho unconcious on the ground, however they were breathing and they seemed unharmed which was further confirmed by Daisho. Just in case , they called an ambulance and the two were taken to the hospital.

Three days later.

After submitting her report on the incident to the editorial, she went to visit Yashiki, who was discharged earlier, at the mansion. As usual Moe invites herself into the unlocked mansion. While chatting to Yashiki Mashita appears, his usual rude self.

"I heard you went and ransaked my office."

Moe feels a bit nostalgic hearing Mashita's crude way of speaking and shes glad that everyone is safe.

Yashiki interjects, saying that it was their fault that they had gotten themsleves into such a situation.

Mashita stops and turns to Moe, who starts feeling sort of nervous... whats happening?

"Sorry for the trouble. You did well."

Mashita was just thanking her.

"I'll look past the crime that you committed using a stungun on me."

Moe was surpised that Mashita remember that.

Yashiki takes his turn to thank Moe as well and mentoned that he was surprised that Moe was able to deduct the relationship between the Princess Gama mound and Princess Kiku.

Yashiki continues on to explain why Kiku was enshrined, along with information that wasnt included in the documents.

He had spoken to the elderly people living in the area and figured something out. As the documents had recorded Kiku was abandoned by her retainers and was left to wander A mountain. There was no way that a girl that had been sheltered all her life would be able to survive the harsh wilderness. And so she starved and died.

About three months later, hunters discovered her body and strangely enough her body was surounded by countless frogs, as if they were protecting her. The villagers were shocked by this and thought that she was a messenger from god, aspeople back then were extremely spiritual belivers.

And so this is how the Gama princess mound came to be and was worshipped as a god. To a god, a source of power for them is people's worship. But on the other hand worship can lead to the birth of a god and with the hundred do twohundre years of worship, the Princess Gama was bestowed with the status of a god.

The soil around A mountain became fertile and this was attributed to Princess Gama. But this came to an end as time proceeded, the land was no longer able to produce harvests and naturally the god of the mountains was forgotten. If she were still Princess Kiku all she could have done was weep. But now she was Princess Gama and with her anger, she became Kaerazu-sama.

Yashiki explained that Moe was able to quell Kaerazu-samas anger by showing her worship and that the bond between humans and her had not been forgotten. Praising Moe for her efforts.

Mashita interjects, stating that Yashiki shouldnt be praising Moe so much.

And so the case of "The amusement park of no return" closed. and Moe reflects on this, proud of her efforts in following the case until the end. But she did wonder, was it really all over?

(the game ends)

General thoughts:

Thank you for reading until the end! There are some parts I directly translated and a few parts where I summurised the dialogue and honestly I do hope the english version comes out so that everyone can play! There were definitely a lot more voiced lines and drawings in this DLC compared to the first game. It was nice to see things from a different character's perspective as well (ALSO if youre a jumpscare prone person... I highly reccomend you brace yourself there are so many cheap scares). Though I do feel a bit cheated since the promotional art has Yashiki and Mashita, but maybe?? they might do an 'other side' POV type thing? (wishful thinking). But I do really apprecite seeing all the characters interact a little bit more!

I have finally gotten my hands on NG and maybe I will translate more DM stuff if they ever decide to release more! I have also NOT proofread anything, so if youre really bothered by typos etc you can probably DM me and if I have time I'll fix it up.

#Death Mark #Spirit Hunter #kazuo yashiki #mashita satoru #Watanabe Moe #Tsukasa yoshida

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bellthechick · 2 years ago

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Im done with Hass *sorry Haas and that joke of a principal Steiner

The episode with Haas/Mick was such a joke.

From editing to haas and günthers bullshits. Like sorry but im sick of günther, he is not funny anymore. He is just like that old weird uncle that should stay away.

Until a certain point i could understand why they couldnt carry on with Mick, really he had some issues and was causing a lot of damage. However the second that phone call happened and günther said „ you cant buy talent“ i was like what the hell is wrong with you?! Also you can not talk about shit like this when you were the one who sold a SEAT to a russian guy like its a movie ticket. You are standing today and have your sponsors because of that KID that cant buy talent. He brought in your german sponsors you were about to go down??!!! Oh and i dont know if its editing cause we have seen this type of thing before but if its true that mechanic saying what a waste of time in that race for mick he can fck off as well that is such a shitty thing to say, he is YOUR driver, he is stressed and anxious be a good mechanic or whatever you are and help him adjust.

One last thing is that netflix did mick so dirty. The name of the episode is so insulting. People need to understand he is not his father he has his own path, and that is so obvi from his racing style to his temper he is much more calm and has a different way of going at things. It doesnt mean its a bad thing but comparing them is not fair and if michael could he would have said it as well.

In that particular scene where max overtook mick i have no words anymore like this editing is such a bullsh*t. Max overtook half of the grid 80% of the time but the way they made it so dramatic and so shocking which i think they did that because of the footage they showed of Michael and jo and that makes it much worst. You cant compare RB and Haas so why would you do that?!

Also here is the azarbaijan race results see it for yourself how stupid that editing was

no words anymore…

except sending lots of love to Maxy, Seb and KMag for supporting Mick at least we got some people on there that stood on Micks side.

#f1 #dts #dts s5 #haas #fuck haas #mick schumacher #guenther steiner #formula 1 #max verstappen #kevin magnussen #sebastian vettel

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landinoandco · 3 years ago

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Hey could you do one with max verstappen, where the reader a fight about him not helping around the house (witch he doesnt do because he is just tired from working hard but the reader dont know) so they yell at max and he suddenly walks away but then they find him crying in bed, because hes overworked and feels like hes never gonna be good enough at being a driver and the readers boyfriend. And feels like he can only dissapoint the reader, his dad and cristian. But the reader comforts him. Tnx

Because I'm not good enough...

Max Verstappen x Reader

Warnings: angsty

Word count: 2 k

Requests are open :)

You were sat at the dining room table, staring out at the empty seat in front of you. Your arms crossed across your chest and your lip in between your teeth. You had been sat there for an hour - in the grand scheme of things an hour didn’t seem like such a long time but it was his final warning and an hour was just long enough to allow for your anger to boil over.

Dinner was in the fridge - the same dinner you had cooked an hour ago, your phone lay screen up on the table - the same phone you used to call Max two hours and a half hours ago, he told you he was on his way home. Home whilst you were in the UK was 25 minutes away from the Redbull HQ. This was becoming a regular occurrence, some nights he would come home so late that you had already taken yourself to bed. The atmosphere in the house seemed to freeze over whenever he was around even though you were yet to come out of summer, there was something hanging over the pair of you - unspoken feelings and as of now a red hot anger that threatened to escape from your usually composed nature.

Ever since the championship had taken a turn in the favour of Redbull, Max had started to become much more distant. It started off with him not inviting you along to the races, leaving on the Wednesday before race weekend and sometimes not seeing him until the following Tuesday and that was on a stand alone race weekend. On the triple headers, it could be nearing two weeks until you two were spared 5 minutes alone and even then it was a brief conversation before he rushed back to the factory or to train.

You thought you knew what you signed up for and since yours and Max’s relationship and that was three years ago so you thought you had seen it all - been through it all with him, witnessed every high and every low. This was a new territory and you knew that if it wasn’t tackled soon -

The click of the door lock echoed in the hallway, you straightened in your seat - eyes locked ahead of you and your knee bouncing.

Max sighed loudly and wiped his hand over his face, it had been a long day - he had been at the factory up until Christian had invited him out to lunch, it was nice to catch up with his boss and Max felt like he owed the man so much; guiding him through the years that had led up to the moment they found themselves in. Max felt like over the past years he had matured as a person, sometimes still short tempered but being an F1 driver it wasn’t necessarily a bad trait. After his lunch with Christian, his dad had called him - the less said about the conversation the better. By the time you had called, the last thing he wanted to do was come home and risk upsetting you. He had taken himself on a run - to clear his head and focus on what he was going to say to you because he felt like something definitely needed to be said.

He also owed a lot to you, you had put up with so much over the years and standing by his side even when he had made a mistake - although you were very quick to tell him when he was in the wrong. You seemed to be on his level, a blunt and forward look at life - there was no time for dawdling about when you had things to be done. Life was short and there was no time to waste.

Recently however, he was putting so much pressure and stress on himself about work that the hours slipped away from him and so did the time spent with you. He felt the atmosphere change around the pair of you - as though he was always walking on thin ice, the cracks beginning to show. The guilt he felt was nothing like he had ever felt before, all he wanted to do was talk to you but he was scared of pushing you away - which is ironic because not talking and letting the pent up anger build up was having the same effect. He was never that good when it came to talking about how he felt - as much as he wanted to he felt as though he would be a burden and that he would put too much pressure on you. He could never tell you what he really felt like inside. It was embarrassing, he knew that a professional athlete should never feel what he felt. It weakened him and having weaknesses in a sport like Formula 1 was not an option.

Max shrugged his coat off and walked through to the main room of the apartment - the room where you were sat waiting to pounce as though he was your unsuspecting prey.

He offered a tired smile, in response he got a sneer. Swallowing hard, you felt the anger take over, like some monster escaping from a cage.

“I have been sitting here for an hour, Max -” You shot to your feet, pointing at the table, your voice cracked slightly. “For months, you’ve been leaving me - it’s me who’s been cooking for us both, cleaning, washing - everything, Max. By myself.” You were shouting now, your heart threatening to break free from your chest. Max just stood there, a blank expression on his face - his gaze fixed to the ground. “I don’t understand what went wrong, Max. We were happy, hell, we spoke to each other. Now, I’m alone. In fact, I may as well be alone if this doesn’t change.” The words had fallen out of your mouth before you had any time to consider them - or the consequences. Your eyes went round with shock and you fell back to your seat. A loud silence filled the room.

Max, too, had not expected the words that had initiated the silence. He opened his mouth, eyes still on the ground, then closed it again before raising his head and looking you dead in the eye.

“You don’t mean that.” He managed to mutter, barely being able to raise his voice any louder. He felt a tired emptiness, this was the last thing he had wanted to happen.

“That’s all you have to say to me.” You rounded on him again, angry tears threatening to fall from your eyes.

“No - I -” He stuttered, then closed his eyes, inhaling slowly, “I just don’t think we should talk things through whilst you’re angry -” He saw you about to interject, when he raised his hands. “You have every right to be. That’s not what I’m saying. I think we should wait to talk about it so we don’t say things we are going to regret later.” Max could feel his throat constricting, he was battling to keep his emotions at bay.

You sniffed and nodded slowly, placing your head in your hands - hot tears escaping and shoulders tensed.

Max swallowed thickly, his eyes swimming with tears. He made a move and after no interruption left the room. He had only made it to the stairs before he collapsed, the fatigue getting the better of him. He was such an idiot, a fact he was certainly aware of now, how could he have let things get this bad. Did that make him a selfish person?

He couldn’t hold it in any longer, a harsh sob escaping from his mouth - fingers shaking and his head a loud mess.

As soon as Max had left the room, you had gotten up to get some water - when you paused, a sound catching your attention - a deep sounding sob. You waited, a line appeared between your brows. Slowly and carefully, you inched towards the door - waiting with baited breath for the sound again.

