#again jen cant shut uP

[yourlocalegotisticalqueerishere]

god im so tired i haven't even mentioned that Sasheer Zamata had about five minutes of screen time in episode 8 and still managed to deliver such a beautiful performance in every second of it

and in episode 9 she didn't even have lines and still gave us a masterclass

[devflamme]

yadda yadda yadda agathario, curses, and dead sons

agatha all along spoilers under the cut 🫵

- these screenshots right here reminded me of mrs fletcher and now i cant be normal about it. why was this segment so... horny. ANYWAY back to depression

- also, one thing. what the fuck does switzerland have to do with them. did they go to switzerland together before? is it a joke i didnt understand?

- agatha crying wasnt on my episode 4 bingo. like. FOR REAL. the way she screamed "don't" at lilia, snapped at jen because she couldnt remember what to use to heal teen and just begged rio to not take him from her. btw, this bitch is Death 100%

- "oh no shes blackheart!" "shes mephisto!" dude. did u see the same episode i did??? she talked about agatha killing the whole coven so that she could have the bodies, was just waiting for teen to die of a hemorrhage so that she could get him, talked about a job she did not want to do, mentioned that she was impatient and wanted to cause damage to the coven... death. 100%.

- the way agatha stayed by his side all the time... she only left because teen asked about her son – that was probably when it clicked for her: he is not nick, or, she got hurt by the mention of nick after having him on her mind all the time because of teen. agatha just feels confused.

"you don't have to know someone's name to know who they are."

- the way she talked so softly with him and even joked about his curious tone of voice. she is really attached to him, and i just know that when he is revealed to be wanda's son, her heart is going to break into pieces. again.

- agatha needed this hug so badly. they both needed. they are both supposed to hate each other. agatha runs away from rio like the plague – but after such an emotional trial and the effect of having rio near her, remembering her of their past together, she just needed it. she needed the affection she knew that rio would give her.

- rio gave her the affection she longed for, but also broke her heart again with a single sentence.

"the boy is not yours."

- agatha just wants two things in her life. power and her son back. and it fucking breaks me because... she lost her son because of power. she lost the thing she ALLEGEDLY traded her son for (the darkhold), and the same thing is now destroyed. every single copy. she lost her power. she lost everything, and now she's going through the hell she made her past coven members go through. agatha harkness you are so fucked up.

INTERESTING POINTS I WANT TO TALK ABOUT BECAUSE I CANT SHUT UP

- jen was a midwife. i know that agatha's story is very popular in between witches, but maybe she knew agatha because she helped her during pregnancy? how the fuck did she got pregnant? was it magic? is rio the father? i wanna a dna test.

- dont know if this makes sense but i found interesting that the burn scars from the curse are always on the characters' shoulders. shoulders are where you carry your responsibilities and burdens – the curse is a burden to alice, thats why it affects her shoulders.

- the mention about the man who bound jen's powers really stuck out to me, about him breaking the doctor's oath, also known as hypocrates' oath (btw im translating the name from portuguese to english, it's probably not the same she said on the show)

- "do no harm / primum non nocere" even though the first thing the man did to jennifer was harm her and bound her powers.

anyway i fucking love this show and its characters so bad. please talk with me about it!! would love to chat a little :)

[faghubby]

Drinking buddy

Dave was drunk I took his car keys and helped him to my car.

"I know about Jen?" He told me. Jen was my wife.

"That's good, but I would worry what Kathy if I was you" I laughed

"No, Jen told Kathy how she makes you wear panties and fucks other men" Dave told me. I panicked alittle but just blew it off

"You had too much to drink" I told him

"No she told me you have your dick all locked up" Dave continued loudly. We where outside but I glanced around to see if anyone heard.

"I got to pee" Dave said leaning on my car. "I cant" he laughed as he tried to unzip his pants. I sighed and helped him.

"Pull it out" he whispered in my ear. I again looked around then grabbed his cock and pulled it out. He grabbed my hand having me hold his cock as he peed. I was amazed at his size, even soft. As he finished he held onto me.

"Shake it for me" he smiled. "Or you could like it clean" Dave told me.

"Shut the fuck up" I told him stuffing it back in his pants and put him in the passager seat of my car. I drove him home. As we where about to pull in his driveway he grabbed my hand and held it against his crotch.

"I am so fucking horny and Kathy won't touch me when I am drunk." I pulled my hand away. Thinking damn he has a big cock.

"Knock it off" I told him. I helped him into his house Kathy had me put him on the couch.

"Thanks for getting him home Paul" she said then yelled at Dave.

When I got home Jen was still out, she had been sleeping with her boss for over a month. She didn't try and hide it from me either. It actually turned me on, for some strange reason. I had confessed this to Jen. She didn't care. We slept in the same bed. But she wouldn't touch me. Instead would tell me about what her boss did to her while I jerked off. She would just laugh at me and go to sleep. I went to bed and Dave popped in my head. Well his dick did. How big was it? I got hard thinking about him fucking Kathy or maybe even Jen. I jerked off. I came just before I heard Jen come in. I pretended to be asleep.

I woke the next morning to my phone.

"Hey buddy" Dave said "thanks for the ride last night, any chance you could take me to pick my car up" he asked.

"Sure , give me like an hour" I told him

"No problem, you need that much time to get pretty" he said and hung up. I jumped in the shower. Again I thought about Dave. He thought I was pretty? I knew he was busting my balls. But I pictured his big cock again. But this time what if I had sucked it last night. I started to jerk off in the shower.

When Jen walked in," Don't do that in the shower, you are wasting the hot water" she scolded. I stopped and got out. Jen laughed.

"Sorry I forgot how small you are. And now with it bobbing around" she laughed again. My dick seemed to get harder as she insulted me.

"You are so pathetic" Jen laughed and got in the shower. Jen's dirty cum stained panties laid on the bedroom floor. I picked them up to toss in the hamper then wondered what they tasted like. If I sucked Dave cock what would it of tasted like I thought and without thinking licked her panties. I tasted the salty mixture of there juices. As I started to jerk off again. But heard Jen turn off the water and quickly tossed them in the hamper and started getting dressed.

Grabbing a coffee I went to pick up Dave. He seemed fine as drunk as he was not even suffering from a hangover.

"Thanks again for last night and you know this morning" he said as hegot in the car. I caught myself several times checking out his bulge. What was wrong with me I wasn't gay, I mean I didn't think so. But I had liked the taste of Jen's panties. When we got to his car it wouldn't start. I moved my car to jump start it.

"Man I got to pee" Dave said looking around. "Want to hold it again for me" I knew he was fucking with me, but said fuck it and reached over and unzipped his jeans and reached into pull it out.

"Whoa, there" Dave said looking around nervous he grabbed my hand and stepped into a more secluded spot. Then put his cock back in my hand.

"I never, just wanted to try" I said nervously.

"You will do fine" he smiled I started to jerk him off.

"I know about Jen and he boss" he told me. "And how you like to hear about it" he told me. I grew more nervous "Jen told Kathy" he told me. Then pushed on my head. I dropped to my knees and sucked the tip of my friends cock. I stopped and looked up

"I am not gay" I said trying to assure myself.

"No just need to suck my cock" he told me putting it back in my mouth. I massages his balls as I sucked and licjed the tip. I could taste the precum and it spurred me on. I tried to take more of him. But just kept gagging.

"Going to cum" he warned me, I moved and he shot it on the ground but as he finished I licked up the last bit off his cock. I stood up

"Was it what you expected?" He asked.

"Not exactly" I said unable to look him in the eye.

"But you want to do it again don't you?" He smiled we came back to the cars and each drove home. Jen wasn't home. I found her dirty panties still on top of the hamper. I licked and sucked them as I jerked off thinking about what I should of done differently with Dave. I stopped myself before I came knowing I would feel bad once I did. Instead I searched how to suck cock. I found several helpful how to videos. Explaining even how to learn to deep throat. I then watched a video of a skinny guy in panties sucking a cock while I jerked off. I felt better and all those wierd homosexual thoughts vanished.

It was a few days later when Dave texted /want to go for a drink./ I wasn't sure about this but agreed. He named a strip club. Not my screen but went anyway. I found Dave had already reserved a private dance in a private room. We headed back.

HI, i am Gina. The dancer introduced herself she was about 25 and so hot.

"Now you know the rules you can't touch me" she pointed out.

"That's alright he is going to suck my dick while you dance" Dave told her.

"Really that is so hot" she smiled at me.

"Dave that was a you know one time thing" I started and he pulled out his cock. And looked at me.

"Lucky boy" Gina said "thats a nice big cock you get to suck on" the music started and she started to dance. Dave watched her. I gave up and started to suck his cock. Practicing the tips I had learned.

Gina thought this was so hot.

"Don't finish him to quick" Gina pulled me up to the little stage and danced with me. She slowly helped me strip. I was soon naked. My dick hard and throbbing.

"I see" Gina said touching my dick. "He is so much more isn't he" she said to me. She helped me back to Dave where I tried to swallow his whole cock. I was so turned on now. I felt his rough hand grab my ass.

I didn't want that, I thought but tried even harder to make him cum. This time Dave held my head as he came innmy mouth I gagged and choked coughing he let me go. I was covered in his cum.

Gina was now just sitting there watching playing with herself.

"That was so awesome" she said I crawled back to Dave and licked up and cum I had spilled on him. It was quite a bit too.

I got dressed and Dave and I left he dropped me off at home. Jen was home I tried to go brush my teeth before talking to her. I noticed I had dry cum in my hair as well and showered quick.

I tossed and turned thinking about what I had done at the club. I had some time alone the next day I watched cocksucking videos while I jerked off. It was a whole week till Dave called me again.

I rushed to meet him. This time I suched his dick in his car, then his office, his house, his garage, where ever he wanted it. I was sucking hi cock two to three times a week.

Then one night he calls me up and tells me to meet him at a bar outside of town. As soon as I get there he leads me out and across the street to a sleezy motel. He knocks on the door and a large black man opens the door.

"Suck his cock" Dan tells me. I hesitated only for a mooment then drop as he pull out a large black uncircumcised cock. I suck him hard and am amazed as it grows even bigger in my mouth. Dan and Malcom (I learned his name later sit and drink beer and laugh as I suck his cock. He grabs my head and forces his whole cock down my throat as he cuts straight into my stomach. I am proud I don't spill a drop.

"Why don't you come sit on my lap" Dan says to me. I am not gay. I just suck cock I think to myself. I can't let them fuck me! I am thinking. But as I try and rationalize it in my head Dan grabs my arm and pulls me into his lap. Dan hand slipped under my shirt and pinched my nipples. Malcolm turned on gay porn.

"Look how thst bitch rides that cock" Dan says to me his hot breath against my neck. "You're my whore now, you will do whatever and whoever I say" he says he pulls my tee shirt off. And pushes me to my feet. I bump straight into Malcolm who just pulls my pants and boxers down in one motion. He reaches out and cups my balls in one hand. He has my hard dick and both my balls.

"Now strip bitch" he says. I am basically naked already so I kick off my sneakers and step out of my pants. Malcolm pushs me back to Dan's lap. He starts to jerk me off using two fingers.

"Watch" he tells me I turn back to the TV to see a skinny white boy in a bra getting split roasted by two huge black men. Dan fingers my ass working lube inside. As I watch.

"Malcolm paid me to take your virgin ass" he tells me. I again look over remembering how big he is.

"Yeah it will hurt, but you will let him won't you" he pushed in a third finger. I gasped. "You don't still think you're straight do you, you know you are a fucking gay bitch." He told me. "Now go beg Malcolm to fuck you" he told me. I stood and walked over to Malcolm. I tried to be sexy.

"I am, please take my virgin ass" I said softly. Even crying a bit as I did terrified of what was about to happen. Malcolm stood up and threw me on the lumpy mattress. This place was a dive. I wasn't even sure they had cleaned the sheets. Not sure what to do I got on my hands and knees. Malcolm big fingers pushed more lube in my ass.

Dan left, as Malcolm pushed his cock against my hole. He pushed my head into the mattress and my legs far apart.

"Push out like you are taking a shit" he told me as I did the head of his cock popped in. Pain shot thru me. I tried to move bit he just held me still and waited. I slowly became okay with it. It still hurt but not as much. Malcolm started to slowly move his cock in and out.

"Dan wasn't lying you are one tight bitch" Malcolm teased. Soon he was fucking me with slow short strokes.

"I haven't had a tight white bitch since prison " he told me. And picked up the pace. The pain was intense but with it a strange pleasure.

He gradually went faster and deeper. Soon I felt his balls slapping against my ass. I knew then that this is what I needed for the rest of my life.

[the-firebird69]

This would go in the center and he would simply have black straps and attach them to the material that's not the bladder and I think the whole thing is but he could also put straps that have velcro and strap it to the top straps and one that goes behind on the bottom and that's even better idea it's a lot less work and it just attach whatever those things are something that looks like those metal buttons and you can have one that goes over the face with the centerpiece or two and it would look pretty cool it would look very cool and he might actually work on it I make them out of foam and make it so it attaches and doesn't move around I think it's velcro idea is good and have that centerpiece in the tubes and everything with an actual functioning camel back like this. It's actually his idea and really it'd be quite simple they'll see all those tubes and they light up and inside of his cosplay styrofoam he can put batteries and he could put a switch and do a little routine leather it sounds like a lot of fun the news camelbacks can be like 20 bucks they last in a long time and he could take it off the thing with velcro and use advice clean it's also good for safety because if you land on it it's gonna break your fall. And it's good because you'll stay hydrated the rest of the costume is not really that complicated the mask you said you'd buy online because his would come out funny it's just a cutoff glove this he'll let it gloves everywhere and like in the last thing on the arm and it's just some khaki pants that are there the pants he can buy pretty cheap and the other thing looks like a dust and a vest he can buy it is actually for police but it's not armor it's just a regular vest and you can stick things to it it's pretty clever what he's saying with the backpack of the camelback and really that's all there is to the costume but having it lit and being able to turn it off and on would be awesome and he might put sound to it too that would be even better so you hit the button or two buttons and it shows it getting brighter and lighting up and flashing and there'd be a noise to it too it'll be a lot of fun. I'm gonna start getting into this this is going to rule and he said he would put like a velcro thing again on the belt and he'd find some silver containers and put a power virus in them.

Thor Freya

so basically you would be juicing right in front of us as Bain and he says really close but less fruit and we see and preservatives. lunch i guess lol but ok we say that a lot. lol. hahahh

jenna

oh my

ok

bja

hahaha

trump

i am giddy easy cool but need to be big or musce suit and latex ones are awesome saw them hot need the camelback and with ice a solution. fun too gotta go and pee and yes good. funt iimes.

dave

you ike peeing

trump

yes i do

dave

ahahhah lol the snesatoin

alicia

we all do

tricia

no shit

caa

hahaha

jen m you sure do

shut up you two we are having fun ok fun ok

alicia

we roll on this fun idea

trump and cosplay the pack velcro it on good. we do see it will work easy too. fun tmes. battery for the lights cool. no way fun stuff. good.

we do this too

bja

fun yeh but dangeorus no. good.

bill

we need this to move on

sarah alicia after we lose ok

and do

trump

we shll do this

mc daddy hahah fun ok wow nd he will fle and appear larger good

wow mean stuff

daneil

ok bats youi go back to the asylum now

Bain

no way wont ok you cant make me

batman

leave me out of it then

Bain

we shall and ok

bats

Olympus

[itarz4n]

that’s JOHN “TARZAN” BRUCE II walking down the street, the 21 year old, who looks like booboo stewart. here in apple peak, they are a zookeeper. some say he act(s) like tarzan from tarzan, since he can be fearless, but also a little bit reserved. — !!! 

tarzan is like my top three favourite disney movies ofall time so like !! plot ideas at the bottom of the post!

exteriors

parents were: alice and john bruce i.

the bruces were a wealthy family in apple peak, old money.

there was some scandal when john bruce the first didn’t continue the family business of steel manufacturing and, instead, pursued science (mainly environmental science and )

he met his wife, a documentary-maker, on safari

their big project together was being the first to film and document the unexplored rainforests of the congo, this was in 1996. and they kept it a secret from most people where they were going, so they could really conduct this by themselves and away from prying eyes.

tarzan was born 1997

they survived for one year, in a remote mountain on the congo, and could never escape for fear of being attacked by animals

they were eventually killed by sabor, the leopard, in their makeshift tree-house

the baby tarzan was found by an ape, named kala, and she became his mother

2013: tarzan was found by pygmy peoples when he was 16, but they left him alone in the jungle, only occasionally interacting with him. the next year, when american scientists (the porters !!) on expedition heard about the story, they actively tried to interact with him, and tarzan eventually began to open up, with the help of both groups.

2014: when he was 17, they then took him back to apple peak, and he became the sole benefactor of the bruce fortune -- after the company and the family manor were being taken care of by the board of directors

just this young boy alone in a huge house, where everything was smooth and clean and modern ???

but at least the house was in the middle of the forest, so he spent most of his time outdoors. there’s a huge oak tree back there, planted by great-great grandfather bruce

and also the large glass greenhouse in the backyard. that’s his favourite place.

when it was explained to him, tarzan didn’t know what to do about the company. how could he? he didn’t care for machinery or cars. so the board continues to take care of he company, on the condition that he still shows up as the bruce heir.

and lowkey … he feels that he owes that much to his dead parents. he’ll deal with all the socialising bc he believes that’s the way to honour them

he doesn’t really like … a lot of people, especially since the first three years of his life in western civilization, he was a celebrity. he felt paraded around by the company that sponsored the expedition of the porters, and then his family’s company too. part of the deal to bring him back included interviews with oprah, ellen, and all the newspapers and magazines marvelled about The Ape Boy, The Hairless Wonder, and The Real-Life Tarzan.

