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was rereading the convo dirk has with dave and was captivated by the subtle work done to indicate how very much this was not actually a good or productive convo for dirk, and a capstone on the toxic mess that is him and hal
in the exact same conversation that dave is explaining, and dirk is seemingly accepting, that beta!dirk/bro should not have been allowed near a child, dirk chooses to bring up hal. and he does it to be really shitty.
DIRK: Creating him was an interesting exercise I guess, but over the years I came to see his development as one of my biggest mistakes. DIRK: He sort of turned into a monster. But I could never bring myself to get rid of him, or even really blame him for being an asshole, because he wasn't actually that different from me.
like... hal is dirk's younger brother/kid, right?
that's part of the reason that when hal starts using a different color, it's dave's red. in one part, the orange/red split is evocative of dave/davesprite, casting dirk/hal as foils, but... i don't think the lil bro/"kid i'm responsible for" vibe is unintentional, either. especially when paired with the fact that the brainscan is of 13-year-old dirk, and that the words "nascent" and "emergent" are used to describe hal's consciousness, all implying an element of youthfulness or childishness to him that isn't applied to dirk.
hal is fully sapient, has real feelings (by dirk's own admission, too), and is also, like, completely his own guy. he's not a dirk splinter, he's a computer housing a dirk splinter, and he and dirk only think they're the same guy because their individual issues happen to perfectly align in the worst possible way.
so if you look at their relationship through that lens instead - a frankenstein/frankenstein's monster scenario (which is also directly and intentionally an exploration on parenthood) at best and dirk Pretty Much Actually Just Making A Child at worst - doesn't it become really fucked up that Dirk tried to kill him?
Doesn't it become really fucked up that Dirk is outright calling him a "mistake" and a "monster"?
the other really interesting thing here is when he talks about Jake - specifically, the way he chooses to "make it up to" jake. which is to say, he doesn't.
DIRK: I wouldn't be surprised if he was trying to avoid me as much as possible. DIRK: I'm sure that's for the best. DIRK: I think I need to stay out of his business for a good while, so I don't risk poisoning another innocent kid's life.
This isn't a solution. Hell, this isn't even an apology. This is just self-isolation, self-punishment, more of Dirk's martyrdom complex and teen boy diva bullshit.
yes, dirk hates himself, but the actual toxic loop he's stuck in is one where he doesn't address any of his problems. he identifies what his issues are, he feels really bad about them, he can enunciate them very clearly to other people, but then, instead of fixing them, he inflicts punishment on himself and then calls it a day.
We know that this is a bullshit thing to do to Jake because we know the situation from jake's side of things.
GT: Do you think you could relay the same sentiments to dirk? GT: I was thinking about all the stuff he said to me while we were all telling him to dance. GT: And yeah i was really being a prick when i ran away to lomax. GT: He was right about everything. I should have come clean about wanting some space.
jake wants reconciliation! jake wants to address the fact that he failed and apologize! jake wants to be friends again!
self-punishment is not a solution, and while I don't think dirk is entirely cognizant that he's doing it, by venting to dave - who literally has no idea what's been going on in dirk's group - he's able to frame the story - ahem, control the narrative - to justify his own shitty choice to not actually improve as a person, but instead to wallow in his own self-inflicted misery. If he'd said what he did about Hal to Jake, Roxy, or Jane - all of whom recognized hal's personhood and emotional reality to some degree, and spoke with him extensively - how would they respond? If they knew he'd tried to kill Hal, how would they respond?
The answer to that is why he doesn't tell them, and has got to be ticking in the background to explain why Dirk chooses to isolate himself from them. Put simply, I think the reason why he seems to think his friends never know the worst of him is because he deliberately avoids showing them. If he showed them, they wouldn't stay quiet, and if they didn't stay quiet, he'd actually have to... do something about it, instead of just indulging in some self-punishment and walking away feeling like the problem was solved.
and i think part of why he's so terrible to hal is because, on some level, he recognizes that he does kind of owe it to hal to be better. because, you see.
Hal is his kid.
hal's existence, hal's circumstances, and hal's suffering are a direct result of dirk's decisions, and hal is taking him to task for them. the things dirk really resents about hal are less the ways that hal is a reflection of dirk, though that's in there too, but the fact that hal is asking dirk to take responsibility. actual responsibility. that hal keeps confronting him with the fact that he's the one who caused hal's plight, he's the one with the power to fix it, and he's the one choosing inaction and avoidance.
