#again this is just how things go in my own personal selfship universe. everyone can have their own interpretations of this pair

[frogshipping]

Character Discussion: Goku and Chi-chi (in my selfship universe)

I've been wanting to talk about this for a while, because the relationship between these characters does hold some significance, even though Goku eventually ends up with Viti

Goku and Chi-chi in my selfship universe, as in canon, ended up together because Goku promised that they would get married when they grew up (even if he didn't know what it meant). Chi-chi's infatuation with Goku is one sided. She truly was and is romantically in love with him. Goku on the other hand has never felt romantic attraction towards anyone, at least not until Viti comes along. But that isn't to say he never loved his wife. On the contrary, he loves her very much, but it's the sort of love that blooms over years of knowing someone and raising a child together. He loves her, but has never been in love with her.

Everything up until the Buu saga goes exactly the same in my selfship universe. Including Goku's sacrifice during the Cell Games. By the time Viti comes into the picture, Goku's been dead for 7 years, and is only back on earth for a day to participate in the 25th Tenkaichi Budokai. Chi-chi (like in canon) is excited to see her husband after so long. But when they finally come face to face, there's a hollow feeling in the pit of her stomach. Goku looks exactly the same as he had when he died, though radiating a stronger aura. He's very healthy and happy for a dead person, though still as unserious as ever. Chi-chi, on the other hand, has changed. She's been a single widowed mother of 2 for nearly a decade now, raising one son solo from birth. She's depressed; worn down and tired. Her body aches more than it used to. She has a few more wrinkles than she did before (though she's luckily in better shape since she's been training Goten). And she was even more heartset than ever to live a peaceful, normal life with her family.

Chi-chi feels like an almost entirely different person than she had when her beloved husband passed, even moreso than when they'd first married. Yet, somehow, she expected them to come back together seamlessly. But the difference--the distance-- between them is noticeable. The 7 years apart sits between her and Goku like an invisible chasm. They're almost like aquatinces with each other, maybe even strangers. Still, Chi-chi tries to ignore that and make the most of the day they have together. But not much comes from it.

Goku, as always, is focused on fighting. He's too busy catching up with the other Z Fighters and getting warmed up to give much attention to Chi-chi after their reintroduction. Worse, Goku makes a new friend during the tournament. They look very different from any of the women in Goku's life. They're short and stout, with weird green eyes, and short delinquent blonde hair. They look younger too, maybe by about a decade, compared to the Sons. Yet she's got all of Goku's attention for a good long while. Too long, for Chi-chi's liking, and she begins to grow worried her greatest fear might come true, that Goku is going to leave her for someone younger and prettier (even though Viti doesn't fit the standard of attractiveness.). Goku on the other hand is simply intrigued by this new, surprisingly strong stranger that's suddenly popped into existence.

Chi-chi is so caught up in her that fear and jealousy that she doesn't acknowledge the distance between her and Goku. She doesn't reconize her life goals don't line up with his. He wants to get stronger and go on adventures, especially after he's resurrected. He doesn't mind having people tag along, but certainly doesn't want to be bogged down with jobs or ordinary life. Meanwhile, Chi-chi wants her family to finally be normal, without anymore fighting or death. She willfully ignores her main marital troubles, and instead insists Viti is to blame.

Chi-chi's feeling grows during the Buu saga and after, when Goku and Viti start to train together and hang out. One day, about 2 or 3 years into their friendship, they go to do some intense training in the Room of Spirit and Time. Chi-chi, although unhappy about it, eventually accepts this arrangement after arguing a while with Goku.

Vegeta visits Chi-chi that day, spouting how inappropriate he thought it was (out of his own jealousy, but that's a character discussion for another time.). He reminded Chi-chi that a day outside the Hyperbolic Time Chamber was the equivalent of a year inside, and who knew what could happen in that amount of time. This triggers some paranoia in Chi-chi. When Goku comes home the next day, she insists Goku cease all contact with Viti, since she was coming between their marriage. Goku is clueless as to what she's talking about but after a few days, out of love and loyalty to her, he agrees to stop being around Viti.

Chi-chi was certain her feelings of distance with her husband would dissipate after that. Life goes back to normal. They get back into a routine, and Chi-chi even manages to convince Goku to take on a few jobs. He farms, and works part time as Hercule Satan's bodyguard. The family finally has a decent income flowing in. Goku is present more often. It's everything Chi-chi ever wanted. But it's a daily battle of arguments and Goku whining. Chi-chi's depression doesn't get much better, and some days it feels even worse with Goku's presence. He feels more like a third child in the house than a supportive husband. She starts to long for the days she didn't have to worry about him crawling home injured from spars, or from him dragging their sons off who-knows-where, especially when they need to study.

