#also in the market for a gf if anyone wants a bf lol

[a-housein-nebraska]

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[fallingsunflower]

So, I guess here comes the Camille ☕️ (if you wanna call it that)

Sorry in advance this gonna be a fucking long one.

If you have any questions just ask.

I honestly don’t know if I should be impressed or concerned that my brain still remembers so much details about this shitshow. But I guess their plan did work in the end.

So you asked about Camille. I honestly don’t even know where to start with that one. I don’t know for how long you’ve been a fan of Harry and how intensively you stan him, but this one send my bullshit detector right off in the same way that Holivia does.

Can’t really explain it but I just smell if something isn’t right. It’s not only that way with Harry but in general. I just KNOW if something doesn’t add up.

The reason hamille wasn’t overdone and ppl believe it was bc it was marketed to be real. It wasn’t for promo in the sense Holivia is or to be shoved in ppls faces. The point was to have a relationship to fall back on when his album came out to be the “long term relationship” described in the songs. To have a certain narrative if you want to call it that.

They only were papped 2 (+the time at the Classic East concert.) They went to really popular places where you only go to when you want to get papped.

Other than that they only posted „sneaky fanpics“ which was on purpose to make them look „private“ but they were anything but that.

I actually had saved so much stuff as proof till recently when I deleted it all bc it honestly has been 3 years and I didn’t think I needed it anymore to help me explain lol. And please don’t make the mistake of looking up Hamille timelines, bc they’re all created by shipper afterwards so 95% of the shit is wrong, in the wrong order or they added the wrong pics to certain events. (If you want to look for pics, specific dates and stuff look them up individually and NOT through shipper pages or similar shit.)

Alright, back to explaining why it was so obvious. Disclaimer: I‘m just gonna point out the most obvious things but there is way more.

Harry started following Camille back in June 2016. They have several mutual friends (Waseem, Alexa Chung, Matt Hitt etc) so I assume they‘ve met before. She didn’t follow back though till shortly before the „relationship“ started. So after Harry followed her in 2016 she started to tag him in posts of her and her friends ass and did that video moaning his name while grabbing her boobs (classy 🤢). Shortly afterwards Harry unfollowed for a while and started follow her again before the mess began.

Fast forward to 2017. After doing „Dunkirk“ and about to bring his debut album out they started the first attempt at what I call a failed narrative with Tess. Not gonna go over that again bc one anon pointed out right how fake it was. They got rid of her rather quickly after she posted several times from his house which wasn’t the „private way“ they intended it to go.

So they were looking for someone to replace her. Cue Camille entering the scene.

Perfect person for the narrative as she’s half french (goes well with Dunkirk promo), is a VS model, have mutual friends and she has several ex bf who have written songs/albums about her. She’s the picture perfect muse for his second album.

Please let’s first talk about chemistry and body language bc I can’t even say how awkward they always were around each other. First the two pap pics from the sushi place and in front of the gym/ yoga place: both times both had closed off body language either crossed arms, Harry walking 3 steps ahead, faces didn’t look pleased at all and rather irritated or as of they just had a fight/ were in the middle of a fight (especially the pic from in front of the yoga place). No touching or anything involved in any pap pics. If you didn’t knew they were supposedly „dating“ you wouldn’t see it.

Let’s get to their behavior at the „sightings“: they weren’t seen much together outside of touring. But when they were seen we got pics in like 95% of the cases and people meeting them always said they didn’t seem like a couple (apart from shippers who made up shit about them all the time).

Even in every „sneaky pic“ there was as much chemistry as in Holivia -> none!

We got a few pics or even videos were you could see them backstage or besides the stage (e.g. 2017 Toronto show: while Muna is on stage Harry and Camille stand awkwardly 3 feet apart from each other, both closed off body language, not interacting with each other. You’d think as they were still in their honeymoon phase at that time and in private, seemingly not knowing that anyone could see them that they acted more coupley or at least would not stand there like 🧍🏻 🧍🏻. (Have you seen him interact with Xander while watching 1D’s opening act? Total opposite to Hamilel and they were „just friends“. Also in other pics Harry would rather cling to her bag / coat etc that he was holding so he didn’t had to touch her or anything. I think the only time we saw them „touch“ was that Classic east concert („relationship debut“) when he awkwardly held her shoulders and she was swaying weirdly. She even tried to touch him or get him to sway with her but he shot that down immediately 🤣. I could go on for longer but you get what I mean...

The next weird thing is, that she was down in literally the pit or sitting with „regular fans“ 97% of the time. Without Harry’s bodyguard around. Sometimes Jeff was with her but mostly she stood there alone. Everyone knew that she wasn’t really popular and liked around fans, so why would you put your gf in the pit with all the crazys or why would you as a gf want to be in the crowd at most shows when you could watch from the side of the stage or backstage? Also the fact that we always knew when she was at a show because she was always „spotted“ even the few times she was indeed staying at the side of the stage, she didn’t stay hidden. Sometimes we even joked about how she wanted to be part of the band or something by how close she stood there in the open. But whenever Anne for example was on tour or close friends of his or whatever they always had someone walking with them for protection and Anne never was like „in the pit“ like Camille. She never followed any of Harry‘s close private friends or family. Only people who she could gain something from. Like Lambert, Jeff, Teasedale, the Crawford’s etc. And she was never at any of the London or Manchester shows where basically all of his friends and family were. Even though she would have had definitely time bc she posted herself and friends doing nothing or trolling in LA all the time in that time. When she was at that show in Paris in 2018, she brought her friend who lives in Paris and her cousin I think. We got backstage pics of them all and Harry and Camille staying as far away from each other in that pic as possible. She was seen leaving as well after that show with her friends out through the main entrance. This was also the show Anne was at and an awkward hugging video of them both came out. Tbh it’s not clear where Camille and co were sitting bc they moved around the arena the whole night. At one point you can see Anne and Camille standing next to each other and all of a sudden Camille was „hugging“ Anne but Anne was so surprised that she was just standing there like 🧍🏼‍♀️ and waited till it was over (that „hug“ looked more like as if Camille tried to tackle Anne 😂). Also serious question and not to make it sound weird, but it deadass looked in that video as if Camille just waited for a sign to go for that hug and that it was being recorded. Because the way the camera was pointing at them all of a sudden and they were just lucky enough to catch that on camera? Yeah sure...

