#also i watched like 12 seasons of supernatural just to understand the memes so that should probably tell you i don't have high standards xD

[grelleswife]

Hey this is maybe a strange request but I was wondering if you had any good anime recommendations ?

I've been watching JJK and I've been left feeling a bit disappointed with the writing (it feels kinda all of the place and it feels like characters are dying just for the sake of dying)

So I'm kinda looking for something with darker themes and also maybe with supernatural elements, but that gives all the characters good arcs and development and also maybe is a bit on the happier side?

But honestly anything will do I'm just looking for some new stuff

I've been thinking of watching Vanitas no Carte so that one's already on my list

Hi, anon! I understand your frustration; the despair of the Shibiya arc had become rather gratuitous by the end of Season 2. :/

VnC was one of the first shows that came to mind while I was reading your ask, so you’re already ahead of the curve! Content warnings I recall off the top of my head include child death, nonconsensual blood drinking (which carries certain unpleasant implications in vampire media), use of children for scientific experimentation, and unsavory dynamics (aka the man repeatedly disregarding the woman’s boundaries) in the canon m/f pairing. However, the quality of the story and its unmistakable queerness still make Vanitas no Carte a worthwhile watch, in my opinion. And the manga is even better!

Some other recommendations I can think of, albeit with varying ratios of darkness to good character development and happy moments, are listed below. Please note that content warnings provided are based off my hazy recollections and thus are not comprehensive.

Mushishi

Though existing beyond the realm of human perception, the diverse array of primitive lifeforms known as mushi can warp their surroundings—and the people inhabiting them—in bizarre, sometimes frightening ways. As a mushishi, Ginko is one of the rare few who can see and interact with these creatures, and travels Japan lending assistance to those struggling to coexist with the mushi. Suffused with a quiet melancholy, this anime is perfect to watch on a rainy day with a cup of tea in hand.

Content warnings: Body horror

Mononoke

Nope, not the Studio Ghibli film that gave birth to the classic “I’ll cut your throat” ship meme. This 2007 anime follows the enigmatic and possibly immortal Kusuriuri (medicine seller) as he helps people impacted by mononoke, malevolent spirits that latch onto negative emotions. However, he can only dispel these spirits by uncovering their true nature and the reason for the appearance, forcing him to play detective along the way. Though a spiritual cousin of sorts to Mushishi, the two shows vary radically in style: Whereas Mushishi’s color palettes tend to be earthy and subdued, Monoke’s animation pushes the envelope with a dizzying, gaudy spectacle that could have come straight out of a drug-induced nightmare.

Content warnings: Violence (including violence against women), discussions of forced abortion, body horror, a highly questionable relationship between a monk and his sister, eyestrain (the colors are gorgeous but can be a bit overwhelming at times)

Otherside Picnic

College students Sorawo Kamikoshi and Toriko Nishina team up to periodically explore the Otherside, a parallel universe where urban legends pose all-too-real threats, growing closer over the course of their adventures. Fans of the light novels on which this 12-episode anime is based have criticized the differences in tone between the adaptation and the source material, complaining that the anime tends to come across as a bit goofier. However, as someone who went into the series blind, I had a fun time! Otherside Picnic also numbers among the rare examples of sapphic anime with adult protagonists, although most of Sorawo’s and Toriko’s relationship is relegated to slow-burn due to the short run time. Their black cat/golden retriever dynamic is still a joy to behold!

Content warnings: Occasional gun violence, body horror

Death Parade

The souls of the recently deceased are pitted against eachother in nerve-wracking games meant to uncover the darkest corners of their psyches so that beings known as arbiters may pass judgement on their fate—reincarnation, or eternity in the void. Alongside his assistant, Chiyuki, the arbiter Decim begins to gain greater insight into humanity while starting to question the very role for which he was created. This underrated gem will probably reduce you to a puddle of tears at least once, so have a box of tissues ready.

Content warnings: Violence, assault, suicide, depictions of alcohol use (much of the action takes place at an otherworldly bar)

Noragami

Hiyori Iki’s ordinary middle school life is turned upside down when a bus accident weakens the link between her body and soul, enabling her to perceive the gods and spirits in our midst…including Yato, a brash yet destitute young god without a single shrine to his name. How will their fates intertwine? Written along a similar vein to Fruits Basket and Kamisama Kiss, Noragami charms the viewer with its sillier shenanigans while ripping your heartstrings to shreds during the darker moments. Although the manga (at least what I’ve read of it) is superior, and the anime only adapts a handful of the original arcs, it still holds its own. And the OPs are excellent! 👌

Content warnings: Body horror, child death, suicide

[teruel-a-witch]

After seeing all your reblogs and reading the tags, I'm now low-key obsessed with the guys from H50 having only seen an episode casually on TV. Do you recommend it as a show?

hmmm, that's a tough question, nonnie, cause on the one hand, as a shipper I always want to drag more people down with me (mwahaha) but, on the other, I don't want to give the show a tacit endorsement. it's very much a cop show, and with a serious case of police brutality at that, so i feel like that's something I have to warn about. also, it's very much a CBS procedural so it's plot-driven rather than character driven and the plots occasionally reflect a lot of the anxieties of CBS target audience of people over 65, lol. the bad guys are Bad, sometimes cartoonishly so, no room for nuance, it all feels very 80s b action movies. don't even get me started on the show's treatment of female characters. and queer people pretty much Do Not Exist (but that's something that can be said about many procedurals)

that's not to say the show has nothing to offer, if you enjoy whodunnits and action and team banter and distractingly beautiful people and gorgeous scenery. the setting is the reason I watched the show in the first place, because sometimes you really want to watch something set in perpetual summer (especially when you are from the land with no sun like I am lol).

if you just want to turn your brain off and be entertained h50 can definitely do that for you, it took me a few eps but by mid s1 I got really into it and I was having FUN, which, imo, is important. I didn't start shipping right away but 1x20 had me reaching for the Tumblr tags and fanfic.

it's not strictly necessary to watch the show to enjoy the ship but personally I have always found that the shippy breadcrumbs are more enjoyable in context. especially since McDanno is woven into the fabric of the show.

ultimately, it's up to you whether or not to watch the show, I just thought I'd help you make an informed decision. i do believe a show doesn't have to be good to be enjoyable but I am absolutely the kind of person who will watch an entire show just for a ship myself, lol.

if you do decide to watch it you can come talk to me about McDanno any time, they are pretty much all I wanna talk about anyway, the brainrot is real.

[annecoulmanross]

Spooky Ask Meme

I was tagged by @sailingsouthernseas – thank you! These answers have possibly gotten a little strange but also it’s very late at night and I think I’ve seanced myself into some unholy union with Lady Jane so here we are. 

1. Pumpkin: Favourite season?

I pretend that I like autumn for the aesthetic.... but during the spring I can physically feel the seasonal depression lifting from my cold bones like a ghost that has been at last freed from this earthly realm and can finally translate itself to a sunnier place. 

2. Ghost: Do you get scared easily?

Not particularly. Most physically threatening situations that typically scare people hold no fear for me: I like high places and dark places and caves and especially underwater caves that hold a high risk of death. I suppose there are probably other things that scare me but I’m much more alarmed by very tangential hypotheticals, like what if there really is an afterlife where you get to meet all of the famous dead people you’ve loved, and I get to go there but Cicero doesn’t like me?  

3. Candy Corn: What's your favourite kind of candy?

Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups. 

4. Vampire: What is your favourite supernatural creature?

I can’t possibly choose. Dragons, selkies, and ghosts, in no particular order. 

5. Witch: If you could have any superpower, what would it be?

The ability to understand and communicate in every human language ever. 

6. Trick or treat: What was your favourite Halloween costume?

Every year I imagine I’ll finally put effort into making an elaborate Halloween costume, and every year I slip even further from the platonic ideal, which was my Halloween costume when I was six months old: I was a chili pepper. 

7. Black cat: Are you superstitious?

During the spring of 2016, I picked up the habit of knocking on wood whenever someone asked me about my future plans, because I’d applied to study abroad but I didn’t know if I would be accepted. Fortunately, I got into the program and went to Italy and – not to be hideously pretentious and basic – but it quite literally changed my life and set me on the road less-travelled-by that I’m currently walking, and so I’ve been just a bit superstitious ever since. 

8. Ouija Board: If you could change your name, what would you change it to?

Oh I’ve had different names in the past and I’m sure I’ll have different names in the future. Nomina are slippery things. 

9. Graveyard: Do you know any good scary stories?

Several. That being said, I’ve been told my cannibalism story is “disappointing” and “anticlimactic” and “not worth waiting through the entire second act of Shakespeare’s Julius Caesar for.” 

10. Skeleton: Have you ever broken a bone?

Never once. 

11. Werewolf: What is your favourite urban legend?

Stories of tunnels under the city are, without a doubt, my favorite things. 

12. Horror flick: Do you like scary movies? If so, which one is your favourite?

I like horror films with a message, though my tastes tend to be very mainstream in that regard – Get Out, Cabin in the Woods, that sort of thing. 

13. Haunted house:  Would you prefer to live in the city or the country?

Absolutely the city. I could possibly do to live a little further from the city center than I do right now, since the pandemic makes it a bit hard to leave my apartment, but I still vastly prefer the urban center to the hill-towns and mountain hermitages where my family all currently live. Those are lovely for holidays but they quickly drive me crazy. 

14. Zombie: Do you think that you could survive a zombie apocalypse?

Not with my current equipment. If I took a few precautions, yes, probably. 

15. Cauldron: What kind of potion would you make if you had the opportunity?

Semantically speaking, how does a potion differ from a super-power? What domains do each cover, and are there any things I can accomplish with one but not the other? I’m officially over-thinking this. 

16. Full moon: Do you prefer nighttime or daytime?

James could not possibly have put it any better: “Daytime if I’m left alone.”

17. Corn maze:  What is your favourite autumn activity?

That time in late autumn when they finally FINALLY start selling eggnog in the stores and people complain about how it’s not even December and it’s too early for the winter holiday foods to be on sale, but I buy up all the eggnog and go find texas toast and bring it home and make delicious eggnog french toast.

18. Broomstick: What exciting places have you travelled to?

If my life has had one truly perfect moment, it was during a freezing cold November morning in Benevento in Italy, when I could see my breath in the air when we tumbled out of the bus, and everyone was shivering and sleepy so they sent us out to find something warm to drink before class, and I wandered into a bar and bought an Italian hot cocoa (read: a cup of pure melted chocolate) and a beautiful sfogliatella pastry, and then I sat at the counter and watched the sun finally lift itself over the rooftops and pool in the piazza in the center of town where all the leaves had begun to fall to the ground at last. 

[mnkiss]

A quick list of animes I watched and don’t want to forget:

Mushishi - pure, haunting beauty, 10/10 recommend especially when you want some clarity and calmness in your life. You’ll cry tho

K - the amount of tears I shed TwT I literally miss the characters. Weird af world and story, but somehow I got attached. There should be K: seven stories somewhere but I can’t find it... Also: this whole we’re a bunch of problematic people who become a family is a trope I’ll never get tired of

Tokyo Ghoul - S1 and S2 feel like one huge story and it’s just the beginning so buckle up... There are 2 OVAs (Jack and Pinto) that help with understanding Re: (S3) and then there is S4 which is apparently only the most important parts of the manga... I understand why so many people think that s4 is ridiculous, but the first 3 seasons are great. The manga is a must for the anime tho, bc the last season is a joke, so if you can, read the manga first. With that said, the censorship is terrible so if you can, watch it without the weird black and white patches that take up half the screen, because the animation, the fights, the colours are all extremely vibrant and alive, just like the characters. What being human means, why the police feel like they are doing god’s work when they kill innocents along with the psychos, what a family is, can we be selfish for others, and many more questions are discussed here, all while somebody gets gutted. S2 was much more like a filler than a normal season, but still, I cried, and the whole anime is awesome so watch it if you can. (If you get upset when humans are able to endure more than supernatural beings then it’s not your show, bc even though humans are supposed to be, you know, humans, they are still able to kill tens of ghouls with a fucking hole inside of them.)

Attack on Titan - got tired of waiting after s2... No mystery is worth more than a year of waiting lol

Black butler - I need to get around and watch the book of atlantis. Great story, Sebastian is everything and more, and the aesthetic is something I’ll never forget. The music fits perfectly, and the foods make me drool. It has the “big picture”, as well as small journeys where you can get to know your favourite characters which I appreciate. S2 was not something I enjoyed, but the book of circus was worth it as well as most ova’s.

