#aka the entire watcher fandom knew

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Big day for the demon Shane truthers!

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Jona’s Top 10 Dramas of 2019

A couple words about how I do these lists. Firstly, I only count as “2019 dramas” shows that finished airing in 2019, therefore dramas that started airing in 2018 but finished in the early months of 2019 have been included in my process, but dramas that are currently airing and will finish in 2020 have not been included. Secondly, this list is more based on my subjective experience with each of these dramas than my objective assessment on things like acting, writing and production values, though naturally I take the latter into account when forming my opinions.

Also: Yay! This year I managed to write a full review on every drama that wound up in my top ten, so feel free to click the link on each title and check those out if you want to read my detailed thoughts.

10. Hotel Del Luna

I have a somewhat Stockholm Syndrome-y relationship with Hong Sisters dramas. Though a lot of them are not excellent, or stumble a bit in the execution, I can’t seem to stop watching them. And yes, I’ve seen them all. Something about their particular blend of fantasy, romance and camp just works for me. I do think Hotel Del Luna plays to their strengths. Somewhat like if they got to take a second run at Master’s Sun but with their dream budget, and it’s just fun. This drama is gorgeous to look at. However, it is Lee Ji Eun, aka IU, who carries the entire drama on her lovely shoulders with her mesmerizing presence as Jang Man Wol.

Bottom Line: It shouldn’t be this way, but it’s so rare to get a mainstream drama where the female lead is allowed to be truly dark and flawed, or for a drama to fully focus on its heroine’s journey through the whole run.

9. Encounter

I was somewhat disappointed by the ending of this drama, and I think that might have made me unduly harsh when I looked back at it earlier in the year. However, I got the chance to rewatch episodes with a friend and was reminded of the soft, romantic escapism of this drama. Ultimately that’s the reason this ended up in the list. I like that it plays the rich woman/poor man, noona-romance tropes entirely straight and I liked the quixotic fairy tale it was unapologetically trying to sell me. Park Bo Gum and Song Hye Gyo are a noona-romance dream team up that I’m glad I got to see at least once in my lifetime.

Bottom Line: If you don’t like your dramas slow-paced and highly sentimental then this might not be the show for you, but I can appreciate a drama that knows exactly what kind of show it is and tries to do one thing well.

8. The Light in Your Eyes

If there’s any common theme to these favorites lists in previous years, it’s that they usually include dramas that took me by surprise and did something I haven’t seen before. The Light In Your Eyes fits that description so well, not just because of oddly dark tone or the quirky premise it presents in the first episodes, but because it’s a drama dedicated to showcasing the talents of the veteran actress, Kim Hye Ja, with whom the lead character shares a name. Of the dramas on the list this one made me cry the hardest.

Bottom Line: The Light In Your Eyes is a drama that has a greater emotional coherence than it does logical sense. In fact, if you think about the plot too hard it falls apart entirely. But it feels true, and that’s why it hit me so hard.

7. Search WWW

In my review I called Search a “female power fantasy” and I still think that’s a good description. It’s also sexy romantic fantasy, twice a noona romance, and a corporate drama focused on the very contemporary issues of powerful search engine companies and how they affect the information we see and the way we view the world. I think any of those is an interesting enough angle to make a drama about, maybe several dramas. If this show has one major flaw, it might be trying to wear too many hats at once. But I salute the creators for trying to make us something different than the typical pretty boy chaebol story, and giving us not one but three female characters filling those typically male roles.

Bottom Line: I do believe this drama deserves more love and respect than it got from a fandom that at least in theory cares about women’s stories. But I also understand why a lot of people didn’t connect with the lead character or the business stuff. But for me there was something about the lead couple that rang true and resonated with me.

6. WATCHER

Every time I watch a thriller, I’m hoping for something like WATCHER. Something with deep, complex, gray characters and a story full of twists and turns that keeps me engaged and guessing from episode one until the finale. Add on top of that a powerful cast who can really do justice to these substantial characters, you’ve got a winning recipe. OCN produces a lot of dramas in this genre, and they seem to be more prone to produce sequels than most other networks. Unfortunately, that also means a lot of the dramas they make feel paint-by-numbers and empty on the inside. WATCHER is one of those shows that reminds me why I keep coming back to this network and this kind of story time and again.

Bottom Line: This is one of those dramas that has you second guessing yourself even when they come right out and give you the answer, keeping you in a perpetual state of distrust along with the characters. But it’s built on the strong backbone of complicated and dynamic character relationships, which is why it is one of this year’s best.

5. Be Melodramatic

The higher I get up this list the harder time I have boiling down my thoughts on these dramas to one pithy paragraph. Often even I don’t know what kind of dramas are going to steal my heart. I have a particular weakness for dramas that can make me both laugh and cry, and then laugh through the tears. Dramas like Go Back Couple and Matrimonial Chaos that have deep heartache folded into the shenanigans. I love a funny drama. I like to laugh, but that doesn’t count for much unless I really care about the characters and their lives at the end of the day. That’s what makes me go from liking a drama to loving it, and that’s ultimately what I’m going to remember about a drama when it’s over. Be Melodramatic is special for the way it deals with heavy subjects in a gentle and lighthearted way, and somehow without losing the emotional impact.

Bottom Line: Be Melodramatic is a drama with tongue firmly planted in cheek, lots of laughs, lots of clever dialogue as well as a meta look at the drama industry from the inside, but the reason it works so well is the vein of heart, love and loss that runs all through the story.

4. One Spring Night

It’s so gratifying when a drama delivers exactly the experience you hoped it would. One Spring Night was a drama that ended up on my radar on the strength of the previews and posters, which promised me understated, romantic slice-of-life. I’d really enjoyed Han Ji Min in The Light in Your Eyes and have been fond of Jung Hae In since While You Were Sleeping. The pairing immediately seemed to have potential, but because the drama was picked up by Netflix, in the US I had to wait until it finished airing before I could give it a shot. A lot of the time when that happens, I see enough of the drama through gifs and screencaps that my interest fades. In this case I was only more intrigued. I’ve still never watched Something In The Rain but watching this drama has made me consider that might have been an oversight on my part. And yet I worry that if I watched it now I wouldn’t be able to help unfavorably comparing it to One Spring Night. This drama is truly something special.

Bottom Line: Because of the restrained, faithful realism of this drama and the two leads who seamlessly embody their characters, this drama has the almost voyeuristic quality of peeking into something intimate and private. It’s a palpable and thoroughly involving love story.

3. Nokdu Flower

I can hardly recommend this underrated gem of a show enough. I know nearly every historical gets compared either favorably or otherwise to Six Flying Dragons, which is kind of the recent high-water mark of sageuks, and I’m going to do that again here because Nokdu Flower is really the first historical drama I’ve watched since SFD that is at the same level of quality. One thing that sticks out about my experience watching both dramas is getting actual shivers watching these charismatic leaders rally their followers around them, and understanding at least in some small part why someone would leave behind everything they knew, pick up arms, and risk their lives for an ideal. Nokdu Flower captures the fearful power of revolutionary ideas in the hands of common people, but doesn’t descend into mere jingoism or sand off the rough edges or try to white wash the dark parts of human nature while it’s at it.