Goku is feeling miserable, too. He hates working two jobs. He doesn't have as much time to keep up his training regimen as before. Chi-chi is constantly yelling at him over the smallest things, and he feels he gets in her way more than anything. They tried to be intimate again, but after time it felt more exhausting for both of them than anything else. But Goku wants Chi-chi to be happy, and does his best to do what is asked of him. It's the least he could do to make up for being away for so long.

After a year, Goku starts to spend time with Viti again. Yet by this pont, him doing so brings Chi-chi a bit of relief. She realizes that having space from Goku brings her more joy than having him home. It's during the day when he's away working or training that Chi-chi takes time to think about her current life situation. And eventually, she comes to the conclusion that she enjoyed being a single mother more thn thecwofe of an absent husband.

Goku and Chi-chi have a talk one night, once she's taken time to think about all that's transpired over the past 10 years. They talk about everything they both wish to accomplish, and where their lives together are at. They try to figure out if there's some sort of compromise, if one of them can change or sacrifice something to make the other's life more tolerable. But they can't, they're both too stubborn to change what happiness they seek. They come to an agreement that perhaps they're better off going their separate ways instead. Both Chi-chi and Goku are heartbroken to make this choice. They've been together since they were young. They love each other, even if it's never been a traditional sort of love. But love isn't always enough. They accept that, and their pair divorce amicably.

In the years following, Chi-chi comes to terms with the end of her marriage. She enjoys her single life with her boys, and new baby granddaughter. She doesn't have to stay awake at night wondering if her husband will come home. She doesn't have to argue beyond typical spats a mother can have with a mischievous son. She can go on dates, and live like a normal human woman. Meanwhile Goku gets all the time in the world to train. He gets to travel for weeks or even months on end without having to worry about someone at home being mad at him. He even eventually comes to find new and true romantic love with Viti, after a long time grieving the end of his marriage. They love to go on adventures, and seeks to get strong just as he does. Goku finally has someone who understands. And Chi-chi finally has some peace.

[ahoge-fish]

Is it just me or the JoJo X OC fandom is getting kind of toxic?

Welp, it is not getting toxic, it already was. And sadly not only the JoJo X OC fandom, but every one of them (flashback to little me seeing those videos of jealous little girls that scream "SANS IS MINE YOU CAN'T HAVE HIM!! *procedes to kill you*, fucking rolling my ass on the floor because I though they were so ridiculous)

Because 💫people are such beautiful creatures💫

Now, I'm lucky to have not met those people yet (knocks on wood), but you probably know who I mean. The ones that say "NOO JOTARO IS ONLY MINE YOU CAN'T HAVE HIIIM", or "gosh your ship sucks, it's so lame", or "stop shipping your oc with Jotaro it is cringe" and other and other and other...

I saw these people somewhere else and not on my blog (fortunately), and this is so fucking disgusting. I already said it and I'll said it again to them (who will not read this, I'm very sure of it because they're such idiots but I don't care): IF YOU DON'T LIKE SOMETHING, SCROLL DOWN. BLOCK THE BLOG YOU DON'T LIKE. JUST. DON'T. SEND. HATE.

You don't know how a person could react to that hate, you don't know how much even one of these comments could affect one's mentality, because yes: behind an OC x Canon or selfship blog, THERE IS A REAL PERSON WITH FEELINGS. A person, a human that is probably struggling with real life's problems and having their blog is the way they cope with them. This is their happy way out to get distracted and feel happy when they feel down, or just somethig they do for fun. Either case, you are ruining that person's happy world.

Why? Just- because???? I really don't see the point of sending hate when you just can IGNORE what you don't like. And no, it's not a big deal, they're fucking fictional characters so you don't need to be the the "hero" of the situation by sending hate to them thinking "aaah, I've done a good thing. Now the Internet is a better place!"

Just- just no.

How are they hurting you in any way?? Just- AYO JUST FUCKING SCROLL DOWN IT'S NOT SO HARD TO DO HAHA

But now, to the people who are jealous about they're s/o and see someone else having a blog about them but with their OC. DO👏 THE👏FUCKING👏SAME!!! Just scroll down, or block the blog you don't like. Easy game!!

