#all responses will be hypotheticals and posted ooc!

[jujulebee]

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She's never felt so small, and she doesn't really mind it. Her arms wrap around the Lady's neck and she hugs back tight, seeking comfort in a silent desperation. It's not something she can admit to. She does her best to not tear up, but it would have been so much easier if she'd had time to prepare herself. She doesn't think about the makeup and glitter that ends up smudging, doesn't register that her nails might tear the fabric she's clinging to. She just needs to be held a little longer. She radiates a deep sorrow that's just barely being masked by a layer of sacchrine joy.

[fancyfade]

I do really want to think of how i want Bruce and Damian's relationship to go down b/c I think their dynamic is greatly influenced by Bruce's failures as a father and some of those failures are IC but some of them are stupid as hell.

Also note: this is kind of my thought appendices to this (link) reblog chain

it can be hard to square Son of the Demon Bruce with Batman and Son Bruce (and like. impossible to square him with Batman Inc Bruce). But it might be able to be done (we'll see that later). first

The failures that I think are in character to Batman at that time (2000s)

Being exacting in his standards and uncompromising: Bruce is a perfectionist and he applies this to everyone he works with (except sometimes Tim and Robin Jason) much to their utter annoyance. He's also fairly egotistical and thinks that his way of doing things is right, so he wants people to be perfect his way, not whatever way they are doing.

(examples from this from text: Damian often feels like Bruce just orders him to be a mini-me and doesn't explain things in Tomasi's run on B&R, and honestly like... Bruce doesn't explain things. He's like "don't go on patrol b/c I todl you not to" he doesn't mention that Nobody is out*, he didn't explain his connection to Nobody, probably more that aren't on the top of my head at the moment)

Being predisposed to judging Damian harshly: Thinking of this post (link) about Bruce referring to Cass (when talking to cain) as "You made her like us" when referring to her training. Bruce seems to put a lot of focus on actions, rather than like 'you're innately a good/bad person'. That's probably why he was so reluctant to believe that Cass killed someone at first, he was convinced the video was faked. And Damian has done a lot of actions that Bruce would hate -- as well as attacking Tim, who did have a favorite-syndrome going on at the time. Like Bruce was consistently the best to Tim in that era. And since Tim was in Bruce's house when this was going on it is possible Bruce feels like he was responsible for not 'controlling' Damian better. That could hypothetically influence later interactions.

Not being emotionally available: He is pretty much never emotionally available, it would be OOC if he was emotionally available.

With the combination of those 3 factors, it's very easy for Damian to feel like his only connections to his dad are what he can do for him in the field and blood.

I also think that Bruce's failures as a father are not really that OOC to Son of the Demon Bruce, because while Son of the Demon Bruce was very enthusiastic about having a kid and like 'he'll be the happiest baby in the world!' there was an incredibly important second part which was he became controlling of Talia to the extent that he acted like an idiot (tried to force her out of combat when they were in the battlefield, causing someone to sneak up on them and she had to kill that person to save Bruce's life). Talia winds up faking a miscarriage to try to get him to act like himself and not a possessive overprotective weirdo who will throw away everything he was working for previously.

and when he does see her next, in detective comics annual 1, he is very cold to her and judgmental of her despite them having parted on not hostile terms (he obviously didn't know she faked a miscarriage).

Like my assumption is he has so many emotions wrapped in this that he would be afraid to address them (as typical) and make many mistakes.

But then like.

The failures I think do not work for him period:

Him wanting to give Damian back to the League of Shadows because he had a vision that evil future batman damian would get gotham destroyed. I'm sorry but like. If your Batman is pro sending a child into an abusive situation based on some dream they had you don't understand batman, fundamentally, at all.

Not caring what's going on with Damian as long as he's not destroying the world (this is like. TT2016 to modern era stuff). Like if anything I think he would tend to micro-managing out of worry (like he was in B&R 2011) or being demanding and exacting, not like "oh not my problem." maybe if Damian was living w/ Talia (non-morrison version) he'd be a lot more hands off, since he was fine w/ that after RRAG. But like. that damian was not living w/ any of his parents or family members.

anyway it is so frustrating when like. one character's interactions are very tied into things that don't work for another character but i hope I can make it work.

*granted I'm sure if Damian knew that Nobody was out he would've been like "ah so it's dangerous and you need my help even more" XD

[parvulous-writings]

Murders // Alex Law x Reader

Request:     Hi! I have a request: I just recently watched a shallow grave and I’m obsessed with ewan mcgregor as Alex Law. Could you write something where he tells you about the murders because he feels like he can trust you, he also may or may not be in love with you. We love angst. Thanks!

Requested by: ​Anon

Summary: the request

Warnings: mentions of death, homicide, cadavers. Slightly ooc Alex? 

Words: 1.6K

Notes:  Mmmm Alex Law. That is all. My requests are currently open! My pinned post (found here) contains both a list of characters I write for, and a masterlist! Original character list - please request for these too! 

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Things with Alex had been, well they’d been strange over the past couple of weeks or so. You didn’t know what it was, but he kept trailing after you wherever you went in the flat; not in his usual way, which was often to pester or tease you, but for another reason. You had no idea what that reason was, but you could tell it was bothering him. Sometimes he would glance up, only briefly, but you would catch it out of the corner of your eye. You tried to bring it up to him on several occasions, but he would always brush it off, saying that he was fine, and then “What the hell are you talking about? I told you I’m fine. Really. Just leave it.” But no matter how annoyed he sounded with you, he wouldn’t stomp off like he often used to.  It always seemed to get worse whenever David was in the room with you. Alex would tense up, and his eyes would be trained solely on his glasses-clad roommate. David would occasionally stare back, but very few words were ever said between the two of them. 

Tonight, though, was different. You were sat with Alex on the lime green sofa, more laying than anything, his arm draped over your shoulder, eyes on the TV as one of Alex’s favourite schlocky shows played on the screen. He was mumbling quietly along with the host, laughing softly when the audience did. Things seemed almost normal, it was nice. You couldn’t see or feel his tenseness anymore, which allowed you to relax ever so slightly beside him, you head falling back on to his arm as you watched whatever it was Alex had put on, you still didn’t know what it was. But it was making him happy- he even dropped a few of his sassy and sometimes crude comments throughout the show’s runtime. As the show started to draw to a close, Alex shuffled a little bit. The tenseness returned, and the silence between you became almost unbearably awkward. He cleared his throat, and you moved to sit up for a moment. You glanced over at the clock- it was half past ten, fairly late. You’d need to head off soon if you wanted to be home before eleven, or lower the risk of getting jumped in the street.  “Do you want to stay over?” He asked you, and you give him a rather surprised look. It wasn’t the first time that Alex had invited you to stay over at the flat, but it was more his tone that caught you off-guard. Usually his voice was dripping with a flirty undertone, suggesting a much more intimate activity than just sleeping in the flat. This time, though, it seemed more genuine- staying over seemed to be the primary thing on his mind.  “Sure,” You nonchalantly agree, shrugging slightly before you settled back down in his arm. You both fall silent again, awkwardly watching as the TV droned on and on, though it was unclear if either of you two were really paying attention to the show being broadcasted. 

Alex cleared his throat again, catching your attention. “Can I ask you a question?” His voice is quiet, “Hypothetically?”  You weren’t unaccustomed to Alex’s ‘hypothetical’ questions. They were often a point of contention or the root of teasing, but it was all in good fun. “Alright then. Hit me with it.” You say to him- he swallows his nerves and starts to speak again.  “If a someone you knew told you that they had been involved in burying a man out in the woods, and was involved in killing a couple more... What would you do?” Silence falls between the pair of you again as you start to think. Like most of his questions, it was an odd one, borderline insane to be precise. You just put it as his over-active imagination making him think of wild scenarios.  “I don’t know.” You chuckle, shrugging lightly. You’re not sure whether to answer honestly, or playfully. “What kind of answer do you want, Alex?”  “A proper one. Like... A serious one.” Oh, well that was different.  “Okay...” You trail off, thinking it over for a second. “Well, I’d probably leave, and tell the police.” You shrug, thinking nothing of it. This wasn’t the answer Alex wanted though.  “What if it was me?” He asked you, and you gave him an odd look in reply.  “I’d still do that, Alex... Just because you’re my friend doesn’t put you above the law.” This seemed to unnerve and annoy him even more though. “Don’t look at me like that!” You tell him, “You’re the one who wanted a serious answer, and you got one!” 

Alex paused, though only very briefly. “Yeah, I guess...” He grumbled, but he still didn’t seem very happy. You gave him an odd look.  “What the hell has gotten into you?” You asked him, “You’ve been acting weird for weeks!”  “I’ve got a lot on my mind.” He’s started to shut down, to put a wall between the two of you, as he pulled his arm away from you. “Nevermind, forget I said anything.” He muttered, rather spitefully, as he rested his cheek on the knuckles of his balled fist. This had not gone the way he had hoped. If you didn’t react the way he thought you would at the hypothetical- how would you react to the truth? He may have been slightly delusional, but that didn’t occur or matter to him.  “Well, you want to talk about it?” You offered, trying to be a little bit soften than you had been a few moments prior.  “No.” Came his short, pointed reply. He started to move to try and get up from the sofa, but you held out an arm to stop it. “Oh, what now?” He whined. “We finished the conversation, just let me go, will you?”  “No- clearly there’s something actually bothering you; you can tell me. I’m your friend, that’s what friends do, isn’t it?” You ask him, and he rolled his eyes, huffing back down into his seat. He knew that you were right- but that didn’t stop his nerves from rising. He knew that what he had done was downright wrong- he may not have known or acknowledged it at the time, but now the guilt followed him everywhere. Every corner, it lurked in the shadow, he saw the flickers out of the corner of his eye. 

“The question wasn’t hypothetical.” He spoke suddenly, looking into his lap as he wrung his hands. You stayed completely silent, words escaped you. Your mind went blank, and you just stared at him. “I wanted to see what you would do.” “You... You, what?” You were still trying to wrap your head around what he was trying to say to you. He finally looks at you, and his eyes are just... Sad. They hold an almost melancholic look, his hurt surfacing for once.  “I wanted to see what you would do... I wanted to tell you.” Alex started to speak again. “Because... Because I think you’re the closest person I have now, and- and I wanted to tell you, because I don’t want to lie anymore, I don’t want anything between us...”  “Alex, what did you do?” All of a sudden, you’re hyper-aware of every little movement he makes. Every shallow breath, every blink, every twitch, your brain registered it. Your heart started to race, a sick feeling started to settle in your stomach. As it sunk in that Alex was admitting to having a hand in a murder- whether it was the killing blow or not- you wanted to run, but you were rooted to your seat, paralyzed besides your mouth, which seemed to speak of it’s own accord. “What did you do?” You repeated, sounding much harsher. 

