#aint no way i ever NEED to be logged in for 8 hours

[tomandgeriatric]

literally getting paid to be on tumblr today.

[mbrainspaz]

hrrrrrrrrrrr I'mmmm simmering with poorly suppressed rage

⚠️swears incoming

the teenage coworker is coming in to work to cover for the other guy today because he and the only other worker are out sick. And both of those guys keep trying to come to work sick too. I told the one guy who made it in to get lost yesterday morning because he looked clammy as hell and I ended up working an extra 2 hours. That's 10 f*cking hours of farm work, alone, in a 120F heatwave. My blisters have blisters. Started to draft an email asking the boss if I could pretty please be paid for the 2 hours overtime I worked and thought better of it. Because I'm starting to understand that's not how things work around here. And turns out the other guys informed the boss lady only to have her be like 'well if you guys want to handle this among yourselves that's fine but I don't want to hear about it.' And they all just go along with that?! F*CK. This is so f*cking stupid. 'We have a great healthcare plan' my ass. If your employees are pressured to work with a fever and a cough your health plan aint worth shit. So this stupid teenage coworker who told me yesterday she has 9$ in her account is driving her truck 2 f*cking hours to come in this afternoon to help me get the barn chores done--on her day off--for ZERO DOLLARS. She's like, 'it's the spirit of teamwork! :D' Honey bless your heart but f*ck that. Farm and ranch work doesn't always have money to give but the people who run this place live in million dollar mansions, work in air-conditioned offices, and doordash every meal-- and we're out here hobbling around on aching feet for ZERO DOLLARS PER HOUR? For the spirit of teamwork. Boss lady recently told me, "You should simply only work 8 hour days." "Great plan Sharon. Who's going to feed the horses on time when it's my day off and all the other workers have collapsed from exhaustion because they were naive enough to buy into your toxic unpaid hustle culture bullshit?" I already have 8.5 unpaid hours logged because that's what it took to take care of the damn horses I'm supposed to be caring for. That's more than a day of work they just decided they didn't need to pay me for. Goddamn us americans we are so f*cking stupid. Not like I can do anything about it when they're letting me live onsite and that's the only way I can afford to f*cking live. But I'm not 19 anymore! I'm not the stupid idealist who was happy to work for crumbs and 'the spirit of america' or whatever the f*ck. Because look what that got me. I got the whole damn community trying to f*cking murder me. Multiple times, in ever more creative ways. Oh, and kiddo tells me "it's fine, I'll probably have to work 12 hours tomorrow." Like f*ck you will. Honey it's supposed to be a job, not a free trial version of hell. You're not earning or proving shit by working this hard for a dollar less than a living wage. You think this company cares that you show up 30 minutes early every day? That you do your job well? That you genuinely care about doing good work? That you cover for sick coworkers? They never will. The company--every company--will chew you up and spit you into the dirt, and call you ungrateful for not working harder--NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO. Hun there ain't no promotions for best grindset in the real world. There's only getting fired or laid off because your usefulness ran out.

(f*ck you tumblr for limiting the size of my wall of angry text)

But I'm not a monster so of course I offer to pitch in EVEN THOUGH I know I just picked up a second art contract due in 15 days. Ya know, my work that actually would make me enough money to live above the poverty line if I could ever just get a stable living situation. I need a drink so freaking bad. I can't afford to drink because I don't have a single spare minute to unwind ever, obviously, but I can't be sober 24/7 in a situation this goddamn stupid and not implode with righteous anger. Damn it. Why can't they just pay their workers?!?!!? Y'all don't want me to be sober. I will start a f*cking revolt. "There's just no money in the business budget waaaaah." "Yeah well there are no fucks left in my cynical overworked socialist heart Sharon. Have the salaried office workers tried eating fewer goddamn avocados?"

[abbymcnevinstudio]

I dislike Kausar??

Day 2 of the blog challenge! To write 10 likes & dislikes of mine. Wait, does this mean

5 likes + 5 dislikes = 10

OR

10 each ?

Without thinking too deep about this, let’s just go with the 10 each cos it makes more sense aint it. Now now, gotta be more specific here cos I can’t really quickly line up what I like and what I dislike in a second. Say… put it this way, since there are 10 elements needed, I’ll subgroup the likes/dislikes to a further 5 sections (man, the 5 again because I’m born in the awesome month of May[5]). Let’s put Food, Drink, Place, Attitude and General (misc.) with two items under each section.

