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[kcdrawns]

Windbreaker random theories and thoughts I have talked with friend will contain spoilers from the manga so don't read if you don't want or aren't caught up yet (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠) I will talk about Suo, Umemiya

¡TW! ED and Violence for Suo and for Umemiya violence)

So let me start with Suo I don't know if anyone brought this up but after the release of the songs Nii Satorou was listening to Chanti I got goosebumps.

I have said in the past with my friend that Suo did probably come from a rougher environment and was probably childish and did stupid things and bad things which is why he doesn't have one eye and probably went into the minor correction facilities ? (No idea how they are called in English tho but it's where minors are sent for rehab after they do awful things).

Also when the holy trio (Sakura, NIRE and Suo) went to that district to meet with Tsubaki Chan, Suo was the only one knowing what it was and "ok" while Nire was shocked and Sakura oblivious ( luckily or the boy would be a blushing mess).

Which makes me wonder if he worked there in the past or had family members there.

A matter of fact is a teen should act like a teen and Suo has this whole complex about reaching adulthood maybe because in the past the adults failed him and he wants to be better after he himself screwed things up and was childish to the point of going to that facility.

Also Suo diet reminds me a lot of ED.. Mostly anorexia (he does have an ok weight but) people when battling anorexia drink a lot of hot plain water or even tea so the stomach fills up but has almost no calories..

I did try to investigate if there was any part in China and Japan where it could be a religious thing of not eating in front of others but I found nothing.

Now to UMEMIYA (mentions Sakura, Takishi, Hiragii and Kotoha)

In the last chapter we saw how Sakura (and many of us) realized we don't really know umemiya, sure we know the Umemiya he presents himself as, kind, caring, loyal and passionate.

One thing I know is to change something like a school of delinquents that are absolute viles on their way of thinking and acting means that fighting his way to the top to change things was the only way, making Umemiya a monster too. (umemiya girls don't come for me ok I adore him but I am skeptical, he is a green flag ok I am 99 % sure he is a green flag but realistically its the truth he wouldn't be changing things talking, he does say fists are one way of talking so).

Now why did I mention all this?

In the manga when Umemiya recruits Hiragi he says that he needs someone to punch him if he ever gets out of line because Hiragii is very strict but kind. Which makes me wonder what if in the firsts episodes when Hiragii and the others come to Sakuras and Kotohas aid, when he demanded Sakura to not tell Umemiya to know about this.. is it because he is scared of what could happen if Umemiya knew he would lose control? What if it is an underlying hint that Umemiya does have his demons too and that's why he can be in Takishi world. Being that angry fire to protect those he loves but maybe it could be too much at times 🤔

By all means Umemiya fought relentlessly for the town and he is a good person but, a good person can also have their demons because we are human and no one is 100% perfect.. let me hear your thoughts and can DM if too shy to interact in comments or reposts ✨💙

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EDDY I’m busy moving into my new apartment today, how devastating is the new bsd chapter??!?

Shit is crazy and perplexing

[noncollared]

"can men be lesbian ?"

i dont care, i care more about the queer's who are dying and struggling to pay their bills more then someone else's identity. i am neutral on the topic.

[yunfox00]

Today is the Indonesian independence day

And I'm too tired to draw anything

[aaabatteryy]

shoutout to all the people following me with wan aku pfps there are so many of you guys

[zenitsustherapist]

do i love beast ! soukoku ? yes. am i tired of seeing only them and not the main character of the spinoff ? also yes

[biblicallyaccurateangeloncrack]

Got told I have the blue eye stare today, now I hate to cook up a silly doodle

[noncollared]

what the fuck are you trying to prove rn..

if I beat someone up just because of an opinion I had on them that would be okay right? because it’s my opinion and in that case I can do whatever I want?

