#also i feel like i can't draw at all probably due to the stress but it calms me down so idk! ahghgh

[realboutfatalfury]

agghhh feel so bad in lots of ways argh

[extasiswings]

Post-4x13 Fics

I was going to go on a reblog spree, but instead figured I would just put all of my S4 finale spec/post-4x13/S5 spec fics in one handy list.

some things you just can't speak about

A collection of S4 finale spec fics.

a flower in a gun (a bird in flight)

Even if Buck felt the same—and Eddie isn’t convinced of that, doesn’t have the arrogance to assume—what right does he have to say please, to say wait, to ask Buck to put his life on hold indefinitely while Eddie sorts through the tangled mess in his head in the hope that one day he’ll finally be ready? He can’t be that selfish. Especially not with Buck. [Or: in the aftermath of the shooting, love endures.]

mark me like a bloodstain (or a tattoo kiss)

Eddie finds words difficult. So he comes up with other ways to show how he feels. [For the prompt: "You've always felt like home."]

stars choose their lovers (save my soul)

Most of the time, Buck feels like there’s no one in the world who understands Eddie as well as he does. Most of the time. Because there are still some other times when he’s completely in the dark.

safety and home

The thing Eddie remembers most about the shooting isn’t the shot itself, or the pain, or even the fear—it’s the cold. [Or: Eddie dreams of drowning]

burning like a slow flame

For the prompt: "I felt it shelter to speak to you." “With all due respect, Mr. Diaz,” the doctor says, “you’re in the emergency room because of an acute stress response in which your brain tricked your body into believing you were in danger to such an extent that you thought you were dying. I’m not sure you’re as fine as you think.”

slipping away (call on me)

For the prompt: "I exist in two places, here and where you are." Buck feels like he lost part of himself when he watched Eddie being rolled through the emergency doors and he hasn’t gotten it back. There’s a hollow space in his chest crowding out his lungs so he can’t draw a full breath, squeezing his heart so his blood isn’t circulating properly. He’s a shade. Half-alive. And the other half left on a city street, in an ambulance bay, in a hospital room.

paint me a heaven with your bloodied mouth

Buck. Four letters. One syllable. Eddie knows it’s a nickname. He doesn’t know why Buck picked it or why Buck seems to use it exclusively, but he figures it isn’t really his business. And also that it probably isn’t that deep—all of them use nicknames at work or otherwise in their daily lives. Eddie himself might find it weird if anyone outside of his immediate family suddenly started using his full name regularly after so many years of only rarely hearing it from anyone else. So. Eddie calls Buck "Buck." And he doesn’t think anything of it. At least…not at first.

[irasamu]

Imagine Fyodor’s fem!s/o treats him like somekind of loyalty, feeding them, bathing them,hugs and kisses, riding them, since his anemic weak ahh body probably have low stamina. I just can’t stop thinking about Fyodor. He is so handsome and adorable silly little pookie <3

. a fyodor drabble.

. um is this satisfactory?

. tw ; fem!reader, nsfw mixed with sfw.

feeding fyodor .

see, fyodor is a weak man and one who doesn't show much emotions and so, he feels grateful when you do these stuff without him even asking to. he doesn't show it through words but through actions,,

,,that is, he smiles or laughs in embarrassment when you feed him but when you try to move away, you can't due to his leg hooked with your's under the table.

"leaving a man half filled is very bad dear."

he isn't really clingy unless extremely tired. not really clingy when he is sick but if you are sick? no, he still isn't clingy lol.

but but but, the man will be more stern and more strict then normal if you try to protest him from feeding you,

"tch tch. your hands should be on the table where i can see them. am i clear?" fyodor spoke quietly yet with the way his head was tilted, you didn't have it in you to be a brat and defy him.

fyodor getting angry? uh yeah, sadism at it's peak.

bathing fyodor.

this really applies only if you are married to him but bathing fyodor always somehow, ends with you on top of him in the bathtub or sprawled uncomfortably on and in the bathtub while your cheeks are hallowed as you try to suck him dry.

fyodor isn't a man of action yada yada -- that doesn't apply over here. if he is getting naked, so will you.

so while you are lifting his hand to scrub some of the coconut and vanilla soap lather on his skin, he has his back pressed against your's as he traces shapes on your shoulder blades.

for some reason, most deep talks happens during bathtime and if fyodor finds you getting lost in the sensation of his touch on your back and that you aren't actually listening to his words? he will thrust his dick onto your ass cheeks whiles his hands rub down on your inner thigh but not quite where you want them to be.

see this as edging but not really actually edging.

also gonna spread my fyodor boob guy agenda here. they are now his stress toys and entertainment from boredom.

hugs and kisses.

see, fyodor has health issues so he really does lean more towards domestic affection so expect a side hug and kiss to the forehead whenever he greets you.

you on the other hand, boobs pressed against his chest as you wrap your arms around his neck and pepper his neck in small pecks till fyodor's cheeks turn slight pink.

if you aren't that good at chess, distract him with a kiss to the lips! (it won't work but you'll get a kiss from him).

at night, in bed, fyodor likes laying betwen both of your legs as his head rests on your clevage and he is thinking of whatever super genius plan he is going to use next while your hands comb through his hair. whenever you see him biting his fingers, you either pull at his roots which makes him groan quietly or swat his hand down which makes him look at you with eyes a bit wider then usual in confusion and a small frown tugging at his lips. he bites on your breast as revenge and as a form of obedience.

riding fyodor

he may have less stamina but oh man, the way he makes you fuck him. like no matter how good you are, he will instruct you on how to pleasure him.

remember the top para in the beginning where i mentioned angry fyodor and sadism?

okay so imagine he is angry for whatever reason, he will make sure to make you ride him even after you are reallllly overstimulated and if you stop, he would lazily look at you and pinch your clit between his fingers. he will spit at your clit and stomach and rub his saliva all over you, getting off to how messily erotic you look due to him.

when you cum, like a second or two after you calmed down, fyodor would spread your legs apart and thrust up in you to draw out a second orgasm.

he has weak stamina, not no stamina. he is smart enough to know when to conserve and when to use his energy and strength.

he won't let you stop till your thighs are red from his nail marks and till they are burning as hell, till you are a panting mess.

if you wanted to stop and tried to? fyodor will grab your hair in a makeshift ponytail and pull it back to arch your back and will literally use you like a ragdoll or fleshlight.

[factual-fantasy]

25 asks :}} MERRY CHISTMAS! 🎄🎄🎄

Jevil and Seams world still exists, its just so horrible that they don't ever want to go back to it..

Grillby and River persons AU were both destroyed/de-stabilized..?? Their worlds don't exist anymore.. they cant go back.