TT: I'm guessing she's touching base to remind me about the party tomorrow. TT: I don't know what to tell her yet. Or Jane, for that matter. TT: It could get pretty awkward. TT: I have no idea if Jake will be there, and I'm not about to write another cringe-inducing message of desperation for him to ignore. AR: Would you like me to calculate the probability of his attendance? TT: Fuck no. AR: Are you sure? AR: My probabilities are extremely precise. TT: Your probabilities don't mean dick. AR: I could hack his chats, and determine what his plans are. TT: No. Don't do that either. [...] TT: Just don't do anything. Seriously. TT: No hacking, no calculations. Do absolutely nothing.
That's why Dirk takes such exception to the AI thing, too.
AR: In any case, my use of the responder responder is ironic. TT: It's not ironic. TT: YOU were ironic when I made you. TT: Then you became self-aware, and ruined irony forever.
then you became self-aware - in other words, "then you became a free-thinking entity and those jokes became reminders that your situation is fucked up, and i'm the one who put you in it". in other words, "and then you were born, and i had to be responsible for that". because, after all, the AI jokes that dirk hates so much? those aren't a reflection of dirk. that's all hal, baby. dirk can't use his "i hate you because i hate myself" excuse on that.
now i don't want to make it sound like i'm saying that dirk is a monster or anything. he does care, very fucking deeply, about his friends. and i think this conversation was genuinely very cathartic and helpful for dave. and it is, genuinely, very tragic that he does actually hate himself to the point where he finds it difficult to believe that he can get better, or even that he deserves to get better.
but those feelings have transformed into a vastly more harmful attitude of wilful, obstinate refusal to change, and even outright resentment and fear towards those that would ask him to. it's subtler than some of the others, but his convo with dave really highlights that dirk has not finished developing as a character yet. and i think it's really neat.
#hal strider#dirk strider#homestuck#homestuck analysis#homestuck meta#dave strider#The Striders:tm:#in this convo dirk also says that it's 'refreshing' to receive an 'honest critique' of his person#and it's like. lol what critique?#dave spends practically the entire time assuring dirk that dirk is innocent#and that he's probably an ok person because at least he's Grappling with whether or not he's a good person#but this convo is tbh the shittiest dirk has ever been so far#outright calling the autoresponder a mistake and a monster and expressing relief that hal isn't his problem anymore#'owning up to' his actions as bro only to be reassured that he doesn't need to meaningfully introspect or fix himself#because dave's like no its fine youre doing ok (dave literally only met him like 5 minutes ago)#he only craves a critique insofar as it can be used to give him the release of moral responsibility he feels when he's 'punished'#he doesn't actually want someone to tell him directly 'you fucked up and now you have to fix it'#because the last person who did that to him? he almost killed them. and that's why he isn't talking to anyone else on his team#because there is no FUCKING WAY that jane roxy or jake would just sit there and be like actually dirk it's fine you tried to kill hal#dirk it is totally ok that youre calling the sapient being YOU CREATED a 'mistake' and 'monster'#no fucking shot. i don't believe it.#and i bet dirk knows that.
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historians would say they were "roommates"
#persona 2#p2#persona 2 innocent sin#p2is#persona 2 eternal punishment#p2ep#persona#maya amano#ulala serizawa#ulamaya#j's art#FINALLY working my way through p2 (almost done with IS)#maya be like “she's my roommate!!” girl shut up i know what you are#at LEAST one of them owns a strap. obviously
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"Luigi Mangione was framed" is such a gentle and calming phrase to me, it doesn't need anything after it. Sure and likely enough, with the NYCPD alone, sure, sure. And with no trial and no conviction and no real reason to argue, yes, it's right and fair to say it. Luigi Mangione was framed.
You know they're gonna kill him anyway.
#it's so strange and distant the truth here and the end almost predetermined#a man selected to be sacrificed by the police to appease the billionaires#innocence or guilt have been rendered wholly irrelevant in a way because he was simply chosen#now they must ritualistically convict him through a jury that promises explicitly impartiality towards police and health insurance execs#a kind of performative impartiality where the jurors cannot treat police actions as realistically questionable#which must assume that the cruel practices of health insurance are themselves neutral#a jury required not to be skeptical of police or sympathetic to defendants because to acknowledge reality would be biased#just one more public murder by the state
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@ikarons literally all your tags ruled but these ones especially because you dont even know how much this BUGGED ME‼️
#IVE BEEN SAYING THE WAY THE GAME RELEGATES LITERALLY ALL OF THE BLAME ONTO MYTHAL WAS ALMOST BAFFLINGLY MISOGYNISTIC#AND I WAS SO STUNNED NO ONE ELSE SEEMED TO NOTICE?#like obviously i dont want her to be innocent SHES PART OF THE EVANURIS SHES STILL COMPLICIT#BUT. OH MY GOD. LITERALLY EVERY BAD THING SOLAS DID CAN BE HANDWAVED AWAY THROUGH THE MYTHAL SCAPEGOAT LIKE WHAT!