Darker than black - THEY MUST CONTINUE IT BRING HEI BACK PLEASE PLEASE I CAN’T I JUST CAN’T - also s2′s opening makes me cry. Dolls and Contractors work together as a team, then alone, then again as a team... it was a wild ride. Awesome character development, great plot and world building. Sadly they cut their story and future at s2 for some reason... If I ever watch it again I watch Gaiden before Gemini tho - a lot less confusion and disappointment this way.

Bungou Stray Dogs - loving it with my whole heart can’t wait to watch it again because there is literally NO character I don’t love. It has pretty boys, crime, mystery, magical abilities and comedy alongside the surprisingly deep issues. The art style is otherworldly, everything is so PRETTY and CAPTURING ugh *-*. It also made me read lots of books again (especially Japanese literature which was new for me) ^^ (Who doesn’t ship Dazai and Chuuya... And Poe is a baby too)

Noragami - cute, very cute, I love it when the main character is powerful af yet has a silly, loving side. Also: you can learn a bit about gods and religion

Assassination Classroom - tears. all of them. tears. It’s not what I expected but still, the little assassins and the teacher’s relationship was perfect.

Another - i watched it for the dolls and the umbrella meme. Liked it? yes. Do I remember anything else tho? Not really

Parasyte - one of the first animes I’ve ever watched. Loved it. ^^ Migi was great, all the issues it brings up were thought provoking, and it has gore.

Hellsing - idk it had too many monologues and ideologies, didn’t finish it

Psycho-Pass - In short: cyberpunk future, systematic oppression, immigrants, killing with permission and other moral or societal issues, plus charismatic characters and gore. The watching order: S1, S2, Sinners of the system, S3, First inspector. Wonderful buildup, dynamic storytelling, great mystery elements, and of course the found family/teamwork will always be a favourite of mine. The writing is extra detailed, every character is 3D, their responses, beliefs and cultures are tied together perfectly, the chemistry between characters is relatable and although everybody seems to live by one goal only, it’s not as dull as one would think. It also has some great book recommendations, literature and philosophers play a big role, which is always a bonus. 10/10. I really hope we will get extra contents and S4 in the future.

Steins Gate - I can’t bring myself to watch the last 2 episodes of S1 lol. It starts slowly but it’s much better paced than I remembered. The anime heavily relies on the characters which are sadly very 2D: the haughty but loving, the cute but tragic, the clever weeb, the loving tsundere... and for some fucking reason every single girl loves the mad scientist who... doesn’t really show love or sometimes not even respect towards the others until the last half of the show, so I don’t particularly care about their fate, but I watch it bc I don’t want to leave it unfinished. Because people are so into it I thought maybe the story will be... flabbergasting, shocking or just a masterwork, but the whole time travelling thingy, all the rules, all the paralel worlds work very conveniently. There were some great twists that I loved, some that I saw coming and some that I didn’t, but the story itself isn’t the best and even the plottwists won’t help that.

Full metal alchemist - i watched many, many episodes. I liked it. But it lost me. Anyways, I looked up the story and it sounds interesting, lots of plot twists, great conspiracy theories etc. The main character was a bit... annoying. My main problem is that they were children cuz I can only get immersed in the adult characters’ stories...

Durarara!! - s1 was great I love gang and mystery stuff, BUT I stopped watching it bc I was only immersed in the adult characters’ stories...

The Ancient Magus' Bride - it’s a gory fairy tale, with two toxic but loveable characters who learn a lot, evolve a lot and become real companions. There is lots of touching, head pats and affection. <3 Seasond 2 is very much needed, I want to see more episodic journey elements like the cat kingdom episodes were, and perhaps cry just a little less. Pro tip: when you watched the first 12 eps you should watch the 3 episode ova and then the next 12 eps ;) Oh, and expect tears mostly from happiness

Devilman Crybaby - I was the crybaby. The ending is beautiful, the art style was great, it literally pulsed through my eyes sometimes. Awesome characters, weird storyline, sad ending.

Death Parade - another anime that made me cry :) Beautiful art style, immersive story, interesting take on the afterlife, moral issues. It had everything I needed,

Juni Taisen - It wasn’t the craziest or most cunning anime of all times, but I cared about the characters and I really wanted to know how it ends, so it was good i guess

Kekkai Sensen - i watched s1 and I didn’t care anymore...

BEASTARS - it was one hell of a ride. Interesting world, great conflict, highschoolers and gore... also I think there was a sudden rise in the numbers of furries while it aired. It’s art style however was too cgi-y, too smooth for me :/

Re: Zero - the main character is a little bitch i hated him but i stayed for the plot. I don’t really like love interests when one party is only loved because they look perfect... i really wish we got more seasons and explanations  s2 is on the horizon, but I doubt I’ll ever watch it

Updated it see in reblog

Also in conclusion, what do i need in an anime? 1) adults 2) superpowers 3) found family 4) a brooding, powerful af main character 5) action and mystery (plus gore) 6) chemistry between characters 7) side characters that matter 8) tissues

Any recs?

[hunterenough]

I am Dean.

I am Dean. I’ve identified with the character essentially since the show aired. We’re about the same age, both oldest siblings, and we’ve both had a lot of responsibility thrust on us that we just had to learn to handle. We’ve learned to stuff down what we feel because it’s our job to get shit done, and most of the time, feelings just get in the way. We love deeply, but most people think we’re unfeeling because after 30 odd years of boxing shit up, we’re damned professionals at it.

Right about the time the show started, I’d dropped out of graduate school and was living back at home while I worked up enough cash to find a place of my own. There was very little about my life that I felt was my own, and it was very much like being back in high school. All of the things that I’d learned about myself in the years I was away were erased, and I was very much trying to act like the person everyone thought I still was. I think Dean was the same, that each time he was out on his own, he learned a little more about who he actually was, and that each time they came back together, he had to act like nothing had changed, like he was still the perfect little soldier his dad had raised. I had to act like the quiet book-smart girl my family knew. But we knew, Dean and I, what we were hiding from the world in those moments. For Dean, I think it was a recognition of grey areas, an understanding of what love really could mean, how different his life could be.

I was a lot less successful at hiding it in the long run. I didn’t come out to my family intentionally. My dad happened to come home from work early one day, and found me napping with my then girlfriend. Shit hit the fan, I was essentially kicked out of the house, and wound up living with my girlfriend. I’m really lucky. It was a pretty smooth transition, and my brothers were incredibly supportive. It took nearly a year, but my parents eventually realized that having a queer daughter was not the end of the world, and they’d rather have me in their lives than not. It wasn’t perfect, but I’ll give them every bit of credit for learning to not only accept me, but to show that they had never stopped loving me. My mom even tried to explain that they just didn’t know how to talk to me about it at first. That relationship ended, not well really, but that didn’t matter, life went on.

I met my husband-to-be the same year Dean met Cas. I won’t pretend we danced around starting a relationship like they did, but I think Dean and I had a pretty similar approach. I performed my role as a new girlfriend the way I figured people thought I should. I held hands and we kissed in public. Honestly, that’s not how I’d ever been in a relationship before. I’m not huge on touching in general, less so in public, but nobody had ever seen me in a relationship with a guy, and, after everything, I just didn’t feel like trying to explain myself again.

Performing is exhausting. When I realized that this guy was important, that I really might want him around long term, it felt even more so. Again, I’m lucky because when i started to let my mask slip, this guy fell in love with the real me too. Our relationship settled into a comfortable safe space, and I was happy. Our relationship wasn’t perfect, but at the end of the day, he was always there for me.

Dean, I think, had that with Cas. Regardless of their “relationship” status, whether they were best friends or something more, Cas was Dean’s safe place. He was the person that knew all of his weaknesses and flaws and still chose to stand by his side.

Fast forward to season 12. A lot happened in those years, both for Dean and for me. Honestly though, this is where Dean and I found our next huge plot of common ground. In 2017, my husband was diagnosed with cancer. I watched Dean wrap Cas for his funeral pyre while I was sitting in a hospital room next to my husband who was hooked up to IV’s in his arm and a central port in his chest. I completely understood the stoicism of the act. Our practicality and sense of duty serves us well when our world is going to shit. Dean turned to drinking, I learned exactly how to be responsible for my husband’s at home care. I’ll never be able to explain how well I understood exactly what Dean was feeling when he met Billie. I didn’t want to die, but honestly if it was my time, then so be it. I’m not suicidal, never have been, but I didn’t have a lot of fight left in me after I lost my husband.

Now, to the end of Season 15. I think Dean’s characterization after Cas was taken was spot on, but I can say that primarily because nearly all of what we saw was him with others. Remember, we’ve had years of practice stuffing our feelings down, doing what needs to be done, and acting fine.

I held my husband’s hand while he died. I did exactly what I promised him I would and told him I loved him and that everything would be okay. (We’ll get back to how much that part of the finale kicked the shit out of me in a bit.)  

When he was gone, in the living room of our house mind you, because that’s what he wanted, I got shit done. I called his nursing service to report his death, called the funeral home to retrieve his body, and started notifying our friends and family. I smoked a pack of cigarettes and kept my shit together because I knew that if i started to cry, I might never stop. I watched the home nurse and the funeral director prep his body and roll it away, sent his mom home, and when I was finally alone, more alone than I’d been in years, I sat next to his bed and cried until I couldn’t breathe.

By the time my brother showed up a couple hours after I’d called to tell him my husband had passed, I was doing the dishes. It was well after midnight at this point. I’d told him I was good, but...he’s my brother, and he knows me. He came with a bottle of whiskey (another thing Dean and I have in common), and sent me to bed after we’d shared a few shots.

The thing that you don’t know, unless you’ve been through it, is that there is a TON of shit that needs to be done after someone dies. I planned a cremation, a memorial, dealt with insurance companies and our mortgage and all of our joint accounts, and by the time all of that was underway, it was time to go back to work.

When someone you love dies, there is an expectation that you’re going to grieve publically. For me, for Dean, that is unacceptable. If we’re weak, if we lean on someone while we’re dealing with our grief, then we’re letting down the people that depend on us to be strong. Yes, that’s a completely acceptable and normal thing for a good chunk of the population, but that’s not who we are. I can honestly say that moving forward with my life was literally the only thing that kept me going.

So, the final two episodes.

I didn’t question for a second that Dean didn’t talk about Cas’ declaration or his sacrifice. I sure as hell didn’t. I didn’t doubt that he’d make a seamless transition back to casework in the same way I went back to my own job. Having a role to perform that I understood and knowing how to act in specific situations made it so much easier for me to push things down. He had to prove to Sam that he was fine for the same reason that I did, so that the people who love us wouldn’t be watching our every move waiting for us to run screaming off the next cliff. My brother, the same one who showed up with whiskey, did essentially the same thing that Sam did. He didn’t push me to talk. He helped me clean all the medical supplies out of the house, made sure my house and car weren’t going to kill me, and texted me weird random memes daily just so I would text him back.

I also didn’t question the empties in his bedroom or the coat in the trunk. In private moments, when no one is around to see, it’s ok to loosen the relief valve on all of the shit that’s been tightly contained. I slept in my husband’s hoodies and emptied my bar. I understood those things. No one knew about the nightmares, and I ignored the fact that I was drowning in a million memories of my husband every day I spent at home.

To me, those things go hand in hand with losing the person you love most. Regardless of whether or not you think that Dean loves Cas romantically, you can’t argue that Cas was his life partner in a way completely different from Sam. Sam is his responsibility, Cas was his choice. He loves them both, just differently.

Disregarding the revival of an old character for no apparent reason and the fact that it was one of John’s old cases, I didn’t struggle with the handling of the vampire scene in the barn either. I don’t believe that Dean would have ever killed himself intentionally. He would have seen it as his responsibility not only to survive, but to live. Cas just died to save him, again, and there’s no way that Dean is going to let that be for nothing. For me, it was finally going to a Supernatural convention and taking a trip to Paris. For Dean, it was Pie Fest in Akron. They drove fifteen hours for pie. Live, don’t just survive.