We’ll start of with a negative list and end up with things I like cos everybody love a happy ending.

10 THINGS I DISLIKE

1. Chicken Liver. I’m not sure why I really can’t take this. I’ve tried! Maybe I just can’t win a chicken’s heart at all…

2. Sour savory. Ok I can accept sour drinks, icecreams, gums but not on savory food that meant to be eaten with rice. Dishes like sweet&sour, mango style…just No no No no no no No NO.

3. Kausar. This is that popular drink that is really EVERYWHERE during the fasting month :D all the people I knew love this drink. I just don’t. Something is definitely wrong with me… Mum?!

4. Samboi drink. I don’t eat samboi as food too. It is not because of it’s sourness. Samboi has this distinct taste that I know a lot of people actually find it addictive but not for me. Too bad I can’t join a “piranha parade” when a pack of samboi is around, it is okay tho, more for you people :)

5. Traffic jam. I’m sure I can relate this with everybody.

6. Too crowded. This really applies on a hot day with some rude people around…not fun.

7. Empty promises. I have a hard time trusting and when I do, I always trust. Afterwards when people mess up with their words, I can’t seem to take in their words again.

8. Leaving me hanging. I’m okay with the truth. I’m okay with waiting. I can put some consideration. Just “tell” me. If I’m not informed, I’m definitely not okay with waiting - just not okay.

9. Bright colour wears. Don’t get me wrong, I find bright colour dresses as attractive. I only dislike it when I’m the one wearing it. I like dark coloured wears and most of my wears are black anyway.

10. Inconsistency. Although I am spontaneous and really quick in adapting changes, I cannot tolerate with inconsistency in terms of words and actions towards me. If you’re going to be nice to me, be nice. If you’re going to hate me, just hate me. Don’t hate me one time, love me another hour and then hate me again. It’s a tiring game.

10 THINGS I LIKEY LIKEY

1. Yam. Yam or Taro or Ubi Keledek or Ubi Papal in my own home-language. Icecream? Shakes? Waffle? Cakes? Yam itself? Give it to me!

2. Mushroom. Any kinds. Boiled, sautee, grilled, tempura fried, bbq, in a sauce, soup…whatever, it’s mine and you ain’t getting any. I’ll pay you a separate bowl of it if you want, just don’t even put a finger on my bowl. No.

3. Lemon Tea. I use to love green tea a lot but gotta put lemon tea in the list cos this drink is just…hands down, a legend. Been liking it since I was a child and up til now. Hot or cold, whatever whenever.

4. Milo. My parents told me that when I was a child, I refuse milk and they figured out I preferred milo instead. How demanding? But they say it’s cheaper than baby formulated milk ^^ Moreover, Minum Milo anda jadi sihat dan kuat… :p

5. Beach. A calming place ^^ is it the wind? The water? or just the sand? I use to come to the beach alone, lay down on a log and just lay there, thinking alone.

6. Yellow lighting. I realize I like to be in a room with yellow lighting. It’s cosy.

7. Sense of humour. Who doesn’t like funny people? Don’t get me wrong, im also okay with people who aren’t funny too. But whether you’re funny or not, if you have sense of humour and I manage to make you laugh with my jokes and just being silly or random, man i like you. You understand my language! T_T

8. Thoughtfulness. Have you ever heard of the phrase “Peace & Love begins with simple kindness”? I saw this in a card back when I was 8 or 9. I asked my mum what does that mean? She explained to me in malay and set out an example…say my sharpener fell down on the floor and a classmate sitting next to me grab em up for me, how does that make me feel? Just a small, tiny thing like that warms the heart. It’s a lesson for me and you, all of us! Never get tired of doing little things for others, little things occupy biggest parts of the heart

9.Music. I listen to sorts of music. I’m not selective to what I hear. Any genres, any language…i seem to listen to broad type of music. Although the most I’ll listen will be R&B and latin songs. But still you’ll find variety in my playlist…including bollywood and dangdut…don’t ask me why!

10. Flower. Flowers make me smile, flowers calms my soul. The colours, the smell and the serenity it brings is just obviously my soul’s food :)

BONUS

11. Stuffed animals Stuffed animals and plushies…i love em’