#after being neglected after all hardships and sad moments after almost 4 years they finally achieved that tt my babies

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📢LISTEN 📢 UP📢 ARMYS📢 HERE ARE 23 UNDERRATED ¿!MORE!¿ RAP MONSTER TRACKS THAT YOU SHOULD ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY POSITIVELY SHOULD CHECK OUT by @btsxlami

Hey guys its your favourite Namjoon promoter here again a.k.a LAMI! My last post got a lot of notes so whoop whoop and included my personal favourite 23 Namjoon tracks which you can find here

Part 2 of my underrated Namjoon series.

Here are 23 more bc damn Namjoon has a lot of fcking songs!

Disclaimers: (HOLD UP IF THIS IS YOUR FIRST TIME SEEING THIS I SUGGEST YOU SEE PART ONE)

1. i will include tracks that Namjoon covered

2. I will include tracks that Namjoon featured in

3. I will include tracks that I personally feel the need to be well known *so no I won’t put expensive girl even tho thats my shit*

4. This list will be a bit more laid back since I covered a lot of the most important songs in the last list sooo

5. since i covered his best and most “important” tracks in the last list theres not many left but ill probably include his REALLY early like pre debut fetus tracks with his underground rapper friends, tbh I personally don’t think they are the best but you can definitely see how he grew and where he started from

6. enjoY! and reblog kekeke

7. THIS IS A LONG ASS LIST AND I FUCKING ANALYZED EACH SONG SO I EXPECT YALL TO READ AND APPRECIATE NAMJOON GODDAMIT

8. you can always go to BTS’s official soundcloud for unofficial official tracks yeet

9. titles with stars are ones i recommend ( i should of done this for part one yikes)

1. Voices by Rap Monster ⭐

from his first 2015 mixtape RM > Check out the full album here >>  X  *you can refer to more mixtape songs in my previous list

I feel as if this song is the closest a fan can get with Kim Namjoon. Just listening to it you feel a bit relaxed and almost a bit sad when you start listening to the first half of the song. This song reflects a person’s tender emotions and voices that run inside of someone’s head when they are confused. I remember listening to this 2 years ago and towards the end Namjoon starts screaming out all his pain and I started crying. C R Y I N G

Namjoon had a really smooth life up until he started pursuing hip hop. He was a beyond smart student and had a happy family so why the hell would he be depressed? He had his whole life ahead of him right?

But this lyrics totally breaks that facade down

 “ I didn’t have any dreams just like my lyrics, every day in that way the functions and equations that couldn’t give me an answer in the end those things became uncountable injuries “

Despite having such amazing grades Namjoon did not know what the hell he wanted to do with his life, he didnt want to go into something academic despite being good at it, he was lost in life and his academics could not make him happy but instead hurt him even more.

“ thought I could catch the mirage known as happiness but the me in front of my desk wasn’t happy even for a moment without my mom knowing, I put a sheet of white paper between the pages of my workbook “

This verse totally broke me apart. He wanted to be happy while being in school but school sure as hell did not make him happy. His parents looked up to him as some smartass freak but without them knowing he started writing his own lyrics to cope with his hardships.

“my identity that I wrote down matched to the drum and bass a different, relaxed feeling compared to when I got my report card even when I was #1 my heart couldn’t relax”

The music brought out his true inner feelings, music brought out his true personality rather than when he was almost robot like studying with no self-identity. Despite being number one in class he still felt an emptiness that only music could fill.

“even as 7 years passed... still making my mixtape by myself in one corner of my room some say I’m fake, okay, I admit it, my dark past I can justify it, but I won’t, so that kind of problem won’t happen again the pedal that I stepped on for 7 years has finally been oiled “

Namjoon has been writing music and tried to get recognition for 7 years, despite Bangtan getting fame he is still lonely writing his own mixtape in a dark corner, kind of pathetic ehh idk, in his mixtape interview his dark past was his problematic sayings and actions. He felt the need to appropriate culture in order to rap. He then figured out that music and culture had nothing to do with eachother, music is for everyone. *I’m fake*

And finally after all the hardships after 7 years he is finally started to receive praise and attention!