He didn’t intentionally throw himself at that hunk of rebar. It was a byproduct of doing his job. But, I think, his reaction to it was the most real thing that could have happened. He didn’t want Sam to call an ambulance or try to save him. He didn’t want Sam to do anything but give him permission to stop fighting. He needed to hear that it was ok.

I’ve never been close to my own death. I don’t have that perspective, but in the year and a half that my husband fought cancer, I was taught to understand this moment as well. When we moved to the palliative stage of my husband’s treatment, the part where medical care is no longer about treating the disease but is now focused on providing comfort, we talked about everything. The thing that scared my husband the most was leaving me behind. He worried about how I would deal with my grief, he worried about me being alone, he worried about how I would manage a sixty hour work week and four pets and a four bedroom house and a two hour round trip commute. He didn’t worry about being dead, he worried about me being alive.

The night my husband died, we all knew it was coming. There are a variety of medical indicators, blood pressure changes, muscle changes, and most critically, at the very end, the fucking death rattle. I cannot explain this sound, I hope you never hear it, but you’ll know if you do. So, at the very end, when my husband was fighting for every breath, I held his hand, and I told him I loved him and I told him that everything would be ok. It was my way of telling him that he didn’t have to fight for me anymore, that I would be ok without him. It didn’t have to be true, but he had to hear it. I couldn’t let him die with all of that worry and guilt swirling around in his head.

Hearing Dean ask Sam to tell him it was ok hit me so fucking hard. For me, it was the clearest declaration of his love for Cas that he could have given. He literally looked at his brother, who he has sacrificed his life for in a myriad of ways, and asked for permission not to fight anymore.

Sam did the same thing for Dean that I did for my husband. He recognized that Dean would hold on as long as he could just to make sure that his little brother would be ok once he was gone. He knew Dean was miserable and suffering, so he held Dean’s hand, told him he loved him, and that it was ok. It didn’t have to be true, he just had to say it.

To be honest, I didn’t have a problem with Bobby being the one to welcome Dean to heaven. In fact, I think he was a great choice, regardless of whether or not it was a Covid related decision on the writer’s part. Bobby was his dad, someone he trusted, and was the logical person to let Dean know that Jack had revamped heaven before sending Dean out to do what he had to do to find his peace. I didn’t expect an emotional scene, it would have been out of character for both of them.

I didn’t have a problem with Dean climbing into Baby and just driving. Two years after losing my husband and I still do the same thing when the shit in my brain is moving too fast for me to deal. Baby is home to him, a place he feels comfortable and in control, and driving is the best way he knows to find some perspective.

I didn’t have a problem with the montage of Sam’s life. I thought it was terribly constructed, but the content of it was predictable. Sam stayed true to character and did what he asked of Dean before hopping into the pit. He went out and made himself an apple pie life. I would have been surprised and disappointed if it was anything different.

The thing that made me hate the finale was the end. When Dean turned around on that bridge, what we should have heard was “Hello Dean.” That hug should have been Dean and Cas. Regardless of whether or not you think they shared romantic love, Cas was family, name on the table and all. I didn’t need a love confession, I didn’t need a kiss, I didn’t need some grand romantic moment. I just needed that thank-Jack-you’re-not-stuck-in-uber-hell hug like the one Benny watched in purgatory or that Mary saw after the soul bomb. Dean’s been in heaven for a bit, long enough that Sam could have witnessed this one from the passenger seat with a grin.

There’s no way Dean would have found peace without seeing for himself that Cas was safe, and you’ll never convince me otherwise.

[samclownchester]

Supernatural Rewatch 01x01

Pilot

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Just some scattered thoughts I wrote while watching the episode:

(not spoiler free, I have watched up to 15x13 and this is directed to an audience that has seen that far as well)

Oh my gosh this is so hard to watch actually. BABY SAM! Like a literally baby. Mary stay in bed. STAY IN BED MARY

This scene hits different knowing that Mary knew about monsters and demons and everything. Her terror at realizing there is something strange in the house is fueled by so much more than the fear of kidnappers.

Present day. PRESENT DAY. Lmao.

“I swore I was done hunting, for good” D: my bby

...

SAM “when I told dad I was scared of the thing in my closet he gave me a .45”

DEAN “well what was he supposed to do?”

SAM “I was nine years old. He was supposed to say ‘don’t be afraid of the dark.’’

DEAN “Don’t be afraid of the dark? What, are you kidding me? Of course you should be afraid of the dark, you know what’s out there.”

This is just making me think about their two different parenting styles. Obviously Sam isn’t trying to shield Jack from the truth of their lives, but when he can he does try to … soften the blow.  To give him space to feel. Where as Dean is more likely to say it like it is, like when Jack didn’t have his powers and Dean just straight up called him weak.

I think this also shows a lot their 2 vs 8 personalities. Dean thinks people should know the truth even if it scares them so they can be prepared while Sam things that people should be protected emotionally.

DEAN “You just gonna live some normal apple pie life? Is that it?”

SAM “No, not normal, safe.”

DEAN “and that’s why you ran away?”

SAM “I was just going to college. It was dad who said if I was gonna run away I should stay gone.”

I’m curious to see all the lines about Sam leaving because I feel like there are some inconsistencies, which I actually love because often when families have big arguments every person remembers them differently.

…

DEAN “I can’t do this alone.”

SAM “Yes, you can.”

DEAN “Yeah, well, I don’t want to.”

My BOYS D: 

…

SAM “Dad let you go on a hunting trip by yourself?”

DEAN “I’m 26 dude.”

THEIR 2005 tech! I’m crying.

“In almost two years I’ve never bothered you, never asked you for a thing.”

So, someone pointed out that being 22, and having finished his undergrad program, Sam should have been gone for 4 years. This line makes that not make sense, unless Sam HAS been gone for 4 years but there was an incident about 2 years before this when Dean did bother him or ask him for something O.o

California? Lol they almost never go that far west anymore.

Oh my gosh this show is so dumb why is the woman in white so “sexy” lol this is horrible. 2005 spn was the worst.  This idiot just acting like she’s not being super sketchy. This is why people die in horror movies (and in the first 5 minutes of supernatural)

“Breakfast” is like a bag of chips and bottle of soda. Mood. The fact that apparently they’ve been protected from “the small stuff” (like needing a good diet and going to the dentist) by Chuck because they’re his heroes is so apparent lol.

“it’s the greatest hits of mullet rock.” Oh my gosh Sam! Wish Dean let you listen to Celine Dion sometimes.

OH NO HE SAID THE LINE (I honestly don’t understand why some lines became memes. Anyway, shot-gun shuts his cakehole.)

“You know Sammy is a chubby 12 year-old, it’s Sam, ok?”

OH MY GOSH DEAN TRYING TO ACT ALL IMPRESSIVE LIKE HE’S NOT A BABY. you guys are not FBI you’re not fooling anyone.

This goth girl tho. 2005.

THEY HAVE TO USE LIBRARY COMPUTERS

“let me try.”

“I got it” [Sam pushes Dean out of the way and takes the keyboard and mouse.] “Dude, you’re such a control freak.”

(Not anymore. Sam stopped wanting to be in control at some point. Following was easier than leading. The guilt gets to him.)

DEAN “You think you’re just gonna become some lawyer, marry your girl?”

SAM “Maybe, why not?”

DEAN “Does Jessica know the truth about you? I mean does she know about the things you’ve done?”

SAM “No and she’s not ever going to know.”

DEAN “Well, that’s healthy. You can pretend all you want Sammy, but sooner or later you’re gonna have to face up to who you really are.”

SAM “And who’s that?”

DEAN “One of us”

SAM “No, I’m not like you, this is not going to be my life.”

DEAN “You have a responsibility –”

SAM “To Dad? And his crusade? If it weren’t for pictures, I wouldn’t even know what mom looks like. and what difference would it make? Even if we do find the thing that killed her, mom’s gone. And she isn’t coming back.”

[Dean, in a rage, pushes Sam up against the bridge]

DEAN “Don’t talk about her like that.”

This scene establishes a lot about their characters, especially Sam. He spent the first few seasons, even until season 8, wanting a “safe” life, but he knew he would have to lie, keep secrets forever, if he was going to have it. Although Sam is very different from Dean and John (more emotional, more brain less brawn, etc) hunting is a part of him. This is what makes his later relationship with Eileen very different, she “gets the life.” she is also a hunter. Every other relationship Sam has ever tried to have has included keeping secrets. He never told Jessica about monsters, and he tried again in season 8 with Amelia, but in both cases he ended up choosing Dean, and hunting, because as much as he always denied it, this is a crucial part of who he is. It doesn’t fit him the way it’s always fit Dean, but he can’t push it aside and pretend it never happened or doesn’t exist. 

(Sam’s little laugh after they almost get hit by a ghost car … he does kinda enjoy this life despite everything he says.)

“Hey Dean, what I said earlier, about mom and dad … I’m sorry”

NO HE SAID THE OTHER LINE [no chick-flick moments] (Ok but what in the world was 15x09 if not a freaking chick-flick moment lmao this show is so dumb)

They’re so cute though.

WAIT DID DEAN USED TO HAVE LONG HAIR. Oh my gosh in that picture of them as kids Dean’s hair is to his SHOULDERS WHAT?

(all I can think is “Could we ever really pick locks?” as Dean pulls the paper clip out to free himself from the handcuffs)

Sam isn’t an unfaithful man, so why is the woman in white targeting him? Maybe she can break her rules if it’s a hunter who is trying to fight her, because she didn’t wait for him to pull over either, but it’s still interesting.

“You can’t kill me. I’m not unfaithful. I’ve never been.” I’m cry, my sweet boy. Oh no she kiss him! That doesn’t count as being unfaithful, lady! That was a non consensual kiss!

But seriously, I do think it’s interesting that they chose for Sam to be the Woman in White’s target. Because although he’s never cheated on a girlfriend, he is being “unfaithful” in a way. Either you could argue that he has been unfaithful to his family for the past few years, leaving them to go to college and trying to forget about them and his “responsibility” as Dean calls it, or you could say that in this episode he is being unfaithful to Jess and the life that he wants to lead by leaving with Dean to hunt in the first place. It’s almost like returning to an ex; hunting, this life. He promised to leave it behind, he promised Jessica he would come home, but he can’t have both. He has to choose between college and hunting, and while he’s trying to have both he is being unfaithful.

Looking at this through what we now know about Chuck I feel like it might have been what Chuck wanted, to send that subliminal message to Sam.

[disasteralex]

voltron + vine/memes pt 3 (feat. klance)

because we all need some lighthearted fun after this season

part 1 | part 2 | part 3 | part 4 

(spoilers for s6)

during his time on the space whale thing, keith tells krolia about all of lance’s stupid vines to pass the time

krolia, trying her best to understand earth culture, says keith’s father was thicker than a bowl of oatmeal. keith has regrets

keith has a dopey smile on his face the entire time. krolia’s spidey senses are tingling. she knows

lance tries to get keith to name his cosmic space wolf gabe. keith is confused. whenever he asks who gabe is, lance just thumps his own chest, raises his hand up to the sky and says “rip gabe”

lance and pidge try to get the wolf to bork like the “smoke weed every day” vine. shiro is Disappointed but can’t say anything because that would mean admitting he knows the vine and he can’t do that

pidge constantly refers to lance’s fursona and refuses to call him anything but pike for three weeks. the tables have turned

a few days into their journey back home, they land on a planet where the aliens look like dog-people and pidge makes about 10 furry jokes in the span of a minute

lance, finally snapping: “stop kinkshaming me!” pidge, with the most deadpan look on her face: “kinkshaming is my kink”

shiro laughs before he can stop himself and blows his cover

after shiro is brought back, the team decides to catch each other up

when they tell shiro what happened with lotor, everyone goes a quiet because they don’t want to bring it up in front of allura. finally, she takes matters into her own hands and goes “well, as i believe the phrase goes, i yeeted him across the bridge”

lance has never been more proud of someone in his life

pidge, that little shit: “did you mean yoted allura”

lance, at one point: “and we just drop in, like hey there galra, it’s me, ya boi”. hunk, nodding: “we dropped in like whupow and balalala”

keith is intrigued when lance explains buzzfeed unsolved. lance promises to show him as soon as they get back to earth and keith is suddenly a Very Flustered Boy

krolia: “is this boy propositioning my son?” coran: “i don’t think so?”

