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Iâve only had your baker! simon for one day and I already know that I would cause mass destruction if something happened to him đ no but seriously such a cute and fun read I loved it thank you so much for sharing!
He is my BABY and I am obsessed <3
Part 2 of this!
Warnings: Simon is healing đ¤ Fem!Reader.
Simonâs heart skips a beat. Itâs a scam, itâs got to be. No way such a pretty woman would dare talk to him, business move or not. Although, the more he looks through your profile and sees the amount of posts youâre tagged in, itâs easy to conclude that you are, in fact, real. Regardless, heâs still wary as he finally begins typing out a response.
â No charge? Sounds too good to be true. Whatâs the catch?
Maybe a little harsh, but heyâcan never be too careful nowadays. If thereâs one thing the military instilled in him, itâs to trust nobody. Simon flops down onto his couch, fingers anxiously tapping along his knee as he watches you type, the ellipses disappearing and reappearing again. He wonders if youâre just as nervous as he is, but if that were the case, surely you wouldnât have contacted him first.
â No catch, I promise! No offense, itâs just that your pictures are a little grainy and I donât believe they act as a great showcase for your talent. Really, I just want to show you how pretty your treats can look on camera!
Simon sucks his teeth stubbornly. He knows his pictures arenât the best, but fucking hell, must everybody point it out? Heâs about to type a scathing response and block you, but another message pops up beneath your previous one.
â Please, just a chance. Weâre in the same area, so I can just come to you, wherever you want me.
A heavy sigh escapes the big man. His therapist has been telling him heâs too uptight, suggesting that he should balance out his peace by stepping out of his comfort zone once in a while. Besides, whenâs the last time a sweet girl has given him the light of day? Heâd be a fool to pass up this opportunity. Simon pinches the crooked bridge of his nose, trying to talk some sense into himself. Itâs not like itâs a date, simply just two businesses helping each other out. If it doesnât work, he never has to see you again.
Yeah, that sounds good. If everything goes up in flames, he can simply block you and move on with his life, continuing to post shitty pictures of his desserts. His thumbs twitch before tapping the screen once again.
â Youâve beat it out of me. When are you available?
Your response comes faster than he can blink.
â Saturday?
Two days. That gives him plenty of time to prepare (and maybe get Price to order an extensive background check on you). Simon can do that, no problem.
â I can be ready for you by about half 11.
Ready for you? Fucksâ sake, what is this? Sheâs not a bloody prostitute.
â That sounds good! Just send me your address day of. Iâm looking forward to it!! :)
Simon smiles. Simon smiles, and he doesnât even realize it. If he did, he would fix it immediatelyâbut he doesnât. Instead thereâs a pep in his step when he stands from the couch, grabbing his journal and scribbling down his thoughts and ideas for what heâll make on Saturday. His therapist will be proud.
Simon allows himself to be proud as well.
#MY BABY MY BABYYYY#ask me!#call of duty#cod#cod mw2#simon riley x reader#simon ghost riley#baker!Simon#ghost x female reader#ghost x fem!reader#baker!Simon x fem!reader
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Welcome to another round of W2 Tells You What You Should See, where W2 (me) tries to sell you (you) on something you should be watching. Today's choice: č´ĺ˝ć¸¸ć / The Spirealm.
The Spirealm is a 2024 drama about two young men who fall in love while basically playing a whole bunch of horror-themed escape rooms that can for-real kill you.
This show/book combo has gripped my entire ass. The second I knew I wanted to watch this, almost immediately after it started airing, I muted the tag. I was so right to do this, because this is worth not spoiling yourself about. If you are a Guardian fan in particular, you owe it to yourself to watch this for reasons I think will become clear as you go about watching it.
So! If all you need to know is that I think you need this show in your life, great! You don't even need to scroll down to the end of the post for the links; go to Viki and press play. In case you need more convincing than that, though, I'm going to give you here five reasons to watch it that are as spoilerless as I can make them.
Before we start, though, I'm going to take a moment to note that I had to torrent the video files so I could make screenshots of my own, and if I hadn't, this would have been a much uglier rec post than the others I've done. Not only were there not many promotional materials or official stills released, the show itself barely stayed up two hours on iQiyi, and that's because this drama is a...
1. (Barely) Censored Adaptation Of Same-sex Original Work
Ah, you know that MyDramaList tag well, don't you? Yeah, the original novel, Kaleidoscope of Death (which has a rec post of its own!), is supernatural story about grief and loss built on the love story between the two male leads. Now of course you know already that a mainstream Chinese television adaptation of something like that is going to straighten up everything and turn the horror romance into the sci-fi platonic love of besties.
...But damn, folks, it's still real gay.
Ling Jiushi, the sweet-faced newbie, is a canonical virgin and loving cat dad who plays the mysterious video game once, then finds himself suddenly able to enter the game worlds bodily -- and of course, if you die in the game, you die in real life. He's pretty much doomed, until he meets...
Ruan Lanzhu, the cool-as-a-cucumber veteran of the door worlds, who falls pretty much immediately for the completely oblivious Ling Jiushi, then has to spend the rest of the series consumed with lust while trying to keep him and a couple other dipshits alive.
The show preserves so many overtly gay beats and declarations of affection from the novel, to the point where it's just this side of suggesting that the romance is actually, textually happening just offscreen, every time the camera cuts away. I am forever grateful that working with Zhu Yilong on Reunion seems to have perfected sweet baby Junjie's ability to look at a man with nothing but love in his eyes.
I adore so much the dynamic they have, one where a man who has never told the truth a day in his life encounters a man so sincere and naive that you cannot seduce him with anything but absolute honesty or he's never going to get it.
There are three (3) separate door worlds where they share a bed, and in every one of them, they both sleep with their shoes on. Like the absolute freaks they both are.
2. It's puzzle solvin' time!
So if you've read some of my rec posts before, you know that I am critical of stories that center around cases that are unfollowable, uninteresting, or both (e.g., Mysterious Lotus Casebook and White Cat Legend). I am therefore thrilled to tell you that the door worlds are actually (largely) thoughtful mysteries with reasonable solutions, where you care about what's happening and why.
The way each door world is set up is that you have to solve the puzzle to find a key and unlock the door that will let you leave. One of the challenges is each world's door ghost, who has the key and does not want to give it up. The other challenge is the world-specific set of taboo conditions, where violating them means the door ghost can kill you -- and you are not always told what those taboo conditions are. That means that solving a door involves 1) figuring out what will insta-kill you, 2) not doing that, 3) finding where the hell the exit door is, 4) placating and/or scamming the door ghost long enough to snatch the key from them, and 5) running like hell to the exit door with that key before the door ghost fucks you up about it.
As the show goes on, you get introduced to the concept of door-passing shepherds, which are experienced door-finishers who take through lower-level players, building them up in the process. A lot of these shepherds work for organizations, such as the one Ruan Lanzhu runs. And a lot of them are ready to reach the exit by climbing over everyone else's corpses.
That's part of the fun of the setup: You're not just thrown in alone. You show up with a random number of other players, some with very different levels of experience. At least one of you will make it out; not everyone will. So you can add a step 6) to the list above, which is: surviving all the other players who will gleefully stab you in the back in order to be the first player out the door.
The door worlds are also lovely. They all feel like sets -- and I know that's a weird thing to say about places that are literal sets, but they manage it feel it even on film. In fact, even the show's uses of clunky-ass greenscreen feel appropriate, because of how unreal everything is supposed to be. Everything looks like a dream, which is only amplified by how beautifully everything's shot.
(What's that you say? You say the guy who directed this was the editor on Infernal Affairs? No kidding.)
From a fandom perspective, what's great here is that even though there are technically just twelve doors, there are canonically way more than twelve door worlds out there. That means that whatever worlds you want to create are valid. The best pieces of fanfic I've read are the ones that dream up their own door worlds, complete with taboo conditions, key puzzles, and world-specific perks that lead to gay sex, because come on.
3. A good middle ground of horror
So at this point you are perhaps wondering: How scary is it?
And the answer is, kind of as scary as you're willing to let your mind go with it. Everything has been science-fictioned real hard, including the video game premise that "explains" what's happening with these doors. It relies on dread way more than jumpscares. The blood/gore/gross content is extremely low, again on account of Chinese content censorship. Most icky things are done with offscreen sounds and shadows. I'm pretty squeamish about pain and injury, and I can't recall a time I had to look too long away from the screen.
However, that means the show works some real conceptual horror. That picture up there is of a man forcing three young girls to hold raw eggs unbroken in their mouths. There's nothing about that image that's not technically G-rated, and it's awful in context.
The best bits are when the monsters don't need a lick of CG to become horrors. They cast a contortionist in the Waverly Hills door world, and she absolutely earned her keep.
I have a lot of critiques about how the show handles things, especially in terms of defanging the horror elements (which it does), but one thing I think it absolutely gets right is that it understands that ghost stories are first and foremost tragedies. That's a thing I've always liked about Asian horror in particular, how often you wind up siding with the ghost. Yes, sure, she tried to strangle you with her hair, but have you ever considered she's the real victim here? There's always a bit of a calculus: Can you negotiate with the door ghost, or do you just need to stab them and run? The Spirealm prefers negotiation, and frankly, so do I.
So yeah, it's about as scary as you let it be. If your horror tolerance is low, watch it in a well-lit room and focus on the unreality of it, and you'll be okay. If you're looking for something genuinely spooky, spend some time thinking about the existential dread of the entire situation, and that'll be good for a couple good spine tingles.
4. The Obsidian Family (& Friends!)
In a show where death is always an option, you have to have characters where you actually care if they live or die. Fortunately, all your allies are charming and loveable enough that you are going to be real upset every time they get put in danger!
Obsidian is one of the organizations I mentioned earlier. It's run by Ruan Lanzhu, and it includes a cool and collected doctor, a mom friend who cooks for everybody, a guy who's maybe not having the best mental health day of his life, and two identical twins who could not be more different if they tried. They all live in the same amazing big fancy house, which is where Ling Jiushi too goes to live when he joins the group. They have big family meals, they look after one another, they hang out together -- I mean, if this is the kind of setup you love, then you will love this setup.
There are also plenty of allies who aren't technically part of Obsidian, but who are our friends nonetheless, and who come over to hang out in the Obsidian house from time to time. Some of them are rivals turned friends, some of them are clients turned friends, and some of them were just friends all along! Surely nothing bad will happen to any of them, and they'll all live happily ever after, right? ...Right?
5. Toast and Chestnut!
Of course, the true heroes of the show are Toast the Corgi and Chestnut the Kitty.
Animals are so good.
Truly, I love that one of Ling Jiushi's defining characteristics is that he is a Cat Dad. He is a simple man with simple needs, and one of those needs is to pet his kitty or he'll explode.
caveat: Some thoroughly bad adaptation choices
Yeah, so I keep talking about the novel (and talk even more about the novel in its own rec post), but I assure you, you don't need to have read the novel to feel the degree to which this is an adaptation -- and one that's had its rough, nasty, spooky, gay edges all sanded off in the desperate hope of ever seeing daylight.
Now, sometimes I consider batshit nonsense janky creative decisions to be a selling point for a show (see: Mysterious Lotus Casebook, Legend of Fei, Sand Sea)! In this case, however, I'm going to have to take points off for how incoherently bad they are here. We're talking Psych-Hunter levels of Why Would You Do That-- and the answer, as always, comes down to how you write around what censorship won't allow on television.
The novel says the doors are supernatural. The show says they're a virtual-reality computer game. Now, on the surface, this move sort of makes sense -- you can't have ghosts, but you can have computer games that make digital ghosts, which, sure, okay. But then the problem quickly becomes that the plot of the novel is not remotely built to support a sci-fi premise, so a lot of things have to be grafted awkwardly on. Like, say, a bad guy who stole his corporate logo from Even Worse Twitter. Or a game-designing bestie whose face is never seen. Or [late-stage spoilers about a major character].
The eventual explanation is that this whole setup is a righteous and good game that has somehow been corrupted by evil game-designing capitalists from the West, and that's why it can abduct you in broad daylight and kill you if you fail it. There are good people who want to purify (???) the game, and evil people who want to make money off the game. And I don't mind spoiling you for that part, because it's garbage nonsense. You will be deeply unsatisfied with the show's half-assed attempt at resolving it all. (You may, however, have that disappointment tempered with the amazing concurrent display of heterosexuality that is apologizing to your best bro by coding his perfect man for him. The Spirealm is a land of contrasts.)
Look, I consider myself a mild to moderate socialist, and even I was yawning and making jerk-off motions every time someone started to wax halfheartedly poetic about how evil American capitalism is. Like, yeah, but not because some college student made a vile and wretched video game that eats people! This show is a critique of capitalism like a five-year-old crying because he doesn't get ice cream before bed is a critique of authoritarianism.
And even this, I can't be too mad at it about, you know? I just assume that this was some absolute Hail Mary attempt at getting past censorship -- you know, maybe if we make all the right "grr, USA bad!" noises, they'll let our gay ghost story slip by? And it worked! I mean, just barely, but it did.
So yeah, fair warning that the Spirealm is a show that, if you love it (and I do), you will have to love despite some glaring flaws that haunt it all the way through and hit especially hard during what should otherwise have been an amazing endgame. But hey, we're c-drama fans! We're good at loving janky things, right?
Want to enter the World of Doors?
As I said at the start of the post, Viki's got it -- and only Viki. I'm not sure what circumstances got it up on Viki after iQiyi pulled it, but I'm glad. Watch it quick, before Viki changes its mind!
Hug him! Hug that boy!
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so. the dolls of my original characters. for now Iâm only planning for Sol and Lazul and Iâve run into the problem of wanting them to have outfits that fit with their respective home planetâs fashions and also wanting them to match.
#and Iâm kinda attached to the outfits Iâve already designed them.#so my choices are such;#cave and scrap one of the outfits#cave and accept they wonât be matching#or make them two outfits each#âŚ#I donât like my choices lmao#and as much as my excited adhd brain would LOVE to make two outfits for them#my rational brain who knows where that type of thing leads#Knows Better Than That#and so Iâll probably cave and scrap an outfit#even though I really really like the one Iâd be scrapping :(#because seeing as these two characters are like literally married at one point#Iâd rather prioritize matching over planetary style rep#anyway#experiencing the adhd symptoms#while knowing theyâre the adhd symptoms#oof.#and I mean that lightly bc like??? I feel happy???#I donât feel that existential dread and nothingness that I was feeling#I feel like I have energy again???#but also my thoughts are slippery (if they arenât about these dolls)#and I am more impatient than I usually am#which. not a great thing. Iâve never really gotten a hang on patience.#but also???? im fucking hungry again???? I want to make food??????#love that for me!!!#oh and also the yapping is on full blast now too#in case the uptick in posts didnât clue you in#or the increased tag commentary#so yâknow. overall having a good time so far. weâll see how that changes as time progresses!!
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Anti-Capitalism and ChatGPT
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Hereâs the thing. Iâll be the first to admit that ChatGPT is cool, yeah? And Iâm far from ignorant of the wonderful things itâs made possible. But thereâs a pretty big problem with its professional usage,
and before you stop reading,
I promise that the point of this post is not "you have to stop using ChatGPT." Just. Stick with me for a minute, cuz contrary to what you might expect, this is not a problem contained to just the normies that donât use ChatGPT: this is about how ChatGPT will affect you.
Iâm about to use some scary words like âscalpingâ and âexploitation,â but remember Iâm not accusing you of anything. In fact, letâs start with the good stuff.
Among other things, it could be argued that ChatGPT actually enhances workplace accessibility by âleveling the playing field,â in a way. Any job candidate can quickly make up for lack of time/skill/ability in one area by using ChatGPT to fill in the gaps, right? An individualâs personal quality of life can improve by âoutsourcingâ aspects of their work to ChatGPT â they have more free time, and maybe their work quality and pay grade improve too.
But Iâd like to point out that this isnât ChatGPT making life better for employees. This is actually ChatGPT eliminating the entire role of âemployee.â
Okay, crazy statement time:
A person using ChatGPT in a professional setting is no longer an employee, but, in practice, actually a corporation.
What the fuck is that supposed to mean? Well, in concise terms, ChatGPT catalyzes the exploitation of labor by collecting it all in one place, meaning that the labor of hundreds of people can be scalped and represented as the work of a single entity: the individual using ChatGPT.
This essentially transforms the individual employee into a CEO of their own small corporation, which is being outsourced to larger corporations for work. Our new âCEOâ doesnât even have to pay any âemployees,â keeping all of the profit they earned with the labor scalped by ChatGPT. This is why the individual is able to reap so much more profit from using ChatGPT than they ever could from working as a single employee.
You may think Iâm trying to frame our new little âCEOâ as the villain of this story, but itâs exactly the opposite. Theyâre just playing by the rules of the system, and within the system, itâs way nicer being a corporation than it is living as an employee. Itâs just proof of concept that life on top is exactly as easy as weâve all been guessing it is, and the only requirement for leveling up is a willingness to exploit labor. ChatGPT is a shiny new miracle tool that makes exploitation easy and accessible to everyone, and it doesnât even look or feel like exploitation because there are no faces attached.
But thatâs where this short-term improvement goes downhill: itâs accessible to everyone, including the actual corporations, who have already amassed the means to exploit labor en masse. If ChatGPT gives individuals a level-up by eliminating the role of employee and allowing them to act as corporations, how does that same level-up work when a corporation uses it? Well, I guess itâs a good thing the role of âemployeeâ has been eliminated, because they arenât needed anymore lol: not if your goal is to turn a profit, and we all know thatâs just how things go.
But heyâ galaxy brain here, but couldnât that be kind of a good thing actually? The current system doesnât function without people on the bottom who are available for exploitation, so if ChatGPT can automate the exploited parties for us by scalping labor from the past, then doesnât that mean that the endless work necessitating human employment in the first place is finally⌠unnecessary? For the first time ever, we could be looking at a society where pretty much all of the labor is already accounted for, meaning all humans are free to pursue any passion they want regardless of their background, regardless of their class, regardless of how much money they- oh, right⌠Money.
The world I described above either sounds like a utopia to you or a dogshit stupid pipe dream, and unfortunately, both are true.
The problem is,
while technology has advanced to the point where itâs finally ready for automated labor, society has not.
We still live in a system where if you donât work, you donât eat, regardless of whether any work actually needs to be done. So⌠what actually happens in the current system if labor is automated?
Well, I wonât bore you with the typical âTHE ROBOTS ARE TAKING ALL OUR JOBSâ routine, but like. Itâs only half wrong? I mean, we donât even have the tech to automate all labor anyway, so itâs not like thatâs literally whatâs happening. But there are still⌠a lot of jobs that can be automated now, and that puts a lot of people in positions where they have to compete with ChatGPT in order to keep food on the table. Itâs already a losing battle for a lot of people.
Using ChatGPT gives you a taste of corporate power, of the ability to exploit if it makes things financially easier for you. And thatâs understandable, right? Weâre all struggling in a system like this. Just donât forget that line of reasoning when it comes full circle, where instead of getting to do the exploiting, youâre the one being exploited (again). Donât forget what it was like to be on top: how normal it felt, reasonable, unremarkable. It didnât feel like exploitation when you only experienced the profits. That is who owns you now. Let that radicalize you.
So long story short,
the existence and usage of ChatGPT is not the problem. In a better world, youâre right that ChatGPT could be a great ally, but the current structure of the job market has transformed it into a competitor. The human working class and ChatGPT are forced to compete against each other, not because it is rational for us to be enemies, but because the system pits all laborers against each other for the âprivilegeâ of work. People are realizing that they really canât beat the competition this time, so donât scold them when they donât share your enthusiasm. Weâre all dogs in this fight, and ChatGPT has fucking lazer eyes.
Itâs not the end of the world â the job market has always been prone to fluctuation â but this is different from your average fluctuation. It re-frames so much that used to seem impossible, but if we donât change the system itself to match this advancement in technology, I guarantee itâs not gonna be the people at the top who pay the price.
The choice is not whether or not to use ChatGPT.
The choice is whether to discontinue ChatGPT so that society can continue with the relative stability it had before, or to embrace ChatGPT as the ally it could be by changing the structures that weaponize it against us.
(Okay Iâm getting off my soapbox now, I sure hope nobody else is in this abandoned soapbox factory, can you imagine how embarrassing it would be if anyone actually heard me say all that lol)
#i could have written this in a more professional tone but so could ChatGPT so you get the manic rambling version#and again this isnât an accusation of anyone and itâs not intended to make people feel guilty#itâs just me figuring out how to explain my position in a way thatâs both concise and understantable i guess?#ive had several dude-bros mock me for being supposedly anti-progress or some shit but i never know how to respond cuz im just like#bro no if anything im saying itâs not enough progress and in this particular case itâs weirdly anachronistic in a way that has the potential#to destabilize a lot of peopleâs livelihoods#im not panicking about it cuz society already went to shit ages ago#(as if it ever wasn't going to shit)#but it would be kinda nice if things didnât go even more to shit just because a bunch of supposedly âpro-progressâ humans refused to#acknowledge that their hardware was too old to run the new OS without blowing a fuse (if that makes sense)#(which it probably doesnât cuz i suck at talking but im tired so i get to stop typing now)#(âjesus christ wtf am i thinking posting this i dont wanna deal with it if anyone respondsss)#(whatever i spent like 3 hours on this so might as well)#anti capitalism#chat gpt#chatgpt#ai#tag rambles#text post#not vent
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feel the same - s.r. x bau!reader
spencer misunderstands a conversation he overhears between reader and derek. tags/cws: misunderstandings, confessions of feelings, use of 'y/n', gn!reader, fluff, mild angst, derek morgan has big brother energy wc: 1708 (much longer than I thought lmao) a/n: I'm truly obsessed with season 1 spencer as of late so I HAD to write a fic with him in mind. <3
also posted on ao3
âYou know Pretty Boy likes you, donât you?â
Spencer had been trying to get some sleep on the flight back after working a case that had drained all his energy when the sound of Morganâs voice caught his attention. Without opening his eyes, he knew exactly who he was talking to. Spencer had never outright admitted to anyone that he had developed feelings for you but it was getting harder to deny. Once Derek had started pointing out the way heâd look up when you entered a room or the way his eyes lingered as you walked away, he was becoming concerned that this crush was more obvious than heâd like it to be.Â
Heâs been trying to ignore it, telling himself itâs unprofessional when really itâs because he believes thereâs no way you could possibly feel the same. Thereâs a myriad of reasons why he wished Derek would keep his big mouth shut but honestly â that was probably the biggest.