“I didn’t kill the second two!” The auburn haired scotsman exclaimed, jumping to his feet. “I didn’t even kill Hugo, that was his own bloody fault!” You vaguely recognised the name Hugo; Alex had mentioned him some months ago, and never brought him up to you again, so you thought nothing of it. “We buried them out in the woods...” He continued, rubbing the back of his neck.  “Why are you telling me this, Alex?”  “I already told you. You’re all I’ve got, now. Juliet’s shut herself off from everyone, and David... Well that’s best left unsaid.” He murmured, glancing through the doorway to the chipped blue paint of his flatmate’s door. Neither David or Juliet were here with you now, you supposed that that was both a blessing and a curse.  “I should call the police.” You mutter, almost fearfully. Alex seems rather hurt at the fear in your voice, and he slowly nods.  “They already know about the bodies... But I’m not going to stop you if you want to tell them it was us.” He’s completely given in to you now, his fate is in your hands. Do you really want to turn him in?

No. That was the answer from the most selfish depths of your mind. It’s the answer you decided to stick with, as immoral as it may have been. You look him dead in the eye as you speak. “What do I do?” It takes him a moment to register that you are in fact not going to contact the police about his and his friend’s misdeeds, and he’s instantly sat beside you again.  “Stick with me, please. I won’t let either of them get you, I just... I need you around.” Alex said to you, slowly, as if it were difficult to admit this even after admitting his crimes to you. To him, it was. You nodded slowly in response, and Alex silently acknowledged that you may still change your mind on it yet.  “Alright.” You whisper. “I’ll stick around.” 

[cinnamonbean]

This isnt related to anything

But I thought of this somewhere around two am when I had a headache and couldn't sleep.

Kobayashi; Kanao, what's wrong?

Mita; she lost her coin yesterday. She's been acting like this ever since.

Yes, its messy. I know Kobayashi wouldn't call Kanao by first name, at least I think, but posting this was an impulse I didn't look through the again for. I'm also probably not finishing this,, but I might draw in the picture of Kanao at the top left as a separate thing.

Below the cut is some more sketches, and headcanons. And if you haven't read the Wasp's Nest........

Go do that.

So. Clears throat. So anyways.

The premise of that was Kanao losing her coin. The one Kanae gave her, which might have as much personal significance as her hairclip depending how you look at it. Kobayashi asks if she's okay,, and Mita explains to her how miss perfect uses a coin to decide for her things she wants to do. (Not sure if she should know Kanae was the one who gave Kanao the coin, but it could go either way.) Mita doesnt even like Kanae, and that's canon to the fic. So. Why the fxck should it matter if she loses a simple coin? She'll earn much more during her time as a demon slayer.

This is. Obviously unhealthy? So when Kobayashi finds the coin, she decides to hide it from Kanao, and try to push her into making choices for herself. You know, the small kinds. Along with the illusion of actually helping her. (Though in Kobayashi's mind, she probably thinks it is helping Kanao.)

Mita catches on, steals the coin, and returns it to Kanao. Mainly with the excuse of. "Well, I got tired of being a dick to Kanao, so it's your turn." It probably genuinely bothered Mita, too. Because tricking someone for the sake of "helping" them is bullshit, and it's canon she's felt that way about Kanae in the past.

But it might be ooc for them anyways.

Alternatively, can you imagine Mita stealing the coin and deciding to watch the chaos Kobayashi would be so panicked. Where could she have possibly put the coin? Where could it have possibly gone? She couldn't have. No. Dont tell her.. did she actually spend such a sentimental belonging?? This could be either comedic or actually extremely angsty depending who's writing it.

Moving on! I said I would make a different post for stuff about Kanae I thought of as a result of op's fic,, this is that post.

First though, I wanted to take another look at Ichijo. All we really know is that she was Shinobu's tsuguko before Mita, and that she trained using Water Breathing as opposed to Flower Breathing or Insect breathing.

I found this very strange.

Because on one hand, it might have been set before Giyuu became a Hashira, or maybe she just felt more comfortable seeking guidance from a female Hashira, having heard rumors of Water Pillar-Sama being cold and unapproachable.

On the other hand; could you imagine if Ichijo was just flat out rejected by Giyuu? It would make sense. He probably didn't think he was responsible enough to care for another swordsman, and at least he wouldve been responsible enough to figure he couldnt care properly for himself let alone someone else.

I doubt Ichijo would see it that way, though. In her opinion, she was just rejected, without being given a chance. Maybe that's when Shinobu steps in? Maybe in Mita's eyes, Ichijo was ungrateful of Koucho-Shihan's hospitality?

Speaking of Giyuu. And speaking of Koucho sisters. The masks. The butterfly hairpins. The [former] Water Pillar and the Insect/Flower Hashiras were the only pillars who gave special accessories to their students. I'm surprised nobody's talked about it, or maybe I just havent found anything yet, but what if there was a stigma of bad luck against girls with butterfly hairpins as well? Similarly to how demon slayers with fox masks always die in final selection,, something like girls with butterfly hairpins always die off easily.

I'm going to dig in a little deeper to this.

See, I had a hypothetical a while ago where Kagaya, while he still did final selection; likely did Giyuu and Sabito's. Noticed that one of the fox masked kids who survived didn't have his mask, and insisted on looking for it. Years later around the time he becomes a pillar, Giyuu is summoned to Kagaya's and receives his mask, because, along the help of some Kakushi and demon slayers at the time, the group were eventually able to find the pieces of Giyuu's mask.

And if asked why Tomioka got that kind of special treatment, Kagaya probably would've gotten confused and explained that he wouldve done that for anyone. Regardless of what it was. Because he wanted to help people; that's the kind of person he was. Probably when he hands it back to Giyuu probably with a message or two of how he should remember and cherish his roots; it's easy to forget those things when becoming a demon slayer. This touches Giyuu because he went through the trouble of finding it and holding onto it for Giyuu, in fear of it breaking in his crow's claws.

I do feel upset that a lot of the pillars just already had that level of respect for the master, and how it's never really expanded on savs for Gyoumei's life being saved and the public apology he made to Sanemi during a pillar meeting.. even if not all of them had something to push forward that level of respect,, I still feel like it's not expanded on in depth enough?

But I'm getting off topic again.

Point was, Giyuu later takes Kanae on as a tsuguko, and she eventually spots the mask, and is possibly told the story of how he got it? Maybe it stays at the back of her mind, and later during her time as a pillar, she sees a stand of butterfly hairclips. Buys the entire small stock for Shinobu. She's been known to make pointless, grand purchases, with or without reason, according to op. Shinobu probably figures out a way to use all of them; she can distribute them to her future tsuguko, when she finally becomes a pillar.

It would be so sad for her to be somewhat annoyed she has to share her collection with Onee-Chan and Kanao at the start, recieves the hairpin back, and gets sad, deciding that from then on decides to share them with her own tsuguko/friends by her own discretion. Which makes her very depressed whenever her box fills up with hairclips again (from students dying and the like).

Rest in peace, you two.

[luminecho]

Terrako/Harbinger Siv

A @hyrule-kingdom-updates theory

(HEAVY HKU & HWAOC SPOILERS!)

Siv is going to die in HKU.

Well, maybe not. Or maybe he will. Quill hasn’t exactly been clear with us. But there’s a bit of evidence stacked towards him dying (and in a very specific way, too— but we’ll get to that). Specifically this quote from the “Hearts and Minds and Livers” arc.

[Siv:] I... got this gut feeling...

[Launo:] Oh that’s compelling...

[Siv:] LISTEN. Now’s not the time to sass me, Birch! I feel like, well. I have a very strong suspicion that within the week I am going to die.

[Launo:] EXCUSE ME?!

[Siv:] And... it’s very hard to explain, but I’m quite certain that certain series of events are going to transpire that could maybe possibly harm myself, in the coming week.

This is a very specific piece of foreshadowing that I don’t see Quill putting in without reason. It feels less like a “gut feeling” and more like an omen. As of the current arc, it is still “this week.” Zelda’s birthday is still soon, and the Calamity is presumably going to strike VERY soon. If we trust Siv’s gut and assume that he truly IS going to die, then that begs the question: how will he die?

I’d like to take a moment to point out the very clear parallels between Siv and Terrako in the story so far. Because, if you think about it, Siv and Terrako have a lot more in common than meets the eye. In HKU, Siv has been repeatedly referred to as the calamity’s “vessel.” In Age of Calmity, Harbinger Ganon was the Calamity using Terrako as a vessel, possessing it and controlling its every move, using it to carry out his own deeds. In this timeline, Ganon has not latched onto Terrako, but Siv. The Calamity is using him as a vessel just like Terrako in AoC.

But it really makes you wonder if Siv’s similarities to Terrako don’t run deeper. If it’s even more intentional than it lets on. If perhaps, because of this, Siv will eventually share the same fate as Terrako.

Terrako (the good one)’s fate in Age of Calamity was to be possessed by Ganon, subsequently defeated by Link, before sacrificing himself for Zelda while on his last limbs. It’s, unfortunately, very easy to imagine Siv in this exact same scenario. We know Siv has quite a few people that he cares deeply about— no matter how much he denies it or spits insults at them, no matter how much they betray his trust, deep down, he still loves them. These people in particular being Larc & his family, Zavis, and Zelda.

In a hypothetical future, Siv might have snapped out of Ganon’s control long enough to realize that the people he loves are in serious danger... and he has the power to save them. He might decide to sacrifice himself to keep the people he cares about safe. The possibilities surrounding this scenario are endless, but the situation itself isn’t too hard to believe. The action wouldn’t at all be expected from him right now, not in his current state, but him making this choice as his final act could be a very plausible destination for his character development— for once choosing to put his loved ones above himself.

It’s not too hard to imagine. Especially when you consider the following evidence:

1. One of Quill’s OOC posts a long time ago in response to an ask was this:

Larc is sacrificing the greater good for his kids

Rhoam is sacrificing his kids for the greater good

Ligero is sacrificing his kids for himself

Siv is.......

...Hm.

I wonder what pattern, if any, will go from there.

Quill was obviously hinting at something, and even as far into the story as we are now, we still don’t know what Quill was talking about. But wouldn’t it be very fitting for the sentence to come after this to be “Siv is sacrificing himself for [the greater good or his kids]?”

2. Larc’s whole thing in “Sibling Fights, Hollow Knights, and Destiny Rewrites” was that he ended up intentionally hurting himself in order to prevent himself from hurting others. I could see this being used as either foreshadowing or a direct parallel to what Siv might do in the future. Again, it’s a very possible line of character development for Siv.

3. Two images tagged “???,” when brightened, showed to have a LOT of text in it, all of which have either appeared in actual HKU dialogue since the images were posted, or presumably will show up soon. This line in particular stood out to me, though:

Please! He didn’t do anything. My family didn’t do anything. It was all me.

Now, of course, we don’t know who’s speaking this. But, if we choose to assume that it’s Siv speaking, that would line up very well with the idea of him choosing to put his loved ones before himself, perhaps standing in someone’s path and preventing them from hurting his family...

