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thin-line-between-us · 11 months ago

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Morals

Alexis Drazen x Reader

Word count: 3151

Pt. 3

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The light was blinding and it was one of those mornings where I despised the east facing window in my bedroom. The blinds were closed yet it still felt like the sun had stuck a needle in my brain, or it was simply the fact I drank way too much to keep myself from walking out on the world's most self centered man mid dinner. Almost everything from the moment I stepped in through the front door was fuzzy and racking through my brain for the rest of those memories only intensified the throbbing sensation in my head. I finally managed to roll over after what seemed like forever, my muscles ached but the glass of water and aspirin on my nightstand brought a smile to my face as that would be the only thing to give me some relief.

30 minutes had passed of just mindless turning and tossing before I could actually stand without wanting to collapse right back into bed. As I strolled into the living room I was greeted with a huge smile from Alexis still under the covers but already sitting up, sipping on a cup of coffee. This time there wasn’t one ready for me so as I walked past him I took his and plopped myself down into the armchair. “Good morning, I wasn’t expecting you to be up so soon after last night” he was now looking at me over his shoulder, smile still plastered on his face as his gaze went over me once before refocusing on my face. He was anything but subtle, yet the pounding in my head stopped me from caring too much. “Light sleeper, the sun was assaulting me so I didn’t have much choice. You seem happier than usual” I sipped on his coffee, quickly scrunching my face at the lack of sugar but didn’t make a move to give him the cup back. “Well I get the best view first thing in the morning” he threw back the covers and strode over to the pot of coffee, pulling out another mug and sugar from the cabinet above.

Now it was my turn to ogle, albeit I was much more subtle about it, as he stood in nothing but his boxers, the bandage still wrapped tightly around his torso to protect his healing wound “You should really start getting used to wearing pants” I told him as I placed his bitter cup of coffee on the table to my left. “Why? You’re not wearing any, besides you weren’t complaining about that last night” he turned to walk back, now handing me my own cup of caffeine. “Did I…” I frantically point to my night clothes hoping he’ll understand my question to which I only get a shake of the head indicating a no “Did we-” this time I was cut off “Oh no, trust me you wouldn’t forget it if we did” I wrap my arms around myself hoping to somehow feel less exposed in the oversized shirt and just my underwear. I guess he wasn’t talking about the views outside earlier. “Alexis…” another question had popped into my head as I sat stiffly slowly sipping on the hot liquid “where is my bra?” that seemed to throw him off, as if I had asked something I should know. “Laundry, just like the rest of your clothes” I just nodded, internally screaming at the fact that he had seen me virtually naked because of my own stupidity. Outwardly I had put on a small smile, not letting on the embarrassment I was feeling.

It was quiet the rest of the time we finished off our drinks, with an empty cup in hand I stood up to at least take it to the sink. Unoccupied hand still clinging to the hem of my shirt to not expose myself shouldn’t have been my main concern as I tried to step over Alexis’ legs. While not exactly a clutz, I wasn’t very graceful either as I fell right into his lap after tripping on my own foot rather than his and I could have sworn that time froze. Alexi did catch, seating me more comfortably instantly, but the impact did cause him to let out a groan and clutch his stomach with the hand that wasn’t holding me upright. “Oh my god, I’m so sorry. Are you okay? How bad is the pain?” I had already forgotten about the cup that dropped on the carpet or the somewhat explicit position we were in at that moment. “It’s not that bad, and it was worth it” he finally lifted his eyes from the spot that was radiating pain to meet mine full of concern. “Worth it? What are you- oh!” reality hit me like a truck the moment I felt a slight twitch under me. My brain was telling me to move right now but my body didn’t move an inch, partially because I didn’t want to make the current situation worse somehow. He was still looking at me, trying to read my facial expressions the same way I was trying to read his, yet all I could focus on were his hands. One was on my lower back since the fall, but the other had now moved to one of my legs straddling him and his thumb was gently rubbing circles into it.

As if acting on its own my body slightly leaned into him and Alexis didn’t seem to mind that one bit as the hand that was on my thigh started creeping up towards my very exposed rear. I never looked at his eyes for as long as I did now and suddenly lost myself in his soft gaze. Our lips were inches apart and as a shiver ran down my spine I let myself submit to my own urges. The kiss had turned heated and rough in seconds, my hands had found their way into his hair tugging at the roots harder as a borderline pornographic moan left his mouth, allowing me to catch a breath before returning to his lips again. Every touch felt white hot and my mind was completely blank as his hands continued roaming freely under my shirt, the need for more felt almost primal the second his focus shifted to my neck, nipping at the sensitive skin and finding every spot that made me tick. And then the phone rang, snapping me out of my daze and back to reality so fast I almost fell again scrambling to get to my feet and out of his grasp.

