#also! gonna take a quick hiatus for the next few 3-7 days <3

[cqlfic]

happy new year!!! [2021 edition]

god, 2021. what a year 😂😬😊 another 365 days past, countless spectacular additions to the fandom, and honestly too many new bookmarks for me to count on my end LOL

but! i made an attempt!! there were so many amazing works i read this year and i wanted to share some with you, kinda like a year-end summary in addition to the rec posts i’ve been doing. i split each month into fics with kudos above or below 1000, and then listed my top 3 in each category! since this just my favorite bookmarks and thus wholly subjective, this misses out on quite a few so please share your faves in the comments too, would love to read them!! (especially in the latter half of the year, school started and i feel like i missed so much 🥺)

before continuing, though: thank you all for sticking around! with my chaotic schedule, my presence was on-and-off this year but the fandom-community-family-team here is incomparable 🥰 and i can’t wait to go through another year with y’all, new friends and old!

and now here we go!!!

JANUARY

KUDOS under 1000:

Running Home to Me by songsofthespring (G, 34332 words): anastasia AU [my post here]

Nightingale of Longing by bee_knife (@disasterbialert) (T, 6985 words): 3 times lwj almost proposes; 2 times wwx almost beats him; 1 time it happens [my post here]

Falling Til Four in the Morning by phnelt (@phneltwrites) (T, 4951 words): mando radio DJ!lwj

KUDOS 1000+:

every breath that comes before by tardigradeschool (@leetlesapphire) (T, 10085 words): the wine wwx drinks for lwj is poisoned [my post here]

Night Breezes Seem to Whisper by cqlorphan (@jingyismom) (E, 16706 words): cursed!lwj needs to satisfy first sexual desire after cursed [my post here]

on your marks, get set, bake! by BlackWiresOnHerHead (@blackwiresgrowonherhead) (G, 41164 words): college + GBBO AU; series: Welcome to the Great Gusu Bake Off!

FEBRUARY

KUDOS under 1000:

one boyfriend coming right up by wearing_tearing (@wearing-tearing) (T, 3689 words): modern AU, 5+1 times people thought lxc/nmj were dating [my post here]

They Told Me I Was Gone by MajorEnglishEsquire (@chuckwinchester) (G, 2897 words): curse fic, true love’s kiss [my post here]

in the after hours by surething (T, 19279 words): modern sword-racing

KUDOS 1000+:

never love an anchor by tardigradeschool (@leetlesapphire) (T, 31416 words): fisherman!wwx and selkie!lwj

heartkeeper by postingpebbles (@theyhaveason) (G, 7382 words): to marry lwj, you have to take the key from the rabbit [my post here]

most times a wish by impossibletruths (@impossibletruths) (T, 16300 words): curse casefic, “don’t bring your work home with you” [my post here]

MARCH

KUDOS under 1000:

searching for tomorrow by KouriArashi (@gingersnapwolves) (M, 47467 words): wen qing survives, jgy forces her assistance; mind games [my post here]

Step right up! by failedcharismacheck (@inyourorangeshirt) (T, 7516 words): hs AU, lwj/wwx go to a carnival; series: Keeping my fingers crossed/That maybe you'll take the long way home

And I Think It's Gonna Be a Long, Long, Time by sketchyscribbles (@sketchyscribbles) (M, 21251 words): the martian AU, wwx is stranded on mars [my post here]

KUDOS 1000+:

Tether by WithBroomBefore (@withbroombefore) (T, 40366 words): wwx tells the truth, sort of; canon divergence during sunshot

chasing you by jaws_3 (T, 10554 words): yllz will marry whoever takes the bell from his crow [my post here]

love, in fire and blood by cicer (@cicerfics) (E, 360042 words): immortal!wwx marries lwj in exchange with winning sunshot [my post here]

APRIL

KUDOS under 1000:

in which everything is meant for you by ladyofrosefire (@ask-ladyofrosefire) (E, 5501 words): flight, fantasy, and letting oneself be caught; smut, CNC, yllz roleplay

a stitch in time saves nine by MonocerosRex (@megalodont) (G, 1963 words): hu junhui (OC) keeps nhs in line as sect leader

oh you fill my lungs with sweetness by Anonymous (Not Rated, 2309 words): wwx sickfic, modern AU + comfort

KUDOS 1000+:

save the bees (ride a beekeeper) by Ariaste (@ariaste) (T, 4220 words): there are bees in meng yao’s car

Blackouts by GravityWinsAgain (@gravitywonagain) (M, 10827 words): wwx gets roofied taking a drink for lwj

the cover of night (the covers on our bed) by overgrownruins (E, 3515 words): arranged marriage, marriage night

MAY

KUDOS under 1000:

live for just a little while by bosbie (@giftwrappingpaper) (T, 10952 words): wwx hires android!lwj as his bodyguard [my post here]

i’m not shy (make you sigh) by pink_fluff (@13parkfilter) (E, 7410 words): perfumer!lwj wears a dress to a party

the soft animal of your body by howodd5ever (@wei-ever) (M, 21533 words): post-canon casefic, wwx gets seriously injured alone 

KUDOS 1000+:

Our Voices Collide by Pip (E, 4829 words): pirate!wwx and mermaid!lwj [my post here]

Of Few Words by nirejseki (@robininthelabyrinth) (G, 5212 words): nmj bonding with lwj as kids

my body when it is with your body by fruitys (E, 8477 words): nude model!lwj, figure-drawing class

JUNE

KUDOS under 1000:

in the water grass, in the green by nerdzeword (@nerdzewordart), twigofwillow (G, 25598 words): witch!wwx and river spirit!lwj [my post here]

sweet in your denial by HappyPrince (@happy-princess) (E, 5562 words): smut, wangxian enjoy lwj scaring wwx a little

手下留情 by RoseThorne (@rosethornewrites) (T, 1293 words): post-canon; grief, mourning, and gossip in the cloud recesses

KUDOS 1000+:

in the arms of the angel by ScarlettStorm (E, 37661 words): hulijing/fox!wwx gets his head stuck in a peanut butter jar [my post here]

i really want to know (who are you) by Stratisphyre (@stratisphyre) (M, 19407 words): CSI AU, forensic cultivator wwx; series: CSI: Gusu Edition

Pendulum by ShippersList (M, 69078 words): omega!wwx as a secret agent, canon divergence AU; series: omegaverse murder gremlins

JULY

KUDOS under 1000:

tessellate by mellowflicker (T, 18219 words): cottagecore in the middle of nowhere

Just Call by tinylilremus (@tinylilemrys) (T, 2463 words): modern AU, lwj trips over his pet rabbit

you, whose heart would sing of anarchy by doodlebutt (@wei--wuxian) (T, 9158 words): 5+1 jingyi watches sizhui break the rules

KUDOS 1000+:

Attempt the Impawsible by cl410 (@i-like-plan-m) (T, 5855 words): modern w magic AU, wwx is cursed into the world’s most chaotic cat [my post here]

As You Are by ilip13 (@ilip13) (M, 15735 words): modern AU, wwx starts wearing dresses

i know who i want to take me home by ScarlettStorm (E, 16693 words): bartender!wwx and drunk!lwj meet-cute

AUGUST

KUDOS under 1000:

murder is easy, especially if you're murdering an asshole by ravenditefairylights (@child-of-the-fairy-folk) (Not Rated, 5034 words): yunmeng trio do a murder and get away with it, family bonding

reach for the dream (it’s yours for the taking) by Alaceron (@smiting-finger) (M, 11439 words): olympics AU, synchronized diving

Facts and Feelings, or: Inquiry Season 1 by el_em_en_oh_pee (@dulosiswrites) (T, 7477 words): the inquiry podcast

KUDOS 1000+:

Time Loop by nirejseki (@robininthelabyrinth) (G, 1664 words): nmj gets stuck in a time loop

Tastes Like You by airinshaw (@airinshaw) (E, 30133 words): A/B/O AU, lwj gets a new neighbor

One for Heaven and Earth by cerbykerby (T, 7286 words): lwj has a divine robe

SEPTEMBER

KUDOS under 1000:

5 times Jiang Cheng had to deal with Lan Wangji's presence when he wasn't even there by melonbun (T, 4536 words): 5+1 jc deals with lwj’s presence

Years Pass Like Flowing Water by ConstellationNights (T, 6816 words): lwj's 13 years without wwx

black ink on rice paper; repurposed by puddingcatbeans (@puddingcatbeans): what if nhs visited mxy earlier?

KUDOS 1000+:

Proximity To Knowledge by ChilianXianzi (@chilianxianzi) (T, 7427 words): the juniors revolt against the rule against wwx

Not Your Typical Alpha by Eudoxia (@eudoxiav) (E, 14684 words): fem!wangxian A/B/O AU, wwx gets a dildo stuck

kiss it better by azuresummer (E, 16673 words): A/B/O AU, omega!wwx attends gusu lan academy

OCTOBER

KUDOS under 1000:

A Soul Within Flesh by Mules (@softmealsart) (T, 4823 words): post-canon, wwx gets poisoned

staying in (going out) by artsy_alice (@artsy-alice) (G, 10182 words): nhs - “is jiang cheng my boyfriend?”

The Turtle in the Lanshi by Brierilee (G, 1625 words): hanguang-jun’s ugly turtle figurine [my post here]

KUDOS 1000+:

a light hidden and singing by occultings (@wanlangji) (E, 48528 words): arranged marriage pre-sunshot, misunderstandings and miscommunication

throw me in the deep end by lazulink (@lazulink) (E, 12711 words): A/B/O AU, lwj shows up at wwx’s mating run

A Myriad of Blossoms by Itszero (E, 56910 words): yllz marries lwj after nightless city, very cruel wwx until he's not

NOVEMBER

KUDOS under 1000:

the clear bowl by appledtea (@appledtea) (T, 5980 words): killing spiders as a love language

From Underneath by steppjes (M, 15664 words): something weird is going, wwx needs to figure it out ("lwj died") [my post here]

in wild plums and river willows by SnowshadowAO3 (@angstsexual) (T, 17771 words): lwj’s 13 years speaking to a ghost

KUDOS 1000+:

Don't Let Moments Pass Along by Pip (E, 5917 words): physical therapist!lwj and athlete!wwx

shyer by mellowflicker (E, 2496 words): A/B/O AU, mxy turns out to be an alpha

to bruise them dearer by typefortydeductions (E, 47653 words): A/B/O AU, wwx presumed dead after sunshot

DECEMBER

i’m still reading stuff as it comes out, so these haven’t had as much time as the others to accumulate kudos-- slightly different metric but nevertheless! here we go 😊💕

KUDOS under 500:

familiar sorrow by otherhippo (@lanzhanshands) (T, 6986 words): pining, wwx tries to stay away

Something at the Door by Pip (E, 50093 words): casefic, wwx is haunted by a horror mystery

From the Warm Sun by sunshineinwriting (T, 58286 words): cssr survives to raise wwx in the cloud recesses

KUDOS 500+:

instructions on not giving up by fruitys (M, 13694 words): post-canon, wwx doesn’t know what to do with himself

Songs Unheard by mondengel (@mondengel) (Not Rated, 3189 words): deaf!lwj in the cloud recesses (restricted on AO3)

my little love by mellowflicker (T, 54812 words): single dad!wwx moves to a new town, kindergarten teacher!lwj

so, thanks 2021 for uhh being a year. i guess. i hope we can carry the good things from this year forward into the next! to all you reading this down here at the bottom, and anyone else who needs these vibes: i hope you have as many good days as there may be bad, i hope your wins balance out the not-so-wins, and i hope you all get as much care and love and hugs as you could possibly want or need in the new year 💕 that’s it for now!!! (☞ﾟヮﾟ)☞

[ambidextrousarcher]

Sarcastic StarBharat Reviews-Episode 22: In which horny deer rishis set off a chain of events.

Hello everyone! I’m back after a VERY long hiatus, had some real life issues to deal with, along with the aggravation of changing an url and some online drama too. And I’m right in time for Diwali, too, yay! Happy Diwali, people! Also Happy Children’s day!

Tagging my usual taglist: @ambitiousandcunning @medhasree @shaonharryandpannisim @hermioneaubreymiachase @hindumyththoughts @chaanv @ratnas-musings @whydoyoucareaboutmyusername @justahappyreindeer @milesbianmorales @allegoriesinmediasres @pratigyakrishnaki @iamnotthat @adishaktis @ratnas-musings. Enjoy your day, everyone!

Review is under the cut.

PS: Nila updates- The Sarcastic StarBharat review of episode 18 is missing from my blog for some reason, I’ll reupload it. Also, for anyone who’s listening to my song covers, the next items are Karam Ki Talwar from Arjun the Warrior Prince, Moh Moh Ke Dhage from Dum Laga Ke Haisha and Jo Beji Thi Dua, from Shangai.

 Okay. Rehash is in order, along with some new nicknames. Till the last episode, Madri has reached Hastinapur, the precap of the last episode makes it clear that this is the episode with horny deer rishis.

I had made a numbering mistake in counting the number of canon fails, my bad, so, as of now, we’re at canon fail #49.

Here’s the nickname rehash and additions to be made-

1. Bhishm-Mr. Paragon of Perfection

2. Dhritrashtra- Mr. Drama Queen (Honorary mention-DisasterRashtra, courtesy of @iamnotthat)

3. Pandu-Honey Boy/Lord of Cheesy Lines

4. Gandhari-Ms. Always Patnidharma

5. Shakuni-Mr. Ominous Music/Mr. Annoying Poseur

6. Karn-Mr. Glitterwash

7. Kunti-Ms. Melodrama/Lady of Cheesy Lines

8. Amba (deceased)-Psycho Princess

9. Satyavati-Psycho Mum

10. Vichitraveerya (deceased)-Drunk Kid

Here are the new additions:

11. Vidur (finally)- Picking the line where he likens himself to a thorn during Pandu’s coronation, he’s Mr. Weepy Thorn.

12. Madri-Ms. Smarmy Tears

13. Krishn-(Parody version, anyway, also, FINALLY) Mr. Excess Gyaandaan.

Now, let’s get to business.

Alright, so, last episode, Gandhari was told that Drama Queen wants her in his chambers. Being the aadarsh, Ms. Always Patnidharma that she is, she goes immediately, and that’s where today’s episode of choice begins.

She stumbles in and stutters out her usual ‘Husband?’ (International viewers, please note, Hotstar has rolled out the English subtitles for your most unfavorite show. It translates ‘Arya’ as Lord, but I’m keeping the ‘husband’ variation, because no.)

Anyway. He shushes her. ‘Don’t say anything, Gandhari, just listen. The mind is so weird, isn’t it?’ Okay…why this sudden volte face? Ah, he’s trying to apologise, I guess? He says that he was absorbed in his negative emotions of hurt, grief and jealousy, but when no news of Honey Boy came from the battlefield, he realized that he still worries and cares for his little brother, and that he was merely unfortunate, not conspired against, concluding that he was unjust to Honey Boy. O…kay? Should I count this as a canon fail? Canon Dhritrashtra can be two-faced, so eh, leave it.

Ms. Patnidharma is shaking her head next to him, because of course, she’s that much of a doormat. ‘I was unfair to you too. I had rejected you, Gandhari, but if I realise my mistake, will you accept me?’ Ah. I see what this is. Anvil-shadowing. Just before Pandu ‘loses’ his ability to ‘be a husband’ Drama Queen and Patnidharma make up with each other. Newsflash, writers: Nothing is this clean cut.

Of course, that was precisely the opening Ms. Patnidharma was waiting for, so she feels her husband up as they hug. Drama Queen’s heart, apparently, very anomalously, is overflowing with happiness, now that he has unloaded his weakness onto Patnidharma, or so he says. Don’t believe him, though, don’t be the naïve idiot Patnidharma is, because that weakness of his wreaks bloody wrecking ball havoc in the future.  

‘So what if I don’t become the King?’ Excuse me. I just choked on my water. What’s up with this volte-face? Just what? ‘I have more respect here than the King himself!’ I think I’m gonna count this as canon fail #50 because nah, he ain’t gonna say this in any adaptation that’s sane. And of course, since he’s randy too, it seems, he goes ‘When you give me a son, he’ll be the eldest son and King after Pandu. I’ll also get the pleasure of being a King. Will you give me the gift of such a talented son?’ Ah. So that’s what the volte-face is for. Canon fail #50 cancelled. Drama Queen would say anything at all to get his way, that’s right. Patnidharma, predictably, goes all gushy. ‘Yes, husband, for your sake, I’ll go to the portals of Yamlok themselves!’ Ah, sheesh, sometimes, watching this show makes me think that I should projectile-yeet myself to Yamlok.

He laughs. ‘When the time comes,’ he says, ‘we’ll go to the portals of death together, Gandhari.’ Well, that, at least, is true. He continues that they still have many happy moments to experience. She nods, melting into his embrace.

