#after Carter and Lila's deaths

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today in lines written

“—What happened to your hands?” Daniel cuts over him, eyes locked on where Eric’s fingers have gone bone white, down halfway into the back of his hand. “…did she do that?”

Eric glances down to his hands and back up, the soft expression breaking into a crooked little grin. “Side effect,” He says “guess I’ve had a little too much from her lately.” He flexes the fingers like they’re stiff, grin widening. “But, fun fact, it comes with all sorts of little rewards—” Eric’s eyes flash brilliant red and he adds, “—Bleed.”

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Delicious Mysteries: Reading Recs

Arsenic and Adobo by Mia P. Manansala

When Lila Macapagal moves back home to recover from a horrible breakup, her life seems to be following all the typical rom-com tropes. She's tasked with saving her Tita Rosie's failing restaurant, and she has to deal with a group of matchmaking aunties who shower her with love and judgment. But when a notoriously nasty food critic (who happens to be her ex-boyfriend) drops dead moments after a confrontation with Lila, her life quickly swerves from a Nora Ephron romp to an Agatha Christie case. With the cops treating her like she's the one and only suspect, and the shady landlord looking to finally kick the Macapagal family out and resell the storefront, Lila's left with no choice but to conduct her own investigation. Armed with the nosy auntie network, her barista best bud, and her trusted Dachshund, Longanisa, Lila takes on this tasty, twisted case and soon finds her own neck on the chopping block…

A Deadly Inside Scoop by Abby Collette

This book kicks off a charming cozy mystery series set in an ice cream shop--with a fabulous cast of quirky characters. Recent MBA grad Bronwyn Crewse has just taken over her family's ice cream shop in Chagrin Falls, Ohio, and she's going back to basics. Win is renovating Crewse Creamery to restore its former glory, and filling the menu with delicious, homemade ice cream flavors--many from her grandmother's original recipes. But unexpected construction delays mean she misses the summer season, and the shop has a literal cold opening: the day she opens her doors an early first snow descends on the village and keeps the customers away. To make matters worse, that evening, Win finds a body in the snow, and it turns out the dead man was a grifter with an old feud with the Crewse family. Soon, Win's father is implicated in his death. It's not easy to juggle a new-to-her business while solving a crime, but Win is determined to do it. With the help of her quirky best friends and her tight-knit family, she'll catch the ice cold killer before she has a meltdown . . .

Cake and Punishment by Maymee Bell

In the first of a delectable new Southern-set baking cozy series, Sophia Cummings, pastry chef extraordinaire, must craft the perfect cake for an old friend’s wedding while sifting through the suspects in a murder. Bucolic Rumford, Kentucky has glowing fields of bluegrass, a fine selection of bourbons, and now a professional pastry chef. Broken-hearted Sophia Cummings has come home from New York City. She’s not there a minute before she’s charmed into making her high school friend Charlotte’s wedding cake. The kitchen at the Rumford Country Club seems perfect until Chef Emile’s body is discovered, sprawled near the stove, a cast iron skillet on the floor close by. With one look at the shiny, new frying pan, Sophia knows it’s not Emile’s. She offers her knowledge to Sheriff Carter and her talents to Evelyn, the manager, who needs an interim chef. The mood in the country club is grim: Emile’s peppery personality had burned members and staff alike. Sophia wonders which one of them burned him?

Death By Dumpling by Vivien Chien

Welcome to the Ho-Lee Noodle House, where the Chinese food is to die for. . . The last place Lana Lee thought she would ever end up is back at her family’s restaurant. But after a brutal break-up and a dramatic workplace walk-out, she figures that a return to the Cleveland area to help wait tables is her best option for putting her life back together. Even if that means having to put up with her mother, who is dead-set on finding her a husband. Lana’s love life soon becomes yesterday’s news once the restaurant’s property manager, Mr. Feng, turns up dead―after a delivery of shrimp dumplings from Ho-Lee. But how could this have happened when everyone on staff knew about Mr. Feng’s severe, life-threatening shellfish allergy? Now, with the whole restaurant under suspicion for murder and the local media in a feeding frenzy―to say nothing of the gorgeous police detective who keeps turning up for take-out―it’s up to Lana to find out who is behind Feng’s killer order. . . before her own number is up.

