#afterburied

[nitebitarchive]

starter call:    @afterburied​

“    there  was  nothing.  at least there wasn’t for me.  it  was  just  —  empty  and  dark.    ”     it’s more than she’s ever said about dying. at least out loud. something about dakota brings out these parts of her. the ones she tries so hard to forget. she fidgets in her seat as she pulls at the tips of her fingers in a weak attempt to distract herself. all she can think about is her next hit. the next line to help her forget.       “   why does this matter again?    ”   

[libertytm]

@afterburied​  -  ❝ you think this mistake won’t have repercussions? ❞  ★

it  had  been  a  rough  day,  the  kind  that  would echo  and  BLEED  into  the  days  that  followed.  what  everyone  needed  was  rest,  but  making  a  bad  call  didn’t  always  lend  itself  to  sleeping  easy.  

❝  we’re  all  allowed  to  make  mistakes, ❞  lord  knew  he’d  made  his  fair  share  and  then  some. ❝ --  but  if  we  let  ourselves  be  paralyzed  by  a  future  that  may  never  come,  then  we  won’t  be  able  to  handle  the  present. ❞  

[sleepingb0nes]

@afterburied​ ♡‘d.

“you seem upset.”    it’s not a question. dakota’s pacing is not easy to ignore and the book in her hands is long forgotten. shiloh offers what she hopes is a sympathetic smile, "i don’t mean to pry, really. it’s just — a little distracting.” 

[undoctrine]

​INT. EMMA’S KITCHEN - NIGHT.

Ben walks into the scene to find Dakota sobbing with Miguel’s bloodied shirt in her hands. The regret and guilt is visible on his face. She only stops crying when she hears Ben clearing his throat.     @afterburied

[jasonbrennerold]

wyd if i told u to do 1-38 👀

the ‘be honest’ meme / @afterburied

ok below the cut bc this is a Long One

1. What would prevent you from following someone?

generally speaking just kinda if our writing doesn’t mesh? but also on different blogs i have different kind of vibes if you know what i mean? like here on jason i’m not likely to follow historical/extreme fantasy blogs if they don’t have some form of modern verse bc i just don’t see him in those settings, i also tend to avoid anyone who says they dont like multis/ocs even if it doesn’t apply on the blog im on bc uh we love multis and ocs here. sometimes if a blogs new i wont follow, but sometimes i will it just depends on the vibe lmao. sometimes aesthetics/etc will play a role but mostly it’s just based on rules/meshability

2. Are aesthetics important to you? If they are, why?

yes and no? like i won’t shun anyone for having “bad” aesthetics or anything, but i hold my own personal aesthetic to a higher regard? like, if someones aesthetic makes things unreadable/impossible to navigate then i hate it, but like i don’t care about other peoples aesthetic that much. if it’s pretty i definitely see the blog in a better light which im trying not to do, but mostly it’s my own aesthetics that matter to me and that’s just because i simply need to be perceived positively at all times

3. What current rp trend do you hate?

i don’t think there are any i really hate? as long as trends aren’t harmful i dont care much.

4. How do you explain rp to someone in the real world?

i don’t lmao the only person who knows about rp irl is my inner circle, and they know it as rp bc at least one of them has actually been in the rp world

5. Do you prefer interacting with male muses or female more? Why?

i don’t really have much preference? all genders bring in their own potential for different plots and dynamics and i love them all equally. but female muses and muses that don’t conform to the male/female binary are always favorites because they deserve more appreciation

6. Do you prefer writing male muses or female more? Why?

this one was actually hard to answer because like? i don’t know? i write plenty of both, and i feel like i prefer males, but also i think that’s just because of the way males tend to be treated over females? like some of my female muses are That Muse that never goes away, but because females tend to be more ignored or people just don’t read their info it’s never as fun writing them

7. What’s your opinion on call out posts?

sometimes they’re necessary, sometimes they’re not. i don’t really read them? unless it’s a callout that comes across my dash a lot or revolves around someone i know/write with. if it’s a legit predator then i say go off, but if it’s something petty or spiteful i think it just makes all parties involved look kinda bad.