Again, it’s entirely possible that this could be anyone else speaking. There’s a lot of other people it could be. But if it is Siv, then that would make a lot of sense with everything else I’ve mentioned.

4. This one is much more recent— a quote from Link’s Declaration during “Like the Eggs and Men Before Her”:

And if I’m wrong, well. Have my life then. But even then, I think we would rather die living as ourselves, and not vessels of someone else’s will.

There’s the word “vessel” popping up again... this line really feels like foreshadowing. Considering Siv is one of the few other characters associated with being a vessel... maybe he would rather die as himself than as a vessel of Ganon’s will, in the end.

So, there you have it. There’s a lot of evidence pointing towards the theory that Siv is going to sacrifice himself in the end in order to save the people he loves. He might get possessed entirely by Ganon, causing the others to have to fight him in order to free him just like Terrako in AOC— or maybe something else will happen. The possibilities are endless when you think about all the parallels, but, unfortunately (or maybe fortunately?), the possibility of Siv sacrificing himself seems pretty likely.

There might be more evidence that I’ve missed— feel free to mention it if you know of something! A lot of credit goes to everybody on the HKU Discord for bouncing around ideas for this theory! I’m not the only one with this theory, I just wrote everything I had in my own personal notes into an essay for fun.

[sinnhelmingr]

tell me about heldolin possible reconcilliation? // @usedhearts​

rubs my filthy little gay hands together. oh yeah baby talk complicated wlw to me--

So, the groundwork for this hypothetical: Our little AU for 3, where Gwyndolin is saved from her canonical fate by a daring rescue on the part of her ex-wife. The two have been distant for some decades, ranging from cool hostility to open disregard, but with that underlying air of disappointment lacing every interaction. There’s nothing to salvage, but Hel’s not the kind of person that can leave anyone to what was planned, regardless of their interpersonal issues. One fraught road trip through enemy territory until they reach safety later...

Well there’s a lot to work through. First being Lin’s lingering trauma surrounding her captivity. Her we get the first hints of reconciliation in Hel’s refusal to let her deal with it alone. Yes, Gwynevere can help, and yes, her realm is safe and offers whatever support the wayward queen requires, but no one here saw it. No one here understood what the Valley had become. Even if they have lingering disagreements, Hel is the one sleeping on the floor of Lin’s chamber rather than in her own bed, because she can’t stand to think of someone she once cared for dealing with all of this alone. It helps, in some way, because Lin does need someone there and is going through it trying to cope.

Every possible reconciliation attempt proceeds from there. Hel has gone through, well, hell and back to save Lin and is still devoted to making sure she’s safe, but it’s not romantic. It’s honestly just Hel doing what she perceives as the right thing. Whether it helps or not, or her role could be filled by anyone else Lin cared for, it doesn’t matter because she’s the one there. And like it or not, she’s not going anywhere. From this, we have a variety of options but the two I personally see working out are these: 

Lin coming to rely on that, sort of clinging to Hel even if not literally. When not dealing with any official business regarding the ongoing political nightmare, she might drift towards Hel, wherever she is within the palace. 

Alternatively, given the mood of most of their interactions post-divorce, there’s a chance it starts as resentment. That Lin can’t stand to be in her shadow, clinging to her in the daylight when her struggles are easier to bear. 

Either way, the two are at least within physical proximity to one another, given Lin’s mental health and coping skills. Which is, inevitably, going to lead to a lot more run ins with her nephew.

Hel in a lot of ways has come to care for Lothric as if he were her own, because my God someone has to love that kid beyond his brother. Someone has to care about his wellbeing. He’s irreverent and he’s anxious and he’s struggling but determined to keep going, hardly the pious saint of the royal family’s propaganda. His wit is sharp and at times cruel, and he’s unsure about a lot of things but trying to hide that fact. Lin’s going to have to, through watching Hel interact with him, accept that her nephew is in fact more than a sacrifice -- for now. I think it’s Lin showing initiative to defrost ice queen around Lothric is going to start changing Hel’s demeanor towards her as well.

Like that’s not to say Lin changing overnight to team ‘hey yeah let’s not roast a living person with autonomy who never had a chance to live!’ is what it would take. That’d be unrealistic and OOC. I think it’s just. Hel being able to see that Lin can set aside her pride or stubbornness just long enough to get to know her sacrificial lamb as a person, as something more than what the rest of the world makes him by hers and Nev’s design. Lin defrosts to Lothric, Hel defrosts to Lin. It’s equivalent.

I think that would be the tipping point to sort of lessen the feeling of obligation between them. Maybe they can finally start talking again like people who are on at least civil terms, if not outright friendly. In my head it plays a little like their initial childhood interactions where Lin is reticent but observant and Hel is the more daring of them. She leads, and for a time, to a certain degree, Lin follows. And during the course of the narrative, as the latter grows stronger, as she acclimates herself to life outside of a cage, Hel starts to back off more and more. 

Maybe Lin won’t need her so much now, maybe things will go back to normal. And instead, Lin still leaves the door open between them, as it were. Just because she’s no longer so reliant on Hel doesn’t mean she wants her gone. 

Or maybe she tries to keep her distance if she’s still fighting against certain imminent realizations. Maybe she tries to shut the door but finds, as always, Hel has a key and she just. Accepts it over time. It’s her choice whether to come and go, just as she can choose to tell her to leave. 

Another vital step in their potential reconciliation is that it not be built upon reliance or obligation -- now they can see each other as relative equals.

By this point Hel’s been doing everything short of actually saying the words to convey she’s not stopped loving Lin. Even if she doesn’t realize it, there’s no other way people can take her actions. For Lin, I don’t know if it’s that simple but we can talk it out next time you’re online because Christ I’ve been typing this so long the weekend is over and you are back at work. The vibe I get from your Lin is that even if she cares she’s daddy’s girl and stubborn as hell once she’s been hurt. She’s either unsure or unwilling to convey that she’d like to patch things up. Which is valid, she’s been through a lot, there’s so much to work through before she even thinks of romance ever again. She’s especially been through the loss of her daughter, and that bond comes before anything else.

(Sidenote for those who are not privy to our discord lore: Let’s put a pin in the fact that at present Lothric has decided his salvation lies in overriding his mother’s decision to just lock him in the kiln once he’s ‘ready.’ He’s seen how Hel can influence his aunt and said ‘Yes, of course, I have to Parent Trap them into a reconciliation and then Hel will convince Aunt Gwyndolin I deserve to live and Mother won’t have any allies left!’ All the while his primary lackey is just questioning what version of the Parent Trap he saw because that’s not the plot at all-- /j. Anyway there’s three idiots -- two princes and a physician -- out here trying to play matchmaker despite the fact none of them have any romantic experience. This can only end well.)

I feel like the real test is going to be whether distance makes the heart grow fonder. Hel’s got other responsibilities out there, and once assured Lin is in a more stable place, that others will be there for her in a way that helps, she has to take care of them. She has to be with her own people, has to make sure they are safe, keep an eye on the world beyond. She’s gone like a thief in the night, and Lin has to learn how to navigate the world without her, furthering the balancing act between them returning to normal. Hel rode off on her big black horse and no one cna say for sure when she’ll be back. She comes and goes through the kingdom like a storm, staying just long enough to cause problems but gone with the slightest shift in atmosphere. The horse comes back only weeks later. Its rider does not. Instead, perched upon that black stallion is a familiar crossbreed, tattered but hanging in there.

Hel saved her, at the cost of her own freedom. What can Lin possibly think about that?

So it’s a flurry of Lin campaigning for her sister to send a party to save Hel, Nev saying that she can’t do it yet, possibly as she is is too busy with the fracturing of her own kingdom to lend the men. All the same, she forbids Lin from going off and doing something drastic. Tells her younger sister to stay with her daughter and help Yorshka heal. She needs it. Which works bc we have that big dramatic Hel returning to the castle drenched in blood and falling cinematically into Lin’s arms. It’s the drama these wlw deserve. 

And as we know, Lin insists on being Hel’s own caretaker while she recovers. To the point she scrutinizes every move Lothric’s physician makes in checking that the newly returned Death isn’t badly injured. Lothric thinks he stays winning because now Lin’s doing the same ‘demonstrate love but don’t speak it’ bullshit that Hel is so adept at. He’s buying his physician drinks after this despite her protests that alcohol does not sit well with her--

Hel eventually recovers enough from the strenuous battle and escape to start moving around the castle more. She confesses that, despite gossip saying this was some act of passion to show her devotion, she didn’t do this for Lin. She did it because it was the right thing to do, because Yorshka was in danger, and it had nothing to do with her mother. Something that breaks Lin’s shell completely because it proves Hel is still the woman she fell in love with. She didn’t risk her life and return the one Lin loves the most as a hollow token meant to win her heart again, she did it because her conscience has never steered her wrong. 

Now try this one on for size: One day it dawns on Hel that something is missing. She tears up her room seeking it only for Lin to finally be That Bitch and hold out her exes wedding pendant -- one she found that Hel never stopped wearing, if the fact it was still around her throat when Lin stripped her of her bloody dress is any indication. Hel’s been found out. Lin’s about to start asking some serious questions.

And if one of them can finally confess at this point that whether the love stopped or never did they feel it now just as they did before, that’s not the end. That’s not reconciliation. Because the fact remains that they broke up over an act that Hel considered pure evil, when Lin helped decide the ultimate fate of Lothric. Reconciliation is going to depend wholly on how AU we want to go, if Hel and the revived Artorias are able to convince Lin that this is heinous and even if it is what her father would have wanted, it isn’t right, it makes her just as terrible as he was. If Lin can finally see to reason or at least sentiment over legacy and duty, then I can see the pair moving towards actual reconciliation and spending at least the last days of a dying world together and at peace with their ultimate fates. If not... Oof. There might be other ways to make it work once Lothric goes rogue and says he won’t be kindling, if Lin can admit that yes, that means all the cruelty was for nothing and she was wrong (like her sister does), then maybe some slowburn reconciliation could take place.

But ultimately it’s going to depend on both character development on Lin’s part, whether by choice or in spite of resistance, and Hel proving that all the things Lin has accused her of (changing, being untrue, being corrupted by heresies) are untrue. Changing and steadfast characterization in tandem. Barely even friends (after the divorce) then somebody bends unexpectedly--

[wickedlehane]

//ooc; im about to hit 400 posts (i think this is 399) but please allow me to indulgently talk about how much i love my blog’s title

“Zeno’s Arrow Never Hits the Mark”

technically lifted from a set of lyrics by singer Dessa, from her song “Fighting Fish”

I wanna try, I wanna risk And I don't wanna walk- rather swing and a miss I'm not above apologies but I don't ask permissions Got a lot of imperfections but I don't carry my ambition in them

Zeno's arrow never hits the mark It's always hanging there over its shadow Safe from battle, waste of archer's time and trouble Waste of effort, waste of parts If you don't aim for the center it's a waste of the art

I didn't come looking for love I didn't come to pick a fight

This song is on my Faith playlist and it fits her really well but I love that the Zeno’s Arrow paradox really lines up nicely with a lot of Faith’s character development. Here it is as in my “About Faith” page, pulled from Wikipedia:

In the arrow paradox, Zeno states that for motion to occur, an object must change the position which it occupies. He gives an example of an arrow in flight. He states that in any one (duration-less) instant of time, the arrow is neither moving to where it is, nor to where it is not. It cannot move to where it is not, because no time elapses for it to move there; it cannot move to where it is, because it is already there.