Goner Kid's AU still exists, but another version of her already exists in it. Its like a duplicate..? Of her was created when she fell into the void. When she tried to re-enter her AU, it was hurting the other Goner Kid. In order for her to go back, someone would have to kill that other Goner kid. But that Kid has a family, real memories, emotions.. she's a person too... no one had the heart to kill her. She cant go back..

Spamton's AU still exists, but he doesn't want to go back. There was nothing for him there. He had no friends, no family, he hated his life. And being in his own world for some reason causes his pain to be more extreme/less tolerable. So staying away from his AU brings him some relief..

Asgore's AU still exists, but he cant go back. Or else he will continue turning into dust and eventually fully die.. staying out of his AU is the only thing keeping him "alive"..

@abaroo

I don't know if their boss status really played much of a role.. mostly their friendship started with Jevil helping Spamton, and then sparked into something more by them having a similar sense of humor. :00

As for the phone person? I haven't decided if my Spamton had that phone guy or not.. but if he did, I might make it so they're different people. Or maybe the same person but from different aus..?? ���👀

The group might not keep in touch consistently. But I can see them occasionally returning to this AU to seek shelter, knowing that they're safe here.

Like imagine they got in a wicked fight and some of their toughest members are all beat up. They retreat to this AU and hide out in the forest to rest. Some of the Queens guards find the group and bring them to her. She's surprised to hear that they've been living in the woods.

"Why did you not return to my castle?"

"We didn't want to intrude or overstay our welcome..."

"Nonsense! You are always welcome here."

Now as for Seams relationship with her? I imagine its complicated.. Of course he thinks she is wonderful and very gracious. Having freed him from his chains and continuing to welcome them into her castle..

But Seam can't help but be afraid of her. She is the same species as the Spade King. He cant help but be reminded of the king when he looks at her and feel uncomfortable or intimidated..

Seam is probably stressed and uncomfortable being in her castle, despite how kind the Queen is.. Everything just reminds him of the King and all the horrible things associated with him.. its just.. man, its complicated.

@tanileaf

WAAHAHRHHDHF THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING!! 😭😭💖💖💖

@mishishiwritings

Aw its ok! <XD Don't worry, it really is mostly a design choice now. But to go over the story again..

When I was designing my sona I wanted something to be on my hands. Gloves? Different skin color? I didn't really know.. Now at the time my fingers/knuckles were covered in band-aids due to dry skin and cat scratches.

So I thought hey! I can give my sona edgy bloody bandages! And I can call them my weathered artists hands! XD And so I added them.

Although my hands still aren't in the best shape today, I'm pretty hard on them- the bloodied hands don't have any darker or concerning origin. Just cat scratches and dry skin. I appreciate the concern though! 🥺💖💖💖

Also thank you! Happy holiday and a happy new year to you too! :}}

@taizarack

Yeah, my sona is kind'a all over the place <XD for funsies I made this little chart that might help explain the strange forms I take XDD

Basically, the drippy-ness and blood is when I want to emphasize my exhaustion and/or emotions is some way..?

And the "stable" version is usually seen at the start of comics before I've consumed any energy. Or in posts with 1-2 drawings that don't take much time/energy to make. Also being a drama queen is fun. Does that make sense..? <:D

@purplelordscp035j

THNAK YOU SO MUCH!! :DDDD

I'm assuming you're talking about the ruin mask? If so, that would be very bizarre.. they wouldn't know what to make of it. How is this thing even possible?? <XDD

@lizard-queen-things

Wow, 2020? That feels like forever ago-

And well I just kind'a lost interest in tfp. <XD I never even finished the show due to lost interest- such is life :/

@citrusfruitman

XD You're the first person to ever send me that I believe. Season's Greason's indeed :}

Nooo, <:/ I had already planned out my AU before the Ruin DLC came out. No room/reason to add prototype Freddy.

@starrypaint09

Fank u! :}}}

Here's a link to my FNAF master post! (Its also in my pinned post <XD)

I got an ask about this recently, :0 I'm sad to say that I'm actually unfamiliar with this game.. sorry! <XD

Part of me thinks it would be very foreign to their (probably cruddy) Fazbear brand pizza. <XD Chica would love it though!

This is a really good question! :0 I had to think about it for a sec XDD

For Freddy and Glamrock Foxy I imagined their vice would be the same, hoarding. They would try to latch onto things and objects that make them feel better. At first it would start with collecting certain posters of event that they had a good time at. Or if someone gave them a plush they would hide it from employees so that they could keep it. But then it would quickly spiral into something worse..

They would both start stealing from the other animatronics. Taking things that they see as valuable and worry the others might throw away. Or if they had a nice time at a kids birthday party they would try to collect souvenirs. Like the present wrapping and bows. Trash and plates with food still on them.

Freddy would collect all this trash and stuff and hoard it in his room. The food would get moldy and make his room a hazard. But Freddy would become very protective of his room and his collection. The employees would try to clean if but Freddy just wouldn't have it. They would have to clean out the worst of it little by little so Freddy wouldn't notice..

Foxy would be the same except once his room got too full, he would extend his collection to Pirates cove. Parents would complain about Pirates cove being dirty and about there being trash all over the floor. But just like Freddy, Foxy would be very protective of his collection and it would be a hassle to clean..

For Glamrock Bonnie however, his is harder to describe.. but I imagine he is completely opposed to change. Maybe OCD you could call it..?

I can see Bonnie being hurt by all the change in his life. When Freddy and Chica died that was a huge change. When the glamrock era began and they threw out everything familiar to him.. it hurt. It was a big change.

I can see Bonnie hating change. For 5 seconds, he wants everything to just, stay the same. This might manifest in Bonnie not allowing any employees in his room. Becuase he doesn't want them moving anything around. He wants to come back to his room after a stressful day and have his room be exactly the way he left it. This would mean Bonnie's room gets very dirty/dusty but he wont allow anyone to clean it.

Not sure how this could spiral to something that effects other people.. Maybe he doesn't like the new songs that they are told to sing. He just wants to sing the same familiar songs he already knows. This could cause problems for the other animatronics because Bonnie wont cooperate? Things like that. :0

I suppose anyone who doesn't have a river person in their AU would be spooked yeah <XD Poor river person :(

XDD Yeah "Mommy look! A Kangaroo!"

Bonnie:

Yes, Seam is absolutely devastated with guilt. Not a day goes by where he doesn't feel horrible for what he did to Jevil.. And despite your point, Jevil holds nothing against him. Not anymore, and here's why.

Jevil was there when the king threatened Seam. When the king commanded him to lock Jevil away. It was very clear from the situation that the King would hurt or even kill Seam if he did not obey. Seam was torn, tears streaming down his face. He was shaking.. He had no choice. It was lock Jevil up, or face the Kings wrath. He had to.. if he didn't, both of them would probably have been slaughtered..

He doesn't resent Seam for locking him up. He knows he had to. But after years of being down there.. Jevil did develop a bit of resentment over Seam never visiting him. He always expected Seam to sneak down to the dungeon to see him.. but he never did.. that he resented a bit.