âLikes me? How old are we?â The smooth sound of your response makes Spencer smile to himself in spite of the current situation.Â
â(Y/N), come onâŚâ Derek chuckles and is immediately met with a long stretch of silence. Spencer can picture the death glare he knows heâd see on your face if he were to look at you in this moment. âLook, you know heâs never gonna ask you out himself so maybe you should justââ
âDerek.â You interrupt with an evident sternness in your tone. âIâm not having this conversation with you. Iâve told you, itâs not happening.â Ouch. Spencer had never allowed himself to dream that you would reciprocate his feelings but he definitely wishes he had been asleep for that one. With that, he forces his eyes shut tighter than before and takes in one deep, slightly shaky breath and decides to try to go back to sleep, if only so that he doesnât have to hear you reject him even harder.
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Spencer wakes up as the jet is landing and he quickly gathers all of his things, walking out and across the strip with much more urgency than usual. This detail doesnât go unnoticed by you, not much does â especially where Spencer is concerned â and you make a mental note to check in with him later. He had caught your eye the first day you met him which must be, what? Half a year ago now? And he had been on your mind ever since. You had bonded quickly as friends, being the two youngest members on the team. About a month ago you had finally allowed yourself to acknowledge the fact that you had developed feelings for him. Youâd sit next to him at any given opportunity, listen to his infamously long rants much longer than anyone else would, spend just a little too long staring at his lips as he talked you through his theories. It didnât take long for people to notice. Elle had her suspicions, JJ made a comment every now and then, but Derek â he wouldnât let it go. He teases you about it constantly. You havenât given him the satisfaction of admitting it, you havenât been able to deny it either.
When you eventually make your way into the building along with the rest of the team you notice that Spencer had already left. Itâs only then you start to be concerned. Itâs unlike him to leave in such a hurry, even more so to not even say goodbye. You rack your brain trying to come up for a reason for this strange behavior. Is he sick? Upset about something? Was it you? You begin to go over every interaction youâd had with him recently when you have to stop yourself before you spiral. Heâs just tired. If it was serious heâd tell you⌠right?
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The next morning you walk in to find Spencer at his desk working on the report he didnât write last night before he had basically ran away.
âMorning, Spence!â You greet him, making an effort to sound cheerful as you lean on his desk. He doesnât look up, like heâs trying extra hard to look busy.
âMorning, (Y/L/N).â He replies without looking up. His tone seems normal, his use of your last name is what sounds the alarms in your head.
âHey⌠are you feeling alright?â You ask tentatively, not wanting to pry too much in case you really had done something wrong that you clearly werenât aware of. âI noticed you kind of left in a hurry last night.â He finally looks up and meets your eyes, easing your nerves slightly. His eyes shift away and then back to yours before a soft smile graces his lips, one that doesnât quite reach his eyes.
âIâm okay.â He responds after a while in a way that sounds like thatâs not all he wants to say. You go to reassure him, make sure he knows he can tell you anything, but stop yourself when you notice the way he tenses when you place a hand on his shoulder. Retracting your hand quickly, you begin to fidget with your fingers before running them through your hair nervously.
âSpencer⌠Iââ You start and stop and Spencer feels a little guilty as you seem to stumble over your words anxiously. âIs it me? Did I do something? Because if I did Iââ.
â(Y/N).â Spencer cuts off your panicked rambling. You take a steadying breath as he slowly rises to stand in front of you, your eyes trailing up when he towers over you. He looks around the room and sighs before focusing back on you. âCan we go somewhere to talk?â You nod and begin walking towards a storage room with Spencer following close behind, quickly checking that there's no one in there before stepping inside.
âWhatâs going on with you?â You break the silence as Spencer closes the door behind him. âYou know you can talk to me about anything.â
âIâm sorry if Iâve been acting weird.â You notice the way he dodges the question. He canât meet your eyes anymore, his gaze shifts around the room and he smiles awkwardly at you.
âSpence, thatâs notââ You interrupt yourself, trying to find a way to put your thoughts to words without overwhelming him. âI only want you to be okay. Youâve been acting differently since last night⌠If thereâs something going on I want to be there for you.â When you say that he smiles sadly. He looks down in thought as if heâs considering something.
âI heard you talking to MorganâŚâ He mumbles, still staring at his feet â wringing his hands together. You furrow your brows in confusion. Talking to Morgan? âOn the jet on the way homeâŚâ
âOh.â This isnât happening. You figure you shouldâve known Derekâs relentless teasing would be your downfall. He must know you like him now. Thereâs a reason you never wanted him to know how you felt. You couldnât stand the thought of anything ruining your friendship. Spencer visibly deflates even more in front of you at your lack of response. You begin scrambling to come up with a way to get out of this horrifically embarrassing situation.
âLook, Iâ I didnât mean to make this awkwardâŚâ Oh god. The way heâs stuttering and tripping over his words. You stare blankly at him, then duck your head, bracing for the impact of his rejection. âItâs not like I thought you would feel the same way I justââ Wait what? Your head snaps back up to see his face, eyes widened, which seems to startle him a little. âI wasnât going to say anything but I guess I just got really in my head about it.â He begins to look a little panicked. âI didnât want to make you uncomfortable, Iâm sorry if I did.â You just keep staring up at him, mouth agape in disbelief. â(Y/N)?â He says your name with a sad desperation and it reminds you that you should respond.
âSorry, Iââ You say slowly while shaking your head. âAre you saying that â Do you like me?â Now itâs Spencerâs turn to look confused, but it was all starting to make sense to you. You had thought he was acting weird because he had found out about your feelings, when in reality, it was the other way around.
âYes?â He replies hesitantly.
âI like you too.â You say simply with a shy smile but Spencer looks completely taken aback.Â
âYou do?â The way his eyes light up with a subtle excitement was adorable. Soon after, that look was replaced with skepticism. âBut I thoughtâ you told Morgan you didnât like me.â
âI told Morgan to stop teasing me about you because I didnât think thisâŚâ You gesture between the two of you. âWas ever going to happen.â Spencer let out a sigh of relief and smiled bashfully.
âYou could have just told me.â You feel his eyes scanning your face as if he were still looking for proof that you werenât messing with him.
âYou didnât tell me either.â
âI thought there was no wayâŚâ You make eye contact as he trails off in thought. âI guess it doesnât matter now.â Spencer takes a tentative step closer to you but doesnât move to touch you in any way, so you reach out to take his hands in yours, lacing your fingers together.
âWell⌠maybe if we donât have to fly out for a case today, we could go to dinner tonight?â Youâre staring down at your intertwined hands, squeezing once before looking back up. When you see his face heâs still looking down with a big dopey grin on his face and you canât help but smile right back.
âYesâ definitely.â You giggle at his obvious enthusiasm.Â
You both stay in the storage room for another couple minutes, mostly just staring starry eyed at each other. Eventually you both decide that you should get back to work. You try to hide whatever was now going between you as much as you can but like always, Derek Morgan figures you out within minutes and he, along with the rest of the team, teases you relentlessly. (You wouldnât have it any other way.)
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in the buff | jason todd
Summary: The one where you learn firsthand that Jason Todd sleeps in the nude.
Pairing: Jason Todd x gn!readerÂ
Word count: 2.7k
Warnings/tags: best friend jason, awkwardness, nudity, reader hardcore thirsting over jaytodd, love confessions, humor (attempts at it, anyway), silliness. inspired by this post!
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There's been a huge (blessed) development in the drug ring case that you and Jason are working on. You can hardly sleep now.
Normally, you'd call or text Jason, even though he's usually already in the know. It's possible that you just like having an excuse to call him, but who can confirm such a thing?
But it's late, probably too late to call, considering Jason doesn't answer his phone unless it's pinged directly to his helmet after a certain time, courtesy of his family being "a buncha jackasses" (his words, obviously).
But maybe it's not too late for a visit. After all, Jason patrols late, and has insane insomnia. He very well could be awake at this late hour. And he's never minded you dropping by before.
In truth, you haven't seen Jason in a few days and you feel restless now when you go longer than a day without seeing each other. You're not quite sure why that is.
So here you are, disabling the window alarm on Jason's apartment. Partly for a case, partly for your own benefit.
It takes a few minutes but you manage to open the window without anyone calling the police or whacking you with a broom. You slide open the window mostly soundlessly. Then you wait. The room remains dark and quiet.
You're pretty proud of yourself actually. It's not that you're green when it comes to spycraft, but you're certainly no Batman.
Still, you've managed to sneak into Jason's apartment without waking him. The Red Hood. You peek in to check if he's really asleep.
And he is, dark hair stark against the white pillow. It sticks out in messy tufts. You can't see past Jason's neck and his freckled arms, illuminated by the orange streetlight outside. You put your laptop bag on the floor.
He's sleeping on his stomach, facing away from you, but you're very endeared by how he's curled up under his sheet, hands tucked under his pillow. If you went really close to his face, you could count his eyelashes. Jason has such pretty eyelashes.
That's a perfectly normal thought to have about your best friend, right? Boys have pretty eyelashes. You're just making an observation.
You're bewildered by how cold the room is, surprised that Jason can withstand such a temperature. Maybe it's a Pit thing.
You watch him for a moment longer. Guilt pools in your gut. Are you really going to wake him when he's probably just gone to bed in the last hour? It takes Jason so long to fall asleep, you know that.
...
No, you should let him sleep. You can work on the case in the morning.
You bend down to get your laptop bag. In that time, the light flicks on.
You flinch, turn around, and find yourself staring down the barrel of a gun.
Said gun is held by an extremely naked Jason Todd.
"Oh my God!" you say at the same time Jason realizes his mistake.
"What the fuck!" he shouts, grabbing a pillow to cover himself.
But not before you get an eyeful of your best friend's, er, weaponry.
"Why are you naked?" you shout, gaze darting everywhere. Good Lord, it's seared into your retinas. You're never getting the image of Jason's dick out of your brain.
"Why are you in my apartment?" Jason snaps back.
"No, my question is way more urgent," you say.
"No the hell it's not! You broke in! I'm allowed to be naked in my apartment!"
"Okay. Alright. I came because there's been a development in our case. I thought we could work on it together but when I realized you were asleep for real, I decided to leave."
Jason rolls his eyes. "You know I'm a light sleeper. I just went to bed. I was up late.â
Realization strikes you. Could it be...?
"Oh my God. Do you have someone here?" you ask, voice sinking to a whisper.
"I have you here," Jason says irritably.
"No, likeâ" You make a hole with one hand and stick a finger into it. "Y'know..."
"Jesus, no!" Jason's face twists in disgust. "C'mon!"
"Okay, chill out, Jay-Jay. It'd be fine if you did. I can keep a secret," you say, shrugging. People have sex. You know that. You've never thought about Jason having sex, but you suppose it's possible. Why not? Just because you've never had sex and you always hoped that Jason would be your first doesn't mean that he would. If he's moved on in his life, then you should too.
Jason scoffs. "Yeah, okay. You think anybody would get into bed with a headcase like me?"
Hope rekindles. You're not behind. Jason's right there with you, virginity firmly intact.
He puts the safety back on the gun, squishing the pillow against himself with his elbow. You watch in fascination at his multitasking. Jason starts to turn around to put the gun behind the headboard before clearly thinking twice about mooning you.
"So... why are you naked?" you ask, respectfully keeping your eyes north of the equator.
"If you must know, I sleep in the nude. Now turn around."
You don't turn around. "In the nude?"
Jason's eye twitches. "Yes, nude. It's better for your body and it's more comfortable and I don'tâ"
You pull a face. "Who says in the nude? How old are you, a hundred?"
"That's what you're harping on?" Jason asks. "You broke into my apartment!"
You hold up a finger. "I didn't break in, I disarmed the alarm like you taught me."
"Yeah, which was only for emergencies. This isn't an emergency. Now turn around!"
So you turn around. You hear the pillow fall and the image returns. You recite the alphabet backwards. When that doesn't work, you think about the time you helped Jason on a mission in the sewers and couldn't get the smell out of your suit for a week.
Yeah, that'll do it. You shudder.
"Can't believe you just broke in," he mumbles. "Raised in a fuckin' barn, swear to God."
"Okay, I'm sorry. I'm truly, honestly sorry, Jaybee. From the bottom of my heart. Can I look now?"
"If you dare."
"Are you decent?" you ask.
"Too easy of a joke," he says. "Yeah, the jewels are covered."
You turn slowly. Jason's got red (ha) boxers on, so you turn all the way.
Huh. Well.
You've never really thought much about what Jason's got going on underneath his armor. Certainly, you've assumed that he's got a good physique and a lot of stamina, considering what he does. You've always assumed that. But Jason's Jason. Your best friend, Jason. Your best friend, Jason, who came back really tall, yeah, and with a deep voice and a super pretty face...
Well, anyway. He's Jason. That's all.
But now? Now you get to look in depth, and... whoa.
Jason's broad, stocky, heavily muscled with a soft layer of fat on top. His arms are huge, hands proportionally big. His pecs are full with pink nipples the same shade as his lips. That's a fact you're never forgetting. Your belly flutters.
Okay, what the fuck! No. This is peak creepy behavior, leering at your best friend like this, even if he does have shoulders you could sink your teeth into and thighs you'd happily get crushed between. No! Bad.
...You look some more. He's covered in scars. This is the first time you've seen his autopsy scar in person. It's white, noticeable but healed, like most of his scars. There's a dusting of dark hair from his chest to his belly button. It thickens as it dips beneath hisâ
Mm, nope. Not thinking about that again.
"Hello-o."
Your eyes dart back to his face.
"Are you listening to me?" he asks, forehead crinkled.
"What? Yes. Sorry. Yes." Your cheeks burn.
Something crosses Jason's face, too quick for you to read. But then his expression stones over. He glances at the dresser across from the bed.
"If you gimme a sec, I'll put a shirt on so y'won't have to look at all this," he says, gesturing roughly to his body.
You blink, lost in Jasonland. "Huh?"
"I know the scars are pretty gnarly. Lemme find a shirt."
Jason goes to the dresser and digs through the top drawer. His wide back is strung tight with tension, you can tell. You hurry to him, blocking the drawer with your arm. Jason looks at you, brows rising.
"Can I help you?" he asks.
"Um."
Words. You remember words, don't you?
"You..."
You haven't been physically close to Jason in a long time. He smells like soap and detergent and is all-encompassing. Your brain feels like slush. Don't stare at his pecs.
"I didn'tâI'm not grossed out by your scars, Jason," you finally manage to say.
Jason raises an eyebrow. "Sure. You're just grossed out by everything else about me." He sighs wearily, like he's practiced this speech every night in the mirror. "Look, it's fine. I know I'm reallyâ"
"No, it's not fine! I can't bear having you think I'm repulsed by your body, Jason. That's just not true," you say.
"Well, you were starin' pretty hard, soâ"
"But it wasn'tâI wasn't staring in disgust, I wasâI..."
Jason crosses his arms. His pecs are pushed up as he does so. His stomach looks so soft. But you know he's strong. Way stronger than you. Strong enough to wield his strength against you, if you wanted him to. Strong enough to be gentle with you, too.
You wonder if he's still ticklish.
"You're doin' it again!" Jason says, and this time he really does look hurt. Fuck. Fuck! You're a shitty best friend.
"No!" You lock eyes with him. "No, no! I mean, yes, I was looking at you. But I wasn't looking in a bad, judgy way. I was, uh, taking in your physique. Because you have a... a very nice body. I've never seen you without clothes so I was looking at you. Sorry."
Yeah, you'll just go die in a hole after this.
Jason squints at you for a long moment. You start to shift in place. Sweat beads on your forehead. You lick your lips, hoping Jason can hear your honesty.
"Are you messin' with me?"
"Huh?" You shake your head. "No, why would Iâ"
"You're really telling me that you find this," Jason gestures to his body, "Good looking?"
This is worse than any physical torture. You'd prefer Batman beating you up on a roof to being here.
You rub your temple, cheeks aflame. "Oh my God. Yes, Jason, you're a good looking guy. Can we move on?"
"No, 'cause I think you're lyin', and I don't like it. You're always honest with me."
"I am being honest," you say, suddenly more annoyed than anything. Because what the fuck? "Are you kidding me? There's a whole forum dedicated to the Red Hood and how much people want you to step on them. And that's without seeing your face! I have eyes, Jason, of course I find you attractive."
And that should be the end of it. Jason's already slack-jawed like a dead fish. But no, you keep going.
"You make me nervous and I thought I had a lid on it because we knew each other as kids but it's becoming clear that I very much don't, and that probably has to do with the fact that you're the only guy I've been close to, and I never got over you. And now I'm gonna go drown myself in the Hudson. Good night."
You go to slip out the window. Maybe it'll shut on your head and knock you out. That would be a divine gift.
It doesn't, though. The universe isn't so kind. Instead, Jason catches your arm and keeps you rooted to your spot. His hand is cold. You wonder if the rest of him is warm.
"Wait, wait. Just hang on."
You groan. "Dude, I'm fucking mortified over the last five minutes. Please let me keep some of my dignity," you say without looking at him.
"Now when have I ever done that?" You can hear the smile in his voice.
And suddenly, the miserable reality of never being more than friends with Jason Todd comes crashing down. It's too late. You've always been too late.
You sag in his grip.
"We can just forget this ever happened," you say quietly. "Chalk it up to idiocy."
"Mm, yeah, we could. 'Cept I don't think you're an idiot. And I want you to hear what I have t'say first. Will ya look at me?"
Mopily, you look at him. His hand drops.
"Iâ"
"You've never slept naked," you say before he can get a word out. "That's new. Otherwise, I would've known, and then I would've used the door."
Jason rolls his eyes. "Can I speak?"
You cross your arms. "Yeah, okay."
"First of all, I don't think it's necessary for me to disclose that I sleep in the nude." You open your mouth to argue. "But I know it was a mistake. I'm not mad about that. Okay?"
You nod. "Okay."
"I won't lie and say I'm not surprised at your... reaction. I don't really... I've never... I'm not Dick or Bruce, y'know? I wasn't told my whole life what a handsome boy I am. And dying and returning didn't really help with that stuff either."
"I think you're handsome, Jason," you say quietly. "Honest."
He coughs and looks away, a tiny blush on his cheeks. "Yeah, uh, think you've made that pretty clear. For the record, I think you're really beautiful. Always thought so."
Your eyes widen. "Really?"
"Well, yeah. I mean... yeah."
"You're just saying that 'cause I saw your vein cane," you say, grinning.
"Don't call it that."
"How aboutâ"
"No."
You're both quiet.
"How 'bout pork sworâ"
"No!"
You smile, eyes squinty. Jason glares.
"Don't nickname my thing," he says.
You nod solemnly. "You're right. It's your thing. You should choose its name."
He shakes his head. "Sucha weirdo."
"Hey, I've never been with a guy. I don't know the rules of thing-naming."
Jason tilts his head. "Never?"
"Never."
"Why?"
You shrug. "Never found anyone I liked enough, I guess. I've pretty much had my heart set on you, Jason."
His face softens. "Oh."
"Yeah."
"Well, uh, me too," he says. "You're it for me, honey. I just never... I mean, really, I never thought it would actually happen with you. Not then, not now."
"Huh. You really should've flashed me earlier. We could've sped things up exponentially."
"Yeah, why didn't I think of that," Jason says dryly.
"Dunno! We all know you're more than a pretty face."
His face reddens. You grin.
"Are you shy?" you ask, dancing on your toes.
"No. Shut up."
"You're shy! I make Jason Todd shy! Oh, this is wonderful. I should break into your apartment regularly."
"It's just new for me!" he says. "Lea' me alone."
You cozy up to him, confidence renewed by the mutual confession. You wrap your arms around his neck. Jason looks at you, hands slowly coming to rest on your waist. The rest of him is warm.
"Just teasing you, Jaybee," you say.
"Hmm." He slowly nudges your cheek with his nose. "Like y'always do?"
"Like I always do," you say sweetly. "But for the record, if we ever share a bed in the future, you're gonna have to keep the soldier in his tent."
Jason lets go of you, exasperated. "Oh, forây'know what? Your visitation privileges are revoked. Get outta my apartment."
You put on the saddest face you can muster. "You're kicking me out? Into the cold?"
"It's eighty degrees."
You sigh loudly. "Okay, fine. Date tomorrow?"
"Seriously?" Jason asks, sounding genuinely surprised.
"Seriously! Why wouldn't I be serious?"
"You really wanna date me?"
"Never been more sure of anything in my life."
Jason's relief is palpable and bittersweet. You'll spend the rest of your days letting him know just how spectacular he and his pectorals are.