the garrison keeps them overnight (preventative quarantine), so lance drags keith over to his room to watch unsolved. they end up binging the first two seasons of supernatural. keith absolutely loves it and lance is so happy

the next morning, he makes sure to download every single episode for when they’re in space

when matt meets up with the group and is informed of what happened, he immediately shouts “I WANT TO SEE MY LITTLE BOY”

lance, as keith helps shiro out of the black lion: “HERE HE COMES”

shiro regrets everything, especially once matt breaks out the grandpa jokes

at one point, hunk and pidge go a little too far in teasing lance and he snaps and shouts “I’M SENSITIVE AUBREY” before running away from them (I have a headcanon that whenever lance panics or freaks out he reverts to vines/memes). hunk and pidge immediately realize what they’ve done/been doing and feel horrible

the next day, they get allura to bring lance to them. they’ve got pidge’s laptop already set up and playing music and they’re both wearing sunglasses and shrouded blankets

when lance walks in, they hand him another blanket and pair of sunglasses. lance smiles a little, accepts the unsaid apology and promise, and takes his place in front of them

in preparation for returning to earth, the garrison trio try and teach the others “earth slang”. nobody can tell how much they’re making up

coran then spends the next week asking the paladins what the tea is at breakfast. shiro feels too old for this

hunk, eating earth food for the first time in months: “finally some good fucking food”. lance cries of laughter

once they’re back on earth matt rigs his communicator to play the intro to bill nye the science guy whenever he enters a room. every time the garrison trio will drop everything and compulsively shout “bill bill bill” and he finds it hilarious

one time he catches shiro bopping his head to the music and nearly loses it

pidge discovered halfway to earth that she has a whole folder of memes and vines saved to her laptop and gathers everyone around for Family Meme Time 

pidge also has a strangely large collection of bad commercials. coran loves all of them, but his favourite is the shamwow guy

allura and coran are confused by earth’s geography (specifically the fact that north america is broken up into continents, then countries and provinces/states)

pidge, hunk and lance at the exact same time: “AMERICA, EXPLAIN”

keith enlists pidge’s help because he catches on pretty quick to the fact that lance freaks out every time he uses a vine/meme successfully

keith, as they land on a planet full of space deer: “hey lance” “yeah?” “look at all those chickens” lance freezes

pidge, in the background: lance.exe has stopped working

krolia to coran: “is this a weird earth mating ritual?” coran, squinting: “i’m... not sure”

before they all leave for their separate homes on earth, the paladins decide to get mcdonalds together

keith, walking up to the drinks station: “hey lance” lance: “yeah?” keith quickly samples all the drinks, takes a sip and says “fuck you”. lance thinks he’s in love

shiro, shook to the core but also not really surprised: “is he flirting???”

krolia, quietly but fiercely: that’s my boy

everyone is given communicators while they’re apart in case of an “emergency”. lance uses his to send keith memes and stuff from the strange side of youtube. keith mostly uses his to send lance videos of krolia reacting to weird earth shit and to tell shiro that yes, dad, he’s taking care of himself

keith’s favourite video is one lance sent him of him and his older brother recreating "when mama isn’t home”. lance’s is a video of keith laughing as krolia tries to fight a revolving door

before they leave for space, the group makes a trip to costco. coran is enthralled. krolia is fascinated by all the weapons and tries to use one. somehow, they manage to lose keith. by the end of the day, they’ve been banned indefinitely

when they leave earth again, they have approximately 20 multipacks of kd, a shiro-sized freezer of bacon, 12 giant jars of nutella, a cabinet full of costco brand vodka (coran is weirdly obsessed with it), and 60 pounds of ground coffee specifically reserved for shiro

[mrswhozeewhatsis]

21 Supernatural Questions

Thanks to @sammit-janet for helping me procrastinate tonight!

1. When did you start watching Supernatural?

Early December, 2014. I’d been sick for a month, already, and had run out of other shows I wanted to watch. I decided to watch that show that Misha Collins was on that my goddaughters used to watch. I got through 9.5 seasons by Christmas. That first hellatus was awful, and it’s how I got into the fandom. I needed more, found con videos, then fan fiction, and the rest is history!

2. Who is your favorite in TFW?

It depends on the day. I usually say I’m Winchester-sexual, angel-curious!

3. Who is your least favorite in TFW?

Ugh. I don’t dislike any of them (though I miss BAMF early-seasons Cas who didn’t bleed much and could do things regular hunters couldn’t like see demons’ faces). If I had to rank them, I probably obsess over Cas the least.

4. Tag your top 5 Supernatural blogs.

You’d ask me who my favorite children were, too, wouldn’t you? Not falling for that!

5. Who is your favorite character (not including TFW)?

You’re killing me. You’re really killing me. I CAN’T PICK. Chuck? Donna? Jody? Rowena? I love John and Mary, but I don’t get squishy when I watch them on the show. Charlie? I literally squealed and frightened my husband when we saw AU!Charlie the first time. Ellen? There are too many and you can’t make me pick!!

6. Who is your favorite woman in Supernatural?

Donna. She kicks ass and calls it butt.

7. John or Mary?

Gonna quote @sammit-janet directly, cuz she said it well: “Both.  I know people hate one or the other, but you cannot look at these parents with real-world glasses.  John had the mother of his children burned on the ceiling and he had no fucking clue about the Supernatural until then.  Once he did, he was on a mission to find whatever killed his wife.

“Mary made a deal to save the man she loved.  She would have stopped Azazel that night in the nursery too, but Michael erased her memory.  Now that she’s come back, well, don’t you think it’s a little disorienting to spend 32 years in heavenly bliss and then get thrust back down to earth and find out her children are living the exact life she didn’t want them to?

“Also, don’t forget, EVERYTHING was stacked against them.  Heaven made 100% sure that they got together just so Sam and Dean could be born and play out the apocalypse.”

8. What were your first opinions of Sam, Dean, Cas, and Jack?

Sam: Tall, but the hair, and he’s a baby, I feel like a pedophile.

Dean: Older, still tall, wiseass, heart of gold, if he loves pie, I’m a goner!

Cas: HOLY FUCK.

Jack: If he’s good, I will hold him and love him and squeeze him and call him George. If he’s evil, I will cut him down with the flames of a thousand burning suns.

9. What’s your favorite season?

I really don’t have one. I have seasons I love more, and seasons I love less, but none are my favorites. The writing in the beginning was tighter, and felt like there was an end coming, which made it more electric. But I really love watching the boys grow and change and make better, smarter decisions, or make stupid decisions for bigger, better reasons. I dislike the degradation of angel powers, though. I mean, remember when Cas could smite an entire diner of monsters or demons with just a bright light, but this season he was beaten to pulp by a demon gang? And now that Heaven’s gates are all open, can Cas fly, again? I mean, they couldn’t fly because the closed gates cut them off from Heaven, but now the gates are open, so LET CAS FLY, DAMMIT.

10. What’s your least favorite season?

Season 7, although that season does have an inordinate amount of things I like about it, so it makes no sense. Story-wise, I get it. They had to systematically take away everything the boys valued in order to leave Sam the destroyed mess he was when Dean and Cas disappeared. I don’t like it when my boys hurt, but I understand why they did it. On the other hand, season 7 gave us Charlie, and Frank, and Garth, and Kevin, and numerous dick jokes, and Sam tied to a bed, and Cas naked on Dean’s car covered in bees. So torn, but when I rewatch the series, I take a deep breath when I start season 7. (During my most recent rewatch, I also took a breath when Toni Bevell came onto my screen, so I guess I now put 12 in with 7.)

11. Opinions on Destiel?

Canon - Dean is straight. He’s said multiple times he doesn’t swing that way. I wouldn’t object if the writers decided to change that, but I respect Jensen and the writers in their decision not to go that way. There are more and more diverse characters on our screen every year, and I’m okay with letting Dean be a cis het white male who loves women of all kinds. I would love if they did a Human!Impala episode and the Impala turned out to be John Barrowman, though. On the other hand, Cas is completely unconcerned with gender and sexuality, so I wouldn’t mind seeing him have a romantic thing with a guy. Pretty sure that would break the fandom, though, so not holding my breath.

Fanon - Holy cheeseballs, that boy swings harder than an old-time saloon door, and I love reading about him being so open to everyone. Give me all the guys banging Dean like a screen door in a hurricane. Dean is all the door metaphors and memes, including the memes about Cas loving to destroy doors. Show me these two idiots falling in love any way you got it. They were roommates, you say? YES. There was only one bed, you say? SIGN ME THE FUCK UP. Dean’s a fireman and Cas is a nurse? ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME??? BRING IT.

12. Do you believe Supernatural queerbaits?

Not intentionally, or maliciously, but I can see why some folks might think that, sometimes. It’s a fine line the show writers have to balance on when it comes to scenes with Dean and Cas because of the fandom’s obsession with Destiel. They want to show the love between the two characters as brothers, but it can’t be too much love. (However, I sometimes wonder about certain things. I would love to sit down with Jensen, Jerry Wanek, and Robbie Thompson, show them certain moments, and ask why certain decisions were made regarding framing, editing, props, and such. If they weren’t thinking Destiel, what were they thinking??)

13. Seasons 1-7 or 8-14?

You’re asking me to pick my kids, again. 1-7 is Kripke writing, 8-11 is Robbie Thompson writing, NO NO NO YOU CAN’T MAKE ME DECIDE.

14. Favorite villain (plot wise)?

Crowley

15. Do you think they should end the Lucifer plot line?

YES. I’m cool with watching Nick progress into a big bad, but keep Lucifer in The Empty. (I just had a wild thought about The Empty, Lucifer, and The Shadow coming for Jack. Lord, I hope I’m wrong.)

16. Who do you think has gone through more trauma (Sam, Dean, or Cas)?

Quoting Sammit again: “Sam.  He found out he had demon blood in him, was one of Azazel’s “chosen”, died by being stabbed in the back, went to hell for 100 years, lost his soul, was driven mad by Lucifer, almost died doing the trials, was possessed by Gadreel…did i leave anything out?”

Dean and Cas have also had their share, but if you want to quantify it, I think Sam has had more. 

17. What’s your favorite Supernatural episode?

Baby, Dog Dean Afternoon, Don’t Call Me Shurley, most of the other episodes writing by Robbie Thompson, too.

18. Do you like case episodes?

They are a nice breather in between the episodes where I can’t sit back for  moment.

19. Who do you relate most to in TFW?

I switch back and forth between Dean and Sam. I relate to Sam wanting to go to college to get away from his family, I relate to Dean’s eating habits, I understand why Sam’s done all the stupid shit he’s done, and I understand Dean not wanting to delve into things because it’s hard. Oh, and I say awesome almost as much as Dean. Cas, though, is a mystery to me. The only time I relate to him is when he’s confused by pop culture references.

20. Why do you like Supernatural?

The characters. They’re just so fucking interesting, you know? And (with some notable exceptions) the writers have managed to keep them from getting too far away from who they were in the pilot, while showing them growing and changing and improving. I love the world, I love the fantasy, and I love how universal they all are. I mean, if you took characters from another show and put them in a Beach AU, I wouldn’t be able to see it like I can with these characters. They’re awesome.

21. If you could bring back one character and kill off another who would they be?

Keep Lucifer dead, bring back Frank. I also want to see more of Linda Tran. Or Ellen, though I don’t know what they’d do with her with Mary around. I’d say Crowley, but I know that will never happen, and I understand why, so I’m letting him go.

Tag yourselves!

[angelkurenai]

Papa Winchester - Jeffrey Dean Morgan x Reader - Part 2

Title: Papa Winchester

Pairing: Jeffrey Dean Morgan x Reader

Word Count: 3,074

Warnings: None really

Prompt: YN and Jeffrey met on season 1 of SPn where she played his daughter(the middle Winchester sister) and have been together ever since,they'r married with kids by now, and the fans (specially the cast who’s her family) always makes fun of that during interviews and pannels,but it’s always cute because Jeffrey likes to surprise them ,specially when the fans are involved,and they all love and are very supportive of their relationship

Read Part 1 here!

A/N: I’m doing lots of writing today since I have time and more posting will be done tomorrow! Also, this was not betad so apologies!

“They never let you catch a break, do they?” your driver and bodyguard asked with a chuckle as you surfed on the net, on your way to visiting your husband on set.