Not to forget, she didn’t seem to have a lanyard like for example Anne had, so everyone would knew that she could move around the arena and crew as she wanted which is fucking weird not to have as a girlfriend especially if you’re apparently on tour for many dates. This also mean she couldn’t join them when she wanted but had to contact Jeff or Harry before so they could give her a lanyards for that specific date or a sticker with AAA. Sometimes she wore a lanyard but that was literally the VIP lanyard that you got when you bought a VIP ticket like any other fan. Didn’t mean she could move freely around the venue. Even weirder is that she put that AAA sticker on the back of her phone after she left tour 2018 and placed it obviously in lots of her insta stories and posts on insta (one where you can see that sticker is still up). Fan behavior not that of a real girlfriend!

Camilles mum followed Hamille shipper accounts at one point and liked a post of them. After that shippers were unbearable. Which mum follows a shipper account on insta? 😬

What I also find weird is that she was barely working and when she did she posted only like 2 about it. I mean it’s part of her job to post stuff like that?! But she went radio silent more often then not to let fans guess if she was with him or if she would turn up somewhere.

Her friends who are all are well in their 30s or older made often „jokes“ about Harry or implied stuff about him or 1D and posted this on their stories and she was laughing with them most of the time... what a girlfriend huh...

Another thing is, she was never at his house in London. Because she was never at any of the UK dates besides that one gig he did for X -factor. They were not much in London at the same time. And when she was alone in London or with her friend, they literally stayed at an AirBnB or a hotel. So I ask you, why would she as his gf of a few months not stay at his place while she’s in the UK? Or that one time when she was in the UK making it look like she was waiting for him coming back from tour in Asia and he stayed extra long there (a week or two) even after tour in Asia finished and she was in London. But he went rather out partying in London. I don’t blame him.

When she was at his show in Milan (2017) she met a „fan“ and they took a selfie in the restroom (classy 🥴🤐) during the concert. Idk but this is one thing which is really questionable bc people were speculating she was at this show but we hadn’t gotten pics yet. So that she then took a pic with a „fan“ coincidentally seems really fishy to me. Also that said „regular fan“ had allegedly floor tickets as you could see in the videos and pics she posted in the beginning of the concert. But after the pic with Camille she all of sudden appeared on the balcony as well, close to where Camille and more VIP guests were. So how did she end up there if she didn’t have connections or was told to take a pic with her so then being on the balcony was her „reward“? To add this woman was close to Camilles age so this scenario makes just less and less sense the longer you think about it.

In May she was still on tour with her then bf in Tokio. In July just two weeks before they were seen together for the first time that awkward Grimmy interview happened. Where he specifically asked about her. And Harry said he „ didn’t know her“. Fucking weird to bring up such a private topic on radio and then be seen not even 2 weeks later. (Not gonna argue on that one, it’s the same like the wedding weekend pap walk just more subtle).

Then there were so many pics of him backstage at that concert, pics with fans, official pics, „sneaky fan sightings“ in the audience... He looked rather uncomfortable holding her shoulders while she was dancing. We know Harry goes often to concerts but when did we ever get so many pics from one? Mostly it’s a blurry pic of him or one backstage pic with the artist, not like the ones we got and certainly not that many. Plus we got an relationship article the day after.

Funny is also how he was on vacation in Muskoka with the Gerbers and Anne at the end of July 2017 shortly before the first spotting of Hamille and Camille no where to be seen.

Now I‘m gonna point out inconsistencies and such might be in chronological order, might be not.

I think the next time we saw them was a „sneaky fan pic“ (just the two of them) without a source from Beverly Hills hotel at lunch. Her friend Lauren posted a instastory being at that hotel right then and there and deleted the story like 5 minutes afterwards. She wasn’t in the pic of the „fan“ so my bet is she was the one taking the pic.

Coming to the stunt props. The „ring“ he was suddenly wearing on his pinky was from Camille. She only wore it once for a photoshoot in 2013 and then all of a sudden she wore it in every story she posted for the next 2 weeks right BEFORE he was wearing it and literally made such a show out of showing that ring that it was so cringey to watch at.

Not to forget his Pink Floyd shirt that was featured in his Rolling Stones mag interview that she not only wore but posted a few instastorys with showing it up close so every Harry fan could identify it from the distinctive holes in it.

Funny was the times she wore „his necklace“ and again posted several stories wearing it and even went to an event with it that Kendall wore before. After people pointed the connection to Kendall out, she never wore it again 😂😂 Harry being papped leaving a gym while wearing Camilles ex shirt was peak comedy.

Camille making a post saying „goodbye“ to her friend Lauren before Christmas in a really distinctive fur coat. Then New Years dinner pics with Jeff, Camille and co came out. Harry looking bored as always around her. Then the weirdest thing: he took fan pics while holding Camilles distinctive fur coat in his hands in every fucking pic. And it wasn’t that cold to wear a fur coat! Why couldn’t she hold it herself while he took the pics or Jeff or put it on the chair beside him? That wasn’t really slick of them.

Then Camille having a girls trip to Corsica and literally posting so fucking often being girls only in cars an what not. Harry was in London out with Mitch and was also seen on other occasions so I assume he went to Corsica for maybe 2 days max to get pics in. (Her cousin/ goddaughter of her mum posted a pic with Harry in Corsica in 2018 from that time). Mind you they could have just „dating“ for maybe 5 week’s max at that time bc they were never at the same place at the same time before maybe late June, and that’s when Robin died and he was home so I doubt that’s when they met. I assume 1.st proper meeting was in early July or after the Grimmy interview.

Harry filmed the Manchester special for his album in Manchester literally right before he went to HC with Camille. Yet Grimmy, one of his best friends at least at that time, never followed her or hung out together.

The next thing is her being in Holmes Chapel. She hinted at it on insta, like she did EVERY time she would be around Harry. Also appearing in every pic of him in the background when she was around. Even posted a story of random people with Harry’s voice in the background. That’s also a point why it was so obviously fake.

She posted in a train and captioned it with something like „England ❤️“ and then a cow (similar to Olivia with the hedgehog and caption) and then appeared in every pic we got of him that weekend.