BECAUSE THE STORIES OF TARZAN AND DISNEY AND STUFF IS REAL IN APPLE PEAK ??? PEOPLE WOULD KNOW ABOUT TARZAN

he hasn’t read any book or watched any movie about tarzan and refuses to

they really screamed when they found out his name actually was legitimately Tarzan.

and he’s so confused because tarzan was just the name that he ??? he just knew that name, it was the sound the apes would make to call him, and it was the name he knew from his dreams

but yeah huge paparazzi problems

he was just quiet throughout the whole thing

2018: the celebrity hysteria dies down, but he’s still remembered and recognised as Real Tarzan.

appearance

deserves its own section

he has long black hair !!

insanely muscled body

height: 1.94m/6′3″

BOY IS TALL

his hands have been shaped oddly, there’s more space around his knuckles from crawling on all fours all his life. he also has huge hands as a result. will put his hands in his pockets most of the time bc people tend to stare

pls watch this video for visual rep (its from the movie ‘legend of tarzan’!!)

interiors

such a quiet boy, just wants to be left alone with the people he loves (which is a very small number now). 

wants to know as much as possible about his family and what their plan for him was

happiest when he’s in the huge backyard of his family manor, or in the zoo. 

CALL HIM JOHN. he’ll answer to tarzan bc he’s nice but he’ll be super uncomfortable. not really the type to tell you that he doesn’t like to be called tarzan but he’ll say like “hi ... my name’s john, though ......”

really doesn’t want to be a public attraction anymore

he’s working through it :((

IN APPLE PEAK:

tarzan started introducing himself as john because he was sick of being stared at

was offered a position of zookeeper in the apple peak city zoo

his main area are the ‘exotic animals’ and african animals

he takes care of them and keeps the company

has outright refused to do shows or presentations with the animals. if someone catches him playing with the apes its because he wants to and not as some timed show

his nametag is “john” but everyone would recognise him as tarzan

the company is called: SILVERSTEEL. it’s been around since like colonial times, the bruces like to say they’re direct descendants of old scottish royalty. they have global connections and everything, it’s pretty huge.

no one could find the bruces for years because it was a secret expedition, and they never told anyone where they were going except “africa”

DREAMS:

he doesn’t know whether to consider them memories or dreams

because his life here has been so similar to his ‘true’ life, he can’t tell the difference

but his mother is different sometimes, the language is different, his interactions with his ape family is different, and his dreams seem more vibrant and colourful, while his reality was rather dirty and harsh 

like he remembers the names of his ape family as kala, terk, and tantor the elephant -- but did he actually know these names, or are they from his dreams??? whO KNOWS 

he’s been having these dreams since he was brought to the civilized world

he hates that everyone acts like they know more about him than he does. which is sort of true but also ... makes him feel so insecure 

FUN HEADCANONS THAT DONT MAKE ME SAD

he climbs trees still. 

PARKOUR !!!!

probably makes ppl swoon without knowing bc like he smiles and ???? chiselled jawline ?? handsome, strong eyes ??? BICEPS ??? lean body ??? soft boy who loves animals ? wow

the company has tried to make him go on dates before (usually to like any heiresses and heirs) and he’s been nice to all of them but nothing’s rly worked out. 

one time he spent more time with the fish in the tiny fish tank at a restaurant than his date

there was also one dinner date at the zoo. which was useless bc he just straight-up left to hang with the animals

the butler of the manor/his babysitter/his driver who’s basically alfred pennyworth: “master john what are you doing up there”

john in a tree with a monkey: “hanging”

PLOT IDEAS

just LOTS of people recognising him as “that jungle tarzan kid that was on oprah like two years ago, oprah actually came out of retirement”. he’ll hate it but like i want that so cvhbkshje

people from old apple peak families that would know the bruces and he’d be more open with them if they knew his family well. he just wants to know more about who he’s meant to be :((

he’ll try out any sport so please all the jocks welcome him

ppl who work in the zoo or go to the zoo a lot!!

GOD GIVE ME A JANE, and the headlines were “ME TARZAN, YOU JANE” for AGES and he just hated it please. but honestly, jane is his life-line. pls he needs her.

GIVE ME THAT “LEGEND OF TARZAN” AESTHETIC

[nctsplug02]

yes hi hello can we all imagine jen hearing in on mrs jeong domming mr jeong

[12:57am]

genre: fluff and smut

warnings: sexual talking, dry jumping, sexual touching, drunk mrs jeong, jen being nosy again, riding, unfinished sex, teasing, nipple play

jen had asked to stay for the night since it was already late out which jaehyun agreed to. he took you upstairs and laid you on the bed after you passed out in the car from having a bit too much to drink.

“alright, goodnight jen.” jaehyun says after taking jen to one of the guest room. “goodnight mr jeong, sweet dreams.” she mumbles when the door shuts.

jaehyun turns the mini corner but pauses when seeing the empty bed. “honey?” he walks in and closes the door shut. “honey—?” the lights shut off and the leds turn dark purple.

“hey sexy.” he turns his head at the slurry voice. he sees you leant against the bathroom door frame with a silk maroon red robe on. “babe?” jaehyun tilts his head. “mhm.” you hum slowly, pushing yourself off the frame and stumbling towards the bed.

he watches in full focus as you crawl onto the bed and spread yourself out. knees slightly in the air as you stretch in a sexy, seductive way.

jaehyun feels himself harden. his pants becoming tight. the air becoming so hot.

“come join me, baby.” jaehyun undoes his belt and jeans, kicking them off and to the side. he then climbs into bed and on top of you.

you hook your ankles around his waist then you flip him over. he was now under you, his harden cock sitting below your heated pussy.

you lean down, pressing your breasts against his chest. “uh-uh, im top tonight.” jaehyun holds his breath as you lick a long stripe from his jaw to his cheekbone. his cock getting harder and harder just from the small action.

“you taste so good.” you moan into the kiss, pushing yourself away from his lips and pulling at his bottom lip.

you sit up, undoing the robe and slowly pulling it off, dropping it off the bed. jaehyun shudders at the lingerie you had on. “fuck, baby.” jaehyun groans and inhales painfully.

you squeak when he spanks your ass roughly. fuck, he couldn’t hold back.

jen, in the next room was wide awake, tuning in to the commotion that happened in the next room. the walls were thick yet thin.

“stop, im the dom tonight. not you.” you pinned his arms above his head. “don’t try me tonight unless you wanna be punished.” your chin jutting up. “no ma’am.”

“such a pretty boy you are.” you rock your hips, swiftly moving them back and forth to create more friction. “such.. a pretty boy.” you moan, rolling your neck in a circular motion.

you sit up, reaching behind you and freeing jaehyun from his briefs. “wanna ride this pretty dick.” you pushed your panties aside and lowered yourself on his dick that slipped in perfectly.

jaehyun brings his hands to your hips as you begin to ride him slowly. his cock bottoming you out as you roll your hips.

“ah, yes. fuck, baby. make me feel good— fuck.” you moan with gasps in between. “feel so.. full.” you hiss, pressing your palm against his abs as you plop your hips up and down.

“jae,” you moan, running your hands up to your breast and undoing your bra. “oh, jae.” you gasp, voice shaking as if you were going to cry. “mmm~” you bite down on your bottom lip while pinching your perky hardened nipples.

“oh, my god.” you gasp, legs shaking as your orgasm hits. you fall forward, breasts connecting to jaehyuns sweaty chest.

“did she cum?” jen wonders. “i could last longer.” she scoffs to herself. “poor mr jeong, who’ll finish him off?” jen frowns.

“cant.. tired.” you mumble, eyes fluttering shut as your slumber begins to take over.

jaehyun shakes you gently and sighs, softly laughing and pulling you off him. he tucks himself away and tucks you in bed.

“goodnight, my love.” he kisses your forehead and then rushes to the bathroom to finish himself off.

[kpopluvrsblog]

I got you princess

Requested: may i please request for a jealous bsf mark where he sees y/n getting wasted in the club (because she saw mark getting close with the popular girl) and she's with yeonjun so he drags her out and they fight but end up confessing to each other.. i hope that isn't confusing haha thanks !

Genre: angst + fluff, smut!

Pairing: mark x fem!reader

Warnings: SMUT! Dom!mark x sub!fem!reader, unprotected sex ( uak the drill ), reader goes somewhat into subspace at the end, creampie , kind of rough sex, slight masturbation suggestive dancing, swearing, use of the word slut

A/n: this is so long,,, SORRY I ADDED SMUT i cant help myself when it comes to mark... if anyone doesn’t want to read that part it is at the end!!

You slam your locker shut, sighing loudly as “those two” pass by murmuring amongst themselves. By “those two” you mean mark and little miss popular. It’s not that you were popular but of course everyone loves miss perfect aka Jen and they can’t see through her facade. “Me and mark used to be like that..” you whispered to yourself.

“HEY Y/N” someome suddenly screamed in your ear. “YEONJUN!! oh my,,, you scared me!” You whined and smacked his arm lightly, making him chuckle to himself. “ Mmm sooo how’s your little crush on mark going? He seems to be all over jen today...” yeonjun asked with a face of concern.

“ oh a little?” Your eyebrows shot up with sarcasm. “Honestly, its... ever since they’ve gotten closer, she’s got him wrapped around her finger. Its as if me and mark had never been friends.” You look off to the side and scoffed at how whiny you sounded.

“No no no y/n... thats it!! I am not letting you sulk over this loser. He doesn’t understand anything.” He rolled his eyes before continuing “ we need to go out!!” He said happily. “ go where exactly?” You questioned as you grabbed his hand and started to walk to the exit of the school. “ go clubbing!!” Yeonjun said excitedly.

‘Clubbing huh... that doesn’t sound too bad!’ You thought in your head. “ alright clubbing it is!!”

That leads to where you are now. Looking at yourself in the mirror, wearing a burgundy fitting dress which made all of your curves stand out and matched it with burgundy heels as well. You have done light makeup with a black winged liner and added diamond jewelry pieces.

“DAMN y/n... baby you look GREAT!! wow you look so good i-“ yeonjun cut himself off when he reached up to his mouth and wiped off his drool, his actions making you laugh. “Stop!! Lets just go!” You said while laughing. You noticed his attire matches yours. He was wearing a burgundy suit as well which complimented him so well. “You look really good too though...” you smiled brightly at him as he grabbed your hand, thanking you with a blush on his face and brought you to his car.

The drive to the club was around 30 minutes. Yeonjun had found a club or as he called it “ the best club you’ll ever go to” and insisted that you both go there for the night. He said he wouldn’t drink so he could be your DD ( designated driver).

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Your mouth dropped open when he pulled into the private parking lot for the club. “Yeonjun this is..” you trailed off in awe. “Amazing. I know.” He finished the sentence for you. “alright, in we go!!” He jumped excitedly.

As you walked to the large glass double doors. The bright lights and blaring music became clearer. You could see the many people that were occupied inside. Yeonjun said something to the security man standing outside, which u didn’t understand since you were too busy admiring the place, but before you knew it he was leading you inside.

“ALRIGHT, drinks first baby we gotta get you to loosen up before we get started.” He shouted over the music and the yells of the other people as he brought you to the bar. When he talked to the barista you started to scan the crowd of unfamiliar faces, smiling at the sight of everyone having fun. Suddenly you furrowed your eyebrows... ‘was that mark?? What was he doing here... wait, jen is... dancing on him.. woah, okay.’ Your thoughts ended as yeonjun poked your side and handed the shot glass to you “ thanks” you smiled at him and chugged the drink, feeling the hot liquid slide down your throat, leaving a slight burn.

“Agh” you winced at the flavor causing yeonjun to chuckle. “Its good huh?” He smirked. You turned back to the barista, “excuse me!! Can you give me the strongest shot you got?!” You questioned with a smirk. “Challenge accepted” the barista laughed and went to mix you up a drink. If mark can have fun why can’t you?? It’s time to get over him.. he’s obviously taken. “Is that mark here??! What the fuck man!!” Yeonjun shouted with a look of pure disgust when he saw who was attached to him.

“Y/n lets go! We’re going to go dance and show him what he’s missing!!” He looked back over to you just in time to see you take the mystery shot. “Damn that shits strong” you croaked and laughed when you saw yeonjun smiling at you.

He pulled your hand through the crowd of bodies and brought you to an open spot. Already feeling the alcohol take its place you started to dance with yeonjun wrapping your hands around his neck as he placed his hands on your hips. You smiled up at him and turned around in his grip, bending fowards slightly, now grinding your ass up against his bulge with his hands still groping your hips as he grinds into you.

You stood back up, still moving your hips and reached your arms over your shoulders to hold onto the back of his neck lightly. You looked up and met a gaze of who you completely forgot about. Jen was no where to be seen and mark was leaning against the wall with his arms crossed, biting his lip harshly and glaring at the man groping you. Yeonjun leaned down slightly to press a light kiss to your neck and thats when mark broke.

One second you were dancing with jun and the next someone was leading you to a secluded place of this club. “WHAT the fuck are you doing mark!!! Let me go!!” You shouted as he pulled you into one of the empty backrooms. “Shut up.” Is all he said while he went to block you from leaving the room. “Shut up?!! What do you mean shut up!! Ive been shutting up since you decided to ignore me for the schools slut!!” You shouted at him trying to push him out of your way.

“HEY!! She is not a slut first of all-“ you cut him off with a slap to his face making him stare at you in shock. “Not a slut?? Mark where do you think she ran off to huh?! You think you were the only guy shes been talking too?! What a dumbass... im leaving now.” You declared waiting for him to move out of your way.

“Y/n... listen-” Mark started. “No!! I don’t want some pity apology to leave your mouth! I want to leave and never see you again.” You stated with your arms crossed until mark suddenly pulled you into his chest, arms wrapped tightly around you, as if he let go it would cause you to disappear. “ what the- Let me go!!” You mumbled into his suit.

You heard him sniffle and now realized that he was crying... a lot. Even though he is a dumbass you can’t help your feelings for him. “Listen y/n... im so so sorry that i pushed you away. I just- oh my gosh. I love you y/n... so very much that I unintentionally pushed you away and when i noticed how close you were to yeonjun, i thought that i could never treat you like how he does, i could never make you happy and i KNEW THAT. When jen started to pay attention to me, i thought i could take my mind off of you and that you would have a better life without me in it. I know how she is y/n... but my jealousy got the better of me. The reason why she left just now is because I wasn’t paying attention to her. How could i when you were standing so beautifully in front of me... and thats when i noticed that i couldn’t get over you, especially with yeonjun touching all over you when that could’ve been me if i tried and i- hmmph“

He was talking too much... his words making tears rolls down your face, soaking up into his suit. You leaned up to press your lips tightly against his. His body stiffened when your lips touched his... they were so soft. He quickly loosened up and hugged you tighter, his lips now moving with yours as you continued to make out. After a few minutes you pulled apart, a string connected between you both, chests heaving. You knew you looked like a mess but mark still looked down at you with so much love.

“First of all your still a dumbass...” you whispered, causing mark to giggle. “ I’ve never stopped loving you, me and yeonjun are just friends and he knows about my crush on you. But when you started ignoring me.. wow it hurt so bad and it pains me to admit that. I was so jealous that I couldn’t be with you-“ mark cut you off with another peck. “Mark let me finish!!” You blushed trying to pry him off of you.

“No i already know where this is going... im sorry for being a fucking idiot but i really do love you and i hope you can forgive me.” He said while letting a few more tears out.

“Okay no more crying!! Of course i forgive you and I obviously still love you too... you’re lucky you only ignored me for around a month though...” you trailed off into a fit of giggles. “Lets leave this place y/n, ill tell yeonjun whats going on and ill take you to my place to get you cleaned up okay??” Mark said while caressing your hair lovingly. “Mhm lets go!”

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《smut starts》

After some time, you and mark had finally arrived at his house. “Ahhh okay here we are.” He sighed when he pulled into his driveway. “ okay lets get you cleaned up hmm?” He questioned when you both entered his house. Too tired to answer you hummed an answer back hoping he would understand, of course he did. Having already been here many times before, you remember where everything is which made it easier to navigate through his home. “Lets take off these shoes first, i bet your feet hurt so bad right now.” He pouted and sat you down on his couch, leaning down to take off each heel and lightly massaging your sore feet. “ it’s alright you can close your eyes baby ill take care of you.” Mark then leaned up to peck your lips one last time to hear you mumble “ thanks baby i lovveee you hmm” you then closed your eyes and felt him pick you up, bridal style and bring you into his bathroom. He took off your jewelry and placed them safely in the cabinet. He then proceeded to remove any excess of makeup that you had left on your face.

He was debating whether or not he should bathe you, as you probably feel gross. Since you had not fallen asleep yet, you decided that you wanted to be clean. “Baby you can bathe me its okay. I trust you.” You said softly, making mark smile at your cuteness. “Alright, im going to undress you now, lift your arms up for me.” You did as you were told, he took the snug dress off of your body, leaving you in your matching lace bra and panties... he couldnt help but get turned on. He thought your body was outstanding. Mark shook his head lightly trying to get out of his thoughts, you, now with your eyes open, noticed his actions and smirked. “Whatcha looking at?” You questioned innocently while looking down at your body.

“I uh- uhm oh yeah ill start the bath” he blushed and moved to the tub, now filling it up with hot water. The alcohol had mostly wore off now, since you hadn’t drank a lot. You started to unclip your bra and pull off your panties. “Mark can you help me in the tub please” you asked. You both knew you were capable of getting in yourself but nonetheless he grabbed your hips and set you softly into the tub.

