#also I’m in bed watching amazing world of gumball for now and I’m really in here cracking up

[crybaby-bkg]

I have bronchitis right now and I am so angry about it bc I’m supposed to be going to the store and baking a ton for tomorrow and all I feel like doing is taking a 9 hour nap :(

[sporadic-writer]

What's in a name?

I made an OC character. Let’s pretend that everything worked out after Endgame. Or like.. things worked out after Civil War and this is before it all went to shit. This is more of an intro mainly. I honestly don’t really know where I’m goin with this. Also, eventually Bucky x OC.

Word count - 1424

Warnings - some swearing I guess, bad first time writing?

Tony walks into the common area of the Avengers tower. Everyone was all lounging about and not paying any mind to anything in particular.

“Alrighty team. We got a couple of visitors coming up in a bit. So look alive! Not that Wade needs your upmost attention, or respect, but they have info we need.”

           “Wait. Wade Wilson? As in that annoying fool Deadpool?” Sam asks. Tony nods in response, “Ha! This will be fun! Is she coming too?”

           “Yes, yes she is. The X-Men still think he needs a babysitter, which isn’t wrong. But she’s respectable and has a lot of experience under her belt. Acts pretty casual for nearly being a century old, but she keeps the connection between us and them.”

           “She’s hot too!” Sam pipes up eagerly to add that in for the group. The others mainly just roll their eyes or scoff while slightly nodding in agreement.

           Steve has a questionable look on his face, “I didn’t know E was nearly 100.”

           “Who is E guys?” Peter Parker meekly askes from the couch next to Bucky, who has the same curious look on his face.

           “Oh, she’s a vet like the Crypt Keepers here,” Tony explains while pointing to Bucky and Steve. “The main difference is that she was never frozen. Oh! And she has powers. Controlling the elements and all that. I see the look on your face, to answer your question; the stuff Hydra and the Nazis did to her during the war kept her alive. But she’s cool about it so don’t get morbid on my ass. Ok?”

           Peter and everyone else nods in understanding. Tony tells them that they will be at the Tower within the hour. Everyone just goes back to doing what they were doing before.

           About 45 minutes later, the elevator dings and two people walk out. The first people see, or hear rather, is the Merc with the Mouth announcing his presence. Followed by a woman who smirks and rolls her eyes.

           “No no! Don’t get up people, especially since some of you are quite old. Wouldn’t want anyone to bust a hip on my behalf. Ow! E don’t hit me! And don’t look at me like that! Fine.. I’ll behave.”

           The silver hair woman catches everyone off guard. Mainly because she kept Wade Wilson in line. But also, because she doesn’t look at day over 25 for someone who is nearly 100 years old. She just scoffs and looks around.

           “No, you physically cannot behave. You’re an asshole who must always be a smart alec. I’m sorry for him, now and anything he will do. I’m E.” She goes to shake hands with those closest to her.

           “What does E stand for?” Peter askes from the back of the group.

           “That is private, personal information. I keep that to myself” She shifts on her feet while continuing to explain. “Everyone takes their guess though, so I assume you will eventually right?” Peter shrugs in agreement.

           “Right, now that we have all met ‘White Storm’ can we get on with the information sharing? I have an Amazing World of Gumball marathon to get back to while getting cuddly with Beast.”

           E laughs out loud and moves toward the conference room. “Jesus I hate you sometimes. But he’s right, we should handle this.” She struts off while a confident sway in her hips, the men in the rooms following without thinking. The women admire her presence and chuckle at the men acting like boys trailing behind her.

           About an hour or so later, they all head out of the conference room knowing all information everyone needs to know. Wade made a joke and rolled out after the others invited you to hang out for a bit.

           “He has a good heart. It’s just covered in a hard, thick, intense… um obnoxious jackass coating. With a nice dipshit shine.” E looks at the others in the room as they understand, sort of, about her friend’s nature.

           “He’s fine. Most of us have gotten used to it. The bonus is just that whenever he visits, you usually follow not far behind.” Sam smiles and flirts with the woman beside him on the couch. Wanda rolls her eyes at his attempt, already knowing she won’t go for it at this time.

           Little did everyone know, was that 2 super soldiers were getting drinks and watching this whole thing ensue from the center island.

           “Steve, shouldn’t we pull him back?” He surprised himself at the slight hint of jealousy he felt when he had not even had a full conversation with the silver haired woman.

           “No, I know E. She’s fine. This is not Sam’s first attempt at making a pass at her. Ha, you should have seen him the New Year’s Eve before Ultron. He got so drunk we had to send him to bed in order to leave her alone. She almost lit him on fire.” As he says this with amused admiration, Bucky’s eyes get wide with both shock and being impressed.

           “Careful Sam. Haha now don’t get bummed. You made a pass and I turned it down. No reason we can’t still be friendly,” she says while smirking at the man. “Now, if you excuse me. I am going to go get something to drink.”

           “Did you quote a Marilyn Monroe movie just there?” Bucky asks as she heads to the cupboard to get a glass.

           “Indeed I did. She’s one of my favorites. I met her in a New York City diner bathroom actually. She’s a delight. Now I just wish someone not from our generation would understand that reference.”

           E and Steve settled into idle chat. Bucky was next to them observing the woman for the first real time. He noticed how traits of every decade flowed through her. Grace and sophistication from the 20s through the 50s was noticeable. Her upbringing was clearly not from this time. Spunky charm and free-flowing fun from the 60s and 70s was prevalent in her smile and demeanor. Then, her openness and bright eyes for adventure surely gotten from the 80s to now was also at large. Not only were her eyes bright, but they were purple as well. They were like two gemstones sparkling out. Yet, behind them, he could see the hardships she’s faced. He could see it because it was the same he sees in his own eyes.

           “I’ve never seen purple eyes before.” He blurts out without thinking. She smiles while Rhodes mutters a “smooth” behind him while digging in the fridge.

           “Yeah, side effect from the testing done on me during the war,” she notes his regretful face for bringing up an intense topic. “No no it is completely fine! I see my look as an upside to all that happened.”

           “If you don’t mind me asking, how did you get over all of that messed up stuff that happened to you? It took me a long time to get control of the big guy.” Bruce looks timid, but immensely curious in asking.

           “For the most part … a huge bag of weed. Picked that trick up in the 60s”

           Peter nearly coughs to death from the couch, while Tony makes a comment of this being why he likes her. While Bruce simply takes in the response he was not expecting. Bucky continued to be surprised by her. E explained how it keeps her calm or helps her sleep, adding that it also adds to a good time. Steve’s slight look of disapproval was gone when she shoved his shoulder and told him to loosen up. Everyone fell into a fun rhythm. Eventually though, E had to leave. She stated that there was work to do with the X-Men and she needed to head back. Before leaving, Tony invited her to the event being held next weekend. She eagerly said yes before giving a genuine smile goodbye and heading toward the elevator.

           Nat looked at Tony with a questioning face. “We are holding an event next weekend?”