But as soon as he escaped, and found out why Seam never visited.. that resentment all vanished.

Seam tried to visit Jevil. But he was caught. And what was his punishment? His eye was gouged out, his mouth stitched shut, and heavy shackles clasped around his neck and wrists. He was told of he ever tried to visit Jevil again. The king would kill them both.

How could Jevil hold any resentment after that? There was nothing else Seam could have done..

I think it was the opposite. Jevil saw the danger of the situation. It was clear that if Seam didn't lock Jevil up, the King would likely kill them both.

Seam was extremely hesitant. He was crying, he didn't want to lock him up..

Instead of begging the king for mercy, knowing the king would not listen. Jevil probably just tried to comfort Seam..

"Seam.. i-its ok... j-just.. just do it... just do what he says.."

I don't think I ever gave them claws.. I suppose if the situation calls for it they'll magically have them XD Not sure about scratching post though, they'd more likely just want to use a nail file :0

I sat on this ask and thought about it for a while.. and every time I think about it I picture the same scenario..

Asgore comforting a neutral route Undyne..

@beryl-shade

I'd like to think that Bibi can because he's very cat-like. but Cici? Mayyybe not? <XD She's more mouse-like to me.

@britneyt

WOAH HANG ON!- I cant make THAT many arms! XDD

Also thank you! Good night/day to you as well! :}}}

Oh yeah, it likely happens a lot. :( And you know Jevil is either gonna deny it, or curl up under a blanket and refuse to let anyone touch him in an attempt to not spread it..

[m-to-z-andbackto-m]

I have a bitty Horror draft somewhere, but I feel like I never talk about Cross sooo

Bitty!Cross HeadCannons!

Bitty!Killer HeadCannons

Bitty!Dust HeadCannons

He's definitely low maintenance, very independent and normally relaxed

Easily homesick so he's okay with staying at home alone, absolutely a good choice for first time owners and if you have work or school

He might come off as standoffish at first, but that's just the stress of being adopted into a new home, please be patient with him <3

He's a huge sweetheart with the right influence and environment, however, depending on his previous owner(s) and house mates, it really depends, he can range from nervous/shy to feisty/reserved

He's pretty tame, and after a while of getting used to you, will accept and even enjoy affection, physical and verbal

Chocolate is his favorite treat, this is pretty common knowledge, he'll warm up to you faster if you coax him out with such a treat, also favorite lunch is tacos and I feel like he'll settle for other Mexican foods

I feel like he'd like the variety boxes and chocolate flavored things, and it instantly grabs his attention every time you bring something new home to try, I think he'd enjoy the soft insides of Lindor milk chocolate

I feel like he'd like parkour kinda things, entertains him at home to arrange various items to climb and jump over across, it also keeps him healthy and exercised!

Once you notice this, you probably should find bitty courses for him to play with, but nothing too stationary, something customizable, and buy him random obstacles and keep random things around for him to use

He could probably gain an interest in drawing, depending on you, maybe if paired with an Ink bitty (Considering bitties can't cause UnderVerse 😭)

I think he feels like a nerd, maybe he'd like watching anime and playing games with you, if you can find a compatible controller that is haha!

Although he's compatible with most bitties, he does best with Epic, however, they cause mischief together and maybe then it's not a great idea to leave them alone without some ground rules (They will draw two balls and a stick all over your walls, I'm telling you 😭)

He loves rewards, he'll be on his best behavior if he knows he'll get rewarded for it, I'd assume he has some pride, but not too big of an ego, just a healthy amount y'know?

That being said, he won't sacrifice a treat for Epic's shenanigans and that should keep them in check

He'd probably do small, but sweet gestures, he doesn't mind that you don't notice them, as long as he knows he's helpful

Okay let me backtrack to when you first get him, y'know, due to moving anxiety and possible bad past owners, he might be a little impulsive, might bite and claw at you, randomly be on guard even after you think you're bonding, BAM, yeah it might take a little bit but as soon as he realizes he has a good home that's not going anywhere, he'll mellow out

I'd say overall he's a pretty well-behaved and enjoyable bitty, might get a little clingy when he can, but very peaceful, take good care of him <3

Also never mention cows.

[da-rulah]

Hey, I don’t know english well, but I really wanted to share this with you... To please you... Um, I hope you understand me👉👈

So...

Thinking about Primo in his garden, he will pay attention not only to his plants, but also to the animals that have settled there. Maybe he hung up a few feeders specifically for squirrels and birds. Sometimes he feeds rabbits and raccoons. If necessary, Primo will definitely take his furry friend to the veterinarian. Basically, he's like a Disney princess. Animals love him madly.

Oh, Secondo... It seems to me that behind his menacing façade hides a very vulnerable and gentle soul. I think he is someone who believes in love «once and for a lifetime», but has never known it. Although he probably has a pendant left over from his first lover, with whom he could not be due to circumstances.

I can't help but think about what a great lover Terzo would be. Are you cold? He will give you his robe without hesitation. You are hungry? He will find you food anytime, anywhere. Are you feeling unwell? He will be there as long as you want, not caring about his responsibilities. He considers you the meaning of his life and wants you to remember this every second of your existence.

Copia loves her ghouls so much and it's so cute! It would be fun to watch him personally raise them. Aether and Sodo (1.5-2 years old) constantly quarrel over toys. Mountain (5 years old) and Rain (4 years old) are learning to read, drawing cute pictures, and generally being calm. And Swiss, Cirrus, Cumulus and Sunny (also 3-4 years old) play with dolls together, have a tea party, but sometimes play pranks. Oh, Copia will definitely have a nervous breakdown soon, but he loves them all so much...

Well, something like that... Sorry it's so much😅🫶

Hi, lovely! Your english is a lot better than you think, trust me! These are all so sweet...

Primo just loves nature... He's precious and as long as the animals aren't messing with his fruit and vegetable patches or ruining the flower beds, he's perfectly content with them enjoy his gardens too!

I think this about Secondo too, I wrote a one shot where he had screwed up his relationship with his one true love and she had come back in to his life by chance years later...

Terzo is very attentive, definitely. Such a sweet man, he just wants to dote on you all the time!

Poor Copia... he'd be pulling his hair out with stress but he wouldn't change any of it for a second!

[xiphiaarts]

Do you have any headcanons for the UF brothers for your lovebuggs AU?