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MCU headcanons for @tangledupblue

Aha!! Finally!! After so long!! I am finally posting this!!! Huhuhu I am so sorry this is late and you might have expected more (and I did do more but I had to take them out because it just did not fit???). I still super duper hope you like it, Sam! Tell me if there’s anything off and I’ll change it!! There’s some biased ships there, I apologize if they are not your ships.

P.S. Using mobile to do this so so many errors. Sam! Super sorry if you don’t like it!!

Tony, Pepper, Happy

Tony never saw Pepper as someone he’d fall for

In fact, he had a little ship he was rooting for: Happy/Pepper (but in hindsight, that was an absolutely disastrous idea)

Tony’s first crush was Peggy Carter

He knew of his father’s affections for Peggy, but was confident that he would never act on it

Pepper had always had a tiny crush on Tony, whether she would admit it or not

And Happy? Pepperony all the way!

Bruce, Betty

Betty has been incognito, waiting for a chance to be reunited with Bruce once again

Bruce, however, believes that he will never be worthy of Betty’s love

Thor, Loki, Jane, Valkyrie

Thor’s feelings for Jane never left, he still counts the days until they meet again (Love and Thunder ahem)

Thor still sometimes cannot process that Loki had “died”; most of the time, when something amuses him, he would turn to the side and expect Loki to be next to him

Valkyrie likes Jane (I hope), take that in any way you want

Steve, Howard, Peggy, Sharon

Howard and Peggy could have had something, but they did not act on it in respect for Steve

Steve was not Peggy’s husband

Peggy did marry a soldier who loved her with all that he had, even though he knew that she would never love him as much as she loved Steve

Sharon had a good relationship with her aunt, they were quite a team

Steve’s feelings for Peggy were and always will be there

In Endgame, Steve and Peggy had their dance, but it was not her whom Steve married

Natasha, Clint, Yelena, Kate, Laura/Bobbi

Laura is actually Bobbi Morse in hiding

Laura/Bobbi decided to change her name after a few threats to her and her family

Clint continued to stay by his name, thinking that it would scare off those who hurt his “regular” family

Natasha has always put Clint ahead of her, both in gratitude, loyalty, and love (not romantic)

Natasha loved Laura/Bobbi, they became very close friends

It was Laura/Bobbi who wanted to name their child after Natasha…but he was actually a Nathaniel

Natasha is also very close to Lila

After the revelation with regard Natasha’s death, Yelena continued to keep a close eye on the Bartons, kind of like an apology

Kate became very close to the Bartons and would often be with them during special occasions

Natasha and Steve were happy

Sam, Bucky

Without admitting, nor denying, Sam and Bucky have become best friends

At first, they would tell themselves that the other is “Steve”, but later on they finally accepted that they saw the other as “Sam” and “Bucky”

They would sometimes bring in Joaquin to join them during events, and during “boys’ night out”

Sam and Joaquin would push Bucky to go on dates, but he would always decline

Sam has gone on dates, and Bucky is always just a few feet away, in case anything went wrong

Peter W., Gamora, Groot, Rocket, Drax, Nebula

They wouldn’t really admit it, but they knew that they were family

Groot finally matured and stopped playing video games…not really

Wanda, Pietro, Vision

Pietro and Wanda were adopted

They never knew who their parents were

Despite being a “miracle”, Wanda and Pietro already showed signs of their abilities

However, as they grew older, they decided to keep it a secret 

When they volunteered, they denied having their abilities, afraid that they would be thrown out

Vision had loved Wanda since he first saw her, but he had yet to know what “feelings” were 

Scott, Hope, Hank, Janet

Cassie has been hoping that Hope would be her step-mother

Although Hank never really lost hope for Janet, there were days where he refused to get out of bed just because everything he sees reminded him of her

Scott will always love his first wife, but there was something about Hope that made him think a lot

Peter P. (3)

All 3 Peter’s began to have spidey-sense for one another—they just had a hard time figuring out who was where

Carol, Maria, Monica

Carol would check up on Maria and Monica more than they thought

Maria was always sure that Carol would never let them down

Monica, however, was a little too impatient

Monica had thought that her Aunt Carol had left them far too many times

Maria would constantly remind her daughter that Carol loved them but also needed to do what she thought was best

Carol cut her hair because of Monica, she had overhead the younger girl that her hair was not at its best (though it was a joke, Carol took it seriously)

Carol knew about Maria’s illness and had wished she was there more for her

Maria passed while still believing that Carol and Monica would be in good terms

(Had to skip a few huhu, I tried to think of something for them but I just couldn’t.)