           “Yes,” he simply responded. “That way we see more of her, and I get to please the big wigs on Capitol Hill by helping their image by donating to some charities. Just a simple cocktail party with a small little auction. No gala or anything like that.”

           They all accepted it was happening, while Bucky was just nervous and excited to see her again. Completely unaware of the future that was in store for him and the team later to come.

Sorry for the bad closing. I’ll continue more if people like this. Also, if ya got a title let me know! I’m blanking on one. Thanks for reading and giving it a shot!

[xwarneverchanges]

Fandom list

A list of fandoms {Also regularly updated}

Fallout 1, Fallout  2, Fallout 3, Fallout 4, Fallout New Vegas, Fallout 76

Far Cry 1, Far Cry 2, Far Cry 3, Far Cry 4, Far Cry 5, Far Cry New Dawn

Bioshock ( 1,2, Infinite ) 

Detroit: Become Human 

Watch Dogs ( 1,2, Badblood ) 

Five Nights at Freddys (1, 2, 3, 4, Sister Location, Pizzeria Simulator, UCN, Into Madness* )

 Dayshift At Freddy's 

C.A.S.E Animatronics (1, 2: Survival Guide )

 Joy Of Creation 

Five nights at Candy's ( 1,2, 3, 4 ) 

Those nights at Rachel's {1,2}

Popgoes Arcade 

Final nights 

Abandoned by Disney

Pork Chops Horror Show 

Secure, Contain, Protect

Sanders Sides {And Sander shorts}

Oxenfree 

Life is Strange

Night in the Woods

Kindergarten

Undertale/Deltarune

Creepypasta

Slenderverse (EverymanHYBRID, Tribe Twelve, MlAndersen0, Nightmind)

Marble Hornets

Bendy and the Ink Machine

Legend of Zelda

The Wolf Among Us

Until Dawn

Sally Face

Fran Bow

One Shot

Lucius ( 1,2, 3 )

I'M SCARED {DHMIS}

Spookys House of Jumpscares ( HD Renovation )

Dangan Ronpa ( Trigger Happy Havoc, Super Dangan Ronpa 2, NDRV3, Ulltra Despair Girls )

Maggot Boy

Don't Starve

Amnesia

Inside

SOMA

Hello Neighbor

System Shock ( 1,2 ) 

Hotline Miami ( 1,2 )

IT ( 1990, 2017 )

Alien Isolation

The Disappearence Of Edith Finch

Red Dead Redemption 2

League of Legends 

Mystery Skulls

South Park {Show,movie ,SOT,TFBW}

Just Cause 1- 4

Youtubers

Youtuber egos

Assassin's Creed {All the games}

Star Trek

Star Wars

Be more chill

Dear Even Hansen

Heathers

Hamilton

Undertale AUs {Underfell,Underswap,Swapfell,Fellswap,Mafiatale,Echotale and more}

Marvel-verse {Marvel}

DC-verse {DC Comics}

Regular Show

Adventure Time { + Fiona and Cake}

The Amazing World of Gumball

Gravity Falls

Minecrafters {+ Ex-Minecrafters - This also includes personalities and characters from series like The Minecraft Diaries,or TDM's Dr. Trayaurus}

Disney {That includes Mickey,Minnie,Goofy,and all those characters too,as well as those from older shows,like Kim Possible and American Dragon. Movies too}

Boomerang {Listen,if you wanna play Tom from Tom and Jerry,or Scooby Doo's Freddy,or hell,even Hong Kong Phooey and other really old show characters,now's your chance}

Nickelodeon {Old Shows,New shows}

Cartoon Network {That includes old shows like Chowder,Foster's home for imaginary friends,Power Rangers}

Retro gaming {Mario Bros,Megaman,Sonic,etc}

Pixar-verse

The emo quartet {MCR,FOB,P!ATD,TOP}

Monster Prom

All sorts of anime

Borderlands games

The Witcher games

Pokémon

Camp Camp

Steven Universe

Uncharted 1 - 4,The Lost Legacy

How To Train Your Dragon

The Last Guardian

Homestuck {+ Hiveswap}

WIP! Aka I have to go to bed

Tags will be added later

[imasucker-4-memories]

oh my goodness!!! a board game convention?!?! that really sounds fun!!!i didn’t know that existed before this moment but now i wanna go!! 🥺 i’m happy you were able to go and enjoy yourself!!! that’s a funny name for a game!! 😂🥰 what’s it about or i suppose why it’s called that?? 😂

awwww you’re sweet, thank you! 🥺💖 it’s a good thing you listened to yourself and took a bit of break when you needed it!! i hope you’re able to get lots of rest and relaxation!!

oh gosh there are SO many i love AH!! there’s probably SO many i’m forgetting but i love sailor moon, the amazing world of gumball, star vs the forces of evil, miraculous ladybug, avatar: the last airbender, legend of korra, violet evergarden, we bare bears, children of the whales, and basically everything disney, dreamworld, pixar and and studio ghibli 🥰💖

this show is really cute!! there’s a lot of cheesiness and wholesomeness and romance but i enjoy it 🥰it’s basically about this girl who’s born with bright red hair like an apple and the prince of her kingdom wants her just bc of it and so he chops off her hair and leaves and ends up meeting a prince from another kingdom and his friends/attendants/bodyguards and she runs off with them to the other kingdom where she begins to work as an herbalist!! i might be messing up some of the details but !!! if you like sailor moon or disney movies or anything like that, i would think you might probably like this too!!

hmmm as far as a nickname goes, anything is fine!! picking a favorite animal would be hard bc theres so many cute and wonderful ones, how could i ever choose? 🥺💖 i’m sure i’ll like whatever nickname you pick!! and please that is so sweet to say 🥺🤧 i’m happy i’m not bothering you any but if i ever do, feel free to lmk i won’t take it personal, okay? 🥰

you should go get some rest though!! 💖💖💖

I'm sure there are plenty around your area!! You should most definitely go! Especially if you love cosplaying☺️ Just gotta do a little research hahaha but this one was 4 hours away and it's the biggest one in America so I had to go lol I'm hoping to go to another one in two weeks but it's around when rent is due so I will have to see what happens if I can go lol Yeah I really liked it! and it's cheap! Like $10. Great party game and really silly lol so there are cards that have a taco, cat, goat, cheese, and pizza. Whomever starts places a card and says taco, next person plays a card and says cat, so on and so forth with the rhythm. If someone says a card with the same name everyone slaps. Last person to slap gets all of the cards that were played. So if someone says cheese and plays a cheese card everyone had to slap. There are three other cards. Theres a gopher, when that is played everyone has to physically dig at the table, at least two swipes to the table and then slaps, same thing whomever slaps last gets the pile. A gorilla, you have to pound your chest and then slap, and narwhal, you have to make a horn with your hands and arms and then slap. That one was the most painful lol. To win, you have to run out of cards and if you slap back in and and you're the first to slap, you win!