She turned up to several of his shows, yet NEVER to his hometown shows (neither London or Manchester) where all his family and friends were at. She also only followed people beneficial to her career like Lambert, Jeff and co but never anyone of his real friends or family even though Gemma followed her after Christmas 2017 (which was taken as the „proof“ that they spend Christmas in HC🤦🏻‍♀️ and we got this photoshopped pic of Hamille which turned out was an old pic of originally Harry and Gemma. Glenne also never followed her and Camille was also never seen with Glenne it was only ever Jeff around and people noticed that (probably why we got now the joyride etc including Glenne).

Ok so what do we have next? The charity gig where his mum celebrated her 50th bday with everyone wearing a yellow flower crown. Everyone besides Camille. She wasn’t invited and just was brought to them while Harry was already singing a song, Gemma looking annoyed in the video her friend posted. Before Harry’s set was over someone came and took Camille with them again while Anne, Gemma and co stayed in the crowd. So why was she even going to them and didn’t stay backstage if she clearly wasn’t invited to celebrate with Anne and co and left before Harry even finished his set. We got also pics of a bday dinner with Anne, Harry, Gemma and all the friends from the concert but without Camille. This was also the gig where he was groped on stage.

After that charity gig in late October Harry went to tour in Europe. He stopped wearing the ring and seemed happier than before somehow. I went to the Cologne show and let me tell you, it was fucking nuts! His energy and the way he was smirking all the time not to forget Kiwi twice.

You’d think Camille would have been quiet now on sm that Harry wasn’t around, but it was exactly the opposite! It was like as if she had to remind everyone that that „relationship“ was still „on“ after he ditched that ring bc she was literally unbearable on insta. We got her and friends singing SOTT on karaoke (while she was wearing the Kendall necklace like mentioned previously), then she did a whole photoshoot (sorry but that’s just what it was) with her friends Djuna + Nik whit a very distinctive blue totebag Harry was carrying around just a week or two before while meeting fans in LA and she did the same thing like she did with the ring and posed with that bag in every angle. As if all that wasn’t enough in the space of 3 days she then celebrated Halloween with her friends and 2 or 3 of them wore costumes that reminded of 1D and Harry. All this happened between his cologne show and Halloween. Trolling at its best.

Then Camille decided to turn up to tour in Europe but she didn’t choose days when he actually had time off (even though she evidently didn’t do anything in LA besides trolling the last few days) so she decided to pop up when Harry had shows back to back and needed to travel to them as they were all over Europe. He had two more Berlin 7.11. and an event in London on the 6th) before she turned up on 8.11. in Amsterdam where she met Ella his cousin who followed Camille then (but Camille never followed back), 9.11. Italy x-factor, 10.11. Milan , 11.11. London X-Factor). He clearly didn’t have any time then which gets even more ridiculous if you know that she was back in LA by Monday the 13th the latest bc a photographer „exposed“ her being on set early that day. So why did she even bother turning up to tour that time when she could have done earlier and be at his homeshows?

Another thing is, when Harry went to NYC at the end of January 2018 to perform with Fleetwood Mac he didn’t take her instead he took Jeff and Xander was there as well. But no Camille. Right before was one of the rare times they got papped. Harry as always looking irritated around her. And them looking as if the soccer mom collected her son from practice😂

On his b-day her friend Lauren posted Camille chilling at their home reading and hanging out with her. Harry was officially MIA but a good friend of mine actually saw him while walking her dog the next day in Hampstead rather covered up with another guy (assuming his trainer or PA) trying not to be seen. She is not a huge fan of Harry and only knows him bc I‘ m a fan but she texted me right away saying something was weird about how he was trying to not be seen.

And on cue allegedly someone (real estate Agent from London) said he was on her flight to London over a week later (even though I knew he was already there for a while).

So the last time they were actually seen together was the day they were papped (I think that was even the day of the Grammys).

Then the thing about her quitting smoking bc she was „ dating“ Harry 🤣🤣. The way she even lied about that. She posted a video and made a few instastorys throughout that year to say how long she didn’t smoke at that time „bla, bla, bla“ and Harries ate that shit up. She was caught so many times lying in regards to that. Her friends and co were the ones to always expose her accidentally. She appeared in so many stories in her friends stories were she smoked a cigarette and not „just“ a juul like she always liked to pretend (not that a juul would be any better lol). Harry probably didn’t like it when he had to be around her for longer periods of time and she would smoke around him or smell of smoke so she had to pretend she cared for his sake and quit publicly. To say is also that she publicly started smoking again after she came back from tour end of March/beginning of April 2018.

Now speaking of the big tour in 2018. Camille seemed to had joined tour again at some point. She was at the Paris show like mentioned earlier but then only joined tour 2 dates or something later in. Someone „exposed“ her of staying with friends in each city she went on tour with at that time instead of staying with him. I think he also got fed up with her bc Harry & band + some of the crew went to museums in each city. But of course Camille had to post something every time they were at a museum and so it didn’t take long till fans caught on and turned up en masse in these museums so he couldn’t go there anymore. I would have been pissed too if I were him. And girls who’s dad is the director of one of the museums did meet Harry at the museum and he invited them to the show and backstage. These girls said Harry and Camille didn’t look or behave like a couple at the museum, he was mostly around the band and she on her own. And backstage the same thing. She was kinda just there and nothing more. Not long after that she left tour and only turned up at the Ireland show and then later the NYC and LA one.

Speaking of the Ireland show, that must have been the most awkward thing ever. I saw a few videos from people who did constantly film the side of the stage and she is staying alone there with the sound guys while Mabel was performing and Harry was standing backstage with Jeff and the band, watching Mabel and preparing for their prank they did on Mabel.

Twice Harry is walking past Camille and didn’t even acknowledge her. She was once again just standing there. You could almost feel bad for her, but only almost. Then he went to prank Mabel on stage with the rest of the band and was so affectionate with Mabel something you never saw him be with Camille.

After that show the trolling did turn down a bit for a while but like 2 days before the concert she posted a Mick Jagger pic and everyone knew she would turn up in NYC. And she proved us right bc she posted about being on a plane the minute she stepped foot in said plane 🤦🏻‍♀️. At the show itself she was in the crowd/pit with with Xander, Waseem, Matt Hitt & Jeff but Jeff had to fetch her again a lanyard at first for that day bc she still hadn’t one although allegedly „dating“ him for nearly a year at that time. You’d think she had one for the whole tour but nope. And after the concert Harry was once again out with friends while she stayed with another friend in NYC. Between the NYC and LA show she was seen being cosy with Alexander Skarsgard and then her now bf Theo Niarchos. To the LA show she turned up with Djuna, Nik and another friend. All of them sat up pretty high in the nosebleeds while Kendall and co where in the family and friends lounge right above pit. And Camille and co left a little earlier before the show finished and left through the front entrance. Suspicious is also that the „break up“ was announced like exactly on the year mark of the start their „relationship“. Sorry that I wrote so much. And I probably still missed a lot but I hope it’s gotten clear what I mean.

