#also it’s shabbat and i’ve been rly wanting to actually observe it for like a month now and i never get to bc Something comes up that | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

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ranting as my dog given right this fine disability pride month (altho i’m feeling more disability shame rn)

my mom asked if i wanted to get smth for dinner and i was like “i don’t rly have the energy to go out but i would order smth for pickup/delivery” bc ik i pushed myself a bit too hard the past few days (today Esp)

and altho i appreciate it bc i haven’t been able to afford to get food anywhere in a Hot minute, i’m like Wow i rly don’t have the energy to call somewhere or even go into a restaurant to pick up food and i’m also just feeling v arfid-y esp around meat and things that might mess up my stomach and anyway i just wish that shit wasn’t so fuckin complicated and i wish my mom could understand how complicated even something as simple as getting food is for me and just like idk offer to pick it up. i hate having elderly parents who don’t know how to function in the world on their own

#also it’s shabbat and i’ve been rly wanting to actually observe it for like a month now and i never get to bc Something comes up that #i feel obligated to do and then i have to wait another week etc.#and i’ve had like zero actual rest days this week bc i’ve been trying to get myself out of the house #which has helped my mental state but i’m just So exhausted #it’s almost as if having chronic Fatigue syndrome on top of another disability makes u idk Tired? from doing things?#crazy stuff ik #also like bitch i don’t even have clean clothes to wear that i won’t sweat in bc for some reason it’s still 80 degrees at 7pm #and i was planning on doing laundry tomorrow. also on shabbat. kms this shit is too complicated i give up

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