Yeah I'm really glad I took that nap cause I'm really refreshed now lol definitely going to try to go to bed early today lol but it might have also been because I was driving all day yesterday and didn't get home til midnight then didn't sleep til 3am lol

The amazing world of gumball is so underrated!! More people need to watch it😂 I've heard some of them and some I have not! Might have to make a list to check it out☺️ never seen sailor moon because of toxic masculinity growing up but I definitely want to watch it! I still need to watch more studio ghibli movies too. Let's just marathon a ton of shows and movies together!!!💖💖

Ooooohhh that premise does interest me, I'll definitely check it out tonight and let you know my thoughts! I'm a sucker for any romantic forms of media especially rom-coms so this is definitely up my ally! I just love feeling all warm and fuzzy inside seeing that kind of stuff🥺 plus I'm a huge hopeless romantic and will romanticize anything😂

So you want a cute and wonderful animal?? I was thinking fox but only because that's my favorite animal😂 what about mouse? I was going to say kitten but that has some other connotations😂

I will definitely let you know🥰 NO SECRETS!

I'll get some rest after I eat😂 haven't made dinner yet. You should get rest though!!💖💖💖💖

[deceesed]

tagged by @fantasytigeress love you!

this is so long what the fuck

Name: Ramseys Gender: Star sign: the half horse guy Height: 5′6/7″ Sexuality: not sure yet (demi?) What image do you have as wallpaper: phone: a really old ass supobi drawing and on my laptop is my dead husband Thorin Oakenshield

Have you ever had a crush on a teacher?: no

Where do you see yourself in 10 years?: in a shit house with a bunch of animals If you could be anywhere else right now, where?: my bed or the science center where I live What was your coolest Halloween costume?: I was Sweeney Todd for 3 years in a row What’s your favorite 90s show?: spongebob and the original sonic the hedgehog show Who was your last kiss?: i kiss on all the dogs at work so a pitbull like 2 minutes ago Have you ever been stood up?: No Have you ever been to Las Vegas?: No. and don’t want to. i dont like people and i dont drink 

Favorite pair of shoes: my work boots

Favorite fruit: starberries, mangos Favorite book: Lord of the Rings, the hobbit, my side of the mountain Stupidest thing you’ve ever done: fall in love

Hogwarts House: i have no idea probably the hufflepoof one or gryffindoor Average hours of sleep : 3 or none Blankets you sleep with: a sheet and a fake fur blanket (and my 10 thousand stuff animals) Favorite Bands: uhh.. i dont really have favorite bands i just listen to a bunch of different songs Favorite solo artists: George Michael sdjfhsjdhfsjdfh David Bowie Song Stuck in My Head: WE’RE NO STRANGERS TOO LOOVVEE YOU KNOW THE RULES AND SO DO I!!!!!!!

Last movie I watched: ... fusion reborn.. for the... 13479834734 time Last TV show I watched: amazing world of gumball Why did I create my blog: this one too put the the shit i like on and my dragonballseys one to share my kakave*ge with the world and hopefully get more people to love it like i do What do I post: MOTHERFUCKIN KAKAVE*GE and pretty rocks and random shit i like

When did I create my blog: Uuuhhh like a year ago Do I have other blogs?: hehe maybe :3c Do you get asks?: on here no but on my dragonballseys... a fuck tone and i can’t answer them all :(

Following blogs: Favorite colors: Red, black, purple Lucky numbers: 4311, 3

Instruments: i’ve played bass clarinet for 8 years What am I wearing?: my work clothes. so black pants, a black shirt and black jacket and my nightstick. my undies are purple Dream Job: somethin with animals i guess i dunno Dream trip: japan Favorite Food: crab legs and cheesecake

Nationality: german american turd

Followers: 

Reasons for your url: i’m Ramseys and i’m gay (dragonballseys because i just add the seys and it also sounds like dragon ball z but with an s)

uhh tagging whomst ever wants to do this just say i @ ed you

[high5nerd]

Alone Together--Chapter Twenty-five

Human.

I am...human. I woke up to that thought echoing in my mind. Human. I forgot what it all felt like, not being immortal. I could feel sensations that I hadn't as a spirit, like temperatures and heart beats. I would sweat when hot and shiver when cold. My tongue would feel dry when thirsty and my stomach rumbled when I was hungry.

Experiencing hunger for me was the strangest thing of all. As a spirit, we ate food just for the pleasure of flavors. There was no need for sustenance, but it was something we didn't want to give up. It made us feel human. Now I had to eat in order to survive.

When I woke up that morning, my stomach felt like it was concaving. The rumbling woke me up along with a weird sensation, triggering my brain to think of any type of food in existence. That...excited me. It was a feeling I never experienced as a spirit, and this was the first time my body acted like a human's. I thoroughly enjoyed the sensations of being alive, and not...cold and empty.

I noticed Alice was missing from her spot in the bed, her imprint still pressed against the pillow. Immediately I rolled onto it and smelled it, noticing her scent still was woven between the threads. Smells were stronger as a human, too. Oh God above, I'm going to enjoy being a human!

I finally urged myself to roll out of bed and pull on a shirt before making my way down to the kitchen. The lights were on in the hallway, and I heard a bustling of breakfast preparations and clinking of utensils that indicated Sadie and Alice were up. Sure enough, by the time I rounded the corner I saw Sadie making herself a bowl of rainbow colored cereal and Alice frying three eggs in a black pan, sizzling and letting the smell fill my nose.

Sadie looked up at my entrance and grinned, "Hey, Pitch. How's it feel being a human now?"

"I enjoy it thoroughly. I...I actually feel hungry," I pressed my hand against my stomach, hoping pressure would stop the emptiness that growled inside, "I forgot how uncomfortable it feels."

"You're lucky, cause your eggs are ready," Alice said as she flawlessly flipped two onto a spare plate that had dark toast already lying on it, butter and strawberry jam already on it.

I kissed her cheek and whispered thanks in her ear, making her shiver and grin back at me. For the rest of breakfast Sadie almost chatted my ears off with what she's been studying in school, which to be quite honest interested me a lot, especially her world history classes. If anything the Roman Empire, the unit she's studying now, was the closest thing to the Golden Age I was in, at least in war relations. She seemed pretty interested enough. Sadie was so deep into telling what she learned, she almost missed the bus for school, that's how much I know she's a history buff like I was.

"Sadie's pretty excited about you being human." Alice stated as she sat next to me, finishing her cup of tea.

"She is?"

"Of course she is," Alice beamed over the rim of her mug, "She nearly missed the bus because of it. When she gets excited she talks a lot. Even if it isn't relating to something she's excited about, I could tell by her eyes that she's happy you're here."

I felt a smile tug at the corner of my lips as my hand touched Alice's hand that rested on the table. Her fingers weaved with mine, playing. I brought her hand to my chest, right above my heart. She looked up at me, confused, her mouth parted in question.

"Pitch?"

I smiled up at her, letting her feel my heartbeat. "Can you feel it? It's actually there…"

She softly smiled as she put down her cup, watching her fingers press deeper into my chest to feel the heart beat. It throbbed at her touch sharper than before. She lightly laughed and pulled away, "I've never seen someone so fascinated with their own heartbeat before. It's kinda cute."

