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ashersbraincell · 13 days ago

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You know, it is horrifically ironic, almost funny if it wasn’t so sad, how, despite all my intrusive thoughts and compulsions about always making sure to say goodbye to my loved ones incase something bad happened when I was away/asleep I never DID get to say goodbye to my dog.

She still passed away in the night and because of circumstances I don’t want to talk about because it’s complicated and generally just fucked asf I just.

Didn’t get to say goodbye.

At all.

Isn’t that fucked up?

#isnt that fucked up #oh the irony #the irony #ironic #grief #pet grief #ocd #intrusive thoughts #compulsion #compulsions #alexa play #alexa play ironic by bo burnham #i use humour to cope leave me alone #you can laugh at the irony of this post or do whatever with it idc #also if you’re really THAT curious what the circumstances were #i had already started to grieve her like a year or so before she died because of how bad her health was #and because of my own aversions to certain smells and textures i physically could not bring myself to hold nor pet her in her last days #judge me all you want #i probably deserve it #also i was in the middle of studying for important exams when she passed so #my parents decided it would be better to NOT FUCKING TELL ME that they had a feeling she wouldn’t make it through the night #motherfuckers even had the gall to ask me after telling me about it whether I WANTED to come with them to the crematorium #or if i would rather focus on studies #what the fuck #how is that even an option you considered #btw they werent pressuring me towards the studies decision im just appalled they eveb considered it an option as something i would #potentially choose #look i know they had my best interests in mind and they were doing their best to manage a shitty situation #but man its just a little fucked up i have to alteast acknowledge that right?#Asher’s Ramblings

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