#also also in the au they got these really cool abilities like pebbles being able to drag nsh and ragdoll him in the air effortlessly
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hdra77 · 11 months ago
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Iterator designs for me and my girlfriend's Voided AU!! but also my own take on how i draw them (but with some adjustments, i may draw it separately so i wouldn't confuse anyone on which ones from an au and which ones not) + some doodles
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thefloralpeach · 5 years ago
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Bird Set Free- a Reddie Superpower AU
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Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Eddie Kaspbrak/Richie Tozier | Minor or Background Relationship(s)
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Superheroes/Superpowers | Angst | Shitty childhoods | Sonia Kaspbrak’s A+ Parenting | Enemies to Friends to Lovers | Secret Identity | background benverly | background hanbrough | background stanpat
Words:7454 | Chapters:1/?Hits:0
Summary:
Richie Tozier grew up to be a hero. Eddie Kaspbrak grew up without anyone there to save him. What do you get when you cross an angry vigilante with a hero who’s just trying his best?
Read on AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/23335246/chapters/55900111
It started out as a conspiracy, and quickly turned into national controversy.
Nobody’s sure exactly who was the first case- abilities manifesting at a young age, anywhere between seven and seventeen. Videos surfaced of young kids doing extraordinary things, some of which people assumed was photoshop, but some of which occurred on live social media videos. The videos increased in frequency, the reports of strange happenings poured in every day, and eventually the government had to come out with a public statement.
Apparently, superpowers exist now.
It was the only thing anyone could talk about for a solid year. As a middle schooler, all you could do was wait to see if you were next.
The Losers often found themselves in conversation about what powers they hoped to have.
“I hope I get shapeshifting. I’d turn into the hottest motherfucker this world has ever seen and take over the world,” Richie would say.
Eddie never talked about it much, but he thought it might be nice to be immune to sickness. That way, maybe his mother would let him leave the house more… Or, maybe walking through walls would serve that purpose. He just wanted to be able to do what he wanted, and not be forced under her wing.
It was eighth grade when Eddie began to despise this hero stuff.
Instead of continuing his education with his friends, his mom decided to pull him out of school due to the fear that someone with powers would hurt him. She said that his ‘no good friends’ would end up accidentally hurting him, or some ignorant kid would get their power suddenly and Eddie would be a victim of it. Even when he reminded her that ability prevalence rates were pretty low, of course nothing could sway her.
So he said goodbye to seeing his friends in school, and hello to meeting up with them at every other possible moment; until his mother decided that was also too dangerous. So, he remained in his house like a prisoner.
His friends visited though, of course they did. Eddie had a window, and the Losers were pretty good at climbing. Besides, Eddie didn’t think anything could keep Richie from finding him and bothering him.
It’s a gross, rainy night when Richie makes a promise.
It starts with pebbles thrown at his window- Richie’s signature greeting. Eddie tries not to think about how cheesy and romantic it is, but the thought crosses his mind anyway.
He opens the window, and is promptly met with Richie shaking out his wet hair like a dog. Eddie makes a disgusted noise, which only draws laughter from the taller boy.
“You sure your ability isn’t being gross and annoying?” Eddie asks as Richie finishes climbing in, almost stumbling over his own feet. He clutches his hands to his chest, feigning hurt.
“I can not believe you would insinuate something so hurtful, Eddie my love!”
Of all the nicknames in Richie’s arsenal, that one is definitely the worst. Eddie can be annoyed by Eds or the ever-popular Spaghetti, but when he pulls out something so cliche that it could be in a romcom, Eddie’s heart always skips a beat. He hates it. And he also loves it.
Richie’s pulling stuff out from his backpack before he’s even sat on Eddie’s bed. It became a sort of tradition for Richie to bring Eddie some stuff that his mom wouldn’t let him have whenever he visited.
“What’s in the magic bag tonight?” Eddie asks, eyeing the bag of all-pink starbursts Richie already pulled out.
“Candy, of course,” Richie narrates, pulling out a bag of gummy worms and a jumbo snickers bar. “I also got you this cool magazine that talks about abilities and heroes, and this week’s newspaper.”
Richie would often bring Eddie stuff to read, stuff that clued him into what’s going on outside. Eddie’s mom allowed him a computer, but no internet, so Eddie relied on his friends for information about the world. It was a simple act that he cherished so much.
“Oh- I also made you this!” Richie announces, pulling out a CD from his bag. The cover is decorated with some crude doodles, and labelled ‘songs to help spaghetti forgetti his regretti’. He tosses it to Eddie, who immediately bursts into laughter.
“A CD? Isn’t that a bit old school?”
Richie puts his arms up in defense. “Well, you don’t have internet or a damn phone, so what was I supposed to do? Send you a Youtube playlist?”
Eddie shrugs. “Alright, fair enough.” He ignores the way his heart quickens at the thought of Richie compiling a playlist for him. “So, what’s on it?”
“Ah, you need to play it to find out, my deah!” He responds, slipping into a hilariously poorly-accented Voice. Eddie shakes his head, covering his mouth in a weak attempt to muffle his laughter. “I have something else for you, too.”
Eddie calms himself then, and quirks an eyebrow up. “Do I wanna know?” He asks cautiously. Richie was known for following words like that with a wet willy or a pinch to his cheeks. But, the jokester only smiles in response.