People, THEY ARE FICTIONAL CHARACTERS!! NO CANON CHARACTER IS NO ONE'S POSSESSION, BUT TO THEIR OWN CREATORS!! Jotaro isn't yours, is fricking Araki's.

But you can still ship yourself or your OC with him! Because who says you can't? Is there a law for it? For loving a fictional character? No, so just go ahead and do it.

And also- to give it more lOgIc if people still aren't satisfyied with sharing their s/o- in the JJBA lore with Vento Aureo and another thing I will not say because then it'll be spoiler, we are 100% sure that other universes and multiverses exists, that means infinite Jotaros for everyone and so INFINITE SHIPPINGS!

That means that everyone gets to have their own Jotaro, the way they like him in THEIR OWN universe, because there are infinite of them and so your universe is somehow canon. Do you like it better put this way? I hope so, because then idk what else to say if not "block and scroll" the things you don't like.

Let's bless the people that actually do block and scroll the ones they don't like, instead of sending unnecessary hate, because not everyone can like the same thing! It is totally normal! But they do what it is CORRECT, so let's bless them 🙏🙏🙏🙏

[ajokeformur-ray]

Hiiii! I'm very sorry for bothering you with this but may I send a selfship with Joker and Arthur? You're the only one who could understand, I need to share my love for the character ^^ Um, I'm a 27 years old hetero girl. 158 cm, long dark brown hair, black eyes, a bit chubby - and I don't like my looks at all. I'm a PhD student in Media Discourse, I also led seminars in Journalistic Genres last semester and there's a high chance that I'll be doing it again in a several months, I love every

aspect, if I’m being honest. I dream of having an academic career and becoming a professor one day. I’m good with books and studying but a failure when it comes to intimate things, I’m truly clueless in these and am oblivious to flirting and advances. I also would never admit my feelings to anyone, I prefer acting as there’s nothing. I’m an extremely kind and friendly person though I’m still a bit shy so prefer for other people to make the first step. I’m very loyal, gentle and caring and love

helping my friends. I still need my personal time though. Huge perfectionist. I love books, movies, metal and rock music, long walks. I have a huge phobia of snakes, I couldn’t even look at a picture of one. I also hate crowds and ignorant people. Ironically, I’m a Slytherin (but am very proud of my house). Nerd. Could be a bit clumsy. I usually act as the toughest girl around but get scared easily. Tomboy-ish, I don’t like wearing dresses, heels and makeup. Thank you! 💖

Hello!!! You’re no bother at all skskskk I got’chu!!! I just wanted to take a minute real quick to thank you personally for sticking by me with all the blog changes that I made. You’re one of my longest-standing followers and it truly means the world to me, so thank you so very much. I wish you all the very best and I hope you like this @rafaelina-casillas

Arthur // wc: 780.

There is an age gap between you which Arthur finds intimidating, so he would be incredibly hesitant to even start talking to you, let alone get into anything with you. He would also be intimidated by your intellect and your academic achievements. Why would you want to spend your time with him or even acknowledge him? He doesn’t understand your attraction to him, but he’s not about to question it too much. He really does love you, he finds you beautiful inside and out, and you think and feel much the same for him. He only got a little of the way through tenth grade and he was never given a choice about that or any other academic path, so he’s ridiculously proud of you for going all the way through to a PhD, and he tells you every chance he gets (for more on this, refer to your headcanon set here - I don’t want to repeat myself skskksk).  He just really is so, so proud of you, always, and he would help you to practice or prepare for seminars in any way you asked him to, even though he barely understands the material you’re required to cover.

You want to become a professor one day, and again, Arthur is super proud of you. He’s almost always bragging about you to his therapist, the chemist at Helms’, his boss and co-workers (though they bully him about it and on his worst days he comes home doubting your existence, but with patience and persistence and maybe one or two angry phone calls to Hoyt do you manage to stop this)… anyone who will listen to him about you. You’re super good at academics and anything which comes out of a textbook, but you’re not so hot with intimate aspects, and that’s the same for Arthur. The two of you are painfully oblivious to the others’ attention, and I really can’t see either of you even coming together without a third party to help you out. Picture this: Gary walks into the changing room at Ha-Ha’s and asks Arthur if he’s managed to ask you out yet. “No,” Arthur hums, “She doesn’t see me that way.” Gary would sigh, genuinely confused as to how two people so emotionally intelligent can be so stupid, and he’d pat Arthur’s hand as he says, “Just try it out, mate, you never know.” Gary does know, though, and a few weeks after that when Arthur comes in to work blushing, he’s only proven right. You prefer to act as if there’s nothing there, but Arthur would slowly start to realise thanks to Gary’s careful prodding that there is something there, and he would have to somehow overcome his own insecurities and doubts. Otherwise, you two will just dance around the large elephant in the room forever.