“Hello?” I answered, trying to keep my breathing steady to not alarm the person on the other end of the phone. “Hey… you okay? You sound a little off. Don’t tell me you caught something last shift, you know I can’t work nights without you so I better see you there tonight” said Jodie, my best friend and coworker, causing me to rack my brain for a reasonable explanation “I was… working out, yeah remember those workout videos I rented last time we went out? Really got my blood pumping” I shot a glare at Alexis as he chuckled quietly trying to run a hand through what was now a tangled mess on his head thanks to my wandering hands, all attempts to smooth it down were futile. “Okay… how was last night?” She didn’t seem at all convinced by my answer but swiftly changed the subject. “I can tell you all about it later, I’m a little preoccupied but I’ll see you at 9” I hung up the phone before she could protest or I would spill any details of the last two days. “Don’t” I pointed a finger at Alexis as his mouth was already half open and left the room quickly.

Once in the safety of my own bedroom I could really think about what had just gone down, it didn’t feel wrong but the reasonable voice in my head reprimanded me for letting get as far as it did. It’s been a long time since I had let anyone get close so why was this one different? Before I could get too into my head I slipped into my sheets and tried to get at least a few more hours of sleep, knowing well the hangover won’t go away before it was time for work. The images of those moments were continuously invading my mind and no tossing or turning was going to make them go away so sleep was out of the question. I figured another approach was necessary and hopped out of bed, discreetly opening my door, looking around to make sure the reason for my restlessness wasn’t in sight and slipped into the bathroom. My skin was still on fire so a cold shower felt like the right move. Ripping my clothes off and turning for a moment to the mirror revealed a trail of strategically placed bruises from my jaw to my collarbone, I couldn’t resist running a finger down the line which only brought back the feeling of his lips on mine. Refocusing on my own goal of forgetting the encounter I step into the shower, allowing the painfully cold water to wash off any remnant of the dirty thoughts plaguing my mind and clouding my judgment.

After the unpleasant shower I had to deal with the evidence. Concealer did nothing to help hide the purple marks so I settled on a turtleneck instead hoping my somewhat weather inappropriate choice of clothing won’t draw attention, a pair of slacks to go with it. Stepping back into the living room area I found Alexis by the stove, now in a tank top and a pair of black pants that looked like they were made for him. Those did not come from my closet and that’s when I finally noticed the leather duffel bag sitting on the couch. “I hope you like pancakes” he placed two full plates on the table “There wasn’t much I could do with the lack of food in your fridge” he had sat down at that point gesturing to the chair across from him. My eyes were focused on the bag in front of me, questions popping into my head at a rapid speed and the curiosity to open it overwhelming. Against my better judgment I turned around and accepted his invitation to eat. “I could go to the store if you want” all I could muster up was a soft hum as I picked at the food on my plate “Would you like a ride to work?” I finally looked at him after those words. “I would like that” I eventually placed a bite of food in my mouth, this time less surprised at how good it was but still audibly enjoying it. That put a smug smile on Alexis’ face, the tension in the room almost disappearing.

The rest of the time eating was spent in a comfortable silence. Once done I moved to the armchair once again and turned on the TV, mindlessly flicking through the channels for something to have playing in the background. Alexis pulled out a button up from his bag “I have to ask” I walked over to him, doing up the buttons for him “Where did you get those from?” Once all buttoned up he zipped the bag and started rolling his sleeves up. “In my line of work you learn to keep one in a safe place” he said so casually that I was once again left with so many questions and didn’t know where to start.

“I could leave, if you want me to,” Alexis said.

“What? Why?” my head snapped in his direction, almost giving myself whiplash, a nauseous feeling in my stomach.

“I have options now that I have my belongings, I simply enjoy your company too much to walk away” there was that subtle smile again as he tucked his shirt in.

“Would you stay?” the last thing I wanted was for him to go, but I was not about to beg.

“If you want me” was his simple answer but it told me all I needed to know for now. “I do have some business to take care of today, I will be back in time to drive you to work. You need to be there at 9 right?” he said as he opened his bag again, pulling a gun from it before placing it in his waistband.

“Mmhm” was all that came out as my eyes widened at the deadly weapon in his possession. With his jacket and shoes on he walked over and placed a chaste kiss on my forehead before disappearing through the front door, leaving me to ponder over what I have gotten myself into.