In other words, at every instant of time there is no motion occurring. If everything is motionless at every instant, and time is entirely composed of instants, then motion is impossible.

Apart from being a concept that is FAR TOO COMPLEX for Faith to grasp philosophically, it’s a great way to look at Faith’s idea of lashing out when nothing’s in control and nothing makes sense- she cannot move forward in any one singular moment of time because she’s already where she is. She’s the Slayer, that’s the moment she occupies. Her descent to darkness of course has an arc over the show, but she is so present in every instance and moment, it seems to her that she doesn’t change position. But that’s not how an arrow flies. (talk to me about how badly the coma fucks her up- that the world moves on when she’s literally motionless)

Motion, and therefore personal growth, is impossible if you look at every individual instance as separate in the overall trajectory. And I feel like Faith is so “in the moment” that it does seem to her nothing moves and changes, and big moments are more radical because the motion it took to get there doesn’t occur to her- it’s a micro vs macro view of her role as a Slayer and the greater responsibilities around her.

It’s not until she pulls herself from the arc she’s launched herself through- by turning herself in for her crimes- that she can withdraw and give herself a new trajectory, guided by Angel’s belief in her ability to change. It’s interesting her furthest growth comes in a time of stagnation, in prison.

Zeno’s Arrow is a paradox for a reason and so a lot of this chatter is just stream of consciousness brainthinks but I love how these lyrics pair nicely with/play on a philosophical concept that I think really informs how I write Faith. Caught in a series of moments where she is neither going to where she will be, nor coming from where she started- she is suspended in those moments I write. That’s where she is, and there is no motion when scrutinized separately. But all of those instances put together pull together her true arc, as a character and a hypothetical arrow.

[littlespoonevan]

in my head i do everything right

listen i know everything will be fine and get fixed but i don’t wanna wait til next week (bc lbr it won’t be fixed next week either probably askdjfs) so for anyone looking for a lil bit of hurt/comfort here’s a post 10x08 fic, resolving everything <3

(also look i know some people have justified the punch and some people think it’s horribly ooc. it’s not mentioned at all in this fic and i kind of wrote it with the idea that it didn’t happen and ian just fell down the steps chasing after mickey in mind. but you can read it either way and it should still hopefully make sense)

word count: 1765

title: supercut - lorde

*

It’s sheer fucking guilt that makes Mickey bring Ian to the hospital. Not concern, he thinks mutinously, telling himself he’s frowning so much because he’s angry. Because he’s still so fucking angry. He can’t believe he thought- He actually thought-

He thought Ian just wanted him.

The cab to the hospital is tense and silent and Mickey is glad he took the front seat because if he’d sat in the back with Ian he wouldn’t have been able to help himself. He would’ve held Ian or let him rest his probably broken leg in Mickey’s lap or- or kissed him probably like the fucking chump he is.

Ian, for his part, seems to be doing his best to pretend his leg isn’t actually as painful as it must be but Mickey keeps seeing the way he winces when he thinks Mickey’s not looking.

When they reach the hospital parking lot Mickey pays the cabbie and climbs out of the car, biting the inside of his cheek so hard he tastes blood as he helps Ian out of the backseat. Ian tries feebly to hobble onto the sidewalk on his own but it’s pretty fucking clear he won’t get far without Mickey.

Mickey takes a breath, steels himself and wraps an arm around Ian’s waist, taking Ian’s wrist when his arm drapes over Mickey’s shoulder. And he fucking hates himself because his body still leans into Ian’s warmth.

“I text Lip in the car,” Ian mumbles as they stagger inside. “If you- you don’t have to stay if you don’t want to.”

He looks like a kicked fucking puppy and Mickey needs to get out of here, needs to get out of Ian’s orbit for five minutes so he can think. In the end he lets out a gruff, “I’ll wait until Lip gets here,” and helps Ian up to the emergency room reception.

Ian gets whisked off for an x-ray soon after and Mickey’s glad for a second to breathe and try and organise his thoughts. Of course that’s ruined the second Lip bulldozes through the waiting room door.

“What the fuck happened?” Lip demands as he strides over to Mickey. He’d look a lot more menacing if he didn’t have a newborn strapped to his chest.

“He fell down the steps by the courthouse,” Mickey answers, rubbing agitatedly at his forehead and wishing he was anywhere but here. “Think his leg’s broken.”

Lip goes quiet, eyeing Mickey with a scrutinising look. “Okay, now tell me what happened between you two.”

Mickey huffs, pushing himself up off the stiff waiting room chair. “He can tell you himself. He’s getting an x-ray right now. Doctor’ll call you when he’s out.”

He brushes past Lip, careful not to jostle Fred, and stares at the exit door like it’s his fucking safe haven.

“Where the fuck are you going?” Lip calls after him but Mickey just clenches his jaw and keeps walking.

He needs to get away.

*

Lip texts him about an hour later.

His leg is definitely broken. They’re putting him in a cast now. Be home in a couple of hours

Mickey pockets his phone and continues his aimless walk around town. Clearing his head hasn’t exactly worked but he doesn’t feel angry anymore. He’s just- hurt. Christ, he really thought they’d do things right this time.

Without meaning to he finds himself circling back towards the hospital. When he realises he’s only a block away he sighs, reminds himself that, yes, he is whipped as fuck, and finally gives into the cloying need in his gut to make sure Ian’s okay.

The lady at the reception must feel bad for him because he’s pretty sure she’s not supposed to tell him what room Ian is in but either way he’s making his way down the corridor a few minutes later. Ian’s door is half open and Mickey can hear Lip’s voice as he steps up to it, hesitating with his hand on the doorknob.

“So you only proposed because of the spousal privilege thing?”

Mickey carefully steps out of view, leaning close to the door to hear Ian’s response.

“No,” Ian insists, sounding resigned. “I mean that’s why I asked him today but not- not the reason I asked at all.”

“Did you tell him that?”

“He didn’t give me a chance!” Ian bursts out and Mickey closes his eyes, tightening his hand on the doorknob to give himself something to hold onto.

There’s a beat of silence and then Lip is talking again. “I don’t know, man, you kind of made it sound the other week like marriage wasn’t even on the cards for you two. What changed besides hypothetically having to testify against each other?”

This is news to Mickey. What the fuck had Ian said to his brother?

Ian laughs but it sounds pained. “I didn’t- I thought it wasn’t. When all that shit happened with Svetlana Mickey acted like it meant nothing and I mean, who the fuck do we know that’s happily married? Even Kev and Vee aren’t technically married. I just thought there was too much negative shit around the word, y’know? Like it was something we’d be better off without.”

Mickey swallows around the lump in his throat, feeling a familiar traitorous burning behind his eyes.

“Doesn’t mean I don’t wanna spend the rest of my life with him though,” Ian continues and Mickey can almost imagine the rueful smile on his face and it’s too fucking much.

He pushes open the door before he fully realises what he’s doing. Ian freezes, mouth dropping open in surprise when his eyes land on Mickey while Lip goes still on the other side of the room where he’d been rocking Fred in his arms, gaze flitting between the two of them.

When no one moves to speak Lip takes it as his cue to go, patting Ian’s uninjured leg as he passes the bed and slipping out the door.

“I thought you left,” Ian murmurs eventually, looking up at Mickey with too much hope in his eyes and it’s not fair. He fucked this up, not Mickey.

Mickey inhales a breath, hands clenching and unclenching at his sides. “Tell me why I shouldn’t.”

Ian’s lips thin for a moment and Mickey pointedly ignores the glassy look in his eyes.

“I’m sorry,” Ian says, quiet but sincere. “I’m sorry I made you think that you being innocent suddenly meant I didn’t want this. I’m sorry I left so many fucking times before that it seemed like it was something I was gonna do again. I’m really fucking sorry, Mick.”

Mickey nods, wetting his lip and taking another halting step into the room. Closer to Ian.

“What d’you want then?” Mickey asks, voice careful and controlled and probably still betraying how he really feels.

“You,” Ian replies quietly.

And that pulls Mickey up short.

“I just want you,” Ian tells him, echoing Mickey’s own internal pleas from earlier with wide, earnest eyes. “I wanna be with you and I wanna marry you if you want to. But I want to do it for us, no extra reasons.”

Mickey swallows down the words he really wants to say and shoves his hands in his pockets so he doesn’t do something stupid like reach for Ian. “So why’d you stop before?”

Ian looks down at his lap, absently curling his fingers around the thin bedsheet. “Because suddenly we didn’t have to get married and everything I said to you at the diner- I wasn’t lying about any of that but trying to protect you was a pretty big reason for why I was doing it. And I wanted to- I don’t know if that’s how I wanted it to happen, y’know?”

Mickey huffs, taking another step forward and sitting down in the chair beside Ian’s bed. “No, I don’t know. What d’you mean?”

Ian sighs and his gaze turns pleading. “Your last wedding was pretty fucking shit, Mickey, and I just- if we get married I want it to be a good memory for good reasons. I want my family there and Mandy and I want us to fucking celebrate because we finally get to just be fucking happy together. I just- I realised that if we still went through with it today without talking about it it wouldn’t be what we deserve…

“What you deserve,” Ian amends quietly when Mickey stares down at the ground, trying in vain to regain his composure.

He looks up then and he knows his expression has softened, knows he can’t fucking help it whenever it comes to Ian Gallagher. “I’m still mad at you,” he says but there’s no heat behind it.

A smile tilts the corners of Ian’s lips. “That’s fair.”

“But I still love you,” he adds, still not able to help the vulnerable feeling in his chest when he says the words out loud. “And that’s a better fucking proposal than the one at Patsy’s.”

Ian laughs thickly, hand reaching out for Mickey and Mickey’s helpless not to let him, locking their fingers together and feeling something in him settle when Ian squeezes his hand.

“I’m gonna marry you,” Ian whispers. “Just let me do it right.”

“That mean you’re gettin’ me a ring?” Mickey asks wryly, voice too soft to be as teasing as he means it to be.

“’Course,” Ian grins. “I won’t even get it from the pawn shop.”

“You can’t buy my love, Gallagher,” Mickey scoffs, feeling a grin creep onto his face as the tension in his shoulders finally unfurls.