“Yes, you do! How would you like to sneak out of here with me some night?” Richie offers, and Eddie’s eyes light up. “We can head over to the clubhouse-”
“God, you guys still have that?”
“Yes! We can go hang out there, and all the others will be there too! And we can get a pizza since we know you’ve been force fed, what, gluten-dairy-nut-free bullshit?”
Eddie laughs, so giddy and over the moon with excitement that he ignores his health concerns. Richie doesn’t think his allergies are real anyway, and Eddie isn’t so sure he disagrees. Regardless, how could he even think to be concerned about such trivial things when he has the chance to escape, to spend some time outside for the first time in months?
Of course, Eddie agrees to go. They make plans for the weekend, when Sonia would be at bingo night. Richie and the others would sneak around and help him out the window, and Eddie could sit on the back of one of their bikes on the way- since his own bike had been given away once he was put on house arrest. Eddie gives Richie a list of his favorite bands so Richie can make a playlist for the night, and together they plan a list of snacks to have. They pick out some choice movies as well, since Ben had said he could rent a projector from the library for the night.
Eddie’s never been so excited for something in his entire life.
Friday comes after what seems like forever, and his mom leaves for bingo, and Eddie waits excitedly in his room. He reads a comic book to pass the time until 5 o’clock comes.
And then 6 o’clock comes.
Then 7 o’clock.
Something probably happened… maybe they couldn’t get away from their parents in time, so they just had to push things back.
8 o’clock.
9 o’clock.
And then Eddie’s mother pulls into the driveway, and he’s pissed. He’s angry, he’s furious, he’s…
Crushed.
Saturday comes and goes, but nobody visits him.
Sunday is the same.
Eddie’s mother asks why he’s spending so much time in his room, and asks if he’s sick- he struggles to invent a lie that she’ll believe. So he tells her the truth- that he’s sad, that he misses his friends. Not that she does anything to help (“Oh honey, you’re so much safer without them anyway”), but she does leave him alone to brood.
This is the first week in months that he didn’t get a word from any of his friends. He’d never gone more than two days without Richie visiting him, but in the coming years, this would become the new normal.
For the next few years, the only company Eddie has is his mother. His overbearing, absolutely psychotic mother, who put helicopter moms to shame.
It’s a month after Eddie’s abandoned that he’s able to catch a newscast while his mom naps in the middle of the day. It’s the 4 o’clock news, the headline reading ‘Superhero Madness: New Ability Registration Mandate to Pass, Increasing Regulation on Enhanced Abilities.’
He’s reading comic books, stories about real superheroes. The media outlets he’d seen were all over calling this new phenomenon the “Age of Heroes” and shit that Eddie finds absolutely ridiculous. So a kid can learn things really quickly or make magnets stick to them- Spiderman is still cooler. Spiderman just wants to save people, he wants to save anyone who needs it, even those overlooked by other heroes. Spiderman doesn’t care about being big and flashy. He’s a real hero- not like these wannabes.
Regardless of his opinions, he tunes his attention to the news for a moment. It’s not often he actually gets to see what’s going on outside of his prison cell of a home.
“… Required not only to register their abilities, but to train at government-approved facilities. Officials say this mandate will assure that these enhanced individuals learn to manage their abilities, thus ensuring their safety and the safety of others. Opposition has arisen as well…”
Eddie rolls his eyes. Government-approved facilities? Please. This is the least cool backstory he’s ever heard. Then he remembers, this isn’t a backstory. Because this isn’t some cool hero story. This is real life, and in real life, his friends left him, and no hero is coming to save him.
It’s two years later when he manifests a power of his own.
The newscasts he’d been able to watch intermittently had reported that abilities seem to appear between the ages of ten and sixteen, as if a part of puberty. It made enough sense, Eddie figured at the time. He assumed after his thirteenth and fourteenth years passed that he’d never manifest anything- but he’d been wrong.
It’s nothing special, of course. He’s watching something on TV, not even the news or anything special, just some reality show, when he notices a weird light. He looks around, thinking at first that a lamp was suddenly turned on, but he quickly realizes it’s emitting from the palms of his hands.
“Huh…” he mutters. Light hands. Some freaking power, huh?
They don’t appear to do anything besides glow every so often. He debates whether or not to tell his mother, but ultimately he decides to hide it. What good would telling her do, anyway? What did he expect, praise? Comfort? No, he knew he would get nothing less than an hour of rambling about how much she now had to worry about, how much it would drain his energy, how much they had to fear from a soft little glow.
So, he hides it.
As much as he hates his stupid glowy hands at first, it starts to become a rather welcome feature.
He no longer has to hide a flashlight in his room for when he wants to read in bed- his own hands suffice now! Well, when he can get them to turn on, which isn’t all the time. He starts to understand all the hype he’d been seeing on the news about controlling abilities- if this were something dangerous, Eddie would surely be in some deep shit.
Every now and then, Eddie gets the gaul to ask his mom about things that he knew he wasn’t supposed to- if he could go out with her when she grabbed something, if he could return to school now that abilities are more regulated, if he could just go for a bike ride like he used to. The answer is always no, of course.
The only time he’s allowed out of the house is for visits to the doctor, which have also become less often for some reason. Eddie wonders why his medications remain the same even though he’s being seen less.
