#almost everytime when I see him smile “Where is the Smiley?” starts playing in my head

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Ruby Eyes|| Seo Changbin (Stray Kids)

Pairing : Reader(fem.) X Changbin

Word count : 7.3k+ 

Warnings : Mention of an accident, cuss words, divorce, a single kiss.

Genre : Romance, Soulmate AU, fluff, angst, best friends to lovers.

Description: Seo Changbin has done everything in his capacity to remove and replace you, yet fate seems to have different plans for the both of you.

A/N : Hello everyone ahhh I know it’s been so long y’all. So many things have been going on including exams and internships and I just didn’t have the patience to write :(( This one shot was written as a part of a collab event by wonderful, dear Ro! 

I hope y’all like it!

"So, how's it being back, y/n?"

Your dad looks older now than he did the last time you saw him - probably two years ago, when you were leaving the country.

You missed him, really. You missed his warmth and his wisdom and how he was a sharp contrast to your mother, more calm and composed. Sometimes you wonder how your mother had even managed to get your custody after their divorce.

"Okay, I guess." You lie.

You didn't want your father to know how your feelings are all over the place, ranging from sadness to anger and longingness.

It's a weird thing to be experiencing such a cocktail of emotions when you'd convinced yourself these feelings had disappeared the day you left the old neighborhood, seven years ago. You had not felt any attachment towards the new neighborhood that you and your mother then went on to live for the next two years before you moved abroad for your studies. Yet you feel nostalgic now, as your father drives you through your old old neighborhood.

"How's mom?" He asks, taking a left to a road all too familiar to you, "Is she still going to therapy?"

You nod, "She's getting better, I think. The new country seems to have changed her. The therapy is helping too. She has many friends there now. "

At first when you were offered a job at one of the biggest publishing companies in the world, you were ecstatic. But everything soon died down when you found out you were posted at a branch in the country you'd left behind. It was your mother who'd convinced you to take it.

"I know you don't like being back, y/n." Your dad smiles sadly when he pulls over infront of your old house.The house that contains years of secrets, tears, lies and whispered confessions in front of the mirror stands in front of you, as grand and pretty as ever. It looks different but similar enough to make you tear up a tad bit.

"But I'm glad you're here. I really am." He says, "I renovated the house a little when you told me you were moving back. I hope it's okay."

You smile at the old man, wrapping your arms around him, "Thanks, dad. I missed you. I'm glad you're here, too."

He pecks your forehead, "I missed you, too, love."

Moving in doesn't take a lot of time since your dad had already set up everything. You just had to get some of your stuff and you were ready to kick start your stay.

That evening, your father leaves after making you promise to call him if anything happens at all and when the front door closes, you find yourself in the company of your old room.

You lie on your bed, eyes fixed on the ceiling as you hum an old tune to yourself. And without meaning to, you find yourself thinking about him; The man you hadn't seen or talked to for a whole seven years. The man who'd tried his best to stay in touch with you yet gave up when you didn't reciprocate the same.

A horrific realization then dawns on you,

He'd obviously replaced you now.

The familiar clouds of grief loom over you, threatening to engulf you any moment now.

No. Not now, please.

Getting up from your bed immediately, you shake your head as you make your way to the mirror- the mirror that had encountered more honest tears and smiles and words than any human ever had. You stare at your reflection as tears escapes your eyes, the bright red iris of your right eye staring back at you when you rub your tears off.

You shiver.

"Shit, I forgot to wear the contacts."

Quickly grabbing your lenses from your bag, you put them on, concealing the scary blood red color of your right eye. You take two long strides across the room and pulling your favorite black hoodie over your head, you walk out of the door.

By the time you manage to leave the house, it's already 10:30 in the evening. A quiet calmness has fallen over the town, as the shops and restaurants near the market square slowly start closing up. Your feet are as if on autopilot, taking you to that one place you know would still be open; Yang's Café.

And rightly so, the smell of freshly brewed coffee reaches your nostrils when you walk through their main door, past the group of chatty teenagers waiting outside. This place hasn't changed much, you realize, the brown and golden hues of the place and the vintage coffee cups collection in the far corner of the Cafe are still the same. The only difference is that you're no longer here with your best friend right after school, you are here all alone on an evening too quiet for your liking.

"Y/n? Is that you?"

When you turn around to face the owner of the voice, you are stunned.

"Jeongin?"

Jeongin's family has owned this Cafe for three generations now, from his great-grandparents, his grandparents, his parents and soon enough it'll pass down to him. As a kid, you remember often playing with Jeongin at the park and teaming up with him during quiz competition. He was always sweet and always smiley.

But the handsome young man that stands in front of you doesn't resemble the Jeongin you once used to know, not even a little bit.

"What..what happened to you!" You exclaim, taking his face in your hands, "Where are the braces! And the specs and wow, would you look at the blue hair!"

Jeongin can only let out a few giggles as you continue squishing his face and complaining how big he's grown in only over seven years.

The customers give you weird stares but only the heavens above know how genuinely happy you are to see Jeongin, albeit the fact you almost couldn't recognize him there for a second.

"What have you done to my child?" You mutter when you've finally calmed down and Jeongin takes you to your seat.

"I have a mother, y/n, thank you very much," he laughs, taking a seat opposite to yours, loosening the Barista apron around his torso, "And I missed you too."

You attempt to pinch his cheeks but he is quick to dodge.

"So how have you been?" He asks through giggly breaths.

You sigh, "I'm good... I feel weird being back here, honestly but I think I'll get used to it soon. What about you?"

"I've been good. Graduated a few months back, now I'm working here full time." He ushers over a waiter, "What would you like, y/n?"

You don't even think for a second while responding, "An iced Americano, please."

The waiter notes your order and walks away before Jeongin pinches your arm teasingly.

"Ouch. What?"

"Old habits die hard, huh? You always used to drink an iced coffee whenever we hung out here. I am glad to see nothing much has changed," Jeongin laughs, "You and Changbin, too!"

That one name sends your entire mind into a frenzy. Changbin. Seo Changbin. The love of your life. The man who you wouldn't even go to school without, the man who had saved you from a terrible accident, also the man who probably no longer even remembers you.

And you realise, despite everything, your heart yearns for him, still- for you wouldn't be in so much pain at the mention of his name otherwise.

Jeongin seems to have noticed your discomfort because he immediately changes the topic, "Anyway, you have to try our new chocolate cake. It's heavenly, I'm telling you."

Your reason to leave the neighborhood wasn't a secret, really. It was public knowledge that your mother had blamed Changbin for the fatal accident you almost had.

You're grateful for what Jeongin does, and try your best to engage in conversations about the neighborhood and old gossip you'd missed out on. Yet all you want to do is drive out of the damn Cafe and find changbin.

"Y/n?"

Or maybe, Changbin will find you.

Behind Jeongin, you see the blurry image of a man that had once caused you great misery yet you had never felt as happy as when you were with him.

"Hi..hi, Changbin." You stammer as you see the said man walk towards your table.

The seven years have as if done some magic on him, because the Changbin that walks towards you in no way resembles your high school best friend.

With thick buff arms, new ear piercings and silver jewelry gracing his wrists and fingers, you have a hard time actually accepting the fact that Seo Changbin is really there, in front of you.

"Been long, huh?" He grins, but it doesn't quite reach his eyes and somewhere in the depths of your conscience, you realize it might have been your fault. You'd done everything in your capacity to break apart from this friendship, ignoring his calls, changing your number, even going as far as blocking him on all social media.

So, did you really expect him to welcome you back with open arms when you had caused him so much pain?

Jeongin brings an extra chair for Changbin to sit on and soon, the three of you are talking, maybe not like the old, happy days but it's still better than nothing. Changbin looks at you everytime you throw your head back and laugh, your eyes squeezing shut as his heart clenches in his chest.

You are really back home.

"So what have you been doing? I told you guys about me." Jeongin says, stealing a bite off of Changbin's cheesecake.

"Oh..you know," Changbin giggles, the tip of his ears turning a light pink shade.

You raise your eye brows in confusion.

"Been busy with the wedding and all."

Your heart drops. "Wedding? W-whose wedding?" You try to laugh it off but it's very evident from the way you're gripping your glass of iced Americano that it has affected you. A lot more than you actually thought.

"I'm getting married, y/n," Changbin smiles, "I'm so glad you could be around for the wedding."

*

Your grief stricken self has not gotten up from the bed since last night and you're thankful to Jeongin for finally checking up on you or else you would have gone deeper into the spiral hole of despair.

"Are you really going to be like this, y/n?"

You hate being miserable on the very second day of your stay. You hate depending on Jeongin. But you can barely move without bursting out into tears,so it seems as though there's no better idea than have someone take care of you at the moment.

"I'm sorry, Jeongin. " You manage to speak when he places a bag full of snacks and drinks on the dining table, "And thanks."

Jeongin chuckles, "Don't thank me, just yet. Guess who wants to meet up with you?"

Your eyes widen for a split second as you sit up on the couch, "Who?!"

No, he wouldn't, would he?

"It's not the person you think, y/n. Calm down." He laughs, "It's Bang Chan. Your senior, you remember?"

Oh, yes, the infamous Bang Chan. Shy smiles, dimples, curly hair, angelic eyes. Yeah, you remember the school's heartthrob. Very clearly.

"I was talking to him this morning and he said he'd be very glad to catch up with you again." Jeongin settles beside you, "It's not a date, y/n. He's an old friend. It wouldn't hurt, would it? You can't possibly sit here all day long crying about him."

You open your mouth to argue, but only air slips out and you realise you don't have anything to defend your miserable state with. You knew this was coming; when you cut off all ties with Seo Changbin, you knew this was coming.

Jeongin is right; you need to go out and meet new people.

You roll your eyes before pinching Jeongin's cheeks, "Fine. Give him my number."

He responds by pulling your cheeks as well.

*

The first day of work is weirdly gut wrenching.

You hadn't expected yourself to be this nervous but here you are, muttering under your breath as you make way towards the office.

"You'll be okay, y/n," you breathe in, "You've worked hard for this." And breathe out.

A few more minutes of self pep talking and you see all your hard work and expectations go down the drain as you feel a few droplets of rain fall onto your head. You look up and the dark, heavy clouds greet you.

Bloody brilliant.

You see the office goers around you jog quickly to the nearest shelter but you're short on luck today as your gaze falls on your watch and you realize you don't have enough time to wait for the rain to pass.

So you grab your office bag, cover your head with that and make a run for it.

The sole of your high heel shoes dig into your feet and a throbbing pain shoots through your body, as you wince. Note to yourself - never wear heels to office again.

You also secretly pray to the gods that your contact lens don't get washed off. Turning up at your new office on the first day with a blood red iris doesn't feel too fun, really.

"Do you need a lift?"

You had been so busy running to your office that you don't notice when a black car drives toward you and the driver rolls down the window, offering you a smile.

Seo Changbin.

Your heart skips a few beats.

"Y/n, do you need a lift?"

You blink back to reality when he clicks his fingers in front of you, "I-I mean if that's okay with you."

Changbin smiles, pointing to the passenger's seat, "Come on in."

When you're comfortably seated in his car, using his spare towel to wipe off the water from your face and hair, his questions start-

"So.." He steps on the break when the traffic light turns red, "How have you been?"

You look at the digital clock displayed on the cars' LED, and sigh. You're late to work and you're stuck in traffic with the one man you'd rather not be stuck in traffic with. Brilliant.

"Good." Your eyes are focused on the cars outside the window, "You?"

There's a moment of silence before he speaks again, "Fine."

Fine? Just Fine? Shouldn't he be over the clouds, now that the wedding is finally around the corner?

"Okay.."

"Actually, I meant to ask you earlier, y/n." He turns to you, a gentle smile playing at his lips, "I am throwing a party this weekend. I'd love it if you could come by. And I could introduce you to her."

You sink back into your seat, biting your lip, wondering if you want to ever know who her is. Your peace of mind is more important than meeting your ex crush's fiance, right? And if you do end up going to the party, whom would you hang out with? It's not like you know any of his rich friends and cousins and there's no way you'd hang out with Changbin and the said fiance.

You are about to respectfully reject the invitation when a sudden, seemingly good idea pops into your head.

Bang Chan.

You nod, shrugging, "Okay. I'll be there."

You clasp your hands together as he continues driving and you look out the window, unable to suppress the bubbling excitement.

"Great, then." He replies, suspiciously.

*

The evening of the party finally arrives, much to your dismay, you find yourself seated next to Chan. He's just the same as the guy in your memory; a gentleman.

"You look pretty, y/n." He had greeted you as he held the car door open for you, "I'm glad we could meet up."

His words turn your cheeks into a darker shade of red but your heart doesn't beat quite as furiously as you'd expect it to.

Muttering a small thank you, you seat comfortably in the car while Chan drives towards Changbin's family's old Farmhouse on the outskirts of the city. You've been there before - during summer holidays, he would take you there with his family. That place was only filled with happy memories of sunshine, swimming pools, watermelon juice and bonfires.

You swallow the grief that comes along with these memories.

"Are we here already?" Chan pulls over in a familiar driveway not even ten minutes later, jogging up to your door and clicking it open, like the gentleman he is.

"Yeah, we're here." Chan smiles, "Very less traffic tonight."

You guys walk through the huge metallic gate, making your way through the main door of the house.

"Uh..." People are crowded mostly around the front door and in the front yard, so you and Chan have to push and squeeze your way into the Farmhouse. You hate the feeling of sweaty bodies pressing against you (or holding Chan's hand for stability) but desperate situations call for desperate measures.

"I hate it here." You mutter when you later find yourself by the pool side, swirling the drink that you don't even plan on drinking and looking at all the flushed faces having the time of their lives.

Thankfully, Chan happens to be on the same boat as you.

"I'm sorry I dragged you here, Chan. We could have just gone for a movie."

Chan giggles, "Hey, it's alright. I don't mind, I'm glad I could spend some time with you after so many years."

His eyes shine and dimples deepen.

You whisper, "Yeah, me too."

Chan is a handsome man, good at all kinds of sport, good at arts, very smart and intelligent yet there's a part of you that knows you'd never be able to reciprocate his flirtatious words. It's sad, really, but that's just how life is.

"Wow, those two seem to be having the time of their lives." Chan chuckles, pointing at someone behind you.

It's quite dark outside, the only source of light being a few decorative fairylights hung at random places haphazardly.

Hiding behind a huge, tall bush, you see a couple, kissing each other like it were the last day on the planet.

The guy's hands roam all over the woman's body and the woman is so loud that even you could hear her sighs and moans. When she pulls away to catch her breath for a second, Chan asks you, "You know her?"

"Nope. I don't know either of them."

You look away; what kind of creep looks at a happy couple like that? (Not a creep, just a lonely and touch starved person)

"Should we check out the dinner table?" Chan suggests and you agree with a nod, "I hope there's no crowd there."

As expected, there actually isn't a crowd there - there's only Changbin, sitting and nibbling on a pizza slice while scrolling through the phone.

The moment your eyes land on him, your feet as if stop on their own and your heart bangs furiously against your chest.

He's breathtakingly gorgeous.

By the time you debate in your head whether or not you want to sit there and fill your stomach, Chan has already made his way to Changbin.

"Hey, Bin!" He greets him with a smile.

Changbin looks at Chan with an unamused smile, the same one from your high school days, when these two were named the biggest rivals on campus. You wonder if somewhere deep in his heart, Changbin had still not let go of that rivalry.

"Hey, Changbin." You manage to whisper before sitting beside Chan.

He looks almost angry.

"You should have the pizza. It's good." He mutters, turning to pass you a slice of pizza on a plate, "Help yourself, Chan."

Yup, there it is. The Seo Changbin that would kill to be on top. You feel worse about dragging Chan here now when neither of you were having a good time.

"Thanks, mate. " Chan replies.

Your ears ring with the sound of approaching footsteps, and when a pretty girl comes walking in and takes Changbin in her arms, your heart stings. Like a fresh wound.