Scene changes to a green vista, the whickering of horses heard. Madri, henceforth known as Ms. Smarmy Tears, is laughing, Ms. Melodrama being stony faced and stoic. (That’s a change, though the music manages to make even THAT dramatic) The camera focuses on a deer, and Smarmy asks Honey Boy to stop, because it’s a beautiful deer. Okay…I know what’s coming up next. Anvil-shadowing, anyone? I realise it was very long ago when we were introduced to Ms. Melodrama, but I’ll give you a short rehash. She was introduced saving a deer from hunters. Anyone got the hint? It’s an obvious ‘Madri is an evil witch!’ gambit. Please do not take it. I know that in canon, Kunti and Madri probably had a fractious relationship given the whole fracas over the boon, but I refuse to believe Madri would be this transparently biatch-y.

And…bingo! Smarmy says that the deer is absolutely unique, and follows it up with a request for its skin. Melodrama, of course, is having none of it. She passionately launches into defence of the deer’s children who’d be orphaned, basically echoing her very first piece of dialogue on this show. Do you think there’s a chance that they dubbed it in? I mean…I wouldn’t be able to say that twice with a straight face. But, whatever gives, I guess. Fawn get orphaned often, goes Smarmy. It’s not like I’m asking you for the position of the Queen, can’t you do this much for me? Since StarB has a thing of making women either bitches or doormat ditches, its Honey Boy who cuts in. ‘Speak of good things alone.’ Did this guy get a theology class between the ‘war’ and this moment? ‘I’ll get the deer for you, the rest of you please stay here.’ And then the show takes yet another opportunity to set Melodrama as good and Smarmy as bad, as Melodrama tries to give Smarmy a moral lesson about abstaining from killing for no reason, and Smarmy going all casteist (not sure if that’s the right word, since afaik Kunti’s maternal family are also Kshatriyas? Yadava is not one family. It’s an entire dynasty.) And here’s canon fail #50 and #51. #50 is the fact that Pandu, in canon, hunts the deer because he wants to. Madri has nothing to do with it in the text. #51 because the jibe about Yadavs being shepherds that Madri makes smacks of a misconception about politics in the MBH. The idea of ‘Yadavas’ being shepherds is present because of the lore of Krishn and Balaram in Gokul. While I’m sure there might be some branches of the family that may dabble in those pursuits, typically, considering the social structure of that time, Kunti’s family is of quite royal pedigree.

The scene switches to Honey Boy looking for deer, listening attentively to the rustling leaves. Really, this question goes for canon too, haven’t these guys learnt a thing at all from the whole Dashrath/Sravan Kumar fracas? That it is TOTALLY not a good idea to just randomly shoot in a random forest, anyone? At least sight the prey a little, no?

Regardless, he shoots an arrow, the tell-tale thunk is heard, followed by a human scream (the typically serial-ish ‘nahi, nahi!’ aka ‘no, no!’). Alarmed, he sets off in pursuit of the sound. The camera focuses on a bloody arrow then showing us a rishi and a rishin. ‘Maharishi Kidam?’ exclaims Pandu. ‘It was you?’ ‘What have you done? You shot an arrow without recognizing me! I was dallying (read: deer hanky-panky-ing) with my wife in the form of a deer, and you shot an arrow without considering that the grace and the form of the deer could only mean it is such?’ Okay, for all that I want to call this canon fail #52, I’ll be honest…because such a scene, at least one of Pandu killing Kidama when he’s in sexual congress with his wife in the form of a deer does happen. Sometimes, *sigh* canon itself is quite strange.

But…in the whole of this thing, I have an observation to make, a few questions to ask, in the context of this serial:

1. Madri saw only one deer? What was the deer rishi doing, a deer mating ritual of some sort? Where was the wife then?

2. Does what he said mean that there might be…other rishis doing deer hanky panky?

3. Kidama was a rishi, right? He’d have figured out Pandu wants the ‘deer’ when he saw them and vanished? He could have, IDK, sprinted off real quick, or turned back into human, or just vanished once more. Why escalate it this much?

Honey Boy is very contrite and begs for forgiveness. Canon fail #53. In canon, he basically goes, well, Kings hunt deer, why cry about it? (That is, the dialogue given to Madri to establish her as ‘bad’)  The deer rishi brings up the Dashrath point I gave above and says that Honey Boy’s crime can’t be pardoned, that he shouldn’t have killed a man in congress with his wife, so he curses him that he’ll die the moment he’ll have congress with any woman. Canon fail #54. The original curse specifies ‘his loved one’ not any random woman.

Cue dramatic panoramic shot and dramatic title bgm. Honey Boy is in tears. The rishi dies.

Scene changes and we’re back in Hastina, where the court fool is entering. He says he has a lot of questions. Mr. Weepy Thorn prompts him to ask his questions. So there’s this long drawn out riddle session that’s set up to predict that Gandhari is pregnant, and Drama Queen will be experiencing the love of a son soon. There’s happiness all round, lots of hugs too. Of course, this show takes no rest from anvil shadowing either, so exactly at this moment enters Honey Boy with his wives. Honey Boy is welcomed with joy and immediately apprised of the news. In his head, the dying deer rishi’s words echo, even as his wives smile by his side. (Ah, apparently, there’s anvil juxtaposition, too! Whee!)

Anyway. Satyavati notices he ain’t looking happy and she asks him if he got what she said. He manages to sponge her off, hug his brother and congratulate him. When he does that, Annoying Poseur closes his eye.

As he ascends the throne, deer rishi’s words come back to him, asking what kind of a King he is. Honey Boy refrains from climbing the final stair, turning. He says that he has something of great importance to announce, confessing that he has killed Kidama and is no longer worthy of being a King.

His announcement is met with shock all around, as he renounces the throne of Hastina. Cue dramatic title bgm again. Camera focuses on Satyavati (who’s quite less psycho nowadays), then panning one by one to Drama Queen, Paragon of Perfection, Smarmy, Melodrama, Patnidharma, Ambika, Ambalika, a grinning Poseur (both eyes open), back to Honey boy and Mr. Paragon as he drops his angvastr limply.

Scene changes as Mr. Perfection walks inside Honey Boy’s chambers and they have an argument about his responsibilities. Honey Boy puts forward that for all that Satyavati wants a worthy King, he is no longer worthy, that even Indra renounced heaven for the killing of a sage and meditated for eons, that mere charity and abstinence as suggested by Mr. Thorn and Kripacharya won’t be enough. He continues that the duty of a King, the man who holds the royal scepter is to dispense justice to his people. He asks who would mete justice out on a King? The camera pans out to Mr. Perfection, standing mute, ending the episode.

Alright, this whole thing is canon fail #55. Pandu does not go back to Hastina, he sets out immediately to atone. Also #56, his wives know everything as he does. He doesn’t keep it hidden from them.

Precap: ‘But the crime was ours’ says Smarmy. ‘the punishment, however, has to be borne by our yet unborn children!’ ‘You can’t ever have children.’ Announces Honey Boy, going on to inform them of the curse.

[babyleclerc]

Mimi’s Masterlist (Fics/Imagines/One Shots)

Key:

🥰 = Fluff || 💥 = Smut || ☠️ = NSFW ||🌪 = Angst ||⚡️ = Tough themes/Mature content || 🧸 = Author’s Favorite || 🍒 = 1K notes || 🎉 = 2K notes || 🎈 = 3K notes || 🌶 = 4K notes

Updated 8/3/19

Series:

Chris Evans x Reader

🌪⚡️Always Remember Us This Way {IN PROGRESS - CURRENTLY ON HIATUS} - You’ve been friends with Chris since College, but as you’ve gotten older you’re getting tired of the on again/off again dynamic of your relationship. This time, you’re actually breaking up. For good.

Part One

Part Two

Part Three

Part Four {COMING SOON}

🌪⚡️Much Too Much {IN PROGRESS - CURRENTLY ON HIATUS} - With big brother Sebastian Stan by your side, you never needed much else in life as you navigated raising your three-year-old son as a single mother. That is, until Chris Evans comes crashing into your world – bringing laughter and joy with him, but unknowingly digging up every secret you’d tried so hard to bury.

Part I

Part II

Part III

Sebastian Stan x Reader

🥰Hope for the Hopeless {ON HIATUS} - While in town visiting your best friend during the IW press tour and screening, you end up spending lots of time with her fiance, Tom Hiddleston, and through extension the rest of the MCU cast. A certain shy but confident, Sebastian Stan can’t help but notice you - and the whirlwind starts from there.

Part I

Tom Hiddleston x Reader

Change Is Gonna Come {COMPLETE}

Part I - You find out you’re pregnant while abroad for work, and tell Tom after a month of being apart. 🥰🍒

Part II - After experiencing severe stomach pains and rushing you to the hospital, you and Tom find out heartbreaking news about your baby. 🌪⚡️

One-Shots/Imagines:

Tom Hiddleston x Reader

The Way You Look Tonight - Tom has always been one to spoil you, but on your second wedding anniversary you want to be the one spoiling. So after a romantic evening dinner, you take Tom to the theatre to see his favorite play & ice cream afterwards. 🥰

If I Didn’t Have You - Studying isn’t so bad when you’ve got an adorable Tom Hiddleston by your side. 🥰

Love Her Madly -  After probably the worst day of your life, you find yourself stood up at a nice restaurant by your date. To make things worse, you also run into your ex - who sees you there alone. Who better to save the day than the one and only Tom Hiddleston? 🥰🍒

Lips On You (NSFW) -  During your honeymoon, Tom wakes you up in the middle of the night seeking some… attention. 💥☠️🍒

Slow Hands (NSFW) -  In an effort to get you to relax after a long week, Tom offers to give you a massage. Which leads to other things… 💥☠️

An Honest Mistake -  Not wanting to jinx your new relationship, you and Tom keep your relationship under wraps - no one knows except your family. But while on a mini getaway in England, Tom runs into a family friend and introduces you as ‘just a friend’, which leads to a fight. 🌪🥰🍒

Honesty Hour -  It’s your turn to host Friendsgiving, and all your closest friends are attending – Anthony Mackie, Sebastian Stan, Chris Evans, and of course, Tom Hiddleston. After a whole lot of booze, the conversation steers into the boys asking your ‘FMK’ (Fuck, Marry, Kill) opinions - which leads to honesty hour with Tom. 🧸🥰🌪🍒🎉🎈🌶

Favorites - Tom asks you a few Marvel questions, which leads to an interesting revelation about his coworkers. 🧸🥰🍒🎉🎈

Rules -  You’ve got some explicit rules for watching Marvel movies with Tom, specifically ones that he’s in. But he has other plans. 🧸🥰🍒🎉🎈🌶

Just Wait - A sad Tom doesn’t want you to go out of town for work, which leads from an argument to a much bigger, more important question. Small mention of jealous!Tom over Chris Evans. 🌪🥰🍒🎉

Sebastian Stan x Reader

Fix You -  Feeling unworthy of Sebastian Stan’s affections, you look to him for comfort and reassurance in a brief moment of insecurity. 🥰

Into You Like A Train (NSFW) - You can’t resist asking Seb a question that has been on your mind all morning - even at the most inappropriate time. 🥰💥

Chris Evans x Reader

Tequila Sunrise -  You’ve known Chris since you were twelve. He’s always been a constant for you, never a romantic interest. But will the summer heatwave, humidity and pool time get to your head and change the way you feel about each other? Includes Anthony Mackie! 💥 🧸 ☠️

One Sweet World - In preparation for Chris’s 37th birthday, you’ve got a big surprise for him that he just can’t contain his excitement for. 🧸🥰 🍒

Morning After - After seeing Infinity War, you have questions for your boyfriend, Chris…who clearly can’t confirm or deny your many theories. ;) 🥰 🍒

Something’s Gotta Give (NSFW) - You’ve been filming Infinity War over the past 8+ months and for whatever reason, you cannot stand the sight of Christopher Robert Evans. But on a cold winter’s night, stuck in a cabin for “mandatory bonding”, you and Chris work out your issues…physically. Includes cameos of our favorite super-dorks Seb, Tom, Scar & Mackie! 🧸🌪⚡️☠️🍒🎉🎈

Steve Rogers x Reader

Afterlife -  Immediately after The Snap, Steve has yet to hear from you, causing him to assume the worst. Did you survive? 🌪

My 1K+ Story A Day Challenge 2k17:

Day 1: Winter Wonderland (Chris Evans x Reader) 🥰

There’s no better way to spend Christmas Eve than with your best friend, Chris Evans. Hilarity ensues while Chris attempts to make Christmas decorations. Wonderful, feelgood, holiday fluff.

Day 2: My Favorite Things (Tom Hiddleston x Reader) 🥰

Just a cold, wintery night with our favorite Tom Hiddleston, complete with blanket fort and dinner next to the fire. Fluff, fluff, fluff.

Day 3: It’s Beginning to Look a Lot Like Christmas (Tom Hiddleston x Reader) 🥰

In which you try to hang the Christmas lights by yourself and Tom watches you fail hysterically.

Day 4: Rockin’ Around the Christmas Tree (Tom Hiddleston x Reader) 🥰

Just a quick blurb about decorating the tree with our favorite boy, Tom Hiddleston.

Day 5: Cold December Night (Tom Hiddleston x Reader) 🥰

You’re attending Marvel’s annual Holiday Party rather begrudgingly, and the night seems to be a lame one until you realize that a certain Tom Hiddleston has made you a stocking with all of your favorite things inside. Small cameo by ScarJo & Chris Evans.

Day 6: You Make It Feel Like Christmas (Tom Hiddleston x Reader) 🧸🥰

A beautiful Christmas Eve spent with the one and only Tom Hiddleston. And it wouldn’t truly be Christmas unless he popped you a serious question, would it?

Day 7: Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (Tom Hiddleston x Reader) 🧸🥰

Christmas morning spent with Tom isn’t so bad, after all. Features daddy!Tom and lots of fluff. :)

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The Birthday Party (SC Titanic, Zetta x Adele Series, Ch. 10/2)

Here it is the second part of chapter 10!

Guys, I'm gonna be honest with you: I'm not sure when the next one will be out: it could be Tuesday next week or in weeks from now. So consider this series on potential hiatus. I'm struggling to find words in my everyday life and writing feels quite pointless atm. Hopefully if will change soon but that's the situation atm, I'm sorry.

Little disclaimer-favor: if you do enjoy it, please consider supporting the author & sharing this. A little gesture that means a lot!

Word Count: 3000+

Zetta x Adele Tag: @storyscaped@storyscapefanficarchive@marmolady @animus-and-anima @hayley-carter19 @escako@everlastingchoices @andrxrneda @aestheticsayeed@indescribablechoices @ahrielstuff@bornonawdnsday @nazario-sayeed  @h-doodles @adele-serda@marlcasters@brightpinkpeppercorn @nightwhite13@ramenwithaspoon@michelleconnoly @charliejane-blog @ghost-of-yuri@choicesgremlin @shadeofangelus @mistressofspiesxenia@orange-elephants​

Zetta x Adele Series Tag: @eternal-langdon @nydeiri

➡️ Ch. 1, Ch. 2/1, Ch. 2/2, Ch. 3, Ch. 4, Ch. 5, Ch. 6, Ch. 7, Ch. 8/1, Ch. 8/2, Ch. 9, Ch. 10/1

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Returning to the party still in full swing after my stolen moment with Adele is disheartening. I guess going back to our miseries in this crazy world after experiencing a glimpse of Heaven is pretty much the same feeling. I wonder how poor Dante coped back then. A smiling waiter hands me another glass of sweet alcoholic poison and I put my mask back on, even if I struggle now. I try to distract myself and be entertained by the chirpy conversations and gossips of my guests but my mind keeps running back to her. "I know, I wish this moment didn't have to end" "We'll make our own plays. Whaddya say?" I giggle at their silly jokes and outrageous stories, I retort with witticisms out of a script but I can't hear them, not truly. I'm not here. The Zetta is, not me. I am still in my lover's company. I can only hear her soft voice, our words of love. I don't have time nor will to hear that hilarious improbable story I'll absolutely have to tell Richard or that marvellous recent scientific discovery. I smile, I fake interest and thank God -and myself- I am a great actress.

As I move to another table where Lucille is beckoning me over I look out of the window, taking in the starry sky. I'm surprised but a quick smile cross my lips when I spot Adele hanging in there with a steward I saw around the lifts. They're leaning on the railing and chatting. They look like close friends: maybe they were accidentally reunited on board or is it true what they say? Ships make fast friends. I'll ask her about him. Not out of jealousy, even if I wish I could neglect my party more and run at her side where he stands. Even if I wish I could be the one making her laugh now. I just smile at the two of them, grateful that my troubled love is in good company tonight. God knows if she doesn't need a friend and some happiness after all she went through. And I'm afraid the worst is yet to come...