Sometimes, his mom gets tired of his curiosity.
“Eddie, you know why you have to stay in here, you know it! I can’t risk losing you, Eddie-bear. Do you know how many people are being attacked every day by these new monsters?!”
“But mom-”
“I don’t let you watch the news because it’s so terrible, every day there’s more attacks and more people sick and dead , I just can’t bear it!”
Eddie wants to tell her that he sees the news when she doesn’t think he’s watching, that things are starting to stabilize, that crime rates haven’t actually gone up that much and that people aren’t actually being attacked- but of course she doesn’t let him get a word it. It’s part of her defense against Eddie trying to fight back.
“Mom, listen to me, please -”
“Do you want to do that to me? Eddie-bear, you know how hard it’s been after I-” she sniffles for effect, “After I lost your poor father. I can’t risk losing you too, honey, you know that-”
“Mom will you just listen to me?!” He raises his voice, earning a gasp from his mother. The look on her face is almost scandalized. He doesn’t realize why until he gestures in frustration with his hands, and he notices a familiar glow. “I just want-”
“EDDIE!”
She interrupts him, running over and fawning over him until his glow dims and eventually fades. He’s bombarded with questions about how this could have happened, how could she ever let him out now, how they had to make extra sure to be careful, blah blah blah. He promptly loses all hope of ever getting out of there.
She corrals him to the stairs and up to his room, her shrill voice running nonstop the entire time. Eddie tries to tune it out, but it’s hard- she’s persistent, and his hopes are crushed. He hears the lock on his door click as she leaves.
Eddie barely notices the glow of his hands as he punches his pillow. He spends ten, maybe twenty minutes just punching, screaming, doing what he can to get his frustration out. Once he slows down, giving his poor bedsheets a break, he realizes that the glow has spread to just above his elbows.
“Stupid fucking glowy hands…” he mutters, glaring at them as if that would get it to stop. Of course, it doesn’t.
With a sigh, Eddie drags himself over to his bookshelf, grabbing something that sounds mildly interesting so he could distract himself from his stupid emotions and his stupid situations and his stupid hands. As he glances over the other options, his eyes land on something he hadn’t looked at in years- Richie’s mix CD. ‘Songs to help spaghetti forgetti his regretti’. The glow in his hands fades as Eddie traces over the shitty doodles on the cover, and a ghost of a smile settles on his face.
He’s still pissed off that everyone abandoned him. He’s confused, he’s frustrated, he’s angry and he’s hurt- but most of all, he’s nostalgic. More than anything, he misses his friends, and he just wants it all back. He likes to think that there’s a good reason that they left him, and that they’ll be reunited one day and everything will be happily ever after- but he also knows that’s just a lot of wishful thinking.
Eddie breaks his thoughts by popping the CD into the player on his radio, pressing ‘play’, and flopping on his bed.
He closes his eyes, smiling to himself as the first notes of the song drift into the room. The CD plays on repeat until Eddie falls asleep for the night.
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The next day, Eddie is horrified when his mother hires someone to install bars on his bedroom window. It’s for your safety, Eddie, she insists. The government is getting involved now, I can’t let them take you away.
But he knows they wouldn’t take him away. He knows he isn’t that lucky.
And he has the sneaking suspicion that his mother would have installed the bars whether or not the government was a concern.
Eddie’s hands don’t glow as bright anymore after that, though he isn’t sure why. Maybe he hated that stupid power so much that it’s in the process of disappearing- he hopes that’s the case. If he can prove he’s normal, then maybe one day he can leave.
In the next year, Eddie catches many newscasts about ability regulation. He managed to convince his mom to let him watch the news a little bit, because current events was something he had to be versed on in order for his home school requirements. She wasn’t happy about it, but ultimately he gets to watch the news more regularly now.
It’s something Eddie never quite cared about, news. When he was twelve and thirteen, the news was the most boring thing he could ever think of watching. But now, it’s a connection to the world he no longer gets to be a part of.
The last he’d heard, a few months back, was how the government had started allowing those with trained abilities to register as heroes. Their official title was something boring, of course- The National Force of Enhanced Individuals or something dumb like that. But everyone calls them heroes. Crime rates had been steadily decreasing since they passed the bill creating the force, and maybe, just maybe Eddie gets his hopes up when he hears that.
He hasn’t asked his mom about going outside in a while, but during this newscast, he thinks maybe he has a chance…
“So, that’s great, huh?” Eddie ventures from his spot on the couch, looking expectantly at his mother.
She’s sitting in her recliner, as she does most of the time, her attention on some magazine rather than the television. In response, she hums in question, not even bothering to look up.
“The- the Force of Enhanced Individuals…” he gestures to the screen. “Seems they’re lowering the crime rate. That’s great, right?” He cautiously explains, wary of the fact that this conversation could go to hell at any second.
She raises an eyebrow, glancing at Eddie for only a mere second.
“I suppose so, yes. It’s about time these streets got safer. You never know what could happen out there.”
Eddie pauses for a moment.
“So… it seems like things are more regulated now. More than they were a few years ago, I mean…”
She puts her magazine down then, switching her focus over to Eddie. “Eddie-Bear, I know you’re not trying to ask me to leave again, right? Because you know we’ve talked about this. You know why you have to stay here.”
