#also i have school tmr someone kill me now pls

[uhhlifeig]

First Date - Jan. 5th - word count: 225 - @wolfstarmicrofic

Remus sighed, downing the rest of his Firewhiskey.

He was in love with a traitor. A traitor who killed James, Lily, and Peter. A traitor who murdered twelve Muggles on a street in broad daylight. But Remus still loved him.

Pathetic.

He could still remember their first date. 

They had wanted to go to Hogsmeade together, but Sirius had spontaneously gotten sick, so they stayed inside and cuddled the whole day instead. 

Remus vividly recalled how he read The Picture of Dorian Gray to his then-boyfriend that day, with Sirius nestled into his side. 

Remus had gotten sick a few days after that, but it was worth it. 

Or was it?

Was Sirius planning to betray them from the start? Was their whole relationship just a ploy so that Sirius had easy access to a werewolf? 

Was Sirius just a Black?

Remus really wished he could turn off his brain sometimes. 

“Yeah, well,” a voice that he hadn’t heard in years floated by. Sirius. “Once a Black, always a Black. Right, Moony?”

Somehow, even though he was far, far away from Remus, Sirius still found ways to haunt him.

God, Remus missed him.

He opened another bottle of Ogden’s Finest.

Kill your darlings, drown your sorrows- it’s all the same, really, he thought bitterly, taking a swig. 

I wish I never met you, Sirius Black.

[humanthatishuman]

im making a BSD OC (however I might not make a blog for her bc I'm lazy, maybe that will be a diff poll)

in all scenarios: oc has an uncontrollable ability, in the pm from 14 (bc all terrible things happen at 14) to 17, end up in the ada like all good members/j, and joined the ada before a lil dazai but left the pm a lil after dazai

i might add more later but it's 4 AM here and I have school tmr :,)

anyway

i might end the poll sooner than three days bc I am impatient :)

explanations for 1 and 2:

also in both backstories oc's ability was being tamed by dazai's nullification but since he left, mori thought it was too much of a risk to keep oc around/keep sending her on missions so...

...oc gets the q/yosano treatment and is kept in isolation for being too dangerous (well that wasn't exactly why yosano was contained but yk). after a year in confinement something breaks oc more than accidentally killing those she loved and all hell breaks loose in her desperate attempt to see the light of day. it works, but at a cost, oc is now on the streets again and trying not to cause a scene by killing more people. someone from the agency finds her, don't ask me who, maybe yosano who sees herself in oc, maybe ranpo who deduces she could be an ally and deserves a better life or smth, maybe fukazawa with his soft spot for children in need, idk. but she gets taken to the agency and little by little learns she can be more than a dangerous weapon. until dazai joins the agency BUT THAT'S A STORYTIME FOR WHEN IM MORE THAN HALF CONSCIOUS

...mori is brainstorming what to do with oc now that she is unstable and dazai is gone. he realizes that it would be near impossible to train her to tame her power and containing her could go terribly wrong... so he decides that dealing with oc is not worth his time and maybe hires someone to find the agency and kinda just drop her off?? or he rings fukuzawa up and acts like oc is nothing more than a poor orphan in need of home?? idk this one has a lot of holes and like i keep mentioning im so tired so GOOD NIGHT