Happy Birthday, Sam! 🥰

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Occupation: Chairman of Stark Industries, Head of Research and Development for Stark Industries. Head of Recruitment for the Avengers. Iron Man.  Spouse: Stephen Stark-Rogers Children: Harley Stark-Rogers (adopted and goes by Harley Keener to avoid the name shock), Lila Stark-Rogers (adopted)

After the whole debacle with Killian and AIM and Extremis life had seemed nearly perfect for Tony Stark. His relationship with Steve was blossoming into something that had Tony thinking more often than not about reconsidering his stance on marriage. He finally meets Harley’s mom, Andrea and she gets added into the list of people who Tony gets to call friends. It just makes sense to offer her the job as Pepper’s PA once they both get to know the woman. Harley and Lila are constant fixtures in the Avengers lives after that. Lila sticks to Steve and Natasha like glue whenever she’s in the same place as them, overawed by everything about Natasha and wanting to be just like her. Steve helps her with her art, the pair of them more often than not in one of the sunny drawing rooms. Harley unsurprisingly favors the company of Tony and Rhodey. Harley ends up with his own section of Tony’s sprawling lab, walled off and as he gets older, the option to lock everyone out. Tony gives Andrea the only override but asks her not to use it unless FRIDAY says he’s in danger. There’s something important about having a private space when you’re like him and Harley.  He barely ever uses it, too excited for his two mentors to see what he’s working on.  The years go on and no one sees the avalanche waiting to fall on them. 

Death always did come in threes. 

Six months before the accords, before Peggy Carter dies, Andrea Keener is killed by a drunk driver while visiting her old home to wrap up some things with her ex husband, who she had been petitioning for divorce and to give up his parental rights. Her children are with Tony and Steve, Andrea not wanting to expose either of them. Harley is a month off his sixteenth birthday and Lila has just turned fourteen when Tony accepts the request that they stay with him that had been left in her will. He adopts them officially but explains that they don’t have to use the Stark name unless they want to. They don’t have to call him dad. 

They both do anyways, he’s been acting like their dad for years now.

And then it all goes to shit. 

Tony Stark lays in a Siberian bunker for 39.43 hours, near death and thinking about the choices that lead him to that very moment.

He spends the next 6 weeks, 2 days, 8 hours, 12 minutes and 14 seconds in a hospital recovering, planning on how he’ll proceed. His kids stay with Pepper, because he refuses to let them rattle around the penthouse or the compound alone. He grieves of course: for his parents, for the family he had thought he had with the Avengers, for his relationship with Steve and the small family they had been building with Harley and Lila. He grieved for the boy inside of him who would always question what was so damn wrong with him that everyone always left him. He spends days going over the past few years, a new lens to look through and he is faced with a stunningly aching realization of what was actually going on around him. The Avengers might have been a family, but Tony had never been a part of that family. It was as it had been since the very start. Iron Man yes, Tony Stark not recommended. 

Two and a half months after he was left with a cracked to pieces sternum, Tony Stark does what he has always been best at: he builds. 

Tony builds himself first. The sternum enforcement that had been failing before Vienna, was now severely cracked. Helen Cho hadn’t given him long to live, let alone any chance he could be Iron Man again. So he takes Extremis and he works on it, he changes and adapts it with the help of Helen and Steven Strange and the Vision. And like everything else Tony does; it works. Just a little too well. It fixed the damage to his body first, erasing scars both internal and external. He looks almost a young as he had when he had first become Iron Man, 

The man made of iron starts with the Accords and the Avengers Inventive. From the ashes of a rag tag team that had no real chain of command rose an actual organization. Overseen by the U.N and the Accords Council, they now have departments, have people running around the compound in New York. He does what he had told Steve he was going to, he amends and fixes until they are nothing like the original version. They add new members to the roster, some taken from targets Tony had pulled from Project Insight, others from the superhero grapevine. The New Avengers come together slowly, under the co command of James Rhodes and Carol Danvers, and it’s entirely different, in a good way.

But it’s lonely. The kids miss Steve almost as much as he does and it’s just...lonely without the noise of the others around all the time. Pepper is there of course and Rhodey and Vision. Peter and Harley become fast friends and sometimes the lab feels like the only place he can breath, the two boys excitedly shouting from their parallel labs. So he plans to bring them back. He does what he’s good at and he gets the Rouge Avengers, even Barnes because of course the man deserved one, a pardon to come home. 