I smirked at her, raising a brow, "You're not going to get used to calling me Koz, are you?"

"It'll take a while," she waved off that idea, "I can adapt. Sadie on the other hand might take a while."

I rolled my eyes, "Way to throw your sister under the bus."

"Hey, I was not!"

Laughing as a human felt different than when I was a spirit as well. Somehow it made me feel oddly lighter, like it somehow gave me both amusement and happiness all in one package. Later that day when I was cutting up fruit to help Alice with lunch I accidentally nicked my index finger, and I was amazed at seeing the blood bead up and slowly fall onto the wooden countertop. It was so dark...and it hurt. Somehow my heartbeat began thumping right in my finger, and Alice hurriedly put it under cold water and put pressure on it to make it stop. Despite having the humility of wearing a pink band-aid, it was odd seeing that I actually had blood. I realized then I never bled when I was a spirit, not even when I was slashed at by North's blades or punched directly in the nose by Bunny or even when I fell from that great height of a building that Sandy threw me off of. I never bled. Pain, yes. Broken, sprained or bruised bones? Yes. But blood? Never.

I'm human now...but a part of me misses the spirit form I once had proudly. Mostly the power I wielded-which wasn't very much, mind you, but still something-and that I instantly healed when injured. But the new cut on my finger took days for it to finally heal, at least a week.

Alice knew I missed some parts of being a spirit. Maybe because I exuded that thought when she would teach me things I needed to know in the adult world like how to vote and what a bank account does and why I need a job...401(k)'s are still confusing as hell.

I was learning, trying to adapt into the human world and blend in as much as I could. I know a lot of people would hate that, trying to become something they previously weren't, but I honestly enjoyed it. I loved learning more of the human world. Before, I didn't care much for it, but now that Alice and Sadie have opened my eyes to their lifestyle, that I was now involved in it, made it the utmost importance to me.

In fact, I was given the ultimate test of 'blending in' when Alice's work friend and her husband and son stopped by for a surprise visit that one fateful Sunday.

Right when the doorbell chimed, Sadie immediately ran for the door like she always does. Alice and I sat in the living room flipping through books on insurance that utterly bored the hell out of me, and hearing Sadie's chipper voice talking to someone that didn't know my existence scared the living daylights out of me.

"Oh, hi Mr. and Mrs. Nicholls! Hi, Cassius!"

"Hello, Sadie," a voice almost matching Sadie's cheerful one greeted back, "Is your sister home?"

Alice glanced at me, knowing I wasn't prepared for actual communication at this stage where I was. How was I supposed to act?! Knowing Sadie and Alice, they also might slip and call me Pitch by accident. We agreed that in the presence of other people, we would call myself Koz or Kozmotis, the old name I used to have. But it's so hard to adapt to that after millenias of hearing just 'Pitch Black'. Not even a combo would work, and that was actually my idea. My behavior, even the way I walked would probably make people realize that I wasn't human entirely like they've been since the day they were born. I'll definitely screw up. If they bring up anything relating to things I haven't yet learned with Alice I'm doomed.

I tried jumping up and running towards Alice's room, but Alice sprang up as well and tugged the back of my shirt so I was forced to stand next to her. Just as the visitors' eyes cast towards our direction, Alice elbowed me in the rib to smile, so I did.

The five year old boy started crying.

Great. Just what I needed. First fishy thing to happen is that a child is in utter fear of me he starts sobbing. Looks like I retained some Boogeyman material afterall.

"Hi, Emma! Hi, Tom!" Alice hugged each of them and tried getting a high five from their son, but he was too busy wiping his tears with his father's shirt and whimpering.

"This is odd," Emma glanced at Cassius with a curious brow, "Cas never cried in public before."

"Sorry…" I mutter, glad they didn't hear me. Truly, I was.

"You must be Alice's boyfriend!" Emma beamed at me, her brown eyes shining. Her husband grinned as well, nodding to show respect. I nodded back, not really sure what to say.

"I can't believe after so many years this is the first time we meet," Tom grabbed my hand and shook it tightly, "I'm Thomas, and you're?"

"Pit-uh...Koz. Kozmotis Black." I stammered, almost tripping up. I wished I smiled, but maybe it was good I didn't so the kid wouldn't cry again.

I saw Alice release a sigh of relief and Sadie grin in success. Good! Introductions are down and covered, now we don't have to worry about it again. God, this is going to take a while…

The kid stopped crying after a couple of minutes, and afterwards would not stop staring at me. His blue eyes were wide like gumballs, and I couldn't tell if it was because of fear or amazement. I lost the ability to sense fear like I did before. I hated that. But nonetheless, I ignored the staring of Cassius and tried making small talk with Emma and Tom. They were nice people, don't get me wrong. If I was human for a longer amount of time maybe I would be more comfortable talking with them and acting like a human being, but...Emma kept making glances at me.

They were glances that held a story, kind of like the way Alice would drift off into her mind and focus on the memories of her parents. But Emma's glances...they looked questioning. Like she was trying to figure me out with just one little look.

The man named Tom was kind enough to keep me busy talking with him to ignore the incessant chatter and clamor of his son and Sadie goofing off around the house and playing with her old toys. I had to give it to him, he knew how to make someone feel less on the spot. I didn't feel as scrutinized as Emma was making me feel.

"So do you live around here, Koz?" he asked, folding his arms.

I nodded, "I just moved in with Alice lately. Though it was time for a stronger commitment than living on my own."

He laughed at that and winked, "The strongest commitment is marriage, my friend. Trust me, I would know," he grinned at Emma, who was laughing at something Alice said, "I dated Emma for such a long time I could see she was getting impatient."

I smirked at that, glancing at Alice in turn, "Sounds like something Alice would do, too."

"I don't doubt it. You thinking about it, though?" he looked at me, though posing a serious question he seemed rather lighthearted about it.

A moment must've passed. It wasn't because I was thinking of reasons why I would love to marry her...more like daydreams of what a married life would be like with Alice. I finally smiled at Tom, "...Yeah. I've been thinking about it a lot."

"Cool," he nodded, "Might want to act on it fast, though. You have any idea when?"

"Mm...when she's ready. Probably when we get enough money to buy a bigger house. She's been talking about that lately." I glanced at my shoes, knowing it could take another couple years for Alice to even consider buying a new home.

"What's wrong with this one?" Tom looked at the kitchen and then the hallway, "If you guys were selling this, Emma and I would buy it in a heartbeat. It's really cozy."

"Yeah, but...she's got her reasons. It's a little run down, too." I glanced at him, who nodded in return in understanding.

"Sure, but nothing like a little maintenance couldn't fix. When I was little my parents-"

But the more Tom talked, my ears tuned in to Alice and Emma's conversation. I still nodded in a pattern and looked at Tom as he talked to show I was listening, but I could hear Alice whisper, "You okay, Emma? You look a little….pensive."

"I'm fine," Emma paused, probably glancing at me again, "It's just...something about your boyfriend is weird."

"Weird? How?" Alice sounded nervous. That was when I glanced at her, and she stared back.