I do my best to lose myself in the complicated story about a common acquaintance my friend is sharing with the ladies and it works, to some extent. At least until when Sabine comes find me and invite the whole group to stand as the waiters pick up the table moving then toward the wall to clear space. Oh, we'll have some dancing! Even the musicians are now moving to the center of the far wall to be heard best. The crowd, myself included, is delighted and in awe. As the first chords of my favorite waltz start playing, everyone is looking for their partners and hurrying to finish their drinks. I drain mine, trying not to think of how much I would love to have this dance with my love no matter how inappropriate it would sound to many here. I ditch the Baron though -that lovable shark isn't fast enough this time!- and a couple of other hopeful admirers to hold Lawrence's hand. "Shall we dance, darling?" I smile encouraged you at him. We both long for a partner we can't pick out in the sun: let our shared sorrow fade away on the note of The Blue Danube, my dear friend. Lawrence understands or so it seems by the bittersweet yet thankful smile he offers me. He reads the unwritten and hears the unspoken words too. My poor dear Lawrence... We chat like old friends as we sway among the crowd. He's not only a brilliant director but also one of the finest dancer I've ever met. He blush a little when I sing his praises and just shrugs saying he has loved dancing. Typical, humble Lawrence... He lowers his voice a little when he thanks me for inviting him to the party, "well, me and Felix". He looks touched when I assure him that I wouldn't have had it any other way, I deeply value our friendship. "Me too, Zetta. You can count on me" he beams before his melancholic smile reappears. "If we close our eyes, we're in a fancy ballroom in Vienna" he whispers, leaning close and guiding the two of us into a graceful turn. I'm about to share a memory of my youth there with him, when I was blinded by the beauty and luxury of the imperial aristocracy there when ruckus erupts from the other side of the room. Surprised cries and laughter ring as the guests stop dancing and the music ceases. "What? My party is not over yet" I playfully protest, pouting. I'm suddenly nervous. I fear the time has come: time for the squalid yet hurtful family theatrics, time for James's show. I try to find out what's going on but I can't make my way through a crowd of ladies and gentlemen stretching their necks and whispering to each other. My fears are sadly confirmed when I catch the baritone voice of the Baron saying "Good show, Miss Carrem. Getting smart with you, was he?" "I'm afraid I cannot stand overfamiliarity. I apologise for making a scene" My love's voice is a bit shaken: is it anger or fright? Concern and fury take hold of me and I shutter my jaw. Lawrence squeezes my hand and I am grateful. "It is I who should apologise, on behalf of those who call themselves gentle..." the Baron continues but James interrupts him. "Oh do be quiet!" His tone is harsh, pure drunk rage. The crowd seems to lose interest in the argument and the music resumes but I'm still wary. I know James is up to something and it's just a matter of time. "I'm sure it's nothing, Zetta. A little misunderstanding...and Miss Carrem knows how to take care of herself" It's Lawrence. I turn to him and he's smiling reassuringly down at me, giving my shoulder a gentle squeeze. I feels so grateful for his lovable kindness right now, an anchor in a troubled sea. I nod and try to shake my bad gut feelings away. "Why don't we take a break and enjoy the waltz with a drink?" he adds, gesturing to the drink table near the window. I compliment his idea and let him guide me through the crowd. The cold her of the night cools me down and I take a long breath to soothe my nerves. Maybe I was wrong, maybe I'll be spared the drama. Unlikely but I can still hope right? I almost sink the glass of sherry Lawrence hands me, triggering a concerned look that I dismiss, claiming I'm perfectly fine. I just needed a break, I'm not twenty anymore, I grimly joke. "True Beauty never ages, dear Zetta. A beautiful soul defies the cruel compass of time" Lawrence proclaims with a smile. I ask him what poet wrote that line because I can't recollect it in the moment but I'm not surprised in the least to hear that he is the one behind that sweet thought. I pull him into a hug whispering thank you into his ear. When we part, he encourage me to make a wish. "It's your birthday, after all: isn't it a tradition in America?" he asks. I'm still considering and rambling when Felix and Sabine approach us. The party is going well and the guests are enjoying themselves. They just wanted to check in on the honeree, Felix says. Lawrence shows our empty glasses making a funny face and we all laugh. I ask about the little incident before. Felix assures me once again that it was nothing. I turn towards my little Napoleon for confirmation. "Oui, Madam. Nothing more than a quid pro quo. You know how it is. Youth" Sabine says but the look in her eyes tells a different story. "Miss Zetta, any chance you'll make an appearance in our documentary?" Felix intervenes, quickly changing the topic. "We would be most honoured" Lawrence adds, beaming. "A little tribute to one of the finest passengers of the liner" I give a soft laugh, playing with the idea. Maybe I could, after all. A quick cameo. It wouldn't take too much time. I playfully brush them off calling out their flattery but they assure they had considered it over the last few days on board. "It would be a pleasure and an honor" Felix bows. I sigh contently, my eyes wandering from one admirer and friend to the other. "Very well then, my dear friends: I'm in! Why don't we meet...let's say over breakfast or lun-" I start but I stop mid-sentence. Behind my back, an hysterical laugh echoes through the café, drawing the general attention. Conversations and music fades away and an awkward tense silence settles. Cold runs down my spine and I fear my face suddenly goes pale as I recognise the voice. Jamie. It's time. I must endure this bad farçe. I inhale sharply. You can do this, you are a great actress and you survived worst days. You survived Franz. Get ready, Zetta. On scene in three, two one... When I turn, he's stalking towards me, shirt stained with wine and an hysterical light gleaming in his bright eyes. He's dragging Adele along like a puppet. A disheartening picture compared to my fondest memories of him. "Excuse me, Aunt, I merely wished to offer a toast: my salutations on this glorious occasion and-" he exclaims, raising his glass and sloshing wine over the edges. "You interrupting to chew the cud, here, James? Get to the point" I sound a bit harsh, as if annoyed of another interruption. I roll my eyes as I would do with a problematic kid throwing a tantrum and forgetting his manners. Ironically, it's what he's doing, even if he's no longer a child. A weird, unpleasant smile crosses his face. Maybe he was expecting my reaction? "And a fond farewell to your secretary" he adds menacingly as I take a sip of sherry. I narrow my eyes at him over my glass, half annoyed, half amused. Bring it on, Jaime dear. "A farewell? And why might that be?" I see Sabine tensing up at my peripheral. James looks so pleased of himself as he takes the stage like a practiced professional. He doesn't realise he's just behaving like a pathetic buffoon to my -and most guests's -eyes. "To put it simply: Adele is a confidence woman who agreed to come abroad the Titanic to help me destroy you" "Come again?" I fake surprise as the crowd gasps and starts whispering. The attention and the look on my face renew his foolish fervor. "I brought Adele to help me ruin your marriage to Richard King, to keep him from ruining our family... For the price of her freedom, your secretary was to get close to you, discover your worst secret, and deliver it to me." He stops, making a dramatic pause. And now I know: it's the moment of truth. Time of Adele's choice. I stand, concealing my inner turmoil and fears, as the crowd basks into this unexpected juicy coup de theatre. When he speaks again, his mouth twists with a rage I've never fathomed he could hide inside. "She failed!" She...protected me? Even knowing at what cost... My eyes instinctively search Adele's but James is not done yet. "And now she'll go back to jail, where I found her" he shouts, spiralling out of control but loud enough to be heard by everyone. At the word "jail", the crowd utters a collective gasp. He wants to publicly humiliate her since he can't get what he was looking for. Because she dared refuse him the key to my ruin. I wish I could just drop the act and slap some sense into him. What pains me most is seeing him succeeding, to some extent. Adele is frowning under that low blow. I throw glares at everyone taking a step back from her as if she suddenly turned into a criminal or an insect. Miserable bastards... My love proves herself to be superior to all this, again. She straightens up and addresses the crowd, providing explanations she doesn't owe to any of us" "I was arrested for public disruption at a protest for women's rights. I'm not proud of having been jailed, but I'm not ashamed of what I was fighting for" she says, grimacing. Then she looks at me and I smile at her, hoping to convey all my respect, deepest affection and admiration for my sweet brave revolutionary. Let me help you now, my angel. I turn towards James and my smile loses all its warmth. "Bravo, James. You're quite the schemer" I knew he would be confused. I'll deny you something too, Jaime. You won't get an ounce of the despair you wanted. You won't see me crying and crumble under your betrayal: I'm not a Julius Caesar stumbling underneath your dagger. "That's all you have to say? You've been played. She was hired to ruin your marriage-" "She was, wasn't she?" I cut him short. "But she has a conscience, and a lot of courage" I take a pause before smiling again, cold and victorious. "Adele told me all about your terrible plan" His jaw drops and his rosy cheeks pale. He grabs Adele's arm and starts drunkly ramble again. "You - what? No. This doesn't change anything. I'll take you back-" This time Adele interrupts him, spitting the harsh truth right in his face. "Your only power was your wealth, and now that's gone. Along with the trust of your only relative" He releases her and I wonder if he finally realised what a fool, what an ungrateful fool he has been. Adele's right, James. When he turns to me, a desperate look on his face, I brace myself for his tears. Him begging for a forgiveness I'm not sure I will ever be able to give him. Apparently, I haven't learned my lesson: men can't be trusted. Men will always lie to you. "She's the one blackmailing me" Adding insult to injury, Jamie dear? "No, James. She's not" I'm cold and firm, despite the heartbreak I feel growing inside me. "You'll value the word of this secretary over your own blood?" His disbelief quickly turns into rage again. "I value my own sense, James; your plotting was plain as that smirk on your face" My voice is sharp: yes, I want to hurt him just like he hurt me. I want him to feel ashamed and sorry for what he did to me, to Adele. My sharp retort provokes some nervous giggles soon silenced in our audience. I sense fury building up inside him until it explodes. He bangs on the table with his fist, making everyone jump. "I'll get to Hileni, then, I'll hold her, I'll make you tell Zetta's secret-" Is he even speaking to Adele or...to himself? Honestly, I cannot tell. And I'm grateful to Matteo for intervening. I don't know what he's whispering into his ear but it seems to work. James seems to remember himself. For a split second, sadly. He straightens his cuffs and gives us all a tight, cruel smile. "Off to send word to the authorities, then" he says and turns to Adele and me. "As I said before, say your goodbyes" Then he walks away as the unabashed crowd part the way for his supposed grand exit. When he's out of the room, the guests are puzzled, unsure of what they just witnessed. They look at each other asking the neighbour or their partner what our family farçe was. I'm afraid this is just the beginning of another sorrow but the worst is gone. For the night, at least. I let out a long, exhausted sigh: God knows if it wasn't tough but I can breathe now. We can breathe again. And plan a counter attack to his pathetic scheme. I instinctively reach for her hand and take it into mine, uncaring of the crowd around us. "I didn't think the boy would actually do it" Yes, I tried to convince myself of that. I wanted to believe that he was apparently better than he actually is, that he wouldn't stoop so low...but what is my life if not a collection of disappointments from men? "Should I be worried?" There's a hint of concern in Adele's voice. I can't blame her: I don't recognise my nephew anymore, I can hardly tell how seriously we should consider his threats. "I doubt it, but he's not to be underestimated when his pocketbook is in peril" I know my answer offers little comfort but I continue, squeezing her hand to prove my loyalty to her: "Whatever he tries, though, I'll be by your side" Adele smiles down to our hands before meeting my eyes again. "I have faith in you, Zetta. Thank you" Despite I can see more than understandable concerns and fears written all over her face, she squeezes my hand back. I take a deep breath. The weight of the latest events is washing over me. "I'm going to retire to my room and prepare a message to my lawyers. If anyone can figure out a way to  keep you out of jail, it's them" "Are you certain?" I give my love a sad smile. "There's little certain in this life, sweetheart, but lawyers with a high hourly rate? They're as close as we'll get" We just smile at my little mot d'esprit. "This wasn't exactly the soirée I wanted, but I suppose the truth had to come out sometime." I continue. I look at her in the eye as I add: "You're a true friend, Adele" I lean towards her so only she can hear. "And I'll wait up for you tonight, if you'd like" Please come find me later, my love. We will find a way to keep you out of trouble, we'll meet the dawn if need be and forget our sorrows and the unpleasantness of this soirée in each other arms. To my surprise, Adele wraps her around me, pulling me into a tight embrace. It takes me a moment to process it but I've never felt closer to tears. Surrounded by the familiar warmth of her body. I know someone is probably, surely staring with a bit of curiosity and malice after the melodrama we offered for free tonight but I don't care. Not now. So I hug her back and give a quick gentle stroke to her cheek as I part. After one last lingering weak smile at her, I gesture Sabine that it's time for our retreat. With the last ounce of strength left in me to keep my act on, I wave diplomatically at the gossiping guests and take my leave, my little Napoleon in tow. The show's over, lads. The show's over...

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The Master and the God (part 12)

Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4 / Part 5 / Part 6 / Part 7 / Part 8 / Part 9 / Part 10 / Part 11

A/N: I have to start this by saying I’m so sorry for going on such a long hiatus. December was a tough month for me. I was in a lot of pain and ended up spending Christmas in the hospital. I’m almost all better now, but my vision is still really blurry so I haven’t been on my laptop very much so the update kept getting delayed. This chapter and the next 2 are already written, but they needed to be edited still. I’m going to do my best to get on a regular posting schedule again even though I don’t know if anyone is still reading this story lol (I’m also going to try to post a Bucky x Reader One shot that was requested AGES ago this week!)

ALSO I’M GONNA MEET TOM HIDDLESTON THIS SATURDAY!!!

IN THE LAST CHAPTER... you returned to Earth to meet with Nick Fury (little cute run in with Cap) to learn Loki’s scepter is missing and you offer to help find it and want to bring Thor and Loki to assist the Avengers. You get Fury to agree and then you return to Asgard and convince/slightly blackmail Odin into agreeing to let you take Loki with you to help.

As you head down to Loki’s room to tell him the good news you run past a number of people, dodging out of their way to avoid a collision. But halfway to your destination you sprint past a man with long blonde hair. You do a quick double take to make sure that it is in fact Thor.

You turned around and decided to try to catch up with him and let him know about the Avengers mission and make sure he would agree to help. You tried to follow him, but he was moving a little to quickly through the hallways. He’s so fast, even without Mjolnir flying him around places, you complained to yourself. As soon as the thought is in your mind you find yourself a few yards from where you once were, standing in front of Thor, who had to stop mid step to avoid running into you.

“Lady Y/n, I didn’t see you there,” Thor said, you could hear the confusion and surprise in his voice. “Actually… I thought I had passed you a moment ago and you were heading in the other direction?”

“I was, sorry. I’m still not exactly in full control of my seidr powers yet, I was trying to catch up with you to ask you something, but I focused on it too hard and it seems I was teleported?” You explained, trying to understand what happened yourself. You knew you hadn’t made a portal to get there so that was the only explanation left. “I really need to get better control over them.”

“Well it is quite impressive how quickly you’ve picked the Seidr up.” Thor complimented. “I remember when Loki was still trying to get his powers in order. When we were kids, he would often see something he wanted to play with and mother or father would tell him no, but the object you suddenly be right in front of him before they could do anything.”

You smiled at his story, it seemed Loki had always been a little mischievous. “It’s funny you mention Loki…” You said as you grabbed Thor’s bicep and guided him into a small room where there were no guards or maids to overhear you. “I returned to Earth earlier to meet with Director Fury. To update him on Loki and the status of things here on Asgard. He told me that Loki’s scepter had gone missing and that Tony was a little preoccupied with a… personal matter. He may or may not have given a very dangerous person his home address.”

Thor nodded, “I would be happy to return and help them, since the scepter is a mess my brother created. When shall we go Lady Y/n?”

“Well you see I still haven’t invited the last guest that will be coming with us…”

Thor cocked his head like a confused puppy and asked, “who else is coming?”

“Well, I felt that Loki would be very helpful to bring along,” you said quietly, waiting for an outburst similar to the one Odin had.

However, to your surprise, Thor did not raise his voice. He leaned in closer to you and whispered, “Very funny, but Father would never allow that.”

“Actually, he did, I’m just on my way back from speaking to him about it now. Odin studied my seidr and agreed that I am strong enough to handle him as long as he has some sort of power suppressant, but that shouldn’t be too difficult to arrange with the help of your mother.” You told Thor.

“My answer is still a yes. I will need to help you keep an eye on Loki.” Thor said. He paused for a moment and studied you before speaking again. I can see that you think you know him. And I want to believe that Loki is opening up to you, but I’m saying this as his brother and to protect you Lady Y/n. You shouldn’t trust Loki so readily. I say this as the person he has stabbed in the back, figuratively and quite often literally. I don’t want to see him hurt you.”

You didn’t know what to say. Thor sounded so sincere, and you knew he was speaking honestly. He would have no ulterior motive, he was genuinely worried that you were falling for Loki and Loki was going to use you. And he was partly right, at least you hoped it was only partly right. “We’ll head to the Bifrost around midday tomorrow, I’ll see you then.” Thor agreed and with that you left him standing in that room and continued on your original path to Loki’s room.

When you reach Loki’s door you see the guard that brought you to Odin. You greet him with a hello and he smiles and nods back. You’ve very excited to see Loki’s reaction to the news. You had just promised him last night that you would get him out of his sentence and you had already made good on it. Even he would have to admit that was impressive. Without thinking you just opened the door and entered Loki’s room.

