#aku yaps

[kcdrawns]

Windbreaker random theories and thoughts I have talked with friend will contain spoilers from the manga so don't read if you don't want or aren't caught up yet (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠) I will talk about Suo, Umemiya

¡TW! ED and Violence for Suo and for Umemiya violence)

So let me start with Suo I don't know if anyone brought this up but after the release of the songs Nii Satorou was listening to Chanti I got goosebumps.

I have said in the past with my friend that Suo did probably come from a rougher environment and was probably childish and did stupid things and bad things which is why he doesn't have one eye and probably went into the minor correction facilities ? (No idea how they are called in English tho but it's where minors are sent for rehab after they do awful things).

Also when the holy trio (Sakura, NIRE and Suo) went to that district to meet with Tsubaki Chan, Suo was the only one knowing what it was and "ok" while Nire was shocked and Sakura oblivious ( luckily or the boy would be a blushing mess).

Which makes me wonder if he worked there in the past or had family members there.

A matter of fact is a teen should act like a teen and Suo has this whole complex about reaching adulthood maybe because in the past the adults failed him and he wants to be better after he himself screwed things up and was childish to the point of going to that facility.

Also Suo diet reminds me a lot of ED.. Mostly anorexia (he does have an ok weight but) people when battling anorexia drink a lot of hot plain water or even tea so the stomach fills up but has almost no calories..

I did try to investigate if there was any part in China and Japan where it could be a religious thing of not eating in front of others but I found nothing.

Now to UMEMIYA (mentions Sakura, Takishi, Hiragii and Kotoha)

In the last chapter we saw how Sakura (and many of us) realized we don't really know umemiya, sure we know the Umemiya he presents himself as, kind, caring, loyal and passionate.

One thing I know is to change something like a school of delinquents that are absolute viles on their way of thinking and acting means that fighting his way to the top to change things was the only way, making Umemiya a monster too. (umemiya girls don't come for me ok I adore him but I am skeptical, he is a green flag ok I am 99 % sure he is a green flag but realistically its the truth he wouldn't be changing things talking, he does say fists are one way of talking so).

Now why did I mention all this?

In the manga when Umemiya recruits Hiragi he says that he needs someone to punch him if he ever gets out of line because Hiragii is very strict but kind. Which makes me wonder what if in the firsts episodes when Hiragii and the others come to Sakuras and Kotohas aid, when he demanded Sakura to not tell Umemiya to know about this.. is it because he is scared of what could happen if Umemiya knew he would lose control? What if it is an underlying hint that Umemiya does have his demons too and that's why he can be in Takishi world. Being that angry fire to protect those he loves but maybe it could be too much at times 🤔

By all means Umemiya fought relentlessly for the town and he is a good person but, a good person can also have their demons because we are human and no one is 100% perfect.. let me hear your thoughts and can DM if too shy to interact in comments or reposts ✨💙

[kevindavidday]

what the hell is 19 days ?? (+ where can I read this ?)

19 days!!!!! is one of the few obsessions i haven't spoken much about on here but i recently reread it and i'm suffering - it's a chinese BL webcomic by old xian about four guys in high school (description + spoilers under the cut)

it starts off with two best friends:

jian yi (sunshine character) very deeply in love with

zhan zheng xi (also in love but needs things spelled out sometimes)

and their friend:

he tian (who is basically a shameless rich moron so stereotypically all the girls love him). the fourth, and this loser's my favorite:

mo guan shan (also known as little mo, affectionately) (i know he looks a bit shy here but trust this one is ready to throw hands anytime) (the other 3 basically bully him into a friendship and i do mean they bully him 😭)

the art style starts off a LOT different than the pics here but it has evidently improved a LOT since then. it's mostly lighthearted and extremely funny like my sense of humor exactly...but then it starts going into backstory stuff and i must. stop the laughs.

i don't want to spoil the relationship b/w he tian and little mo (as if i can explain it in the first place) but its a very interesting dynamic 😭

look at them!!! their official art and their artwork in general goes p hard ngl i love it <3

i've linked it at the top if you can access it (tho the site may crash so you can find it anywhere online ngl) it has like 460+ chapters by now all of them are pretty short but very fun. this, the here u are manga (one of the best illustrated) and nan hao & shang feng (absolutely hilarious) are the only one's i've ever properly read hehe

enjoy xo

[sexysilverstrider]

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[fandoms-spamdom]

EDDY I’m busy moving into my new apartment today, how devastating is the new bsd chapter??!?

Shit is crazy and perplexing

[noncollared]

"can men be lesbian ?"

i dont care, i care more about the queer's who are dying and struggling to pay their bills more then someone else's identity. i am neutral on the topic.

[f0xx1n3]

Today is the Indonesian independence day

And I'm too tired to draw anything

[aaabatteryy]

shoutout to all the people following me with wan aku pfps there are so many of you guys

[zenitsustherapist]

do i love beast ! soukoku ? yes. am i tired of seeing only them and not the main character of the spinoff ? also yes

[1dont-really-know]

The inexplicable urge to write fanfic in my native language

[biblicallyaccurateangeloncrack]

Got told I have the blue eye stare today, now I hate to cook up a silly doodle

[mabzerie]

what if I cried because I love them so much 😭🧡 OMGGGGGGG

Meiko and aku doodles Ive made :3

I love these guys, such silly cuties

She's so fun to draw

Meiko belongs to @mabzerie

[kcdrawns]

Kaji Ren Theory

Hello so first of I am basing this in experiences in real life of someone close to me and it will contain manga spoilers.