Bottom Line: At its most basic level Nokdu Flower is a story of revolution, and one of flawed characters either finding their humanity or having it burned out of them in the crucible of war. As that description would suggest it’s not an easy watch, but it’s a good and worthwhile one and definitely one any sageuk fan should check out.

2. My Country: The New Age

Compared to the far more traditional and grounded Nokdu Flower, My Country is almost fantastical in tone and at times eschews logic and realism for set pieces, sword fights and close range shotgun blasts of pathos. That’s probably why I love it. The larger-than-life sensationalism of this drama is what pushes it higher on this list than the carefully crafted Nokdu Flower, because this drama appealed to me on a more primal way. It’s so unrestrained and epic in everything from the set design, the soundtrack, the cinematography to the characters themselves and the performances of the actors playing them. Lurid, melodramatic, passionate, intense, suspenseful, romantic, raw, angsty, dark...I’ve basically run out of new adjectives to use while describing this drama elsewhere on this site. Basically, My Country is my id on a plate. Bon appetit.

Bottom Line: While there are definitely misguided and flawed elements to the writing and execution in this drama, somehow all of that is swept away in the sheer pleasure of watching it. If it had been specifically designed to appeal to every narrative kink I have, they couldn’t have made a more perfect drama for my tastes.

1. Children of Nobody

I finished my favorite drama of 2019 back in January, and then got to wait around 11 and a half months to see if anything else I watched last year would knock Children of Nobody from the top spot. It’s a mixed blessing to peak that early in the year. On the one hand, there was nowhere to go but down from here. On the other, I’ve had a lot of time to digest this very heavy show, which is something I definitely needed. I mentioned in my original review of this drama that each of the characters is an iceberg, so much more going on beneath the surface than what we can see. And what I’ve realized over the course of the past year is that the whole drama is like that, in a way. It’s an iceberg of a story, and I was able to pour a lot of myself into it, to try to understand it, and that’s part of the reason it was such an emotional watch for me. I don’t know when or if I’m going to be able to rewatch Children of Nobody, but I hope I can do it some day because I feel certain I would appreciate it even more upon a second viewing.  The fact that this is a murder mystery and a thriller is almost incidental to the emotional core of the story, which is deeper and more lingering than that. The secrets, once revealed, do not diminish the story but only turn it slightly so that you can see it from a different angle.

Bottom Line: This drama is certainly not going to be for everyone. I don’t know if I would say it was underrated so much as it’s niche. The difficult subject matter is naturally going to narrow its appeal. But I do think that dramas that require the most from me, mentally and emotionally, are often the ones that stick with me the longest and make me bend and grow as a person.

I sure hope you’ve enjoyed my top 10 list this year and I wish you joy, success and profound wellbeing in 2020. Thank you again--and thank you always--for following me. I’ve got great things planned for us this year.

Jona

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Chapter 11 aka “Welcome to Chili’s”

SPOILERS are sprinkled around extremely liberally for The Property of Hate

Masterpost here

Oh damn alright that answers my earlier question of “what will cause RGB to make like a cuttlefish”. He can fiddle with his colors at any time, but he’ll fritz and settle on colors after power surges as well

And he DODGES the black button question. Look at that anxious cane fiddling!

White knob handles color, black knob brightness, he’s just shown that the white panel opens to adjust brightness/saturation/color… is the black button just plain off?

“I lose you I leave you” is such a damned lie lmao

Let’s see what kind of Stuff people trade here!

Moments manifest as clocks, har-har

I’m in love with the borzoi vender bc I love borzois they’re such ridiculously ethereal dogs

Don’t like your current eye? Trade it for a better eye!

or you dont care about eyes, just revenge-feelings

Kisses of varying flavors, all shaped like X’s

STOP RIGHT THERE crimincal scum. RGB stole a farewell kiss (HAR HAR). But seriously, does the Market have law enforcement for this kind of thing?

I’m sorry but my shit fandom brain see’s discussion about trading body parts and my mind immediately goes to Skulduggery “lost his original skull when sleeping and replaced it by winning another one in a poker game” Pleasant

Incidentally ALSO a story about a standoffish dapper non-human taking a young girl on Adventures

uh oh

Lmao he ends up dropping his cane in panic

I love the movement in this panel. RGB just scooping her up with one arm

Goodbye New Suit we barely knew ye

RGB’s able to fine tune his pallet extremely specifically for just 3 sliders

This might be my favorite interaction in the entire damn comic

CAREFUL RGB YOUR ATTACHMENT IS SHOWING

I love how RGB decided “you know what i like what that quick camouflage did for my trousers, I’m going to coordinate my upper half to match it”

Interesting visual and sound effect- we saw a character swap out heads earlier without that CRACK. Considering Assok’s had trouble twice now with static cling to RGB’s face, is this an electric spark of sorts?

I like the detail that Watcher only speaks in one word sentences

God but that cane is convenient. What I wouldn’t give to have possessions that are impossible to lose

I love RGB quietly, actually checking in with Assok after accidentally knocking them off Hero’s head

And now for something completely different!

WHOLESOME ASSOK HUG

RGB’s starting to poke her towards her epiphany about the Make Believe

As a someone who spent a long time being a short person that’s such short people talk RGB

Dude I skimmed over Dial’s dialogue this page last time because, really. Look at it. So lets actually read this sucker

Oh shit Dial actually mentions the Elastic Valley way before we get there ourselves

He’s got to what now. TOby is there on a JOB? Someone put him here on PURPOSE? I thought he just ended up there and was so surly to every fucking thing and everyone passing by was like “ok u can stay there rudepants”. What’s he on watch for?? Unless it’s far more punishment than it is useful assignment

Bad puns, go to jail

Oh shit does Watcher have another pair of eyes on his wings? Damn! For a guy with 4 eyes he sure is not very helpful at his job later on!!

Hooo does his boss make Dial nervous. Lookit that stutter and devolution to muttering

When Dial says TOby took his eye off things, is he referring to letting RGB+Hero pass by (how would he stop them)? Is it that the wind blew him over and blocked his vision (THAT IS LITERALLY NOT HIS FAULT)?

And what the hell has TOBy done to defy Hate previously? What does he have opinions that Hate/Dial would have him change his mind about?

See you space cowboy…

And because I can’t make up my mind on what to meme here: “mm whatcha saaay”

A thought on Dial’s design… his head says “ON AIR”. Later we know that Hate can listen in on him. D’you figure he ever makes himself “OFF AIR” other than when he sleeps?

