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Hii saw ur shenhe! reader fic and really liked how its written is it ok to do a igninihyde + diasomnia with raiden ei like reader? 🥹
Ignihyde + Diasomnia with Raiden Ei!MC
a/n: random but i dont have any motivation to play genshin until i saw albedo came back😍🙏 also i lowk forgot how i used to write these
Due to your dedication to eternity, you're wary to the idea of a change. However, you show curiosity rather than disdain when it comes to new things.
Having lost many of your of your loved ones over the centuries, you're driven by a fear of further lost. Even when you locked yourself in Plane of Euthymia, you could not truly escape loneliness.
Idia:
who told this clown to overblot w all those high tech stuff💀⁉️ cause one zap of lightning n hes out like a light
"game... set..." "🌩⛈️⚡️⛈️🌩"
u didnt even let him finish n the entire thing blue screens😔
honestly he cant even get mad at u. its fair, who even waits for their enemies to finish talking before they strike anyway??
thats how he ended up w bandages but thankfully they have all the latest technologies to cure him fast
he found it kinda funny how little you know about technologies
u self isolated?? yeah he could tell😂
but since he gave u a tv, he cant let it go to waste just bcs u dont kno how technologies worked
so, unfortunately, he needs to explain everything to u one by one
the only problem is that he underestimated how much a boomer u r
his explanations is fine, u can catch a few things
but when he starts using one of his lil slangs.... hooboy
"ROFL cant believe someone so op is THIS clueless abt basic stuffs" "ruholf???????? ou pee???? what???" "oh geez..."
visuals of ortho, u and idia in that living room

unsurprisingly, he understands how u feel at the loss of ur twin sibling. i mean, he did lose his younger brother
he sympathise w u a lot on that part id say🤔cause like u self isolate after ur sibling's passing?? he pretty much isolate himself after his brother's passing too
so like dont worry bro🙏🙏he might not comfort u (he cant even make eye contact w u without breaking a sweat) but he'll tell u some of his coping mechanisms
Ortho:
hides his snacks from u cause ur ass gobbles down any sweets😔he doesnt want to go buy smth from the vending machines cause u took everything of his
ur supplier
by that, i meant he supplies sweets n desserts for u
it started as him saying sorry for all the bs that happened but then it turns into a lil habit
also hes ur translator if someone like idia or cater starts using one of their youngsters slangs
he gave u the full definition completed w examples whenever u asked🙏one of these days u might even start using the slangs!!
omg meemaw tryna be hip😢dont hurt em now!!
"whats cooking ortho? i hope youre not having a skibidi day😊" "oh geez😨" man they rlly r brothers😔
he tries to fight off the cringe whenever u start trying out the slangs but never tried to stop u
go uh... you!!😔dont mind the fact that hes cancelling noises rn....
idk if he needs to charge but in case he does, youre there🙏youre his emergency, portable charger
Malleus:
kind of like a powerbank
honestly hes very sympathetic abt ur loses n why youve pulled away from society + afraid of changes bcs of it
hes one of the dudes actively encouraging you
he invites u to hangouts (w idia) so u could explore the world n see what youve been missing out on
dont worry abt money bro hes here🙏if u want to try that new looking sweet out, just go take it, he'll help u pay for it!!
Lilia:
he was out on his usual late night walks, u were there on ur usual late night meditation
after that it turns into an everyday thingy
time is kinda weird for the both of u since ur both immortal n have lived for a very long time, so malleus sleeps late bcs of it while u dont need to sleep tbh
sometimes u would join him on his walks, sometimes he would join u to meditate
it turns from that to u joining his club meetings from time to time
u guys would wonder around campus to find gargoyles n he would explain them to u while u much on some dango n nodding ur head
u picked up very quickly on the differences between a gargoyle n a grotesque, much to his delight
since u could forge weapons n have tried ur hands in creating things, youre more than happy to join him in his little activity of making a gargoyle
u gave one of that to him for his birthday btw
u swear, the sun was shining much more brightly for the next week after
honestly, he wasnt aware u didnt kno how to cook
so when he saw lilia n u in the kitchen, he thought nothing of it
"maybe mc is trying to stop lilia🤔" oh how wrong he was
victim #1 of eating that thing u called food
after that, he tried to ban the two of u from using the kitchen
n honestly, since the both of u r quite isolated, its like a learning process for the two of u abt the outside world
since its a learning process for the two of u, u guys decided to always invite each other out on little outings to just basically enjoy the changes and familiarise urselves w the world
its the both of ur lil adventure!!😈😈lilia sneaked photos of the two of u btw (he showed it once u guys r back)
also who says u cant strike down a dragon during his overblot?? youve striked down a giant snake before and split islands, this is nothing to u⚡️🤛💪
he dragged u to the kitchen one time cause he thought it would be funny
he excused it as smth smth to help u get used to changes smth smth
"but i dont know how to cook..😥" "fear not!! i shall be your coach!"
cue the both of u burning the kitchen down (and almost the entire school) with ur lil chef hats
it was then presented later to the three usual victims, who r all fighting back tears (grim ran away before yall could make him try💀)
if lilias cooking was bad, then coupled w urs, its horrendous. the worst of the worst. they can even see smth twitching in the food😥n is that a smoke coming out of it in the shape of a skull????😨
the both of u looked kinda proud so no one was able to say anything (sacrifices were made) (n its in the form of the diasomnia's toilet)
u r both old old, so u got along pretty well despite the personality differences
any of the three sat w u guys n here goes peepaws w their "back in my days..." stories
in a way, u guys could understand each other a lot
he lost his friends, u lost ur friends. he witnessed the horrors of war, u witnessed the horrors of war
so like, u guys could understand n comfort each other better than anyone else🤔
he understands its hard to accept the loss you've faced, n he fully encourages u to get out of ur shell more now that youre trying to face n accept changes
he would even pull u to the light music club so u could try little things n maybe expand ur interests
speaking of, he tried to make u some dango after u mentioned in passing how much u liked it
Silver:
do NOT consume it or u might actually have to replace ur teeth💀🙏 his food comes w special effects
u?? barely noticed him
he would be asleep in random places n u would just step aside n continue walking to ur destination without a second thought
if he looked injured u wouldve stopped but he looked so peaceful so u just 🤷♀️ n walked off
sometimes when u wanted to have some alone time, he would be there in the forest or batony garden or whatever
honestly hes very peaceful to be around so u dont rlly mind his presence much
n honestly u enjoyed the animals that would surround him
u would absentmindedly pet them as u much away
whenever he saw lilia drag u into the kitchen again, alarms starts blaring in his head
like "is that... FATHER N MC?? IN THE KITCHEN??🚨🚨🚨"
hes convincer #1 in trying to get u guys to GET OUT n leave those kitchen equipments alone
"guys we're all not hungry do not worry. pls put the pans down. put the chicken down too. no NO"
he doesnt even know how lilia roped u into this
cause u used to be like "i cant cook😢" and now youre all like "maybe i can cook🤔(no)"
he very much invited u to join him n sebek to train together
youre strong as hell n he would like to improve himself in any way he can to be a better knight
he very much understands why u turned the way u r after ur loses and tries to give u words of encouragement
kinda uses the training together as an excuse to have u go out more n interact w people
Sebek:
youre thunder, hes thunder HELP.
his unique magic wont work w u around. literally one word n his magic is gone since you quite literally control every single thunder there is
his face when u striked malleus down😔
like he wants to stop u cause hey!! thats his lord but at the same time like hm🤔malleus does need help atm
hes VERY conflicted abt it n it is why hes just making faces n letting u do whatever
honestly youre pretty much his 2nd mentor by now😭
like youre so strong, u can control lightning at will n u defended ur nation before?? yeah youre helping him w training
he tries to spar w u from time to time so he can see the areas he needs improvements in
also victim #3 as ur n lilias food testers
he almost passed out btw pls feel sorry for him
he wouldve said smth but like 😭he respects lilia so much, n youve very much earned his respect too so he cant just?? say the food is ass when yall prepared it
so he just swallows it down while making faces LMFOAOAOAOA
"y yes... this is... very good!!" he says, trying his hardest not to hurl
he then absolutely destroyed the toilet after
also he tries to limit ur sweet intakes
"isnt this ur 10th dango?? n its just morning!!" "but desserts!!🥺" "NO BUTS"
starts a lecture abt how youll ruin ur teeth n upset ur stomach
u w ur replacing teeth argument
he was MORTIFIED btw. never speak of those words to him ever again
hes kinda awkward when u told him abt ur past n allat n how youre pretty much trying to change after u realised how much ur actions impacted ppl
very loud abt his encouragement but also isnt sure if he had said the right thing to u LMFOAOAOA
"BUT U TRIED UR VERY BEST TO CHANGE !! N U ONLY DID WHAT U DID CAUSE U CARE!! YOURE VERY STRONG N AMAZING!!"
^his word ECHOES btw thats how loud he was
he means well dw</3
#twst wonderland#twst#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland x reader#idia shroud#malleus draconia#ortho shroud#lilia vanrouge#silver#silver vanrouge#sebek zigvolt#diasomnia#ignihyde
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Are there ghosts in your amaranthine world..? Or ancient sailor’s curses?
I may be interested in inventing a character… is that allowed? I’m not much of an artist but I could write something for you!
"Ghosts? How absurd! An educated wizard like myself would never entertain such superstitious nonsense!"
(...Now, if you'll excuse him, he's gotta go research ancient eldritch powers hidden beneath the earth's surface and finish working on a potion made out of his unicorn buddy's magical blood. You know, reasonable, scientifically grounded stuff like that!)
So, to answer your question: Real ghosts = not canon, curses = yes canon, and could resemble a haunting. More explanation of how that would work under the cut:
You can attach enchantments to objects, so there would be nothing stopping you from attaching a baneful curse to something instead. A lasting enchantment generally requires a power source or some kind of upkeep to keep it "charged"... ones worn by a living creature can draw upon the body's own magical energy field... but can also be powered by the "background radiation" present in unusually magically charged environments. There are absolutely "cursed" forests where travelers suddenly find all the food in their rucksack spoiling overnight, areas of ocean where compasses stop working and the wind won't blow, that sort of thing.