And, there goes his plan.
His eyes are pleading, and he tries his best to sound reasonable, to make a point.
“I don’t- I don’t want to go far, just… I want to be outside more than just doctors visits, Mom! It’s not healthy for me to stay in here-”
“Don’t use your health on me! I know everything about your health, Eddie, and I know that you’re much better off in here, safe. ”
“I just want to go- go to the store with you maybe, or the library, or hang out in the backyard- I mean look, Mom, crime rates are down more than they’ve ever been! Heroes are protecting people!”
“Stop asking, Eddie.”
Her voice is so calm, so sure that Eddie feels like he wants to explode. He clenches his fists, and again, that familiar glow is back.
“No! I shouldn’t even have to ask, Ma!”
“Don’t you start this with me-”
“Most kids my age are outside all the time! They go to school, they go out with their friends, they do things! I don’t even know where my friends are!” He yells back, ignoring her retorts.
“Your friends don’t come here anymore, and it’s better for you that way! They were terrible influences, you don’t need them, Eddie-”
“I’d like to know where they went, why they left! I’d like to have the chance to look for them at least! Christ, Mom, this is a prison!” He gesticulates wildly in front of himself, pleading with his hands without noticing that they’re exactly why he won’t win this fight.
“Eddie, do not raise your voice with me. You’re scaring me, honey!” Eddie knew this tone well. “Why don’t you go upstairs and calm-”
“I DON’T WANT TO CALM DOWN, MA!”
As he yells, he swiftly throws his hands down to his sides, and something happens.
He can’t put words to it, but he feels a sort of tingling heat in his hands, and the next second he hears a crash- no, two crashes, one on each side of him.
Everything is silent for a moment, even his mother. Her mouth hangs open, though no words come out, and she’s looking at Eddie with something between shock and horror on her face. She turns her attention to Eddie’s left, and instinctively, he does the same.
There’s a visible dent in the wall there, as if somebody strong had punched it. Almost cautiously, Eddie turns his head to the other side, and notices an equal dent in the cabinet. Each dent is equal height, and Eddie knows what happened.
He’s still processing it, and he doesn’t want to be right, but he knows.
“Eddie…”
Her voice is so low, Eddie barely processes it. His eyes glance between the dents, then to the floor.
“Yeah… I’ll go to my room.”
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After that, his visits to the doctor decrease exponentially so, only once every few months. But he’s given more medication than he’s ever had before. Given his little ‘condition’, he’s not surprised. It’s probably messing with his system somehow, and the medicine is helping with symptoms he hasn’t even noticed yet.
He feels tired all the damn time, even though he goes to bed early and wakes up a little on the later side. When he’s not doing his work or watching something completely idiotic that his mom insists he must join her for, he’s either napping or staring into space. It’s annoying- maybe that’s one of the things that the medicine is helping. Or maybe he’s just fucking depressed, who knows.
He’s also confined to his room most of the time, and his mom locks the door when she goes out. After his outburst, he assumes she doesn’t trust him, and he can’t be too mad this time, he knows. She’s just trying to keep him safe, of course.
He doesn’t have much schooling left. He still gets to watch the news for current events, but only when supervised by his mom. And, it’s better than nothing. He does okay on the work he’s given, although he knows it’s all minimum-effort curricula.
He has video games to keep him occupied, and a fair amount of books. His mom gets him things sometimes while she’s out, which is nice of her.
He’s also been trying to control his abilities.
Maybe it’s stupid. All he has are glowy hands… but he knows they’re capable of something else if they were able to mess up the walls that day. And if he knows anything about superpowers from the comics he reads, he knows that it’s much better for everyone if he controls this thing before he accidentally learns more about it.
It takes a lot of work to learn how to make them glow on command. It takes a lot of focus, and a solid month before he actually does it for the first time when he wants to, instead of it just appearing.
Awesome- now he can use his own personal flashlight whenever he needs it. Whenever his mom says “lights out” at 10pm and he still isn’t tired, or when he drops something and doesn’t have a phone flashlight to help him find it.
And it’s cool, it’s a great feeling actually, to be able to have a little bit of control over this shit. But it’s not enough.
Eddie’s mom is out grocery shopping, so naturally he’s locked in his room. He dreams one day of being able to blast the door open somehow, but he’s far from that. He dented the walls a little bit exactly one time, so he’s not exactly the pinnacle of power here.
But… maybe someday he could be.
A stool sits by Eddie’s window as a perch. He sits down as he opens his window, thankful that the weather is warming up, and for a moment he forgets his goal here. The open window is the closest he gets to being outside anymore, and every time he smells the natural air, he finds himself longing for the days he used to spend out in it. He misses biking around town, he misses the barrens, he misses the clubhouse in the forest. But a window is better than nothing.
He physically shakes his head to refocus himself.
Outside his window are several trees- his targets. It’s almost surreal, realizing exactly what he’s about to do, but he knows it’s important.
“Focus…” He whispers to himself, nestling his arm between two of the metal bars that lined his window now. He rests it lightly on the windowsill, spreading his palms as if trying to use the force.
Except, this isn’t the force. He’s not drawing anything to him, he’s trying to push it away .