Now this little here combined textbox gives me some thoughts…

I haven’t paid attention to the color of character text beyond Hero’s voice getting eroded by sand, but… boxes can be any color and shape, its not uncommon for characters to have separate fonts, but words themselves? Only ever black and white. Now this could be for the sake of no eyestrain against backgrounds, but... consider the dichotomy TPoH is building up over its story

white in this comic is associated with bad things quite often. Lies, [-----], Hate’s realm. The blinding, scorching, destructive light of the unmasked Sun. meanwhile, darkness hides the Market from danger, and nighttime is tied intrinsically with dreaming. in fact, we JUST had an entire chapter dedicated to framing the Dark as good, protective, and aligned with trees and water, other positive entities

For a minute I got all excited because Dial and the Butterfly both have white text, thinking “oh, my god. do all Hate-aligned characters have white text?” this gets jossed pretty hard by Julienne’s white text, as well as Cell and Tailor.

but while THINKING on that, I jumped back to Storytime in chapter 10 and check this out: the moment RGB starts his story, text is suddenly white. Most of it continues to be in white… except for these two sentences

AND CHECK THIS SHIT OUT: THE TEXT COLOR/SCENERY CHANGE COLOR TO THE FIVE COLORS OF RGB’S SCREEN. HOW DID I MISS THAT??

(flips table) WHAT DOES IT ALL MEEEEEEAN

… y’know, the only character to have a white bubble color for their speech is RGB, who speaks in black

He’s both. He’s NEUTRAL.

Considering my talent for creating OCs but chronic deficiency in building coherent and decisive stories for them, they’re all probably wandering this Market and world right now. at the very least most of them have spent a DAMN long time here before becoming realized (im so sorry guys im trying)

The ones that are complete as themselves but their stories are unstarted/uncertain? That’s like. most of them. whoops. maybe this will be the kick in the pants i need

But on a brighter note: Fosters Home for Unfinished OCs

BUT by the rules of this world, RGB doesn’t have a story… yet this is his story.

Assok’s newest position of travel is adorable and im dying

Y’know… Hero and RGB have very different ways of solving things. A little obvious, but- RGB’s solutions are always convoluted, require multiple steps, and are a little ridiculous. Or, he at least FRAMES them as complex. See: Click escape, train escape, entire scheme to find a Hero to right the world. Hero’s far more straightforward but her solutions are also more, like… sensible than RGB’s if that makes sense. If it was just RGB up on the burning heart his plan would have probably involved more "im very intelligent” and pizzaz, while Hero went for the comparatively simple “lets zipline” (versus RGB’s upcoming Click escape clusterfuck)

All of which to say, I got thinking on that with RGB being like “it’s a very complex topic I can’t possibly boil it down to anything smaller” and Hero describing what the Make Believe acts as in one word

So if this worlds objects come from the sea, the sea is connected to other worlds? And it was confirmed early on that ‘stuff’ and ‘thought’ are basically synonyms- these foreign objects can exist in the Make Believe because they’re infused with enough Stuff!

Hero and presumably all of the other Heroes came from outside the Make Believe… they are not unrealized characters, or they didn’t start out as such. To exist here like this, they must then be imbued with enough Stuff/Thought… if we specify Stuff as equivalent to creative thought… by jove! I’ve hit on (another) theory!

Haven’t all past Heroes been artists? Julienne is a dancer, Melody a musician, Dial works radio, Ticker is a craftsman, and Tailor works with textiles. TOby and Assok don’t have anything obvious, but if I was Hate, I’d turn puppeteers into motionless dolls and empty-voiced sock puppets.

oh yeah, and Click. betcha he was a toymaker

I wonder what kind of artist Hero would grow up to be? She clearly draws, we saw her work taped to her bedroom wall

Of note… RGB is also an artist. It looked like that alternate human-self we glimpse later was involved with TV production, or perhaps script writing.

Tfw your ex walks past and doesn’t even hesitate like wow Magnus be a stone cold bitch like that

also like how his speech tail loops around his neck like a noose upon seeing Maggie

ALSO, that conveniently timed mention of hands when giving examples of what makes Stuff valuable in the Market- the nostalgia and undertones of regret are strong in this one

(watches this character die) oh jesus Christ. (looks at list of decommissioned ocs) ... oops

So this is what it looks like when a character dies… what does it look like when one is realized

do you like puns? want some more quality RGB roasting? like clothes shopping? the next chapter is for you

[blazerina]

With Any Luck... (Sean x MC)

Author’s Note: This is 100% the brainchild of Mercedes aka @zaddysloan.  She came up with this idea and I just put it “on paper.” So major props and shout out to her. This whole thing would not exist without her encouragement and her brain.  She’s fabulous, wonderful, creative, sincere, freakin’ amazing and I love her dearly. I really hope I did her wonderful idea justice!

P.S. We’ve had so much angst and drama and sadness lately in this fandom, I think it’s the perfect time for some FLUFF. Know what I’m sayin’?

Summary: Before they left The Celestial, Taylor & Sean have the opportunity to experience the first date they never got at Hartfeld.

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The evening was alive with noises.  In the distance, animals could be heard rustling through the trees.  Bugs were buzzing along the flora and fauna of the jungle as waves lapped constantly against the shore; in and out, in and out, as steady and as calm as the heartbeat she was listening to.

Even though sounds filled the nighttime air, it was quiet and still.  The hammock swayed back and forth in rhythm with the waves. The quiet creak of ropes, as it swung ever so slightly, brought a sense of peace to her. She rested. Her eyes closed, her breathing steadied; she felt safe.  There was so much pressure, so much confusion, so much fighting and drama, it was impossible to ever really feel at ease during the day.  

The weight of the responsibility that she had taken on in La Huerta was unbearable at times. She didn't ask for all this to be placed upon her shoulders. Lately she felt like every decision, every plan, the choice to live or die, was left up to her. Taylor. This little college girl with hardly any real life experience.

It's all up to me. She told herself as her heart and her mind fought each other over her thoughts.  For whatever reason, I've been brought here by the universe. This is no longer a strange coincidence. My soul is one with this island somehow. Not just the island, but the inhabitants as well. The visions. The dreams. The ability to understand and communicate with the Watchers. I didn't know who I was before I came to this island and I still don't know who I am now that I'm here…

“Taylor.” Sean whispered sweetly as he tightened his grasp on her.  His arms surrounded her as she laid on his chest.  

“Taaaaayyyy-loooorrrr….” He sing-songed, running his hand up and down her back, trying to stir her from her thoughts.  

“Are you asleep?” He tried to pull away long enough to look down at her face, to see if her eyes were closed.

“Hey.” She smiled, not opening her eyes.  “I’m awake…just…don’t…want to…move…” She mumbled slightly as she buried her head further into the space between Sean’s chin and shoulder.  

“I can tell you were thinking about something.” He continued to run his fingertips absentmindedly along her spine.  “You were still, but then tensed up fast.  You ok?”

“Mmhmm.” She sighed, wishing she could sleep without thinking about everything. “Did you sleep at all?” Taylor pulled her head up off his chest and looked at him.

“Nah.” Sean answered, frowning.  “It was more important you rested tonight.  Someone has to keep their eyes open out here.” He kissed her forehead and smiled at her.  