"Okay," he says, shy again. You don't tease him this time.
"Great!" You close the distance between you and peck him on the cheek. His blinks in surprise.
"I'll give you a proper kiss on our date," you say, winking. "Bye, Jasey-Daisy."
"Bye, honey. Don't break into anyone else's apartment on your way home."
"Never," you say, climbing out the window. "You're the only one for me, Toddy!"
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this is part two. for part one, click here!
pairing: rafe cameron x f!reader, (not au, both are early to mid 20's)
word count:Â 4.6k
summary: you wait up for rafe after he leaves you for sofia
warnings: ANGST/THEMES OF DEPRESSION. please only read if you're comfortable!, reader literally sits on her couch for 2 days, forced undressing (not sexually), no smut but they shower together, rafe is trying to be good i promise, i haven't finished s4 so if i get shit wrong about his house i'm sorry, not proofread
a note: ik i just posted part 1 yesterday but like. i had to keep cooking. let me know if you want a part three! also, i think this is my longest fic to date...
please reblog and like, it means a lot! let me know what you think!
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You wait for him all day. Like the good girl he expects you to be.
You shower and pamper yourself, trying to take the edge off, but itâs all for naught. You were going to be an anxious, stressed mess until you heard those three knocks. You sit, fully dressed in a simple crop top and miniskirt, watching TV. You donât dare move from this spot, just in case he decides to come home to you early.
The clock strikes one, and the waiting is too much for you. You're anxious, stressed, nervous; everything that you didn't want to be. The waiting feels like hours but also like seconds, the seconds ticking away painfully slow and too fast, the minutes and hours passing without your realization or intention.
You watch the TV with unseeing eyes, still sitting on the couch, fully dressed. And then it strikes two. And all you can do is wait some more. You donât know how long youâve been sitting there. Youâve already made it through a season of the show you were watching, mindlessly staring at the screen.
Sitting.Â
Waiting.
The sun starts to set, orange and pink hues streaking across your living room. You donât move from your spot, starting to grow even more anxious. The tag on your shirt is starting to irritate you, but you donât dare to move. You didnât want to miss him, didnât want to miss the knocks from your bedroom.Â
The sun completely sets, the only source of light coming from your TV. Itâs just a few minutes after 6:00pm, but the room feels dark, so much darker than any other night before. Your phone vibrates, dancing across the coffee table, but it isnât Rafe, so you donât answer it, not wanting to miss the three knocks. Your patience grows thin, and each second feels like an eternity. Waiting is never a pleasant thing. Waiting for him is even worse.
6 PM turns into 9 PM, and suddenly itâs midnight. Rafe never came home.
You continue to stay up, pinching your arm occasionally to wake you back up. You didnât want to miss him. You had a habit of being a heavy sleeper and sleeping in, and you knew that you would miss the knocks.Â
You grab your phone, scrolling through Sofiaâs Instagram with shaky hands. There was no point in checking Rafeâs, he barely posted. The little pink ring swims around Sofiaâs profile picture, and you click on her story.
The first story is from 12 hours ago, showing a plate from a fancy brunch spot on the mainland. The date he ditched you to take her on. The next story is from 10 hours ago, a shot of both of their hands holding cups of ice cream on a pier somewhere. He was wearing the gold Ouroboros ring you bought him, and it makes your heart clench. The next story is from 7 hours ago, a selfie of her looking frustratingly gorgeous in Rafeâs bedroom, the covers pulled up over her bare chest.
Did they fuck? Even after everything that happened last night?
The last story is from 3 hours ago, a selfie of them together outside a sushi restaurant, her arm around his neck while he looks off into the distance, a cigarette in his mouth. Heâs still wearing that stupid ring.
Did he forget about you?
It wouldnât be the first time.
You hope, foolishly, that he would text you, tell you heâs running late and that heâll be there soon. But he doesnât. You donât move to text him first, knowing he wonât respond anyway, especially if Sofia is next to him.
You set your phone down, feeling completely overwhelmed. The possibility of them sleeping together tonight makes you sick to your stomach, but you wouldnât put it past Rafe to do something like that. Especially after what he said yesterday.
Sheâs my girlfriend.
And you were just hisâŚwhat? His friend? His side chick? The other woman? A warm mouth and a tight hole that he sought out when he was done with Sofiaâs shit?
You drop your phone onto the floor, grabbing the pillow from under your head and pressing your face into it, trying to silence your sobs. It takes everything in you not to scream into the pillow, your body shaking with the force of your sobs. How could you be such an idiot? He never fails to make you feel so naĂŻve. You thought last night would change everything between the two of you, but it didnât.Â
All it did was remind you how worthless you were, that you were just his second best. Maybe the picture that you painted of him looks better in your mind.
You suddenly jump when your window slams shut. It blows open again before slamming once more, your curtains rippling with the wind. You get up, shuffling across the room. You shut the window, drawing the curtains closed, but not before looking out of them to see if Rafeâs car was parked outside.Â
It wasnât.
You lay back down, resting your head on your pillow, starting to stare at the screen again. You make it through a few more episodes of whatever the hell you put on before it suddenly shuts off. Even the showâs characters didnât want to be with you. Your head is pounding, your throat is dry, and your eyes are red-rimmed and swollen from your tears. Your heart aches, and your lungs sting with every breath you take.
You donât even move to turn the TV off or try to fix it. You just lay there, crying in the light of the TV static.
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The sun rises, and you donât get up at first.Â
You didnât want to move, just in case he showed up, but part of you knew deep down that he wouldnât be coming back anytime soon. You fix the TV before laying back down, staring mindlessly at the screen, trying to distract yourself. You reach down onto the floor, grabbing your phone. You check Sofiaâs Instagram again. The little pink circle around her picture taunts you. You click on it anyway, wiping the tears out of your eyes.
Joining the remaining stories from yesterday is one new post. A selfie of her with a clay facemask on, one eye closed as she blocks the sunlight with her hand, lounging beside Rafeâs new pool. Sheâs wearing a necklace with a diamond âRâ charm on it, as if sheâs personally rubbing it in your face.
You lock your phone, putting it down on the floor before sliding it away with a flick of your wrist. It doesnât go far, hitting one of the legs of your coffee table. You change the show on your TV, picking some true-crime documentary before laying your head back down.
You watch the show with distant eyes, feeling completely numb. You donât know why you keep checking her account, knowing it would just make you feel even worse. But you do it anyway, because maybe deep down you deserve it. You think about texting him, asking him if heâs coming over today. But you donât dare. You donât want to come off as a clingy whore.Â
Your phone buzzes from the floor, vibrating the coffee table, startling you. You stay on the couch, reaching across the floor with one hand and grabbing your phone. You eagerly turn it over, expecting it to be from Rafe, maybe a long apology text, or even just a simple âOn my way over.â The phone doesnât immediately light up. You hate that feature. You tap on the screen, your face immediately falling.
Itâs just an email from your electric company about your mid-cycle usage report.
You let out a sharp scream, chucking your phone against the wall. It doesnât shatter, but it bends around the sharp corner of the plaster.
The scream of frustration is cathartic, but it doesnât last long. Itâs quickly replaced by the feeling of loneliness that has become so common these past few days. But right now, it seems like a million times more unbearable. You start to cry again, burying your face back into your pillow.
The sun sets, and then it gets dark. You donât move.
You canât move. What if he comes back? What if this is the time he knocks? You canât miss them. You canât miss him. You curl yourself into a pathetic heap on the couch, hoping that heâll come back. He will. He has to. He has to know how miserable you are. He has to realize how badly heâs hurting you and actually care about it this time.Â
But each hour feels even more hopeless than the last. You stay up, wide awake, all night thinking about him. You donât hear a single knock. You donât see any headlights or cars pulling up into your driveway. Thereâs nothing but crickets in the distance and the sound of your heartbeat in your ears.
You barely pay attention to the show in front of you, staring with unfocused eyes at the screen. The sun starts to rise, casting a soft pink hue onto your living room. Youâve been sitting on your couch for two days, waiting for a man who probably doesnât want you. Two days. Two days of sitting here, hoping, praying that he would come back. Two days of sitting here like a fool, waiting for a man whoâs with someone else.
Yet you canât seem to find the motivation to get up. You canât. Just in case, this time, he shows up.
Your head throbs, your heartbeat pounding in your ears. You shut your eyes, burying your face in your pillow. You wish you were laying your head on his chest instead. Your thoughts are too loud, too consuming, too overwhelming. Itâs hard to think clearly, to sort things out in your head. Youâre so exhausted, mentally and physically, that you start to doze off.
You fall asleep, face buried in your mascara stained pillow.
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Your eyes suddenly shoot open when you feel your shoulder being shaken and a hand on your face.
âHey, sweetheart. Wake up, Iâm here.â Rafeâs voice is like music to your ears. Soft, low, deep. You feel his large hand against your cheek, his thumb gently stroking your skin as he tries to gently coax you awake. Heâs here. After two long days of no food, no shower, no company except your own miserable thoughts, heâs here.
âRafe?â You ask, head and body aching from two days of laying completely still on your uncomfortable Ikea couch.
âYeah, baby. Iâm here.â Rafe says, his voice soft and gentle. His fingers trail along your cheek, his hand so big against your face. He tries to hide it, but you can see the slight grimace on his face as he takes you in. âAre you okay? I tried calling you this morning, but you didnât answer.â
You glance around, trying to take in your surroundings. You finally fell asleep, and judging by the slowly setting sun, you slept for a while. âMy phone, I umâŚâ You gesture to the smashed phone laying across the room.
Rafe sighs, his brow furrowing as he glances over to your smashed phone. âIâll buy you a new one.â He says, looking back at you. His expression falls, and his eyes narrow. âHow long have you been sitting here?â
âTwo days.â You say, sitting up. Youâre still in the same crop top and miniskirt, your hair starting to feel greasy and itchy.
âJesus, baby.â Rafe exhales, shaking his head. âHave you eaten anything?â He asks, brushing your messy hair out of your face gently.
âI was waiting for you.â You say, completely ignoring his question. âYou said you would come back. I was waiting for you.â You look up at him, feeling completely and utterly pathetic.
His eyes soften, his hand moving to cup your face in his palm. âI know. And I came back, like I promised.â He says soothingly, his thumb stroking your cheek gently. âBaby, you look terrible.â
âNo, you promised me two days ago that you would come back.â You say, your voice growing thick as you start to cry again. âYou said after your brunch date with Sofia that you would come back.â
Rafe opens his mouth to speak, only to close it again. He doesnât say anything for a while, as if trying to come up with something to say. His expression shifts slightly, from sympathetic to something else, something almost akin to guilt. He sighs, finally speaking, âIâm sorry. I know. I didnât realize how late it was until it was too late to swing by here.â
âSo you left me hanging for an extra day?â You ask, reaching up to wipe away a stray tear.
âIâm sorry, alright?â He says, still gentle, but a hint of irritation is there. âI know I said Iâd-⌠I said Iâd come back, but I lost track of time, baby. I had to hang out with her for a while to keep up appearances.â
âOh, fuck you and your appearances!â You say, standing up. You lose balance, reaching down with one hand to balance yourself on the arm of the couch. âJust admit that you didnât want to see me.â
Rafe reaches out to steady you on your feet, frowning. âThatâs not-⌠I did want to see you.â He says, his voice growing sterner, more irritated. âBut I had other obligations. I had to keep up appearances. I told you that.â
âDonât expect me to believe that bullshit, Rafe.â You say. You try to pull away from him, but he tightens his grip on your arm. âYou can just dump me, you know.â
âYeah? So can you.â He snaps back, his grip on your arm tightening even more.
Your face and eyes twitch slightly, your chest aching. You feel so stupid. Your breathing starts to escalate, coming out of your nose in short puffs. âLet go of me.â
âNo.â He says, his voice hard, stern. He still grips your arm tightly, not wanting to let you go. He knows you well enough to understand that you would storm off, maybe even lock yourself in your bedroom. Both of Rafeâs hands move to your hips, pulling you closer. âSweetheart, look at me.â
âNo!â You shout, trying to pull away. You twist around, reaching down and trying to tug his hands apart. âYou canât do this to me!â
âBaby, look at me! I said, look at me!â Rafe raises his voice, finally using his strength against you, pinning you against his chest with his arms around your waist. Heâs got you pressed flush against him now, one hand grabbing your chin and forcing you to face him, your neck craning. âLook at me when Iâm talking to you, sweetheart.â
You squirm and wiggle, starting to cry. âYou canât treat me like this!â
His grip tightens, his jaw tensing as he grips your chin and face roughly. It almost feels like heâs manhandling you, forcing you to stay in place as he glares at you. His blue eyes have a hard edge to them. âI will treat you anyway I damn well please, sweetheart. Youâre in no place to make demands or tell me what I can and canât do. I said, look at me.â
You finally meet his gaze. You just sit in his grasp, sniffling as more and more tears threaten to fall. Your bottom lip trembles, and you wonder if you look as pathetic as you feel.
Rafe sighs, his expression growing soft. He loosens his grip on your face, his thumb caresses your cheek. He takes a deep breath, counting to four. âCome on, sweet girl. Letâs get you cleaned up.â In one swift motion, he picks you up, tossing you over his shoulder as he makes his way towards your bathroom.
âNo! Let go of me!â You whine, pounding your fists against his back.
âQuit it.â He snaps, reaching behind his back and grabbing both of your wrists, yanking your hands away from him as best he can. âI swear to god, sweetheart, I will spank you if you donât stop punching me in the back.â He pushes open the bathroom door, setting you down on the edge of the bathtub, your wrists still in his grip. He turns on the shower, waiting for the water to warm up before turning to you with a sigh. âTake off your clothes, sweetheart.â
âNo.â You whine, trying to tug your wrists away.
He scoffs, exasperated. ��Iâm tired of having to repeat myself to you, baby. Youâre gonna take a goddamn shower even if I have to force you to, so drop that attitude real quick, or Iâll strip you myself.â He leans in closer, his eyes darkening, his jaw clenching again. âYou wanna be bratty and defiant with me? I can get real bratty with you right back, sweetheart. Real bratty.â
Your eyes water and your bottom lip trembles. Rafe sighs, taking another deep breath. He had to be nicer to you. âYou gotta shower, baby, come on.â He grabs the bottom of your crop top gently, thumb rubbing along the hem.
You sniffle, wiping your cheeks. When your scalp starts to itch, and you catch a glimpse of yourself in the mirror, mascara smeared, you realise heâs right. You raise your arms up.
âGood girl.â He says, sounding relieved. He reaches behind you to grab the bottom of your shirt, slowly pulling it up over your head. He can see how exhausted you are, how awful you look and how horrible you must feel. He gently drops your shirt on the floor, gently running a hand through your hair with a sigh. He reaches behind you and grabs the waist strap of your skirt. âLift your hips for me, sweetheart.â
You obey, lifting your hips.
Rafe slides the skirt off your hips and down your thighs, setting it on top of your shirt on the floor. He then grabs the waistband of your panties, kissing your hipbones as he tugs them off of your legs and adds them to the pile of discarded clothing. He then reaches forward, gently running his fingers through your hair. âYouâre so pretty, baby.â He says, his voice quiet.
âThank you.â You whisper.
He can tell that youâre still upset with him, and while heâs annoyed by it, he tries to maintain his composure, trying to be patient with you. He steps back, pulling his shirt over his head and tossing it aside before undoing his jeans. âCome on, pretty girl. Get in the shower while I undress.â
You nod, standing up on shaky legs and stepping into the shower. Your muscles instantly relax under the water as you step in, back facing the water.
Rafe watches you for a moment, his gaze lingering on your body before you shut the curtain. He quickly discards the rest of his clothes. Slowly, deliberately, he steps into the shower behind you, not wanting to startle you. He reaches over and moves you a little to the side, giving him room under the water to stand with you. He gently spins you around so your back is facing him, the water hitting your chest. He glances around the built-in ledges of your shower. âWhereâs your stuff?âÂ
You point to the metal shelves you stuck onto the wall, full of expensive products, all gifts from Rafe.
He glances over at the shelf, noticing how neat and precise everything is. Rafe laughs as he grabs your shampoo. âGod, you always gotta have everything organized.â He teases, pulling you against his chest with an arm wrapped around your torso, his strong hand pressed against your stomach. He kisses your shoulder before lifting your hair away from your neck to kiss there, his chest and abdomen pressed flush against your back.Â
He pours a fair amount of the shampoo into his hand, setting the bottle down. He hasnât had to actually wash his hair in so long, he forgot what a normal amount of shampoo looks like. He rubs his hands together, lathering it up before starting to gently massage into your scalp. âKeep your head tilted back so you donât get anything in your eyes.â
You tilt your head back, reaching back and putting your hands on his ribs to keep steady.
He hums in approval as his fingers work, rubbing and massaging your scalp. His body is relaxed against your naked curves, his fingers now working through your hair slowly, ensuring itâs completely lathered before he moves onto the conditioner. He keeps the conditioner in your hair while he washes your body. You reach up and grab your face wash yourself, squirting some into your hands before thoroughly washing your face, trying to get the two-day-old mascara off. Rafe keeps his arm wrapped around your upper body so you can keep leaning against him.
After rinsing yourself clean, he turns the water off, pushing the shower curtain open. He grabs a towel for himself off of the hook by the shower, stepping out. âCâmere, baby.â He says quietly.
You step out, watching as he wraps the towel tight around his waist. He grabs another from your linen closet, holding it open for you. âArms up, sweetheart.â He says, waiting for you to obey, and you do, lifting your arms.Â
Rafe quickly wraps the towel around you, gently rubbing your body to dry you off. He then pulls you close, hugging you. One hand holds the back of your head, the other resting on the small of your back. Heâs been craving the feel of your bare skin for the past two days, and it was nice to finally feel it again. âIâm sorry.â He says, quietly, sincerely. His lips graze your forehead.
âWhy couldnât you have just texted me?â You ask.
Rafe pauses, sighing. He was worried this would come up at some point. He tries to choose his words wisely, so he wonât start a fight so soon after the initial one. âBecause⌠IâŚsweetheart, I was trying to keep a low profile with her.â His voice is just above a whisper. âTexting you would have let her know there was something going on.â
You shake your head. âYou couldâve texted me and then immediately deleted the conversation. She wouldnât have noticed.â
âI thought of that,â He starts, his brow furrowing. âBut the thing isâŚshe looks at my phone sometimes. So I just didnât want to risk it, alright?â
You look away as he starts to dry your hair with the towel. âI wish things were different. I wish you could change.â
âThatâs not fair, baby.â He says, his voice holding a hint of warning. Heâs annoyed with you again, but he tries not to lash out this time, especially when taking into account how much he missed you. âYou act like I donât want things to be different.â He runs the towel over your head, gently squeezing your hair to wring out the excess water. âDo you even have enough respect to see me try?â
Your breath hitches. You watch him as he finishes with your hair, wrapping the towel around your chest.Â
âI love you, Rafe.â The words tumble out of your mouth before you realise you even said them. âOf course I have respect for you. Of course I want you to try.â
Rafe pauses, his shoulders relaxing as his expression softens. He smiles at you, his eyes looking into yours. He grabs your hips, his thumbs rubbing along the soft skin there. He sighs, closing his eyes. âThen donât act like Iâm evil when I do try.â His voice is quiet, soft. âI mean it. Stop acting like Iâm a complete ass to you, sweetheart, because I have been fucking trying.â
He didnât say he loved you. You donât care how crazy and clingy you sound at this point, you have to know. âDo you love me too?â
Rafe opens his eyes, his expression growing serious all of a sudden. He pauses for a moment, searching the gaze of your eyes. His hands on your hips move to your lower back, wrapping around you and pulling you close against his chest. His chest is warm against your bare breasts, his body firm and strong. âBaby, thatâs a stupid question.â
âYou didnât answer it.â At least just lie and say yes. Please just say that you love me more.
He sighs, his grip on you growing tighter. One of his hands moves up to the back of your neck, holding you in place. He lifts your chin up with a single finger, looking into your eyes. âLoves never meant much to me, sweetheart. I mean⌠Ward told me that he loved me, and you know exactly what he did.â Rafe brushes his thumb across your cheek. âButâŚyes, I do love you. Youâre the only one I truly love.â
âPromise?â You ask, your voice quiet.
Rafe holds that strong eye contact for a few more seconds before his face softens more, his gaze softening in his eyes. âI promise, sweetheart. I swear on my life. I donât love anyone else as much as I love you.â His other hand runs up and down your sides, fingers spreading across your skin.
âNot even Sofia?â You ask.
âEspecially not her.â He says, pulling you even closer against his chest. Heâs growing agitated again. âI told you this before. Everything with her is fake, completely fake. Iâm with her for appearances. All she is, is a pretty face.â
You want to believe him, so you do. You lay your head on his chest, wrapping your arms around his torso.
Rafe sighs, relieved that you seem to finally understand. He rubs your back, one hand wrapping around your neck to keep you held against him. He kisses the top of your head, resting his chin on top like before. âDonât ask me that question again, sweetheart.â He says, his voice gentle, yet stern. âYou know I only love you, thereâs no need for you to ask such dumb questions.â
You nod. âCan you stay tonight?â
He sighs, nodding. âYeah. I can stay tonight.â He takes your chin in his hand again, tilting your face up to look at him. âCan you promise me something, though?â
You take a deep breath. âAnything.â
His brow furrows again, his thumb rubbing along your jawline. âDonât ever doubt my love for you, alright? I canât deal with that self-loathing bullshit you pull sometimes, sweetheart, you got that?â
Your eyebrows furrow slightly. You werenât expecting that. But at this point, youâre so desperate to lay down with him that youâll do anything he wants. âI promise, Rafe.â
He smiles, kissing your forehead. âGood girl.â He says, his voice gentler. âNow, letâs get you into bed, hm?â You nod, wrapping your arms around his neck and your legs around his waist as he carries you to bed. He lays down next to you, tucking you in before handing you his phone. âPick out what new phone you want.â When you look confused, he sighs. âI told you I would buy you a new one because you destroyed yours.â
Oh, yeah. This has been the longest two days of your entire life, and you werenât even sure if any of that actually happened.
