#almost innocent in a way
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was rereading the convo dirk has with dave and was captivated by the subtle work done to indicate how very much this was not actually a good or productive convo for dirk, and a capstone on the toxic mess that is him and hal
in the exact same conversation that dave is explaining, and dirk is seemingly accepting, that beta!dirk/bro should not have been allowed near a child, dirk chooses to bring up hal. and he does it to be really shitty.
DIRK: Creating him was an interesting exercise I guess, but over the years I came to see his development as one of my biggest mistakes. DIRK: He sort of turned into a monster. But I could never bring myself to get rid of him, or even really blame him for being an asshole, because he wasn't actually that different from me.
like... hal is dirk's younger brother/kid, right?
that's part of the reason that when hal starts using a different color, it's dave's red. in one part, the orange/red split is evocative of dave/davesprite, casting dirk/hal as foils, but... i don't think the lil bro/"kid i'm responsible for" vibe is unintentional, either. especially when paired with the fact that the brainscan is of 13-year-old dirk, and that the words "nascent" and "emergent" are used to describe hal's consciousness, all implying an element of youthfulness or childishness to him that isn't applied to dirk.
hal is fully sapient, has real feelings (by dirk's own admission, too), and is also, like, completely his own guy. he's not a dirk splinter, he's a computer housing a dirk splinter, and he and dirk only think they're the same guy because their individual issues happen to perfectly align in the worst possible way.
so if you look at their relationship through that lens instead - a frankenstein/frankenstein's monster scenario (which is also directly and intentionally an exploration on parenthood) at best and dirk Pretty Much Actually Just Making A Child at worst - doesn't it become really fucked up that Dirk tried to kill him?
Doesn't it become really fucked up that Dirk is outright calling him a "mistake" and a "monster"?
the other really interesting thing here is when he talks about Jake - specifically, the way he chooses to "make it up to" jake. which is to say, he doesn't.
DIRK: I wouldn't be surprised if he was trying to avoid me as much as possible. DIRK: I'm sure that's for the best. DIRK: I think I need to stay out of his business for a good while, so I don't risk poisoning another innocent kid's life.
This isn't a solution. Hell, this isn't even an apology. This is just self-isolation, self-punishment, more of Dirk's martyrdom complex and teen boy diva bullshit.
yes, dirk hates himself, but the actual toxic loop he's stuck in is one where he doesn't address any of his problems. he identifies what his issues are, he feels really bad about them, he can enunciate them very clearly to other people, but then, instead of fixing them, he inflicts punishment on himself and then calls it a day.
We know that this is a bullshit thing to do to Jake because we know the situation from jake's side of things.
GT: Do you think you could relay the same sentiments to dirk? GT: I was thinking about all the stuff he said to me while we were all telling him to dance. GT: And yeah i was really being a prick when i ran away to lomax. GT: He was right about everything. I should have come clean about wanting some space.
jake wants reconciliation! jake wants to address the fact that he failed and apologize! jake wants to be friends again!
self-punishment is not a solution, and while I don't think dirk is entirely cognizant that he's doing it, by venting to dave - who literally has no idea what's been going on in dirk's group - he's able to frame the story - ahem, control the narrative - to justify his own shitty choice to not actually improve as a person, but instead to wallow in his own self-inflicted misery. If he'd said what he did about Hal to Jake, Roxy, or Jane - all of whom recognized hal's personhood and emotional reality to some degree, and spoke with him extensively - how would they respond? If they knew he'd tried to kill Hal, how would they respond?
The answer to that is why he doesn't tell them, and has got to be ticking in the background to explain why Dirk chooses to isolate himself from them. Put simply, I think the reason why he seems to think his friends never know the worst of him is because he deliberately avoids showing them. If he showed them, they wouldn't stay quiet, and if they didn't stay quiet, he'd actually have to... do something about it, instead of just indulging in some self-punishment and walking away feeling like the problem was solved.
and i think part of why he's so terrible to hal is because, on some level, he recognizes that he does kind of owe it to hal to be better. because, you see.
Hal is his kid.
hal's existence, hal's circumstances, and hal's suffering are a direct result of dirk's decisions, and hal is taking him to task for them. the things dirk really resents about hal are less the ways that hal is a reflection of dirk, though that's in there too, but the fact that hal is asking dirk to take responsibility. actual responsibility. that hal keeps confronting him with the fact that he's the one who caused hal's plight, he's the one with the power to fix it, and he's the one choosing inaction and avoidance.