It was hard to find time to spend together out on the island. Nighttime was really the only opportunity they had to be alone and away from the eyes of the rest of the group.  Other eyes were most likely on them wherever they went, but they tried to pretend it didn’t bother them.  When they could, they would take a hammock and walk down to the beach. There they would start a fire, find a tree and post up for the night; taking turns sleeping.  

Both of them being the responsible, take-care-of-everyone leaders that they were, felt incredible pressure to make sure their friends survived La Huerta.  Taylor and Sean were going to make sure the entire group made it off the island together, no matter what.  

That sense of loyalty is what initially drew them to one another.  Had it not been for the trip to the island, they most likely would not have met, even at Hartfeld. But in one another they had found a companion; someone who truly understood how the other felt; someone to make them feel safe and secure; which was foreign to them, as they were both usually the ones working to make sure others were okay and well taken care of.

“Thank you for letting me rest.” She exhaled, as she laid down again.  “We probably should head back soon.”

“We have some time. Try to go back to sleep.” Sean urged.  He was worried about her and growing more and more concerned about how she was handling it all.

Taylor couldn’t close her eyes. She knew her brief moment of rest was over.  There would be no chance of sleeping now.  Her mind was on overdrive and she couldn’t slow it down.

“I know this is an incredibly cheesy question…but what are you thinking about?” Sean almost winced as he finished that sentence. “You can talk to me, you know…”

“Do you ever think about what it might be like if we were together in a more normal place?” Taylor asked, unexpectedly. “What if our life right now could all be normal? What if we met under different circumstances, not ones where we were fighting for our lives all the time?”

“Well, first of all, there’s no such thing as normal…” Sean laughed, elbowing her in the side. “But I know what you mean. I think about that a lot too.  But what if we had never met? What if our paths hadn’t crossed in all our years together at Hartfeld? I can’t even imagine that now…my life without you…”

“With any luck, you won’t ever have to.” Taylor rolled over to face him and pressed her chest against his as she kissed him tenderly.  “I know our circumstances aren’t ideal, but it’s all we got.  And we’re going to make the most of this time together.” She smiled, kissing him quickly again and then sitting up as she swung her legs over the side of the hammock.

They began to pack up their makeshift campsite while the sun began to peak out from the horizon.  Sean folded up the hammock and put it in his backpack, as Taylor stomped out the small campfire and slung her backpack over her shoulder.  

“I don’t want to go baaaaaack!” She whined, as she grabbed Sean’s hand.  

“I don’t either.” Sean muttered, staring off into the distance.  They began to walk down the beach hand in hand, when suddenly he stopped in his tracks.

“You know what?” He beamed, the light in his eyes indicating he had an idea. “We’ve never even been on a real first date!”

Taylor grinned.  “It’s cute when you’re excited about something.” They started to walk again, slowly, with their hands swinging back and forth.

“That’s very true,” Taylor continued, “…but it’s not like there’s any way a real first date could happen here.  Besides, we’ve been able to make it okay without dates – don’t you think?” She searched his eyes, hoping he was truly happy with her and the time they had spent together so far.

“I’m gonna make this happen, Tay.  You deserve a real, old-fashioned, traditional first date.  When we get back to the hotel, we’ll work towards finding a way off this god-forsaken place like normal…but then, at 7 pm – I’m picking you up from your room.  It’s a date.”

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“This is ridiculous.” Taylor said to herself, as she looked at her reflection in the full-length mirror. “Why am I nervous?!” She tried to calm the butterflies in her stomach.  After pinching her cheeks and applying a finishing touch of lip gloss, she took one final look at herself and sighed.

She didn’t have anything fancy to wear.  Truthfully, even if they had been home she wouldn’t have had many options, either. Quinn had been nice enough to let her borrow a white sundress with light blue flowers patterned all over it. The spaghetti straps tied in cute little bows at the top of her shoulders.  

For once, she decided to wear her hair up, but it didn’t look finished.  Taylor had never been able to style her hair, so she threw it up quickly in a messy bun with a few stray strands that fell and framed her face.

She knew she could have asked one of the other girls for help, but the only one who’s style she really envied was Michelle…and she felt weird about asking her to help for a date with her old boyfriend.  Thinking about that whole relationship made her nervous.  Michelle hadn’t come up in conversation with Sean as of yet, but she wondered when it would happen, how it would happen and what he would say.  

She tried to physically shake the thoughts of Sean and Michelle out of her head, and stared down at her feet.  Her shoes didn’t quite match the outfit, but flip-flops were at least comfortable and a far cry from the tennis shoes and hiking boots she had become accustomed to wearing every day.  

Sighing heavily one more time, and muttering, “This is as good as it’s going to get.” She sat down on the edge of the bed and stared out the large glass window, looking out over the island, waiting for Sean to arrive.

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“Sean. Get your head in the game.” He was shirtless and leaning over the sink in his bathroom, trying to give himself a pep talk.

It had been a while since he had taken anyone out on a first date, and this wasn’t just anyone.  His feelings had come on so fast and so strong for Taylor, that he was all of a sudden nervous.  

He opened up his closet and chose another blue and white shirt, but this one was a checked pattern button down, not his standard polo.  

“The guys have your back. Your team is behind you.” He whispered as he put one arm through the sleeve and then the other.  He quickly finished buttoning his shirt and checked out himself in the mirror one more time.

“You can’t do it all. Rely on these guys to come through for you. Just like coach told me.” He stood up straight and focused on his goal: giving Taylor the best first date ever.

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Sean knocked at the door at exactly 7:00 pm. He arrived at Taylor’s room at 6:58, but assumed she’d be running a little late, and he didn’t want to rush her.  After checking his phone to make sure it was 7, he knocked lightly, two times and waited for her to answer.  

Taylor smiled when she looked at the clock in her room and saw it was exactly 7 pm when she heard a soft knock on the door. As she opened it, she could barely contain her excitement.  She couldn’t believe they were actually doing this and she was genuinely thrilled to see Sean standing there.

“Oh! It’s you? This is awkward…I was expecting Jake…” she joked, holding the door open.  

“Very funny.” Sean rolled his eyes, chuckling slightly.  “These are for you.”  He handed her a homemade bouquet of pink, purple and blue flowers he picked from the side of the path leading up to the volcano.

“Wow!” Taylor squealed. “Wait – do you think these are still radioactive?” She questioned, raising an eyebrow as she took them from his hands.  

“Grace said she thinks once they’re cut off from their life-source they cease to glow.” He explained, impersonating Grace’s voice.  “Also, just say thank you and stop worrying about everything.  Tonight is about us.  Nothing else.”

He wrapped his arms around her waist, while she encircled hers around his neck.  With the flowers still in her hand, she stepped up on her toes and kissed him, trying hard to relax and take in the moment.

Sean pulled away from her, smiling, taking her in.  “You look incredible.”  

“Thank you.” She responded. “So do you!” As she put the flowers in a glass of water, she turned around and held his hand for a moment, before they walked out the door.  