Rafe unlocks his phone before handing it to you, picking something to watch from the small TV on your dresser. You scroll through his pages of unorganised apps, before finally finding Google, typing in the newest iPhone model. You buy yourself a new phone in your favourite colour, all on Rafeâs dime. Youâre tempted to text Sofia pretending to be Rafe and tell her itâs over, and to leave you alone, but you donât. Rafe loved you, and Rafe wanted you. He could dump her himself.
You lock his phone, handing it back to him. He sets it on your bedside table, wrapping his arm around your shoulder and pulling you close.
If itâs meant to be, then it will be.
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wonder why iâm bitter | julie han
âŤâ・⪠âË⏠ďž. casual â chappell roan
synopsis : friends donât act like this, you would know that better than anyone else.
pairing : non-idol!julie x fem!reader
genre : smut, angst, smutty angst, if you will! heavy on the angst though sorry.
tags : they were roommates,,, making out, marking, implied possessiveness, implied jealousy, anal rimming (heyyy), strap-on sex, vaginal penetration, cunnilingus, julie is bent ova, and YESS WHO SAID BACKSHOTS, arguing, topsub!femreader, bottomdom!julie, frequent mentions of sexuality, praise kink, cheating?? could you call this cheating,, one singular l-bomb,,, yikesss
warnings : none..? i guess apart from the obvious content warnings here (angst and smut) thereâs some underlying internal homophobia themes?? but i donât think itâs that bad tbh IDK BE WARNED JUST IN CASE
word count : 3,1k
a/n : haiii!! iâm finally posting this draft OUHH it went through so many changes, like for example THE TITLEE?? i was gonna make the title be a lyric to âgoodluck, babe!â by chappell roan since i originally based the fic on that but i ended up listening to casual instead and went woaahh,, this fits so much more what the hell?!? but yeahh i think iâm happy with how it turned out! :â) i hope you guys can say the sameedckem
ALSO! first time writing anything involving anal,, while yes i do talk about it often (ahem we all know,,) i was incredibly nervous in the process and this definitely made me step out of my comfort zone, hope it isnât too apparent in this ;; but yeah, to stop rambling, thank you for reading!! i hope you like itt! :]]
âsoâŚâ julieâs friend makes a motion between the two of you with a raised eyebrow, wearing a curious smile. âwhat exactly are you two?â they ask. you thought about it for a few moments, theoretically, you two are roommates, friends at most. but, if anything, youâre more like a couple behind closed doors.Â
you shrug, thinking nothing of it, âi guess weâre kind of likeââ
âweâre just friends.â she places, wearing a polite smile at the familiar in front of her before you could even think about the rest of your sentence. when you turn to look at her, sheâs avoiding your gaze, already familiar with the type of expression youâre wearing.Â
itâs the face you always make when she pushes you away like this.
turning back to her friend, you nod slightly, âyeah. weâre friends.â trying your hardest not to let your dejection show through your smile.Â
maybe itâs all just in your imagination, perhaps you guys were never even close to being a âthingâ and you were the one who thought too much into it. but alas; no matter from which angle you looked at it, the way she displayed any ounce of affection towards you would always make you overthink what you two were exactly. anything sheâd do in the comfort of your own apartment with you was never close to anything sheâd do in public, in front of the eyes of everyone walking by. she always acts like she barely knows you whenever she is surrounded by people, whether she knows them or not.
you think about it often.
you think about her often.
you asked yourself, do you even like her like that? well, sheâs pretty chill, smart, witty and funny. sheâs also beautiful, and one hell of a tease, that much is obvious, youâve had sex with her numerous times in the past, so sexual attraction is out of the question; you already knew the answer to that. the better question probably was; does she even like you like that?
âyou done with them?â says julie, referring to the pile of kitchenware you guys left from last night on the counter as she hugs you from behind and rests her head on your shoulder, her arms wrapping all around your waist and watching you. you, on the other hand, were taken by surprise by the sudden display of affection, so much so that you lost your original train of thought. as much as you knew that she liked physical touch, it always did surprise you whenever you randomly felt her skin come in contact with yours throughout the day. getting quickly accustomed to the feeling of her lips kissing your shoulder, you hummed in response, washing and scrubbing the plate with the soaped-up sponge you were holding.
âalmost.âÂ
she whines in an exaggerated manner, âhurry uppp..â lightly tapping on your stomach and resting her head on your shoulder, before adding, âi miss you.â
you giggle, putting away the plate you were now done washing, quickly grabbing another dirty one, âiâm right here, though?â
âno like,â she left another kiss on your shoulder, âi miss you.âÂ
you smirked, getting progressively more and more amused by the girlâs foreign, yet familiar behavior towards you, feeling her embrace you even tighter.
âoh yeah? well in that case, i miss you too, julie.â
you knew exactly what the girl in question meant by âi miss youâ and you wouldâve teased her further if it werenât for how impatient she was getting, despite how cute it was. her heavily annoyed sighs giving it away, despite those also being sprinkled with a tiny bit of humor.Â
âcome onn, donât play dumb with me, smartass.â
so, you pushed the oblivious act aside and obliged, setting the plate down before facing her.
your lips danced in sync with hers as you carried her to your bed. once you got there, you gently sat her down on the edge of the mattress, lips still intertwined whilst her hands glided along the curves of your body, tracing circles with the tip of her index finger on your soft skin.Â
you didnât waste any time in laying her down moments later,, your mouth now eagerly roaming her neck and collarbone and leaving kisses down along her body, successfully marking it up. listening to her quiet hums, you proceeded to slide down her sweatpants, your hands tugging on the waistband.
now left in only her panties, you allowed your fingers to glide over the damp spot in between her legs, teasing the clothed entrance and taking in all of her reactions all at once.Â
looking at you through the light brown hair that fell perfectly on her face with hooded eyes and slightly upturned eyebrows, she whispered in a low, husky and raspy tone, âsee, baby? see how wet i am for you?â
now, julie had this certain ability to turn even the most confident person alive on this earth into a nervous wreck.
you were, obviously, no exception from her spells. if anything, you, y/n, were a prime example.
you slowly nodded at her words, entranced, feeling yourself fall more and more at her mercy with each second that passed. that earned a smirk from her, putting her hand atop yours, before continuing, âyouâre gonna be good and do something about it, right?âÂ
you nodded once again, this time more eager.Â
âwords, darling.â she whispered.
âyes,â you muttered in response, a mix of nervousness and eagerness taking over all five of your senses, âo-of course i will.â
she hummed, perfectly content with your adorable answer, before pulling you back into a hungry kiss for another long, pleasant while. that is, until she added something else between kisses, something that made you shudder.
âget the strap.âÂ
immediately reaching for the drawer next to your bed upon hearing those words, lips still connected to hers, you obeyed and pulled the cabinet open, quickly pulling out the phallic silicone object residing in it as well as the harness, too impatient to feel even embarrassed about the sudden action.Â
it didnât take long before the harness was tight around your hips, the brunette bent over in front of you at the edge of the bed with her panties pulled down to her thighs. you ravished in the sight; her perfect pink pussy sitting before you, slick and wet with desire, begging for you to finally please it properly, practically throbbing in anticipation. who were you to deny her of such pleasure?Â
you traced your index finger along her slit, your digit comfortably nestled in between her slippery folds as it slowly teased the entrance.Â
rewarded by the sweet sounds coming out of her, you wasted no more time and slowly leaned into her core, giving a long swipe of the tongue to her pussy.
âohh shitt..â overhearing her moans, you smiled against her as you were now making out with her swollen cunt, intending to taste every drop of her slick, not wasting a single one. your lips circled around her bundle of nerves, giving it small and gentle sucks whilst one of your hands massaged her ass.
subconsciously, julieâs back arched with each movement that your tongue made inside her, her head hung low on the bed as she whimpered filthy praises, her sounds just slightly muffled from the white bedsheet she had over her mouth.Â
you heard them, though.Â
thank god you heard them.
after a long while of giving more than endless attention to her pussy, you felt your mouth move upwards by itself, driven by the pure desire to make her feel even better than she already was.Â
your tongue quickly made its way to her ass, roaming and dancing around her rim, which immediately earned a sharp gasp from her part. youâve never made it a habit to eat julieâs ass, but whenever you did? it was always enough to cloud your brain with pure, raw want, and it always seemed to catch her pleasantly off-guard, since youâd always do it without any warning.Â
you attempted to relax her again by tracing slow circles around her hole with your muscle, before inserting it fully, which you could only assume worked, since you could hear her whines get longer and louder. âfuckk yes baby..â she shamelessly moaned, this time more audibly due to her raising her head up and looking back at you as best as she possibly could, âthatâs it, such a sweet girl for meâ ah..âÂ
using one of your hands, you made sure to thoroughly stimulate her clit, rubbing circles around it and even going as far as to inserting two fingers inside her dripping cunt with your other hand in the process, all whilst the muscle in your mouth flicked way within her, drilling and wriggling as you hummed against her.Â
after what felt like hours of you messily rimming her, hours of her pushing herself further onto your mouth, practically fucking herself on you, you figured it was finally time to give her whatâd she been wanting ever since she came up behind you in the kitchen.
pulling your fingers out and standing back up, you lined up your strap-on to her aching core, pressing the head against it before slowly inserting its entire length inside of her.Â
she let out a groan at the feeling of being penetrated, which progressively turned into longer and more suggestive sounds. it all sounded like music to your ears, it only made you want to please her more.
you reached for her hand, grabbing it upon contact. she squeezed yours with just as much force in return, pleasure visibly taking over her senses. it didnât take long for you to be full on thrusting into her, either, feeling her walls clench around your fake cock as she babbled praises.Â
it was a small gesture, sure, but it made you feel things you werenât quite certain on how to label.
âsuch a good girl for meââ was what she let out, a loud moan escaping her agape mouth whilst you continued pounding her, faster with each second that passed. âf-fuck y/n i love youââ
you saw her lose herself under you, you watched in⌠admiration? infatuation? whatever it was, you thought she looked mesmerizing, especially with how her brown long hair fell all over the place, how perfect she sounded, how perfect she looked.
how perfect she was.
the words âi love youâ resonated in your head.Â
âwhoâs eric?â you ask her, having thrown glances at her phone that was charging on the kitchen counter whilst washing a plate, the singular one you had left untouched due to being⌠distracted.Â
you finished washing it, then turned around, now met with a surprised julie, clothed in a pair of booty shorts and a white tank top, she was fresh out of the shower, towel drying her hair. that is, until she unexpectedly heard you speak that name, her eyes immediately darting between you and the phone, greeted by that manâs contact name and picture on the latter, an incoming phone call from his part.Â
âa guy?â she says back, in her usual sarcastic yet gentle and quiet tone, âthought that was obvious enoughââ
jealousy and inexplicable possessiveness flooded your senses; you knew most of her friends, but, you had no idea who this âericâ dude was, and that especially ate at you. why was he calling her, on a random weekday at like, 4 pm? you had checked the clock hanging on the wall to confirm the time.
âwell yeah but, i donât think i know an eric.â you stated, wary of what the girl before you was gonna say, âwho is he?â
ââŚi just told you, some dude. i met him on campus and we just exchanged contacts after he complimented me, a while ago.â she replied, slight annoyance cracking through the facade of the joking expression she wore. she ran her dominant hand through her messy and wet hair, causing it to fall back perfectly on the side of her face and her exposed shoulders.Â
she added, âsure, he makes it very clear he wants to hook up with me, but thatâs all itâll ever be i think, heâs not the type of guy youâd wanna date seriously. why do you askââÂ
âno reason.â you cut her off, cold and dry.
she furrowed her eyebrows, the previous annoyance being more and more apparent, this time only paired with confusion. ââŚwhat?âÂ
âso this is completely normal for you? like, you guys hook up and call each other sometimes and youâre just casually telling me about it? what, does he take you out on dates too?âÂ
âwhat are you, my girlfriend or something?â she scoffed, bitter and defensive, gently throwing the towel on the couch in close proximity to her, âand what if he does, whyâs it such a big deal to you?âÂ
why is it such a big deal to me?
why is it such a big deal to me?
and before you know it, youâre quickly matching her tone. âi simply donât understand how you could tell me something so casually, especially right after weââ
âlisten, letâs get this straight.â she says to you, âi know that just because you and i fuck sometimes youâre convinced that itâs gotta mean something, that weâre something, but we arenât. it doesnât fucking mean shit to either of us and you know that very well. itâs all in good fun; i donât belong to you, y/n, and i never will.âÂ
âitâs not about that?â you walked closer to her as you justified, trying to get your point across, âiâm not saying that you belong to me julie iâm just trying to say thatââ
her stare pierces right through you as she cuts you off, and you couldâve sworn you noticed her eyes being glossy. her eyebrows furrowed in anger at you, she added on, âwho i date isnât your business. weâre just friends, and thatâs all weâll ever be, end of discussion. donât try to turn our friendship into something it isnât.âÂ
friends?
âso now iâm the crazy one for not liking the fact that youâre talking to that dude?â you eventually yelled back. you didnât even notice her grabbing her things as you talked, ready to head out, despite her hair still being wet from the recent shower. you, however, noticed how she took her still ringing phone and put on her favorite puffy jacket, her soft handâs acrylic nails digging and clutching onto the mentioned cellular device as you rambled on and on, irritated beyond comprehension.Â
âweâre not fucking dating y/n, itâs all casual, i.. iâm not even into girls like thatââ she asserted herself, trying her absolute hardest to sound as convincing as possible. you heard it, though, you heard that little twinge of doubt and guilt in her voice. itâs almost like she, herself, didnât believe whatever nonsense was coming out of her mouth.Â
how funny was it to watch her say that all whilst having the fresh hickeys you left on her neck and collarbone not even a few hours ago?
perhaps eric will notice them, too.
perhaps with that, heâll realize how good you treat her, how heâll never be able to do it like you do.
how heâll never be able to make her feel as good as you do.
âsure, you arenât.â you scoffed at her words, before proceeding to add on, âsince you swear you arenât, how about you stop acting like you are? you know, instead of giving me shit for getting upset.âÂ
âsorry?ââ she laughed bitterly, those words cut deep.
let me talk, you thought, let me place a damn word.
you continued, âno, seriously! you always do this julie, you always make me feel like iâm fucking insane for seeing it the way it is, for the way i see us. youâre convinced that thereâs nothing between us, that weâre just friends, yet friends donât randomly kiss me throughout the day for whatever reason, do they? they donât fuck me and tell me that they love me in the process, do they?â as you spoke, she avoided your gaze and walked right past you, heading straight for the front door.
thatâs when you recalled a certain moment, âsure, why not, letâs say, for your sake, that completely normal friends do fuck sometimes; they donât buy you stupid lovey-dovey bullshit on valentineâs day and drive you to the middle of nowhere to stargaze, they do not take you out at night and take every opportunity to kiss you in public whenever nobodyâs looking, they donât fucking say they love you while youâre deep inside themâ i mean for fuckâs sake julie do you hear yourself??â
she stopped in her tracks in front of the door, her hand resting on the doorknob. she hates it when you read her like a book, she hates it when you call her out on being the way she acts with you, she hates it when you stare at her like thatâ she fucking hates you. she fucking hates you for making her feel the way she does, for making her question everything about herself, she hates herself for thinking about you whenever sheâs with himâ
she let out a noise, something in between a sob and a laugh, before looking back at you with tear-filled eyes, she stared at you, up and down. her eyebrows twitching slightly, she then set her eyes on the ground and bit her lip in what seems to be frustration, frustration aimed both at you and herself.
âif i knew it was gonna be like this, i wouldâve never done anything with you to begin with.â her voice was shaky.
you watched her figure as she turned the doorknob and slammed the door on you, with a loud clack. just like that, the apartment was empty, silent and once again, peaceful.
sheâd be back, of course, whether she decides to sleep somewhere else and come back the next day or sneak back in here in the middle of the night on this same day, she always comes back after a fight. still, despite knowing that, you couldnât help but feel like drowning in your own guilt, as this argument wasnât like any other other. her pained expression still vivid in your memory and terrorizing you, you were afraid that you might never see her again after that.
that was pure dramatization, however.
the only thing that occupied the deafening silence of the room was the muffled sound of julie sniffling and being on the phone with who you assumed to be that boy, already planning to meet up. then, you couldâve sworn you heard the name âeric?â being pronounced as it progressively faded in the distance as she walked away, basically confirming your theory.Â
thatâs all that filled your house and your clouded mind.
that, and the sound of your pathetic sobbing.
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IMPERFECT FOR YOU (18+)
you, doing a friend a favor, have to tutor miya osamu. but instead of learning about chemistry, heâs more interested in learning about you.
WC: 5.8k (send an ambulance)
WARNINGS: explicit drug (marijuana) usage, dubcon (sex under the influence), mentions of female anatomy and female identifying reader, use of âbabyâ as petname, this is severely under-edited iâm so sorry
TAGS: frat/popular!osamu x nerdy/unpopular!reader, f!reader, porn with (some) plot, college au, post-timeskip, smut, hair-pulling, cunnilingus, petnames, reader has anxiety somebody pls give her a hug, if you get a magnifying glass osamu has a corruption kink
NOTE: i needed a palate cleanser so i can get back into writing so thus this was born. i intend to make this a mini-series (maybe?) or maybe just blurbs/headcanon series, who knows! let me know what you guys want <3
âAbsolutely not.â
âCâmon,â Your friend whines, folding her hands together in mock begging, giving you the best puppy eyes she could muster even throwing in a quivering lip for her dramatic performance. âHeâs a perfectly nice guy!â
âSo what youâre telling me, this guyââ You begin, dumping a sugar packet into your coffee.
âWho Iâm tutoring.â
âRight. The guy you tutor, who never comes to classââ
You stir your coffee. She nervously chuckles.
âWho is on the verge of failingââ
You stab your straw into the cup. She lets out a tense âmhmâ.
âAnd needs to pass this final to avoid being on academic probationââ
You raise the straw to your mouth. She nervously fiddles with her fingers.
â... Needs to be tutored by me instead?â
You take a sip of your coffee as your friend shrinks into the booth seat.Â
âWell, you didnât have to put it like that,â she grumbles through a slurp of her drink.
You should have known that when your best friend offered to take you out to your favorite cafe, on her, she was up to something. And you knew that when she bought you your favorite muffin, she was going to be asking you something ridiculous. The last time you were offered a free muffin, you ended up having to pretend to her parents that you were dying in the emergency room so that she could sneak out to her hookupâs place.Â
The plan almost worked until they came to visit you out of concern, only to find you both not there. She was grounded for another two months.
You turn to her.
âAnd why canât you do it?â Your friend was supposed to be the one tutoring him, so you were confused about why it suddenly had to be you instead.
âBecause,â She grumbles as if it were obvious. âIâm already busy trying to pass my own exams, that stupid research paper for Professor Takeda is driving me crazy, babysitting my piece of shit brotherââ
Translation: Iâm in over my head.
âBesides, everyone knows youâre a genius and youâll pass no matter what, so why not take on a charity case in your free time, huh?âÂ
She grins at you, not bothering to hide her obvious attempt at fluffing your ego to convince you.
âDoes this guy even have a shot at passing?â You sigh, taking a sip of your latte. âI mean, if he doesnât bother to come to class, how much effort do you think heâs gonna putââ
âHeâs a smart guy, trust me! Itâs just⌠yâknow how college is.â
Right, heâs a college guy. He was probably knee-deep in parties instead of his textbooks.
âWhyâs it on you to let this guy pass? I mean, itâs not your problemââ
âWell, his brother sorta said if Iâd help him, Iâd be invited to all the frat parties on campus this semesterâŚâ There it is.
She trails off but still stares at you with pleading eyes, and you notice her sliding her muffin towards you.
âYouâre not gonna let up on this, are you?â You ask as you inspect the blueberry-crusted pastry now on your plate.Â
âNope,â she replies, popping the âpâ and grinning with her coffee straw dangling in her mouth. âDoes it help that heâs super cute?â
You sigh again and pinch your nose bridge. She takes your lack of response as a victory.
âGreat! I already told him that youâd come by tonight. Iâll send you his address and phone numberââ
âYou told him I was coming before you even knew Iâd agree?!â
âWell, what else were you gonna do tonight? And donât tell me youâre gonna watch that shitty soap opera again.â
Again, you donât have an answer. Maybe because sheâs already said it for you. But itâs not shitty! Itâs romantic, moving, thrillingâ okay, yeah, youâre starting to hear yourself. Maybe you shouldnât stay in tonight.
âFine, where does he live?â
âYou have to be fucking kidding me.â
At no point did your friend mention to you that the address she was sending you to would be a frat house.
You thought it was odd that the address was in the dead center of campusâ but you figured that whoever you were tutoring happened to get an apartment with a great location. It shouldâve been obvious to you that this area would be Greek life housing when you realize all the houses on the block were way too nice to be afforded by a typical college student. You have never stepped foot on this end of campus. Well, you hadnât, until now.