“Dont you want to get clean too?” You asked and pulled lightly on the bottom of his tie. He smirked at your request and pecked your cheek. “Let me go get clothes for us to change into and ill be right back.” When he walked out you couldn’t help but notice his hard on. God he was so hot.

You knew you had some time. Whats the harm in just touching yourself a little? You fingers slowly trailed down to your clit and you slowly rubbed circles on the sensitive nub, letting your head fall back and small moans pour out from your mouth. “Having fun without me?” Mark asked with his clothes off and standing in the doorway, his hard dick on display. Where did this Confidence come from? He came up to the tub and lifted you out now patting you dry and emptying the tub.

“Do you really want this?” He looked you in the eyes as he asked this. “Yes i really want this please” you answered and bit your lip. “We’ll bathe after this then okay?” He didnt give you time to answer as he picked you up and brought you out of the bathroom straight into his room. He placed you gently on top of his bed sheets, luckily there was a thick blanket on top that he had layed out, so now the sheets won’t be dirty.

You pulled him on top of you and trapped him between your legs as you made out with him, lightly sucking and pulling on his lips, with your hand running through his soft disheveled hair. He groaned into your mouth as the tip of his dick brushed against your slick entrance. “Just put it in im wet enough and i really need you i cant wait please please please- OH” you moaned aloud as he followed your requests. His thick dick now stretching out your tiny pussy. 

“Fuck baby your so tight for me, damn you feel so good. Does it feel good for you baby?” He whimpered into the crook of your neck as he pushed your thighs apart farther, his hips now pressed tightly against yours. “It- um.. mmh” you already couldn’t form a sentence...

He chuckled and put his hand under your head, now holding you even closer. “Fuck.. m- mm move please” you whimpered. You were so sensitive and felt so full with him pressing against your cervix. He slowly pulled out and pushed back in, which made you gasp and clench even more, making it hard for him to move. “Loosen up for me hm? Let me fuck you properly. Show you how its done baby” you followed his orders and let him keep hitting that spongy spot deep inside of you. “A- ah keep going” you let out gasps and moans as he was now pounding into you. Mark was breathing heavily as he sucked marks onto your pretty delicate skin.

He snaked a hand down to rub on the nub you were playing with earlier. “Feel good?” He questioned and got a moan in response. He knew you were close by how you started to clench uncontrollably. “Im gonna cum shit im going to-“ you stopped your rant when he went even harder than before, you could feel him in your stomach. “I know baby. Cum. Cum all over me and make a mess. I got you.”

“FU-“ your orgasm was so hard that you went silent as your eyes rolled back, nails leaving streaks on his back. “Fuck y/n im cumming” he came inside of you with long hot ropes shooting into the deepest parts of your body, filling you up to the brim with warmth. You both came down together... only mark came down actually. “You’re okay princess. You did so good. Come back down to me, im waiting” mark whispered to you as he pulled out of you slowly, watching a white mess come gushing out of you. “Mmhm i did good?” You asked with a whimper while holding onto your stomach, feeling full. “Yes princess, so so good for me. Im going to bathe you and change you now okay? You can sleep, i know you’re tired.” After hearing his words you fell into a deep sleep knowing that he would take care of you.

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You woke up with the feeling of being wrapped in warmth. You groaned as you turned around in marks hold, now facing his angelic sleeping face...’ he looks so at peace’ you thought. You also noticed that he dressed you in an oversized sweatshirt of his and gave you a pair of his boxers to wear. He really did clean and take care of you last night huh...his grip tightened around you and you left a soft kiss to his lips as you fell back into your slumber with a smile, knowing that you were definitely going to spend your life with this man.

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He’s just like the sun, Part 3  Daryl Dixon x Reader 18+

Summary: Daryl had broken you again, You had turned to rick for comfort finding a different kind of life with his family. Negan finding you in Rick’s home ends up bringing you back to Daryl. For Always <3

Part one                    Part two

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*Hey lovelies! If any of you have stuck with this story this long then i really appreciate you!! Apologies in advance for the extreme roller coaster of this chapter! I decided not to proof read this one and just go with my gut on the progression, So if there’s any mistakes or anything you didn’t like as always please let me know! Also let me know if you liked it and if i should right some more Daryl/Norman stuff as i don’t think i’m ready to let it go yet aha! Also! I decided to add pictures of the people when the pov changes and for the reader i added my own pictures from a shoot a few years back. If it’s too cheesy let me know haha! 

I hope you enjoy my crazy mind!

Love to you all! Love Jen x*

Warnings: References to abuse, Smutty smut!, Talks of violence, Lots of cussin! 

Recap:

You had tried to talk to Daryl after that and he had pretended you didn’t exist. You were grateful that because of your growing friendship with Rick he had let you stay with him and the kids. 

You found yourself spending more time watching Daryl wishing he would just look at you but he never did. 

It was on one of these nights watching him that you saw it and he broke you all over again..

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This was worse than anything Spencer ever did to you, You could handle him hurting your body because he was never able to get your heart. Your heart had always been safe with Daryl until now….

You turned to leave when your clumsy self managed to kick the plant pot over, His eyes met yours. You couldn’t stop now, You couldn’t look at him. You carried on and ran back to Rick’s house bolting the door behind you and ran straight to your room. 

Rick followed you “Y/N, What’s going on?” As he was about to reach you, The pounding on the front door started. “Please don’t let him in” Rick looked confused and walked to the front door unbolting it. 

Your eyes met again as you slammed the bedroom door locking it behind you and hid inside your closet locking that too. 

You tore at your hair, He lied. Spencer was right! He was right and you were a fool. You could hear them now getting closer shouting at each other, You held your hands over your ears, You couldn’t hear any more of his lies! You knew it was only a matter of time before they were in the room and he would find you. Without a second thought you left the closet and left through the open window. 

You went to the only place you could think of that he wouldn’t look for you. 

Rick’s Pov

The kids were in bed and he was enjoying a few minutes of peace for a change. He was always running off for some reason or another. It was nice to just have a typical family night. He didn’t think these were going to be possible once the end came. He and Y/N had made dinner for Carl & Judith and played a board game with Carl occupying Judith by pulling silly faces at her. When Judith started to get tired Y/N put her down and came back to finish the game with Carl before sending him to bed too. 

You and Y/N had sat in comfortable silence in the living room before she had decided to go take a walk and He had stayed back to keep an ear out for the kids, He’d cleared up after dinner and now just sat in his living room enjoying the peace. 

Before he could let out another contented sigh the front door flew open. Y/N Slammed the door behind her and had locked the deadbolt. Within a flash she was flying down the hallway to her room. 

Rick jumped to his feet chasing her “Y/N What’s going on?” He reached out to her as she got to her doorway when the sound from the front door made him spin around.  “Please don’t let him in” Y/N begged. He shot her a confused look before heading to answer the door. 

They weren’t knocking any more they were trying to kick it in, You flung the door open in between kicks seeing who was there “What the hell brother! My kids are sleepin and you’re bringing this shit to my door?” 

Daryl tried to push past Rick but he caught him and pushed him out of the house. “Your not comin in here like this, What’d you do. Why she tell me not to let you in”

“Get outta ma way Rick. Ya don’ understand” Daryl yelled. 

“I’m tryna understand, brother, Tell me what happened?” 

“Y/N, Y/NNN PLEASEE” Daryl rushed Rick again and got past this time. 

Rick rushed past him down the corridor and blocked Y/N’s door. 

“You needa calm down Daryl, She don’t wanna see you right now” 

Daryl had seen read and spat “Oh yeah? And she wants to see you does she? I seen the way you look at each other. I seen her rushin into ya arms all the time, Good ol’ boy rick. Moving in on another man’s woman!” Daryl was pacing now clenching his fists.

“Woah now buddy, I haven’t moved in on anything. It aint even like that. She needed you but you were off with Nicole so I was there for her. She’s family we all needa look out for each other” 

“I don’ wanna do this with ya now Rick, Get outta ma way or ill move ya my damn self!”

Daryl pushed past him again and easily broke the lock. Searching the room Rick’s eyes locked on the open window. He pointed it out to Daryl. “Ya gonna have to look somewhere else - She’s gone” 

“Cant have gone far” Daryl said before taking off out the window after her. Rick put his hand through his hair and walked back into the living room, He looked through the front door and saw Nicole standing there. He glanced over her and shut the door. 

Not dealing with that shit too he thought, Taking his seat back on the couch. 

Daryl’s Pov

He knew you had been watching him since your fight, He had been watching you right back, Wanting more than anything to just run to you and keep you safe, But you would never be safe with him, He was a virus turning everything around him to shit. 

Nicole was becoming less of a welcome distraction since she had kissed you before Y/N was found, She was now everywhere he turned, She changed her shifts to match his and would try and walk with him home after trying to get him to invite her in. 

He hated her incessant nagging, How she always found a way to touch him. Pawin at him. He tried to tell her to stop but it only seemed to make her more determined. 

Y/N understood when to push and when to back off and Nicole just wasn’t understanding the back off part. 

Between Nicole’s naggin on shift and Carol’s nagging at home he was starting to lose it. He wanted to go on a long ride out and be alone but he couldn’t leave again. Even though Spencer was now dead he couldn’t risk leaving Y/N alone in this town without him to keep a watch on her. 

Carol had caught him staring at Y/N’s usual spot at the table and huffed “How many times have i told you to go get that girl back hmm? You need to apologise and make it right! You treated her bad Daryl but she still needs you. If you go to her now, She’ll forgive you” 

He knew she was right but he couldn’t fight the feeling that this was still all his fault he had done this to her, He hadn’t fought hard enough to have Spencer from the community and had let his guard down around him. 

His daddy was right, he was worthless and didn’t deserve love. 

He wondered what Merle would’ve thought of all this, Probably would have told him to stop being such a pussy and go get his woman. 

He looked over at Carol. “You really think she’d forgive me now?” She nodded yes “Now go get our girl back” He looked over at the clock he had a few hours before shift. He could do this. 

He ran through the streets until he made it to Rick's house and stopped in his tracks when he saw you through the window, Happy. 

You had your arms around Judith and Rick had his arms around you both while Carl was pulling faces at her making you all laugh. 

Looking through that window was like looking into the home he had always wanted. Y/N just slotted right in to their family like she was always meant to be there. Making him think she was never meant to be with him. 

He watched for a while, watching how comfortably she took Judith to bed, Then lay back in Rick’s arm’s laughing with Carl. 

He couldn’t watch it anymore. He couldn't watch you be happy with your best friend, Giving him that smile you had previously reserved only for him.

You stormed off into the dark towards the tower and watched Nicole send the previous shift home waiting at the bottom for you as she always did. 

Once the other guys had left he went for it, Storming forward he grabbed Nicole and pushed her up against the tower. 

“Guess it’s your lucky day aint it girl” He kissed her harshly feeling her submit to him instantly She tried to wrap her arms around him and he held her hands back. He moved his hands to her jeans impatiently wanting to get this over with and feel something other than regret and shame. 

She helped him now pull her jeans off and then his. Lifting her into his arms he plunged himself into her, Clasping his hand over her mouth to stifle her moans. He fucked her, this wasn’t the gentle love making he would have with Y/N this was transactional and he was regretting it already. 

All he could do is wish it was Y/N in his arms in his bed holding her body close to his loving on him. He didn’t want this. He started pulling away Muttering that he was sorry to Nicole when he heard a smash to the right of him. 

Instantly meeting her eyes. Shit. 

Y/N

Sitting on the floor with the door open you drank, Drank that big bottle of special whiskey he was saving for a “Special occasion” Fuck special occasions the only special occasions left were the days you were still breathing. 

You were finally able to look at the mattress, You were surprised it was still there, You were surprised anything was still here in this house. You thought when you had come in that they would have set to work on it already clearing it out to make use of it again but no everything is still exactly where it was left when you were last here. 

You weren’t sure how long you had been there before Rick had found you. He came and sat on the floor next to you taking the bottle from your hands and taking a swig. You sat in silence like that until you’d finished the bottle between the two of you. Shaking the empty bottle to show you, Rick took your hand in his. “You ready to go home now?” 

You nodded at him both standing feeling a little more than tipsy now he wrapped his arm around your shoulders guiding you up the stairs and out of the house. You walked back to his house like this taking comfort from the warmth of him on the chilly night. When you reached the porch you settled into the swing outside.

Rick nodded at you understanding, He walked inside and sent Rosita home who must have come to keep an ear out for the kids. She smiled at you when she left. Rick came back out to you a few minutes later with a fresh bottle and a blanket. He sat down and threw the blanket over the two of you and handed you a glass. You took it gratefully your original buzz was already wearing off. 

You wrapped yourself back up in Rick again sighing into his chest, Drinking your whiskey and just enjoying the moment. These were the only moments that you could feel your mind pause and go numb, Rick had that effect on you. He was uncomplicated, simple and you could never question his loyalty to his people and how far he would go to protect any one of you. 

You smiled into his chest now, Rick stiffened slightly. “Wanna tell me what happened earlier?” 

You took a deep breath and offloaded - Something you were learning to do quite well. 

“I saw Daryl with Nicole. They were behind the guard tower. They were” You choked on the next words “Let's just say they had moved past first base running straight for a home run” 

“What a Dumb ass, I’m sorry you had to see that Y/N” he murmured into your hair kissing it. 

“I’ve told you before your welcome with us, The kids love you and i can’t say i mind you here either” 

You looked up at him now moving your head onto his shoulder “You sure Rick? I don’t want to be bringing any more drama to your door, The kids need a simple happy life now” 

He smiled down at you hearing that he brought his hand to your cheek caressing it.

“I’m sure if you are Y/N, The kids will be ok. Little bit of excitement will keep em on their toes” He chuckled. 

Maybe Rick was exactly what you needed right now, You knew you would never want to be without his little ones now they were making you feel whole again and given you a new reason to carry on. You loved them.

You both stared into each other's eyes leaning in ever so slightly to him, You saw him lean in also when you heard someone clear their throat. Both of your heads span towards the noise. 

Daryl was leaning against the rail of the porch. “So this is what not moving in on another’s girl looks like huh Rick?” You stood up from the swing about to defend yourself and then realised you had nothing to defend. He did.

“What do you want Dixon? Come here to Lie to me some more or just trying to further ruin a nice evening?” 

His eyes went dark “I aint ever lied to ya Y/N” You Scoffed “Yeah okay after today you think i’m going to believe anything you say?” 

Rick saw this as his queue to leave he grasped your hand slightly “Gonna go check on the kids, You gonna be ok?” You nodded and smiled up at him “Yeah i'll be ok, He may be an asshole but he won’t hurt me...Not Physically anyway. I’ll be in soon” He let go of your hand, walked into the house and shut the door. 

You walked past Daryl into the street and away from the houses knowing he was following you. Once you had walked far enough away you span around to him. “What, Could you possibly have to say to me?”

“It’s like that now is it Y/N?” His eyes looked hurt. 

“Don’t you try and turn this on me Daryl. You ignored me for weeks, When I needed you! And if that wasn’t hard enough to take, You completely abandoned me. Making me watch you with her for weeks! Then!!! I had to see you Fucking her! In the open! What the fuck is wrong with you Daryl!!” 

He stayed silent staring at the ground. “Every moment for two months i thought about being back to you desperate for you to love me again, But you were full of shit. You lied you fucking lied to me. Just tell me the truth now. Why did you even bother coming tonight, What more could you possibly want from me?”

“How many times i have to tell ya, I aint ever lied to you. I do love ya and ya love me!” He looked down ashamed. “She was just easy I -” You scoffed “Yeah i saw how easy she was” 

He continued “Will ya listen to me woman!” He seethed, He waited until he was sure you were listening “I couldn’t face you knowin it were ma fault. Feelin like i did this to ya. I couldn’t even touch ya without feeling sick, I heard ya know. I heard ya tell Carol what that vile bastard did, I wanted to go back and rip his heart out. I would of ripped mine out and given it to ya, If it would of helped” 

“What good is any of this now Daryl, You’ve betrayed me on every level” 

“Let’s talk about betrayal naw should we? That was my best friend you were cozying up to back there”

“Nothing happened Daryl, I can’t say it wasn’t going to but at that point it hadn’t but so what you’ve moved on with her” You spat the word her with as much venom as you could. 

“I only did what i did because i saw you two tonight, Cuddled up like one big family his arms around ya, I couldn’t take it i needed to feel somethin other than shame and pain….She don’t mean nothin to me -” 

“That makes it so much worse, That someone who means nothing to you could take you from me”

And like magic there she was lurking in the shadows approaching “I meant nothing to you D? Then what was that back there?” 

He rolled his eyes groaning “Crawl outta ma ass woman!” 

You glared at the two of them “I hope your happy together, Stay away from me Daryl” 

“No Y/N no I won’t I love ya! And you love me. I know you do” 

You stormed off back home now aware he was still following you begging you to stay with him. He was still on your heels when you got home Rick met you on the steps hearing the commotion outside you ran to him letting him pull his arms around you and take you inside, You looked back at him, He was crying now “Y/N please, Please Choose me” 

“You didn’t leave me a choice Daryl” You shut the door behind your both and Rick guided you up to his room, He lay there just holding you until you had cried it out and fell asleep in his arms and for the first time in a long time when you woke you weren’t alone. 

Daryl’s Pov

Nicole had had the gone sense to leave him the fuck alone after last night, Yeah he felt bad for using her then abandoning her like that, He hadn’t meant to be an asshole and he would apologise. He just couldn’t face it yet. 