You froze just after closing the door behind you because when you looked up to see Loki you saw that he had just come out of the shower. He was pulling a tunic over his head and you were speechless. It was a little embarrassing, but you had never seen a god shirtless and now you understood the term ‘god-like’. His muscles were understated, he was toned. Like his muscles were carefully sculpted, but not as bulky as Thor. His hair was the second thing you noticed. It was still half damp and a little messed up from being roughly towel dried.

“Y/n?” Loki asked once he had the shirt on properly and saw you standing there. “Has my body stunned you into silence?” You could hear the ego boost you were giving him in his tone. That snapped you out of it.

“Shut up,” you mutter. “I’ve come to let you know I’ve freed you!”

“Very funny, I didn’t know you were practicing to entertain the court.” Loki said as he sat down at his vanity and ran a hand over his head like he was fixing his hair, instantly drying his hair.

“Nope,” you reply, plopping down on his bed behind him so he could watch you from the mirror. “Tomorrow you will be assisting me and Thor with a little mission back on Midgard. Your scepter has gone missing and the Avengers are a little short staffed at the moment so they asked for a helping hand. I managed to convince Nick Fury, you remember him, right? Eyepatch? The guy you tried to kill as soon as you arrived on Midgard. I managed to convince one of your would-be victims and your father to let you come help because you should know the scepter best. If this goes well, I feel pretty hopeful that I can convince Odin to release you permanently. Frigga and I will have to suppress your powers before we go though, as per Odin’s stipulations.”

When you finished talking you looked up, expecting Loki to be very proud and thank you, at the very least a somewhat heartfelt compliment. But the reflection you saw in the mirror was anything but positive. Loki looked lost in thought, you could see a tinge of fear in the way he refused look up. You walked over to him and placed a hand on his shoulder.

“What’s wrong? I thought you would be happy to get out of this room…” You were suddenly unsure about everything. Was he lying yesterday when he said he was interested in me? I knew a god would never be interested in someone who looks like me. He could have anyone, why would he settle for a fat girl who wouldn’t be able to walk if it weren’t for magic?

Loki turned to you suddenly and held your hand, like he could feel the negativity and worry radiating from you, which you wouldn’t be surprised if he could. “I’m worried about being near the scepter. I don’t want to lose myself again.” Loki turned away from you again but kept a hold of your hand. You could tell he felt embarrassed and panicked at the prospect of possibly falling under Thanos’s control once more.

You bent down so you were eye level with Loki and wrapped your arms around him. “I swear to you that I won’t let anything like that happen. You don’t have to touch the scepter at all once we find it.” Loki relaxes slightly in your arms so you decide to take a chance and press a feather-light kiss to the top of his head. He smelled like sandalwood and something that had a warm and spicy scent you couldn’t quite name.

“So, I’m a good guy now?” Loki asks. “I’m an avenger?” He felt better knowing that you listened to his concerns and ensured him that he wouldn’t have to be near the scepter.

“Well, yes and no…” You replied. Loki looked over his shoulder and shot you a questioning look. “The scepter is a key element in the first of Infinity’s requests, so I was hoping you would know some way to track it down. Regardless of how it is found we have to make sure we find it before the others do because I will have to go in and handle some business first. Then the next day or so we can tell the others and actually collect the scepter.”

“Will we be bringing it back to Asgard?” Loki asked.

You bit you lip and considered your options. You hadn’t exactly thought about what to do with the mind stone after you helped Hydra create the enhanced twins like you were instructed. Bringing it to Asgard was a bad idea because there were already two infinity stones in Odin’s vault. Keeping three in one place was asking for trouble. “We’ll see when the time comes, I suppose,” you thought aloud.

“Okay, I’ll trust you.” Loki said as he stood up, “Thank you for getting me out of here, I don’t know how much longer I could spend in here.” He turned around and held you close for a moment before you had to pull away. If the three of you were going to be returning to Midgard you still had a couple things to handle.

“I need to go find Frigga so we can figure out how to suppress your powers but still have you be strong enough to help us fight. I’ll see you in the morning, remember to pack a small bag of stuff. I don’t know how long this will take to handle,” you told Loki as you headed toward the door.

Before you could leave Loki stopped you. “One last request, please keep the big green one as far away from me as possible. I still have the occasional nightmare about being smashed around, to and fro.”

“I’m sure Dr. Banner will be so disappointed to hear that!” You announced. “I’ll let them know, but no promises.” And with that you walked out of the room.

Once on the other side of the door you turned to the guard, “Thank you for helping me find the Allfather earlier.”

“T’was nothing Lady Y/n,” he insisted. “I was happy to help.”

“Would you happen to know where the Allmother is now as well?” You asked hopefully.

The guard thought for a moment before replying. “She should be in the garden on the second-floor balcony.” You thanked the guard once again and hurried off, up the stairs, to the second floor.

When you got to the door leading to the balcony you opened it quietly and saw Frigga lounging on a bench with plus cushions. “Hello Lady Y/n,” Frigga called out as soon as you walked out. She was facing the other direction and had her eyes closed but she could sense your seidr coming. “Did you go meet with Odin, dear?”

“I did, and it went really well. So well in fact that I’m going to need your help with something.”

“And what would that be?” Frigga asked, sitting up, her interest piqued.

“Well Midgard is in need of assistance and Odin has approved my request to take Thor and Loki to help on the condition that Loki be given some type of Seidr suppressant,” you explained. “I have an issue with that though. Loki will still need to be able to fight if we need him to so he can’t be completely suppressed. He’ll need to have access to more of his powers than he does now locked up in his room. Is there any type of spell that will allow me to adjust how much of his power he can use?”

Frigga thought for a moment before an idea popped into her mind. “Follow me,” she commanded as she got up walked back into the palace and up a set of stairs you hadn’t noticed before.

“Where are we going?” you asked her as the stairs brought you to a small hallway with a single door at the other end. Frigga didn’t answer you question until she had opened the door, showing you crates upon crates of items.

“These are where I keep all of my boys’ old things. I couldn’t bear to part with anything from their youth so I’ve had them stored away here,” Frigga confessed. She walked over to a small desk on the far side of the room and pulled out Loki’s horned helmet. “I had put this away in here already because I didn’t think he would have much use for it in the near future. Please return this to him” Frigga blew the thin layer of dust that had started to accumulate on the helmet and handed it to you before rummaging through the box again. “Aha, here!”

Frigga pulled out Loki’s forearm guards and handed them to you. “This is what we will enchant! Loki usually keeps on his armor because he likes to be prepared and it was crafted to be very light and not restrict him. If we enchant one of them and connect it to a bracelet that you would wear, you could allow him access to however much of his Seidr you feel is necessary. You could restrict it when there is no danger, but when out on an actual mission just give him free reign and trust.”

“I think that is a brilliant idea Allmother, but I don’t own a bracelet that we could enchant and pair with Loki’s armor,” You admitted.

“I have plenty of excess jewelry, I’ll give you something.” Frigga decided as she was about to lead you out. She stopped suddenly and asked you, “we are just heading to my quarters, would you... prefer to make a portal to save time?”

You smiled and nodded. You loved that Frigga was entertained and mystified by the mystic arts. Early on in your training sessions she would ask you to do different spells because she thought the mandala patterns were beautiful. You held up both hands and rotated one in a circle in front of the two of you until the sparking ring opened up and revealed Frigga’s room.

Frigga smiled brightly as she stepped into her own room and brought you to a large closet with thousands of outfits, shoes, and accessories. She showed you a large case of bracelets ranging from delicate thin chains to wider, more ornate bangles. A shining gold one immediately caught your eye. It was a simple wide cuff-like bracelet with a braided pattern all around a Yggdrasil tree in the center. “This one is beautiful,” you gasped and pointed to it.

“You have good taste,” Frigga teased as she pulled it out and slipped in on to your wrist. “I wore this the day I married Odin. I would be happy knowing it belongs to you now.”

“I don’t know what to say,” you were stunned into silence that Frigga would want to give you something so special and important. You were just a Midgardian, you represent the beginning of the end of her whole world. “Thank You.”

“There’s no need to thank me dear, it is the least I can give to you. You’ve helped my son so much and his happiness is priceless to me,” Frigga said kindly. “And speaking of my son, have there been any… developments in your relationship?”

You had to laugh at her persistence, she was really devoted to the idea of you and Loki being good for each other. The humor of the situation keeping you from blushing in embarrassment, “If you must know yes, there has been a slight development,” you confessed, “but this mission is really going to be a trial run for us, I think. If things go well and we can prove to Odin that Loki can be trusted and not be locked up indefinitely I think there is a chance for something like what you’re hoping for.”

Frigga was happy to hear that. After she easily enchanted the bracelet and arm guard you parted ways and you returned to your room to pack a small backpack with a couple changes of clothes. You set Loki’s helmet down on your bed while you looked through your clothes. You decided to bring your battle gear with you and if Thor questioned you, you could claim Frigga had made it at your request. It was what you had been wearing when you first met Loki, a red hooded dress, dark grey leggings, the combat boots you were currently wearing, and gold leg harnesses. You had enchanted the leg harnesses to constantly keep energy flowing to your knees so that even if you were in a dangerous situation your magic could always be focused where it needed to be to allow you to keep walking and jumping around.

You also decided that you would allow the Staff of the Living Tribunal to remain as a staff. There was no reason for it to be disguised as a cane any longer, you could just tell everyone that you transformed it into a staff. Now that it was known that you could do magic, things were getting much simpler. Technically I’m still lying, you thought to yourself, but at least this way I’m only lying about how I can do these things and not that I can do them entirely. Still not the ideal situation to be in, but it’s definitely an improvement.

You glanced over at Loki’s helmet and smiled. “God this thing really does look ridiculous,” you said to yourself. You walked over to where you had left it on the bed and picked it up, walking over to the mirror to try it on. It was a little to big for you and the weight caused it slid down over your eyes. “It’s stupidly heavy too,” you observed. “The design of this is absolutely awful, maybe I can surprise him with a little upgrade later…”

As you removed the helmet you actually took a moment to notice that the sun had already set. You knew you should get to sleep, because tomorrow would be overwhelming. You would have to gather Thor and Loki and go to Midgard, where you would be confronted by a whole new set of people. However, unlike Odin, these people had just fought with Loki, recently and personally. You knew it would not be so easy to convince them, you couldn’t just blackmail the Avengers the way you did with Odin. It would take more to convince them that Loki was not the villain they thought he was. You would also need to make sure no one would suspect you were in a newly formed and extremely complicated relationship with Loki. If anyone thought there was something going on between you two, not only would Fury probably try to prevent you from returning to Asgard, but the others would just think he had tricked you and you were under his control.

Are you sure you’re not being tricked though? A voice in the back of your mind questioned. You know that everything you’re doing goes against what you had vowed to the Ancient One, to the Masters back at Kamar-Taj.

You shook your head, pushing the thoughts out of your head. You knew Loki wasn’t lying, his Seidr stayed steady the whole time you were with him earlier. Everything was fine, everything would continue to be fine; at least you hoped it would. And with that final thought you laid down in bed, because you were exhausted from not getting enough sleep the night before. You shut your eyes and prayed you would get a solid night’s rest finally.

When you woke up you realized that it was mid-morning. You did manage to get about seven hours of sleep, but you knew you had some kind of nightmares. You couldn’t remember any specifics but you recalled some kind of tormented dreams and fear when you woke up. I don’t have time to sit around you decided as you got out of bed and got dressed. There were a few things that needed to get done today before you could return to Earth.

First of all, you needed to eat breakfast. Then you’d need to give Loki his helmet and make sure he put on the power suppressant armor before meeting up with Thor and heading to the Bifrost. Deciding that you needed to get a move on with today, you got out of your warm bed and put on the outfit you had been wearing when you arrived on Asgard; the S.H.I.E.L.D. T-shirt, a pair of jeans, and a cardigan, but you wore an Asgardian cloak over it all to avoid drawing too much attention to yourself.

You liked to believe that you were fitting in well at the palace. Granted, you didn’t look like the other skinny maidens that hung around to entertain the elite members of the upper class, but you didn’t think that you stuck out. Asgardians and Humans looked exactly the same so it’s not like they could point you out based on physical appearance alone. You didn’t want to make a spectacle of yourself so you actively tried to blend in as best you could. Yesterday you were still wearing a dress at least, but a shirt and jeans you felt was a little too informal. However, once you were back on Earth, if you were wearing the long, multi-layered dresses made of exquisite materials commonly used on Asgard, you would look like you were heading to a renaissance fair.

These thoughts clouded your mind as you came down the stairs, but when you entered the dining hall and saw Thor sitting at a table with Sif and the Warriors Three you had intended to just grab some food and eat quietly while thinking about all the different outcomes that could come of this scepter mission. That is until Thor saw you too and loudly invited you to eat with them. You nodded and grabbed a plate before joining them.

“Hello,” you said to them all before sitting down. “I wasn’t aware that the lot of you had returned from the other realms.”

“Hello Lady Y/n,” Fandral greeted. “Thor was just telling us that he would be leaving today to go to Midgard to help you with a quest! Is there any chance that you might need more assistance, perhaps from an incredible handsome and brave man, such as myself?”

Sif rolled her eyes and you snorted, trying to keep a straight face as you replied, “Thank you Fandral, but I do believe that Thor, Loki, and I will be enough help to the Avengers.”

“So, it is true!” Volstagg interrupted, “You are bringing Loki back to Midgard with you!”

“We thought Thor was jesting when he told us,” Hogun added.

You smiled and shook your head, “No, Loki is coming too. I trust that he can help us and wants to.”

“You’re foolish to trust him so easily,” Sif says before taking a sip of her drink. “Prince Loki does not care about the destruction or casualties he causes on his way to the top.”

That offended you. Loki wasn’t there to defend himself and no on else knew his exact motivations for the things he had done in the recent past besides you. “I’m aware you all have known him much longer than I have, but I wholeheartedly believe that he is not as terrible as you think he is.”

You watched Sif’s facial expression morph from confusion, to shock, and then to one of pity. “It’s a dangerous game you’re playing, Midgardian.”

Sensing the tension between the two of you, Thor cleared his throat before changing the topic. He asked Hogun about the status of things on Vanaheim. This also distracted Volstagg and Fandral, but Sif stayed quiet and watched you closely. Her prying eyes were unnerving so as soon as your plate was finished you stood up and announced, “I’m going to go make sure Loki is ready to go.”

“Wait Y/n,” Thor said as he stood up with you, “We will be leaving soon anyway, I will join you.” The two of you said your goodbyes to Sif and the Warriors Three before heading to Loki’s room. Once you left the dining hall Thor turned to you and apologized. “I’m sorry about Sif, she will hold a grudge against someone until the end of time. She is still angry that Loki betrayed Asgard. I too believe my brother is not as bad as he seems to others. Thank you for giving him this chance.”

“Thank you, I’m hoping that bringing Loki to Earth will help clear his name. So he can redeem himself.” You explained to Thor. The two of you were just about to turn down the hall leading to Loki’s room when you realized that your backpack, the bracelet and arm guard, and Loki’s helmet were all in your room still. “Crap…” you muttered as you stopped.

“What’s wrong?” Thor asked.

“I forgot a couple of things, give me a moment.” You stated as you held up your hands, holding two fingers and a thumb on the hand that you wore your sling ring on and made small circular motions until a small portal appeared. You reached your arm through and grabbed your backpack, which you threw over your shoulder, under your cloak, before going back you grab Loki’s helmet and the bracelet and armor. You handed Thor the helmet and saw his surprised expression.

“I’ve never seen my mother or brother do anything like that.” Thor whispered to himself.

“Oh, um,” you nervously stuttered, “well it’s nothing really. Seidrs differ greatly so some can perform spells that others cannot. That’s how the Allmother explained it to me at least. Let’s continue on, we should be leaving soon.” You said as you slipped the bracelet onto your wrist and closed the portal. Thor paused for a moment before accepting your explanation and following you down the hallway.

You greeted the guard, not the one you had sort of befriended unfortunately, at the door before knocking and warning, “Loki? Thor and I are here, are you ready?”

“Of course I am,” Loki said as he opened the door. “It’s good to see you Lady Y/n. Brother.”

“It’s good to see you Loki,” Thor said with a smile. “Here, your helmet.” Loki stared at Thor for a moment before reaching out and accepting it. You almost laughed at how they interacted. It really was like watching a golden retriever and a cat being put in a room together.

Before it could get any more awkward you cleared your throat, drawing Loki’s attention to you. “Loki, I’ll need you to wear these as well,” you said as you held up the arm guards. “They’ve been enchanted and paired to this bracelet that I will be wearing. I can control the amount of your Seidr you’ll have access to. You’ll need to keep them on for the duration of the mission.”

Loki nodded, before walking closer to you and offering both wrists up to you. “Give me a hand, will you?” he asked. You agreed and helped him put the guards on. Loki observed you for a moment before thinking to you, you seem uneasy, are you all right?

I’m fine, you assured him, just had an interesting conversation with Thor’s friends earlier, it’s nothing to worry about. We have bigger things on the horizon.