8. Name any three things about the rpc that bother you.

answered here.

9. What is your opinion on exclusivity? Do you practice it? Why / why not?

i have in the past, i don’t really presently. i think sometimes it’s good and sometimes it’s bad, and really depends on the fandoms/characters involved. like currently i have lea as my exclusive stiles and earth as my exclusive carol because they have such intense connections to jason and are literally a part of his backstory/canon so it would feel really strange to have another version of that muse come along and try to either fit the dynamic or ignore it. that said i have in the past had exclusives where it felt like i was trapped in it or didn’t get to explore more dynamics because of it, so it can be a win or a lose dependent on the person you’re exclusive with and what they’re like.

10. Have you ever had a bad experience with commissions? As either someone who makes them or as someone who buys them?

not really, no. i don’t think i’ve ever actually commissioned anyone, and the people who have commissioned me in the past have generally been really nice. there’s been a few times where people really don’t know what they want or change their mind constantly or just ghost before we get anywhere, but mostly it’s been a good experience for me.

11. What do you know now about rp that you wish you knew when you first started?

that literally nothing matters. who cares. take as long as you want, remake as much as you want. yes this is a hobby that depends on other people somewhat, but that doesn’t mean that everything you do should revolve around them. take mental health breaks, write in prose, have a super minimalist or super maximalist aesthetic. who gives a shit, this is about having fun.

12. Have you been involved in drama? Do you regret it?

answered here.

13. Have you ever thought about leaving rp? What caused it? What changed your mind?

answered here.

14. Do you think rp has had a positive or negative affect on your life or you as a person?

oh a huge positive effect on both for sure. there are times that it’s been bad for my mental health, but i’ve also met so many brilliant people and had so much fun doing this. half of my facebook friends list is people i’ve befriended through rp (and yes this is an invite to anyone i talk to a lot to ask for my facebook if u want it)

15. How has rp changed you personally?

i started rping in 2012 when i was 14. rp was my main hyperfixation through high school, with me spending most days in class on tumblr rather than doing work. i shaped my entire life around rp for a long time, and while that was extremely unhealthy it was also a huge formative thing for me. tumblr and roleplaying are so ingrained into who i am at this point, it’s literally changed my life. the friends i made through rp, especially in my high school years, were a life changing thing. i had one or two friends in high school, but i was heavily bullied and widely hated and rp really did save me from really fully sinking into thinking that’s what everyone thought of me

16. If you could change one thing about rp on tumblr, what would it be? Why?

i think it would mostly just be the accessibility and ease of it? i miss the days where you didn’t have to be mutuals to write, and how it was just so easy to get things going and have meaningless fun. i love my mutuals and i love plotted threads but i truly think there was something so easy about starting a blog and immediately having threads and people to write with. lately tumblr has become a place where it’s so easy to be ignored or feel like no one wants to write with you, and i really miss the days where there was always someone there who wanted to write with you and be friends.

17. Have you ever sent a message to yourself on anon? Why?

literally all the time lmao. my positivity blog is 50% me sending myself anons because people very rarely send them in. people follow positivity blogs to hear positivity about themselves but never send any in which makes it difficult. i don’t want to seem like my positivity blog is focused only on my mutuals, but i also don’t have much i can say about non-mutuals without it feeling fake so it’s a rough balance. i also send myself anonymous headcanon questions all the time bc no one else is gonna do it for me

18. Have you ever sent hate to yourself on anon? Why?

i think i did once or twice in like 2014 because i was a 16 year old who wanted attention. mostly it was just like i’d posted something that i knew would be controversial in the fandom and wanted to send myself the hate while i had a comeback in mind rather than wait for someone else to say it and feel bad lmao

19. Do you delete anon hate or post and address it? Why?

i tend to post/address it. it’s a bummer to get anon hate and i know i should delete it but i’ll see it and be like ‘oh everyone thinks this’ so i post it so that everyone can see and be like ‘yeah’ but then they’re like ‘this is bullshit’ and i have a moment of like... oh... people... dont hate me?

