#also i dont think its a toxic trait but idk how to put it lol

[bixiaoshi]

my mom trying to get me to say that i am smart is so funny to me

[thesweetestdevotion]

Could you do Enhypen jay as a husband??

Enhypen Jay as a Husband:

Dice: Cancer, Jupiter, 8th House

Tarot: Four of Wands, Eight of Coins Reversed, Six of Wands, Eight of Cups Reversed, The Lovers, Seven of Coins, Page of Swords, King of Cups, Strength, Four of Coins Reversed

Oh my my. He’s a total lover boy. I think he’d really enjoy being a husband lol. It’s like he sees it as a goal to work towards, but he also doesn’t hold on to the idea too much, he thinks its something he’d like to do but only if it feels right. he’s not gonna marry just for the sake of being married, he wants someone he really loves and also someone that will help build a new life with him. He literally got so many ‘romance’ cards its insane! He’d be very energetic and loving, and also put in a lot of work towards the relationship. He might even being to neglect other parts of his life because he’s so focused on it. I think he likes partnership and wants that traditional stuff like building/finding a house together, working towards similar goals, growing, etc… He’s like extremely in tune with his own emotions and this also gives him the ability to be in tune with his partners. Im trying to see if there is any downsides or if he would show toxic traits but… i just don’t see it! He’s that perfect husband type its so refreshing. I do think he might have outdated ideas in some places, but i see with the page of wands an eagerness to learn how to make it work with his person if that is ever an issues. I think he idolizes marriage to an extent, its sort of part of his ideal life. He craves the meshing of souls that happens in deep intimate commitments. I think he also wants a soft place to come home to, he might really like domesticity and admire people who have those nurturing traits. He wants the ideal marriage, one where they dont have secrets or resentments and they’re able to co-create a beautiful life as they wish. It’s a common theme in many marriage/fs readings but i do see he might take a step away from his usual work, there would be a shifting of priorities here. He’s like working hard now in order to get to a place where his relationship can be his main focus. he could be prone to codependency lol but, depending on his partner, it could be a good thing for him. He’s just a generally energetic person and when he’s excited or happy about something he puts his all into it. Idk he’s just very nice every time i read for him lol! I do see he might be dissatisfied?? Or just resigned in some way. Maybe deep down he feels like his dream is impossible, i think he could hear a lot of negative things about marriage and this might get him down. he might feel like he’s too emotional or delusional about it and its possible he keeps a lot of this info hidden from others. He’s a very sensitive man in a world where those traits are not acceptable in masculinity, so he def keeps a lid on all of this sadly, he also may feel rejected in many ways. Maybe the romantic opportunities he’s had so far have been dissatisfactory and disappointing so he often thinks about how its could be difficult to even find a partner willing to be with him. There’s a slight pessimism but his feelings towards marriage are still very positive. Like i said he feels very dreamy, emotional, sweet, optimistic about the future. I hope all his dreams come true <3

Hope you guys like it!! Xoxo

[nonbinary-sticks-the-badger]

anyway forgot to do this but silver playlist 👍 havent got around to making cover art yet so heres a picture from sims 2 that weirdly fits his colour palette👍

as always here's the explanations (youll notice that the songs become less and less accurate):

1. Fine Lemon Demon

soooo much of this song feels like silver. an optimistic take on a crumbling world ruined by human corruption. ok yeah tbf the narrator's optimism is so intense it's counter productive while silver is meant to be a bit more realism. but they're allowed a bit of toxic positivity. as a treat ❤️

2. Birdhouse in Your Soul They Might Be Giants

this song is about a nightlight and i think that is such a good metaphor for silver. a comforting little glow in the middle of the darkness. something to reassure you there's nothing to be afraid of. plus something about this song always fills me with hope and joy

3. Time Machine Miracle Musical

i dont think i need to explain this one like even just the title makes it obvious why id put this here

4. LEASE Takeshi Abo

kinda just fits his whole vibe yk. plus people associate it with frutiger aero (despite it not technically having anything to do with it) which also just fits his whole vibe

5. BITTEN TWICE Machine Girl

so far most of these songs have been linked to silver's hope and optimism but this one reflects the opposite. their aggression and strong sense of justice is part of what i find so relatable to silver and i think if any aggressive machine girl song deserves to be on this playlist, it's bitten twice

6. Title/Main Menu SEGA SOUND TEAM, Richard Jacques

ive already expressed how much i love the sonic all stars racing transformed music and how i think the instrumentation fits silver so well despite him not being in the insane roster. ive also expressed how i actually dont like dreams of an absolution that much. take what you will from that information.

