#also every time someone uses he/him for them i'll make them more feminine you have been warned

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Title: Forwards (To Anywhere and Everywhere)

Fandom: Rain World Rating: Mature

Warnings: Major Character Death, Mild Gore, Canon-Typical Suicide, Mental Health Issues, Toxic Relationships, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Canon-Typical Violence, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm

Characters: No Significant Harassment, Chasing/Grey Wind, Seven Red Suns, The Hunter, The Rivuet

Summary:

There’s a life out there, outside of this box, this birdcage, a life Sig has longed to grasp in his hands, to tear from the cold death grip of those who made him, those who abandoned him, a life he longs to live so utterly joyously that his creators would probably drop dead and pass from the world just with the shock.

It’s a life not meant for him, for any of them. And he’s tried. He’s tried and he’s tired and he’s so over failing again and again, so done with asking endless questions, thundering towards a goal he has no belief in. Is it really so bad to want to leave? Is it really so awful that he wants to live?

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No Signigicant Harassment finds himself stumbling through life with a very long list of regrets following him. But with a little help, a desire to give his creators a middle finger and a need to fix his mistakes, somehow he finds himself becoming the first of his kind to cast away their can and walk the world. What he does with that new found freedom is yet to be seen but he's sure he'll fuck it up somehow.

[alllgator-blood]

I have ten billion WIP sketches I need to finish, but for some reason I stayed up from 9 PM to 4 AM conceptualizing, making patterns, sewing, painting and applying makeup on this stupid fucking felt squid......the detailing needs to be cleaned up cause there's only one coat of paint so far, but he's pretty much done

my neighbors probably think I'm insane because I was running around the yard clenching this toy kallamar in a death grip and flying him around like an airplane/putting him in the barbecue/poking him with a stick. I want to tie him to a string and recreate the opening of napoleon dynamite >:) ALSO I MADE HIM SMOKE OUT OF A STUPID CRYSTAL PIPE BUT PLEASE DON'T ACTUALLY USE THOSE, THEY ARE SUPER TOXIC LMAO MINE IS FOR DECORATION

I don't have any process pics because I had tunnel vision autism style and forgot the rest of the universe existed while I was working on him. BUT if you're curious I'll ramble below the cut

Okay I am not a seamstress by any means. I've sewn my entire life but very, very infrequently. I've done plushies, clothes, cosplays, fursuits, accessories, etc. but I only do one like once a year, so while I planned to make all 5 bishops, I'm not really sure I'll get them all done. The material cost was like 20 bucks tops so I'm not too upset if I don't finish them. I AT LEAST WANT TO GET SHAMURA OR HEKET DONE.

here is the concept sketch ft. heket's toes and shamura's fingers. I decided to do his pre-schism version so I could fit him with jewelry! I did him first because like I said I sew infrequently and don't know wtf I'm doing, everyone else seemed a lot more complicated.

So I basically just traced this drawing on a printer paper-sized canvas in SAI, and guesstimated how everything would look in a 3D space. His head is four pieces, one triangle identical to the one in the picture, two wide triangles that are sewn together in the back, and a circle for his chin. You can't really see it in any of the pics but he's literally like a black cylindrical stick with little tentacles sewn on where his mantle connects to his cloak. The leg tentacles are one piece of felt that look like tassels, where they're connected by a rectangle but branch off into individual pieces. He can't stand up very well, so his cape keeps him up (that's gonna be an issue for every other bishop too except heket cause she's gonna be ROUND). Mostly everything like the crown, cloak, head, etc. are cones so I just had to make a lot of wide triangles.

For the details, I just used acrylic paint that was watered down so he's not especially crunchy, and for the blush tone I used a makeup palette my mom bought me 10 years ago in hopes I'd get in touch with my "feminine side", but I grew up into a nonbinary butch lesbian so OOPS. Kallamar looks better with makeup than me anyway. I'm kinda sad I couldn't get his freckles as lopsided as I draw them but it probably looks better in plush form to have them even anyway....

I could just post the pattern so I don't have to explain this but 1. I am mentally ill about the thought of my kallamar being in someone else's house and 2. the original pattern had to be tweaked while I was working on him so the final pattern straight up doesn't exist, I winged it the whole time

OH and the jewelry is just scrap pieces I had laying around, I might repaint it all to be gold instead of silver + bronze. I used 20g aluminum wire for his armlet thing, jumper rings for his earrings + ring (+ a diamond dot from my mom's kits for the gem) and chain for the bracelet. I made him an amulet as well but it felt like overkill so I took it off. I'm probably gonna make him a plague doctor mask and medicine bag sometime because I think about nurse kallamar more than I probably should :') I've already sewn one as a prop for a toy raven before so it shouldn't be too hard

[velvetvexations]

Since we're talking about forcefem, here're most of the forcefem-related asks I've had in my inbox, some of which are a few days old on account of technically going in the vexatious tag if not exactly kink asks. I wanted to answer one from today on it's own which I'll get to later but I wanted to get to the older ones and also get to a few of the others from today while I was at it.

i just saw a post where a trans guy was showing some messages where someone was (unconsensually) basically roleplaying forcefemming him. despite him telling them that he did not want that and that it was very much transphobic, and he atill got a message boiling down to "you're not a man, silly, you're a girl :D" and. to be honest. this was the thing that stopped the brainworms of "what if the whole concept of transandrophobia is actually transmisogynistic and i am entirely wrong" bc at least some of these people will just say the most bog standard transphobic shit to trans guys and not register it as transphobia. so why the fuck would they be right about anything transmascs experience also on that note thank you for being so outspoken in favour of transmascs getting to discuss their oppression. it's really helpful to see trans women stand with us here, especially when it comes to aforementioned brainworms

congratulations to that transphobe for creating a new transandrobro

the 'forcemasc isnt revolutionary' shit is the most annoying iteration of stupid tumblr discourse. like im going through the tag trying to read some horny shit and oh look. theres someone being stupid and hypocritical. in my horny tag.

people are getting tribalist about kinks and it's depressing

Every time people are saying that trans men & mascs cannot possibly fathom being objectified & fetishized, I think on all of the posts I’ve seen that did that exact same thing. And yeah, some of it might have been kink, so no hate no judgement I dabble in that tag too, but I’ve also seen “get in the dress” type posts that seem to be genuinely calling for trans men to be more feminine, untagged & in the wild, enough where I’m like — am I just imagining this? Like am I crazy? Am I missing something, or was that extremely detailed post about why I MUST stay feminine — or become more — for someone else’s benefit being 100% serious? And, again — if it’s kink, all the power to them, I love that for them, I even occasionally love that for me. But I have encountered enough people who were dead serious that I sometimes want no one but trusted friends & advisors to ever witness me again. And then I look at statistics & feel genuinely ill. And yeah, I’m gnc — and there’s the rub, because while I feel genuine joy being fem as well as masc, I want it to be a Choice, not something forced upon me.

people need to be fucking normal

Yh like ik a lot of shitposts don't have any tags but people have. Really gotta tag forcefem. I've blocked a large amount of people making these jokes + filtered their names n I still see it

I'm sorry, anon. <3

Fuck thank you so much for talking so openly about forcemasc. I’m so dumb I thought there wasn’t a name for that kink that I’ve been into for years, albeit my version is way more weirder. It would be like a… forcemascfem??? Like first it’s forcemasc and then it turns into forcefem and then right back to forcemasc…. And then back to- Idk my gender is weird and my kinky fantasy for that is weird

Cross as many boundries as you want, that sounds rad. Forcefem has a lot of infrastructure to jump off of.

“I’m doing a kink in a non kink way so it’s not kink blog!” Sorry this pisses me off It’s still a kink. Like. If someone made an I-suggest-BDSM blog and tried to claim it wasn’t a kink blog I’m sure more people would see how silly this is but because it’s the transfem approved virtuous forcefem they just let it slide??? Like. You are engaging in a kink and thats fine. You can say there won’t be anything explicitly sexual! But it will still be a kink blog because it’s a blog about a kink! A kink blog if you will! It doesn’t matter if you’re not getting off to it, it’s still a kink! That you are participating in! On your blog about that kink!

It SHOULD piss you off! It's extremely fucking scummy!

what the hell? for like one solid minute(longer than that but i like saying it this way) all the forcefem on my dash was tagged and i could blissfully not have to see it every other post and then just today i had to unfollow a buncha people for an assload of untagged forcefem :/ like im transmasc i think its understandable that i do not wish to see that anyway hope your day is goin well miss velvet

yeah it's praxis to not tag kink anymore

trfs are perfectly aware what the "force" bit means when forcemasc comes up in conversation

strange how that works

[uyuforu]

Jungkook's Natal Chart: Virgo Moon in 8H, 0°

(first gif I found lol, should I change it .-.)

-> Here is one post you all have been craving for lol! Gonna try to post more JK content, im sorry ;-; Also someone pointed out I didn't do Jk's Moon and im like... omg yeah lmao.. sorry again!

Moon in astrology is all about emotions, how we deal with those, how we manage them, how do we show them, how do we feel them, etc. It is also linked with intuition, our unconsciousness, anything we do without realizing it. This is why Moon is something very important to take in consideration. It can also tell us about our feminine side, since Moon rules over it.

Virgo Moon

-> Virgo moon is a placement that makes the native have hard time to show their emotions. They may actually not like it much. Virgo is a sign that likes to have everything in control, to be able to know exactly what is going on, so they have a very logical mind. When it comes to having Virgo Moon, it is indeed a placement that doesn't "go well" with one's emotions. Virgo moon will analyze everything they feel, and they will not like to show every emotions of theirs. You could think they calculated the emotions they show to others, when in fact, it is more like controlling their emotions. JK will so show what he wants to show. Sometimes, we can see JK cries and he seems like he is ashamed, or seems like he doesn't want people to see him cry, because it is the case. Virgo Moons like to control which emotions they show to the world, so showing something they can't control feels very scary to them. It is indeed a placement that needs to understand it is okay to let go, to let go of the constant desire for control. When it comes to how they feel, Virgos Moon wants to understand their feelings. They want to know exactly why they feel this way in the situation, or about that person. They can take time to realize how they feel, and they won't let anyone know how they feel. A Virgo Moon will not allow everyone in their emotion cycle lol. They can also feel like "rejecting" or just not accepting some things they are feeling. Like they can be in denial sometimes I feel like, and they could refuse to feel, because they want control over their feelings... and then they just end up accepting like everyone else lMAO. Virgo Moons also are the type to have a good intuition. They are not the brightest sign if I can say that, so they could not feel someone in particular, and say it to other people, and people will not believe them. Because they will think that Virgo Moon is just always thinking of something bad happening. And, in the end, it happens... So trust Virgo Moon's intuition! I'll talk more about intuition in the 8H. Compared to other signs, Virgo Moons are very calm people, they are not letting their emotions out, or let everyone aware of how they feel. Because they want to control their feelings and emotions, they are quite good at hiding most of them. They can pretend pretty well tbh. So don't be fooled. Also, Virgo Moon don't make a fuss for nothing. But they are actually very caring and pay attention to the people around them and how they feel. Despite that it might be hard for other people to know how JK will feel (If you are not close to him of course), JK can actually know a lot about how YOU feel. They analyze well for other people, because Virgo placements care and pay attention. But despite of how can see Virgo, they are actually sensitive, and even more if you criticize them. Be careful what you say about them.