“And thank you for this…all of this…even just being with you, like this, whatever we do, whatever you have planned. I know I’m going to love it.  I’ve actually never been on a real first date before.” Taylor looked up at him, biting her lower lip.

Sean kissed her sweetly, one more time, and led her to the hallway.  “First stop. The restaurant.”

 --

The elevator doors opened and hand in hand, Sean and Taylor made their way to the restaurant. A large table in the corner was set for two, with lit candles.  Glasses of champagne were already poured and waiting for the couple. A piece of paper was folded in half and resting on the table with the word “RESERVED” scrawled in manly handwriting across it.

Sean pulled out Taylor’s chair for her and she took a seat, while Sean sat down himself.  “How is this going to work?” Taylor asked, looking around, noticing no one else was there.

“Well – there’s supposed to be…” Sean was craning his neck looking back towards the kitchen where the faint noise of banging pots and pans could be heard. “Just a minute…” Sean sighed, jogging lightly towards the kitchen.  

A few minutes later, Sean resurfaced and joined Taylor again at the table.  Soon thereafter, Craig, dressed in a black t-shirt arrived at the table with a pencil behind his ear and a spiral notebook in his hands. “Dude – like there’s already champagne and everything on the table, so why did you need me?” he sighed, clearly frustrated.

“Hey Taylor.” He nodded in her direction. “’Sup?”

“Craig – be cool.” Sean instructed.  “Could we have some water?”

“Yeah, but I mean the soda machine is like right there…” Sean glared at Craig and Craig’s eyes grew wide as he nodded and went back to the kitchen.

“Sean!” Taylor giggled. “You’re making him wait on our table?”

“I thought at the time it was a good idea.” He responded, clasping his hands together on the table and staring down at them. “I may be regretting it later.”

As he finished, Craig returned holding two glasses of water.  “For you made-zell and mistoor.” He delivered the waters while practicing his French.  Sean and Taylor stifled a laugh as they looked down at the table.

“Thank you, Craig.” Taylor said, politely. “What are we having tonight?”

Craig made a face, then looked up to the ceiling, thinking very hard. “Hmmmm I can’t really remember, tbh. But I’ll bring it out right away!”

He disappeared again, yelling as he walked into the kitchen.

“Sorry.” Sean mumbled, reaching out for Taylor’s hand.  “Believe it or not, it’s the best I could do.”

“I love it.” Taylor squeezed his hand. “It’s perfect.”

A loud crash came from the kitchen, making Taylor and Sean wince. “Should we check on him?” She asked, worried.

“I’m sure he’s fine.” Sean responded, then a moment later he added, “Actually, I’m not sure…just a sec…”

As Sean entered the kitchen, he found Craig holding onto a chair, while Raj carefully balanced on top of the chair, on one leg, reaching for something on a very high shelf. Raj’s tongue was hanging out of his mouth as he tried to will the bottle of whatever it was, into his hands.

“Al…most…got…it…” He was chanting to himself as he flailed his hand about on the shelf to try to grab the object he wanted.

“You guys okay?” Sean asked.

“We got this, bro! You got this, Raj!” Craig was intensely watching Raj; beads of sweat were forming on his forehead as he focused on his friend.

The kitchen was a mess. Pots and pans were scattered all over the place, food and other ingredients were spread out all over the counter. Sean sighed and pinched the area where his nose and forehead met.

“WOO HOO!” Sean whirled around upon hearing Craig and Raj high-fiving and celebrating.  “Got it, dude!”

Raj was smiling ear to ear as he held some sort of expensive alcohol in his hands.  “This is exactly what I need.” He was clearly very proud of himself.

“Guys.” Sean interjected. “I don’t want to be a downer, but is there actually a meal being prepared in here or…?” He gestured to the messy kitchen.

“You’re gonna love it! It’s my grandmother’s recipe. Take a whiff.” Raj said, inhaling the air around him and wafting with his hands.  “Doesn’t it smell delish?”

“It does smell pretty good. I just wanted to make sure everything was moving along. I have a pretty lady at the table out there that I want to impress tonight.” Sean smiled, heading towards the door.

“I…uh…Sean?” Craig said, nervously jogging after him to catch up.  “I spilled a little, salt…in Raj’s meal…but he fixed it so it should be okay right?” Clearly, he was worried.

“I’m sure it’s fine, Craig.” Sean said, patting him on the shoulder. “Just bring it out soon, alright? We need to move to phase two of the plan, pretty quick.”

--

Sean left the kitchen and returned to the table, where he found Taylor staring out the window, into the ocean. “Hey.” She smiled softly, as Sean took his seat.

They sat in comfortable silence for a few minutes until Craig returned with two plates of what resembled chicken parmigiana.  

“Your food is here!” He presented the plates and smiled, smugly.

“Can’t forget the drinks!” Raj brought out two drinks in martini glasses that looked a dark purple, almost black color.  

“This one is on the house!” He grinned. “Obviously…” he chuckled at his own joke.

“This is our featured drink tonight. I call it ‘The S-aylor.’ Kind of appropriate given we’re out in the middle of the ocean, don’t you think?”

“Oh! Wow! Uh, thank you, so much…” Taylor took the drink from Raj’s hands, exchanging a quick and somewhat worried look with Sean.

“It’s so dark and exotic looking…” Sean added, trying to find the right words for the situation.

“A toast to the happy couple!” Craig smiled, holding up his hand as if he had a glass himself.

“S-aylor forever!” Raj cheered while taking a bow.  

“Eat up, enjoy and drink up too for that matter!” He was jolly and clearly happy to be sharing his love of hospitality, with his friends.  He walked away from the table, humming to himself and slapping Craig on the back.  

“We did it bro! We did it!” Craig was yelling as if he had just scored a touchdown and tried to jump up into the air for a shoulder bump with Raj, but Raj paused and stared at him in bewilderment.  

“What was that?” He asked, confused at Craig’s behavior.  

“Dude! You left me hanging! You can’t do that…when I jump, you jump too…”

Their conversation faded farther and farther into the distance as Taylor and Sean smiled at one another, then down at their food.  “This looks amazing, Sean.  I’m still just so shocked that you did all this…for me…”

“Taylor.” Sean reached for her hand from across the table.  “You’re worth all of this and more.  And when we get back home, I want to treat you to this, and things like this, nights like this, all the time.” He rubbed his thumb across her knuckles.

“That will be nice.” She nodded.

“Now, let’s eat! I’m starving.” Sean grabbed his fork and knife, diving into the meal before him.

--

After dinner, Sean and Taylor strolled hand and hand along the beach.  The night was quiet, even for an island crawling with animals, bugs, watchers and humans.  The stars were out and the peaceful hum of the ocean waves made it exceptionally romantic.

“Sean…” Taylor started, leaning into him.  “I really just can’t thank you enough for this incredible night. And the fact that you got our friends to help…it’s all so perfect.  Really…I just can’t even find the words…”her eyes began to fill with tears.  As much as she didn’t want to show emotion, she was too overwhelmed to hold them back.

