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journal entry #2 - dear 2023... (and what i want for 2024)

you were a hot one, 2023, i'm not going to lie. you challenged me creatively the most but it was a good a reason. you reminded me that i could write, that i could do whatever because it's my writing.

remember? i was sick for like 473829749237432 months. but i did a 30 days of writing challenge while being sick and it helped me get that little magical challenge that i like to take.

i left some ships/players behind for... personal reasons and yet, i created some other dynamics and i didn't just write romance. i proved to myself that i was able to create some beautiful (yet unpopular) stories without romance in it.

i wrote over 40k+ in november, i wrote so many stories that i'm proud of. here are some of my favorites:

now you know why ghosts spend their whole lives floating (haunted x family, my first over 25k words fic!)

he's just kent (kent/owen)

if we make it through december we'll be fine (kent with richie&carts)

love is nothing stronger than a boy with love (6167)

kiss my scars (josh/connor)

i also did a rarepair challenge and i wrote like a crazy person in june for like 6 or 7 fics, if i remember it clear.

i restarted an ao3 account and reclaimed my identity as a writer. i know that i disappeared from tumblr and i came back then deleted everything again.

but as the mcfly song says: another year over, and we're still together, it's not always easy but i'm here (forever)

i'm here. i will be here. i learned my lesson to protect my mental health even if i'm here. i will continue to write. i'm sure that i will have more stories to come.

i hope for myself that i will continue to improve my writing. that i will achieve some of my goals for bigger projects because i know that i can do it. i hope that i will take time for myself when i'm not feeling like writing and that i will accept it.

for 2024, i want to write the superheroes au as it was supposed to. i'm finally going to dip into the dystopia au & the wjc fantasy au. these are my goals but i'm also looking forward to write some smaller projects.

& i hope that you will stick with me. if you read this, that's because you trusted me enough and that you've been here since i've started writing prompts, that's how it started for me about two, almost three years ago.

cheers to another creative one!

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journal entry #1 - the one with the december dilemma

i know that i should write

i basically will never have this time ever again, right? but i don't feel like relaxing when i've been on a strike for literally since the last 20 days (weekends not included) since nov 23rd and that nothing is moving forward.

i go to every of my protest shifts and starting to lose some hope a little as the christmas break is approaching and that nothing seems to be moving from the government part...

i have a lot of free time. but yet, i don't feel the energy of writing anything. ok, like, i wrote everyday (except like two days) for a month in november and i wrote over 46k words but like... it's a weird month. mentally, physically... it's weird. i should be able to write with so much free time, right? i should.

but that's not working like that.

i, on the other hand, started to outlined the four bigger projects that i will be working on through out 2024. i will continue to make short stories, ficlets, etc. but i will also try to focus on bigger 'novel' and 'longer' fics with a lot of world building and some complicated storyline which include: a retelling of my all time favorite book from alexandre dumas, the infamous dystopian au, the really famous and infamous superheroes au and a milouvian ultimate story... with a twist.

i hope that i will be able to get some proper resting during the holidays because you will be able to catch me AT HOME for the next two weeks. and that i will be able to reach out more of you for some prompts, if you ever need me. remember, my ask box is always open if you want something <3 it feels good to be here again (ok, really like... restricted and not interacting that much... but i missed some of y'all <3) thank you for your eternal support as always <3

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wips catch up

wips i'm currently working on:

we didn't start the fire: the same good old fucked up story told by the milouvians as the resistance

the parallel universe au: the milouvians are sent by the evil aunt of milou in a parallel universe where everything is broken

who's afraid of the big bad wolf (translation): the milouvians are sent in a village where they get to experience their favorite game to play together aka werewolf. i actually started a while back ago but i abandoned it. i want to step in and do it again!

wips i eventually would like to work on as well:

the superheroes au: literally the short stories about the superheroes without trying too hard <3 like does the origins really have to be complicated? no.

the disney au: another french story that i wrote a long time ago that i'd like to adapt. everything was settled in disney world/jedis/etc.

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dear alexandra from 2018,

you have an exciting idea that you just started writing. it's a really cool story. you have the storyline in your head and you put some crimson peak inspired asmr because you want to write something spooky. in a haunted castle.

you're starting to write an amazing story and as always, you're probably already wondering if you're ever going to be able to finish it.

well, you will not... for the moment.

but you will. eventually. in a not-so near future.

just when you thought that you would eventually never will be able to write about the milouvians again. or that it's been a while since you wrote about them.

just in a different language.

they will come right back at you. and you will finish the story that you imagined at this very moment. write those first chapters for now. write them with your heart.

and you will thank yourself later.