Hours felt like minutes with all that was going through my mind and before I knew it Alexis walked into the apartment with a few bags of groceries and what looked like the beginning of a nasty black eye. Worry scattered my thoughts again and I jumped from my seat.

“What happened?” I ran my fingers under the bruise before moving to retrieve an ice pack.

“My friend wasn’t exactly happy to see me,” he said before flinching at the cold feeling on his face.

“Your friend did this to you?” I couldn’t believe someone would treat their closest people like that.

“Get ready. We’re leaving in 5 minutes” he just gently shoved me away as he continued packing away the groceries with his one free hand. I listened and went to pack up my scrubs as the rest of my stuff was still in my car where I had left it. Soon enough we were driving to my work, an uncomfortable silence filling the air once again. The drive wasn’t long thankfully and I rushed to get out but a hand on my shoulder stopped me.

“One minute, I got you something” he reached into the inside pocket of his jacket and pulled out a small jewelry box.

“You really didn’t have to, my fridge is full because of you” I tried to joke but he seemed a little serious as he handed me the item. Inside was a gorgeous silver necklace with my initials and what looked like real diamonds.

“I owe you my life, this is nothing in comparison. Turn around for me” I shifted in my seat as he placed the chain around my neck.

“It’s beautiful” I turned back to him, gently running my fingers over the charm on my chest. He took my hand and placed a gentle kiss on it before telling me to get inside so I’m not late as it was already 8:55.

As soon as I stepped foot into the nurses station Jodie drags me out and to the changing rooms.

“So… spill, I’ve been dying to know how your date with Mark went, he’s so dreamy” she sat on a bench as I went to get changed.

“Trust me when I say he is anything but dreamy, I don’t think I’ve ever met a more self absorbed man in my life” I slipped out of my clothes, “I spent 2 hours listening to him talk about himself and when he wasn’t talking he was feeling me up in the middle of dinner” I now had my scrubs on and stepped out, trying to tie my hair up in a bun so it wouldn’t get in my way.

“And you still brought him home?” she quirked an eyebrow at me.

“No, gross. Why would you say that?” I scrunch my face up at the mere thought of it. I see her stand up and walk over to me still confused about her question. She lightly pushes my shoulder to turn to the mirror and that’s when I see it, the hickies plastered on my now exposed neck.

“You’re either lying or not telling me something” her eyes drop to my neck once more before she reaches out her hand touching the recently acquired accessory, “This looks expensive” she gives me an impressed look and sits down, still perked up, waiting to hear my explanation.

“I met someone” I start but take a moment to think of how to explain it all without sounding like an idiot for helping a stranger trying to steal my car in the first place, “He’s sweet and hot, I can’t even deny that and I don’t know where it’s going but I think I want to find out. And no we didn’t get down and dirty, I can already tell you’re thinking it” I finally manage to get out.

“Well when do I get to meet ‘Mr. Perfect’?” she said with an emphasis on the new nickname she gave Alexis.

“I don’t know but I’m pretty sure we were supposed to be out there” I point to the door “Like 10 minutes ago, we’ll have plenty of time to discuss this in the next 12 hours” I push open the door and step into the bright hallway with Jodie not far behind me.

“Alright alright just don’t hide him from me on purpose, you did that with the last one and look how that turned out” she shook her head reminiscing about my ex-fiance.

“I’d rather not think about that” I hooked my arm on hers and we began our journey to our assigned patients.

A few hours into the shift Jodie had disappeared as we both tended to patients but soon her head popped into one of my assigned rooms and the look on her face told me she had been up to something so I stepped out hurriedly.

“I think your mystery man left you this” she handed me a paper bag, “He’s not blind is he?” her questions were completely ridiculous sometimes.

“God no! Why are you asking me that?” We walked over to the break room, bag still in hand.

“The receptionist said that a tall, blonde man with sunglasses left this for you. I don’t like him, only blind people and douchebags wear sunglasses inside. Plus it’s nighttime!” she was talking with her hands more than her lips at that point which only caused me to giggle.

“Oh, there’s a reason for that I’d rather not get into it” I avoided the topic of Alexis’ black eye and instead shifted my focus to the bag in front of us. Inside was a note that read ‘To keep up your strength, I’m sure you’ll need it’ and behind it were two boxes filled with food that was still warm.

“See, not a douchebag” I pointed out to my friend as her eyes widened at the deliciousness in my lap.

“Can you find me one like that? I’m starving” I pass one of the boxes to her and we dig in. Tonight might not be as horrible as I initially thought.

A mandatory photo of pookie

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