“Not trying to,” Ian denies, pulling their joined hands towards himself so he can kiss Mickey’s knuckles.

“I know,” Mickey whispers.

Ian glances up at him with a familiar smile. It’s the same smile he’s been giving Mickey since he was fifteen and Mickey’s heart is beating too fast and how the fuck does Ian still do this to him?

“Can we get me discharged now so we can go home?” Ian asks then and Mickey suddenly remembers where they are, suddenly remembers Ian’s broken leg. But Ian doesn’t look like he’s pain and Mickey’s so exhausted he feels like he could collapse on the spot so he tries not to dwell on it too much for now.

Instead he stands from the chair, gently pulling his hand out of Ian’s grasp to curl his fingers in Ian’s hair, and presses a kiss to the top of Ian’s head. He closes his eyes when he feels Ian sink into him, breathing him in.

“Yeah. Let’s go home.”

*

[hcrofraid]

Rules:

HALLO THERE! Here’s my rules! They’re a bit long, but hopefully you can push through ‘em and we can get a chance at interaction!

1. Themes might vary with this blog. Although I’m typically SFW, I might touch upon dark topics here and there.

Things will be tagged! I’ll try my best, anyways. If you want something in particular tagged, please let me know. The format I use for tagging is, for example, tw: swearing.

I don’t have any triggers but I do ask you tag all of your NSFW content.

That said, I won’t do anything NSFW - gore is okay, though.

I’m of age.

2. I‘m a little selective, but otherwise - I’m open to canon, au, crossover, and original characters! As long as their muns rp literately/write para.

If it’s a crossover, I have to know the fandom and be at least a little bit confident with it. This is so I’m able to work with you, our thread and have muse for it.

Absolutely no godmodding. It ain’t fun, fam. If you’re not sure what this term means, do look it up. This includes powerplaying, metagaming, and other things of that nature. This applies especially in fights if they happen (I’m chance-based and hope that you are too). 

I can be picky with OCs. But rest assured, if you’ve followed me/interacted with my promo, I’ll always give your pages a read.

Please don’t be offended if I don’t want to interact with you (and please don’t try to guilt me into doing so!). 

As for following back, I usually take a week tops to do so - but if you’ve hit up my promo, I go through that eventually.

As I’ve said, I’m selective and as a result mutuals do take priority - but I don’t have to be following you for you to interact with me. It just means I’m more likely to interact with you if you’re a mutual.

3. Please don’t rush me for starters or responses.

PLEASE understand that I have blogs galore and my muse tends to fluctuate; this can mean I’m everywhere at once and can end up neglecting a blog or two. It’s nothing personal; you know how muses are! Additionally, life happens to be a thing.

Please note the mun deals with anxiety and depression - this might affect how frequently she roleplays.

Chances are, I’ve probably has seen that bit of interactivity and just haven’t gotten around to responding yet.

My roleplaying style being para/multi-para, I may take a while to respond. I hoard drafts like a dragon - it’s really just the motivation to write and ship those out.

Just a reminder I hoard all your asks too, even weeks later. If I don’t respond to it, I’m either keeping it for a rainy day, or just can’t find the muse/interest for it currently. If it’s been a month or two though, just assume it wasn’t working for me unless I’ve informed you otherwise.

4. Shippings? Heck yeah I’m down for the fluffy content, as long as they’re of similar age to my boio.

If I don’t happen to be interested, don’t force anything on my character.

I do not ship incestuous ships. Do NOT follow/interact if you do.

Sontails will not be happening on this blog either, sorry.

The ship has to have chemistry; I’m generally shipping trash, but if they don’t click, they don’t click, sorry.

This is a multi-ship blog, meaning there will be more than one ship without them conflicting with eachother.

If you want to ship and I already have a ship of your choosing going with a duplicate, please don’t hesitate to hmu! My ships aren’t exclusive and each character/relationship portrayal is unique to me!

Relationships are eternal until you deem otherwise.

5. Whilst I am of age, I’m not aiming for sexual content on this blog (and will not be dealing with fetishes). That stuff makes me uncomfortable, and I typically don’t recommend pulling it with my character if you’re interacting with me. Nonetheless, should it arise, I will tag it appropriately. Also, Tails is a child. So no.

6. About reblogs…

I am not a meme source, and reblogs clog up my activity. Please reblog any memes you find on this blog from their SOURCE. The exception to this rule is if there is no source; go ahead.

I don’t feel comfortable with Personals reblogging my IC or OOC posts, so please don’t do that. If I put something in the fandom tags for whatever reason (bar promos), you’re free to, though.

Please don’t reblog my art unless I’ve drawn it specifically for you or said you can. I either have that as do not reblog for a reason, or I am planning to post it on my art blog at some point.

A few times is fine, as it happens, but repeatedly breaking these rules will result in me soft blocking you.

I try to participate in reblog karma as much as I can, but always reblog from the source/a meme source.

If a post or ask is for you, you’re free to reblog it to save it though - but only if you’re an rp blog!

7. I’m a para / multi-para blog, novella if I’m adventurous and have time. Whilst I may roleplay crack threads with shorter responses, this does not apply to all threads I write. This means:

I write my replies as detailed as I can muster.

Short responses (such as one-liners) in more serious threads where I’ve written a decent deal can instantly kill my muse for that thread.

Whilst I’d prefer for partners to at least somewhat match my length, it’s entirely up to you - just try your best and make sure you give me enough to work with. ♡

If my muse happens to go nuts out of nowhere - like, overboard - don’t stress too much about matching them.

If para roleplays aren’t your alley, I’m unlikely to roleplay with you. It’s nothing personal; it’s just finding muse for one-liner threads is incredibly difficult unless it’s dash shenanigans. Anything else outside that is fine, though - we can still have fun outside of proper threads.

If you need further context on the AU, the link to it’s tag is here! Otherwise just ask me!

Tails’ AU is one I’m very proud of and very attached to, so please don’t force your headcanons about him on me. If you’re unsure how certain events play out in the context of his universe, don’t hesitate to ask me about them!

That said, anything that might take place on this blog obviously isn’t canon to the AU itself; I just like writing for this boio and it helps me develop his character. It’s all hypothetical.

Additionally! Don’t worry too much if the headcanoned relationships between Tails and other muses don’t match yours. Those are mostly just guidelines for how Tails would USUALLY interact with your muse. I’m open to altering these relationships to better fit our threads! Don’t ever feel restricted to what I put down; it’s mostly just for context purposes because, well, Tails is absent. I’m an IM away for plotting.

8. Threads typically happen naturally with me, but if you’re looking for interaction opportunities:

I’ll have a permanent starter call somewhere for you to hit up; honestly though, if you’re a mutual? Pls feel free to hit it up.

Starter memes are the BEST way to interact me because they just yeet a prompt at my face and really help me write starters. If you see me reblog one, send one!

If there’s a verse you’re interested in, please specify.

If you want to turn an ask into a thread, go ahead!

I may not roleplay with every starter I am given - I’ll do a ‘background check’ if you’re a new blog on the block. If I don’t feel your writing style/length works with mine, I might not respond. Apologies. ;__;

Please don’t write para / novella starters up for me unless we’ve discussed something, sent something, or I’ve liked a starter call. I really don’t want to leave people hanging if I’m not interested.

IMs are open to mutuals, if you want to do any in-depth plotting.

I also have Discord! If you’re mutuals with me, feel free to ask for it!

9. Guidelines on mains and relationships:

If we’re mutuals and we interact a lot, you’re welcome to ask me if I’d like to be your main!

Please note that MAINS fall into two categories; one pertaining to Tails’ initial universe, and those pertaining to alternates. Although the latter is plenty, for clarity’s sake, there would be one alternate Tails might default to.

Please don’t be offended if I deny, though; I typically want to pick those I trust to be my mains as well as people I can comfortably write with.

Not limited to them! I roleplay with duplicates galore so don’t be afraid to hit me up if you want to interact!

Pre-established relationships are a-okay in my book; if you have an idea for a relationship between our muses we can work towards, hit me up! I reblog those pre-established relationship memes every so often too. Romantic relationships link back to the shipping guidelines.

Also, friendship/family/rivalry relationships are EXTREMELY valid to me. GIMME’ ALL THE PRECIOUS BONDING CONTENT PLS. THIS BOY NEEDS FRIENDS.

10. If you have any issues, please let me know and hopefully we can resolve it!

Mun is actually super nice, so don’t be afraid to hit her up!

I am absolutely terrible with IMs and sometimes even Discord. I either respond quickly or days later, depends on my mood. Social anxiety tends to interfere with this - but honestly, if you’ve sent something, I’ve likely read it and just haven’t gotten around to it yet! It’s nothing personal; trust me! I just need a social breather every now and again.

Please leave me out of drama; I’m here to have a good time, as is everyone else, and it pains me to see people arguing.

11. It’s easier with a clean dash for me, so I’m more likely to follow people who:

Trim their posts.

Have rules and about pages! I always read those before interacting or following!

If you don’t have either of those, I’m likely not to follow you - so make sure that you do!

12. On threads…

If you’re not interested in a thread anymore, and would like to drop it, please let me know! I’d feel terrible if we’re both not having fun with it or if partners feel overwhelmed with the amount of threads we have.

Honestly, unless I let you know, our threads have no expiry date - so no need to worry about me dropping them without telling you. I can just be quite slow sometimes.

13. Mun does not equal muse! Anything Tails might say does not reflect on how I think unless I explicitly say so.

14. Know that if I follow you, I WANT to interact with you.

I literally couldn’t care less about follower counts. I care about YOU guys and our interactions.

15. If you’re OKAY with threads being set in Tails’ universe (and acting as his inverse counterparts), please like / reply to this post! It just lets me know I’m A-OK to shoot you asks pertaining to it, rather than the usual alternate shenanigans.

16. These rules may be subject to change.

Please like this post if you’ve read the rules! You don’t have to, but it’s of personal reassurance to me if you have.

[jujulebee]

🫂

She hugs back immediately, soft and warm and so very clearly full of love. They're the same height so its easy to tuck her head away and avoid getting too much glitter on him. Her hug is tight, comforting, and there's an obvious, lingering hesitance when they need to part—like letting go of a memory—so she settles for holding his hands by the end, her grin never faltering. She radiates familiar warmth, genuine adoration.

[userseokkie]

Steve Rogers is a walking contradiction: the anti military soldier

After reading this meta on a gifset about Steve and Tony i got carried away and wrote essentially an essay about the analysis that had been made. and while i agree with the general sentiment of the post, some things didn’t sit right with me. btw i decided to make this my own separate post because this isn’t intended to start an argument or derail the original post, i know it can be annoying for gif makers to have dozens of comments added onto their posts.

(the meta in question)

ok so full disclaimer I’m not American and I’m not white. i just felt like this analysis was really interesting and when I read it I couldn’t stop all these thoughts that formed in my head, next thing I know I had written all of this in like 30 minutes. I’m not trying to argue or start shit, this is my own personal analysis of Steve’s character and why I don’t agree with some things said above.