“C’mere.” Sean pulled her in for a tight hug, wrapping his arms around her and resting his chin on top of her head.

Taylor pulled herself together as Sean held her out at arm’s length and looked into her eyes. “The night’s been far from perfect.  The meal was SUPER salty and that drink Raj created? The thought was nice but damn, the taste was not.”  He joked as Taylor smiled in agreement.

“But – have no fear. Our night’s not even over yet.  We need to head back to the pool.”

“What?!” She responded, genuinely surprised.  “There’s more?”

--

Sean was grinning as they came up to the pool back at The Celestial.  A white sheet hung against the cement wall that served as the side of the storage building where pool accessories and cleaning supplies were housed.

Two beach chairs were covered with pillows, situated next to each other, with more glasses of Raj’s “S-aylor” drink, and a bowl of popcorn.  An extension cord was running from a laptop to another box, facing the sheet.

“A movie?!” Taylor almost screamed.  “Best night EVER!” She squealed, jumping up and down. “I cannot believe this!” She squeezed Sean’s hand before she ran to the seats that had been set up.

“Excuse me, miss, may I see your ticket?” Diego asked, appearing out of nowhere with a huge smile on his face.

“Diego!” Taylor threw her arms around his neck and kissed him on the cheek.  “You did all this? For me?!”

“Well, it was Sean’s idea so I can’t take all the credit…but I did pull out all the stops for your movie watching experience.” He straightened his posture and stood proudly.

“Diego told me you LOVE to mix M&Ms with your popcorn, so I sent him on special assignment.” Sean explained, arriving at the chairs and standing behind Taylor.

“I successfully picked all the M&Ms out of my bag of trail mix and raided some snack machines I found on the odd levels of the hotel so you could have your favorite movie treat.” Taylor was speechless as she watched Diego, walk to the bar at the pool and return with a huge metal bowl, full of popcorn with dashes of colored M&Ms mixed in.

“I am so excited for this – so so excited!” She shrieked as she slid off her shoes and fell backwards into the assortment of pillows on the pool chair.  Sean smiled and laughed lightly as he snuggled up next to her. He was happy that she was happy. That was all he had wanted their evening to be.

--

Meanwhile, on the opposite side of the pool, Zahra was leaning against a palm tree, sneering at the scene she was watching unfold before her.

“This is stupid.  Like really? Who does this?” She muttered out loud, to no one in particular.  

“Z! Z! Check this out!” Craig came running up to her, jolting her from her thoughts.

“What do you want now?” She sighed, annoyed.

“I can tie a cherry stem into a knot WITH MY TONGUE.” He clapped his hands in excitement. “Here.  Watch this…” As his brow furrowed in concentration, Zahra rolled her eyes and returned her gaze to the happy couple.

--

“Diego Theaters proudly presents, our feature film for the evening…” Diego dramatically introduced the movie before pressing play on the laptop and makeshift projector.

“CASTAWAY!”

Taylor and Sean exchanged a look, then looked at Diego, then back to each other before bursting with laughter.

“No way!” Taylor playfully shoved Sean.  “Tell me where in the world you got this – of all the movies – this?!”

Sean couldn’t stop laughing. Taylor loved his smile. It was so bright. His eyes changed color when he was truly happy. She wasn’t even sure she had seen him like this before…after all, she really hadn’t known him that long yet.

“I know – it’s ridiculous, but I brought it with me.  I planned to watch it on the plane…before…well, anyway – it’s sick. It’s twisted. I know it is. But this movie was calling my name and I grabbed it from my collection before I left for the airport.  Plus…I love Tom Hanks.”

“Thomas Jeffrey Hanks is a national treasure.” Diego chimed in as the movie began to play.

“This is incredible. I love this! All of this.” Taylor snuggled in again, sighing happily next to Sean.  

“I’ll leave you two alone. I’ll be in the lobby if you need anything – fingers crossed this works.  Lila knew nothing. You’d think since she works here, she’d be some kind of assistance with these things…” Diego started rambling.

“Thanks, D.” Sean waved him off.

“Right.  I’ll really go now.  Taylor – make good choices!” He winked and then playfully ran off.

“This is amazing, Sean. You’re setting the bar VERY HIGH for any future dates, just want you to know that.” She beamed, looking up at him while snuggling into him again.

“I’d do anything for you, Tay.  I know it’s crazy because we just met, but this is different. I can feel it.” He wrapped his arms around her and closed his eyes, trying to breathe in the moment and force it to leave an imprint on his brain.

“I can’t believe we’re really gonna watch this movie.” She playfully tossed a piece of popcorn into her mouth.

“You’re my Wilson.” Sean shrugged. “What can I say?”

--

“You’re my Wilson?” Zahra repeated, still watching from the other side of the pool.  “How…lame…but, I guess the whole thing is kinda sweet.” She smiled a little, then looked over her shoulder at Craig who was coughing.

“How’s that cherry stem treatin’ ya?” She clapped hard on his back while he grasped his throat with both his hands.

“Fine! Fine. I’m fine. I swear I did it a minute ago though….” He defended himself, putting his hands up as if he were under arrest.

“Come on, ya big dummy. Let’s find some food.” She slowly walked back towards the hotel with him as he continued to explain, “I think I’m gonna try it with like a twist tie or something – you know for flexibility…we can find one of those in the kitchen, right?”

--

Back in the pool chairs, Sean and Taylor were truly content, watching the movie and enjoying one another’s company.

“I’ll never have another first date as good as this one.” She admitted, as the movie finished and the credits began to roll on the screen.

“My thoughts exactly.” Sean winked at her, leaning in for a kiss.  Just millimeters away from her lips, he whispered, “With any luck, you’ll never go on another first date with anyone else ever again.”

 THE END.

[fyeahwynonnaearp]

What Just Happened?!?: Let’s Pretend We’re Strangers (S02E05)

So many things happened. So many things are happening. So many feelings were felt and so much screaming at the TV was done.

New Character(s)

Ewan (@unrealfehr): Volunteer firefighter by day and cult leader by night. Likes big shiny axes, red cloaks, bird masks, and working out.

Juan Carlo (@The_Real_ShaunJ): Re-introduction of the mysterious mechanic/watcher(?). Still uselessly helping and provides more questions than answers. Has a teleporter!Truck? because he drove in with it and disappeared with it.

The Order: A cult of volunteer firefighters whose motto is ‘Praesidium et Conservatio’. Under the (sometimes) guidance of Juan Carlo, they help protect the Ghost River Triangle.

Monster(s) of the Week

Miksun, or The Goo™: Have apparently infected a crap ton of people that The Order had to hunt down and kill. Put down by Peacemaker, but is it fully gone?

Final Thoughts (No Spoiler)

Game changer indeed. 

Although The Goo™/Mikshun was the focus of the episode, so many little things happened that may ripple out and have huge repercussions in the future. It was such an intense episode and, as of now, I have watched it three times. Back to back. I am emotionally drained.

