#all you get is confetti is my favourite song btw

[sadiesleepyhead]

hey. dont cry. i cut my heart off of my sleeve so i can patch it on my jacket. ok?

[ven10]

27 and 29 for ao3 wrapped? :)

Hi Vivid! 👋 Thanks for the ask! :)💜

27: What do you listen to while writing?

I don’t listen to anything while writing since I’d get a bit confused with words playing in my ears however often before or after writing I’ll listen to songs that fit the vibe of the fic! :) I’m not sure if you’ve read any of these but here’s some songs I listened to before or after writing certain fics:

‘How many mirrors did you have to crack for luck like that?’ After writing this I listened to ‘Kleptomaniacrow’ by Madilyn Mei.

‘The Shards Surrounding Us’ uhhh I don’t know if I’m remembering right but I think the song for this 1 was ‘Cacao and Cocaine’ by SOFIA ISELLA

👻‘Don’t tame your demons (learn to keep them on a leash)’ [the asoue/dbda fic] I made a playlist for both what I’ve written+what I planned to write:

‘Try’ by P!nk (GREAT song btw)

‘Flares’ by The Script (I have a very specific dramatic+emotional scene planned out for this 1)(all I’ll reveal for now is that it involves a reunion, but I won’t say between who) :]

‘Ghosts’ by Jacob Tillberg

‘City of Angels’ by 24kGoldn

‘No Roots’ by Alice Merton (I’m mainly thinking of Fiona when I listen to this)

‘Ghost’ by Confetti

‘Arsonist’s Lullabye’ by Hozier👻

29: Favourite line/passage you wrote this year?🌟

Hmmmmm 🤔 you know what? I’m gonna be extra and put multiple here bc some lines I like for very different reasons…so yep, this is me once again failing to make a decision 😁👍

“I don’t often resort to physical violence,” lies Violet -[‘Family of Misfortune’]

‘The library, like the rest of Strauss’ house, is flooded with sunlight and an aching sense of unfamiliarity’. -[‘The Shards Surrounding Us’].

[Part of why I like that line from ‘The Shards Surrounding Us’ best is bc in that fic it’s centred around Isadora post-canon, and so-to reflect on how consumed she is by her trauma- details related to her trauma (of the Quagmire fire+of almost drowning after the self sustaining hot air mobile home is demolished by eagles) bleed into her descriptions of her mundane life with Justice Strauss. And I feel that the line above really shows the difficulty of her past+how it’s impacting her present. (‘flooded’ reminding of her almost drowning, the intensity of the ‘sunlight’ reminding of the intense flames which burnt her home down, then, this is followed by a description of how she feels she does not belong+is an intruder in Justice Strauss’ house.) ]

I could ramble on and on about ’The Shards Surrounding us’ for a lot longer since ngl I put a lot of thought into that 1, but I’ll stop rambling for now🫡👍 (tho if u ever want to ask questions abt it or anything then I will be more than happy to answer) :)

Thanks for the ask!! :D💜

[slytherinshua]

Ooohhhhhh i just thought bc the way you wrote shinyu was so cute 😭😭

unfortunately, i was a predebut stan of tws but bc i decided to support svts juniors but then their pre release got stuck in my head and then i found put they were all introverts and then i went down a spiral and now i have a huuugggee soft spot for tws

i was so happy when plot twist won so many awards and now that if im n can you be my s? is also winning awards. it sucks that they're only famous in korea, literally so less people stan them internationally.

They're like the first group whose discography ive listened to, fully. as soon as it was released.

my favourite song from the debut album is either first hooky or unplugged boy, i love them both so so so much. from summer beat i love you+me=7942 and fire confetti. double take and oh my my: honorable mentions.

Youre soo right abt jebewon btw. i was never really into all the 'they'll disband!' thing and all but the first 5th gen group i liked was bnd and then tws when they debuted but i watched 2 eps of zbtv and suddenly bam! everything is zb1. hanbin was my bias before i even knew who zb1 was😭😭

Me and my friend both stan svt but then we have such different choices in both 5th and 4th gen. shes a moa and im a stay, shes a onedoor and im an sai_rose so :/ and on top of that she was there for the entirety of boys planet 😭😭😭

i always loved bnds music and myungjae was everywhere on my fyp but i started watching them now and god i absolutely adore sungho (and leehan)

no bc i was spent like 30 minutes trying to remember which anon i was 😭😭 i had exams so i just kind of went off of everything 🙃 but yeah!!! Im back!!!

