#also I somehow finished this in two days. I guess with the power of hyperfixation anything is possible

[james-town]

Sunrise, east of Revachol.

Words by @dolorianwolf, pictures by me.

[blueblurseptember]

god, i've been so busy these past weeks bc of work, and i am hating every moment of it. i just really wanna write a binggeyuan fic where bingge tries to "restore" the soul of the shen jiu of his world after meeting cucumber qiu, not knowing any better (that they're two different people), only to somehow end up reverse transmigrating in the modern world.

and as it turns out, in this timeline [original timeline of the universe/fate, i guess?], shen yuan didn't die and transmigrate. instead, he survived the cause of his death in the svsss universe, was forced to move back into his family's house, and is seeing a therapist to much more healthily cope with what had caused him to hyperfixate and self-neglect [almost] to the point of death – the loss of his little sister to [a longterm terminal illness].

i can already picture it clearly in my head: shen yuan obsessively finishing the proud immortal demonic way in 20 days for his sister bc she didn't make it for the ending. her favorite character is yue qingyuan, and she ships him with shen jiu – shen yuan doesn't get it. not when yue qingyuan is such an angel, and shen jiu, in his opinion, is such a piece of shit!!! being such a creep to ning yingying and hurting the protagonist luo binghe!!! (his own personal favorite, he realizes.)

his personal fixation with binghe grows after he blackens; he doesn't realize it won't admit it, isn't aware of it, but he can relate to the rage, the hunger for power so he doesn't end up losing someone important again, the ability to achieve the impossible, and take matters into his own hands.

bingge learns all about this, puts all the pieces together, fills in the blanks, and in getting to know shen yuan, he also figures out the mystery that is the uncharacteristically loving, gentle, and kind shen qingqiu from that other universe.

the delusional (but accurate!!) conclusion he arrives at from all this is that they are deadass soul mates, and that in every universe where there is a luo binghe, there is a shen yuan fated to find him or be found by him, and they will save each other with love they never knew they're capable of giving another person.

all that, plus, screw being a demon realm emperor. he's found his truest and best calling in life and it's to become shen yuan's maiden-hearted malewife who likes to clean, cook, wash the dishes, pamper his husband, and make his entire world revolve around his husband. as much as he loathes to admit it, he gets it now. turns out that supposedly inferior version of himself in that other universe was onto something being that sickeningly soft and sticky.

[mediioxumate]

send  🌻 and i’ll talk about whatever! || @offiiciium  || accepting!

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🌻 - break no fucking mercy run i guess asdjkfhaksfd so uuuhhh yeets under a cut so no one hates me ajksfdhalksdf

🌻 - much like with fenrich, i have yet to start watching nge but i’m already down to give everything to shinji ikari which is impressive, you are so powerful. 

🌻 - i’m excited about it bc similar to dr i have somehow managed to avoid ?? most spoilers, i know some memes and stuff here and there

🌻 - more dr3 thoughts because i have a lot. i don’t love the amount of faked out deaths, it’s a little overdone. especially that they’ve used it SPECIFICALLY on the survivors so they know we’re attached, it feels cheap. 

🌻 - also chiaki shouldn’t be there like i love her but it LITERALLY makes no sense, and I know some of the spoilers about her and chisa. but also her entire interactions with hajime in the beginning are so good and just punched me in the how much i love that ship tbh.

🌻 - similar vein, i want to write up formal posts, but i feel like the dr3 falling to despair explanations don’t line up to me. as far as i’m concerned, there’s a solid base for every sdr2 character to be exploited - all of them are unhappy or unsatisfied in some way or another - and in particular, it’s heavily tied to their talents. getting master manipulator junko involved, and exploiting that bitterness towards hope’s peak, it doesn’t seem like a stretch to have her exploit those tensions to her advantage.

🌻 - oh also hagakure’s design glow up in dr3 almost makes me want to care him. almost. i do wish they’d do something with his character other than make him stupid but alas. 

🌻 - i want more toko. just in general. her character has so much potential and i felt like we started to get it in UDG and then the game was OVER and that’s just horrible. she deserves so much. and to kiss komaru a lot. 

🌻 - on the topic of UDG tho i am SICK of the little green bitch!! done with her!! can i get five LESS i’m OVER it!!!!

🌻 - i really need to read the mukuro novel, i’m very curious about her, she seems like such an interesting character but i haven’t touched her much yet. i also wanna read dr0 or at least a summary. i’ve never had a hyperfixation ever in my entire life. 