It was coming from the stairs and there was only one person it could be. Regret instantly pooled in the pit of your stomach, you hadn’t meant for him to cry. You were just so angry and he needed to know that.

“Max.” You called out softly, unsurprisingly there was no response. You went in the direction of the stairs and hunched over in front of you was your boyfriend - attempting to stifle his sobs. You rushed forwards, placing your arms around his shoulders and pulled his body into yours. Instinctively he wrapped his arms around your waist. You kissed the top of his head, stroking his hair as he continued to cry - you allowed him to empty his emotions out; some tears of your own betraying you entirely.

“I’m sorry, I really am.” Came a muffled voice. Pausing, you released your hold of him and placed your hands either side of his face - offering him a watery smile. Then, using your sleeves you wiped his tears away - he watched your every move, waiting for you to say something. When you didn’t, he braced himself - lips trembling; he knew it was now or never. He had to tell you how he really felt.

“I’m not good enough.” He stated simply, his eyes glossy. Your forehead furrowed. “I’m never going to be good enough to take the championship, I’m going to let everyone down. Everyone that has ever believed in me - it doesn’t matter what I do, how much work I put in - I’m never good enough. And you -” He paused, meeting your gaze, a lump forming in the back of your throat. “I keep letting you down, time and time again. I was the one who caused this, I’m never going to be good enough for you.”

“If you believe that -” You began, kissing the newly formed tears away, “Then I will eat your race shoe.” You moved to sit next to him on the stairs, pulling him into your side. “Why didn’t you tell me that’s how you felt.”

You felt Max shrug, the side of his head resting on yours. “I didn’t want to burden you with all of my problems, you already put up with so much.”

“I will always have time for you, Max.” Grasping his hand in yours, “You are enough, you are more than enough. You are Max Verstappen, the fastest, strongest guy I know.” You chuckled lightly, “I know it may sometimes feel like that and that’s ok. You are putting yourself through so much - maybe, it’s time to give some consideration for your personal life. It’s unhealthy to work all of the time - then we run into issues like these.” You spoke softly, almost whispering but you could tell he was hanging onto every word you spoke. “I love you, Max. I don’t know what I would do without you.” You admitted, turning your head to look at him. He chewed on his bottom lip, processing your words.

“I love you too, more than anything.” He murmured, placing his forehead on yours. You lifted your head slightly to leave a soft kiss on his nose, earning the corners of his lips to quirk up.

Closing your eyes, you relished being in his arms again, to have him close to you. You had missed it. You had missed him. Both of you knew you had a lot to work through, that it wouldn’t simply disappear but both of you were going to do it together. Hand in hand. And that was more than enough.

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whatagirlwants · 2 years ago

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Here it goes…this will be long

bare with me the first time i typed everything i accidentally deleted it all. so this might be all over the place there might be typos. my reason for this is no reason just to jot down my thoughts so if you are reading this and offended dont take this personal.

I think part of me feels the need to make this clear is because i’ve seen people not understand why she’d feel that about Joshua why does she describe him as vicious? where did it all go wrong. i’ve also seen Joshua fans undermine her feelings and bring up his traumas and what he went through to excuse him but what about what she went through? we dont have to compare but dont undermine her feelings and invalidate her. a certain comment struck me and it was a Joshua fan saying “she wouldnt pull an olivia write and release vicious about him and put him through it, she knows what he went through he doesnt deserve it he almost died” like they’re missing the whole point, i think sabrina has waited long enough and she tried to stay by him and it just didnt work, if she describe what he put her through as cruel then just accept it. yes his heart failed it isnt her fault? she tried to be there, how did u think she felt? he pushed her away too and he said it himself in his snippet of a song called Never and Sabrina sings about him pushing her away in Space and Dust which sh posted 2 months after dl was out.

To be honest with you the whole situation is complicated and you might not understand or if you’re biased towards any certain parties in this case joshua you will turn a blind eye and dismiss her feelings like you did vicious. Sabrina has never spoken about him or their relationship or put him on blast, she isn’t making this about her break up with him she’s simply letting the music find its people. What people make of it isn’t her fault, she didnt release vicious because she’s angry and wants revenge i mean its simply what she’s been through at this point she’s had a lot of people tell her how to feel its time we hear her out.

i’m not writing this as an expose i wish all well to Joshua and i know sabrina does too or she wouldn’t have written skinny dipping and imagine a day where it all wouldn’t hurt and she can put this past her. At the end of the day all 3 involved (sabrina, olivia, and joshua) have received hate in different ways. part of me hates when someone defends sabrina and talks about what she went through and someone would bring up what Joshua went through. i dont like that we always have to bring him up maybe thats me and i hold some resentment of my own? maybe its cause im simply sick of seeing him be brought up and constantly baby-ed by his fans? which i understand. you wouldn’t turn on your favorite celebrity but i think its okay to accept he did Sabrina wrong and the only way to describe what he did to her is unfortunately is cruel. Sabrina herself said that she wouldn’t always feel like that and its just where she is now.

I want to add im glad this is all over and sabrina doesn’t seem to be where she was last year and that makes me happy.

1. Why does she describe him as Vicious?

I think in order to know that you must understand the timeline of their breakup and quite literally how he loved her and pretend he didn’t. because i don’t only want to show you the tl i want to be able to provide lyrics as proof and my own interpretation of it all this will be all over the place.

January 8th 2021 Drivers License was released, the whole cast of hsmtmts were filming the show in Salt Lake City and Sabrina was there visiting Joshua. Sabrina was spotted a week after Drivers License in Salt Lake. When Sabrina says in the song because i liked a boy “when everything went down we’d already broken up” is because thats what happened. He broke up with her after DL came out (it’ll make sense if you put it in this perspective, so stay with me). She even sings in the same song “was only trying to hold you close while your heart was failing. you said im too late to be you first love but i’ll always be your favorite” To me, it sounds like he’s breaking up with her although she was only trying to be there for him because she loved him. This all ties up to love me then pretend you didnt crush my heart and wreck my image in the song Vicious. The thing is i dont believe wrote Vicious around the same time she wrote because i liked a boy i think it took her time to understand how she feels and actually reflect on how things went down and how he handled it.

It’s funny cause Joshua has a song coming out called Used To It and the first verse is about Olivia not caring when his heart failed (due to septic shock) This could imply to thats where his mind was at which makes sense to why Sabrina finds him cruel as well as if you look at the 2nd verse in Vicious she sings “when you’re insecure could be me, could be her you just run to whoever is winning”. Joshua has a song coming out too called Would You Love Me Now? and his fans think its about olivia based on a few lines the song is not out yet.

2. Sabrina stayed.

i’ve seen this here on Tumblr and someone said the way sabrina describe their relationship was sweet or something like that but i feel like it was sweet at one point but the songs are all about AFTER their breakup in January 2021 and there is nothing sweet about a man who cant make up his mind. Regardless i understand things were out of control and to be honest yes he’s also been through a lot in his personal life but i dont think that should excuse anything. We hear Sabrina sing about Tornado Warnings and if you read my page you know it is about Joshua. Late March 2021 Sabrina and Joshua were at a park during a tornado warning (NOT BACK TOGETHER just to talk most probably). Lets focus on the lyrics, sabrina knows its a bad idea and that LOGICALLY she shouldn’t have him on her mind and she shouldnt be seeing someone who left her. In the song she’s saying she’s convincing her therapist it didnt happen and that she’s over that son of a bitch.

The 2nd verse to me could be interrupted 2 ways 1. is Sabrina is justifying lying to her therapist in her therapy session “i deserve an hour in a week to focus on my thoughts not so obsessed with yours i cant hear myself speak” and she also is putting herself first and recognise that it is what she should be doing “i deserve my own consideration”.

The lyrics “i deserve my own consideration” remind me of her song how many things. In this song, sabrina portrays her vulnerable side, she feels worthless in his eyes. although she’s not his priority anymore she constantly thinks of him “theres no hiding in the thought of us i got ways to find you anywhere” . Sabrina is aware once again she shouldnt be considerate of him yet she cant help herself “i consider you im not trying to it doesnt matter whether or not i want to i cant help it” she also sings i wonder how many things you wanna do you think im in between Sabrina feels like this thing he has to deal with or in-between what he really wants yet she still went to see him during a tornado warning, she still considers his feelings “i feel myself falling further down your priorities and i still make excuses for you constantly” .

The sad part is he left and she touches on this in the second verse she sings “remember when you left once? that never made too much sense to me well it hurt you so bad hurting me you really came to me for sympathy” and in her song Bet Ya Wanna “i bet you hate the way you said goodbye and you still cant even tell me why i hate the way you left me dry but ill keep that between you and i” how did he say goodbye? i mentioned earlier it was around the weeks after drivers license was released in the lyrics she says he left her dry which means leaving someone high and dry which means to leave someone in a difficult situation without any help. and when was that? january 2021 now back to Vicious crush my heart and wreck my image.

Sabrina stayed and thats highlighted in songs like Tornado Warnings, Already Over, Decode and a song she wrote and posted in March 2021 called Space and Dust.

in space and dust sabrina says she’ll always be there “if no ones there to hear u scream you can still reach out your hand to me and im floating there ill always be the brightest star in your galaxy”

3. Theres nothing left here to decode

in decode Sabrina touches on his behavior of how he didn’t stay, confused her, and walked away and eventually choosing to walk away herself. Now that she stopped trying to understand him or the situation and walked away from it all she feels the weight off her shoulders “theres a weight off my shoulders now that i don’t chase you being myself, did that emasculate you? learning from you that i can walk away too”

In an interview sabrina talks about her favorite line which is learning from u i can walk away too and she said walking away wasnt an option to her because she thought walking away is a negative thing you dont walk away from someone you love but then she learned to realize it could be a good option and it is the better option.

4. In conclusion

i promise im done but i wanted to go into details so this is a long ass post. point is someone can hurt someone and do something wrong regardless of what they’ve been through. sabrina releasing vicious is valid why shouldn’t she sing about him and what he put her through, its insane to me how his fans will vilify her or find her bringing up his heart failure in because i liked a boy yet his own fans bring it up every second to defend his actions. you dont find that weird? we’re all glad he’s okay and he’s made it but she knows him more than you and you might not be able to understand how she feels because regardless your his fans and she’s his ex and someone he pushed completely to the side when in reality she ended up in this mess cause of him cause she even gave him a chance letting him in her world. if sabrina fans dont like him or feel some way about him its justified too.

Dont make sabrina releasing Vicious a negative thing or “bringing” him up for attention when he only writes about OR which he knows will get 10x more attention than singing about SC. Sabrina released Skinny Dipping which is how she wants it to be in the future “water under the bridge”

This is how sabrina described Decode:

“When you finally stop hurting yourself trying to understand why someone didn’t love you the way you thought they did, it all becomes so much more clear” and based on his songs he’s releasing right now that are assumed to be about Olivia, sabrina’s feelings in vicious are valid.