You shouldâve stayed home, nose-deep in the romance novel weighing down in your bag. But now, youâre standing on the front porch of one of the most popular fratâs on campus.
âIâm gonna kill you,â you sneer into the phone pressed to your ear.
âQuit your yapping! Itâs not like thereâs a party going on or something.â You could practically see your friend rolling her eyes through the phone.
You anxiously dart your eyes throughout the house exterior. Itâs massive, obviously well-funded based on how nearly every window seems to be polished, and definitely better than the shitty dorm you lived in a few blocks away. You couldnât help but dread imagining how many frat brothers lived inside.
âIâm gonna leaveââ
âHey brat, put that down!â She screeches to presumably her younger brother on the other end of the line. âUgh, gotta go. Have fun!â
âWait!--â
She already ends the call before you can say anything else, and you fume at her contact information staring back at you. Seriously, if somebody axe-murdered you here, youâd make sure to haunt your friend for the rest of her life.
You weigh your decisionsâ a part of you wants to bolt back to your dorm, imagining the comfortable blanket and pillow resting on your bed practically awaiting your return, or you could not chicken out and actually fulfill the promise you made to your friend.
Damnit, you knew you had to pick the latter. Youâd feel really shitty if you didnât.
Besides, youâd never hear the end of it if you ran out with your tail between your legs.
You ready yourself to knock on the door, admittedly through a few deep breaths first, and as your fist is about to meet the wood of the door, it swings open from the inside. Had you been a second quicker, you probably would have tapped your tutee in the face.
Except, now that youâre looking at him, heâs quite tall. It would be more at his chest than anything. His broad chest was covered in a tight black shirt, with strong shoulders⌠In fact, you couldnât even see his face if you were simply staring forward.Â
âYa the tutor?â He states simply, breaking your train of thought.
You look at him to notice that thereâs a face attached to the chest you were staring at. You look up, and dammit, your friend was right. He was super cute.
His hair is dark, with heavy gray eyesâ bored and lazily staring at you, dumbfounded on his doorstep Thereâs a series of tattoos snaking beneath his shirt and piercings you couldnât even begin to countâ you nearly forget that you have to respond.
âUhmâ yeah, thatâs me,â you reply, trying to regain your mental footing. âYouâre Osamu, right?âÂ
âMhm, come on in,â he says, sticking his hands into loose gray sweatpantsâŚ. You should really stop staring. Or at least pretend you have a semblance of class.
You step inside and slip off your shoes as you briefly inspect your surroundings. The frat house is above all else, what you expected. Minus for the fact it actually seemed clean despite the typical frat stereotypes you heardâ though, youâre sure their cushy funding got them cleaning services. Thereâs no way a bunch of college guys living together could keep a big house like this clean without some help.
However, that makes you take note that there is a lack of frat brothers in the frat house.
âAre ya just gonna stand there and stare or come inside?â Osamu remarks and your spine grows twice as stiff. You nod quickly and follow him inside and he leads you to what seems like a living room areaâ some couches and chairs around a TV and coffee table.
Osamu gestures for you to sit and you cautiously sit down, as if the couch had a trap door, leading you to fall into whatever scary basement sat beneath the house.
âWhereâsââ You clear your throat, hoping you can keep a firm voice. â-- the rest of your brothers?â
âAll of âem left on a trip for the weekend, somethinâ âbout a party at another school, but I gotta stay back and study for this damn final.â
You quickly pull out the textbooks and notebooks from your bag and place them on the table to ignore Osamu, who takes a seat beside you. He makes you unbearably nervous like youâre about to drop on a rollercoaster. But Osamu is⌠Heâs⌠stoic? No, thatâs not right. Maybe calm was the right word. You wouldnât knowâ youâre anything but calm right now.
No, because, quite frankly Osamu looks like he was plucked straight out of one of the daydream sequences you fall asleep to. And you feel like your heart is about to burst out of your chest from how fast it was racing.
âSo, you need help with medicinal chemistry?â You notice your voice is an octave higher than what it usually is.
âYeah, I missed too many classes and now I donât have a fucking clue whatâs going on,â he sighed, leaning back in his chair and crossing his arms. Whatever you do, do not look at the way his arms are flexing or the distinctive veins charting throughout his forearms.
âWe can startââ you flipped through your textbook to avoid staring at his arms any longer, âwith the chapter on structure-based relationshipsââ
âYer not who I thought Yuki would send.â
âIâm sorry?â You sputter back, and you think that your glasses pivot off your face. You were taken aback, did he think you were somebody else? Was he expecting someone else or?--
âSheâs one of my brotherâs friends. And my brother⌠Well, I donât think ya would hang out with the likes of him.â
Oh, thatâs what it was.
He was disappointed that you werenât⌠someone more interesting, like your friend, or the people he knew in his frat, orâŚ
It doesnât matter. You shouldâve expected this. After all, youâre just the tutor he has to tolerate for a few lessons until he passes his final.Â
But still, you feel some sort of rejection. You couldnât blame him, his Friday night was being wasted on some nerd who couldnât even look him properly in the eye because she wasnât used to being near cute guys, let alone one of the most attractive guys she had seen in, well, ever.
âDonât look like that, I think thatâs a good thing.â
âI look like what?â Your hand flies to your face, instinctively going to hide it.
âLike I kicked yer puppy,â he muses.Â
You look back at him, and you see that heâs almost amused by your nerves. Your cheeks burn and you feel the need to wrap the cardigan you had on tighter around you, as if the wooly cotton would act as some sort of shield. But Osamuâs still right beside you, and you feel as if heâs intercepting some sort of barrier between you. But he sits still next to you.
âI like it, ya seem chill, and better than the damn morons Iâm always âround. Yer a nice change of pace.â
A nice change of pace? You didnât think that anyone would find your company⌠enjoyable.
âPlease,â you laugh. The idea of you being chill momentarily makes you forget about your nerves. If only Osamu knew half the thoughts racing through your mind. âIâm a goody-two-shoes, and definitely not chill.â
âWhat, ya a good girl or somethinâ?âÂ
You falter. You glance back at him and notice that his eyes still havenât left you.
âWhat?â You say, but it comes out more like a squeak. Youâre not dumb, you could hear the indication ever so slightly tinged in his voice.
âYa just interest me, I guess. Wanna know âbout ya.â You hear slight amusement in his tone.Â
âSo tell me, what makes you a goody two shoes?â
âI, uhmââ You barely are processing an answer with the way his dark-rimmed eyes bore at you. âWell, I havenât ever smokedââ
âWeed orâ?â
You shake your head. âNeither.â
âYa drink?â
âSometimes. Not often. I donât go to parties or anything like that, and drinking alone is kinda depressing soââ
He snorts. You arenât sure why you were answering his sudden questions, you were just here to tutor him in chemical structures. But something about his presence beside you is commanding and you feel the need to comply.
âMaybe we can change that sometime.â
You barely compute what he just said before he turns to the textbook in front of you.
âSo whatâs this âbout structure activity?â
Osamuâs smarter than what you expect for a student possibly facing academic probation. Honestly, you question if he had ever needed you in the first place. Heâs quick to pick up on the topics you lay out, and he probably could have self-taught himself most of the material if he applied himself.Â
Or showed up to class, but you keep that thought to yourself.
âThatâs pretty much all of chapter five,â you say, closing the textbook in front of you.
âI honestly think if you just kept studying on your own, you donât need me to tutor you, I can send you some videos too if youâd like, but I think that youâre fineââ
âNah, Iâd prefer if ya came over.â
He says it simply in a lazy drawl. But for you, it sends your brain into overdrive. You feel like a computer whose code has an error but keeps trying to run its system.Â
âOhâ Alrightâ I can come around sometime next week then.â You barely maintain to keep your composure. You just needed to be on auto-pilot until you got home, where you could properly freak out in the sanctity of your own room.
âYa okay with late nights? Stupid frat schedule keeps me busier than Iâd like to be.â He asks.
You nod your head. âMhm, Iâm fine being over late.â
âThat too much for ya?â And thereâs a lazy smile across his lips. âYa got a bedtime or something?â
You give him another small laugh. âNo, I usually stay up late anyway.â
âYa stay up late? Doinâ what?âÂ
There it is again. That sliver of amusement in his tone, as if he knows something that you donât. But he keeps his calm demeanor, the one that makes you question if youâre just reading too much into things.
âReading, watching shows, yâknow, the normal stuff.â
Reading the stack of romance novels piled in your dorm until you see the sun peak through your blinds, watching soap operas until the screen asks âAre you still watching?â because they assumed you left it open when in reality youâve watched about five hours worth of television, dreaming, and wondering if someday you could attain even a fraction of the romance you see in fiction.
Yeah, the normal stuff.
At least for you, anyway. But hell would freeze over before you admit that.Â
Especially to Osamu, who you couldnât help but feel a twinge of a flutter in your chest for.
âThatâs all ya got planned for Friday night?â He hums, fingers absentmindedly twirling a pencil in his free hand.
âYup,â you reply, softly. Great, now he probably thinks youâre a loser just like everyone else. You should have just told him you were going to head to a party, like any other normal college student your age.
âYa wanna do somethinâ with me, then? Iâm bored as hell being in this house all alone.â
For a moment, you think that you hear him wrong. Certainly, a guy, as hot, as intimidating, andâ and so many things youâre not, and certainly couldnât match to, was offering to hang out with you. No way, this doesnât happen. Not to girls like you.
âYou wanna hang out with me? Like right now?â
âWould ya prefer a different time, then?â His tone though, doesnât suggest that he wants to reschedule. Itâs painfully sardonic. It seems like it would be now, or not at all.
âN-no. IâdâŚâ
For once, you have a chance to not have a nose in a book. To not spend your weekend alone wondering if that was going to be the rest of your college life. You have the chance to do something for yourself.Â
And something as simple as hanging out with a cute guy on a Friday night could be the start of that.
You sit up straighter and hold your head up. Something is tickling in your chest as you look back at Osamu, finally meeting back those eyes that couldnât seem to stop studying you.
âYeah, Iâd like to.â
Something is screaming inside you. This is unfamiliar territory. This is foreign. Leave now. Abort mission. But you shove it down, you werenât stopping while you were already ahead. New is good, you told yourself. But you still feel the urge to bolt out the door to cower under your covers.
You had put all your school supplies back into your bag and nestled yourself into the corner of the couch, making yourself as small as can be. Osamu said you two could âwatch a movie and chillâ. You could do something as simple as a movie, right?Â
âYa comfy?â He asks.
âYeah, thank you,â you say quietly, as if speaking up would take up more space in the room.
âI can tell that yer nervous,â he comments. It was that obvious, huh?
âYeah, I donâtâŚâ you pause to collect yourself, âusually do this.â
âHang out with guys only after a few hours of meeting âem?â He laughs, relaxing himself on the couch.
âHang out with guys,â you mutter under your breath.
âWhatâd ya say?â He says, looking over at you questioningly. It seems he heard you.
âI donât hang out with guys, at all,â you replied, tone clearer now, âmuch less cute onesââ
Shit, shit, shit. You didnât mean to say the last part.
âYa think Iâm cute?â
You wondered if you sank deeper into the couch, thatâd youâd disappear completely.
âI mean, yeahâ youâre attractive, of course.â He has to know that, right? A guy like him definitely knows heâs attractive. âAnd usually⌠guys like you donât hang out with⌠people like me, thatâs all.â
Youâre not sure where the sudden gust of courage comes from, considering you were so anxious moments agoâ but the question spills out from your mouth before you can think twice about it.
âWhyâd you want me to hang out with you?â You ask suddenly, turning to him.
âMaybe âcause I think yer cute,â he states simply as if it were an easy answer, leaning back and looking back at the TV.
You havenât been paying attention to whatever movie Osamu turned onâ What was this? Some slasher flick?-- Something with a girl shrieking at the top of her lungs while obviously fake blood pours out of her. Itâs ridiculous and you would laugh if there wasnât a weight weighing on your mindâ the weight is also sitting right next to you.
No, you canât notice the terrible special effects when you know Osmau is beside youâ warm and taking up the majority of the space on the already small couch youâre both sitting on.
You canât help but have your brain go into overdrive over what Osamu said. Did he just call you cute and then drop the topic? What were you supposed to do? Just watch the movie and just not address it? Is this what guys did? Is that how you flirt?-- you have a lack of answers. Mostly due to a lack of experience.
You spend the first thirty minutes of the movie wondering if you were just imagining Osamu slowly inching towards your half of the couch. By the time the first half of the movie is through and the killer is on his third victim, you decide youâre right when you realize that Osamuâs thigh is ghosting yours.
Now you really canât deny it.Â
A part of you thinks Osamu wants to be closer to you.Â
But also, he could just be doing it subconsciously.
Itâs probably the latter, but maybeâŚ
âI can hear yer heartbeat from here,â Osamu practically chuckles from beside you.
âWhat?â
You try not to stammer it. You fail, anyway.
âI can tell that yer nervous, relax. I donât bite.â
No, youâre certain that Osamu doesnât bite. But you know that heâs close to you. Which could be worse. In fact, that is worse.
Itâs worse because your senses are going haywire from how close he is.
You can tell he smells good. He smells better than whatever cologne sample youâve ever smelled in a store or magazine. He smells likeâ whatâs the term? Musky? Woody? You arenât sure, you just know itâs slowly becoming your favorite scent.
You can feel his body heat, warm and consuming. You can hear his breathsâ low and steady. You focus on all these other things to ignore the fact heâs boring his dark eyes straight into you.
âI got something for ya,â Osamu suddenly remarks. âStay right there.â
You barely process what he says before he removes himself from the couch, and heads out of the living room.
Your brain isnât able to overanalyze like it usually does because Osamu is back in about a minute. Your defenses are still up. What could he possibly have for you? Your mind is sprawling with questions as Osamu plops himself right back beside you.
âCâmere, this should help yer nerves,â Osamu hums, as he wraps an arm around your waist to pull you closer to him.
You donât ignore the way you feel his hands skimming over the sliver of exposed skin between your sweater and jeans, like hot coals brushing against you.
 âYa never smoked before, right?â
âNo, Iâve neverâŚâ You realize that what he was holding in between his fingers was a freshly rolled blunt.
âWould ya like to try?â
You couldnât lie, youâve always been curious to try, especially since your friends were always talking about how âamazingâ it made them feel and how it would do wonders for your nerves.Â
You look at the blunt between his fingers cautiously and peek back at him.
âItâll be okay, I got ya, nothing to worry yer pretty little head about.âÂ
Pretty. Did he call you pretty? He has you?-- Fuck it, you needed something to put out the fires of your nerves.
âOkay, letâs do it,â you nod meekly.
âAttagirl,â Osamu grinned lazily. You donât even bother to think about that comment, either. If you did, youâd be dead in a minute.
You watch as Osamu digs around the coffee table for a lighter, which is conveniently laid out on the table, as if ready for this moment. You watch as he flicks a flame to the blunt. He languidly takes a hit, and the smoke that hits the air is pungent. Youâre glad thereâs a window cracked open so the smell doesnât collect in the room.Â
You should be studying his motions to mimic them for when it's your turn, but instead, you drink in the fact that he looks oh so fucking attractive.Â
He leans back on the couch, and you watch the way he tips his head back to blow out the smoke into the air above. You study the way veins flow through his neck and the way his Adamâs apple bobs as he exhales. You feelâ fuzzy, warm. Are you high already? Thereâs a heat creeping from your chest, and you think you feel dizzy.
Yeah, youâre high. Totally. That has to be it.
When Osamu takes a look back at you, you avert your stare to your lapâ reminding yourself that youâre acting odd. Cool girls donât gawk at a guy smoking a blunt, they wouldâ Well, you have no idea what they would do actually because youâre not cool.
And thatâs obvious from the way you look at the blunt in Osamuâs hand like heâs handing you an unpinned grenade.
Osamu clocks in on the terror painted on your face. Itâs so obvious somebody ten miles away could probably sense the nerves emitting from your body. Youâre hoping you arenât giving the deer-in-headlights look you usually have.
But you definitely are.
Osamuâs face softens at you.
âDo ya still wanna try? Ya donât have to if ya donât wannaââ
âNono! I wanna try it.â you nearly jump at Osamuâs words. Youâre a lot of thingsâ nervous, nerdy, probably weird if you asked the guy who sat next to you in chemistry, but maybe thatâs because heâs seen you write in three separate color-coded planners before.Â
âAlright,â Osamu chuckles as he watches you take the packed roll from him.
But youâre not a quitter.
Thereâs a sudden adrenaline rush for you, almost like youâre taking a shot of tequila. You pinch the blunt and raise it to your lips before taking a hitâ your very first.
You make sure not to inhale much. Youâre already on the verge of coughing from the taste alone. You pull it away, letting out a meek cough, as smoke expels from your mouth. It tastes shitty and gross, like you expected. But you feel good?Â
âNot bad,â Osamu muses, and you realize he was watching you the entire time.
Osamu looks at you. Heâs been looking at you a lot tonight, you realize.
But that doesnât mean anything.
âI have no idea how you donât cough,â you say, as you pass the blunt back to him.Â
âTaste bad?â He grins lazily. His arm is still around your waist. It feels good, too.
âHorrible.â It doesnât stop you from inhaling more of the sour smoke.
âLook at ya,â Osamu chuckles. âLike it, donât ya?â
Youâre making Osamu smile, laugh even. And it makes your head spin even faster. Itâs so good.
Good, good, good.Â
Everything feels so fucking good.
Osamu makes you feel good.
âWhat are ya mumbling about?â Osamu asks plucking the blunt from your fingertips, and you snap out of it. Well, almost, the feeling is still pooling in your chest, headâ everywhere.
âI justâ I feelââ
âFeel what?â
You start giggling. Doesnât Osamu feel it too?
But maybe he does because heâs smiling at you. Itâs not the same giddy heart-melting feely smile you have plastered on, itâs more relaxed. But you almost could see⌠a bit of amusement.
âFigures ya would be a lightweight for yer first timeâ probably shouldnât have given ya the strong shit, butâs all I had.â
âI wanna do it again,â you sleepily smile waiting for Osamu to pass you the blunt.Â
But he doesnât. Instead, Osamu pauses to look at you again. This time he seems⌠inquisitive. He looks at the roll between his fingers, and you can tell that heâs calculating something in his headâ then he looks at you.
âYa wanna try something?â
His voice is low and thereâs that tone of interest again.Â
âTry what?â
âItâs a⌠different way to take a hit.â
It doesnât take much to convince you and you nod at him. You just wanted more. More of the good feeling, more of Osamu.
You expect him to pass you the blunt, maybe with some sort of instructions, but instead, he takes another hit. Youâre about to ask whatever question you had before Osamu reaches for your chin and takes it firmly.
Despite your brain being foggy, your brain is working overtime. Osamu is touching youâ staring at you. And now his face is ghosting yours. Youâre close enough to notice the slightest freckle ghosting his left cheek. Were you always this warm? No, youâre burning. Thereâs a fire sweeping in your chest, your head, your faceâ everywhere. Youâre so warmâ Osamuâs so warm.
And thereâs a moment where you zero in. Osamu isnât exhaling.
You realize what he wants to do.
The smoke inside his mouth isnât for himâ it's for you.
Your lip doesnât even quiver in the way it usually does whenever you blurt out something nervously. Instead, your lips part invitingly, and you barely even register Osamu has closed the distance until his lips are brushing against yours and thereâs a wisp of smoke pooling from his mouth to yours.
Osamu still had one hand steadied on your chin and the other was caging you into the couch corner. The further the smoke spills into your mouth, the more you sink into the couch. You barely even register thereâs no more smoke to inhale because your back hits the seat of the couch, and Osamuâs on top of you.
âThereâs a freckle on your left châ mmph!â
Osamuâs mashing his lips into yours in an instant. You didnât even think there could be any more room for Osamu to close inâ he was already so close to youâ but you were wrong.Â
The kissingâ itâs sloppy, depraved, even. Your glasses press against your face painfully from how quickly Osamu pounced on you, so you pull them off your face, not even caring where you throw them. You both feverishly want more, more, more. Osamuâs grabbing at your hips, his hands big and pawing at you. Your own hands are mapping the outline of his shoulders through his shirt. Osamuâs large body dwarfs your own, his weight resting on you. Your hands feverishly grabbed at him as your lips chased after the feeling youâve been relishingâ the good feelingâ the feeling is pouring straight into your lips like rushing water and youâre drinking it in. It marries itself with the dizzy euphoric feeling clouding in your mind. So, so good.
Heâs everywhereâ you feel him everywhere. Your head is spinning. Osamuâs lipsâ coated in saliva mixing with your chapstick, pull you in even further. You donât even know how youâre breathing, you havenât gone for air in what feels like years.
But Osamu, selfishly, wants more. And so do you. So you donât protest when you feel him rut his hips directly into yoursâ the throbbing bulge in his pants hitting that sweet spot you werenât even aware was wanting for more. You moan feverishly against Osamuâs lips, the sound barely spilling out against him.
Osamu pulls himself off your lips, burying his face into the crook of your neck so you can feel every rugged heavy breath against your skin.
âFuck, baby.â Heâs panting, his hips grinding deeper into yours. The sweatpants heâs wearing, the jeans you have on, itâs too many layers. Youâre unashamedly pawing at Osamuâs pants, begging for him to take them off so you can feel more.
ââSamu, please,â you whine. You donât even think of the nervous, shy, girl who walked into the apartment a few hours ago. She had been replaced with someone more desperate, unashamed in being so greedy for more.