So, you could also have a magically charged area that was "haunted" and caused visitors' minds to start playing tricks on them, perceiving illusions, hearing murmurs and clips of nonsense speech, experiencing objects falling over/moving on their own, etc. Any naturally generated "haunted" location would be pretty basic in its illusions, though. Something with more structure (recognizable figures, coherent speech) would have to be an enchantment engineered by a wizard on purpose, and would take quite a lot of skill.
Non-wizards often refer to locations with unsettling or dangerous enchantments as cursed or haunted, though wizards who understand the underlying magical mechanics behind those phenomenons might roll their eyes at that framing, insisting it's no different than when the town healer enchants a necklace to ward off sickness--just undirected and on a larger scale.
ALSO to answer your other question: You are absolutely welcome and encouraged to invent a character if you are so inclined! I would love to see what you come up with!
#ask response#verse: amaranthine#worldbuilding#furry#anthro#my ocs#hyden#also apologies for not answering many asks lately--been super busy...#I have scripts and responses written out for a number of 'em though just need to find time to finish everything
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Hermitdragons Masterpost (Wings of Fire x Hermitcraft/Third Life AU)
Grainshifter (Grian) was born to the Nightwings under one full moon, giving him the power to read minds. However, as fortold by Nightwing seers, he also possesses animus magic, a power that the Nightwings will use to bring their tribe into greater glory, becoming Watchers that feed off the strong emotions of the other dragon species, particularly fear. When Grainshifter attends Jade Mountain Academy in disguise as a Skywing called Grian, the Watchers take notes, and years later they surprise him with his very own death game featuring all his friends.
hello hello! this fic is on hiatus, and while I would like to finish it one day, it is my first foray into fic writing basically ever, and my writing has improved dramatically since a year ago when I started to write this. It’s been a while since I’ve reread this, but I have been told it’s good! lol. However! There’s still a lot of content (70k words and SO MUCH ART) so let’s get into it!
Fic One - Ruler of Everything
After Grian betrays Nightwatcher secrets to one of his best friends, Scar, he is punished by the Nightwatchers and placed into a death game with all of his past friends from the academy. However, there are two dragons he does not know; Scott, a Seawing who seems mostly normal, and Martyn, a dragon whose mind he can not read at all. Whose mind no one can read. Whose body can not be manipulated by animus magic. Soon, it is clear that Grian is not the only dragon here that is being punished.
Fic Two - Mechanical Hands (this fic does not exist but in theory it would after the first)
Grian comes to terms with his relationship with the Nightwatchers, finally realizing and accepting that they do not love him, and only want to use him. He teams up with Martyn in a shared goal of destroying animus magic, but a massive problem still stands; they’re both still stuck in these death games. And their friends are still under the Nightwatchers’ magical control. As the games go on, things are starting to feel hopeless, but revealing the secret of Martyn’s immunity to animus magic that he has so desperately tried to keep might just be the solution these trapped dragons need to escape.
Beyond these summaries, I’m going to try and keep these story explanations brief, however, if you’re interested is All Of The Art + commentary + more story explored through the art, then you can keep reading under the cut :) also just as a warning there is a lot of undetailed cartoon blood below
Designs
before writing, these were my first pass of most of the designs in the series! As you can probably tell from the references of the main three characters at the top, Scar, Grian, and even Martyn have changed quite a bit, and if I ever return to this series, other designs will probably change as well. Except Joel and Bdubs. Those are peak. The biggest change from these designs, is that Jimmy is not actually a dragon in this fic!(which is why I included the third picture with him, Scott, and Grian) He is super human, and he dies first for A REASON. He just looks the way canon Jimmy does, minus the wings.
Full Pieces
I made two fully rendered pieces for this fic. To the left is a scene from the academy where Pearl, Ren, and BigB are play fighting in the mountains while Grian and Scar watch. Grian is very uptight in the academy, struggling socially, and his friends, painfully aware Grian comes from a bad home situation and possibly raised in a cult, are trying to help him relax and have a nice time in school while he has the chance.
On the right is a scene from far into the death game, where Scar is overtaken by the magic of his red life, and is threatening to force Grian to kill all three Dogwarts dragons, and at the same time, blowing himself up in the process. The dragon on the left is Skizz and I hate his design, however the little tie thing is hilarious.
Chapter Headers
I made a ton of headers for the chapters of this fic, though most of them are broken on ao3 as far as I’m aware. However, you can see them here!
dragons featured in order of appearance: Scar, Pearl, BigB, Grian, Martyn, Scott, Jimmy, Ren. This isn’t actually every header but I’m going to run out of images and these cover most of them. The ones I left out aren’t anything special.
Mini Comics + Misc Art
I have literally run out of image slots. But that’s okay (most of the stuff was covered, but if you want to scroll through the hermitdragons tag then feel free). Hope you enjoyed regardless! This series is still very close to my heart, and even though I kind of lost touch with it, it’s something I still love dearly. Thanks for reading :)
#hermitcraft#life series smp#third life#life series#traffic smp#gtws#goodtimeswithscar#grian#martyn inthelittlewood#inthelittlewood#scott smajor#smajor#jimmy solidarity#solidaritygaming#desert duo#dogwarts#evo watchers#pearlecentmoon#bigbst4tz2#bigbstatz#trafficfic#trafficblr#hermitdragons au
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A not at all exhaustive overview of Vampyr vampires. As a general note though I love the idea that there are many many species of vampires! And the rules from different medias apply differently to those species! So when I say vampires I mean the game version specifically. Anyway, let's go.
So, starting with the Vampyr specific species overview:
There are 3 main categories / subspecies of vampires. Ekons are your more 'classic' vampires with a somewhat-off but otherwise human appearance, cravings for blood, powers of persuasion, etc etc. Skals are seen as 'lesser' vampires (I will not devolve into a rant about the game's presentation of blood purity again I will NOT) who are often less mentally aware than Ekons, often have a more decayed appearance, and can consume flesh in addition to blood. Side note: Skals can be 'cured' or at least made less feral by consuming Ekon blood. Then there are Vulkods, big strong vampires whose abilities favor physical enhancement. There's another type of vampire the game refers to as Beasts and they're kinda treated like a Vulkod offshoot -- one document references something called a Vulp and I've always attributed that classification to these guys. They're very werewolf-y, apparently minus the ability to transform in and out of that state.
Secret fourth thing: Nemrods. Yes the game spells it Nimrod. Yes this is a reference to a Biblical hunter and wasn't used as an insult until Looney Tunes, look it up. But Nemrod is an accepted alternate spelling for the name so that's what I use so I don't feel like I'm insulting Geoffrey all the time. Regardless, we'll get into this subspecies later.
It isn't super clear what actually turns people into the different kinds of vampires. Ekons can sire Ekons, or if their blood isn't good enough they sire Skals. Skals can also make more Skals when they attack. Vulkods are sort of their own category, and Beasts/Vulps might be their 'lesser' offspring but it's never specified. The main differentiator seems to be the traits of the vampire that turned you, and there's an element of bloodborne disease in certain Ekon lines that turns people into Skals. I do think there's also a component that depends on the person being turned, and that their......... attitudes? Traits? At the time of turning can impact what they become -- but that's personal speculation.
Important to note that for Vampyr vampires, you only turn if you consume vampire blood. You don't turn from being bitten. These vampires are poisonous, not venomous. Sometimes the potential progeny also just dies in the process if their body can't handle it.
Allegedly all vampires can trace their lineage back to the Red Queen. The game claims this is The Mórrígan, the (IRISH, not Celtic, Jonathan and dontnod I will hit you with a brick) goddess of battle and prophecy. Not getting into this because it annoys me on a personal level but hrrrgghghrgh it's The Lore, fine, whatever. The disrespect is crazy, but I digress.
Most of the information presented in the game is specific to Ekons as that's what the protagonist and most of the main characters are. Unclear to me if all the subspecies have the same rules and limitations, but presumably some of the basics apply across the board. Except Nemrods but we will get to them lateeeeer
That being said, vampire weaknesses:
Regular weapons pose a threat. Vampires are harder to injure, yes, but they can still be hurt with regular weapons. You could probably chalk this up to just game mechanics, but you fight humans and vampires while armed with the exact same weapons. I think for writing purposes it makes more sense to say they can be hurt but not killed by conventional means, and that's the explanation I usually favor. You can slow them down with bullets, doesn’t matter if they’re silver, but it's not enough to permanently dispose of them.
Sunlight. Ekons, at least, will burn in the sun. Not a super dramatic bursting into flames type of burns, more like a gradual smolder. To some extent they seem unable to be awake during the daytime -- or at least, they have preternatural awareness of a pending sunrise and will instinctually seek somewhere to sleep safely to avoid the daylight. Important to note that while sunlight will burn them, it isn't enough to outright kill them. Priwen has observed vampires being burned down to nothing but bone in the daylight and still reviving the following night.
Fire, however, is one of the only ways -- if not the only way -- to permanently kill a vampire. Unlike sunlight, they won't revive from being burned. Beheading is also mentioned as a means of "destroying" a vampire, but fire is the more foolproof method. Incidentally and headcanon-ly, Geoffrey was taught a behead and burn approach and this is the standard Priwen methodology.
Garlic doesn't do shit. The game acknowledges the cultural view of garlic as an anti-vampire ward, and Jonathan comments on it antiseptic properties, but it has no actual effect on vampires.
Wooden stakes / plant matter / fresh herbs. Lumping it all into one category because I think it all ties together even though the game is super vague about it. Vampires can be harmed by wooden stakes and apparently express aversion to all live or fresh plant material according to a lore document. But then Jonathan dotes over a houseplant so either Usher Talltree is wrong or Jonny boy is just built different.
Holy symbols are an effective means of temporarily stunning a vampire, but this seems to be a matter of faith -- both of the wielder and the one being stunned. Only Chaplains within the Guard of Priwen carry crosses, implying it takes a certain level of faith / belief to be able to use them effectively, otherwise why wouldn't everyone carry one if they work so well? Jonathan is susceptible to being stunned with them, but Sean freely wears a rosary and seems confused when asked about the adverse effects. Similarly, Jonathan expresses that he doesn't have the strength to cross the threshold of a church, something Elisabeth doesn't mention being a potential issue when she urges him to go to confession. Presumably other holy symbols could also have power, but I think it comes down entirely to a) the wielder believing it has protective power and b) the vampire it's being used on believing they're deserving of divine punishment.