HAVE THE BESTEST DAY EVER!!

🌱

yeah skdjs I get a lot of requests for shinyu I absolutely love writing for him but he’s not my bias!!

me too I’m a predebut stan and I’m so glad I was I was like I’m gonna support them no matter what when the video dropped I was so dedicated I was teaching my friends their faces like minutes after cause I forced my brain to learn their faces even tho there was only one video to go by. I would take so many screenshots too I slowed the video down to like get smooth ones as well LMAO

yeah not many stan internationally but I think people will slowly start to stan as they have more comebacks. they’re definitely marketed towards Korea which personally I love. tho it is a little weird cause I’m like they’re not nugu by any means but literally no one stans them 😭😭😭 but it’s okay soon there will be more sai!!!

from debut my fav songs were unplugged boy and bff but I adored every single song on their debut they have the best debut in the industry imo and I will stand by it!!! years from now their debut will still be iconic because it was so popular in korea and the best debuts are the ones like that

aww yeah 😭😭 I was loosely following them since boys planet started but I never watched any cause I can’t do survival shows. but when they debuted I watched the mv and listened to their songs but still was like no I’m not gonna stan. I rly didn’t want to get attached but the thing is I heard abt gunwook being called ugly and I was like hold up I don’t think he is from what I remember abt the group. and then I just looked him up to make sure and yeah i was right he was the main member who I noticed so I started like knowing abt gunwook more…. and more…… and more…. until eventually I couldn’t stand it anymore and stanned them so yay (but not yay cause I signed myself up for pain my original plan was just to stan gunwook or his group when he redebuted or went solo)

skdjs well I both say you have great taste in 5th gen you rly can’t go wrong all the groups are so good!! omg sungho was my first bonedo bias <3 I was also there for them predebut and I went through a couple biases and struggled forever with the 03z. rn I’m saying I’m ot6 cause I rly can’t choose :(

yeah like 😭😭 I had forgotten u had existed cause it’s been so long the emoji tag was recent when I was searching through anons.. and like since I changed ur tag too it was confusing as well LMAO but I’m so glad ur back when I saw ur ask I was like wait they requests cheol right like I went to double check cause usually my memory is good but yk not always AND YEAH IT WAS!! TYSM I JUST WOKE UP AND IM GONNA GO GET COFFEE AND PLAY SOME TENNIS AND HOPEFULLY WRITE LATER IM EXCITED FOR TODAY <33

[jamiemaybeme]

i took that as a challenge, apparently. have my 1am brain dump that unnecessarily deeply analysises random lines. this is the result of two hours of english revision earlier. (mandatory. at school. we had to sit in the hall for two hours in the same seats we have for exams. i'm not anywhere near any of my friends. the only good thing is i'm at the back.) anyway enjoy! (or don't, idrc.)

i love the chorus, but consider (with reasons/my interpretations):

"i am prone to fits of fright

moments of intense neuroticism

but when i'm good, good God, i'm great"

this bit really describes my anxiety. "fits of fright" and "moments of intense neuroticism" are such a great ways to put it, and show how while it's fleeting, it is INTENSE. and "when i'm good[...], i'm great". i feel much better. i wonder how i ever felt bad. and then when i feel bad i wonder how i ever felt good. it's a great line.

"but you've heard all this before

so i will try and elaborate"

using fictional characters to explain how you feel is the most relatable thing ever. when i was really struggling, i told people i related HEAVILY to charlie spring (from heartstopper). no one ever picked up on it, but i was too scared to say anything outright. i felt if people really cared they would ask. (this was absolute rubbish btw. the hints i was dropping were so subtle no one apart from me would have been able to pick them up. plus, it was a difficult year for everyone, and i never asked about them. we're all much better at communicating now though.)