He lay in their bed facing her pillow and closed his eyes imagining she was still there beside him, Why couldn’t he have gotten over his damn ego sooner and just been there like she needed. 

Carol had given him the ear chewing of a lifetime when she had found out what had happened. He didn’t care, He didn’t care about nothing anymore there was only Y/N and now she was gone. He had driven her into the arms of his friend like a fucking idiot. 

He had tried not to watch them after that night. He had tried to do as she had asked and stay away from them but he couldn’t bare not seeing her face everyday. He watched as she held his hand and he brought her dinners to the infirmary. He watched as she played with Judith and read to her. 

He watched as their family nights became more frequent, All around the table like the perfect All American Family. The one thing he didn’t ever see was them kiss, Don't get him wrong he didn’t want to see that but he still thought it was odd. All those nights with both of them cuddled up on the porch and not one kiss? Maybe there was still hope? 

Y/N Pov

You weren���t sure if you were happy that Daryl had listened to you and stayed away. You missed him, He had hurt you sure, but you still missed those eyes and that irritatingly gorgeous southern drawl. 

Carol had started coming to the house more to see you, You had missed her too. She had become such an important person in your life and it had made you laugh watching her being so curt with everyone but you, With you she let her walls down she was loving and kind. 

It was on one of these days sat on the porch with Rick, Carol, Carl & Judith that it happened. 

You were all laughing having Judith point to each of you and say your names, She pointed to Rick “Dadddieieieee”, Then to Carl “Carrrrullll” then to Carol “aun carell” and finally to you.

“Mummmyyyy” The group fell silent now.

You froze not knowing whether to laugh or cry. It had made your heart swell with joy and sorrow. 

You looked up at Rick who seemed to be in the same torment as you, Shock across his face. 

You turned Judith to face you “No Baby its Auntie Y/N” She grumbled at you grabbing on to your hair “mamamamama” You looked back up at Rick, He just shrugged standing up “Anyone need another drink?” You handed Judith to Carol “I’ll just be a minute” You looked at Rick’s back going into the house, She nodded in understanding. 

You followed him in and saw him leant against the kitchen counter with his head in his hands.

“I’m so sorry Rick, I didn’t mean for that to happen” You stuttered “I never told her that’s who i was” You said approaching him and putting your hand on his arm. 

His head shot up “Course you didn’t. But that’s basically who you have become to her now. She loves you” He pulled you into his arms looking into your eyes. “We all do” 

The moment you had waited for again for weeks was here again he softly pressed his lips to yours looking for approval, You smiled and kissed him back. It hadn’t felt electric like it had with Daryl; you hadn’t even felt your core stirring as it did with him, But it was nice and it made you happy and helped you forget for a minute.

Rick looked back into your eyes, Lovingly brushing the hair from your face “We’ll take it slow okay?” You giggled and put your hand back in his. “Okay slow it is Mr Grimes” He smiled back at you and led you back to the porch back to this incredible family who had accepted you fully flaws and all.

You continued like this in your happy bubble trying to ignore that strange niggling feeling in the pit of your stomach. 

One night after you had put both of the kids to bed you decided it was time to break the cycle of sweet kisses and cuddles in the night, You needed to feel something more, You needed to know if it was just Daryl that could make you feel like you did or if Rick could do too.

Coming down the stairs you spotted him in his usual spot on the couch, Head back, Eyes closed with a glass of whiskey in hand. 

You took a deep breath, this was your time to try. You headed over to him swiftly straddling him and took the whiskey from his hand, Draining it in one and placing the glass on the table behind you.

Rick looked up at you curiously, Carpe Diem, Seize the day You thought to yourself pushing your lips to his urgently. He met your urgency with his, Wrapping his arms around your hips and pulling your core closer to his. 

You reached down to the buttons on his shirt, Fumbling slightly as you opened his buttons. Once you had finished with the top button he pulled his arms away from you letting you remove it fully. 

Your hands happily roaming his chest now. Rick put his hands to your hips grabbing the sides of your shirt and pulling it over your head, his hands now reaching to the clasp of your bra and his lips moving to your neck kissing and sucking with need.  

“Wait! The curtains!” You moved off his lap, Your hands covering your almost naked chest, You looked out briefly across the street to see if anyone had seen Rick came up behind you wrapping his hands around you, Kissing your neck. You giggled, grabbing the curtains and slamming them shut. 

Turning around you let your lips meet his again, stumbling back to the couch you let him lay you down and remove your jeans, You watched as he stood and kicked his off too. With you both now only in your underwear he lay on top of you grinding his erection into your core, his hands and lips now roaming around your chest. 

You let out a stifled moan covering your mouth with your hand, The last thing you needed was the kids walking in on this, Rick wandered your body for a few minutes kissing every inch of your bare chest and stomach. 

He made his way back up to your lips kissing you sweetly before asking “You’re sure about this Y/N?” 

Rick’s Pov

He had been unsure how to feel about this new closeness with Y/N, His kids sure seemed to love her. He was starting to think it may be possible that he did too. 

Once Judith had started calling Y/N Mama it had settled it for him, Watching them day after day together, Watching her teach Carl about medicine. She had brightened up a once somber home.

Hell she was brightening him up, After losing Abe and Glen to Negan he didn’t think it would be possible to laugh and have a carefree day again, Between all the commotion with Y/N and Negan’s threat still looming she was the most incredible distraction. 

He was happy to move at her pace, After everything she had been through she deserved to take things slowly for once and for the first time in a long time they had a home that gave them time. 

As a man he couldn’t say he didn’t want her, In fact he couldn’t keep his eyes off of her, Every time her body brushed against his he felt all the heat from his body move to his groin, Desperate for more but unwilling to push her before she was ready. 

He couldn’t believe it when she had come down and jumped on him, He thought it was one of his dreams at first, When he saw her beautiful body undressing in front of him he thought he could have exploded right there. 

Groaning when she moved off of him to close the curtains, He couldn’t take anymore and followed her putting his hands all over her body enjoying the glorious heat coming from her body, How sweet her neck tasted. It was so overwhelming.

He got her back to the couch knowing they would never make it upstairs. It was like the fever had taken hold and his body was burning for her. Hearing the sweet moans coming from her nearly pushed him over the edge again.  He had to last longer than this, She deserved it.

Trying to stem his emotions, Needing to make sure he hadn’t pushed her too far.

“You sure about this Y/N?”

He could see the fire in her eyes as she nodded “Yes, I’m sure” Bringing her lips to his again urgently pushing her tongue inside his mouth, He me it swirling and dancing their tongues together. 

Annnnnd just like every other time he had tried to enjoy himself, Someone just had to ruin it. 

There was banging at the door “RICK, RICK we need ya naw!” 

Shit! Daryl! 

He saw the panic in Y/N’s eyes too as you both jumped up and hurriedly dressed, “JUST A MINUTE!” He checked himself and you over making sure you were both clothed and opened the door to him “What? Where’s the fire?” 

“It’s Negan, He’s early” 

He locked eyes with “Y/N, You got the kids?” 

“Yeah i’ve got them don’t worry just go!” 

Rick ran after Daryl down the street towards the gate when he came across them, As always trying to instil fear in his people. He felt the rage replace the previous burning lust. He knew he had to keep this down or he could risk someone being hurt. 

“Well well Good old Ricky boy” He nodded at him “Negan, You’re not due for another 3 days! We aint ready for you yet” 

Negan laughed “What do i care if you’re ready? You’re ready when I say you are! You should have learnt this already or should I have lucille teach your guys another lesson?” 

“NO! We’ll get ready, Just give me some time”

“I’ll give you some time Ricky boy, I could sure use a drink! Keepin you asshole’s in check is thirsty work”

“I’ll have someone bring you something”

“You call that hospitality? I came here to your town to do business and you don’t even invite me into your home for a drink? Now that won’t do. Besides I don't see Carl and that badass is much better company than you pussy’s” 

Negan brushed past Rick Lucille resting on his shoulder and walked cockily up to Rick’s home, Acting as if he lived there he just wandered straight into the house. 

“Well aint this a surprise! Rick the prick has been keeping you hidden! What’s your name sweetheart?”

Y/N pov

You looked at Negan hate filling your eyes, You stayed silent trying to convey all the hate and anger you could in that one glare when suddenly a noise on the stairs broke your concentration, Head whipping around there was Carl rubbing his eyes still in his Pyjamas. “Carl go back to bed sweetie, Don’t come down here” 

“Now now girly. I’ll have you know he’s the one i’m here for! Get your ass down here Carl”

You looked at him desperately now “Please he’s just a child, He’s tired let him go back to bed” You pleaded with him. 

He smirked back at you. “Well i can’t say no to a pretty face. I’ll tell you what you mosey on and get me a drink and tell me your name honey and carl here can go back to his sweet dreams” 

You jumped up and grabbed the Whisky from the side board and a glass slamming them on the coffee table and rushing towards Carl “It’s Y/N” You muttered before ushering Carl back to his room.

“Stay here Carl, Lock this door and don’t come down no matter what you hear” 

“I’m not a kid Y/N i can handle myself” 

“I know you can Carl you could probably do better than me, but we need you to stay here with Judith and keep her safe. Can you do that for me?” 

He looked thoughtfully for a minute and nodded “Yeah i can do that” You kissed his brow “Thank you, Thank you. I’ll come and get you when he’s gone” 

You descended the stairs slowly, eyes flicking between the men in the living room, Negan was sitting in the same place you and Rick had been earlier and Rick & Daryl were standing by the window being guarded by two men each. You stood by the door eyeing him warily. 

“Well come on down Y/N Come sit by me, Have a drink, I promise i won't bite…. Well not unless you ask me to” Winking as he said this.

You poured yourself a glass and sat as far away on the two seater couch as you could. 

“I think you guys need a lesson in manners! When i said sit by me i wasn’t kiddin!” He grabbed your arm pulling you to his side and wrapping his arm around your shoulder pinning you too him, He raised his other hand and ran his fingers across your face to your mouth. 

“God, Aint she a pretty thing! That mouth looks damn great” He looked at Rick now “Now if you were a polite host you’d let me have a go at the pretty little mouth, I bet it can do some dirty, Dirty things. Am i right Rick?” 

You whimpered trying to escape his grasp, Feeling the tears of anger threatening to fall. 

A few seconds later both Rick and Daryl were forced to the floor as they both tried to get to you. Daryl yelled “Get ya no good mitts off her!” While Rick yelled something similar. 

“Shit, They double teaming you sweetheart” You glared at him still not speaking. “Well? Cat got your tongue? I come here in good faith just wanting a drink with a pretty girl and you just look at me like that? I can make you talk Y/N. I’ll show that one Lucille's thirsty side if you want?” Starting towards Daryl

“No!” You screamed, Negan Laughed in response. “You gonna do as you're told now sweetheart?” You nodded letting the tears fall now. 

Pour me another drink and come and sit right here, He patted his lap for emphasis. You felt the revulsion coming up your throat as you did as he asked, Your face sheet white not daring to meet the eyes of Rick or Daryl as you sat in his lap. You thrust the drink into his empty waiting hand. 

“You wanted to talk so talk” You spat at him mustering all the venom you could. 

He laughed “What no foreplay? Bet you could be real dirty” He used his free hand running it up your thigh. “And what makes you say that?” You said Glaring at him “Well for one, Your shirts on inside out darlin” He said pulling at your shirt enough to see down it.

 They couldn’t fully restrain Daryl now. “Get ya dirty fuckin paws off of her, Don’t ya touch her.” The two guarding Daryl had forced him back to his knees now. 

“Now now” Negan tutted, “This won’t do. I’m sorry to ruin such a lovely date darlin but that one’s got to be taught” He released you now pushing you onto the couch before rising and nodding to his men who dragged Daryl from the living room whilst the others released Rick, Rick ran straight to you pulling you in arms, “You ok Y/N” “I’m fine, Daryl, Daryl needs you” 

You both made for the door to see Daryl on the floor being repeatedly kicked in the stomach Rick tried to restrain you and talk Negan down at the same time. You fought past him and flung yourself over Daryl protecting his body “Stop this! I’ll do whatever you want Negan just leave him alone” 

“Now that’s more like it!” Negan whistled at his men to stop and grabbed your arm again pulling you tightly against his chest and his core. Holding you there for a moment smiling at your squirms. “Thought this was your woman, Not his. Guess your anyones aren’t you honey”

Daryl tried to stand back to his feet stumbling back to his knees as he tried to make it to you again. 

Negan laughed again “Looks like you’ve got a lot on your hands, The sanctuary’s doors are always open for a sexy ass like you, So come find me when you want a real man” He grabbed your ass as he said this kissing your cheek and then releasing you. 

You rushed back to Daryl kneeling in front of him again protectively. “C’mon Sheriff lets go check on my goodies” Rick looked at you worried, You nodded back at him and he left with Negan. 

Carol and Sasha were there in a flash. You looked at Carol desperately “It’s ok Y/N i'll stay with the kids you take care of him” Without a second thought you turned back to Daryl putting his arm around your shoulders and lifting him. Sasha rushed forward and grabbed the other side helping you carry him to infirmary.

When you had made it Sasha hurried back out the door to check how the situation was going with Negan. 

You started cleaning Daryl’s face softly watching his eyes flutter open as you did.

“Y/N?” He tried to stand “Where is he? I’ll fuckin kill him!” 

“Shhh, Daryl Shh it’s ok. You're ok.  Rick’s with him” He lay back down his eyes trying to hide the pain as you said Rick’s name. 

“What ya even doin here Y/N Aint cha gotta get back to your boyfriend”

Hearing him say boyfriend like that boiled your blood “I’m here because your stupid ass got yourself beat up and I had to jump in to stop them killing you! What did you do that for! Why did you even care?”

“Ya boyfriend sure as shit weren’t gonna do it, Ya expect me to watch that piece of shit Negan run his hands all over ya too?” He spat at you before continuing.  “He were lookin where he shouldn’t, He was lookin at what was mine” 

“Fuck you Daryl, I’ve managed to take care of myself pretty fucking well with out you and yours? You gave up the right to call me yours when you pussied out.”

“Don’t call me that! Ya call what you've been doin well? You let him put your hands all over ya Y/N You let Spencer - “

Yelling now “Don’t even fucking go there! How fucking dare you. You have no idea, Yeah you said you heard me tell Carol but you have no idea what it was like being there. You have no idea what he did to me! He was relentless! He made me wish I was out there with the dead, I’d have rather been torn apart by walkers over and over again” 

Anger flared in you again when you felt the burning tears on your face. Wiping them away furiously you refused to let him see you cry. Not now.

His eyes had softened now “Y/N i didn’ mean too I’m sor-” 

“I don’t want your sorry’s Daryl, I want you to lie down, shut up and let me take care of your wounds so we can go back to pretending the other doesn’t exist” 

He tried to speak again, You shoved his shoulder down on to the bed “I said don’t, I don’t wanna hear it”

He cast his eyes downwards and let you continue with your work. You checked him over, pulling his shirt off nonchalantly as you could manage trying to keep your breathing steady when you saw his rippling muscles. You were pissed that after everything your body still craved him. You felt yourself blush as your mind wandered for a few moments remembering all the kisses you had laid over that incredible chest all the times your nails had dragged down his skin in ecstasy. 

Shit, He had noticed your blush, You turned away clearing your throat. “All done, You can leave now” 

There was silence for a few minutes neither of you moving, The tension building by the second. 

“Why was your shirt on backwards Y/N?” he breathed clearly not really wanting to know. 

“Don’t be Naive Daryl. You know why” 

“So you….You….With him?” 

You took a breath sighing you couldn’t lie to him “No I didn’t, We didn’t get that far. I don’t know if we would have done” 

“I disturb ya?” You nodded feeling oddly ashamed. 

Surprisingly he grinned “So in all that time, Ya never did?” 

“So what? Rick gave a shit about me! He gave me time to heal and be ready!” 

“Nah he didn’t he just knew ya wern’ his” 

You rolled your eyes, Not this again. 

“I’m my own Daryl, You need to stop thinking you have a claim on me” 

He rushed up to meet you amusement in his eyes “If i had no claim on you, Then ya’d of let him do it and you didn’ “ 

He pulled you close to him now, Your body betraying you and instantly melting into his. 

“Ya mine and ya know ya are!” 

He didn’t give you a chance to argue as he pressed his lips to yours, You unwittingly moaned into his mouth opening for his tongue naturally letting him in and letting him take charge. 

Daryl gripped your hips pushing you backwards and then up onto the bed. He pulled his lips away letting his forehead rest on yours, Both of you taking a moment to catch your breath.

“I’m yours Y/N just like ya mine Y/N we belong to each other always have.” He said confidently, You looked in his eyes seeing only the truth. He continued “An i won’ hear ya deny it again”

“I’ll show ya every minute how serious i am, I’ll make ya believe me when i say i love ya. I love ya so fuckin much.” He looked awkward before blurting out “I’ll show ya if you marry me.”

Holy shit! Did he just say what you think he did? He pushed his lips to yours again murmuring “marry me” between every sweet kiss. Not allowing you to think he was fully on you again, You could no longer tell your body from his with the rush of lust burning in you. His hands were like fire pushing their way up the back on your shirt pulling you closer. 

You were ripping his shirt open now, Buttons flying in your desperation to get back to his chest, He followed your lead now pulling your shirt roughly over your head and bringing his lips to your neck sucking and biting. 