#sabrina carpenter #vicious #emails i cant send #how i feel #joshua bassett #jolivia #jabrina #olivia rodrigo #Drivers License #drivers license drama #i just dont get why some of his fans are mad she expressed herself #this post is long overdue #because she liked a boy #tornado warnings #bet u wanna #hsmtmts

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thecelestial-art · 4 years ago

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ok but like, here me out,,,,, avatar high school au but its just me projecting my personality and trauma

my instagram

Aang

Freshman

He's trying his gosh darn hardest

The group baby

Appa is a therapy dog so he spends the day with gyatso in his classroom :)

Hes a saint bernard

The best man

Despite katara being the ‘mom friend’ he runs the god damn show

Momo is a shit head sphinx cat

The gang dropped movie nights for “knitting nights” so they could all learn to knit him sweaters

Hes very fashionable

he hates it

sokkas best friend

Aang makes costumes so when halloween comes around momo is very scary as dorothy

Track and field babey

Does not curse

He has a hard time keeping up with world events

Straight (i'm not wrong)

he and toph have an ongoing tradition of going in full dress to waffle house before school dances.

it got to the point where now all the workers know them by name

they also accidentally crashed a white lotus meeting and just kept going

Azula

Band kid

Sophomore

Rich girl with 2 friends

Pre eng

i know most schools dont have this program, but mine did and holy shit. those were some overachievers

The most annoying mf on the planet

Not a single teacher likes her

The know it all that will fight if you don't agree with the facts

She was the ww2 kid

Capitalist in the worst fucking way

Closeted lesbian, when she figures that shit out she gets a lil better

The one who can drive

Mai

Bisexual

She's really good at math?? Like shes the gay who can do math

But cannot drive, bitch failed her permit more times than she can count

She nearly went to an all girls boarding school at one point

Sophomore

Colorguard!!

She has beat the shit out of people she's walked in on making out in the bathroom

Genuine friends with the faculty??

She takes programming/coding as a filler class but she's pretty good and continues to pursue it.

Her tumblr looks sick as hell

has caused a teacher to cry

Ty lee

Bisexual

Lesbian earings actin mf

Sophomore

Cheerleader

She is the nicest mother fucker and everyone loves her

Despite acting like an airhead she's really science orientated

When she takes biology she passes with flying colors

Very invested in social justice

She would never hurt a fly but she will fuck you up

The one with a healthy relationship with her father

has comforted a teacher she found crying in the parking lot

Iroh

Now runs the jasmine dragon where zuko works after school w/ katara

Knows every single kid who comes in and tries his hardest to make sure everyone feels appreciated

Former war criminal

In a book club

The white lotus? Yeah this is the white lotus

Idk if it would be the same as the show, or if its just an old person shit talking group

Zuko

Junior

His dad got full custody of him and his sister when he divorced their mom

But at 13 he got kicked out for another bullshit reason and ever since Iroh has had custody of both of the siblings

But bitch boy ozai has visitation rights but only wants to see azula

Theatre kid!!

I mean he was gonna join jrotc to appease his dad but he figured his shit out before he really joined

A republican turned leftist

Hes queer he just doesnt know which label to use

Himbo rights

He and katara are best friends idgaf about ships but they are bros

orchestra kid! (yes this is me self projecting bc we have similar trauma)

Violist

Teachers have no idea what to do with him bc on one hand he's very reclusive and on the other his sister has the worst opinions so they don't know

Katara

Sophomore

Still the mom friend but this time she goes to therapy

Bc she literally raised her brother after her mother died?? And then became a parental figure to her FRIENDS???

Biggest political activist, genuinely does her best at educating herself and others about civil injustices

Also really obsessed with cults and true crime

Choir kid

She takes AP history, english, and second language classes

Is trying her hardest in math and sciences

Huge stuffed animal collection

Student council vice president

she originally ran for president but jets gang voted him in as a joke

The teachers pet

Swim team bitches

Best friends with the school janitors

This is my au so fuck off she and zuko are chaotic friendgroup parents and annoying best friends i love them

and maybe something more???

who fucking knows theres a betting pool in the white lotus and so far aang is winning

Sokka

Junior

Bisexual

Gym and History teachers LOVE him

On the swim team and the fishing team

Started crying when he took his drivers test

Goes to gsa w/ toph and loses his fucking mind

He's the reason suki’s car is disgusting

In all advanced/ap classes in math and science

Was the kid who carries a portable speaker around until suki put him in his place

Still has to use his hands to figure out left and right

Yue

Technically she doesn't go to school with them she goes to a nearby private school

She met the gang at a football game and has been invited to every group outing since

Junior!!

Very invested in world politics

When she joins the group at school events she ends up making friends with all the staff

Debate team kid!!!

She's not a rule breaker she just knows their limitations ;)

at one point missed school for like 2 months and everyone thought she died

turns out it was just fucking pneumonia and sokka is one dirty liar

Suki

oh? you mean yue’s best friend bc we dont respect pitting women against each other in this household?

Junior

Bisexual icon!!!

Oh god what sport would she do??

Probably basketball??

Or she would just do martial arts outside of school

And have a ‘female empowerment’ club or somethin

100% believes in self government in society and that the current gov exists purely on the theory that all humans are inherently evil

Bitch for bernie

Her car is DISGUSTING

She asks if she can hit peoples juul and then throws it in the trash

The gym coaches really like her but she fucking hates them

Is very close with her school counselor??

She never wants to run but she keeps getting elected to homecoming court

Toph

Freshman

Former homeschool bitch

Joined the wrestling team and the fishing team??

She doesn't even like fishing she just thinks it's hilarious

Very good a pottery and that's her arts credit

She and iroh have lunch together every thursday

If she catches wind of you putting gum on desks they will find your body in a ditch

She makes sokka and suki take her to prom

She hates it she just likes to fuck with people at prom

Sometimes she just tells people she doesn't believe in something bc she cant see it

has been wearing the same sandles for the past 3 years bc “they’re reliable”

Cryptid hunter

Goes to gsa bc its better than any fucking reality tv show

Has nearly burnt the house down making ramen

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vivinightingale · 4 years ago

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Could you do the main yugioh boys with a rebellious reader and how they first meet said rebellious reader. Either way have a nice day/night :-)

its Rebel time!

Yugi Muto:

Your name was known throughout the whole school. You were always skipping class, never listening to the facility, and you even started your own gang of misfits.

Despite all this however, you still had your own morals. So when you saw two upperclassmen picking on Yugi you knew you had to step in.

This is how your friendship started. You helped him with those jerks, and he treated you to some lunch the next day.

You two got along pretty well actually. You admired his courage to stand up for what he believed in, and he admired your strength that you use to protect others.

He didn't mind your rebellious ways, he found it interesting to say the least. He saw past all the rumors of what everyone said about you and saw your true beauty.

He asked you out months later, and never regretted it. Under your tough exterior was someone who was just as soft as he was.

He loves every side of you

Yami/Atem:

You have been a friend of the group for a long time, you were Introduced by joey and the rest was history.

However unlike your friend Joey you were still rebellious as hell. Always out at night, hanging with your gang, and never really listening to authorities.

As long as you weren't hurting others or causing too much trouble he didn't mind your lifestyle. Everynight before he headed to bed he would call you just to check in with you.

Soon you had more than just a friend feeling for Atem , and he felt the same. It is actually with you two confessing to each other at the same time. It was awkwardly beautiful.

After the two of you got together your gang activities slowed down, but never truly stopped. They were your second family after! There was no way you could just abandon them. Atem understood, but he was still worried about you. He could never stop worrying about you.

As you both got older your gang activist stopped all together however. You still kept in touch with your small family, but you settled down with Atem

Even if you decided to keep your lifestyle however he would love you no matter what. As long as he knew you were safe, and in his arms at night.

Joey Wheeler:

You didn’t have the best childhood, and joey knew what that was like better then anyone.So when he noticed you rebelling against the adults he had a feeling he knew why.

At first you thought he was utterly annoying trying “to set you on the right path”, but deep down you knew he was doing it to help you.

in the end the two of you came to this sort of comprise. As long was you weren’t joining gang, and getting into trouble he would leave you and your rebellious ways alone, and thats exactly what you did.

Sometimes Joey would join you in rebellion, and the two of you would have tons of fun skipping classes, and doing whatever you wanted.

When the two of you graduated your rebellious faze has to pass, and with the help of Joey and his friends you felt loved,and like you belonged somewhere.

Yours and joeys friendship grew into a relationship, and after years of being together you eventually had a little family of your own.

and as you held your little one in your arms you promised them you would never let them feel the way you did growing up.

Tristan Taylor:

he was no stranger to rebelling tot hose in charger, i mean he has done it plenty of times before with joey. So when he saw you skipping classes a part of him wanted to join in.

he ended up doing just that. It was one of his cherished memories with you. Skipping classes to go to Kaiba land, and just goof around.

He couldn’t join you every time,but when he did it was always a fun time, but that wasn’t the only time you guys hung out.

Because you were constantly missing classes, him and his friends ended up helping you catch up so your grads never fell to far.

you ended up becoming friends with his friends, so you started staying in school more just to hang out with them, but you were always back at it you couldnt help yourself.

you guys would still occasionally skip classes just to have time to yourselves, and thats you guys ended up becoming an item, and your get togethers became more likes dates.

he loved this rebellious side of you, and love acting them out with you.

Duke Devlin:

oh are you rebelling? oh him too! look at that!

in all honesty he would probably do it out of boredom. So when he caught sight of you at a manga shop, he felt this need to approach you. from there you two hit it off.

You guys would sneak away to places where others couldnt find you just to hang out, and not worry about the world.

he was the one who would drag you to his favorite places during school hours. He would even take you to his game shop and show you the game he made.

During one of these said games was when he confessed his feelings for you, when the battle was over he waited for you to say something, and was surprised when you kissed his cheek and told him you would see him tomorrow.

While having dates during school were fun you both wanted to keep up with your grades. so during the weekend you two would study and catch up on homework, and afterwards where full of cuddles.

Who knew being rebellious could get you such a sweet boyfriend

Seto Kaiba:

at first he really didnt care, it was your life to waste as you pleased, but when he heard there was a rising duelist in the works was when he became interested.

At first he didnt think was you till he was you battling one day on his way home. he the driver to turn around, and he watched you end the battle with all BPS still in tact.

when you were done he got out the car and came up to you, and that how you guys got closer to each other.

he would battle you almost everyday while secretly teaching you new moves.While you during the school day while you were out scouting for him. weather it be torments, cards, or other duelists you were doing it.

Seto had felt something for you he has never felt for anyone else so he didnt know how to go about it, but thats okay because Mokuba was here to help!