2. WE ARE BULLETPROOF PT.1 by: Rap Monster, Supreme Boi, and Iron ⭐

Composed 6-7 years ago when Namjoonie was about 15 or 16 THIS SONG IS FUCKING BOP. 

2 of Bangtans were also first members are featured here: Supreme boi (yall probably familiar with him) and Iron! (i hope iron never affiliates with Bangtan ever again tho we dont need a criminal around them yikes)

3. Hook by Supreme Boi, Iron, and Namjoon (also the track used in Yoongi’s all i do is win)

Extremely old and pre debut, but old is gold

Probably one of Namjoon’s only ‘diss’ song, he usually doesnt diss others while he raps tbvh

4. Seventeen by Rap monster

I FEEL LIKE I SHOULDNT MAKE FUN OF HIM BC 15 YEAR OLD NAMJOON AT THE TIME WAS PROBABLY REALLY PROUD BACK THEN BUT HE LOOKED SO FUCKING FUNNY BC DAMN THAT HAIR AND HIS VOICE SOUNDS LIKE A CHIPMUNK BUTHUSDHUFUFSUD

5. SKOOL OF TEARS By: Rap Monster, Suga, and Jin ⭐

Absoloute MASTERPIECE! FIRST OF ALL THE ORIGINAL TRACK IS FROM SWIMMING POOLS BY KENDRICK LAMAR AND I LOVE KENDRICK! SECOND, THE RAP FLOW SOUNDS AMAZING NAMJOON IS GOING SO HARD AND DAMN YOONGI BACK AT IT AGAIN! ALSO CREDS FOR BABY BOY JIN FOR SOUNDING SO BADASS HERE BUT HERE IS WHY I LOVE THIS SONG!

I think its absolutely amazing how Namjoon especially writes song towards youth suffering in school, it takes a lot of guts to write against a society that has been around for decades. 

“  This is a ring called a classroom This is a stadium with no referee only an audience You know there will never be a victor everyone will lose There will be no victor everyone will lose”

“ That’s right, in the end school is like another mini society A jungle made carelessly by adults They made the weaklings weak, they made the strong powerful Of course since they were strong they made the weak suffer A society built on the teachings that friends are only for pretend The morals of adults made us step on the weak to rise to the top “

Its clear to see that Namjoon has suffered in school but also isnt afraid to address the truth.

6. Expensive girl by Rap Monster 

( I FUCKING DISCOVERED THIS SONG WHEN I WAS LIKE 11-12 AND I NEVER WANTED TO PUT THIS HEAR BUT YALL LIKE FOUGHT ME TO ADD THIS TO THE LIST GODDAMIT I HATE YALL I GOT LIKE HATE MAN OKAY)

“Take it off now girl just take it off (I’m a master, baby with your bra)Take it off now girl just take it off (I can help you slide those panties off)(..I’m a beat that pussy like you never ever felt before)x2″

7. Converse High (original version SUNG by Rap Monster)⭐

Yall probably heard Bangtan’s Converse High but here was the original version written by Namjoon that was rejected bc of the swearing omg damn joonie, BUT HE SINGS SO BEAUTIFUL IN THIS YESS

(funny story in seventh grade when this came out it was the last day of school and i requested my teacher to stay after school late so i could finish listening to the whole thing)

8. Suicide by Rap Monster

Rapmon wrote this mixtape in the point of view of a baby in his mother’s tummy. The baby’s parents are high school kids who are forced to go through abortion.

*this song was deleted bc of copyright and also the source of it is unknown but hey ITS IN ENGLISH AND DAMN NAMJOON RIGHTS DEEP SHIT*

(tf is namjoon doing u good)

9. What am I to you by Rap Monster from the 2014 Dark & wILD ⭐

if you DONT KNOW THIS SONG I SUGGEST YOU RETHINK YOUR LIFE DECISIONS BC LOWKEY HANDS DOWN ONE OF THE BEST INTRO’S TO A OFFICIAL BTS ALBUM (gif is from the live ver of this song and he started crying ok)

So Namjoon used to have a girlfriend who “mistreated” him. Tbvh we really don’t know what happened but on problematic men he said it wasnt anything serious it was just she would neglect him and not spend enough time but also hang out with other men.