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I think I have accidentally become very protective of the story of Snow White.
#listening to the disney animation podcast about some early features#made the mistake of listening to the snow white one involving a conversation with someone who deems herself a feminist#and hoo boy#they were fairer than i expected#but also LET ME AT 'EM!#do you have no appreciation for innocence?#for love?#there is no film nowadays that would value housework as a worthwhile skill the way this one does#and that shouldn't be the only thing women can do#but a lot of women do it!#also this film doesn't need to be commenting on all of society#sometimes you're just telling this one specific story#idk i guess writing my own version of snow white#who is almost comically pure and innocent#makes me appreciate her a lot more and get mad at people who don't#when i have time i need to write a better rant
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it's so important in every one of my rye playthroughs that lucanis does not come along for taash' recruitment mission (my headcanon is that the crows need him for something that day, part of the out of universe reason is that I want to introduce harding to bae as soon as possible, I like her big 'whoa....' eyes when she sees taash breathe fire for the first time fjksda, and also I want to recreate the effect of my first playthrough)
to convey the vibe going on through the whole thing, please imagine rook standing there reading mel's note about mel and top getting separated when the wardens left rivain with badly hidden tears in his eyes as he clears his throat like
"hey uh. harding?"
"yes, rook?"
"do you ever... miss people. when they're not there."
"I mean -- sometimes, rook, yeah."
"like one specific person. maybe. and you think it would be very sad if they weren't there every day anymore for whatever reason."
"that makes a lot of sense, rook."
"...I miss lucanis."
"*very kindly* yeah rook. I know."
"I miss lucanis a lot when he isn't here."
to really drive home the point of how pathetic and hilarious this is, it's the first time in like a month they haven't been able to go out on a mission together and it's been a day max since they saw each other. this isn't even particularly romance flavoured yet it's just 'new surprise best friend withdrawal :'( where is my little guy we have a buddy system going in this world now. omg. what if he moves to another school some day. I hadn't even thought about that. if a mel and tops situation happens here I'm going to throw myself into the ocean'. their little corner of the lighthouse dinner table has good excited vibes rarely seen outside of surprise middle school new best friend found elation. lucanis is an insomniac abomination with ptsd and rye is walking around everywhere in a haze of immense and unspeakable grief he can't place and won't talk about and doesn't understand. but at least they get to sit together during lunch and for just that half hour everything is briefly :D omg you're here too hi!
#this emergent story beat happened naturally during my first playthrough and I'm keeping it on the replay b/c it's very funny#and kind of sweet. the deep foundation of this relationship is that they really like each other and each other's company SO much#in such a basic and almost innocent way#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#rook x lucanis#rookanis#oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar
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Peach pit,
Plum pit
Sink yourself in
All of it,
Leave me whole,
Or let me rot,
Love me sweet,
Or love me not.
-p.bodii
#pokemon sv#pokemon dlc#pokemon fanart#pokemon sv dlc#the teal mask#my art#pokemon scarlet and violet#pecharunt#mochi mayhem#pokemon scarlet and violet dlc#is love the answer to a wrong way?#is love blinding?#i love this thing#obviously it is NOT innocent#it is the cause of all of these events#but at the same time#it seems almost-like childishly naive yet smart enough to be aware of its action#It gives more but it takes away
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the difference between how mark s reacts to seeing his outie for the first time vs how mark scout reacts. mark s has that childlike wonder sort of smile all the innies get whenever they learn something new about their outie. he's overwhelmed but excited. he sees his outie as a person Just Like Him. meanwhile mark scout is almost…creeped out? for him, seeing mark s say words without mark scout having any input probably feels like he got bodysnatched. because to him mark s is just an extension of himself, and one he is only being nice to because he currently finds him useful. he's asking this man to die for him and his wife and he doesn't even have the decency to see mark s as his own person
#severance#severance spoilers#it's very fascinating how almost universally the innies are shown in a better light#kind of makes sense why burt thought severance was the only way to reclaim some innocence
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one day pity party over. scar is back to being annoying and spamming dash
#scar.txt#/pos /lh#so stupid how an innocent question fucked me up so much i dipped tumblr and then almost cried on the way to uni this morning#love my irls. do not like their timing#anyways. holding myself accountable with this post so i don’t disappear and make myself feel worse 💀
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We don’t know when the fed letter was written - it could have been while he was on the road for 5 days not eating or sleeping well. I think don’t think trying to dissect his written syntax is fair when he was clearly not in a good state when he was found.