Osamu doesnât need to ask what youâre asking for, before shrugging off his pants and kicking them off somewhere on the floor. And in a moment, heâs unbuttoning your pants and pulling them off you like itâs burning you. Osamuâs already dark eyesâ grow even darker at the sight of the wet spot growing on your panties and your sweater riding up your stomach.
âPlease, please,â you cry with moans of his name in the absence of movement.
âTell me what ya want,â Osamu pants.
âWanna feel good.â
âFuck,â he groans, before lowering his face to meet your stomach. He trails wet, firm kisses along your stomach, trailing down until his face is centered with your dripping cuntâ clearly begging for more the way it clenches when you feel his hot breath ghosting the outside of your panties.
You absentmindedly grab at his hair, pushing him further to your aching cunt, encouraging him to continueâ practically pleading the way you attempt to grind your pussy into him.
Osamu yanks off whatever panties you had on, and you swear you hear fabric ripping. But you couldnât care less when you feel Osamuâs tongue languidly lick a stripe against your slit before beginning to circle your clit.
Your back arches off the couch and your wanton moans fill the empty air. You hope that Osamuâs didnât have thin walls. But when Osamu suddenly slips a finger into yourâ itâs suddenly the least of your worries.Â
The combination of Osamuâs tongue suckling at your clit and his now two fingers pumping in and out of you sends you into ecstasy. Every nerve in your body was vibrating as your head clouded between the weed running through your system and Osamu buried in his pussy eating you out like his life depended on it. Fuck what you smoked, Osamu was the real drug.
Thereâs a moment where your nerves pinch togetherâ and everything in your chest collects, all those funny feelings turning hot and heavy in your lower stomach, before you cum. And you cum, hard.
You grab Osamuâs hair at the roots with a moanâ no, scream, almost reflective of the horror movie actress you were making fun of earlier, as you coated Osamuâs face with slick. You donât even realize how much it was until Osamu raises his head and his mouth reflects glossily.
Youâre swimming in the hazy cloud of pleasure for a while, until your breathing steadies and youâre settling into the couch with heavy pants.
âNot bad for yer first time, right?â Osamu chuckles, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand.
âWhat?â H-how did he knowâ
âYer first time smoking?â Osamu smirks as he pulls himself up so he can sit on the couch.
âOh, y-yeah,â you mumble, pulling your sweater down so you can cover your lower half.
You avert your gaze from Osamu, embarrassed by the lack of clothes you had on. You felt a tinge more sober nowâ enough to realize that it was way past the time you thought youâd stay. The movie credits werenât even playing anymoreâ the TV had just gone into sleep mode. Osamu notices this too when he takes a glance out the window.
You think about what he said. Your first time was good. And maybe⌠Maybe you should try having more firsts.
âItâs late, ya shouldnât be walkinâ home at this hourââ So thatâs whyâŚ
âYa wanna just crash here?â
You let Osamu take another first.
âYeah, Iâd like that.â
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#guys iâm being so serious when i say writing this fic made me lose my sanity#miya osamu x reader#osamu x reader#miya osamu smut#osamu smut#haikyuu x reader#haikyuu smut#miya osamu x you#osamu x you#haikyuu x you#miya osamu imagine#osamu imagine#haikyuu fluff#worl: imperfect for you
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hewoo! sorry for bothering u, but I'm just really into sukuita and humm... maybe u could write something about how sukuna loves to have his little brat yuuji sitting on his lap? just if u want of course! god I love those two so muchđđ
Suku-nii's Best Boy
an. with my returning sukuita fever i present you this lil hybrid fic ;) hope you like it @wukxon
Tiger!Cub Yuji in his big brother Tiger!Hybrid Suku-nii âs lap, all sobby and snotty as he complains of his ongoing teething process.
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The little Tiger!Cub Yuji had been found by his aniki on the kitchen floor, whines spilling out his tiny babbling mouth out of discomfort when Sukuna comes to check up on him.
Big brother Sukuna wasn't the type to hoist a little cub up on his hip and coo to lul him quite, instead just propping him up on his feet by his underarms so his little yuji stands in front of him instead. The action reduces the cub's sobbing into sniffling, as he peeps up at Suku-nii with big watery golden-brown eyes.
Sukuna bends his knees to come closer to his tiny brother's height, inspecting while pulling his cheek âHuh, what is it little snot?â
â...hurtsâ Yuji pouts, water brimming the brink of his doey eyes again when he projects baby arms towards his big brother, making grabby hands. âChuku-nii... uwpâ his pout too big for a more coherent sound.
NowâTiger!Hybrid Sukuna knows he's a tough man, but he would rather die than not scoop his little brother Yuji who pleads his comfort so purely, which he does a moment and a sigh later. Sukuna saunters to the couch, bothered Yuji clutched to his side.
âWhere does it hurt,â the little cub now seated in his lap, Sukuna wipes the tear streams off his little brother's fluffy-soft fat cheeks âtell me brat?â his tone softer than his words.
âAa!!â Yuji opens his tiny mouth, an acusatory finger pointed towards his small buccal cavity. The bigger feline hums, taking the smaller one's face in his palmsâthumbs pushing on the cheeks to pry open his mouth wider. Little pointy canines could be seen halfway out into joining the cub's set of teeth.
Sukuna frowns, gently pressing on one of the cub's canines causing Yuji to flinch away with an angry whine. The elder hums again in confirmation, cupping Yuji's sulky face and dragging it closer. He's teethingâSukuna concludes. The elder bounces his seated tiny body on his knees for distraction.
He brings a finger near the younger's mouth, pushing it slowly on the cub's lips for him to take. âWe will get some toys for your sore jaw, 'dori.â he grins watching his troubled little Yuji who depends on him so much.
Tiger!Cub Yuji nibbles on his Aniki's finger, leaving small tents of his canines and droll on the skin. His tiny palm forgetting to loosen the grip to his Suku-nii's shirt.
Sukuna might have a hunch or so for why his little brother has gotten more attached to him rather than their any other relative or friendâwho comprehensibly wanted Yuji's attention more than him,, but he never really understood.
Whatever the case... he has already grown affectionate to the stinkingly adorable and clingy brat in his lap for life is what he knows.
masterlist! sukuita hcs!
an. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AAAAAđ hope y'all like it, thank you for reading, likes & rbs are appreciated <333
tags. @anubisisthebomb @dianagracesworld @stellagrangerreads12 @momochina-sama @xxkay15xx @ruins-posts @dianagracesworld @pupkashi
#sukuna x yuji#tiger hybrid sukuna#tiger hybrid yuji#sukuna headcanons#ryomen sukuna headcanons#ryomen sukuna#sukuna x reader#ryomen sukuna x reader#yuji headcanons#itadori headcanons#yuji itadori#itadori yuji#yuji x sukuna#yuji x reader#sukuna x y/n#sukuna x you#sukuita#fluff hcs#domestic fluff#sukuna fluff#yuji fluff#jjk headcanons#sukuna fanfic#tiger hybrid#sukuita fluff#big brother sukuna#baby yuuji#sukuna x yuuji#yuji x y/n
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tags: fluff, just fluff, kenma being a #streamer. i love streamer kenma it scratches that itch in me that craves a parasocial kind of love.
"Kenmaaaa" you drawled while opening the door, leaning heavily against the doorframe of your boyfriend's office room.
It took you five seconds to register where Kenma was sitting, which was in front of the computer unsurprisingly, and the camera that had a red light on. The second monitor to his left was showcasing Kenma on the screen while the third one had an onslaught of comments popping up.
oh shi--
You jumped back, mostly out of surprise.
"Yes, honey?" Kenma spoke, one side of his headphones off as he turned towards you. "The camera won't pick up on you, don't worry."
You crept back in, feeling nervous even though the camera wasn't even on you.
"Sorry, I didn't realise you were streaming."
"Nothing to apologise for. What's up? Need me for something?" He urged you forward and you padded your way inside, the only comfort being in proximity to your boyfriend.
"I-uh- didn't feel like cooking so I thought we could order something?" You were halfway through your sentence when Kenma picked up his phone. He was nodding along, opening an app in it.
"What are you feeling?" He murmured, completely ignoring the eruption of comments blasting on his screen. There was a lot of yelling. You tried not to look at it but it drew you in, most of it was gibberish and question marks. You could make out the words 'WHAT' and 'DATING???' a lot.
"I'm not sure? Feeling indecisive today." You probably had an idea but it had vanished a couple of minutes back.
"Want burgers? Pizza?" Kenma didn't even seem to care at that point, solely focused on his phone. He did take a hold of your hand though, running his thumb through your knuckles.
THAT caught on camera and the gibberish got louder and faster.
"Burgers sound good." You snapped back to him, letting his hand ground you.
"That burger place you like?"
"Yes please."
"Honey mustard one?"
"Yes."
"Mh-hmmm." Kenma dragged out the sound before placing in his own order.
"Wanna get ice cream? Been craving it." He worked quick to add it in, knowing what you wanted but still asking in case you changed your mind.
"I can pay for the---"
"Shut the fuck up." Kenma murmured with only an upward glance at you, a small smile on his face when you pouted.
You finally took a look at the main monitor, a pretty sunset with the main character looking off into the distance on the screen. "What game you playin?"
"It's a fantasy game. Pretty new, haven't even started yet. You'd like it, it's very pretty." Kenma turned the monitor a bit so you could see it, pressing play so some more of the graphics would come on screen. You let out a little gasp, taking it all in.
When you realised that there were a lot of people waiting, you blinked out of your revery and threw an apologetic look at Kenma.
"Sorry, you were busy and--"
"Never too busy for you." Kenma murmured again and scooted towards you till he was just out of frame, his lips puckering up while he craned his neck upwards, too lazy to stand up.
You laughed and gave him a peck on the lips, then the nose and then the forehead. He grinned widely, adjusting back into the same position he was in before.
"I'll talk to you later, okay?" You call out and walk back.
"Okay, baby."
You were about to close the door when you head a very disgruntled, 'shut the fuck up.' from Kenma. Curious about what he would say, you listened in from the hallway.
"Yeah I am dating someone. No, I'm not saying their name....we've been dating for a while now. I am not soft for them....okay chat keep the screenshots between us....what do you mean they're already on twitter??? Ya'll are annoying. No, Kuroo I'm not buying you food. Yeah, they are special, dumbass."
You grinned so wide your cheeks hurt, already scrolling through twitter to see if people actually posted anything...
.....Kenma's name was trending
And oh the thread of pictures after pictures, of his eyes turning into liquid, his smile, the hand holding yours that. It was enough in the frame for his thumb to be seen. The person that posted it was SCREAMING about how soft he is.
Then there was a screenshot of him tilting his head upwards and your hair was the only thing that showed up as you kissed him. There was a fire hazard in the comments. It made you chortle. You saved all of them to use as leverage. Seeing as Kuroo was retweeting some of them, he had them too.
A/N: second day in a row im posting kenma hehehehehehhehehehhe hyperfixation tyme
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for @steddie-week day 5 | exes to lovers
fully and completely inspired by @emchant3d's divorced dad's post [x] from a few weeks ago bc i did not once stop thinking abt it
tags: modern day, artist!eddie, finance guy!steve, steddie as rich gay divorcees, sort of an accidental parent trap situation
They were too young, Steve thinks in retrospect â married at twenty-three, their daughter born when they were twenty-five, and then divorced before his twenty-seventh birthday.
He gets to think retrospectively because in a few years itâll be a full decade since the papers for that last bit got signed. Now, Steve is thirty-four and sweating his ass off in a red polo and crisp jeans, the stiflingly hot July sun beating down on him as he scans the perimeter of a crowded playground for a familiar head of curly brown hair â not his nine-year-old. He found Rosalind already, wreaking havoc on the jungle gym. No, heâs looking for his ex (-husband, technically, but Steve usually stops at ex; the -husband part just makes him sad these days).
Itâs custody swap day, which is either his favorite or least favorite day of the week depending on who the swap is favoring.
Today itâs favoring him which is why heâs slowly making his way around the edge of a playground in Bushwick, keeping an eye out for his ex, Eddie.
âSteve,â he hears from somewhere behind him. Steve turns towards the sound and sees not that curly head of hair heâd expected. Eddieâs hair is completely buzzed (which, for the record, was not the case last week when Steve dropped Rozzy off with him) and heâs wearing a paint-splattered white t-shirt tucked into old jeans and all that combined is making it reeeally hard for Steve to pretend heâs not crushing hard on the guy he divorced eight years ago.
âDude,â Steve started, eyeing Eddieâs hair (or lack thereof) as he made his way to the section of fence that Eddie was occupying, âWhatââ
âYeah, yeah,â Eddie rolled his eyes, âRozzy already hit me with all the good zingers so youâre too late.â
âNo, I donât ââ Steve stopped, âItâsâŚnot a bad look, justâŚyou know. Why the change?â
Eddie looked away.
âLong story,â he replied as Steve remembered (yet again) that he doesnât get full access to Eddieâs world the way he used to.
Luckily for Steve, Rozzy runs up to them and spares him from having to figure out a response for that.
âWe should get pizza,â she says. Steveâs eyebrows fly up.
âWe should get pizza?â he repeats.
âPlease,â she adds, her eyes shining, âAt Dadâs? And we play Mario Kart? Dad said Iâm getting good at 200!â
âHe said that?â Steve asked, and he glances over Rosalind's head to see that Eddie is making a so-so gesture with his hand.
Heâs never been all that good at saying no to his daughter (or anyone), so it doesnât take much more convincing on Rozzyâs part for the three of them to head off in the direction of Eddieâs loft, with a pitstop planned for the pizza shop down the block.
They actually have a nice time.
Itâs true that Rozzy is getting better at 200cc â good might be a bit generous, but Steveâs fine with that (he doesnât know if his ego could handle getting crushed by a fourth-grader).
Just as theyâre finishing their second grand prix (the Star Cup, because Rozzy likes the dolphin race), one of the other kids in the building knocks on the door and invites Rozzy over for a sleepover, which Steve agrees to because he remembers the illicit kind of joy in a summertime Monday night sleepover.
Eddie doesn't show Steve the door after Rozzy's gone. Rather, he pulls a bottle of wine from the fridge â an expensive SĂŠmillon he says was given to him by a client.
âSo the art biz is still going well, I assume,â Steve comments as Eddie pulls two vintage wine glasses out of a cabinet and pours them each a healthy serving.
Conversation about work manages to sustain them through the first few glasses (Eddie actually remembered that itâs been just over a year since Steve left his dadâs Fortune 1000 for a CFO position at a marketing company that had just graduated from small to midsize status). They work through the second quarter of the bottle talking about Rozzy, and the third vanishes even quicker while Steve spills some of the latest Harrington family drama.
While Eddie is updating him on how Wayne is doing, Steve finds that he isnât really listening, distracted in the way he canât help but notice how Eddieâs paint-stained t-shirt is actually more like an undershirt, and a size too small for him, the torso and sleeves tight around lean muscle, and thereâs a thin silver chain around his neck and a scruff of facial hair around his jaw, and â
Steve doesnât immediately realize when Eddie stopped talking. When he does, when his eyes finally unstick themselves from the buzzcut and drop back down to Eddieâs, he sees that Eddie is staring at him too.
Eddieâs tongue darts out to wet his lip.
âAsk me again why I buzzed my hair,â he tells him.
âWhyâd you buzz your hair,â Steve asks, because heâs obedient like that (and because he really does want to know).
âSteveââ Eddie stops, a giggly, wine-induced hiccup of a laugh slipping out before he shakes his head, âAn entire can of paint tipped ovââ He cuts himself off with another half-hysterical laugh, barely managing to say, âSpilled on my head,â before he was completely doubled over, and Steve is laughing too because he can totally picture it and because he had a bit more wine than he planned to and this is honestly the first time that he and Eddie have hung out without their daughter inâŚSteve doesnât even know how long.
âSteve,â Eddie says again when they finally both recover, and his tone is completely different this time around and thereâs a vulnerability in his eyes that wasnât there before and something is happening, something is happening, âPlease donât kill me for saying this, butâŚfuck, itâs really kinda pathetic how badly I still want it to be you and me.â
Steve thinks he tries to respond, but then he was too busy kissing Eddie to do anything else, too busy scraping fingernails over Eddieâs scalp, too busy choking back a moan as Eddie sucks his bottom lip into his mouth, too busy tugging Eddieâs shirt out of his waistband to shove a hand up underneath and finding that heâs built more solidly than Steve remembers from the last time they touched like this, but something is telling him thatâs true about Eddie â true about himself too â in more ways than one.
And if Rosalind comes home the next morning ready to ask how sheâs getting back to Daddyâs house only to find that heâs already there, stealing Dadâs mug out of his hand for a sip of coffee when his own is right thereâŚthatâs a conversation for another day.
part 2
#i have SO MANY Feelings about this#steddie#steve harrington#eddie munson#steddie week 2024#literally incapable of writing them as anything other than girl-dads srry
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guard dog || lucy bronze x reader ||
lucy cheers you up when the internet has it out for you.
"i think i'm gonna go lighter with my hair."
you had no idea the trouble those words were going to cause you. lucy had tried hard to keep you out of the spotlight, but it wasn't as easy as when you first started dating. you'd been with lucy since college, and over the years, fans had taken notice of you frequenting lucy's games. it wasn't until the euros, however, that lucy had finally confirmed your relationship.
it wasn't good for you to be on any social media when it felt like every other post was about you. you had dealt with a bit from fans before, but this was worse than you could have ever imagined. it was one thing to be accused of cheating by strangers, but it was the constant affirmations of things that you already thought about your relationship and yourself that got to you.
lucy was amazing, and you had never felt like you were right for her. she was always too smart or too ind for you. she was out of your league attractive. lucy bronze was too good for you, and it felt like millions of people agreed with that.
"hey, are you okay?" lucy's brows furrowed as she watched you lean forward. you were starting to hyperventilate as the world felt like it closed in on you. lucy rushed over to kneel beside you and tilt your head to look at her. "hey, what's going on?"
"i didn't cheat on you, i swear." it was something lucy already knew. you knew that she was well aware that you would never even think to do something like that, but it was all you could say. you needed to reassure her in case she saw the pictures and didn't recognize herself.
"i know that, i never said you did." lucy would have laughed if you weren't obviously so upset. "talk to me, what's going on?"
"the pictures after you got your hair done, when we met for lunch. i took your car, and they don't know what the other looked like. your hair was different, they think i'm cheating. they know that i don't deserve you," you rambled. lucy pulled you into her arms and held you against her chest. she ran her hands through your hair as she pressed gentle kisses to your temple.
"hey, it's okay. i will get this sorted out, i promise. can you go downstairs and pick out a takeout menu for us? i know that you were gonna cook, but not if you're upset. i want you to just relax for the night," lucy said. she gave you a squeeze before she let you go downstairs.
it wasn't easy, but you managed to take your mind off of everything after lucy hijacked your phone. lucy ordered your favorite takeout, even if she knew a few places that served the same thing that she liked better. you were truly pampered in a way that you hadn't been in a while. lucy was a busy woman at barcelona, not that she had ever been anything else. this was just different, and things often took up a lot more of her time than either of you expected.
"am i done with phone jail?" you asked lucy as the two of you laid out on the couch the next afternoon. lucy had helped you with breakfast in the morning, although you didn't let her lay a finger on your coffee. the two of you had spent most of the day catching up on the american sports that you had been missing out on.
"i don't know. do you promise not to make fun of me if you see anything too sappy?" lucy asked you. she looked a bit ashamed of herself, as if she had done something hastily last night. you knew that lucy could be fiercely protective over you. she had nearly beaten up one of her teammates when the two of you moved here and the girl had gotten too friendly with you for lucy's taste.
"that depends on what you did. lucy please tell me that you didn't say anything to get yourself in trouble." you stared at lucy, who just handed you back your phone. she tried to shift away from you, but you threw your weight down more securely on top of her. you opened up instagram to see that lucy had tagged you in a post. "aw baby."
you swiped through the pictures, each one from a different milestone in your relationship. they weren't necessarily your favorite pictures, but you knew that they were lucy's. there wasn't a single one where one of you didn't have a lovestruck look on your faces. most of them were lucy staring at you, but you definitely took note of the few thrown in where you looking at her like she was your everything.
"shut up," lucy grumbled. you looked at her with fresh tears in your eyes, and lucy just sighed to herself. "fuck, this wasn't supposed to make you cry."
"i love you so much," you said as you cupped her cheeks. lucy let you kiss her, but she tried to hide her face immediately once you were done. "you're so sweet. thank you for this."
"just stay off of twitter for a while," lucy told you. you nodded your head, but as soon as you went into one of your text chains with the few of her teammates you had befriended over the years, you saw what she wanted to hide from you. lucy was a woman of few words most of the time, but when she had something to say, she made sure to get her point across. you thought she was being a bit harsh, but lucy's message was sure to shut everybody up about getting at you.
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Hi bwaby ~ Iâm new to your page and I love your yandere posts ^^ Iâm reading the ones youâve written for Kurapika. I saw your requests were open.
How do you think hxh yanderes would respond to their captive s/o having a panic/anxiety attacks when their captor tries to get intimate? How would they go about that?