Honestly, before watching this show I take one or two or three shots of Fireball and after the show I chain-smoke like Doc Holliday and hug myself to contain all the feels.

Jump into the rabbit hole for some spoiler-filled rants, theories, and fun!

10 Things That Happened/I Learned

1. Ewan and The Order - ‘Praesidium et Conservatio’: We find out that the Purgatory Volunteer Fire Department (or VFD, which makes me giggle because Lemony Snicket) has an impressive battle axe collection, hunts down Goo-infected citizens, and likes nachos as an after-beheading snack. Based on Ewan and The Plate™, it seems that The Order used to have a relationship with the Earp heir. Now in possession of The Plate™ and open to partnering with Wynonna, we will probably see more of Ewan (or FitBit, as Melanie likes to call him). How The Order and The Squad™ will butt heads will be very interesting and I’m ready for The Squad™ to have help because IDK if people remember/realize, but The Ghost River Triangle is a huge freakin’ area.

2. Nicole, the kicked puppy. The first-half of this season have completely REKT the Officer. Goononna was especially in top-shelf form with the emotional beatdown. I expect Nicole and Wynonna to clash because Nicole is clearly the (mostly) by-the-book rookie and Wynonna is the free-spirit protocol-lel-what-protocol Black Badge Deputy. Perhaps Nicole never understood how or why Wynonna got to be in the super secret government agency and was maybe a bit jealous, but damn! Goononna definitely knew her weakness and insecurities and hit where it hurts the most. I’m excited to see how they move on from this and how they form a relationship outside of Waverly. (I’ve read somewhere that Nicole was constantly being mean and a bit of a bitch to Wynonna; I honestly will have to rewatch, but I don’t remember Nicole being an outright massive bitch to her.)

3. IN MEMORIAM: AGENT JEANIE LUCADO.Goocado, or goo-infected!Lucado: Head exploded. Tentatively dead because regeneration is a thing and where the hell did her body go?!? 

4. Doc Holliday has a new car. It is red and has a cassette player and I wonder if he constantly avoids eye contact with Nicole while at the station because she knows he doesn’t have a driver’s license and definitely has an unpaid speeding ticket.

5. Purgatory Fair 1952. The plate is important enough that it was hunted down, wanted by BBD, and people were killed for it. It was definitely important to The Order. Not only does it bare their seal, but it might be connected to the broken seal because Ewan was talking about it to JC and it seems they are also responsible for maintaining it.

6. “I will shoot anybody for you”. Not only is Nicole whipped, but this line just cements the notion of the Officer being loyal to Waverly despite her position as a police officer. It might be nothing, or it could be the overarching struggle Nicole will face throughout the season and beyond. Being a good cop matters to her, and being involved with Waverly could mean ignoring things for The Squad, covering things up, and breaking protocol and maybe the law. And, I think we know how she feels about covering things up. I’m excited for this ride because this could be such a wonderful character development storyline and gives their relationship depth and substance many shows ignore. Because Nicole will never ask Waverly to be someone other than herself, but Nicole might have to change and compromise her morals for the woman she’s totally not-in-love with.

7. Hot Uniform for Officer Haught. Is Nicole being Lexa-levels of extra with her new uniform? Gone are the khakis and barely-buttoned long sleeves and the has-anyone-seen-me-this-season stetson. Enter the Black Widow-inspired, Alex Danvers-might-steal-this long-sleeved form-fitting zip-up top and is-this-gay-enough vest and no-really-is-this-too-gay boots and the I-am-a-gay baseball cap. I love it. I do. It would be equally horrifying and funny if the entire Purgatory Sheriff Department changed uniforms because Officer I’m-Too-Haught-For-This hates khakis, but I hope the department also forked over the cash for the super expensive extra-lightweight concealed body armor to wear under that tight-fitting top. Because Officer Haught did not ask for the most gay, hot, are-we-sure-this-is-not-a-sexy-cop-costume uniform just to be a bullet magnet.

8. MISSING: BLACK BADGE HQ. Honestly, I’m confused about the actual organization of the...well, organization. It is introduced as a joint task force between the US and Canada, even the badge shows both flags. Like, cool. But is Moody (AKA Orphan Black’s Art Bell), the Head of Black Badge or is he only in charge of the Purgatory/Ghost River Triangle branch or whichever branch is overseeing Purgatory? When Dolls, Lucado, or Jeremy mention HQ, do they mean the place where Dolls was broken out from? Because that means BBD HQ is near the Ghost River Triangle. So when Jeremy says Black Badge is gone, does that mean just the HQ/where Dolls was being held? Are there more BBD sites like in the comic books? Where are the other agents?

9. Waverly and her ‘dark corners’. Is Waverly an Earp? It’s the question that can be easily answered if only the Earp Sisters didn’t have major communication issues. In all honesty, all it takes is one over-due conversation and a saliva swab, then one DNA test later we get our answer. But, no. Waverly will probably never ask Wynonna “so, our mom was pregnant with me, right?” and Nicole probably won’t overstep and compare the Earp Sisters’ DNA behind Waverly’s back. I just want this issue to be resolved before Waverly crumbles under the pressure of meeting Wynonna’s expectations of what being an Earp entails. Because this season shows us that Wynonna does give being an Earp so much meaning and expects Waverly to act accordingly and this might cause issues between them and it might be hard to remember, but they just found steady footing with each other. If Wynonna keeps expecting certain things out of Waverly all in the name of being an Earp while Waverly is struggling with the idea if she even is an Earp, we might have the Earp Sis angst-fest we don’t really want but we might just actually love because it means they come out of it (hopefully) stronger together.

10. Baby Earp, the game changer. There’s a divide in the fandom: Pro-baby storyline and what-the-fuck-no!-pregnancy-storylines-ruin-everything. No matter what camp you reside in, you must admit and eventually realize that this baby-bump of a game changer is going to be the catalyst for several major character development. 

Wynonna: No longer can she numb herself and drown her issues in whiskey. Even though she says her job is to protect her baby sister, we have to remember that she’s been MIA for three year prior and have been mostly absent from Waverly’s life. Yes, she was placed in a mental institution when she was 14 and has been in juvie at least once, but she also willingly spent time away from her sister and ran with the Banditos, a gang that was mentioned in season 1 and explored in the comics. Wynonna joined a gang which could have placed Waverly in danger. With a baby, Wynonna has to be responsible for another life and now has to actually think about the possible consequences of her actions.

Doc: The chance of Doc being the father is really high. Let’s assume that he did get his best friend’s great-great-I-actually-forgot-how-many-great-grand daughter pregnant. Because he’s been established as somewhat traditional, in the loosest sense of the word, he will want to meet the duties and obligation of being a father. That means he can’t really just take off anytime he wants. It means being open and having an honest line of communication with Wynonna, which can be hard for him and his Slytherin ways. While he does let Wynonna be Wynonna, I think that will change when he learns he’s a father. Also, he might start actively searching for a way to reverse the Stone Witch’s curse on him. Meaning, he might have to dig out Constance from the salt flats and OMG is she still out there or did someone dig her out?

