#ahhh anyway. yeah. drk is soo fun for him haha (takes long drag from fake cig) | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

windupaidoneus · 4 months ago

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pondering. how hilde felt picking up drk. one of emet's canon classes. did it feel familiar... did he feel some measure of embarrassment when he didn't perform well enough. when fray would get upset with him did he instinctively shut him down because he would expect someone else to nag. someone who he could not even begin to put a name or face on, it just feels like something... innate. this reflex to bite back defensively when he messes up while watched by someone more skilled than him in something. he's not prideful by nature but something within him just pushes him to have some sort of ego when it comes to this in particular

& how he felt when entering ktisis hyperboreia & here emet, "great sorcerer of eld", expected black mage, goes & conjures his weapon of choice for the occasion - a greatsword he's putting to use to protect his party members with the power of the darkness within, though he wouldn't readily admit to it

#ffposting #hildemet #yeah im thinking yea. u could say that i am contemplating.#the lore might be changing a bit again. nothing too major just which points where emet makes his presence known #like in his mind. possible that by the time hilde goes back in time he hasnt been able to sense emets presence #or communicate with him for a bit so hes experiencing all of it on his own as the game intends #yeah im engineering this for it to be as painful as possible for him. to see what it is it felt he'd forgotten #only to see it be emet's turn to forget someone - something so important to him #& he can do nothing about it. can't run to him & explain everything again. & he sure can't talk to present day emet abt it #bc present day emet is presumably back in the aetherial sea (he is but also not. mostly dormant & building energy back up)#elpis truly made hilde feel so hopeless & like. he Really felt the effects of Dissociative Disorder. & past life shit.#made him feel so fragmented. which he is. & everything he wanted within his grasp felt like itd long slipped from him #& hes supposed to just go back & save the world now. i can tell you one thing & its that ardbert did a lot of latter half edw #hes had emets soul (or part of it. to avoid unpleasant side effects) within him since post seat of sacrifice... & now its like hes gone #but he also never fully truly believed it was actually emet there. he figured hed just. made him up. worst factive split #it was weird. emet was clearly himself but hilde has trouble trusting his judgement ... & is used to his brain doing weird shit #ahhh anyway. yeah. drk is soo fun for him haha (takes long drag from fake cig)

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