đ¤ ur work đ¤đ¤đ¤ thnx
Yandere!HXH respond to you panicking during intimacy
!!REBLOGS APPRECIATED!!
warnings: dubcon, panic attack, bad aftercare, forced cuddling, slight manipulation/coercion with Chrollo(it backfires), vomit in Chrolloâs, Feitan is emotionally distant, Kurapika is unstable
A/N: just a little note that none of my yanderes will ever rape the reader. I just include dubious consent because being captive blurs the lines of consent. Can you really consent when youâre captive? I donât know, so I include it just in case, even though in my eyes reader is always consenting during these acts. Iâm not comfortable with writing out rape, so this situation is the farthest I go.
characters included: Kurapika, Leorio, Chrollo, Feitan, Illumi
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Kurapika
First of all, Kurapika is VERY hesitant to initiate any intimacy after he takes you away. He wants you to get used to your captivity before he starts anything.
Kurapika is also the only yandere on this list that wonât be overly pushy in terms of physical contact most if the time, and honestly heâs okay if you never love him again⌠even if he really wants you to love him and give him lots of affection. He knows he did something unforgivable by taking you away from your life, and heâs willing to be hated by you if it means youâll be safe.
Now, when you do eventually initiate some kind of intimacy he is over the moon. He would do anything for you, desperate to please you and make the experience as good as possible. Kurapika wants your love, your physical touch, and he wants it willingly.
So when he initiates, kissing along your neck with his hand gently rubbing your clothed cunt, he stops immediately when you start to panic. âMy angel? Are you okay?â
Heâs quick to pull away and give you space. His hands shake and he feels guilt and panic rise in his own chest. Did he just ruin all of the progress the two of you had?
But you calm down after a little, and lean against him. âI⌠Iâm sorry, I just⌠I got really anxious.â
Heâs quick to wrap his arms around you, tentatively smoothing out your hair. âDonât apologize⌠shh, just relax. We donât have to do anything.â
Kurapika spends the rest of the night just a bit unstable, terrified that heâll do something to upset you. He just loves you so much and he doesnât want to lose your love and affection when he just got it back. The next day he makes sure to pamper you more than usual, and heâs almost a bit clingy⌠as if heâs scared heâll lose you.
Leorio
Heâs pretty handsy, though most of his touches are just affectionate in nature. When you cuddle, he has his hand in your ass or thigh, kneading at the soft flesh.
Leorio likes to have you in his lap as often as possible, where he can move you as he pleases as cover you in kisses as he holds you as close as possible.
Heâs eager to get back to sex after he takes you, though he wonât push⌠too much. Leorio is just super clingy and youâre already sitting pretty on his lap, the only thing separating you from his is that pretty skirt youâre wearing!
It was a normal day, with you sitting in his lap after he tugged you his way. But this time, instead of the usual soft squish heâd give your thigh or kisses to your cheek or the top of your head, Leorio started moving you back and forth against the bulge firming in his pants.
You instantly froze, feeling his warm breath on your neck. When you began to panic and cry, Leorio paused for a moment. âPrincess? Something wrong?â
When you started to struggle, he gently set you down. The air was thick and heavy with tension and awkward energy. He scratched the back of his neck, his boner gone. âYou alright?â
You shook your head. âI⌠I donât want to, Leorio⌠Iâm scaredâŚâ
He felt his heart break a little, but he was quick to reach out and gently ruffle your hair. âDonât be scared⌠I wonât⌠do anything to you that you donât wantâŚâ
But it felt a bit hypocritical, considering he did steal you from your old life against your will. Leorio had standards though, and one of those was not assaulting people.
That night, he was way less clingy than usual, giving you some space and time to process things⌠but you joined him in bed for snuggles later.
Chrollo
He kept telling you he wanted to make your first time with him special, that heâd buy you flowers and pretty lingerie to wear. He even suggested getting a nicer hotel than usual, which was shocking because the hotels you usually stayed in with him were beyond luxurious.
So when the special night came, he took you out to a fancy dinner, letting you order whatever you wanted. You had become very complacent, accepting the fact youâd never be able to escape him⌠not even in death.
So you are your food, and you bathed before putting on the set of lingerie he surely paid a high price for, and sat on the bed, waiting for him to get back from a meeting with some phantom troupe members that were in town.
The wait already had you anxious, but the way he kept going on and on about how perfect he made everything and how much effort he put into this night put a lot of pressure on you to do well.
And that was on purpose. He wanted you to know just how much he had done for you⌠how much he craved and adored you. With him, you would be endlessly pampered and loved⌠all you had to do was be a good girl and do as he said.
So by the time he got back, you were already anxiously fidgeting with your lacy black lingerie, biting your lip.
Now⌠he didnât want to make you anxious, just a little nervous. He thought it would be cute to see you squeak like a timid little mouse as he took you⌠he didnât want you to stiffly lie down and tear up when he unbuttoned his shirt.
And he hadnât expected you to throw up from the stress of it all.
He felt a bit guilty, you were crying and muttering apologies as he called for room service, trying to clean it up yourself. Had he instilled that much fear in you that you shook in terror at the thought of upsetting you? Thatâs not what Chrollo wanted⌠despite his sly and manipulative nature, he wanted you to genuinely love him and see him as someone that protected and took care of you.
So once you calmed down a little, he pulled you in and snuggled you, kissing the top of your head. âI..: apologize. Weâll do this at your pace.â
You couldnât really break away from his grip⌠and you didnât want to anger him, so you let him hold you close and gently rock you.
Feitan
Feitan already is absolute garbage with intimacy, so itâs rare heâll initiate anything. Heâs both insecure and emotionally distant, but also longs for your affection and physical touch.
But he also HATES physical touch⌠so being his darling is a confusing experience where youâre constantly walking on eggshells.
The rare instances when he tries to be intimate with you, you almost leap with joy. Heâs the only other human you have physical contact with, and youâve almost gone crazy without touch and affection.
Heâs very insecure and sensitive to rejection, so when he touches you, even if itâs just subpar, you praise him endlessly with soft whimpers and moans. Heâs pretty skilled with his fingers considering he was a virgin before he met you.
So when heâs got his hands on your hips and ready to push his cock into your pretty pussy, instead of the usual happy whines you make⌠you instead whimper and shy away from him.
Heâs tortured many people, so he can recognize the signs of a panic attack easily. You donât know what came over you, but you just started to break down, crying and rocking yourself.
Feitan froze up, not knowing what to do. Heâs not used to comforting others, and he already feels the harsh sting of rejection from your reaction. Was he that bad?
But⌠heâs able to push that away. He puts a blanket over your naked form and gently rubs your back while looking the other way.
â⌠donât have to. Just say when donât want it.â
And thatâs all you get. He doesnât kiss away your tears or clean you up⌠but itâs a big step forward. For Feitan, comforting another human being is hard, so the fact heâs trying for you proves that you mean something to him.
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Written for @steddieangstyaugust Day 20: âI didnât know where else to go.â
tags: post Starcourt, friends to lovers, requited unrequited love.
rated: T | word count: 1k4 | ao3
This was stupid, Steve told himself. Absolutely stupid. It wasn't like Eddie was his friend or anything.
They just happened to spend many sleepless nights together smoking and talking about everything and nothing. They just met up at Skull Rock almost every day so Steve could decompress by listening to Eddie's ramblings about DnD, Hell Fire Club, and Corroded Coffin. They just told each other a lot of secrets and held hands to offer each other comfort. They just shared multiple inside jokes that not even their own friends would know.
They justâ
Okay, maybe Steve had downplayed it. Because at this point, Eddie might be his only real friend in this town.
And it was just Steve's luck to catch feelings for him and lose him in the process.
See, since his young age, Steve had always been self-aware enough to know what he wanted. Whether it was toys, food, or people. He just never made his liking obvious in case his parents decided to hold them over him.
Hence, nonchalance had always been his default façade. It was the "Kill two birds with one stone", helped him protect his secrets, helped him conceal his most vulnerable part, and helped him remain indestructible under scrutinizing eyes.
And for a long time, Steve thought he was so smart, hiding his true self behind the garnished mask he had created.
Until he met Nancy, until he got his heart broken that night in Tina's bathroom, until he stumbled on Eddie and realized that the mask he wore made him look exactly like what he always hated.
Bullshit.
And now, standing on the Munson Trailer's porch, Steve tried to not turn on his heels and run away or puke his guts out because he was too scared of facing rejection again.
But he also didn't want to be alone right now, and call it his moment of weakness, he just wanted to be held and reassured that everything would be alright even when he probably didn't deserve it.
Selfishly, though, he knew Eddie wouldn't say no to him, not when he was in such a pitiful state, not when they used to be good friends up until Steve ruined it all. And perhaps, it was the thought that gave him enough courage to rap his knuckles on the door.
"D'you know what time is it, man? If you're here to ask for weedsâ Holy shit!"
Against his better judgment, Steve shrank in himself, ashamed that he was causing trouble for Eddie once more, making himself as small as possible and bracing for another rejection.
"Uhm, hi?" He smiled weakly.
Wordlessly, Eddie guided him inside, led him to the couch, and sat him down.
After handing him a glass of water, which he sipped slowly, Eddie started cleaning the cuts on his face, movements gentle as if afraid of hurting him.
Though it wasn't much and Steve knew any decent human being would treat him with the same sympathy, his heart still didn't get the memo and started somersaulting in his chest.
He watched the soft yellow light cast on Eddie's face, illuminating those dark brown eyes like stars, shining on the plump lips being worried between those sharp white teeth.
He glanced down, taking in the sleeveless black tee and gray sweatpants, the crimson guitar pick dangling on Eddie's chest as he leaned forward slightly, the tattoos on the pale arms, the long fingers, void of rings.
"What happened?" Eddie asked, sounding genuinely worried, after a moment of tense silence.
Instead of answering the question, Steve only shrugged and grimaced slightly.
"Sorry for waking you up this late. It's just," he averted his gaze to avoid Eddie's intense look. "I didn't know where else to go."
"You're always welcome here, Sweetheart," said Eddie kindly. "And you can wake me up whenever. We're already past that, aren't we?"
Eddie was right.
It wasn't rare for the older boy to climb through Steve's window at random hours and invite himself into Steve's bed so they could cuddle until morning. And it wasn't new for Steve to do so to Eddie, either.
Over just a few months, they had grown impossibly close and Steve would dare to say Eddie was the one who understood him the most and vice versa.
Except, it was never that simple, wasn't it?
It wasn't as if Steve hadn't kissed Eddie in a completely un-platonic way. It wasn't as if they hadn't seen each other since the day Eddie ran away from him, confused and terrified, leaving Steve with even more nightmares.
He sighed, suddenly feeling tired. Who was he kidding anyway? It was a huge mistake to come here after all.
"Yeah," he sniffed. "But I thought I wouldn't be welcomed anymore after what I did to you."
"Steve," said Eddie sharply.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry," he squeezed his eyes shut and raked his fingers through his sticky hair, using the dull aches to ground himself. "Iâ Tonight's been a lot. People died, Eddie. And all I could think about was you. As much as I regret driving you away, I'd kiss you again and again even if I were allowed to come back to that day to fix my mistake. Because it had kept you safe and away from me, from dangers. And I swear I'm not trying to make you forgive me out of pity. I know I had screwed up big time. So I'm gonna be out of your hair sooâ"
Steve let out a gasp when Eddie suddenly kissed him, staring in shock as Eddie pressed another one on the corner of his mouth, tasting his blood and pain.
"Whatâ"
"I'm aware this is far from the appropriate answer you deserve," Eddie brushed a hair out of Steve's forehead, smiling sadly. "But I couldn't find any way more obvious to tell you the kiss was never a mistake. Because I've been dreaming about it for months and you had granted me exactly what I wanted."
Steve was confused. Because why would Eddie say that? Why would he kiss Steve then when all Steve wanted was to make it right? Why would he look so sad when he had already shattered Steve's heart into pieces?
"Why?" Steve asked softly, unable to hold a grudge when Eddie was looking at him like he hung the moon and stars, overwhelming and nothing he had feared at all.
"I was scared," said Eddie bluntly without needing him to elaborate, always understanding him beyond words. "That's not an excuse for the way I acted with you. I was an ass for going radio silence and leaving you in the dark. As your friend, I should've known to communicate better. But I didn't and I caused you all this pain just because I panicked over a kiss I've been wanting since the first time I saw you."
"I'm really sorry, Sweetheart," said Eddie quietly, hand cradling his face gently like one would hold something precious. "For having been an idiot and a coward. For breaking your trust. For running away. For hurting you."
Leaning into the touch, Steve closed his eyes and breathed deeply, inhaling the smell of old weeds, leather, citrus, and cigarettes, feeling oddly homesick even though he was already home.
He wanted to get mad at Eddie, to demand some kind of compensation for his battered heart; and yet, he was tired, in pain, and about to keel over now the drug in his system had worn off.
However, he was in no shape to hold a serious conversation at the moment and he knew Eddie had noticed it too.
"Let's go take a shower first, okay?" Eddie leaned in and kissed his shoulder. It was so random but Steve still felt his cheeks warm at the intimate gesture.
Somehow, he didn't have the energy to feel embarrassed about it and ended up having Eddie wash his hair for him.
âââ
After making a call to check in with Robin as promised, he padded into Eddie's room and joined the older boy beneath the quilts and blankets, smiling softly as he thought about all the time he had been in Eddie's bed when he couldn't stand his parents' arguments.
When Eddie pulled him closer, he went willingly and melted into those arms, feeling warm and safe for the first time after two months of staying apart from his best friend.
"I love you," he mumbled into Eddie's chest, too relaxed and sleepy to care about the consequences. Go big or go home, right?
And when Steve finally drifted off, he heard something almost sounded like, "I love you, too."
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Synopsis: Choso was one of your closest friends - you spent so much time together, others said you were âattached at the hipâ. But when his curiosity blooms, you are the only one that can help quench his thirst for knowledge.
Characters: Choso Kamo x reader (about time)
Content: Minors Do Not Interact! smut, fem! reader, virgin! Choso (so virgin that he lives in a world where he has somehow at the age of twenty something never heard about masturbating or sexual intercourse), college au, link to prn audio, suggestiveness, cursing, mentions of female masturbation, male masturbation, maybe a tiiiiiny bit of voyeurism, pet/affectionate names, big (pretty) dick! Choso, just our sweet lovey boy Cho in his full glory tbh.
Word count: A solid 6k
Notes: AHEM! there is some spicy audio from twitter linked in this post as well as an SFW image at the end. youâll know when youâve reached that point, and it will be emphasized like this, accentuated with '*'. if that's not something you're down for, you can totally scroll past. if you arrrre down for that, i think you'll need to be logged into twitter beforehand for the audio. if you're on mobile, I'm not sure if you'll be able to hear the audio as you read (unfortunately), but if you can, you're in for a treat bitch.
More Notes: i finally have some of my own choso smut on this blog wtf. he is my guilty pleasure omg i mean literally who doesn't love him, more specifically him when he's an inexperienced desperate crying mess???? i really hope you enjoy this one, i have def enjoyed writing it. (side note - the songs i pick for these fics sometimes fit the vibe of what i wrote, and other times it's a song i can't get out of my head. both are the case for this one - i listened to this nonstop while writing so pls enjoy if thatâs cool with u). there will be future parts, and if you want to be tagged in those and youâre not already, let me know!!! SORRY TO YAP ILY BYE
(I wanted to upload this at like 5p my time for engagement purposes but then I thought about all the bitches (me) that may work from home, read smut on the clock regardless (me), or simply donât work rn, so I had to give you the goodness now)
âY/n, c-can I ask you a question? Like.. a personal one?â
You and Choso were seated on the couch, eyes fixated on the rom com on the screen ahead. It was your weekly movie marathon night - the movie you two just finished was an action thriller that was right up Chosoâs alley. It was your pick next, and you went with a classic rom com that had a few more spicy scenes than you anticipated. It left the air in the room feeling thick, both of you clearing your throats and glancing throughout the room as if someoneâs parents were present.
You and Cho had been close friends for a while, and it helped that you shared a similar schedule this semester. Although he was a cutie, you had no clue if he shared a similar attraction to you. He was so shy, and while the shy emo boy thing has worked on you before, you felt like youâd do nothing but corrupt Chosoâs innocent soul if you were to make a move. You let things play out naturally, enjoying the company he brought and your friendship - but if things went in a different direction, you wouldnât be opposed in the slightest.
âSure, Cho - whatâs up?â You ask, noting the concerned look on his face.
âHave you ever.. done that before?â He asks, motioning to the screen, and your heart aches with how precious he looks. His eyes flick up at you when your hand rests on his shoulder so you can scoot a little closer towards him.
âWell, yeah.. yeah I have. What makes you ask?â
âJ-Just the movie, I-I was just curious,â he blurts, trying not to sound as weird as he felt for asking.
âWell, what makes you want to ask me specifically, I mean,â you press, trying to read his expression through his shaggy hair and long lashes.
He blushes, making eye contact with you again before twiddling his thumbs in his lap.
âI just.. Iâve never done any that before, a-and I trust you, yaâ know? I didnât know if I was weird for not doing that,â he says, his voice becoming shakier by the second.
âOhmygod, Cho, no of course youâre not weird! Everyone discovers things at their own pace. Thereâs a whole lot of stuff when it comes to sex, so it can get overwhelming,â you say, rubbing his shoulder with your thumb to help calm his nerves.
Which was really doing the opposite. Your touch was searing hot on his skin and it worried him. Heâs been touched plenty of times, even by you - but it felt like you might melt through his skin if you pressed hard enough. It felt that way on his outer thigh, too; your knee resting on his leg accidentally inching closer to the area he felt every blood cell creeping to.
âY-Yeah, sâoverwhelming for sure,â he says, shifting his position slightly further from you.
âI-I donât even know where to begin.â
âBegin? Do you have someone in mind you want to do stuff with?â You ask, begging he says no. You felt a little weird for hoping, but you would hate for his first experience to be with the wrong person.
More blood rushes to his cheeks when he makes eye contact with you, quickly looking back to the TV when he sees a hopeful look in your eye.
âN-No, definitely not. I just want to learn more, f-for when that time comes,â he says, clearing his throat and hoping you donât catch on to his half-lie.
Phew.
âWell itâs probably best to start with the basics, yeah? Just the simple stuff, then eventually you kind of.. figure out where to go from there, if that makes sense,â you add, and he responds with a simple nod as he turns to face you again, ready to absorb whatever knowledge you have to share with him.
âSo⌠have you ever touched yourself before?â You ask, trying not to wince at how awkward you felt asking him something so personal. But you had to assess how much he really knew.
He furrows his brows in confusion and lets out a small laugh, âUm, obviously - see?â He asks as he pokes his stomach with his pointer finger, and you remind yourself to keep a straight face. You grab his arm to refocus him and he huffs a breath of half-laughter as he notices how the blood in your fingertips pulse against his wrist.
âNo, Cho. I mean like.. down there,â you say, motioning to his crotch area with your finger - he still looks confused.
âYou know? To have an orgasm..â you ask, hoping he will pick up on your hints.
âOrgasm?â
You sigh, trying to find the right wording to explain this without sounding belittling.
âSo, when I said âtouching yourselfâ, I was referring to masturbation. Iâm not gonnaâ teach you how to do that because a Google search will tell you all you need to know,â and he nods feverishly.
âWhen you do.. sex stuff - like masturbate, have sex, all of that, usually the goal is to have an orgasm. Not always, but most of the time. I donât know all the science behind it, but when you repeatedly stimulate the nerves in this area,â you say motioning to your groin, âyou can have an orgasm.â
âO-Okay, I understand. Is the orgasm weird? Sounds like it,â he asks and you smile.
âNo, no not at all. It feels really good. You know how when you have to sneeze and thereâs this big buildup, then bam, you sneeze? And you feel so relieved? Itâs kindaâ like that, but a million times better.â
âBetter than eating your favorite food? Or watching movies?â
He asks, eager to know more.
And you sigh again, âWell, itâs hard to compare it to stuff like that, but it is really pleasurable. It just makes your body feel good, I guess. Itâs hard to explain it through words, but now you know a little more - if youâre interested in that sorta thing.â
âNo, I think I understand better now,â he says, thankful for your instruction.
âOh, and if you do masturbate, when you have an orgasm, some fluid will come out from.. down there. But itâs normal and happens to everyone.â
âFluid? Even girls?â
âYes, Cho, even girls. Itâs different though for sure. For girls itâs more like clear.. slimey stuff? And for you itâs like a white.. liquid? Iâm sorry, Iâm so bad at explaining shit,â you laugh, rolling your eyes at how stupid you felt.
âNo, y/n youâre doing a great job! I had no clue about any of this stuff. Question.â
âShoot.â
âWhat is it called? The fluid,â he says hesitantly, still trying to wrap his mind around how making fluid come out of any body part was a good thing. He feels his crotch grow warmer and, out of embarrassment, shifts his pillow to hide his growing problem.
âOh, well thereâs scientific names for it, but everybody calls it cum,â you say as you will the blush to fade from your cheeks.
âCum. Like âcome hereâ?â
âY-Yeah, pretty much. Just spelled different.â
âGot it. Another question.â
You nod.
âHow do you know when to masturbate?â
You were hoping this was one he wouldnât ask.
âWell kind of whenever you want to,â and his eyes widen, âLet me rephrase that. Itâs kind of like using the restroom, right? Something that you do behind closed doors.â
âY-Yeah, makes sense. But whenever you want to? How do you know when you want to?â
âOkay,â you start, âyou know how people in movies talk about being horny? It basically means youâre.. turned on, you want to have sex, stuff like that. So when you feel that way you could do it if you want. For you itâll be a little easier to tell.â
âHow?â
âYou know how when you wake up in the morning and your⌠area is hard?â You ask and he blushes, turning again to look at the television.
âYes,â he answers simply.