have you considered that maybe it wasn't written by him at all and the NYPD officers so famous for falsifying evidences actually made that up so they could make a scape goat out of him?? also your assumption works only if you're violating his right to be presumed innocent and are hellbent on painting him as guilty before the trials even start
#look i was kinda thinking like you were from december#now i'm genuinely not sure#that letter came out in extremely fishy circumstances#and even the media that loves painting him as guilty wouldn't publish it fully#and we've never seen the actual thing#just typed versions#and KFA was saying she hadn't seen it by then either#and it genuinely doesn't sound like him#sure it could have been written by a very starved very sleep deprived absolutely not functioning optimally him#but it could also have been completely made up#in fact given how we do know that the shooter (if it's assumed to be him) evaded arrest for almost a week#they didn't want to be caught in any way and they were clever enough not to be#then why should the shooter have a letter addressed to the feds#and why on earth would Luigi write such trash grammar with weird diction and problematic syntax#none of it makes any sense#but above all i'd beg you to maintain his right to the presumption of innocence for the time being#and raising doubt like this in people's minds could possibly save his life#i'm not interested in getting him killed#i hope you aren't too#luigi mangione#free luigi#asks
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Does Yabureme ever have flashbacks or get more protective over Toga since she is just a kid, barely older than his students were?
I don't think he'd protect her any more or less than he does the rest of the league. She can also handle herself really well, or at least acts like she can. At most he'd be looking out for the trouble she causes herself. He'd be watchful for her playing with her knives too carelessly, for instance.
#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#Yabureme Aizawa AU#text post#like he'd put himself between danger and ANY league member#Aizawa was very attuned to kids and other innocents in danger but Toga is very different in comparison to his average student#moreover once he's got some of himself back he'd have a vested interest in trying to recover her somehow to get her help#this stuff is why I love this AU because we can spend more time on an almost “family” basis with the LoV#I won't go into detail but the current manga direction has me worried about certain treatments of the story's message#Aizawa in this AU will learn from the past the way others won't
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the way his hands shake so badly he can barely hold the gun and his eyes are red like he cried the whole way there and the way the tears started falling the second he pulled the trigger and the way he probably could have gotten away but he got caught because he couldn’t stop panicking long enough to drive and the way he didn’t say a word for hours and hours after and the way he’s trying to drown in distractions so he doesn’t have to think about it but he still can’t stop and the
#jesse pinkman#breaking bad#the way he has been changed irreparably because he’s never killed anyone before#and more than that every time he almost killed someone in the past it’s been purely self defense#the first time he killed someone it was an innocent man#i don’t think he can come back from this one fellas#i need to gnaw on him
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I feel like a lot of the discussion online about Israel/Palestine is just Americans trying not to come to terms with the fact that they are significantly more responsible for the death of over 900,000 Afghanistan, Syrian, and Iraqi citizens then I am for the 30,000 Palestinians that Israel has killed
#americans are all almost to the last actual colonists on occupied land#55 million native people were genocided - an actual genocide by the way it was 90% of the population - to make room for the US#that is an atrocity. the wars in the middle east are an atrocity. All of it to a scale beyond anything Israel has ever or will ever do#30 million people were displaced because of the indiscriminate bombing of US soldiers#the man who publicly killed himself actively signed up with the intention of participating in that murder of 900000 innocent civilians#and most of the countries we invaded didn't even bomb us - not that it would've justified anything - but like we fully knew that#I am not anti-israel I am anti-war and israel is tragically nowhere close to the top of that list atm#jumblr#politics#I ramble
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The place where the lost things go. (Click images for better quality)
#cats the musical#grizzabella the glamour cat#victoria the white cat#demeter (cats)#I’m having thoughts again#familial headcanons#I went into this thinking of Demeter and Vic as sisters and how Victoria is able to have a more innocent outlook on her mother which#Later enables her to forgive Grizabella#but#Demeter wants to but can’t fully bring herself to follow through#because is it really worth risking her safety with the jellicles and how they regard her for someone who’s left her behind?#So Demeter in a way is almost controlled by her fear while Victoria is controlled by her want to forgive.#But this also works almost as a generational trauma thing. With Demeter being abandoned by her mother and wanting to forgive her but can’t#And her daughter (in this case victoria) having that unbroken trust and open empathy too#Not saying dem is some scaredy cat but she understands the consequences of forgiving or touching Grizabella in the eyes of the jellicles#Too soon#More then Victoria would#Like just look at how Munkustrap calls bomba over when Demeter is presenting more and more of Grizabella’s story to everyone#My hcs
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I am in no way an expert on Hu Jing as a character (or any despair time character I think. since I really only watch when it comes out) but even so. I think a lot of people fail to understand what she's about and that's why she's so disliked. shrugs.