🌻 - i started playing dr2 on my phone at lunch today and i have to say the phone interface is way better than i expected! they take up a stupid amount of space and are 100% worth it lol

🌻 - i love playing imessage games but i am so bad at them i lose ALL the time lol, my current kick is battleship, but can go for darts, chess, and filler!!

🌻 - my Anxiety phone game is solitaire - it gives me something to do with my hands to help me pay attention. 

🌻 - my Mindless game is arknights when i’m farming! just throw on auto deploys while i watch things or draw or write haha

🌻 - i also play lovenikki, which is my before bed game.

🌻 - maybe video games own my life more than previously calculated 

🌻 - on theme, i’ve been thinking about finally properly finishing pokemon shield, i finished most of the main story but i have caught legendary buppo yet and i need to ksjfhasjlkfd

🌻 - my favorite pokemon are stufful and furret and noibat and ninetales!! i have a type. fire types are my personal niche and favorite!!

🌻 - my first tumblr rpc was pokemon!! i think my love of fire types started when i wrote chili, but i also wrote jasmine, mei, and an oc!

🌻 - i also used to have a few harvest moon OCs in a harvest moon rp group!! i miss them... one day i will revamp them, they’re good kids - laura and kinta were the names :0 

🌻 - my favorite harvest moon game is magical melody but specifically with the game cube add on that let you port in the mineral town characters, absolutely top tier!! i miss playing it so much. second fave is harvest moon ds. in both of these i marry ann bc i’m predictable. 

🌻 - close second for a wonderful life! it was my first harvest moon game and it meant i could marry celia over and over and over and over again. i love her. she’s so good. another wonderful life sucked bc the bachelors were shit. give me the same quality as the women or perish. but hmds cute was good, i love the mineral town boys 

🌻 - i didn’t know stardew valley could be multi player but i think it can be so i think someone should play with me 

🌻 - i made a joke that izuru kamukura is just mew two and now i physically can’t stop thinking about it

[echo-inthevoid]

Season 2 q&a and overall reaction

Jonny stealing everyone's names XD 

Is martin going to be ok!? I also need to know! 

He said no;-; 

ok ya, no one's gonna be ok. 

Ya, he must do sooo much research. 

Ya, except for "fatigue" lol.

Eyyy the mechanisms!! 

What's the red string brigade? Ok, I guess a group of fans theorizing about stuff. 

Oh ok so someone else did martins poetry. Ooh, there's more martin poetry out there! *grabby hands*

Ok ya, Alex clarifying that Jon isn't stupid he just makes poor decisions. Probably if he'd paused and thought about it (like I did lol, I had to go do some stuff in the middle of that ep and thought about it a whole bunch lol) instead of immediately going out and buying an axe and further isolating himself and panicking immediately he probably would have figured it out. This is why it's bad to panic in a crisis guys. 

Eyyy! Jonny's parents voiced Gertrude and Leitner! That's so cool. 

XD Jonny grumbling about having to work with his parents. 

Hmm, I hadn't really thought of Gertrude being like a mother figure in the story? She just seems very cut-throat I guess from what Leitner said. Idk so far I've been very suspicious of her. Especially since that one statement where her photo burned a whole bunch of people or something. She just seems very shady... 

Alex chortling over Jonny's pain. XD

Side note, Every time there's a q&a I just can't stop noticing Jonny's voice going in and out of archivist range? Like most of the time I'm just listening along and then he'll say a sentence a bit grumblier and my brains immediately like "ARCHIVIST! That's THE ARCHIVIST!!" 

Martin would be the last one alive in Friday the 13th! It's official! 

(Is it bad that this gives me hope)

Jon likes Nonfiction, documentaries, and probably collects something just a little bit weird. *writes down for use in potential fics* 

also while im at it I remember jon saying he dislikes coffee at one point,  and so many people have him liking coffee in their fics! This has been your daily reminder of that fact because ever since then it keeps bugging me lol. (But also do whatever u want.)

Alex's spluttering sounds so much like Martin.

Yes!! I want to hear jon sing!! Yes! Musical Episode When!!?

Ah yes yes yes! All the characters are so unique!!? How does he do it!! 

Ya, it being in audio format sometimes makes it hard to understand what's happening in the live-action bits. (Live-action is the wrong word but u know what I mean.)

Oh ok ya, how he mentioned he got a pipe was quite clever I didn't realize that that's why he mentioned it at all. 

Ooh, there's a manga where there's something similar to Michael? I'll have to look that up later...

XD Alex and Jonny arguing about apples. 

Ok, so all the statements we're hearing ARE for reals. I kinda assumed but good to have it confirmed.

They used to hang out together!!? Work function curry nights!! ;-; 

Ya Ya! Who made the leitners!?