Loki nodded slightly and when he saw you had finished with the armor he turned back to Thor. “Shall we get going?”

“Yes, yes we should.” You said and turned back to the door, motioning for the two of them to follow; you walked out with Loki and then Thor behind you. Once you were in the hallway the guard stopped you.

“Loki isn’t to leave.” He declared.

“No, I have word from Odin that he is allowed to leave with me.” You explained. The guard resisted, claiming he had not been told anything about this. Thor then steps in to vouch for you and argue with the guard.

“You expect her to go find the Allfather and bring him here to personally tell you that she is allowed to take Loki?” Thor asked, his tone threatening.

“Well, no, but…” The guard started to say, but trailed off, not knowing what he to do.

“If you are arguing this isn’t allowed, why did you already break the rules of Loki’s containment? Only I am supposed to be allowed through this door, but you let Thor in with me not even ten minutes ago without question.” You pointed out.

“You really think that if Odin wasn’t allowing this that we would get anywhere?” Thor added, “Heimdall wouldn’t allow us to use the Bifrost. If we were committing treason we wouldn’t get very far.”

It seemed that the mixture of you and Thor intimidating this poor guard was too much for him. He looked panicked before finally giving in and with that the three of you walked out the front doors of the castle where three horses were waiting with stable attendants. You slowed your steps as you tried to figure out how you would even get on a horse, let alone manage to not fall off halfway there.

“Lady Y/n, I’m assuming you don’t know how to ride horseback?” Thor questioned.

“No, I’m afraid I do not,” you agreed.

Thor mounted his horse and held a hand down to you, “Here, join me then.” You glanced at Loki who was watching the interaction closely. Loki scoffed when you reluctantly took Thor’s hand and got on the horse behind him.

Calm down, you thought to Loki, Thor is just helping me get to the Bifrost. This is nothing.

Sure, Loki replied back. You could hear the annoyance in his thoughts so you decided to push him a little more. You stuck your tongue out at him and smiled as you wrapped an arm around Thor’s waist.

Meanwhile, Thor was oblivious, asking the attendants to return the third horse to the stable and that these two horses could be collected later from Heimdall at the Bifrost before cueing the horse to move forward with the reigns. Loki followed suit.

Wait until I get you alone later, Loki thought to you mischievously.

As lovely as that sounds, I don’t think that is the best idea while we are trying to lay low, you cautioned. You’re going to be the center of attention when we arrive and it wouldn’t surprise me if they wanted to keep a close eye on you for the first couple days.

You knew Loki wanted to say something else, but before you knew it you were at the Bifrost. Loki had quickly dismounted his horse and was at your side, offering you and hand to get down. You smirked at him as you accepted the hand and he gave it a gentle squeeze.

Once you had gotten off, Thor also swung a leg over and hopped down from the saddle. “Heimdall, we wish to go to Midgard,” Thor announced.

Heimdall looked from Thor, to Loki, and his eyes finally settled on you. You knew what he was asking so you just nodded before explaining. “Odin has approved, but it seems he conveniently forgot to let anyone else know. You may take a moment to ask him if you’d like.”

Heimdall took a step closer to you and watched you carefully. He was reading your body language, your seidr, and you expected he was even searching your mind. I hope you know what you’re doing. Heimdall thought to you.

I do, you mentally promised, this is part of Infinity’s plan and I honestly trust loki.

“You’re free to pass.” He finally announced, “Where to?”

You thanked him with a small nod, “Washington D.C, the top of the Triskelion building if you can manage it.” Heimdall made a small grunt of affirmation before wishing you all a safe journey and putting the sword in and turning it to activate the Bifrost and send you on your way.

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do you know any bakudeku fics with jealousy. preferably a jealous bakugou but i think jealous midoriya would be cute too. tysm i love your blog!!!! 💛💛💛

Hello! Here’s a link to the Jealous Midoriya mini-list, and we’ve made some mini-list about Jealous Bakugou fics, but here’s all of the ones I could find together. (Also, since this is about them being jealous, I’m gonna assume you’re fine with there being Todo/Kiri/etc.+Deku moments!) 

-Ellie

26 Works.

[On Hiatus] And He Was Magnificent by Skaii, SugarbabyIzuku ( E | 4,134+ | 1? )

Midoriya Izuku is an omega slave, born into a life of subservience. He’s trapped, never to reach his dreams of something more; until he’s thrust headfirst into the world of Bakugou Katsuki, the crown prince of Incendium Kingdom. Now, Izuku must adjust to a new life as Katsuki’s slave—while a war that threatens to shake the land looms on the horizon.

[Graphic Depictions of Violence]

It’s Okay, Quirkless by VMarus ( M | 31,790+ | 14/? )

Izuku just wants to make his mother proud and to be happy with himself.

AU. Quirkless Vigilante Izuku!

SeriesPart 1 of Quirkless, Not Helpless.

[Graphic Depictions of Violence | Major Character Death]

A Challenger Appears by MariaMediaOverThere ( T | 9,467 | 3/3 )

“Oh, so is Midoriya really seeking a relationship like that then?” And for the first time, there’s a crack in Kota’s impassive stance. Vulnerability. But also a glimmer of something excited- hopeful.

“I don’t give a shit, but if Deku were, hypothetically, looking for a relationship,” and Bakugou would be the first to know if he was, as well as the first to line up, and also suspiciously the only one alive in line. “He definitely wouldn’t be trying anything with some shitty high schooler.” Bakugou sneers, not even attempting to mask the distaste in his tone.

“So stick your obvious fanboy crush up someone else’s ass, okay?”

The kid seems to consider this at first before looking Bakugou dead in the eyes, “Well in ten years when your pro hero injuries are forcing you into retirement, this shitty high schooler will have graduated med school and then it will be you versus a hot young doctor with a stable income.”

With an air of finality, Kota shoulder-checks Bakugou while carefully holding the coveted Deku figurine in his possession.

“…Bitch.”

Summer Camp From Hell by LocalTrashBin ( T | 66,875 | 15/15 )

A fight breaks out between Izuku and Katsuki, it’s the straw that breaks the camels back and the two are forced between the option of working in a summer camp together or expulsion.

Let’s just say it goes just about as terribly as you’d expect.

A Nest for the Best by Camellia_Sinensis ( T | 1,007 | 1/1 )

Deku’s been nesting and asking everyone in 1-A for pieces of clothing for his horde. Everyone, that is, except Katsuki. Cue the jealousy.

SeriesPart 1 of Dorks in Love (oneshots)

Capture the Deku! by MimiPancake ( T | 4,343 | 1/1 )

Bakugou and Todoroki fight for the attention and affection of Class 1-A’s cinnamon roll. Maybe this hero exercise can finally end their rivalry and confess to Midoriya

“DEKU SHOULD BE GAY FOR ME AND ME ONLY"

Stay away from him, he’s mine! by AShippingAddict ( E | 12,143+ | 4/10 )

Bakugou Katsuki knew Valentine’s Day was just a day where everyone went crazy trying to make love happen. He didn’t care for it. He especially didn’t care that everyone seemed to want Deku. He didn’t care. It didn’t matter that people were starting to invade Deku’s space. Or that people kept touching him. He did NOT care, not one bit.

Or people flirt with Midoriya Izuku and Bakugou nearly kills someone because he’s jealous.

Mistaken Identity by SasuNaru22 ( E | 23,829+ | 10/? )

Midoriya Izuku, has a sort of small (big) crush on Todoroki Shouto. He doesn’t quite know how to approach him though, so he sends him a text instead. In response, he’s told to do a series of tasks to prove how serious he is about a possible relationship. Everything seems to be going well until suddenly it isn’t. Who the heck has he really been talking to???

Two Sides of the Same Coin by LocalTrashBin ( T | 72,630+ | 9/? )

Dangerous missions across the continent are one thing but dangerous missions across the continent with zero experience, a cursed bracelet and accompanied only by a difficult, hot-headed protector is a whole other story.

Cozy Onsen Confessions by Unoutan ( M | 7,225 | 1/1 )

It’s the second training camp of their second year and it’s in the forests, the mountains area again. It’s not the same place, but Katsuki is closing into himself again…biting at people, even the one who expressed their love and care for him. Izuku reminds his Kacchan that he’s there for him.

(Warning manga spoilers for anime only folks!!!)

Prompt 4: Comfort

SeriesPart 6 of Katsudeku Week 2017

[Underage]

Regret Brought Me Back to You by zairiko ( T | 7,039 | 6/6 )

Where Bakugou Katsuki ruins his already unstable relationship with Midoriya Izuku and Izuku needs a time-out because he doesn’t want to deal with this shit anymore

Arranged by amiluna ( Not Rated | 22,200 | 15/15 )

Izuku knows as a quirkless he will be married off soon…he had hoped it would be to someone he wanted, but then life always messes with him like that. Add in the childhood friend he forgot and you have one hell of a mess for the boy who just wants to decide for himself for once.

Heart-Shaped Distractions by DMMegsie ( T | 3,070 | 1/1 )

To Bakugou Katsuki, Valentine’s day was a waste of time.

Giving people an excuse to be all lovey dovey in public, wasting money on things that would long be forgotten in the weeks to come.

That was, until he entered his second year classroom to see the eyesore around him.

Yūrei no Eiyū by FandomManiac22 ( T | 4,318+ | 2/? )

“If you wanna be a hero that badly, there’s a quick way to do it. Believe that you’ll be born with a quirk in your next life and take a swan dive off the roof!”

When Katsuki’s comment comes at just the wrong time, Izuku takes his advice. But it is not the end.

Alternatively:In another world where Izuku is attacked by the sludge villain on the way to school instead of after it, his dreams get crushed too soon. With nothing to save him and Katsuki’s words ringing in his ears, Izuku decides to end it all by jumping off his school’s roof. As his body cracks on the ground, Izuku does not pass on to the next world. Instead, he is left as a ghost among many others. When the slime villain escapes from jail and attacks the person Izuku can’t help but care for, he learns that there may be more to his afterlife than he thought.

And maybe he can be a hero after all.

[Graphic Depictions of Violence | Major Character Death]

Show me that you care by sof ( T | 3,767 | 1/1 )

“Well? I’m listening,” he said coldly.“You have to tell me what’s wrong, Kacchan. I-I really don’t know what I’m supposed to do. What happened?”“You even have the nerves to ask, you fucking bastard?” yelled Katsuki[…]

Katsuki founds himself dealing with jealousy and has an argument with Izuku, making things awkward and difficult between them.

SeriesPart 3 of The ride of two Rising suns

We Could Always Be Gigantic by sugarby ( T | 7,143 | 1/1 )

Bakugou’s thick, firm hands slide down his face as shame and humiliation mercilessly shower him again. He hates Izuku for doing this to him, for making him feel like absolute shit; the little nerd should feel so lucky to be noticed by someone stronger and better but when the anger settles, Bakugou still loves him. (a.k.a. Bakugou is coerced in to going camping with a few classmates from Yuuei and hears Izuku, who rejected him, won’t be going. Next, Izuku shows up asking for a lift there).

[On Hiatus] Your Only One by iKrazybear ( Not Rated | 14,528+ | 8/? )

Bakugou gets pretty jealous of how much admiration Midoriya has for Todoroki.

He wants the cinnamon roll for himself.. so much that he can’t control his emotions for him.

The Me you don’t know by Dana91 ( T | 1,391 | 1/1 )

Sequel to "Meeting Again”, same AU.

Just a really emotionally constipated Bakugo and a new “Deku” he is not familiar with.Someone should switch off those emotions for him anyway.

SeriesPart 2 of Shiketsu AU

Getting to know each other (Again) by Dana91 ( T | 6,343+ | 3/7 )

It was time to face-off Deku. And maybe, his feelings for Deku too.But that wouldn’t be Katsuki’s style.

Third part of Shiketsu AU series.

SeriesPart 3 of Shiketsu AU

[Underage]

We are in This Together by MaiaMizuhara ( T | 1,425 | 1/1 )

Izuku reached down to curl his fingers around Katsuki’s and softly squeezed them.

“Don’t worry, it’s a move reserved just for you.”

Katsudeku week Day 1 - Teamwork.

SeriesPart 1 of September KatsuDeku week 2017

[Graphic Depictions of Violence]

Anyways, How Long is Your Dick? by Lololsuckadick ( M | 988+ | 1/? )

I read the text on the website, it was a paragraph on Craigslist about how some dude was in need of a roommate to share the bill with.

Oh god, he also wants his roommate to be his fuck buddy too.

OR

Izuku wants a roommate and a fuck buddy, and guess what? Bakugou seems up to it, expect he doesn’t know it’s Izuku, of course.

[Rape/Non-Con]

(Note: I tried to find out if the Rape warning is between Bakugou and Deku, but there wasn’t any information on it.)

We’re Going To Be Victorious by setsujoumayu ( T | 10,875+ | 4/? )

And by we, I mean Yaoyorozu Momo and Jirou Kyouka OR Bakugou Katsuki and Midoriya Izuku!

Oh wait. That’s not how competitions work, huh?

Actually, how does a “who is the best girlfriend/boyfriend to their girlfriend/boyfriend” competition work anyway?

(In other words, Jirou challenges Bakugou’s assumed title of best partner to his partner in Class 1-A because she can. And maybe because she really, really, really likes Yaoyorozu and wants to impress her BUT DON’T TELL YAOYOROZU THAT OKAY.)

A New Hero’s Legend by RenegadeZer0 ( T | 12,349+ | 2/40 )

Two days ago, he was an ordinary boy. Today, he was being offered a chance to save the kingdom. He did say he was ready to be a hero. It was a lot to undertake, but at least he wouldn’t have to do it alone.

[Graphic Depictions of Violence]

Reputation by Narkaoh ( T | 4,351+ | 1/? )

Everyone has a surface reputation to uphold — from regular people, to pro-heroes. It’s all about looking past that surface to see what’s beneath, but if you look a little too long, it might get you into trouble you can’t get out of. Izuku Midoriya has to learn this the hard way.

Alternatively, the “Imagine Me and You,” AU nobody else has written for BakuDeku yet. Fic and chapter titles taken from Taylor Swift’s album “Reputation,” which has easily proven to be the album of my life for 2018.

Karena All Might by Shinku_Tsuuki ( G | 237 | 1/1 )

“All Might kereeen!”

Hari ini pun Midoriya—Deku—sibuk ber-fanboying ria.

(Untuk Drabbletober Day 14: Geeking Over Something)

SeriesPart 14 of Drabbletober 2k17

please don’t read this I’m not done yet by thaler ( Not Rated | 1,833+ | 1/? )

Remember when everyone went off to get training from different agencies? Well in this fic, Gran Torino takes Izuku (and one other mystery person) with him to New York City for mostly combat training and learning the ropes of the world beyond theirs, but some feelings have been aroused by this… How will our precious Deku react to these newly awakened thoughts about our mystery person, and does he feel the same?

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It’s a “lose your championship” kind of week for the WWE.

First, we get Becky Lynch giving up her RAW Women’s Championship now that she’s going to be a Mom. Then, we get Sami Zayn being “forced” to let go of his Intercontinental Title.

Zayn, after getting some dental work to go along with his pandemic hiatus, says he’s still the champion but will now have to watch a tournament go forward to see who the next I-C Champ will be.

I thought the WWE handled Becky’s situation well with some human moments to start RAW Monday night with “The Man” and Asuka, who was just learning that she actually won the title and not the MITB contract during Sunday night’s PPV. Pulling the curtain back a bit and letting the ladies enjoy the moment for what it was as mothers was really good to see.

Welcome back to the brand extension! It’s now called the Brand Invitation and it starts with the announcement of King Corbin coming to RAW Monday night to face WWE Champion Drew McIntyre. Now, that’s quite the invitation to not only come, but face the #1 superstar on the show. NXT Charlotte Flair, who you could argue started this by being on RAW each week (along with Akira Tozawa and others), got things going by showing up on SmackDown.

They’ve done so much to make sure the bands are separate and now it seems, out of necessity due to the COVID-19 pandemic, they need to mix it up because of talent shortages. I get that, I just hope they don’t overuse it. Make it special and it will be ok.

STAR OF THE WEEK:

Becky Lynch – Congrats to “The Man” on her awesome news and impending birth of her first child. That opening segment on RAW Monday night did more to humanizing her (and Asuka) than anything they could’ve ever done. I’m glad they were upfront and honest with the WWE Universe, something that can NOT be said about their handling of Roman Reigns (and others) during the COVID-19 crisis. Now, as for Seth Rollins. That’s a different and bizarre story for later on.