Orichalum powder, which I mention only because it's a plot point. Mythical substance, may or may not have been used in Atlantis, has some kind of phosphorescent quality that mimics sunlight. It's part of what makes the vampire panic room at the Pembroke work and it fries vampires when used in specific ways.
Running water apparently isn't prohibitive to vampire migration because Jonathan and Elisabeth sail to America in one of the endings. Similarly, the coffin thing and the need to drag around the soil of your homeland thing don't come up at all outside of a joke or two so that's also bullshit.
Needing to be invited in is a problem for vampires, however. It doesn't seem to apply to public places such as pubs, and I'm sure there's technicalities about ownership involved, because Jonathan is able to enter abandoned private residences and places like the theater even after Priwen takes it over without an issue. But if an NPC doesn't want to let him in, he cannot enter (say the line Bart). This can be circumvented by mesmerizing someone into letting you in though, which feels like cheating.
Starving isn't enough to kill them, just make them desperate and pruny.
Touching briefly on abilities / powers / perks because this is a super variable category and I don't have it in me to recap that much about the game:
Immortality. Obviously. It's the one perk(?) of the job.
Vampires can have different abilities based on their bloodline, how powerful they are, and what specific type of vampire they are. Jonathan is OP so he gets some crazy powers, but otherwise most other vampires seem to max out at having one or two. Examples include regeneration, spawning temporary claws, pulling the blood out of enemies, creating shadow decoy copies of one's self, and vomiting toxic spit. A vampire's ability to use their powers is dependent on them having enough blood in their system to do so.
They can also shadow jump, which appears as teleportation even though I think at some point the game says it's just them moving too quickly to be seen by humans, so it only looks like they're teleporting as a mist. I think that's lame though so I err on the side of them literally stepping through shadows in a kind of mist-form. It's sexier.
Teeth. They got 'em. The sharp and pointy kind, too. We only really get to see those of Ekons, whose fangs can 'retract' unless they're hangry. Their four canines (uppers and lowers) are the only ones that are fangs.
Mesmerizing. Vampires of a certain power level can manipulate the minds of humans and lesser vampires. It's less mind control, more the power of suggestion -- although if it's done too much it can effectively break someone's mind. This is how vampires lure their victims to a feeding spot, and how Jonathan gets information from people that they wouldn't otherwise volunteer. He can also persuade them to take certain actions which leads to different outcomes in the game. But humans also have differing levels of susceptibility to being mesmerized. Some can be persuaded right off the bat, others need to be picked at over time, and others (coughGeoffreycough) can't be mesmerized at all.
Other general stuff:
Blood tastes better and grants the vampire more power from its consumption when they know the victim better. Presumably that also makes the blood of friends and loved ones more tempting. Uh oh.
Ekon eye color changes color based on blood consumption. An underfed Ekon will have white sclera that gets progressively redder the more they feed, and if they go too ham (read: Evil) their sclera turn black and their pupils turn red. This might be related to a state referred to as a Dragon -- a vampire, possibly only an Ekon specifically, that's gone bloodthirsty rabid past the point of no return.
Vampires do have heartbeats. I don't think body temperature comes up at all and I think they still run cold, but they do have a pulse.
They can't eat anything that isn't blood though, they just barf it back up.
Vampires can bite other vampires, but it doesn't seem to sustain them. It's kinda hard to say because Sean is the only Skal you can 'embrace' (Vampyr speak for drain like a juicebox) as part of the plot, and again there's some hand waving here for game mechanic purposes. Otherwise I'd say it's only human and other mammal blood that quells the hunger. Mmmmmm, rats.
Reproduction. Vampires can have babies the old fashioned way. Vampires with uteruses can get pregnant and survive, while humans with uteruses can rarely get pregnant and will most likely just get torn up in the birthing process. Either way: wrap it up.
Okay, and now for the pure headcanon stuff regarding Nemords, of which Geoffrey is one:
The only canon mention of them is: "What about the Nimrod, the mythical figure of the restless vampire hunter, sometimes described by ancestral British Ekons as a legendary huntsman who only feeds on his prey's blood and could go unnoticed amongst the mortals and immortals?" from a lore doc, and everything else is speculation on my part around the idea that they’re very well camouflaged hunters.
They're indistinguishable from humans, both to actual humans and other vampires. They appear more alive than Ekons, run slightly closer to normal human body temperature, and otherwise don't give off any signs / scents / etc that would mark them as a vampire to 99.9% of humans and vampires. And for writing purposes I tend to extend that to other supernatural beings as well. Generally, unless Geoffrey tells you what he is, you won't know it. That's what makes them such effective hunters. They don't arouse suspicion in their prey, or the prey of their prey.
To that end, he has slightly different weaknesses. Stakes and fire are still a problem, holy symbols don't do much because he's a lapsed Catholic, but the big difference is sun. Geoffrey can handle a little sun exposure. Not blinding direct light, but indirect daylight at the very least. Cloudy days are great, and on a sunny day he can manage by sticking to the shade. Stepping into the sun won't see him burn like an Ekon -- it takes much longer -- but it still isn't entirely comfortable, and given enough time he will start to burn (which isn't that different from just being Irish). He's also not instinctually compelled to sleep in the daytime. That being said, he keeps mostly nocturnal hours for the sake of hunting.
On that note: Nemrods subsist entirely on the blood of other vampires. That's why he's still a vampire hunter, after everything. He can go longer between meals than an Ekon as his body is adapted to the limitations of trickier prey. It's very very rare that he craves human blood -- he'd have to be starved and presented with an open wound to really get twitchy about it. Otherwise it's like rice cakes. They're an option, sure, they might even have negligible nutritional value, but the appeal is absolutely minimal.
His fangs are different because his prey has tougher skin. His canines and the next adjacent incisors are all fangs when they descend. 8 total. Extra sharp and pointy.
He has some level of light bending ability, explained more here. I've toyed with tossing this one out but I think it's a vibe so it stays for now.
Eating human food doesn't hurt his tummy, it just doesn't do much. It doesn't taste bad, per say, but going back to the rice cake analogy it's just not particularly appealing, and it has no nutritional value. Mostly it's just something he's able to do for the sake of blending in -- it's kind of a major tip off if a Totally Normal Man never eats. If he's around humans in a situation that calls for it, he'll eat or drink to keep up appearances, but it's not really something he ever bothers with when he's alone.
Still needs that invite inside though which can be awkward. Please just let him in he doesn't bite <3
The one thing I have been stuck on for years is whether or not Nemrods can sire other vampires. I'm compelled to say they're effectively sterile, which would make sense as they're apparently super rare -- and that relates back to what I said earlier about the condition of the person being turned impacting what type of vampire they become. Personally I think Geoffrey is a Nemrod regardless of the turn or spare ending. It's his nature that makes him that, regardless of whose blood he consumes. And realistically I don't think he'd ever be in a situation where he'd turn someone by accident, and I happen to like the potential angst of him trying to turn someone (for very good reason of course) and it not working. So for now, no progeny for Nemrods.
#jeeeeesuuuuuus okay i think that's everything. i'm done now. oof.#𝕳𝖊𝖆𝖉𝖈𝖆𝖓𝖔𝖓#sorta kinda in some respects#lore and hcs and i tried to delineate between the two#jazz hands#there's mostly everything you need to know i'm sure i forgot some stuff but this is what came to mind after like. an hour and a half#of word vomit typing lol#vampirism 101 with geoffrey mccullum and moss#there will be a quiz at the end so kindly take notes
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Hi! I just wanted to come here and gush about how much I love your half doomed and semi sweet series real quick! I binged it all in two days and you guys have done such a good work on it. I honestly think the first installment is probably one of my favorite pieces of fanfic ever just due to how great the mix of character interaction and action is within the fic. I also just adore how Mary is handled with James and how he realizes that Mary wouldn’t say a lot of the stuff his hallucinations are saying but also it’s still overwhelming and hurts despite this! I’ve also been enjoying the lot more day to day ness of the sequel fic too, where issues still come up but it’s also not, running from monsters all the time (unless those monsters are silent hill remnants/bad thoughts, sorry James!).
I don’t know if it’s ever detailed anywhere, but what exactly inspired you to write the sequel fic if you don’t mind me asking?
aaaaa this has been sitting in my inbox for a bit because I saw the nice words and it makes me melt into a puddle and I want to take time to properly answer your question. Thank you ❤️
I ended up writing way too much in my answer so the tldr; I have way too many thoughts and ideas and with @fly-rye 's encouragement and participation we're now in a place where there's a whole timeline and already drafted events still out there to do.
My ramblings and more detailed explanation under the cut
I think in the preface to Promise, or somewhere, I've said that literally all of this started as a joke. I'm also going to keep to my guns of coming up with it back in 2018 (albeit a joke that I kept to myself lmao). I had sort of kept my 'joke' meeting in some sort of filing cabinet in my mind. And honestly if @fly-rye wasn't a super cool and amazing friend and didn't indulge my bullshit we wouldn't be here (also I'm pretty sure that DBD audio of Leon sounding very......... y'know affected it too. I also started a playthrough of RE4 on Oculus at the same time. Also also this literally started I swear a couple months before remakes were formally announced.) ANYWAY this isn't an answer to your question, I just like rambling.
Now that sort of plays into what inspired the sequel, I think I am a 'too many thoughts head full' type of person and just have too much to say sometimes (and perhaps also too much imagination). I also like trying to explain things so the in-fiction lore makes sense (like... extensively thinking about how to actually for real explain how James got to Spain or What Is The Scientific Explanation For Silent Hill etc etc. I just like to make things Work in my head, idk how to explain it).
When Promise turned into a project, there was more serious thought into how their relationship worked and how to explain Leon's character changes in future media. Then it was a thought of 'how could things be better for the both of them?' Or 'what if they were allowed to heal and grow as people' and whatever else that can be narratively satisfying about seeing hurt people finding each other and helping each other.
Then that turns into 'let's put that thing into a situation.'
Which, of course, there are A Lot Of Situations considering Leon has... 4 movies and 1 game he's in after RE4.