"i am everyone and everything

all of the time

oh God, i'll be..."

gonna split this into two parts to start with. "i am everyone and everything all of the time" honestly just describes me perfectly. not only do i feel so overwhelmed with all the pressure from school, friends, extracurriculars etc, i feel like i need to be there for everyone. i also feel like i'm an amalgamation of fifteen different people, and i only show certain ones to certain others. i'm getting better at this. for a while, i was the only therapist friend in my group. i felt like i had to be there for everyone, yet no one was there for me. (again, utter nonsense. i just didn't want to 'burden' anyone because of previous ✨ trauma ✨.) i feel like these lines also link to 'all you get is confetti' (my favourite song on the album probably): "you can't be everything for everyone but you can be everything to someone", showing the process of unlearning. this makes sense, considering 'aygic' immediately follows 'icsaidlay'. bears in trees songs and albums/eps often tell stories of journeys (i want to feel chaotic, keep me safe, doing this again etc), which further backs this up.

"oh God i'll be..." reminds me SO MUCH of 'doing this again'. "oh my God we're doing this again". the whole premise of the song is to describe how doing the same thing everyday feels. the repetition throughout the song helps to emphasise this. the elipsis in this section of 'icsaidlay' creates the same effect. it feels like the singer/writer is starting to spiral, thinking about all the things they have to do/be. it reminds me of how i feel when i'm simultaneously burnt out and overwhelmed.

"playing games about our names"

as a genderqueer person who changed their name (countless times. maybe 5?) i just find this really funny. i love it.

"when my friends would all go swimming

i would drown within the shallow end"

another line that feels like such a good explanation for my brain. this one sounds like when you're the 'gifted kid' so you've done really well in primary school but now you're in a highly academic secondary school and are struggling, whilst all your peers are fine. they've learned to cope, they've always had to. you never learned to, you never needed to. turns out you've had undiagnosed adhd this whole time.

"and the kids were all relentless

with their teases and their tempers"

i love being bullied 😎

seriously though, hearing songs about people being bullied and seeing them now grown up really helps me to be able to visualise my future. i've never been bullied TOO badly - i've always been able to (mostly) handle it - but it's still impacted me significantly. this song and 'aygic' (yes, again, these two songs are so intertwined) really help. "better give the kids something to shout back as the books fall out of my rucksack".

"i sleep better on the sofa

please do not take me to the bedroom"

someone else said this already but i agree and i did think of it before i saw their post i promise :']

this line is so ace coded. i scream this line at the top of my lungs when no one is home. i beat jumping height records when i can't shout. i love these lines. i will never shut up about them. they are literally the epitome of this emoji: 🤌. they're awesome.

bonus: parallels

also rq: the parallels between this song and 'aygic' are great. i love them. 'aygic' being a more apathetic view about the whole life thing, whereas this one is definitely a feeling too much view is honestly genius. the contrasts and yet the similarities. they work really well together.

that was literally a whole essay i am so sorry. hope you enjoyed!!

p.s. i am doing much better mentally now than i was when i first heard this song. i know it wasn't that long ago, but sun and a concert can do a lot to a person. i've written this mainly from the pov of me first hearing this. but just in case anyone's worried, i'm okay now.

double p.s. nick, if you're reading this (i'm pretty sure it was you who wrote this. it sounds like a nick song.), i'm glad we've been able to give you what you've given us. a sense of belonging and community. to some extent at the very least. thank you for putting this song out despite being scared. we appreciate it so much <3

(okay i'm going to bed /ref)

so you're telling me bears in trees referenced over the garden wall, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, scott pilgrim vs the world, and my hero academia...all in the SAME song? and you're expecting me to be NORMAL about this? ...pathetic

[shakespearefreak]

SIXcago!

Epic story time!

On Saturday, my friend @laropasucia and I took a roadtrip to Chicago to see SIX the musical! It was... incredible.

The drive there was long, but we found ways to pass the time (even aside from 7-Eleven Slurpee tributes to Soviet Cinnamon Rolls).

Gorgeous view of a scenic highway, of all things, from a stop along the way.

Finally, we arrived in Chicago. I suddenly remembered I hadn’t been there since I was a kid, and of course walked around gawking like an obvious tourist.

At Navy Pier

(Yeah, I know the pic’s blurry...)

