#after a year+ L o L

[taaater]

heritage bank center, cincinnati, oh | august 21, 2022

[toxooz]

been following u for so so long and I get genuine whiplash when I see Ollie now vs how he looked when u first drew him like?????? what are they feeding this guy!!!!

to be loved is to be changed ig bc his metamorphosis will never not trip me out lmao

HES GOING TO BE 10 YEARS OLD NEXT YEAR OH MY GODDD

[raddest-laddest]

so i hardly show ocs just cus they’re not what i’m thinking abt most of the time, but i’m gonna throw them on here anyways.

meet my guys:

nila and florian

malaya and nek

larry and the tomato god

alvaro and cass

racism flower

and stan (wahoo)

[deus-ex-mona]

i miss her…

[saltpepperbeard]

currently foaming at the mouth because i went onto max to step through episodes and gif snuffle™ when like,,,

i was struck by the realization that soon, almost too soon, there's going to be an option to switch between two different seasons.

like there won't just be one season there anymore. there will be two.

hello??

HELLO?????

[uncaught-coolfish]

i hate. HATE when any sort of portrayal of trauma and how it affects (fictional characters in this case) that isn’t “awww look how meek and shy and cute and infantilized they are uwu!!” is swept aside for not being “palatable.” and yes, this is about fucking ruby i am still so sick of it

[4ofdiamondz]

my roman empire

i am afraid that at this point in my life the rocky horror picture show is my roman empire. it is fueled by the fact that my local shadowcast has shows once a month so i am always either a.) having it on my mind after the month's shows just ended or b.) thinking about the next shows starting, who i'll be playing, rehearsing, etc. it is not helped by the fact that our cast has a discord where we discuss everything from helping each other with costuming to random memes, even during non-show weeks. AND it really doesn't help that two of our cast leaders have a podcast going through every minute of the movie where they nerd out about it, and they are very entertaining to listen to on walks.

[vampmilf]

just had the best shower of my life

[icicleteeth]

It is by no means the prettiest or rarest red mage weapon, but this is probably the proudest weapon relic I own...

[phoenshire]

IT HAS BEEN SO LONG AND I FINALLY GOT MEMORIES

[massyworld]

TAKE BREATHS WHILE YOU'RE ON YOUR SCREENS BABES BC SCREEN APNEA IS A REAL THING!!!!!

[raddest-laddest]

imagine being an artist, writing a song with intention and purpose, pouring your heart and soul into it, and singing it out for the whole world to hear

just for some kid on the internet to find it and make it about their Tragedy Blorbos

…anyways, listen to this

[deus-ex-mona]

5am thoughts about how asuna is the same age as the gen 2 cast…

[nonbinagi]

I've been thinking a lot lately and I'm pretty sure I've reached the conclusion that a big part of my not-so-great relationship to my own personal transness comes down to the fact that (thanks to acromegaly) I was forced to confront my feelings about gender wayyy before I was ready.

Like consider the following: you're already dealing with what you are just now realizing is pronoun dysphoria, top dysphoria, all this shit and coming to terms with that and what it all means™ when your face starts insidiously masculinizing on its own without external hormones. (But it's just slow enough that no one believes you-- including doctors).

And of course this would change how others perceive you, but less talked about is how it changes how you perceive yourself, especially when you're already gender questioning. I am obviously in no way saying acromegaly made me trans™, I'm just saying dealing with the aftermath of this pushed a lot of feelings to the surface that I wasn't necessarily ready to deal with, especially in the midst of a much more urgent health crisis.

Like, I spent a good part of today researching plastic surgeons to get multiple cm of bone shaved off my browbone. (And no I do not really have money for this but at this point it's an imperative for me to maintain my fragile grip on sanity-- you know how it is). Which of course means being bombarded with terms like "MtF feminization surgery", "brow shaving to improve feminine aesthetics!" which tbh is an especially bizarre kind of dysphoria-inducing hell and I'm fucking exhausted. Like please god. do we really need the gendered terms? I just want to look normal!

Sometimes I feel like I am the only person in the world in this oddly specific situation. I have to be, right?

If you want to know what's wrong with me, this is it. If you see me joking about having "horns" or other shit, just look the other way because I'm fucking coping

[mxanigel]

it's always darkest before the dawn

Rating: Teen Word count: ~35,000 Category: F/M Relationships: Female Lavellan/Cullen Rutherford Characters: Female Lavellan, Cullen Rutherford, Dorian Pavus, Cassandra Pentaghast, Varric Tethras, Leliana, Cole, The Iron Bull, Morrigan, Solas, Josephine Montilyet, Sera Summary: They kissed, they danced, he gave her his lucky coin. But Cullen Rutherford's prejudices against mages haven't lessened, no matter how much he claims to care for mage Inquisitor Aryn Lavellan. After a heated argument sparked by the discovery of Samson's lair, Aryn breaks up with him. Too late, Cullen realizes the harm he's done. Yet Aryn must continue leading the Inquisition while fighting to fall out of love with its commander.

Click here for the full fic on AO3 [must be logged in to read].

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Her long-simmering rage boils over. “Don’t call Maddox a blighted resource. He’s a person. Just like me.”

“He is nothing like you.”

“Really? I’m a mage, someone you seem to think could transform into an abomination at any moment.”

“I trust you!”

“Because I’m the Inquisitor? Because you have to?”

“Because you’re different!”

“Different from…” She leans toward him, for once hoping her fury is clearly visible on her face. “Different from what, Cullen? From all the other mages you’ve ever watched? No, not watched, imprisoned.”

He slams his right fist into his left palm. “Mages have to be protected from themselves! As soon as they gain their freedom, they turn to blood magic or worse—”

She flings one arm toward Skyhold. “Have any of our mage allies become abominations now that they’re out of the Circles? Or fallen to the lure of blood magic? No! I haven’t, Solas hasn’t, Dorian hasn’t, and none of them have, either. Despite the Breach, the Rifts, the all-too-thinness of the Veil. Perhaps so many of the mages you watched turned to such terrible deeds because of what you did to them.”

“I didn’t—”

“You demanded the annulment of the Fereldan Circle just in case any of the survivors had used blood magic! You were ready to condemn innocents out of fear!”

“How do you—” Shock writes itself across his face. “You didn’t see what Uldred and his followers had done!”

“Oh, that excuses you condoning murder? Do you realize how many people—how many of my people have died thanks to similar excuses?” Aryn throws her hands in the air. “You believe you care about me. You’ve decided I’m different enough to tolerate my race, my background, your deep-seated fear of magic. But that’s wrong. I won’t remain in a relationship with someone who has to excuse what I am.”

The volume of his voice abruptly drops. “You’re breaking up with me?”

“I am.” I have to. This can’t work.

“I thought… I thought we had something special.”

“So did I. But your blighted prejudices keep getting in the way. And I’m not going to sit around and wait for them to change.” She spins on her heel and leaves his tower, nearly colliding with a messenger on her way out.

[mickeysclubhouse]

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