There's also the interest of exploring the mechanics of Silent Hill and exploring how SH3/SH4 can become entangled with the mess.
There's then the flip side of the domestic life and living as """""normal"""""" people.
So to fill the gaps between Situations we've brainstormed a Lot of timeline stuff and certain relationship beats that should occur (yknow like their gay wedding, spoilers). I'm also trying to show how James integrates with the rest of the RE crew and with Harry and Heather.
So... Basically I've thought... a lot about how to make their ship and this universe integrate into all the canon events and have some random drafts for it (of course much credit goes to @fly-rye to a) indulging me b) getting sucked into this c) being super supportive d) brainstorming the Situations with me) because there's just so much potential!!
Now, this is kinda where I get stuck and why there hasn't been more posted, if you're wondering
I like to be thorough and in my head I think I need to explain and show character development in detail because, again, in my head, I think it'll then be viewed as 'bad' or idk, 'not well written' or 'not making sense' (as if any of this makes sense). So I feel like I need to show how these relationships develop so it's more convincing or whatever. I think about how some media is panned or criticized for bad relationship writing, ie 'we've been best friends for 10 years and he really helped me out, right bob?" Like who says that.
So in starting PE I wanted to try and thoroughly and logically explain how we get to the current point.
Obviously this is also literally fanfic and [insert meme here] it's my AU and I can do what I want [just tell you This Is How It Is]
But... I'm not great at writing fluff or character interaction stuff just for the sole purpose of development. I thrive on hurt/comfort and angst stuff (if that wasn't obvious) whereas trying to come up with story beats for a beach trip or something is much more difficult for me. So I've struggled to move forward because it's just not my forte and it takes practice and patience...
Unfortunately, I can be rather impatient.
It's really annoying when you're trying to be thorough! So even when I've got a plan, I just get annoyed with my writing because I just wanna get to the good stuff!!! Why can't I write this out faster!!!! I need to beam my thoughts into a document!!!
I keep on feeling like I'm making empty promises, but I do really wanna keep writing and posting. I am trying and I think about sitting down and writing a lot, but between all those other hangups and not having time, I just haven't.
I know a lot of this isn't exactly what you asked, but I hope it answers your question and then some. Thank you again for reaching out it means a lot to hear from readers!!!
#ramblings#kennderland#jumpscare of john f kennedy tag coming up while writing that jfc#James Sunderland x Leon S Kennedy#my fic#also re: having too much imagination... im an only child so that was my entertainment growing up lol#a lot of me getting in my own way is just who i am as a person but also comes from previous experiences and A Person being an asshole#also bad writing advice from like... high school that just is so ingrained i have to conciously try and not do it or convince myself its ok
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Yiren Disco 2025 Day 9
Ultimate Technique – What is your favorite superpower? Or which superpower do you wish you had?
Can I just reblog the gifset ^this gif came from and be done? LOL
More seriously, since this coincides with WIP Wednesday again... I’ll just post another excerpt from the longfic I’m writing. This scene involves Wang Ye explaining Feng Hou Qimen, set before he meets Zhou Sheng.
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Excerpt from too heavenly not to build him a sanctuary (sequel to settle our bones like wood and stone, but can be read as a standalone—just know that in this ‘verse, WY is a physics graduate)
Tags: QingYe ; ABO ; Alpha/Qianyuan ZGQ ; Omega/Kunze WY ; POV ZGQ ; established relationship
Wang Ye settled his head onto Zhuge Qing’s shoulder and leaned his body more into the Qianyuan’s, making himself comfortable for what most likely would be a long discussion.
“Let’s start with time... I made you believe that I was manipulating time but that wasn’t entirely true. Time is relative—nobody really experiences it the same way. For some it could pass in a blink of an eye, for another it could be a grueling slow torture. This is also true in a less abstract way with gravity and moving close to the speed of light but let’s not get to that.
“Think of it as... like branches of a river—one going through a steep hill and another through a flatter one. Leaves that fall on the latter would move more slowly than the ones that fall on the former. I don’t... really slow down time or speed it up, rather I pull someone or something out of the flow of time we are currently experiencing. Like taking a leaf from the steep river and putting it on the flatter one.”
“Wow... So, Feng Hou Qimen enables you to act on a higher dimension? That’s how it is, right? To pluck a leaf from one river to another, you have to move at a higher dimension, right? Like... the river is in the second dimension while the space we move in is in third.”
Wang Ye looked surprised and impressed, which made his inner Qianyuan preen. “Yeah. Exactly. Wow, is this the genius prodigy of the Wu-hou Clan I kept hearing about?”
“Eh, I just liked watching movies. It comes with the job. I’ve acted in a bunch of sci-fi dramas, you know?”
“Ah, I see...” the other nodded before continuing, “‘Manipulating’ reality is similar but at a much higher dimension. Hmm... how can I talk about a whole branch of physics succinctly...” he mumbled to himself, biting his lip as he reordered his thoughts.
“In Quantum Mechanics—that is, the study of very, very small things—”
“Way to put it lightly,” Zhuge Qing chuckled.
“Hah, yeah... Well, there’s this concept that every quantum—the most basic part of matter in an interaction—takes every possible path to go from point A to point B. The path a particular quantum took that we perceive is just the most probable path that it took—the path of least resistance or the shortest, most convenient path as by the principles of the Dao. Are you still with me?”
“I think so?”
The other hummed thoughtfully, “I’ll show you a video later further explaining the mechanics of it, if you’re interested...”
Without waiting for a response, fully trusting that Zhuge Qing was still following, he continued, “But we are made of atoms—electrons and other quantized units. So, we are also quantized and behave like every other quanta. There is this theory where we, too, take every possible path all at once and none of them at all at the same time or some other unit of change we don’t know of because we are limited to the spacetime dimension.”
The scheming little cat with a scary glint in his eyes held up a fist, “If I punch you right now—”
“Aiyah, Lao-Wang, does your explanation have to have violence in them?” He nervously pushed down the fist that was just waiting to beat him up again.
“If I punch you, it’s going to create infinite timelines—branches broken off from our current stream where in one, you managed to evade my attacks; in another, I beat you to death! And many, many more in between those two extremes.
“What we perceive as our reality is just a series of fortune we’ve been given and choices we’ve made. But in another reality, I could have been born to a poor family. In another, I might have chosen to stay in Beijing and opened a teashop instead of going to Wudang. And in another, ‘Qianyuan’ and ‘Kunze’ are just fiction tropes that don’t exist outside of a story.
“There are infinite streams of timelines and each of them have infinite possible realities. Feng Hou Qimen allows me to take one such reality into ours.”
Wang Ye let one of his feet fall to the floor and opened a chart, whose Plates spun ever so slightly. “In another universe, you chose to wear a long-sleeved shirt instead of a button-down shirt this morning.” In a flash of blue, Zhuge Qing’s shirt changed into the sweater shirt that the Kunze loved so much. He curled his feet back again and the chart collapsed, but the changed shirt remained.
“When I suppressed your fire with wood back at Mount Longhu, I wasn’t really defying the laws of elements—I just made it so that the laws were different because in some other universe, it is their reality. I can turn the Four Plates because in some other parallel world, the configurations of the Stars, Doors, Deities, and Stems that I choose exists in a particular snapshot of time of my choosing.”
“Oh...”
“This is why Feng Hou Qimen is very dangerous when it goes to the hands of someone who hasn’t let go of their desires. Because unlike typical meditation within the Inner Realm—where you have at least some semblance of reality and delusion—seeing your desires as reality in those other worlds, makes you want to stay there.”
Wang Ye frowned and bowed his head. “You remember my Master Lu? He could teach Feng Hou Qimen to me because there exists a world where he mastered it. A world in which he was stuck in, so we had to do our lessons within the Inner Realm because that’s his only tether to this world.
“And by teaching me, he has come to realize to let go of his obsessions. When he woke up, he attacked my Grandmaster—his shidi—thinking that he’s still at a different reality that aimed to confuse and keep him there. But now he has made his peace.” He let out a soft smile, reminiscing about his master. Then he shot Zhuge Qing a questioning look, “You still with me?”
“Lao-Wang, who are you looking down on?”
The Kunze was clearly trying hard not to tease, but he just nodded and continued, “Do you know the thought experiment called the ‘Schrodinger’s Cat?’”
“The one with the dead and alive cat, right?”
The other shook his head, “Well, not exactly...”
“Ah. Can the genius Qinghua-graduate educate this humble one, then?”
“Aish, why do you always have to talk nonsense?” Wang Ye pulled at his cheeks.
“Is it really nonsense if it’s the truth? I haven’t even said anything really?”
“It’s nonsense if you keep needlessly flattering me and bringing up irrelevant stuff.”
It was quite adorable that Wang Ye still didn’t know how to take a compliment properly, but Zhuge Qing was digressing, “You were saying about this ‘experiment?’”
The Kunze huffed but still moved on, “The scenario goes like this: you put a cat in a box with a flask of toxic chemicals and a hammer set to automatically break said bottle—but with the caveat that the mechanism only worked fifty percent of the time. Essentially, in fifty percent of the infinite realities branching from that moment, the cat is dead; and in the other half, it’s alive.
“But at the very last moment the hammer should break the flask, the cat is in a superposition state of all the infinite possible realities. Until such a time where you look inside the box and reality resolves into one possibility or the other.”
“So... the cat is both dead and alive?”
“No, no... it’s both and neither dead nor alive. It’s superposed—it's a new state of being.”
“But it becomes dead or alive when you look at it?”
“Well... in the actual experiments done later with an electron gun, it’s not really the observation that forces the electrons act one way or the other. It’s the interaction with the light that was needed to observe the electron.”
“...Okay?”
“It’s the cat’s interaction with you that forced it into a state of dead or alive,” the other amended.
“So, because I loved the cat so much that I wanted to make sure it was safe that I killed it.”
“No, no, no, no! It’s not about your feelings. Let me rephrase—it’s the cat’s interactions with the world that did it.”
“But isn’t still me opening the box that killed it?”
“Aiyah, if you insist, then sure. But. It also could’ve made it live, right? It’s an equal possibility. So don’t go overthinking about it. You didn’t kill the cat.”