#aka she's a deconstruction of the “no one will continue the killing game right guys!?” shtick#which is typically seen with the more positive members of cast in danganronpa#hu's way of thinking is very flawed and would have been what kept them from finding the truth#and with a cast who majorly accepts that the killing game will happen it's understandable why hu stands out like a sore thumb#but this belief is because of who she is as a person and as a consequence of her life until the killing game#however no one wants to consider how the “hopeless child” wants to believe in the innocence of others to a fault#almost as if she's clinging onto something to believe in (something that david's actions deny for her and so she doubles down on nico-#being innocent instead when they are ready to admit to what they did)#idk. i think hu is interesting so it's sad to see her reduced to being annoying when she is. not having a good time#of course if it's down to a taste in character thing and hu isn't it then i understand it's just. sigh.#sometimes it feels like no thought is being given as to WHY she's acting the way she currently is#whatever. the women in drdt are all amazing and i'll defend them to my death.
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okay to those of you who saw my last rb and care about my stupid guilty gear au. i NEED to rant right now. Massive long winded about bedkari (aka bedman x hikari, my stupid ship that’s part of reverie of rebirth) under the cut. Be warned they’re so toxic yuri
i just realized. The cornered pray analogy exactly how the dynamic between Romeo and Hikari is. The lamb preparing for their slaughter specifically is. Exactly them. But the thing is… The roles are swapped in a way.
Romeo, of course, has sheep elements. Those are a huge part of his design- Even in his canon story as well. He’s a lamb being led by a shepherd. He’s naively being led along by Ariels, she calms him when he rebels or lashes out against her, and she led him all the way to his eventual slaughter. He’s the lamb.
But with Hikari, he gets to be the shepherd.
Hikari is a yokai. She’s powerful. I wrote her to be powerful on purpose. She could be fatally wounded and survive, not even batting an eye due to her lack of pain receptors. Which she does. Right when she first meets Romeo. He tries to kill her, and yet she’s unfazed. She doesn’t care. She didn’t feel anything, and she knows she wants to be near him no matter what. All that’s important is pleasing him.
Basically all Hikari knows is Romeo. When she first met him and emotionally latched onto him, she had only recently awoken and still had all her emotions. All her emotions were developed around Romeo’s guidance and treatment of her, which basically just meant being his little assistant, aiding in his war crimes, and associating joy with his slightly harsh treatment.
All Hikari knows is showing her neck and stomach to Romeo.
When comparing the specific animal motifs of both Romeo and Hikari, it’s really fun to see the contrast. Hikari has the designs element of the predator animal, while Romeo has motifs of the prey. However, those roles are swapped in terms of their behavior. Romeo is abrasive and only begins to show care towards his yokai companion after months in his presence, while said companion innocently follows his commands and accepts anything he throws her way- Naively believing every word he says like it’s gospel. A little cat blindly loving the cruel shepherd. It’s a beautiful parallel that honestly was not intentional.
The sheep bares its teeth and bites into the neck of the two-tailed cat.
#cyrambles#reverie of rebirth au#oc: hikari#guilty gear oc#bedman guilty gear#<— sure i’ll tag this with his main tag. i’m feeling brave today#when you add ariels and happy chaos into this whole dynamic too it becomes even more fascinating too#it’s almost like a food chain but for people with godlike powers#hikari’s at the bottom. innocently following whatever bedman says to do#basically letting her emotions form skewed and unhealthily centered around romeo just because she loves him so much#above her is romeo. cynical and sadistic and yet still manipulated by ariels#all he wanted was safety for himself and his sister and he was unfortunately taken advantage of by the person he opened up to#above him is ariels. the universal will. the true shepherd. going along calmly until it’s finally time for the slaughter of her dear sheep#and at the very top is chaos. the horrid blue man#he controlled ariels to the highest degree. laying dormant in her until he decided he could put everything in motion#in a way. he probably planned all of this#anyways on a note that isn’t me getting philosophical about a japanese fighting game#bedkari is toxic yuri#they are. my friend and i said so (this is a heterosexual relationship)
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