You pushed his vest and the remains of the shirt off his shoulders hearing it hit the ground you hurriedly moved your hands to his belt undoing it, Then his button and zip. Hearing his jeans hit the ground you smiled into his lips, Grasping his huge member with your hand and pumping it. “God Y/N slow down your going to rip it off before we get to the good part!” 

You slowed slightly earning a grateful moan from him, He fumbled with your button moaning into your neck. Tugging at it again he lifted your hips and ripped the jeans from your legs. 

He looked down at your writhing against him, “Damn girl those pantie’s again?” He played with the lace in his fingers for a moment before pushing his finger through the fabric creating a hole. 

He looked at you mischievously “oops, Guess these are no good now huh?” 

Your mouth dropped open as you watched him grab your panties with both hands ripping the fabric from you. Scraps of fabric falling from his hands, He wasted no time cupping your heat and pressing on finger to your opening, Swirling it slightly. He Moaned into your mouth again “Always so wet for me Y/N” he brought his finger to his lips sucking it. “Mmmhm so sweet”

Your eyes fixed on each other as he slowly knelt between your legs bringing his face between your legs and licking you slowly, Running his fingers tips softly down the inside of your thighs making you shudder. 

As much as you hated to admit this to yourself after everything that had happened, You knew nothing and no one could make you feel like Daryl did, It was like your body was attuned to him. Desperately craving more, Needing more of him. 

He ran his tongue down from your clit to your opening, Darting it inside you. “Oh shit! Mm Daryl” You moaned. 

His thumb moved to your clit swirling around it urgently while lapping up your juices as they came. 

“Aahhh babe i'm gonna cum, Get up here please!” 

He smirked up at you “Tell me who’s ya are Y/N”

He swapped his hand and mouth around driving two fingers up to the hilt in you, nibbling on your nub softly and attacking it with his tongue. 

The dam holding back your pressure burst suddenly, Crying out you held his head into you and rode out your release on his hand. He moved his mouth back to your opening drinking every drop that leaked from you. 

Gasping you felt the pressure retreat from your body, You saw Daryl's mouth still working on you and felt the heat returning so suddenly. 

He left a sweet kiss on your nub running his hands up your body and standing between your legs again, You saw he must have removed his boxers during as you could see his amazing length propped up against his stomach. 

You licked your lips staring hungrily at it. He pumped himself a few times before bringing the tip to your folds. You pushed your hips further towards him dying to feel him inside you again. 

He held your hips in place stopping you. Holding his lips close to your ear. “Who’s are ya Y/N Tell me or i walk” 

“For fuck sake Daryl! You know! I’m yours now take me!” You growled. 

“Tha’s better girl” He nipped your ear still holding your hips tightly and drove himself into you hard. You whimpered when you felt him fill you to the brink, You would never get used to his size. 

“FUCK” You screamed as he held himself still inside you waiting for your body to open up further for him. 

“God, I’d almost forgotten how big you are!” You exclaimed, Resting your head on his shoulder. 

“Trust me Y/N, I aint ever gonna let ya forget again” He growled into your ear pulling almost all of the way out before thrusting deep into you again

“I’ll never forget how tight ya are, how ya get so fucking wet fer me.” 

All of him was sending your senses into overload seeing his incredible body, His hands touching you everywhere, Muscles rippling under your fingers, The words he spoke taking over your every thought, His scent masking yours now and his sweet taste lingering in your mouth. 

It was too much to take with his rhythmic pounding. You felt your walls tightening while your nails dragged down his skin, “Tha’s it girl cum for this cock”

You tried to hold on waiting for his release. “Y/N i can’t hold on much longer, Let go for me baby”

His words sent shivers down your spine and you felt yourself explode around him, Crying out and falling backwards on the bed. He leant over you gripping the bed at the side of you pounding harder into you, Taking your nipple in your mouth he moaned onto it.

Your walls were clenching now with the remnants of your release driving him over the edge. He moved his mouth to your shoulder biting down hard trying to control his loud moans.

With a few last pushes into you he pushed himself to the hilt inside you crying out your walls draining every last drop of him. His arms faltered and he collapsed onto your chest. 

You were both gasping for air then, Your head still blissfully foggy. Holding him in your arms grateful for this moment, This was where you belonged. In this moment he was starting to feel like your Sun again. 

He pushed up and out of you now lying down fully on the bed and pulling you on top of him. 

“Round two?” He grinned. “I think we had best go see what’s going on outside, Negan’s still here and I need to talk to Rick.” You sighed looking away from him “This isn’t fair on him” 

Regretfully you got up from Daryl and handed him his boxers, You both got dressed slowly not wanting the moment to end. 

Once you had dressed making sure your top was on the right way round this time, Daryl left his shirt there as it was useless now. You turned to him “You ready?” 

He held your face in his bringing you to him and giving you a long loving kiss. He sighed contentedly “I am now” 

You placed another kiss on his lips. “Ok, Time to get back to real life!” 

As you walked through the door Daryl went to hold your hand, You pulled away looking at him apologetically. “Not yet Daryl, I still need to talk to Rick. I don’t want to hurt him” He nodded at you “Ok but talk soon?” You nodded back and left the infirmary. 

Heading towards the group at the gates you noticed even with the limp he now had from the beating he took earlier he seemed to be walking a little taller, You smiled wiping it quickly and putting a serious face on. 

“Y/N! Came to take me up on my offer of a real man eh?” Negan said cockily striding over to you. You stayed silent glaring over at Daryl hoping he got your meaning and didn’t try anything again. He balled his fists but stayed in place. Rick made his way over to you now looking between you and Daryl curiously before putting his body in front of yours. 

“You got what you came for Negan, I think it's time you let us be” 

“Oh hoho! Rick the Prick getting jealous!” He turned to you winking “I’ll be back to see you again Real soon Y/N Make sure you’ve got a glass waiting for me and i'll have a lap waiting for you” 

Leaning forward he kissed you cheek and whispered in your ear “Nice to see you got your top back on the right way” You blushed furiously and noticed Daryl had come to your other side fists still balled up close enough to strike if he tried to touch you again. 

Negan put his hands up in defense “All righ guys and gals, Pack it up and let's get rolling”

Turning back to you “Awh hell and one for luck” He pointed at you with Lucille and pointed to his cheek. You swallowed your revulsion and pecked him quickly on the cheek before darting back to Rick and Daryl. Rick and Daryl both went to put their arms around you protectively and you brushed them off. “Oooh you do have the boys in a tizzy!” 

With that he jumped into the van patting the door and left Alexandria. The group as a whole let out a collective sigh when the last of the cars drove out and the gate had been slammed shut behind them. 

Rick put his arm around you nodding at Daryl “We need to go make sure the kids are alright. Goodnight Daryl” You nodded at him too and allowed Rick to pull you home knowing this was going to be difficult. 

You think a part of you did love Rick but it wasn’t fair to him to continue this when you knew how you and Daryl felt about each other. 

When he closed the door behind you, You headed straight up to Carl’s bedroom to check on him and Judith. Judith was sleeping peacefully and Carl was by the door waiting for you, You guessed he had been at the window for a while watching out for danger, Your little ranger. 

Carl let out a big yawn when you told him all was fine, You saw him back in bed tucking him in and kissing his forehead goodnight before heading down to Rick. 

“Whiskey?” You asked walking into the kitchen. “Please” You grabbed two glasses and poured a hefty amount into each. Knowing it would definitely be needed. 

“Porch?” He nodded in agreement and you both made your way to the swing instead of taking your usual place curled into him you sat on the other side of the bench looking at the glass in your hands. 

“Soooo -” You started awkwardly. “It’s ok Y/N, I know.” You looked into his eyes “You do?” 

“I do, I think I always knew you were jus passin through, On your way back to him. Jus promise me one thing?”

You nodded still in shock at how easy this conversation had gone, You took a big gulp of your whiskey. “Anything”

“Promise me you’ll still be around for the kids, I know we didn’ intend it but with Judith now seein you as her mum, I just can’t bear to see her lose another one.” 

You leant forward now putting your hand in his “Rick i love those kids, Like they were my own. If they want me I will always be here for them whether its like a mum or whatever they want me for, I’m here.” 

His turn now to take a big sip of his drink, He pulled you into him, You let him curling into his chest like always. “I don’t want anything to change with you either Rick, I still love you. It’s just a different kind of love” You looked up at him and allowed him to press a loving kiss to your lips. 

The kiss was a goodbye to what could have been. Breaking the kiss and nuzzling back into his chest, You laughed “I’ll still be here to cook the kids dinner can’t let their dad poison them!” He chuckled back at you, “The doors always open Darlin an your rooms always waitin for you if you ever need it again”

Daryl had made his way over to you both nervously, Rick nudged you. “Evenin Daryl” “Rick” He said curtly staring at you. You kissed Rick on the cheek and stood up out of his arms making your way to Daryl putting your hand in his you smiled at him. 

Rick chuckled again “No need to look so nervous man, Y/N and i had a chat about it. Were cool, Wouldn’t be right if i stood in the way” 

Daryl looked visibly relieved moving from you to Rick giving him a swift hug. You headed into the house and up to Rick’s room packing your small bag of things. On your way back down you popped your head in on Carl and Judith smiling happily as you saw they were both asleep. 

Heading back to the porch Daryl had your glass in his hand now empty. 

“Kids are asleep, I’ll be by at breakfast to talk to Carl. I think he needs to hear it from me” 

Rick nodded at you looking nervous all of a sudden. “I’m gonna be leavin on a run to gather more supplies for Negan’s next visit. Can you watch the kids for a few days? I’ll let you know when?” 

You smiled “Happy too. See you at breakfast!” 

You and Daryl left the porch, He took the bag from you lugging it over his shoulder, You walked past the house he shared with Carol and aimlessly walked around the town. Daryl was the first to break the silence. 

“That was too easy righ?” “Yeah, But he’s a great guy just wanted us to be happy” 

He looked uncomfortable brushing the hair in front of his eyes “Why’d ya kiss him Y/N?” 

“Don’t worry love, That was just goodbye” 

He nodded thoughtfully. You stopped near the fence “Don’t be jealous Daryl, Rick will always be a huge part of our lives, Especially now… They became my family… Don’t make me choose” 

“I wouldn’t dream o’ it sunflower” “Good because you’re basically a step dad now, Sure you don’t wanna run Dixon?” 

He laughed awkwardly “I’ll take it as long as it comes with ya. Jus don’t make me wait too long. I’ll be wantin my own” 

Your eyes went wide. “Really?” He pulled you to him, “Yah really. And I want to start the fun bit right now.” 

You knew it was coming this time but it still made you gasp when he bent down and threw you over his shoulder heading home with urgency. You laughed smacking his ass as he walked. “Always with the caveman routine Mr Dixon” 

He smacked your ass back grunting “Man know how fire work” Eliciting a full laugh from you, You loved silly Daryl, Who were you kidding you loved every mood of the frustrating Daryl Fucking Dixon. 

You waved to Carol in the living room still over Daryl’s shoulder, She grinned back at you as he kicked the door open to the basement and carried you down. Throwing you on the bed you moved to pull him too you. He pushed you back. 

“Naw wait a minute lil lady!” He rushed across the room searching in a draw, He was holding something in his hand now coming back to you. 

You sat up curiously “Daryl what’s -” He cut you off “If you’d shh for one damn minute i’ll tell ya..” He looked at you amused. 

You pressed your finger to your lips cheekily. He looked nervous again now. 

“I got this on the run just before...Well before all that. I knew then I had to have ya be mine” 

He unfurled his fingers holding a beautiful silver and diamond ring out to you. 

“I were serious, I want ya to marry me. Naw Gabe has set up the church we can do it all official like if ya wan’” 

“If you want to do it all official Mr Dixon you’ll be needing to get down on that knee for me!” 

He chuckled at you instantly following orders. 

“Will ya be mine….For Always” 

You paused making him squirm for a minute before smiling “Yes Daryl, I absolutely will.” Happy tears springing to your eyes.

He gave you that beautiful megawatt smile you loved trying to put the ring on the wrong finger fumbling with nerves, You laughed and helped him put it on the right one before moving onto his lap sweetly kissing him. 

Pulling you up to him he kissed you gently moving his lips from yours down to your chest. You moaned his name, The loving kisses driving you wild already. 

You stripped each other slowly savouring the moment. Lying back on the bed bathed in the moonlight he pulled away staring into your eyes, before slowly moving his fingers up your inner thigh around your core, Making sure to not touch too close to your core. 

His fingers traced a bath over your stomach to the other thigh and down he bent his head kissing you from where he started and followed the same path his fingers had run, Following his kiss with his fingers again.

Not once did you break eye contact. He moved from your legs repeating the same movements over your arms across your collarbone down the other arm kissing your ring finger before moving to your lips. 

You wanted to remember the way the moonlight glistened on his skin forever, You closed your eyes letting him kiss you deeply, Moving over you and shadowing your body with his, He nudged your legs apart slightly breaking away from the kiss. 

He stared into your eyes again filled with love before he moved his eyes to your lips slowly pushing inside you. Watching your lips form an ‘o’ gasping as you felt him slowly enter you. 

It was too much to take you pushed your lips to him deeply again letting him make love to you slowly. 

Like every time before it you didn’t think He was capable of out doing himself again. But he did! 

It was heaven, every hair on your body standing on edge, He rested his forehead on yours not breaking eye contact again as you both quickly became undone under each other's gaze. 

Moaning each other’s names, His slow rocks into your body becoming more urgent as he approached his limit, Seeing the effect the slow love making had had on him sent you over the edge, Moaning his name louder now your body shook, grinding down needing to feel all of him. He exploded into you watching your rolling orgasm. The pulsing of his cock making the rolls of pleasure last longer. “Oh god, Oh god Daryl Mmmm Baby, I love you”

“Fuck Y/N I love ya so much” His body twitched as the last of his seed emptied deep inside you. He rolled to the side thoroughly spent gasping for air. 

All you could see was stars now. Panting to calm yourself down you rolled onto his chest. Curling into him. 

Your eyes struggling to stay open after that earth shattering orgasm. 

You whispered, “For Always, my sun”

He kissed your head “For Always Sunflower” 

You fell into a blissful sleep, There was not a single person who could of been happier than you ever again not with Daryl Fucking Dixon by your side. 

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[pbandjesse]

I am exhausted. But today was great.

I slept pretty well last night. I woke up and felt kind of blah. But I got dressed and felt really cute. James helped me get my bags to the car. Hugs and kisses. And then I was off.

It was honestly a hard drive. I was way tired and had to focus really hard. People were driving really stupid. And It was just really tough. But I enjoyed my music. My podcasts. I had Mcdonalds. There wasn't like a ton of traffic but it was still a really hard drive out here.

I got here around 1030. It was really nice to see my parents. We sat on the porch and talked until Jess came at 1215. We talked about Jen and the funeral and wedding plans and money and the car. Dad looked good. Mom's hair has gotten so long!! It was a lot of fun though just being with them Felt good.

Jess got here and we all headed out. There was some traffic but mostly it was a nice ride out.

We had brunch first at this little cafe. It was sweet. They gave Jess a free piece of cake. We shared basically everything. It was a good time. But we had a bit of time to waste. That was okay but we had a nice walk over to the shop after we moved the car. We had to back track for my mask. And then we stopped to pet a very cute dog. BUt then we were there!

We had to wait a few minutes. Which was all good. We looked at the magazines. And chatted. I showed the stylist, Jen, some examples and she pulled a beautiful dress for me right away that was so close to what I wanted. The material was perfect. I felt so pretty. Nothing else there really lived up to it. I still had fun trying on things but nothing else was as good.

I liked one that had a high neck and interesting sleeves. But it wasn't right. It was a standing up dress for sure. It was still really fun to try things and play dress up. I even tried on a veil. Didnt think I would like it as much as I did. It was great. Made it all feel real.

We left there after getting some details and information. We walked dow the street to a stationary store and debriefed a little. I also bought a silly little fork. It's shaped like a hand. Did not need. Love very much.

We headed to Ritten House Square next. Took a while to find parking. They got coffees. And then we went to sit in the park. It was nice just looking through the pictures Jess took. And people watching. It was a beautiful day. Once the sun started hitting where we were sitting we headed to the Barnes and Knoble to use the bathroom and then next door the Anthropology.

We were still early so we just looked around. There were some wild things like $150 pairs of prepainted on work pants?? Like they looked cool but like. Thats a lot! It was fun looking regardless though.

I had a much better time at this appointment. The stylist was great. She had pulled a few dresses for me already. Jess picked a few more. And I just had a blast.

The first dress, again, was the favorite. It was very similar to the dress I liked at the first place. But had a different neckline. I really liked it. I felt so pretty. It may be the winner in the end. But well see!!

I had fun trying on more dresses though. Lots of styles and cuts. Some sleeves. Some shorter. I felt very special and pretty and it was great. My skin was a mess and I tried really hard not to focus on that. But I still felt beautiful and I am feeling really good about everything.

But then the drama happened. We headed outside and there were like. Huge groups of people all looking down the street at yelling. I was worried someone was in a fight. But nope. Just terrible evangelical Christians screaming about god hating people. Mom was about to fight them. Me and Jess were yelling that we were witches and sluts and whatever.

And then I saw mom was getting upset at something the guy said. ANd I was just like. Nope. And I took a deep breath and screamed as long and as loud as a could. Just let it all out. All my anger and hurt at the church. At losing my sister. At this last year. I just screamed. It echoed off the building. And then I realized it really shut him up. So whenever he started talking I started screaming. It went on for multiple minutes. There were at least 150 people at the park gathering now. People were cheering and laughing whenever I screamed. I ended up getting closer to try to get mom and the guy started calling me a fat whore, saying my dress was ugly. So I hitched up my dress and started screaming again. He says she cant keep this up. And I was like. Bet. And kept going. FInally I grabbed mom and told the crowd to keep it going. People were clapping. Someone asked for my picture?? Asked if I sung opera?? Told me I should look into it! It was hilarious. We were all shaking. IT was crazy. If someone doesn't find that video somewhere online I will be shocked.