Barely 😔 I've been working so much my daydreaming is down the drain and it's draining me

Draining hehe

BUT HERES WHAT I DO HAVE

Fell paps would be demanding and worried as all hell for their bonded, doesn't like letting them go out without an escort hell probably doesn't even like them touching the ground and carries them all the time. He doesn't feel guilty for being violent as much as he would if he weren't sick, and you can tell he's about to be violent because he goes from loud and belligerent to eerily quiet the span of moments. Still can't help but keep his bonded at their best tho, regularly scheduled meals, workout regimens and grass touching appointments are nonnegotiable

He does not sleep, beloved around or not, he has to be awake to keep watch and protect them, so he's often exhausted, and this lack of sleep may result in him seeing things or becoming paranoid, worsening his protective nature. This can be fixed by begging and pleading with him to just take a quick nap, a short rest, he'll only agree if you sleep with him in his tangle of limbs or maybe even bound in a blanket burrito to keep you from escaping. He'll sleep for a good while to recharge his bones but if you wriggle a tiny bit too much he /will/ wake up.

Id say a good way to distract him for a while is to tell him the house feels dirty or something, he'll go on a cleaning spree, nest must be spotless but you only have about forty-five minutes of freedom before he comes breaking down your door again

Fell sans would probably be a little shit, moreso than usual. Maybe even a little hyperactive, his lovebugg feeding not only off of the bond between he and his beloved but the excess magic that wafts off of him due to stress, meaning he has plenty of energy to invade his bonded's space. Doesn't care if they doesn't want him following them around, not like they can protect themselves, not like they can stop em, he's trying to keep them safe in his own, mean, bullyish way. Even if he has to hide a few bodies or delete a few contacts in your phone he's doing what's best for a weak lil thing like you

Fells general lack of self expression and the distance he keeps from others would also be changed, he'd be ontop of his bonded, constantly, cuddles kisses hugs or he gets an attitude and makes it their problem, missing belongings, grumbling in the corner until he gets what he wants, questionably harmless pranks, the whole mile.

He behaves when given the affection he craves so much tho, perfectly harmless to their beloved when his parasite is well fed and at peace, besides the occasional nip he gives them for the sake of his cuteness aggression, hes no danger to his bonded, just those around them, his distrust of every other living thing in their vicinity could prove an issue. It can come off as jealousy but it's much more akin to food guarding

A good way to distract him for a while would probably be to just hold him until he falls asleep, he'll be out like a light, but when he wakes up and realizes his bonded gone he may have some choice words for them (some whines and questions of if you even love him 😔)

God I love these guys I need to DRAW THEM THANKYOU SO MUCH FOR ASKING

[teeth--king]

Eats your Stardew Valley Elliott art

anyways! Ive seen barely anyone do this but what do you think Elliotts’ backstory is? Like what’s his relationship with his parents? You can draw and/or write it if you want :)

(i crave angsty backstory for Elliott…because I love him…)

Please, feast away! It brings me so much happiness that people are enjoying my Stardew Valley art so much! I usually make my own personal art, so dabbling in a little fan art and it going so well is very appreciated.(also all the nice comments and tags, those fuel me and make me go forward each day)

But for the main part of the ask, it takes so much for my little writer self to not just go hog wild and re-create characters who I get attached to. I have a love hate relationship with this, but it's very easy to do with Stardew characters because they are all so blank slate, those little buddies can be what ever you want because they are the perfect level of lovable yet bland. As for Elliott, yeah I'm a little more on the angsty side of backstory for him, partially from some dialogue and partially from some projecting, haha.

I am not the worlds best writer(despite the fact that it's technically what I do) so I apologize if any of this is a bit rough or odd sounding :P I also feel odd about writing and sharing backstories for already made characters as a creative myself, so this might also be a bit awkwardly worded on my end as well. So just a little heads up before my rambling thoughts below.

So I've always read him as no longer connected to his family due to his passions and actually following them. He's distanced himself from most people in his past, some intentionally and some outside of his control, to try and become who he actually wants to be. I feel like before he came to Stardew Valley he was working his ass off by not gracefully juggling both a job and trying to write at the same time, probably developed some bad habits during those times to cope. He tries to not show it and mask but being kind and welcoming(sometimes overly so if in a rough spot), he has too much ego to let others know he's not doing well chasing his dreams. After moving to Stardew Valley he's started to do a bit better but he's even more of a starving artist because he's just living off savings, most of which he used to buy the cabin. Man's got a male living space by slight necessity but plays it off as being a minimalist. Also no idea where I would place this otherwise, but he gives me the vibe that he has a more public facing persona where he's more flowery and puts on a slight voice, while in reality he's just a dude(still poetic tho, he can't stop that, theater kid vibes).

Ironically trying to not make him too much like my character Elliot. Both of these men are my current stress toys and I am throwing them around so much in my mind.

Ah! Thank you so much for this ask, it was a wonderful distraction for my night! I love answering stuff and getting to get my thoughts out of my head somehow. They are quite loud in there so I'm pleased to have them out and about now. This likely isn't everything but my brain works in such scattered and anxious ways that I am not sure. Thank you again!

[falseangelsflair]

Introductory Post

Hello, this account is modded by @sir-qwillian-ferne ! This is a roleplay blog for my favouritest little guy, Avemour. A couple things to be aware of off the bat!

- NSFW accounts please dni. I am a minor.

- Similarly, please limit any NSFW interaction to suggestive jokes, if that.

- There are infinite timelines, so multi shipping can ensue.

Now, to more specific things...

Content warnings

Avemour has a very dark backstory. If you are uncomfortable with the following topics, this is not the best place for you. The following will be tagged, but it is a significant part of Avemour's character

- Death

- Child death

- Mutilation

- Cannibalism

- Child abuse

- PTSD

- General violence

- Implications of self damaging stress responses (will be tagged as implied self harm to be safe) (there's probably a better way to word this but I can't figure it out)

The following topics are present as well, but you can enjoy Avemour even if you avoid these. It will be tagged, just as previous, but is a less significant portion of their lore. Please let me know if these are triggering to you so I can avoid them!

- Spousal abuse

- Self damaging stress responses (will be tagged as self harm to be safe)

- Mentions of autocannibalism (will also be tagged as self harm to be safe)

General Character Info

Avemour is a 7 foot tall false angel* who uses any pronouns with no preference. They are the oldest of the Farlyxe children, however, would be the last to have any right to the throne due to the circumstances of their birth.

He is very social and polite, enjoying being around people and desiring nothing more than to make sure others are happy and safe. She often comes off as naive and childish, due to her optimistic behavior.

Avemour can sense emotions! There can be exceptions made if that makes you uncomfortable, but I'd like to find a lore reason to explain it.

* false angels are a term used for many species created by the mod. These species feed off emotional energy, rely on magic methods to survive, and often resemble angels in some way or another.

Formatting

In general, in character responses will make use of quotations, often with actions accompanying it. This is a more formal method of roleplay than I use with my slenderblogs, should you know me from slendlr, but I really don't care how you respond!

Out of character communication may be done in tags or dms, you are free to private message me to ask questions should you so wish, and you can also send asks directed at me, the mod.