NO. That is not what I am saying. 1. Don't go beat someone up unless you have good reason to. And having a opinion different to others doesn't make it acceptable to physically hurt someone

[cahayaandalusi]

Tuhan dan Sifat Transaksional Manusia

“Kok bisa ya dia hidupnya selancar itu, padahal sholatnya aja bolong-bolong” 

“dia kerjaannya dugem tiap malem, tapi kok ya hidupnya lancar, lulus S1, kerja di perusahaan bonafide, lalu kuliah S2 ke Amerika” 

Haffffttt.. 

Berkali-kali pikiran seperti itu muncul di kepalaku akhir-akhir ini, sampe sempet beberapa kali aku bertanya pada beberapa kawanku, kok Tuhan begitu? 

menilas balik kejadian tahun lalu, masih ada part marah dalam diriku. Aku kurang apa ya saat itu? dan semua pertanyaan “ternyata aku belum cukup” untuk Tuhan “melihatku” dan “menolongku”. 

Sejak kejadian itu, aku enggan “mendekat”. Bahkan meminta dengan sungguh pun rasanya enggan. Kenapa? Banyak muncul perasaan “Ngapain aku berbuat baik dan ‘beribadah’ toh nyatanya pertolongan Tuhan jauh adanya? 

“Ya mending aku gausah beribadah dengan baik aja, toh nyatanya beribadah dan tidak sama adanya?”

Sampai kemudian hari ini aku berpikir, bahwa selama ini aku menganggap hubungan dengan Tuhan hanyalah hubungan transaksional. Jika aku beribadah dengan tekun, maka harusnya Tuhan memudahkan seluruh hidupku. Jika aku melakukan ritual A B C, Tuhan akan memberiku apa yang aku mau. Yap, mungkin itu yang selalu terngiang di kepalaku sejak kecil.   

“kalau mau hidupnya lancar, rajin sholat Dhuha sama Tahajud”, lalu aku melakukan itu semata-mata agar urusan duniaku lancar. Maka, saat tidak datang sesuai mauku, aku marah. 

“kalau mau dilancarkan saat ujian, baca surat A B C, dzikir X Y Z”, sampai ternyata ujianku tidak lancar, aku marah. 

Sekali lagi, hubungan dengan Tuhan aku anggap hanya hubungan transaksional biasa. Jika aku beribadah dengan baik, Tuhan harus memberiku apa yang aku mau dalam hidup. 

Tapi padahal, ibadah dan “kesuksesan” yang aku harapkan adalah dua hal berbeda. Ibadah adalah kewajiban sebagai seorang manusia, terlepas dari segala atribut yang melekat, bahkan terlepas bagaimanapun takdir yang membersamai manusia. Jika aku mempercayai Tuhan, maka aku juga harusnya melakukan ibadah-ibadah yang harusnya datang dengan “kepercayaan” itu. 

Sedangkan kesuksesan, pencapaian, atau apapun itu namanya, tidak hadir dari “karena aku beribadah dengan giat, aku akan mendapat apa yang aku mau”. Tidak. Kesemuanya datang dari usahanya diri, dan tentu saja takdir yang mengiringi. Tapi sekali lagi, ibadah, bagaimanapun bentuknya, sebagus apapun, tidak kemudian serta merta membuat Tuhan memberikan apa yang kita mau. 

Itu hak prerogatif Tuhan :) Manusia, yaudah, menjalani hidup dengan bahagia aja heheh toh kalau mau lebih dalam melihat, ternyata banyak sekali nikmat yang sudah Tuhan berituh.

Bandung, 23 October 2024 

[kcdrawns]

Kaji Ren Theory

Hello so first of I am basing this in experiences in real life of someone close to me and it will contain manga spoilers.

(Tw: Mental Illnesses, abuse and bad parenting, feat aka Aku (me) being a Dad )

We all know kaji as a monster and goes in blind rage it was already told in the anime very lightly.

One thing that stood out to me is how Kaji never remembers when he goes into that blind rage, completely shocked afterwards.