“It's Jensen and Jared, Mike, of course they never do.” you chuckled, shaking your head “I mean, they might probably deny it but, I know it's their favorite hobby!”

“I don't think they are really denying it anymore.” he laughed, shaking his own head and you shrugged.

You glanced back at your daughter sleeping in her seat, it was already very early and you wanted to surprise her by visiting her dad on his work “Those sly bastards, I am sure they learned how to make memes just for us!”

“Jared for me wouldn't be a surprise but Jensen? Are you sure about that?”

You laughed “Oh you really don't know them that well, besides I think they sort of confirmed it during a Con. I am not sure, haven't joined them in some time but I like to keep up, so I know that for sure. Here-” you opened your gallery, just at the moment he stopped on a red light “See this?”

“Dad's on a hunting trip. And he hasn't been home in a few days.” he read and added “Well, classic line. It's what started it all, Jensen's favorite.”

“Yeah, just see the rest.” you said with a giggle as you showed him the full photo. Under a picture of Jensen's from the pilot were the rest of the words.

“A few days? Are you sure it's a hunting trip?”

“No, he's- he's making out with our sister in his trailer?” he ended up reading it as a question before laughing and shaking his head “Yes, alright Jensen is so the one to make this!”

“I mean we weren't a thing back then but of course, leave it to Jensen to make it look like that while making a fun situation out of it!” you shook your head “Oh look, speaking of the devil-” you opened as a notification on instagrampoped up.

“Not really posting lots of things like this here but Jared did a great job with this and I was in tears when I saw it, so here ya go! Unseen photo of their wedding!” you read as you took a look at the photo it came with and you really facepalmed“Oh sweet lord, why do I hang out with these idiots?!”

“What?” he didn't sneak a look because he had to focus on the road “What did they do this time? What photo of your wedding did they upload?”

“Apparently... their favorite one.” you said before reading “'Dear beloved, we have gathered here today to celebrate the join of (Y/n) Lucille (Y/l/n) and Jeffrey Dean Morgan.' I- I don't even know how the heck they did this.” you shook your head as you took a look at the photo of your husband with his bad in a rather beautiful... veil and what was supposed to work as a wedding dress for it.

“Well, they took things quite literal.” he said with a smirk as you laughed.

“You tell me.” you mumbled “I could comment on this but for real I am only speechless.” you laughed “At least the fans have gotten used to this by now so they are really only laughing at these and not taking it too seriously.”

“Oh but the entire fandom ships you and Jeffrey anyway.” he shrugged and you nodded your head.

“That I am really happy about.” you sighed softly “It's nice to know the people you care about and appreciate can really see the truth and not judge you.” you finished and a small pause followed between the two of you, and it was soon broken by a giggle leaving your lips when you saw Jared too uploaded something of his own.

“Papa Winchester trying to explain to his wife, Mary, that he's going to be a father and a grandfather at the same time once the baby comes. Only the SPN fandom gets it now, but everybody else is...” said the description along with a photo of you during a con, making a face and saying “Min-blown!”

You saw he had also added something else of his own in the description saying “Crazy times ahead, will love to see you explain this @(Y/i/n). #yesthefandomisnutsandweloveit #stillshipit”

You had not seen it before but you noticed there was another one right before this “When you try to figure out if she is more your half-sister or niece” it had as a small description under the picture of a very confused Jared, looking with a funny face at your daughter who was only grinning at him in a baby-like way. You remember when your friend had taken this photo, and your daughter was barely four months old. And now he was making a meme with her, of course. But you couldn't really be mad cause it was both adorable and funny.

You laughed, typing a quick reply to that one “Padalecki, are you using your sibling as that? Shame on you, brother, I am going to tell dad!” you left and continued to browse on youtube about any new videos.

“Oh if anything, sometimes they seem to join Jared and Jensen on this as well.” you mumbled before a smile formed on your lips “Oh look, they have also uploaded the season 12 bloopers.”

“Haven't you seen them?” he asked in a mumble.

“Plenty of times, experienced them myself too. But this one is a compilation, not just the bloopers uh 'Jeffrey and (Y/n), a love story as told by Jared and Jensen' oh wow!” you snorted, shaking your head “They certainly know what they're doing, let's see.”

“Yeah we ship them and are not guilty at all to admit it!” Jared said, swinging in his chair as Jensen chuckled.

“We- we specifically learned how to make memes to tease them, yes that we are guilty about, but at the end of the day I am going to be the captain of this ship and I won't let it sink!”

“You- you know what 'ship' comes from, right?” Jared asked with a smirk as Jensen scoffed.

“Pffft of course I do!” he rolled his yes “It's, you know, a ship with- with those two people on it- I mean now Jef would have to be the captain if it was just him and (Y/n) but I refused to let them go alone on their honeymoon, there is nothing that would stop me from doing this as well!”

“Did he really?!” Mike asked with a laugh and you giggled.

“Sorta. He too was on vacation at the time and we just bumped on each other, and he was all like 'Look here, dad, I was never for threats- no wait, I always was, who am I kidding? Anyway, if you hump my little sister I am going to tell mom!'and I swear he was so serious that he scared me!” you laughed.

“Well- well, Jared is always the one making fun of them the most!” Jensen tried to defend himself during a con.

“Excuse me?” the younger man scoffed in disbelief “Who was the one making pregnancy jokes during dinners?”

Jensen snorted, raising his hand “And I am very proud of that!”

“Yeah, I bet (Y/n)'s parents were very proud of you too!” Jared rolled his eyes as the audience laughed “Oh yeah who would have thought her father would not find it hilarious that Jensen called Jef the daddy... of not just the baby!”

“That-” Jensen laughed as well, shaking his head “That was a slip up!”

“Dude you almost gave the poor man a heart attack!”

“But Jeffrey is the daddy!” Jensen once more tried, and failed, to defend himself for the sake of the fans that all laughed at what he said.

The clip changed and again, surprise surprise, it was Jensen and Jared.

“It- It was an amazing day, full of tears at least for Jensen and (Y/n)'s father, her- her real one by the way cause with all these jokes we-” Jared laughed “We can't tell them apart.”

“Come the man could finally understand me! My baby sister was getting married to my dad, it was a big issue for me- and the entire fandom!” Jensen exclaimed and you laughed at his words.

“Yeah I guess it was a big issue watching her walk towards her future husband and past father.” Jared shrugged as he fought a smile but in the end lost.

“Past? Oh please, not as long as we are around to remind people of that!”

The clip changed to another con.

“I'll tell you, I- I never thought there would come a day that I would give advice to my father on how to ask my sister out on a date!” Jensen said with a simply surprised face but you just scoffed with a smile, knowing he had seen it coming from the first minute and he was just really enjoying teasing you even if you weren't there.

“This is what we all call Supernatural!” Jared exclaimed “And he was quite nervous too, wasn't he?”

“Oh you have no idea! I would really go into detail about this but for fear of him suddenly appearing at my doorstep with Lucille, the one he didn't marry by the way, I am just going to say one thing.” Jensen said with a chuckle “It was one hell of an experience seeing John Winchester act so nervous in front of a girl, especially his little daughter, when asking her out!”

“...Wait, don't you have that on a video?” Jared asked after a small pause of his own as the crowd cheered at Jensen's words, and slowly a mischievous smirk formed on Jensen's face.

“Oh dear Chuck help us if he does.” you muttered before the clip changed once more and this time you recognized it a blooper.

“Man, dad loved this thing!” Jensen all bloody came on set from, supposedly, a hunt with Jared following closely behind.

“Hey, oh s' up with Lucille?” you asked with a smirk, unable to contain yourself “Thought my husband had her!”

“Who?” Jared snickered “Oh yes, dad yeah sometimes it's hard to remember your sister is also your step mom!” they both burst into laughter with you joining and only then Robert yelled cut.

“Wh-what? We are just giving the fans some new info, didn't you know?” Jensen asked as you and Jared were holdingyour stomach's from the laughter.

“Alright guys, reset!” Robert shouted as you and the boys fooled around for a few minutes.

“Lucille” you scoffed, picking up the bat and staring at it “What kind of name is that? Wonder who he named you after.”

“Sister or wife?” Jared mumbled, a grin slowly spreading on both your faces.

“Or both!” Jensen exclaimed and you all snorted before laughing.

“Wow this thing is heavy, how can you swing it so easily?” you asked Jensen who chuckled.

“Oh it's a family thing, I took after dad! Why don't you ask your husband too!”

“Hey- hey guys, at least dad knows how to hold a woman firm and tight you know, so that's something.” you said

“And now it's time to break the internet, come on let's hear (Y/n) Lucille Morgan give us more details!”

“We are so weird that this makes absolute sense!” Jared wiped away tears from his face as he laughed uncontrollably.

“Alright!” Robert's voice was heard again “Let's try this again guys!”

The screen turned black for just a split second before Jensen appeared again, walking inside the bunker with Jared following suit.

“Man, dad loved this thing!” he said, trying to give it a small swing.

“Helps real lot with the zombies.” you mumbled as you flipped through a magazine with, guess what, the Walking dead on it and a small groan was heard from Robert. The scene was already ruined.

“Zombies? Huh I thought it was for all your potential boyfriends.” Jensen snickered.

“Yeah so did I. But I mean all he has to say is 'Hi I am her father and yes her future husband, did I tell you I kill monsters on my free time?' and he would be gone!” Jared agreed with a grin.

“Heard that Supernatural writers? Now you won't have to kill off all my potential partners, dad will do it for free and enjoy it!” you said as you all erupted into laughter.

“Alright, cut!” Robert shouted before the screen became black for a moment.

“Killing off all of her boyfriends, and being a strict dad, that' the secret to keeping them close y' all!” Jeffrey appeared for a moment in front of the camera as you all laughed in the background.

The screen turned black again and once more it all started the same as the first two times.

“Man, dad loved this thing!” Jensen said and Jared followed.

“Yes, I did.” Jeffrey appeared into the screen “But how about you give it to me before you hurt yourself, son.” he took Lucille from him as Jensen and Jared share an over-dramatic look and then stared at him with again overly dramatic shocked faces.

“Don't act like that boys, it's like you've seen a ghost!” he chuckled, swinging the bat over his shoulder “If you'll excuse us now, your dad and sister have a romantic date tonight.” he said with a grin, throwing an arm over your shoulders.

“Come on sweetheart!” he kissed your forehead “Wanna go hunt some zombies?”

“Cut!” and the screen turned black again for a split second.

“Oh and since the last time we talked, I killed Hitler.” Jensen said with a proud smile.

“Uh thank you?” Kim said with a perplexed look on her face.

“You're welcome!” Jensen's grin go bigger.

“Oh and let's not forget we celebrated dad's anniversary with our sister, so there's that!” Jared said with a grin and Kim nodded, not for a second breaking character.

“Oh wow that must have been...”

“Weird as hell, but that's how the Winchesters do it. What can we say.” you shrugged, you too in character.

“And hey, she announced we are going to be uncles again!” Jensen piped in with an excited smile.

“Or wait- did she say uncles? I thought- I thought it was more like half brothers again?” Jared mumbled, leaning closer to Jensen.”

“No, no I think dad brought it up. (Y/n) surely said about uncles, or wait- was it our dead mom that brough it up?” Jenen mumbled back not-so-subtly.

“I mean she isn't just going to be a grandmother only, but- but what is the baby again to he other than that?” Jared muttered in return as they kept it going.

“You certainly never get bored with these two, right?” Kim asked and you nodded your head.

“Not a single day.”

“Cut!”

“Life is certainly never boring with those two around.” you breathed out with a smile, closing the video before it could end.

~*~

“I always knew you were gonna replace me with one of your favorite props, baseball bat, glove, your leather jacket, camera, something. I just never thought we'd have the same name.” you said with a giggle as you approached you husband while holding your daughter's hand.

“Oh honey you know I would never put anything before you!” he broke into a wide grin and you chuckled as your daughter let go of your hand and ran to him with wide arms.

“Daddy!” she exclaimed as he knelt down and effortlessly picker her up and spoon her around.

“How is my princess doing?” he smiled, kissing her cheek.

“Good, dad! Mommy and I went for ice cream and pizza first and then we decided to visit you!” she rambled, wrapping her arms around his neck.

“Who's replacing whom now?” he asked with a smirk as he extended and arm to wrap around your shoulders.