7. World Tour/Loading SEGA SOUND TEAM, Richard Jacques

see above lol. also i love the loading theme its so :D cute :D

8. Peaceful Moment SEGA SOUND TEAM

☹️💔

i love NiGHTS so much silver deserves to meet NiGHTS oughhhh 💔💔💔💔 and this song in particular is so 💔💔💔💔💔

9. Pale Machine bo en

ive heard this song is about being a mother or some kind of parental figure but i think it (mostly) fits silver as well, with him being a guardian and whatnot. but also this destroys him and makes him miserable and lonely. yes.

10. Spring Yard Zone (Sonic 1) Masato Nakamura

i can do what i want forever 💔

11. Buttercup Jack Stauber

JACK STAUBER I LOVE YOUUUUUUU JACK JACK STAUBER IM NOT EVEN KIDDING YOUR MUSIC SAVED ME FROM SUICIDE JAAAAAAAAAAAAACK 💔💔💔 uh and buttercup is uh kinda optimistic and uh silver uhhhh

12. 13 Tally Hall

CRAP

13. Ruler of Everything Tally Hall

its about time 👍👍👍

14. Taswell C418

minecraft creative mode music all has this weird ethereal mood that i think really matches that god-like feeling of creative. in a sense that feeling extends to silver, considering how powerful he is. taswell is a particularly cheerful song but not very intense, which i think reflects the control he has over his abilities and. once again. his optimism

also: as someone who would always have to run into another room when they so much as saw a creeper i was always playing peaceful creative when i was younger and this was my favourite song so i find this deeply nostalgic

15. Load/Save Game Kawai Sprite

just fits him yk

16. Flake C418

ok so similar rant as before. i find minecraft console edition to also be very nostalgic as that's the version i'd always play. i never bought it but id play the christmas texture pack world loads because. idk i just did. its honestly kinda mysterious and eerie while also being cheerful and charming. i think this song reflects that really well and both are traits i associate with silver

17. Rusty's Theme zKevin

:D

18. When The Night Falls SEGA SOUND TEAM

something about this song sounds so purple idk what it is. anyway JoD soundtrack is generally ass however i do think this one is alright. it fits silver because i say so

19. Al-Di-La - Sandal Wood Ver. SEGA SOUND TEAM

i just like nightopians. also there's beep boop so it counts.

20. Water Island My Singing Monsters, Werdos, Dipsters

💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

while we do kinda see this in general sonic media, sonic idw specifcally has a real focus on silver healing and learning to literally just. live. water island has this super sweet message of healing and someone take me away before i start ranting about msm

21. Dinner Is Not Over Jack Stauber's Micropop

yk all that stuff i said about jack stauber saving me from suicide earlier? well. well. well. well. well. well. well. wel.

this song is anti-suicide but not as in "killing yourself is a bad thing think of how bad that is" and instead as in "it's really hard to live sometimes but youve got to wait it out for the good parts" and. god isnt that such a wonderful message. anyway silver hemgehog.

22. We're Only Human Graham Kartna

beep beep boop boop ^^

23. Get It Together The Go! Team

little big planet you did not deserve all that i miss you baby come back. anyway the general eclectic happy vibe of this song is something so unique and ive only really heard similar music in TAWOG. i should probably start listening to the go! team. anyway uh hes happy whatever yay

24. microchip Oliver Buckland

honestly i kinda just added this in because this song makes me laugh

[yingandyangspirit]

Warning! Half asleep dream story it's a little messy but motivational

So, I have an extremely toxic trait of ruining my life by going mia on my jobs when I feel I need some personal time and im feeling antisocial or if I dont feel liked which with bpd is a constant battle we think everyone hates us which is also how I lost my two previous jobs lol but anyway I was having a dream the beginning is hazy but someone was testing my phone I think idk and she texted Jody foster idk why that name either into a group chat with my coworkers and everyone started shitting on her calling her annoying no one likes her shes a spy she talks to much goes and tells people stupid stuff they don't care about etc and I'm like fuck this shit that's how they feel about me im not going and im not telling anyone fuck this job the whole 9 but then i was like you know what no i need to go i need this job i just won't talk at all which is impossible for me and when they see im to quiet they always ask if im ok but anyway moral of the story i think thats some serious personal growth and im pretty proud of myself usually dreams you're like fuck it lets be toxic but I tried to get over it and be better ive put so much effort into changing and becoming a better person i really feel and see the changes that are happening its a long process but im getting there and i will succeed my bad for this long confusing ass post im half asleep but I just had to write this dream before I forgot the whole thing and I have no one else to tell this to lol so here you guys go

[dismalest]

is this a rant ? idfk i guess its more me rambling. this isnt a callout to anyone, literally i dont care if u find bum cute or w/e, i think he can be cute. but i guess a more talk on how he is. for the most part.