Can you imagine being at the top of that Ferris wheel? 😮

Arriving at the theater!

The Show

It was breathtaking. I cried from joy before the first song was through. Human beings shouldn’t be able to do the things I saw the Queens do on that stage. I kept forgetting that I was watching a live show, because that’s not possible, it had to be a film with multiple takes and special effects... the energy level, the emotion, the audience interaction, the choreography, the costumes, the lighting, the way everyone on stage was perfectly coordinated, their VOICES... I’d never seen a show even remotely like it.

I tried filming MegaSIX, but I couldn’t find my phone for the first part! (Also, I didn't get the end on film because I wanted to experience the last couple seconds without my phone in front of me.) My camera skills leave much to be desired, and the video quality sucks, but I WAS THERE and it was INCREDIBLE!

After the show, I waited for the Queens at the stage door, and a spontaneous SIX singalong began in the crowd. It was an almost magical experience; it felt uncannily synchronized, like we’d all rehearsed it together. We got through “Don’t Lose Ur Head,” “Haus of Holbein,” “Get Down,” and part of “All You Wanna Do”... and then suddenly the people in front broke off singing and started screaming as the Queens appeared!

(BTW, if you’re featured in this video and don’t want to be, please let me know!)

Meeting the Queens!

They were all so incredibly lovely to the fans, each in her own way.

Abby Mueller (Jane Seymour)

Abby’s voice as Seymour instantly caught my attention. It has a unique quality that made “Heart of Stone” even more captivating. Seemingly effortlessly, she hushed the auditorium when we were still pumped up from the first three upbeat songs.

Abby was the first Queen to reach out to me. She saw me standing back, clearly wanting to approach but also not wanting to be rude, and held out her hand to me with an open, friendly smile. She talked with me a bit and made me feel a lot more comfortable.

Anna Uzele (Catherine Parr)

Anna’s Parr was a powerhouse. Trying to describe her performance, the word I keep coming back to is Fierce, with a capital F.

What I noticed most about Anna was she didn’t want anyone to be left behind. Several times she called out, asking if there was anyone in the back who still needed anything signed. She seemed very chill, 100% a professional, but also very personable.

Courtney Mack (Katherine Howard)

Courtney’s Howard was the queen of audience interaction (pun fully intended). Her flirty winks, amused aside glances, and “see-what-I-have-to-deal-with” eyerolls out were like she knew everyone in the audience personally. On more than one occasion I would have sworn a smile or a wink was meant specifically for me, even though logically I knew everyone in my general direction was meant to feel precisely that.

Courtney captured my heart immediately when I saw her at the stage door. She seemed so much like her character! She took tons of time with every fan, and talked with to everyone who approached her with full attention, wide eyes, and a dazzling smile. She was so sweet, and seemed so genuinely excited and pleased to be around the fans.

Andrea Macasaet (Anne Boleyn)

I admit, I was nervous about Andrea’s take on Boleyn. I love what I’ve seen of Millie O'Connell so much, I was afraid no other performer could live up to her. Andrea took those doubts and utterly decimated them within the first few seconds of “Don’t Lose Ur Head.” Her voice and overall performance are both wildly different from Millie’s, but retain the same core character. And like Millie, she seems to have absolutely boundless energy: she bounced all over the stage the entire show.

In person, Andrea is TINY. Like, almost shockingly small and doll-like. I called her “adorable” at least twice before it dawned on me how awkward that was. I apologized, but she seemed completely unfazed, like it wasn’t at all unusual.

Brittany Mack (Anna of Cleves)

In a cast of flawless dancers, Brittany’s Cleves still stood out. Her reflexes seemed nearly inhuman, and every movement was deeply expressive. Brittany told Cleves’ story with her whole body. And as if that wasn’t enough, she can do some absolutely insane stuff with her voice.

My self-consciousness caught up with me while I was talking to Brittany. Next to all these gorgeous women, I felt so awkward. After I took the photo, I said something like “I look stupid but oh well, I’m happy” and she immediately said I looked beautiful, and I believed it, the way she looked at me.

