#aint guna dpend money on therapy

[ramblin-tiger]

So, I'm a wonderful ripe age of 30 now. A '93 baby. Let me tell you that as a normal (rationally) person I can feel every bit of all of this in my bones. When I was growing up, I wanted to be an artist or a writer. I wanted to play baseball. At one point I wanted to be a computer tech/code writer. All of these things that would wanted to do died as dreams well before I became a teenager, or partly through my highschool years.

Once I had gotten out of highschool you know what my dream was?

To survive.

Ive spent the last 5 years with two roommates (one of which is now an ex after 12 years) wishing that I could somehow get some kind of windfall to get a place that's my own so I don't have to pay rent, because if i were to move out, my expenses would TRIPLE at minimum, meaning that I wouldnt be able to save money anymore.

I haven't taken a legitimate vacation longer than about 4 days since 2000 fucking 11 outside of being between jobs, because I fear not having funds to simply just survive.

And that's with some savings (like, between 5-10k and I still feel like that).

As a kind, 20$ used to feel like 100$. As an adult 100$ feels like 5$.

Yea, inflation and all that, but being older having money feels different because of bills. 1000$ isnt much money to have, but it's a lot to owe or need to spend.

I'm getting off topic though.

Is that are in this age range, and the new teenagers, our dreams have either been crushed long ago or have become ever unobtainable with how the world is. It's not uncommon for the joke of "when will WW3 be?" Among those of us to be said, but UNIRONICALLY.

I miss having dreams to look forward to, but hate that I was never really going to be able to achieve them. And looking to the future most kids will likely never even consider having the kind of dreams some of us had when we were younger simply because they are already going to see the world is fucked, and they have to try and plan their future based purely on what's going to help them simply survive.