MONEY IN THE BANK PPV

THIS is the @WWEUniverse we're living in. Welcome to the #WWERaw after #MITB! pic.twitter.com/GfLh2o4NqU

— WWE (@WWE) May 12, 2020

LADIES and GENTLEMEN … we have ourselves a FOOD FIGHT!!!#MITB @otiswwe @HeymanHustle pic.twitter.com/5swu9nAMUz

— WWE (@WWE) May 11, 2020

RESULTS

Men’s Money In The Bank Match: Otis defeated King Corbin, AJ Styles, Rey Mysterio, Daniel Bryan and Aleister Black

Women’s Money In The Bank Match: Asuka defeated Shayna Baszler, Nia Jax, Carmella, Dana Brooke and Lacey Evans

WWE Championship Match: Drew McIntyre defeated Seth Rollins

Universal Championship Match: Braun Strowman defeated Bray Wyatt

SmackDown Women’s Championship Match: Bayley defeated Tamina

SmackDown Tag Team Fatal Four-Way Championship Match: The New Day defeated Lucha House Party, The Miz & John Morrison and The Forgotten Sons

Bobby Lashley defeated R-Truth

Kickoff Show: Jeff Hardy defeated Cesaro

… Respect?#MITB @DMcIntyreWWE @WWERollins pic.twitter.com/TK4SUg1A4c

— WWE Universe (@WWEUniverse) May 11, 2020

RAW

RESULTS

No DQ Match: Bobby Lashley defeated Humberto Carrillo

Angel Garza defeated Akira Tozawa

Non-Title Women’s Tag Team Title Match: The Iiconics defeated Alexa Bliss & Nikki Cross

Non-Title WWE Championship Match: Drew McIntyre defeated Andrade

R-Truth, Ricochet & Cedric Alexander defeated MVP, Shane Thorne & Brendan Vink

Aleister Black & Rey Mysterio defeated Seth Rollins & Buddy Murphy via DQ

Shayna Baszler defeated Natalya

What we loved:

"You go and be a warrior, 'cause I'm gonna go be a mother." Congratulations, @BeckyLynchWWE!!!! What a moment on #WWERaw! pic.twitter.com/yWnHB3Dc4o

— WWE (@WWE) May 12, 2020

Becky Mama – As we said above, nothing but positivity from this one! Congrats to Becky Lynch and the family!

Asuka as Champ – Such an awesome and genuine reaction. Asuka has proven she’s worthy in the ring and over the past few months during a down-time in the biz, she’s more than shown she can be out of the box out of the ring too which should bode well moving further.

R-Truth – The dude is just funny and entertaining. Good stuff from him and Cousin Ricky!

That was a lot.#WWERaw pic.twitter.com/nZt2RLSceg

— WWE Universe (@WWEUniverse) May 12, 2020

Rey Mysterio Line of the Year – “What a d**k!”  – Mysterio to Charly Caruso after congratulating Seth Rollins on being a father and Rollins just walking away. Rollins of course got the last laugh though with an injury to end Rey’s evening.

What we didn’t love:

Zelina’s gang of 3 – While I do love the tension between Andrade, Angel Garza and Austin Theory, why just hand over a match with Drew McIntyre to Andrade (again) when he just had one a few weeks back? Just let the tension ride and let them fight it out for a spot against the champ? It would be a very good match and advance the story line as well. Missed opportunity there.

#WWEChampion @DMcIntyreWWE shows @AndradeCienWWE that he's also the champion of CHOPS!

#WWERaw pic.twitter.com/3WU331kRUs

— WWE (@WWE) May 12, 2020

Tag team champs losing on TV again – Just like the men’s tag champs on both RAW and SmackDown the past two months, it seems like having them lose on TV is a pattern. The Iiconics haven’t been around for over 6 months and they come back and beat Alexa Bliss & Nikki Cross in their first match. Seems wonky to me and doesn’t make your champs look strong. 50-50 booking. Ugh! Predictably, it sets up a title match at Backlash.

Just plain bizarre:

Seth Rollins – After being catatonic most of the night, a night in which he should be happy about becoming a father, he goes wild on Rey Mysterio, giving him a bloody eye injury at the end of their tag team match, causing a DQ win for Mysterio and Aleister Black. Then, after the match, Rollins is all apologetic again. All this comes after he shakes hands Sunday night after his title loss to McIntyre. I wish they could’ve, at least for a night, let him be happy like his fiancée Becky Lynch.

Brewing:

MVP’s Stable – Well, it looks like we’ve got the beginning of MVP’s stable now with Bobby Lashley coming aboard. Will it be long before Apollo Crews joins too? I like the factions, there’s no doubt. They were great in the Attitude Era and can be again! The MVP faction. Zelina Vega faction. Who’s next? Plus, a strong Lashley is better than anything he was with Lana.

"If you've got the guts, it'll be @EdgeRatedR vs. @RandyOrton in a straight-up wrestling match."#WWERaw pic.twitter.com/7dEE5fumEN

— WWE (@WWE) May 12, 2020

Edge vs. Orton II – Just a wrestling match? Something smells fishy here, don’t you think?

NXT

RESULTS

NXT Tag Team Championship Match: Imperium (Fabian Aichner & Marcel Barthel) defeated Matt Riddle & Timothy Thatcher to win titles

Tegan Nox defeated Indi Hartwell

Interim NXT Cruiserweight Tournament Championship Match: Jake Atlas defeated Tony Nese

Cameron Grimes defeated Finn Balor

Interim NXT Cruiserweight Tournament Championship Match: Jack Gallagher defeated Isaiah “Swerve” Scott

Kayden Carter defeated Aliyah

Matt Riddle defeated Timothy Hatcher

What we loved:

Your entertainment is here.

Tick tock. #WWENXT @WWEKarrionKross @Lady_Scarlett13 pic.twitter.com/GiBaAab6FT

— WWE (@WWE) May 14, 2020

The End is Here – The best thing on NXT this week was the continuing saga of Karrion Kross and Scarlett. After an amazing debut last week, a well-done produced piece putting EVERYONE in NXT on notice – not just Tommaso Ciampa – was well done.

.@TripleH, @ShawnMichaels & @WWERoadDogg have a message for you!#NXTTakeOver: In Your House streams on the award-winning @WWENetwork on Sunday, June 7th! House

#WWENXT pic.twitter.com/RzKgNXIs5v

— WWE NXT (@WWENXT) May 15, 2020

In Your House is back! – Yes, the infamous 90’s PPV’s are back for at least one night as the next NXT Takeover is an In Your House Special on June 7th! And having Triple H, Shawn Michaels and The Road Dogg Jesse James make the announcement with memories of their first matches at IYH 25 years ago was funny as hell too! I hope they use the old school graphics as well!

Congrats:

.@SuperKingofBros lost a bro and the titles. @Marcel_B_WWE & @FabianAichner are your NEW #WWENXT #TagTeamChampions! pic.twitter.com/5b1BquUw15

— WWE (@WWE) May 14, 2020

New Tag Champs – Imperium is now a two-title stable. Fabian Aichner & Marcel Barthel took full advantage of Timothy Thatcher walking out on his championship partner Matt Riddle to win the belts for the first time. Now with Walter’s NXT UK Championship, Imperium is getting well stocked to take over NXT.

Meh:

Thatcher & Riddle – Pretty quick end to this partnership. Now, I get that Thatcher didn’t like the comedy and off-beat antics of the “Bros,” but to end it so quickly and have a match the same night seems a little rushed to me.

Dinner with the Gargano’s & Rhea Ripley – Both were just kind of there this week.

Huh?:

NXT Cruiserweight Championship Tournament – I’ve enjoyed it so far, but I wish they gave them a bit more time. It’s been really good in-ring action. This week, we barely got 10 minutes combined in wins by Jack Gallagher and Jake Atlas. Now, we get Kushida vs. Drake Maverick and Akira Tozawa vs. El Hiro Fantasma in the upcoming week. I hope they give them some room to show their wares!

Aliyah – Why build her up as a new Rob Stone client only to have her lose right away?

Didn’t like at all:

HUH??! What is @ArcherOfInfamy doing out here? #WWENXT @FinnBalor pic.twitter.com/EkzHTx2TLP

— WWE (@WWE) May 14, 2020

Balor’s bully – Having Damien Priest come out as the man who attached Finn Balor while Balor was fighting Cameron Grimes seemed like a yawner instead of an OMG moment. Priest is just coming off a losing feud with Keith Lee and now having him get an upper hand on Balor to cost him the match with Grimes is a bit forced and yes, rushed again. It should’ve had more play time in it and a stronger payoff.

SMACKDOWN

RESULTS

Intercontinental Championship Tournament 1st Round Match: Elias defeated King Corbin

Dana Brooke defeated Naomi

Intercontinental Championship Tournament 1st Round Match: Daniel Bryan defeated Drew Gulak

Braun Strowman & Otis defeated The Miz & John Morrison

What we loved:

"This is such a joy to watch." – @WWEGraves @WWEDanielBryan advances to the 2nd Round of the #ICTitle tournament after an amazing match with @DrewGulak! #SmackDown pic.twitter.com/cGxaOYfEhr

— WWE on FOX (@WWEonFOX) May 16, 2020

Drew vs. Daniel – Give me more of this, please! Unfortunately, it’s a first round match and not further in the tournament. Would love to see these two do an ironman match.

"Are you your own woman, or are you just going to be @itsBayleyWWE's lackey and happy being an afterthought?" – @MsCharlotteWWE to @SashaBanksWWE

#SmackDown pic.twitter.com/3Odr5DYjYa

— WWE on FOX (@WWEonFOX) May 16, 2020

The Queen stirs the pot – instead of heading into the normal physical theatrics, Charlotte Flair got things going again between Sasha Banks and Bayley. Not only do we get a match with champion vs. champion as SmackDown’s Bayley will face NXT’s Charlotte next week, but maybe we get a Charlotte vs. Bayley vs. Sasha three-way dance too!

Sonya brings it – Daville continues to be dynamite on the mic in previewing next week’s mixed tag match with Sonya & Dolph Ziggler taking on Otis & Mandy Rose. She’s just being herself and it rings true! Well done Sonya! Keep it up!

Entertaining:

Main event – The combination of Otis and Universal Champion Braun Strowman was predictable as Tucker wasn’t available to join the new Mr. MITB against The Miz & John Morrison, but it worked. The double worm was fun and the right team won. Plus, we get to stoke the fire for Otis and his eventual cashing in of his contract down the road. Plus, I did appreciate the clean win and no shenanigans at the end of the match.

Huh?

AJ in the I-C Title mix – Isn’t AJ Styles on RAW? I see we are already taking liberties with the brand invitational.

Parting shots:

"Our job is to go out and be first-class professional entertainers and to give our fans what they paid their hard-earned money to see." – @undertaker #TheLastRide pic.twitter.com/z7hUQtaOWz

— WWE Network (@WWENetwork) May 11, 2020

The Undertaker: Last Ride – If you haven’t seen part 1, do it. NOW! Loved it and need me some more this week as part 2 of the five-part docu-series continues on the WWE Network Sunday night. Loved the candor from Mark Calaway and loved the fact that WWE didn’t shy away from using stars not currently with the company to tell the story, i.e. Jim Ross, Chris Jericho and more! You simply can’t tell the Dead Man’s tale without good ol’ JR!

Plus, the emotion, openness and access we’re getting from The Undertaker and wife Michelle McCool is fabulous. This is MUST SEE TV folks!

Thanks for letting us share our thoughts! Shoot me an email at jcrowe567@gmail.com. We’d love to hear your comments and suggestions! You can also check out my blog, The Crowe’s Nest as we delve into more pro wrestling, sports entertainment and the World of Sports. My apologies ahead of time – I AM a Patriots and Red Sox fan! If you’re not down with that, I’ve got TWO WORDS for you… NEW ENGLAND!

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Distractions pt 11

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Yoongi x Reader x Jimin

Genre: Angst/Fluff

Word Count: 4856

Yoongi laid in bed as the noon sun pierced through the blinds painting glimmering golden stripes across the bedroom. It’s already been a whole week since he collapsed and finally, he seemed to be recovered but he chose to stay home for one more day to make sure that he had fully gotten rid of his illness. He didn’t want to get you or anyone else sick at Music Box.

After hours of just laying in bed, Yoongi’s stomach finally decided to make a desperate call for help. All this week he had no appetite because his brain just refused all ideas of eating while he was sick. Now that he was better, he felt like he could eat an entire grocery store or something. 

The dorm was empty as expected. It was already afternoon and everyone would probably be out doing their own thing, but Yoongi was surprised to see Jimin in the kitchen eating lunch. He thought that he’d be out with one of the others, but that obviously wasn’t the case. Yoongi could sense that there was something up with Jimin. After living together for so long, he had grown accustomed to the way Jimin acted. Just by the way the younger poked at his food and zoned out, Yoongi could tell that there was something wrong.

“Hey, Jiminie. What’s that?” Yoongi pointed to the bowl Jimin was eating from.

Jimin, who got startled, quickly fixed his slouched posture, “Oh this? It’s just food.”

Yoongi huffed, came over to the younger, “Well, no shit. Can I have some? I’m kinda feeling a bit hungry.”

“Sure. I’ll go get you a bowl.” Jimin got up and went to fix Yoongi a bowl of food

The elder took a seat across from where Jimin was sitting and peered over to the television which was playing some entertainment news. The anchor stood on a platform with photos of 2S displaying on the screen behind him,

“This morning rookie group Shooting Stars dropped unexpected cover videos of the songs that each member claimed they had a special attachment to. Just after the five videos were released four hours ago, they have gone viral on the internet garnering much praise from fans all over the world. Out of all the videos, the two that brought the most wow factor were those of members Leo and Y/N. 

Rapper Leo, or Kang Sol Mi, chose to cover the personal yet powerful song ‘The Las’ written and performed by none other than Agust D, aka Bangtan Sonyeondan’s Suga. Fans especially praised Leo’s ability to fully convey the feelings expressed by the original artist as well as adding a zest of her own personal emotions as well. 

Main Vocalist Y/N was also highly praised because she was the only one to display her dance capabilities instead of her voice. In her video, she showcased why she is 2S’ dance leader in her perfectly executed dance cover to ‘Lie’ by Jimin also of the popular group BTS. 

The song choices made by Leo and Y/N has obviously gotten fans stirred up especially since 2S’ love and admiration for BTS are no secrets. Rumors have been...”

“Hyung.” Jimin turned Yoongi’s attention away from the television, “Here. It’s pretty hot, so...be careful.”

“Thanks.” The younger returned to his seat and the sound of the television became nothing but background noise to the two. Mindlessly, Yoongi took a bite of the food Jimin had served him and instantaneously he recognized the taste,

“Jimin...where did you get this porridge?”

“The porridge?” Jimin paused for a split second, curling one of his fists under the table, “I...I got it from a restaurant nearby.” 

Yoongi knew Jimin was lying to him, "Oh did you? Which one?” 

“Just one...a few blocks away. I don’t remember the name of it. Does it really matter, hyung?” He jabbed his spoon in the porridge with much force causing a loud clatter. Yoongi had seen Jimin when he was angry, but he never acted this way in front of him before, “Hey, hyung? ...Can I ask you a question?”

“Sure.” 

“It’s about Y/N-noona.” The entire time, Jimin had been looking down at his bowl of food but only when he brought you up did he look at Yoongi straight in the eye. Just like how Yoongi could sense that there was something wrong with his dongsaeng, Jimin could easily see the apprehension in his hyung’s eyes. 

“Y-Y/N? What about her?” Beads of sweat formed all over Yoongi’s body in anticipation. He wondered what sort of thing Jimin would ask. Deep down, Yoongi was scared. Did Jimin know about you and him? About his past? What would he do if he did know? Would he tell someone? Yoongi quickly dismissed that idea. Jimin was like family to him and he knew that the younger felt the same way. Jimin wouldn’t hurt him...would he?

“Um...” Jimin’s tight grip on his spoon loosened and he let out a sigh, “Sun Hee-noona told me how Y/N-noona may have a bit of trouble when recording the bridge. They asked me if I could come with you to help them record. I wanted to ask you about it before I agreed to anything.”

A wave of relief crashed on Yoongi and his rapid heart rate slowed down, “Oh...well if they asked for the help, then I guess it’s fine. I plan on going back tomorrow so you can come along.”

“Thanks, hyung!” Jimin seemed to be back to his old smiley self, “Hyung...is something wrong? You look kinda stressed.”  he took another bite before continuing, “Why? Did you think I was going to ask you something else?” 

Since Jimin had food in his mouth, Yoongi couldn’t tell if he was just chewing or if he intended to have a smirk on his face, 

“No, not at all.” Yoongi replied before taking in a bite of the porridge.

Yoongi and Jimin made their way up to the second floor in Music Box’s elevator in route to the recording studio. It was fairly early, but Yoongi wanted to make sure that he was there on time after his sudden week-long hiatus. 

Jimin was standingTo Yoongi’s relief, Jimin seemed to be acting like his usual self after yesterday’s lunch incident. He figured that maybe he was just overthinking this and worrying too much...but that didn’t explain why Jimin lied about the fact that the porridge was made by you. It wasn’t like it was a big deal or anything, so Yoongi decided to push the issue into the back of his mind.

The metallic doors slid open and the pair walked into the open lounge. 

“Hyung?”

“Yeah, Jiminie?”

“Where’s the bathroom? I need to use it.”

“Aish,” Yoongi lightly poked the younger on the shoulder, “I told you to use the bathroom before we left.”