His hands glow, which is no longer anything special to him. He figures they’ll glow brighter as he focuses more, as he prepares for… well, whatever he’s capable of, but at the moment, he doesn’t notice anything.
Thoughts keep crawling into his mind- how much he wishes to go back outside, to see his friends again, to have friends again.
As his mind wanders, the glow spreads up his arms, gradually becoming lighter. But, he’s not focusing. He’s reminiscing, he’s yearning for what he once had, and what he could have if he wasn’t in this stupid fucking house.
Wait, no.
Eddie shuts his eyes tight, willing the thoughts from his mind.
“I said focus, dammit.”
When he opens his eyes, he stares at the tree in front of his window, aiming his hand at it. He takes a deep breath, thinks of nothing but the tree, and-
And nothing happens.
Clenching his fist for a moment, he takes another breath and decides to try again. Hand through the window, eyes on the tree, focus on power. Mind clear, hand glowing, energy flowing, and…
Still nothing.
Eddie tries this for a solid half an hour before he gives up, slumping over his stool and resting his head against the bars. Maybe that weird blast thing was just a fluke, and there was no way to control it. Or, maybe it’s based on like, what he eats, or what he does during the day. Maybe he has a lot more investigating to do before he can actually make his powers do anything besides give him glowy hands.
The world outside the window catches his attention again, and he spends some time just watching it. It’s a nice day out; he can hear kids playing down the street, birds chirping, he can see squirrels and chipmunks scampering around, and there’s barely a cloud in the sky. Four years ago, he’d have been all over a day like this- riding his bike, relaxing in the barrens or by the quarry with his friends…
It’s not fair. It’s not fair that his front door is locked from the outside, that his own bedroom door is locked to keep him in, and that he’s a prisoner in his own home. It’s not fair that the only thing he wants to do is get out, to run, but he can’t. He’d trigger his asthma anyway.
It’s not fucking fair that he can’t even escape out of a window because there are fucking bars on it, it’s not fucking fair that everyone he knew, everyone who was ever kind to him had just up and left him why would they do that? Why did they do that?
(Eddie’s hands glow brighter, but he doesn’t notice.)
Was he really so forgettable that his friends could move on so easily? Or was that his mom’s plan all along? Had she told them to fuck off one day, and they all just listened? The school district still has to check on him regularly to make sure his mother is following the law- had they really noticed nothing? Or had he just never been worth the second thought?
(His hands are shaking, still resting on the windowsill.)
Richie made him a damn mixtape, for christ’s sake! A mixtape! You don’t do that for people you don’t care about, you don’t do that and then abandon them, forget about them, leave them to their warden of a mother and a lifetime of no real fucking human interaction.
(There’s a faint vibration in Eddie’s palms.)
Eddie clenches his jaw, runs his hands through his hair before placing them back between the bars, and shuts his eyes.
Fuck heroes. Fuck superpowers. Fuck this whole organization, the one that spiked fear into everyone and feeds off of it. Eddie’s mom is scared, now Eddie has to suffer for it, and there’s nobody coming to save him. These people have the balls to call themselves heroes, but who the hell are they saving?
“Fuck…”
(His palms brighten.)
“FUCK!”
Eddie slams his hands down against the windowsill and feels it before he sees it. Energy. Pure energy. And it came right from his hands, he knows it did.
The glow of his hands dimmed to a dull shimmer, and there’s an obvious dent in the tree that had been perfect just a minute before.
Like last time, everything is still for a moment, oddly quiet. Eddie can only stare ahead of him at the injured trunk. He flicks his gaze to his hands, still tingling, still glowing.
So. That’s how his power is going to work, then.
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After a few months of “good behavior”, Eddie’s mom stops locking him in his room when she goes out. It’s a start, he figures.
He “graduates” that spring, but there’s no ceremony, no speeches, no cap and gown. He gets a cupcake though, which is nice.
The news is still filled with stories about heroes, about thrilling stories of rescue, about new agencies funding research and training and about crime rates plummeting. It’s all good news in theory, but Eddie can’t help the pings of jealousy he feels for all the happy people he sees rescued.
Rescued.
Nobody’s come to rescue him. Nobody even looks for a situation like his- it’s not a flashy villain he needs to be rescued from. He’s in no mortal danger, not even any physical danger in all honesty. But does that make him any less miserable?
No.
And how many other kids are in similar situations? How many other people need saving, but are ignored for all this flashy hero and villain fantasy shit? Eddie thinks about these things a lot. But it’s not like he can do anything about it.
Something good, he guesses, is that he’s gotten better at damaging that poor tree outside his window. The trunk and some of the wider branches have visible scars, though they still aren’t much. Maybe he’s confined to small blasts or something, but it’s still kind of cool.
So his powers are tied to emotions? Good. He’s got a lot of those. And he thinks about them when he wants to channel his energy- that must be what his power is, technically. Energy.
It makes sense that he’s exhausted after he practices, in that case. He tries not to show it, though- he doesn’t want his mom to have any more reason to worry about him or keep him confined.
It’s a Tuesday afternoon in July when she runs to the store, and Eddie gets a few hours to himself for what he’s been calling target practice in his head. He doesn’t know what he plans to do with his tiny blasts of energy, but he figures it’s better to be able to have some sort of handle on them than to just have the ability to do it and no idea how.