I'm still reading this through but wanted to post for those asking about it!!

Thank you!

[anonymous-ivplay]

Haven't done a tag game in awhile, thanks for tagging me @hashtag-anthems !

5 fandoms I used to be in

Rainbow Magic

Started reading the books as a 13yo, got really into mimicking the drawing style of the illustrations, and first got into writing fanfic thanks to these fairy gals

Doctor Who

I still keep tabs on the fandom but stopped watching around the time Clara Oswald left, overall I saw the whole reboot up to that point, the movie, and a handful of episodes from 3, 4, 5 and 7's eras

My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic

I only watched like 5 episodes of this overall but I got really into the deviantart fancomics for awhile

Hamilton

I've been a fan of Lin-Manuel Miranda since he was on PBS Kids back in like 2009 so I kinda had to join this one lol

Teen Titans

Never watched this show until I was nearly 20, spent several months watching the whole thing in between classes and then went back to watch a few more episodes before my depression got too bad to enjoy any fandoms

5 fandoms I am currently in

Gravity Falls

Watched the whole show for the first time back in August and I've been quoting it daily ever since

C-dramas

I started playing a mobile game set in Qing dynasty China that's based off of several TV shows, so I've watched Weiyoung and Yanxi Palace and now I'm working through Ashes of Love

DHMIS

Singlehandedly thanks to @sketchbook-and-tony-adventures

Star Wars

First watched the movies in middle school and I've been on and off with this ever since, but so long as R2-D2 is somewhere I'm into it

Odd Squad

This fandom has consumed more of my time, energy, and friendships than any other fandom *combined*, I haven't watched anything after S2 yet but I'll never truly leave

5 movies I used to watch a lot

Cinderella III

My sister and I used to play it frame-by-frame to try and find the funniest frames, our favorite was when Jaq and Gus flashed the fourth wall with their bare asses

Bright Eyes

A Shirley Temple movie my dad has on videocassette, my other sister was fascinated with the VCR as a 3yo and chose this movie to pop in and out at random intervals, so we all saw it a lot but never in order

Inside Out

My second favorite Pixar movie!

Wall-E

My mom loves this movie so much she bought it on DVD and showed it to every single one of our relatives

Fantasia

This was one of the first movies I ever remember watching and I'm pretty sure it's the reason I studied classical music in college

5 movies I watch a lot

Midsommar

Once in theaters, once in the beginning of lockdown and once with my bf, this movie fascinates me so much

The Incredibles

Never gonna stop watching this one

Napoleon Dynamite

I've lost count of how many friends/partners I've watched this movie with simply because they hadn't seen it yet

The Shop Around the Corner

You know the musical She Loves Me and the movie You've Got Mail? They were both based on this 1938 classic

A Christmas Story

Obvious choice is obvious

5 book series I used to read

Redwall

This was my first real fandom, I was CONSUMED by the books as a preteen. I hear Netflix is making a new TV series so I might have to get into it again...

Septimus Heap

Highly recommend as an alternative to Harry Potter for anyone who hates Joanne as much as or (more than) I do

A Series of Unfortunate Events

I actually tried making myself obsess over this as a fandom but it didn't quite hold my interest the way Redwall did

Percy Jackson and the Olympians

It was hard to choose between this and Hunger Games but I read these books more times through haha

Magic Tree House

This and American Girl were my childhood

5 book series I read now

This is gonna be a stretch because I haven't been doing a whole lot of reading lately, let alone anything in a series

Market of Monsters (aka Not Even Bones)

Started with the webtoon, then binged the whole trilogy when the comic went on hiatus

The Wrath and the Dawn

Started with the webtoon, but I'm refusing to read the novels until they're all published

Collected works of Anya Seton

I've read Katherine, My Theodosia, and Avalon, but my favorite is by far Katherine

William Easley's GF fanfics

Told you this would be a stretch, but honest to God this is all I've been reading during the pandemic since I (still!) can't get to a library, also I love his writing style and the research he puts into his worldbuilding

Aristotle and Dante

Another reach since there's only one book published, but it's my absolute favorite novel and the sequel is set to come out in the fall!!!

Tagging @rainfallinhell , @junipernight , @asexualautistic and anyone else who wants to do this

[szopenhauer]

What type of friend are you?  funny mom friend so like... dad friend? XD 

Have you ever been friends with someone for longer than 7 years? nah

Do you have a family member you hate? could say so

Does your family accept who you are? it’s complicated

Have you ever puked in school or at work? luckily not

Do you hate puking or does it make you feel better? hate 

Have you ever coughed up blood? nope

Do you lie to your doctor? sometimes we all have to but nothing important

Have you ever been misdiagnosed? yup

Do you think you have an disorder but havent been properly diagnosed yet? that too

Is self diagnosing good or bad? depends

Do you think sex is overated? it is

Is it important for both genders to understand eachothers bodies? I’m not dating men, I don’t want to have a son and I am not a doctor so I don’t care about male bodies, sorry

If someone was a virgin and was raped, did they lose their virginity? ...

Have you ever dated someone more than twice your age? nooo

Have you ever been cut off by a bartender because you were too drunk? I don’t drink

Have you ever borrowed money from your mom & lied about why you needed it? I don’t think so

Have you ever dated someone just because they had money? no

Have you ever lied to your spouse about the money you spent shopping? it wasn’t a lie but I bend the truth a little 

Have you ever gone on a first date with no underwear? I might go without a bra but because I don’t wanna wear it and not because I might have sex 

Do you treat attractive people better than others who aren’t as attractive? nope

Are you more comfortable with friends that are less attractive than you? not less but not more as more attractive might make me feel insecure at times

Have you ever hated a job to the point that you tried to get fired? I would if they let me stay in few places but luckily they didn’t care much about me as their worker hahaha

Have you ever lied about your weight on a driver license? there is weight on a driving license? :o

Have you ever lied during a job interview? meh

Have you ever lied to your boss to get out of work? I exaggerated feeling sick once to not get a job in a horrible place if that counts

Have you ever lied under oath in court? I wouldn’t!