“My bad. Sorry that my bladder isn’t as big as yours.”

“That’s not the only thing that’s...YAH.” Jimin shoved Yoongi before he could finish that statement, “What? I was gonna say my height is bigger!”

“Hyung, that doesn’t make any sense. Plus, we are practically the same height.”

“Nuh-uh.” Yoongi stood on his toes as he squared up to Jimin causing the younger to break out in laughter.

A loud squeal from down the hall startled the pair. Hwa Joo, who covered her red face with her hands scurried towards them, “Omo...the ship...it’s s-sailing...” She mumbled so softly that her voice was barely audible. 

“What did you say?” Jimin asked.

“N-Nothing...” It took her a moment, but she finally noticed Yoongi standing behind Jimin, “Oh! Yoongi-oppa! You’re back! We were all worried you know...”

“Sorry about that...Jimin told me all about how concerned you all were. I promise I won’t get sick again anytime soon.”

“You better not! You should’ve seen how much Mimi-unnie sulked the entire week. And Y/N-unnie too! She was so quiet at the dorms and...” She brought her hands to her mouth as soon as she realized what she just said, “Oops...uh...just forget what I said...my unnies would kill me..hehehe...” 

Hwa Joo was quick to alleviate the sudden awkwardness as she took Jimin by the wrist, “Oppa! Why don’t I show you around Music Box? You’ve only seen the dance studio, but the rest of the building is cool. And there’s a load of free snacks!” 

Jimin was a bit hesitant, “I don’t know... Shouldn’t we be working on the song or something?”

“Jimin, why don’t you just go with her? You needed the bathroom, right? I’m sure Hwa Joo can show you where it is.”

“Yeah! And the bridge is the only thing being recorded today anyway. You need Y/N-unnie for that, but she isn’t here yet so we have time to spare.”

“Okay then. I’ll go with...” Hwa Joo whisked away dragging Jimin along with her before he could finish his sentence. 

“Don’t take too long!” Yoongi shouted down the hall before making his way to the recording studio.

You looked down at your watch as you fidgeted in the elevator. Mentally, you scolded yourself for missing your alarm and oversleeping for over half an hour. Luckily you managed to get dressed and ready in a timely manner, so you weren’t going to be as late as you thought you were going to be...but that didn’t change the fact that you’d still be late. 

Once the doors opened you took no time to dash across the lounge and into the recording studio. The door swung open with a loud thud, and you heaved since you were so out of breath after running to Music Box from your dorm. You found Yoongi sitting next to the control panel setting up the equipment to record. 

The minute you saw his figure, your heart started to beat so fast you thought it’d leap out of your chest. A wave of nervousness set in and you had no idea why. All he was doing was sitting in a chair working...but seeing that he was alright and back in action made you feel something.

“Oh, Yoongi....um...hi. I wasn’t expecting to see you here. I didn’t know you were coming today.” He stood from his chair and turned to face you as you took slow steps towards him,

“Why? Was I supposed to make an announcement or something?”

“Um...uh...” You were flustered and the seriousness in his face and tone made you even more nervous. Yoongi looked at you as you froze up and as your face started to distort in awkwardness. It made him laugh. His sudden outburst made you jump and you looked at him confused,

“Y/N, I’m just kidding around with you.”

“Yah...” You scoffed in disbelief. A part of you wanted to hit him over the head for teasing you and it took the strength you had to hold back, “...anyway, sorry I’m late.”

“It’s alright. Jimin came with me to give you some support, but he’s currently on a tour around the building with Hwa Joo. So we have to wait for them to come back.”

“Oh, okay.”

“And actually...I should be the one apologizing.”

“Huh? For what?”

“For the way I treated you last week. I was out of line and I was insensitive towards you. I shouldn’t have scolded you like that.”

“What? No, you don’t have to apologize. I was in the wrong and I was being stubborn as always. You were right, I wasn’t doing my best and I was too distracted to see it...so no hard feelings.”

You began to walk past him to place your things on a table at the other side of the room when he caught your wrist in his hand making you halt, “Thanks for the porridge by the way...it helped me feel better.”

His touch, his warmth...it burned your skin in such a pleasant way. You didn’t know how much you missed it until now, “Y-You’re welcome.”

“I yelled at you...” he let go of your wrist and you let it carelessly dangle at your side, “...but you still made me porridge when I was sick like you used to. So I was thinking as a way to apologize and to make up for the porridge...maybe you would like to have lunch...with me?”

It took you a moment to take in what he just asked. Min Yoongi was asking you out to dinner. Even though he and you had dated for a few years, him asking you out to dinner still made your heart flutter. Your mouth moved before your brain could fully grasp the situation, “Sure.”

“WE’RE BAAACK!” Hwa Joo came running in with a sweaty Jimin behind her. In his hands were a bunch of snacks that Hwa Joo must’ve given him. 

It had been hours since you all started to record, and Hwa Joo had left due to boredom. Soon after she left, Sol Mi came to the studio. The maknae must’ve told her that Yoongi was back. 

From the other side of the glass, Sol Mi and Yoongi sat patiently as you and Jimin conversed, probably talking about how to better hit the notes with ease. There were no problems with the recording thus far, you just had trouble reaching the high note. Yoongi had suggested to change it, but you insisted on keeping the song as it was so Jimin went to go help you out.

“Yoongi?”

“Yeah?” Sol Mi scooted her chair to sit a bit closer to Yoongi,

“What do you think about them?”

“About who?”

“About Jimin and Y/N. They look good together don’t they?” They stared at you and Jimin through the glass. You were sitting in a chair while Jimin loomed over you, pointing at the sheet of lyrics that was placed on a metal stand. You looked so comfortable having Jimin near you, your faces were almost touching and Jimin’s hand was gently touching your shoulder. Yoongi couldn’t lie to himself, you two did look like a real couple.

He averted his gaze down to the vast panel of buttons and switches. “I guess they’re alright.”

“Hmmm? Only alright? They look perfect to me. Just look at them! Look at the way Jimin looks at her, and look at how perfect she just fits into in frame...they’re like a star-studded couple.”

Yoongi closed his eyes as he felt something grow within him. A sort of burning sensation ripped through his insides trying to devour the little patience he had. 

“And have you seen the internet, Yoongi? Ever since she mentioned Jimin’s song in that interview, people have been shipping them so much. Don’t you think it’d make great publicity for both our groups if they start going out? I mean, they look like a perfect match and if the fans want it then why don’t they...”

“Sol Mi...” On the exterior, Yoongi was calm and collected, but on the inside...it was a war zone, “From what I understand, you’re here so that I can demonstrate to you how to properly used the equipment not to discuss relationships. If you don’t plan on focusing on the work then I’d suggest you leave.”

She immediately stopped her yapping after she saw Yoongi’s sudden cold demeanor, “Sorry...” 

He sighed and pressed the button that allowed him to communicate with you and Jimin in the room next door, “Let’s call it a day you guys.”

You and Jimin looked at each other then looked to Yoongi, “But we haven’t finished yet.” You protested.

“It’s okay, we can finish up another day.” With that, Yoongi got up, collected his things and left. 

You knew Yoongi was upset, but you didn’t know why. Too bad you couldn’t hear the conversation that went on in the room on the other side of the glass.

Sol Mi left and Jimin said he had to go back to his company, so you were all alone in the studio. You were packing your belongings when you received a text. That feeling of butterflies rose again when you saw the name on your screen. You forgot that you never did change his contact name.

[❤ Yoongs❤]: Sorry I walked out earlier. I’m waiting outside. 

You took you bag and ran out as fast as you could. When you saw him leave you were a bit disappointed because you thought he forgot about lunch, but you were wrong. He didn’t forget and he was waiting for you. 

The doors couldn’t have opened any slower and you were practically prying them open. When you were finally out you frantically looked around as if you were afraid he’d disappear, but you jumped when a hand landed on your shoulder causing you to yelp rather loudly,

“Y/N, calm down. It’s just me.” You turned around and saw Yoongi. He was barely visible with his beanie and mask covering almost the entirety of his face. 

“Geez, you scared me...so...where are we having lunch?”

“Follow me.” Yoongi turned on the ball of his foot and began to walk down the sidewalk. Carefully, you trailed behind him since you feared the possibility of anyone recognizing your identities. You kept your head down, you put on your own mask and wore sunglasses. You were so engrossed in covering yourself that you didn’t notice that Yoongi had stopped walking and you ended up bumping into him. 

“Ouch...” You rubbed your forehead and flinched in pain. Your head didn’t hurt that much, it was just the sudden contact made you fluster so much you wanted to hide. Suddenly you felt a hand come up and a thumb rub your forehead,

“Aish, you were always so clumsy.” Under his touch, you felt that burning sensation again as you tensed up, “Watch where you’re going or else you’re going to hurt yourself by accident like you always do.” 

Somehow you regained the little control you had over your body and swatted his hand away, “Y-Yah...you can’t do this in public where anyone can see. What if we get recognized?”

“Y/N look around. There’s no one here. Besides, where we’re going nobody is going to recognize us. Now come on, I never realized how slow you walked.” He smiled, unexpectedly took your hand and dashed down the street taking a few turned left and right. All this running would have caused an average person to faint, but It was a good thing that years of dancing built up your stamina. 

After a few minutes, you finally reached your destination...an all too familiar destination. 

While the two of you were still together, you and Yoongi didn’t live together. He moved to Seoul before you did, and the place where he lived was way too small for two so you ended up purchasing your own apartment in the city. However, you’d frequently visit him...well to be more precise you’d frequently visit his empty apartment. He was so busy doing the work given to him during his trainee days that he barely had any time to keep his place clean, so you’d come and spruce up the place while he was at the studio. Even though it might have sounded lonely, you still cherished those memories.

The building, the scenery, the stuffy atmosphere...nothing had changed. Yoongi’s old apartment building still looked the same as it did years ago except it seemed like there were a few technological updates like the use of a keycard instead of an actual metal key to get into the building. Once inside, your muscle memory kicked in. Up the stairs you went, your body seemingly moving all by itself, to the third story first door to the right. 

It might be weird to say this, but the smell was exactly as you remembered. You couldn’t quite describe it other than it being the scent that always reminded you of Yoongi.

“Please, come in.” He gestured to the door and allowed you to enter first. You slipped off your shoes and there was already a pair of slippers waiting for you. Inside, the apartment was obviously still very small but it seemed different...it seemed more open. There used to be one closed off bedroom and a tiny kitchen open to a poor excuse of a living room. However, the wall that separated the bedroom from the living area was gone which allowed for the apartment to feel just a tad bit larger. Of course, the decoration was different as well. Instead of a small, low rise table in the middle of the room, there was now a desk, a bunch of music equipment, and a keyboard. It was like a mini studio. 

“The place looks a bit different now, doesn’t it?” Yoongi laughed at your rather speechless reaction.

“Yeah...it does. I can’t believe you still have this place! I thought you would’ve sold it when you moved into your dorms.”

“I did, but then after a few years, I saved enough money to buy it back. I decided to make it into a personal studio. Have a seat while I prepare some lunch.”

You took a seat on the leather couch that sat against on of the walls while you waited. The sounds of pots clattering and Yoongi’s whistling resonated throughout the tiny apartment. Something like deja vu hit you. The sounds of him cooking, the smell of the food...it was all the same as it used to be...it was like you had gone back to the time when you two were together.

Yoongi scurried over with a pot in his hands and laid it down on a couple of books that littered the coffee table, “Sorry that it isn’t fancy or anyhting but I was kinda craving for some.” 

He lifted the lid and with a pair of chopsticks, he lifted a bountiful amount of ramyun. Drool practically formed at the corners of your mouth as you ogled at the noodles before you. But it wasn’t just any ramyun,

“Isn’t that the brand we used to get all the time?” Memories of going down to the convenience store around the corner came flooding back. You two were low on money so all you could afford were cups of ramyun and this was always your go to brand. You remembered when you’d spend those few nights when he had free time eating ramyun while sitting on the floor wrapped in his arms. Those days were hectic, but simpler...and you missed that. 

“Yeah, it is. It’s actually been a while since I’ve had it.” He handed you a pair of chopsticks and a bowl. Almost immediately, you started to attack the pot of ramyun as if you were entered in some eating contest. Yoongi only watched, smiling in silence as you devoured the noodles,

“I guess all that singing must’ve tired you out.” 

“Nuh-uh, it was all that running that made me hungry. I wonder whose fault that was.” Teasingly, you pointed your chopsticks toward him as you accused the perpetrator, “Anyway, I’ve gotta say that you haven’t lost your touch. This ramyun is delicious.”

“Why thank you, thank you very much. I am not only just the genius rapper Suga, but the most swagilicious chef prodigy Min Yoongi.” His face was full of confidence as he boastfully shrugged his shoulders. 

“Yah...Min Yoongi...I see you still haven’t gotten rid of your cheesiness.” 

“Hmm? Well, what can I say? My cheesiness may be my most charming quality.”

You snorted, almost causing the broth to go up your nose, “Right...I’m sure you’re such a ladies man.”

“Hey, people threatened to sue me for my charms and handsomeness.”

“To be clear, that was a singular girl...who I heard got married, soooo...”

“Tsk, whatever. Anyway, I saw your dance cover on the Internet. It was really great...like I’d have to say it was practically perfect.”

Instantly, the compliment brought a smile on your face, “Thanks, Yoongi. It really means a lot.”

“No need to thank me, you deserve the positive remarks.” 

“Actually, Jimin came around and helped me with the cover. Without him, I don’t know if would’ve been able to pull the dance off to be very honest.”

“Oh...really?”

“Yeah, he helped me a lot. Like one time I couldn’t get this move down because it really hurt my hip when I turned, but he...” You continued your spiel without noticing how quiet Yoongi had become. Everytime Jimin’s name left your mouth, he felt like he wanted to change the subject just to get you to stop talking about him...it really bothered Yoongi. 

Eventually, you did notice how irritated he was, so you decided to stop your blabbering about Jimin and poke some fun at Mr. Grumps who sat across from you, “Hey Yoongi?”

“What?” 

“Why’d you leave the studio so suddenly earlier?”

“I just felt like we worked on the recording long enough...I didn’t want to tire your voice out.”

“Hmmm, are you suuuuure?”

“Why? Why do you think I left?”

“Mmmm, were you,” You reached across the coffee table and poked his shoulder, “...jealous perhaps? Hmmmmm?”

“Excuse me? Me? Jealous? Why would I be jealous?”

“Oh come on, Yoongi. You and I both know just how close I was with Jimin in that recording studio. Don’t think that I didn’t notice you glaring at us.”

“I wasn’t glaring! ....and why? So what if I was jealous?”

His indirect confession actually shocked you, “Y-You know...I was just joking when I accused you of being jealous...”

“But what if I actually was? ...I may not be your boyfriend anymore, but that doesn’t change the fact that I was in the past...of course I’d be a little ticked off if I saw someone with my ex.” Yoongi looked down towards the floor and brought his shoulders inward in embarrassment which made him look smaller than he already was.

For some reason, for all these years it never occurred to you that he still somewhat cared for you. He was the one to break things off with you after all,

“Y/N...when I heard that you debuted, I was genuinely surprised. I never imagined that you’d be able to do it. Not because you were talentless, oh god no, you have an enormous amount of talent...so much that I don’t even know if I could compare. I know about your severe stage fright, and I was worried that you wouldn’t be able to cope with all the attention. There were times when I wanted to message you and ask if you were okay...but I held back because I didn’t want to...”

“Distract me?” He looked up and your eyes met. He didn’t need to verbally answer your question because you already knew that your guess was correct, “Serves you right. Now you know how worried and anxious I felt when you were a trainee....and when you were sick this past week.”

“So you really were actually worried about me?”

“Of course, you pabo. I did make that porridge for you, you know.” You giggled, "As you said before, the fact that we were in a relationship once will never change...but that doesn’t mean we have to stop caring for each other.”

That sentence made Yoongi reveal that gummy smile you missed so much, “I agree,” he held out his hand for you to shake, “Why don’t we start over? As friends.”

Happily, you took his hand, your own smile widening across your face, “Yeah, that sounds like a great place to start.” 

Everything between you and Yoongi felt alright. You felt like the Yoongi you fell in love with years ago was back and nothing could’ve made you happier.

It was late by the time Yoongi decided to go home. You already left his personal studio a couple hours ago, but he decided he wanted to get some work done. He had some new emotions that he needed to convey through words and lyrics. 

As he stepped into the dorm, he felt a body rush past him almost knocking him over. Slightly ticked off, Yoongi turned to see who had bumped into him and by the small frame, he could tell who it was. He wanted to chase after him, but the vibe that the younger gave off made it seem like he needed to be alone.

The atmosphere in the dorm felt grim as he walked inside. It was felt even weirder since all of the members were huddled around the television as if it were some oddity in a museum.

“Hey guys, what wrong with Jimin?” None of them answered. Instead, they cleared the way and what Yoongi saw on the screen made every hair on his body stand. 