20. Have you ever felt pressured to write something you weren’t comfortable with?

i dont think so, not that i remember at least.

21. Have you ever followed someone because you felt like you had to, not because you wanted to?

yeah, a few times. i tend to feel that way less now but i still do it sometimes. i know there’s not really any pressure, but sometimes breaking mutuals with people you don’t click with feels really hard

22. What would make you block someone?

not a lot, really? like not for hard blocks. i’ll softblock when i do unfollow sprees or if we don’t really mesh. i only hardblock people who spam me, personals and like. actual problematic people.

23. Have you ever stolen something from someone else?

not that i’m aware of. 

24. Have you ever had something stolen from you? If so, how did you handle it?

again, not that i’m aware of.

25. Are you open to duplicates? Why / why not?

this doesn’t apply to jason, but generally yeah. it depends on the muse really. im not open to duplicates on beth (multimuses aside) because of how she’s a comfort character for me and i’ve had some Bad Experience with other beths in the past, and theres a few muses i write from smaller fandoms that don’t have duplicates but that i wouldn’t want duplicates for. mostly though im chill.

26. How do you feel about vague posting?

i don’t love it, but i am guilty of it too. sometimes u gotta vague to get things out, but i don’t like vagues where that person is likely to see it? idk i just don’t like vagues but i wont stop you

27. Do you follow people even if they don’t follow you back?

sometimes, but not really. i used to do it a lot, but since people are so intense on mutuals only these days i get heaps of anxiety about accidentally liking something when i think we’re mutuals but we’re not

28. Do you read people’s rules before following or interacting?

i try to. a lot of people don’t have mobile friendly info (note that linking to pages on your blog like a /rules or /about isnt actually mobile friendly, you can’t use those links in the app) and i spend a lot of time on mobile, but i usually just wont follow back until i can read them and then i double check rules for triggers and stuff whenever plotting/sending memes/etc.

29. What is your opinion on “reblog karma” and do you practice it?

i don’t love it and i don’t practice it, but i get it. it sucks to have people reblog things from you without sending, especially headcanon/ooc stuff. i won’t ever force people though, especially with ic stuff, sometimes certain memes just don’t fit and that’s okay.

30. How have you responded to popular slang used on tumblr? Do you use it in every day life? Do you use it at all?

probably? i type the same as i talk pretty much, anything you see me type is something i’d say

31. Is there something you don’t know the meaning of but you haven’t asked anyone because you think it’s supposed to be general knowledge? Was there ever something you had to ask someone to explain?

i dont think so. generally i google things if i don’t know it.

32. Have you ever experienced discrimination?

not that i’m aware of. i guess people ignoring female ocs and loving male canons might sorta be it, but nothing personal about me no

33. How do you feel about personal blogs following your rp blog?

not a fan, tend to block them. personals just tend to get into my shit and rb stuff and it’s annoying. that said, if it’s someone i know from the rp community’s personal they can stay

34. Have you ever cried while writing a reply?

literally all the time. every angsty reply.. i cry so easily

35. Do you read other people’s threads or do you only read your own?

i read so many other peoples threads, especially people i interact with a lot. i read @unheaven and @aphostate‘s threads like the morning paper i love them

36. What’s one thing that other people seem to hate that doesn’t bother you?

i don’t know that anyone really hates things that much?? oh, but 13rw is a big one i guess. the show helped me mentally and i have muses on my multi, but i know the majority of the rpc is very much against it

37. How do you feel about tagging triggers? Do you tag them? How do you determine what is triggering content and what isn’t?