i just want to make this so that i can get this off my chest. as much as you may love bum, as much as he seems cute to you--- he is not entirely this uwu innocent baby. he is a literal stalker, he has so many restraining orders against him. he has stolen, and broken into peoples homes. he is the kind of guy who would genuinely sleep in your closet at night without you knowing. he doesn’t care if you feel uncomfortable by it, because has literally no concept of how most people would feel if he did such things outside of his impulsiveness to follow these people all day. he will try and learn everything he can about you and just be a straight pervert. yes, he does have times where he actually is aware and feels bad for infatuating but thats usually after he’d get caught ??? 

im also guilty of this, but i am trying to make it apparent he is not supposed to be someone likable. he’s literally considered ugly half the time in ks LOL. that and he has poor hygiene, he wears baggy smelly clothes, is literal skin and bones. bum literally not a conventionally attractive man in korean beauty standards. he has no real concept of love outside of that oh if i feel this fuzzy feeling when i see someone attractive i am now going to be completely obsessed with them and do everything i can to feel their love without approaching them because i dont want to get hurt. which is. very twisted logic. 

idk, bum really had a shit life and deserved to at least get some kind of help, but didn’t. but it still doesnt excuse him being a very, toxic person in himself ? that being said i do really wanna explore his darker toxic traits more, but also want to keep from making anyone uncomfortable. ks is always something i loved indulging in as ive never had muses as complex and unique as bum ? i guess ?

i just want to make sure everyone is comfortable but also remind everyone he isn’t this good person, he literally refused to tell the police anything about sangwoo, he was an accomplice, he killed someone. 

anyways thanks for coming to my ted talk i hope this doesnt come off as like. me calling anyone out bc no everyone has been so lovely to me, this is more me rambling bc i have no where to put this LOL

[rosefromc0ncret3]

hoping for more good days.

been feeling so sad again lately. when am I not sad these days? been really wanting to seek mental health services again so I can get professional help. cried to my hr this morning cuz I wanted to inquire about therapy and when she asked if I was okay, all I told her was that ive been feeling really sad lately. we both shared a moment of sadness together lol, it was comforting knowing that im not alone with how ive been feeling. but it just sucks. teared up as I was talking to her and I wish I could find a way to just be happier. cue blue and grey, just wanting to be happy. been thinking a lot about how I treat people and wondering if I purposely push people away without knowing it. thats my own pain that I have to deal with and sort out, but I always wonder if I project that onto others or if im hurting other people unintentionally by doing that. I guess I just get bummed cuz this past summer and how many months have been some of the hardest months I had to go thru this year and I felt like I needed a lot of space. and I felt like I had to look inwardly for that. and now that I want to reach out to people and talk, it seems like I dont have anyone to talk to anymore. or maybe I should think of it in a way where I dont take it so personal. like it has nothing to do with me. cuz even tho im super struggling during this time, I have to keep in mind that other folks are as well.. idk. I guess I just miss when I knew I could call someone and they’d be there. maintaining friendships during this time has been so hard. and I feel like ive been forced to face a lot of past shit that ive been suppressing and trying to let go of my own toxic habits and traits. trying my best to be patient with myself. but I cant help but feel like a bad person or feel hella selfish when I have to put myself first. idk, I also get hella butthurt when I try to reach out to people and they aren't there. cuz it makes me feel like im not important. or it makes me feel like im just not worth talking to. I always say this, but I wish my worth wasn't linked to what other people think of me. or how often they reply to me. I find myself always comparing myself to other people when I know that doesn't help. doesn't give me any solutions whatsoever, and if anything it just makes me feel more like shit. idk, ive been hella crying cuz in short I feel so lonely. so extremely lonely. and idk what to do anymore. idk who to turn to and idk what to even say these days cuz at the root of it, I just feel incredibly lonely. like I have no one to talk to. no one to listen to me. and especially no one who understands me. sometimes, I get kinda triggered when folks say to reach out to someone I trust cuz I feel like idk who I can talk to like that now. I feel like this pandemic has just enhanced so many of my feelings and I get so overwhelmed with how I feel and idk how to navigate them. everyone around me just seems so happy and it seems like im the only one hella struggling with my own emotions during this time. like I dont know who to even talk to cuz I dont want to just bring the mood down. or be seen as someone who's just hella sad all the time. I want to be able to process these emotions on my own, but it just gets rly hard sometimes cuz idk how else to express it... besides cry. been thinking a lot about how I just handle these emotions and its like idek what to do with them. I hope in the future I can be better at navigating things. my hr told me today that the first step to trying to be happy and better is taking action. and the limbo is always the hardest part. I also have to remind myself that taking action can mean a lot of things. even something like this, taking my time, and researching different resources around me. sigh. I hope in the future I can be abundant in many ways. financially, academically, and in love too.. whether platonic, familial, or romantic. I hope to be so strong and secure in my character that these thoughts dont shatter or take over me. and I won't believe them either. sigh. deep breaths in. and deep breaths out. hoping for better days always. here's to one step closer to those better days and feeling loved and fulfilled. 

