#aki..... so cute....... BAH

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the loosened tie..... the unbuttoned suit jacket..... lord have mercy

[nickmpreg]

truly tho if I'm being honest, I feel like the idea of Denji truly ending up with anyone is really trivial. I like where the manga is going with Asa, that's really cute tbh, but I feel like obsessing over who he should end up with is really dumb because there's a whole point in the story that Denji craves intimacy above all else, not necessarily romance, he's just so stunted in his maturity that he thinks romantic/sexual intimacy is the only one that exists. Himeno, Reze and Makima all intentionally play on that because he's easy to manipulate, which was the point... Meanwhile, Aki and Power give him the love and support he didn't know he was craving, and end up making that dream of Denji's come true even if he didn't realize it at first, because that was the point of their family (even if Makima constructed it). My point is that people like to treat Denji and his love interests as a "will they won't they" situation, but it's really about Denji exploring what he truly wants in his life and ending up on the radar of people who want to take advantage of that vulnerability.

Sorry that was long but this has been On My Mind.

NO EXACTLY ‼️‼️ i LOVE the idea of denji and asa ending up together , they’re more or less the same character ( family’s dead , don’t fit in , secret devil in them , etc ) but ultimately whether or not they do doesn’t matter too much to me . that’s not to say im not rooting for it SO HARD because truthfully they’re adorable and i want to see more of them , but the people who are so hopefully optimistic that we will see denji settle down with a girlfriend / someone to raise his pseudo-sister are completely blindsided . whatever denji’s idea of love is has been permanently altered against his will . bah . fuck you makima

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How it feels to be emotionally disturbed during ur last few weeks of pregnancy...