Moon in 8H

-> Ohhhh Moon in the 8H. Man. Very tricky placement. So Moon in the 8H feels A LOT. While JK's Virgo Moon was more about controlling emotions and feelings, the 8H placement makes this Moon feeling things to the core, like really deep. Moon in 8H makes people very sensitive, they can cry easily. They feel things intensely, and it is very easy to hurt them. To be honest, this is not an easy placement. Moon in that house can feel things and feel angry at feelings those feelings. Like they wish they wouldn't care, but they do. They are true empath, and a bit too much sometimes. Moon in 8H are people who feel things too much sometimes, and it can be tricky for their mental health. 8H is all about extreme emotions, it's ruled by Scorpio. They sometimes feel so lost about their emotions, it is overwhelming for them. If they are in a bad state, it can go to very dangerous thoughts. Moon in 8H are people who may feel things deeply, but they don't want to sometimes. Or at least, they don't want to show it. They are gonna pretend to not feel much, or that it's fine. They may not like talking about how they truly feel. They are not good at expressing their feelings. The Moon in 8H has a need for emotional security. They feel things deeply, and it can be very scary, they can even get lost in how they feel, despite JK's Virgo can sometimes be anxious or overanalyze, it is still an earth sign so it can be less scary to him. He has a lot of empathy for others, so crying because of other is very prominent. Actually, I feel like 8H Moons are people who cry a lot about others, like they see someone being killed in a movie, they cry. They see a baby crying? They cry. They cry a lot for others because they are true empath. They can sometimes feel like they don't want people to see how they feel, there could be some guilt about crying about themselves. They could be crying and say "no no it's fine haha...", and just starts crying in the end. Talking about traumas, painful memories will always make them cry. Because they feel things hardcore, don't play with their emotions. These people will just feel anger like no one else, it's the same with sadness, guilt, happiness, etc. Their intuition is crazy!!! 8H is ruled by scorpio, and we know 8H and 12H (also 9H sometimes) are the houses of intuitions. They are very connected emotionally, and they be emotionally connected to their intuition. Also, 8H Moons are people who can manifest easily. The 8H is also a house about anything that is considered taboo, or things we shouldn't talk about. Or things that people usually have a hard time talking about. Moon in that house makes the native have easy time talking about taboo subjects. The reason is mainly their empathy. You can talk about your deepest secrets, they won't judge. They are very understanding with people's emotions. They can also feel like people hate them or are angry at them, but for no reason. They are scared of people leaving them.

0° is a degree that doesn't mean anything in astrology. Or it can mean that the sign and house is more important in this case. But not signs are connected to that degree.

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rick riordan's female characters pt 1: annabeth

this year i reread pjo and hoo for the first time since finishing the series five years ago, and i now understand the (somewhat?) common opinion that the way he wrote female characters was definitely flawed in some ways. although, i don't completely agree with all the criticisms, and i still love the majority of his characters. because i have so many thoughts on annabeth, i'll make this post just about her and discuss other characters later.

i'm certainly not one of those avid annabeth haters, but i do think there are valid reasons to not like her- I think there are valid reasons to not like any character. for me, there are moments where she is a bit too arrogant or mean. but i don't think she should have been written with an entirely different personality either- it makes sense why she is the way she is, and all the characters are flawed in their own ways, which is what makes them relatable. i just don't relate to annabeth like i do to the characters i like more.

i see how some ppl dislike the dynamic between percy and annabeth, but i feel like a lot of those issues are just a product of their time. the judo-flipping scene in mark of athena has been made to be way bigger of a deal than it is. it was not annabeth "abusing" percy- it's more akin to play wrestling. but... i do agree that moments like this would be clearly unacceptable if annabeth were a boy (which, i know, those "if the roles were reversed" type discussions sometimes are used to weaponize the suffering of men in order to diminsh women's issues, and i am not trying to do that here). it unfortunately does make sense when you think about the whole anti-femininity trend that used to be so common, and existed in rick's books as well (ex: aphrodite's children). annabeth is supposed to be tough and scary, not soft and weak. but we should also keep in mind that every relationship's boundaries our different- annabeth might joke about percy being dumb, but it's obvious that doesn't bother him and he likes the nickname "seaweed brain".

annabeth's treatment of rachel in botl seems to be a dividing topic, and i can see both sides. i honestly was quite bothered by it when i reread botl, and i find it strange that some ppl will hate on percy on this book while not criticizing annabeth. but honestly that's probably because i'm a sensitive person. some ppl find it funny, which is probably how it was supposed to come across. it was probably just as obvious to rachel as it was to us readers that annabeth was only being mean out of her fear of losing percy... and rachel did indeed like percy. but i do wish that we would've seen someone call her out or see her apologize, and while her abandonment issues are an explanation for her behavior, they are not an excuse. but again, it's safe to assume that rachel was not that affected by it, and being a teenager who is rude to someone bc they like the same guy as you is not the worst thing a person can do. (i do think it's interesting how this situation is brought up more frequently than leo bullying frank, which actually did hurt frank.)

contrary to what i've seen other ppl say, i actually really liked annabeth in heroes of olympus. i thought her povs were great, and i loved to see her interact with the new characters, especially piper. i also found her more likable (ik some think she was too perfect, but i loved seeing her as a competent leader). the scene with frank and the finger trap was so cute and because i love and relate to frank, i will forever appreciate her for that. however she was def underutilized- outsmarting arachne by attacking her pride made sense because of arachne's backstory, but that strategy became overused (the way she defeated nyx was kind of ridiculous). and of course, who doesn't love the percabeth scenes- sure they were obsessed with each other, but that makes sense. they just met the rest of the seven, ofc they're not going to care about their new friends to the extend that they do for each other (side note: i don't disagree that seven felt like "co-workers", but i don't see a problem with it either).

leah was a perfect choice for the tv show adaptation. i honestly could not care less that she's not blonde and white. yes, the acting could be a bit better, but they're young and i've seen worse acting from older actors. what i do have an issue with is how annabeth was written in the show. i feel like the writers read that she's the brains of the group and she's serious and forgot that she's also a twelve year old girl. annabeth is a great character because she is strong, smart and skilled, but still flawed, realistic and relatable. i wish the show delved into other parts of her character, such as her love for architecture, the scene with the spiders, and her relationship with luke- this last one especially is such an important part they missed out on, because it's a huge source of her vulnerability in the books. i'm completely fine with them cutting out her crush on him, but the fact that she looks up to him and sees him as family is so central to why she can't accept that he's betrayed her. her believing that there is still good left in luke is also key to how they defeat kronos with luke's help. show luke says that annabeth is like his little sister, but without us actually seeing this relationship, it's going to be hard to understand in later seasons why annabeth defends him.

overall, annabeth is a great character and deserving of her popularity, but i don't think that if you dislike her you hate complex female characters. while she's not my favorite, i see her as a testament to both rick's ability to write good female characters and some of his shortcomings in this area.

[monoclesnapple]

These Notes Aren't for Science

Senjuushi Like Two X Gender Neutral Reader Modern/College AU Summary: You begin taking notice of the little things about Like Two. Beginning Note: It's still the 14th and I needed to do something for Senjuushi. I haven't done anything for a long while, but I'm trying to cook up my ideas. This feels a little messy, but I'll do some headcanons on this subject at a later time to sort out the ideas that didn't make it here. Word Count: 726 (Fluff)

Mental Notes of Like Two

Recently, you noted an attraction you were beginning to feel towards Like Two. You didn’t want to potentially ruin your friendship by some confession, so you’ll simply stick with admiring him slightly and cherish your time with him.

However, you don’t have to just sit on the sidelines. Why not take notice of all the little things about him and try to show that you care through thoughtful gestures?

Thing is, you’ll need to keep track of everything without writing them down. It’d be quite unsettling if you found out someone was taking notes on you like you’re some test subject to study. Or it could be flattering if done right. It’s probably better not to risk the former view, so you’ll simply record your observations in your mind.

All that’s left is to spend time with Like Two normally and go about your life. This isn’t anything big.

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Like Two Notes (1): Likes latte and other pretty beverages

Whenever the two of you go somewhere to order some food or drinks, Like Two always orders menu items that look nice. The time you asked him why he does so, he simply replied, “If I’m going to consume something, I’d rather it not look unappetizing.” 

Understandable. Why eat something if it looks absolutely vile? So, you tucked the fact that he likes pretty foods and drinks away in the back of your mind.

And that information came to be useful, as one day, you were walking to your classes without Like Two by your side. He needed to go early and the cafe you two frequent wasn’t open at that time, so you tasked yourself with getting his usual. You knew that he didn’t care if he had his morning drink or not, but perhaps he’d appreciate the thought.

Luckily, you share your first period with Like Two, so the latte wouldn’t go bad before it got to him.

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Like Two Notes (2): Loves exercise

Every day, Like Two tells you about what he did. Sometimes, this list is long and takes a few minutes to go down, also depending on how much detail he’ll put into the recounting. Other times, he only had a thing or two that were worth noting.

But one thing Like Two will always mention is what he did for his workout that day. Sometimes you join him, but it really depends on your mood.

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Like Two Notes (3): Claims to hate anything feminine, but actually loves them

So many times. So many times you’ve heard him snap at others that he isn’t into skincare or beauty topics. And he could be convincing if you didn’t know him as well as you do. Most times, he’s seen chilling, going to a shooting range, working out, all that jazz. Luckily for you, you’ve known him for a long time, so you know about his past and interests.