(gif aint mine so gif blogs dont come at me)

But clearly the lyrics of this song are very emotional but the real reason why this song is a masterpiece is because of the rise of  emotions.

It starts off slow and cute, Namjoon mentions how he loves the girl and how their love is pure and innocent, throwing cute love phrases and the song sounds so soft, hopeful, and romantic. But in the middle the music starts to get more serious and Namjoon starts to question the relationship. He feels as if the girl thinks of this relationship as more of a task and a job, and slowly as the song comes to an end NAMJOON STARTS FUCKING SCREAMING AND BELTING! ALL THE EMOTIONS BUILD UP AND HE STARTS SCREAMING “WHAT AM I TO YOU GIRL WHAT AM I TO YOU I DO LOVE YOU CRAZY UH DO YOU” LIKE IT WAS SCARY I WAS CRYING IM LIKE NAMJOON WHO TF HURT YOU

10. Always by Rap Monster ⭐

This song is more recent and farely well known but I still felt the need to put this masterpiece here. Namjoon said not to worry about him as the lyrics are really sad and almost ???SUICIDAL??? but he said he wrote this when he was stressed last year. Its kind of a self questioning song about life and your purpose. I cried when it came out. well i always cry when i listen to namjoon is it a surprise.

I'm honestly in tears because this song goes to show how hurt Namjoon still is even after all these years. Even after all these awards, fans, and accomplishments. Depression still hurts after a long time. I can tell that this song was talking about his past. This song literally made me realize Namjoon was questioning his existence and I wanna hold him so badly. Guys...we could of lost Kim Namjoon. My absolute favourite human being in the entire world who saved my life. He is a human being who does not deserve such pain but I am so proud he endured it so well and look how far he came. One of my favourite verses "I live for the sake of understanding this world, but why hasnt the world tried to understand me atleast once" Its a really vague phrase which is why I like it. WORLD could mean destiny, fate, life, even parents.  He tries so hard to accept his life, to understand his parents wishes, sacrificing his own happiness yet fate decides to only give him the worst. "Dad please listen to me" "dead dad, your dead to me," Talking about how his dad wouldn't let him rap. I remember him mentioning that his dad once told him all that education he worked hard for was for nothing and I can’t imagine how sad Namjoon felt in that moment. "I would tell god if I ever meet him, i would hold him by the collar and tell him this life is like a coffee I never ordered" A pretty sad and a bit confusing verse, maybe leading to why Namjoon eventually became an atheist. Namjoon was in so much pain he didnt want to be born. "I wished I was dead...... I wished “Someone would kill me" No Namjoon never utter such words. My joonie mini I hope you are better and hopeful now, look at how far you came, your so successful and loved, and you made your family proud. Dont ever doubt yourself and even think about death, just keep living happily and moving forward. He honestly felt lost in this point of his life and still continues to feel lost. Namjoon you have such in important role and your existence was destined. You were born for a reason. You were born to change lives. 

11.  J-Lim ft. Rap Monster & Iron - Ashes

12. TIPSY BY RAP MONSTER & SUPREME BOI

Namjoon wrote this in the beginning of his rap career when he was still trying to find where he stood as a rapper. He mentions how he isnt doing this for the fame or money and he isnt the next Nas or Tupac he just wants to rap for the love of it.