"Y/n.." Chan whispers to you as you watch the two collide in a loving embrace, Changbin smiling at her and running his fingers through her hair.

Your heart hurts at how happy and content he looks.

You could have had that, a part of you thinks, if you weren't such a coward, it would have been you instead of her.

"Y/n," Chan calls you again.

"What?" Your tone is harsher than you intended, "What happened?"

You think Chan is about to give you the whole it-is-time-to-move-on talk but he doesn't, instead he points at the girl and whispers,

"It's her. The girl we saw earlier."

The rest of the night is blurry to you, all conversations, all gazes, all thoughts just feel ....like an awkward dream.

"We have to tell Changbin."

You're sitting at Yang's Cafe at 1 am the same night, watching Jeongin's brother guide his staff to clean the place up.

"I agree." Chan says, biting the inside of his cheeks.

While you, on the other hand, are completely zoned out, staring at the glass of water placed in front of you and watching the droplets on its surface race each other.

"Y/n, what do you think?" Jeongin asks when you don't take part in their discussions.

You sigh, "I don't know. I really don't. As much as it troubles me that Changbin is being cheated on, I don't want to get involved in their personal relationship. "

"Let's not tell anyone for now, then. But someday in the future, before that goddamn wedding, we have to tell him. He deserves to know." Chan agrees.

You purse your lips and close your eyes.

Chan is right.

Changbin deserves to know the truth.

*

"So, how's it being back in town, y/n?"

"It feels good. Weird, but good." You smile at your old teacher, "How have you been, Miss Oh?"

Your teacher adds sugar to the cup of tea in her hands and then looks at you, smiling - the same old smile, except with more wrinkles now, "I've been good. I'm retiring next year so I'm glad I could see you before that, huh?"

You nod your head, "I'm glad too. The school hasn't changed much, unlike what I had expected."

Other than the addition of some new labs and libraries, and the change in color of the walls, everything was still the same. No place in this old school building feels foreign to you.

"Ugh, these administration people I tell you, y/n, they're cheap idiots. They won't spend a single penny on infrastructure unless it's absolutely necessary." She complains as you giggle in response,

"They've always been like that."

Miss Oh gulps some tea from her cup, "Anyway, y/n, I have a class now. I would have loved to stay and chat, really, but I'm afraid that might get me in to trouble."

"No issues, Miss Oh. Go ahead. I'll just roam around the school a little more though, if that's okay."

After Miss Oh leaves, you step out of her cabin and walk the familiar corridors, reminiscent of the memories you have here. Studying a few minutes before tests, bunking classes, running to class when you're late, hanging out with your friends- these corridors have seen you grow in love, in friendship, in life. There's absolutely nothing that could ever replace these memories.

Mindlessly, you wander around the third floor, walking toward the end of the corridor before stopping in front of an old door, way too familiar to not try and push open.

While a part of you tells you it might not be a good idea to go into that room again, there's also a part of you that thinks it's a bloody brilliant idea.

Pushing the door open, you walk into the old dusty room, sighing in relief when you see a particular set of letters still carved on the wall.

CB and YN were here.

You finally let your tears run free, as you crouch down to touch the letters.

Your heart aches at how much you miss Changbin being an important part of your life and how much you miss being his top priority. And your heart aches for Changbin, who is so in love with his fiancé and has no idea he's being cheated on.

You almost want to leave this town and go back to your mother, away from this terrible mess. Yet you don't find it in yourself to act on those thoughts.

Maybe, it is your fear of abandoning him once again that stops you. Or, maybe it is simply the unconditional love you harbor for him.

* Surprisingly, Yang's Cafe is near empty that afternoon.

"Did something happen, y/n? You look really worried." Changbin has his arms crossed over his chest, looking at you with a tense frown.

"Um..it's kind of complicated." You sigh. For a second, you see the genuine concern and innocence on his face, and you wonder if it is worth telling him the truth at all because it would kill you to see him lose his smile but then, his engagement band shines on his ring finger and your stomach turns unpleasantly.

He has to know. From you. In person.

"Changbin, that day at your party...I saw something. " You whisper, "Something I shouldn't have. I should have turned a blind eye really but I can't. My conscience won't allow it. I'm sorry, Bin."

"Y/n, it's okay, just tell me," he reaches over and wraps his fingers around yours, soft and gentle, "You're scaring me."

"Changbin, your fiance is cheating on you. I-I saw her kissing another man that night. Chan saw it too." You feel sick even having to say this to him, "I think you should confront her."

He sucks in a deep breathe, his face completely void of any emotions as he extracts his hands from yours.

"I know." Is all he says.

His eyes drill into yours, as if accusing you of a crime. He looks angry. Just how he looked the day you brought Chan to his party.

"Why are you still marrying her then?" You question.

He sits up straight, "Y/n, I wish I could explain. But I can't. I'm sorry. And please, stay out of this, okay?"

"Why? Why should I stay out of it?" Your voice threatens to break, "I cannot watch my best friend marry a woman who's not loyal. You deserve better than this, Bin."

A sarcastic chuckle leaves Changbin's lips as he taps his foot against the floor, "Let me correct you, y/n. You were my best friend. Seven years ago. You're not anymore."

Your heart shatters.

A part of you knows you deserve this after ghosting him for seven long years. You were the center of each other's world at one point of time.How could you have been so selfish to ever think that your absence and lack of communication wouldn't hurt him?

"Changbin, I'm sorry for everything I did okay. B-but I never stopped thinking or worrying about you. Even for one second. And I still do."

Changbin pushes his chair back and stands up while you stay frozen in your seat.

"It doesn't seem like that though. "

"What do you even mean!"

"Chan. I mean Chan, y/n." He grabs his phone and purse, "Goodbye, y/n. I hope Chan turns out to be a better friend than I ever did." With that, the love of your life walks out of Yang's Cafe.

And for once, he doesn't even look back.

* "Y/n, don't let go of my hand!"

Changbin is panting heavily, his voice shaking with fear as he desperately tries to hold onto you.

He should have known it would be a bad idea to play badminton near the infamous cliff in your town yet when you had showed him your innocent smile and pleading eyes that day, he just couldn't say no.

Your sweaty hands clutch his, legs dangling over the edge of the cliff. Your free hand grabs the rough surface of the rocky cliff to keep yourself from falling.

You want to cry; but you're too traumatized to even let out more than a few terrified grunts. "Y/n," he yells, "I'm going to try and pull you up one more time, okay?."

You don't even remember how you had ended up in this situation; one second you were happily giggling, playing badminton with Changbin and in the next second, you found yourself hanging by the cliff, praying for your dear life.

With all the energy he has left, he tries to pull you up onto the surface.

"Y/n, you have to free the other hand. Let go of that rock." He pants.

You shake your head vigorously, you know you would not survive if you let go of the rock, you'd fall thousands of feet below into absolute nothingness.

"Y/n, please listen to me." Changbin pleads, now crying, "Please. I'll catch you, I promise. I'll not let you die. Just..please."

Changbin sounds like he's about to give up and in all honesty, you couldn't blame him really. Everytime your eyes fall on what's beneath you, a part of you loses hope.

"Please, come on, y/n," he's still pulling at your free hand, while his right hand awaits desperately to grab the other hand. A mixture or sweat and tears grace his face, making him shine under the bright afternoon sun. Your heart aches at the mere thought of never seeing him again- your friend, your childhood crush, your partner in everything.

Well, here goes nothing then.

You suck in a deep breath and let go the Rock, immediately reaching for Changbin. He is quick to grab both of your arms and in one swift movement, he pulls you up onto the surface.

You fall onto his chest, "Y-you saved me."

Changbin let's out a sob mixed with a relieved giggle, pulling you into his arms.

Your eyes feel heavy, as darkness slowly begins to engulf your vision.

"Oh God, I am so sorry this happened, y/n. It's all my fault." He cries, rubbing your back softly, "I'm so sorry. I thought I was going to lose you, oh God. Fuck!"

You want to tell him that it was never his fault, and that you wouldn't even be alive if not for him but your body betrays you and your body goes limp against his.

*

"I'm not leaving this neighborhood."

Your hands rest angrily on your waist as your mom frantically walks from your closet to where the suitcase is spread open on your bed, shifting all your clothes. She dumps them inside the suitcase, not bothering to fold them even.

"You will do as I say! That Seo Changbin tried to push you off of a cliff and heaven knows what he might do next!" Your mom yells back.

You sit at the edge of your bed, trying to keep yourself calm, "Mom, I told you it was an accident. I fell because I was going after the shuttlecock and didn't notice the cliff. Moreover, why would my best friend want try to kill me!"

Your mom let's out a sarcastic laugh, closing the suitcase roughly. She looks at you with eyes full of contempt and a part of you knows that there's no point in trying to convince her. Her mind is already made. Yet you refuse to go down without a fight.

"You're just sixteen, sweetie. You don't know anything about the cruel world, " your mother sighs, "Rich people are not friends with anyone. Changbin may be nice to you but he only sees you as a pathetic poor girl."

"Mom, we're not even poor!"

"Yes, I know. But those filthy rich businessmen consider everyone below their economic status poor. His family probably doesn't like him being friends with you which is why they asked him to get rid of you."

You think of Mrs. Seo's face in your head, always smiling and always welcoming. You remember Changbin's sister and how she'd promised to let you borrow her dress for this year's winter prom. And you think about Changbin- his face, his smile, his passion for music and his protectiveness towards you. Why would these people ever want to hurt you?

"Mom, you're being ridiculous right now! Do you even hear yourself!" You stand up from the bed, now beyond frustrated.

She walks upto you and grabs your arm tightly, nails digging into your skin as you whimper slightly. "You will listen to me. I am your mother and you will listen to me. " she growls, "Pack the rest of your stuff. We're leaving tomorrow."

When she finally walks out your bedroom, your first instinct is to dress yourself in your black hoodie and track pants, and quietly slip out of the back window of your room.

The cold air nips at your skin, goosebumps slowly appearing on your arms and legs but you're too preoccupied to pay too much heed to it.

You reach Changbin's house and like always, walk up to the backyard and climb upto his room through the emergency staircase.

When Changbin hears knocks on his window, he quickly removes his headphones, "y/n?"

He walks upto the window and let's you in, his heart more at peace now than it's ever been the entire day. The guilt from the accident you had earlier was clawing at his conscience.

His room is mostly dark except for his table lamp. You notice the lyrics notebook lying on the table, open with some scribbles and random phrases on the pages.

"How are you feeling?"

You sit at the edge of his bed, cross legged while he kneels on the floor to get to your level. His hands find yours naturally.

"Fine," you swallow the tears that have been accumulating since you left the house, "Changbin, I- we're leaving tomorrow."

Changbin is taken aback; his heart shattering into billions of pieces at your words.

"Leaving? What do you mean Leaving?" his voice trembles.

You lick your dry lips and tell him everything your mom had told you earlier. When his face twists bitterly, a part of you wishes you'd held your tongue yet a bigger part of you wants Changbin to know the truth now; you didn't want him sending you off with lies in his mind and the fear of him finding out some years later just killed you inside.

"I'm so sorry, Changbin. Mom's just not been okay after the divorce." Your voice breaks when Changbin refuses to look at you, "I know she's speaking bullshit. But there's absolutely nothing I can do to change her mind, I've tried I swear. I'm sorry, Changbin."

When Changbin finally does look at you, even in the dim lit room, you see the tears glistening on his face, mirroring the ones that roll down your cheeks. "Why are you sorry, y/n? I don't blame your mom." He mutters, "It was partly my fault. I should have taken more care, I-"

You cup his cheek, "Shh. Bin, are we really going to spend my last night here crying and blaming ourselves? We might never see each other again."

The words sink deep into his soul, and he nods. He wills his tears back in as he grabs your hand tighter.

"Okay. What do you wanna do?"

You smile a little, "You're not gonna like it though. "

"Stargazing it is then." He giggles a little as the both of you make your way to balcony attached to his room.

It is quiet outside, unlike the noise in your head and you feel the calmness spreading to you when you look up at the stars.

Changbin brings a picnic mat from inside and spreads it out on the floor, along with two pillows and a blanket.

"We'll stay in touch, yeah? If you ever need anything, I'll be right here." He reassures you, lying beside you, hands behind his head.

You smile yet you cannot bring yourself to promise him the same because you know your mother would do everything in her power to push the two of you apart, even to the point of physically hurting Changbin. You would never want that so you'd rather distance yourself and let Changbin forget about you. And maybe, just maybe fate would be a little nicer to you and decide to bring you into his life again. Many years later.

He presses a soft kiss to your head, "You'll always be my best friend, y/n. I don't care how far we are."

It takes everything in your being to not repeat the words.

*

"Changbin, come on we're getting you to the hospital this instant, okay?" Mrs. Seo is furious next morning, running from room to room, looking through the list of doctors she'd saved just in case of emergency.

When she looks at her son, sitting on the sofa with one of his eye irises turning a glowing red, she is reassured that this is an emergency.

"How did this even happen, mom? I swear I didn't try to do anything funny with my eye." He murmurs, scared, "It feels so itchy, gosh!"

Mrs.Seo looks at him with concern just when the doctor picks the call, "Oh, hello Dr.Lee! Thank god you picked up!"

After his mom walks out of his room, Changbin quickly types you a text,

Binnie: Hey. Did you leave already?

Y/nnie: No not yet. We've stopped at the doctor's.

Changbin's eyes widen in alarm.

Binnie: What why?

You look at your face in the decorative mirror at the doctor's waiting room, one of your irises burning into a bright shade of ruby.

Y/nnie: Mom's running a cold.

You close the messenger app before he even replies, deciding to change your number and deleting all your old contacts as soon as you move into your new house. And as much as it hurt you, this one text turned out to be the last time Changbin and you ever talked.

*

It has been raining all day, which means you were stuck in your goddamn house with nothing to do but cry about Changbin and your lost friendship and your broken heart.

After you manage to get some food into your body during dinner time, you crawl back to your room and look into the mirror as you comb your hair and moisturize your skin.

(Self care is important, y'all)

Your red iris stares back at you, taunting your mistakes and calling you a coward.

If only you had still tried to keep in touch with him, if only that stupid accident wouldn't have happened in the first place, if only.

Suddenly, a knock on your balcony door makes you jump in your place.

Shit. Is it a burglar?

You grab the closest thing that could be classified as a weapon - which happens to be an umbrella.

The knocking continues.

"Y/n, it's Changbin." He yells, "Can I please talk to you?"

You freeze in your spot.

Why in the world is he here? Does he have anything worse to say? Is he here to invite you to his wedding? But why would he sneak in through the balcony when he can easily ring the main door bell.

"Y/n, are you in there?"

You quickly walk upto the door and slide it open, revealing Changbin, completely drenched in the rain. His wet hair stuck to his face and "Shit. What the- God, come inside!"

He obeys and tiptoes inside your room, a guilty expression plastered on his face.

You guide him directly to the bathroom and offer him a towel.

"What are you even doing here, Bin?" You lean against the door frame, hands crossed over your chest.

He is drying his hair with the towel when he looks up at you as if to answer your question but he stops. His mouth hangs open as his eyes remain glued to your face.

And that's when you realize why he looks so surprised.

"Shit- fuck." You turn around immediately, "my lenses," you mutter to yourself.

But before you can even walk upto your dressing table, Changbin has caught your wrist and spun you around, pulling you closer to his body.

"Your eye." He let's out a shaky breath.

"Yes, I know. Please don't freak out. It's always been like this after -"

"After the accident." He finishes your sentence, "I know."

Your mouth runs dry as his face draws in closer, "What do you mean you know? What do you know?"

He let's go of your wrist and takes a step back, turning around so that his back faces you.

And when he turns to look at you again, you swear you could have passed out there and then.

"Y-you have it too." You whisper, weak in the knees, "You have a red iris too."

Changbin gives you a small smile, "Yes, y/n."

"But why? What does this mean?" You say, "Is it a symptom of some chronic illness?"

"It's a soul mark."

"What's a soul mark?"