And because of those things, he decided to take a couple courses to lead him in that direction. Dermatology, cosmetology, and chemistry, why not? Like Two doesn’t tell many people of the careers he’s considering, but it’s honestly not hard to guess them.

“What would you do if you don’t get the job you want?” You once asked him, both of you sitting on a bench in a local park. You were eating a small snack and looking around the scenery before the inquiry. Beside you, Like Two was absentmindedly scrolling around social media on his phone, a lollipop hanging from between his lips.

Upon hearing the question, he lifted his head and glanced into your eyes for a second before averting his gaze. He shrugged his shoulders and slid down the bench into a more comfortable position. “Probably continue modeling until I can’t. And if that doesn’t work either, I’ll join the military.”

You hummed in response. Crossing a leg over the other, you leaned forward and rested your elbow on your elevated knee. “You got a lot of choices for your future. I’ll even throw in a suggestion of acting or being a popstar,” your lips curled into a smile.

He exhaled a small laugh, shaking his head slightly. “I’ll stick with what I have now, thank you.”

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Like Two Notes (4): Has a soft spot for (Name)

(Name) Notes (1): Considerate of those they cherish deeply

[localmentallyillwriter]

Woaahhh !!! Introoo >.<

(Shhh, if you saw my old last pinned blog you didnt :3)

HIIIIII <3333

(I lob him so much that it hurts 😭😭)

My names M, but I don't mind any name tbh, just give me a name and I'll use it :3

I LOVE using Kamoji's, so there will be a lot throughout this blog (∩^o^)⊃━☆

I don't really know how to introduce myself, do I make dot points about myself, or sentences ?!?! ╯︿╰

Anyway, I use He/they pronouns (and Neo's, but I'm lowkey so scared people will hate me if I share them, even though it's like ONE set but still ><) Please no feminine pronouns, they just make me uncomfortable and upset :(

Which is weird, because I love dressing in skirts and dresses (IF SOMEONE CALLS ME A FEM BOY ONE MORE TIME IM ACTUALLY GONNA COMBUST ＞﹏＜)

My main fandoms at the moment are Bungo Stray Dogs and Sonic, I'm in a lot more (I'll list later on probably) so I'll mainly post about them, as well as my OC's.

My favorites are Oda, Kunikida, Atsushi, Chuuya, Sigma, Ango, Mori and Fukazawa. I guess Dazai as well :3 I don't hate him or anything, I just like the others better lmao.

I don't really hate any BSD characters, I think their all cool in their own way :3

I LOVEEEE Shadow and Cream, istg no one knows Cream because they never watched Sonic X, LIKE I GREW UP ON SONIC X AND SONIC BOOM, PLEASE HMU IF YOU FW CREAM !!!!!!

I also write on this blog, mainly just one shot cause I'm eepy and like to just write quick things. Apart from on my aO3 where I write my longer fics

Did you know I started yapping to my therapist about aO3 and Wattpad (He didn't know what they were so i just HAD to explain. ALSO A BSD FAN GETTING THERAPYY ?!?!?!?!?!)

Lowkey so mentally fuckeeddd, so if there's a weird post, it's probably bc I'm going a bit freaky and I'll most likely delete it in the morning ╯︿╰

I DONT like people reposting my art, ESPECAILLY if it gets more popular or more likes than my original post :( So please don't (I don't mind re-blogging though :3)

As well as not liking people feeding my writing to AI !!!! THAT TAKES AWAY MY TIME AND EFFORT AND MAKES IT SOME EMOTIONLESS SLOP, DO NOT FUCKING DO THAT, OR ISTG YOUR FAMILY IS GOING STRAIGHT TO THE BASEMENT !!!! jokes (maybe) but please, don't be disrespectful to me or really any writer, and use there writing in AI, it's VERY harmful to us, our work and genuinely just creativity :/

ALSO NO ONE UNDER 15 INTERACT WITH MY BLOG PLEASE !!! EVERY ONE ON TUMBLR SHOULD BE 15+ ANYWAY !!!!!!!!!

I dont know if i'll take requests, i think you can always go ahead and request me to draw something, or write something, and hopefully I'll get around to it, but I'm a student who always gets admitted to hospitals, soooo i might take a while. I dont mind drawing OC's or even characters that are from something i dont know. I also wanna job so bad (for money ( •̀ ω •́ )✧), but I'm not stable enough to get hired apparently.

(boundaries for writing and drawing would definatly just be any kink im uncomfortable with, or anything that is romantisisations of serious shit, rape, ped0philia, abuse, suicide, self harm. Ur js gonna have to guess which kinks I'm uncomfortable with 😼 Man js go ahead and request whatever u want tbh, if i don't do it, oh well, at least u tried :3)

I post regularly, and I love to interact with people >.<

Don't be shy, I won't bite (I will definitely bite, it's my favorite thing to do to people)

Oh also if you couldn't tell i struggle with english so much that its actually not funny, grammar is so haarddd, and all the words look so squigglyyyy. I prefer Russian tbh, the letters are squiggly in a good way >.<

Uhhhh, idk, this was more explaining my blog more than me, but i dont know what else to say about me, i liikeee MUSIC !!! ILL DO SOME SONGS THAT I LOVVEEE AND YOU SHOULD ACTUALLY LISTEN TO RNNN !!!!

SLUT4EVER BY BOY FANTASY, Бог by Grad!ent (Just go listen to all of Grad!ent's songs, I love him so much <333), Monitoring by Deco 27, Pretty Visitors By Arctic Monkeys (I LOVE THE WHOLE HUMBUG ALBUM !!!!), Be Nice To Me by The Front Bottoms, Handjob by Ayesha Erotica, Red Room, Cut Me Down and Take a Pic by 6arelyhuman, ANY REBXYYZ SONG, MY FAV IS BLACKROSES !!!, Horny Club Party by Hoshie Star, Rebxyyz and Xaxanity is also rlly pookie :3 Judas by Abuse, ANY LADY GAGA SONG, WE LOVE HER HERE GUYS !!!!!! Idk, as you can see my music taste is just anything, i guess emo and scene is the genre that comes up the most lmao :3

OMGGG ALSO CLASSIC LITURATURE !!! >>>>

I have alot of Dazai books, some Fyodor ones, Dracula, 2 H.P Lovecraft, and Ane of Green Gables by Lucy :D

(I GOT THE MANGA FOR NO LONGER HUMAN YESTERDAY OMGGG ITS SO GOOD AND TRAUMATISING WTFF !! <33)

I also love organs >_< (Hearts, livers, anything, I LOVVEEE, I JUST WANNA SQUISSHH AND PLAAYYY !!!!!! er- thats a bit weird)

Anyway, hope you enjoy my blog, ik i yapped SO MUCH, but im literally a certified yapper ^^ Love you all, have a FANTASTIC day/night, and make sure to have a little snack, and a drink of water.

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Bye bye

(Fandoms I'm in/Interests I have that are shows, books e.c.t

-BSD

-Sonic

-FNAF

-WOF (not too much these days, but I used to love it as a kid)

-ENA

-Life Lessons With Uramichi Onisan

-SpyxFamily

-Everything But Your Life

-Death Note

-I have a HUGE obsession with flowers, sooooo if I see them I might start tweaking and want them in my posession (✿◕‿◕✿)

Alright see ya guys <3)

[milksnake-tea]

hii illu!! haven’t heard from you in a bit, but how have you been? hope your week (or month for this matter) has been going well for you so far <33

posing this question to almost all my moots, but if you were to pick an hsr character (i’m 99% sure you’ll say sunday) list five things you like about them and why?

alsoo, i’m excited for the return of otosom, i haven’t quite finished all of it yet but ik you’re gonna cook so hard w that series as always 🫂 🫂

OMG HI KOU !!! ignore how late this response is uni has been kicking my ass and not in the good way

i am very upset because i am unfortunately predictable and i will pick sunday BUT LIKE......... CAN I DO TWO SO THAT I HAVE A PERSONALITY OUTSIDE OF SUNDAY BYE

also. sweats. looks away from otosom im still malding i have NOT had time to write so uhhhhh its on the backburner rn

OKAY BUT FOR THEM CHARACTERSSS ill pick my top two hoes

Character One: Sunday

HIS KINDNESS !!! One of the main things that made me fall for him was how much he loved and cared for his sister as well as the citizens for Penacony. I love. Kind character so much. I love characters who have so much empathy and love in their hearts for humanity (if I were to ever play hi3 I KNOW I'll end up loving Elysia. But Hi3 scares me. So.). i also have a thing for older brothers so. but it's moreso how he cares for everyone and looks after them that is so UGHHOSGHGSOOHGSHO

The fact that he plays musical instruments!! His trailer was beautiful and as a former musician, instruments are very dear to me. I love that he's a violinist and a pianist (ik he has nice nice fingers), it's both beautiful and very fitting of him, and it adds to his very gothic aesthetic that i just <333

How eerie?? He can be. In the beginnings of Penacony, especailly during the 2.2 quest, Sunday was - to put it frankly, WEIRD. The way he talked was like he's always holding himself back, and like one of my friends Crow has said, you could hear the anxiety and stress in his voice. He sounded like he was constantly on the brink of a mental break down which is fair, considering the situation he was in. But he's also sinister in the way that most manwha priests are, in that he is kind and looks friendly, but there's just something... off about him. His obsession with control contributes greatly to this, and that's why I love love love him.

The way he's a gentleman??? Like. God I wish he'd call me my lady because that's so fine. He's very polite and chilvarous and I love that for him - WHEN HE CALLS US SIR/MA'AM????? god. every time he calls someone miss/mister i just want to squeeze him because oh my god he's so cute.

His androgyny. The way you can draw him as a handsome man in a suit but also as a more feminine princess type character??? The way he could ROCK a corset? ngl both halosiblings are gender envy the way they can be handsome and beautiful depending on how they dress up. Whenever I see Sunday in a more feminine suit (like do ygs know what i mean. like the ruffles. and the corset. but not a dress) of some sorts I want to eat him.

this is cheating but i just want to say his entire angelic aesthetic makes me want him so bad

Character Two: Yaoshi

The tragedy of their existence. I'm sure that Yaoshi ascended out of a want to end suffering and to prevent death, however, they cause so much pain in the process. Mercy doesn't come without a price, and neither does endless life. And what's worse, they either are unaware of the consequences of their blessings, or they are aware, but they can't understand the gravity of it all because they're so consumed by their path. So in the end, they end up hurting and/or being hated by the ones they love.