“Pardon me?!” you pretended to be offended “Out of the two of us who is carrying a child in them an has to eat for two every three hours or so?!”

“Fine, you won this round.” he chuckled, pecking your lips.

“Dad, why were you talking to mommy when she was not here by her middle name?” your daughter asked with a tilt of her head and you and Jeffrey chuckled.

“Oh I wasn't exactly talking to mommy, sweetheart. I was practicing my lines, and they required me to talk to my bat, see.” he let you pull away as you picked up said object.

“This is Lucille.” you said as you inspected it with a smile.

“You named her after mommy?” your daughter asked once more with raised eyebrow and adorably peculiar eyes and Jeffrey chuckled, kissing her cheek.

“That's exactly what I did, princess.” he said with pride and you raised an eyebrow at him “You know I love your momma more than my life, it would be only fair if I did, right? Lucille is as badass and cool as your momma is fighting monsters with uncle Jared and Jensen.”

“Mommy is awesome!” she exclaimed, grinning at you and you giggled, leaning to kiss her forehead.

“Only seems so since I have the most awesome daughter in the world!” you booped her nose as she giggled “But I think we can all attribute it to how fantastic her father is, think he deserves some credit. Doesn't he, princess?” you asked with a smirked and she giggled, nodding his head as she looked up at her.

“Yes, yes daddy deserves the credit!”

“And another kiss too?” he suggested with a seemingly innocent smile but you just laughed.

“From Lucille? Oh but what is the bat for, honey?” you chuckled as he tried to seem angry at you.

“From Mrs Morgan.” he corrected and you laughed, leaning in to kiss him once more.

“Ew!” your daughter made a sound, hiding her face behind her hands and both you and Jeffrey laughed.

“She spends too much time with Jared and Jensen, doesn't she?” you asked and he shrugged innocently.

“Oh don't try that on me, mister. You might be Papa Winchester but we both know who runs this family!” you hit him playfully on the shoulder.

“And we both know it is the two of us!” Jensen said with a grin as they approached you.

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One fun fact/random ass thing per muse! Because this is what I do instead of writing abouts. I found this list of conversation starters and just randomly generated a number to pick one of ‘em per muse. They’re questions, I might make a post. You can consider this a meme to tag yourself in. Also, excuse the inconsistency in icons but that’s what I got.

In order of appearance:

1. Patrick - Do you play sports video games? Which ones? Is playing the video game or sport more fun? Why?

-.Playing video games is probably one of the things you won’t often, if at all, catch Patrick doing. He would enjoy them, he likes FIFA for example, but he rarely gets to actually just... sit down and play games. So, there’s that. And, he’d much rather go out and play the actual sport, than sit in front of a screen and pretend he’s playing one. He loves being outside, he loves movement, he adores sports! So yeah. Invite him to a match of football (soccer) or a round of tennis, and he’ll most definitely say yes!

2. Hoon - Where is the nicest place you have been to this fall?

-.I like to think that there’s access to the rooftop of the hospital he works in for those who have the key or somehow get their hands on it. Well, Hoon does have a key for the rooftop and spends his free minutes up there during autumn or winter. He likes the colour and atmosphere of the sky during those seasons. How exactly he obtained those keys is a mystery.

3. Jiwoo - What do you do to get rid of stress?

-.I have this thing, with my muses (especially Kihoon and Patrick) where when, if you dig deep enough, each represents a human feeling or state of mind. And Jiwoo would be Anger. Truth to be told, Jiwoo’s isn’t really that simple. I could say ‘Bitterness’ or ‘Holding onto Anger’. But yeah, it’s a fundamental part of who he is. And as such, he has an unhealthy relationship to stress. Because his way of getting rid of stress is to get more stressed. Mostly if we’re talking about emotional stress, he’ll take up twenty projects so that he has something less emotional to stress over. How does Jiwoo unwind, what does he do? I don’t think he does.

4. Lorenzo - Which sports do you like to play?

-.Lorenzo isn’t a real big fan of playing sports. He enjoys watching winter sports, ski mostly and especially, but he has no interest in playing any kind of sport. Unless you consider card games a sport.

5. Kihoon - Would you eat at a restaurant that was really dirty if the food was amazing?

-.A definite no to that. Kihoon is someone who you might describe as ‘posh’ if you didn't know him much. Thing is, Kihoon has certain expectations of how certain things should be lead. He thinks hygiene is important in a place where food is served, and no matter the taste of the food, he’d be outraged by the lack of human decency and attention to hygiene. He wouldn’t complain about it outright in the restaurant itself, but he wouldn’t stay either.

6. Camille - Are you very active of do you prefer to just relax in your free time?

-.Camille is the kind of person who always has to keep herself in movement, otherwise she starts feeling jittery. The passage of time in which she spends doing nothing feels to her like wasted time, missed opportunities, missed chances to do the things she really feels she needs to do. She wants to give her little brother and the human colony they live in a good life. And she fears that, any minute spent not doing that or something to achieve that, is a minute her family has to suffer longer for.

7. Yoshino - What is the craziest, most outrageous thing you want to achieve?

-.It depends on who you ask! If you ask elder tanukis with elder principles or arrogant tengus, the simple fact that Yoshino has zero interest in the politics to which their family is connected, and would rather live freely forever, would be the most outrageous thing they want to achieve. And I guess, only that could really pass as outrageous. Another crazy thing would be befriending a kitsune family.

8. Anne - Which do you prefer, books or movies?

-.Books. She has little time to watch movies or read books, because even when she doesn’t have to do anything, she has to be present. But in rare occasions in which she does have time, she’ll love the idea of sitting down, snuggle under a comfortable blanket, dim the lights, get something warm to drink, and spend the entire evening reading. She’d love to do that with a significant other as well. It’d be her ideal night in.

9. Jungkook - Where is the most awe inspiring place you have been?

-.Considering he’s only ever been in Busan, where he was born, and in Seoul, where he lives, I’d say it’s Seoul. A city full of wonders and lights, and he hasn’t even explored a fraction of it.

10. Seongmin - Do you prefer physical books or ebooks?

-.Much to my dismay, I’d say ebooks. He’s familiar with technology in a way, and he finds it to be such a convenience that he can carry around with himself three hundred books, all on one piece of hard plastic. It’s a useful and fascinating concept.

11. Hyeongjong - If you could call up anyone in the world and have a one hour conversation, who would you call?

-.Probably Sugawara Koharu. That might be my fault, because I’m gay af, but Hyeongjong does listen to kpop and likes learning choreographies, as well as browse the internet for videos from dancing schools (such as 1Milion), and Koharu’s choreos seem to have left a certain impression on him. Her choreographies stand out among classic kpop dances and if he could spend an hour discussing dancing and choreographies with her, he’d learn Japanese just for the occasion.

12. Axra - What was your first smart phone? How did you feel when you got it?

-.I can’t say a specific brand or model, because I have no interest in giving them a specific one, but I can say that, for a person who grew up in the kind of poverty Axra grew up in, holding a smartphone in their hands they can call their own, must have felt incredibly sureal. They still treat it like its the most precious glass figure in the world. Considering that, and that they literally only use it so their lady can reach them, it’s no surprise it survived this long.

13. Kijoon - What is your guilty pleasure?

-.Hard to say. I don’t know much about him yet, but maybe his guilty pleasure would have something to do with his supernatural investigations. Maybe, in reality, he enjoys chasing down supernatural creatures, no matter how dangerous they are. The thrill of the chase, figuring out who and what the creature is, and then learning from them once he’s discovered their hideout. His guilty pleasure could be the chase. Or it could be something else. Note, though, that he is not out to harm supernatural creatures. He really just wants to understand them.

14. Delsin - What is the strangest themed restaurant you have heard of?

-.I know there is one, well not a restaurant per se but, Game of Thrones Frost Giants themed, and I feel like Delsin would find that pretty strange. Not that he doesn’t enjoy watching Game of Thrones - he’s a casual viewer, but a dedicated one - he just doesn’t understand why someone would pick the ice giants or whatever they’re called to be the protagonists of their GoT theme.

15. Kilian - What technology from a science fiction movie would you most like to have?

-.Uh, all of them? He’s a die hard Star Wars fan and if he were to discover that somewhere, under Seattle, some Conduit or literally anybody else, found a way to recreate functional technology directly taken from any of the Star Wars films, he’d probably start digging a whole right where he’s standing when he finds out. Honestly, if he could weild a functioning light saber just once, just... slice open a metal door with it, he’d die a happy person.

16. Loki - What is the most annoying app you have tried?

-.Any of them would be an appropriate answer. Loki is fascinated by humans and the things they create, but there are some apps, especially those based on social interactions, that really make him sigh in annoyance. I’m talking dating apps, mostly. He tried out Tinder for a week and regretted it so much, he debated whether he should just get rid of his phone altogether.

17. Holy - If you could have any animal as a pet, what animal would you choose?

-.Pfft, that’s easy. A cat! Fluffy little devil spawns, as she might refer to them. She has two already, actually, Hakaze and Nano, named after two characters from Nichijou (because that’s exactly the genre anime she enjoyes watching).

wtf when did i get this many muses

[a-goddamn-fool]

I don't have a fancy theory about why everyone left but I can tell you why I personally stopped watching each show.

Once I got up to the eleventh doctor, I kind of realized that I didn't like Amy and Rory that much. They definitely didn't feel as genuine of people as Rose or Martha was. In addition to that I personally don't like it when a show makes a permanent shift from one offs to large story arcs. I don't mind the occasional big thing, but a permanent switch from what was once a series of separate stories feels like the writers are trying too hard to me. I've seen a couple episodes of Capaldi as the doctor and I do prefer him to Matt Smith but I still don't like him anywhere near as much as I liked Eccleston and Tennant. The last nail in the coffin for me was the BBC yanking the entire universe off Netflix, preventing me from rewatching older episodes.

The reason I stopped watching supernatural was pretty similar to doctor who. I didn't like the large story arcs and much of that was because they were predictable: something bad is coming, one of the brothers died (but not really), everything's okay again. In addition to that, any side character I ever got attached to inevitably got killed after a few storylines. A couple months ago my dad said "hey you should watch season 12. Season 13 is pretty good, but you have to watch 12 to understand it." So I watched season 12, and honestly it wasn't the same as the creepy stories in season 1 but it was definitely better than when I left around season 8.

The reason why I stopped watching Sherlock wasn't complicated. They just weren't releasing episodes fast enough to hold my interest. I found other shows.

In addition to all of these, around the same time I also left my blog alone for a long time, partially to focus on school but also because it just wasn't bringing me any happiness at all. I came back just to stay current on memes.

I would pay top dollar for a comprehensive, source-supported explanation of how Superwholock vanished.

Like……..that was the core of tumblr in 2013. Its tainted life-blood. Its fetid royal palace. Destiel this and Johnlock that. Tardis-in-the-impala-at-221B URLS. Bendydoot Cucumberpatch and long analytical debates of which doctor is best doctor

What caused the end? What destroyed it? What series of events sunk this fortress? I’m so. So curious. This was so much of what tumblr was. So unavoidable. It’s cultural history. I want. to know.

[speckledspout]

supernatural tag meme

I was tagged by the amazing @corrupteddean to do this so here we go:

1. what season did you start watching supernatural?

well this is a funny story because i can’t really remember. i do remember when i was younger that supernatural would come on after charmed (which i watched all the time) and i would watch a couple of episodes that way. but then i stopped watching and picked back up somewhere around season seven i think (like season seven was currently airing). i went back and rewatched the previous seasons that i missed to catch up and now here i am.

2. who was the first character you fell in love with?

this is also a funny story because i first fell in love with sam even tho i am totally a dean girl now (that’s a lie, i’m a bribo, who am i even kidding) but there was something about sam, maybe it was that fluffy, long hair because i was going through a phase where i only liked boys with long hair like that and so i fell in love with sam first.

3. who was a character that you hated at first but grew to love?

jo harvelle. i did not like her at all. she was annoying and whiny and i really didn’t like her but upon my spn rewatch i grew to like her, i guess. i mean, she was young and naive but i started to understand her. she was that way because her father had died and then her mother put her on lock down basically and she didn’t have the opportunity to find out for herself what she liked or didn’t like, ya know.

4. which character would you most want to be in a long-term relationship with?

dean winchester. call me a basic bitch or whatever but i love dean and i think he needs someone who will be there for him when he needs them but also give him distance when he needs it. dean honestly is such a pure soul and he needs something good in life.