Tags

qwill interjects - out of character responses of all kinds

oh that's a roleplay chain - Longer roleplay chains

Inquire the beasts - Asks for Avemour and Starstruck

Star to the Sugar - Starstruck

Sugar to the Star - Avemour

Beginnings - roleplay starters

Shenanigans - Various other things. Like this post or drawings.

If I interact with you a lot, you'll probably end up getting your own tag too (feel free to request what your tag may be!)

People's tags

@antfarmingantfarms - Starstruck kisser

@thecourtjester12 - The observer

@bear-man74 - Avemour's gay simp

@sketchtxt - ?

(putting you three here preemptively ;3)

[sneakertin]

auughhhrh. i think i have adhd but. maybe i don't. idk. i don't wanna self diagnose but at this point im torn between thinking "there's no fucking way i don't have it" and "but what if i don't". getting a diagnosis is Impossibly difficult and stressful and expensive and we barely have any even remotely working medication where i live so it's not really an option for now. but if i do have it then that means there's an explanation for everything that's wrong with me and it all has a reason and it's not something I'm personally responsible for. but if i don't then that means that im just a lazy stupid nobody with no ambitions. which would be very sad but goddamn there are way too many symptoms to even consider myself being neurotypical. for some reason i feel like it's getting worse and worse everyday but that's probably because i just started uni and there's a lot of change in my life and i haven't been getting enough sleep lately cus i physically can't fall asleep before midnight or sometimes even later but i have to wake up at six. and also because there's a thing that constantly stresses me out at all times(calculus) that i feel like i genuinely can't do anything about even if i try really hard. but i just constantly feel like I'm not in control of my own brain. focusing is so damn hard and even when i do focus i loose it very quickly and end up just bouncing back and forward trying to keep my mind in one place. when i try to read something for homework it feels like my eyes just don't wanna look at the screen and i have to force them not to look away. every couple of minutes or less my thoughts drift away and i only notice it afterwards. when i try to sit down and watch a calculus lecture in hopes of understanding this little personal hell of mine i feel soooo frustrated it almost feels like physical pain and i just turn it off after two minutes. i can't do anything and i don't want to. every task feels like there's a weight on my shoulders. I'm so irresponsible. i keep ignoring or putting off stuff that i need to do and someday the consequences will catch up to me. i don't wanna study. i just wanna do only the stuff that i like all the time. i wanna waste money and go to pretty cafes and buy snacks and be on the internet and watch my fav shows and read fanfiction and read books and analyse literature and watch movies and cry because of them and watch video essays and sometimes cook and clean and draw and draw and draw all the time. which is so embarrassing because im so privileged. i have the chance to get education and yet i feel like I'm not grateful enough and i feel so guilty for being so lazy all the time. im not saying that i wanna drop out, no. but the situation is that I'm not studying what i wanted rn but I'm gonna transfer to where i want at the end of the semester but that means i have to study all these subjects that i despise and don't understand at all and somehow not get expelled till january.

ok, so, i started writing this when i was a bit overstimulated but now that i have written my thoughts down i feel like things are fine now and i feel better. urghh. i don't even know if should post this now. that's so embarrassing, why am i so dramatic.

anyway. but i do fuck up things in my life very often because i put off things that i don't wanna do. when i had my extremely important school exams that would determine whether i get into uni or not, i barely even studied for them. i only did like a day/half a day of active studying for each subject. i kept procrastinating even when that fucking exam that some people have mental breakdowns over was due to be the next day. i did get into uni, but not into the course that I wanted, because my exam results were not quite enough. but that wasn't really a problem because i could've easily transferred to where i want at the very start of the semester, but. i kept putting it off and it turned out you can only do that during the first two weeks and now I'm in the situation that I've described earlier. and don't even get me started on the shitshow that happened when i was in driving school. and it was all entirely my fault. and school in general have always been difficult for me but in school i could get away with not doing anything cus im not stupid, and i even had good grades. but that doesn't work in uni cus in uni they don't teach you anything, you learn everything yourself, and i quite literally can't study. adhd medication sounds like a dream, honestly. you take a pill and suddenly you can function like a normal person and work for hours and even enjoy it. how fucking cool is that.

so ehmm. i don't really have anything to say, just wanted to write. something. don't mind me, really :)

wait, no. i just remembered why i wrote all this. so, I'm kind of addicted to tiktok, which is my greatest curse and i accidentally got into fucking "studytok" and now my fyp is filled with happy american uni students studying for 12 hours straight and talking about obscure studying techniques with weird names and all of that is just. so. from another realm from me, honestly. how do they do that. am i even the same species as them

[a-scary-lack-of-common-sense]

Hiya! Just yeeting a hc at you: I've always Headcanoned that Scout usually went with the Bat/frying pan due to shaky hands or smth. Could be caused by anything. But probably from the amount of energy that guy has is the most possible-

Hey bestie!! I wanted to answer this with a little doodle, but I can't really draw anything atm since it's nearly midnight for me. HOWEVER, I will share with you some of the research I did on hand tremors!

Disclaimer ⚠️: I myself am not a mobility aid user, nor do I personally experience hand tremors. I do not claim to know everything on the topic, and may be incorrect or wrong in some cases! If you'd like to know more, I highly encourage you do your own research!! Ofc, if you happen to know more than I do, feel free to correct me where I'm wrong :) and have fun reading!

I really like ur idea on the bat/frying pan for Scout! It does make sense for him to perfer those particular melees with hand tremors, since the small triggers on guns might be a bit fiddly to deal with. Maybe for the frying pan he'd have to wrap the handle so it's a bit thicker, and easier to hold! Like those big rubber grippers for utensils you can order online

Your ask made me think about what other things Scout might use/do in order to live with his tremors as comfortably as he can. I imagine he'll have to attend occasional physiotherapy sessions with Medic, to practice resistance training and working his muscles to help get steadier hands!

Of course, this also all depends on what kind of tremors Scout is experiencing, but since you said shaky hands, I'm going to guess Essential tremor, maybe? Essential tremor is one of the most common movement disorder, and it causes tremors mainly around the arms or hands, although it can also affect the head, voice, or other areas of the body. Essential tremor can be mild, or severe, depending on the person. I'm sure you weren't actually thinking about a specific type of tremor when sending in this ask, so I'm probably over-thinking this, but it's still interesting to learn!

I also think Scout would have to probably get a lil checkup after battles, especially since hand tremors usually worsen after intakes of caffeine (and Scout’s gotta be chugging that BONK all battle), and obviously after a bloody battle there's gonna be leftover adrenaline too. All of that combined means a lot of shaky hands, so off to the Doc he goes to de-stress!