[themaryiestsuetoeversue]

romance meme thing

tagged: @discguise

tagging: @hohoholdup, @shiftxdxquilibrium, @sayurismiles, @orlandodell, whoever else wants to steal it

repost, dont reblog

Name: Poppy Somma  Nicknames: Variations of the scientific names for chemicals derived from the plant she’s named after, linguistic plant jokes, status titles Gender: Ciswoman Orientation: Lesbian Preferred pet names: Any positive feminine term of endearment in her partner’s first language. Relationship status: single, much to her chagrin

Favorite canon ship: OCs...don’t have canon ships...and nothing has happened officially on this blog yet? @fractacrystalli might count as a canon ship, idk Favorite non-canon ships: nothing has been finalized but @rottenmiso‘s femtag and @peppermint-passions‘s rae come to mind. i’m v open to shipping as long as i’m given a headsup/have permission lol

A quick note on shipping: I am multiship but single ship for each verse? RN i technically have: 1. terrorau pokemon, 0 ships. nonterror pokeau: infinite slots open, each ship is its own verse. Japanau: infinite slots, each ship is its own verse. Persona au: 0 atm. Vampau: infinite slots. WOD au: 0. Poppy herself is not against polyamory, she just does not believe that she herself has the ability to manage it well. She’s not against TRYING, but if I go for it, please don’t expect it to be hunky dory immediately. There’d be a learning curve and it may or may not work out. That’s how life works. For monogamous relationships, I don’t need exact detailed plotting, but I’d appreciate a heads up if you want to ship and you’d need to be comfortable that it won’t be 100% smooth sailing either. Poppy is a difficult person to deal with, relationship strain is going to happen. I want the bad as well as the good in a ship. If I can’t see any interesting potential in a possible ship, I will decline. 

Opinion on true love: It exists, and it can happen more than once, and it’s ideal but it’s not a thing she expects can happen for herself.  Opinion on love at first sight: She kinda thinks most people - herself included - only experience the shallowest form of love at first sight - infatuation, temporary lust, etc. - but she also believes that if you follow up on that, it can turn into something deeper and that there’s nothing inherently wrong with quick flash in the pan flings as long as all parties involved agree to it.  How ‘romantic’ are they: As much as her partner allows tbh. Given permission, she’ll go over the top and put in all of the effort to making things perfect, but her partner’s comfort is more important than her own, so if they aren’t a fan of too much romance, she’ll tone it down as much as she can. (she still prefers someone who will let her be a sap on occasion tho)

ideal physical traits: i did a post on this a while ago but: femme, counterculture aesthetics, or occult aesthetics, especially vampire, she thinks asians are cute purely on an aesthetic level but its literally so far down on her list it might as well not be a checkbox ideal personality traits: patient, warm, affectionate, calm, good at domestic tasks to pick up her slack, doesn’t MIND picking up her slack in the first place, appreciates her scientific enthusiasm and neurodivergence, is nerdy enough themselves that they can have common interests, let’s her mother them and mothers her in return, has to be okay with cats, has to be okay with intimacy and commitment, loyalty Unattractive physical traits: not much but what she does have are a few deal breakers: bad personal hygiene (she’s good at this herself but sometimes her living space is a mess. having two messy people in one living space doesn’t bode well.) visibly a senior citizen.  Unattractive personality traits: controlling, overbearing, anything on the “Are they abusing you” checklist, can’t keep secrets, actively harasses people in service positions, hates cats, is ableist and doesn’t even attempt to change, doesn’t take responsibility seriously, refuses to compromise over anything, refuses to commit or share any emotional intimacy at all ever in any way, can’t keep promises ideal date: stay inside cuddling the s.o while doing something quiet OR indulging in a shared interest together. Do they have a type?: Yamato nadeshiko archetype (simply because it tends to come bundled with all the nurturing and domestic skills she needs to compensate for her lack of them), shy-blue haired girl (they tend to be nerdy), supernatural creatures, especially vampires, neurodivergent people because they tend to understand her life struggles better, nerds in general, goths in general, shy shrinking violets in general

Average relationship length: She only ever had one and it lasted a few months at most. 

preferred nonsexual intimacy: cuddling, touch, sharing secrets, pouring their hearts out to each other, deep discussions, quality time Commitment level: she will literally die for you and expects you to do the same for her. She views dating as a way to find your partner and probably rushes into wanting to be serious too fast, to be honest. Opinion of public affection: 100% okay and natural. She has sex in public nightclub bathrooms, so I mean...It’s love, it’s nature, if you don’t like, don’t look. That being said, PDA has it’s place and out on the street in daylight holding up foot traffic is not the place to have a quickie. Past relationships: One: Tina. It was intense, toxic, and didn’t last very long, although when it occurred in her life depends on the verse.