Without seto knowing he sent you a text from seto’s phone professing his love to you, you knew it wasnt him but you also felt like there was some truth behind it so when you guys went to have your daily battle you sent him and “I love you too” text

Seto would have to scold Mokuba later but right now he needs to handle you/

Bakura Ryou:

He has seen you many time sneaking off of campus, he always wondered where you went but was too scared to actually leave with you to find out.

well that was until they day you came up to him. He was surrounded by his fangirls and saw how uncomfortable he was. so you did the only thing you could do. you grabbed his hand and ran off of campus.

when you guys stopped running was when he started to slightly start to panic. he was gonna miss his classes, what was everyone gonna think? but when he looked up to see your smile he started to calm down more.

you guys spent the rest of the day messing around and going to your favorite shops.

this however was a one day thing,but you guys continued to hang out after school. he even went as far as helping you with your homework!

it was awhile before he confessed his feeling for you, but when he did was when you life changed. You felt the need to be at school more so that you could be around him more.

he loved seeing your beautiful smile inside and outside of school so even if you decided to leave school he will be here for you no matter what.

Yami Bakura:

he was the one who found you, he noticed how well you were able to sneak around and knew he could use you to his advantage. So when you snuck off of campus he followed you.

At first it was surprising seeing this new side of the sweet boy you knew, but that quickly passed when he promised to pay you for your work.

thats pretty much who it all started, it was official business at first. you trying to find these items he requested, while he stayed at school pretending to be this good kid.

With each interaction the two of you had the more flirting there was, the closer you got. Eventually he claimed you as his own, and you two became this dynamic duo.

during the school day you got more texts, some where business the others were just sin typed on a phone (which made you job a little harder)

When school was over you would hand him the information that you got and he would give rewards.

you never realized how much you would love this devil of a man but you simply couldnt get enough of him.

Marik Ishtar:

this guy is the prince of rebellion, so when he saw strolling through the streets with a sucker in your mouth he knew you skipping classes doing your own thing.

He doesnt know what came over him but he slowly rode beside you asking if you would like around town. You dont usually take rides from people you just met, but something told you you could trust him so you did.

the two of your drove around and outside of domino, and you never had so much fun in a long time so when the sun set and he dropped you off at a park close to your home, you gave him your number.

you two spent day and night texting each other, you got to learn about him and he got to learn about you.

on the days you decided to skip class he would pick you up and you would show him all your favorite places, while he would show you his.

you two eventually had this unspoken relationship but you didnt mind because you just loved being around him.

he was glad he trusted his gut that day and picked you up, because without you he knew he would feel empty.

Yami Marik:

oh hello the king of rebellion is here to sweep you off your feet!

your not sure how he found you, but when he did there was something about you struck him as interesting and he was gonna find out.

during battle city he watched as you went against rules, and snuck around, and when you eventually got his room to look around was when he struck.

at first he was a little terrifying to talk to but eventually it wasnt as bad as you thought, and you understood where he was coming from. so agreed with him to help take down the pharaoh.

you couldnt do much but you were able to get intel on him and his friends and that was enough for him to set up plans.

They all worked out one way or another, and when he was finally crowned victorious was when he announced that you were to rule by his side.

“this new world is ours to rule, and no one will stop us my dear.”

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raccoonhearteyes · 4 years ago

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“Here try this,” Clarke leaned over the center console in her car, handing Lexa a blue drink. Lexa examined the bottle, reading the bright yellow letters that said ‘lemonade’ and '250mg THC’ on it. “What is it?” The brunette popped the lid off the bottle with a satisfying 'pop’. She pulled the bottle back again, letting her green eyes wander around the label again. “Blueberry lemonade?” She questioned before shrugging and taking a large gulp. “Be careful!” Clarke shouted a little too late. “Its potent as hell.” The blue eyed girl noted as she watched her girlfriend cough. Clarke reached over and grabbed the bottle before taking a small sip. She pursed her lips at the taste. “Jesus fuck I didn’t realize just how strong it would taste.” The blonde looked over at Lexa and eyed her. “Give it a minute.” She smiled and leaned back in her seat. “I don’t think I’ve ever had one of these before,” Lexa took the glass bottle from Clarkes hand and took another sip. “Other than the nasty after taste from the THC it’s really not that bad.” The brunette smiled and put the bottle in the cup holder. “Are we doing halvsies with it or…?” She trailed off. Clarke shot up in her seat. “What? Half? Dude there’s so much in there. That’s like 10 edibles! You’re a light weight.” “Psh like you aren’t,” Lexa grabbed the bottle again and took another big sip. “DUDE!” Clarke quickly grabbed the bottle from the brunettes hand and held it away. “You’re going to have a trip of a life time I fucking swear when you’re high as shit you better not be panicking or so help me Lexa I will kick your ass if you complain and ruin my moment.” Clarke took a big sip, but not as big as Lexas. Lexa shrugged and leaned back in her chair, “You offered it!” She rubbed her nose and rolled her window down, looking at the other cars and people walking by. “I think I’m feeling it.” Clarke snorted, “Its been like thirty seconds. You’re a light weight but it doesnt mean it’s going to hit immediately.” “Fool! I know that!” Lexa continued to look outside. “Fuck I’m thirsty.” She looked around in Clarkes compact car for something to drink. Stumbling upon a half empty water bottle, the brunette grabbed it. “My mouth is so dry how is yours not dry? Like what the fuck dude I’m so thirsty.” Lexa opened the bottle and chugged the water. “Water is a god holy shit people need to know about water. Do people know about water? We should start a cult about water!” Lexa opened the car door. She felt a hand on her shoulder and turned to look at the blonde in driver seat. “Are… are you really high right now? What?” Clarke was looking over Lexa. “Holy shit dude you’re so high right now!” She laughed, tears streaming from her blue eyes. “Fuck dude that was so fast!” Clarke paused for a second. “Man I feel my fingers. Do you feel your fingers?” Clarke grabbed her girlfriends hand and pressed their fingertips together. “You do have fingers… man I want some pickles.” Lexas green eyes widened with a toothy smile plastered against her face, “pickles! Yes!” Lexa quickly hopped out of the car, her shoes softly landing on the pavement. “Can we get water? Water is a God send. Shit is bomb. Have you had water? We should start a water cult!” Lexa smiled proudly at the thought. “Yes we can get water if you stop talking about a cult,” Clarke locked the cars doors and walked over to Lexa. “Dude, babe give me your hand.” Clarke eagerly reached out and grabbed the brunettes hand. “Fingers.” She said, content. “Its like I’m you but I’m also me… but I’m also you. Do you feel me?” “Yeah I understand you,” Lexa stared deeply at her blonde girlfriend. “That was so deep.” Her eyes started watering. “I’m thirsty!” Clarke suddenly announced. “Water cult! Water cult!” “Shut up with that already you dingus!” “Dont be fucking rude! Let’s get pickles already.” The two girls headed into the store, hand in hand. Inside the store was bright, almost too bright. The kind of bright drowns out the darkness or light outside. “Pickles! Pickles!” Clarke was shouting as she headed into a random direction. “Wait I dont want to get lost!” Lexa stumbled over her own two feet as she hurried towards Clarke. “Oh minty gum.” Lexa suddenly stopped and looked at a kiosk in the middle of an aisle. “Babe we’re here for pickles and water not gum.” Clarke rolled her eyes and smiled at the green eyed girl. “Oh pickles!” Lexa smiled and rushed towards Clarke again. “I am so here for the pickles!” The look on Lexas face was determined. “My mouth is dry is your mouth dry? I’m thirsty. Can we start a water cult?” She turned towards the blonde girl next to her. “We are here for two things…” Clarke abruptly stopped talking in the middle of her sentence. “Wait! We’re going the wrong way.” She suddenly turned and headed down a different aisle. “I fucking found them dude!” She looked at the pickles with a glisten in her eye. “Oh pickles…” Lexa picked up a jar and put her hand in her pocket. “Wait I dont have my wallet?” She put the jar very gently on the ground and smiled at herself before reaching back into her pocket. She started to panicked, unable to find the object that held her purchasing devise. “Clarke! Wallet!” She stopped. “I can feel my face.” Lexa smiled. “Dude, babe, Lexa, my love,” Clarke started. “I dont have my wallet either.” “No…” Lexa let out softly. She brought her lips to Clarkes ear. “Maybe if we ask them nicely to stay here we can go get monies for the pickles. Sshhh dont tell her we forgot the cash money.” Clarke giggled at Lexas hot breath on her ear. “Did you call the pickles a her?” “YES MA'AM!” Lexa shouted very furiously. “Unless the pickles feel differently.” She looked at the pickles on the ground and squatted. “Whatever you feel like is you. You do you booboo.” She smiled and patted the top of the jar. Clarke started laughing causing tears to stream down her face. “I’m with the biggest stoned nerd I have ever met.” Clarke snorted loudly and hunched over, clutching her stomach. “You’re fucking funny! Keep talking. I need more.” She continued, laughing. “What? Pickles are pickles they can be whatever their heart desires!” Lexa felt her cheeks start to burn. “Whatever we need money to exchange for the pickles to go in mah belly!” Lexa stood up and started walking towards the exit. “I’m leaving! Bye loser!” She shouted as she walked away from clarke. “What?” Clarke realized her girlfriend had left without her. “We might get lost! Let’s hold hands! I want to become one again!” The blonde shouted as she ran towards the brunette. “Wait I’m lost,” Lexa looked around. “Wait we’re standing right by the exit.” Clarke only smiled and held Lexas hand. 'We are one’ she thought feeling the warmth between the two of them. Once outside the two girls looked around. “Babe… why did we stop?” Clarke looked at Lexa. “God you’re so pretty.” Lexa giggled and ran a hand through her hand, “I forgot where you parked.” “What?” Clarke looked around, slightly panicked. “Where the fuck did I park?” She let go of Lexas hand and looked around the parking lot. “Oh wait I’m over there.” She pointed in the direction of her car. Upon reaching the car they sat down inside it. “Fuck I’m thirsty dude,” Lexa licked her lips. “Oh drink!” She picked up the bottle of 'lemonade’. “Lexa no!” Clarke shouted but it was too late. “What?” Lexa looked at the bottle. “This shit is nasty what is this?” She questioned before realizing what she had just done.“Oh I fucked up… oh no Clarke! I drank more oh my god I am going to die from weed! I drank so much because i am a thirsty ho!” “Hey just calm down,” Clarke took a deep breath in. “Just breathe.” She exhaled loudly through her mouth. “Breathe my baby girl.” “Say that again.” “Say what?” Clarke put her hand on Lexas arm. “Call me 'baby girl’ again. It gives me the feels.” “What?” “Never mind.” Lexa mumbled and sank back into her seat, taking another sip of the drink. “DUDE!” Clarke grabbed the bottle and put it down. “Stop drinking this or you’ll fucking be deflated!” “That lemonade is nasty.” “THATS BECAUSE ITS TECHINCALLY AN EDIBLE!” “Woah… am I high?” Lexa held her hands up in front of her face before bursting into laughter. “Fuck I am so high arent I? I’m thirsty.” “Oh yeah! We’re here for wallets for foods and services.” Clarke smiled at her, proud that she remembered what their original plan was. “Yes mother fucker! Pickles and mother fucking water!” Lexa jumped out of the car as fast as she could, smiling. “I am a thirsty people! Les go!” She started off towards the store, a slight pep in her step. “Wait!” Clarke quickly grabbed Lexas wallet and ran towards her girlfriend. “Wait let me hold your hand. I want to feel you.” The blonde reached out to grab Lexas hand. “We are one.” Lexa said when she intertwined her fingers with Clarkes. “Your hand is sweaty.” Clarke commented, glancing at their hands. “Yeah well you be higher than mount fucking Everest and tell me your hands arent sweaty.” “Is there vomit on your sweater already?” “What? No, Clarke. I’m not wearing a sweater it’s like 500 billion fucking degrees out here.” Lexa started laughing uncontrollably. “You were making a joke. Sorry.” She said stifling a laugh. “How long have we been walking around for?” Clarke looked around at the people. “I… don’t… know…” Lexa kept pausing in between each word. “Buuuuut… I want to feel that shirt over there.” She pointed at a random blue shirt on a hanger and walked up to it. Lexa hummed as she rubbed her fingers on the fabric. “Okay! I am satisfied! I am still thirsty though.” She looked at Clarke. “Woter.” “What?” “Woter.” Clarke just looked blankly at Lexa. “Woter.” “Ooohhh… ha… you mean water.” “Yes my smart girlfriend!” Clarke beamed at the compliment. They headed off in a random direction and stopped an employee for directions to the pickles. “Yo if you stay here we’ll buy you balloons!” Lexa smiled and tried to shake the persons hand. “Just stay here. Okay? Stay! Thank you! But stay!” Lexa held her hands out and slowly backed up. “Stay!” She smiled when she noticed the employee standing right where they were. “Pickles!” Clarke shouted as they found the aisle. “Fuck yeah!” She started fist pumping and carefully grabbed a jar. “Gotta be careful with these babies!” She bit her lip in concentration. “Woter!” “Its fucking water say it normal you fart!” Clarke adjusted the pickle jar, holding it like a baby. Lexa didnt notice the slight insult. They wandered around for a few more minutes before accidentally stumbling upon the water. “I got this!” Lexa flexed before grabbing a case of water. She grunted as she lifted it up and hoisted it on her shoulder. “I am strong! Fear me!” “Okay whatever miss commander,” Clarke rolled her eyes at her girlfriend trying to show off. Slight panic came across Lexas face, “My Wally!” “Why are you weird? I have your wallet.” Clarke carefully pulled it out of her back pocket. Lexa just nodded and headed off towards a cash register. “Hello my good fellow human! I am here for the goods and services if you do not mind assisting us! We will be oh so humbled!” “Yes! We have a purchasing device that is made for your goods and pickles.” Clarke beamed and handed the employee Lexas debit card. “Uh…” the employee started. “You can just swipe your card here.” He pointed at the pin pad. “Oh! Yes my good fellow person!” Clarke stuck her tongue out in concentration and slowly swiped Lexas card for the transaction. The loud beeping noise caused Lexa to jump back, nearly dropping the water. “Why did it yell at us? What did we do?” Lexa questioned in panic. “That’s just the noise it makes,” the employee eyed the two girls. “Recipt?” “Sir no ma'am we are not cooking! Just water and pickles for us THANKS!” Lexa started towards the exit. Clarke quickly followed behind. “Water! Water! Water!” Lexa chanted as they walked towards Clarkes car. “That was a fucking great adventure. Let’s do it again!” Lexa sat down in the blondes car, placing the water on her lap. Clarke sat down in the driver seat and opened the pickles. “Here take one!” She held the jar up to Lexa eagerly waiting for her to take a pickle. Lexa grabbed one from the jar and took a huge bite. “Hm… taste like plastic.” She said in between crunches. “What the fuck?” Clarke looked at her taking her own bite of a pickle. “Mother fucking delicious!"