Like always, he’s tired after he fires off a few blasts- both physically and emotionally. He thinks about those news stories, the smug faces of all those self-proclaimed heroes. He thinks about his situation, how he longs to leave, how he may as well be in an actual prison. It’s good stuff to keep in his mind when he wants to practice, but it’s hard to come down from, and it always just reminds him of how fucked his life is.
Sighing, Eddie pushes himself off his stool, taking a moment to stretch his arms over his head. A snack and a nap sound absolutely perfect right about now, so he decides to do just that.
He pads out of his room and downstairs, a little tempted to turn on the TV, but he was sure his mom would have some way of figuring out that he’d done it- she probably had cameras or something installed, or motion sensors, or a battery monitor on the remote. Something weird and over controlling, of course. It’s expected by now.
While Eddie rummages through the pantry, he understands why his mother had to go out. They were low on snacks of pretty much every kind, and he was gonna have to make something if he actually wanted food. Maybe pasta, that was an easy choice.
Spaghetti.
The voice of an old friend echoes in Eddie’s head, and he finds himself smiling softly before he closes the pantry door.
If he’s gonna make something, he may as well check to make sure they have cooking spray, and maybe some spices. Not that Eddie’s the best cook ever, since he’s not often allowed in the kitchen, but if he has to make something he’d rather it be edible and not something bland that sticks to the pot.
Okay, so he has no idea how to use spices besides like, salt and garlic, but he can still experiment.
Step one- learn where the spices are.
Eddie isn’t allowed to cook, really. Anything he’d done, he’d done while his mom was out. And it’s not like she’s the lord of good cooking, so Eddie’s also pretty amateur.
Finally, he opens a cabinet and finds some usable stuff next to the nonperishables. Garlic powder, some extra salt and pepper, oregano, basil, some extra baking soda and baking powder… and some old pill bottles? He takes the containers to inspect them, curious.
One of the bottles is labelled Phenobarbital, and the others Lorazepam.
That’s Nembutal and Ativan.
Sedatives.
His first thought is, obviously, that they’re just more medications lying around the house. It wouldn’t be surprising, since his mother seemed to always be going to another doctor, and she used to take him nearly once a week.
His second thought is that they had a set medicine cabinet, one that was organized by need. Why would she move them to a food cabinet instead?
And his third thought is one that scares him to death. Suddenly, he’s wondering if it’s not his powers that are making him feel drained.
Because, what had his mother ever needed sedatives for? Sure, one doubles as an anxiety medication, but there’s no way in hell Eddie is lucky enough for his mom to actually seek help for her paranoia.
Tentatively, Eddie opens one of the bottles, and he recognizes the pills as ones he’s given… often.
His breaths quicken, and he wants his inhaler but it’s upstairs- and is it even an inhaler? Or is there something else in there that his mom didn’t tell him about?
Suddenly the bottle is shaking in his hand, his fist clenched around it as the pills rattle around inside. And suddenly, it’s much brighter in the room than it was before. He feels a familiar vibration in the palm of his hands.
“Eddie-bear!”
He hadn’t even heard the door open. But he heard that voice. Her voice. That grating, shrill, helicopter voice. It only gets worse once she finds him in the kitchen, her footsteps quickening as she rushes over to him.
“Eddie-bear, what are you doing? What’s going on honey, put that down, you need to take your pills and go to your room-”
Eddie’s eyes are glued to the bottle.
Sedatives. Fucking sedatives .
He knew she didn’t trust him, but he didn’t think it would have come to this. He never thought she’d flat out lie to him like this.
His jaw is clenched, and he swallows down a lump in his throat as his mother keeps babbling.
“What the fuck is this, ma?”
She gasps as if scandalized. As if she has the right to be shocked, or to be upset at anything Eddie does after pulling this shit.
“Eddie- honey, you know that’s just your medicine. You’re sick -”
“These are sedatives, don’t lie to me.” He snaps his head up, glaring into his mother’s eyes. She takes a step back, looking at him like he’s some dangerous monster. And, hell, maybe he is.
“Eddie you- you needed them-” her tone is pleading, and it just pisses Eddie off more. “You- you needed something to help you, oh God-”
The fear is evident on her face, and the only thing Eddie feels is rage.
“Help me? You think that was helping me?” He drops the pill bottle then, his hands clenching into fists at his sides. “You-”
“Eddie, your eyes-”
“You drugged me!”
“God, have mercy-”
“YOU FUCKING DRUGGED ME!”
Eddie gestures in front of him, and watches with not-so-much horror as his mom stumbles backwards with an audible shriek.
There’s a moment where he wants to panic. But the anger takes over again, and he doesn’t care what happens to her. He doesn’t care what he did. He doesn’t care.
He needs to get away, he needs to go be alone. He takes off towards his room, but pauses as he catches a glimpse of his reflection in one of his kitchen’s glass cabinets.
His eyes… his eyes are glowing, just like his hands.
No pupils, no hazel iris, no whites. Just a glow, like a flashlight.
Before he has to listen to more shrieking, Eddie all but runs upstairs, slamming his door with more force than he thought he had in him. If he didn’t know better, he’d think he felt the house shake with the action.