Have you ever bought alcohol for someone underage? I said NO

Have you ever switched tags on an item to pay less for it? I only took tag from an identical item, just different color, as someone tore it out before and I really wanted that particular color, so no

Have you taken any pics of yourself that you wont want your parents to see? umm... yeah ^^”

Did you ever tell your BF/GF you like their outfit when you really didn’t? there are different types of like - like as I would want to wear that myself and like as I enjoy it in general but also like it on particular person etc. 

Do you feel accepted by your BF/GF ’s family? could be worse lol

Do you lie about your age? what for if everybody think I’m younger anyway

Would you risk your life to save a total stranger? maybe

Have you ever trashed your ex’s car after an argument? hell no

Have you ever snuck out of the house to go out with friends? not really

Have you ever shoplifted? no way

Have you ever done something because of peer pressure you are ashamed of? yup Have you ever been embarrassed to introduce your parents to anyone? omg

Have you ever held back a well deserved compliment because you were jealous? I don’t recall

Do you guilt people into giving you what you want? hope not, I try not to, it’s manipulative and I already am seen this way due to my BPD so... 

Would most ppl consider you better than average looking? pfft Would you prefer to have hot body or high IQ? good health

Are you embarrassed to tell people your job? I’m ashamed to tell them that I don’t have a job 

Would you give up your car to save the planet? if I had one...

Are you more likely to believe a man or woman? woman :x

Has your credit card ever been declined? I don’t use a credit card

If you ran over an animal would you keep driving? oh no...

Do you think your parents are too critical of you? my mother is

Ever blame a sibling for something you did wrong? I usually have to take the blame for her instead

Have you ever accepted credit for someone else’s work? just my alters lmfao

Did you ever buy something expensive,wear it once and return it? I didn’t, I have no money to buy and no heart to act like this either

Have you ever re-gifted something? shitload of times

Do you really care about saving the planet for future generations? not for future ppl, just for itself

Do you own anything from IKEA? not furniture 

What was the last task that you required the use of scissors for? I just dropped them and let them lay on the floor under the table because I am unable to reach ‘em

Look around the room and name any item that’s grey. stuffed bad from Biedronka that I got on a flea market

Do you know what any of your close friends did yesterday afternoon? me and M. been spending time together while my parents were at home

Can you recall the last time you woke up in a bad mood? Why was that? I always do?...

Who was the last person to send you a message with a heart emoji? my gf obviously

Does your hometown have many good bookshops? none

What would be your typical outfit for a party? I don’t attend parties 

If your girlfriend/​​boyfriend broke up with you tonight, what would you do? oh...

last dream you had: K. 3D printed or smth almost identical album as the ones I had as a baby and her and my current partner gave it to me as a gift :3

do you think a lot of people think bad things about you? I aware of that

is your best friend pissing you off at this exact moment? I informed my father that I dropped scissors and now as I picked them up he asked me when and how they ended up there while I told him about it few minutes ago - I was more worried than annoyed tbh

Why aren’t you texting the last person you kissed? she’s taking a nap

Sex ruins relationships, right? it can happen

Last person to stand up for you? hmm...

The last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in front of them? I lost count which is weird because I cry in front of my family members only (not even my grandma until I was a baby), I know that sometimes I cry in public but because I don’t give a fuck about strangers as much as I used to, close ones in the other hand... Nat hates the most when someone sees him so vulnerable

Something good going to happen tomorrow? doubt it

The last person you kissed hates you. Why? would have reasons

What do you usually do when the clock turns 11:11? it’s a secret you can unlock in a very high level of our relationship

Do you like your cell phone? it’s ok

So, what if you married the last person you kissed? we’re engaged so that dream ain’t that unreal

Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend? uh oh

Do you plan on moving out within the next year? I wish

What are you listening to at the moment? mom and dad talking <rolling my eyes>

Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? or never

What’s your favorite high school memory? I have a bunch of those

Do you wish you had more money? absolutely

Team Jacob or Team Edward? team hate Twilight

Do you have a problem with bisexual, gay, or bicurious people? with bicurious maybe, definitely not gay

Have you ever held hands with the opposite sex? I have

Are you a patient person? weirdly unpatient Do you think you are a good person? am not

Honestly, have you ever eaten raw cookie dough? ewww

Is there a difference between the word ‘best friend’ and ‘friend’? there is 

How was your week? rollerclaster XD

Does it bother you when an artist remakes a song that one has previously done? usually

When was the last time you cried? recently

What letter is the song you’re listening to under? M if vocalist/band B if title of the song

Would you rather visit the 60s or 70s? 60s I guess

Do your socks say anything on them? I have no socks with anything said on them

Name a TV channel that only has three letters in it. BBC

Gray or Grey? grey

Will you be buying concert tickets any time soon? I won’t

Have you seen the movie The Perks of Being a Wallflower? Did you like it? yasss, it was fine

How many weddings have you been to? less than 5

When you smile, are you confident? I am not

Have you ever not done something because you were afraid of getting in trouble? of course

Was the weather beautiful today? it’s cold

Do you have to have a fan on when you sleep? I don’t own a fan Would you rather have an orange, red or gray bedroom? walls? orange 

Would you ever dye part of your hair blue? why not whole

Is Finding Nemo a favorite movie of yours? I dislike it

Does/Did your school have a uniform? middle school only and that was a great idea

Turn on the TV. What channel are you on? not gonna

What’s your favorite thing to do? nothing

If your house was haunted, what would you do? depends

What’s worse: Slow internet or slow walkers? slow internet

Are you a fast or slow walker? which alter? :P

Do you usually have to wear a belt with your pants? I must buy belt for Nat

Are you usually the person to try new things with your hair? no comment

What age do you look forward to reaching? I live on borrowed air...

What exercise do you hate the most? awkward ones

Do you know anyone that has a gecko as a pet? no

What color shirt is your mom wearing today? she’s wearing a striped pajama and light blue sweater atm

Does any part of your body hurt right now? mor than one

Do you like Greek Mythology? not a fan

When was the last time you had Pepsi? ages ago

What was the last question you answered, not on surveys? it was more an order than a question coming from my mom 

Do you own anything Polo? used to

Do you know anyone with exaggeratedly big muscles? neighbor

What is your favorite endangered animal? are elephants still endangered?