13.  Rap Monster of 방탄소년단 (BANGTAN),Supreme Boi,i11evn,Marvel.J - You can't do that

*i suggest you skip ahead to 1:30 for namjoon fire verse, shade intended*

14.  RAP MONSTER of 방탄소년단,Suprema,Marvel.J,Kyum2 - Rollin

I also recommend you to skip ahead to 2:40 BC DAMN BOY GOES HARD

But tbvh pre debut namjoon squad (supreme boi , young jeezy, iron are hella problematic and say the n word in this and still do so im like yikes im happy nam left you) “ They pissed, now rape me" bitch whet

yeah im just here for namjoons verse bye

imma mufukin balla on this mufuckin beat spit mufuckin rap on this mufuckin shit got mufuckin skill so im mufuckin phat its mufuckin trick and a mufuckin track i i bet you betta stop stopin da chatter im a rapper man, and i represent BPB im juss so greater than hoes

15. FUCK COCKROACHES BY RAP MONSTER AND ZICO *THIS IS SO FUNNY*

Zico was 15 and RapMon was 13 when they rapped this, Namjoon sounds like a chipmunk BUT ZICO SOUNDS LIKE JIMIN I STG!

16. Rap Monster- Thinking Bout you

Joonie Mini Representing Biggie smalls eyyy!

17. Glory By Rap Monster

"I'm a dick? Yeah, when you disturb me, I grow bigger" SO FUCKING DONE

*there was lowkey lowkey controversy bc he said he tore 4 hymens BUT DETECTIVE LAMI FIXED IT*

 In the beginning Namjoon says that people looked at him pitifully because he joined BTS,  the Underground rappers were disappointed with him which led the Underground rappers to leave him, which has ripped his hymen. Not 4 hymen of random girls. 4 and "I" sound the same in Korean

it's a bit weird but in this case he is talking about himself all the hate people showed has ripped his hymen symbolizing his innocence for music.

18. NAA BY RAP MONSTER

tHE ORIGINAL BEAT WAS DEUCES BY CHRIS BROWN I WAS DYING

19. REGULAR VOICE BY RAP MONSTER ⭐

A really sweet and open-minded song about Namjoon wanting a “regular girl” “Height? I don’t care. Age? I don’t mind it. When you say, “I’ll only look at you” then I’m okay. Whether your skin is light or dark it doesn’t really matter, our love is deeper than that. “

I feel as if idols are pressured to have certain ideal types and say them out in the open, Namjoon had bad influences around him *underground rappers* which also influenced his negative sayings towards certain things but he wrote this song all alone at a young age which shows that his intentions are pure, and ever since he apologized for his wrong doings you go joon.

his voice sounds like sex

20. DREAMING BY RAP MONSTER

FETUS CHUBBY WTF HAIR NAMJOON IS BACK

okay but seriously you can see that despite being young he put a lot of effort and thought into this song!

21.  RAP MONSTER of 방탄소년단 feat.김거덕 - RAP

22.  130305??  THIS TRACK IS UNTITLED BUT IT SOUNDS SO EPIC TF

23. Trouble by Rap Monster 🔞 🔞

OKAY IM BARELY AROUSED BUT THIS SHIT ACTUALLY HAD ME SOAKED IM SORRY GOD LIKE ITS SO SUGGESTIVE I STG 

HIS SEXUAL FANTASIES I STG

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Reading Log

Alexander V. Gutierrez                                  Nature of Reading MTH: 1:00-2:30                    

Book Title: The Girl Who Played With Fire by Steig Larsson                                March 7, 2017 

Part 1:

I understand Salander's actions in the story. These were caused by all of the bad things she went through as she was growing up. She had seen her mother got beaten up by her father which we later know in the story as Zala. The she was put in a mental facility where she was diagnosed as psychotic and she was even raped by her foster father. So all of those experiences in life, made Salander a rebellious mad person. I can somehow connect with the situation of Salander's mother in the hands of her father. She was badly abused and beaten up by him. I can sympathize with her because i know someone who has the same situation as hers. I just won't name her but I know her well. Her husband is a drunkard and beats her everytime he's drunk. I saw the hardships the she went through but she never had the courage to complain or even make a stand about it. It is sad to know but that's just how it is. I know Salander is still very young since she was in her biological father's custody. But why didn't she recognize Zala as her real father all along. It even has to be through a police record for her to remember that. I also wonder what happened to her mother in the story. Can we sympathize or empathize with the villains in the novel? Are they naturally bad or they have depth as characters? Just like Ronald Niederman, the half-brother of Salander, is he a pure villain or is he just a victim of their father Zala. The story is a sequel of a trilogy and I haven't read the other two parts but i think her fortune is still going to be the same but it will also face harder obstacles in life. She will face more enemies that are more evil than Zala and experience more pain and agony as the story transpires.