First of all, let’s get this out of the way: Steve does not trust the US government. at least not blindly. the fact that he’s still the little shit that had a real problem w authority figures is something they touch upon on catfa a lot. he changed on the outside but on the inside he’s still that idiot punk kid and like, I get what the tags above me are saying but also Steve’s arc is more than that? and let’s not forget this stupid movie was written and directed by thanos Joss “I’m the true feminist ally” whedon so I would take this exchange with a grain of salt. I mean this is the movie that gave us “gOllY tHeRe’S OnLy oNe gOd m'Am” and “sOn oF a GuN” Stephen Rogers which is the most ooc thing I’ve seen since endgame’s Steve. Steve is a fucking potty mouth ffs he’s Irish and a soldier, so that doesn’t even make sense. but anyway, my point is something else, nvm this movie’s portrayal of Steve in general.

I guess we could probably argue all day long abt which Steve portrayal is the most accurate one since his character in the MCU is the one that’s suffered the most at the hands of inconsistent characterization, but I prefer thinking he already WAS someone that was well aware of the horrors of war and how unfair it was to recruit people w lies and the promises of education opportunities and loans for the poor to join the army, because he LIVED that he grew up dirt poor and had to see his mom take on three different jobs to support herself and him, so he’d consider this attempt to bring civilians into the military life by preying on their needs disgusting, he’d be fucking seething with anger. and if he had lived through the 60s (which I think it’s better for everyone involved that he didn’t, can u imagine poor guy would’ve died from the disappointment in what his country had become) I highly doubt he would’ve been the bitter WWII vet that defended Vietnam and shit on the protestors……. Steve would support the citizens’ rights to ask for accountability and demand justice!! even the hippie movement I think he would’ve been ok with when he saw that they were advocating FOR PEACE. that’s why he enlisted on the war after all, to bring the fight to an end and to have Bucky come HOME. I think Steve rogers would be all for peace. I mean, civil disobedience and telling the government to shove it? that’s Steve Rogers’ goddamn ethos. he would be all over that shit.

I agree w op’s tags where they say Steve doesn’t represent America, he represents what America wishes it had been. and I think Steve himself would be well aware he’s the anomaly here, the one that should have been America’s highest ideal. and I think that makes Steve very wary of his own image, anything he endorses becomes what America endorses. Steve rogers isn’t important, Captain America is. but I think Steve’s response here has more to do with his coping mechanisms to deal with loss, rather than coming from a place of “oh we’re soldiers, it’s what we do, we die for our country.” while Tony’s response comes from a place of anger (we are NOT soldiers!!! fuck u old man, i never asked for this!!! coulson didn’t ask for this!!!!!) Steve’s reaction comes from the intrinsic nihilism and dadaism product of his own time. it’s not that he’s minimizing Coulson’s death, it’s more that he’s so used to losing people, the thousands he met that died in European soil, the sick and ill from his ma’s work that died everyday, his own father whom he never even met, that his mechanism is to just. shut down. shrug it off a bit, even. people die. every day. “for believing” means for standing for something, because Steve is WELL aware that people that stand for nothing will fall for anything, and standing for something gives counterbalance to the official agenda. in his eyes, Coulson died not because he’s a soldier and winning the war means being prepared to make a few sacrifices. Coulson died because he chose to believe in something that the majority didn’t care about or even actively sought to destroy (the wsc over fury’s shoulder) and he died because he would not back down from the fight. I can do this all day is something Steve feeds off of because he knows that when you stop getting up from the ground, anyone and anything can strike you down.

but on another note, I get that Avengers happens literally 6 fucking days after he woke up from the ice, he probably had no time to catch up on all the atrocities the US had done on his behalf, or rather on what they said he represented, on the ideal he died defending and the US took and twisted and tore apart until it was no longer recognizable. Steve being a week out of the ice is super sad and to me, the biggest crime this movie did was literally brushing off Steve’s trauma, being riddled with PTSD and shocked from waking up seventy years in the future was not even addressed. at all. this could’ve been easily avoided by setting the movie at least a couple of months AFTER he wakes up. but whatever. After learning of all the shit the US has done, I think Steve rogers would be the first to walk out of there and be like “fuck it, I died for this country and you took it and fucked it up and now young people and people who’ve been killed for protesting your shitty ass decisions genuinely believe I would side with the government. they think I’M the stubborn baby boomer who kisses government boots and would approve of the Gulf War or the Vietnam War or the Central American coups or the war on terror or any of the stupid shit you’ve pulled in the 70 years I was gone!!! YOU MADE ME A SYMBOL FOR YOUR BIGOTRY WHAT THE FUCK”. so he obviously needs time to catch up on all of that before realizing how bad they fucked up his memory and how corrupt the system has become. but Steve’s depiction as a boy scout who believes the US can do nothing bad is inherently wrong and something only this one movie tries to do. no other movie featuring Cap tries to drive the point home that Cap is a goodie two shoes who still believes in american exceptionalism.

CATWS was the gold standard because it truly touched upon the cognitive dissonance Steve experiences coming out of a 70 year nap. the loss he experiences not only for being “the man out of time”, but the true man behind the symbol. heavy are the shoulders that carry the world indeed. and he’s been carrying the entire world on his since he decided to become Captain America. I truly believe the tragedy of Steve Rogers comes from the lack of agency he has over the Captain image, one that has been used to prop up political agendas over and over again. of course, he’s the one that decides to be Captain America as much as he is Steve rogers, blurring the lines between the two men. he could’ve retired, he could’ve adopted a new mantle or even go the old reliable route and try to keep a civilian life away from the superhero gig. but he didn’t. even in the comics whenever he tried to do that it didn’t stick for more than a few issues. so, you know in CATWS he truly experiments what it’s like to pull back the curtain and see the wizard behind it, he faces this disenchantment with the institutions that created him, both SHIELD and the US government. this helps pinpoint the moment he grows super distrustful of politics and agendas, because up until this point he’d only been in the battlefield, and he realizes governments cannot be trusted to make the right decision or even act in benefit of their people.

this way, Civil War does make sense when you see how Steve has grown so disappointed with modern politics that he sees the Sokovia accords as one big red flag, and the first step in a direction that only points toward authoritarianism and civil control. this movie deals with many things poorly of course, but one thing that doesn’t feel ooc is Steve telling the UN to fuck off. He wasn’t around to see the formation of the united nations remember? he literally has no background on what collective security and globalized autonomy are. there’s many things that could’ve been different in CW, but Steve was on the “right” side of the conflict for his character. (i’m NOT saying there’s a wrong and a right side on the Civil war dilemma. that whole thing was badly written so let’s just say it made sense in a hypothetical way). supporting the government in any capacity isn’t a part of Steve’s “thing”, but even when/if he sided with the US govt, he’d never endorse a political agenda that he perceives as “wrong”, knowing it’s hypocritical to do so. 

he doesn’t think the end justify the means, which is highly different from Tony’s pragmatism. if Steve and Tony represented opposing philosophical movements, Tony would be utilitarianism and Steve would be deontology. this brings the analysis full circle by pointing out that yes, Tony and Steve operate differently in theory, but in practice they both work for the same objective. Tony is the cynic product of his own doing, he understands how war can destroy and he knows the US has a bad track record of owning up to its own shit. and because of that, he believes that the most good he can do is in his own hands (and because of his extremist way of thinking, he also equates that with being the only one who can do it and therefore, he must, no matter the personal cost). On the other hand, Steve is the idealist product of other’s people efforts, he understands how sometimes war can be the only way to save what is worth saving, but also how it can corrupt even the noblest of men. and because of that, he believes that the most good he can do must be done because other people believe in him, and because by setting the example, others can follow and make the world a better place. (and because of his very stubborn nature, he also equates that with being the ‘tree that must plant itself in the ground and say no, you move’.)

so what I guess I’m trying to say, is that to me at least, saying that Steve Rogers would be in favor of US militarism or that he equates the word “soldier” with hero is a huge disservice to his character. the fact that he’s a fictional character that was first conceived as WWII propaganda is not relevant, because I choose to believe the idea that says fiction stops being the creator’s own the moment it’s out in the world. And Steve Rogers NOW is a different character and serves a different purpose than what he was originally intended to. His entire origin is based on being a soldier, yes, but what makes his character so compelling is the juxtaposition between being a soldier and being essentially opposed to what the US military complex entails. he embodies a lot of american values ofc, like freedom and right of free speech and so, but my take is that he defends this values in a way that is distinctly non American. setting aside discussions of propaganda and the integrity of an art form, i think he’s been written in a way that evokes patriotism without being exclusively american. i mean heck, Steve rogers makes me proud to be from my own country, and inspires me to be better while never reminding me of the fact that he’s from an imperialist super power. Star spangled suit aside, he’s probably a fair enough representation of what one's love for their own country can bring to the surface, no matter which country specifically. i could delve more into that, but this is already getting too long and, since i already mentioned, I’m not from the US and my cultural upbringing is far different from the US. so i’m not sure i could make such a poignant analysis about the military culture and the way it impacts characters such as Steve. 

[crinolinegumdrops]

A not quite canonical conversation

[OOC: Bobby, Grace, and I did a spontaneous conversation between our characters on the Discord; I’m cross-posting it here for the non-Discord crowd. Enjoy!]

Ara-mun: [there is a hypothetical hypersensitive in my brain who desperately wants his country to do cleaning because then there wouldn't be any reds anywhere in the country and he is so done with gumdrop's definition of suffering]

aforementioned hypersensitive, designated "Ara": oh no. poor you. you have to live in a clean country.

Gumdrop-mun: [I mean, Gumdrop is fine with red cleaning!]

Gumdrop-mun: [It's ex-reds doing things like, oh no, standing next to them in line at the coffee shop that they object to.]

Ara: but they're clean, who cares, they aren't doing anything wrong, I don't like knowing when people near me have been polluted either but I don't make everyone who's ever been polluted leave the nation, and as long as I don't know it can't bother me, why is everyone so obsessed with newly-cleans disclosing why would you want to have to think about that

Gumdrop: Evil criminals become no less evil criminals when one is ignorant of their trespass!

Serpent: Have you considered that you may be hypersensitive, or otherwise unsound of mind?

Ara: but they're not evil! or criminals! and they're clean!

Ara-mun: [does serpent just assume everyone is mentally ill all the time for hair-trigger reasons]

Serpent-mun: [Serpent’s response to half of tumblr is ‘are you mentally ill’, honestly.]

Gumdrop: Being now cleaned does not wash away the taint of their previous actions.

Gumdrop: Nor, evidentially, does it instill any new knowledge of such things as courtesy or boundaries.