It does seem a lot like dissociative Identity disorder (DiD), for those who don't know is when someone who is young suffer a lot of repetitive trauma none stop and the brain decides the only chance to survive is to split. I am not going into detail since everyone has Google now a days if they are in Tumblr. (Info here)

The amnesia of actions from an alter (one of the splits) are one of the symptoms and from my point of view, Kaji's alter is not violent as in I will hurt because why not but it can be a protective one that is a persecuter (alter that isn't bad but wants to protect but accidently causes harm) fits perfectly in kaji. It seems like a last resort, he looked at Kusumi and Enomoto, before going rampage in a desperste atrempt to protect himself and his friends and team.(The manga part of the fight in the bridge with Banjo.)

Kaji in the manga also when younger with hiragi and other future Furin members cries a lot out of anger, don't know if I am going crazy but as someone who deals with did irl and kids with trauma that is a very common response, to lash out and yell out of anger while crying, it's not being heard at home/school or even being abused physically. Everyone in junior blamed Kaji and named him a monster, yet no one asked, why? Why is the kid acting like this? What is going on? Wich deeply saddens me.

Most Furin boys have so much rocky paths it truly is heart breaking, I wish grown ups where more aware and it's a bit of a critique to society in my end.. people always blame kids but never try to see the reasoning behind the kids acrions because in the end abused kids, either isolate due to negeletc and trauma or mimic the parents actions and can be seen as vile or hostile..

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Anyway! I wanna hear your thoughts on this!🤔 This was quite heavy emotionally and I apologize but gosh. I adore his character a lot.

[1-800reki]

❝random Ryūnosuke Akutagawa headcanons!❞

summary: headcanons (that probably aren't cannon) with Aku <33

pairings: akutagawa x gn reader

a/n: my friend had to help me with these 😼 (come back the kids miss you)

a/n: these are lazy so they might not be (def not) cannon or good 😖

• Akutagawa pretends to not like you in public but when you're alone he acts like the best boyfriend ever.

• He would keep the relationship a secret but only to protect you from any dangers since he's in the Port Mafia.

• He would call you when he has a chance when he's alone at the Mafia just to check up on you.

• Gin would know of your relationship and she would be your biggest supporter.

• You would live with Akutagawa and Gin.

• Gin would ask you to do her hair since she loves you playing and brushing it.

• You would have movie nights with the two of them.

• When you first met Gin, she was nervous with you, but she got comfortable. After you started going over for a month she got used to your presence and you being there. (ROOTBEERRR)

• You moved in with them after almost 2 years of dating.

• Higuchi would still have a crush on Akutagawa but he would be more distant than he is in the anime.

• Akutagawa would def take you out on dinner dates or café dates.

• He gets your favorite flowers on your anniversary or on dates.

• In a modern au he would have a private account where he replies to your posts. (and before you started dating he yapped about you)

• He's not a big fan of cuddling but it happens sometimes during the middle of the night.

• You have date nights every two weeks, that consist of amusement parks, restaurants, and sometimes if you don't want to go out, he'll set up something nice!

• If he had to comfort you, he'd be a little shy at first, trying not to tightly hug you or sit still next to you. Seeing you cry makes him cry, so expect him to be a bit on edge- his heart will break a little.

• If you have scars, he takes time to admire them and make you feel confident about them.

"Look, it's almost the shape of a star. Because you're my star."

• Your social media profiles probably look a little something like this:

• If you were in public, he'd hold your hand and rub his thumb along your knuckles.

• When you can't sleep, he whispers sweet nothings into your ear, kissing your forehead with a smile.

• HE DOES NOT FALL ASLEEP UNTIL HE KNOWS YOURE ASLEEP. I REPEAT- HE 👏 DOES 👏 NOT 👏 FALL 👏 ASLEEP 👏 UNTIL 👏 HE 👏 KNOWS 👏 YOU'RE ASLEEP!!

• His favorite type of weather is either wind or rain. If you ever come over while it's raining, you might (100% will) notice him sitting on the porch watching the rain. It makes him feel peaceful.

• He definitely smiles with his eyes before his lips. He's used to having a mask in the mafia and giving fake smiles, so it's no hard feelings when he does it.