"It's a mark that exists on the bodies of soulmates."

You feel a pang in your chest; like someone was squeezing your heart out of your chest.

"Right," You fall back onto the bed, dazed with the sudden piece of information, "And how do you know all this?"

Changbin kneels down in front of you, hands finding yours. He looks more relaxed than he did since the first day you come back to town.

It almost feels like you had been given back your old friend.

"I've been doing my research, y/n. After you left, this is all I've been doing." He says, "This is also the reason why I had gotten engaged. By that time, I had given up on finding a soulmate. So I just settled for whatever I got. I didn't even feel bad when I found out my fiance was not in love with me. For the world, we might look like a happy couple, but truly, it was just a marriage of convenience for our parents' business."

You bite your lips wondering how to respond to these words. He'd laid bare his heart in front of you, something you never thought he'd do ever again.

"What now?" You say, tired.

He intertwines your fingers, "Also, I'm sorry for yesterday. I shouldn't have said all that."

You nod, "It's alright. I know you didn't mean it. And for the record, I and Chan have nothing going on."

"And for the record, I also broke off my engagement."

Your eyes widen as a gasp leaves your lips, "What? Why?"

"Because when I told my parents that I do not love my fiancé, and that I have only ever loved you, they said my happiness was more important than their business."

When you don't reply to his words, he looks worried, "Hey, you don't have to feel burdened to like me back and all okay? Literally, if you want me to leave you alone, I will. I understand-"

You pull him by the nape and place the softest, gentlest, most sincere kiss on his lips.

"I feel the same way, dumbass." You sigh as you pull him into your arms.

He muzzles his face in the crook of your neck, playing with your hair from behind, "So what now?"

"Let's start with a date." You say, "Let's take it slow."

Changbin wraps his arms tighter around you, kissing your cheek, "As you wish, my love. "

[vogueinnie]

Chan being one of the most popular students in school ( thinking of an 80’s concept ngl ) , and you having the hugest crush on him. Maybe you’re a cheerleader , or a mere loser. Either way , he’d probably catch you staring during a football game. He ends up fucking your pussy in the back of his silver acura integra after a game , all sweaty and dripping .. probably moaning a lot .. holding your hand ? He turns out to be far more romantic than you thought !! 🥺😭

i didn’t expect it to be 1.1k but here we go...😳

you are not the type that we notice but you are not the one that we ignore either. we can say that you’re basic, with not that much friends, one to be honest, good grades and a social life close to zero. you don’t like parties or even basis human contact. there is just one human that make you want to be a social butterfly, even if you’re too shy for that. bang christopher chan, an australian boy, captain of the football’s team and a visual to die fort. curly blonde hair, brightest smile, broad shoulders, little eyes that disappear everytime he’s happy. but as surpising as it is, he never talked to you. of course, he was way more interested in myoui mina, the beautiful cheerleader’s captain. or at least that’s what you supposed, cause they were always together.

your bestfriend, dahyun, begged you to come on friday night to see the last game of the season and with a sigh you agreed. what a good reason to watch your crush from the stands.

the atmosphere was crazy, everyone was jumping and screaming with joy to support the school’s most popular kids. you were totally taken in this euphoria, laughing and singing out loud. your eyes were stuck on bangchan as he was playing with all of his heart. everyone was looking at his athletic figure and people went wild when he did make a goal, or whatever it is. you clap your hands and when you see him turn his head to look at you straight in the eyes, addressing a blink to you with a little smile... you lost it. nah, it’s probably for mina or sana who’s in front of you.

unsurprisingly, your school wins the prize and everyone was screaming the player’s name outloud. after all, they were the school’s kings and everyone was head over heels for them. girls and boys went wild for them, circling them like if they're real rockstars. but you stay away from all the crowd, searching from dahyun who’s probably as lost as you. to make sure, you send her a text to told her that you’re going home. after all, the match was over.

ready to go home, you start to walk to leave the field when you are that voice screaming your name. definitely your imagination is playing tricks on you, so you don’t turn around but you feel a warm hand gripping your wrist. and now you realize that bangchan was behind you, all smiley and with sweat dripping from his forread. god, he was so hot.

“hey! i can take you home with my car, it’s dangerous for a girl to walk alone during the night... yeah?”

you slowly process to understand what he means so you just nod, probably as red as a tomate and his smile widens at your answer. without further delay you both walk to his car and you take place on the passenger seat as he starts to ride with some pink floyd music in the background.

“it’s pretty early... i know a beautiful spot where we can see all the citylights, may i take you there?” you play nervously with your fingers, nodding slowly your head, not really leaving the moment as your brain keep telling you that it was probably just to be nice to you. “y-yeah... but i mean... is it ok for you?” he laughs, patting your head softly. was your question that stupid ?

without a word, he rides for almost fifteen minutes and even if you knew that he was a sweet boy you couldn’t help but be a little scared. it was the first time that you were both together, and you didn’t really know him well... why would he be that nice to you ? did he wants to kill you ? or maybe he wants to bully you ? rip your money off ? your jewelry ? your...

“here we are!” his voice takes you out of your thoughts and you lift your face to see that you’re in the heights of the city, where you can see everything. and it was really pretty, the lights were colored with shades of blue, yellow and red, offering you a bright show, almost fairy. you couldn’t take your eyes off this beautiful view and a stupid smile was on your smile when you feel bangchan’s hands on your cheek, stroking it with softness “you’re pretty” he mumbles and your turn your head to look at him, shy and embarassed at his honesty. you lean your cheek against his hand and you realize that the best view wasn’t in front of you, but beside you.

without thinking, you two went on the backsits of his car, your lips kissing each others as your bodies stick together. you lie down as you can and he gets himself on top of you with the sweetest smile you have ever seen on him. he was so gentle, kissing your neck, earlobes, always asking you if everything’s ok and if he could go further. but you lost it the moment he kisses your tummy with butterfly kisses and you squeak a little please, putting your hand on your mouth, ashamed. why do you have to embarrass yourself that much ? you hear a little chuckle, and he keeps on kissing your skin, undoing your pants as his other hands caresses your thighs. “don’t be shy, right? and remember that we can stop at any moments, i want you to feel good, hm?” you nods quickly, already lost in all the sensations you’re feeling.

he was so tender, putting your pleasure before his, all of his movements were so surprisingly slows, his two hands were holding yours. he couldn’t stop giving your lips sloppy kisses as he was making love to you, you were skin on skin and your breath ditched the moment he founds your softest spot. your back arches, your head falls back and your eyes squeeze when you hear his raspy voice in your ear “don’t... don’t hold back... you can do that for me? you feel so good...fuck, you’re so pretty...” his words were too much for you, and you moans his name with the highest voice as you come undone around his veiny cock burried deep inside you. your walls were clenched so tight around him that you know how devastated he was after cumming in the condom.

you were two breathy mess, and he was almost sleeping with his head against your boobs, kissing them slowly. he didn't want to let go of your hands, which made you laugh and you kiss his forehead. “sorry but now you have no choice but to be my girlfriend.” you smile fondly, giggling under him and you feel him smile against your nipple “but... what about mina... “ he sits up, staring at you with round eyes “but Y/N... she’s my stepsister...” you look up at him with the same round eyes... and you burst out of laughing, kissing each others under the moonlight, and above the sleeping city.

[pink-purplesunset]

A light cannot exist without shadow.

Before the history that people like you and I know, Gods walked the Earth like common man. Virgin lands laid untouched and unbroken, waters ran clear and free of debris. Gods had a much simpler view on life. Many things as well as what happened to mere mortals, left them unbothered. Because of this, they then chose to leave the land, returning to the sky. In their wake they left their children to rule Earth, to keep it from ending in chaos.

There were two sides both ruled by family blood, one of light, the other of dark. The first born, named Jin, came to be known as a being of darkness, an evil no one had seen before. Soon many others who shared that same deep iniquity began to follow him, morphing into what the people called Dreadlings. They took a form stuck between light and dark, eventually forming the largest army of men and women on the planet. With this power Jin ruled the planet and for many years all people knew was darkness.

Years later, his sister gracefully named Nabi, was born. She radiated light, love and all that is good and had come into the world as a bright beacon for many. Her union onto Earth had been celebrated, a prophecy had been filled giving many the courage to stand up to the darkness that had overtaken the land. Nabi was quickly labeled their savior, and thrust into the role of Earth's Guardian.

Contradictory to might you may think, both sides united as one.

With a small army Nabi confronted her brother, her charms and purity quickly talking him down from his horrid reign. From that day both siblings remained close and confided in each other to rule to planet as two instead of one. Peace was to remain on both sides for the remainder of their immortal lives, both making agreements to never harm one another.

Many years later is where this story begins.

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On an ordinary day, one with warm winds and feathery skies, a hummed song hangs in the air, coming from a figure that bathes in a waterfall nearby. The area is secluded on each side by natural rocks and tall pine trees, a field of colorful wild flowers blanketing the surrounding area.

Nabi runs her fingers through silvery locks, sighing in ecstasy when the cold-water leaves goosebumps on her skin in contrast to the warm sun. She was used to days like this, with birds chirping in her ear and the smell of wild mint in the air.

Every day was almost completely the same for her and had been since her descend onto Earth.

She would be awoken by one of her chambermaids, they would help her into a morning steam, feed her, brush her hair and adorn her in clothes and jewelry that were made by the God Plutus, a regular gift she would receive from her family to praise her for getting along with her brother. Then she would be whisked off to play the role of mediator and politician, listening to the complaints and opinions of the people, an event the Primary Gods had suggested to keep the people happy, only to then be ushered into the Chapel to be broadcasted across the world giving the morning prayers. Something enforced by the clergy so that the Primary Gods would not be forgotten. By noon, she was off to some lectures which gave her more insight on how the common man lived, giving her a looks at which areas of the world needed her healing the most.

She lived this life everyday without stray. Until recently.

She, her brother and their armies, where the only being on Earth that could manipulate reality. Nabi could control elements, weather, the human body and much more. Her brother could do the same but in opposite effects. She found herself free time under the mask of ability training.

A few hours before dusk she would visit the stable under disguise and gallop off on her favorite friesian outside the kingdom walls to a place she only knew. Here she could be herself, do what she wanted and imagine a life where she was normal. A life where she would be able to find a love, have kids and a simple job before coming home for the night to a family.

This became her new normal.

Gradually her brother began to find out, only giving her a mild scolding before focusing on the many tasks that encompassed a a kingdom. Eventually as she would sneak out more and was caught, the scolding became punishment.

There was many rules amongst her life and one of them was never letting someone outside the inner walls of the palace to see her appearance. She was a goddess of purity, anyone who started to lust after her could taint her aura, eventually turning her into a being like her brother. The Primary Gods demanded balance, she was to never be tainted or it would bring the end to her and her brother.

But Nabi had a rebellious soul. She would continue to sneak out, no matter what her brother threatened.

Nabi sighed in delight once again as the water left small pools on her body, smiling when she noticed a curious bystander near the entrance to her secluded area. She knew him well, a soldier sided with the light and a fierce warrior she had watched from the sidelines for some time now. He had been drawn in by the sweet sound of her voice before, something he could not resist. He had visited her often within the past months, giving her something, someone, to look forward to.

She knew he could not see much of her as the waterfall did well to give her a natural veil, all to be seen was her hair, as it twinkled like stars whenever the light caught it. She watched as he stared in wonder, still oblivious to her own. She abruptly stopped the humming and stepped out of the running water allowing her eyes to peer into his own, which now were splayed wide with fear.

It was absolute law never to approach or see the Guardian unless given clearance, offenders would face the wrath of Jin aka death.

Before he could run, Nabi let out a small chuckle making him stop in his tracks. She held eye contact with him, not bothering to dress in her robes before she walked forward.

He had seen her like this before.

"You came to see me again." She smiled.

Not believing his senses the man remained frozen. Nabi made her way directly in front of him, in all her glory. She continued to smile, trying to fill the man with ease.

"You are Jimin correct?" Her features remained soft and her eyes twinkled. "You should really try and hide yourself more, I catch you being here everytime." He continued to gape at her, not sure of how to react. "It's nice to meet you again." She added with a grin, her hand glided from her side to grab his.

Jimin gulped and continued to stare at her flawless skin.

"I- I did not mean to oppose on you Guardian."

He then diverted his eyes down, not mustering the courage to bring his hand away from hers.

With a small laugh Nabi pulled him closer to her. Her unoccupied hand came up and began stroking the man's hair. Causing Jimin to hold his breath.

"It's alright." She laughs. "you being here tends to make my day." She hugged him a little closer, always eager for a warm embrace. "Besides... I happen to know that you like being here too."

Within her embrace she allows the memories she had taken from him to flow back. With a small gasp Jimin brings his eyes back to hers.

Nabi laughs at the familiar reaction.

"Please stay." She whispers once she recognizes the familiar lust that settles in his eyes.

Jimin lets out the breath he was holding and pushes away from her in shock.

"Am I not to be punished?!" He spoke loudly. Causing Nabi's smile to slip. "Isn't this breaking the law?!

Putting back on her smiley mask, she puts both hands over the man's mouth. She could never get used to his reaction, even after experiencing it many times.

"My brother is not here and you side with me. Fear nothing."

She takes her hands away and wraps one around his wrist dragging him backwards with her into the water.

"Come now."

Nabi frowns when he is not looking as she is running behind schedule now and her guards will soon come looking for her.

Jimin does nothing but comply, hushed by her words and newly acquired memories serving him well. When both are fully under the roaring waterfall, he smiles at the small invisible bubble protecting them from the heavy water above. He eyes Nabi from head to toe before capturing her lips in his. She smiles at him in childish wonderment before diving back into him for more. His hands begin to move over her body, ghosting over her nipples to pull a moan from her. He bites her lip as he smiles although it begins to fall.

"Please don't take these memories away from me again." He asks in a pleading whisper.

He looks into her eyes and can tell she's hiding from him.

From yards away both of them can hear the footfalls of horses.

"I'm afraid we must part now." She breathes out, distancing herself but catching his hands in hers once again. "Please visit again, I really miss you when you're gone."

A sadness overtakes Jimin's face but is quickly replaced with panic as Nabi places her hand on his forehead and wipes the memories of their meeting from his mind. She places him gently on the dry moss below them, her magic still protecting the area from the water above.

With one final look she once again leaves the waterfall and dresses in time for her guards to appear through the trees. One dressed in gold ornate armor, displaying her own insignia, the other made up in an armor of volcanic rock that somehow still glows red hot.

"You know the entire palace begins to panic in your absence." States the one in gold. He looks to his side where Jin's soldier stands. "Please do not force me out here with one of the Dreadlings again."

Nabi smiles and begins to walk towards the two.

"Where would the kingdom be without you playing my babysitter Hobi?" She allows them to place her veil over her head and help her onto her horse. "Although I do agree that my brother did not have to send one of his own." She squints at the heat radiating off the man as she looks at him. "The fresh air must feel like poison to you V."

The dark soldier remains stoic and leaves to mount his own horse with no reply.

"Always a man of many words." Remarks Hobi as they all set off towards the palace.

The ride takes them down the steep mountainside, through a forest of large cedars and along the edge of the wall that surrounds the kingdom. They tactfully stop at a spot on the northside of the wall, where Nabi is able to manipulate some loose rock and allow a gap big enough for them to walk through with their horses.

"How will your brother feel knowing you have left the walls again?" V finally speaks up once they are inside.

Nabi just smiles and closes the wall behind them.

"Why must you threaten me with this same line every time you're forced to fetch me? We both know you don't plan on telling him. "

V sighs and continues to peer forwards, knowing too that she speaks the truth. After a few more minutes sulking he again speaks up.

"You rely too much on the false relationship you've created for us in your head. You know who I remain loyal to."

Nabi giggles and shakes off the remark.

"Ok, Ok Mr. IHateFriendshipandLove. I will believe your words from now on until proven otherwise." She rides up closer to him and whispers "I'll tell the chefs to serve japchae in the commissary tonight." He shivers from their closeness while with a wink she makes her way away from him and towards Hobi.