Their moral ambiguity. The way that Yaoshi, a deity of paradise and life, is seen as an ENEMY is so good to me??? Like said above, Yaoshi likely does NOT give a shit what happens to you as long as your heart is beating and your brain is working. If you descend into mara, they wouldn't consider that suffering because you are still alive - to Yaoshi, to die is to suffer, and there is nothing worse than dying, so aren't they doing you a favor? Yes, it hurts. Yes, you're losing your mind. Yes, you're no longer you. But you are alive, and isn't that enough?

Like Sunday, I love how much they love life itself. They CARE. They care so much and they love so much to the point that they bleed. Herta also mentions that she sees them as a lonely and romantic existence, because they're so loving and smothering that they end up hurting the things they love. Lan was once a child of Yaoshi, being of the Xianzhou, and now they are forever hunted by that same child. Do you think that Yaoshi runs because they cannot bring themselves to kill or to end Lan, because they wouldn't want to make even their greatest enemy suffer? Do you think that maybe, just maybe, Yaoshi still sees Lan as their child, and therefore cannot bear to harm them, even as their other children are killed by them? Who knows, they're still an Aeon so their mind is kinda weird to us mortals.

THEIR HAIR. sorry their hair is so pretty but this can go for their whole design honestly. Like they're GORGEOUS. The multiple arms? The long hair? The eyes everywhere? The antlers???? The color scheme??? IMMACULATE. they look like a tree and i think that's beautiful because on god i need to gnaw on them like a beaver

Their potential. Again, they're a very tragic existence, but I want to see how they'd interact with other Aeons because I think it'd be so interesting. Funnily enough, I think they'd absolutely hate Nanook because Nanook represents everything that is wrong in the universe to them - Nanook is death, so Nanook is suffering. But they'd love the Preservation (except maybe not when qilpoth was tearing tazzy apart like a shredder), and also Tazzyronth. I really want to see how they'd see Sunday or Xipe, as a fellow god of paradise <333 IT'S JUST SO INTERESTING HEHEHE

sorry i yapped but TY AGAIN FOR THE ASK KOU!!! BITES YOUR CHEEK

[cobra-creampuff]

First time Jamie realizes he’s a girl soemtimes, go

Oh, I be cycling through ideas on this constantly, most of them almost entirely incoherent lmao. I'll slap together a Top Current 3 for ya right quick.

1. As A Child

I mean like a wee bairn. Like Phoebe's age. This is also pre- James "coming around" so it fully starts out as one of those feel good fluff pieces of yeah I always knew my parents did everything right I transitioned in kindergarten and all the neighbors applauded. You know. In this version, Jamie/Georgie picked the gender neutral nickname on purpose.

This one continues to not be an angst fest even when James does start coming around. Homophobia and transphobia go hand in hand with misogyny, so I'm certain James is those too. However he's also arrogant and careless, and if you add on substance abuse probably not very present.

So, for this one I'm saying James just... never knows lmfao. Jamie just fully consciously is like That's None of His Business and it's almost laughably easy to keep it from him, with very little distress on Jamie's part. Did you ever see ND Stevenson describe that being closeted was (for a while) like having a fun secret and every time someone used his assigned pronouns he felt like he was getting away with something? Like that.

Later, it doesn't so much feel like that for Jamie anymore just because as an adult and then especially as a famous adult he has to keep it on the down low much more extensively, somewhat in order to continue keeping it from James and somewhat to avoid the whole Circus due to the fame part (and also probably he has some vague worries about if he'd still be allowed to play in a men's sports league). It starts to feel a lot more like a closet that way.

But! That doesn't last very long either because James gets seen off after Wembley because fuck him and a yearlong streak of no contact is something to celebrate 🩷 + things went pretty great for Colin + fuck the haters + his environment is truly so full of love and support now it's back to the same level it was in the Before James times so it's easy all over again. He always knew and he transitioned in kindergarten and then he transitioned again at 25 and the football club applauded, etc.

2. Dating Keeley (the First Time)

The way Jamie in canon describes his relationship with Keeley, she was the first domino for him and Ted came second. She saw an even greater Jamie inside an already great Jamie, she made him cultured, she took him to plays and shit, and she taught him to stop getting in his own way as much.

And as per my interpretation, she also taught him at statistically significant amount about intimacy and sex. So... why not also gender?

His egg cracks in a totally mundane moment of non-sexual intimacy with Keeley at Keeley's house, maybe snuggled up on her couch with her furry pillows, maybe watching TV or maybe painting each other's nails or maybe she's reading to him or he's trying to make her laugh.

I think in this version he doesn't really officially Come Out to anybody. He just... starts being a girl sometimes. He's comfortable with his name and he's as comfortable with 'he' as he is with 'she' and that doesn't really change circumstantially. So he just sort of starts gradually incorporating whatever gender affirming stuff he likes into his daily life (both as a man and as a woman and as someone who has no strong feelings on the gender aspect but loves the performance, as relevant). It's literally just. A complete non-issue, once Jamie himself decides he's chill about it, which again happens pretty quickly after James shuffles off this narrative coil because Jamie is resilient and brave and proud and sucks up supportiveness like a sponge.

Roy, Keeley, and Georgie (and by extension Phoebe, Rebecca, and Simon) eventually kind of pick up on it just from being around Jamie so much and seeing him interact with femininity enough that they can't help but notice that it Fits him. Maybe one of them calls him a girl or uses 'she' for him as a joke (i.e. like "girls, you're both pretty" from Roy when Jamie and Keeley are bickering or something like that) and see the way it makes him glow. But he hasn't asked for anything in particular, and he doesn't seem like he's hiding anything, you know he doesn't seem to have that ache like Colin talked about, so... unless he tells them otherwise they just mix in the new pronouns and carry on.

3. When Everyone Points Their Gaydars at Him (LMAO)

This is literally just. alsfjkasfkks. "Someone else in this room is probably gay," and they all look at him, and just instantly POP oh shit there's a reason for that huh? Damn. Anyway, we don't have time for that halftime's almost over. Also that's one of those things where if you realize it that suddenly, either you blurt it out without ever thinking the words you say or else you don't and still don't think any words. His whole entire self is like okay. More on that later.

In this version, he does Come Out. He's not really nervous about it because, again, This Kind Of Thing already went great for Colin + support sponge. And also because it's funny, innit. I love in-jokes, I'm about to make one.

No one is surprised, in this version. They all have basically the same experience as Jamie had when his egg cracked. Oh yeah, that's what that was. Oh, also! The team together like mad-libs together a Frankensteinish approximation of Ted's "we don't not care" speech that no one who wasn't there would be able to comprehend a lick of (RIP Isaac and Roy).

Once again I do not know how to end the post. Thank you for the ask.

[thepenguinweeb]

[ ♡ F. F. x reader : dating headcanons ]

[ ♡ A/N: Ahhh okay I know I'm supposed to be working on request but the feminine urge to write for my fav they/them was too STRONG. Just finished rewatching Stone Ocean soo yk. Enjoy some silly headcanons about dating F. F. ]

Dividers by @/rookthorneartistry <3

- SO to start off, F. F. still hasn't really gotten used to human culture

- They say and do things that a normal person wouldn't say, which can be a bitttt of an issue

- You love your girlfriend, you really do, but man do you wish they didn't start a fight every time someone got too close to their drink

- You taught them how to dance. Now it's a habit that whenever it rains, F. F. gleefully drags you out into the courtyard to dance with you

- F. F. loooves gossiping and shit-talking, especially if it concerns Anasui. Even better if you join in

─ "I can't believe him.. like, who does he think he is?! The bastard thinks Jolyne will marry him just.. because? And he's soo bossy.. treats me like I work for him, or something! I'm so over it!"

- Yapper girlfriend for sure. They absolutely love talking to you about anything and everything that crosses their mind and go on unneccesarily long rambles about the most random topics

- In addition though, they also love to hear you talk and ramble. They will sit and listen with the brightest look on their face as you tell them about your interests or favorite things. Definitely asks a lot of questions about them, too. They just genuinely want to learn about the things that make you happy!

- You had to be the one to teach them how to kiss.. that went about as well as you'd imagine

- I feel like they'd be a very jealous type - not because they don't trust you, but because they genuinely can't tell the difference between someone flirting with you or just asking for directions

─ "Ugh, that girl really had the audacity to flirt with my partner? I'll go on and have a little chat--"

─ "Foo, honey, she was just asking where her friend was."

- They like to play games with you and Jolyne a lot. Not catch though, never again

- Ermes tricks them into saying the cheesiest and cringiest pick-up lines ever to 'try it out' on you, then proceeds to die of laughter as you look on in confusion

─ "Hey- Hey Y/N! Are you trash? Because I'd love to take you out!"

─ "...F. F., what the hell."

- You promised them that when the two of you get out of Green Dolphin, you'll take them to an aquarium. They were overjoyed at having an opportunity to learn more about aquatic creatures like themselves.

[frzngrapes]

29/07

Dear Keycie,

I feel way better than last time I wrote to you, though not much has changed. I found the energy necessary to get out of my house, and I see my friends often which keeps my mood lifted!

I don't remember who it was, but someone suggested that maybe I can't handle loneliness well, and that must be the case. I guess the more I stay alone the less energy I have, the less I go out the more it makes me feel depressed. Being forced out of my room to go to a festival my friends class participated in pushed me outside this spiral, and now I'm better.

The last three weeks were really good, going back and forth between seeing M A and P (and their friends, boyfriends and acquaintances) (BTW p's boyfriend became a friend of mine I'm pretty sure? we get along very well), and going to Hendaye to see L and the people who go to the south during the vacation only and meet up at the bar she works at. They're very fun and kind people, I still introduce myself with a feminine name instead of the more masculine one I chose for myself when I'm with them. Also going there so often is very convenient, since it's near Spain and cigarettes are cheaper there. I also just love spending time with L. I know she has some red flags and most of my friends cut ties with her, but I feel loved and respected in our friendship. Also made a friend there, hilarious adorable guy, and we kissed. I really don't see myself being in a romantic relationship with him, but we get along so so well as friends I'm very glad I met him and I hope we get to see each other again a lot (he lives pretty far away </3). With them I went to a nightclub for the first time, in Spain, and it was very cool ! I also go out a lot during the day with my mom and sister, and visiting family. Our relationship really healed, I'll tell you more about it another time. And yeah this is all very fun. I'm having a great summer.