He rushes to the window then, his body shaking with how fucking angry he is, and throws it open. Reaching both hands out in front of him, he aims, and it doesn’t take a second thought to fire a blast.
It’s easy when he thinks about everything, and when he feels like there’s so much… so much energy pent up inside him that he could burst.
The dent he makes in the tree is much more noticeable this time.
He grits his teeth, and fires another.
Fuck her. Fuck everybody.
A branch falls.
He fires another blast.
Fuck “heroes”. Fuck this society. Fuck this whole fucking world.
He hears his mom getting up from downstairs. And he’s not fucking sorry. Not one bit.
Eddie doesn’t speak to his mom after that.
He avoids going downstairs, and eventually she starts bringing meals up to him, pills in a neat little pile on the side.
They taunt him, the little white tablets. At first, he’s not sure which ones are the sedatives, and which ones he actually needs. But he’s not sure how much he cares anymore.
He stops taking all of them.
And, surprise surprise, nothing happens.
He doesn’t say anything, though. He takes the medication and hides it in a small box under his bed, covered by comics so his mom doesn’t find it if she ever decides to snoop around. And, after all this shit, he wouldn’t put it past her.
He’s 18 now. Most kids his age are going to college, going to work, moving out, doing something .
And Eddie? He’s making a plan.
He notices his mom trying to slip him more medication. And he’s wary of anything that she might be able to sneak a powder into.
He must be successful in avoiding her attempts to drug him, because he feels more alive, more energetic than he had at any time in the past two years.
The stool near his window becomes Eddie’s new best friend. Now that his energy is back, he’s better than ever at controlling his blasts.
He knows his emotions help it along, and he learns that the brighter the glow of his hands, the stronger the blast he can emit; and he learns that his blasts can be strong. It’s during a particularly intense storm that Eddie tests the waters a little more, and ends up knocking over one of the trees outside his window.
If he can knock over a tree, then surely he can knock out a wall, right?
He bides his time, but it takes everything in him to pretend like things are normal. He waits for winter to pass, paying moderate attention to the news when his mom goes out and storing up some essentials. Nothing too conspicuous- a jar of peanut butter here, a box of crackers there, and a few twenties from the stash in her room.
He doesn’t know exactly what he’s gonna do or where he’ll end up, so he does his best to prepare for anything.
He keeps a bag under his bed, right next to the box of discarded pills. His mom hasn’t been too nosy about his room- why would she have any reason to be, since he rarely leaves it anyway. By February, the bag consists of a few comics, the supplies he’d stolen from the kitchen, and the money. By March, he adds more money, two changes of clothes, a bottle of water, and a blanket. He wants to be prepared in case he has to leave early.
By May, the weather has evened out, the days sunny and long.
Eddie barely interacts with his mom, and something tells him she doesn’t much mind. She’ll insist on an “I love you” every now and then, but Eddie obliges in order to keep her at bay. He’s learned to play the part of the perfect, quiet, sedated little boy.
It’s a Saturday late in the month when Eddie decides it’s time.
His mother is downstairs, watching some mind-numbingly stupid reality show. He does one last check on his bag, making sure he had everything. He’d been able to steal about $250 without his mother noticing, which he figured was enough to get him, well, somewhere . Everything else is in place- even his inhaler, for good measure.
He slips on his best sneakers, which didn’t have much wear in them, since he’d been outside maybe ten times in the past two or three years. His clothes are comfortable, with a hoodie tied around his waist and a watch around his wrist for good measure.
He takes a step back, standing in the middle of his room with his bag slung over his shoulder. Soon… soon he’d be out. Taking a deep breath, Eddie raises his hands to the same height as the window, and he focuses his energy-
Until something catches his eye.
Something he spent a lot of nights listening to. Something he wants so badly to hate, but he can’t. It gives him too much nostalgic joy.
‘Songs to help spaghetti forgetti his regretti’
Eddie swallows a lump in his throat as he stands perfectly still, eyes glued to the little CD, sitting besides his portable player.
Part of him wants to leave it, to forget everything about this part of his life and start over, brand new. But, as much as he wants to forget everyone, to forget the Losers club, to forget Richie , he can’t. He can’t bring himself to do that.
With a huff, he grabs the CD, placing it safely in Richie’s stupid little case. He shoves them in his bag, then returns to the middle of the room, facing his window.
He can almost hear his mom’s voice in his ear, urging him to stop, telling him he’s too weak, that he won’t survive out there, that he should just stay safe here with her.
“Fuck you,” he responds to no one.
Again, Eddie raises his hands, angling them towards the window.
“This one’s for you, Ma.”
Boom.
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//I wish you would write Braig's redemption arc 8I
I wish you would write a fic where… || Accepting
Send me an anymous (or not) summary of the fic you wish I would write. (maybe I will write a tidbit)
Okay, so the reason I haven’t written this yet is because I have no idea how it’s gonna go? Or, rather, I’ve got way too many ideas. Can’t settle on one. So, to avoid looking like a cop-out, I’m gonna write all those ideas down in a very disjointed, rambling fashion and call it kosher.
So, I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, I’m pretty sure Xig/Braig bites it at the end of the series. Not much chance for redemption there. So let’s look at if he lives.