After follows a few minutes of silence with the exception of chuckles she and Hobi share in their own conversation. V then clears his throat, edging his horse on to get closer to the two. He makes sure to make eye contact with Nabi.

"Although I do not appreciate the endearment of friendship, I will gladly accept the food."

He then hurries his horse forward.

Behind him, Nabi and Hobi share another knowing look and a small laugh as they continue to the gate of the palace. It is a massive structure, half white, half black marble, with gold welded gates connecting it's center. On all sides it is guarded by a mix of gold and black clade soldiers.

"May the dark bring forth the light!" All the soldiers shout when they identify her and draw the gate upwards.

Entering, Nabi breaks off from her two escorts, turning in her saddle to address the two men.

"You guys can head back to the barracks, I can take it from here."

Hobi gives her a deliberate glare.

"Promise to appear before your brother as soon as possible so he does not kill us both and NO more adventures today." He makes sure to point at her to add emphasis.

Nabi rolls her eyes. "I would never allow him to do such a thing." Hobi opens his mouth ready to retort. "-But I promise to see him to save you both from his nagging."

"Thank you, milady." Hobi jeers with a silly bow, still on his horse. "Now stay out of trouble and I shall see you later after dinner." He gives a big wave and follows V towards the side of the palace where workers and military are housed.

"Let's go Lucent." She pats her horse's shoulder and gives him a small squeeze to continue to the stable she and Jin shared.

Like usual, the overly decorated palace yards were occupied by the gardeners that kept it looking clean and the pious followers that would used the gardens as a place to pray. Regardless of who they were, when they noticed Nabi, they would drop what they were doing to pay respect to her. Something she did not always enjoy. Finally making her way towards the royal wing and the stables that connected to it, she was met by her stable hand Yoongi with is arms crossed.

"Overstayed your time outside again I see." He uncrossed his arms and grabbed her horse by the bridle. "I should have known something was up when Lucent was gone from his stall again this morning." He gave a small smile while petting the horse on his nose. He looked up to Nabi "Do you want me to put him away for you?"

Nabi dismounted and gave Lucent a big hug around his neck.

"Yes, thank you. You're once again a lifesaver Yoongi." She let go of the horse and handed the reins over to him. "I'm unfortunately late to a meeting to humor my brother right now, as it seems everyone in the palace knows I was outside again."

"You're not exactly secretive about it anymore." Yoongi states.

Nabi gives him a cheeky smile. Yoongi clears his throat and begins to take care of the horse. "Sorry Guardian, I'll just be on my way."

He walks away and glances behind him to see Nabi gathering her long robes and hurriedly walking up the many steps that led to the entrance of the colossal palace.

Nabi could hear Yoongi's small laugh from behind her as she went, making her smile.

Many of the palace workers that recognized her would too stop what they were doing to bow, she would do her best to do the same with her hurried pace. Not even bothering to change out of her normal robes, a somewhat dull look compared to her usual attire to help her blend in, as she ran to find the door to her brother's room.

Stepping inside, she was met with a brotherless room. She wrapped her arms around herself, needing a source of comfort to prepare her for the talk she was about to get. There was nothing dark and scary about the place, but it still caused a cold chill to run down her back and the hairs on her arms raise. The room was very well kept considering Jin did not let any workers into the room or around his belongings. As she walked further in, the corner of the room drew Nabi's attention where a large canvas sat, the first few details of a panting started. There was a deep emotion attached to it, something dark and consuming, as well as many other feelings she was unable to be explain, it was all lost to her. On the painting, all she could make out was a figure in gold armor, the face all too familiar.

"Do you like it?" Jin whispered out of nowhere making her jump.

"Brother." She breathes out, spinning to face him, holding her heart. "I was just admiring what you've started."

Jin faces the painting but looks towards Nabi out of the corner of his eye.

"I needed something to do when I cannot sleep. My dreams have not been kind recently."

One of Jin's individual traits was seeing the future in his dreams.

"I told you to come find me when you are troubled." Nabi worries over him and places a hand on his forearm.

Jin places his hand over her own.

"It is but a small issue for the time being, the dreams change daily. You know I'd come to you if it were anything important."

Nabi looks to her brother as he further studies the mostly empty canvas. The bad feelings inside her grow worse.

"I sense something growing, it radiates around the room. It makes me sick to my stomach." She barely speaks out loud.

Jin shows no further emotion but she can tell he fakes a smile as he turns to her again.

"I doubt it has anything to do with the otherworldly. I shall send one of your maidens to get you a medicine. Go rest and try not to venture too far from the walls again."

Nabi froze, hoping to skip the scolding today.

"I'm sorry-"

Jin raises a hand to stop her.

"I sent another to watch you. A little birdy had told me V has been less than useful lately."

Nabi tries to show no fear in her features but couldn't withhold her good nature.

"You didn't hurt him, did you?"

Jin looks to the ground with a small laugh but his eyes snap to her full of rigidness.

"My soldiers should be none of your concern sister."

A very uncommon emotion for Nabi started to rear its head. She clenched her fists to her side, nails digging into her palms.

"And what is that supposed to mean?" She breathes out trying to calm herself. "Do I not rule this kingdom by your side? Are we not equals?" She steps further into his space. "Tell me if he's hurt so I can help him."

Jin closes the gap between them, capturing her chin between his fingers.

"You know better than to speak to me that way. Know your place girl and do not test me."

She pushes away from his grasp but does not retreat.

"Know my place?! You are nothing without me." She growls.

Jin looked to her with a raised brow, a smirk growing, he breaks the tension with loud claps.

"Now this is a side of you I've rarely seen, let's hope your holy followers in the palace have not heard." He crosses his arms, his right hand playing with his chin in thought. "Although I quite like this side of you." His sickening smile grows.

Nabi comes back to reality quickly, a little shocked herself.

"I-I'm sorry brother." She holds her hands close to her chest. Panic setting her pulse ablaze. "It's this room it makes me...on edge. I do not understand these emotions I'm feeling."

Jin gives her a dismissive gesture, Nabi could not help but feel as though he had meant this meeting to go this way. Like he had expected her to act in such a way.

"Apology accepted." He grabs her by the shoulders and aims her towards the door. "Leave me and get some rest. I'll help the cooks make your favorite soup for dinner."

Nabi turns to hug her brother, not used to small spats with him.

"I love you brother."

Jin lets out a small sigh but answers back.

"As do I sister."

She did not feel any emotion behind the words.

He gently pulls her off himself and walks her to his door. Nabi shows herself out as he closes the door behind her. She catches her lip in her teeth trying to understand the interaction that happened minutes ago, her mind drawing a blank. She can count on one hand the amount of times she has felt anger before, and each has left her with a sense of amnesia. Her soul was not made to house such an emotion. She was created to do and spread good, not to wish harm among others.

Unlike her brother, Nabi is closer in comparison to those who are considered a normal person. Some say she has not reached her full potential yet; she believes she was made that way for a reason. To further her knowing of empathy among the humans, something she cannot rule without.

A hand reaches out to grab her arm. Startling her once again into reality. She did not know how long she had been standing outside her brother's door.

"Guardian." One of her maids, Sara, greets her. "I was told you are not feeling well. Allow me to lead you to your suite."

Nabi just nods. Slipping back into her mind. She contemplates the occurrences in her life, those that had led her into small fits of anger. The first occurrence being when she was a child and a follower had offered her a small poodle as a gift. Later in the day another child had tried to play with it, resulting in the kid crying in the dirt with a bloody nose. The other big occurrence being over a tear in her favorite dress, where she was then being rushed away from a fire, she had started over the bush that had torn it. Today's incident was nowhere near the worse, but it had been a good five years since she had been lost away in such blackness.

Numbly she finally realizes that the sun has set, and she has been tucked into her oversized bed. Sara places a tray full of fruits and the soup her brother had made on her lap.

"You brother said there's leftovers in the kitchen must you want more. I'll be right outside if you need anything more of me."

Nabi gives her a small smile and begins to pick at the fruit on her tray. Usually being her favorite thing to eat, the soup her brother had made seeps off the smell of rotting flesh, quickly making her throw up everything she had eaten that day.

"My dear." Sara runs to her side, starting to clean up the mess. "Are you feeling that ill Guardian?"

She begins to feel her head for signs of fever, while drawing Nabi up from her soiled bed.

"Please sit." She sets Nabi down on an overstuffed couch. "I'll make another bath for you."

Her consciousness fades in and out, finally laying way to a dreamland.

She is once again in her favorite place. The water roars above her but she is not alone. A familiar figure stands in her embrace and warms her soul. With such a perfect scene, she is surprised to find tears covering her cheeks. A deep ache resonates through her chest, she looks down so see a black liquid staining her skin and a hole where her heart should be. Without a warning the man brushes the tears from her face, then brushes back small strands of hair. He captures her cheeks in both hands before kissing her. He smells of earth and tastes of mint. Her heart begins to thrum happily, quicker and quicker as the kiss develops into one of shared tongues and quiet sighs. The ache in her chest also grows. She breaks the kiss to looks down upon herself again, seeing cracks splintering over her skin like cracked stone. It is realized then what this dream is trying to tell her, the thing that would continue to bring on these dark occurrences in her life. If she continued on her path, Love would surely be the best and worst thing to ever happen to her.

[parkjess]

hello can u do a “when they know they love you” with astro 🥺

Thank you for requesting!🥰

Note: I’m currently having a lil writing block so it takes me some time to write all of your requests, please understand (and ofcourse you can keep requesting❤️)

Myungjun:

* Myungjun would realize that when he sees how much you care for him and he that he feels the same.

* You always come to his rehearsals, or whatever he practices for.

You decided to come over to see him practicing his script for the musical he participates in, and fell asleep when he went to the restroom. He comes back to the sight of you napping on the floor, with your phone that was unlocked in your hand, a little smile is playing on his face seeing you like that.

He comes closer slowly, being too careful to not wake you up since he knows you’ve been there for hours, only for him.

Taking a look at your phone, there was a list of recording notes you recorded while he was away. He gently takes it from you hand and plays it, it was your voice, speaking the other character’s lines from his script to help him practice it better.

That moment he knew, it was more than appreciation towards you, it was love.

Jinwoo:

* When he didn’t feel well once when Astro had schedule so he stayed at the dorms.

* you came over when Dongmin told you Jinwoo will be there alone and needs a company, and ofcourse you didn’t even hesitate for a second.

* “hey~ how do you feel?” You ask your close friend as you place down the lunch you brought along. You had a spare key to their place so you opened it to not bother him.

*-“Hey, y/n! What are you do...doing here?” He said while coughing hard, he was in a bad condition indeed, but you were there to take care of it.

* “I brought you a soup I made myself, and I’ll make you some tea now.” You reply without explaining him anything, and leave to the kitchen.

* Taking a quick look in the fridge, you thought maybe he’ll like the cookies you make in 10 minutes, and you did so. Plus the tea you promised.

* “There you go, sorry it took some time because they needed a longer bake-“ Jinwoo looks at you with shiny eyes as he grabs the hot cup of tea, amazed by the way you know how to warm his heart so quick, which already made him feel better.

*-“Y/n... that’s- Wow.” He took a bite of a cookie after he dipped it in the tea, melting in his own mouth, you could tell he loved it.

* “You should rest a lot, and drink hot tea. If you need anything, don’t hesitate to call me.” You say as you place another pillow underneath his head so he can half-sit comfortably.

* there he realized you’re the only thing he needed, except for medicine, yet, you were better.

Dongmin:

* You first met Dongmin in a book store near your house, it was your favorite place nowadays to hang out at.

* he was the sweet-boy cashier that helped you many times finding a book you were looking for everytime you walked in.

* even almost got fired because he left the cash register for too long since he was talking with you between the shelves.

* “Hey, y/n!” He says happily when you enter the store, a smile playing on his face. -“Hey!” You reply, holding your shoulder bag close to your body, walking towards the handsome guy.

*-“I brought you something.” You say and reach out your bag, taking out a book, handing it to him. It was nicely wrapped and a sign was drawn on the corner of it.

* “Wow, whose this book?” He asks as he takes it with both hands, glancing at the front and the back of it. -“Uhm... mine.” You smile a bit. -“You’re the first one I decided to give this book to, see this as a friendly gift.”

* -“Woah, you didn’t tell me you were writing books, I’ll read this happily.” He thanks you for the ‘friendly gift’.

* Dongmin is also a writer, a fact that you didn’t know either, that’s why he was so excited to receive your first book. After he read your writing, he only waited for you to comeback to that book store, to ask you out.

Moonbin:

* It was a Thursday night, where Astro won an award and went to celebrate it with a dinner in a fancy korean restaurant, and ofcourse you joined them, as their temporary manager.

* the whole dinner was loud because you couldn’t stop yourself from being excited and so they are. Suddenly when it became quite you realized how noisy you were, kinda awkward.

* “Guys, I wanted to take this opportunity to celebrate my departure, I’m leaving tomorrow morning.” You didn’t expect their faces to become from all smiley to this sad within seconds, all you did was waiting for the right time to say, and never found that time earlier this week.

* -“Ay, y/n! Why didn’t you say something earlier? We would buy something.” Myungjun announces with annoyed tone. The rest of them followed with complaining about this and that they will miss you. Except for one.

* Moonbin stood up and called your name, making everyone turn their head to him. You looked at him shocked, but followed him as he grabbed your hand and led you outside.

* He had those feeling for a couple days now, but he just realized he did fall for you when you said you’re leaving, feeling like his heart broke.

* He takes a box from the pocket of his jacket, revealing a beautiful, silver necklace, and wrapped it around your neck gently while saying, “so you will never forget me.” And smiles.

Minhyuk:

* You two are best friends for a while.

* but you always take care of him when he needs, answer the phone within 2 seconds when he calls, buy him banana milk cause you love his reaction.

* it was nothing new he was always clingy towards you, and lately his heart started to race fast whenever you pull him into a hug.

* Once, Sanha called you to come help him with something, but you told him your hanging out with Minhyuk at the moment so you can’t.

* -“Y/n you should go.” Minhyuk whispers while you’re still on the phone with Sanha. “I’m sorry Sanha, see you later.”

* You hang up before the younger boy could reply, and spoke up. “He can wait, I’m not giving up on our friendly date.” Minhyuk smiles at your warming words and suddenly when you mention the word ‘date’ his heart skips a beat.

* that moment he knew he would love to ask you out on a real date, and that he loves you because you will never give up on him.

Sanha:

* Sanha would realize that when you’re all together (With the rest of the members) at Disneyland or just at the amusement park.

*Jinwoo would offer to buy you a cotton candy, Myungjun would ask you to go up with him on the roller coaster etc...

*Sanha finds himself without you, his best friend who he caught feelings for.

* everytime he tries to call your name to ask you something or buy you food, somebody else does.

* that moment he realized he’s jealous you’re with someone else who’s not him, and those feelings he has are more than friendly.

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Omgg can I have a kirishima x reader where shes playful with her buddies but gets so flustered when ppl confess to her and kiri has a huge crush on her but bc she likes him back it's really hard for her to be her usual self around him so shes just quiet and kiri thinks she doesnt like him? Can u make it end fluffy please :)

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A/N: Thank you so much for requesting! 😘 I hope you like this. I really had the motivation to write this. Enjoy reading!

Pairing/s: Kirishima Eijirou x Reader

Warning/s: None

Genre: Fluff

AU: None

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Having a huge crush on someone really gets into you. The feeling of a million butterflies flying around your stomach everytime you see them. Everytime your heart leaps when you think about them. The feeling of getting to know them more. To feel closer. To be that special someone in their life. To have a space in their heart. Thoughts about that person that always replay on your head, like what do they like and dislikes, what are their favorite foods, who are the people that are important to them, questions like that. But most importantly, you ask yourself, do they like you back?

Do they feel the same emotion you feel everytime they are around? Do they also feel the need and urge to talk to you? Do they also care for you? Just by thinking about it makes you shiver and anxiety creeping into you. What are their thoughts about you? Do they find you cute? Hot? Do they like your personality? Do they find you funny? Do they feel something special towards you?