She knew I was listening in. I haven't lost all my abilities.

Emma shrugged, looking back at Alice, "I don't know. I feel like somehow I know him from somewhere, but I can't place it. Like...like childhood or something."

That made me panic. I must've made a sudden movement because Tom rested a hand on my shoulder and asked, "You okay, buddy? You look a little pale."

I've given so many nightmares to children in the past. Almost every single child known in the planet. If Emma was one of those few children that was able to sneak a glance before they fell asleep or saw me leave after they woke up from fright, I'm dead. I wouldn't know what to do or say...or what Emma would even do or say. Hell, not even Alice. Tom would definitely be shocked into silence, and probably think Emma was talking nonsense.

But the rest of the visit went well, and Emma soon forgot about thinking she knew me from somewhere. Tom and I ended up being acquaintances, a person I would definitely remember and want to see from time to time. By the time they left, Cassius was less afraid of me, but still wouldn't breathe a word when my presence was near. He would just stare in awe...probably wondering why I was human and not hiding under his bed.

"Thank you so much for visiting, Emma, Tom," Alice bidded as they left into the open, night air.

"It was a pleasure, thank you in return for letting us stay a little longer." Emma smiled at us, and I bowed my head in return.

Tom squinted up at the night sky, "I say, the wind is awfully chilly tonight. I thought it was supposed to be warm?"

I looked up, noting the moon was a sinister shade of grey instead of its milky white. The wind was colder as well...something about the night ran a chill up my spine.

That scared me...I have not felt this chill in such a long time.

"I bet the weatherman screwed up again," Emma rolled her eyes before turning to Cassius in her arms, "Say goodbye, Cas, we're going home now."

Cassius blinked at Alice and I before waving a tiny hand at us, "Bye bye, Boogeyman." he said softly.

I heard Alice gasp, and I sucked in a breath. Even though Emma scolded Cassius for calling me that before they left, Alice was pretty shaken up by that. I guess children could still see...that part of me. Though that moment was almost an identity breach, it wasn't something we could worry about. I didn't see it as fitting to fret over, since now the deed was done and I had a pulse, a breath and a heart beating once more. We could easily brush it off as nonsense of children…

...Even if it wasn't.

Deep down, Alice knew the Boogeyman was a part of me. I may have been returned to the body I once had before the time of darkness and nightmares, but I felt like a part of me was missing. I was still the man that enjoyed the darkness, that found peace when it was just the silence of night and found comfort in the nightmares that others had. It made me feel not alone. Now that they're gone, what could replace it?

Alice's hand gently touched my arm, getting my attention. I glanced from her, smiled and then back at the sky.

"You've been standing there for a while. Is everything okay?" she asked, her hand slipping down to hold my wrist.

"Yeah…" I stared at the moon, "For now."

"For now?"

I shook my head and wrapped an arm around her shoulder, closing the door after us. "Something's going to happen. If humans like Emma and Tom can feel it in the air...it's going to be soon."

Alice watched me as I locked the door and slid the bolt shut, making sure no one could leave or enter for the night. The only lights on now were in the kitchen, the bathroom across from Sadie's room and the hallway where Alice's room lay. Night was upon us, along with something else I wasn't sure of.

"You know what it is?" Alice seemed pretty serious.

I shook my head again. "No. Besides," I smiled at her, "We're under the protection of the Guardians along with myself. It was their promise to you and Sadie, as well as me. They owe us that much."

Alice grinned at that, and then tugged on my arm like a naive child. "Come to bed, Pitch. Keep telling me your promises."

I laughed at that, and then followed her to her room, unbuttoning my shirt.

Little did I know, something lurked outside. It watched us. It heard the promise the Guardians kept as well as the one I made, watching through the window while hidden in the forest.

With a smirk, she disappeared into the mist of the forest…

Seeking the revenge she promised on my family.

[ekakinomi-forgrownups]

Questioning Neverland--My Thoughts On the Michael Jackson Controversy And Idol Worship In General

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Warning!

The following post deals with a disturbing, but important social issue that I feel people should know about. If you’re not in the mood to read that, however, use that symbol as a reminder to back away from this post and read another one.

10 days ago, HBO released a documentary called “Leaving Neverland”, which out-lines the lives of two men, Wade Robson and James Safechuck, who explain they were sexually abused by pop mega-star Michael Jackson as young boys for years, in disturbing detail.

The documentary explains how Mr. Jackson used a friendly facade to “befriend” the then-super-fans Robson and Safechuck at different times, and used his super-star glamour to charm and enchant their mothers into letting their little boys stay with this man (who, in both cases, only knew him for a few hours) at his Neverland Ranch, a sort of indoor amusement park for kids…which served a much more devious purpose than just a fun getaway with their favorite pop idol.

Because Mr. Jackson’s favorite attraction at that “park” was, in fact, his bed–where he took the boys almost immediately after meeting them…so that he could start touching them inappropriately, on a regular basis, for years and years–as if these innocent children were just his play-things. And many witnesses report that there were a lot more where that came from–no girls, no men, no women–just little boys. He even went as far as to buy an engagement ring for James Safechuck! (*shudders!*) And to ensure that nobody knew about this “dirty little secret”, he lied to the boys’ parents, brain-washed the boys into thinking that this was how people “show love” to one another, and anybody who would dare tell on him would either get paid huge sums of money to be quiet or be threatened with anything from jail-time to death.

This documentary practically shook the world when it came out–America in particular. It seems everybody’s taking sides now– one side who absolutely won’t defend him after what he did to innocent children, and another side, mostly loyal followers and family members (the Jackson Estate tried to stop HBO from releasing this documentary at first) who say that these men are compulsive liars and/or just out for his money, and that Jackson was just an innocent, child-like weirdo.

And then you’ll find people like me, who don’t know the real truth, and are confused and completely conflicted as to whether it’s better to burn or hug their posters and record collections. Now, I’m not saying I’m a fan of his work myself–but I have experienced this dilemma many times over the course of my life. In a different way than most, however.

You see, it’s odd, but when an autistic person loves something (and that can be anything from a pop star to, say, a pretty color scheme on a fictional character), they feel this sense of true love for that particular thing, and like it could never do us wrong in any way. So when anything even remotely bad does happen (and that can be anything from the character changing designs and getting an ugly new color scheme to the pop star turning out to be an abusive scum-bag), it’s complete emotional turmoil, and we feel like the thing we love had just been ruined for us forever. And this happens for two reasons–1. Autistics tend to think of things only one way or the other, and it’s weird for us to think of something in a neutral way. And 2., we’re way too emotional. Neurotypical (“normal”) people tend to think that we’re not able to feel any complex emotions or empathy. The truth of it is, we actually feel too many–far more than we can express sometimes.