“...Lao-Wang, if this was your roundabout way of breaking up with me, then it’s very cruel of you to make it so confusing. Just outright say that my love is making you sick. Literally. Are you going to leave me for your metaphorical box that is Mount Wudang, then?”
The cat bared his cute little Kunze canines, “Who’s breaking up with whom? Who’s leaving whom? Didn’t I just say this isn’t about you or your love specifically?”
“Then what is it about?”
The other puffed his cheeks and pouted, but he continued, “Remember what you said that day before I went back to Wudang? About doing a low-stakes prediction? Well... I did try calculating my luck just for some random thing. But I got lazy and just used an online calculator. And... the chart was flickering.”
“Hmm...?”
“At first, I thought it was just the internet or the site was glitching, so I opened a chart myself and... it was spinning even without me using Feng Hou Qimen. It was spinning so fast that it looked like it was oscillating between two configurations. Like if you look at where the Death Gate was, Life blinks in place of it, then Death and then Life again.”
Zhuge Qing reached out a foot to the ground. Starting from the balls of his feet, another chart emerged. But unlike what Wang Ye described, it was static.
“It wouldn’t work if you do it. Your interaction with my fate—as in your observation of it—solidifies it.”
“...Your fate is in a superposition state?”
“I think so. Yeah. I think... messing with fate—with time and reality—so much made every possible life I could have lived but didn’t collapse into this giant mess.” Wang Ye’s shoulders sagged, and he leaned further into their embrace.
“What if I didn’t become a Daoist priest? Would I have lived a life of leisure and drank and smoked my way into a liver or a lung cancer? What if one of my surgeries failed or it triggered an autoimmune disease that made me chronically ill? How long would I have had until total heart failure if it weren’t for my cultivation?”
“Do not—just—don't. I don’t even want to think about that.” The Qianyuan held the other more tightly and he dropped his head on top of the other’s, taking in the scent of his mate to reassure himself that he was here, in this moment, and not some parallel universe where all those horrible things had happened.
“It’s why my symptoms doesn’t make any sense,” the Kunze continued, “They aren’t a symptom of one disease but multiple of them. Diseases that I could’ve had but didn’t.”
“So, what does that mean for us? Do we keep testing you—keep observing you so you stay as you are? To... How did you put it again? To ‘solidify’ your ‘healthy state?’”
“I think that also makes the diseases real. When Chen Jinkui had me examined repeatedly, there were times when they found something wrong with me unlike when we did it. I think the more interaction I have, the probability of each reality changes—in which I mean that they are increasing.
“When we initially tested, there weren’t anything because the probability of a disease was very low since the most probable path for me should have led me to a ‘healthy state.’ But now, it’s higher. Although, I’m not sure if that’s because of the tests or because I used Feng Hou Qimen again.”
“Okay. So, no examining then, just to be sure. And no Feng Hou Qimen. If turning the Four Plates too much is what’s made them loose or something...”
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Please note that this is still a WIP and I’m still not entirely satisfied with the flow of the convo... Let me know what you think! Please let me know if it’s too wordy or too technical or too boring!
#i have thought about translating the scene where WY meets ZS and they talk about FHQM for this day but... the executive dysfunction said no#wang ye#zhuge qing#qingye#yi ren zhi xia#yrzx#i am nobody#一人之下#hitori no shita#yirendisco2025#一人之下动画9周年#yrzx fic#baze writes
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devlog #001
hello ! i am luci and im making a yume nikki-ish fan game-ish !!! this is mostly for archiving reasons only,, i dont plan on making a platform, hopefully this will help me focus and persevere on the game. i've also never used tumblr (as a creator) in my life but i like the thought of making a blog hi
i dont wanna reveal too much about the protagonist or the story and stuff- so i'll mostly discuss game making aspects :D i already know how to write, make characters, draw (even a little pixel art !).. however i'm still learning to use rpg maker (i'm using mv UGH >.>) and i have no idea what i'll do for music....... we don't talk abt music here we talk about game making
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aanywayy.. progress so far, right, meet our protagonist: lopika !! you don't need to know anything about her nope nope nope
her story and stuff is basically done ? i don't know how much i will tell hahahaaaaa soo let's js jump to >.>
progress
lopika has a room !!!!!!!!!! it's- it's a placeholder ok- i will definitely change it up later but this is the base to start actually making stuff >.> !!! i used bindpicturestomap plugin, it was rlly helpful and surprisingly easy to use!! will def use it a lot during all of this hahahaha
so what have i done for now!?!?! first of all, lopika can walk, put on her mask from the mysterious ds that contains one (i will update that..), save from the mysterious black book (i will update that too...), sit very carefully in her pouf and... today's addition
she can sleep [cue aww-ing audience]
well its NOT an awwing matter ok ?! if you've ever played yume nikki you'll notice you can exit the bed before the timer goes down and you go to the dream world.... WELL. IT SEEMS. ITS A BIT MORE COMPLICATED THAN I THOUGHT TO DO THAT BASIC MECHANIC !
that thing took 3 hours of constant testing and whatevers- not counting the indefinite time i spent crying and loosing hope, plus the rpg maker forums are DOWN FOR SOME REASON???? i tried looking up my problem on reddit, and while there's very good explanations... they don't work, i'm afraid i'm dumb
so for now, until the rpg maker servers are back up again at least, i'll leave that aside... she can, however sleep and get transported to dream world!! it's just a one-time thing though so she can't exit the bed once she's in, bed jail
so i guess i'll begin working on nexus and worlds and... oh god what am i gonna do with worlds............ ok, next up i'll try to make a map of my worlds !! i feel like that will also make me spiral next
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well, first dev log done !! idk how to actually do a dev log, i'm basically yapping, i made this account hoping no one will see it, but if u do and u have advice.. it is welcome here !!
i guess that's all for now, thank u 4 reding ദ്ദി(。•̀ ,<)~✩‧₊
#rpgmaker#yume nikki fangame#aka just a bunch of struggle yap#devlog#i guess??#haha u can put so many tags on tumblr hahahahalol
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Bizarro (or maybe not-so-bizarro) idea: Horde-based TTRPG because I wanna play as the Director:tm:. Enemies are represented by dice (or aything that can track numbers), players are cool player models.
A basic enemy group is represented by a d6+3, a larger group by a d10+5, and a horde by a d100+50. There can (and should be!) multiple of the first two groups, with the Horde being saved for climaxes or finales.
There are also stronger enemies, Disruptors, your Smoker / Witch / Hunter etc type of enemies who *also* get cool models.
I'm torn between players having classes and it being up to items to customize you, because I *do* like leveling up in-games... but as a very rough prototype, no classes, just weapon types and auxiliary items.
Weapons have massive dice (like, a basic pistol being a 1d12) BUT they also, more importantly, have a "base" damage number (oh no, the Pistol's base number is 3! that's so weak!) to represent spraying and praying.
Broad strokes, not finished / put too much thought into: Melees deal damage per-"group"/enemy dice, making them great chaff-clearing weapons but overwhelmed by hordes. Sniper weapons that are great at picking out targets by having massive base damage but can't deal base damage to chaff (so if I shot a sniper into a horde, even if it's total damage is 1d6+40, anything above the 1d10 would go down the drain, to represent what few collat kills you could get). Auto-rifles and burst weapons that deal great dice damage but low base damage (to make them great at horde-clearing but weaker at murdering Disruptors due to RNG), explosives having a radius, etc
Played on a Candyland / Monopoly-esque tile-based board, making a map with a "start" and "exit" that players must reach. Just like in L4D, they start with only tier-0 / tier-1 weapons and must scavenge their way into better gear, with stuff like medkits, explosives, etc also being spread around the map as decided by the GM. The maps have at minimum two "crescendo" events, AKA horde-spawners. Depending on how damage ends up being balanced, it could be one or multiple horde dice to accomodate the usual 4 player party. Crescendos will be explained shortly.
Players have 3 actions + movement a turn, the broadth of 'em all being added later 'cuz I'm not writing a rulebook I'm writing a concept. Each square takes around 3 full movements from all players to cross onto the next one.
These crescendos range from the usual L4D rush to somewhere / hold out X turns to stuff like a proper puzzle, maybe having to backtrack to find a missing key or turn on a generator, having to pick out a specific pod around the map for the keycards / explosives etc.
At the safe house, it can be the end of the game as a one-shot or one out of multiple sessions, with the meta progression occurring through player skills with weapons, activities, and possibly unlocking perks.
For role-playing purposes it might be interesting to dip into Darkest Dungeon 2 and add a relationship mechanic where friendly fire, having to do stuff alone, or a stress-esque mechanic cause conflict or a bond through players, that also mechanically helps them, encouraging group play to buff yourself and others
The DM of course controls the hordes, the pods, the placement of weapons, and can adjust things on the fly juts like the actual game director would. If the players are doing too well, throw an unexpected horde or Boss enemy at 'em. If the players are roughed up, throw some healing.
Could even have NPC survivors as a mechanic and an explanation to how other PCs show up, as well as having ranged "bosses" to take down. Stealth gameplay would also be an interesting idea to try and implement, because I think a lot of people would get a kick of sneaking past a gigantic horde, one bad roll away from being turned into meat.
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Aah it's so good seeing you post x] I've been wondering what are some of your favorite video games?or some you would recommend? I think I kinda need to expand my horizons.. I can only play so many elden ring runs lol
I feel you, there are only so many posts I can make writing about Mass Effect before it becomes redundant.
As for expanding horizons, you're in the right place! My taste in videogames is all over the place; I like to keep the algorithm on its toes.
Currently I'm playing
Taisho x Alice

Visual novel
Otome (dating sim)
Anime stylised
on the really really long side
Refreshing writing for an anime otome game, characters actually use critcal thinking and common sense. It's devoid of infuriating easily-solved-misunderstanding tropes and the characters aren't idiots.
And
Kingdom Come: Deliverance

Open world realism game
Red dead redemption level of survival and player interactivity but in medieval times
You're a knight
Your character starts illiterate and can't read and you need to teach him to read, and actually pass some reading tests, as in you the player need to read and pass them
Hard combat that relies heavily on player skill instead of stats/equipment
Actually intricate world with npcs that have their own schedule, life, and attitude towards you. You can stalk people like in skyrim and see them sleep, eat, shit, socialise, buy groceries, work, then go to sleep
Grey morality allowed and encouraged, never locks you out of main quest
Main lore is actually fun, no one ever monologues at you
You can be gay in the second game, while in the first you can only hint at it + have heavy gay subtext with the lord you're guarding
I'm saving up to buy the second game, damn you 80$ gaming industry.