i try to, but i don’t ever really know when exactly things need to be tagged. i use the ‘ask to tag //’ tag a lot for things that im not sure about. generally speaking triggers go untagged unless it’s intense/graphic, but there’s always warnings in my rules about what i don’t tag

38. What advice would you give to someone new to rp?

don’t take it too seriously. it’s a hobby, it’s for fun. these people will not care if you use aesthetic vibes or if you’re a minimalist, they just want your writing. don’t guilt trip people into writing with you, read and respect rules. i don’t know, just treat people how you wanna be treated. rp is a small world, word travels, people know when people are the type to ignore important things. 

[nitebitarchive]

HOW  DOES  YOUR  MUSE  CARRY  EMOTION ? : 

BOLD   :   always  applies .   ITALIC   :   sometimes  applies .   STRIKE   :   never  applies .

ANGER :  jaw  clenching . hands  balling  into  fists . teeth  grinding  . yelling . going  nonverbal  .  stuttering  speech  . rushed  speech  .  slow,  concise  speech  . rambling . quiet . arms  crossing  .  shaking  head  . tearing  up . animated  .  expressionless  . projects  . internalizes  . vents  . withdraws .  passive  aggressive  . direct  . physical  outbursts  . verbal  outbursts.

JOY :  easy  smiles . fighting  back  grins  . suppressed  laughter . loud  laughter  .  giggles  . chuckling  . smirks  . whole  body  laughs  . covers  mouth  when  laughing / giggling  . throws  head  back  when  laughing  . slaps  leg  . touches  people  around  them when  laughing . looks  down  when  laughing . looks  for  eye  contact  when  laughing  . sparkling  eyes . bubbly  happiness . quiet, subtle  happiness . obnoxious  happiness  .  wants  to  spread  joy . quietly  savors  joy.  

SADNESS :  crying . bottling  it  up . seeks  distractions .  wallows  . meditates  and  processes  . avoidance  . seeks  out  comfort . withdraws . talks  it  out . internalizes  it . sad  smiles  . depression  naps .  uses  alcohol .  uses  drugs .  seeks  out  sources  of  joy  . fidgets  with  sentimental  item . sits  in  silence  . broods  . gets  moody . wants  someone  to  share  the  misery . tries  to  hide  negative  emotions . nurtures  others  to  make  themselves  feel  better.

EMBARRASSMENT / SHAME :  blushing . looking  away . rubbing  at  back  of  head  . covering  face  .  laughing  nervously  . laughs  it  off  .  overthinks  . lets  it  go  . self - depreciating  humour .  deflects  . gets  irritated  . smiles  . withdraws . crossing  arms  over  stomach  .  crossing  arms  over  chest  .  hands  in  pockets  . shoulders  sinking  .  shrugs  . falling  into  silence  until  comfortable  again . talking  a  lot  to  compensate.

GUILT :  avoiding  eye  contact .  shoulders  sinking  low  .  head  hanging  down . crying . chest  aches  . lashes  out . internalizes . apologizes . deflects . communicates . withdraws  .  grand  gestures  for  forgiveness  . accepts  fault  easily .  punishes  themselves . martyrdom  . victim  complex  . over - active  guilt  complex . healthy  conscience  . internalizes  even  after  forgiveness .  seeking  redemption . moves  on  easily .  denial  . lack  of  guilt / conscience  .  sorry  they  got  caught  more  than  caused  harm . can’t  handle  knowing  they  hurt  others.