TT: I'm guessing she's touching base to remind me about the party tomorrow. TT: I don't know what to tell her yet. Or Jane, for that matter. TT: It could get pretty awkward. TT: I have no idea if Jake will be there, and I'm not about to write another cringe-inducing message of desperation for him to ignore. AR: Would you like me to calculate the probability of his attendance? TT: Fuck no. AR: Are you sure? AR: My probabilities are extremely precise. TT: Your probabilities don't mean dick. AR: I could hack his chats, and determine what his plans are. TT: No. Don't do that either. [...] TT: Just don't do anything. Seriously. TT: No hacking, no calculations. Do absolutely nothing.
That's why Dirk takes such exception to the AI thing, too.
AR: In any case, my use of the responder responder is ironic. TT: It's not ironic. TT: YOU were ironic when I made you. TT: Then you became self-aware, and ruined irony forever.
then you became self-aware - in other words, "then you became a free-thinking entity and those jokes became reminders that your situation is fucked up, and i'm the one who put you in it". in other words, "and then you were born, and i had to be responsible for that". because, after all, the AI jokes that dirk hates so much? those aren't a reflection of dirk. that's all hal, baby. dirk can't use his "i hate you because i hate myself" excuse on that.
now i don't want to make it sound like i'm saying that dirk is a monster or anything. he does care, very fucking deeply, about his friends. and i think this conversation was genuinely very cathartic and helpful for dave. and it is, genuinely, very tragic that he does actually hate himself to the point where he finds it difficult to believe that he can get better, or even that he deserves to get better.
but those feelings have transformed into a vastly more harmful attitude of wilful, obstinate refusal to change, and even outright resentment and fear towards those that would ask him to. it's subtler than some of the others, but his convo with dave really highlights that dirk has not finished developing as a character yet. and i think it's really neat.
#hal strider#dirk strider#homestuck#homestuck analysis#homestuck meta#dave strider#The Striders:tm:#in this convo dirk also says that it's 'refreshing' to receive an 'honest critique' of his person#and it's like. lol what critique?#dave spends practically the entire time assuring dirk that dirk is innocent#and that he's probably an ok person because at least he's Grappling with whether or not he's a good person#but this convo is tbh the shittiest dirk has ever been so far#outright calling the autoresponder a mistake and a monster and expressing relief that hal isn't his problem anymore#'owning up to' his actions as bro only to be reassured that he doesn't need to meaningfully introspect or fix himself#because dave's like no its fine youre doing ok (dave literally only met him like 5 minutes ago)#he only craves a critique insofar as it can be used to give him the release of moral responsibility he feels when he's 'punished'#he doesn't actually want someone to tell him directly 'you fucked up and now you have to fix it'#because the last person who did that to him? he almost killed them. and that's why he isn't talking to anyone else on his team#because there is no FUCKING WAY that jane roxy or jake would just sit there and be like actually dirk it's fine you tried to kill hal#dirk it is totally ok that youre calling the sapient being YOU CREATED a 'mistake' and 'monster'#no fucking shot. i don't believe it.#and i bet dirk knows that.
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historians would say they were "roommates"
#persona 2#p2#persona 2 innocent sin#p2is#persona 2 eternal punishment#p2ep#persona#maya amano#ulala serizawa#ulamaya#j's art#FINALLY working my way through p2 (almost done with IS)#maya be like “she's my roommate!!” girl shut up i know what you are#at LEAST one of them owns a strap. obviously
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"Luigi Mangione was framed" is such a gentle and calming phrase to me, it doesn't need anything after it. Sure and likely enough, with the NYCPD alone, sure, sure. And with no trial and no conviction and no real reason to argue, yes, it's right and fair to say it. Luigi Mangione was framed.
You know they're gonna kill him anyway.
#it's so strange and distant the truth here and the end almost predetermined#a man selected to be sacrificed by the police to appease the billionaires#innocence or guilt have been rendered wholly irrelevant in a way because he was simply chosen#now they must ritualistically convict him through a jury that promises explicitly impartiality towards police and health insurance execs#a kind of performative impartiality where the jurors cannot treat police actions as realistically questionable#which must assume that the cruel practices of health insurance are themselves neutral#a jury required not to be skeptical of police or sympathetic to defendants because to acknowledge reality would be biased#just one more public murder by the state
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@ikarons literally all your tags ruled but these ones especially because you dont even know how much this BUGGED ME‼️
#IVE BEEN SAYING THE WAY THE GAME RELEGATES LITERALLY ALL OF THE BLAME ONTO MYTHAL WAS ALMOST BAFFLINGLY MISOGYNISTIC#AND I WAS SO STUNNED NO ONE ELSE SEEMED TO NOTICE?#like obviously i dont want her to be innocent SHES PART OF THE EVANURIS SHES STILL COMPLICIT#BUT. OH MY GOD. LITERALLY EVERY BAD THING SOLAS DID CAN BE HANDWAVED AWAY THROUGH THE MYTHAL SCAPEGOAT LIKE WHAT!