• He absolutely ADORES you when you call him 'Aku'. He also folds at terms like "sweetheart", "baby", "my love". In turn, he likes to call you "darling" or "honey". He's not a person who's big on pet names anyways, so take it or leave it.

• When you leave for work before him, he gets bored and lays on your side of the bed. It's still warm, and your scent lies within the pillow. Obviously, he's not a weirdo, but could you really blame him? He's inlove with you! He might spam you a couple times with positive affirmations to have a good day and then go back to sleep (he imagines you next to him)

a/n: this is so not cannon but whatever.

[sexysilverstrider]

seeing malay women go ham over al haitham is something so funny to me

[kayyishwr]

Teman

Hari-hari ini terasa betul perkara sirkel pertemanan. "Agama seseorang itu tergantung teman dekatnya" terkait ini ada ulasan menarik dari postingan sosial media instagram di akun @rizaputranto — tentu kita perlu membaca jurnal yg beliau sampaikan secara mandiri, utk mengonfirmasi

Beliau, yg dikenal sebagai peneliti menjelaskan adanya keterkaitan antara prefrontal cortex dengan lingkungan sosial.

Prefrontal cortex, bagian otak ini berhubungan dengan pemikiran diri. Sering disebut "personality center" dan banyak menganalisis input dari sekeliling. Sehingga menurut J Perso Socio 2020, kata beliau di captionnya, dengan siapa kamu menghabiskan waktumu akan menentukan perasaanmu terhadap diri kamu sendiri—apakah itu dengan kamu?😁

Yaps, dengan siapa kita berteman akan mempengaruhi bagaimana kita hidup sebagai seorang manusia, terutama dalam mengemban amanah sebagai hambanya Allah

Mencari teman yang ideal tidak akan mungkin kita temukan, karena begitu hakikat manusia, tapi paling tidak kita bisa mencari yang satu frekuensi

Ah, sebenernya agak sedikit rindu masa-masa sebelum menjalani kehidupan sebagai mahasiswa profesi.

"Emergency meeting" kami menyebutnya. Sebelum terpisah jarak dan kesibukkan, kami melakukannya di berbagai tempat; warmindo dekat kampus, angkringan pinggir jalan raya, kos tempat numpang tidur dan mandi, hingga restoran mewah yg tentu saja dibayar dengan uang awal bulan atau dibayari senior hahah

Apa yg kami bicarakan? Tentu beragam, dari mulai TOD saat bermain UNO hingga strategi bagaimana caranya kebaikan yang sudah diwariskan para senior bisa bertahan, minimal saat kami masih ada di kampus.

Selingan candaan yg random juga tidak terlewat semisal menertawakan konten dari twitter, ig, atau bahkan kelucuan kita masing-masing

Jujur agak kangen, tapi gengsi, namanya juga laki-laki

Tapi, begitulah, sirkel kita pada akhirnya bukan menghilang—semoga saja. Hanya saja semakin melebar, meluas, sehingga banyak yg pada akhirnya masuk dan menemani perjalanan kita

Pertemanan. Tidak perlulah membicarakan soal dia anak siapa, atau darimana, cukup yang membawa kita pada kebaikan dan satu frekuensi

Tidak malu membicarakan palestina di tongkrongan. Tidak malu mensyiarkan sholat tepat waktu di warung makan. Tidak malu membicarakan dakwah yang akan di dengar orang lain. Tidak malu untuk mengucap salam saat bertemu dan berpisah.

"Sekarang, aku juga mikirnya gitu yis. Yang penting satu frekuensi" begitu kata salah satu senior dokter iship yang aku temui di RSPA Boyolali

Ah iya satu frekuensi. Kita usahakan tetap berada dalam sirkel itu. Setidaknya jika tidak bisa membawa kebaikan, kitalah yg terciprat kebaikan itu

Oh iya, tentang mencari teman satu frekuensi, lagi-lagi, apakah itu kamu?

[noncollared]

hi i'm the period alter