There was a point where I felt like everything I love has been “ruined” for me at some point. To name just a few examples: “The Amazing World Of Gumball” had its aesthetic changed to something I don’t like after its first season. “Pastel Yumi”, a magical girl anime I really liked when I watched the first episode, turned out to have loads of fan-service (meaning characters acting sexy to please the audience) of the 10-year old protagonist. The “My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic” toys only became better-built and actually accurate to the show after I stopped liking the show (I stopped watching it after Season 3). And speaking of My Little Pony, even though I think Nightmare Moon had the prettiest color scheme of any character on the show, I’d feel bad for liking her more than Princess Luna, because call me a goody-two-shoes, but I usually don’t root for evil characters. And, the same goes for the Once-Ler from “The Lorax”.

Since then I’ve changed a lot, and I’ve started finding ways to cope with most of these things and “un-ruin” them…but that’s because they’re all small things, mostly media of different types. I feel very differently on the matter of real people–which brings me back to empathy. While I’m all for #MeToo, it also devastated me. Not because a lot of my favorite creators and directors were being put out of jobs–but because they turned out to be horrible human beings that only think of women as helpless toys that they can stalk, grab and kiss whenever they want. I’ve never been in any of these situations (*knocks on wood*), but just hearing the fact that beautiful, innocent people are getting treated this badly just boils my blood and, at the same time, makes me want to cry for years.

Yet that still doesn’t stop me from watching the kids’ sit-coms created by Dan Schneider or the Disney/Pixar movies directed by John Lasseter, and it doesn’t stop me from wanting to check out The Loud House, which was created by Chris Savino.  All the men mentioned here were very talented, but all sexual predators themselves. Which brings me back to Michael Jackson.

He was a house-hold name when I was a kid, and my first knowledge of him came from both “The Simpsons” episode “Stark Raving Dad”, which featured his uncredited voice, and the Jackson 5 song “ABC”. But I got my first real exposure to his artistry and music during my Dad’s 50th birth-day party last October, where we all sat around, ate cake and watched music videos, and we played several of his hits in a row. I fell in love with the song “Remember The Time”. I also binge-watched that corny “Jackson 5ive” cartoon from the 70’s (which featured a huge portion of their early catalogue) the following November. So to be exposed to such amazing talent and good looks only to be compelled to forget about it all a few months later because he was a horrible person certainly boggled my mind a little. (Bad or confused reactions to sudden changes in plans are another casualty of autism which can be difficult to handle at times).

Suddenly, I begun to seriously ponder my own morals. If I’m a so-called “social justice warrior”, then how can I possibly still enjoy work made by awful people? If I care about minorities so much, then why do I still get joy out of art made by people who obviously don’t care about them? If I can’t bring myself to sympathize with people with such horrible attitudes, then why is it so hard to just ignore them completely? It’s going against my character, and it’s going against my own common sense. Yet if I push these things out of my life, my life will turn up-side-down. What’s a poor puzzled panuki like me to do?

Well, if there’s one up-side to this whole Michael Jackson thing, it’s that it gave the entire world a huge lesson in the dangers of idol worship. So naturally, everybody else is writing about the same types of issues I’m having with this, and how they choose to resolve them. I looked at some of the things they wrote for answers. After looking at the opinions of several different people, I finally found the one article that rang with me the most, and it was written by Constance Grady of Vox. It’s called “What do we do when the art we love was created by a monster?”. You can read it here, but to put it more shortly, this woman basically looked to 3 different literary professors for advice and reference, and they all explained different ways of separating art from artist through different types of methods, created by classical literature theorists. Ms. Grady presented each one in her article, and how it works, to show that there are many different ways of handling a situation like this. To quote Ms. Grady: “All these tools are there, just waiting for me, just as they are waiting for you. And the moment we start to question how we should think about any work of art, we can pick them up and wield them accordingly.”

Another helpful piece of advice came, believe it or not, from Pete Davidson of “Saturday Night Live”, who gave a surprisingly insightful lecture on the “Weekend Update” segment of the show that basically said, that it’s OK if it feels right to let some artists go. But if there’s another artist whose work resonates with you on a personal level so much that they’ve become a part of your heart, you shouldn’t put them out of your life completely. But you should acknowledge that these people did bad things each time you enjoy their work. Basically, that just because someone is talented doesn’t mean that they’re just as good on the inside, and you should acknowledge that. One of the things he said was very smart: “Any time any of us listen to a song or watch a movie made by an accused serial predator, you have to donate a dollar to a charity that helps sexual assault survivors.” After reading all these articles, I found my final, set-in-stone stance on the matter, that bridges the gap between my morals and my enjoyment of a piece of art. Here’s what I think:

If you really don’t like what an artist did in real life, then directly rooting that to their art will only give the real person power over your brain, your fun, your happiness. My mommy told me that no matter what the original artist intended, a piece of art stands alone, and is open to interpretation by anybody who looks at it. Anybody. It’s what she told me to help me understand the appeal of abstract art. And on top of helping me separate art from artist, it also helps me read (some) fan-fiction without cringing, watch modern adaptations of classic books without being to critical, and on top of it all, it also mirrors the Barthes and Livingstone theory mentioned in Constance Grady’s Vox article.

Besides, acknowledging or enjoying their work doesn’t necessarily mean I support the people behind it (as far as their companies are concerned, at least). To these famous people, money is one of the most important things in the world–a lot of times, more important than other people. So unless you have some money to throw out, you’re completely anonymous as far as they’re concerned, because you’re not rewarding them for their work, even if you enjoy it.

The only time I’ll completely make an exception with any artist is if the work they make is too similar to their real life. For example, the Cartoon Network show “Clarence” is about a boy…named Clarence…who has a positive attitude, but things and does things in very weird ways. An eerie mirroring of Skyler Page, the creator, who was fired from Cartoon Network for grabbing the breasts of a crew member for “Adventure Time”, and was later revealed to be a complete mental case…by one of his best friends, who turned out to be the inspiration for one of Clarence’s own friends! (*shudders again!*)

The same thing is very real for R. Kelly, an R&B singer who I never took interest in or even listened to, but who is said to have a catalogue full of highly sexual songs, a lot of which regard age differences and mutual consent. (*shudders one last time.*)

As for Michael Jackson…I don’t really associate his songs or performances with his real self because, if you really think about it, it’s pretty obvious that his pop persona was way different from that. a lot of his popular hits never mention hanging out with little boys. He mentions girls, a lot of which actually prey on him…he also never mentions any of his child-like interests that he had in real life…in fact, I think the only connection the artist Michael has with the real Michael are a few songs that are based on the good side of him (his humanitarian values) and those that are based on his awful childhood, where he himself was abused (not sexually, but still abused) as a boy…which could actually be one of his reasons behind his own abuse crimes. Almost as if he had this secret mentality, like “if I couldn’t have a childhood, then no boy will.” Or maybe he became overly obsessed with male children because he felt like he was getting back a piece of his life that was stolen from him, but expressed his love and sentimentality for it in the most disgusting way possible. I’m not excusing it at all, I think it was still horrible and completely uncalled for. These are just a few theories I had.