Part 2: #10: Describe your favorite part. Make a prediction of what will happen next. My favorite part of the story is when Salander finally recognizes Zala as her in father through a police report. Salander hates Zala so much and her hatred only got bigger when he remembered all the bad experiences that she went through on the hands of her father. This only made her want to avenge more than ever. Now that I already know what's going to happen, I'll just make my own predictions as what I want it to happen perhaps a little different from what really happened in the story. So I predict that Salander is going to plot a plan to get or abduct Zala a take him in a remote place where no one can help him. There she will confess all of her sentiments towards her father - this is probably going to be the most emotional part of the story. After that she punish Zala by torturing him the worst possible way we could think of. And for her ultimate goal, she's going to put the tortured and almost dying Zala inside car and burn it just like what she did to him when she was just twelve years old. This time she will make sure that she will get him killed. And finally, Salander will pay all her dues because the police have known her plans. They're going to put her beyond bars for life. After years in prison, Salander is going to realize all the bad things she did and knows that she finally executed her revenge, she's going to commit suicide by hanging herself in her cell.

Alexander V. Gutierrez                                                                                         09976848610                                                                                                 Mindanao State University

March 7, 2017

Dear Salander, I have read the story of your life and I can say that it's tragic and full of adventures. Starting from your childhood, you've experienced the dark side of life already. You've seen your mothers abused by your father and because of that you've learned to fight back and make your own stand. You even had the guts to put your father into fire attempting to kill him to take revenge for your mother. You were just twelve years t that time! That's the baddest thing I've ever heard a twelve year old girl has done. How in the world made you decide to do that?

From that day forward, you've went through a lot more hardships and traumatic experiences in life just like being raped by our foster parent among the others. It all carved the kind of person that you are right now. A strong, wise, bad and vengeful woman. And I sympathize you knowing all you've went through. I just wanted you to know that whatever you do in life, I support you as long as you're standing for the right. I just don't want you to do crazy stuffs as i know how you're living your life right now. What if you get into a trouble where you may never fin a way out. It's time for you to think and give importance to life. Can't you just forget about all the bad things and the hatred in your heart and move towards righteousness?

What I'm saying is, don't resort into evil things just to satisfy your desire to avenge to the people who have hurt you before. Why don't you let God enter your life, in that way you will learn to forgive and just forget and live your life according to his will without hurting anyone anymore. There are people who loves you. You can divert and put all your attention to the ones who really cared.

We are not getting any younger, we shall start thinking about ourselves, people and things that really mattered. I really hope that you find peace in your life.

sincerely yours;

Alexander V. Gutierrez

Book Title: My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult                                                 March 7, 2017

Part 1:

The decision that Anna made to sue her parents is not a good idea for me. I understand her feelings about the treatment that she gets from her parents, she is often left out for her older sick sister and she is being used to help Kate's medication. But she should've talked to her parents about her concerns and probably they would've sorted things up as a family without getting into legal altercations. I also understand why Anna's older brother Jesse resorted into doing bad activities and habits, not because you think it's good but just because of the fact that she cannot help Kate with her medications and his feelings if being ignored by his parents. All of their attention is focused exclusively on the ill Kate, every child would feel bad about that, even me personally. But I don't think I'll be doing the things that Jesse did in the story such as being alcoholic and burning down buildings, etc. I remember when was seven years old, I was diagnosed with dengue which almost took my life. It was a very serious stage of the disease that the chance of surviving is very low. I needed to be supplemented by new blood every time. But none from my relatives matched my blood type so my parents have to find the appropriate type. Luckily, we found one and I was able to recover and get through that scary moment of my life. I wonder if the patents only gave a little more attention to their two other children? What if they gave importance to her just like how they do with Anna? I suppose things wouldn't have been that way. What if Anna didn't allow things to get into court. What if they gave importance to Jesse? He should've not been a bad person. And what if Anna didn't consult a lawyer and sue her parents? It is still a big question for me why Alexander Campbell chose to help the thirteen-year-old Anna with legal actions. There's got to be a deeper reason why? Its true that Sara and Brian love their other two children but they fail to let them know that. So is it morally righteous for them to conceive another child just to have a genetic match for Kate? Anna died with hatred in her heart. And I believe that if only she didn't let things go to court and have a gap to her parents, that accident wouldn't have happened or she wouldn't have died with that kind of feeling.