Dear baby, its ur apparently 37w1d today (20 feb) corrected EDD. Alhamdulillah, you've been doing fine and you've been moving well. I'm getting more tired to be honest and havent started my stairs which i've been bugging ur abah but he is busy with his deliveroo i can't bear to make him more tired. Maybe i shall do more pilates and yoga.... Anyway, i know that the past few months have been good with u, but these few weeks i've been worried about a condition that suddenly became so worrying. I've been having black nails since young - i guess since i was even in my teens... But they didnt really get really dark but these few weeks, my nails have gotten darker and more of the nails have been getting the bands. I shouldn't have googled it, im regretting it soooo much because it is scaring the heck out of me. I don't want to think too much of it or even mention t because im afraid its true. I wanted to go to the polyclinic and ask for a referral to National Skin Centre to check it out but my mum, ur abah and Dr su asked me to wait it out until after i give birth to check. I guess that is the better iption, because i wouldn't want to be extra depressed during my postpartum if its really bad news. But im hoping not because i did read that pregnancy causes it too and there are ppl who got it during/after pregnancy - just that there're no follow ups since they posted those issues... Anyway, im trying to think positive as much as i can and really hoping its just a pregnancy side effect of skin pigmentation due to increase of melanin when pregnant (it usually darkens ur skin and freckles etc). Anyway, alhmdulillah, it seems like ur sister Nawwal is excited for ur arrival. I've been conditioning her and letting her know of ur arrival. Washed some clothes for u and she assured me that they were for u (even though some were her previously worn clothes) She admitted that thise were 'for adik', so alhamdulillah. Also, alhamdulillah, she is starting to like and accept school. No more cries to get ready for school for whole of last week. She even wanted to go to school at 10.30pm on of the nights last week. Ur abah and I had to bring her down to show her the school bus is not coming until morning. It was hilarious but really cute. :D I'm abit worried because i've been having negative feelings about ur abah's family. They didn't do anything wrong, but i just felt angry... I dunno why. But anyway, last week, ur aki & nenek bought a rank with fish for ur sister... I know it sounds bad but i told them that we will not be bringing the fish home because: 1. I can't be bothered to look after more living things - especially fish, and im having another baby for goodness sake... I don't need the additional stress. 2. I simply told them nobody is gg to look after the fish and I am lazy to do it. Yup, direct and simple to understand. 3. To be honest, i felt that Hafiz and I shouldnhave been consulted first if they could buy a pet for my child. Because come on, who will be the one responsible to look after the fish? Me or Hafiz, right? They are living things, they have lives that we have to look after, and if i cant even look after plants well, what about fish, who will clean the tank? Who will feed it? Me? Kirim salam ok... Yes, i know its for ur sister Nawwal, but i still felt because if it was to be put in our homes and its another (many more) living thing (s), then we should have been consulted on this too. Imagine if it was a cat? I would freak out even more and be deranged. Nasib bukan cat cos i kmow they're all afraid of cats. Lol! So, i told them they can keep the tank for nawwal at their place - they have bibik anyway she can clean the fish tank or whatever, im not gg to be responsible for it - and i hope they won't be so hurt about it. Im sure they're abit hurt but i was quite upset about it too... I kmow they wanted to be fair to all their grandchildren... But.... I seriously DO NOT like the idea of keeping animals in our homes except for in the freezer to be eaten. But this is not why i am having negative feelings about ur abah's family... I guess i have a love-hate r/s with them. But maybe i felt that we always had to sacrifice for them. Well, we didnt bisit them for more than a month... I felt that knowing how tight we are with our budgets and how busy ur bah is working, if they wanted to meet ur sister, they should come down and visit us instead of us having to spend alot of money travelling to their place all the time. But i guess they dont see that. I know sometimes ur abah hs an ego and act like he has so much money but i know how tight he is and how we need to strap ourselves, i even try to reduce buying pantry items because i just dont want to burden ur abah too much... I also feel they like to celebrate birthdays alot within themselves, lole, they had to celebrate ur aki's bday 2 times, on the actual day and the weekend... Cant they just choose one day? Anyway, i had other plans on the actual day (visit from Yi Xiu mummy's Poly friend) and the day after, supposed to celebrate ur aki@: bday again but i was so sick i couldn't get up, so we didnt go (although i kept asking ur abah to go with ur sister but he refused). Ur father's family are nice ppl, im talking about ur grandparents and great-grandparents, but sometimes, i guess we just have different frequencies. But sometimes im in awe by how ur father and i can be compatible for each other... Funny huh? Ur abah is a wonderful man, alhamdulillah. I feel so blessed to be married to him. He loves me, i know that but im quite a bitch i guess. Oh Allah plwase forgive me for my shortcomings... Today he finally put up the shelves in ur sister's room (Which u are gg to share with her by the way) and it looks better' im so happy because the walls have been looking so bare... He also hung up the hooks i boight since forever in ur sister's room and i love them too! Alhamdulillah!!! So anyway, yes, i've been a tad too emotional these past weeks since the googling thingy and i am tryungggg not to google about it again and will check after my confinement i guess. For now, im just gg to keep praying its just a pregnancy side effect and will go away post partum. I hope i will get to live a long life to look after ur sister and u and also be a better wife to ur abah and a better daughter and daughter in law to both sets of parents. And at the same time, u, in there, dont be a crybaby like mummy ok? Remember u are strong, no matter what challenges he gives u. I cant wait to continue adding more stuffs for u innour home, like ur cot and some cabinets. Hopefully ur abah can find time to make them work.... Ok dear, its late... Time to catch my forty winks. We'll meet soon ok? Very soon. Be good and make my labour easy please! Love you!!!

[meownotgood]

we always talk about aki being a dad of kids and i love that too, but what about aki as a pet dad???? 🥹💞💕💘💖 i have parrots as pets and today, i kept imagining aki putting parrots on his wide shoulders and scratching their little necks. he’d talk to dogs and cats in a baby voice too I’M DEVASTATED

YES DEFINITELY

I love thinking about aki as a dad to meowy, like he claims he can't stand him but he's secretly the most kind to meowy out of everyone, always sneaking him treats and letting him cuddle in bed with him... and aki definitely talks to meowy in a baby voice whenever denji and power aren't around to make fun of him lolol

I'm sure aki is so kind to animals, and I feel like he's the kind of person where he swears he doesn't like pets, but pets love him. they're always cuddling up to him and following him around to the point where he just has to fall in love with them hahaha

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ah..... more casual clothes aki to add to my collection

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he is literally pea sized. his hand is the size of a small molecule.

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Aki and reader dressing as Jack and Sally from nightmare before Christmas!

OMG YES THAT'S SO CUTE I LOVE

and I know I said this before but.... aki dressed up as howl..... and you dress as sophie.... BAH!