The television was on some channel playing late night entertainment news...and on the was one big fat giant headline:

“[BREAKING NEWS] BTS Park Jimin and 2S Y/F/N Dating Scandal!!”

Gif not mine, creds to owner

[celtfather]

Celtic Tree of Life #443

Search inside yourself with the Celtic Tree of Life. Let's make the world a better place with Celtic culture and the Irish & Celtic Music Podcast.

Seldom Sober, We Banjo 3, Marc Gunn, The Gatehouse Well, McKasson & McDonald, Crepuscule, Alexander James Adams, An lar, Heather Dale, Kennedy's Kitchen, Ockham's Razor, Ballinloch, Battlelegs, Rebels and Sinners, Onde

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THIS WEEK IN CELTIC MUSIC

0:04 - "Jigs: Geese in the Bog / The Wandering Minstrel / The Coleraine" by Seldom Sober from Six Months in Confession

3:49 - WELCOME

5:17 - "Crann Na Beatha (Tree of Life)" by We Banjo 3 from String Theory

8:26 - "Loch Tay Boat Song" by Marc Gunn from Scottish Songs of Drinking & Rebellion

12:37 - "Tree Gap Set" by The Gatehouse Well from Bring You Ashore

16:18 - "Mark the Hard Earth" by McKasson & McDonald from Harbour

21:17 - CELTIC FEEDBACK

27:53 - "Lilting Music - Tree Set" by Crepuscule from Shades of Music

31:42 - "He of the Sidhe" by Alexander James Adams from Balance of Nature

38:01 - "No Land's Man" by An lar from Deception

43:39 - "Hawthorn Tree" by Heather Dale from Avalon

47:15 - "The Umbrella Reel, Two Days To Go, Down The Broom" by Kennedy's Kitchen from The Whiskey of Truth

52:03 - CELTIC PODCAST NEWS

55:43 - "Lark in the Morning" by Ockham's Razor from Songs from Potter's Field

1:01:06 - "The Intervention Set" by Ballinloch from Rise Up!

1:03:52 - "Greenland Whale Fisheries" by Battlelegs from Save the Humans

1:06:20 - "Mother Tree" by Rebels and Sinners from Day's Just Begun

1:10:40 - CLOSING

1:11:57 - "After the Storm" by Onde from Maelstrom

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There are Australian bushfires, oil spills, erratic temperature changes, earthquakes, hurricanes, the list goes on and on. Life on our planet is in a delicate balance. The Celts knew this. That’s why trees were so important to Celtic culture.

It doesn’t matter if you don’t believe all the scientific evidence that points to human-made Climate Change. What is important is stewardship of our planet. We need to take care of it.

So in 2020, I want to draw attention to our hurting planet and how we can do just that. That’s why our latest shirt and sticker design includes the Celtic Tree of Life.

I’ll be honest. I don’t have specifics as to what we can do. But if you have suggestions, please email me.

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You’ll get a t-shirt, a couple pint glasses, a bunch of stickers, our Victims of Irish Music compilation CD and my latest CDs with the Brobdingnagian Bards. Plus, this year, you’ll also get a digital copy of my Irish Drinking Songs for Cat Lovers album.

It’s all one insanely low price. And the offer is good until February 3, 2020. Head on over to MageRecords.com to support the podcast today.

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Irish Music Stories is published by Shannon Heaton. She plays Irish flute and sings. She LOVEs Irish music and dance, and related Celtic traditions. This show is her way of sharing the rich inspiration that the global ‘trad’ community has given to her, with the stories behind the music.

After a long hiatus, Celtic Roots Radio is back. Raymond McCullough in Downpatrick, Co. Down, Northern Ireland whet's yer appetite with Celtic, folk, folk/rock, Appalachian, Breton, bluegrass, Scottish, Irish, Cajun, Cape Breton, singer/songwriter – if its Celtic, roots or acoustic music you want, you'll find it there (plus a wee drop a' Norn Iron craic!). The show is once again publishing new episodes.

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TRAVEL WITH CELTIC INVASION VACATIONS Every year, I take a small group of Celtic music fans on the relaxing adventure of a lifetime. We don't see everything. Instead, we stay in one area. We get to know the region through its culture, history, and legends. You can join us with an auditory and visual adventure through podcasts and videos. Learn more about the invasion at http://celticinvasion.com/

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Heidi Murphy emailed a photo: "I’m listening to this while editing my book. Lovely Celtic Christmas music!

I noticed the other day that you had Round the House on. They're so cool. I've jammed with them before (I play tin whistle and bodhran) and they're delightful.

I recently went to the World Highland Games in Tucson, AZ. It was so lovely to watch them toss the caber and hammer. They broke a record in something I don’t know the name of. It’s a 2 stone bail of hay trussed up in canvas they toss with a pitchfork. I’d love to know what that’s called. I was off listening to music and eating haggis and a scone when they announced that name.

Here’s a pic of me hiking home from Muckross Abbey after a long day of exploring in the rain. Slainte"

Marshall Blosser emailed: "Hey Celtfather,

In searching for Newfoundland Celtic artists it dawned on me that you had a 2 hour special on Canadian Celtic music back in 2016. Episode 254 specifically from April 7, 2016.   That episode gave me several artists to look up.  For me specifically, The Rolling Kings, and The Ennis Sisters. As well as a few others from neighboring provinces.

My own on-line research found several other artists although I am not sure how many are still active. Listing the ones I can find on either Amazon or CDBaby first: The Irish Descendants, Celtic Connection, Shanneyganook, The Flummies, and Great Big Sea.

I know Great Big Sea isn't an active group any more but it's members, specifically Alan Doyle, Sean McCann and Murray Foster have continued to record music.

There is one band I want to get some recordings of but I can't find any information on is Greeley's Reel. They've been playing the local St John's pubs for 10 years.

As I visit the pubs I will make sure to try and connect any Irish/Celtic bands I find to your submission page. I am also kicking around the idea of starting a podcast of local artists for Newfoundland to help get them some more exposure. Any advise on how you started would be awesome. Looking forward to sending you many new artists"

Tim Sommer in Middleton, ID emailed: "Hi Marc, I love your podcast and wanted to support it and was signing up for the $5 per month contribution and I just briefly saw the window to select that.... when what do you know...I was signed up for the $5 per episode.  Couldn’t figure out how to change that number so am asking for your help to change it.

Yes, I do think you are worth $5 an episode but if my wife starts seeing the monthly amount for that instead of the $5 per month, she’ll be using her serious face and posture, asking me what I thought I was doing.

It could impact my entire Irish and Scottish music habit.  It’s like knowing how many beers you can drink at the session before you are in serious trouble."

Check out this episode!

[waxandwanemusic]

Primer #7 - Guided By Voices

The Primer is our column wherein contributors compile a 60 minute playlist of a band near and dear to their heart. Using personal listening anecdotes, notes about specific tracks and a brief overview of each artist, The Primer is both a way for our contributors to trace their musical genealogy and for our readers to gain a new perspective on an artist they may have missed or dismissed.

Installment seven of the Primer series features drummer extraordinaire Joel Kuiper preaching the Gospel of Dayton, Ohio's Guided By Voices.

Be sure to listen to the one hour podcast episode we recorded with Joel about his Guided By Voices Primer.

It must have been early in the summer of 1994 when I first heard about Guided By Voices (Dayton, OH). The source was the now long defunct Grand Rapids area zine "Slak" Magazine. One of it's writers gushed on and on throughout the issue about the bands then new release, "Bee Thousand". He also gushed about seeing them on a side stage at Lollapalooza that year. He described the music as pop rock melodies that sound both timeless and fresh at the same time, and are at once both sophisticated and completely raw. The lead singer was a 4th grade teacher. That did it for me. 

On the occasion of my next trip to East Lansing record shop Flat, Black & Circular (a multi weekly event at this point in my life), I purchased a CD copy of "Bee Thousand". Listening as I drove home, I liked what I heard. The songs were poorly recorded, but had the sheer energy and enthusiasm to easily overcome any fidelity issues. Melody after melody poured effortlessly out of my Subaru wagon's speakers. I could hear The Beatles in there (Robert Pollard is the Blatz to John Lennon's Two Hearted Ale). I could hear R.E.M. in there. 

Even though there were similarities to what I had heard in the past, there was a freedom to this music I had never experienced before. And then came Track 9. "Gold Star For Robot Boy". I remember it clear as day. I was on Foster Street heading south towards Michigan Avenue.  Then Pollard sang - "If I waited for you to signify the moves that I should make - I'll be on the take - Gold Star For Robot Boy - well then that's OK". Genesis 1:1. The heavens opened. I heard it - and it was good. No - actually it was fucking great! 

This had only happened to me once before - when I was 9 years old and heard The Beatles for the first time. But the Beatles record had came from my Aunt Carole - this band was mine. And they still are. 

Guided By Voices are my favorite band. Robert Pollard is my favorite singer. He is my favorite songwriter too. He has written a few. Like over 2000. That is not a typo. And at least1000 of them are good! The fact that Pollard exists at all is the real story. As I mentioned - he was a 4th grade teacher for cryin' out loud. Making music in the basement with his buddies, having trouble getting gigs in his own hometown and releasing record after record of great songs that no one except the band and their families ever heard. (Sound familiar anyone :) ????) As a matter of fact, GBV was about to call it a day on the doorstep of its breakthrough way back in 1993 after a decent 7 year run. 

Then someone sent a tape to Cleveland. And then from Cleveland to NYC. The rest is history. GBV is not The Beatles. Pollard can't lounge in the French Riviera collecting paychecks. But he has carved out a great and lengthy career - which shows no sign of letting up - by doing things his own way and creating great music for himself - whether anyone actually heard it or not - which is endlessly inspiring to a lifelong musician like me. 

When Matty asked me to do this - he told me I had time for an hour long playlist. GBV has 23 proper records - and twice as many EP's and other assorted goodies. And I am not even going to touch Robert Pollard's solo records (He has over 20 of those too). Thousands of songs whittled down to these 26 standouts. Get ready to rock!

Listen to all 26 songs on Joel Kuiper's Guided By Voices Primer in the YouTube playlist below.

1. Over The Neptune/Mesh Gear Fox

Alright Rock N Roll! GBV! GBV! Is anybody ready to rock? This song does not rock. These very words are spoken as this track begins - and you'd better be ready to rock - cuz your gonna. From the arena rock swagger in the songs beginning, to the weird progish middle section through its melodic conclusion, "Over The Neptune/Mesh Gear Fox" is the archetype for what GBV is all about, fitting most of its many influences into just one song. No wonder it clocks in at over 5 minutes which qualifies as an magnum opus for these cats. And yes, the song does rock.

2. Your Name Is Wild

Truthfully I was sold by the title alone ( GBV has the best song titles), but the minute the song kicked in I was hooked by the uber hooky hook. Even though I can still barely figure out what he is singing - the melodies are brilliant and I can't stop mumbling along! 

3. When She Turns 50

Just Bob and an acoustic. Simple and clear recognition of one of the great voices and songwriters in the history of recorded music. And those lyrics...........sigh.....

4. Things I Will Keep

My favorite track from the Ric Ocasek produced Do The Collapse, which was GBV's attempt at major commercial success. Even though "Hold On Hope" and "Teenage FBI" are two of the bands most well known songs - both have been featured on TV shows and in Movies - the band never achieved the success they (or the record company) was hoping for with the release. It still holds up well however.

5. Hank's Little Fingers

Great title. Great execution. Great lyrics (Unless you've got the answers - don't patronize the mountain men". Great Chorus. Totally irresistible. Try and resist. I dare you.

6. Dodging Invisible Rays

As good as Pollard is - and he is that good - his main foil in the early classic years of GBV was one Tobin Sprout - who is himself good enough to shame most songwriters. Despite his thin voice, Sprout shines in all that he does with a gifted sense of melody and song craft as evidenced in this catchy number. He is worthy of his own separate career - and he has achieved just that. Sprout has released multiple impressive and acclaimed solo efforts. Without question Sprout should get his own highlight someday here at Wax & Wane. I'll start begging Matty now. Sprout is also an accomplished and successful painter - he had a gallery in Leland, MI for years and is renowned throughout the world in those art circle thingys.

7. Secret Star

 This was the tightest and most talented lineup GBV has had (so far). Sounding like something The Who could have recorded in the early 70's, the song is complex and compelling. The payoff at the end is sublime. "To wish for you to fall. To wish for you to burn. To wish for your return". 

8. Gold Star For Robot Boy

1:39 of pure bliss. The first time I ever heard it I listened to it 27 times in a row. 

9. If We Wait

One of my favorite Pollard vocals. What he does with the single word "anymore" alone is worthy of rock glory. A genius at work. In the basement.

10. Everyone Thinks I'm A Rain Cloud (When I'm Not Looking)

An easily overlooked (in GBV's massive catalog anyway) gem from the bands last record preceding its 10 year hiatus, which began in 2004. The band toys with the arrangement like the pro's they are and create plenty of magic to accompany Bob who never disappoints. Well almost never. For 90% of bands - this would be the best they have to offer. Its just another day in the office for the Wizard from Dayton.

11. Non-Absorbing

Oh. it's gonna absorb all right. "Do you see me dee dee dee deedeedeedee - Like I see you do do do dodododo" You'll never get it out of your heard again. Ever.

12. Atom Eyes

Tobin strikes again! See what I mean? His damn songs are soooooo good. This one is jangle pop heaven. "There's a million heartstrings ready to fly - let's pull them now" Pull away Sprout!

13. Planet Score

A song reminding us all to go to the record before they are "like the ghosts of Motown you just don't see them anymore" or "like the spectres of L.A. haunting the buildings of New York". One of the best tracks post the reunion of the classic lineup.

14. Indian Fables

This quick 43 second toss-off perfectly illustrates the simple musical magic that ensues when the golden throated Pollard easily whips up yet another charmer.

15. Fly Into Ashes

This is a B-Side on the "Hold On Hope" single. A better song, in my opinion. I can't believe it didn't make the record. GBV's throwaway's are most band's prime rib. Doug Gillard - wunderkind guitarist and musical foil for Pollard in GBV's second act - really shows his mettle here. That guitar solo really flies!

16. Dayton, Ohio 19 Something & Five

Nostalgia never sounded so good. We are not worthy.

17. Little Whirl

A delicious Tobin Sprout rave-up. You can't not like this. "I DON'T CARE! I DON'T CARE"

18. Girls Of Wild Strawberries

Gorgeous. Better than the fruit - but not better than Girls.

19. Echos Myron

Usually coupled with "Yours To Keep" (both are from the seminal Bee Thousand), "Echos Myron" has been a staple of GBV's legendary live shows (The Best live band in America for two decades now) -  and is guaranteed to have the whole house doing the pogo up and down from the first chord. "We're finally here - and shit yeah it's cool!" Bass Player/Lawyer/Wearer of the Striped Pants Greg Demos offers a great final argument as he shreds his way through the last part of the song as rock n roll nirvana is reached.

20. 158 Years Of Beautiful Sex

Sounds good to me. The song is great too. A drum machine never sounded so good. Notice how Pollard drops the bass out of the song at the :54 mark of the song and then brings it back in at 1:04. Are you fucking kidding me? No joke. "Loads of creamy music - and lots of time to make it". Indeed.

21. The Hard Way

In lesser hands this early standout could potentially be just another generic rocker - but when The Prince of Northridge (the Dayton neighborhood Pollard hails from) adds that damn voice of his - it's like when the color hits during The Wizard Of Oz.

22. Not Behind The Fighter Jet

The last song the classic lineup recorded before its 18 year hiatus (1996-2014). Love those keys at the end. Glad it didn't end!

23. Universal Truths & Cycles

The title track of "Universal Truths and Cycles" is a slinky number with a great chorus (aren't they all?) with some standout bass work by Todd Tobias. "And the lost hierarchy of land - and land owners - and down will go back up forever more - I must try to believe this". I believe! Hallelujah I believe!

24. The Other Place

 First song. First record. First classic. Pollard shows us from the very first seconds that he is a force to be reckoned with. Already 30 years old, it is not dated at all and seems even more fresh today than it must have in Dayton in the mid 80's. The first of many Pollard songs that R.E.M. wish they had written. Again - those damn vocals. Sweet lord.

25. Game Of Pricks

Maybe GBV's finest hour. A tale of the death of a relationship that is so damn catchy that the CDC is still working on an antidote some 20 plus years after this rock n roll virus was unleashed. "I climb up on the house - weep to water the trees - and when you come calling me down I put on my disease". Take that Dylan. The band would re-record this for the Tigerbomb EP. While it was recorded better - and had some nice new guitar parts - the original version cannot be matched. This song is so good it inspired at least one book (Perfect From Now On) and just may be the most played song in my personal collection. 

26. The Ascended Master's Grogshop

Sure the title is weird - but the song's melody is devastating. A melancholy masterpiece - that's less than a minute long. Sigh with me.

Joel Kuiper owns and operates a non-emergency medical transport service called Outpatient Express. He also plays drums in The Stick Arounds, Scary Women and Icey-Dicey.