Ara: if someone had a boundary that they didn't want hypersensitives standing next to them in line at the coffee shop, it wouldn't be my responsibility to avoid them, it would be their responsibility to avoid me. if my brain is being stupid and decides that I can't be anywhere near hypos for a week that doesn't make all hyposensitives evil for not avoiding me, I have to put in the effort to avoid them if I want to do that, they're clean

Serpent: My poor, unfortunate compatriot in the common Amentan endeavor: stop equivocating between ex-reds and reds. No, seriously, stop doing that. Now. You’re inciting pollution hysteria because of your mental health issues, and it’s flatly unacceptable in civilized society.

Gumdrop: Of course ex-reds do not continue to be red. They merely retain the trait of being terrible, terrible people. That does not wash off.

Serpent: Are you under the impression that the cleaning process entails someone spraying a red with a soapy water gun and going ‘I’ve got one!’, or what.

Ara: but they don't? newly-cleans aren't any more likely to be criminals or violent than born-cleans, look at all these statistics!

Gumdrop: The cleaning process removes all pollution from the body. Criminality is merely linked to pollution.

Gumdrop: I see you are a proponent of the Efreti hypothesis.

Gumdrop: You should remember that it proposes that the new person inherits tendencies and traits from the old self. It is not that simple to be rid of corruption of character.

Gumdrop: Statistics? They're being evil right now, by being in my space!

Serpent: What is it with machine translation randomly changing ‘Erefeti’ to the archaic ‘Efreti’? It’s bizarre. And, as I shouldn’t have to remind you, they do inherit traits from their past ‘selves’- that aren’t inherently related to pollution. They transfer from their position on the red bell curve to their position on the Amentan bell curve. Unusually conscientious reds become unusually conscientious people- and reds that are averagely moral for their kind become averagely moral people.

Ara: okay but if a hypo is in my space when I don't want them to be that means I should leave or ask them, it doesn't mean they're evil, they're clean, there's nothing wrong with them existing in public, if you want to stay in your apartment that's fine but you can't purge clean people from public spaces just because you feel like it

Ara-mun: [this person is like three and spends 80% of his time in his apartment, to be clear]

Gumdrop-mun: [...Now Gumdrop wants to kidnap this child and protect them]

Gumdrop-mun: [They have a right to boundaries, damn you! <|:((    ]

Serpent, internally: grumbles over people who barely know more about Surefet than the name and its export of anchovies suddenly playing armchair theologian.

Gumdrop: Dear. If someone continues to invade your personal space when you are clearly distressed, they are a bad person, regardless of sensitivity.

Ara-mun: [of course he has a right to boundaries it's just his responsibility to enforce them, other people aren't just magically going to know who his brain is being stupid about today, so if he doesn't want to see someone he has to avoid them]

Gumdrop: Averagely moral people do not attempt to invade the homes and businesses of people they know will be unbearably unhappy as a result.

Gumdrop: I would not do this, and I would not be so arrogant as to claim I am some outstanding moral beacon.

Serpent: Have you considered that you may have an unusually pleasant view of the average person’s disposition. Most people are mildly terrible, and they’re particularly terrible when cornered by circumstance- as I’m sure you are currently, though given that your ability to provide for yourself isn’t at stake I rather imagine you can manage to rise above the cruft, so to speak.

Serpent: And claiming that you wouldn’t try and seek employment and the potential for children, damn the unpleasant experiences of others, is in fact claiming to be an outstanding moral beacon.

Serpent: Which, given your obvious prejudice, I rather doubt.

Gumdrop: If an employer made it clear that they would only hire purples, and I chose to dye my hair and lie to them for that extra 10%*, then yes, I would be a bad person.

Gumdrop-mun: [*or whatever the OOCI cap in Met is :P ]

Serpent: Your ability to survive and have children is deeply unlikely to be dependent on an extra 10% of income.

Gumdrop: If I were to walk into an orange-only club meeting, sit down, and refuse to leave, I would be a bad person.

Serpent: None of these examples are putting your potential to have children and not starve to death at stake.

Serpent: And they are accordingly fallacious comparisons.

Serpent: Your country might have a lovely welfare system, I wouldn’t know- ours is easy enough to slip through, if you catch the right person’s disfavor- so perhaps starving to death is an extreme example.

Gumdrop: Starve to death? Good grief, Miolee exists! They are not, as you imagine, "cornered by circumstance". They have their own space! The country of Evalee made a space for them at their own cost! Why they cannot utilize it and leave us alone is beyond me!

Serpent: But I cannot emphasize how terrible it is to deprive people of children for your own satisfaction and schadenfreude- Miolee is physically incapable of holding every ex-red that exists.

Serpent: And you had your chance to advocate for your country to create a special internal ex-red zone, and you failed.

Serpent: Ex-reds do not, in fact, genuinely have the universal option to pack up their things and live in ex-red only zones.

Serpent: They are not the ones at fault here.

Gumdrop: Shadenfreude? I do not take joy in their suffering. I merely want them to leave me alone.

Gumdrop: As to children, I would have those if people were better at boundaries! Do you know how long I spend before each date meticulously ensuring they are not some rapacious deceiver?

Gumdrop: The fact that Met is less homely than it has ever been does not mean I should lie down and let others experience this violation!

Gumdrop: I agree they are not entirely at fault. The blues that are supposed to care for their people abandoned us to this fate as well. But these ex-reds are very much not doing what they can to mitigate their part in this.

[OOC: At this point, the muns reached their bedtime.]

[50cyg]

[1/2]Hi you have a great blog! Just wanted to drop a note cuz folks are so mad about Meiko but to add her as a character is a choice I respect--having a new character be a catalyst for a new plot is a way of keeping fans pleased with representations of their faves, i.e. having a new character shake things up means that writers can keep the baseline of characterizations that fans love for the original digidestined.(Personally I think tri!Yamato is very in-character but this also seems unpopular)

Thank you! I’m glad you like it :)

First of all, how people are responding to Meiko, from both sides, is frustrating to me. 

Many Anti-Meiko fans don’t actually spend the time to properly convey what they dislike about her and just say she’s a shitty character and they didn’t come to see a new characters steal screen time. While I semi-agree with these statements, they ultimately have no purpose beyond releasing frustration. Which I guess is why people make them. 

On the flip side you have Pro-Meiko fans who say that the only reason people dislike Meiko is because she’s new. They also defend every action the character has taken, or not taken. 

Then these two opposing groups do nothing but fuel each other and what we get is a war instead of actual discussion and thoughtful criticism of the character and the story surrounding her. Basically, I just don’t like extremes of any kind. 

I don’t hate Meiko, I like aspects of her and also find myself relating to her sometimes. But I don’t like the way she is handled and think her inclusion is unnecessary. 

Now, in response to your statement, I’d like to start by saying that you are completely entitled to your opinion and I think there are people who would agree with you. However, I do not.

(Warning, mild Anti-Meiko ahead)

Even with Meiko’s inclusion, Tri is shaking up the characters. Taichi and Yamato in some ways have switched their stances regarding how to handle situations. Taichi’s character and his conflicts are at the forefront of the series and we can see the ways in which he has stayed the same and the ways in which he has changed. He is definitely not the exact same as he was when he was 11. Many people in the fandom who see Taichi as a more one dimensional character were really thrown off by how much Tri is highlighting Taichi’s more hesitant side, even though we saw it a number of times in Adventure, and even in 02.

We can see that Tri/Yamato has been pretty heavily influenced by Adventure Taichi. He has gone from the kid who doesn’t want to climb up a mountain in case of danger to the guy that knows if they don’t fight Alphamon more people will get hurt. He has become the one who moves forward first. This is not in line with his established character in Adventure but rather a result of Taichi’s influence on him over the years. Vice versa Taichi has been influenced by Yamato, which we saw happen throughout adventure and which was highlighted when we see Taichi think “what would Yamato do?” in response to someone asking him if they should go to Pinocchiomon’s house. Now this does not mean that either is acting OOC. When I said once that Yamato is out of character I was talking about the fact that he is out of character from his established 02 self. 02 Yamato is far far more laid back, while as Tri Yamato is very similar to Adventure Yamato. Both Tri/Taichi and Tri/Yamato feel like older versions of their Adventure selves, who have grown and been influenced by each other over the years.

So yeah, Tri is not afraid of making alterations to characters or dynamics or putting certain aspects of a character more to the forefront. 

They also are not afraid of giving pre-existing characters personality transplants. There is really only one scene in the Adventure universe, prior to Tri, where we see Takeru troll anybody. This scene is when he trolls Pinocchimon. Tri then took that minor minor glipse into Takeru’s troll side and decided to multiply it by a thousand, effectively making him the troll king of the Adventure universe (though I’d argue Wizardmon is a bigger troll but that’s a post for another day :P). I’ve seen virtually zero complaints made about this change in his personality. In fact, virtually everyone loves it. It makes Takeru a far more compelling character. Him being a troll is now one of his defining characteristics, when it was previously a tiny tiny aspect that was created and used to execute one scene. 

Furthermore, despite Meiko’s inclusion they still have pre-established characters in conflict with one another. Taichi and Yamato are in conflict. Sora gets angry with Taichi and Yamato. Yamato was angry with Jyou. Mimi and Koushiro were in conflict. Jyou stands up against Taichi in Kyosei. Koushiro stands up to Yamato in Kyosei. Hikari has literally just brought on the apocalypse. There is in fighting happening throughout the entire series.

Finally, they do not have to mischaracterize them for Drama. Many people were very engaged by the plot line of Patamon getting infected and no one had to be mischaracterized for the drama of those scenes to be effective. Hikari was not mischaracterized for the drama of her giving into the darkness to be executed well. As far as I’ve seen, fans have not had an issue with having bad things happen to either of these characters. In fact, fans like me love seeing our faves suffer. Think of how much more effective it would have been to have Jesmon trying to kill a pre-established character that we love. How would fans have reacted if Jesmon was trying to kill Patamon? I guarantee it would have brought on more emotions than him trying to kill Meicoomon. 

So yeah, I don’t agree. I hold to my belief that Meiko’s inclusion was not necessary. I think fans would have been happier had she not been included and instead we’d gotten tragic things happening to the pre-existing characters. This is all hypothetical though, and anyone who reads this post is free to comment whether they agree or disagree. 

