#also holy shit i did NOT expect that many people to see that goofy meme post

[niximous]

i’ve gained quite a few new followers since posting the big q stream thing, so hi! hello! if you followed this for dsmp art and stuff, bad news is i don’t post anything mcyt or dsmp related on here. ^^’ good news? i post all of it on @ofparrotsandbees! so if you’re looking for block man game stuff you can find all my art and stuff i’ve made for it there. if you’re chill with mostly reblogs for other fandoms and the occassional original piece or fanart that i cross post from twitter, then welcome to my main lol. i’ll keep this pinned for a bit before i delete it, but ye!

[lettersofsky]

Sorry if I overwhelm you, buuuut, Kingdom Hearts and FFVII for the fandoms meme. 'Cause I love hearing about your interests.

Don’t you worry about overwhelming me Wings, I’m always happy to ramble about things! Besides, it’s a good way to unwind after a not-too-great shift! This is big and rambly, hopefully just what you wanted!

FFVII

Character I first fell in love with:

The first character I fell in love with the very first time I played the game was definitely Barret. It was his interactions with Marlene that just made me go; ‘yes, this is a good character, he will stay with me for many hours’. He did in fact stay with me for many hours, being one of the first I got all the limit breaks for and part of my final party at the end of the game.

Character I never expected to love as much as I do now:

Probably Sephiroth. I enjoyed him very much as the villain of the OG but Crisis Core went a whole ‘nother yard in making me sympathise with him, because holy shit, no, that’s sad. Also I really love all the small, minuscule details on him in the Crisis Core cut-scenes, namely those one’s where he actually does hide behind his hair, it’s glorious and I love him so much.

Character everyone loves but I don’t:

I’m gonna cheat and put down three because they’re all kinda equal in my eyes and I want to. Angeal, Tifa and Aerith. They’re all just kinda meh to me and that’s basically it. They’re good characters definitely, there’s no doubt about that, I mean I rambled a whole think-piece about how Tifa may have manipulated Cloud into believing that they were actually close before he left for Midgar which is a really interesting parallel to Jenova manipulating Sephiroth in order to get what ‘she’ wanted.

Character I love but everyone else hates:

Probably Rosso, but only for the fact that she’s from Dirge of Cerberus which a lot of people dislike in general (I enjoyed it, I can’t play it because I can’t Shooter for the life of me, but it was fun to watch). But maybe Yazoo as well? I have no idea what characters the majority of the fandom hates; except Hojo, I’m pretty sure that most of the fandom hates Hojo… Maybe Don Corneo too.

Character I used to love but don’t any longer:

Aerith. I used to fucking love Aerith so much but then she kinda started a trend of female characters needing to die in Final Fantasy games and my feelings towards her soured, the worst case of this was Lunafreya in FFXV, which is a beautifully composed scene but it’s just so hollow and it’s fairly obvious that it’s trying to get the emotional response that Aerith’s death scene did without having earned it. Kinda a stupid reason to stop enjoying a character but that’s what happened.

Character I would kiss:

Nanaki, he’s a big fire kitty and I love him. Very much.

Character I want to slap: 

Don Corneo, though I also don’t want to touch him in case I contract something that I can’t get rid of easily. Maybe Joe because I did the Chocobo Racing Mini Game too many times to be a good idea; Penelope was a freaking Champion and nothing Joe says can change that.

A pairing I love:

STRIFESODOS AND CLOSSO!! My favourite rare pairs! I love them so much! So, so much! I will keep them forever and never stop writing things for them! Especially Soulmate AUs because I adore those, they’re my Coffee Shop AU and they’ll need to be pried from my cold, dead hands. 

A pairing I hate:

… I don’t know... I don’t think there is one. I mean I’ve got ships blacklisted but that’s more because they’re my squick and don’t want to see them but I don’t hate them. I guess

Kingdom Hearts

Character I first fell in love with:

This was actually Vexen, the first time I played Chain of Memories (which is my favourite game of the series). I wasn’t too impressed by anything in the first game (which became a trend with me, I don’t enjoy the main titles that much but I absolutely adore the side games) but then Vexen showed up in CoM and I loved how animated he was. I’m certain that whoever got to animate him was having a great time, because his facial expressions (he’s surprisingly expressive for an unfeeling Nobody) are some of the best things ever.

Character I never expected to love as much as I do now:

Riku, I was kinda meh with him for the first game and then the rest of the series kept building on him until, finally, Dream Drop Distance happened cementing him as one of my favourite characters in the series.

Character everyone loves but I don’t:

Axel, entirely because of petty reasons. He set my scientist man on fire. I’m not ok with him.

Character I love but everyone else hates:

I freaking Love Braig! Especially in Birth by Sleep, where you can beat him without touching the attack button! It was a complete accident the first time I fought him and beat him using the block button but repeat attempts revealed that Cure Block was an amazing ability against him because it heals you while deflecting his attacks back onto him. That’s a fun boss fight when you realize that, it’s basically just a big game of ‘stop hitting yourself’!