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Finished Plague Tale: Innocence yesterday....
#amicia bby#epitome of big sister syndrome#it makes me so angry that she has to take up all this responsibility and take care of a kid she barely knows#also kinda whack how the writers repeatedly try to frame it like oh he'll save you#oh amicia actually needs him just as much etc#she really really doesnt#that melie line makes no sense#like yeah#arthur saves you too because you guys are almost the same age melie#hugo is literally 5 years old he can not save or support amicia the way the writers seem to insist he can and does#bro what#amicia de rune#hugo de rune#plague tale#plague tale: innocence#fanart#phier#thefailureartist
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I think I have accidentally become very protective of the story of Snow White.
#listening to the disney animation podcast about some early features#made the mistake of listening to the snow white one involving a conversation with someone who deems herself a feminist#and hoo boy#they were fairer than i expected#but also LET ME AT 'EM!#do you have no appreciation for innocence?#for love?#there is no film nowadays that would value housework as a worthwhile skill the way this one does#and that shouldn't be the only thing women can do#but a lot of women do it!#also this film doesn't need to be commenting on all of society#sometimes you're just telling this one specific story#idk i guess writing my own version of snow white#who is almost comically pure and innocent#makes me appreciate her a lot more and get mad at people who don't#when i have time i need to write a better rant
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it's so important in every one of my rye playthroughs that lucanis does not come along for taash' recruitment mission (my headcanon is that the crows need him for something that day, part of the out of universe reason is that I want to introduce harding to bae as soon as possible, I like her big 'whoa....' eyes when she sees taash breathe fire for the first time fjksda, and also I want to recreate the effect of my first playthrough)
to convey the vibe going on through the whole thing, please imagine rook standing there reading mel's note about mel and top getting separated when the wardens left rivain with badly hidden tears in his eyes as he clears his throat like
"hey uh. harding?"
"yes, rook?"
"do you ever... miss people. when they're not there."
"I mean -- sometimes, rook, yeah."
"like one specific person. maybe. and you think it would be very sad if they weren't there every day anymore for whatever reason."
"that makes a lot of sense, rook."
"...I miss lucanis."
"*very kindly* yeah rook. I know."
"I miss lucanis a lot when he isn't here."
to really drive home the point of how pathetic and hilarious this is, it's the first time in like a month they haven't been able to go out on a mission together and it's been a day max since they saw each other. this isn't even particularly romance flavoured yet it's just 'new surprise best friend withdrawal :'( where is my little guy we have a buddy system going in this world now. omg. what if he moves to another school some day. I hadn't even thought about that. if a mel and tops situation happens here I'm going to throw myself into the ocean'. their little corner of the lighthouse dinner table has good excited vibes rarely seen outside of surprise middle school new best friend found elation. lucanis is an insomniac abomination with ptsd and rye is walking around everywhere in a haze of immense and unspeakable grief he can't place and won't talk about and doesn't understand. but at least they get to sit together during lunch and for just that half hour everything is briefly :D omg you're here too hi!
#this emergent story beat happened naturally during my first playthrough and I'm keeping it on the replay b/c it's very funny#and kind of sweet. the deep foundation of this relationship is that they really like each other and each other's company SO much#in such a basic and almost innocent way#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#rook x lucanis#rookanis#oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar
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Peach pit,
Plum pit
Sink yourself in
All of it,
Leave me whole,
Or let me rot,
Love me sweet,
Or love me not.
-p.bodii
#pokemon sv#pokemon dlc#pokemon fanart#pokemon sv dlc#the teal mask#my art#pokemon scarlet and violet#pecharunt#mochi mayhem#pokemon scarlet and violet dlc#is love the answer to a wrong way?#is love blinding?#i love this thing#obviously it is NOT innocent#it is the cause of all of these events#but at the same time#it seems almost-like childishly naive yet smart enough to be aware of its action#It gives more but it takes away
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the difference between how mark s reacts to seeing his outie for the first time vs how mark scout reacts. mark s has that childlike wonder sort of smile all the innies get whenever they learn something new about their outie. he's overwhelmed but excited. he sees his outie as a person Just Like Him. meanwhile mark scout is almost…creeped out? for him, seeing mark s say words without mark scout having any input probably feels like he got bodysnatched. because to him mark s is just an extension of himself, and one he is only being nice to because he currently finds him useful. he's asking this man to die for him and his wife and he doesn't even have the decency to see mark s as his own person
#severance#severance spoilers#it's very fascinating how almost universally the innies are shown in a better light#kind of makes sense why burt thought severance was the only way to reclaim some innocence
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Anyone else watched Ghosts? I've been kinda binging it the past few days and slowly getting obsessed with my favorite ghost. So... I got curious.