"You are assuming a book needs to be written" ...ok then. (but it has to have been created somehow??? Did they just spring fully formed from the powers? why? And why take the form of books?)

Alex's mischievous laugh about whether jon has friends *trembles in fear*

Yes!! Micheal is so good! I'm so happy they love him too! Yesyes! His laugh! 

Ah Yes!! Mary kaey was so creepy! 

XD yes yes yes fatigue was written on zero sleep, I knew it! 

Akskdjdkd I love them so much. Also, I've looked up Michaels voice actor luke booys and he does some other horrory type sketches n stuff and I kiiinda want to do a little animatic with some of those but it's Michael like annoying some poor soul lost in his halls... I think that'd be fun. I wonder if anyone's done that yet? If so someone send me the links I neeeed iiitt :3

Season 2 summary:

Uuuuu ya so this season was really good. I kinda listened to it in bursts of about ten episodes every couple weeks and then have been saving up the reactions to post later so these are usually going up about a week or so after I actually listened to the episode just FYI. 

I also do have a lot of spoilers cause I can't keep myself away from fanfic and people don't always tag for spoilers and I kiiinda wana know what's coming beforehand anyway? Idk it's hard man I get very stressed about what might happen and then also listening to too much at a time is too spooky for my poor little heart so I gotta read the less spooky fanfic to fulfill the hyperfixation you see. (If anyone has fanfic with spoilers only up to season 2 that'd be great btw) 

Anyway, I try not to take spoiler type stuff into account unless I'm just so sure of it I can't really not acknowledge that I know about it. 

Also, can I just talk about Michael for a minute?? Cause he's such a unique character? And I guess maybe there are other characters like him but I haven't ever seen one -tho to be fair tma is only like the third horror thing I've ever really got into (the other two are the SCP Foundation in its various forms and Little Nightmares. Hence why I keep making reference to SCP it's really the only thing I know similar to this.) But he's such a cool concept!!? Like someTHING that still has a personality? He's so not human? Like I get what he says but also I don't really? Idk im pretty sure he's an avatar right? Right?? Idk if that means he was a person at some point? But all this to say that he is probably the most inhuman character I've come across so far and I'm trying to figure out what it is about him that's so "other" to me? Like... I don't really know what Micheal's deal is? he seems to want to be sort of a neutral mischief-maker but also it seems like he keeps getting invested. But also I just love the way he talks about himself. Like he's a monster that has a personality and is fully intelligent but isn't just evil but isn't neutral either and certainly isn't benevolent. Like he's so complex and just,,,, the idea of a "thing" that's got a personality?? I love it? Kind of like dryads or spirits of things? Like the idea that after a long time things gain personality just by existing? Not that that's what Michael is necessarily? but that same sort of concept applies to him I think. Like the way he IS the maze and wants to help but wants to just watch but wants to kill them all. He's just so interestinggggggg. (And another vision of what jon could become?)

 also "es Mentiras" is a beautiful name 💕

So are him and not-Sasha avatars? Not-Sasha also seems completely inhuman and I was under the impression that avatars were (or used to be) human? Or are they like personifications of their power? Do all the powers have personifications of themselves. not-Sasha seems even less human than Michael? Like she seems to just really genuinely enjoy causing fear? Tho I guess we didn't really get to hear a lot of her. She just seemed kinda gleefully angry most of the time we heard from her. Was she... Human once!???

Anyway. Also, can I just talk about leitners line about jon belonging to the eye!!? Just..*chefs kiss* hnnnngg I need more jon grappling with that. I just need more everyone dealing with the fallout post all of the finallies ok? I still need more of jon angsting over his worms scars and stuff and now I also need jon freaking out about belonging to a fear god power thing. 

Also Martin! Is Martin ok? He sure did a lot of yelling which he doesn't usually? Look I love him and he actually thinks before he acts (unlike SOME people *looks at jon*) and he writes poetry and it is pretty good poetry ok!! And he cares about everyone and just wants a happy ending and aaaaa😭

Petition to get some statements from Martin's pov tho? I mean that's not gonna happen cause Jon's the archivist but I want more martin pov!! Maybe we can get some of his poem tapes??? Pls????? 

I feel so bad for Tim. It sounds like he's kinda fallen into despair.

Also Elias!!? Is showing his spooky side!!? He can control cameras and beat a man to death with a pipe!!? This is his "place of powerr"!!? I am afeared!!? At least jon knows he shouldn't trust him now. Oh jeez, I wonder if jon will listen back to the tape and know what happened. Thhhatsss rough. Oh dear, I hope he doesn't feel guilty cause Leitner did keep trying to hurry him and now everyone thinks it was him. Even martin thinks he did it? Wich like I kinda want to hear more of his thoughts on that? How much does he believe that jon did it? Tim certainly seems pretty certain but he's a bit biased and cynical right now so. 