We were all a little shaken though. We got to the car with minimal snipping. But we got there in one piece. We had a mostly quiet ride back home. I was excited though. I may have found a dress? So we don't have to make it?? It will need some tailorin. But like. Im super jazzed.

Jess dropped us off. And we filled dad in. I started getting nauseuus though so I had some watermelon and cracker sandwiches. And I am feeling better now. Mostly just very tired.

I am going to go shower now. And then try to just sleep. Tomorrow we are trying on some more dresses. I am not going to make any decisions yet. I am excited to try more dress's on. This has been really fun.

I hope you all have a great night. Take care of yourselves. Wash your hands!!

[albino-whumpee]

An old thing 5

First

Continued from here

I´m quite proud of this part. Do you remember the Walmart man? Yeah. More angst and sick fic than whump, but there.

CW// Non Con, Dub Con, NS*W at times, dehumanization, slavery, human trafficking, escape attempt, blood, broken noses, implied death, regain of identity, whump of minors, manhandling, prong collar, past torture, creepy and explosive whumpers, physical and emotional abuse.

Everything will be tagged and if there´s tags to be added, tell me please.

Dimitri was speechless.

“Can you repeat that, please?” He said.

“You’re too close with Kit, we’re gonna send you to a vacation house. Dont worry about Roahn, you will see her when it’s the mounting” Layo said across the table. Kit and Danae were playing outside.

“Im…I…when?” He asked visibly stressed.

“Maybe on saturday. The vacation house is on the other side of the country, next to Sunnyhills Beach, I think you know whose property is it”

Dimitri knew.

His last master before them.

The one who had tried to kill him with the prongs collar.

“His son will be taking good care of you, so you better behave and do as he says understood? He wont accept escapes like us. You know his methods already anyways, you will know whats better for you” He said sipping on his coffee. “Ah, but you’re still ours. If he thinks he is entitled to damage you, He wont see the end of it”

“U-Understood…” Dimitri said still cleaning his plates. He had time. If he hurried up, maybe he could escape tomorrow. While they were on their cocktail party.

“I gotta believe I can do it” He told himself

—

Report came and Dimitri explained how he could the plan for the next day to Kit. How he would take him to that place.

“With Jen and Roahn?”

“Yes with them too” he smiled. “But you gotta tell me if they’re sleeping”

“Master was drinking a lot and Master was already asleep”

“Alright Kit. Ill show you something but you must not say anything ok?”

“Ok!”

He took out the improvised key from a vase and tainted the lock until he opened it.

“You could get out all this time?”

He sighed “No. Only on important moments. Now shhh” he put his finger on his mouth. “Come on Ill get you to your room but silence”

Kit put his lips together and followed him to his room. An spacious yet small little place with only the necessary and some toys. He was relieved he didnt live like them.

Dimitri put him to sleep.

“Goodnight Dimitri see you tomorrow?”

“Goodnight Kit. See you tomorrow” he said as he gave him a kiss on his forehead.

He closed the door silently.

Silent as a mouse, he went to his office. In all those years they had never guessed he had a key. So they had never bothered to lock the office. Dimitri knew perfectly where the copies were, but he knew keeping them would be too evident so he took them and made an improvised and quick copy of them with plaster.

He only needed to wait a few hours for it to harden.

He went as fast as he had gotten in but heard steps and hid quickly.

“Fuck…” Layo’s voice. He was going to the bathroom. And he would pass around the office for that.

Dimitri breathed quickly as he noticed. Was it that way he would end up? He took a stone decoration from a table and was ready to smash it on his head when he heard:

“Master? I can’t sleep!” Kit cried.

“What the…go to bed, Kit” the man said walking towards him.

“I can’t! Tell me a story! please, master!”

“Ugh what a pain is one am…Alright, Alright, coming go to your bed, Ill go take a piss before that…”

Dimitri held tight to the artifact.

“No!! Now!!”

“Argh! What a kid! Ok ok” he heard the door shutting.

Dimitri left the stone on its place and ran quietly to the cell. He closed it again and started working.

At 7 am it was ready. Later, Dimitri was preparing their masters for a full day outside when Layo said:

“Dont try anything funny Ok?” As he was locked up again. He had to hold the urge to laugh on his face.

“Understood”

Kit came running down a few minutes later.

“They’re gone!” He had told him.

Dimitri stood up. With backpacks on hand.

“Its time, Kit”

—

Dimitri got out of the cell and went upstairs. The house was empty. Or so it seemed.

“Kit” Dimitri held the boy’s small shoulders “I need you to go check on the door if there’s somebody. I’ll go get them ok? If theres someone dont scream it” he took the house phone and made it ring pressing a button “you do this and let the phone ring three times. Alright?”

The kid nodded. Dimitri gave him his binoculars back.

“Go see, explorer” he told him before the kid ran off.

He then made a little jump and sprinted towards the stairs. He went to the door where Roahn was and knocked three times. Her voice was husky.

“Dimitri?” She called

“Roahn, it’s me. We’ve gotta go. Now. Can you handle it?” He asked her through the door. A cough.

“Yeah” she said “always”

“We will take you to a doctor. I swear.” He said looking down and putting the keys on.

Roahn had been very sick for weeks. She couldnt give her enough milk and was very weak. Refusing to eat even. Miraculously, Jen was healthier than ever.

Finally the door opened and Roahn had her baby on her skinny arms. Eyebags dark in her face. Yet the light on her eyes were strong. He held her after giving her a hug.

“Lets go” he said as he helped her walk through the house. “Kit is waiting” that line made her sob happily.

“Our baby…” she said looking nowhere

They streamed downstairs, Roahn almost falling at various times due her legs not being able to move correctly. However Dimitri was there to hold her.

When they finally reached the kitchen Kit was waiting for them.

“Nobody on sight!” He said as if he was a sailor.

“Good” Dimitri told him “Kit, help Roahn out a bit would you?” He said putting her down to open the door. Kit sat besides Roahn and asked her if she was Alright to which she responded with a smile. Dimitri held the concrete key on his hand and inhaling deeply he unlocked the door.

The clicking sound of freedom was on his ears as if it was music.

-

The four of them stepped out of the house to the secondary door. Not before putting coats with hoodies that covered their faces. Then they ran. Quietly, agitatedly, desperately. The four of them reached the door withut problems.

There was no one apparently.

The door was in a vine wall. It was easy to pass through it because the key Dimitri had was a copy of the master key he used to buy groceries.

He held them down for a bit while he opened the door. It was the last thing.

The last.

When he opened the door he saw the street and a fist on his direction. A man in black suit punched him making him fall. Roahn and Kit immediately tried to run away from the man, but Dimitri, even when hazy due the pain, used a close by rock to knock the guy out by hitting his head. The man fell and Dimitri was alert to anybody else coming to try and stop them. But there was no one.

“Roahn!! Kit! Its ok!” He yelled with blood going down his nose. They went out of their hiding spot and went back to Dimitri.

“Are you ok?” Roahn said cleaning the blood off his face and stuffing his nose with tissues.

“Yes, we just need to go now” he told her holding her hand a second.

“Is he dead?” Kit asked without taking his eyes off the fallen man. Blood came out of his ears.

“No” Dimitri answered him taking the kid by his hand and running past the body “he’s just unconscious”

They ran and ran and ran until they were on a plaza with a supermarket and a pharmacy.

They were free.

“Now where?” Roahn asked him visibly tired.

Dimitri took a look at Roahn holding Jen like she was a precious stone. Impressively calm. Kit was amazed by everything he saw.

“Now…we take these off” he told her taking his hands to his neck. Feeling the belt like collar and undoing it. He took it out carefully and slowly. Holding it in his hands, Kit could see clearly the old scars on his neck. It grossed the kid to think about how he got such hideous scars.

Dimitri knelt down to Kit and took his collar off too. Kit felt lighter than usual and couldn’t hold the instinct to touch his now free neck.

Dimitri smiled a bit and ruffled his hair before doing the same to Roahn.

Roahn dropped a tear when she felt that lightness on her neck. They looked at each other’s eyes for a second but Roahn pulled him closer and gave him a kiss on his neck and then on his lips.

“Yikes” said Kit watching them. They looked at the kid and laughed.

“Sorry Kit” Dimitri laughed.

“What about looking around for a place to stay, hun?” Roahn asked sweating cold. “We’re tired and we will need to hide for a bit…” she said.

“You feeling ok, Ro?” He asked him cupping her face with his hands. She nodded slowly “We will take the bus to Keith City, I’ll go buy the tickets and have a doctor check on you there ok?”

“Ok” she said.

Suddenly Jen started revolving and slapping Roahn’s face.

“Hey hey what is it Jen?” She asked her. Kit moving towards her.

“Dont cry Jen! It will be alright!” The kid said.

“Is she hungry?” Dimitri asked. Roahn blushed in embarrassment.

“I cant… feed her. I need some baby milk powder. Do we have some?” She asked Dimitri.

He started to search but it was in vain and he knew it.

“Kit” the kid shoot his head up from trying to comfort the now crying baby “could you tell that man there where could we get an electric chair for Roahn?” He asked signaling a person with a supermarket uniform not that far away.

The kid ran to him and asked him. The man was almost a geezer but his smile was really bright.

“It’s for your mommy there? Is she alright?” He asked Kit.

“Eh…Roahn? I hope so…” the kid said unsettling the man a bit.

“Not your mom? Its your auntie then? You two look alike a lot” he said again pulling the electric chair to the woman.

“We-we do?” Kit said finding himself a question.

“Here it is lady. Everything alright? You look a bit pale ma’am” he said helping her get into the chair.

“Yes, sir” she answered him not conscious of her formality.

The man found the people on his view with a woman with baby on arms crying out loud, the many bags and the very attractive man with tissues on his nose very strange. But it was a walmart. He had seen all kind of people go there. So he just walked away.

They put some of the bags in the electric chair and the others on the package service. Then they entered the market. Dimitri was used to go so he wasn’t as excited as the others. Yet he couldn’t hide his happiness of not feeling that uncomfortable thing on his neck. It was now in the trash. They went through the isles calming the baby with a toy that hypnotized her long enough for them to look at everything. Kit was amazed. Asking questions about this and that. Roahn looked at the pharmacy isle where there should be a doctor with longing. Dimitri didnt notice as he was coming back with baby milk powder on his hands.

In the end they bought a few more things. Like the toy and a magazine for Kit. As well as painkillers. The cashier recognized him and greeted him “Good morning!” Dimitri greeted back. “Is that your family?” The teen asked looking at Kit showing Roahn an article from his magazine.

“Yes” he answered blushing.

“Your kid is very energetic” she remarked.

“He is!” He laughed a bit “excuse me, Lana, where would I get bus tickets? We’re going to Keith City to visit my wife’s sister, but my card doesnt seem to work now…”

“Oh! Here would be fine. Two adults and a kid right?”

Dimitri payed for the bus tickets that would depart in two hours and met Roahn and Kit.

Roahn was a bit uncomfortable to leave the chair, but they got a taxi to the bus station so she didnt have to walk any longer. She was now green.

“Everything alright ma’am?” The taxi driver asked her while Dimitri fed Jen.

“Y-yes, sir. No need to worry. Thank you” she answered.

Kit extended his bag of chips to her.

“Want one Roahn? You dont look good…” He said.

“Im alright Kit. Just tired, that’s all” she ruffled his hair. Kit pulling it down annoyed. “Ill be taking one, though” she said eating a chip slowly.

She rested her head On Dimitri’s shoulder who gave her a kiss on her forehead.

“Im not ok” she mumbled.

“We will get you a doctor there I promise” he whispered to her, giving her a kiss.

The rest of the way Kit talked with the driver asking him questions about his travels.

When they arrived at the bus station, they were good friends.

They got there just in time and went up the bus. It was a four hour ride, but all of them were exhausted and fell asleep as soon as the bus started moving.

Dimitri woke up an hour before getting there.

It was the first time he didn’t have a collar and walked around freely. It had been strange for him to book sits because of his lacking of last name. But he had come up with one last second.

His name was Dimitri Holberg.

Maybe it was made up, but he had an identity now. He wasn’t bee, yellow, dog or dildo.

He was a human being and his name was Dimitri Holberg.

He had a family and a mission to reunite them all.

With determination they arrived at Keith’s city.

[skamamoroma]

It is hugely telling that every single time we see Robbe alone he is shaking, crying, breathing heavily or collapsing on his bed.

The kid is in pain.

He has grown up in our god forsaken world with all its issues and finds himself young, abandoned by his father and with a poorly mother, neither of whom are around. He lives with people who have shown kindness but who are not his guardians and have their own lives. He has NO support system but he tries to take care of himself because - it’s what he’s supposed to do, right?

He finds a girl who is bold and fun and cool and who likes him and, isn’t that supposed to be the way it goes? His friends encourage it, he feels nice because she is there for him and he gives it a go. Every single thing they do from kissing to cuddling to sex doesn’t feel right but - it’s what he’s supposed to do, right?

He then meets a boy who INSTANTLY makes him sit up and take notice and who quite literally sweeps him off his feet and it’s all butterflies and excitement and feelings he’s never had before. The boy is attentive and flirty and fun and kind and they get along so well. It’s all so overwhelming and new and miraculous and they’re away from home and he just leans into it for a second...

But then he’s home and, well, all of that was stuff that happened on holiday so it’s not real, right? He has a girlfriend and his friends and - that’s what he’s supposed to do right?

But now it doesn’t feel the same as before? His friends say stuff and Noor does stuff and he sees stuff that now don’t make sense to him, that don’t sit right. He can’t be gay, he’s not the same person as that dance teacher or Milan or the blokes on Grindr, they don’t look or sound like him, he’s got a girlfriend and he’s doing what he’s supposed to do.

But then Sander keeps appearing and those feelings don’t go away and he leans into it again because it feels nice and for one moment doesn’t think, doesn’t do what he’s SUPPOSED TO and it’s like a dream, this overwhelming, thrilling, lovely dream where he’s free and flying with this boy whose eyes soften when they look at him and who makes him feel things he hasn’t before and then they’re kissing and it’s RIGHT. It’s not what it’s supposed to be like with a boy, it’s GOOD and it feels like magic.

But oh god it’s not supposed to be like that. He has a girlfriend and friends who are the way they are and this is a one off, this isn’t what it’s meant to be like. So he shuts it down, presses his feelings down and shakes close to tears as he removes this anomaly from his life because that stuff isn’t supposed to happen.

Then Sander appears and he’s a representation of that anomaly, that person who distracted him from what he was supposed to do and who is the sole focus of that deflection off the path he’s supposed to be on. He’s gentle eyed and smiling and pretending it is all so easy and it’s not. So he kicks back. He chooses the words that will remove this from his life altogether. He does the job well and ensures it won’t come back because it’s not supposed to be there in the first place.

And now he can focus on what he’s supposed to do. He talks to his best friend because he’s the closest thing to a support system, right? And he gets back on track. He has a girlfriend. Jens says things that make sense. Maybe sex is just not his thing or maybe he’s just nervous, maybe if he tries again in a different way and yeah, maybe he’s just being doing it wrong... he can get things how they’re supposed to be.

There’s a reason that that tunnel was endless and the pool vast and spacious and then both without any clothes because that’s FREEDOM. He experienced it and it changed him but... it’s not the way it’s supposed to be, right?

Although it is. It’s exactly how it’s supposed to feel but he’s a boy living in our god forsaken world who has been failed. He sticks with SUPPOSED because he has no part of his life that (yet) demonstrates how it can be any other way. Supposed is toxic and it hurts and it suffocates (“I cant breathe around you”). He is hurting everyone around him including people he cares for but nobody more than himself.

Just like Isak, he is going to realise that what he is SUPPOSED to do is be himself and to lean into what feels nice and comfortable and easy and he’s allowed to live in that. When he realises what that looks like for him and that he can choose and finds the confidence and strength to say to the world - I reject what you have told me I’m SUPPOSED to want, I choose what I ACTUALLY want, his life will change and he will be able to breathe easily. I can’t wait to see him get there.

[heartjwi]

city of angels ☞ lee jeno

GENRE | angst

DISCLAIMER | i’m supposed to be studying but fuck that ig + insp. by la la lost you by niki!!

SUMMARY | jeno finds an old letter under his refrigerator after doing some cleaning around his apartment and finds himself reminiscing the past and wishing he could go back to the city he once lived in, and to you.

A/N | i cant contain myself i’m sorry bois + posted this on hyucafe by accident,, ok clown 

you and jeno had a healthy relationship from the very beginning needless to say. especially with the never ending support from your friends and family around the two of you. you and jeno barely fought in your 4 year old relationship, only arguing about where to go or where to eat, just the typical couple arguments.

that was, before you and jeno parted ways to go to college.

you stayed near your old town while jeno chose a college that was 12 hours away from you. the first time you heard about it, you didn’t talk to jeno for days. yes, you were proud of him for aiming high but just the thought of not seeing each other physically made your heart ache.