5. if you could go on just one date with one character, which one would you choose?

sammy babe. again call me a basic bitch but i think that it would be a lot of fun to go on a date with him.

6. what would you do on the date?

i don’t know. maybe go watch a movie, share a popcorn. have a nice dinner. something like that.

7. which character would you most want to be like?

either john winchester or bobby.

8. which character would you most like to see brought back from the dead?

again either bobby or john. i think it would be interesting to see the relationship between both the boys with john, being that they’re so much older. i would love to see sam’s relationship grow with his father. and then with bobby, he was a constant in the boys lives that needs to be back.

9. which character would you most like to punch?

yeah, i’m not gonna answer this one. not at all because my answer probably wouldn’t be well received.

10. who is your absolute favorite character?

umm, sam and dean, duh. but besides from them, probably john. i really wish we could know more about john because there’s so much hate for him and i wish there wasn’t.

11. which “big bad” do you think was the worst?

the worst? as in the worst thought out character or worst as in the best villain? i’m going with the first because honestly the whole amara storyline kinda pissed me off. they had such potential to do some great things with her and then they didn’t and she was just this flat character.

12. which character are you most like?

i don’t know really. i’ve been told tho that i am a lot like dean. i mean, i’ve got a little brother that even tho he drives me crazy, i would do anything for. i am not an overly affectionate person however when you manage to get past these walls that i have, you are there forever. i am funny and i am witty and yeah, i don’t know what else to say.

13. what death hit you the hardest?

bobby’s. most definitely because the boys needed him and then the writers just had to go off and kill him.

14. what season finale hit you the hardest?

oh lord, i don’t know. maybe the end of season one when everyone is so young and happy and then they get in the car crash and then the opening in season two killed me.

15. what are your ten all-time favorite episodes?

1. the pilot 2. faith 3. red meat 4. folsom prison blues 5. regarding dean 6. baby 7. first blood 8. who we are 9. in my time of dying 10. on the head of a pin

16. what’s been your favorite season?

either season one or two because that is classic spn through and through because my boys are so young and happy and everything isn’t fucked up.

17. who is your favorite angel?

either balthazar or gabriel

18. who’s your favorite demon?

uhh... i love crowley but i also love meg

19. who’s your favorite evil character?

let me go with the classic and say yellow eyes however i also loved cain and i wish that we could have more of him.

20. do you have any supernatural ships?

fuck yeah i do: wincest, some dark!wincestiel, dean/benny, demon!dean/abaddon, uhhh... sam/jess and there are others that i can’t think of right now.

21. who’s your favorite supporting actor?

oh lord, i don’t even know

22. what’s your favorite quote from the show?

let me go with the basic “family don’t end in blood.”

23. if you could cast one famous actor in an episode of spn, who would you chose?

this one i don’t know either.

24. if you could write your own episode, what kind of creature would you like to see included?

if i could write an episode it would be based off my fic that i wrote a while ago called “mine carts and raging fires.” it has your classic monster being the wendigo but also the brothers relying on each other and some major hurt!brothers. it would be my favorite episode ever.

25. who’s your favorite girl that dean’s hooked up with?

i don’t know being that dean’s had a ton of one night stands and hasn’t emotionally bonded with anyone but thinking back through the seasons it would have to be cassie because dean trusted her enough to tell her about his life and what he did and it was probably his first heartbreak.

26. who’s your favorite girl that sam’s hooked up with?

i really liked sarah back in season two. i thought that she and sam was adorable with each other.

27. what are some of your favorite convention moments?

anytime when we get a glimpse into their lives or when they hug... or when they get up on stage and sing.

28. if you were going to guest star (or be a recurring guest star) on spn, how would you want your character described?

a hunter (obviously) who is pretty badass, has an awesome aim, funny, witty, caring. someone who can get things done when asked. seems cold at first but when you peel back the layers you see that i’m actually really nice. probably gotta have that tragic backstory. kinda a lone wolf but would stick around with the brothers, help them when need be but not overbearing.

29. what do you hope to see in the next season?

just give me my classic spn with my monsters of the week and classic hunts and old motel rooms and scary episodes. that’s what i want. and for what’s dead to stay dead.

30.-40. if you had to choose…

bobby or john?

i can’t pick. both.

bela or ruby?

bela (i really really liked her)

jess or madison?

jess (because she was sam’s first love)

jo or lisa?

jo (can’t really stand lisa)

charlie or kevin?

fuck, really. i would go with charlie.

balthazar or ash?

probably balthazar. we need ash in heaven controlling things up there.

cas or crowley?

crowley. most definitely.

ben or claire?

i’m gonna go with ben cause i can’t stand claire.

jody or donna?

umm... both. i can’t pick one or the other.

sam or dean?

salmon dean, obviously. (ha, i’m not funny. sam and dean because they are just one soul split in half.)

tagging: @golly-god | @itsnotsammy | @purgatoan | @justanothersaltandburn | @wetsammywinchester | @the-mrs-deanwinchester | @bowlegdean | @hes-my-brother | @ilostmyshoe-79 (and anyone else)

[zmediaoutlet]

So, Tumblr is always toxically depressing after a Supernatural episode and probably the thing to do would be to just log off and go work out or something, and in fact I think that will be the plan for the rest of the morning. But I’ve been thinking a lot about two things, having seen all the dramatic rending of clothing and vicious anger and whatnot, so I might as well get it down somewhere.

1. The function of secondary characters.

So, you’re writing a text. The first thing to do is decide what the text is about and the character(s) you’re going to use to explore that about. In an ensemble television show, you often have a ‘main’-ish character or two, but they share the load of the about with their co-stars. Game of Thrones is actually a great example of an ensemble cast--there are big ‘mains’ with Cersei, Jamie, Arya, Sansa, etc., but no one character bears the full burden of the storyline; the story is told through all of their combined mini-stories. A slightly different ensemble-style show would be House, where House himself is obviously the main character, but Wilson, Cuddy, Foreman, etc., get their own storylines to spread the load slightly from House. Most of the show will be about him, of course, but there are times when the side-characters hold an equal share of the storytelling load.

Then we have Supernatural. This is absolutely not an ensemble-style show. There are two main characters, Sam and Dean, and everyone else is reduced to secondary status. (There is an argument to be made for Castiel and Crowley, given the extra-textual contractual status of Misha and Mark, but functionally the show remains entirely about Sam and Dean.) ((Or did, but that’s something to return to later.)) There are no real storylines external to Sam and Dean; they carry the entire weight of the show, because it is about the two of them, their relationship, and how they grow as people.

So. What function do secondary characters serve, in that context? They can’t meaningfully bear storylines or real weight, because they’re necessarily extremely secondary in importance to the actual mains. When we’re writing, we create secondary characters not to be interesting characters in themselves (though if they are interesting, that’s a nice bonus), but to serve as support for the story of the mains. What does this mean? Secondary characters can be a goad to action for the mains (villains often serve this function); they can act as guide or support (Bobby, Jody); they can provide an emotional spur (Mary, John), or teach a lesson (Garth), or give them an opportunity to be heroes (Claire). They can also just be friends (Eileen), but that’s part of it, too--the importance of the friendship doesn’t rest in the secondary character, it rests in how the main’s feelings and character are expressed with that friendship.

When a secondary character gets a spotlight shone on them, it is never for the sake of that character; it is because what the secondary character is going through has meaning for the main. When Claire has her little Randy storyline, it functions within the larger story because it provides contrast to Sam and Dean’s childhood with John (the CGBG story), it gives Castiel something to do (as a quasi-main), and it provides the situation where Dean slaughters the room full of men with little provocation (hooking into the larger MoC storyline). It’s not about Claire, though it’s easy to see how someone would say it was. More pressingly, when Eileen is brought in as a character in s11, she provides a parallel to Sam and Dean, as someone whose family was killed and who is now seeking her revenge. When she’s brought back in s12, what function does she serve? We know the BMoL are trying to control hunters. Functionally, the character is brought back for a minor setpiece involving the BMoL; this reminds the audience who she is and sets up the plot of that episode. We see her being friendly with Sam and Dean (=mains feel kindly toward this secondary, so there is an emotional tie-in the actual about of the story). When she kills a member of the BMoL accidentally, Sam and Dean protect her (=goad to action for mains & precursor to future conflict with larger plot arc). When she is then murdered in 12.21, we know exactly why that happened: the foreshadowing is complete, the mains feel sad, they are goaded to action to engage with the larger plot arc by now figuring out what the BMoL are up to. It isn’t just killing for shock value. It is functional. Which brings me to:

2. ‘Fandom’ is an extremely small set of the audience.

What does that have to do with anything? Well, this. So--if we go by TV by the Numbers, SPN Season 12 has carried between 1.38 million and 2.15 million viewers per episode. (The 2.15 is an outlier; the average is closer to about 1.7 per.) The population of those viewers who are actively engaged is lower than that, necessarily--most viewers will be relatively casual viewers. They like it, but not necessarily more than the other shows they watch. Of the people who do engage enough to be part of ‘fandom,’ there are subsets on Facebook, on reddit, on Tumblr. These are a small section. Of that section, the group that ships characters is even smaller.

This show is not on HBO or FX, which have a more artistic sensibility behind their decisions. It’s on the CW, and therefore is written to maintain a solid viewer base who will watch the commercials that the CW sells during SPN’s timeslot. With the changing nature of television viewership, they’re also hoping that people will be engaged enough to buy individual episodes on Amazon (this is what I do), watch on the official CW site (again--pageviews = advertisements), or watch through an officially licensed provider (Hulu, Netflix), so that the network will gain a percentage of the revenue. (This means, by the way, that if you pirate the show you really don’t have a leg to stand on as far as complaining about it.) The show is written to be broadly appealing to as many people as they can cram into these revenue-generating views as possible, and the casual viewer is a major part of that.

The point I’m circling around is that--the things that ‘fandom’ cares about are not the things that the casual viewer cares about, and therefore aren’t the things that the creators care about. Fandom randomly seizes on characters to love, often because of the opportunity to ship (since we know that ship-fic is miles more popular than gen-fic; just look at the hitcount differences on AO3). Fandom obsesses over those characters. They invent backstories and personalities for those characters. They decide, based on very little information, how the mains could relate to them, how they fit into the larger universe, etc. They elevate these secondary characters nearly to main status. Then--because of the functional reality of how secondary characters operate, particularly on this show where nearly everyone dies--one of those secondary characters dies. The fandom explodes. Screaming, rending of flesh. Threats to the writers. Demands that they be fired. Insistence that there was no point to the death, that the character deserved better, because the fandom cared about them so deeply. Forgetting, again, that Character X was never important or alive beyond the function that they served in the story. Forgetting, too, that for the casual viewer it’s an ‘oh, dang’ moment, and then the casual viewer just watches to see what happens next. ‘Aw, Sam sure is sad about that one girl dying. I guess they’re going to go after the British dudes now, huh.’ End emotional engagement--and also, therefore, end the creators’ engagement with the secondary character, because they’ve served their purpose.

I don’t know where this leads. Clearly some people deeply enjoy their anger, and I can’t say that they shouldn’t feel angry. I am also generally disappointed by season 12, so I understand those reactions (more than the ‘how dare!’ reactions after character death). Since the show is about Sam and Dean, it’s troubling that the larger season seems to have so little to do with them. Right now the show’s stuck in an awkward space between what it always has been--the Sam & Dean Love Show, per Kripke--and... like, half of an ensemble show, where the secondary characters remain unimportant and yet we’ve got to trudge along with their storylines anyway. I know the extra-textual reasons behind this (and here’s hoping J2 get vasectomies so the show doesn’t continue to be boring and not-itself), but it’s still disappointing that the executives in charge couldn’t write something more artistically pleasing, given the strictures tying their hands. Casual fans probably haven’t noticed much, though, and so there’s little incentive to change.

There are certainly problems that the show has. Killing secondary characters is so far down the list that it seems inconsequential, and the furor generated over it masks the much more important flaws that could be discussed. The ‘fuck Bucklemming’ meme, while it’s clearly enjoyable for a lot of people, is just that--a meme, repeated ad nauseum, providing a handy semi-masturbatory thing to focus on while more nuanced discussion withers away, left by the wayside.