When I last wrote to you my screen time was between 10 and 15 hours a day which is... insane. It's a common experience for people to try escaping the crushing emptiness they feel, or their worries or the fact they hate themselves, by wasting their days away, I know I'm not the only one that used to do that. When I don't feel right, I like to sleep as much as possible. This way I also eat as little as possible and my brain is too weak to make me feel pain. Then when I'm awake, I spend every second possible online, that way time flies extremely fast and I don't have to actually fully experience the day. I don't actually have to be alive. This is obviously bullshit and does no good, doesn't bring me any sense of relief whatsoever, idk why I keep having this behaviour.

More than being lonely, I think restricting my food intake started my last "bad phase" (idk how to word it). I mean it's biological, brain can't produce happy hormones without proper eating. I don't remember what triggered me so bad for me to seriously try to restrict again, all I know is I didn't lose a significant amount of weight so once again I harm myself for nothing.

Speaking of harm, the scars on my arms are starting to bother me... Or more like they've been bothering me since the beginning of summer. Idk I wish they weren't there or weren't as visible. I used to be secretly proud I cut deep enough for it to scar badly, but now I'm just uncomfortable when wearing a t-shirt. I guess I assume people are judging me, and I don't want to wear the history of my struggles on my body anymore. I know people that matter, people I actually want to interact with don't give a shit. Actually people almost never mention it and I rarely get weird looks, but like I know they saw it and it makes me uncomfortable.

I drink way more than usual but it's okay, I'm in control. I guess I have so many friends that have or had a problem with their alcohol consumption that now I'm very weary of mine. Maybe having had to deal with people I love having blackouts, telling me about wanting to end it, not being able to walk on their own very regularly when I was 15/16 made me very aware of my habits and keeping them healthy now.

That was my little life update !! I don't do them as often as I used to, and I think it's too bad because I love going back to them. Actually, I don't like big chunks of my life not being documented here, I don't like realising I haven't written a letter in three months. I missed chatting with you a lot!

PS: I haven't seen E in so long, she's been away ever since the end of June, and I miss her so so much

XOXO (kisses hugs, picture frame designer drugs) (it's a song... anyways), Cherry

[the-slasher-madame]

So I’m sneaking my phone out rn because dear lord my dysphoria is so bad. I was wonder if you could do the Sinclair brother, Thomas and RZ Michael helping a ftm s/o dealing with dysphoria? Thank you so much

I am so so sorry :(

I'm genderfluid, but I don't feel a whole lot of dysphoria, but what I have felt was horrible. And most of my friends experience it and it hurts watching them hurt. I'm sorry dear heart, I'll do my best to have a present for you <33333

TW/Notes: gender dysphoria, trans masc/trans man reader, mentions of violence (it's slashers, what do y'all expect?), cursing (but I think y'all are used to that by now lol), probably OOC but again, that's just how I roll here, let me know if I missed anything!!

Bo Sinclair:

Poor thing will take a while to understand

While I am 10000% in the camp that headcannon him as bi or pan, and I think Vinny is some shade of not-cis, Bo is still new here. And a little outdated

HOWEVER, he will defend your honor like a rabid dog. He'll hear someone misgender you and will kill them, brutally, slowly, and will not allow them to be waxified. He gets so pissed at himself when he messes up on your pronouns

Along with all that, I think he would be a little confused and not understand dysphoria. He's like "you said yer a boy, whyoncha feel like it?"

If that's the final straw and you start crying, his entire thought process is 'shit shit shit shitshitshIT'

He hates when you cry and he wants to put himself in the Wax Chair when he makes you cry

I love the idea of this man comforting me while I cry and shushing me

ANYWAYS

Once you explain that your brain is a little bitch as well as the fact that your body just feels wrong sometimes, he understands a bit better; he understands very well what it's like to feel that your body is wrong

He tries so hard to help you on days that it gets unbearable. He makes sure that if you bind, it's safely and whatever you bind with is clean. He steals every piece of masc clothing from the victims (even if it's definitely not the right size). He helps you keep your hair styled how you want (bringing in Vincent to help).

Bo would also help with when you needed to shower but didn't want to look at yourself. A couple of candles and himself, of course, to try to solve the issues

He's also there for all the hardest times, when you just wanted to cry. He always had reassurances ready for you, and never failed to remind you that you were his man

Vincent Sinclair:

I think he understands the most

I am firmly of the belief he goes by he/they, and I won't take criticism

Or is a gender non-conforming man, or non-binary, or demiboy

I think y’all get what I’m saying, he’s a masculine entity but they aren’t a man

He’s the best for helping you feel comfortable

He is the King of soft, god I fucking love them

anyways

He might mess up once or twice, but he’s like really good at getting your pronouns right. Sometimes it feels like they’re more accurate than you

If you don’t want to see feminine clothing? He will actually burn any feminine clothing in the house

While I absolutely agree that they’re co-dependent on Bo, Vincent will not hesitate to lose they’re shit on either brother for misgendering you or being rude. This man would eat straight wax for you ngl

ALWAYS READY TO LISTEN!! If he smells the most tiny bit of sadness or bad feelings, he has a cup of tea (or your favorite drink) prepped and a spot in his lap that hey, wouldn’t ya know, is you sized

They will do anything in his power to learn to make you binders. And he will not let you wear it for too long. Like exactly 8 hours later they materialize at your shoulder and politely ask you to take it off

They could and will spend days showering you in affirmations and validations. You are his man, their handsome boyfriend, and he loves telling you as much

His art of you is always perfect, always shows how you feel, and he tries so hard to show you how he feels and how he sees you in his art. However, they’re also understanding if it’s not helpful when you feel super dysphoric

Another one that’s more than happy to shut off the lights and shower you. They won’t let you lift a finger, pampering your body with all possible bath products in the house

I think they’d both sew you clothing and let you pick out anything you want from the victims. Would also threaten his brothers to buy you things in town

Did I mention they get exceptionally brutal with people who misgender you?? Like I love the idea he get’s very brutal and cruel in his art, but dear sweet jesus on a breadstick anyone who hurts you, physically or emotionally, will be kept alive for weeks and will die horrifically

Loves styling your hair <3, cause he definitely has to cut and shape the hair of finished tourists

Lester Sinclair:

I love this himbo, like I don’t care what anyone says he’s sweeter than sugar

Also like the idea of him having a dark side

Ok moving on to the, you know, request

Y’all remember how in Steven Universe, Blue said “she prefers to be called Steven”? That’s the vibe I get from him. He’s confused, but he’s got the spirit

ofc he makes mistakes, but he tries so so hard and feels so so bad when he messes up

It hurts him seeing you have to feel this way, definitely the boyfriend who cries when you cry

Firmly believes in the healing power of cuddles. Somehow cuddles you extra hard when you feel really dysphoric

I think I might’ve seen this somewhere else, but he when you’re with him and he’s picking up tourists, he will stop the car if someone misgenders you. Full stop, brake petal to the floor, full body turn towards whoever just spoke, and pulls out the Southern Politeness. The politeness that us southerners use when we want to kill someone

“Well, ma’am, if you’d like to keep ridin in my truck you best apologize to the young man who accompanies me.” He’s used to people being bitchy to him, but will not tolerate it directed towards you. I fully believe he has put people out of the truck, driven to Bo, and told him there were some target practice out about a mile or two away. Will refuse to let the twins waxify the rude tourists

Listens to you and tries his best to validate you, even if he doesn’t completely understand. Will do anything to make you feel better

Always always always buys you masculine clothing, even splurging on you (even if you insist he needs some clothes, he’ll just say, “naw, darlin’, I’m jus fine.”

NO HE’D LOVE TO SHARE CLOTHES WITH YOU IF HE COULD!!!!

I’m a slut for close intimacy that isn’t necessarily sexual, so he’d be more than happy to shower with you in the dark or make you the BIGGEST bubble bath possible

NOOO HE’D SIT JONESY DOWN AND EXPLAIN THAT “Y/N’s a boy, alright Jonesy? He’s one of the boys and we gotta treat him as such”

Does worry about when you bind, he’s read up on it and he worries about you getting hurt, but either way he will send you friendly reminders when it’s been 8 hours and very carefully washes what you bind with

Thomas Hewitt:

The Hewitt family is one of the few Christian families that live in Texas I would love to be around (I’m sorry, I have a thing against Texas and I’m suspicious of most Christians concerning my status as a queer person with a uterus in America)

Ok yea, it takes the whole family a little while to get used to everything, but Thomas and Luda are accepting and try to understand. They will also criminally assault Hoyt if he is dick

If Hoyt misgenders you, and if he does it on purpose, he better pray. Thomas will turn on his Extra Scary Mode and Luda will pull out a cast iron skillet she has set aside specifically for dealing with Hoyt

Thomas might make mistakes, but at the same time he doesn’t talk so I think that would affect how often he accidentally uses the wrong pronouns

Also, how much interaction does he have with gender and social norms?? I could see him not understanding why people think it’s a bad thing

Someone is a transphobic wad of dick cheese? Won’t eat that person, straight up won’t. Hell, he might not leave enough to eat

He keeps an eye on you and your binding, but I don’t think he’d be like Vincent and come forth from the shadows to remind you it’s been eight hours (at first at least). But he would try to find patterns to make you binders and makes sure they’re washed properly

He is a master seamster. Sews you clothes that are masculine and that fit and flatter you perfectly. You swear he uses magic when sewing you clothes because how can they possibly be this fitting and help you look so much more masculine??