There are also some mobility aids that help with tremors that Scout could use! Such as these braces/gloves (??) That dempens tremors. Now, I'm not sure how exactly these work, and I've never personally used them before, so their actual effectiveness is beyond me; but according to what I've read, they're apparently pretty helpful at stabilizing the hand (if only somewhat)

From what I understand, some of them are simply weighted gloves that you strap onto your hand, such as the ones shown in the second and third picture, but some have tiny little sensors in them that counteract against the tremors to "cancel out" the shaking?? (I probably didn't word that right)

Anyways, I had a lot of fun exploring more tf2 merc disability headcanons with y'all, and I hope you had fun too!! Sorry to anon for dumping this massive answer on you, you probably just wanted a simple doodle :')

If you happen to know more on the subject, or have personal experience, please do share and correct me if I got anything wrong!

Love you all! <33

[ninjagirlstar5]

I was in the mood to draw Minako Tomori, and so I did. I put her in this melancholic pose while dressed in casual clothes, like she's hanging out in public, but she started getting distracted by past regrets...

Her casual clothes are based off of this sprite edit I made of her for my fanfic:

There's no tattoo-covering-a-scar on her shoulder in this sprite cause I literally just came up with that headcanon yesterday and this sprite edit is almost a year old (I just never posted it until now). Not that you would've seen it that well from this angle anyways.

Her tattoo is based off of the flower, Sakurasou or the Japanese Primrose, btw. Kinda proud on how it turned out, ngl, as I'm not really that good in designing tattoos for characters. ^^;

Anyways, I made an off-the-cuff Minako Tomori analysis under the read more, oops:

I've been seeing a lot of Tomori family talk lately and that made me start thinking of Minako again as she's, well, kindof my favorite out of the 6.5 crew next to Dr. Ando (which led to me making this drawing of her). Now, I'm not defending her in how she raised Kizuna or her horrible attitude or anything like that. She's pretty horrible in DRA 6.5 and she gets called out on multiple times by Ryutaro and even Dr. Ando, and rightfully so. But man, from what I can understand in DRA 6.5, she's clearly a goddamn mess. From all the smoking she does to (badly) cope with the stress of dealing with her failure of a marriage to a shitty husband who is also a shitty dad, to constantly cheating on him cause she'd rather be anywhere but with him and can't divorce him due to collateral so she's just legally stuck with him so she goes off to find other men (usually younger but at least they're of age) to ignore her problems at home, puts importance on money because she's the only one trying make sure they have a fuckin' roof over their heads cause her husband is too busy gambling and drinking all their money away, and probably put importance on her appearance more than anything else cause it's one of the few things she can control about herself and feel confident in (and even then, she can't stop the passage of time that is old age). And all of this, plus how she interacts with Ryutaro in her Talk sections (a.k.a. her FTEs) by constantly calling him brat and trying to get him to go away, and no wonder Kizuna turned out the way she did. She had a dad that was never there for her or his wife, refusing to take responsibility for anything and just focuses on himself, and her mom is dealing with SO many things that she's constantly stressed about money and her appearance to the point that she's unable to be emotionally supportive to her daughter in any healthy manner that her flaws, her own attitude about men, and her beliefs in money and appearance is all that matters just ended up trickling down to her daughter and influencing her in a way that it turned her into the messed up girl she is in the short time we got to know her in DRA. Like, holy shit, Minako. You're an asshole of a parent, but when you really think about it, the poor woman got the short end of the stick in life and that really affected how she acted in raising her daughter. Again, not defending her as she's still a bad influence but it's hard not to pity her when she's left to do all the work herself, from parenting, to working, to just trying to take care of herself (by coping in very bad ways)...It's not an enviable position, that's for sure. But honestly, that's what makes Minako so interesting to me. She's not a good person, far from it, nor is she the "better" parent in this scenario. But she still cared enough about Kizuna to follow a suspicious note and getting kidnapped in the process, even when it had the underlying motivation of deciding that she had enough of her shitty husband and took the opportunity to run away from him. And whenever the other characters, particularly Dr. Ando, call her out on her nonsense, I think she gets struck silent in response. Like their words are genuinely getting to her and making her question the way she acts.

And you know what fucks me up the most?

The implication that, between finding out what happened to Kizuna and the rest of the class in DRA post 6.5 upon getting rescued and before the events of SDRA2, she actually changed and improved as a person. Minako, while she is gossiping in the epilogue, is a lot more nicer and friendlier here, is giving us a rundown of what happened after the Utsuroshima Killing Game and the rumors surrounding it to Midori, and making light-hearted jokes in an attempt to cheer Midori up by making fun of herself. And when Midori starts to cry over Teruya's death, Minako's sprite goes sympathetic and concerned and it fades to black for awhile and we come back to Midori reassuring Minako that she's feeling better now with the implication that Minako was trying to comfort her through her mourning. And then she gives out some pretty sound advice, even when dropping this bit in the process:

(The translation is an unofficial version and this bit of dialogue appears at the 3:55 mark.)

"...Go ahead and cry your heart out. You're still young, so you don't have to pretend you're strong."

"With age, the tears won't come even if you want to cry, so when you feel the need to cry, cry."

Which, OW to that last one.

Like, imagine going through so much shit through your life as an adult that you can't even bring yourself to cry about it. You just go, "Yep, this might as well happen," with all the apathy and frustration you can muster in your body.

And when Midori goes to leave to talk to the criminals, Minako has the sense to go "That's a bad and dangerous idea, Midori, don't go alone!" and points out that she JUST got out of the hospital and hasn't fully recovered yet. She even tries to convince her to stay by asking her to continue talking with her cause she's bored. (And, well, I can believe that, even when she's speaking some common sense.) But it clearly rubbed Midori the wrong way as she seems to want to be useful in any way she can, regardless of whether or not her life gets put in danger, so she goes anyway. Aaand Minako complains about Midori's parents not teaching her to treat her adults with "respect," and has brought up "worrying over Keisuke getting a scratch on his pretty face" earlier in conversation, which shows that she's still a flawed person. But I consider that good writing as just because she's a better person now, that doesn't mean her flaws are just going to go away or disappear suddenly. Taking away a character's flaws in order to make them a "good" person will only make them bland, boring, and flat as a paper. Flaws are meant to help characters be more nuanced in personality, and Minako still being abrasive is good as it's a flaw that is a part of her to be aware of and keeps her character recognizable despite the implication that she's trying to do better now. And when Midori gets kidnapped, she immediately runs over to Ryutaro and Keisuke to tell them what happened, calling Ryutaro "kid" in the process, and showing fear for Midori's safety. I don't know if the translation between Kid and Brat is any different, but it's a step up from brat, at least. (And honestly, I can see Minako using "kid" and "brat" as a more affectionate nickname to Ryutaro over time since she comes off as the type to show affection through teasing.) And to top it all off, the cigarettes from her DRA sprites have been replaced with lollipops in her SDRA2 sprites, and candy is a common way of trying to combat addiction to nicotine.