As times goes by, the feeling gets stronger and stronger until you can't help but to be conscious about yourself, especially if that one person gives a sign that she treats you differently from the others. And in a bad way. It feels awful for Kirishima. Just thinking about you hating him makes him wanna punch himself and ask what's wrong about him.

You were close with everybody in class (well except for Mineta) and always hang out with everybody. Even Bakugou hang outs with you and likes you even though he doesn't show it. You always wear that pretty smile on your face, your eyes glistening with joy everytime you see a person happy because of you. You're always there for everybody, helping them, talking with them, laughing with them. You're the social butterfly of Class A. But when it comes to Kirishima, your treatment gets different. Even though you're a talkative person, you always keep quiet whenever he's around. When you both meet in the hallway, you either walk back to where you came from or walk fastly with your eyes on the ground. It feels like you're avoiding him.

Kirishima asks himself if he isn't enough. If he makes you uncomfortable. If you don't want to hang out with him. Don't you like him? What did he do wrong for you to hate him?

Kirishima sighed and rested his back fully on the couch, staring up at the ceiling. Kaminari glance below him to see Kirishima infront of him before glancing back at the TV, resuming on playing with Sero. Bakugou was on the floor with him while leaning on the couch, waiting for the loser with Kaminari and Sero to win against him while Sero and Kaminari are sitting on the couch, playing. The two boys on the floor was hidden from anyone who came from the stairs or the kitchen.

"You ok, bud?" Kaminari asked, clearly feeling unusual at his behavior.

"Huh? Ah, yeah. I'm fine." Kirishima averted his eyes from their questioning ones to avoid more questions. He ran his hand to his hair and sighed once again.

"Who would believe your shit when that's literally the 4th time you sighed asshole? Got nothing better excuse than that, Shitty Hair?" Bakugou furrowed his brows at Kirishima.

"I'm sure no normal people would sigh that heavily if they're ok." Sero grinned at him. If this was an ordinary day, Kirishima would have been all smiley while talking about you, gushing over you. However, he was just sitting there, thinking so deep that he didn't even notice you coming down from the stairs with Mina and Uraraka.

You were laughing with Mina and Uraraka about that one movie who has a hot MC. Giggling, you saw Kaminari and Sero playing in the living room. When Mina saw them, she beamed and greeted them.

"Hey, Denki, Sero! Whatcha' doin'?" You looked at Mina wierdly who's staring back at you.

"What?"

"What the heck is that language?" Your face contorted. Mina shrugged.

"I just heard it on one of those Youtube videos." You shook your head and turned towards the two boys who are still playing. You walked towards them while Mina and Uraraka followed you.

"Where's Kirishima and Bakugou? You're not with them?" You asked, the blonde and redhead out of your sight.

However, when you got closer to the couch, you saw Bakugou sitting on the floor just below Kaminari and Sero.

"You got no eyes, Shitty woman?" Bakugou rolled his eyes at you. "Well good morning to you too, Bakugou." You stuck your tongue out at him, sarcasm evident in your tone.

When you looked below Kaminari, your heart raced when you saw a redhead guy sitting on the floor beside Bakugou. When Kirishima looked up at you and smiled, you felt your face heat up. You almost jolted when Kirishima greeted you a good morning.

"Uhh-...G-good morning!" You stuttered and almost shouted. You bit your lip and looked away from Kirishima to steady your heartbeat.

"You ok , Y/N?" Kaminari chuckled.

"Yeah, I'm fine." You rolled your eyes at him when he grinned at you, clearly teasing you.

What the fuck, Y/N? You're embarrassing yourself in front of Kirishima! Your crush!

Mina and Uraraka laughed at your reaction. You glared back at them and pinched Uraraka on the side.

"Ouch!" She whined playfully, still laughing. You rolled your eyes at them and turned your heel towards the front door of the dorm and looked over your shoulder and signalled Uraraka and Mina to follow you. You rolled your eyes when you saw the sheepish grin on their faces.

"Shut up."

-

Kirishima exhaled sharply when you got out from the front door, looking defeated. He looked at Kaminari who's staring at him and groaned.

"I knew she hated me." He mumbled which reached the boy's ears.

"What do you mean? Who?" Sero asked. "Oh, man!" Sero groaned while Kaminari smirked at him.

"Better luck next time bro!" Kaminari laughed at Sero earning him a groan from the tape-hero.

"You're really bad at this, Soy Sauce Face." Bakugou smirked.

"I'm not. I think it's you who suck at this." Sero smirked back at him, challenging Bakugou.

"What?! You're the one who suck at this! You wanna fight, huh, Tape Arms?!"

"Bro, chill." Kaminari looked at Bakugou while chuckling. He turned towards Kirishima and faced him, his console now on his lap.

"Who hates you? Y/N?" He asked.

"Yeah." Kirishima replied. Kaminari laughed at him while holding his stomach.

"What do you mean Y/N hates you?" Sero chuckled. Kirishima shoot them a confused look, not knowing what's going on.

"Doesn't she hate me? I mean, she's so friendly towards all of you even to Bakugou but everytime time she sees me, she always avoid me.

"What the- this fucker." Bakugou facepalmed at him while Kaminari and Sero continued to laugh at him.

"It's not like that, idiot!"

Kirishima stared at them. What the fuck are they saying? Kirishima is really confused right now as to what was happening and what the boys are talking about.

"Y/N doesn't hate you! In fact, she likes you!" Kaminari blurted out, torn between laughing at his friend's stupidness or being frustrated at his friend's stupidness.

Kirishima sat frozen on his seat. What the fuck? You like him?

-

The wind blew making the leaves rustle, creating a peaceful music to your ears. The garden was a beautiful place to rest in. The calming breeze of the wind and the smell of flowers around and the small chirping of the birds around you can make a person's heart fall into peacefulness.

But in contrast to what one should feel right now, the boy in front of you is trembling with nervousness. You can even see the cold sweats running down his forehead to his chin, disappearing on his uniform coat.

His eyes shot up at you, eyes full of determination despite his vulnerable state. He took a deep breath before standing straight and staring right into your eyes.

"Y-Y/N... I know you already feel my affection towards you, but I want to make a proper confession and express my love to you." He started bravely. You feel your cheeks heat up and your heart race at his words, utterly flustered at his confession. Even though this is not your first time to have someone confess to you, you still get flustered everytime you learned that someone has a crush on you.

"Y/N, I h-have liked you for a long time now, since first year." The boy confessed.

You bit your lip and opened your mouth to speak, only to mutter a single "I-..." before heating up and avoiding his gaze. You fumbled at the hem of your skirt and looked up at the boy infront of you. Singhing, you corrected your posture and face him.

"I-i'm sorry b-but... I can't reciprocate your feelings for me..." You mumbled.

He sighed and smiled at you, making you jolt a little at his action.

"It's ok. I know you have Kirishima inside your heart from the start." He said sheepishly. Your eyes widened as you realized what he just said to you.

"E-eh?!" You squeaked, cheeks heating up even more. He smiled at you before looking at something behind you. When you slowly turn around, it felt like time froze. Your heart thumping even louder as you stared at those crimson eyes that are open wide, shock evident inside them.

You swallowed hard as you felt embarrassment rose inside you. You just want the earth to open below you and swallow you to a place where you can save your ass from embarrassment. The boy gave you a small wave then walked away as Kirishima came over and stood in front of you. Silence fell as you and Kirishima gawked at each other with eyes wide open.

"I...I," You attempted to speak up but the bile inside your throat made you unable to do so.

"So... you like me, huh?" He said quietly, eyes staring at you. You chewed on your bottom lip and nod your head towards him. There's no way to hide it now. He knows your feelings for him already, so why not just take this chance to confess?

"Y-yeah..."

He gave you a soft smile that made your hear swell and your insides melt, his smile giving you strenght.

"B-but you don't have to be forced to answer me. It's ok if you don't have the same feeling as me. It's totaly fine even though you like someone else-" Your words were cut off when his soft lips touched yours, sealing you into a kiss you thought would only happen in your dreams. You closed your eyes to feel his kiss more as you started kissing him back, your lips following his movements. The kiss was so magical and beautiful that the moment he pulled from you, you almost reached for his lips. He chuckled at your reaction and kissed your forehead.

"Don't worry sweetheart, you will get lots and lots of kisses today onwards." He said cockily making you pout.

"Does this mean... you like me too?" You stared at his crimson eyes. He smiled at you and nodded. He leaned towards you until you felt his hot breath beside your ears making you gasp.

"Since first year, baby." He whispered into your ear.

"I thought you hate me though." He pouted at you. Your eyebrows shoot up from what he said.

"Huh? Why would I hate you?" You asked, confused at his remark. He avoided your gaze and you saw a small tint of pink on his cheeks. You can't help but grin.

"Kirishima..." You hummed softly as he looked back at you. "Are you... blushing?" You asked him while grinning. This time, his faced turned into red, almost like his hair and eyes.

"W-what?! Of c-course not!" He stuttered making you laugh at him. He glared at you playfully making you laugh even more.

"Stop laughing!"

"I can't help it!" You snickered while trying to stop your laughter. Key word: Trying. Instead of getting angry at you, Kirishima smiled softly at you, finding you cute while laughing. He can't help but to steal a kiss from you once again making you stop laughing. Your face heat up once again and blinked at Kirishima.

"Now you're the one blushing." He teased. You smacked his arms and hid your face in his chest.

"Stop!"

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[miioouu]

HEADCANONS: fake dating!

Bakugo Katsuki:

-It all started when the bakusquad teased him about being gay saying stuff like "hey dude, being gay is ok" or "man if you're gay just tell us we won't treat any other way".

-So of course he had to prove them wrong, bc he's not gay only for kiri... and todo and what better way than to idk, make out with a girl in front of them?

- You were the first one to pop in his mind when he came up with the idea.

- You two were pretty close so no one will suspect a thing. Plus he knew you'd agree cause you're just that nice right?

- Well not really.... When he came up to you and addressed his idea at first you were shocked, did THE Bakugou Katsuki ask for your help?! wow you were impressed! And also nah, you're not gonna let this opportunity pass.

- So you told him you'd agree only if he helps you train. I mean c'mon you have one of the strongest students asking for help you're gonna take advantage of the situation. So after a few complaints from him, he finally agreed and you two started talking about the details of the "relationship".

- One day you two entered class holding hands. You were all smiley and blushy, thank god for the drama classes you took as a child, while he was being his normal grumpy self, but if anyone looked close enough they could see the faint blush on his cheeks. He wasn't used to this much affection.

- All the class was silent for like a minute or so, trying to make sense of the whole situstion untill someone decided to break the awkward air with a "FINALLY YOU TWO TOOK FOREVER TO CONFESS" which made the class react and just drown you with questions.

- Now, it was no lie that the two of you liked each other, but on one hand you had a grumpy explosive boy who would rather die than express his real feelings, and you on the other hand was too shy and too afraid of rejection to confess.

- Few weeks passed by, the whole fake dating thing really got you two closer than ever before, but you still decided to keep your feelings for yourselves.

- Maybe one day the fake dating will turn into real dating, who knows?

Sero Hanta (my boi needs more LOVE)

- You were in deep deep trouble. Like serious trouble.

- You're cousin was coming to visit. That alone was a nightmare. She was the kind of girl who would judge you for literally anyting. Your hair color, your fashion style, the fact that you are still single.

- But you've had enough of all these years of bullying. Well you knew she meant no harm, but you just couldn't take it anymore you wanted to make her shut the fuck up.

- So you asked your friend, your dear kind friend Sero to help you out. Just anything to help you go through the next two weeks without murdering your cousin.

- He suggested fake dating, like this she won't annoy you about that subject anymore. And then you guys started thinking about who would accept to do that with you.

- When he couldn't find anyone he almost gave up untill you said "Hey Sero since you came up with the idea, why don't you pretend to be my boyfriend?.... Pretty please?"

- Being the sweetheart he is, and wanting to help you, he accepted.

- Whenever your cousin was around, you texted him and smiled to make it more believable, and hid your phone whenever she tried to look with who you were talking.

- One day, she couldn't take it anymore and asked in a very obvious sarcastic tone "Who are you texting y/n? Your boyfrieeend?"

- God you just wanted to smack her! But instead you nodded with a smile on your face.

- She asked you to meet him, she wanted to "make sure he's good enough for you" you tried to refuse multiple times but she insisted so you asked Sero to come over and tell him the whole plan.

- Sero showed up with flowers in his hands, which surprised you because he didn't tell you he was going to bring you something. Which made you slightly blush because of his kindness.

- Diner went great, Sero kept glancing your way, sending you smiles and would occasionally kiss your hands, and everytime he did so, it sent butterflies to your stomach, he was so sweet and gentle. But hey snap out of it, it's all an act y/n!

-Your cousin looked obviously jealous, good that's what you wanted.

- Evry other day, Sero you come over or he'd take you out on a "date" just to keep the act, and you can't help but find him more adorable everytime. Did your heart always beat that fast whenever he said your name?

- When your cousin left, Sero told you that it was a great plan, and she seemed to bother you less, which you respond to with a simple "yes, you're right" and a smile, but in reality, you were sad that he won't kiss your cheek anymore, he won't take you on dates anymore, that he wasn't your boyfriend anymore.

- But little did you know, he too was sad that you're not his anymore.

Shirabu Kenjirou

- His parents always bugged him about not having a significant other yet.

- They kept bothering him, to the point where they even tried to set him up with someone; inviting people over and making him talk to them, dragging him with them to meet their friend's kid, etc....

-He was mad at them, couldn't they just leave him alone?

- But to do that, it means he had to find someone who was willing to fake a relationship with him.

- It's when he thought about you, you had begged him to help you study, even telling him that you'd do anything just to help you pass your class.

- Well that was his only solution. So he called you up, explained the whole deal, and well he kind of forced you into it because "you said you'd do anything right? Unless you want to fail?"

- This little asshole! But well it's ok, who doesn't want to fake date a rich handsom young man?

- He picked you up and you went to a fancy fancy restaurant where his parents were waiting for you.

- What you weren't expecting from this whole deal, was to discover a new side of Shirabu, around his parents, he was happy, funny, joyful, the opposite of the Kenjirou you spent the last few years with.

- He'd keep making jokes with you, calling you  sweet nicknames and made sure your hair was out of your face by putting the loose strands behind your ears. Oof it was getting quite hot in this outdoor restaurant.

- When the lunch ended, his parents gave you a hug and kept insisting that they wanted to see you again.

- Once out if his parents' sight, he let go of your hand and his natrual mean face came back.

- Ouch, that hurts.

- You thought that this was the last time you'd ever see nice Shirabu, but you were wrong, a few days later, he asked you to come over beacause "my parents won't shut up about you" and you were more than happy to go again.

- His parents kept their promise and made sure that they see you at least once a week. Which helped you getting to know the setter better. He was no longer shy to show his sweet side around you even when it was the two of you alone studying, he often kept holding your hand even if his parents aren't looking, and his heart made a flip everytime you blushed if he played with your hair.

- You both didn't know what was going on, and how to deal with these new feelings, but you did know that you hoped the other never changed their mind.

Nishinoya Yuu

- You two were friends since god knows when. You were inseparable.

- One night, while you staying over to his place, a great, mischievous idea came to your mind.

- "Hey Yuu, why don't we prank the team and send the a snap of us holding hands?"

- Nishinoya was never one to back down from a prank.

- But well now that the team believes that you guys are dating, what were you going to do? Being the reckless teenagers that you are, you decided to keep up with the prank and start fake dating.

- Whenever the team was around, the two of you would act super lovey dovey like feeding each other, calling each other overly sweet names, hug like every two minutes. Guys please take a break!

- You would always visit him during training and games to cheer him up, compliment him on his moves, and proudly give him a kiss before and after each game.

- He was always here to help you go through bad days, make you smile when you got a bad grade, telling you it wasn't the end of the world, and caress you cheek whenever he saw you.

