#alessaeris

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My OC: Alessa Hyacinth

ok so i really wanna talk about my ocs so i wanna introduce all of you to alessa hyacinth because shes so fantastic.

i wanna say alessa is the deuteragonist of my story and it mostly has to do with her relationship with ecaeris. their relationship is gradual, ya know? alessa and ecaeris do not have anything in common at first. ecaeris is the heir to a massive kingdom with a lot of pressure on her shoulders for living up to her mother's, Queen Hasina, legacy. and alessa is from a very poor kingdom and she only moved to afanthyr so that she can take care of her mother but her mother HATES the military. so when alessa goes off to join to better herself, her mother tells her to stay gone and it breaks her fucking heart.

so she meets ecaeris and doesnt think much of her. you know, ecaeris is really pretty and regal and incredibly smart and alessa is kinda flustered about it. shes interested in who ecaeris is underneath her title but she cant really find out because shes in the military and busy worrying about her mother in Osenlyonne (the kingdom shes from), and she never gets a chance to really speak to ecaeris.

and then Queen Hasina is looking for candidates for her personal guard and she spots alessa commanding some lieutenants and shes really impressed with how she leads. when Hasina asks Alessa to join her personal guard, shes floored because someone is seeing something in alessa no one saw before. including (actually especially) her mother. so she accepts it graciously cause who the hell is gonna say no to the Queen of Afanthyr.

and she gets closer to ecaeris but not enough to the point where they can form a friendship. ecaeris is busy guys, ok? her coronation is close at this point and shes already under so much pressure to perform that she doesnt notice this random chick in her mother's personal guard utterly fascinated by who she is. so alessa doesnt press things. she does her duties as a guardsman and admires Ecaeris from afar, but they talk a couple of times and Alessa leaves every conversation breathless.

and then the siege happens. its all confusing and chaotic. alessas already seen so many bodies and blood and shes close to a breakdown, but she finds Hasina and her role is to protect the queen through everything. but hasina knows her time is up and the only thing the queen can think about is ecaeris. so she looks to see the men and women who have pledged their entire lives to hers and she sees Alessa already accepting her own death and she cant fucking let her do that.

so she tells her to abandon post and save her daughter. and alessa thinks the queen didnt just order brigadier general alessa hyacinth to just abandon her duties, so shes all like, "lmao what"

and hasina repeats herself and shes like "OH you actually said that lmao, uhhhh bro i literally took an oath to die for you i cant just abandon that"

and hasina literally doesnt care. you know that meme where its that guy and the caption is 'fuck them kids' yeah thats hasina but its 'fuck your oath'.

after a little incentive (spoilers lmao) she finally does and its like alessa is being physically ripped in half but she understands. ecaeris is the future, and despite ecaeris' own doubts and worries, shes more qualified than anyone to be queen. so alessa leaves and saves her.

and if you asked alessa if she regrets her decision, she'll tell you "no, obviously not. ecaeris is the future." but its not like it doesnt haunt her. the guilt is a disease but she finds hope in ecaeris and, yes she will always feel guilty and she'll always wonder if there was any way to save the queen, but looking at ecaeris dulls the pain. being with ecaeris is enough to make her content with that night.