Part 2

Alexander V. Gutierrez                                                                    09976848610                                                                                                       Mindanao State University

March 4, 2017

Dear Mr & Mrs Fitzgerald, I just wanted to let you know about my sentiments on how you treat your two other children, Anna and Jesse. With all due respect, you have failed to give them the right attention, love and care that they desperately needed from both of you. I understand why all your attention is poured exclusively to your daughter Kate for she is suffering from a serious illness and that she needed your care for her to survive. But don't you realize you’re hurting your two other children? Don't you know that they need your care and guidance too? They are your flesh and blood, they need to be loved and taken care of as every child deserve. Are you that numb not to notice that they have been neglected by you? Just try to look at they have become. They are rebellious, stubborn and bad! Jesse resorted to doing bad thing; Anna chose to get legal actions just to let you see what she felt about your relationship. Just look at how your rejection made your children like that. It's a good idea for you to conceive another daughter, Anna, to get a perfect match to be Kate's donor and help her with her medications. But you didn't think about how would Anna feel about it. She’s been exploited not just with care but to her own health and welfare too. You could've paid more attention to her as she was growing up perhaps things didn't get to that unfortunate tragedy wherein she died with do much hatred in her heart. There’s a lot to learn from this sad experience, Jesse is still alive. It’s never too late for you to reconcile to him. This is the right time to get everything right. Let him know that he's important to you and that you live him too. Maybe he'll turn away from the evil things that he's into and get back to you to fix your family.