(Tw: Mental Illnesses, abuse and bad parenting, feat aka Aku (me) being a Dad )

We all know kaji as a monster and goes in blind rage it was already told in the anime very lightly.

One thing that stood out to me is how Kaji never remembers when he goes into that blind rage, completely shocked afterwards.

It does seem a lot like dissociative Identity disorder (DiD), for those who don't know is when someone who is young suffer a lot of repetitive trauma none stop and the brain decides the only chance to survive is to split. I am not going into detail since everyone has Google now a days if they are in Tumblr. (Info here)

The amnesia of actions from an alter (one of the splits) are one of the symptoms and from my point of view, Kaji's alter is not violent as in I will hurt because why not but it can be a protective one that is a persecuter (alter that isn't bad but wants to protect but accidently causes harm) fits perfectly in kaji. It seems like a last resort, he looked at Kusumi and Enomoto, before going rampage in a desperate atempt to protect himself and his friends and team.(The manga part of the fight in the bridge with Banjo.)

Kaji in the manga also when younger with hiragi and other future Furin members cries a lot out of anger, don't know if I am going crazy but as someone who deals with did irl and kids with trauma that is a very common response, to lash out and yell out of anger while crying, it's not being heard at home/school or even being abused physically. Everyone in junior blamed Kaji and named him a monster, yet no one asked, why? Why is the kid acting like this? What is going on? Wich deeply saddens me.

Most Furin boys have so much rocky paths it truly is heart breaking, I wish grown ups where more aware and it's a bit of a critique to society in my end.. people always blame kids but never try to see the reasoning behind the kids acrions because in the end abused kids, either isolate due to negeletc and trauma or mimic the parents actions and can be seen as vile or hostile..

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Anyway! I wanna hear your thoughts on this!🤔 This was quite heavy emotionally and I apologize but gosh. I adore his character a lot.

[sexysilverstrider]

ya Allah tenangkanla hati aku

[chidasaurus]

Tuhan dan Sifat Transaksional Manusia

“Kok bisa ya dia hidupnya selancar itu, padahal sholatnya aja bolong-bolong” 

“dia kerjaannya dugem tiap malem, tapi kok ya hidupnya lancar, lulus S1, kerja di perusahaan bonafide, lalu kuliah S2 ke Amerika” 

Haffffttt.. 

Berkali-kali pikiran seperti itu muncul di kepalaku akhir-akhir ini, sampe sempet beberapa kali aku bertanya pada beberapa kawanku, kok Tuhan begitu? 

menilas balik kejadian tahun lalu, masih ada part marah dalam diriku. Aku kurang apa ya saat itu? dan semua pertanyaan “ternyata aku belum cukup” untuk Tuhan “melihatku” dan “menolongku”. 

Sejak kejadian itu, aku enggan “mendekat”. Bahkan meminta dengan sungguh pun rasanya enggan. Kenapa? Banyak muncul perasaan “Ngapain aku berbuat baik dan ‘beribadah’ toh nyatanya pertolongan Tuhan jauh adanya? 

“Ya mending aku gausah beribadah dengan baik aja, toh nyatanya beribadah dan tidak sama adanya?”

Sampai kemudian hari ini aku berpikir, bahwa selama ini aku menganggap hubungan dengan Tuhan hanyalah hubungan transaksional. Jika aku beribadah dengan tekun, maka harusnya Tuhan memudahkan seluruh hidupku. Jika aku melakukan ritual A B C, Tuhan akan memberiku apa yang aku mau. Yap, mungkin itu yang selalu terngiang di kepalaku sejak kecil.   

“kalau mau hidupnya lancar, rajin sholat Dhuha sama Tahajud”, lalu aku melakukan itu semata-mata agar urusan duniaku lancar. Maka, saat tidak datang sesuai mauku, aku marah. 

“kalau mau dilancarkan saat ujian, baca surat A B C, dzikir X Y Z”, sampai ternyata ujianku tidak lancar, aku marah. 

Sekali lagi, hubungan dengan Tuhan aku anggap hanya hubungan transaksional biasa. Jika aku beribadah dengan baik, Tuhan harus memberiku apa yang aku mau dalam hidup. 

Tapi padahal, ibadah dan “kesuksesan” yang aku harapkan adalah dua hal berbeda. Ibadah adalah kewajiban sebagai seorang manusia, terlepas dari segala atribut yang melekat, bahkan terlepas bagaimanapun takdir yang membersamai manusia. Jika aku mempercayai Tuhan, maka aku juga harusnya melakukan ibadah-ibadah yang harusnya datang dengan “kepercayaan” itu. 

Sedangkan kesuksesan, pencapaian, atau apapun itu namanya, tidak hadir dari “karena aku beribadah dengan giat, aku akan mendapat apa yang aku mau”. Tidak. Kesemuanya datang dari usahanya diri, dan tentu saja takdir yang mengiringi. Tapi sekali lagi, ibadah, bagaimanapun bentuknya, sebagus apapun, tidak kemudian serta merta membuat Tuhan memberikan apa yang kita mau. 

Itu hak prerogatif Tuhan :) Manusia, yaudah, menjalani hidup dengan bahagia aja heheh toh kalau mau lebih dalam melihat, ternyata banyak sekali nikmat yang sudah Tuhan berituh.

Bandung, 23 October 2024 

[noncollared]

what the fuck are you trying to prove rn..

if I beat someone up just because of an opinion I had on them that would be okay right? because it’s my opinion and in that case I can do whatever I want?

NO. That is not what I am saying. 1. Don't go beat someone up unless you have good reason to. And having a opinion different to others doesn't make it acceptable to physically hurt someone

[noncollared]

hi i'm the period alter