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I couldn’t help myself lol sorry it’s kind of long I just had a little bit of fun writing it :D I typed it up on my phone so sorry for any and all typos

#this was a wild ride #submission #heres some fanfic of your life other anon

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ilovejevsjeans · 4 years ago

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At the Forefront

Its a gladitorial sport, it can be seen as macho testosterone fueled. How easy is it to ask for help if youre struggling, having a tough time for whatever reason?

Dan: You use the word macho and I guess I thought of that, it’s probably a bit harder for men to break through that because there’s a perception of “I’m big and strong and the provider” and that old way of thinking but you know the thing which helps me is having close people around me, friends and people that I can trust and if I do get emotional or something they’re not going to call me weak or anything. They’ll put their arm around me and understand where I’m coming from so, I think that’s the biggest thing. I think everyone has the ability to open up and at times wants to open up but it’s that uncertainty of who to open up to. So it’s just finding someone you can really lean on. And even if that person is someone you’re not sure of I’m sure 9 times out of 10 they might surprise you and be open ears and arms.

Could you tell anything to a teammate? Because as you know in F1 they’re the benchmark and any weakness can easily be exploited by a teammate and used against them on the track.

D: Yeah that’s a good question. You probably have to be a bit more selective with what you say to a direct competitor but you know on the flip side I think if you have enough confidence in yourself a lot of the time you can be happy to put everything on the table and deep down you’re like “I’m not longer vulnerable, I’ve put everything out there so at least my plate is clear so I can go out there and give it my all”. It can probably work both ways

You can go from hero to zero very quickly in F1, not least on social media. I’m wondering what your techniques are for handling the stress, the scrutiny, the pressure, the demands.

One thing I’ve always found helps is having other interests. If my life was only F1, I think that would consume me and the pressure of the sport would. Not having a good race would probably eat me in inside for to long. If I have a bad race or a moment where I’m not to happy with my performance or what’s going on in the sport it might consume me for the Sunday evening but by Monday I’m trying to put my thoughts somewhere else and I don’t know go out and do some sports or go see some music. I think to just have an escape. I think that’s important for everyone whatever your job is. To have an interest outside of it that you can go and attend and clear your head a little bit.

Is there a moment that you could share in your career where things looked or felt bleak and what you learned from that episode?

A highlight for me as back in 2013, still relatively early in my career and I was very strict on myself. I was very disciplined and wouldn’t allow myself a beer or to go and party and you know what was I a 23/24 year old kid, it wasn’t really normal. In my head I was doing everything right, and the results for a few weeks weren’t there and I was kinda banging my head against the wall wondering what else could I do. I just got away for a bit. I was like maybe I’m putting to much into and this and maybe I’m going down a rabbit hole of trying to look into to many details and maybe I need to step away for a bit. It was the Montreal race and Montreal is close to New York and I’d never been to New York so I was like “I’m going to go to New York for a few days and I had some friends with me and I was like let’s just go”. Basically just not think or talk about racing and just go to a new city where racing doesnt exist and have a few drinks and go out and just take a break. That was really the best thing that I did. It really eased me in a lot of ways and it also kind of made me appreciate the sport like missing it everyday made me happy to go back to it after that holiday.

That’s really interesting, cause I was gonna ask you about the lifestyle. Cause F1 is seen as a very glamorous profession . You’re on the road, you’re living out of hotels, you’re away from family etc etc. How do you cope with that and you’ve done it from an early age. You came to Europe and that’s a big step. So how have you managed to shape your mind and keep yourself on the straight and narrow when sometimes it’s just a hotel room and you?

That’s one of the hardest things. I think that’s what actually can break a lot of kids. When they move home it’s really having that long term vision. The first years of me living away from home, yeah I missed home, you know at that point I wasn’t earning any money or I wasn’t guaranteed to make it in F1 or anything but I was like “okay yes this isn’t particularly perfect right now but this is what everyone went through”. This is what Schumacher went through , this is what all the good guys did and this is what I have to do if I want to get there. So it was just I saw it as that. It was a sacrifice but ultimately if this means I can race F1, get paid to do the job I love , then this is nothing. So it was really just that and its all perspective and mindset. It’s understanding that sometimes there is a bit of a slow grind but if it’s going to get you a step closer to what you want then I think anythings worth it.

It’s clearly working cause this is your tenth season in F1 so you know what you’re doing. But I wonder how much of that do you put on you as a person and as a driver? You know the ups and downs, you’ve talked about Montreal, also as someone whos prepared to stand up for what he believes in. I mean look at Lewis Hamilton for example, he seems to have grown into this statesman about black lives matter. But in terms of you and your development in what matters to you would you stay quiet and stick to racing or are you someone who would go “No I need to speak up here”

Yeah that comes with age. Through confidence I guess. Even here in F1 in the drivers meetings you know when I first got to F1 I was quite shy and nervous and didn’t feel like I really belonged in the room so I would be less vocal, less opinionated on somethings and now I feel like I’ve paid my dues in the sport and if I feel like more of a right to speak my mind. Whether that’s right or wrong I don’t know it’s just kind of what I went through in my head and you evolve as a person and you find things that work for you and things that dont and you learn from other people as well. From the path they’ve gone on and whether that did or didn’t work for them. You meet some amazing people and become a sponge basicaslly at a young age in an intertnational sport with you know people from all around the world. I think you know, whether it’s mental health or black lives matter, a lot of this stuff is new for so many people and it’s about allowing yourself to be vulnerable and if you really feel strongly about something to speak up and normally I think you can find it goes a long way. And we have that platform in which to do so.

He seems so level headed don’t you think so Mark. He’s able to ride the storms and whirl pools in Formula 1 and also ride the rapids too and when he gets the right car,he has the ability to show his talent. He’s one of the best out there, the best overtaker there is. He’s able to take the slings and arrows very calmly. I was fascinated to hear about that trip to New York early in his formula one career, just when he had to clear his mind. He was thinking, maybe even overthinking, that everything he was doing should be contributing to success in F1 but it wasn’t. He just had to unplug for a while regroup, rethink with friends and suddenly things start to flow

Yeah that was really interesting. We think of Daniel Ricciardo as not just a great racing driver but as something as a joker, having a good laugh and as a very jolly individual. So to hear him talking about some of the darker sides of being an elite sportsperson was really interesting. My big takeaway from listening to Daniel talking to you John is that when we think about some of the criticisms that Lewis Hamilton gets for some of the interests he has outside of F1 is effectively what Dan is saying are really good things for you mental approach to the sport. That by taking time away and actually doing something different that when you get back into the car, suddenly you’re refreshed and you’re able to crack on. Interesting to hear that in their different ways Daniel and Lewis are essentially doing the same thing and benefitting from it. (X)

#daniel ricciardo #dan #lewis hamilton #lewis #podcasts

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Genshin Impact is actually a relatively new game, but it's super addicting so I guess it's my favorite currently 😂 i play a lot of games just to stress relieve, it help me to turn off my brain and give me a sense of accomplishment LOL and also to like... not feel lonelt during the pandemic cuz i been locked in for like a year now LMAO

And yeh the US situation is.... haaaaa.... i hate it here, save me TT^TT

Anyway!! YES JOON IS HUGE HE'S GETTING MORE AND MORE BUFF AND I'M GOING TO LOSE MY SHIT AND JK WHEN THAT HAIR GO UP INTO A MAN BUN, YOU ARE GONNA GET A FUNERAL INVITATION FROM ME CUZ I'LL BE 💀 the amount of time they make me choke on my own spit and water.... it's dangerous ;-;

And hush you cant lose a skill that quickly lmao, i havent ride a bike for like 5 years that doesnt mean I can no longer do it. And you can always open up request for a short while to get some ideas from people 👀

And oooo "sweet home" i heard a lot of good thing about it but i havent watch/read it yet, cuz i dont handle gore very well. And since sweet home is a webtoon, if netflix decide to not give it a second season, even tho they should, you can alway read the webtoon ;)

As for rant, not really, i just been very lazy now that second semester start and i just dont wanna do ANYTHING lol especially since it's my last year

My new year resolution... I wanna be happier *cue blue and grey* a lil too personal but uhhh TW i have severe depression and anxiety and all those good shit mental illness lol and I'm actually really bad at being nice to myself, so... i want to become better, i wanna unlearn negative things, i want to become happier, just a little every day, i'm much happier now than I was before so :D dont worry, love.