“why won’t you talk to me” jeno whines, plopping down next to you, who was busy reading a candy magazine. you rolled your eyes and flipped the page. jeno puffs and scoots closer to you. “is it because of the college thing?” he says slowly wrapping his arms around you. you closed the magazine shut and stared at him, “did you really have to choose somewhere far away from me?” you pouted. “and she talks!” jeno exclaims, hugging you close to him. “i mean, you’ll always have me right? no matter the distance” jeno kisses the side of your head.

and boy, were you wrong.

        the day when jeno was finally moving to new york, you helped his family set his things in his dad’s car. you and jeno stayed behind his room for one last time in a few months. “so this is it huh” you look up at him. he avoids your eyes and bites his lip. “hmm” he hums. “are you gonna miss me?” you pout, staring at his eyes. he nods, squeezing your sides. “we’re gonna facetime everyday okay?” you held out your pinky to which he links his pinky with yours. a tradition you two had.

his dad honks indicating it was time to go. you see jeno hold back his tears but the moment you hug him for the very last time, a tear fell from his eye. “shit jen, you’re making me cry too” you sniffled, unable to hide your tears as well. jeno lets out a teary laugh, “here” he removes his favorite hoodie and puts it on you. you stared at him in shock, “babe this is your favorite” you remove the hoodie off of you. “keep it” he kisses your hand.

you two walk downstairs hand in hand, ready to send jeno off to college. you stopped in front of the passenger seat when jeno turns to you. “you know i’ll always find my way back here, back home to you” he hugs you as you feel his tears soak his hoodie that you had on. you couldn’t contain the tears any longer and hugged him back tighter. “i’ll wait jeno, i’ll wait for you” you sobbed to his chest. he finally pulls away and cups your cheek for one last time before kissing you on the lips. “i’ll miss you” he whispers on your lips before getting in the passenger seat.

and that was the last time you ever got to see jeno.

       the first few weeks without jeno by your side was tough on your part. this was a whole new routine for the both of you. slowly adjusting to the fact he wasn’t by your side in somewhere that’s awfully familiar with the two of you.

on jeno’s part, he was enjoying the feeling of being alone for once in his life. the feeling where there’s no one to hinder him from doing everything he wishes to do. one of the reasons he chose this specific college in new york is that he could get away from you. a bit of a dick move but he had to do something.

in his first few weeks in new york, he already made a name for himself in his new school. a fuckton of new faces he got to meet in a span of a week. he could get used to this.

“please pick up” you repeat, biting your nails as you waited for jeno to answer his phone.  “hello?” jeno groggily answers his phone. you went quiet on the other line, not used to this. “y/n?” the way he said your name felt new to you again, almost like you two never met. “hi” you whisper. you hear him chuckle at the other end. “hello to you to my love” he muses.

and you two spent the night just talking to each other just catching up after a while, not knowing that would be one of the last times you two got to act like a couple.

       the next few months, you finally adjusted to your new school environment and made new friends along the way. slowly distracting yourself away from jeno. jeno on the other hand, got into some frat parties thanks to his roommates and peers who taught him how to party. not once have you crossed his mind since he moved here.

it didn’t take long for you to long for his touch or voice even. you texted him multiple times to answer your calls or even facetimes but nothing. he ghosted you for the next 2 weeks. you cried your heart out to your best friend about your new situation. your friends told you just dump and move on but you can’t. the town you two used to live in is filled with memories with jeno.

jeno finally had a wake up call the day after you blocked his number. he stared at the unanswered texts he had in his phone and it was all from you. he scrambled to get you to talk to him again, but knowing you, you would be wrapped around his finger again.

it didn’t take a while for jeno to pull the ghosting agenda again. you were starting to get sick of it. you started doing the same thing to him. not leaving a single message to him at all.

it was hurting you at first but slowly and surely, you were getting the hang of it with the help of your closest friends who made efforts to let you have fun and not think of a douchebag boyfriend.

and people began to notice the once introverted y/n turned into a more extroverted version of yourself who subconsciously puts a smile on everyone’s faces.

jeno found himself staring at his phone all day, waiting for a single message from you but nothing— not even a single one. he was starting to feel worried and anxious if anything happened to you but once he opened the instagram app it was a whole new story.

you just posted a new photo in your instagram in a while, and it was a photo of you in a dress after clubbing with your friends last night. it made jeno quite mad that you didn’t tell him about your whereabouts. he immediately called your number and waited for you to answer.

“hello?” you answer, not bothering to check the caller ID. “you got some explaining to do” was the first thing you hear from the other line. you checked the ID and it was jeno. “what are you talking about?” you tell him, not caring about a single thing that was about to happen. “how come you didn’t tell me that you went clubbing last night?!” he starts his sermon. you rolled your eyes and picked on your nails. ‘now he starts to care’ you thought to yourself. “you didn’t even text me for days! i was worried about you!” he rambles on, making you angry.

“so now it’s a problem that i don’t text you” you cut him off, catching him off guard. “huh?” he furrows his eyebrows. “cut this shit jeno, you’re mad that i’m finally doing what you’ve been doing to me” you felt tears prick your eyes. jeno stayed silent on the other line, realizing his mistake. “i’m tired” you start, wiping your tears. jeno felt his heart drop to his stomach, knowing where this was headed. “no-” “i’m so fucking tired waiting for you” you open up to him, full on crying at this moment. “you’re not the jeno i used to know” you whispered on the phone.

jeno stands up quickly, almost losing his balance. “no! y/n please-” he gets cut off yet again, “i think we should just break up” you choked out. jeno felt as if time has stopped all together and everything went silent. “i’m sorry” you whisper before hanging up.

and that was the last time you two heard about each other

its been a couple months after the break up and you were slowly moving on from jeno, after coming to a closure with yourself that you two won’t just work out. he’s not the jeno you once knew from your small hometown. he was a new different jeno in an unfamiliar city.

you went back home for a bit to just clean up any memory you had with jeno in your house and gave it back to his parents next door. they were sorry that their son had to be a dickhead. you just brushed it off and promised you would get lunch with them time to time. they did root for the two of you in the past.

jeno however, was slowly but surely becoming a mess months after the big break up. you only love something when it’s gone. the ‘friends’ he had won’t even check up on him. he was regretting why he hung out with them. now he was just cleaning his apartment, just to ease his mind.

he was sweeping his kitchen floor when he stumbled upon an old letter you sent to him the first week he moved in.

“to my bubby,

hi! i miss you already :-( and i know i’m just being dramatic since it has been only a week but i can’t help it you know? anyway so, how’s new york doing hmm? have you been to broadway? you promised me you’d take me one day hehehe…”

during the first week without jeno, you thought it would be a good idea to send him a letter and you even planned you’d do it monthly if he loved it. you never heard that he got the letter so that was the first and last letter he would ever get from you.

“the jetlag and timezones must be tough eh? but it’s okay, it means nothing when we mean everything to each other right? i even wasted some perfume just so i could spray it to this letter and the envelop so you would remember to miss me and it would ease the pain somehow”

jeno had tears in his eyes at this point, knowing the one who meant everything to him is no longer in his arms.

“if i’m being honest, i’d call you but i know you’ll be busy settling in and i’m trying to let go at the fact i won’t be seeing you in a while :-( i still and will always love you, jenjen! come back to me soon please.

hope new york will hug, take care and hold you the way I do, my love. i miss you so much! see you soon!

with lots and lots of hugs and kisses, y/n”

[the-shadow-of-atlantis]

Truth in Blood Pt 7

Summary: Annabella starts to say her goodbyes

Tagging: @melyaliz @thespacebuns @coffee-randomness

A/N Jen belongs to @melyaliz

Read Earlier Parts Here

Annabella was grateful for the long drive back into Gotham, it gave her time to think, time to plan. It gave her time to figure out who to say goodbye to and how. First things first she needed to go to work and explain her absence.

It was moments like these that Annabella was grateful her friend and cofounder was in on the secret. Otherwise Annabella would have no idea how to explain how she'd be leaving. When Olivia saw her she hugged Annabella tightly and scolded her for ditching her so abruptly.

"Well you're gonna hate me even more." Annabella said a small humorless laugh escaping her.

They quickly went to Annabella's office and she plopped down on her chair suddenly feeling tired again. She wondered if she'd ever feel relaxed again in her life.

"What happened? You look a little like hell." Olivia asked sitting in the chair opposite of her.

Annabella tried her best to explain the situation. Trying to condense as much as she could but still make it make sense.

“Okay so.” Olivia said once Annabella finally finished, taking a deep breath. “So you come from a long line of witches?”

“Sure let's go with that.”

“But if there’s multiple kids then they have to compete to keep their magic sorta like survival of the fittest.”

“Yup.”

“But before that your mother ended up getting her little brother killed who was basically a prodigy then fled as soon as she won against her other brother and got involved in a lot of bad magic. Until one day she accidentally got pregnant with you and when your dad and grandmother wouldn’t let her get rid of you she grew to resent the three of you because instead of owning up to the fact that it was her that got her brother killed she blames your grandmother for not saving him.”

“Yup.”

“So when your mother kidnapped you that day before your birthday it wasn’t for some ransom deal with your dad it was to kill you and get her brother back. And the only reason you are just now realizing all of this is because all this time bruce has lied to you or found some way to alter some of your memories in order to ‘protect’ you and now that your ‘of age’ you are getting all of this as some messed up birthday gift?”

“Pretty much.” Annabella sighed as she rubbed her eyes.

“Well I see now why you’ve been MIA for the past few days.” Olivia leaned back in her chair and a soft worried smile crossed her face. “Where did you even go?”

“You remember my friend Kaldur?”

“Kaldur as in Aqualad Kaldur. Kaldur as in soon to be league member Kaldur. Kaldur as in also soon to be Aquaman Kaldur.”

“Yes him.”

“Ohhh okay, so you were with him huh.”

“Oh shut it.” Annabella rolled her eyes. “It’s not like that. I just needed a calm place to stay.”

“Why didn’t you just go to Jen?”

“I love her but sometimes she cant help but get into therapist mode sometimes and I didn't need that while I was still trying to process everything. Besides my family would just show up at her place if they knew I was there. At least with Kaldur it was far and secluded, it was peaceful.”

“So what are you going to do now?”

“That’s the part where you're going to hate me.” Annabella took a deep breath and leaned against her desk. “I have to go away, at least a year. I have magic now and I need to go to a place where I can learn to control it… I just… I don't want to end up like my mom.”

“So you’re going to need me to take over while you're gone.” Olivia said and Annabella nodded.

Olivia got up and went to kneel down by Annabella’s side. “You helped get this place built from the ground up when you were only 13. You’ve given everything to this place for four years. If you need to take time to find yourself, take it.”

Annabella smiled and hugged her tightly. “You’re the best.”

“Don't you forget that. I would like to go on a vacation as soon as you get back.”

“Deal.” Annabella laughed as she pulled away.

“When are you heading out?”

“As soon as I finish confronting my father, I just need to say bye to one person first.” Annabella sighed as she got up.

Standing in front of her cousin's apartment Annabella almost wanted to chicken out. Instead she steadied her nerves and knocked. The door opened after a couple of seconds and Jen stared at her wide eyed.

“Hey.” Annabella said softly as she slightly waved.

“Hey?” Jen repeated sarcastically. “Hey? You’ve been gone for almost a week. No calls no texts no replied no nothing. And you just come back and say hey?”

Annabella was about to speak when Jen brought her in for a bone crushing hug and then she felt it. All of Jen's concern, her fear, her relief, her pain. Everything that she had probably been holding in for the days Annabella was gone was coming out in waves making her feel guilty every time a new emotion washed over her.

“I’m sorry.” Annabella whispered as she hugged her cousin, rubbing her back soothingly.

“You just disappeared, and then Bruce wouldn’t say where you were, Dick was no help either and even Tim couldn’t find you.” Jen sighed as she pulled away her hand resting on Annabella’s cheek then dropping down to her shoulder.

“I’m sorry I just… I had to get away from here, away from... him. I knew that if I came here they’d follow me.”

“What happened?” Jen asked, finally bringing Annabella inside. “Where have you been?”

“I’ve been at Kaldurs trying to gather my thoughts, I figured that would be the last place he would go looking for me.”

“He? Who exactly are you talking about?” Jen asked as she settled into her couch.

Annabella took a deep breath as she settled on the little recliner. She dove into the story starting from the beginning and giving more detail than she had shared with Olivia. Jen said nothing opting to listen intently to everything Annabella had to say. Once Annabella finished her story she brought her knees up to her chest and hugged them.

“You… you didn't know about any of this did you?” Annabella asked quietly, staring down at the floor, not wanting to meet her cousin's eyes.

“No.” Jen sighed as she rubbed her eyes. “Even if I did I wouldn’t be able to hide this from you, you know I suck at that. But now… now things are making sense. God Bruce what were you thinking.”

“I’m leaving.” Annabella said as she turned to look out the window.

“What do you mean by that?” Jen asked.

“I mean I’m leaving Gotham for a while. There's a place I can go where I can learn more about all of this.”

“Where will you go?”

“I'm not entirely sure yet. I know it’s somewhere in Mexico.” Annabella felt Jens worry start to seep through again. “I won't be gone too long, maybe a year. Jen I need to do this I need to learn more about myself and I can't do that here. I can't do that with him hovering over me.”

Jen frowned but Annabella felt her understanding start to come through.

“Will you be in contact?” Jen asked hopefully.

“I’ll try, but I can't make any promises. I'm not really sure how things will be like where I’m going. But I will promise that I am coming back.” Annabella got up and settled next to Jen on the couch, wrapping her arms around her and hugging her tightly.

“When will you go?” Jen asked and again Annabella felt her small sense of hope, hope that maybe she can hold on just a little bit longer.

“As soon as I speak to my father.” Annabella sighed, then jumped when she felt her stomach growl.

“One last Batburger run?” Jen asked slightly laughing but it didn't quite reach her eyes.

“Might as well.” Annabella smiled at least she could give her cousin this.

[deities-fanfiction]

Bakusquad movie night with jenny

wooooah jennys making EVEN MORE CONTENT-shut up!

It was an average Sunday afternoon. Jenny was listening to the first Percy Jackson audio book for the fifth time when there was a knock at the girls door. She paused and took off her headphones , saying a usual “one sec!” before she opened the door.

 At the door was Sero. Or as jenny wrote in her diary , piano teeth. “we’re setting up a movie night for the bakusquad. Wanna join in?” he asked. Jenny smiled at the thought. It had been a while since she hung with the bakusquad and she missed those goofballs. “I’m down.” jenny told Sero.

 Mr.soy sauce took jenny by the hand and led her to the couch where kaminari and Mina were sitting. Mina threw her arms around jenny. “yaaas the other queen has arrived!” she cheered. Jenny laughed and patted Mina’s back.

 Kaminari high fived Sero. “I’m surprised she came too.” the blonde stated. Jenny looked over at pikachu. “well I guess listening to Percy mess up for the fifth time isn't better than annoying Katsuki.” she smirked.

 “oi the hell are idiots talking about?” speak of the devil. Bakougo walked over to the group with Kiri right behind him.

 Jenny looked back at him and smiled “me annoying you~” she said honestly. A flick to the ear later and Bakougo was next to jenny on the couch. “yeah yeah , feisty.” he mumbled. Kiri was on the other side of jenny while mina was by bakougo. Kaminari was on a pile of pillows on the floor while sero was still standing up.

 He pulled out two DVD’s. “okay first decision. What are we watching?” he asked. The two films were spirited away and infinity war. “all for spirited away raise your hand.” sero said.

 Jenny , bakougo , mina and kiri wanted spirited away.

 “well damn that’s a majority vote. Sorry denki we lost this one.” sero said before he turned to pop the dvd in.

 Kaminari sighed “ah man! Alright mina you and me are on snacks.” he said before he got up. Alien queen stood up too and giggled. “sucks for you goldie locks!”.

 “kiri and jen are on blankie duty.” sero said as he put the infinity war dvd on the coffee table. “wait hey arent those my dvd’s what the hell dude?” she snatched the case. Sero snickered. “maybe.”. kiri  was already up and hauling a pissy jenny away from beating up Sero for snooping in her room.  

 Eventually jenny just followed the red head to his room. “I keep a bunch of blankets and stuff in my bottom drawer!” Kirishima said as he knelt down to open the drawer. He handed two to jenny and held the other three himself. “omg eij are these themed to the squad?” jenny asked. Kiri blushed a bit as they walked back “maybe.” he admitted.

 As they were doing this sero and bakougo were helping set up the snacks with mina and denki. To announce their presence jenny dumped her and bakougo’s blankets onto bakougo’s head. “ah- fiesty why?” he grumbled as he took them off his head. Jenny jumped over the back of the couch to sit back down. “cause I can.” she replied before wrapping her own blanket around her.

 Okay since you obviously want to know ; jenny’s blanket is baby pink with little purple jellyfish all over it. Bakougo’s is black woth die printed in orange printed all over it. Denki’s is a pikachu blanket and sero has a spiderman one. Mina had a black and pink tiger print blanket with kiri having a red blanket with a shark on it.

 Alright that’s out of my system.

 So sero pressed play on the movie. The ads went by as everyone got comfortable. Mina leaned on the side of the couch with kaminari on the floor in front of her. Like I said , sero was on the chair while jenny was between kiri and katsuki.

 As the movie began to play jenny felt the familiar calm wash over her as it did every time she watched spirited away. The soothing music and beautiful animation was perfect to her. The effort put into this film , like many others , made jenny smile to herself.

 Lets be honest the snacks were all eaten by mina , kiri and denki. C a n o n. and lets be honest sero has fallen asleep by the first 30 minutes. His famous last words are “no no im still listening.”. fucking jr grandpa iida here-

 And yes I call him grandpa Iida.