-Those were thing you normally did, even when you weren't "dating" but lately those small actions felt different.

- It was all fun and games untill one day, Nishinoya saw you talking to a guy, he felt jealous, he ran up to you and gave you a hug, glaring at the guy to leave without you noticing.

- You, on the other hand, wasn't doing better, whenever he would talk about other girls, telling you how hot he found them and how lonely he felt without a real s/o, you would get furious. But why? That's how Nishinoya always was. Nothing new.

- But those feelings didn't keep you two from giving up on the prank, wanting it to last as long as possible.

- When Karasuno won against Aoba Johsai, you ran over to Yuu to give him a hug, one of the tightest hug you ever shared, and neither of you wanted to let go, but you had to.

- When you separated, you couldn't help but look into each other's eyes, something was about to happen, something good was about to happen, you hoped.

[angeldolanx]

Chapter 12. /- go to a pool party/

Hi💞 chapter 11 is the smut that I posted here a while back, u can find it under my masterlist before u read this if u haven’t seen it yet x

18.07.'19

I was a little bit surprised when I stepped to the boys's living room next to Corinna and Ethan and saw from the huge window that there are a lot more people here, then I expected to be. To be honest I only knew Daniel and Bryant and there was a few more boys and girls too next to them. We looked each other for a second with Corinna, before we went out to them. Loud music basted from the speakers from Tame Impala while Grayson jumped into the pool and the four girls screamed in the side as the water reached them. That was the time when I realized who is one of the girl, who was familiar. She was the one, who was with Grayson in the tattoo salon when I first met him.

I could feel how the jealousy spreads out in my body, so I just rolled my eyes while I dropped my top and bag to the chair and I still kept on my shorts yet. As I looked to the girls to be honest I was glad I choose this swimsuit today. It was a red one piece, with a really low cut in the back and even showed a little from the side of my boobs. At this period of my life I've had enough confidence to know I looked hotter than them.

"What's up, what is this bratty face?" put his arm around my shoulder Ethan, with a light laugh.

"Agh, nothing" I shook my head and laughed with him, because it was funny to think about how it was so obvious to him that something is not okay for me. On the other hand I hated myself for being jealous.

"Finally, where have you been? " shouted to us Grayson, when he realized that we were there. As he jumped out from the pool and come up to us I really tried to not look down from his face to see his wet muscular body, as the water dropping down from him or how he pushed back his wet hair and looked like a absolute goddess without even trying. I thought my dirty mind's gonna chill, if we are gonna have sex, but I felt like it's just got worse and I wanted more from him.

"You are so cold" I whined when he hugged me. My sun warmth skin was in a strong contrast compared to his wet body, but I still didn't minded too much that tight hug. And I really liked how he still hugged me with one arm when he leaned against Corinna to hug her too with one hand and he didn't let me go.

It was a really crazy and weird day to me. I laid on the sunbathing bed with Corinna and watched how the boys jumped down from the roof to the pool and later I watched how Grayson hugged a girl from behind so he could jump to the pool with her. I could tell how much the girl enjoyed the attention and I hated how furious I was. I tried to not even talk to him the whole day. I always chatted with the others, and when he came up I always had an attitude and left him. He didn't do anything serious with the girls, but I was still angry because I knew, if he would have I still would not have the right to say anything, because I wasn't his girlfriend. I could even hold the candle for them.

Later Ethan told me, that the blonde girl from the tattoo salon is just a friend and they never had anything between each other. It probably wasn't because of the girl. I saw how he looked at him, or how he looked for him when he was not around and she became all smiley when he was there.

I was on my way out from Ethan's room with his charger, when Grayson come towards me on the hallway and stepped in front of me, so I couldn't go further. I was surprised how my heart started to race in my chest, even though I saw him all day. There is just something in him that makes me lose my mind when I am around him.

" Why are you act like this?" he asked.

"Like what?" I asked back and from the way I asked it he could tell how annoyed I was.

" Exactly like this, why are you angry at me?" he asked again and reached for my hand but before he could touch it I pulled it away from him. "Really?"

"I'm not, let me go" I looked away from him and tried to go next to him but he grabbed my waist and pressed me against the wall.

" Babe, it's so obvious that you are jealous" he said with a wide grin that made me even more angry.

" I'm not " I mumbled and tried to push him away, but he held down my wrists and even pushed his hips tighter to me, so I didn't had a chance to even move. "Let me go, Gray!"

He just shook his head and leaned closer to me with his head. I thought I mess around with him a bit, so I lifted up my face and opened my mouth slightly, like I would wait for his kiss, but as soon as he was close enough to kiss me I turned my head to the side and his lips only brushed against mine. He did not gave up that easily, and tried again, but I did the same thing again and I could feel how his body tensing up.

"Stop denying my kisses" he said when he got all fed up and cupped my cheeks and kissed me so hard I needed to push him away so I could breath.

"You are an idiot" I said and still tried to act like I am still angry at him, meanwhile all I wanted is that hard kiss from him.

"Stop being a brat and kiss me" he moved closer again. At this moment all I could do is smile on how stubborn he was. I stood on my tippy toes to reach him up and put my arms around his neck and now I was the one, who kissed him hard. His tongue brushed against mine immediately to try to invite mine to a hard and passionate kiss. It was interesting to see how annoyed I was because I saw him with someone else. I always thought I wasn't really the jealous type, and it is true, I am not, but in this situation it's different. He is not mine, and I am not his.

"Oh okay, I didn't expected this" said Ethan, who just showed up in the hallway. We immediately pulled away and I bit my lips when I saw Ethan's cheeky smile. " It was just a kiss in the Hollywood sign, huh?" looked at Grayson.

"Shut up, E" rolled his eyes Grayson while Ethan just laughed and went straight to his bedroom, and left us alone again. As I looked at Grayson's eyes I felt the sparkle coming up between us again, my whole body tensed up only because of his gaze and it was crazy to feel how strong is the chemistry between each other. Ethan was the one, who interrupted the moment again, when he come out and went fast back to the yard, before Grayson would freak out on him again.

" I love when you act like this" I said. My voice was provocative and I even bowed my head a little to be more effective.

"How?" he asked with a cheeky smile.

"I don't know, more violent and passionate.."

"But I hate when you act like that" he reached for my hand, and pulled me closer to his body. "Maybe I can satisfy your desires without the bratty act too" he whispered to my ear and put his other hand to my bum so he could grab it. My whole mind got foggy and I hated how well my body reacted to him and to his deep voice. " Let's go back" he mumbled to my neck, before he placed a soft kiss on my sensitive skin. I just nodded slightly, my whole mind was completely zoned out because of him.

As soon as we stepped out to the yard I screamed, because Grayson suddenly grabbed me to his lap and run to the pool without even thinking.

"No, please no" I yelled, but all I got as a response is loud laugh. We landed with a huge splash in the nice and warm pool. My whole body shook from the laughing while I tried to push back my wet hair after I come up from the water. I felt the other's eyes on us, but my whole mood changed because of Grayson's action, so I didn't really cared about them. I took off the wet short in the water and put it to the side, and then swam around and laughed as Gray started to chase me and kept tried to push me down the water.

After I got a little tried - I know I am not in a good condition, I got tired pretty quickly - I decided to go out and leave Gray in the pool, but I still wanted to play with him a little. I slowly walked up on the pool's stairs, while I pushed my hair back and swinged my hips a little more than usual left and right. When I come out from the pool I looked back over my shoulder and saw Grayson's cheeky smile while his gaze still burnt my sun warmth skin. Everytime I see myself in his eyes it gives me confidence, I could read from his face that he fancies me and of course it is something, that I like to see and it really is makes me feel better in my skin and I just wanna impress him even more and more everyday.

"Can we talk, M?" asked suspiciously Corinna, when I went to her in the yard.

"Sure, what's up?" I nodded, put a towel on my shoulder and I saw how the girls keep looking at us while they were talking. Suddenly I felt myself in high school again, it was way too obvious that they talked about me. "What?" I looked back at Corinna and chuckled on her grin.

"When?"

"When what?"

" It's obvious that you two are so into each other and it wasn't like this on the trip, so I am almost one hundred percent sure you lost it with him" she said confidently. As soon as I realized what she said I threw the towel on her with a giggle. "So it is true? Omg I am a genius" laughed Corinna. "Why didn't you tell me?"

" I wanted to, but I don't know" I said while I set down next to him to the patio sofa. Of course Grayson caught my attention again. He set next to the pool with his phone in his hand.

"Was it good?" smirked the girl and put his hand on my face, so he turned it to her way again when she saw I am checking out Grayson instead of listening to her.

"Yeah, so good" I grinned." But I am not gonna tell details."

" Why?" she pouted which just made me laugh again. " I swear I am gonna slap that girl, if you are not soon" she said, and I looked immediately to the direction where she stared. Of course it was the blondie again next to Gray who was clearly busy on his phone, but she kept tried to get his attention.

"She is so into him, but what can I do? " I shrugged my shoulder. I didn't wanted to seem like a crazy chick who is obsessed with him and hates that he is talking to someone else, I was not that type. And Grayson knew it too, maybe that's why he immediately smiled when our eyes met and said something to the girl, before he got up and came to our direction. He just casually sat down next to me, put his leg on the cafe table and opened his phone again. "That wasn't nice" I looked at him.

" I need to reply to a mail, and I am not ready for you to get jealous again."

"I wasn't jealous, I just don't like her" I replied, which just made him laugh. I flinched as he put his cold hand on my naked back and brushed it little lower to go under the swimsuit a bit. As I looked at him I saw how his attention got distracted and his eyes moved around on me. First on my back, then to my legs and then up to my boobs to take his time there. Maybe this swimsuit really was a good idea. "You are never gonna finish that email like this" I bit my lip, and he immediately looked up and smirked as he looked to my eyes.

" Shut up" he laughed and now he really tried to concentrate to his phone, while I chatted with Corinna next to us.

The rest of the day went a lot more chilled, then before. Probably everyone's energy went lower from being on the sun the whole day and swimming around. Basically everyone was on their own group and chetted. I mostly spent the time with Corinna and Ethan and later I talked with Bryant and Daniel too. I was not too bothered to get to know the girls.

It was almost ten when everyone started to get ready to leave. For the last time today I needed to see how the blonde girl crossed her arms around Grayson's shoulder to give him a long hug and a goodbye. At this point I almost felt like I am more disappointed than angry. I didn't knew how to act, I didn't wanted to scare him away. I never in my life was a girlfriend, I am not a girlfriend at this point either but it is still something I never really experienced. I felt like I am closer to him, than I ever was to someone else.

The house got quiet. Ethan and Corinna ate in the kitchen, while I sat outside next to the pool and listened to the bug's cheers on the dark night in LA. I watched how the water drifted when I moved around my leg in the pool, while I was somewhere else in my thoughts until Gray come out and sat down next to me. Before he even said anything, he put his arm around my shoulder and pulled me closer so he could give a light kiss on my forehead. His gestures surprised me. They were actions, that was not really something that we could say that friends did. The game started to get dangerous, especially when I realized how I reacted every time I saw him. My stomach always twitched and some kind of excitement filled my body. Maybe I could still say, that this is something that friends feel, but I am sure it was a white lie even for myself. I ended up rather turning off these thoughts and turned to Grayson's direction who as soon as looked at me a light smile spread on my face.

"Hi beautiful" he said quietly. I tried to hide my smile with biting my lip, that wanted to show up on my face because of his nickname to me, while he just smiled slightly and gazed around on my face. As soon as I looked down from his eyes to his lips, my body started to desire his kiss. I hesitated at first. Then when I couldn't think anything of why I should not do it, I didn't wanted to lose my chance. I put my hand on his face and giggled how I made his mouth pout with my fingers. As I leaned closer I looked into his eyes one last time with a slight smile and pressed my lips against his. First I kissed his upper lip, then his bottom, before I give him a proper kiss. The thought that I can kiss him whenever I want and all I get back afterwards is a cheeky smile with a little bit of surprise really is boosted my confidence.

Every time our lips met I felt like there is fire in my body. It doesn't matter if we kissed before, it was still new to my body to have such a big reaction to him. And the fact, that as soon us his hand grabbed my thigh, it left sparkles as his hands touched my skin, he drove me crazy. I had no idea what did he done so good, but I am sure my body melted into his touches every time he did something. It was a new me, who next to Grayson finds confidence, even more than was before, and she feels one hundred percent a women, not just a girl anymore.

"M, are you ready to go?"

Corinna's voice made us pull away from each other, and I laughed when I saw Gray's annoyed face because of it.

"I am waiting for you since you went to the kitchen" I said. I already wanted to go, when everyone else did too, but Corinna's stomach made her stay and eat with Ethan what they ordered a few hours ago and there were still left overs.

"You should stay, and maybe sleep over" looked at me Gray, when I stood up from next to him.

"Nah, this day was enough for me with your blondie" I said dramatically, but there was a grin on the corner of my lips, especially when I saw Grayson's reaction to it. He stood up with a big sigh and reached for my hands to pull me back to him. He looked down on me with prickly eyes, probably because he saw the cheekiness in my eyes. At this point I did everything on purpose, to see how much can I make him upset and angry at me. There was way too many ups and down in me today and I wanted to give back some of it to him.

"Stop" he mumbled.

" Make me" I replied stubbornly. I saw when he noticed my confident smile, his jaw clenched and his hold on my waist got tighter. It was obvious that I made him tense, but for now his angriness mixed with some frustration as well. I knew he loved when I was confident and I knew too that even when it made him mad he still loved that I said out loud everything that was in my mind. I started to get to know him. Started to see how far can I go or how he reacts to things that I do.

"You do this on purpose, don't you?" he asked, and now there was a smirk on his lips too.

"I am gonna leave you here" said again Corinna now a lot more loud and angry in the door.

"Can you please give us ten mins?" looked to her direction Grayson. It was a surprise how much his voice changed and how much nicer he talked to Corinna, then to me in this situation.

We heard how the door closed as Corinna went back to the house and left us all alone again next to the pool. His strong gaze met mine again and I felt how my stomach flipped. I was still in his arms, now even more closer than before because he put his other arm around my waist too and hold me close against his hard body strongly. Lack of better I put my hand on his chest and slowly started to move upper, till I stood on tippy toes so I could cross my arms around his neck. I smiled when our noses brushed each other's, we were so close of course I started to desire his kiss again. I turned my head to the side and moved closer, but before our lips met Gray moved his head and avoided my kiss. I frowned my eyebrows when I looked into his eyes, while he just cockly grinned at me.

"You did the same to me today" he said. We were still so close, with every world that he said he brushed his lips against mine and my mind got all foggy again. "Enough for today with this attitude."

"Oh, okay" I rolled my eyes and tried to pull away from him, but his hold got stronger and I could only make my face go more further from his. " I already wanted to go, you don't have to handle.."

Before I could finish my sentence I sighted surprisingly when he pressed his lips against mine. I immediately forget about everything. What I said, or what I did, I just gave myself to him and to his hard and passionate kiss. As soon as our tongues met our kiss got even more sloppier and I could feel his anger leaving his body to our kiss. We really got into each other's nerves today, but he choose the best way to make me shut up and forgot about everything. My strong personality needed a man, who could handle me. My angriness, my bratiness or my stubbornness. He could get under my skin.

When he put both of his hand on my face and he didn't let me move, so he could kiss me even harder and he could use his tongue harder against mine a quiet moan left my lips. My whole body started to tingle, and in that moment I really wanted to send Corinna home and stay with Grayson for the night.

"Stop" I pulled away. "I am not gonna be able to leave is you do this" I said while I tried to breathe normally again. I was still in his arms and felt how his chest moved faster than usual too and I really wanted to ignore the poke against my lover stomach that I could clearly feel at this moment.

"That's my goal" he said with a smirk.