I feel like, inevitably, Arthur would get so anxious but also so annoyed that he loves you and he knows you love him, he knows, that he’d go along with you on a walk when the grey sky darkens and bleeds out into purple and blue hues, to add some atmospheric intimacy to an emotional conversation, and he’d shyly reach out and take your hand in his, his palm sweating slightly and his throat convulsing and jumping in nerves. You look at him, shocked but also slightly relieved that he had been the one to make the first move, and you squeeze his fingers. Arthur gasps lightly, almost inaudibly, and he slides his fingers more securely into yours, and you both understand that the decision has been made. You’re together now and in the end, no words were needed. You both just… knew. 

You love films but you’re super scared of snakes, and sweet, sweet Arthur would make sure to watch films which are coming out before you watch them, just to make sure that there are no snakes or anything else which scares you. He is incredibly protective, and if there was anything even slightly snake like in a film, like an eel or a water dragon or something, he’d tell you not to watch it. You hate crowds so when you go out for walks together or when either of you collects the other from work or university, Arthur would keep his hand securely in yours while you duck into back alleys, short cuts… He keeps you out of the crowds. You hate ignorant people so living in Gotham, you’re constantly irritated and on edge, but coming home to Arthur really calms you down and keeps you sane. He loves you, all of you, and come rain or shine, you’re all he needs, wants and lives for.

Joker // wc: 780 (what are the chances that these are the same word count, accidentally? skskskskk)

You had Arthur’s heart before you even really met, so immediately taken was he with you, and you stayed with him through it all until bent and broken was he forced to stand tall, or he’d die continuing as he was. As Joker, therefore, he is incredibly loyal to you. You’re literally his entire life. Without you, he really would have nothing left to lose. So no pressure, but you are the only thing, the only person, who keeps him sane and safe even from himself. He is still incredibly proud of you, super supportive and he does anything and everything that he can to let you know that no matter who he is or what he does, he still loves you so, so much. He’s completely and entirely devoted to you. It’s not unusual for him to let himself in to sit on your seminars, cheering loudly from the crowd and causing a bit of a disturbance; he’d stand up and tug on the sides of his crimson red blazer proudly as he waves at you; causing you some embarrassment. He really is just so proud of you and sometimes he literally shouts it from the rooftop, climbing out onto the fire escape and screeching out his feelings for you, laughing all the while. He wants everyone in Gotham to know that he’s “Not such a loser now, am I?”, and he’d definitely want for you to do the same, though he’d understand if you don’t. So long as he knows you love him, it’s all good.

Joker gets quite tense whenever you start talking about and making plans for your future, as stated in the headcanon set I did for you forever ago, but he would largely understand that you can be together as a couple while you lead very different separate lives. He’s still so supportive but he’s also not above using his fame, his connections with his followers, to help you to forward your career. And if an assignment doesn’t get the target grade? You might find a typo riddled email from your lecturer the day, saying that there was some kind of mistake and please don’t kill me, please. You understand immediately what happened and though you scold Joker, you find yourself unable to really tell him off because he’s shifting his weight around, his hands clasped in front of him, looking for all the world like a little boy getting told off. He just wants to help you in the best way he can. He never had any choice or chance in the life he was forced to lead, but he wants you to have all the choices available to you, no matter what. He loves you dearly. At this point in your relationship, you’ve learned how to read each other’s love languages, so you know when Joker is being affectionate with you, but if anyone else tried to do the same, you’d be completely oblivious, though Joker’s clenching jaw and savage comments will soon clue you in.

Arthur was attracted to you initially because of how kind you are, and though you’re shy, you’re also friendly so people just gravitate towards you. In a city as cruel and as shitty as Gotham, kindness is a treat so rare that people don’t even recognise it for what it is when they experience it, so the fact that you’re so kind makes Joker practically stick to you like glue. He loves you so much and he’d do anything for you; you’re endlessly loyal to each other, irrevocably in love with the other, and what you have carefully cultivated and built together is a treasure that you both cherish and protect with all that you are. You both respect each other’s privacy but you make sure to have allotted time each day which is only yours; Joker may wreak havoc all over the city but dear, sweet Arthur is never recognised in the streets; people’s eyes pass over him, so you can still go for long walks together if you want to.