Without someone to literally drag him into it, I can say redemption for him is… Not gonna be easy. I mean, he’s much more likely to just up and vanish after the keyblade war, staying as far away from Radiant Garden as he can. This is because of a number of things, but mainly because he’s terrified of the other apprentices, at this point. He’s worried they won’t forgive him for what he did, but far more afraid that they will. The general populace wouldn’t be a problem, I think, because they don’t know what was going on, but that would be a bitter-sweet thing. Good on good days, because he can live normally, bad on bad days, because- Well. He doesn’t exactly know why, he just knows that not being blamed, dancing around people who don’t know what he’s done, puts him on edge. He can scheme and plan and pull his strings, sure, but this? Feels wrong. And what if they find out?
So he probably ditches for a bit, unless someone keeps him there. Maybe he goes off to the Land of Dragons - he always liked that world - or something like that. Bonus points for the recent wars making his scars seem less conspicuous. Dunno what he’d do there, but, hey.
It’s not home.
I really like the thing/AU Aaron and I had going. The whole platonic Xigxi? That was probably the best route to redemption for him. I’ve said it once, I’ve said it again, the amount that Braig and Xion relied on each other post-series was ridiculous. They were pretty much inseparable, no secrets between those two or anything. And I mean no secrets. They sort of wound up being each others’ coping method, looking out for triggers, keeping undesirables at bay, helping with cool-down methods after anxiety/panic attacks, crashing on each others’ furniture for impromptu sleepovers ‘cause hey, sleep sucks and nightmares exist, so, hey, Xixi, wanna do shots of chamomile tea while I teach you a drinking game? The real reason Braig and Xi got on so well is ‘cause, simply put,  they understand each other. They both know what it’s like to be strung along, to lose your free will, to be a Vessel, to watch friends die and fall away and all that, they get it. And since the only other person in a position to ‘get it’ is the one who left Braig’s face permanently disfigured, Xion’s the only one he opens up to about a lot of this stuff. Because she gets it. He doesn’t wanna dump it on her, but, hell if he’s gonna share with the uninitiated. More than that, she took Braig on as her apprentice (which he found kind of grimly amusing, for a number of reasons to be discussed elsewhere), which is good in a number of ways. It gives him something to distract himself with, something to exhaust himself physically and push himself towards on days he needs it, and something to keep his interest for a mental distraction (not many things can), goals to work towards, and that’s really important to him. It also puts him in a place where he’s surrounded by people who could potentially be protection from Xehanort (given that the wielders, at this point, presumably whooped him for good), but also from himself, since he trusts himself and his ability to resist Darkness as much as he trusts the Old Coot himself. If he’s among the keyslingers, he won;t be able to hurt anyone else. At least, not majorly. Living in the tower helps, too, because the routines are pretty regular, but it’s not the Gardens, which, again, helps. It also gives him a way to atone without feeling like he’s… Patronising the universe, if that makes sense? Not just pretending that going back to who he was will just wipe away the things he did. It’s a more tangible step in the right direction, I suppose. So, this is probably the most likely scenario for full ‘redemption’. (Also, probably one of my favourite post-series verses).
I was also joking with Rodi that, in our Zelbraig verse, it’d be hilarious in a twisted way for everyone to be freaking out all WHERE’S BRAIG WE HAVE TO RESCUE HIM and he’s chilling poolside with a tumbler of whisky at his boyfriend/fiance/husband’s mansion. Not so much ‘redemption’ in that verse, but definitely ‘trying to live a normal life’. Emphasis on trying. Those two boys are both disaster magnets, so it doesn’t work, but, he tries.
(In fact, any significant other is a help.)
I also had one thread, way back when (I suppose they’re all ‘way back when’ now) where Braig actually… Managed a civil conversation with Terra? It wasn’t friendly, you know, tense, eggshells trodden upon, but it was civil. No insults, not at each other’s throats. Just, ‘oh, you’re in Radiant Garden.’ ‘Yeah, so are you.’ ‘…. Cool.’ And if you’d told him he’d be chatting with Pebbles even a month before, he’d think you’re off your rocker. But, I think that was a huge sign of his healing, being able to see Terra as someone in a similar position to him. Manipulated, Vessel’d, cast aside, etc. Don’t think they’d ever be friends (not when his reflection looks as it does), but, grudging acceptance was definitely a step up. 
Beyond that? REALLY depends on how everyone else reacts. A lot of his decisions and actions are gonna be based on that - Especially the other apprentices. He could care less about what, say, Sora and Lea think of him, but, the others? Guards bros, especially? That’s a make-or-break deal. 
I ALSO have an idea where his Redemption comes RIGHT AT THE MOMENT THE WAR STARTS, when all his planning comes to a head and things for the Seekers just fall out from beneath their feet. And Xehanort just executes him for his treason. And probably nobody ever knows what he did. (We could go either way with this: He stays dead, or, maybe a few months later, someone accidentally happens to kill his Heartless and all of a sudden there’s an unconscious Braig on the floor in the Castle’s lab and nobody knows what the hell to do and there may be slight panic.)
And, of course, there’s also the bit with Lux, where Braig finds redemption in taking care of this poor orphaned kid. The tiniest nephew you ever did see. 
I also love the idea of ‘he nearly heals and then everything goes horribly wrong and it keeps getting worse’, because you’re not allowed to be happy in Kingdom Hearts.
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