And they were in the maze for DAYS? 

Now I need martin recovering from being stuck with Tim in Michaels maze for days being angry and worried and hungry etc... Dksjdksa knowing jon could be dying RIGHT NOW and there's nothing he can do. Please someone give me the fic links if this exists!! I've already written like 5 drabbles based entirely on spoilers/other fics (which I'll probably post (w/ links to their inspirations) once I'm caught up and can make sure I'm not just completely demolishing cannon lol. 

Leitner didn't even scream or yell or anything when he was murdered. Literally the chillest dude ever. F

Overall super great, Elias is terrifying, let's dive into the next season!!! I've got 2 seasons to finish in like, less than 2 or so weeks(?) if I wana be caught up by season 5 hhhh,,,

Better get started I guess. 

[echo-bleu]

Writing thoughts : August

How is it already the 1st of September?

Most of this month has been spent working 40h hours a week on my dissertation, and I haven’t taken an actual day off in over two months. Add to that a bunch of family health issue and it was pretty crazy.

I wish I could say that September is going to be better, but it’s not shaping up that way. I need to finish my dissertation (yes, I was supposed to be done two weeks ago), run it through several layers of correction, file it with my department...

On to the interesting stuff. Somehow I hit 40k words, which I didn’t manage last month when I was actually trying. That includes my work writing though, so it’s a bit of a cheat. I started writing for a new fandom, Roswell New Mexico, and I can feel that hyperfixation settling in, though it’s basically the worst possible time. I’ve been drawing a little bit too, which is very nice because I hadn’t had time to draw anything in ages.

Actual writing progress. I’ll separate it into my two current fandoms. I haven’t touched my Leverage/The Librarians WIPs in a while, but I don’t think anyone who follows me reads that (if you do, please give me a sign though).

The Gifted

I’m losing my focus a bit because writing for RNM currently fulfills me more (because hyperfixation) but I swear I’m not abandoning the fics that are started.

The Underground: this one is the least at risk. I have three chapters ready beyond what’s currently posted, and I’m still in love with that story. I could technically end it almost anywhere, but I have plot ideas spanning about six more storytime months, and we’ve done three so far.

All We Stand To Lose: I don’t have a next chapter yet, and I’m also pretty much at the end of the part of the story that I’d planned out, but I’m not lost either. There’s still more to tell, and I will. Just be patient with me.

Other stuff: If You’re Still Breathing has been on standby for a while, and I don’t know if I’ll ever finish it. Maybe one of these days I’ll find the time and motivation to rewatch season 2 and get there, but I don’t know. Sequels to The World As We Know It are sitting half-finished on my computer, and I’ll probably get around to finishing them at some point, but don’t expect it soon. There is one last part planned for Broken Things, set short after Pulse’s death, with Lorna and Marcos helping John through the worst migraine of his life, but it’s not even started at this point.

Roswell New Mexico

I’ve got a bunch of fics planned. The first few days after I finished watching the show, I’d sit and start a new one nearly every night, never finishing the others. I’ve calmed down a bit, but i want to write them now.

One Reason To Stay got the most amazing reception (I have to say it’s a wild change from my usual five-people fandom) and I want to thank everyone for that. It’s not meant to get a sequel, but I intend to write more Malex.

I have a so-far untitled one-shot-y (maybe two parts, I’m not sure yet) post-finale fic that’s Alex&Liz friendship, mostly a long discussion with angst, hurt/comfort and a lot of friendship feels.

I have one chapter of a multi-part Alex&Isobel friendship fic, called Lines of Fear and Blame, where they bound over trying to live with PTSD.

I have the start of a long fic, a Roswell Mutant!AU loosely based on The Gifted, where most of our characters are mutants running from the government. It’s called Power Through.

Before I even finished season 1, I’d started on a possible series of one-shots, in an AU where Alex called Michael when he was in the hospital after his injuries. I kinda want to scratch it because characterization isn’t so good, but maybe I’ll rewrite it instead.

I’ve start a long-ish one-shot that was supposed to be fluff, with established Malex, where Michael invites everyone over to movie night at Alex’s. It’s turning into not-fluff, because I’m terrible at writing fluff. We’ll see what it becomes, I guess.

Finally, I have a strange little fic centered around the three aliens throughout their lives, exploring gender, sexuality and neurodivergence. It’s mostly a series of snippets of their lives.

Pfff, that got long. Feel free to tell me what you most look forward to!