"Gray" I giggled and shook my head. " I need to go " I pulled a awey now properly. I saw the disappointment on his face when I reached for his hand and went to the house with him next to me. It was cute how he wanted me to stay, but there was still a voice in my head that said that I should go home. Too many things happened today, especially in my head and I was tired mentally and physically too. I was a slightly terrified when I realized that maybe I had so many thing in my head today, because I started to have feelings for him. I felt like it's too soon, and I got scared. I always got scared from my feelings. And I should not have them for him, at all.

In the living room I said bye to Ethan with a big hug, and grabbed my stuff that I gave to Corinna, who was already on her way to the car. I bit my lip when I went to the front door, and Grayson leaned next to it. He looked so attractive, he almost looked like model from like a Calvin Klein campaign or something. I could feel how my stomach flipped again because of him. I went closer to him with a confident smile, and pressed a light kiss on his lips when I stepped between his legs. It was obvious that my body desired him when his hand grabbed my waist then went lower to my bum.

"No, do not start again" I pulled away and laughed how his arms immediately left my body. " Good night" I mumbled to his lips and went to the door now really, and opened it.

" Bye, angel" he said while he looked at me deeply with his hungry eyes. Before my body would gave up on me and would go back to his arms, I went straight to Corinna's car. It was a really long day, and I really needed to clear my mind.

- go to a pool party √

[sweetcheol]

ateez reaction; falling for their best friend (that likes them back)

hongjoong.

my bby is so soft.

i feel like he realized v early on that he was starting to like you as something more than friends.

and as soon as he did he became an absolute mess.

because he’s always blushing.

and smiling even more so than usual (which you know he’s always doing).

he’s an actual sweetheart.

so i feel like he’d definitely bring you coffee, take you out for food and lend you his hoodies while being super casual about it.

he just wants to make you happy.

he probably doesn’t even realize he’s being so boyfriend-y to you until one of the boys points it out.

and then he’d try his best to keep his feelings to himself.

he’s v aware that he could mess your relationship up if he were to confess and you didn’t feel the same.

but being so into his head about that, he never noticed you liked him too.

seonghwa.

he is so oblivious about it.

you are his pal.

smiling whenever he gets a text from you and talking about you all the time was a normal thing to do right?

r i g h t ?

being friends with seonghwa means you are also friends with hongjoon.

who knows just how seonghwa feels about you.

so whenever you were around he tries to steer as much of your attention towards seonghwa as possible.

“look at how good he looks in that video!”

“don’t you think his voice sounds great in this track?”

which always makes you blush.

and seonghwa never notices !!!!!!!!!

he’s always too busy blushing himself and thinking it’s just because it’s v hot in the room.

joong gets so over it and talks to him about it.

and poor bby is like “... oh my god”.

yunho.

another oblivious bby.

but he is so sofT and reflects his own feelings so much that literally everyone but him knows.

even you know.

you like him too but you don’t want to make him feel uncomfortable.

so you just go along with it.

he gets soooo needy when you’re around.

literally clinging onto you every second you’re together.

always talking to you.

smiles so so so so so so much.

he’s like a puppy following you around and winging his tail to get your attention.

always cuddling you.

gets pouty when someone else takes your attention away from him.

one day you’re cuddling on the couch while watching a movie.

he’s playing with your hair and literally staring at your face, completely ignoring the movie.

his face gets so red when wooyoung goes like “uwuwuwuwuwuwu ;)))))))”

and that’s when he knows.

yeosang.

he knows.

but poor bby yeo is convinced there’s no way you’ll like him back.

so he tries to hides his feelings as much as he can.

which isn’t too hard seeing he’s already such a shy bean.

you just think he’s being shier than usual.

he’s always texting you.

but when you’re together in person he tries to avoid getting into serious convo topics.

he’s sure it’ll slip out of his mouth.

but he always wants to be close to you.

gets so flustered when you compliment him.

a mess.

it’s you who takes the first step because there’s no way yeo would ever do it.

you ask him out to coffee one day and he gets so so so so nervous.

almosts spills his coffee all over himself.

you’re just trying to get him to not feel so anxious.

“it’s fine, yeo. believe me, i’m just as nervous as you are.”

he kinda knows it’s a date but he also doesn’t actually know.

so u give him a quick peck on the lips and he’s just about dying.

rip yeo

san.

another boy that’s aware of his feelings.

but unlike the others, i don’t think san would shy away from them.

he’d like to see where it goes.

he doesn’t know you like him too but he’d be willing to test the waters.

that being said, he also wouldn’t be super flirty.

he’d just be very casual about it.

hypes you up so damn much.

i mean you know how he is with the boys.

likes being close to you.

would sometimes wrap his arm around your shoulders and act as if he wasn’t doing anything special.

and would dedicate songs to you when performing like it’s no big deal.

all the boys know he’s crazy ‘bout you.

and if asked he just goes “yeah”.

one day he just can’t take it anymore.

he asks you out on a date.

and when you say yes he’s grinning so damn wide his face literally hurts.

it warms your heart to see your boy being happy like that :’)

mingi.

another soft bby.

mingi knows he likes you.

he literally gets butterflies everytime he sees you so how could he not.

but much like yeo, he doesn’t think you’ll like him back.

it’ll be much more difficult for him to hide it though.

because he gets so flustered when you barely even say hello to him.

he is such an upbeat guy.

he’s always joking around.

pranks you a lot.

high-key does it because he loves hearing your laugh.

practices his lines with you before anyone else.

literally ignores everyone else when you’re around.

his eyes get so bright and he’s bouncing on his toes with a huge smile on his face.

so you get the hint.

and start dropping clues to make him know you’re into him as well.

but boy doesn’t notice.

god bless choi san for helping you out and blatantly telling mingi about how obvious you both are being.

wooyoung.

he’s very much like san when it comes to this.

like he also knows he likes you and doesn’t bother hiding it.

but unlike san, wooyoung will actually flirt with you as soon as he has the chance.

and he makes it as obvious as he can that it isn’t just a friendly, playful flirt.

you’d flirt right back on.

“looking good, honey!” “same to you, hot stuff!”

asks for your opinion on everything.

literally everything.

a power couple even before you are an actual couple.

talking 24/7.

sends you memes and texts you random ass stuff at 3 am.

gets even louder when talking to you if that’s even possible.

i mean idk what to tell u, the both of you are practically dating from the moment you realize you have feelings for each other.

jongho.

a bby.

gets super smiley.

is always singing.

low-key serenading u but u don’t need to know that.

does that apple thing whenever he can.

flexes his strenght because he thinks it impresses you (it does).

all of his hyungs know he likes you and they’re always teasing him for it.

because he doesn’t hide it but he isn’t like wooyoung either.

i have a feeling he’s just very casual abt it.

but he does get super smiley whenever you are around.

you do too so it gets his heart beating practically out of his chest.

bbyyyyyyyy.

[hyycks]

100 reasons to love lee donghyuck

[repost cause i remade oops; ill be posting part two for his birthday!]

“hAEllo my name is Haechan :D”

his raw talent and passion for performing.

he’s always ready to jump on stage and for his very best, and you can see it everytime he smiles at the end of his performance

as a trainee he was one of the best rappers since he had such an amazing sense of rhythm as doyoung mentioned  

music is more than just his job, it’s his passion and he genuinely enjoys learning and experiencing music

his undying love for Michael Jackson

his heart shaped smile that really rivals the sun itself.

his smile is so pure and sincere it can make anyone’s day better

his confidence in his tanned skin, even though some people tease him for it he’s always so loving about his own skin color.

his constant need for physical affection whether it be hugging his members or trying to give Mark cheek kisses

hes not afraid to show his love adoration for members

his laugh and the way he almost falls over from laughing too hard

the fact that he cooks for the members from time to time, showing how much he truly cares for them

mood maker of the group!!! he’s always trying to make everyone happy and keep the team energized with his jokes or random acts!

he’s more considerate than people make him out to be. although people keep teasing Jeno for being “No Jam” he said Jeno is really one of the funniest members as a compliment and Jeno was so smiley throughout the rest of the vlive.

the way he smiles so fondly at the younger members and is always looking out for them

his passion for dancing. even though he’s the vocalist in the group, his dancing skills are truly commendable. he has sharp memory when it comes to dance and he enjoys learning to choreo to sooo many songs!!

the way he calls himself fullsun in English!

HIS ENGLISH! *cue donghyuck saying marshmallow*

his taste in music, he listens to amazing songs across so many different genres, and loves recommending songs to us as well which is so adorable

the way he styles himself! he knows what looks good on him but he’s not afraid to try new things

the fact that he collects LPs! he loves collecting LPs of his favorite albums, and you can see the glimmer of excitement in his eyes when he spotted a few of his fav in LA

his cute tarot readings! also in LA he bought a pack of tarot cards and did some readings for the members and he was so engrossed and into it!

when he’s deeply invested in something, he suddenly goes all quiet and concentrates.

his love for video games! he keeps complaining saying he’s not the best at them but he still tries regardless and enjoys himself!

his voice. his voice is so soothing and gentle, it’s honestly so angelic sm pls let him release a solo track

he can play the piano really well and it’s one of his favorite hobbies !!

he respects shinee a lot, and especially adores Taemins music and he looks up to them!

he grew up so much!! he used to be short and really cute during chewing gum but since then he’s grown really tall!

not just physically, he’s grown so much more mentally. as a person he’s more responsible and careful and he’s so kind and loving

he loves playing with children, and he’s so kind and careful when playing with them!!

even when he’s going through a hard time he tries his best to stay the smiley donghyuck we know of!

his talent doesn’t just stop at performing he does his own eye makeup and shines in his own special way

he wants to be a singer-songwriter and I truly believe he his capable of writing beautiful and amazing music !!

he’s improved so much since the start! he keeps practicing and learning more day by day

he’s so so so caring, when Jisung couldn’t dribble the ball, he kept causing disturbances so that he could redo it!!

the tinie way he kept repeating I love you to sicheng during the 2 year anniversary olive

his giggles!!

dongsookie and the way he laughs while covering his mouth

the way his skin glimmers when he wears the color red

RED! IS! A COLOR! CREATED! FOR! HIM!

he looks so good in red, when he had red hair or whenever he wears red items of clothing his features just stand out so much more!!

he’s been playing football since he was in elementary school and is good at it too!

he’s so good with his words and could easily become a well known variety!dol with his wit and sharp comments

mc!hyuck

sm make hyuck an MC or send him to a variety show please he’s so funnie and quick witted I’m sure he’ll do a great job!

his acting skills! ask him to be dramatic, he’s your guy he can portray multiple emotions in 0.003 seconds what a legend

his lines in paradise :(( (they’re so beautiful I love his voice)

whenever hyuck wears SnapBacks and you can see his cute forehead it just makes me want to give him a thousand tinie kisses

when he gave jeno a kiss on the cheek during the shooting of ‘go’ and just bolted away and how the dreamies remembered it as a memory from shooting the MV

when he harmonizes with Jaehyun and both of their voices sound like angels singing together

on his phone cover he has stickers of all the 127 members from the chain album :(( how … cute

his verses in heartbreaker and angel are the reason why I still breathe they make me feel all giddy inside his voice is so so nice?!

that gif… of donghyuck wrapped up in a blanket and giggling makes my heart jump around like a fool I might as well join the olympics

his high note in ‘go’ is single handedly the best thing ever (renjun singing that part is second)

NCT members said that donghyuck can make delicious food with wtv is in the fridge we love a king of improv cooking

when his hair has his natural waves and he suddenly looks so much more adorable I don’t know how to explain it but .. that photo shoot of his wavy hair … I love it

TRIGGER THE FEVER! All of dreamies did amazing !! BUT TRIGGER THE FEVER I LOVE THE SONG I LOVE HIS SINGING IN THE SONG AND CHOREO IS SO AWESOME I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT

I LOVE HIS HIGH NOTES IN TRIGGER THE FEVER HES SUCH A TALENTED SINGER!!

that aside the dreamies choreos aren’t simple they all put in a lot of work and effort and I’m so proud of all of them, especially my first and last the choreo is so detailed !!

“hErE iS kORea mAN.” “don’T fOrGet okAY?”

him trying to give spoilers for ‘go’ and being pushed off by the other members because he was overdoing it soo much fshsh

whenever they do yaja time, hyuck is either the one having the most fun or suffering the most

when he’s with 127 doing yaja time, he really doesn’t hold back but then karma gets it when jisung picks on him when he’s with the dreamies

when he was directing the boy video for mark and chenle and he kept asking them to change the ‘mood’ of the shoot after every few seconds making everyone laugh

when he held that same eye batting cute smile through most of the live (´｡• ω •｡`)

the fact that he makes up different handshakes with each member and showed them to us too!

behind video for joy and hyuck kept pretending to be lifted up by the helium balloon in the background

Johnny’s love for hyuck and hyucks love johnny, we don’t talk enough about this, they’re both just adorable and so precious

his “hi girls ;D” in the momo x video

when chenle said “sea” in Chinese and hyuck replying “hi :D” cause they sound similar

his cute frustrated face when chenle said he didn’t know what shadow was in korean and he lost the game

when he clung on to mark and said “hyung, I’m hungryyy.” in the most adorable voice ever

“booming system up uh ty track uh ty track”

when doyoung asked hyuck to sing a song from his ost to prove that he heard it and he just sang “APADO GWENCHANA.”

he’s savage and a teasing mess a lot of the times but he’s secretly really sweet and caring and that makes him just so endearing

he may tease mark relentlessly but mark sees him as a younger sibling which shows just how close these two are :((

when his karaoke got voted the most not fun event during NCT life in Paju but instead of just complaining he got up and made a nice breakfast for all of the members

his cover of smooth criminal on weekly idol [plus his cute lisp]

this five seconds at the end of the 00+00+00+00=LOVE vlive where hyuck plays a cover of a thousand miles

when he couldn’t break his chopsticks and taeyong gave him his instead, the way he smiled out of love is just so warm???

he’s honestly so so so talented I mean he’s even good at archery he went on isac and did his very best I was so proud?

when he did a freestyle to whiplash? like where does his talent stop? he’s so talented and skilled in so many areas?

those tiny video which he posts on twitter looking like the cutest boy ever

the way he looks when he wears glasses is just so cute and adorable?

that clip of him jumping around in the feathers for the touch MV

his eyes that are shaped like tony almonds that hold the glimmer of all the stars in this universe combined

his strong stage charisma that has the ability to leave everyone stunned

his scar next to his eye that just makes him all the more human and all the more lovable

all of the moles on his body that deserve to kissed and loved over and over again

he’s really sweet and kind but he loves prancing his members tbt NCT life in Paju when he pranked the members with salted sprite and soy sauce cola and half the members didn’t trust him because they’re used to his pranks

that time when he and Jeno pranked jisung by changing his iPad wallpaper to a cockroach

the way he giggles is so soft and loving it makes flowers bloom all over the world

That time when Chenle and Hyuck relentlessly pushed away members in NCT Dream School Mate to win the game. “yEA ChEnLE BaBY”

he’s actually so thoughtful, he bought a radio just because Johnny and Jaehyun host a radio show to show how much he loves and supports them

when he was singing “baby don’t like it” live on NCT night night but forgot the lyrics it was so cute? (not to mention how blessed his voice was)

kept dancing to other groups choreos instead of their own when dreamies were doing the let’s dance and mark got so frustrated

NCT 127 on Ah!Nimdle where he kept rushing to the front to answer questions about the members by “giving up on looking handsome” (we’d all do it for food thanks)

his commentary on the soccer vlive he did with Jisung and Jungwoo and Yuta! (sm he’s so talented look)

he cuddles people in his sleep which is why he wanted to room with Jeno because he’s comfortable with him but when Jeno exposed hyuck he got so so so so so shy owo

In general he’s such an amazingly talented and wonderful person. He deserves so much more love and I just wish he’d get the appreciation he deserves because even through all the hardships he manages to stay the fullsun we all know and love.