In other words, the way Minako acts in SDRA2 shows that she's trying to be a better person, even if that development happened between games. (And frankly, we shouldn't just stop everything in the epilogue just to have a flashback of "here's why so-and-so acts like this now!" Like, that would just kill the pacing of the epilogue and defeats the whole purpose of a time-skip between games.) It's just a shame that Kizuna's death was the wake-up call that put her on that track to growth in the first place (alongside the call-outs). It's through the death of her own daughter and what led up to it and why she acted the way she did in that moment that made her stop, take in the call outs she's been dealt with throughout the 6.5 chapter, and go, "Oh. I've been a shitty mom and that played a part in how Kizuna acted and led to her death." Cause think about it: if Kizuna was never concerned about her appearance, if she never had this belief that she had to extort others in order to benefit herself, whether it's men for money, affection, popularity, attention or anyone else for anything else, DRA's Chapter 2 probably wouldn't have happened the way that it did. It may not have prevented Kizuna from dying at some point during the killing game, but her behavior was something that she learned and inherited from Minako. And that realization had to sting for her as she not only lost her daughter but had to come to terms with the revelation that it was indirectly her fault for influencing Kizuna in a way that made her a terrible person that decided her only option to survive was to try and kill (which backfired on her hard). But unlike some people, who would double-down on their behavior or just grow worse through their grief, Minako seemed to have reflected on everything up to that point and decided to grow as a person instead. But even though Minako is trying to be a better person now, she can never make it up to her own daughter that she messed up the most. Because that chance is forever lost thanks to death itself.

Reflection is important, because if you don't do that much, you'll never realize what you've done wrong until it's too late and the chance to make it up to your loved one is forever stripped from you.

...At least, that's how I've interpreted Minako Tomori.

[hare-beneath-pine]

2024.05.07 - The fool again, and again, and again

I'm rebuilding my practice - this winter, I stepped away and never really got back into it again (essentially due to work + mental health issues, very pedestrian). Of course I feel shitty about it, but I'm trying to see it as an opportunity to build something better, more resilient, truer to who I am and who I want to be.

I'm really deathly allergic to being sincere on the internet, but I like the idea of blogging about this process. I like reading long-form candid posts about what people are up to, so maybe someone will get something out of this. At any rate, it can be an exercise in consistency—that word I can't escape lately.

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This was my first week of meditating every day in a long while. Just 10 minutes per day of simple mindfulness meditation, but I find it really helps with focus and getting into the right headspace.

Not a morning person at all, but lately I've been getting up at 5:00 on weekdays to draw (or sometimes fuck around...) before work. Some days I was able to hurl myself out of bed, chug water, scribble in my dream journal and meditate, but I need to resist the allure of the snooze button... I may start putting my phone on my dresser or something.

I did keep up my dream journal but haven't been reviewing/analyzing it, so I did that this week. Themes? Stress, loss of control, and drag queens, baby.

Also, not really magic, but I started therapy. Hopefully it will help me live my yass kween best life, or at least stop being a high-functioning nervous wreck. Been trying to be more ~intentional~ about substance use as well.

Media

Been reading Sigil Magic for Writers, Artists, & Creatives by T Thorne Coyle - will probably finish, although I wish there was a bit more to it. There's some decent inspiration for sigil design. And I can thank it for reminding me about consistency. I would recommend this to a beginner with creative hobbies who is mostly interested in psychological/internally-directed magic.

Also reading volume 2 of The Invisibles which just makes me want to practice. So many cool ideas, but the found sigils/incantations in an urban environment have a hold on me. I did some semi-successful workings with a weird symbol found on our local buses last summer, it reminds me of that.

Plans

Next week I'm going to add short daily prayers to the local spirits and my ancestors in the morning, before meditation. More generally I want to take things slow, and go for small actions I can do consistently over anything sexy and ambitious.

[olderthannetfic]

Having more fandom friends around my age/mindset (context: late 30s, rare fandoms, reads some nsfw but not the type to post about it a lot in my main account) might be nice. I ignored the fandom part of myself a long time due to my RL friends being shitty about it (I dumped the worst of them) and I'm trying to enjoy it more.

But I keep leaving comments on fic and art and don't get any reply, let alone a conversation or follow. When I do get a response, the person stops posting fic in that fandom shortly afterwards. In an earlier more active fandom, I would send requests to people (clearly open for requests!) and 99% of the time I'd be ignored, or they'd draw the request at a level clearly before their usual stuff then delete it because they didn't like it (their words).

I'm not writing anything inappropriate or critical? I try to make my comments more interesting than 'i love this write more thx', maybe they get too confusing and off-putting to read? It certainly isn't because my ship is too weird because even non-shippers ship my current OTP lmao

I am trying to be realistic about it, maybe they aren't replying because they don't have the energy, or they have a life and they can't reply to the comment immediately and forget to, or they moved on, or they think I'm a tit which is totally fine?

The issue is it keeps happening, it's depressing, and the follows I do get are people in the same fandom who only like the parts I'm not invested in at all, have really tired takes and are significantly younger to the point I'm concerned about looking like a creep if I interact with them at 100% of my full power. It feels very much like I'm wishing on a monkey paw.

I have a very small number of friends I can talk to about fandom stuff I will cling onto with both hands. I just wish there were more. This is mainly me venting but if anyone has any suggestions feel free.

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Hmm... Well, I share your suspicion that if you're the common factor, you're at least somewhat contributing to this situation. It may not be that you're offputting but that you inherently like things most other fans don't like—not just rare ships but also rarer tropes.

Or it may not be rarity exactly but prompt style: while tons of people love found family and slice of life, a lot of prompts for those are so generic and boring that they inspire exactly zero new plotbunnies. Meanwhile filthy kink is not for everyone but often has the seeds of a specific fic in a prompt, so if you do like it, those prompts are super inspiring.

A lot of people are pretty terrible at responding to comments. I'm extremely hit or miss on AO3 myself. I'll respond to a zillion things on tumblr before I remember to actually answer comments on AO3. Partly, it's that I get said comments in my email inbox, not on AO3 itself, so I read them and appreciate them but am not in the space where I'd respond right at that moment.

Sadly, people making one fanwork and moving on just comes with the territory when you're in rare fandoms. It's much easier to make friends who like to vid Asian dramas or who are learning a language for fandomy reasons or who are doing fandom historical preservation than friends who share your exact current taste in blorbos and who will continue to do so.

In my case, I love rare things, but I also love to move from fandom to fandom rapidly, and I find it really stressful to have friends who end up resenting that.

I tend to befriend fans whose overall vibe I find compatible more than people I share ships with: people who will probably be in fandom for life, people who are loud and proud about it, people who are interested in fandom history and pan-fandom meta. I also tend to be drawn to accounts that are not only horny on main but horny for kinky shit that draws haters. It does a wonderful job of weeding out the whiny children and finding me fans with a spine. Hilariously, one of my closest offline fandom friends with whom I share the most character opinions doesn't even like sex scenes. But that's not somebody I'd have gotten to know online.