Will do anything you need to feel better, from cuddles to clothes to tea. Would try to find advice from Luda on how to help you, and she’d tell him what kind of stuff usually helps people feel better, but she doesn’t know exactly what to do either

Would treat you in baths and showers, doing his best to distract you from how you feel with your body

He may not understand completely, but whew boy does he know what it’s like to have body issues. He understands that much, at least, and he aches that you feel similarly to the way he has his whole life

He doesn’t speak often, or like at all, but he’d give you a few words of validation and reassurance that he knows you’re a man, and that he sees you as a masculine individual, and that he loves you no matter what

Feels comfortable enough now to explore his gender

RZ! Michael Myers:

While this man is by no means a child, I don’t think he has a full grasp of gender (at least the way other people think he should)

Like come on y’all, he was locked up as a six year old child and didn’t get the whole experience of ya know,,, being raised (I will forever quote the person who said that Loomis’ degree was written in crayon, cause they were right)

So anyways I don’t think he really understands gender as like the rigid structure so many people think of it as. Like I know for me gender is just kinda weird. Like some sea animal with no shape, or mystery meat that shivers when you poke it

And thus he doesn’t understand transphobia at all. Like bro how does a person telling you their gender affect your life that much??

And along those lines, he may not fully understand dysphoria. His thinking is “you know you are boy, you have told me (the most important person in your life) that you are boy, so therefore you are boy”

THAT BEING SAID MY RZ MIKEY IS SOMFT AND TRYING HIS GODDAMNED BEST ALRIGHT?!!!?!??! He uses his lil 6th sense for gauging emotions to keep an eye on you and is by your side the second he detects a change

Bless his heart he’s a cat. Stares at you, will try bringing you things, and just shows up when you cry. He could be on the other side of the city, but he knows when you cry and will hightail it home

You have to warm him up to cuddles, but once you do his is always always ready

He kind of assumes you know how best to handle binding, but he will still keep an eye out and start to nudge you if you’ve had it on too long

This man doesn’t clean, he’s no help cleaning your binder, BUT he will bring you masculine clothing from a victims house...you just may need to use some lemon juice or hydrogen peroxide on it because I don’t think it was originally that shade of red

I think he’s more a bath person, and would love to try and return the kindness you show him by giving you a bath when you feel dysphoric. Might add too many bubbles, but he figures the more bubbles = the easier to hide under

Back to transphobia: he either kills them especially brutally, or really quickly because they don’t deserve the time of day. It depends on how badly they pissed him off. If someone misgenders you on purpose, you will see their face on the news the same day Mikey comes back with his coveralls soaked and pieces of flesh spattered onto his figure

He’s the kind of guy that you have to show him what to do at first to be helpful and validating, but after that he’s good to go. Give him a break he was never properly socialized as a child :(

Also understands the body issues (very few slashers don’t if I’m being honest) and will try to show you what helps him: making masks. He can be persuaded to extend that to making art

Another one that’s a masculine entity but not entirely a man in the traditional sense. He too thinks gender is a shivering mystery meat ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Alright that’s what I’ve got!!! Again I’m so sorry Ziggy :((( I hope you feel better, and if it helps any you’re definitely one of my slasher tumblr crushes <333333

I will also brutally murder anyone who misgenders you, just hit me up and I’ll grab my bat

[hanjifuck]

.˚｡⋆ ༊ .˚｡⋆ stray kids ideal types - series .˚｡⋆ ༊ .˚｡⋆

bang chan version ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ

based on their birth charts! s2

✧*:.｡. t/n: i'll be using SIDEREAL astrology on this one. it's also important to say that when we talk about romance in astrology we have to fully analyse the couple's birth charts individualy at first and only then apply compatibility analysis so we're able to check out the synastry overlays.

✧*:.｡. t/n: kinda proofread. <3

the basics:

someone who has sun in virgo or in the 5th house;

aquarius and gemini moons are the ideal but aries moon is also great, libra is good, leo and sagittarius moons are a maybe. capricorn and cancer moons are absolutely a no;

venus in virgo, scorpio, cancer or capricorn;

mercury in virgo (or capricorn/taurus).

obviously there's way more aspects to look into to see if a relationship would work but i'd rather not go too deep into it right now.

a person who's patient and honest. he takes his time into getting to know you before he commits. so, when he does commit, there’s no room for him to change his mind. he's worthy of a romance novel. he will make sure that the bond is strong and stable for both.

someone who's good at communicating, reading people's intentions and has a good sense of humour. he tends to use his voice to express himself and he's such a sweet talker when it comes to romance. communication and intellectual rapport are his thing, so it's important for him to have someone who he can talk to. so good at covering it up his intentions or even lying (but you guys didn't hear this from me), except that he tends to tell the truth in almost any and every situation. he loves to tell stories and to see the smile and hear the laugh of the loved one.

a partner who's not afraid of commitment and long term relationships. listen to me, this man is looking for a soulmate connection, someone to pay him due attention. he's a romantic at heart and has a strong need for love in his life, it being his ultimate driving force, a passionate lover and he knows how to maintain the flame of true love. without love he would be nothing.

someone who knows how to talk to people and be pleasant during social situations.

someone who's highly vulnerable and revealing with him, ONLY.

a person who's adventurous. he does not know how to stay still, he wants to expand and has a hedonistic type of approach to how fun should work in a relationship. he can't be more happy then when his able to impress you with his creative side. if you like an intellectual approach to life you will love it as well.

a positive person, someone who's optimistic and make things seem easy.

an intense, bold, strong-willed and powerful person. would love a partner who knows how to stand up for themselves. he wants besides him a person who can make the world kneel in front of them.

someone who will do anything to seduce him.

someone who challenges him (in a good way, ofc). he loves to be dared as he sees it as stimulating, a reason to try even harder, to put even more effort in. he's prop to play mind games (maybe manipulating, even if it's not his intention, since he makes everything sound so wonderful). often fueled by curiosity and a desire to control/possess others for himself *only with those who he actually loves since he sees romance/sex as super meaningful, on a soul level thing, and focus 100% on the person he loves.

emancipated, educated and high intelligent individuals. a pretty face will never be enough, sorry. virgo sun in the 5th house? pfffff this man is a genius.

someone who's younger or appear youthfu/has a youthful personality. he needs a eager-to-learn-and-to-enjoy-life-with-him person. channie's prone to take up the dominant/leading role in a relationship as well. it's like he has this strong pedagogical (?) side to him (and once again my theory that he would be a teacher if he wans't in the entertainment business is proven right ¯\_(ツ)_/¯)

a person who's not avoidant or keeps to many secrets. if you keep stuff away from him he may misinterpret things quite easily.

a partner who's as clingy as he is. channie does not stand being alone for too long. he needs your warm touch and gentleness.

a freedom-lover type of person, someone who seeks inspiration and fun. he's extremely motivated and light-hearted, very flexible and adaptative.

a person who knows how to encourage him. basically someone who knows his intentions almost better than he does. he has a need for validation and appreciation cus sometimes he fixates on certain ideias but doesn't have what it takes to go further with it.

someone who would enjoy having kids, taking care of them, educating them together, and is family-oriented. he would love to have a partner who's as excited as he is to mentally stimulate his kids. very inclined to having lots of children. he wants someone who has the potential to go all the way to the finish line. man's want commitment.

a person who's charming, "feminine", sensuous and romantic. he's not interested in a person who is crude. he has strong yang energy on his birth chart so it's a good thing if your chart is yin energized. the whole thing about lighting up candles, putting on some romantic music is important to him. may be enticed by a person who has an overly sexual appearance (SPECIALLY if you have scorpio sun or rising), femme fatales (the energy, not necessarily a woman) are just right for him. maybe someone quite mysterious as well.

someone who's painfully monogamy. you can trust him on remaining faithful, as long as his partner do the same. trust is important for him and when it comes to love, it's absolutely essential. if you don't want to lose him forever you shouldn't break his confidence. he rarely has any interest in casual encounters, not being the type to take different people home every night. loyalty is such a turn-on for him, cute. he wants to be only yours, so he expects the same from you, not wanting you to even look at other people. the more committed to him, the deepest his love is.

someone who's not shy. he’s a non-conformist, private person and rather do his own things, away from the public eyes. remember when he said he usually likes "dark things"? man wasn't lying. he knows exactly who he is and what he likes even tho society might shun him for it. however, he does not care. <3

a person who's devoted and dependable, who's also ready to work by his side. someone who knows how to handle his possessiveness and maybe even suspections. just be honest with him and patient enough to put him at ease, assuring him that he's the only one who deserves your attention and love. his jealousy may be really tricky.

okay, this dude has mars and venus conjunct pluto in scorpio. do you guys know what this means? i would DIE to make this man love me!!!!!!!!! help. he will be SOOO OBSESSED WITH THE PERSON HE MARRIES, IT'S INSANE KDISADJADNAUS HELP ME.

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I would love to hear your thoughts on how louis engages with masculinity.

anon 2: Not the same anon, but would you like to talk about how Louis engages with masculinity? I am quite interested to hear your thoughts on it.

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Thanks anons - that's a really interesting question that I've really enjoyed thinking about.

I've been mulling over what a useful framework for understanding msaculinity is - particularly from a point of view of how an individual might engage with it and there are two points that I want to make. The first is that I think masculinity is something more than what would currently be understood as gender presentation - masculinity is also about power. So to understand how someone engages with masculinity also involves looking at how they interact with other people and heterosexuality as an institution. The second, obvious but worth articulating point, is that every part of masculinity is culturally specific - and not in an abstract sense, but about a particular time and place and relating to the wider power relationships of that place.

By starting with how Louis self-presents and interacts with cultural signifiers that are associated with gender - we can see that the starting point is the working-class, northern English culture he grew up with. A lot of fandom discussion don't really seem to understand that relationship - and see everything which is a signifier of not liking posh things as being about gender - as if working class women don't exist. (This is a side note so I won't go fully into it - but one of the things I hate about shallow discussions of masculinity - is that they'll often equate masculinity with being working-class in a way that seems designed to erase the dangers of men with power).

I'm not going to talk specifically about fashion today, because I've talked about it before. But as he largely engages in fashion that is part of working-class culture - there is an interesting ambiguity around gender and fashion. Nobody would ever look at Louis and say 'that's feminine' or 'those are women's clothes. (Even though I think there have been a couple of times when the fashion ID suggested that they were). But if a woman or non-binary person was wearing them, people wouldn't necessarily say 'those are men's clothes'. It all comes back to men and masculinity being treated as normal - but the dynamics of streetwear are quite different from clothes that trace their history to more formal menswear traditions.