Dolls: As much as I would love for DocWynDolls to be one happy polyamorous family raising Baby Earp, there is a good chance that Dolls might feel the need to take a step back and let Wynonna straighten out her priorities. He will be there for her, absolutely, but he might emotionally distance himself and choose to focus his attentions on BBD and figure out how The Squad will continue without a government agency backing them and how to proceed without the power of a badge and probably start figuring out what exactly he is. 

Waverly: Protective acting-like-the-big-sister Waverly will be adorable and fluffy and amazing to watch. Waverly questioning her role and childhood and how she was treated will be heartbreaking and will make me leak from my eyes. I think Waverly will be worried about her place in Wynonna’s life now that there will be a baby. Waverly is so used to being pushed to the side that she probably won’t talk about her concerns and will just keep supporting and helping Wynonna. On the other hand, a baby Earp can just be the prompting for Wynonna to start reminiscing and talking about a Baby Waverly and the biological origins of Waverly will finally be settled. 

Nicole: A part of me hopes she won’t get shut out and Waverly will start incorporating Nicole into her life and that Nicole will help Waverly with pregnant!Wynonna, but I can see her being shut out. Again. I can see Nicole figuring it out for herself (like always) and subtlety helping Wynonna by giving her food and giving her coffee, it’s caffeine-free of course, but Wynonna won’t know that. I really hope Nicole gets to be involved in some capacity because it will be just one more thing that would strengthen her relationship not only with Waverly, but with Wynonna as well. 

Overall, I am happy this show is still true to itself. Some people have said that the show doesn’t treat its villains as actually villains and it all ends up being anti-climactic. To those people, I say to you, this show is not the episodic procedural of monster-of-the-week and one big bad a season kind of show. This is about the people that have to deal with those monsters and demons. This show is about their relationships with each other. It’s about how they grow as people and how they deal with their issues and personal demons. Sure, demons are killed. But unlike other shows, our heroine still questions her humanity and still have issues with the fact that she is destined to kill, whether they are demons or creatures or humans-turned-demons.

It is often overlooked and no one talks about it enough, but I think we need to remember that even though these revenants and demons are all trying to kill her, Wynonna Earp still tells them to “make your peace” and sure she sends them to hell, but she tries to make sure they get some semblance of peace in the afterlife. 

[harunaneko44]

Tag game~

Hello~ I was tagged by the sweetest aka. @gg-astrology ^^~ I’ll do this quickly so anyone who sees this wants to try, feel free to do so and tag me so I can see~ Thank you for tagging me hun!!

Actually I already did one a long time ago, but I’m re-doing it again cuz??? U never know? People change and maybe there’s something new :D

5 things in my bag:

Lip balm: I tend to use it quite often! At least when I’m not using lipstick that is...

Earphones: They’re my life! I just can’t live without them tbh... They help me to deal with day-to-day routine and my long walks around college

USB: Well, I do need it at all times. ^^u If I didn’t had that one I’d literally die cuz all my work is in there, oof.

Pencils n Eraser: I just got used to... Have those in my bag? It’s easier for me to just put my hand inside and take them than having to search in my schoolbag and--- Yeah. I’m lazy, I’m sorry LMFAOOO

Cologne/Perfume: I really like to smell nice, so I have a tiny one. When I need to be like, entire days in college I use it every three hours or so? Idk, that may be just me(?).

5 things you’ll find in my room (apart from my bed, wardrobe, mirror):

Make-up shelf: It’s right besides my mirror, I don’t tend to use them often but I still have them in a shelf? Yeah.

Computer: Of course! I need it in order to exists(?) Yeah.

Camera: I had a class where I had to use a camera but now that I don’t have it anymore it’s pretty much just standing... in a corner of my room, yeah.

4 tables: Oof it’s just... I’m a mess and I have so many tables because I need to work on drawings, but my computer needs a table too, but yet agan I have my own projects and I need a place to lay everything... Oof.

Tons of notebooks: ...I really need to throw some already but I just forget to do so and they’re pilled in a special box... haha...

5 of my favourite things:

K-pop/Music: I just think I can’t stand no having music ever? Like rn I’m listening to music, while doing hw I’m listening to music, while walking, while eating, while... Gosh, everything, really.

Writing: I guess that is something I learned is just in me, I can feel bad about how I do it or get insecure but I’ll still continue doing it, it’s like in my blood or smth like that. It’s a little part of me that makes me happy.

Computers: Have you seen how many stuff can you do with one? They’re amazing and Idk, I feel connected to them smh. I grew up with one and no one around me so I guess it became like my preciated friend (that sounds so sad Emily, wth HAHAHAHAHAHA)

Games: Well yes!! After all I’m studying in order to make my own, but I think these help people to just... Fly away from reality even if it’s just for a little bit? Yes.

My family/friends: Well, they’re not things but still, even tho I’m a quite quiet/secretive person myself, I do appreciate everyone who can like... Keep up with the mess I am? I’m always thankful, that even though I sometimes still feel no one can really know what’s going on with me, they try, and that alone is something that motivates me to continue here.

5 things i’m currently into:

Otome games/Mystic Messenger: I think this will last forever smh LMFAO I’ve been in that fandom and overall, I’ve been playing otome games since I was like, what? 12??? And I’m 19 rn so, wow... Yeah.

Roleplaying: Another thing I’ve had quite experience with, tho I’m not as invested as maybe with otome games, I still enjoy the whole theme of writing with others and creating amazing stories together.

The seven deadly sins/Nanatsu no taizai: Oof!! I just finished all the episodes available in Netflix (Are those the only ones so far? Or there are others? Idk I should really investigate more, I like the entire universe and the characters so much!!)

Video editing: I started a new semester and one of the classes was about that. I already knew a little about video editing but now that I’m learning more I get so excited? Like... The way you can control the info given to the watchers and how can you use music to connect the images and everything... Idk, it’s amazing and fun to do!

Astrology: Yeah! The past year and nowadays I’ve been trying to learn more and more, sadly because of the lack of time, I’m learning slowly but it’s still fascinating for me! My friends listen to everything I learn so it’s cool to share what I learned with them!

5 things on my to-do list:

(Oof, this makes me scream internally)

Study for calculus/Do hw of calculus: I’m so fvcking scared for real, like I’m not good with math, imagine calculus. I have an exam tomorrow and honestly, shaking lmfao.

Make a project based on “the truth”: It’s a project for my humanistic classes so... Yes.

Make a 3D model of a car: This one has me screaming.

Study commands of linux: Like you know, those u use in the terminal. God c: I’m going to die. (I like programming but I have... Bad memory so...)

Finish editing music video (Believer-Imagine dragons): This one’s actually exciting! I’m almost finished and I like how it’s looking so far ^^

oof so yeah, this is pretty much it :D Thanks again for tagging me sweetie, I’ll run now to continue dying with all my stuff T.T