Yes, these are all just my personal opinions. And of course, you shouldn’t take that, or any of my personal opinions, as the gospel truth just because you’re reading my blog–everybody has their own individual opinions. And if you haven’t really formed your own, I suggest getting opinions from everyone and everything around you–your friends, your parents, other news sources, other blogs–and see what other people have to say on the matter, and let what you find help you form your own. It’s just like building a puzzle–it takes more than one piece of information to get the full picture.

As for my big picture, the real Michael Jackson doesn’t exist, as far as I’m concerned, and doesn’t deserve to. Just his character that he plays on the stage. And just like the rest of the male characters I’m attracted to, he’s someone I’d never want to be around in real life–just pretty, talented, and charismatic. And in a world where always thinking about the little things can drive you completely insane, sometimes that’s all that really matters.

[kaiuary]

Tagged

i was tagged by @creepy-luhan, thank you~

 THE LAST

1. Drink: water

2. Phone call: my mother

3. Text message: also my mother 

4. Song you listened to: luhan - skin to skin (i’ve been having this song on repeat for a while now)

5. Time you cried: april 28 cause i finally got to see angel performed and see jongin dance to it but i did get teary eyed while watching last weeks fotd episodes tho 

6. Dated someone twice: i’ve never dated before

7. Been cheated on: no

8. Kissed someone and regretted it: i’ve never kissed anyone before either

9. Lost someone special: umm does a cat count...cause no one really special to me has died 

10. Been depressed: constantly 

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: no i’m only 20

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

1. pink  2. silver  3. black

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

15. Made new friends: surprisingly yes 

16. Fallen out of love: idk....no?

17. Laughed until you cried: yup

18. Found out someone was talking about you: the only person i know that talks about me is my mother, but other than that no

19. Met someone who changed you: no

20. Found out who your true friends are: i don’t really have a lot friends...

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: no

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: i don’t get on facebook a whole lot, my friends on facebook are mostly family and a few people i know from my old hometown, so yes i know all of them

23. Do you have any pets: yes, four cats and two dogs

24. Do you want to change your name: no even if people spell/pronounce it wrong i would never want to change it

25. What did you do for your last birthday: my birthday was on easter this year so we went over to my grandmother’s house and ate and celebrated my birthday but then my nephew came over and it was all about him and easter egg hunts 

26. What time did you wake up: i woke up around 8am but went back to bed and woke up again around 9-10am went back to bed again then finally got out of my bed around 1pm

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: drawing

28. Name something you cannot wait for: exo’s comeback  to see if i got accepted in this school or not

29. When was the last time you saw your mother: last night

30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my shyness 

31. What are you listening to right now: tiffany singing city of stars

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: no

33. Something getting on your nerves: me 

34. Most visited website: tumblr

35. Elementary: done

36. High school: done

37. College: still going

38. Hair color: brown

39. Long or short hair: i guess it’s somewhere in the middle, i have my hair up most of the time

40. Do you have a crush on someone: no

41. What do you like about yourself: nothing really 

42. Piercings: ears, though i don’t wear earrings anymore

43. Blood type: tbh i have no idea

44. Nickname: pumpkin, meamea 

45. Relationship status: single

46. Zodiac sign: aries

47. Pronouns: she/her

48. Favorite tv show: steven universe and the amazing world of gumball, i only watch cartoons and movies on my tv 

49. Tattoos: none

50. Right or left hand: left 

FIRST…

51. Surgery: never had one 

52. Piercing: omg i can’t remember i think i was 12?? 

54. Sport: dance and gymnastics

55. Vacation: i think it was to my granparents house in florida, we did that a lot before we actually moved to florida

56. Pair of trainers: ??

MORE GENERAL…

57. Eating: these korean purple sweet potato chips

58. Drinking: water

59. I’m about to: check my emails

61. Waiting for: emails from goms and college

62. Want: everything money and something to eat

63. Get married: no never really thought about it

64. Career: author and illustrator

65. Hugs or kisses: hugs

66. Lips or eyes: both 

67. Shorter or taller: taller 

68. Older or younger: older but only like a few years older than me

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: stomach

71. Sensitive or loud: hmmm either one really 

72. Hook up or relationship: relationship

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: i’m not sure about this one cause i’m really hesitant when it comes to certain things but if they’re also hesitant... i don’t know, a mix of both???

HAVE YOU EVER…

74. Kissed a stranger?: no

75. Drank hard liquor?: no

76. Lost glasses contact/lenses?: omg i have lost my contacts more than my glasses 

77. Turned someone down?: maybe, i don’t know i probably did it without even knowing  

78. Had sex on first date?: no 

79. Broken someone’s heart?: i don’t think so 

80. Had your heart broken?: no

81. Been arrested?: no

82. Cried when someone died?: yes

83. Fallen for a friend?: no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

84. Yourself?: haha no

85. Miracles?: no

86. Love at first sight?: yes and no

87. Santa Claus?: i did 

88. Kiss on the first date?: depends

89. Angels?: yes and no 

OTHER….

90. Current best friend’s name: morgan (yes my sister is my best friend)

91. Eye color: brown 

92. Favorite movie: omg i watch way too many movies i can’t decide 

i’ll tag @prince-chanyeol, @hellkaiserinphoenix, @aerilu, and @kaibility

you guys don’t have to do this ^^ 

[awjoj]

Something to do when you first wake up

Thanks for the tag @ringo-im-sixteen TAG // Something to do when you first wake up lol. Rules: Answer the questions and tag 20 blogs you’d like to know better.

1. Star Sign: Taurus 2. Height: 5′3′’ 3.Time right now: 10:10 am 4. Last thing googled: anterior superior iliac spine (..yeah) 5. Favourite music artist(s): The Beatles, George Harrison, The Traveling Wilburys (oops for many times did George appear), Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers, Queen, The Monkees, The Carpenters, Karen Carpenter (esp as a drummer), Blondie, Courtney Barnett, andymori, Nirvana (yeah I’m actually properly into them now, woo) 6. Last tv show watched: Stranger Things 7. What am I wearing right now: A green flannel that I wore outside yesterday but also went to bed in 8. When did I create my blog: October 2015 9. What kind of stuff do I post: Mostly George but also the Beatles 10. Do I have any other blogs: Ye 11. Do I get asks regularly: not really what i’d call regularly but i do get a decent amount i think? FEEL FREE TO SEND SOME :D 12. Why did I choose my url: it’s my reaction to a lot of joj pics 13. Pokemon team: i don’t really know a lot about pokemon XD 14. Favourite colour: Greeeen 15. Average hours of sleep: it highly varies though, sometimes 6 and sometimes 12, but avg is around 7 i guess 16. Favourite characters: Marceline (Adventure Time), Yuki Sanada (Tsuritama), Darwin (The Amazing World of Gumball), Mulan (Mulan, Disney), Raven (Teen Titans), Kuchipatchi (Tamagotchi) 17. How many blankets I sleep with: a duvet lmao 18. Dream Job(s): Doctor (i used to want to be a neurosurgeon but now im more into psychiatry, anyway, braaaaiiiinnnns), freelance illustrator (part time?)

[miscellaneous--bones]

original: studyplants

“Wait, these are actually hella cute questions.”