It is very obvious that as well as focusing on working-class gender performance - he also largely avoids engaging with cultural signifiers associated with feminity. My assumption here is that Louis almost certainly likes the things he says he likes and dislikes the things he says he dislikes - but he's also not sharing everything. We've no way of knowing what he engages with and doesn't share (and I think it's really important to assume that there's lots he doesn't share with us. I think it's as annoying to assume that what we see is all there is, as it is to assume that what Louis is hiding conforms to a very narrow image a particular fan has of him). But I think it's also reasonable to respond to what he presents - and he presents himself as largely not engaging with cultural signifiers associated with femininity. That's one of the things that fans are responding to. Part of my problem with responding to it is that I've had a lot of terrible takes in my inbox and it's hard not to feel like I'm somewhat responding to them. So I might just leave it there. I'll just say that I think the way to analyse this is focusing the way that seeing an absence of femininity is core to masculinity - and not demanding that an individual performs femininity for your amusement.

There is an interesting exception to this, which is slightly bigger than signifiers - and that's emotions. Louis presents himself as someone who is very in touch with his emotions and willing to be vulnerable (this is where there are some interesting cross-overs into power). I think that's interesting about him as a person, but I also think how he does it is really telling. When he talks about it, he often makes it a characteristic of men like him (saying things like - in Yorkshire we wear our hearts on his sleeve). He's not presenting himself as separate and different from other men, but instead suggesting that being in touch with emotions is fully compatible with his understanding of masculinity (I don't know how widely recognised this would be - I think it's interesting either way).

This provides quite a nice segue into power - one of the things I reacted to most strongly recently (although there's tough competition) as a description of Louis as macho - to me that suggests an aggressive and combative understanding of power and masculinity. That's not what we see Louis do - when we see him interact it isn't with a sense of hierarchy, but much more attempting to build common bonds. So much of the way Louis interacts with people appears to have elements of siblings to it. With fans, or people who he has status around - he's the big brother. But it's not just that - you see a wider attempt to make those sorts of relationships when he interacts with other people. (I'd probably have to rewatch X-factor to comment on how he interacts with people with more power and status). It's worth noting that this is really compatible with working-class northern masculinity. It's not separate from the rest, but part of it.

The relationships we mostly see Louis have are fraternal relationships - he does mostly seem to interact with men. I've talked about this in terms of discrimination and I'll continue to do so. But I think it's also worth understanding as part of his engagement with masculinity. It is part of the wider cultural context - one of the things that I really noticed when I moved to the UK is that socialising was much more gender segregated than I was used to. But mostly interacting with men is a way of engaging with masculinity.

There's an interesting flipside of this, which is that Louis doesn't seem that interested in representing women or femininity in his music (particularly not in his solo career).

That last point is connected with his (lack of) engagement with heterosexuality. I've made it clear that I don't think that Louis is very good at performing heterosexuality. And I do think that feeds into all of this - it's part of why the siblings dynamic is so strong with fans and how these different elements fit together.

I'd be really interested in other people's thoughts about all this - because there is a lot of sort of odd handwringing about Louis and masculinity - and not a lot of discription of what's going on.

[aquarii-writes]

When they think of you(Multiple)

This is kind of a collective for the phrase I think the boys would use for you. As always reader is gender neutral as well no Ranboo cause 1- child and 2- it also makes me uncomfy to see that type of stuff as a minor as well

WC: a lot(1,497 words)

Genre: Fluff maybe angst?

WARNINGS/Notes: General talks of what happened through out the smp(not many specifics cause I'm lazy). As well it's kind of hinted that reader is AFAB but they/them is used; I switch between feminine/masculine pet names and references so deal with that as you wish

DREAM

I think Dream would always kinda hold you in high regard

Like no matter his mental state in the timeline he kinda always holds you on a pedistal of 'they are my safe space. I'm okay with them'

Especially after he looses everyone when he's in Pandora's Vault

So he always equates you to being his everything

"I'm not into the idea of living without you"

"We were under the same sky atleast" for when he's more desperate

GEORGENOTFOUND

George is a sleepy bastard and he dreams about you a lot

Like an unsettling amount

When he isn't awake 9 times out of 10 he's probably dreaming of/about you

They get pretty detailed at times

But he will always say "My love and I could dance in a burning room and I would only see them"

SAPNAP

Wholesome cowboy

Literally like a puppy at your feet. He follows you everywhere when he's not busy

He'll do anything for you because you complete him

He brings out a louder part of your personality while you calm him down. He isn't always rushing around when wrapped in your arms

He always says "For you, I'll risk it all" primarily because he will risk everything to be sure you're okay

He also watched Bbh's relationship flourish on those same words

AWESAMDUDE

Depends on which persona he's looking at you with tbh

As the Warden he always sees you as kinda helpless(no matter how capable you are)

He also kinda sees you as a dream. Like he can't believe that you exists type beat

Not in a bad way just 'omg I love you so much how could someone like this be real?'

So he calls you a fairytale. "My favorite fairytale to never finish."

But as normal Sam he just loves you so much

Constantly telling you that he believes that you're his safe person

"Sometimes I think you're heaven and I just haven't realized"

When he says this you'll probably be sleeping

BBH

His persona also heavily effects how he sees you

Normally Bad is just head over heels for you anyways and unintentionally infantilizes you a lot

Not because he sees you as a helpless baby/child but purely because you're so much smaller than him

He's been alive for a hot minute and even by demon standards he fucking tall

Foolish and Ranboo are the only people he's seen get close to his height/be taller than him

"For you, I'll risk it all" he's always tell you once he knew you were asleep

But when he's infected by the egg he more intentionally treats you like you're stupid

Not child like per say just dumb

But he thinks you're too pretty to try and use threats to make you turn to the egg

Always telling you "I could've easily killed you and made you join the egg, but your pretty eyes stop me every time. You make me feel so dizzy sweetheart"

FUNDY

We love daddy AND mommy issues don't we chat?

But lowkey me too

I can see Fundy simultaneously being very clingy but very distant. Like physically the man will never let you go unless he has to but he refuses to admit his feelings exist.

So he loves you with everything he has but plays it off as jokes and pranks

So he likes to think to himself "I am comforted by thinking that maybe one day we'll look back and realize we have the most amazing love story" despite the fact he refuses to talk about his feelings

I can see this man being a helpless romantic not just me projecting

PUNZ

You're his support

Emotionally anyways

And since he's an assassin he knows that someone could kill him or you at anytime so he'll say "Our lives will end someday so kiss me anytime now"

Tbh in the right moments it can be very romantic

As well he loves to just keep you around so he can touch you. If he wasn't always alert he'd probably trip on you

"Let's keep the night alive pretty doll" he'd tell you if the two of you are running around on a date

Tbh he'd probably kiss you after either of these

WILBUR SOOT

Hahaha multiple quotess

But he rarely says them to you directly

Normal Wilbur pre/during L'Manburg

Mans is high on life and very proud of himself and so very very in love with you

Like I can't describe how stupidly in love with you this lanky stick is

Always describes you as other worldly and vaguely threatening

"They're a mess of other worldly chaos, can't you see it in their eyes?"

He can always see you as something beautiful and chaotic; you kinda have to be a little chaotic to love this man

During Pogtopia he becomes more reclusive and obsessive with getting L'manburg back and in turn he closes himself off to you

Slowly but surely you two lose connection and well he just doesn't see how hurt you are by it

He never talks to you anymore but you're still his primary support system.

Telling himself that you'll come back one day when in reality you've left Pogtopia to save yourself. He was too far gone to save now

"Loving them is the most beautifully self destructive thing I've ever done" he would say to himself as he blew up L'Manburg

As Ghostbur he only remembers the good times though he vaguely remembers you leaving him for some reason

He goes back to calling you other worldly and chaotic

Even though he's together with Friend the idea of you plagues his every thought

Once he's revived Wilbur tells you "We're not corpses yet love, why not spend this last time together again?"

You'll have to see just how promising the 3rd time is

JSCHLATT

Bastard man

But seriously while President so much shit happens it's surprising to me that he could possibly be a good lover

Doesn't matter how long the two of you were together before hand Schlatt progressively becomes more distant and rude to you through his presidency

You long to hear the complements from him again. Slightly mean but you knew that he meant it in a teasing way

Now they were just abusive

"Pretty (e/c) eyes so full of thought. Whatcha thinkin bout doll?" is what he'd say before delving into your head before

Now he's just a dick

As Glatt he's kinder but not by much

He always calls your eyes pretty and it's the first thing he thinks of when you come to mind

ERET

You can throw me good sir

They love you so much

He would give you the world and then some

She's so elegant too

Intimidatingly so and thus you don't talk to her much

He'd always write "Their heart is so afraid to pursue love but stays hidden in the moonless night. Always to be searching for eternity"

She writes poems to you before the two of you get together

QUACKITY

So lets begin you start out as this mans best friend and he tells you everything

From the hurt of his past relationships to the stupid ideas he has to further his jokes

But once Las Nevadas is around he's closed himself off to everyone but you

To himself he'll say that you will always be enough for him "(y/n) you are enough, a thousand times you are enough for me"

He's a sweetheart, but it's hard to get to with all the trauma and hurt he holds

KARL JACOBS

Darling sweet boy <3

Celestial bodies are the only consistent things in time

So to him you are his moon

"My moon and stars they are always with me. With out them I am nothing" is what he will write in his books

As his memory degrades and fades he will always call you his moon

Gentle pulling of the tides you pull him in

Karl may not always remember your name but he does remember why you're so interesting to him as well as why you're his moon

TECHNOBLADE

To him you're a god

Any god you choose he will find one you remind him off

"My worship of the gods extends to you darling"

For as closed off as Techno is he sees you as a comfort

You're there when he comes home at night and in his bed in the morning

You're his deity and he worships you like one

FOOLISH GAMERS

Himbo

Powerful but I find it funny how a lot of people characterize Foolish as a himbo

As someone so grand why waste words? Everything has been used to describe him and in turn yourself

If you're in a relationship with Foolish you're probably also a god/demi-god. If not that you're something similar to Philza

So Foolish always calls you beautiful. No matter how you present yourself you are always called beautiful

"My beautiful, beautiful partner"

[the-broken-truth]

Broken-Style Remix: Yandere Mother Talia Al Ghul

Broken: When it comes to Yandere Mothers, Talia Al Ghul is one of my favorites; considering how obsessed she is with her baby daddy. Recently, I came into a Yandere Talia Al Ghul Image made by @anxiousnerdwritings & with their permission, I have been allowed to make this Broken-Style Remix! Now, let the words weave together!!!

