#after a year+ L o L

[taaater]

heritage bank center, cincinnati, oh | august 21, 2022

[toxooz]

been following u for so so long and I get genuine whiplash when I see Ollie now vs how he looked when u first drew him like?????? what are they feeding this guy!!!!

to be loved is to be changed ig bc his metamorphosis will never not trip me out lmao

HES GOING TO BE 10 YEARS OLD NEXT YEAR OH MY GODDD

[deus-ex-mona]

i miss her…

[saltpepperbeard]

currently foaming at the mouth because i went onto max to step through episodes and gif snuffle™ when like,,,

i was struck by the realization that soon, almost too soon, there's going to be an option to switch between two different seasons.

like there won't just be one season there anymore. there will be two.

hello??

HELLO?????

[pleasetakethis]

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I cried AGAIN, What If Season 2 is knocking it out of the PARK!

Kahhori's story is still my favorite, but hot damn this ep is the runner up.

[uncaught-coolfish]

i hate. HATE when any sort of portrayal of trauma and how it affects (fictional characters in this case) that isn’t “awww look how meek and shy and cute and infantilized they are uwu!!” is swept aside for not being “palatable.” and yes, this is about fucking ruby i am still so sick of it

[ratwars]

My new plan of action is to be more unapologetically me at work while still being work me because I am fucking tired of everything and my lack of fucks has apparently hit a new level so instead of fretting about that I am just accepting the damage periods of unemployment does to my personality (work personality? Ability to maintain said personality?) And going with it. If it works great. If it doesn't then they gotta fire me it is whatever I am not even pretending like I care to make a cookie cutter impression.

[4ofdiamondz]

my roman empire

i am afraid that at this point in my life the rocky horror picture show is my roman empire. it is fueled by the fact that my local shadowcast has shows once a month so i am always either a.) having it on my mind after the month's shows just ended or b.) thinking about the next shows starting, who i'll be playing, rehearsing, etc. it is not helped by the fact that our cast has a discord where we discuss everything from helping each other with costuming to random memes, even during non-show weeks. AND it really doesn't help that two of our cast leaders have a podcast going through every minute of the movie where they nerd out about it, and they are very entertaining to listen to on walks.

[icicleteeth]

It is by no means the prettiest or rarest red mage weapon, but this is probably the proudest weapon relic I own...

[phoenshire]

IT HAS BEEN SO LONG AND I FINALLY GOT MEMORIES

[massyworld]

TAKE BREATHS WHILE YOU'RE ON YOUR SCREENS BABES BC SCREEN APNEA IS A REAL THING!!!!!

[deus-ex-mona]

5am thoughts about how asuna is the same age as the gen 2 cast…

[dxvidtennxnt]

I made a DT lockscreen wallpaper for every month of 2022 pt II/II

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

Heyoo I saw your tags! Thank you for being lovely! Sorry for the ask haha I couldn't message so thought this was the best way to respond haha. Also good to see you back here, it's been ages! How have you been? How's life been treating you, my lovely?

Hi! Haha, no worries, it was a sweet and welcome surprise~

And man, I hadn't realized how much time passed until I checked and saw it's been over a year 💀💀💀 It has been a relief to see a lot of familiar faces though. I spent a lot of time settling into work and preparing for my degree this fall, so I had less time to simp. But things are good! Mostly just been reading Celeste Ng's newest book All Our Missing Hearts and playing Pokemon Violet over the break because I caved after seeing the Tinkaton memes 🤣🤣🤣🤣 I now have a shiny one, and she is a menace to all Corviknights everywhere 🤣

Needless to say I've also been doing Comte events throughout the time I was away, so I may be discussing a few of the translations if I have the spoons over the next few months. Honestly he's still full of surprises, the drama CD they released a few weeks ago for him had a lot of fascinating tidbits--perhaps my favorite of which is how desperately he wants MC in a black dress. I do love it when my faves go full baby girl, but I digress; that's gushing for another time, I'm sure 🤣

I hope you've been well, too! I wish you all the best, always 💛💛💛

[cerealmonster15]

I was tryin 2 snap myself outta some emotional paralysis of Being Less Stressed about Posting and Drawing The Right Stuff To Appeal To Others, and I was thinkin i can draw whatever cuz im not exactly someone people specifically follow for drawings, I just happen 2 post some of my silly doodle time but i dont think thats like, WHY people are here. But then I was like hang on. why ARE people here tho 🤨🤨🤨 cuz like 90% of the time I follow someone it’s cuz I like their art lol. One or two people have told me they found me from ao3 but I reckon thats the minority so WHAT excuse do the rest of u have

[nonbinagi]

I've been thinking a lot lately and I'm pretty sure I've reached the conclusion that a big part of my not-so-great relationship to my own personal transness comes down to the fact that (thanks to acromegaly) I was forced to confront my feelings about gender wayyy before I was ready.

Like consider the following: you're already dealing with what you are just now realizing is pronoun dysphoria, top dysphoria, all this shit and coming to terms with that and what it all means™ when your face starts insidiously masculinizing on its own without external hormones. (But it's just slow enough that no one believes you-- including doctors).

And of course this would change how others perceive you, but less talked about is how it changes how you perceive yourself, especially when you're already gender questioning. I am obviously in no way saying acromegaly made me trans™, I'm just saying dealing with the aftermath of this pushed a lot of feelings to the surface that I wasn't necessarily ready to deal with, especially in the midst of a much more urgent health crisis.

Like, I spent a good part of today researching plastic surgeons to get multiple cm of bone shaved off my browbone. (And no I do not really have money for this but at this point it's an imperative for me to maintain my fragile grip on sanity-- you know how it is). Which of course means being bombarded with terms like "MtF feminization surgery", "brow shaving to improve feminine aesthetics!" which tbh is an especially bizarre kind of dysphoria-inducing hell and I'm fucking exhausted. Like please god. do we really need the gendered terms? I just want to look normal!

Sometimes I feel like I am the only person in the world in this oddly specific situation. I have to be, right?

If you want to know what's wrong with me, this is it. If you see me joking about having "horns" or other shit, just look the other way because I'm fucking coping