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As for my favourite ever games!
Hardspace shipbreaker

Like one of those cleaning simulators where your task is just to clean, except you break apart abandoned ships in this one
Actually helped me learn and understand the mechanics and compartments of science fiction space ships. I look at the Normandy and can perfectly picture taking it apart, the core, the engine, the thrusters, the controle pannel.
Requires your full attention but can be done on autopilot, it's one of those games you go to when you want to disconnect from life for about an hour or two and don't feel like doing fetch quests in triple A games
Has a plot about the exploitation of workers under capitalism (space capitalism) and the befits of a union. You can affect the plot only in the "final" mission, otherwise you're an observer. But the game still goes on after the plot is finished, same as before, except you actually have healthcare now.
It gives you a goal of repaying your massive cripple debt at the start of the game, every ship you take apart and carefully recycle its material earns you money. But also the costs of living in space + interest chips at your saving so you never feel quiet safe
Has tool upgrades!
Death and revive has an ingame explanation and consequences that make you desperately want to avoid it. Basically since it's sci-fi we can create copies of people now, each time you die, the company you signed away your DNA structure to has the right to create another copy of you
But it's very VERY expensive for a copy to be made, and it gets added to your debt
If you're someone ever into ships, mechanics, and floating in space, you'll love it.
Also, this is the most relevant game to Mass Effect and this blog. If you liked the world setting of mass effect and want to experience being an npc in it, this game really scratches that itch. You get ships from exploration missions and get to see the aftermath of battles on them + some even have sentient evil AI.
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Tiny Terry's Turbo Trip

You're a kid who's parents left and went on vacation
You're supposed to go to school but you don't care and decide to steal a car and go to space instead!
That's the entire premise of the game
Cartoony, think of Loony Toons shenanigans. Npcs are hilarious + you're an unsupervised kid and everyone is concerned.
You collect hats!
It's very light hearted and fun, has a heartfelt touching ending and a piece about parental neglect
I played it during a low period, for a week it was the only reason I smiled.
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Pathologic

If you're a masochist and you know it clap your hands!
Clap Clap
Do you like reading? Do you like ominous clairvoyance? Do you like worms? Do you like evading the plague and curing the town? Do you like trading children used syringes and razor blades for vials of morphine?
Then this is the game for you!
Pain pain pain and more pain the game hates you and makes you walk extremely slowly everywhere. Survival is very very hard.
But it's the closest thing a video game ever came to a piece of art.
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Bugsnax

You're a journalist sent on an island to make an article about the animals there! Apparently the bugs there look and taste like food? A pizza moth butterfly, an ice cream caterpillar, a strawberry mouse
And you meet a bunch of people who were the first expedition of pioneers sent there to establish a town
Except... the leader disappeared and everything fell into chaos, the people seperated and now you must reuinte the villagers and catch bugs while you're at it
Very cartoony and colourful graphics
The main gameplay loop is catching these bugsnax because they get tricky and sneaky the more and more areas you unlock
You have traps and tools to catch them. For some you lay bait, for others you need a trap, sometimes a mix of the two. Endless creativity is allowed, as long as you get the job down, the game gets you free rein on how to approach capturing these creatures
Has a shitton of well written queer characters
"imma lift your crib dawg!" one line said by a hunk bf to his nerdy bf
Puns a lot of puns
No cheap analog horror of bloody gore hidden behind the cuteness facade. It has some "scary" moments but they're done tastefully as part of the ingame lore and with the same cartoony graphics
You do actually get some journalism done + do interviews around the town to write your article
Helheim Hassle

DO YOU LIKE PUZZLES???
DO YOU LIKE NORSE MYTHOLOGY
DO YOU WANT TO PISS OF ODIN AND PLAY AS A ZOMBIE VIKING BOY WHO CAN DISCONNECT HIS BODY PARTS TO SOLVE SAID PUZZLES
do you hate bears?
Do you like funny sarcastic and self awate writing?
This game is for you!
You might recognise the creators, they're the ones who made Manual Samuel, that game that trended for a while in the 2010s between youtubers bc it made you blink manually, breathe manually, and walk manually.
Except this is not the same premise or playstyle of the game, here you really just solve puzzles. Some complicated, some easy, mostly fun
But set in the same universe and same sense of humour
Check out "The Holy Gosh Darn" if you end up liking it
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Now I'm tired of writing synopsis after synopsis, but here are more recs! I'm just shooting games after another in quick succession.
I don't care the least about the graphic and art quality of a game; it could be made with sock puppets and I'd still take it seriously and evulate it based on the actual story/gameplay instead. I know it could put off some people, so yeah. It's also why I have cartoony family friendly games and gooner looking games in my fav list, I actually give them a chance and look beyond the surface, If the story and gameplay hits then it hits idk what to tell you dude.
Crimson Spires (visual novel + murder mystery + vampires + you're a cop)
Demonheart (Visual novel + dating sim + legit the most difficult ending choice I ever had to make in a game. It genuinely baffled me how the dev even thought of it. When I was faced with that choice, I just closed the game. And consulted my parents + friends the following days trying to make up my mind which choice to make, besides that the game itself is pretty average)
Vampire Therapist (cheaper than an irl therapy appointment + devs consulted actual therapist in its making + teaches you about cognitive distortion using vampire terms so it's not intimidating)
Toree (2, 3d, panic pack, fun retro racing game)
Quiver Dick's Terrible Tales For Terrible Parents To Read To Their Equally Terrible Children (RPG maker, juvenile Humour)
Echos of the Fey (Visual novel, murder mystery, elves! my fav depiction of elves and human vs elves war ever)
Jester/King ( Visual novel, time loop breaking mystery)
The Cave (PUZZLES!!! crude humour, requires multiple playthroughs. Creativity encouraged.)
The Forgotten City (Puzzles + break timeloop + ancient Greece misogyny. I picked a woman character and wasn't allowed to vote in the electons bc of it :( mind you the electons were a very important game plot point)
The Blood Mage (a love letter to old-school RPG games)
PikuNiku (Okay tbh I know nothing about this game + never played it. But it is the single game my now 6y niece plays in my 700+ games steam library. She is obsessed, it has been going on steady for 3 years, so that has got to amount to something)
Webbed (puzzles, spider powers! you're a spider and you adventure through the bug kingdom and help the ants and the bees using your webs so that you can save your spider boyfriend who was kidnapped by a crow)
I deliberately avoided mentioning the well-known games That Everyone plays and Everyone likes (Hades, Cyberpunk, Andromeda, Stray, etc etc) because it's redundant, you can find the same renowned 100 games listed in different orders in every single recommendations thread.
No, I'm giving you my secret stash of hidden gems, some of them I actually found digging through the trash of wholesale steam keys on shady websites, others I found by pure chance. I wasn't recommended a single game on this list by anyone ever, and trust me, I have looked; I'm nosy and lurk in a lot of gaming places.
so here I am recommending them to you!
All of these games are also ones I played from start to finish, which is quite a feat for me. I have the attention span of a humming bird, I'm quick to ditch a game at the slightest offence, the tons of half finished games in my library attest to that.
It's not just enough that playing a game is fun, but I need an incentive to come back. So many times I had fun playing a game but completely forgot about it the second I went to sleep.
Those are the annoying buzzing flies of games that latched onto my brain and consumed my thoughts at every waking hour. The ones that I'd cut my lunch short just to go play a little more, the ones I called off hang outs for, the ones I sacrificed sleep for and immediately booted up first thing in the morning because I really REALLY wanted to know what happens next + do more of this thing.
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✏ again :3
Send ✏ (or "PENCIL") for mun to write about a muse they thought about trying to roleplay or one they are already roleplaying outside Tumblr RPC.
||: The next muse I want to showcase is going to be an OC. I know that OCs aren’t exactly special by all manners of speaking but I did want to try a different ethos with them. Mostly the idea of a transformative muse that can be collaborative effort for both myself and maybe you who are reading this. It’s a bit much but humor me by following me down.
Before them stood another door beside the last one that had been broken through thanks to the efforts of a certain pink haired leviathan. Opening it (as one should…) reveals a winding staircase of impossible proportions. It’s ending couldn’t be seen anywhere in sight. However, the distance wasn’t all too far. At the end of the path presented a lab like plane, floating in the expanse of the unformed realm of idea.
||: Forgive me a bit, I’m a little paranoid when it comes to showing the things I so I don’t exactly want to show everything yet. Thus, I won’t be showing you the actual muse I had in mind…but two beta versions of them.
||: Meet ∃ or There-Exists if you’re not too familiar with proofs. They’re the prototype digital consciousness testbed I’m still fiddling with. ∃, greet these fair people.
“Greetings, my designation is ∃. I am currently a prototype for a much larger system. With time, I hope to assist USER:TOWER with the creation of this project.”
||: Not much of a talker, I know. It’s a bit of a basic algorithm currently. With time I hope to perfect it and maybe get a precise tune on how mechanical the main muse should be. Considering that the main muse will be a relatively flexible for how others would want them to be, I like to start with a baseline of inhuman before moving into granting them a personality.
||: Now, an AI is pretty bog-standard kind of character considering Browning is also technically an AI as well. So, what gives? We’ll, I’ll direct you to the other prototype I have around. Its designation is ¬∃! which I’ll let you all figure out what that means.
Before them now stood a container filled to the brim with a metallic substance similar to the property of the element Mercury. When moved, it ripples around, diffracting any reflection of light around. Inevitably, it returns to a state of balance once more.
||: Liquid metal, memetic poly-alloy, grey goo…nanomachines, son…The label doesn’t exactly matter so much that this will be what their body will be composed of. The composition since their inception was of a new generation of “smart armors” similar to the US Army’s ill-fated Land Warrior and Future Force Warrior programs…if a little more fantastical. However, the project would go a little off the rails and well…the creation would be a mechanical life from that would be capable of acting with semi-independence within the battlespace.
||: I could go more in depth about the certain background lore explanations for these kinds of things but I feel like when I do make the blog for them, I will have it published there for others to read. The meta reason for this is mostly because: A) I think its cool and B) this body will actually help with molding the character into a specific narrative angle if one wants to exploit that. From supernatural fluff to actual terror inducing horrors beyond our comprehension. Very flexible…and to be honest, this OC was created for that express interest. Having a flexible muse to play different roles with ease.
||: Once I do start actually pouring my heart and soul into them then I can give more concrete ideas and rules to govern how they should operate. Until then, I hope you enjoyed kind of reading through this little ramble.
||:Now go on, shoo! I have things to do!