Do you like to dance? kinda, from time to time Who was the last person who screamed your name? mom’s calling me again, grrr...

Which underwater creature do you find the most badass? what do you mean?

How do you usually find out what the weather will be like for the next week? someone tells me, I ignore them, they were wrong all along

Why have/haven’t you joined Twitter? I left as it was boring and irritating Are you good at rhyming? but don’t like to rhyme

When’s the last time you were woken up in an obnoxious way? lately it’s common

Why do you/don’t you enjoy horror movies? they’re disgusting and pointless

Do you have any celebrity’s perfume? I don’t use perfume

How well do you do at Scrabble? in polish or english?

Who is your favorite Scooby-Doo character? Velma I suppose

Have you ever played or been interested in playing World Of Warcraft? been interested, liked the movie

What kind of cake/other dessert treat did you have for your last birthday? nothing?

Who do you think does the best job at cartoon voiceovers? Jarosław Boberek 

Does your dad wear a watch all the time? years ago frequently

How much ice cream do you think you’d be able to eat before you got sick? only a bit

Do you know anybody under 40 with grey hair? I have some myself

Do you think you have the potential to be a good stalker? oh well...

Why did you read the last book that you read? I watched film and heard it has a different ending so wanted to check it out

Have you ever cross-dressed? clothes have no gender but I drew mustaches and such 

Which sport are you the best at playing? unihokej/floorball or however it’s called

Do you know anyone who has gotten pregnant despite using contraception? possibly

What would you do if you were in that situation? I’m an asexual and I’m into girls

Are you planning on buying a house in the near future? not possible

Do you prefer on-campus classes or online classes? online

What was your favorite family vacation you went on as a kid? personal

What’s something about you that others might find unpleasant or off-putting? my skin for example (not color)

What gaming consoles do you own? I only play PC and android 

Have you ever been so sick you had to be taken to the hospital? been to ER few times

Do you know any lesbian couples? I’m in one ;)

Have you ever lived in an apartment building?  just when I was staying with my grandmother

What was the last topic you asked someone for their opinion or advice on? not sure which was last

Is your house visible on Google Street View?- barely

What’s the largest thing you currently have in your refrigerator? *shrug*

Do you know anyone who has never had a pet? I believe

Would you ever get a tattoo on your collar bone? no thx

Would you take the 3 minute beatdown to be in a gang? neither Do you check your texts right away when you receive them? not every single time, it’s impossible!

Does it make you uncomfortable when you receive a compliment? sorta, I think they’re lying/want something or make fun of me (even if just slightly teasing for fun)

When you are home alone at night and hear strange noises, are you afraid someone is going to break in? I’m more “ghost” type of person hahaha

Do you wake up cranky? mhm

What is on your wrists right now? sleeves

Are you a beach, country, or city person? country or small town

Are you an official couple with the last person you kissed? we are 

What’s the greatest thing that happened to you today? ex - I got a gift and found a shirt for Nat and myself :3

How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids? -

Are you waiting for something? food

Something you do a lot? suffer

How many chances do you tend to give people before enough is enough? it’s not about the amount

What’s a fact about the last person you kissed? she likes hugs

How long have you liked the person you like? it’s a long story 

Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed? not our last kiss

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now? I worry

Have you ever given your ALL to someone who walked away?

Have you ever kissed the last person you texted? we kissed 

Are you one of those people who are always cold? not always but often

Do you tend to waste a lot of money? I still feel like it even tho I don’t, I thrift often but spend little for those trinkets

Did you sing at all today? może coś nuciłam, nie pamiętam, w headspace?

Would you rather be able to control the weather or control traffic? weather

Do you own any articles of clothing with skulls on it? gave it away to John

Are you faster at text messaging or typing on the computer? typing on the computer

In your opinion which is the stronger emotion: love or hate? hate

Tongue piercings - cute or trashy? trashy

When it comes to jeans: skinny, flared or boot cut? skinny

Would you rather be a star ballerina or a star break dancer? none

They say diamonds are a girls best friend; what do you say? I don’t care for diamonds

Has anybody ever told somebody one of your secrets? plenty of times

Do you get on better with funny or serious people? smth in between

Do you have mood swings around the time of the month? I don’t need period to have mood swings, it’s stereotypical!

Have your friends met the last person you kissed? aha

What if you got stuck in a lift with the last person who Facebook messaged you? we would end up having sex? jk

When/where did your last hug take place? today

Have your parents ever told you about their love lives, and any previous relationships they had before they met? kind of

Do you and your friends have any inside jokes? and with family 

When you listen to music, do you ever find that the songs affect your moods and change how you feel? no shit Sherlock!

What’s one thing about today that you didn’t like? don’t wanna talk about all that

Who is the last person that you said i love you to, besides family members? my fiancee

Would you ever go back to any of your past relationships? done

Do you still talk to the first person you kissed? we’re together again

Do you have a picture of you kissing someone? :D

What’s a cuss word you use often? there’s a whole list

Who’s the last guy you texted? dad

Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head? this question...

Do you remember the first conversation you had with the person you have feelings for? I remember how we met

Do you believe that people talk about you behind your back? ha!

If you had twins, would you give them rhyming names? yuk

What are you listening to? Tame Impala - Let It Happen

Did you do something mean to someone today? she deserved it!

Is there anyone that you wish was IN your life who used to be? babcia...

Give us a lyric from a song you’re listening to: The truth of it is it doesn’t get better than this

Is your birthday in less than 6 months? whoops

What brings out the worst in you? better not say that out loud

How’re you feeling right now? bad

Are you afraid of the future? very

Do you believe in true love? I’m trying

Do you believe that every one has a soul-mate? not everybody

Was today a good day? should be better

What woke you up this morning? woke up on my own

Do you look people in the eye when you talk to them? I don’t 

Have you ever played naked twister? wut...

Is your hair longer than your shoulders? not yet and don’t plan to keep it that long

Would you get in trouble if you came home drunk? that would be a shock to my family (and to me)

Do you ever think about things and start to worry? 100% of the time

Are you one to get annoyed easily? that me!

Is the last person you kissed yours? we don’t own ppl...

Was it a boy or a girl to text you first today? girl

Are you scared of spiders? am not

Do you hate the last boy who talked to you? I love my parent

Do you tend to make things complicated? not on purpose

Have you ever gotten to the point where you’ve said “I’m done trying”? gqe1gIQASGCK...