[aegissi]

my bts concert experience in bullet points

this is gonna be long!!!

namjoon looked so good. litcherally. i was ready to risk it all for him. seeing him on screen during the first song (it was dionysus) felt like getting hit by a train. 

speaking of dionysus,,, everyone looked really hot so i was very flustered sgjfvdgb (especially namjoon. especially him.)

hobi was sooo cute during wings like he did a liddle flying move it was adorable 

just dance was such a fun stage!!!! hobi is so charismatic and he sounded amazing too (he kinda sounded very nasal at the beginning but it stopped after a few moments) the part with the water cannons was awesome btw 

jungkook was so smiley!!!!! he was adorable during euphoria and he looked so happy :((( not to mention that he also sounded so clear so stable and so good (and during the last chorus he was like “sing it!!!!” and when he got back on the stage he did a cute walk as if he was on a school trip ssgjfbhkdn)

taehyung had no business looking that good during best of me. thats all i can remember from this song.

jimin sounded kinda weird at the beginning of serendipity (my friend thought that there was something wrong with the mic) like his voice was way too high?? but it was fine for the rest of the song so idk that was random ghhdgfhdb the dancing was perfect btw he was both delicate and powerful (and during the whole concert he was the one i noticed the most bc he had sm energy and he executed every move flawlessly) the whole stage was so pretty with the bubbles and all 

trivia love was so good!!!! namjoon is an amazing performer and i loved all the hearts they put on the screens too that was really cute (it was written “je t’aime paris” at the end of the song,, that was a nice little touch) 

they looked like they had sm fun during boy with luv (and at the end jk changed his love sign to a finger heart but he couldnt find the right camera it was cute)

taehyung said some words in french (i could only hear fantastique bc of all the screaming) and then he asked how his french was (we all yelled that it was good ofc) and then i think that jin said “you’re killing it” but im not sure shvfjgbk jungkook started singing champs élysées and his pronunciation was pretty good imo

jungkook put the rose from boy with luv behind his ear :(((

the whole dope/fire/baepsae medley was so fun (and yeah hobi did the splits and hip thrusted in our faces,,,, namjoon too)

jimin sounded the best during idol imo (with jin ofc)

singularity was a whole religious experience. the audience audibly gasped when taehyung opened his eyes in that bed like. he was so sultry and it felt like i was being hypnotised. that performance was perfect on all levels (and i loved the effects they put on the screen where he was split in red and in blue) icb i had the honor of witnessing that,,, he looked so mesmerising on the screen im still not over this (in general he looked divine everytime he was on screen,,, the charisma,,,,, the presence,,,,,, the aura,,,,,,,,and he looked absolutely adorable when he smiled)

the fake love outfits. incredible. never been done before. extraordinary. fantastique, as taehyung would say

yoongi’s voice sounded higher than i thought it would during seesaw (during the whole concert actually sjfhbkgb even when he talked??) he looked very pretty but it was personally the solo stage i liked the least :// like he didn’t make any mistakes and he sounded good when he sang but it had less impact than the others to me???

EPIPHANY!!!!!! jin sounded perfect and he wore glasses and i almost died. epiphany is better live than on the album imo,,, i just wish armys would have stayed QUIET!!!!!! they almost sang the whole song like bitch i payed to listen to jin not u!!!!!!! anyway jin was so stable and the background made him look like an angel (which he is) and his last adlibs were *chef kiss*

vocal line was perfect during the truth untold but i wish armys would have just,,,shut up svdbjg like this is a ballad?? why r u yelling??? why r u singing over the professional singers??? i kinda wanted to actually hear jungkook sing the “but i still want u” part???? anyway jimin and jk were in full vocal kings mode at the end it was amazing i’ll never get sick of this song (and taehyung’s voice is a gift, truly,,, jin too ofc) also the outfits were so good pls give the styling team a raise they litcherally looked like princes

TEAR WAS SO FUCKING GOOD OMG SGHVJHBGKJBKDJ okay so first off the effects they put on the screen with the green things were so fucking cool and rap line themselvesb too!! namjoon was incredible but hoseok??? mistre jung????????? in that dior outfit?????????????? his stage presence is unmatched. to be more detailed, namjoon sounded better live and had sm energy and hobi too (his part at the end... i am deceased) but i kinda felt like yoongi was a bit off? he was good ofc but idk it seemed to me that he had less energy than the other two (he was probably just tired or sick idk this is not me saying that he sucks ofc) 

i didn’t film anything for mic drop so i enjoyed it to the fullest hehe it was awesome (especially hobi’s part)

jin wore a cap during the encore. it was great.

anpanman was cute!!! i have to say that i was barely focusing on the song i was just looking at the bangtans playing around on those bouncy things and they looked really happy

my tits were almost out during so what bc i was jumping too much it’s definitely a song u have to see live 

im pretty sure they made us do a wave twice so that jimin could count to three in french and that tae could say “magnifique” afterwards (the army bombs became a rainbow too it was beautiful)

it was difficult to hear them during the ments sometimes bc everybody was screaming :///

they kept saying that they would come next year

jk said “je n’oublierai jamais tous mes souvenirs avec vous” (i’ll never forget all my memories with u) it was very sweet and then he said smth with “pour toujours” (forever) at the end but i didnt catch the beginning of his sentence

jin, tae and yoongi imitated all the people who were trampling on the bleachers (those fans were so loud and did this shit at the randomest times....)

taehyung said his pronunciation wasn’t good but that he prepared a few sentences in french and then he said “paris si vous aimez pouvez vous nous dire (?) l’année dernière était comme (?) pouvez-vous nous (?) s’il vous plaît? j’aime vraiment paris. je n’oublierai pas (?)” (paris if you like can you say (?) last year was like (?) could you (?) please? I really love paris. I won’t forget (?)... and at the end i think he asked us if we would come next year but im not sure bc people were screaming at some points) and he ended by saying i love you in korean and he teared up :((( it was so sweet of him to prepare all of this!!!

jimin talked for a while (in korean instead of french bc he wanted us to feel his sincerity) abt how during this tour he realised that he was really happy being around his members, the staff and the fans and that he genuinely hoped that we were too and that happiness was right next to us (and that he hoped that bts was in that happiness too) and he also thanked us several times and said i love u,,, he’s a sweetheart :((

hobi said that he prepared stuff in french even tho he wasn’t confident and said “aujourd’hui c’est la meilleure nuit de notre tour (?) on a terminé notre tour sans accident et ça nous a permis de sentir à quel point vous nous aimez (?) vous êtes vraiment notre espoir, merci d’avoir passé un bon temps avec nous, je vous aime, merci beaucoup” (today is the last night of our tour (?) we finished our tour without any accident and it allowed us to feel how much u love us (?) u guys are really our hope, thank u for spending a good time with us, i love u, thank u sm) im sorry i missed some words bc i genuinely can’t understand what he said shgvdjf other than that his pronunciation was good and it’s so sweet that he prepared all that,,, he looked kinda nervous but he smiled a lot and i think he was actually reading from the prompter??

namjoon said “do u know why paris is always the last date? bc u guys are the damn best (개짱)” but the interpret omitted the damn sjfdghk he also said “on se revoit très bientôt i love u” (let’s see each other very soon)  and “paris est la ville des lumières” (paris is the city of lights) after making us take out our phones with the flash lights and then it transitioned right to mikrokosmos,, that was litcherally poetic cinema

other random things i remember: taehyung was in a really good mood (everyone actually, they were playing around a lot), hobi’s smile is so sunshiney, they poured water on each other a lot during encore (i watched jin sneaking up behind namjoon and spraying him sgfvjd they also watered jimin), there were some points where the mic quality wasn’t that good? idk maybe i just imagined it, i absolutely love how they used the screens it really added to the concert’s visuals, jin did a flying kiss during the first ment, jungkook went to the audience at the end but i was focusing on jin so i only realised he did that when jin was like “jungkook-ah” sjvfhjdgbkj, they weren’t extremely synchonized when dancing but they have great energy so it still looked good and overall i really enjoyed myself (me n my friend were ready to fight that one girl who kept screeching stuff at jungkook at random times tho,,,, icb she yelled shit at him during the truth untold like have some respect???)

[epiphanyksj]

TELL ME ABT JK DURING UR CONCERT IN LA !!!!!! HE LOVES LA N U DIDNT TELL ME ABT IT IN DETAIL !!!!!!💞💕💖💓

oh god :(((( HHH!!!!!! ok im literally gonna go through this event by event. so I WALKED INTO THE ARENA with my friend to go find my seat and there’s a moment of silence before the beginning of danger’s mv begins playing. and up on the screen is jungkook playing outro: propose, that really pretty dramatic piano part. and let me tell you i literally burst into tears AT THAT MOMENT because it was just so overwhelming to realize that i was actually there and going to see them. and then there was the vcr and they all looked. So Good! i literally said “oh my god” so many times during the concert it was unreal i mean ive told you about this but yeah on to actual performances (read more)

so all this fire starts torching into the air and the stage lights are flashing everywhere with this dramatic music with heavy drums (think mama 2016 fire-esque). ok so im rewatching the vid i took as i write this and im laughing because everyone else is like “TRAADE OFF” and from me you just hear this hysterical “CHOO CHOO” OK thats not the point. i could barely focus in the first performance because i could not believe they were real but like he’s GORGEOUS they were all so gorgeous n i wanna gush about the others too but this is a jk ask. he is So Stable and powerful i dont know how he even does it. so after they finish performing they begin their ments…. when it goes to jk he kinda looks up like “:o its my turn” but then he goes “WASSUP” and he’s so sos ofuckginfg pretty he glows and his eyes and just his face at that point i screamed “I LOVE YOU… (weakly) jungoo….” and then he also said LONG TIME NO SEE he has the cutest voice :(.

when he starts singing in save me… his voice is so beautiful. and i already said it but his dancing is so powerful. n the way he looks at the camera… you feel it in your soul. and his voice is so good in im fine!!!!!! i was not, in fact, fine. the part where he falls to the floor then suddenly looks up is so intense.

but incredibly he looks absolutely ethereal when he stands and sings. this might sound weird but like…. the way his eyes are half closed is so pretty and he looks at peace. even more so when he closes his eyes all the way. ive said it so many times but his eyes literally are so captivating. all of bts look unbelievably good in person. also there’s supposed to be a fanchant In Magic Shop During The Instrumental Break But Nobody Did It but i faithfully went through all the way anyway.

n then. THE GOLDEN DUO VCR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! theyre so cuuuteekjsdhdskjfh :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( like it was just such a happy pure colorful lighthearted vcr!!!!!

ok not to be cheesy but i literally got goosebumps and started tearing up when i heard his voice say “euphoria” in the silence. the pretty guitars start coming in and he’s revealed on the stage. he looks so at home when he sings it and there’s golden light all around him and he’s smiling. but when it’s not the chorus the lights are a blue color and it reminds me of the ocean in the music video. he really puts so much into his singing and just his overall performance. and when he does the high note in euphoria and the golden confetti explodes into the air and shimmers in the lights.

he puts his hand to chest often when he sings like he’s feeling it in his soul. but he also jams out really cutely! he jumped around during run a lot (and yet is ridiculously stable still) and his hair is bouncy! he headbanged a little too :( at the end of run during hoseok’s part he took out his earpiece to listen to us. his part in dna with tae is so iconic!!! rapper jk!!!!!!!!! literally even just the way he sings “DNA”!!!!

he asked us if we were having fun!!!! babie :( (side note tae is SOO cute when he talks in english). also the army bomb ocean was so pretty it was a range of colors from yellow green to purple and it was this amazing gradient.

then. Then. 21st century girls. Came On. but i need to save this gushing about the song itself for the next ask. all of them gather together to jam out in the center of the stage! afterwards jk wanders around! YOU SAY YES OR NO YES OR NO WOOAAAHOHHH

this goes for everyone else too but when he sings in gogo its like the words are just rolling out of his mouth if that makes sense.

but the transition to bst. unreal but im also saving that for the next ask. god and i keep talking about jk’s dancing but seriously him and the entirety of dance line are a serious force to be reckoned with. his voice when he sings his parts is so light and fluttery.

you shouldve heard me during his rap part of boy in luv. i was like “APPAAAAAAA” “EOMMAAAAAA” “PYEONJIIII” “MWONJIII” like i think those technically aren’t his lines but that whole section. and they cut straight to the bridge instead of doing the second verse and jk’s voice there especially combined with jimin and jin. and he holds the high note!!!!!!!

but his rap part in danger. hard fucking core. he’s so talented it’s unbelievable. this man does not hesitate when it comes to bangers or when it comes to headbanging.

airplane pt2. he saunters onto the stage like nobody’s business and sits and kicks back on that damn chair with his sultry ass voice. his falsetto is gorgeous when they do that part before hoseok’s airplane rap and at the end of the song. and i know it’s only part of the studio recording but when he does the “ah ah” part i lose my mind. the way he sits with the other members surrounding him just emanates this air of power and regality but almost in a casual way like “yeah we’re royalty, what about it?”

his outfit during fake love is perfect. all of the outfits are so good i could gush about them all day but alas this is a jk ask. his sleeves are see-through and he has shiny chains going across his chest harness and i’m sure you could find pictures of it but i hadn’t looked at concert pics beforehand so i was in shock at how good the outfits were. it’s like some performing beast is unleashed from jungkook during fake love. he’s absolutely in the zone and i couldn’t take my eyes off him because his presence is so strong especially when he’s in the center. it’s like he moves his body and projects his voice perfectly to the flow and energy of the song. fake love as a whole is so captivatingly intense it’s like you’re under a spell when you watch them perform it.

ok im burning out i can only write so much DSKJHSDF but the truth untold. it’s like he transforms into full angel form at this point. his voice is incredible and his harmonies and pitch and the emotion he puts into it. also everybody say thank you stylists!

he also has such an aura during mic drop. everybody does but it seriously is honestly such a great track live because the energy is dominating and in that moment you really know that they absolutely do own the whole arena and set the stage on fire. ugh! and the strength that he has during the dance break at the end of mic drop!! unreal!

also i can’t imagine genuinely truly hating so what. like i see so many people saying they hate it but you know that when you hear it irl that shit makes you JUMP and they have so much fun on stage especially jk! we like to make fun of him for his shoot dance but seeing him go across the stage enjoying himself so much makes you feel just as much joy as him :( at this point would it really be a performance of so what if he didn’t do it?

at this point i knew that so what was one of the final performances n i was like. What. because it really passed by like a blur it didn’t feel nearly as long as it supposedly took and before i knew it they were performing anpanman so i HAD to cheer up because that song is so cute. and jk is all smiley when they perform it! nose scrunches and all! he actually gets up in a normal way during namjoon’s part. his eyes are all big and sparkly and playful and it feels very boyish!!!

N THEN DURING THE ENDING MENT JOON CALLED JUNGKOOK “MISTER COOL GUY JK” AND JK WAS LIKE “cool guy!” n then like “make some nooooiiiise!!!” n he was smiling doing his cute scrunch and rewatching this like. ive said it 50 times already but he’s seriously so pretty. his eyes are lit up and his expression is bright and there’s a blue light shining on him but his EYESSSSS :((((( he has a slight accent which is rly cute but his pronunciation is also really good and it feels like you just want to hug him really tight even though he’s sweaty but like Would I Complain.

his voice in answer: love myself is so smooth it’s like sitting in a warm patch of sun with a cool breeze looking up at the sky. ok i know i said i was burning out but am i really. rewatching the videos makes me so happy. and his harmonies were so nice. and he was moving side to side really cutely! like one of those figurines you put on the dashboard of your car and they dance side to side! n he’s so full of love. they were all moving their arms side to side and the army bombs were moving along with them i want to cry watching it again it’s so weird thinking that i was actually there it felt like everyone in the audience became one with all the members on stage jk was acting cute and he and all the members were waving to everyone in the audience in the pit and the further away and upper levels of the arena.

for a really long time i’ve never been able to pinpoint the happiest moment or memory of my life everytime ive been asked about it. for lack of a better answer i always left it vague but ever since the concert i can easily say it was the happiest i’d been in a long time and possibly ever and i wouldn’t trade that feeling for anything else in the world