Nicole Kyoung-Mi Lambert (Catherine of Aragon alternate) ft. @laropasucia

"No Way” is one of my less favourite songs on the cast album, because it sits immediately between the sheer electric energy of the opening number and the absolutely addictive “Don’t Lose Ur Head.” But Nicole strutted forward and blew me away. Her Aragon took command of the theater with the force of sass and total badassery, and made me completely forget that my favourite number was coming up next.

I couldn’t find Nicole in the swarm of fans for the longest time, and only managed to catch her attention just as they were all being called backstage again! She still took the time to give me an autograph and take a photo, even though a staff member was urging her to wrap it up.

They all signed my program, too!

(The gold thing is a random piece of confetti I snatched from the stage after the show as a souvenir)

The only slight disappointment of the night was that the only piece of merch I really wanted, a set of buttons, was sold out. But I did pick up a tote and a coffee mug!

👑 💛 💚 💎 ❤️ 💜 💙 👑

[sweetkpopfanfic]

Fanaccount of ISEOULU Concert in KL 23/5/2017 (Red Velvet and Yesung)

First off I just wanted to say that this concert was FREE ADMISSION, and I was able to get tickets for zone A, which was right behind the VIP seating area. Of course the ones closest to the stage were Rock Zone tickets (won by lottery) so those who were sitting in Rock Zone would provide a slightly different fanaccount, so this is my account of the concert from where I was standing, which is about 500m to 600 meters from the stage.

Another thing to note is that this concert was used to promote Seoul City tourism, so even if it was a two hour concert, Yesung, Red Velvet and NCT 127 were not the only performers for the whole two hours. We had local Malaysian acts, Altimet and De Fam and a speech given by the vice mayor of Seoul and a magic performance. By the time all of that was over, Yesung, Red Velvet and NCT 127 only had about an hour left to perform. They each performed 4 songs and their ment had to be slightly sped up.

I also made a separate post for NCT 127 (because I am a stan) so do check it out if you want the full story!

Red Velvet

They performed Dumb Dumb, Little Little, Russian Roulette and Rookie (in this order).

Wendy said that the last time they were here, Joy wasn’t with them, so they were happy to have Joy with them now.

They promoted quite a bit on Seoul tourism. Yeri even recommended Gyeongbukgung as a place to visit.

Seulgi sounded a little hoarse when talking, probably because they all sung two songs live (at least mostly for Little Little) but when it came to performing she was back on track.

The girls are A LOT SMALLER than I imagined, and Yeri was standing next to Joy so she looked even smaller in comparison LOL

The crowd could not stop singing along to all their songs. They performed flawlessly as usual.

They even did an Instagram live before going on stage LOL! The fans had Instagram in one hand while watching Altimet perform at the same time, and the girls were even jamming to his music backstage. It was almost like we were all jamming at the same time hahahahaha!

Irene was obviously the most popular member, because when she spoke up the whole crowd went nuts. She has a softer voice compared to everyone else so unfortunately her voice was drowned out by the screaming.

While Yeri was talking about Gyeongbukgung, she said ‘when I was 9 years old’ in englsih (perfect pronunciation BTW) the whole arena was shook and i think the roof shook too

Yesung

Okay, this was honestly amazing for me because I have been a fan of Kpop for 10 years and this is my first Super Junior member

He performed Here I Am, Paper Umbrella, Fly and Only You

Honestly though, he is my favourite performer of the night (I know I know and I am a huge NCT stan)

I mean he had the charisma and presence that overpowered the whole arena, and he was a SOLO singer.

He was 100% live and flawless to the core.

You can just tell he is a veteran. It was awesome honestly.

He had so much aegyo and was so adorable!! He interacted a lot with the crowd and had a slightly longer ment than Red Velvet and NCT 127.

He said that sadly Kyuhyun would be enlisting this week but for every bad news, there must be good news, and he said Donghae, Eunhyuk and Siwon were coming back.

During his last performance for Only You there were confetti canons and the crowd went wild

There were lots of Super Junior fans, and even the opening performers De Fam and Altimet were Super Junior fans themselves.

He went “I Seoul-“ and the crowd went “U!” and then we all sang “Cause I can’t stop thinking ‘bout u girl!!”

I had such a great time and they were all so good, my knees are still weak and I think my voice is gone, but I don’t regret any of it.