@anxiousnerdwritings's version: LINK

SUBTITLE: THE ONE YOU THREW AWAY

Talia Al Ghul wanted things thing and would do anything to obtain those things - Complete Control & Undeniable Power. She was the daughter of Ra's Al Ghul - The Head Demon of the League of Assassin & Immortal Mad-Man, well...not anymore; now Talia was on the Throne as Head of the League of Assassins, but there was a time before everything went to hell. Talia always wanted to have power but she also wanted someone to share it with - that came in the form of the Protector of Gotham - The Masked Savior, Batman. Talia was entranced by his power and skill, he would have been a perfect partner to rule with if he wasn't so hesitant to kill but she could sculpt him to fit her mold one way or another but first she needed to get him on her side. Her father thought of him as the perfect heir but there was no way the protector would join him, so Talia planned and that plan was to give herself and Bruce an heir - the perfect combination of the two of them. However, a wrench was thrown into that plan when inside of one - there were two.

A Son & A Daughter.

A Son that mirrored his father in young as he would in adulthood, with the exception of the emerald eyes that Talia possessed - the eyes of an Al Ghul. He was given the name Damian.

Her daughter was another story: she grew to look just as Talia did in her youth but she had her father's calm blue eyes - the eyes of a protector. The eyes of a Wayne. The eyes of a savior, not a killer - she was flawed with those eyes. She was named Bellatrix - just as her father, she would be expected to be a great warrior.

When it was time to hone their skills, it was clear that they were the perfect combination of the Al Ghul and Wayne Genes - Damian more. He was the perfect killer, merciless and quick; he wouldn't give his enemies time to speak. No, enemies were too kind of a word to describe them - they were his prey while he was the hunter. He didn't care how many he had to cut down; he would never tire until all of them were dead at his feet.

Bellatrix - on the other hand - was a different story. It was clear she had the skills, it was obvious that she had the power, but the main issue was that she wouldn't finish the job; she lacked the most important trait of the Al Ghul Bloodline - she refused to kill. Talia feared this - she was just like her father and she didn't want weakness into the pain; especially since she was the eldest of the two. She either had to fix the problem or completely remove it.

And she would much prefer the latter.

Ra's loved his grandchildren all the same - he didn't care of Bellatrix didn't kill, he was pleased enough that she was able to complete impossible tasks alone and come back unscabbed. He would praise her and he would train with her in his free time - the two of them were fond of meditation to keep themselves centered.

"Remember Granddaughter: If you are completely centered then there is nothing you can't overcome. Knowing your center is knowing your true power." - That is what Ra's would tell her during those times.

As time passed on, Talia noticed that Bellatrix gained in power and knowledge every day while her son showed just how much of an Al Ghul he was every time he went on a mission, but that didn't matter to Talia - that girl...that mistake...was a single dot in the way of her son's rightful place as Head of The League & she had to something about it.

And she did.

One night - Talia told Bellatrix to accompany her to the desert for recon and the girl agreed, thinking it was going to be a mother-daughter experience. The two of them sourced their bounds but found nothing, Bellatrix looked around the dunes to see if there was something hiding in the desert's darkness until her body made her move and she dodged just in the next of time as a blade came in close contact with her throat. She reached for her sword, only for her hand to be grabbed, and turned it to her back. She was then grabbed from other directions before being kicked in the back of her knees and came to her knees in the sand. She struggled and looked at the cloaked figures that held her until she looked at her mother.

"Mother! Help!" She begged for her mother.

"Why would I do that," Talia walked over to her bound daughter as one of the assassins handed her a sword, "When it took me so long to get you here?" Talia looked into her daughter's eyes with emptiness.

"You...You planned this? Mother, why would you do this?" Bellatrix asked.

"This is something I should have done from the start, after all - My Beloved needs an heir, not a burden. You are a stain on the Al Ghul Name, an Al Ghul that refuses to kill is not an Al Ghul; hell, you aren't even an assassin. You're a defect, a flaw, a wrench in my plan to have my beloved rule behind me as King and Queen of the League of Assassins."

Bellatrix's eyes widened at the sight of her mother raising her sword.

"And all defects must be eliminated." Talia growled as her arm thrust forward - Bellatrix's eyes widened and her jaw locked to keep herself from screaming as the blade ripped through her chest and came out on the other side.

Talia lifted her foot - the other assassins released the girl - and kicked her to the dirt and watched her groan in pain before going limp in the cold desert night.

"Dispose of the body. I have to deliver the news that the heir has been killed and watch my one true child take his rightful place." Talia didn't give her daughter's body a second glance as she turned and walked away to her jet that was waiting for her.

She should have checked her vitals.

[Timeskip - Years Later]

Years had gone by but Talia still thinks back to the night she stuck her sword through her daughter's body and left her for dead; she was so certain that was what she wanted by there was something missing and for once in her life, it had nothing to do with her Beloved Bat. She tried to put those thoughts aside for she was on a mission.

After the death of her father, she found some research on a mind-control agent that she could use to have the one she wanted most but the League was too thin and most were doing other tasks while some were rebuilding the complex, thus the Head of the Demon Clan had to deal with it on her own, which she was fine with.

However, something felt different - she wasn't sure what it was...but she knew something was going to happen tonight.

Talia did what she had to do and secured to the agent before making her way back to the roof - only to have two people walking for her.

One was a tall man with a red helmet, a brown leather jacket, a gray Bat-Armor with a Red Bat Insignia on the chest; Talia could see the pistols and ammo belts around his waist.

The second was a feminine figure: She was around the same height as Damian, wearing Bat-Armor that looked a lot like a Ninja's outfit with a sword on her back and a dark blue Bat Insignia on her chest. Her hair was long and black but tied in a ponytail, except some hair that freely fell in her face and covered some of the ribbon eye mask around her eyes.

"I guess my beloved couldn't make it to see me?" Talia asked as she placed the agent in her pocket.

"We were the closest in the area so he sent us to what it was about - didn't think we'd find his batshit crazy baby-momma here." The Red Hood said as he folded his arms.

"Too bad, he might have convinced me to surrender but I don't have an issue with breaking children who stand in my way." Talia said.

"You never had an issue with killing them, why would you have an issue with breaking them?" The female said.

"What did you say?" Talia said as she looked at the female figure.

"You don't remember the child you killed? The blood of the Al Ghul you spilled? The child you detested because she wouldn't kill so you decided to kill her instead?" The female stepped forward and reached for her eye mask, "You don't remember my voice...Mother?" She pulled it off and Talia's eyes widened when they locked with the blue eyes of her late daughter - the one that was supposed to die. The stain in her plan.

"You lived? After all of these years, you dare come to face me again?" Talia narrowed her eyes.

"Rather cold to say to your kid who came back from the dead, Lady." He looked at Bellatrix, "Bat-Fang, you wanna deal with her while I wait on the old man?" He asked.

"You read my mind." Bellatrix stepped forward and pulled her sword out, "Arm yourself."

"I guess some stains are harder to wash out." Talia said as she pulled her sword out, "I'll make sure you don't come back."

Emerald and Sapphire locked with each other before the thunderclap of the coming storm sent them both into attack mode. Their blades clashed against each other as the two women danced in a deadly dance, Talia was focused but at the same time confused - how was Bellatrix this focused when the anger in her eyes was so strong? Talia tried harder and used more power but that was the opening Bellatrix needed.

Talia watched as the girl grabbed the sword with her left hand before delivering a swift but devastating kick to her gut, sending her skipping like a stone against the roof as she released the grip of her sword. Talia picked herself off the ground and glared at her eldest as the girl place her own sword back in its sheath and shatter Talia's into two halves, letting the shards and sword halves fall to her feet before she charged at her mother. Talia's guard went up as the two of them locked in a brawl.

'What is going on here? She was never this fast or ruthless! What is...'

Her thoughts were cut off as Bellatrix grabbed her foot and began to swing her until Bellatrix let her go and got stuck in a window. Talia opened her eyes from the impact just in time to see the glare on her daughter's face as she came soaring and her fist connected with Talia's face, sending them both into the abandoned building. Talia groaned from the pain but more pain was added when she felt her daughter grab her by her hair and pull her to her feet.

"What do you have to say now, Talia? Am I still defective?" Bellatrix asked before she punched the Assassin Leader in the face, making her crash into a crumbling wall.

"Am I still a flaw?" Bellatrix asked as she spartan-kicked Talia through the wall and into the living room, making the woman fall on her back.

"Am I still the wrench in your perfect plan? Am I?!" Bellatrix barked as she grabbed her mother by the next and punched her in the face, making her back hit a window. Talia's version was blurry from the pain but when it came together - her eyes widened at the murderous gaze in her eyes.

"Am I still not an Al Ghul?" Bellatrix punched her in the face again - sending the woman crashing through the window again but this time, she felt on a lower roof of a building just as another thunderclap echoed through the sky and the rain began to fall. Talia grunted at the pain but opened her eyes to watch her daughter jump out the window and walk over to her; glaring down at her with blue eyes.

"How... How did you survive?" She asked.

"You should have checked my vitals before you left me to die; once you were gone, I took care of the assassins that you had hold me. I'm not proud I shed their blood but I knew if I didn't, they were going to make sure I was dead." Bellatrix answered.

"You survived... You killed... And now, you have me helpless." Talia smiled at her, "I'm so proud of you, My Baby Girl." She cooed.

"What?" Bellatrix glared with confusion.

"You are everything I want in a perfect heir: You survived my trap, you killed those who held you captive, and you reduced me - the Leader of the League of Assassins - to this pitiful state. My darling, you are perfect." Talia smiled at her daughter.

"I don't know what you are thinking but I'm nothing like you want me to be and I never will be." Bellatrix reached down and took the mind-control agent from Talia before turning and walking away.

"You can walk away now, My Sweet Child, but know that I am coming for you. I will bring you home and you will be what you were born to me - The Perfect Al Ghul Heir. Run while you can, my dear, Mother is coming for you." Talia laughed at Bellatrix as the girl jumped off the small roof, leaving the woman alone.

Talia looked up at the rain in the sky and smiled before picking herself off the ground, touching the side of her lip, and looked at the blood - her blood - that her daughter spilled.

'It was a mistake to let you go but now that you are back, I shall have you once more and we shall be a family. You can't escape your blood, Bellatrix; you're an Al Ghul...and you belong to me.'