— 1. Who was the last person you held hands with? uhhhh, my mom I think. 2. Are you outgoing or shy? a mix of both. 3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? well, my aunt is gonna try to come in july, i havn’t seen her sence last year. we’re also going on a camping trip with friends in august 4. Are you easy to get along with? I think so. 5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? I can’t get drunk yet, but probably. 6. What kind of people are you attracted to? I dunno. 7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? probably. 8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? uh, my mom or my best friend. 9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? not really. 10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? either myself or my friend i dunno. 11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? I don’t regularly text or call ppl, i don’t have my own phone yet. 12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? uhhh, not in any order but 1) bust your kneecaps 2) My way 3) this is home 4) lemon boy 5) saturn 13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? meh. 14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? yes. 15. What good thing happened this summer? we whent on the first yearly camping trip. 16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? uh, yeah, shes my mom. 17. Do you think there is life on other planets? its a posibility.

18. Do you still talk to your first crush? no.

19. Do you like bubble baths? no. 20. Do you like your neighbors? i don’t know them. 21. What are you bad habits? hm. i flick my nails on the table for no reason. 22. Where would you like to travel? I wanna go stay a night or two at my partner’s cuz he stayed with us for a few nights. 23. Do you have trust issues? no. 24. Favorite part of your daily routine? recess. 25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? i dunno. 26. What do you do when you wake up? either go back to bed or go online for an hour. 27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? no. 28. Who are you most comfortable around? i dunno, my parents and brother. oo or my pets. 29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? no, i havn’t talked to him sence I moved. 30. Do you ever want to get married? yes. 31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? yes. 32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? none. 33. Spell your name with your chin. esmnjik,gb 34. Do you play sports? What sports? no. 35. Would you rather live without TV or music? TV. 36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? no. 37. What do you say during awkward silences? nothing, they’re called awkward silences for a reason. 38. Describe your dream girl/guy? I don’t have one. 39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? walmarts. 40. What do you want to do after high school? i dunno, chill before i go to college and probably try to get a job.  41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? yes. 42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? i’m normally extremley quiet it just means i have nothing to say at that moment. 43. Do you smile at strangers? yes. 44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? outer space. 45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? i dunno. 46. What are you paranoid about? ..dunno. 47. Have you ever been high? no. 48. Have you ever been drunk? no. 49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? ...yes. 50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? purplish brown. 51. Ever wished you were someone else? no. 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? ...I wish i was more motivated about certain things. 53. Favourite makeup brand? i don’t wear makeup. 54. Favourite store? walmart. 55. Favourite blog? @cj7567 they’re the sweetest person ever. 56. Favourite colour? brown. 57. Favourite food? dunno. 58. Last thing you ate? ramen, probably. 59. First thing you ate this morning? i dunno. 60. Ever won a competition? For what? uh.. can’t remember anything. 61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? no. 62. Been arrested? For what? no. 63. Ever been in love? yes, i am now. 64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? havn’t had it yet. 65. Are you hungry right now? kinda. 66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? no. 67. Facebook or Twitter? Twitter. 68. Twitter or Tumblr? Tumblr. 69. Are you watching tv right now? its on.. 70. Names of your bestfriends? Katlyn. 71. Craving something? What? i’ve been wanting chiken wings a while. 72. What colour are your towels? mostly blue. 72. How many pillows do you sleep with? four or more. 73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? yes. 74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? a lot. 75. Favourite animal? foxes and owls. 76. What colour is your underwear? at the moment? white. 77. Chocolate or Vanilla? vanilla. 78. Favourite ice cream flavour? cookie dough. 79. What colour shirt are you wearing? purple. 80. What colour pants? blue. 81. Favourite tv show? the amazing world of gumball. 82. Favourite movie? spirit stallion of the cimaron. 83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? never watched either. 84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? ...never watched either. 85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? never watched it. 86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? either dory or uh.. i think his name is squirt? i dunno the little turtle. 87. First person you talked to today? my dad. 88. Last person you talked to today? days not totally over. 89. Name a person you hate? Jacob. 90. Name a person you love? Kyle. 91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? Underverse ink. 92. In a fight with someone? no. 93. How many sweatpants do you have? uh, like, 2 pairs maybe? I usually wear jeggings. 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? i have like, 5-6 sweaters, and 5+ hoodies. 95. Last movie you watched? STG stubby from what I remember. 96. Favourite actress? dunno. 97. Favourite actor? dunno. 98. Do you tan a lot? never have. (probably never will) 99. Have any pets? 9. a dog, 6 cats, a chinchilla, and a bunny. 100. How are you feeling? fine. 101. Do you type fast? most of the time. 102. Do you regret anything from your past? no, not really. 103. Can you spell well? sorta. 104. Do you miss anyone from your past? yes. 105. Ever been to a bonfire party? plenty, they’re amazing. 106. Ever broken someone’s heart? not that i know of. 107. Have you ever been on a horse? yes. 108. What should you be doing? sleeping. 109. Is something irritating you right now? ..no, not really.

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? no. 111. Do you have trust issues? no, this was asked before. 112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? ...my parents and my brother. the dog was there too. 113. What was your childhood nickname?e Emibug. its still used, but then again my childhood isn’t over for a few more months. 114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? yes, we didn’t like it. 115. Do you play the Wii? we used to. 116. Are you listening to music right now? no. 117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? yeah. 118. Do you like Chinese food? yeah, some. 119. Favourite book? Warriors into the wild. 120. Are you afraid of the dark? no. 121. Are you mean? i don’t think so. 122. Is cheating ever okay? depends. 123. Can you keep white shoes clean? no. 124. Do you believe in love at first sight? sure, its never happened to me tho. 125. Do you believe in true love? yes. 126. Are you currently bored? kinda. 127. What makes you happy? a bunch of stuff. 128. Would you change your name? no. 129. What your zodiac sign? cancer. 130. Do you like subway? yes, their pizza is the best. 131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? tell him I’m taken and say that I’m sorry cuz I’d feel bad. 132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? either myself or Jaiden. (hasn’t this been asked before?) 133. Favourite lyrics right now? not sure. 134. Can you count to one million? yes but I don’t feel like it. 135. Dumbest lie you ever told? not sure. 136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? normally open. 137. How tall are you? 4′11′’ last time I checked. 138. Curly or Straight hair? both, not wavy, just a strange mix of both. mostly curley. 139. Brunette or Blonde? blonde. 140. Summer or Winter? winter. 141. Night or Day? hm. day. 142. Favourite month? july. 143. Are you a vegetarian? no. 144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? milk. 145. Tea or Coffee? tea. 146. Was today a good day? yes. 147. Mars or Snickers? neither. 148. What’s your favourite quote? either “be an anarcist, love yourself.”, “welcome to the land of dead gods and forgotten nightmares, its quiet here. some might call it... peaceful.” or “yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystory, today is a gift. thats why they call it the present.” 149. Do you believe in ghosts? yes. 150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? “only 26 cents each” ...its a magasine, i don’t have a book next to me.