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＿( ᐛ 」∠)＿ *slides directly into the "all questions" button*

Ehehe HEY! :D

ask me about anime…

   1. My first anime

That’s kind of a tricky question, because I know I watched some (edited dubs of) anime when I was really little without having a clue that it was Japanese (like this one), but I have a hard time counting those as my first real anime. I guess Pokemon? Though I think I still didn’t really know what anime was until I started watching stuff like Yu Yu Hakusho, Inuyasha, and Rurouni Kenshin on Cartoon Network.

   2. My favorite anime

This is such a hard question. But I’ll stick with my usual answer of Princess Tutu. There are series I like more overall, but most of them were based on manga and changed/removed stuff and/or didn’t animate the whole story, which makes it harder to wholeheartedly love them as anime. BnHA is pretty promising so far, though.

   3. The first anime character I was obsessed with

Um…hmm. Probably Kenshin? I think?

   4. My anime OTP

There are pairings I like a lot, but not really one I can point to and say “Yes, that’s THE OTP for me”. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

   5. An anime I can’t stand

Hmm…no specific titles are coming to mind, because how can I say I can’t stand it if I’ve never seen it? And I’m pretty good at picking things I at least think are okay (and when I don’t, I usually drop them before it gets further than “Eh, this isn’t my thing”). But in general, harem/ecchi anime. I’ll roll my eyes and put up with fanservice if the rest of the series is interesting, but when it feels like the only point is boobs and panty shots and how many girls will be fawning over the MC, I stay far away.

   6. An anime I want to watch

Hmm…I think I’ll go with Hunter × Hunter for this one. With all the streams available these days, it’s so much easier to try anything I’m interested in that I don’t have nearly as many “I really want to see this someday!” series as I used to. I’ve deliberately held off on HxH though, because I don’t want to be left hanging or forget about it if it goes on hiatus again. I’ll definitely get to it someday, though.

   7. An anime I never finished

Ahaha…most of them, especially in the past. And not even because I didn’t like them! Either I got distracted and just never came back to them (this happened a lot while waiting for the next DVD release), or I loved them so much I didn’t want them to be over so I could never bring myself to see the ending.

   8. The most recent anime I finished

Death Parade! A bit darker/creepier in places than I normally go for, but I really, really enjoyed it. I may or may not have reblogged this meme just because of this question >.>;

   9. An anime I never thought of watching but fell in love with

I’m going to say Tokyo Ghoul for this one, even though I went for the manga first rather than the anime when I finally gave it a try and am really disappointed with how the anime was handled. Please give us a FMA Brotherhood-style reboot? Please? ;-; I avoided it for a long time because it seemed too dark and gorey for me especially with the whole…eating people thing. I’m so glad I did eventually check it out, though. It’s an amazing series and it really helped keep me going last year. I haven’t enjoyed it quite as much lately as I used to, but I think it’ll always be a bit special to me.

   10. My favorite genre of Anime

Supernatural. 8DDD Especially if it takes place in the modern world.

   11. Shonen or Shojo

Both. I think I watch more shōnen overall,  but I’ve seen a lot of good series in both and I wouldn’t want to give up either.

   12. My favorite anime character of all time

Can’t pick just one. Nope. Impossible. I can cut it down to five at best. (A year ago I might have gone with Kaneki, but these days they’re all tied again X’D)

   13. An anime that I introduced to a friend

I…can’t really pick one? I mean, any friend I could possibly introduce to anime gets shown as many series as I think I can get away with without annoying them, so there isn’t really one…oh wait! There was one coworker at my old job; she knew nothing about anime, but she loved dark/horror/thriller movies. I gave her the first DVD of Death Note for Christmas one year. We didn’t talk about it all that much, so I’m not completely sure what she thought of it, but she at least liked it enough to borrow the rest of the series from me, so… ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

   14. The anime that I am currently watching

Right now I’m keeping up with at least nine series weekly. I watch other things while I wait for new episodes, but I just finished a couple series (one with my mom, one on my own) and haven’t decided what to watch next.

   15. An anime that never gets old no matter how many times I watch it

I don’t actually rewatch things that often, especially these days. The closest I usually come is reading the manga myself, then watching the anime with my mom (going by that definition, I’ve enjoyed the hell out of Boku no Hero Academia and Ao no Exorcist even knowing what’s going to happen). I’m going to be rewatching Fate/stay night: Unlimited Blade Works soon, so we’ll see how that goes. I’d get tired of anything if I rewatched it too often, though.X’D

   16. If I own any anime merchandise

Oh boy do I. (°∀°) I collect figures, playing cards, and keychains more than anything else right now (especially figures), but I have a ton of plushies and charms and more wallscrolls than I could possibly put up in my room, plus a bunch of other stuff (mugs and glasses, a fleece throw, a couple pocketwatches, a lighter, a beach set, puzzles, magnets…I pick up a lot of different stuff at cons X’D).

   17. Yaoi or Yuri

Neither, if we’re talking about them as genres/tropes. I’ve tried to watch a couple “typical” yaoi series, and I couldn’t get farther than an episode or two. If we’re just talking two men or two women in a relationship, then I still couldn’t choose one over the other because it’s about the individual characters and their relationship for me, not what gender they are. (That said, more of my favorite characters are guys, so I usually wind up with more m/m pairings I’m interested in.)

   18. If I’ve ever been to an anime convention

Yes! (≧∇≦)/ I’ve gone to my local con every year since 2005 (wow, I feel old), and there’s another one I’ve been to a couple times as well.

   19. Who is my favorite anime voice actor

Suwabe Junichi. (*ﾟ▽ﾟ*) I love his voice so much (；ヮ；) (and it doesn’t hurt that he’s done some of my favorite characters, haha). I’ve checked out series I might otherwise have passed over just because he was in them. ^^; I have a shortlist of super favorite VAs but he’s at the top.

For English VAs, probably Chris Patton or Vic Mignogna.

   20. Sub or Dub?

Sub, though I don’t hate dubs and even prefer them for a few series. Usually I get attached to whichever cast I hear first. In the past, that was more often dubs on TV and DVD; these days I watch a lot of streams/simulcasts so I mostly see subs (I also enjoy trying to pick out words in the Japanese dialogue; sometimes I can understand a line without the subs and I’m very proud of myself X’D).

   21. If I could have any anime character’s hair style, who would it be

Why can’t I think of anything for this, I know I’ve seen some I really loved. ;OTL Uh…something long (at least waist length, if not knee) and thick, probably pulled away from the face in a ponytail or braid. Which isn’t too far from my RL hair aside from the “thick” part. ^^;

   22. Manga or Anime?

I can never properly answer this question, haha. Story-wise, I usually prefer whichever came first. Most of the time, that means manga. I also love the art for a lot of manga. But having color and motion and sound really adds to the experience for me. So…both. X'DD

   25. If any of my friends or family watches anime

My mom watches almost everything that I do.

   26. If I listen to any anime music

It’s pretty much all I listen to. X'DD Not because I don’t like other music; I just wouldn’t even know where to start with it. I tend to be more a fan of individual songs than bands/singers, so I just go about my life and when I hear a song I like I add it to my list. And I get more exposure to anime than anything else, so…¯\_(ツ)_/¯

   27. If I’m following any ongoing anime series

Yep! I’m watching nine this season. X’D Some more enthusiastically than others.

Not going to list names unless someone really wants to know. ^^;

   28. If I’ve ever been to an anime club

Yes, a friend of a friend tried to start one in our local library. I went to most of the meetings and a good chunk of the anime we watched were from DVDs I brought. X’D We just watched them, though; there wasn’t a whole lot of discussion or “club-like” atmosphere, and it kind of stopped happening after a while.

   29. If I’ve ever cried over an anime

Yes, a few times.

   30. What my last anime wallpaper was

This one (really big image, sorry ^^; ).

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I caught a glimpse of a meme for Shin Sekai Yori on Facebook so I decided to watch it and review it. This really did not go the way I had expected it too and I really enjoyed the twists and turns this had in store for me. Ps, the pictures make my post look longer than it is. (^^,)

Genre: Sci-Fi, Mystery, Horror, Psychological, Supernatural, Drama

Type: Series

Season: 1

Seasons in total: 1

Number of episodes: 25

Duration to watch:

Age restriction: R – 17+ (violence & profanity)

Release date: September 2012

Animation Studio: A-1 Pictures

Does it have a manga: Yes

English Title: From the New World

Kanji: 新世界より

ABOUT:

At the age of 12, Saki is the last of her friends to make it to Sage Academy, where she reunites with them. Together they make Group 1. Satoru Asahina is a mischievous boy who likes retelling rumours he has heard, Mamoru Itou is shy and gentle and is attached to the cheerful Maria Akizuki and Shun Aonuma who is considered a genius in their generation. Sage Acadamy is a school for psychics in a world where psychokinesis became a reality and split the world. Due to the godlike ability that those with psychokinesis had the world was thrown into years of war and almost complete annihilation. The psychic humans were able to achieve a fragile peace by isolating their society, creating a new world bound by complex rules and behaviour. Finally developing her psychic powers Saki begins to feel unease as she begins to question the fate of those unable to awaken to their powers.

Are Saki and her friends able to accept the answers to the questions they are asking, and what will the consequences of knowing the answers be?

My Thoughts:

I found this to be rather slow to get going with the story even though things started to actually happen around episode four it felt a lot longer. If you are like me and like the plot to get moving sooner rather than later you might drop this one before it gets good. My advice, brace yourself and wait for the story to begin. The first few episodes cover their daily life and activities showing how the world now works and the mysteries that are now present. With the first few episodes, I thought we would be learning ‘lessons’ with each episode and I was gladly proven wrong.

Once the story started to move ahead in a way that felt like it was going somewhere I really got into it. There were some really trippy scenes that really stood out and you were never quite sure why Saki was getting these ‘visions’ and ‘dreams’. So I am just going think of it as she had really good intuition and learned to trust it.

There were a few parts of the story that took me by surprise. One such aspect was the gay and lesbian relationships that had sprung up while they were at school. More than the actual ‘gay’ aspect of the couples I was surprised at the coupling that had occurred. It had been rather obvious that Shun and Saki liked each other so I had just assumed that they would have naturally become a couple rather than pairing up with others. I still wonder why the two had not naturally started dating one another in the first place.

Their world is really weird and somewhat confusing and at times really harsh and cruel. I was mainly watching this to figure out what the heck was going on and to see if they would somehow manage to change their world. I was often left wondering what would happen next as the story left me guessing and often did not go the way I had originally thought it would.

There are quite a few time gaps that speed the anime along so it covers many years of their lives. In some aspects that is nice as they have not put in random plot lines to fill the gaps but in other aspects it is slightly jarring as you do not expect a time gap and then the very next episode it is suddenly there.

Throughout the entire series, I wondered why was nothing being done about the rate at which the Monster Rats were evolving. The humans just stood by and watched as they started using poison and then building concrete buildings (which the humans themselves no longer had) and then also the development of their war techniques. It was clear that they would pose some form of threat to humans eventually and it would most likely be sooner rather than later.

Also, the Monster Rat’s history and origin did not surprise me. I had always suspected the link. At first, I thought that they came from the children that had gone missing and then I was proven wrong after being shown that the queen of the colony gave birth to the entire colony much like bees. I was surprised to find that the animal they came from was the naked mole rat. Whenever I think of a naked mole rat I picture Rufus from Kim Possible (side note – I am a big KP fan).

Monster Rats

Rufus

I am glad to say that the end of this anime was not a letdown and that I will gladly recommend this as one to watch. I was just slightly disappointed that even after everything that had happened there was no clear change in their society or the way thing are done. Having the right to kill a child until they reached the age of 17 is insane even if I can kind of understand their reasoning and fear.

This is not a light anime to watch and should be watched if you enjoy mysteries and drama. It is confusing at times (mysterious, hehe) but emotional at the same time. Characters go missing and characters also die. In fact, a lot of people die in this anime and in horrific ways – you have been warned. Otherwise, I really enjoyed the art of this anime, it was really well done, even the trippy scenes were excellently drawn.

Have you watched From The New World or will you watch it? Here is a fan-made trailer if you are still undecided.

  Shin Sekai Yori, not what I expected ~Have you watched this #anime? Read my review here >> I caught a glimpse of a meme for Shin Sekai Yori on Facebook so I decided to watch it and review it.