What about you? What's your new year resolution? 👀

Questions of the day!! If you could ask someone (dead or alive) a question that they HAVE to answer truthfully, who and what would you ask? -Valley's Lilies @valley-lilies

rippp that’s the reason why I am purposefully staying away from games cause I get stuck on things so easily and i KNOW there are tons of games out there that would catch my interest 😭😭😭 i’ll stay gameless for a few more years until i’m more disciplined lol, but honestly if that’s how you wind down and relax, go for it!!! i feel you so much on the lonely part, like now the bad kind of loneliness is creeping up on me 😳i’ve been locked up for a year too!!! i cannot believe it, it actually blows my mind, i’ve stayed indoors pretty much a whole year, it’s actually sick 😓

honey 🥺 i’m so sorry about it ;(((, like I really never know how to talk about it anymore cause saying the same things feels redundant, but hopefully things get better soon... let me tell you!!!! before the new year came I was only prepared to deal with joon’s big boy summer (or whole year for that matter) and then jungkook comes out NOWHERE, like i was doing good, what do you want from me!!!!!!??? i lost my marbles over that turtleneck manbun live, i can’t actually imagine seeing that now with his blonde hair I’ll just 💃💃→🪦,,,,, but back to the topic of buff joon WE ARE GETTING A LIVE TOMORROW AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i’m so excited for that, i’ve missed him a lot 🤧 also hun i’ve learned it the hard way but i refrain from drinking anything while watching bts perform or like their content, something ALWAYS happens 😭

uhmmm yeah i agree, but i’ve only been making gifs for 6 months 🥴i literally remade the gifs for my recent joon comps a whole of 3 times before i was kinda of satisfied 🤡ooohh i never know about requests cause i don’t think anyone would want to ask me to do something 👀 so i’ll just gif whatever i find 🤪

sweet home was without a doubt of the best series I watched in 2020, and yeah I’ll read the webtoon if they don’t make a second season, but i want the 2nd season SOOOOO BADDDDD , i’m really attached to the characters and i think the actors did a great job too 🥺, on the topic of series? what were you favourite series of 2020?

let’s raise a glass to that “To doing nothing!” 🥂i really feel you, but i’m just pushing myself and basically using my classmates’ motivation to keep me going, and soon i should feel better 😩you should also try to hold on!! no need to do great in school or anything but you’re close to end friend, you’ve got it!

that’s such a great resolution! and you’ve already done a lot of the work by recognizing the patterns, i’m sending you all the support 💖💓💞💖💓💞💖💓💞💖💓💞💖💓💞💖💓💞💖💓💞💖💓💞💖💓💞💖💓💞💖💓💞💖💓💞 and you’re right, be kinder to yourself and happier a little bit every single day and you’ll do great and if you don’t manage on some days that’s okay too love, there’s also kindness and love in letting yourself “fail” sometimes 🥰

oooo for this year I want to finish my first year of uni having passed all of my courses, i wan to get my driver’s license before the summer, move out, learn how to do a backflip lmao, and finish the two songs i have left to complete my ep 😌hmmmm yeah i think that’s all tbh

ahhh god that’s such a hard question T^T , hmmm i would ask a question to my mother, the question would be “Do you regret living your live for you kids?” , i won’t get into the details but she sacrificed A LOT for me and my brother and I would be curious to know how she really feels about it.... what about you? who would it be and what question?

hmmm question of the day, since you like to game, if you got to the chance to have a game made just for you, what would it be and what would you include in it?

#oohh is this the longest answer i've ever written to you 😳#valley's lilies 💞#anontrail #asktrail #tw: depression #tw: mental health

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somnilogical · 5 years ago

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modular "ethics":

a wrong and two rights make a right

<<I've been known to cause outrage by suggesting that people who really care about something shouldn't have romantic relationships. Think what would happen if I dared to suggest that those people should also seriously consider getting castrated. That would be crazy! And who am I to suggest that basically everyone claiming to be doing good is faking it? Then people would feel bad about themselves. We can't have that!>>

https://squirrelinhell.blogspot.com/2018/02/men-have-women-are.html

previously i talked about an infohazard about altruism that seemed to fuck with grognor. it feels useful to pass by the dead and look at their lives and choices.

i dont think that castrating yourself is a good intervention for doing stuff you care about, like this is patchwork constraints for an unaligned optimizer. if you arent altruistically aligned from core values, castrating yourself wont make you more aligned.

the "altruists" having babies thing is actual insane and pasek is right about that. pretty much all of society will try and gaslight you about this the way sometimes people are gaslit about "i need to have sex with lots of attractive fems to keep up my moral so i can do super good stuff afterwards.". like if people want to do good for the world it will flow out as a continuous expression of value not some brent dill kind of deal that institutions like CFAR accepted until there was too much social pressure for them to maintain this facade.

the entire premise that morality is this modular thing and you can help set the utility function of an FAI while being a terrible person, is wrong. yet organizations like CFAR keep thinking it will work out for them:

<<We believe that Brent is fundamentally oriented towards helping people grow to be the best versions of themselves. In this way he is aligned with CFAR’s goals and strategy and should be seen as an ally.

In particular, Brent is quite good at breaking out of standard social frames and making use of unconventional techniques and strategies. This includes things that have Chesterton’s fences attached, such as drug use, weird storytelling, etc. A lot of his aesthetic is dark, and this sometimes makes him come across as evil or machiavellian.

Brent also embodies a rare kind of agency and sense of heroic responsibility. This has caused him to take the lead in certain events and be an important community hub and driver. The flip side of this is that because Brent is deeply insecure, he has to constantly fight urges to seize power and protect himself. It often takes costly signalling for him to trust that someone is an ally, and even then it’s shaky.

Brent is a controversial figure, and disliked by many. This has led to him being attacked by many and held to a higher standard than most. In these ways his feelings of insecurity are justified. He also has had a hard life, including a traumatic childhood. Much of the reason people don’t like him comes from a kind of intuition or aesthetic feeling, rather than his actions per se.

Brent’s attraction to women (in the opinion of the council) sometimes interferes with his good judgement. Brent knows that his judgement is sometimes flawed, and has often sought the help of others to check his actions. Whether or not this kind of social binding is successful is not obvious.>>

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<<AnnaSalamon 2/6/09, 5:54 AM

Aleksei, I don’t know what you think about the current existential risks situation, but that situation changed me in the direction of your comment. I used to think that to have a good impact on the world, you had to be an intrinsically good person. I used to think that the day to day manner in which I treated the people around me, the details of my motives and self-knowledge, etc. just naturally served as an indicator for the positive impact I did or didn’t have on global goodness.

(It was a dumb thing to think, maintained by an elaborate network of rationalizations that I thought of as virtuous, much the way many people think of their political “beliefs”/clothes as virtuous. My beliefs were also maintained by not bothering to take an actually careful look either at global catastrophic risks or even at the details of e.g. global poverty. But my impression is that it’s fairly common to just suppose that our intuitive moral self-evaluations (or others’ evaluations of how good of people we are) map tolerably well onto actual good consequences.)

Anyhow: now, it looks to me as though most of those “good people”, living intrinsically worthwhile lives, aren’t contributing squat to global goodness compared to what they could contribute if they spent even a small fraction of their time/money on a serious attempt to shut up and multiply. The network of moral intuitions I grew up in is… not exactly worthless; it does help with intrinsically worthwhile lives, and, more to the point, with the details of how to actually build the kinds of reasonable human relationships that you need for parts of the “shut up and multiply”-motivated efforts to work… but, for most people, it’s basically not very connected to how much good they do or don’t do in the world. If you like, this is good news: for a ridiculously small sum of effort (e.g., a $500 donation to SIAI; the earning power of seven ten-thousandths of your life if you earn the US minimum wage), you can do more expected-good than perhaps 99.9% of Earth’s population. (You may be able to do still more expected-good by taking that time and thinking carefully about what most impacts global goodness and whether anyone’s doing it.)>>

https://www.greaterwrong.com/posts/4pov2tL6SEC23wrkq/epilogue-atonement-8-8

like opposing this isnt self-denying moral aestheticism or a signalling game of how good you can look (credibly signalling virtue is actually a good thing, i wish more people did it by for instance demonstrating how they win in a way that wouldnt work if they werent aligned. whose power seeded from their alignment.). its like... the alternative where people do things that it makes no sense for an altruist to do and then say that when they go to their day jobs they are super duper altruistic they swear; compartmentalizing in this way ...doesnt actually work.

people who want to obscure what altruism looks like will claim that this is moving around a social schelling point for who is to be ostracized. and that altruism as a characteristic of a brain isnt a cluster-in-reality that you can talk about. because it will be coopted by malicious actors as a laser to unjustly zap people with. these people are wrong.

both EA and CFAR are premised on some sort of CDT modular morality working. it is actually pretending to do CDT optimization because like with brent at each timestep they are pretending to think "how can we optimize utility moving forward?" (really i suspect they are just straight up mindcontrolled by brent, finding ways to serve their master because they used force and the people at CFAR were bad at decision theory) instead of seeking to be agents such that brent when brents plans to predate on people ran through them, he would model it as more trouble than it was worth and wouldnt do this in the first place.

CFAR and EA will do things like allowing someone to predate on women because they are "insightful" or creating a social reality where people with genetic biases who personally devote massive amounts of time and money to babies who happen to be genetically related to them and then in their day job act "altruistically". as long as it all adds up to net positive, its okay right?

but thats not how it works and structures built off of this are utterly insufficient to bring eutopia to sentient life. in just the same way that "scientists" who when they arent at their day jobs are theists are an utterly insufficient to bring eutopia to sentient life.

<<Maybe we can beat the proverb—be rational in our personal lives, not just our professional lives. We shouldn’t let a mere proverb stop us: “A witty saying proves nothing,” as Voltaire said. Maybe we can do better, if we study enough probability theory to know why the rules work, and enough experimental psychology to see how they apply in real-world cases—if we can learn to look at the water. An ambition like that lacks the comfortable modesty of being able to confess that, outside your specialty, you’re no better than anyone else. But if our theories of rationality don’t generalize to everyday life, we’re doing something wrong. It’s not a different universe inside and outside the laboratory.>>

to save the world it doesnt help to castrate yourself and make extra super sure not to have babies. people's values are already what they are, their choices have already been made. these sort of ad-hoc patches are what wrangling an unaligned agent looks like. and the output of an unaligned agent with a bunch of patches, isnt worth much. would you delegate important tasks to an unaligned AI that was patched up after each time it gave a bad output?

it does mean that if after they know about the world and what they can do, people still say that they specifically should have babies, i mark them as having a kind of damage and route around them.

someone not having babies doesnt automatically mark them as someone id pour optimization energy into expecting it to combine towards good ends. the metrics i use are cryptographically secure from being goodharted. so i can talk openly about traits i use to discern between people without worrying about people reading about this and using it to gum up my epistemics.