It's going to vary for the people you're approaching, but that may be one reason they're not as enticed by the sight of another fan of their current rare fandom: they may have totally different types of criteria for fandom friends.

It's hard to know how much of the problem is you without examining your internet presence more, but I get why going "here's my account, plz critique" is not attractive. This ask seems fine. No particular writing style red flags jump out at me.

I've definitely known people who were dicks about my tumblr popularity and wanted to know why I didn't reblog them... but it turns out they interacted with me only once every six months so I don't remember them or their tumblr is entirely shitposts or their writing style is incoherent or they sound angry all the time.

One problem you may be running into is that findable fans in their 30s and 40s are self-selected for Fandom For Life types who already have a bunch of close fandom friends. They're likely doing a lot of socializing in private with people they've known for ages. I like to think of it as people with very full dance cards. They tend to be the most attractive because they're living happy, fulfilling lives, but that same quality makes them too busy. Meanwhile, people who are sad and alone and desperate for friends are often less visible and less compelling. If someone figured out how to connect with them, they'd be a great friend, but fewer people are trying.

It's not that every compatible late 30s fan is too busy for new friends. It's that the fans who are visible enough that you know they exist and know their approximate age are a very specific slice of overall fandom.

As fans age, some of their fandom friends leave fandom or die, so there can be periods where people are going "Shit, I need new friends!" later on, not just in college and such. But I'd say late 30s is a tough-ish period. A lot of people are busy with young kids and/or haven't lost their inner circles from younger years yet.

In general, a lot of my closer fandom friends aren't actually looking for new friends and haven't been in quite a while. Some don't even post publicly anymore. I'm something of an exception because I'm both extremely friendly and always on the lookout for minions to convince to go to Escapade con or take up the banner of fandom preservation yadda yadda. I have a vested interest in remaining open to new people.

Thoughts, everyone? Have you gone through friend-seeking and full dance card phases?

[charcolor]

day 1 of oc-tober is "favorite OC"

i feel bad picking a Favorite OC, but i do have like...phases where i think about a specific character a lot. right now it's cherry valentine. i love thinking about her character and how i can flesh it out. truly ingenious character creation process where i create a faceless yandere stereotype and then say "ok. How can i make her a sympathetic woman while still letting her kill people"

this is cherry btw (dorothy is here to scale her down)

basic and silly facts about cherry:

age 23 (born january 6), 3rd year college student. i had her major listed in my phone notes but then my phone BROKE and i LOST my phone notes. but she likes math so it was probably mathematics.

she lives in an apartment near campus. her best friend violet, who is also a college student, lives in the same complex.

there's another student named lucy that she hates (because lucy creeps her out) but they have the same birthday because i thought it would be funny. (lucy is a year older though)

cherry is face blind, she typically relies on things like hair color, skin color, body type, and voice to identify people. because the girl she has an infatuation with (alicia) is so Normal looking, she has to put extra effort into recognizing her. she can't visualize well enough to remember exactly what a "bigger than average nose" is supposed to look like, for example, but if she sees someone's nose she can make a guess if it matches the description she's memorized. this has inevitably caused her to further enable her own obsessive tendencies.

this also means she can't draw faces. in fact, she can't draw

cherry is an only child with divorced parents. she's not very close to either of them, due to the divorce being very ugly and stressful which led to a strain in all their relationships. her parents were also pretty young when they had her (they actually married after cherry was born), which led to further stress for them due to their inexperience, and further neglect for cherry - while she was still fed and housed, she did not have any emotional support from her mother (who had custody of her) when she was struggling socially at school.

she's half british and half italian. if i was half british i'd start killing people too.

[msnihilist]

What's your favourite ben centered ship? Also why and some headcanons to do with it please

I love so many Ben ships, it's impossible for me to choose just one. But I think right now my favorite is probably Ben/Gwen/Kevin.

I have such a soft spot for poly ships, mostly because so many fans don't seem to even consider them a possibility!

So far it's mostly just me making Bwevin content, but I'm hoping to sway some fellow fans into enjoying them eventually, hehe :)

As for why? I guess because I already like Bwen, Bevin, and Gwevin separately — it just makes sense to put them together! All three of them are pretty much attached at the hip in canon, anyway.

Here's some headcanons for the three of them that are canon to my Three's Company AU:

Ben and Gwen start dating when they're 12, a year after Ben takes off the Omnitrix.

Their parents have absolutely no idea. Gwen's parents would separate her from Ben. Ben's parents do eventually find out, but they're already letting him risk his life as a hero, so they can't exactly draw the line at who he's kissing. They don't like it, but Carl and Sandra choose to be happy that Ben is happy and not think about it.

Kevin and Gwen have the public relationship. As far as their friends, family, and press are concerned, Ben isn't involved at all.

He fake-dates Julie for a while once he becomes famous after a scare with the paparazzi hanging outside of his bedroom window. He refuses to let anyone know that he's dating his cousin.

Despite Ben's best efforts, Julie figures it out. She doesn't tell anyone, but she also can't be friends with Ben now that she knows the truth, so they stop talking.

It takes Ben a while to be comfortable with telling Rook the truth. Incest isn't uncommon on Revonnah (it's taboo in upper class society, actually, because it's seen as a sign that you couldn't find a more suitable match for your child and had to resort to family), so Rook doesn't really care.

Rook doesn't like watching Ben do couple stuff with Gwen and Kevin. (He's not disgusted, though. It's jealousy.)

Rook does eventually end up dating Ben, too. Gwen and Kevin don't mind sharing.

Ship is shared between Ben, Gwen, and Kevin. Kevin likes him the most, because Ship is really useful for repairs and upgrades. Ship and Zed eventually become best friends :)

After Gwen and Kevin leave Bellwood, they set up a schedule to video call with Ben at least once a week, and they have a group date night once a month.

Ben, Gwen, and Kevin do eventually "get married." It's not a legally binding ceremony, but they still consider themselves married 💕

Charmcaster knows about Ben and Gwen dating, since she spends so much time spying on Gwen. She doesn't really care — she uses it as blackmail.

Will Harangue starts a fake story about Ben dating his cousin to make him look bad. Frank sues him for defamation and Will is legally not allowed to talk about Ben or Gwen after that.

None of the three of them have biological children with each other. Ben and Gwen would feel too guilty if they brought a child into the world, and Gwen and Kevin are not compatible due to being Anodite and Osmosian.

All three of them are, generally speaking, much happier and more comfortable people than they are in canon. Gwen in particular is FAR less stressed.

Gwen is absolutely the jealous type, haha! She almost got into a fist fight with one of Ben's super fans who wouldn't stop touching him, and Kevin had to hold her back.

Ben is the least jealousy prone of the three of them and, ironically, the most needy.

Gwen wears her hair tied up in a high ponytail with a green scrunchie. Her favorite color is green. (Yes, this is important.)