 Suddenly Bakougo spoke up. “I bet lin’s your fav , feisty.” he nudged Jennys leg with his. She snickered and hit his chest with her hand. “most definitely. She doesn’t take shit lying down.” the girl shrugged. Katsuki snickered.  “so she’s just as difficult as you?” he added.

 Jenny kicked his leg with hers. “hey you ass you were planning that the whole time werent you!” she crossed her arms.

 “oh both of you shush!” Mina told the pair. Kaminari looked up from his place on the floor “you act like siblings way too much for it to be normal! Jen you sure you haven’t known kaa-chan for longer than a few months?” he jabbed.

 Jenny tensed a bit but shook it off as the movie continued. As scene by scene went by the music along with the comments from her friends the girl between kiri and kastuki fell asleep , falling back onto the red heads shoulder.

 As kiri pulled the blanket over his friend , Chihiro and her own friends rode the train to swamp bottom. He put a hand over his mouth to stifle his laughter as Jenny drooled a bit in her sleep.

 The familiar voice of Yaoyorozu interrupted the moment. She had come out to check on the group before going to sleep. Her hair was down instead of in its usual pony tail. She pointed at jenny who was out cold “if you want I can get her to her room.” momo offered. Kiri smiled at the class vice president “don’t worry I’ll take her.” he politely declined.

 Momo nodded “don’t stay up too late.” she told the group. Mina called her no fun while Bakougo yawned and told mina to shut her mouth. Momo just nodded and went to her room.

 Once the movie was over mina and bakougo retreated to their rooms first. Sero had woken up and was taking out the disk. Kiri looked over at him and said “remember to get those back to jens room. She’ll kick your ass if you don’t give them back.”.

 Sero agreed. “yeah I will im not an asshole…most of the time.” he shrugged before putting on that signature smile and placing the disk back in its case. He took both the case he had taken and put them on the coffee table. Then he took the snack containers to the kitchen.

 While flex tape was doing that kiri picked up jen , still wrapped in her blanket. Still drooling…of course. “I might just let you keep this blanket…that is if you drool on it more.” bestie shark chuckled as he carried jenny to her room and if you think that anyone in 1A cant carry someone like its nothing your dumb these guys are absolutely shredded are you kidding working out if a hobby for half of them. Ok lil weird tangent over-

 Kiri held onto jenny with one arm , propping her up with his leg as he used his now semi free hand to open her dorm door. Once inside he shifted to hold her higher up before he bent over her bed and placed her gently onto it. Kiri moved back to go back out. When he got back to the couch he found that sero had left the cases on the table. He sighed and swiped them before heading back to jennys room.

 The dvd cases now set in their place in jennys massive movie shelf. “man how long as she been collecting. Got diverse taste at least…” eijiro marveled at the different movies his friend had gotten in the past what…[shit I need to check-] like almost 13 years so since she [I] was like 2…my parents like movies okay-

 Barbie , veggietales , marvel , DC , anime sets liek sailor moon and inuyasha , a silent voice and okkos inn. She also had the platnum disney and anniversarary disney dvd’s. along with one offs like rio , storks , kubo and the two strings.

 Ok bird theme.

 Speaking of birds.

 A loud chirp came from the bird cage in the upper corner of jenny’s room right by the door to her balcony. Right…buttercup. A small yellow bird jenny adored. Buttercups a brat but a cute one. Kiri glanced at jenny , worried she’d wake up. “shh! Your gonna wake your like…mom up? She calls you your mom right?” did he really just ask a bird this question. But never the less buttercup shushed herself.

 Kirishima sighed in relief as his shoulders lowered. He looked over at jenny again. She had moved positions to hold her oh so beloved minecraft squid plushie in her arms. And yes I have him irl. His name is Bartholomew and he likes sporks. Squids , octopi , birds and lizards were her favorite animals. Basically dinosours...

 And yes she was still drooling. Kiri took a tissue from jenny’s desk and wiped the drool from her mouth before he shut her mouth.

 Then he left the room. Turning off the light and shutting the door as he did. “night.”

[thatsdemko]

☆Therapy ☆-J.Norris

CHAPTER THREE

A/N: so I don’t know when I’m going to post the next chapter I’m really busy this upcoming week but I will try my best to find time!

WARNINGS: I edited this at like 1AM not really feeling well, I’ll try my best when I find time to come back through and re-edit!

“Good morning,” Josh cheered walking into the waiting room sitting down next to Megan, “you seem happy.” Megan smiled and he laughed adjusting himself in the chair, “I’m okay actually, just this is the last one of the week and there’s a game tonight thankful to not be missing it.”

“Oh? Who are you guys playing?” She asked the doctor opened the door and the two stood up walking back into the room, “penn state. You should come watch.” Josh suggested and Megan nodded her head, “my roommate will be there I know for a fact.”

“Well you should come join me in the players box I’m going to be lonely because my family can’t come and who’s supposed to join me is playing tonight.” Josh explained and Megan nodded her head remembering what Jenna had told her, that if Josh Norris asks you out friends or not you go.

“I’ll join you then.” Megan said surprising josh causing him to look up from his feet as he sat down and Megan sat next to him, “really? You will?” He said with wide eyes a bit shocked, “yeah, I will, I get in for free if I sit with you right?” She asked and he nodded his head, “alright, well I’m excited then.” He said as they were about to start therapy when the doctor came in with a big smile.

“You both seem to be doing well together! Had me worried the first day this wouldn’t work!” He cheered clappimg his hands as they both fell into their unenthusiastic expressions. “So we’ve got big stuff to do today you both might experience some pain, but it won’t be a lot, alright?” He smiled walking out of the room as now Josh and Megan were left with the group of therapists starting work.

“Today, we are going to start some more strength, Megan, you want to start first?” One of them asked and Megan sat down almost unwillingly as she pulled on the band carefully before letting go, “okay that’s enough for me.” Megan turned to josh getting up pointing to him, “your turn.”

—

Therapy ended and Megan went out to the car seeing Jenna was out there rolling down the window of her car, “is that Joshua—“

Megan quickly got into the car rolling up the window, “shut up, Jenna!” She hissed while laughing as josh looked over at Jenna’s car and Megan only looked away embarrassed feeling her cheeks heat up.

“Oh my god, he’s coming over here! How do you keep your hands to yourself? Ugh!” She said fixing her hair as Megan rolled down the window, “so I’ll meet you outside Yost tonight around six?” He asked as then another car pulled up behind Jenna’s.

“Yeah! I’ll see you then.” Megan smiled as he nodded his head waving goodbye to them both as he made his way to Quinn’s car, “oh my god that’s Quinn Hughes, I think he’s single—“

“Jen, you’re not but let’s go I’m hungry.” Megan rolled her eyes rolling up her window as Jenna drove off, “so you’re going to the game tonight?” She looked over at Megan and then back at the road, Megan never got outside her dorm almost ever expect for football games and practices, but since Josh asked and Jenna nearly begged her to get her potential love life going she was going out tonight.

“Yeah, I’m sitting with josh actually.” A smile formed on Jenna’s face as she turned to Megan, “my girl is growing up and listening to me! But listen if you meet will lockwood tell him to call me.”

—

It was ten minutes before Megan had to leave and she threw on one of bed Michigan lacrosse sweatshirts and a pair of jeans about to head out when Jenna stopped her, “you cant go like that to see josh!” She exclaimed just as Megan’s hand was on the doorhandle about to leave, “Jen, I’m going to be late if I change besides it’s hockey game the rink is always cold I’ll see you when I come back!” She sang the last part walking out of the dorm seeing josh had texted that he was already at Yost and Megan still had to make the drive. They both had been given the freedom to drive again earlier today, just only under the condition that they both texted each other that they arrived at their destinations safely knowing that driving with one arm is never easy.

“So who is this girl you’re sitting with? How come you’ve never told us about her.” Quinn asked as josh had walked in the arena, he would walk back out to meet with Megan and show her around as they had time before they would go up to the booth. “She’s a girl I met at therapy, her name is Megan.”

“What type of therapy are you doing?” Will asked with a smirk wiggling his eyebrows as josh shoved him with his free arm, “oh shut up.”

“All I’m saying is I never got to do buddy therapy if I did I would be paired up with—well probably you and that’s no fun.” Will joked again just as josh made a threatening step as phone lit up with a text from Megan saying she had arrived.

“I will be back, you,” Josh pointed at Will, “don’t say anything stupid when she comes.” Josh warned and will shrugged, “I hold no promises.” He offered a cheeky smile as josh turned to Quinn who nodded his head, “just go I want to meet her.” Quinn said and josh nodded his head walking out of the players only area seeing Megan standing there on her phone before she looked up seeing josh standing there, “hey,” she said shoving her phone into her back pocket of her jeans as he held the door open for her and they both walked down the hall together, “two of my teammates really want to meet you, one being my best friend the other is kind of annoying.” He rolled his eyes and Megan laughed following him around the corner to see Quinn Hughes and Will Lockwood—who actually happened to be in her sociology class but never told Jenna knowing she would freak—standing there talking.

“Hey! you brought your therapy friend.” Will cheered and Quinn turned around and Megan smiled to them both, “yes this Megan,” he introduced her and she waved, “that’s Quinn,” he pointed to him and he waved his hand and then he pointed at Will, who Jenna was right about. He was cute, he had the most perfect smile and beautiful eyebrows she had probably ever seen, “that’s will,” he said and she smiled to him and he offered a smile back, “it’s really nice to meet you, but I’m sorry you have to do therapy with this guy. What a drag he must be, huh?” Will asked and she laughed looking up at josh and then back over at the two, “he’s alright.” She said as will came up to josh, “did you put your tie on in the dark or something?” Will asked josh as Megan moved out of the way as will adjusted josh’s tie, “no but it’s hard to do things with one hand as you should know.”

“So you like doing therapy with josh?” Quinn asked and Megan turned to him now nodding her head, “yeah he’s great, he tells me you guys are best friends.” She noted and he nodded his head, “yeah, he is my best friend, I look out for him as much as I can.” He explained and she nodded her head as now josh was consumed in a conversation with Will.

“That’s really nice, you’re a good teammate and friend.”

He flashed her a soft smile, “thank you, I try to be.”

—

The whole game josh never talked to Megan. In fact, he brought another girl up in the booth with them so Megan really sat by herself texting Jenna the whole game thinking about leaving because clearly josh was not interested in her enough to hold a conversation, so Megan sat a row behind the two, practically going at it, bored out of her mind. It wasn’t about the game she was bored of, it was that she had no one to talk to.

When the game was nearing the end josh had to leave the booth to go onto the ice since the team won and they were going to do Michigan’s fight song so it was now Megan and the girl.

“Hi, I’m Maddie, are you josh’s friend from therapy?” She asked turning around revealing the hickies josh had recently left on her neck and, for some reason, a part of Megan’s heart shattered. She didn’t really like josh, but having to watch him make out with a girl in front of her was something she wasn’t keen on.

“Yeah, are you his girlfriend?” She asked biting her lip and Maddie shook her head, “no kind of just friends with a benefit. I don’t mean to sound like high school, but does he talk about me?” She asked and it was her turn to bite her lip as Megan shook her head, “no he actually doesn’t, but this was only three days we’ve spent together I’m sure you’ll come up later on.” Megan offered a smile standing up from her seat hearing the fight song and Maddie did to as now Megan was cheering with the rest of the people at Yost. For some reason, a part of Megan was torn about josh. She knew she hated him for his little cocky remark, but she liked how despite that he was extremely nice, and it made her unsure of her own feelings of him. But even more so now she was just confused.

“What a game, you enjoy it?” Maddie asked as now the two were making their way out of the booth, “yeah, did you?” Megan asked knowing the answer was going to be a lie since Maddie and Josh had plans of sticking tongues down each other’s throats.

“Oh yes! Are you staying afterwards to see the guys?” Maddie asked and Megan shook her head, “I think I should go–“

“Please stay, I don’t know anyone here I actually don’t even go here, please? Josh is going to be with the team so it would be nice if you stayed?” Maddie begged and Megan gave her a nod, “I’ll stay.”

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“Lonely?” She heard picking her head up from her phone seeing will standing over her as she sat there a few seats away from all the couples pictures that were going and Megan found herself taking pictures of Josh and Maddie for her, but then once she sat down Maddie stopped asking her.

“A bit,” Megan chuckled as will sat down next to her, “is josh a great person or what?” He asked and Megan laughed leaning back in her chair a bit too hard causing her to wince as she felt her shoulder start to throb, “you’re not used to that feeling are you?” He asked and she shook her head looking him in the eyes feeling what she felt and it was something she liked. It was almost like what Jenna felt when she showed Megan those pictures of josh’s body.

“But anyway to your original question, what a lovely person.” She said sarcastically as Will cracked a smile looking back at Maddie and Josh still taking pictures and then back at Megan seeing the upset look on her face, “yeah? I saw him making out with her the whole game when I wasn’t on the ice, felt kind of bad for you.”

“what do you mean? I loved watching them make out.” Megan offered another sarcastic comment as he laughed and she as he leaned back in his chair, “I mean come on? What asshole invites you to a game and then practically forces you to watch him make out with his girlfriend?”

“Well josh obviously.” She whispered letting a big sigh seeing as the two were done taking pictures and Maddie was coming over to Megan, “thank you for taking pictures of me and josh! Bye!” She smiled grabbing her coat as she ran off with josh and he didn’t even say goodbye to Megan.

“It’s like he actually forgot he invited me.” Megan turned to Will and he shook his head, “the next time he invites you anywhere, just say no.” Will said standing up from the seat and Megan stood up as well, “yeah, hopefully he’s not going to the lacrosse party tomorrow.” Megan watched josh and Maddie’s figures slowly get further and further away until they were out the door and she looked back at Will.

“You’re going to that?” He asked and she nodded her head, “I play lacrosse.”

“Then that makes more sense okay, well I was invited by one of the guys, I can ask if he’s going and if he is he’s probably bringing Maddie.”

Megan shook her head, “you don’t have to do that,” she whispered looking down at her shoes and then back up at Will, “what? Go? No I actually want to go I heard there’s free alcohol I never pass up an opportunity of getting drunk.” He said jokingly causing her to crack a smile, “okay, well I hope to see you there.”

“You as well, Megan. Hey, sorry about josh though, maybe next time you can come as my guest?” He offered and she nodded her head feeling butterflies erupt in her stomach, “yeah, yeah I’d like that a lot.”

“Cool, I’ll see you tomorrow.”

“Yeah, see you tomorrow.”

[larry-the-lobster]

sad christmas

i know christmas is long gone but still. warnings: honestly sad, also no capitilaztion.

i left in the summer, i decided to swing by. i don't know why. i walked on his street, i looked into his window. the last time i was here i placed a letter into his mailbox to finish off my goodbye. i looked into the window. he never changed the curtains.

then a car had to drive past. his dog, or our dog curly started barking. i helped jen get curly and i always took care of him, hell jen and i had a fake custody agreement. it was fun. ive missed curly.

when curly saw me, his tail started wagging, he scratched at the windows and curtain. he was excited. then i saw a glimpse of jensen. i don't know if he saw me or not.

i could feel my face get hot, my body froze and my heart stopped. my baby. jensen opened the door and curly ran out, jensen saw me. his bowlegs turned to me, he had pajama pants and slippers on.

his green eyes met mine, panic coursed through my veins. he started running to me. i began to run away. i didn't want to talk. i don't even know why i came here. i don't even know why i came here.

i could here his feet pounding on the ground as he ran as fast as he could to me, he was a fast runner but i had a skateboard.

curly didn't stop chasing me but jensen did. he looked at me with pleading eyes, he didn't want me to go but i had to. i still wasn't over him. i don't think i'll ever be. he's too beautiful to get over, he's too nice to get over, he's to unique to get over. he's too him to get over.

ive tried to replace him. ive dated around but when news with supernatural or anything comes up i just shut down.

when jensen stoped, he fell to his knees. he had tears. "please don't leave. ive been waiting for you to come back. i miss you. please don't leave again. i love you." i was behind a car, i wanted to come out. i wanted to.

"i love you too jensen. that's why i can't come back. im sorry." i was petting curly. i kissed curlys head and sent him back to jensen. "goodbye." i wanted to go up to him and kiss his forehead. it would be one hell of a sad way to leave. ive missed the way he smells and the way his forehead feels against my lips.

but i didn't. i skated my way to my car and got in.

"then why did you come back?! why didn't you just stay away?! this isn't fair! you don't get to change my life and then leave!! you had to come back for a reason. you had to have missed me too. please say you missed me. please." he was angry and sad. i stopped the car and got out. i walked to him again. i kissed his forehead and told him that i did. i told him that ive missed him, that i wish i never left, that i wishing kept it in. "then stay. you'll live with me. we'll cuddle on the couch, we'll have hot chocolate. we'll do whatever you want."

"jen save that for your family. you don't want me."

"but-"

i grabbed his face and kissed him. i kissed his tears and held him tight. "you don't want this. i know you dont." he looked at me, the way his eyes changed and the way his soul turned inside his pupils, he knew i was right. he knows he doesn't want me like that, he just wants me back.

the laughs, the playful hits, the stupid arguments and the movie nights. all of it. i wanted it too, honestly i did. but i wanted more, i wanted him to be mine forever. i could make him if i really wanted to but i cant bring myself to that. im not going to take away his happiness forever just so i can be happy.

then i left. i actually left.

i drove away and didn't pull over. my eyes got heavy but i didn't sleep, i just got coffee. i wasn't going to sleep. not until i was safe in my own house again.

"im so sorry jensen. im so so sorry baby," i whispered to the steering wheel and windshield. "i love you too jensen, ive always loved you."