Do you think things will change in the next few months? I’m afraid for worse 

Do you like when people play with your hair? it’s strange

What are you wearing right now? bluzę w czarne i białe paski, zieloną bluzkę z długimi rękawami i szare legginsy z niebieskim wzorkiem

Ever feel like you have been replaced? more than once

Would you rather write a paper or give a speech? write

Are you lying to yourself about something? thx a lot for this ask...

Is the person you last texted single? she’s with me

Do you think any of your exes will eventually want to be with you again? tha hell

If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move to? just my own apartment

Which do you prefer, relationship or a one-night-stand? relationship

[this-side-of-the-blue]

i lost 20 lbs last july-aug, gained like 7 back, lost it again. now i’m around 178ish. struggling to lose this month bc it’s the last month of grad school and i’m so stressed out. i’ve almost entirely stopped binge eating bc i don’t buy snacks anymore. feels good not to do that. i really focus on only eating when i’m hungry. clearly i’m still overeating but soon i can start rollerblading every day and i won’t have classes anymore (i CANNOT wait). i lost 20 lbs in the 2 months i didn’t have class last year. if i lose 20 lbs asap i’ll be happy bc all my clothes will fit again. then it’s just a matter of the clothes fitting even better.

corona really gave me the push to actually lose weight. i was able to look at myself in the mirror bc i wasn’t afraid that other people would see me anymore. like it was ok for me to see myself bc i wouldn’t have to be embarrassed about how others saw me. i think i look ok comparatively to a year ago but i’m so excited to get to 170. from there it’s so close to 155 where my clothes will start fitting again. i haven’t been in the 160s in a few years maybe since 2017 so it will feel great.

i cut things off with curly before thanksgiving. miss him sometimes. shocked i haven’t run into him at the market or getting indian food yet. glad i haven’t tho i want to be really thin next time he sees me. was kinda bugging out thinking that i’m gonna have to see him and his new gf at the two good clubs in this city every weekend but whatever. i’ll be having my own fun. his new gf is like bmi 18 thin and i think she’s around my height...

also kinda nice i had the year off trying to meet bf to work on myself. even tho i was really comfortable w curly seeing my fat body i wouldn’t want someone new to see it. i was with curly for like 5 years so he saw me when i was 150 and 190.

so i’ve been struggling to get out of the high 170s but even if i can lose a pound a week this month i will be happy bc it shows i can still move in the right direction when things are awful and stressful. i’ve never been more stressed in my life. i’m not even depressed but i think about suicide all the time and the desire to hurt myself is overwhelming. since i don’t talk to curly anymore there isn’t really anyone i can talk to about this irl and it’s so hard. i talk to people online but it’s just not the same. now, technically, all my college friends have moved away including 2 last year that i had just become friendly with. now the only people i would hang out with 1on1 are like nina and paul from work. i really like them but there’s still that “work” expectation/relationship. like i’ve done drugs and drank with them but i don’t think i could tell them how much i think about suicide. i need a boyfriend for that i think lol. maybe this summer.

[hellotvv]

Fun stories and realizations

When I hung out with Cat and Jenn yesterday during lunch, we talked about how our friends talk about us behind our backs. Like not in a bad way, but like we wonder how our friends talk about us when we’re not there. Catherine brought up the one thing that she hates about me is that her parents like me more than her current bf LOL. Her mom was like wow why aren’t you dating Theo, he’s so nice!! I appreciated it so much. Idk I like it when parents like me and I’m glad her mom and grandma likes me. It makes me think and realize that I’m actually not that bad with parents. I’m really good with one of my old best friend’s mom, she still asks about me to this day lol. My first gf Kristy’s mom liked me and still remembers me to this day! A couple other parents like me too, and I think it’s funny how cat’s parents like me hehe that they like me more than her bf. Idk I guess it’s a nice contrast with my ex. Since it felt like her friends didn’t really approve of me and neither did her family… but it felt so misunderstood :( since they never really got to know me as a person. I drove cat and her mom to meet fresh (ice cream) in Irvine, and I guess talked to her mom, and she got to know me and like me as a person. She’s a really strict mom too jesus! So idk, I feel like given the chance to actually sit down and get to know me (besides being a picky eater which I worked on), I think I can be a pretty nice, talkative, and charming boy?

Anyways, besides that story. I’ve been making an effort to hang out with friends back home more. From jia, to my cousin Khoa and his sister going to sb, Vivi, catherine, hope, Fyona, jenn (new friend nowadays woo), Helene and erika tomorrow, kristy (ex gf one), and yeah! Idk good to keep in touch with friends :) glad we’re all still friends hanging out years later!

I went to anime expo with catherine and it was alright. I’ve been every year, so it kinda became the same to me. I got a bit burnt out from spending too much time with ppl, and I felt like chilling at home by myself. But I suppressed that urge and try to make time with friends. Catherine said something that made me think tho. She was at the con with me and she said, she kinda wished her bf was here. I knew how she felt perfectly. I could recall a year ago, at the oc night market with Helene, stefanie was in Taiwan, and I remember wishing she was there with me. It felt like idk empty or weird like man this is cool and fun, but it would be a lot nicer with her here to share the experience with. But when I was at the con, although I understood how she felt. I felt just fine? Since I guess, I got used to being by myself and happy on my own or happy with friends. So i didn't really feel like oh it would be nice with x person was here right now. I guess it just means that I've become more independent and can be happy on my own, but it also means that idk can't really be sad if there's no one special to miss..?