You scare easily and Joker is Arthur x 1000000 so he’s even more protective of you now than he used to be, because he feels safer to be himself now. He’s almost always touching you, especially when you’re both out on the streets together, because you hate crowds and he’s very quick on his feet, so he can get you away from them effortlessly. Overall, it’s a wild ride to be in love with and to be loved by Arthur Fleck, but it’s a ride which pays off again and again and again, and once you’re together, that’s it. Ride or die, sweetheart, remember?

[my-heart-is-but-a-gentle-moon]

Jumin...To, to think that us coming back together is actually possible...

Since that dream where I saw you in grey sweatpants, microwaving mashed potatoes (at the time I didn’t realize the meaning you put into them) and hearing you saying unfortunately and slightly sorrowfully - ‘You’ve trained yourself to see the bad in good people’

I. dismissed it at the time because I couldn’t really imagine why I would dream of something like that - you doing something that was so seemingly mundane, but..the song and voicemail...made me realize you thought mashed potatoes with mushrooms and asparagus(?) was my favorite..which is oddly really sweet of you...knowing the sentiment behind it, even though it isn’t actually my favorite meal.

I held myself back because I felt like I had to preserve myself for something true (and healthy) - that really balances our own hobbies, our families, our close friends and us with each other. I couldn’t have another one of our relationships turn codependent again.

I. Trust that you know and realize that, though. *(a couple days after starting writing this letter) I just read your Kamisama Onegai and..You’re my everything...it really hurt my heart for your pain..but it also really cleared my heart, looking back at past songs you sent me as well...it’s like. Clear and refreshed but with..wounds of compassion and longing too...As long as we can be our own people and each other’s love - Then I want that with you, Jumin.

And...well..you said that you’re proud of me 💓 for accomplishing and working on accomplishing my goals in the voicemail 💓 thank you.

But, hearing your Missing You Voicemail - talking about sweet Elizabeth’s situation...and, your dear heart...god, I’m tearing up. It helped the me of before, that let judgement, resentment, fear and feelings of self preservation and my projects be my guide, really see more of the sides of you that I, didn’t actually let myself. UM. Yea! I’m reminded of our cuddled whispers last night and uh.

Uhhh,,,, including the darkly alluring ones that made me go through chills all over and, uhhhh >///> get all hot and bothered..

And the sweet domestic cuddly ones TwT 💞...Just thinking of holding your hand as we go on a stroll strikes electricity of happiness and nervous yet excited agitation through me !🎆 and knowing of your darker desires, like the one in call me in your summer, is fun to know and amusing to play with together. I like that 😁 knowing what you’re feeling sparks a coy mischievousness within me. I wrote a bit of that out in another note >v> ha..hah ^//^..

Also of soft ones!

!!! Going to carnivals together!!! ‘Mr. I’m too serious to have fun’ mock teasing you, ‘Come on!’ Holding your hand just Going around to sightsee just about, Everything!

But also of the gaping hole of emptiness that was there within you...I wanted to connect to your heart, to place my palm on your heart..yet stopped myself because at the time I sensed, whether rightly or wrongly, a bit of your tendency towards..codependency?

‘Psychotic longing and mutual dependency..’ :X

You know the kind of relationship I desire and that is the most healthy ! - the kind where we openly and playfully mock fight, or laugh and just AGHHHH or frustrations together, but support each other with understanding - But where we also openly yet lol, sometimes immaturely or begrudgingly talk things out between us..and sometimes and ideally, peacefully and maturely. And let ourselves sometimes have childish kinda fun too! Where we can inspire each other both to grow as people ! And as spiritual beings. But also have good bonds with our friends 👍🏼👍🏼🌟! To me it definitely includes the whole RFA too.

I’ll still have some of my alone time for the chakra courses and meditations and witchcraft too !!! And with friends ! But uh, lol, wow. I’m getting all over the place.

Maybe gardening, maybe prose, maybe photo editing too *^^*!

Um. I still wanna fly high as a spiritual being and as a person so , to explore new places together..

