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amaraudermind · 1 year ago

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I feel like I don't know how to hold a conversation anymore

It's like...my anxiety got really bad and super unmanaged for over two years, and I withdrew from everyone, couldn't work, didn't talk to people, barely left the house(not just for anxiety reasons, but it certainly didn't help matters)...the most social interaction I had was talking in the tags of Tumblr posts.

And now I'm...trying, at least, to talk to people again, and be more of a functioning human being. But it's like I've no clue how to talk. I know I used to converse with people at least semi-regularly. I used to do this stuff, if not easily, at least simply.

And now, it's like. I've spent so much time not talking about anything to anyone that I don't remember what stuff people usually share with each other. What's normal to talk about.

#the void screams #i don't know #just venting i guess #it's been weird lately. a lot has been happening what to say or do or how to react and so instead i just. haven't been.#on any front. so i've mostly just been in my head and thining about odd things. i don't know.#i'm finalky back on my meds because i forgot about them for...a while which is probably contributing to things being weird currently.#also fun fact my sibling told me recently that as much as our ilder sister tries to claim the title of problem child #i have caused waaay more stress and trouble than she ever has and for some reason that cheered me up #like yeah you might be a problem but which one of us spent more time in the hospital than in school?#who was almost held back a grade because they missed a monumental amount of school?#who was the first one to start therapy?#the humor is dark but it is in fact hitting currently so. i shall in fact be bleak if it makes me laugh i need the laughs #anyway

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