âWell when it is hard, it doesnât always mean youâre horny - it can just happen randomly. But whenever you do start to feel that way, usually itâll get hard. But that doesnât mean you have to masturbate whenever it is that way, you know? Just if you want to,â
He gulps as he shushes the images in his mind of you waking up in his bed beside him, still trying to understand all the information being thrown at him.
âO-Okay. I-I think thatâs good, for now, to start at least. Thank you for telling me all of that,â he says with a smile as he tries to focus his attention to the tv.
âItâs no problem, I promise. You can always ask me questions about anything, you know that right?â You say, wrapping your arm around his shoulders to give him a quick squeeze of reassurance.
âY-Yeah, of course,â he says, voice cracking as he finishes his statement. There was yet another passionate scene appearing on screen, albeit shrouded by covers and dim lighting. The discussion left him feeling hot all over, and the blood rushing southward had only increased. It didnât help that you pressed your plush chest into his arm so sweetly when you hugged him. Although he had never seen a woman in that way in person before, he knew that if he had to pick, itâd be you. It always would be.
âY/n, would you hate me if I had to go home? My tummy hurts for some reason,â he says with a grimace, rubbing his abdomen as he looks at you.
You chuckle, âOh really? It wouldnât have anything to do with the three pounds of candy you ate would it?â You ask, pointing to the empty wrappers he had shoved into the plastic sack they came in.
âYouâre probably right, hah. Iâm sorry, I just feel like I need to lay down,â he admits, wiping the sweat he feels accumulating on the back of his neck.
You shove into his arm, to which he responds with a fake âowâ. âUgh, and right in the middle of my movie? You owe me one, Cho,â you say, sticking your bottom lip out for good measure.
He smiles brightly, crows feet decorating the corners of his eyes. âDuhhhh, we can just reschedule for the weekend. I should be free Saturday night if you wannaâ?â He asks.
âIâll have to check my schedule. Donât leave much room in my calendar for traitors nowadays.â You say with a dramatic roll of your eyes. He giggles and pushes you back, sticking his tongue out before he gathers his things to go.
You reach up so he can give you your usual bye hug before he continues walking to your door.
âIâll give you double next time, I-I donât wanna get you sick,â he yells as he scrambles to unlock the door. You start to get up to demand your hug before you hear the door open with a rushed âsee yaâ laterâ as he shuts it.
He rushes out the door, fumbling for his keys before he sits in his car with a huff. He was throbbing now, but you said it was something to do behind closed doors. To be fair, he was scared to try. What if he didnât do it right?
He wipes his palms on his pants, turning the key in the ignition before he pulls out of the drive. He had so much to think about - there was no time for music. He drives home in silence, replaying the conversation the two of you had as he tries to will his hardon to go away. But each time he thought about it, it would twitch in response to the images of you in his head.
You watch him leave from your kitchen window. He looked okay, maybe a little feverish. With how sudden it came on, you felt like it had more to do with the conversation you two had than the exuberant amount of candy. You did throw a lot of information on him at once though. You want to text him to get to the bottom of things, but he was notorious for texting you back as he was driving, not wanting to leave you waiting for long. You decide to wait until after the shower you so desperately needed.
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You wrap your hair in a towel and throw on your previously laid out pajamas. You fan your face so your moisturizer can dry as you go to grab your phone off the charger. No texts from Choso, surprisingly. He usually always texted you when he got home.
âjust checking in, how you feeling??đ¤˘â
You canât even close your phone before a loud ding! echoes in your room.
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The ride home was excruciating. Now that he knew there was a way to take care of things, he felt helpless not being able to now. At this point, he still didnât even really understand how to⌠âstimulate the nervesâ - that could mean anything. The knowledge he had now plays on repeat in his mind as he pulls up to his apartment. He checks his phone - it reads a too-bright 9:33.
He goes inside and immediately lays on the couch, not having the energy to go upstairs just yet. He forced himself to sleep. He knew texting you would make him think of the way you smelled earlier, the way you were so suddenly all over him, how your chest pressed into him when you hugged him like you usually do.
It only made matters worse that he dreamed of you - his aching, throbbing problem seemed to be worse now that he refused to take care of it earlier. He rubs his eyes, reaching for his phone to see you texted him about thirty minutes ago.
âIâm good! Just needed to lay down, sorry I didnât text you!! I fell asleep when I got backđ´đĽąâ
âItâs okay bestie!!! Do you feel better now?â
âYeah a little bit! Thank you for talking to me earlierâ
âSorry if it was weirdâ
âohmygooooooddddd dude I told you it wasnât weird! Iâm always down to talk about whatever silly buttâ
âI knowwwwđ¤I just felt awkward but I didnât know who else to askâ
âItâs okay I promise. Do you have any other qâs? Might make you feel less awkward ykâ
âMayyyybeđâ
âIâm waitingđââď¸â
Your response made him anxious - he felt like heâd been hard for hours at this point. He knew it had something to do with you, though it was difficult to admit. He had always looked at you fondly, sneaking glances when you werenât looking, finding reasons to come over, staying up late just to talk on the phone. But he was so new to everything he had no idea on how to take things further, if you even wanted to.
He did want to learn more about you, though - like he always did.
âdo you touch yourself?â
You did not expect him to ask anything like that. He was usually so innocent and coy. It could have been genuine curiosity, although your stomach was telling you something else.
âummmmm yes sometimesđ¤whyâ
He did not expect your answer, either. Not that he thought you wouldnât - you obviously knew enough about it to teach him well. But he also didnât think you would, maybe he was even hoping you wouldnât. Knowing that you do made him feel like he could combust.
âI was just curious!! sorry if that was too farâ
He types the message quickly, locking his phone before he headed upstairs. He was determined to learn more - he was so hard at this point it was hurting. He couldnât keep his mind clear from the lewd depictions of you sprawled out for him so pretty.
He sits into his computer chair quickly, logging onto his desktop before he pulls up an incognito tab. He knew that porn was out there, but he wanted actual educational material.
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Itâs been only fifteen minutes and he feels like he's discovered an entirely new world. He knows even more than he bargained for and heâs seen enough instructional diagrams to last a lifetime. He feels like he has a decent grasp on how to masturbate and even some ways to please others, when that time comes.
He grabs his phone, worried what your response would be to his prying question.
âno itâs okay! just didnât expect you to ask but yeah, it can be a great stress reliever!!â
You send the message, hopeful you didnât sound to forward.
He receives it and the tent in his pant twitches involuntarily. He puts his phone face down on the desk, taking a breath as he attempts to process what you said.
âalso not to change the subject bc we can still talk about whatever, but i really need help on the calc hwđđâ
He was too excited at the thought of you so expertly relieving your stress. He imagines you all red faced, panting and falling apart. How sweet youâd sound gasping and whining his name. The thought has him reaching for the waistband of his lose sweats, his long fingers making his abdomen tense when they move further, brushing the trimmed hairs at his base before they just barely wrap around his shaft. He pulls his sweats over his length, gasping at the dry stimulation. His cock springs forward, smacking loudly on his stomach as he winces. Heâs been painfully hard for hours now - his angry tip was drooling precum, smearing it underneath his belly button into his happy trail. He grabs himself again, wrapping somewhat firmly around the base of his cock, careful not to squeeze too hard. The diagrams he studied said too much of a grip wasnât ideal, but too loose wouldnât provide enough stimulation.
He pulls his hand up slowly, the skin around his tip enveloping the curves of his cock head snugly before releasing it as he moves his hand downwards back to its original position.
âf-fuck,â he whines, already overwhelmed by the new sensation. Itâs not like he hasnât felt something similar before - but the new knowledge of what this was, what it led to, left his breath shaky from the anticipation. He moves again, gripping slightly harder as he brings his hand up further than before, almost entirely to the tip as more spurts of his essence leak from his tip to his fingers.
He continues, slowly increasing his pace. Each stroke elicited a noise from him - a gasp or a grunt, and downright pitiful whines that were ripped from the bottom of his lungs. He had never felt so close to nirvana before and he couldnât help vocalizing* his pleasure as he struggles to keep a steady pace. He tries to stop his mind from drifting, but the snug grip he has on his length as he repeatedly bucks into his hand sends him to a place where every thought is infiltrated with your essence. The way your hands squeeze his shoulder, how the fat of your hips threatened exposure when you wore your favorite pajama shorts, how you were always so warm, how your hair smelled when he hugged you. He reaches his free hand up into his shirt, resting on his heart as he tries to match the erratic beating rhythm with his strokes. Heâs nearly crying now, strangled noises leaving his throat so raw and sharp, voice cracking and heaving as he feels an unfamiliar pull in his groin. Heâs whining out pitiful cries of your name now in response to the borderline overstimulation of his pretty, weeping cock. Sweat pools on his body as his hips come entirely off the chair to pump messily into his fist, chasing a release he didnât know he needed.
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You check your phone again, seeing a message that still read as âdeliveredâ. Choso was usually so quick to text you back, almost like he left the screen open to your messages only. You were starting to worry that he may actually be sick with his unusually inconsistent communication. The calculus problem you needed help with was staring back at you on your laptop screen, still waiting to be answered.
You open up your discord to see his status as âidleâ. However, when you open Skype, you see a little green dot showing he was active in the last hour. Might as well call him here if he didnât have his phone.
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Shit. His vision was turning white as he felt every sense in his body ignite before he is lurched back into reality when a familiar chime plays in the background, somehow perceivable over the dull ringing in his ear. The sound is hardly audible behind his pathetic whimpers as he tries to steady his breathing before he answers. He flips his phone over first to see a message from you from a few minutes ago, and he curses a long string of 'fuck, fuck, fuck'.
He answers the call, feeling so stupid for keeping you waiting again. Heâs unaware of the state he appears to be in when the webcam turns on, bright desktop light illuminating his red, fucked-out face.
He stutters, still struggling to catch his breath as he wipes the sweat from his brow.
âH- Hi, Hi, y-y/n,â he says, choking out an airy laugh as he puts his head in his hand.
âWere you just -â you say, putting the pieces together as you take in his image - splotchy, sweat-shined skin, hair stuck slick to his forehead, shaky hands, and bitten, swollen lips. It would explain the inconsistent messaging, the off-kilter questions from earlier, and most importantly, the state he was in now. He was nearly moaning on the call, still too caught up in his obvious state of pleasure.
âI swear, I wasnât, hah,â he starts, taking a deep breath again as he finds a nearby towel and runs it through his sweaty, disheveled hair, letting out an audible 'fuck' to your surprise - he never cursed in front of you.
âJ-Just got back from a run!â He adds with a smile, clearing his throat as he readjusts in his chair.
âI thought you were sick?â You ask, trying to adjust your laptop camera as you sit back into the bed. Choso gasped, barely detected by his webcam mic as your camera twitched downwards in your attempt to reposition. The camera flashed your waist, hugged tightly by your white tank top, which was followed by your full chest, nearly heaving out of the neckline - his breath hitched as he catches a glimpse of your nipples peeking through the thin material. All too quickly the camera is refocused by on your face.
He thought this would make it better for him, having the camera pointed away from your tempting figure. But your clean, soft skin shined so brightly on camera and made him feel like he could melt. He still breathes heavy, trying to find an explanation to your question.
âYeah, phew - felt like I was getting a fever, wanted to run out the ick, yaâ know?â He says, chuckling nervously after he finishes. He looks down at his gray t shirt, now covered in sweat.
âGimmeâ just a secâ - gonna change,â he says and you respond with a hesitant âokayâ. You chose not to tease him although the thought was lingering - he was probably as embarrassed as heâd ever been getting somewhat caught in the act.
He reaches his hand up to his webcam, sliding the privacy shield to your right - only halfway. He doesnât realize his mistake, his still shaking fingers betraying him. He stands from his desk with a huff, and your hand flies to your mouth as you stifle a gasp. For a brief moment, his pelvis faces the camera before he turns to find a shirt. Heâs pulling his sweats up as youâre able to see just a flash of his crotch, light brown hairs decorating his pelvis that come to a head at the end of a sharp, defined âvâ. In the few seconds, you were able to see a clear outline of his dick pressed firmly into the fabric of his sweats. It looked girthy and he sat so heavy and pretty - the rounded mushroom tip protruding where it rested in the left leg of his pants. There was a darker gray patch near his tip, signaling the problem youâve suspected him to have since he left your place earlier. He unknowingly continues his show, pulling his ruined shirt over his fluffy hair, flashing his taught abdomen before your very eyes. You could tell he was built under his clothes, and a lot of his time outside of class and hanging out with you was spent in the gym. But the up close viewing on his toned figure was enough to send a heat rushing towards your core as filthy thoughts of him on top of you flash one after the other. He unfortunately turns to find a new shirt, coming back after he finds a white compression tee to smooth over his still damp torso.
He slides the cover left, smiling at the camera with a wave as he announces his return. You clear your throat, trying to refocus your attention to the matter at hand.
âHey yeah, um - the homework, right. Itâs number⌠26 on the âlimitsâ assignment,â you explain.
âRead it to me,â he demands, breathing finally stabilized from earlier.
You read the equation, explaining the error you got each time you plugged it into your calculator.
His face lights up, âOh, yeah! That one was tricky, itâs D though. Iâll explain it in class tomorrow if you want,â he adds, desperate to end the call. While he could look at you eternally, the sensitivity he was experiencing had him nearly ripping the wood from his desk topping with his fingernails.
âAwesome, thank you!â You reply, selecting the correct answer before you minimize the tab, wanting to set the call to full screen for a moment.
âCho, can I come over tomorrow? I know you said we wouldnât be able to until Saturday, but I can already tell Iâll be bored tomorrow.â
Heâs shocked.
âM-My place? We always go to yours though -,â he answers, glancing around at the state of his room to be met with more of a mess than he remembered.
âWell yeah, but we never go to yours though! Figured it could be fuuunnn,â you add, hoping he doesnât see right through your real intentions. The intentions you had of ensuring he was taught well, far better than you were able to earlier. You feel as if the dots connected before you - his permanent blushed cheeks he wore so proudly whenever you touched him, the longing look in his eyes as you attempted to explain the basics of self-pleasure, and how frantically he had to leave after said conversation. Even if you were reading into this incorrectly, it would be nothing more than another movie night, which you'd never turn down.
He smiles again, nodding as he says, "You know what? Yeah, yeah that would be fun. Just gotta' tidy up before then," he finishes with a laugh, trying to remind himself that asking you to come over right now might be a step too far.
"Oh you know I don't care Cho, I'll take you however I can get you," you say as you search for the blush you expect to appear - and it does.
"Oh, y/n, he sighs, and the slight desperation in his tone made your stomach drop.
âUm, I know I've already said this today but would you hate me if I got off the call?" He asks, not so subtly seeking your permission. "I need a shower bad, hah," he says, putting emphasis on 'need'.
You give him his sought after permission, waving a quick 'bye' before he does the same, leaving the call with a sigh.
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You breathe deeply, closing your laptop screen with a huff as you decide to leave the rest of your homework until later. If you had enough sense, you figured Choso was still sat on the other side of his desktop, fingers reaching into his waistband to finish what he had started earlier. You enjoyed the thought, imaging how sweet he'd sound when he found release for the first time.
You knew you had plans to make a move tomorrow, but you didn't want it to fall on deaf ears. If Cho was anything, it was oblivious, you think, remembering the poke of his tummy from earlier when you asked if he had ever touched himself. Bless his heart.
You stand to your dresser, pilfering through the countless pairs of boring underwear and bras to find the stash you usually kept for special occasions. You pulled out a whopping ten pairs of panties, all adorned with different lace patterns, bows, and varying pretty colors. You find two of your favorites - a lacy white pair with a tiny bow on the waistband that's entirely see-through, and a pastel pink thong covered in little hearts. You make sure to grab the matching bras that were thankfully clean. You lay them on the bed behind to you, snapping a quick picture before you return everything to your drawer.
You search through a lower drawer, pulling out two random pairs of shorts and some shirts to match. You quickly throw two outfits together, taking individual pictures of each before you shove everything back into the drawer. You sit back in the bed, snuggling under the covers as you pull up your messages.
â[Attachment: 1 Image]â
â[Attachment: 1 Image]â
âHELLPPPâ
âcanât figure out what to wear for tomorrowâď¸â
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He breathes deeply, steadying himself as he stands to his feet. He still had to finish what he started, and a shower probably wouldnât hurt with the mess he felt like he might make. He strips his clothes, leaving them in the floor as he makes his way to the bathroom.
He makes sure to bring his phone with him, ringer on and volume fully up. He had missed too many of your messages tonight, and heâd be damned if he missed another. He sits his phone on the nearby shower shelf, double checking the ringer was on.
The hot water quickly fogs the bathroom mirror as he looks down pitifully at his swollen cock, still hard and desperate as it cries for attention. He pictured your sweet face beneath him on your knees, doing the few things he could now imagine clearly. He knew you were the expert between the two of you, and he needed you to be the one to teach him what real pleasure felt like when it was given by your deft hands. He wouldnât dare think of how sickly sweet itâd feel to rut into your mouth, how earth-shattering itâd be to bully his length deep into the goddess between your legs.
ding!
Heâs pulled out of his trance, grabbing his phone with a smile as he sees your contact name shine brightly on the screen. He reads your message, then reads the incoming three, trying not to pick the image with the shorter bottoms - but he truly canât help himself.
âummmmmm lemme thinkâ
âdefinitely the second one, the blue is NICEđââď¸â he responds, trying to sound like a regular person that was not at all interested in how your curves would sneak out of the bottom of your shorts.
He steps into the shower, shoulders dropping at the relaxing warmth. He hasnât stopped picturing your face since heâs been home, but you so graciously gave him more eye candy to gawk at with the silly slip of your webcam. The low neckline of your top burned bright in his mind as he reaches his hand down again, wrapping his fingers gently around his width, leaving his thumb pressed softly into the prominent vein on the side. He wanted to try to mimic what he thought your touch would feel like - the brief flashes he got of your pretty hands typing away at your keyboard gave him all the information he needed to work with. He started slowly, dragging his large hand up before he thumbed his dripping slit, whining your name immediately at the contact. He pictures you again with your knee sliding up his thigh, hand firm on his shoulder while you whisper what he wishes were sweet nothings. He continues his soft hold as he strokes himself so sweetly, just like how he imagined you would. The pitiful noises he made earlier are now increasing ten-fold, loud whines echoing in the shower as he chases his release. He didn't realize how close he was already from the previous edging session he just brutally experienced. His cockhead was spitting now, the over-abundance of precum falling in stringy lines to the shower floor. He feels the pull in his groin again, so much quicker than he did last time, and itâs like he knew this was it.
Itâs almost like you did, too.
âding! ding! ding!â
â[Attachment: 1 Image]â
â[Attachment: 1 Image]â
âbut youâve gotta help me pick the full fit Chođ¤â you send, internally squealing as you put your phone face down on the bed, forcing yourself to not look at the time he reads the message.
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He stills his movements slightly, maintaining your his soft grip, reaching with his free hand to his phone, careful not to soak it as he brings it into the shower. The screen recognizes his face instantly, giving him a sneak peek of the lewd images you so graciously sent him as he feels his heartbeat in his ears - his heart rate increases so dramatically, he sees each pump of blood in the outskirts of his field of vision. He pauses for a moment, tightening the grip on his cock before he starts pumping furiously, nearly drunk on the pleasure as he whines breathy cries of your name. He opens the message and his jaw falls open, his pathetic cries of âpleaseâ âmoreâ and âbabyâ reverberating off the shower walls. In a fleeting moment, his balls clench tight to his pelvis and the pressure he felt pooling in his groin now snapped as his hips lurch forward, painting the shower floor white all for you as he tries to stabilize himself by holding onto the wall. He looks down through his almost blacked vision, surprised at the sheer volume of fluid he felt was being ripped from him. He kept cumming even after his hand had stilled, sharp jerks of his cock overstimulating him with each searing hot pump of liquid. He finally finishes with heavy breaths that threaten to turn into cries as he remembers the messages you sent him.
In his daze, he finds his phone wet in his hand as he rushes for his towel, wiping the screen quickly. Your messages still waiting to be answered that were sent a whole⌠4 minutes ago.
ây/nâ
âthank gouâ
âumâ
âareyou really asking me topick?,?â
Thank you? Was he drunk?
âthank you?â
âand yes dummy Iâm asking you to pick :Pâ
And his heart quickens again.
âthank you for sending me thatâ
âI likeit a lotâ
âsorrymy pgones wettâ
âthe pink one. please.â
He responds, making sure to type the last message clear as day.
âwhy is your phone wet you nasty??â you respond, laughing to yourself at his tangible nervousness that was apparent even via text.
âshowerrrrrâ
âand I donât even get a pic back? wowwwâ you respond, trying to see just how far you could take this before you head to bed for the night. You expect him to respond with a message filled with emojis as he skirts the question.
He finishes his shower quickly, unwilling to ruin his phone in an attempt to take a shower selfie. He steps out and dries off in a hurry, finding a nearby pair of jogging pants as he rushes back to his bedroom, hair dripping cold water down his back.
â[Attachment: 1 Image]â *
The warmth between your thighs grows as you selfishly save the image to your camera roll. You expected anything but his forward response - compared to the previous dearth of knowledge of how he looked under his clothes, you felt like he had sent you straight-up pornographic material.
âyou really outdid me, Choâ
âwho knew you were hiding all that?â
âIâll have to think of a way to repay you tomorrow đ¤ youâre so good to meâ you dote, knowing his affinity for praise.
He blushes, smiling hungrily as he types his response, wincing at the feeling when his half-hard cock jumped in response to your words.
âi literally canât waitâ
pt. 2 coming
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