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lnane · 4 years ago

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I’m gonna be super annoying and ask for the questions in increments of 5 (as in 5,10,15,20 etc) haha please don’t hate me

youre not annoying! i like doing this. i could never hate you, youre too cool <3

5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?

“yes”

10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?

i dont think ive ever actually played the air guitar. i dont play air instruments, like at all. at most i drum on things

15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

honestly it doesnt really matter much. on one hand i like attention, and performing and such. but on the other i also like taking photos of people and things, and being helpful and stuff.

for the sake of the question id say in front

20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

my greatest weakness is probably my instinct to isolate myself from everyone else and refusal to depend on others for help. i always want to be indepentant and i dont know how to ask for help, let alone how to not feel like a bother while doing so. so i often end up just sitting alone not certain what to do.

my greatest strenght is probably that im very funny and sexy as fuck and that i try to treat people with kindness no matter where i go B)

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

talking on the phone, easily. both tire me but video chatting can be extremely exhausting. idk why theres a difference. either way after i always end up zoning out and not being able to pay much attention or distracted and just being silent in general after a while, especially if theres several people on call.

30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.

wall.

air or bed

35: To you, what is the meaning of life?

have fun. do anything that makes you feel fullfilled and happy while causing as little harm to others. the goal of your life should be to, at the end of it, be able to look back and genuinely say “i lived a good life. i am happy with this”. regrets and pain will exist in it, but as long as it has been good for you, overall, you have suceeded.

40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

i dont have a drivers license for a car, but ive had a license for mopeds and tractors since i was 15 (which is when you can get em here in sweden).

ive not really crashed (which is surprising considering how often i basically slept on the moped), but before i got my license and the first time i sat on a moped i drove into a ditch. ive also fallen over a couple times when trying to park.

45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

i have no idea. i think i would say that one time when i was like. 6? 7? something like that and fell from my bed when jumping around playing and hit my forehead on one of the pole things on the bedframe, which was square. still have a visible scar from it.

50: Do you believe in magic?

idk. i want to, but theres also nothing proving its real. im sorta agnostic about it. it can be real and ive just not seen it yet, or its not real. either way, im not gonna know for certain until i see it myself.

55: Love or lust?

i want love, but i think i lust more

60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

oh yes. perfume bottles, pride flags, paint, books, a giftbag, letters, needles, paper, a big dragon eraser, probably way more but im not gonna search my entire room for it

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.

oh geez i suck at and hate this kinda thing. im gonna skip this one :)

70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?

i dont think i am what i ideally want out of a friend, but i do think i am the kind of person that i could get along with and be friends with. we would never talk outside of like, physical meetings tho.

75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?

4778

80: What size shoes do you wear?

42-43 depending on the shoe i think (keep in mind i am swedish we use a different system from yall americans and yall brits)

85: What’s the last song you listened to?

i am currently, as of im writing this question, listening to Alone by The Mowgli’s

by the time ive finished answering to all the questions im listening to Moscow by Autoheart (its such a good song i had to add it)

90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?

try to shoo them out probably. they gotta stink and i dont want their dirt in my room, its enough with mine and the dogs

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

ive answered this one already but ill answer it again! finland. wanna give archie a hug and maybe a kiss on the cheek if theyll let me

#long post #ask thingys answered #hehe this was fun

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lasercruz · 4 years ago

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@quarterdollar fuck you and im sorry that i took so long to answer and i hope that im mostly coherent because i am. very tired as im typing this

1: Full name Nicky Jackie Marie Cruz !!

2: Age 21

3: 3 Fears Mold, tall heights if I’m not secured (like, I’m not scared of rollercoaster heights but I’m scared of like, cliffs), and balloons esp balloon animals

4: 3 things I love I love so many things uhh hh h. Jjba, adventure zone, and my friendssss 💞

I know turn ons/offs aren’t inherently sexual but i never know what to say for them so im skipping them :0

7: My best friend you 🥺🥺

8: Sexual orientation bi

9: My best first date ive never really been on a actual date :0

10: How tall am I 5′3

11: What do I miss being with my friends physically and just watching stuff or goofing around on the floor 😭

12: What time were I born 11:02pm

13: Favourite color Dark blues

14: Do I have a crush yes shh

15: Favourite quote there so much sappy quotes that are on uquizzes a lot that i like a lot the first that comes to mind is “ You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won’t tell you that he loves you, but he loves you.” and so on and also “if i loved you less i might be able to talk about it more”

16: Favourite place As far as just physically and not like people or other stuff that comes with with a place, I miss VT campus a lot tbh more than I thought I would. To pick a more specific place, the gazebo at the duck pond cause its where I’d go if I wanted to be alone or like if my roommate was sleeping or working and i didnt want to worry about being quite and it was always super peaceful

17: Favourite food I dont really have One favorite food it just depends what I’m in the mood for but my go to answer for favorite food category wise is either chinese or seafood

18: Do I use sarcasm Depends who I’m with ?? Generally no not often but if im close with someone and just goofin yeah

19: What am I listening to right now My love song playlist. its my go to thing to listen to cause my playlist with all my music has so much on it that i end up skipping half the songs until i find something im in the mood for and this one has a lot less that i end up skipping. the current song its on is day without you by keep for cheap

20: First thing I notice in new person It depends on the person like if they have something that stands out about them, thats what I tend to notice but like. How they carry themself i guess ? cause i feel like thats a easy way to get a read on somebody before talking to them

21: Shoe size 5 mens / 7 womans

22: Eye color Brown

23: Hair color Naturally dark brown but currently dyed black with rainbow bangs

24: Favourite style of clothing this question is on so many ask games and quizzes and I never know how to answer it cause i feel like i dont really have one specific style,, I like colorful and fun stuff i guess ?

25: Ever done a prank call? No and if you prank call a place of business youre annoying. i used to answer phones at work and we didn’t get them super often but GOD i hate prank callers

27: Meaning behind my URL emu is an old nickname and what i mainly went by until i settled on Nicky and this. is my blog.

28: Favourite movie Baby driver !!

29: Favourite song my go to answer for this is community gardens by the scary jokes

30: Favourite band THE SCARY JOKES

31: How I feel right now sleeby,,,,

32: Someone I love i love , my friendz ,, 🥺🥰

33: My current relationship status single ✌️

34: My relationship with my parents im close to my mom but i dont really get along with my dad ,

35: Favourite holiday Christmas !

36: Tattoos and piercing i have no tattoos, 3 piercings in each ear (2 on each earlobe and 1 on the top on each side)

37: Tattoos and piercing i want I want a interrobang on my wrist and an Aquarius symbol on my ankle and MAYBE the joestar birthmark, i wouldn’t mind more ear piercings and i want a septum piercing but ive seen videos of them getting done and they make me squirm i dont know if id go through with it

38: The reason I joined Tumblr sdklgkjgh i had a my little pony roleplay blog before i made my personal account

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? no we’re good friends !!

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? no not regularly at least

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? no

42: When did I last hold hands? my mom tried to hold my hand when i was half asleep on the couch the other day but like i was so out of it so like it was more our fingers together and the rest of my hand just loosely dangling so if that doesnt count, you

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? i give myself about 2 hours if im doing full makeup but thats purposefully longer than i need so i dont have to worry about rushing and i can relax and take my time

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? no i only shave them if they’re gonna be showing or if the Urge to be Smooth comes over me

45: Where am I right now? my room at home on my bed

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? probably Kaylie cause she doesn’t drink and i assume if im drunk with other friends there she’d be the only sober one

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? Reasonable, if i have it too loud i cant think so the only time i have my music loud is if im doing nothing and want to Not Think

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? Ye

49: Am I excited for anything? short term im excited for the ai crushes all banks stream tonight and long term im excited to move into our apartment

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? no im not a tell everything to someone type of person .

51: How often do I wear a fake smile? i smile most of the time like, at work (before we wore masks) id always be smiling to look nice and like. just in general if i want to Not Look Unhappy or whatever

52: When was the last time I hugged someone? my mom probably like, yesterday

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? ive never kissed any1 .

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? nope i don’t think i really trust easily so like this doesnt rlly happen,

55: What is something I disliked about today? i woke up late cause i was up late last night so ive been tired all day I dont like the feeling

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? language barriers aside itd be super cool to meet hirohiko araki

57: What do I think about most? Whatever media im currently most into so right now adventure zone and magnus archives

58: What’s my strangest talent? umm i dunno im kinda flexable i guess ? not like ~contortionist~ level but like enough that i can freak people out sometimes

59: Do I have any strange phobias? i mentioned balloons as a fear in an eariler question so yeah that but im a lot better about it than i used to be

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? in front tbh

61: What was the last lie I told? i was on phones for the last hour and a half of my shift on friday and like. when people call and ask if an item is in stock and i can’t confirm it i, just tell them its not. like, someone asked if we had a specific kayak and i usually just search the walmart app or run over to where itd be to check but the kayaks are to far for me to run to and the app said limited stock which usually means little to none so , i just put it on hold for a bit then tell him we’re out.

62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? i like video chatting in theory cause its nice to see people visibly react to stuff but i tend to get too self conscious about how i look so i just do audio only

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? yes to both !! i am both

64: Do I believe in magic? yes in some ways i suppose

65: Do I believe in luck? yes im v superstitious

66: What’s the weather like right now? its a pretty good day its sunny but not too hot :oo

67: What was the last book I’ve read? its been ages since i last read a book in full 😔 i honestly dont knwo what the last one would of been 😔 😔

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? yes !!! love it

69: Do I have any nicknames? not anything i get consistently called no

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? ive never gotten super hurt that i can think of ??

71: Do I spend money or save it? save it

72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? no

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? doppio bean plush ,,,,

74: Favourite animal? hedgehogs!!!!

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? on my phone probably on tiktok or something waiting for jojo to come on toonami

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? I? dont think he has one i guess ??

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? butterflies by samsa but it makes me happy in the “im crying now” kinda way itss cute

78: How can you win my heart? just by being nice and respectful tbh ,

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? idk i dont really want anything fancy just my name (chosen name please god im so scared of dying and geting my birth name on my tombstone if that happens i WILL come back as a vengeful ghost) and my birth and death dates

80: What is my favorite word? saccharine

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr by my tumblr crushes (which its been YEARS since i looked at) ; frostios, 27names4tears, smollpurrito, happynaru, and warpedlamp

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? if we being real id just get so scared dsjkfsldjglg theres so much i could say i dont know :((

83: Do I have any relatives in jail? not ? that i know of

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? why are all the questions worded super basic except this one skdlskdjfj. Shape shifting

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? i can really think of anything really as long as a friend is asking i tend to answer truthfully ?

