#again: at all times i try to avoid doomerism or thinking about things

[marsixm]

meep

[creature-wizard]

I can’t stop being angry, I’m so angry about everything that happened and I’ve tried to get rid of it but I can’t. It’s like it just festers over and over again and then I say something I didn’t mean to and I ruin everything. It just doesn’t stop. I’m always anxious and sad and angry, it’s like my brain is frozen in time, back in the past but also in the present. I just can’t get away from them and I’m so cruel to everyone and nobody fucking cares. I’m sorry

Hey anon, what you're describing right there sounds an awful lot like PTSD and emotional dysregulation. Those are horrible, even terrifying things to have to deal with, but that doesn't mean it has to be like this (or at least, be this severe) forever.

If there's awful people you're stuck with in real life right now, my post "I'm in a bad place and need to get out, what can I do?" has resources. It may not have all of the resources you'll ever need, but it can get you started.

And it might not be possible to get out of your current situation right now (or for awhile yet), but that doesn't mean you'll be stuck there forever. Nor does it mean there is nothing you can do. Here are some things you can do online:

Research coping strategies for depression, emotional dysregulation, and PTSD. Even if you don't have an official diagnosis, you can still research coping strategies for any condition you suspect you have, and see if they help. You can start by searching on DuckDuckGo, Tumblr, whatever. Like plug "depression coping strategy" or "PTSD coping strategy" or whatever into Tumblr's search bar; you'll find things.

Get in contact with other people who have personal experience managing and coping with these things. Follow their blogs. See what they can offer you.

Look up therapy worksheets (like this one, for example) to fill out.

Change who and what you expose yourself to online; EG, unfollow blogs that reinforce toxic beliefs (EG, "no one will like me if I don't have money") and follow blogs that help you build a healthier view (EG, "I am worthy of love no matter what.") Spend less time engaging with content that reminds you that bad things are happening, and more time engaging with content that reminds you that there is hope and goodness out there.

Associate with people who sympathize with the challenges your mental illness gives you, rather people who validate a deliberate choice to act on your unhealthiest impulses. ("Sometimes my mental illness makes it hard to act in ways I would like" and "I should try to be kind when I can" are two statements that can and should coexist.)

At all costs, avoid people who make you feel like you have to be this way forever, or that there's literally nothing you can do to manage your symptoms ever - basically, the mental health doomers.

Your depression might tell you that you can't change and nothing can ever get better for you, but depression is a big fucking liar. It fucks up your thinking and makes you inclined to believe all kinds of terrible things that aren't true.

I'm sorry you're having to deal with all of this; none of this stuff should have happened to you. But there are things to try that might help, even if you're not in an optimal situation right now.

[assblastergaster]

okay so we know that the hidden cutscene at the end of veilguard is NOT implying that these new secretive enemies have been pulling the strings all along (1). given that whatever this invisible threat is is innumerably old (feared by the evanuris), i think it seems feasible that the true implication is just that they have been watching closely the events that have unfolded as a consequence of something they caused eons ago. a domino effect just like the first 3 games

like we learned more about what the evanuris actually were in this game, but not what their world was like (especially because the veil is kept in place). which leads me to the question: what draws the elven gods to need such immense power and control if they have already defeated those who were their greatest enemy? why does ghilan'nain need to form the blight into the greatest weapon even before they are banished? the titans were already dead by the time it was created. they were the only ones mentioned as their enemies in the game, and the forgotten ones (not to mention the forbidden ones???) were decidedly not their concern. (2)

again, no, I don't think it's what doomers on reddit are thinking (regardless of writer adamant denial! smh): this secretive enemy was not whispering in Loghain's ear, nor meredith's, nor corypheus and the other magisters, to get them to do what they did. they were simply there, watching the events that were directly tied to the fall of the Evanuris and creation of the veil take place. the fifth blight might not have been so bad had Loghain stepped in, the Mage/Chantry war may have been avoided had Meredith not put Kirkwall on the chopping block, and the blights may not have had entire armies to fight with if not for the tevinter magister's intrustion on the golden city. yes, they say "guided" and "whispered," but these are some fuck off bad guys who have only revealed themselves after 4 games, which is the same amount of time it took us to find out that the Dalish Gods, the Chant of Light, and the ancient Tevinter Gods are all fake. they are not telling us the whole truth and nothing but the truth in a 1 minute 7 second post credit scene. and why would they? why not lie and say they've caused the worst events in recent history? why not scare a weakened world into thinking they can't do anything to stop bad things from happening, making their coming harvest that much easier? as far as the world knows, the blights are over forever, so they might become powerful enough for to fight back as they move on—shouldn't The Executors/Mystery Bad Guys try to nip it in the bud? (or, of course, they surreptitiously guided and whispered the evanuris into becoming each other's downfall, leading to the events we see pictured and that's what whispered means)

"the poisoned fruit ripens" is the key phrase. they didn't make all of these people do these things (ripen), but they are seeking to reap the benefit of the fermented fruit. note that none of the events covered take place BEFORE the creation of the veil—even though we know of several events that took place then—meaning they probably don't have complete, ultimate power. they were likely competing with the Evanuris and the Qunari's progenitors, as we know in that codex entry that indicates that one of them was building fortifications for intruders from beyond the sea, and from Taash's tablet.

perhaps the "poisoning" was the creation of the veil, or the creation of physical forms from the fade, or the destruction of the titans, or anything of that huge caliber. i can't say for sure what i think is most likely. but i do believe that the fruit ripening is them waiting for an opportune time to pluck the world and plunge it into their control.

(1) Epler confirmed this. (different link if you dont have bsky account)

(2) i think this is probably intentional—and not the forgotten ones lore being abandoned, given that Anaris was literally an enemy in veilguard—the Dalish had a bunch of lies put into their head and may have twisted the forgotten ones into more of a threat than they were; such that their actual strife with the gods was about something other than their own struggles for power. perhaps they were a faction of former evanuris who believed in focusing on enemies beyond their borders rather than war against the Titans and the Dreadwolf, which is why he is known to be the only who consorted with both factions. OR the opposite—perhaps they welcomed these foreign enemies. they are also often mentioned with the void, which these Executors seem to be associated with, and were not locked away in the veil prison like the Evanuris.