[nocllesnow]

22, 9, 3 !

which muse is the trickiest to get into character for?

probably darcy?? only because he fluctuates so much between being harsh and being awkward and being annoyed because HE doesn’t know what he’s doing, so he’s some serious mood whiplash. ithaca is a close second, though, because i’m still feeling my way around what she does and how she feels and how she acts around different people, because she’s a character whose responses 100% depend on who she’s talking to. that being said, tho, i like to think my characters are pretty in-character?? hopefully?? IDK FAM

why were you drawn to each one of your characters?

this gonna be a long answer fam, u ready??

noelle: mY FIRST BAE, playing shy characters was easier for me when i entered a new group, plus shy olaf daughter?? with a dad who’s extra af?? yES PLS. ngl, i stalked the rp for like a week before joining bc i was highkey intimidated, so i feel like that showed through noelle a bit.

kai: SILVERMIST IS MY DISNEY FAIRY FAVE, NO DOUBT ABOUT IT, and taehyung’s face was calling to me fam, i really wanted a fairy character and i mean, silvermist was the fave, so why not??

luna: when tasha was still around she said in the ooc that she wanted a daughter of pitch black for andy and i wAS ON THAT SHIT the muse came to me fam, and isabelle suited the character so well the rest was history.

caspia: seeing the hundred acre wood characters start to come in i was like “yO WHAT IF PIGLET HAD A REBELLIOUS AF DAUGHTER” and i also wanted a character to get drunk bc none of the aforementioned characters really got drunk, so tHERE SHE BE

ophelia: with the Mess™ that the wonderland characters at the time had going on, i ended up getting muse for a more fussy yet adventurous and curious daughter of the white rabbit, thus ophelia was born. nONE of those wonderland characters are around anymore, but she was a character who i found had to grow up a bit and idk fam i could go oN

zane: UM SHOCK LOCK AND BARREL ARE MY FAVES?? i remember EB mentioned rex being terrified of their kids and the muse continued from there tbh?? i’d wanted to use jungkook for a while and i was like oPPORTUNITY, and he was another character that grew up quite a bit when i first got him

eirella: listen............she was meant to be a daydreamer who had a bit of a temper, right?? tHEN I REALISED I LIKED IT BETTER WHEN SHE WAS ANGRY SO ANGRY SHE BECAME. i also really like dancer characters, sO

misty: there was a lot of Mess™ happening with the atlantica-olympus crew and i thought to myself “lmao what if it was flounder’s kid that has to deal with all of them” aND THUS MISTY WAS BORN, it was very quick tbh but i don’t regret it one bit

jacinta: i wanted a very whimsical and energetic character as well as a very immature one, and i thought a daughter of stitch would fit the bill tbh. i also love stitch, and with kei as her fc it just sorta fell into place tbh

talon: i wANTED MATT DADDARIO AS AN FC OK and tbh i went through a few options, but i went with tarzan and jane because the character i had in mind was one that was kinda rough and socially inept, and i figured being raised in the jungle away from humans was perfect for that

alissa: fAIRY GODMOTHER CHILD?? YES PLS. with all the crazy shit that was happening in auradon, i wanted a character like alissa who wanted to stand up for the school ( this was before we had an actual fairy godmother mind you ) and also one who wanted to grant wishes because SHE wanted to. a lot of it was based on the fairy godmother in the original descendants movie who wouldn’t let jane use magic, and so alissa would be under the same circumstances and just rebel, plain and simple

sabrina: LOOK I HAD HER IN MIND FOR MONTHS BEFORE I HAD HER I’M JUST SDKLFJSLDF with all the wreck-it-ralph characters around, i got inspired, and i was like “how WOULD turbo treat his kid??” aND THUS SHE WAS BORN AND WOULDN’T LEAVE MY MIND

xiaoli: around the time i was thinking about sabrina, i was also thinking about xiaoli. there were a few inspirations for xiaoli’s character. the whole ‘i am a tool’ line came from peko pekoyama from dangan ronpa and the writing in her sketchbook thing came from this character megumi from the anime special a and everything just sorta fell into place?? i love her so much like??

viviette: MIRACULOUS LADYBUG HYPE FAM i lowkey wanted a ML character for a while and then all this hype about queen bee was going around and it was cHLOE AND I WAS LIKE !!!!!!! and i was really drawn to the backstory riley made for cameron so it was a no-brainer whose kid i was gonna create

frederick: I WANTED A BRATTY PRINCE. THAT’S ALL I WANTED. AND NOW HERE HE IS. A MASTERPIECE OF BULLSHITERY. and now i also love when he guts flustered and blushy blushy that’s always fun

gabriel: i knew i wanted a soft, well-mannered, flower-child boy, i just didn’t know where to put him, and then i remembered how much i fUCKING LOVED THE SWAN PRINCESS AS A CHILD and it was a no-brainer, he’s just so pure, so beautiful

beatrix: sMALL FEISTY DEMON CHILD?? CHERNABOG?? LITERALLY SATAN’S DAUGHTER?? NEED I SAY MORE?? i wanted a character who was a persuasive little shit, basically. hopefully i’m doing her justice even tho i brING HER SO MUCH PAIN i basically have no issues doing anything to her bc chernabog would legit do ANYTHING bc he has no morals, like at all

roxanne: princess who’s done with her dad’s shit, basically someone who might be able to dO SOMETHING about the crazy ass shit that goes on in auradon as well as someone close to the king to actually oppose the king, and i aLSO wanted a character who had middle child syndrome so

pandora: i wanted a smol from the isle, bc i had no smols from the isle, like nO TRUE REAL 110% SMOLS and i chose pete because first of all, i love the mickey mouse original characters, but also because i thought he would be an interesting character to explore in this universe?? sO YEA

darcy: i wanted charlie heaton as an fc and i had his character of being abrupt and awkward in my mind already, but i once again had no idea where to put him?? iN THE END it was his personality that i was interested in the most. shoutout to nicole for helping me decide on aurora and phillip tho

yazmin: THIS ONE IS WINNIE’S FAULT OK i knew coranza was from elena of avalor and i was like “oh what’s that this looks cool” I FINISH ALL THE EPISODES AND I LOVED ISABEL AND I WAS ON THAT SHIT LIKE LIGHTNING OK

willow: i made the mistake of watching sofia the first, i legit remember posting ‘i have made a terrible mistake’ on the ooc blog but i just?? really wanted a spoiled princess?? aND I LOVE SOFIA THE FIRST SO LIKE ??? FAM

queenie: I WAS WATCHING THE GREAT MOUSE DETECTIVE AND THE MUSE POPPED UP I WAS SHOOK i love detective characters and i had so many ideas?? i had a few stoic characters but none of them were as lonely as queenie really was, and she has this side to her that shows that she’s still just a teenager sO

umbra: I WANTED TO USE BONA FOR THE LONGEST TIME i just had no idea where to put her and then i watched httyd and i love that movie so much ok and i was INFIRES i also love characters who are antisocial but are 110% fine with being that way and umbra is nothing if not that so

ithaca: LI ST E N a snow white child has been in the back of my mind since forever tbh, since around october last year i think?? but there was no space. i just really loved the idea of her being interested in magic and being sorta gloomy and stuff and being this kinda?? middle ground to otto and pompeii?? like they’re both on opposite ends of things and ithaca is just kinda in the middle like “whatever fam”

helix: IT’S NO SECRET THAT I LOVE THE BELDAMS OK and once again if there had been space i probably would have created her a long time ago. i got to thinking about what would have happened to a beldam kid during the time she was alone, all these hypotheticals like “what if they didn’t know what beldams did?? what if they were really sweet and it aLL CHANGED” and thus HELIX

[nobaettadr]

for the re-meta meme (because i cannot resist) -- how about some hypothetical future dad!leif hc?

                                       send me a topic to write a meta on!

ooc.

slams hands on the table quietly

so i’ve ?? sort of briefly mentioned this in that one hc post where i kind of self-indulged hardcore on future!au leif but i do….spend a lot of time thinking about……leif & kids. 

despite not having a whole lot of role models on how to be a father, i imagine that leif is actually surprisingly good with kids and would be a good dad. a lot of it, i’m sure, stems from his own lack of a father figure and he would want to make sure his children never feel that same lack of guidance he did, and he would want to be really involved with their lives. i hc that he and finn never had a great relationship ( and that finn was never really a father figure for him anyway, despite raising him ); even when he did see finn in a fatherly capacity ( i.e. with nanna ) it wasn’t that great. i do imagine that one of the shared experiences he and nanna understand that binds them in a way that leif doesn’t feel bound to anyone else is the mutual sense of frustration they have towards finn for not being the father figure they both needed. it’s not anyone’s fault, but the fact remains that they often felt emotionally abandoned by him – mostly because, as i’ve touched on before, finn emotionally shuts down after the fall of leonster and especially after lachesis leaves him, and this ends up having a trickle-down effect on leif and nanna.

leif would never want his kids to feel the same way. that sort of ‘i don’t know if what i’m doing is right’ confused lack of guidance and mentorship one can only get from a father has plagued leif all his life. he would move mountains to ensure his kids never know that feeling. ( which is really funny because i also hc that leif dies young, in his mid-thirties, when his kid is only like 12 at best cause canon fucks leif up so why shouldn’t i )

despite being biologically a younger brother, leif has much more experience being an older sibling – he’s helped to raise nanna more than finn has, in my hc, despite only being like a year older than her. the kind of responsibility he’s always taken for her and the way he’s always cared for her and looked out for her lays the foundation for him being a great father. bonus points: the thought of being a dad fills him with a deep sense of warmth and fulfillment – like i imagine quan and ethlyn before him, leif is a family kind of guy despite what it seems. he longs for that sort of unshakable family unit, that stable, secure place with people he loves and who love him and for whom he is inexorably responsible for and tied to. the fact that he never grew up with that stability, of course, just makes him want it more. he craves that kind of home-y, hearth-y intimacy and companionship; leif is a people person, and not at all an independent spirit. he relies on others for validation, support, and love, and is most fulfilled when he can receive that and return it in kind. 

i don’t think, however, that he would want a large family – probably one, maybe two kids at most. he’d want it to be a small, intimate, very much a private setting. his reasoning for not wanting a lot of kids probably comes from not wanting one to feel less loved or overlooked in any way; he wants to be very much involved with each one of them. 

aside from that, i don’t really have many specific dad!leif hc’s – in terms of in-game ships where it would be possible, i’ve already talked about my weakness for both mareeta/leif and sara/leif. major odo-blooded mareeta child named fionn who becomes a swordmaster and trains in the isaachian sword arts is Important To Me. a sara-child would probably be more magically-inclined due to both of them having magic potential ( sara extraordinarily so ). i’m also fond of the idea of sara’s premonition abilities kicking in and her being like “we’re going to have a son” v matter of factly in that sara way like before they’ve even slept together and leif, at that point just knowing that she does this sometimes, just taking it in stride like “oh, okay” pls

but of course none of that is actually relevant to ferpcanon because leif is 7ever alone. world’s tiniest violin

[jujulebee]

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There's something familiar about the hug. It almost knocks the wind out of her, and when she finally tries to take a breath, one she doesn't need but desperately needs... there's no relief in the action. Instead it catches in her throat and the next attempt is little more than a dry sob. She can't hug back, her hands moving to her face on instinct to cover them, to hide the blood, to hide the running makeup, to hide what she sees beneath the pretty mask she wears. Her forehead bumps against his chest and no words are exchanged as she cries. As she cries for something she can't move past. Something that will always haunt her. She's little more than a miasma of despair, and he's the only thing in that moment that's keeping her together.