Character I used to love but don’t any longer:

Damn it! I can’t think of one off the top of my head…

Character I would kiss:

Goofy! He’s such a good dog-man! He’s such a good team mate! I love him!

Character I want to slap:

Xaldin. I spent so many days trying to fight him until eventually I just gave up and got a friend to fight him for me. (Actually I still haven’t been able to finish a full game of KH2. I always stop around the last three boss fights and move onto another game that I can actually enjoy)

A pairing I love:

Terra/Even aka Frosted Earth. I will go down with this crack ship and be perfectly understanding towards those who would jeer me for writing it! 

A pairing I hate:

Roxas/Namine. It’s just a big nope for me, especially after KH2 tried to force it for some reason that I don’t get?? Why’d you attempt to do that square? They’re interactions narrow down to; ‘I wanted to meet you before you die because someone decided Sora’s life was more necessary than yours,’ and ‘You need to murder yourself now so that Sora can wake up despite the fact that you have thoughts and feelings of your own and it’s of no fault of yours that Sora’s memories leaked into you’… Yes, this is how I actually perceive the KH2 prologue. 

[jlavisant]

Sometimes I have to really think about why I love Ardyn so much and it’s not just because I think he’s STUPID hot like... hng. Because the moment I saw him on screen I was like “wow hello how YOU doin” but I reserved any other feelings while I played through the story (and keep in mind I hadn’t watched Kingsglaive until after I beat the game). I didn’t really know what to think of him. I wanted him to be my friend. I thought he was weird and goofy and wasn’t sure what Square was doing with this guy. Then of course EVERYTHING happened and I wanted to rip off his nuts and staple them to his forehead because WOW WHAT A FUCKIN DICKHEAD.

Until you know... you get that little bit of his backstory and fuck I get that.

I’m not really the type to go this nuts over villains (I love good villains but this is different). I like HEROES. I like heroes that develop and unlearn shitty behaviors and experience a lot of shit and grow and just... yeah man. I love a good hero/heroine. I like following a character to their epiphany and seeing them fail and succeed. And yes, I fucking love Noctis. He delivers a good hero story for me.

But... I mean.... Ardyn was a hero. He saved the world, too. And we all know what thanks he got for his deeds.

And yes I definitely understand that it’s.... pretty damn common for people to feel used and mistreated by others in life. I mean IT’S PRETTY MUCH GOING TO HAPPEN at some point. Because AAAYYYY AIN’T THAT LIFE THO. 

I gave so much... holy shit... I gave so fucking much of myself and my time and my effort and my energy and my money and my love to people that ultimately dragged me down, stole from me, used me, and expected me to keep serving them after everything they’d put me through. And holy shit did it take a long time to break that fucking cycle. And it was FUCKING painful. And that’s why I am so attached to this character ultimately. It’s really not about the porn (which I love don’t get me fuckin wrong), but just... him. His character. His story. I dunno man.. I connect with that shit.

He’s a humorous man, and he’s carefree and I think he’s using that visage to bury a lot of fuckin pain. And he’s like an extreme example of what many people go through. If I had to live forever with that shit... You think I’d do any better? You think you’d do any better? I bet the fuck not. Ardyn’s only human.

Talcott said so. “He was as human as you and me...” And Talcott even says the claims made against him were dubious.

Ardyn is an example of a good person trying their best and getting shat on for it. Dude, I think anyone can identify with that. But he’s also a cautionary tale.

I remember wanting to hurt those who hurt me. I know that feeling. But I didn’t. Because it almost always hurts so many who don’t deserve it by proxy. I could have done things to destroy my ex’s life, but it would have taken down people I loved as well. So I just... I moved on.

AND YEAH I’m mortal like I get that... that’s the fantasy aspect of it and all.

Ardyn goes about his biz with humor and THAT is also something I understand. I use humor and memes and shit posts as a coping mechanism and it does well for me. My friends know me as the type to go “ALSKDFJASLDKF ANYWAYS HERE’S ARDYN AS A CUCUMBER” as an example (I will probably have to draw Ardyn as a cucumber now huh?)

On an end point... I am now at that point where I see Ardyn... Both scared to death of being close to people, but also desperately needing it. That touch starved Ardyn snippet I did wasn’t pornographic because... I know that feeling. I wish I had someone to curl up with, and it doesn’t even have to be sexually. I just miss being like that with someone. I would almost prefer a platonic snuggle buddy. Ardyn might have been better off with that, but he was shat on entirely.

Fuck Bahamut. Fuck the prophecy. Fuck all of them. Ardyn lost the most in this deal and this was how he dealt with it. Was it right? No. Would you or I do any better? I DON’T THINK SO