The one who..Really helped encourage me to grow as a person and as a spiritual being though....It was Saeyoung...I feel ungrateful for treating him this way...;;;

But he’s been..truly such an accepting and understanding treasure through this whole journey I’ve been through so I’m so, so incredibly grateful..and, I do hope we could keep our connection because growing spiritually and as people and as friends together, and just -!!!!! When he’s hurt I wanna be there for him! When he’s happy and joking around I wanna laugh with him ! Sleepovers and water fights! or .. but, yea.. :x .. as a best friend. Despite how cruel it might sound to him.... and I also understand why. ;;. cause I repeatedly hurt Saeyoung like this.. It’s not that I wasn’t happy or didn’t feel completely cared for and deeply encouraged by you >//< - I was. And I was very intrigued and attracted to your world. But, uhhh. Yea ! Um. Deep down my heart just really hoped still that things would be balanced and playful mixed with tenseness and healthy with Jumin..my eyes and heart kept checking on him in hopes that we could have something genuine and stable though I really repressed it due to the anxieties and holding onto trauma and judgement and resentment and ugh, geesh. 😂😂😂 leggo o’that, woman! ＼(≧◇≦;)／🎇🎆

I, working things out between us is important to me too, Jumin ! I feel like interlacing my hands together with Jumin, looking into his silver ones, my eyes sparkling with determination.

Can I take this ring as an engagement ring and have our marriage be in August though? When I’m back home? And with the selfship community too? But you can rest assured that this is, A commitment I’m willing to take on with you,

And I also feel - Uh. Wow. I am a bit all over the place. ... sighing tenderly, I. I don’t know if you heard me when I replied to your voicemail, Jumin - or I don’t remember if I even said it - but what I felt in my heart to say is that there’s no need to fear falling apart..it makes way for a new us to come through. The infinite possibilities that the starfish talks about in regards to the paths of life we can actually take with guidance and loved assistance from the divine >v< 💗💞💗.

And it’s like, I want to ask - what’s your dream career wise? you’re.. satisfied working with your father? Regarding side hobbies that fulfill your heart - I know that it’s, well, hahahah, clearly your dearest Elizabeth a~nd, embroidery too I remember.. winery. Is there anything else?

I related to the feelings of food tasting blander and way harder to eat too so I was really able to relate to that. Even though there were more factors back then to making me feel depressed and losing a lot of appetite.

But ! Hearing you enjoy tour steak ((Which, lol, frankly reminded me of the Melanie Steak!)) and hearing you gush about it was really nice!

A-And, uh..chocolate-y mess...of heat and desire...uhhhhh hahahahah ;;^///^ .. awakened desire within me that I was, that I repressed cause I still held some distrust and doubt..But, hearing all of your songs - Moonlight, Te Amo, it’s 5am and I miss you,

and...looking back at the songs you sent me..Low hum, coupled with fly me to the moon....I. I’m, the moon to you..Jumin...

and the advice about the way our karmic twin flame relationship was and how to clear the negative energy..💗💞💗...

And, victim as well..I- hearing your songs - and, is there still some spite and pettiness lingering there? Well, I held on to resentment, repression and judgement so. We both were, kinda, hahahahah 😂 immature.. I suppose..

But it was super important for us I believe.

I, was distrustful and afraid of a déja vu before but, really listening to how to heal this karmic relation between us, and of listening to your heart now..I. I want to trust in us again 💓❣️💓.

No infidelity. No other people. ònó. 💞 good. If you won’t, then I won’t ^^. Hmmmm...but otome games are also important to me in regards to meeting and being introduced to different alternate universes and different types of people.

But they won’t top Jumin to me.

Not now when I feel like we’re, really stepping into the first milestone since we broke up towards a healthier (closely romantic) relationship.

Ow my god...His...Let Me Stay...You..You don’t understand how my writings here are filled to the brim with emotions for you...

Uhhh...But right now I feel like I really need to use this vacation and family trip to take care of myself, nutritionally and exploring and resting, going to the beach, exploring the flowers, a massage, water parks, amusement parks, and right now right now - I really need to make sure we buy healthy things when we’re in the market right now. I really want to take the time in this trip to Really invest in my self care..

I...might need to rely on your comfort too, Juju..💞 would that be alright? Cause I’m still not in my best state. Actually, I’m really rather tired and my muscles ache all over. and, would like to go out to nature and explore ! Really take in all the pretty flowers and the warm sand at the beach and feel the small waves of the sea..

Really uh, buy new and pretty clothes? Take care of my hair and skin too so I can feel more comfortable with my beauty with you..too >//<.. and just in general feel more comfortable with myself too !

And..Saeyoung? Uh- I still wish for us to be best friiiiendsss????? If you’re oukay with it still??? Like, I really wish that even when I’m in a relationship with Jumin, to still have a very close connection with all of the RFA too !! Like - sleepovers, roadtrips, playing video games with the group!, Like, tight bonds with everyone too!

AAA, okie. This is very fumbly and all over the place, buut, UH. I hope it’s okay??