Anyways, I realized some things about myself tho. I do think that I made some progress as a personal mentally. I know I haven't been the best bf in the past, I've made dumb mistakes, and regret a lot of them. I like to think that I learned from them, and can truly be a better person for someone special now. I like to think about what I have to offer, since idk I guess I think that relationships should improve someone's quality of life. I heard that from Jessica a long time ago. I felt like that's true, it should, and I want to be a great person for myself, but also for a SO. Since why would you not wanna be a good SO? Idk I feel like anyone who cares for me and I care for them, I should be in a place that I could idk protect them, treat them well, and can actually make them happy. Something I also realized is that for a SO, I really like when my SO is my best friend. But also a partner that I could do things with. I know it's good to have time apart and be independent. But it would be nice if idk I'm my SO first thought when it comes to cool things to do with. Like I wanna be such a special person to her and good company that when she thinks of like concerts or new places to try or just things to do, she wants to do with me first. I don't mean do everything with me. But it would be nice to be a first choice, since idk I wanna be my SO's #1 best friend that they would want to do special things or cool things with first if it's something that would appeal to both of us. Also I'm always down to make sacrifices and tag along to things, if it'll make her happy. Since I'm all about idk enjoying life and making memories together. So yeah, something I realized I want in a SO. Someone who would want to spend as much time with me, as much as I would with them. I could see an argument that I want to spend too much time with my SO, but that's subjective I guess. Since I'm a big fan of my alone time, browsing internet, reading, doing my hobbies, but I like some time to call or chat with my SO. Then it would be nice for me to spend vacations with them making memories, since typically busy during normal school year to make fun memories. Idk I guess just need someone who thinks same way :) if not, then obviously compromise is needed, since nobody is perfect. Everyone has their own opinions and own thoughts, and relationships between two ppl will always need some compromise! So yeahhh, prob someone who can compromise and be willing to make sacrifices is something i need to. Like fk I'm willing to sacrifice some comfort occasionally if it means that my SO will be happy, and honestly it'll make me happy in the end too! :) hopefully my futures SO will feel the same way too.

But yeah just random thoughts and analysis on what I realized I want and fun stories. Summer is good, and gonna try to make this year great! I'm gonna try to be happy and stay happy like always :)

[jorenal]

february•twenty-first (pt. 2)

let me just tell you about why me and boob, and anyone really, doesn’t like my roommate. it’s a long story and there’s a lot of random facts that all add together in the story, so keep up with me.

first off let me say, over the summer there were rumors about me having sex with these dudes and i have no idea why. i denied them then, i deny them now because they are definitely not true. 

me and my roommate moved into an apartment together in august. i was kind of dating this kid light-skin and he was the most immature boy, not a man, i have ever met. (obviously didn’t know that before we kind of dated)

-pause-let me tell you about the relationship between me and LS. he was the most jealous person ever besides one of my other ex’s that i’m sure i’ll tell you about eventually. he lives in maryland, so his jealousy was not a good thing. he would freak out when i wasn’t texting him back fast enough asking me where i was at and if i was lying and why i treat him so bad, when all i was doing was taking 20+ minutes to reply. he would think i was lying when i was saying i was at work. it just escalated and was horrible. i was miserable.

you may think this is irrelevant, but just wait it’ll all make sense.

he went to my phone one day and saw these messages from over the summer on my instagram of one of those rumored dudes^^^ asking me for my number and saying he was too shy to ever ask me in person because we saw each other out a lot, he accused me of cheating especially because the rumors that went around but keep in mind these messages were from before i even met LS. -unpause-

one day when me and boob were laying in bed, he asked me if i slept with the rumored dude that me and LS fought about. i told him no, truthfully. then he asked me about the other dude(s). i honestly don’t remember how many it was lol. they were all untrue of course. i asked him why and he told me that this pea-headed dude told him i slept with them all and he was stressed out because there was also a rumor that the rumored dude me and LS fought about had herpes. so i guess boob thought i had herpes meaning he had herpes. end of conversation because none if it was true. (peahead even used to try and get with me from high school to like right before i started hanging out with boob, too) which boob is unaware of because they’re friends and i don’t want him to lose friends because of unimportant things.

being my roommate and one of my closest friends, i confided in my roommate about all these things: the LS relationship/messages, the fake herpes, etc. my roommate and my boob have been ‘best friends’ since high school. the weekend after all this me, boob, my best friend, his gf that’s also one of my friends insadi, my roommate and her bf spencle went on a triple date. first triple date i had been on and it was so fun. we went to a antique market which was so fun, then went to some random place to eat, came back to my apartment and drank, and then went bowling.

my roommate and insadi got a little too drunk, so me, boob, my best friend and spencle were pretty sober. when we got to bowling spencle and my roommate were fighting like fucking always, about her being too flirty with boob this time, and they were literally yelling and making a scene in the bowling alley. so i told her to shuttup, we got in the car and my best friend drove us home. in the car we continued to fight and me and my roommate were screaming at the top of our lungs at each other. all boob told her was to stfu and she immediately said, “you’re gonna take the side of some girl over me?”

so the next day i texted boob and asked him if us dating was a good idea because clearly it bothered his “best friend.” i know when my roommate started talking to my best friend i thought it was weird, but i never said a thing like that. he said he didn’t care what she thought and she doesn’t have a say in our relationship. little did i know, she did.

the weekend after was my birthday weekend and i went to DC with two of my friends from work. ashlez and quesadilla. while we were there boob went out one night with dingy, peahead, and dingy’s cute gf han. peahead mentioned the whole fake herpes incident again, and then they ran into my roommate and spencle. my roommate was drunk and decided to tell boob all these lies about me making it look like i lied and i was horrible to him. so he called me. on my birthday. and broke up with me. and wouldn’t tell me why. all he told me was that things changed. so that was it. happy birthday to me.

the next morning, my roommate called me and apologized and said she fucked up. she called me and explained what she had told boob and begged me not to be mad at her. i told her to tell boob the truth so she did, and he didn’t change his mind. we were done.

that day was the christmas party at my job, one of the best days of the year because it’s bomb food and open bar, and you were allowed to bring your spouse. unfortunately, mine broke up with me the day before. so i went and had a great time, got drunk and went home. the next morning i woke up to a text from boob apologizing and asking if we could talk if i wanted.

so i said yeah he came over we talked it out and i found out that the things my roommate said she said to my boob was not at all what she said to him. apparently she told him that my ex, LS, found messages between me and rumored dude from WHILE me and LS were dating and that i was lowkey texting him the whole time. which wasn’t true and she knew it. also she said i slept with all those rumored dudes. just stuff like that, but we got back together. we’ve been together ever since, but we’ve felt a little weird about my roommate since then. me, boob’s mom, all my friends, my mom, etc all think my roommate has feelings for my boob and i’m almost 100% sure she does.

at work to this day, (two months later) she talks mad shit to everyone and anyone about how she hates me and boob and how of all people i could date i date her best friend and of all people he could date he dates her roommate. she did it to herself, but now i hate her guts. she’s also lazy, disgusting and has a poor work ethic. she’s a liar. she’s a bitch and she’s a horrible friend.

LONG STORY SHORT; that’s why i don’t want her to go out with us for boob’s birthday. :D