#;> the tower ( mun )#;> ??? ( unkown )#;> dear john letters ( asks )#dracomultiverse#||: Another longer post but It helps with airing ideas#||: Won't actually be the muses I actually run but I like the idea of showing incomplete ideas as kind of beta personalities#||: Since I still rewrite a lot of the OC a lot#||: Helps me read through things without commiting
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@evilhorse936 said i should yap about malcom blame evilhorse its evilhorse's fault
ok so in the simplest of terms malcoms basically cupid if he was a stinky gamer geek from the midwest. and also a robot kind of. this story has gotten so convoluted over the past year or so.
it all started with this inventor called malcolm. who i guess is kinda like a god in the power sense or whatevs. a mysterious entity from another plane of existence. malcolm looks into the future and sees a human being born that he's REALLY going to hate. No explanation why (too lazy to write that part). So being the petty god he is, malcolm makes it his mission to mess up the family tree of this person so bad that theyll be basically a completely different person. In order to come down to earth, he creates a puppet / vessel to control. it can grow and bleed like any human, but thats just a well crafted disguise. its a robot of sorts comprised of complex and indescribable mechanisms. think bee and puppycat. the vessels general mission is to seek out those who are meant for eachother and bring them together with weird god magic YAY!!! but the actual main goal is to seek out the ancestors of this person malcolms gonna hate and make them like. have children with DIFFERENT PEOPLE (malcolm doesnt like to kill thats why hes doing all this petty shit. well more like he cant kill.).
It starts off well. the vessel learns to walk and often wanders from its "parents" for its mission.
When the vessel gets older, earth starts to change him. while gender never mattered before, expression suddenly meant something. (HES TRANS YAY!!!!). he has real, human love for his parents. (well ok he has mommy issues but he loves his dad guys theyre the best father n son duo theyre <3 :( HE LOVES HIM JUST THE WAY HE IS OUGH)he finds passion for cooking, videogames, sitcoms, and comic books. He changed his name to malcom because he loves watching malcolm in the middle with his dad. it felt right. he might have been drawn to it because hes supposed to BE his creator, but he has taken it and made the name his own. (no L obv) by the time hes in his teens, malcolm has lost control mostly. hes fighting back with the small notion of identity and existence. his own soul is forming. ok i need to wrap this up ok so.
he starts making friends for the first time finally and then gets really gay for this emo geek named shay and then once they become boyfriends malcolms like FINE!!! FINE YOU CAN BE A REAL BOY PINOCCHIO STYLE OR WHATEVER FINE!!!!! and after all that angst, gayness, and all those identity crises, bros a real boy :3
his special interest is cooking!! he makes a cooking youtube channel and eventually becomes a chef :) hes a skater bro and hes also been a devoted gamer like this whole time hes greasy and plays overwatch. hes a loser all around.
malcolm: "you are my creation. you aren't like them. you are a machine. a computer designed to carry out my orders"
malcom: "computer? ok computer? radiohead?"
BEFORE ANYONE SAYS ANYTHING, IM AWARE OF FHE PARALLELS BUT HE WASNT SUPPOSED TO BE INSPIRED BY NGE PLEASE.. GUYS...... I PROMISE.................GUYS.........
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Last Monday of the Week 2024-01-15
back in the saddle
Listening: The Skeleton Dance, a single from Perennial which I clicked on solely because the title and band name go together so well.
Short and sweet post-punk snippet. Go check out their other albums, probably? I'm still going through those too.
Reading: New Murderbot, which I am very glad to say I actually liked. I did not really like Network Effect because it was too all over the place and felt more like three murderbot novellas in a trench coat. System Collapse is much more tightly written thing that actually fits its length.
Two big things going on that make it work: a strong focus on Murderbot having a hard time dealing with trauma because it refuses to acknowledge it is like a human in any way. Murderbot not wanting to be human and refusing all attempts to characterize it like a human are such strong parts of its personality that it's interesting to see it get hit by that revolving door.
The other thing is very tightly constraining the tools and environment. Murderbot has strict enough rules and solid enough explanations that mechanical limitations build well into actual narrative tension. Murderbot only having two camera drones and no armour is responsible for a solid half of the tension of the book, and controlling how much access it has to other systems is a big driver of the ebb and flow of that tension.
Murderbot as a series has such a delightful economy of worldbuilding. There's the entire implied world of hyperintelligent bots existing just out of view, things on par with Peri hiding in systems and allying with a select group of humans because it likes them. The whole human/construct/bot divide is repeatedly shown to be extremely blurry, which is fun because Murderbot treats it as unimpeachable truth.
Also one of the handful of book series where I read about some little thing and search for parts at my electronics supplier.
I have just started Hannah Ritchie's new book Not The End Of The World which is a bookified form of her general research on "things are getting better, there's a long way to go, but fatalism is not only unproductive it's incorrect". Having already read a lot of her work it retreads that a lot, and if you see a long patch of text without any citations you can skip over it, but it is handy to see all the numbers laid out.
Ritchie's research seems more correct than not most of the time, so while I do sometimes go "oh come on" at specific claims or propositions, it's generally interesting and worthwhile if you care about the data behind modern climate change and how it relates to economic and technological development.
It is really funny how much of climate discussion really does boil down to "for the love of god stop burning things."
Watching: Noah's Shark at Bad Movie Night, a Polonia Brothers movie about the curse laid on the secret fourth son of Noah when he brought a demonic third shark on the Ark. Yeah.
It's on YouTube in its entirety.
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There's something funny about the fact that the Polonia team have put out so many movies that even their bad movies have flashes of clear competence in writing. Some genuinely good banter in between everything else going on in this movie.
Playing: Briefly picked up Dark Souls long enough to get to the Capra demon, but I have not tried to fight it yet.
Making: 3D printing a microphone holder for Dark Souls recordings because I did like editing those supercuts and the bad audio was killing me. Had a good time experimenting with dovetails and other sliding joints. Learning a lot about OnShape, especially poking at the Assembly system for the first time and finally using it enough to start picking up the shortcuts in earnest.
Tools and Equipment: Hey did you know that oranges are one million times easier to eat if you just cut them into slices and then peel the skins off. I have basically not eaten oranges for years because you can't peel them easily by hand. Oranges are great. Just cut them into quarters and go to town.
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SCP Idea: Standard JRPG protagonist that escaped his game.
He is contained by having someone with no combat capability stand at the entrance to his cell and basically act as an immovable NPC.
His backstory is that he was in some old generic RPG videogame and some wondertainment game console resulted in him switching places with the player. He gets attacked by the player's father who believes him to have broken into his house, and this leads to a series of fights that this JRPG protagonist interprets as random encounters until the SCP Foundation has the bright idea of handling things peacefully. The console probably got damaged before he was captured, leaving him unable to go back and a game cartridge that someone is trapped inside.
He'd be easy enough to get along with. Just don't threaten him and you're pretty close to safe, but generally, the closer you are to an NPC around him, the less likely you are to get into physical combat with him. Also, he's the type to take on every side quest available, making it very easy to get him to do just about anything. Just frame it as a quest, and he'll do it for you. One thing that could get in the way though is him being a silent protagonist, which makes it difficult to get explanations for any of the anomalous behaviors and abilities he shows.
I imagine him having some of the usual JRPG mechanics apply to him like having a leveling system and being able to get strange things to drop from defeated enemies. This of course leads to tests on what he acquires from defeating D-class personnel and some byproducts of various SCPs. Also, the file on him starts with a name and his current level (no one trying to write about him can resist including this at the top of the document), making reference to the idea that recording any sort of file on him gets treated as saving his game progress. He even often shows some degree of knowledge of the future that gets more precise the more recently his file has been updated. The inevitable attempt to level him up to 99 and pit him against SCP 682 would have 682 simply carve some runes in the floor. The moment 682 does this, the JRPG protagonist SCP goes into a panic of trying to escape. Upon doing so, he seems intent on having his file updated by one of the researchers as soon as possible. The updated file reveals that his name has changed and he is now level 1.
I really like the idea of him interacting with SCP 261 due to how much I enjoy the test logs for it where B yen, mon, Wadōkaichin, or some other non-yen Japanese currency is used. Just the thought of him putting in some sort of JRPG currency that he gets from fighting and getting generic JRPG items like potions in return. He'd at some point be witnessed somehow managing to sell one of his weapons to it by sticking it into the dispenser.
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Before Seven release you said that you would drop jikook if there is het activity in the mv and you seemed to dread the idea of JK doing something like that. So i think a big part of the reason why you are so against JK suddenly has something to do with him pursuing a girl in the mv and you're just using jimin's blatant sabotage as an cover to hide your real reason for why you are so resentful. When radio impact was announced for Seven I didn't see you being hateful towards him. It only started after the mv. Cause how did you go from worshiping the ground he walks on to shit-talking him in 1 day?
Lol 🤣🤣
You got me wrong anon. It's okay. I'll explain.
I was angry about the sabotage even before that. Yeah I was dreading the idea because I used to ship jm and jk together and jk having a female lead in his mv meant that he was portraying himself as straight. So yeah I was upset about that.
I still tell people that I used to be a shipper. But I'm over that phase now girl.
I don't give a fuck anymore if jk is straight. I just don't care about him anymore? Like he can be straight or he can be gay or bisexual and fucking jimin, still I don't like jungkook anymore.
After the song came out I even gave my opinion on it. I said that i like the mv because it was cute and funny. And also in one of my posts I said that using 'she' pronoun in song doesnt make someone straight because a) jk didnt write the song and b) jimin also used 'she' in like crazy which is obviously about using sex and alcohol as coping mechanism but we all know that jimin is not straight. So yeah using she pronouns doesn't mean that that person is straight. Though that could be one of the explanations.
