#aish aish

[jupiter--dream]

y'know, it's midnight and I'm tired but I can't not write something about this?

At first this was gonna be a long, kinda personal rant, but I've decided to make it shorter, and just say that... I feel like it's weird how people sometimes act like Autism/ADHD kinda invalidate anything else? "you weren't a gifted kid, you were just neurodivergent", which can make sense, but I've been told that so many times that I've had to look back and realize WHY I have trauma with academic stuff, and no, it's not bc I was an autistic kid posing as gifted in primary school.

I've had people respond to me saying I have MaDD by saying that daydreaming's an AuDHD symptom; or that my weird (/neg) food habits are just my ADHD (sometimes as in my internal clock being screwed and making me eat too much; sometimes bc people say that I eat as a stim? idk wtf), or that my very much disordered fear and anxiety over rejection and embarrassment is just RSD from ADHD.

I've doubted myself because of that so many times, wondering if maybe I don't actually have anything other than AuDHD, which then develops into "what if I don't actually have AuDHD".

It just feels weird, to have someone express their symptoms for something that very much isn't AuDHD, and replying to that by saying that it is, it mostly just feels like fakeclaiming, because more often than not, the symptoms I've mentioned are from disorders caused by trauma, and AuDHD are not, so it just ends up feeling like fakeclaiming? Like, "if all of your symptoms are from a non-trauma induced thing, then can you even say you have trauma?" idk

I've been feeling kinda bad over this lately and felt the need to write it out, sorry for the long post

[filmtvtoday]

GTKTM: FAVORITE TV SHOW/FILM PER MEMBER ↳ MAMMA MIA! (2008) — by aish (@maddiebuckley)

[wlwgif]

HOUSE OF THE DRAGON 2.06 | Smallfolk

[gay]

THE HAUNTING OF BLY MANOR E09 | The Beast in the Jungle

[toxicgaysource]

ONCE UPON A TIME 5.05 | Dreamcatcher

[userotp]

PRIDE AND PREJUDICE (2005) dir. Joe Wright

[maxanor]

TONIGHT I'M SOMEONE ELSE, Chelsea Hodson – for @alicenthighstower

[femaledaily]

MERYL STREEP as DONNA SHERIDAN MAMMA MIA! (2008) dir. Phyllida Lloyd

[abigaillazaar]

RHAENICENT APPRECIATION WEEK 2024 [5/7] tragedy: excerpt from the gentle version by sylvie

[usergif]

tell me, what did you learn from the tillamook burn? or the fourth of july? we're all gonna die.

[henwilsons]

results: certified babygirl! (insp) for @alicenthighstower ♡ happy birthday, aishani!

[jupiter--dream]

At which point does "I have something going on with my body" classify as "I might be physically disabled" qwq /genq

[filmtvtoday]

EVERYTHING EVERYWHERE ALL AT ONCE (2022) dir. Daniel Kwan & Daniel Scheinert

[wlwgif]

I don't think we should plan, you know, Christmas. It's a ways away. One day at a time.

[gay]

get to know the members of @gay! ↳ favourite canon character by aish ⋆ greta gill "god, we're all fucking fruit!"

[toxicgaysource]

CHALLENGERS (2024) dir. Luca Guadagnino