FEAR / ANXIETY :  trembling . crying  . uses  sarcasm / sass  to  cope  .  rambles . goes  silent  . gets  angry . fidgeting  . clenching  jaw . picking  at  nails . chewing  at  lip . pulling  at  clothes  .  adjusting  jewelry / clothing . swallowing  thickly  .  eyes  widening  .  over - reacts  . under - reacts  .  calm  . logical . panic . irrational .  overthinks  .  carefully  analyzes . talks  to  themselves .  breathing  exercises  .  fight  . flight  .  withdraws  . fawns .

tagged by: @afterburied mwah ! 

tagging:   anyone who’d like to do it  <3

[undoctrine]

HOW  DOES  YOUR  MUSE  CARRY  EMOTION ? BOLD   :   always  applies .   ITALIC   :   sometimes  applies .   STRIKE   :   never  applies .

ANGER : jaw  clenching . hands  balling  into  fists . teeth  grinding  . yelling .  going  nonverbal  .  stuttering  speech  . rushed  speech  .  slow,  concise  speech  . rambling . quiet .  arms  crossing  .  shaking  head  . tearing  up . animated  .  expressionless  . projects  . internalizes  . vents  . withdraws  .  passive  aggressive  . direct  . physical  outbursts  . verbal  outbursts.

JOY : easy  smiles . fighting  back  grins  . suppressed  laughter  . loud  laughter  .  giggles  . chuckling  . smirks  . whole  body  laughs  .  covers  mouth  when  laughing / giggling  . throws  head  back  when  laughing  .  slaps  leg  . touches  people  around  them  when  laughing . looks  down  when  laughing  .  looks  for  eye  contact  when  laughing  . sparkling  eyes . bubbly  happiness . quiet,  subtle  happiness . obnoxious  happiness  .  wants  to  spread  joy .  quietly  savors  joy.  

SADNESS : crying  . bottling  it  up  . seeks  distractions .  wallows  . meditates  and  processes  . avoidance  . seeks  out  comfort  . withdraws  . talks  it  out . internalizes  it .  sad  smiles  . depression  naps .  uses  alcohol  .  uses  drugs .  seeks  out  sources  of  joy  . fidgets  with  sentimental  item . sits  in  silence  . broods  . gets  moody .  wants  someone  to  share  the  misery . tries  to  hide  negative  emotions  . nurtures  others  to  make  themselves  feel  better.

EMBARRASSMENT / SHAME : blushing  . looking  away . rubbing  at  back  of  head  . covering  face  .  laughing  nervously  . laughs  it  off  .  overthinks  . lets  it  go  . self - depreciating  humour .  deflects  . gets  irritated  . smiles  . withdraws . crossing  arms  over  stomach  .  crossing  arms  over  chest  .  hands  in  pockets  . shoulders  sinking  .  shrugs  .  falling  into  silence  until  comfortable  again . talking  a  lot  to  compensate.

GUILT : avoiding  eye  contact .  shoulders  sinking  low  .  head  hanging  down  . crying . chest  aches  . lashes  out  . internalizes .  apologizes .  deflects  . communicates . withdraws  .  grand  gestures  for  forgiveness  . accepts  fault  easily  .  punishes  themselves . martyrdom !!!!!!!!!!  .  victim  complex  . over - active  guilt  complex . healthy  conscience  . internalizes  even  after  forgiveness  .  seeking  redemption .  moves  on  easily  .  denial  . lack  of  guilt / conscience  .  sorry  they  got  caught  more  than  caused  harm  . can’t  handle  knowing  they  hurt  others.

FEAR / ANXIETY : trembling . crying  .  uses  sarcasm / sass  to  cope  .  rambles . goes  silent  . gets  angry . fidgeting  . clenching  jaw  . picking  at  nails . chewing  at  lip  . pulling  at  clothes  .  adjusting  jewelry / clothing . swallowing  thickly  .  eyes  widening  .  over - reacts  . under - reacts  .  calm  . logical . panic .  irrational  .  overthinks  .  carefully  analyzes  . talks  to  themselves .  breathing  exercises  .  fight  .  flight  .  withdraws  . fawns .

tagged by no-one i stole it. tagging: @unheaven @afterburied

[undoctrine]

hot take everyone should follow @unheaven & @afterburied bc i fucking love them