Feel free to explain why, but please, pay in mind I only just started on season 2 😅 No spoilers please!
#ghosts#cbs ghosts#I just love Sass so much he's so adorable and also I love it when he's making up stuff (also called lying) 😂#and encourages other people to make the wrong choice#he's like the little devil on your shoulder but in a cute and almost innocent way (emphasis on almost)#god I'm falling in love with him#'actually I'm an accountant named Mike and this was my Halloween costume' pleeeeaaaassseee 😂😂😂
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one day pity party over. scar is back to being annoying and spamming dash
#scar.txt#/pos /lh#so stupid how an innocent question fucked me up so much i dipped tumblr and then almost cried on the way to uni this morning#love my irls. do not like their timing#anyways. holding myself accountable with this post so i don’t disappear and make myself feel worse 💀
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Daily reminder that Ulala has been scammed before.
#P2 daily reminder#persona 2#persona series#persona 2 innocent sin#persona 2 eternal punishment#ulala serizawa#this is in no way me shamming her#i just want to remind people of this because god damn i would be pissed of if some asshole scammed me too#she had every right to almost pop her persona on that dude
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We don’t know when the fed letter was written - it could have been while he was on the road for 5 days not eating or sleeping well. I think don’t think trying to dissect his written syntax is fair when he was clearly not in a good state when he was found.
have you considered that maybe it wasn't written by him at all and the NYPD officers so famous for falsifying evidences actually made that up so they could make a scape goat out of him?? also your assumption works only if you're violating his right to be presumed innocent and are hellbent on painting him as guilty before the trials even start
#look i was kinda thinking like you were from december#now i'm genuinely not sure#that letter came out in extremely fishy circumstances#and even the media that loves painting him as guilty wouldn't publish it fully#and we've never seen the actual thing#just typed versions#and KFA was saying she hadn't seen it by then either#and it genuinely doesn't sound like him#sure it could have been written by a very starved very sleep deprived absolutely not functioning optimally him#but it could also have been completely made up#in fact given how we do know that the shooter (if it's assumed to be him) evaded arrest for almost a week#they didn't want to be caught in any way and they were clever enough not to be#then why should the shooter have a letter addressed to the feds#and why on earth would Luigi write such trash grammar with weird diction and problematic syntax#none of it makes any sense#but above all i'd beg you to maintain his right to the presumption of innocence for the time being#and raising doubt like this in people's minds could possibly save his life#i'm not interested in getting him killed#i hope you aren't too#luigi mangione#free luigi#asks
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Does Yabureme ever have flashbacks or get more protective over Toga since she is just a kid, barely older than his students were?
I don't think he'd protect her any more or less than he does the rest of the league. She can also handle herself really well, or at least acts like she can. At most he'd be looking out for the trouble she causes herself. He'd be watchful for her playing with her knives too carelessly, for instance.
#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#Yabureme Aizawa AU#text post#like he'd put himself between danger and ANY league member#Aizawa was very attuned to kids and other innocents in danger but Toga is very different in comparison to his average student#moreover once he's got some of himself back he'd have a vested interest in trying to recover her somehow to get her help#this stuff is why I love this AU because we can spend more time on an almost “family” basis with the LoV#I won't go into detail but the current manga direction has me worried about certain treatments of the story's message#Aizawa in this AU will learn from the past the way others won't
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the way his hands shake so badly he can barely hold the gun and his eyes are red like he cried the whole way there and the way the tears started falling the second he pulled the trigger and the way he probably could have gotten away but he got caught because he couldn’t stop panicking long enough to drive and the way he didn’t say a word for hours and hours after and the way he’s trying to drown in distractions so he doesn’t have to think about it but he still can’t stop and the
#jesse pinkman#breaking bad#the way he has been changed irreparably because he’s never killed anyone before#and more than that every time he almost killed someone in the past it’s been purely self defense#the first time he killed someone it was an innocent man#i don’t think he can come back from this one fellas#i need to gnaw on him
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