I've said all that. Didn't you see that? I was a shipper even after the MV came out. But I've been questioning jk for a long time now. You can see my post about jk copying jimin's concept. I was a jikooker at that time too but still I called jk out.
So no it's not because of him having a girl in the mv that made me dislike jk.
It started slow from jk copying jimin's concept and then when the song came out I started feeling a dislike towards jk because of the way he was acting and because I started thinking if jimin and jungkook are actually dating, how can jk do that to jimin? That's why I started questioning the ship and that's why I started disliking jk. Because jimin is my bias and jk is a huge reason and participant in jimin's sabotage.
It got nothing to do with sohee. Now I don't care about jk anymore. I don't care if he's straight, bisexual, gay.
Even if jk is gay or bi. And even if jimin and jungkook are dating that won't change my dislike towards jungkook as a person because he's a big part of jimin's sabotage. I hate the way he basically sold his soul, and now he's being arrogant and bragging about it.
If you think I'm mad at him from shipping perspective then no girl. If that was the case I would be rejoicing and jumping in happiness like other jikookers because jimin and jungkook spent time in US. But I'm not happy about that. I'm not happy about a potential jikook collab even though I'll still support it because it has jimin in it.
I've openly said that I was a shipper. I'm not ashamed of that. That time when I said that I was dreading the mv lol I feel embarrassed now but that time I was thinking from a shipping perspective. But I had been questioning jk's intention after SB for a long time even though I was still a shipper. It's just the way he acted after release that removed the shipping thing right out of my system. And the way the company treated seven. That too.
See shipping is not that serious. Some people are so deep into it. But I think it's mostly just a phase.
Like when I recently became a bts fan I used to read fanfictions on wattpad lol. But that was a phase and I passed through that and now I cringe at the same Wattpad stories and even crack jokes about it.
Same with the shipping. Though it's fairly recent. But it feels like I've just passed my shipping phase lol. And now I laugh and cringe at the way I acted when I was a shipper.
I'm sure some ex-jikookers can relate to me. Some jikookers were sensible to see what was actually happening with the songs was wrong and got out of the shipping thing. While some are just too deep in their fantasies that it might not be a phase for them anymore.
So anon. No. I didn't stop liking jungkook because he had a girl in the mv lol. I don't care if he's straight. I used to care about it only when I was a shipper. But since jungkook acted so brilliantly arrogant after getting the biggest company push and contributing nothing to the mediocre ass song and still bragging about how he had a gut feeling that armies would like the song when he knows damn well how much money hybe and SB are paying to shove seven down out throats, I stopped liking him.
Because he was a part in jimin's sabotage and nothing is more important to me than jimin.
Thank you.
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Howdy Everybody
It's been awhile. I apologize for my massive absence from Tumblr, Twitch, Youtube and socials in general. So much has happened since my last stream that I need to get everybody caught up to speed.
There's massive changes coming as well, and unfortunately, streams and videos are getting the biggest out of all of them. I'll talk about Twitch and Youtube in their own separate posts here, but for now I want to focus on my absence and why it took me so long to come back.
Here's the TL;DR at the start here:
I had to go to the hospital in April because I was showing symptoms of a stroke.
Thankfully, it wasn't a stroke, but I was kept so the doctors could figure out what might've happened to cause those symptoms.
The neurologist said that the symptoms I showed could've been the result of the stress I was under, the aftermath of the COVID strain I caught back in February amplifying my anxiety, autistic burnout/shutdown, or a mixture of those three.
Since then, I've gotten proper meds to deal with my anxiety, gotten therapy, changed up my diet, and have found my true calling in career terms.
Here's the full explanation (Under Read More):
In summary, this kinda started at the beginning of the year. First, a close family member of mine had a medical emergency in January. Then, in February, I caught COVID and was basically knocked out for two months. In March I tried to bounce back, but was still exhausted and sick.
Now we get to the real meat and potatoes. April. April is where things just hit the fan. I had an unbelievable amount of stress on me at the time. I won't go into too much detail since I don't want to trauma dump on here, but to put things into perspective; I was getting stress headaches incredibly often and was sick about 75% of the time I woke up.
Aaand now we're at the thing that caused me to fully stop. The hospital visit. I had to have a family member run me to the ER because my face drooped and I was out of it, and we thought that I was having a stroke. Got there, got through testing, and it turned out I was clear of anything that should have caused that. No palsy, no stroke, and nothing wrong with my brain that would have caused that.
Came to find out from the neurologist that upon reviewing my test results throughout the past few days, there were three things that might have happened to cause this.
The stress, of course. The doctor said that sometimes the body might react in the way it did when put under large amounts of stress.
COVID. Apparently they've found that COVID can get into your brain, and it tends to amplify mental health symptoms. And wouldn't you know it, my anxiety had been beginning to ramp up over time ever since I caught that newer strain in February. Not even knowing CBT and proper coping mechanisms could help me stop it on my own after that.
Autistic Burnout/Shutdown. The neurologist said that this could have also been the issue, considering I'm autistic. Which, in all honesty, made complete sense to me.
We also reviewed my diet and what could have been contributing to my stress there, what might have gotten my brain overloaded to such a degree, and where to go from there.
As of right now, I've gotten my emergency medication for my anxiety and I've been working to better my diet and mental health. I've also been trying to cut back on stress, rework myself, and find a proper job to have while I'm working on writing things out for some original projects of mine.
I've since found that any job that tends to associate with customer service, high amounts of stress, and people pleasing of any kind seems to not exactly be my speed. I've noticed I kinda tend to overdo it to the point of disregarding my own health and safety in order to ensure the people are content. . . Which is a yikes. Thus, I've been trying to see if I can get a job at the local libraries around me instead while I write things.
But yeah, that's the gist of it. I'd like to apologize for all of this, as I've been gone far longer than I had hoped to have been while trying to figure all of this out. Thankfully, now that I'm back, we can redirect and rebuild here!
Stay tuned for more updates on the state of my Twitch and Youtube; I'll be posting updates on those soon.
For now, make sure you guys are taking time to self-care! Eat, drink, and sleep properly, friendos! And don't worry, from now on, I'll also be taking that advice.
#serious#update#COVID#hospital#I'm so sorry for being away so long y'all#I'll start updating a lot more frequently now that I've gotten things under control!
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going over the inner meanings of some of my ship tags for fun
⚙️caws and beeps⚙️ -> the phonetic sounds of laughter from both po3 and bandit
👻the contract of a lifetime👻 -> the ultimate life lasting contract.. a marriage contract!
♦️playing hard to catch♦️ -> a play on the phrase “playing hard to get”, altered to fit into the tom and jerry chase and rivalry these two go through in their early days with nyxie being a snarky on the loose thief and scarab constantly being on her tail (literally!)
💐the tourist florists💐 -> in selfship canon, alive pheonix and tammie (my name for the florist) were traveling flower sellers! they settled down in the kingdom that prince and mj lived in, and that’s how they all met!
❄️soundbyte❄️ -> based off of how the ninjago fandom actually makes up their ship names. was originally going to be tagged with “soundbyteshipping” but i felt like that was too long. soundbyte is a play on the fact they’re both robots, and how my s/i has the power of sound or, mainly, loud music!
🍌starting anew with you🍌 -> in selfship canon, yomiel actually breaks it off with fiancé sissel, because he tells her he wants her to move on and not have to wait for him for ten years in prison. he’s changed too much, and there’s things from his “past” he can’t bare keeping from her against her knowledge. this was all true, but it was also because in that erased painful timeline, he met someone new, and wanted to reunite with them.. wonder who that could be! (it’s me :3)
💼hey chicken tender!💼 -> created with the idea that parsley purposefully calls me chicken tender from the one goof up with “flower vender” becoming mixed up with “chicken tender”. it’s now just because an inside joke, and she’s still called that by him because she’s so obsessed with eating chicken tenders.
🎤the sound of your heart beeps🎤 -> a pun on “heart beat”, being changed into “heart beeps” because of the monitor always on his screen.
🎲dots and spots🎲 -> king dice has dice dots all over his head, and pupup has freckles!
🎰some bad rng🎰 -> a joke on the mix of a character with horrible luck and a character who’s power is “glitch”, aka working like game glitches.
⚔️sister from another mister⚔️ -> chip is basically an adopted sister into the borg family, so she’s pixals sister from another mister! the mister in question being her original creator, aka real dad, the mechanic.
💰i stole your heart first!💰 -> wouldn’t you believe it, gaster actually fell for minu first.. so a fun little bit on thievery with our infamous cringefail criminal!
🦅the best part of july🦅 -> when i made this, i think i was holding some strong spite for the history of july 1st? but apollo’s birthday is on july 1st, so he makes it all worth it!
🏜️luck of the draw🎰 -> they both use guns! that was my only thought process. luck of the draw is basically zora being always lucky with her shots, conveyed with “draw” being used in a different context, and gansley also having his own sort of.. “”luck”” with his draws.
🎵crimes and covers🎵 -> randomly came up with this one day and thought it was too good to not use. singing while they do crimes together! and covering up evidence maybe.
👻till death did we part✨ -> mj, pheonix, and snatcher weren’t able to all be together until they died and had the freedom of eternal afterlife. a play on “till death do we part”.
🖋️writing our own path🖋️ -> designer and narry decide to create their own path of life instead of being confined to the programs of the game! narry is only convinced with how out of the box designer can always be, so now they live normal like stanley. the best they can live normally when they’re still practically gods, that is..
❤️your doom draws near❤️ -> a pun! draw is inputted for tablets artistic ability, and the rest is all 4s. sorry this explanation isn’t great, it’s basically a big ol’ pun..
🕶️coffee brown fur🕶️ -> mick works in a coffee shop that agent one comes to all the time! alongside agent one also being a werewolf in this selfship canon. his fur is brown, like coffee!
🐍would you go with me?🐍 -> a reference to the country song under the same name by Josh Turner. it screams striker to me, so i decided to use it for his tag!
🏜️runtime error🏜️ -> actually made up by one of my friends! shout out to you, mel. thanks for saving my ass on this one
(feel free to ask about any other ones, if you wanna! i like talking about my ships :3)
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