Sincerely yours,

Alexander V. Gutierrez

By The River Piedra I Sat Down And Wept by Paulo Coelho Part 1 Pilar has met a friend from her childhood who is now in the seminary. He invited her to attend a conference to be with her and finally confess his love to her. By this, I can already see that there is something wrong. A seminarian confessing love to a woman and wanting to pursue his love? I don’t think so! If someone decides to be in a seminary, he should set aside all of his desire and affection to a woman. For me, one of the biggest things to consider is that he is not just an ordinary seminarian, he has a gift, the blesses Mother Mary comes to her and he is given a gift to heal people. He has great responsibility in other words. I believe that this is the major reason why Pilar is reluctant getting into a relationship whit him even though she is in love with him too. She doesn’t want him to depart and forget his devotion and his gift. I think it would make her guilty if ever. But I can see that there’s great desire in her that’s just waiting to explode, a desire that is wanting to be with this man without any restraints. That desire finally broke off one night after a couple of days if being together. But just as the girl is willing to accept the baggages that the seminarian has. She’s now found her way back to spirituality so they didn’t really need to worry about anything because they can pursue their love without sacrificing the his duty. But this is also the time when he has decided to choose her over his duty. This is where I think everything became worse and it lead to them being separated from each other. And after all the obstacles that came their way, they still fell into each others arms in the end and their love had flourished. I can connect to the story not with the love aspect of it but with the spiritual side of it. Just like Pilar in the story, I also have been away to my faith and right now I’m trying to restore my spirituality because I know this will guide not just me but everyone I loved with our lives. I’m doing this through getting a bit active in school ministries, attending masses and praying all the time. So that’s the only thing I could connect myself to the novel. A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini Part 1 This novel is undoubtedly the most heartbreaking story I’ve ever read. This shows the oppression that the two main protagonists, Mariam and Laila experienced throughout their lives. In the first chapter of the novel, it revolves around the life of Mariam. In reading the initial part of the story, I can somehow foreshadow the kind of life Mariam is going to have because of the emphasis that is given being a harami or an illegitimate child. There’s a great sense of rejection to a harami especially in their culture so what she experienced as a child without having a father on her side all the time to guide her is very difficult. With this, she already has gotten my sympathy. I didn’t know how exactly it would feel to not have one of my parents with me growing up, but I didn’t really have to in order to understand her. As what I’ve said, she is a bastard so she has this great desire to be with her father, come to his place and live with him. She did that, ignoring the advice’s and warnings that her mother told her. She escaped, came to the city where her father lived. But as soon as she arrived at her father’s mansion, she was ignored, she wasn’t even allowed to come in. She waited outside for the rest of the night but still no one from the family entertained her. So she decided to come back home. But as soon as she gets there, she found her mother hanging dead with a rope on her neck. She committed suicide because she can’t take that her daughter has abandoned her. This is really the start of Mariam’s struggle in life. Now that her mother is dead, she doesn’t really have anyone to turn to, her father has to take custody if her now. Just as I thought her life is going to be fine, I was saddened by the treatment that she’s gotten from her father’s family, especially his three wives. Not that they were mistreating her, but they doesn’t seem to like her presence at their house. Things got even worse when they decided to let her marry a man who is much older than her. He is Rasheed, a shoemaker who is abusive and a control freak. Mariam’s life with him is miserable especially when she had miscarriage. His treatment toward Marian is not bad before that. It is sad to think that a husband, when his wants or expectations are not met, he turns his anger toward his wife. From that moment on, he became very abusive to her and that her miseries went to the highest point. In the second part of the novel, a new character is introduced, Laila, woman who has also experienced hardships and suffering in life. She and Mariam got intertwined when she became Rasheed’s second wife after her parents and two brothers have been killed because of war. She became the apple of the eye is Rasheed. It seems as if his enthusiasm has been revived. This made Mariam feel mad and jealous. But just like Mariam, Rasheed’s treatment to her became ill. She and Mariam share the same sufferings, that makes them feel sympathetic toward each other. They became good friends. This is the time when war was waging in their country. Women where prohibited to do a lot of things, their freedom has basically been taken away from them and Rasheed’s abusiveness became seriously bad. This resulted to Mariam having killed him during one altercation. Here I believe that Mariam could not take it anymore. As a punishment, she was beheaded by the Taliban’s for committing the crime. It was not a useless sacrifice because it has given Laila chance to escape with her two children and start a new life. And when the war was over, Laila got reunited with the man she truly loved and lived a peaceful life finally. Part 2 Dear Mariam; I have known everything that has happened to your life and I sympathize you for that. You're such a strong person. You and Laila are and of the strongest persons I've ever known about. Through all the things you've been through, you stayed brave and resilient. It would be my pleasure to ask you a couple if things that are concerning me. Let me start with your childhood, the time you ran away from your mother to find your father in a city you've never been before. I understand that you were still very young to know the consequences of your actions and I know you were so much drawn to be with your father. But you would've taken your mother's words more seriously! her warning, and probably you could've stayed together longer. Not that I'm mocking you but I feel so bad she died that way. How couldn't you trust your own mother? The one that has beeb there since the beginning, the one who raised you, the one who cares no matter what. So you still remember the day you moved in with Raheed after your wedding? The times when he was still treating you like a princess and how he caresaviut your values as a woman. Although you were not the happiest woman because your married to an older man whom you don't really love! But you feel better and secure with the way he handles you. But that was before he had shown his real personality, he's brutal and oppressive nature. Since the day you lost your first child to him. That's the time your life turned upside down, he became mad and always raging. He hurts you physically, he called you names, he cursed you, he took away all your freedom but you remained faithful to him despite all that. How? How could you take all of those things? If I were you, I would've left him long ago! But you endured all of the sufferings and everyone knows it's not easy at all. I commend you for your courage and resiliency, all your sacrifices and hardships. I know that what you've done has been a great inspiration for me and the people who've read your story. I believe that your sacrifices are not worthless. Respectfully yours; Alexander V. Gutierrez