86: What is my current desktop picture? Sobble BUT this reminded me that i wanted to change it to a xenoblade pic so its this now :

90: Failed a class? no

91: Kissed a boy? no

92: Kissed a girl? no

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? no but oh god just thinking about that im 🥺🥺🥺🥺 id die id melt 🥺🥺

94: Had job? ye i was a cashier for a year in highschool and then i work in wamlart apparel in the summers

95: Left the house without my wallet? not when I know ill need it no, but ive left it home if im just going to a friend or family member’s house or i have my mom’s card or some cash in my pocket

96: Bullied someone on the internet? no !!

98: Played on a sports team? no lmao i dont do sports

99: Smoked weed? no

100: Did drugs? i had a weed brownie like once but it was such a small piece i didnt really feel anything

101: Smoked cigarettes? no

102: Drank alcohol? Ye

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? not currently i was vegan for a little bit to encourage a friend that was doing it though

104: Been overweight? no

105: Been underweight? no

106: Been to a wedding? yes three, my grandma’s when she got remarried, and both my brothers

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? probably yes lmao often

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? not TV TV but if netflix and the like count then yes

109: Been outside my home country? no :(

110: Gotten my heart broken? not ? really no

111: Been to a professional sports game? ive been to a handful of Yankee games

112: Broken a bone? no

114: Been to prom? yes i went to my highschool’s and a friend’s highschool’s my senior year

115: Been in airplane? no

116: Fly by helicopter? no

117: What concerts have I been to? none :((((

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? ye

119: Learned another language? i took 3 years of Spanish in high school but i wasn’t any good at it and dont really remember much of what i did learn

120: Wore make up? yes i do often :0

123: Dyed my hair? ye a lot

124: Voted in a presidential election? yes ever since iv been old enough to i vote

125: Rode in an ambulance? no

126: Had a surgery? dental surgery yes

127: Met someone famous? Not anyone i’d count no

128: Stalked someone on a social network? depends on what you count as stalking i guess but like not ever in a creepy way like ive been on people’s social media to find out stuff about them like. if theyre in a relationship or especially after highschool ill wonder about someone i havent talked to in awhile and ill see what theyve been up to and what theyre doing with their life and stuff

129: Peed outside? no

130: Been fishing? yes like once

131: Helped with charity? donation wise yes

132: Been rejected by a crush? ive never confessed to anyone and been rejected but once a friend told my crush i liked them and they confronted me about it and rejected me but it made me more mad at the friend that told them than it made me sad about being rejected because i knew it’d probably go like that and it justmade thing awkward between us for awhile 😔

133: Broken a mirror? ive broken the little mirrors inside eyeshadow pallets but i havent broken full ones

134: What do I want for birthday? usually just money lol or something thoughtful and cute

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? i aggresivly do NOT want kids BUT hypohetically Elliot or Xander for a boy and idk what i’d nam a girl

136: Was I named after anyone? no

137: Do I like my handwriting? its messy so no not really but if im writing something for myself like a not or whatever i dont mind as long as i can read it

138: What was my favourite toy as a child? even as a little kid i always played computer games but other than that, this guy :

139: Favourite Tv Show? Jojo

140: Where do I want to live when older? New york or japan

141: Play any musical instrument? i can kind of play harmonica

142: One of my scars, how did I get it? i burnt my thumb kinda bad on the oven a while ago its still kinda healing but right now it looks like its gonna stay a scar

143: Favourite pizza toping? i like everything/suprieme pizza but if i have to pick one single topping pepperoni

144: Am I afraid of the dark? yes :((

145: Am I afraid of heights? mentioned it earlier but yes if im not strapped in or secured etc

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? no im so scared of being caught doing something bad that i just. dont

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? i mean yes but thats life babey

149: What my greatest achievments are ive gotten awards for grades and stuff but that boring BUT i got the english department award or whatever that was called im very proud of that

151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery i donate some and save the rest tbh

152: What do I like about myself i can be pretty sometimes 👉👈 im cute or whateva ,,,

153: My closest Tumblr friend i dont really havent “tumblr friends” aside from friends i know irl and also tey have tumblrs ,,

154: Something I fantasise about just. growing up and having my own place maybe with someone and. being comfortable and okay and not having to worry ,,

155: Any question you’d like? dkfjhdskhf japan :000

#ask #mine

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spideyjlaw · 6 years ago

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My Avengers Endgame World Premiere experience

this is really long, lota rambling feel free to read skim anything idc, no spoilers bc this was on Monday before I saw the movie :)

Ok Ima start Saturday night, this is when I was packing making and painting my posters that said “Thank You Avengers”, I live in California so I didn’t have to fly to this event. At 12am we (my family) we arrive in Los Angeles around 5am. At this time I thought that the premiere was going to be at El Capitan Theatre where it was originally supposed to be. We drive by the theater and we see no one is in line which was weird bc normally there would be people here already so i search and find the location which was switched last min (smh) the drive to the next location wasnt too long but at least i knew i was at the right location bc of the small group of fans and the giant poster that said Avengers Endgame World Premiere. Apparently they changed the location bc they needed a larger screening room and they didnt want tons of fans showing up, there were these girls that were waiting at the El Capitan for 2 hours before they realized something was up. Anyway, we get in line. People who were in charge told the people who stayed over night to go home bc there wasnt going to be a fan area. No one left ofc who would hell no. Then some people went on twitter to talk about it made signs it was confusing but we ended up in a fan area after going through security. We got into the fan area at 12 ish and we had to stand there for another 4 and a half hours before anything exciting happens. Now its around 4pm people are starting to arrive. (THIS IS WHEN THE ACTION STARTS) Benedict Wong then Joe Russo. Not many came all the way down the line, I was the last one on the line before it wrapped around the corner. But I did want to get barricade and able to see action so Im grateful for my spot. Then Anthony Mackie arrives he’s walking to end of the fan area around the small corner but as hes walking right as he gets near me i scream at the top of my lungs, he stops right in front of me and i go “AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!ANTHONYYYYY MACKiE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!” he looks at me biggest smile. We had a whole moment together its hard to explain its kinda like a ‘you had to be there moment’ i was the longest person probably a good 20 seconds (which is a long ass time in these times when they are in a rush) he was at and while im screaming and fangirling he air grabs my head to fucking sign my forehead i closed my eyes and accepted it he didnt do it ofc but he was just a fun guy i love him soooo much he signs my posters while saying “There’s no black guy on here” (i did an original 6 themed avengers poster) but he signed than signed my bosslogic poster which he was in. paul rudd comes by hes just a rocking dude i love scott lang sm, he was so sweets v cool guys sm love for him. Then at around 5pm Chris freaking Hemsworth arrives I loose my shit and so does everyone else. Just like Joe, Benedict Wong & Anthony he also went around the corner to make sure they got all of the fans (thank u to all who did this). Ive loved Hemsie for the longest time, i did get teary eyed but i didnt cry (yet) he was just the sweetest I was able to take a crappy photo with him bc i wasnt able to function properly as i took the pic my dumbass was like “iLOvEyoUsOmUCh” its oka cause he has the cutest smile and the bluest eyes oh and i cant stress enough he smelled so good sooooo good normally i hate when guys coat themselves in cologne cause it smells bad, but his didnt, his smelled so good i was so shook like chris drop what cologne u used idc its for guys mama neeeddds. THEN IT hAPPENEd CHRISTOPHER ROBERT EVANS DRIVES BY. Everyone was like “omg is that chris evans?!” I stand on the barricade to see if i can catch a peak, istg the moment the fucking moment he gets out the car i start to bawl my eyes out. This man who has meant more to me than anyone is over there i couldnt believe i was seeing my favorite human ever. I’ve only sobbed right as i saw my fave once before back in 2016 at the Passengers premiere when I met Jennifer Lawrence. People dont really understand the moment like this person has inspired me so much of course im going to cry and sure judge me for it but they helped me through so much. Anyway he looked soo hot in his blue suit and sunglasses. I kinda calm down bc i didnt know if he was going to come all the way down the line and yk my ass wanted a pic but he was cut half way though the people which was upsetting but again im extremely grateful to be able to see him. Then my main fucking man. Sebastian Stan arrives. see ive met the guy before last year at ace comic con (there was tea w my photo op being really messy and i hated it i got a refund u can read about that on my ace comic con post). anyway i see him. i dont cry im trying to wipe my tears i was more prepared cause ive seen him before it was gonna be ok. I lose my shit the man was wearing a baby blue pastel colored suit. fucking beautiful. iconic. very hot of you mr seb ty. hes walking down and hes getting close. he wasnt to smiley, he was taking pics but he was focused on the fans signing for as many fans as possible. He gets to me and he sees our pics then he looks u so we could take a pic and his smile just transforms you can just see his face just glow up it was the truly the cutest this ive ever experience. then we look up from the pic and hes smiling at me i tell him “I love you so much” i hear him chuckle but as he says something his security guy yells “thank you that enough” so ill be posting the vid of us and any lip readers can help a girl out ill love you forever. I ended up being Sebs last person from the fan area. he truly made my day, week fucking year. then other celebs such as jon favreau, benedict cumberbatch comes by. Jeremy Renner comes by. I shoot my shot and make small talk w Jeremy. I go “Hi Jermey how’s your day going?” he goes “I’m doing really good, how bout you?” he signs my things i excitingly tell him “I’m doing great thank you” then he goes “Thank you honey” and smiles at me. It made me really happy, i could tell he was a bit tired but Jeremy is such a sweetheart he doesnt get the credit he deserves i love him sm, ive always has a little part of my heart for Hawkeye. minutes go by. I see Lizzie Olsen, Danai Gurira, beautiful ofc. then i see fucking Mark Ruffalo hes just standing behind one of the SUVs and the sun is on him. He looked like a confused puppy it was so cute and soft, i love my ruffalo buffalo. I took my moment to scream “iS THat MARK ruFFALO?” i dont think he signed for many fans. Scarjo arrives she doesnt sign for many either she looked beautiful v pretty. a little while passes than the most bitching car comes by and stops where the cars stop until the drop off area clears and they can go. we all knew who ever was in that car he was important. then it was his time to go cause the drop off area was cleared. guess who was in the drivers seat. You guessed right. Robert Downey Jr rolling up in an Audi E-TRON, with his wife Susan Downey in the passenger seat. Truly the Tony Stark entrance. he doesnt sign for many ofc. at this time it was getting later near 6pm almost all celebs and guests are inside where the actual premiere set up is. then Vin Diesel comes in. He was the most fan based guy. even though he was running late he ran (literally speed walking) through the whole line of fans around the corner and everything. he had the biggest smile on. wearing his groot jacket. and if u dont know fast and furious are one of my fave franchises of all time so i was having the best time. then that was the last person and we started heading out. i didnt name all who ive seen since there was just to many and i probably missed some things but i loved my experience. i was able to see all the original avengers irl and that made me really happy. this whole cast means the world to me. ill love them forever

#:)#ty to the ones who read #i didnt re read it so if there's any typos oh well ig #avengers endgame world premiere #Endgame prem!

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