And then promptly takes off to Malibu with the kids and ignores everyone for almost three months. 

But the kids have school and he can’t keep letting them learn remotely and with tutors, even if they’re both within the caliber for it. Harley is smart on Tony’s level and Lila isn’t far behind but he tries desperately to give them as normal a life as possible. They go back to the compound and a chance run in has Tony and Steve with a chance to finally talk  argue. It leads to them agreeing to try it all again. And because their relationship is nothing if not a hurricane, they get married not very long after that. A small private ceremony with just the kids and their friends. The rest of the world got them 90% of the time, this was just for them. 

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COMIC BOOK REFERENCES & EASTER EGGS - Avengers: Endgame (2019)

Woah. Avengers: Endgame is everything fans could have hoped for and then some. Concluding over 10 years’ worth of storytelling, it’s no surprise that the movie is full of Easter eggs and comic book references. The following is a guide to all the ones I’ve spotted along with any deviations from the source material (I will update this as more come to light). Note that owing to the convoluted and complex nature of comic books, I’ve tried to include only the most essential information regarding a character’s history and backstories.

Though Endgame isn’t a direct adaption of any particular comic book storyline, the concept of the Avengers travelling through time is present in the Avengers Forever arc (Avengers Forever #1-12, 1998-99). In this limited series, various Avengers from the past, present, and future come together to protect Rick Jones from Immortus, the Master of Time.

Endgame opens with Clint Barton teaching his daughter, Lila, archery. At one point he calls her Hawkeye. There has in fact been a female Hawkeye in the comics, Kate Bishop, who is mentored by Barton. After losing his family to the Decimation, Barton takes on a new costume, which harkens to his Ronin identity from the source material. The original Ronin in the comics is Maya Lopez, a deaf woman with photographic reflexes who initially used the name Echo. In a flashback from The New Avengers #30 (2007) we see Clint Barton—who had given up being Hawkeye—wear Lopez’s costume and take on the Ronin identity to go on a mission to rescue Lopez from the Hand in Japan. It is the Ultimate Universe incarnation of the character, however, who loses his wife and three children (in this instance they were murdered by Black Widow).

Five years after meeting the Avengers, we see Captain Marvel sporting a short haircut, a look taken from her comic book counterpart. Black Widow tracks Clint to Japan, locating him just as he kills Akihiko. A version of Akihiko also exists in the comics, and is a member of the Yakuza as well.

There’s a precedent for a smart Hulk in the source material. First off there’s Gray Hulk, who, while not as smart as Banner, did have a higher intellect than the Savage Hulk. Then there’s Gravage Hulk, which came about when the Gray and Savage Hulk personas were merged. The film, however, seems to have adapted the Merged Hulk (also known as the Professor), who’s a combination of Bruce Banner, Gray Hulk, and Savage Hulk. 

In the film we see Thor establish New Asgard in Norway. This is taken from Thor #2 (2007), with Thor rebuilding Asgard on Earth (he has it floating over Oklahoma) after it’s destroyed. 

Rhodey brings up the idea of killing baby Thanos so as to not have him grow up and collect the Infinity Stones. A similar idea is played out in Cosmic Ghost Rider #1 (2018) with Frank Castle from an alternate reality (who has gained the powers of a Ghost Rider as well as the Power Cosmic) going back in time to kill baby Thanos before he becomes evil.

The blue and red suit we see Rocket wear in the film is his classic outfit from the comic books.

Steve Rogers says “Hail Hydra” as part of a ruse in the film, with his comic book counterpart uttering the same phrase at the end of Captain America: Steve Rogers #1 (2016) (though it would transpire that this Hydra-affiliated version of Captain America is in actuality not the classic Cap we all know). The character’s new uniform in the film is an adaptation of his classic chain mail costume from the source material.

The Mark LXXXV Iron Man armour, with the red torso section and yellow arms and legs, evokes the character’s early armour models from the source material. For much of the character’s history, Tony Stark’s limbs appeared to be covered with form fitting sleeves instead of actual armour.

When Black Widow and Hawkeye arrive on Vormir, the Red Skull notes that Romanoff’s father is named Ivan, with Barton’s mother being named Edith; this is also true for their comic book counterparts.

When infiltrating Camp Lehigh, Steve wears a uniform bearing the name “Roscoe.” In the comics, Roscoe Simons took on the role of Captain America after Steve became Nomad. In Hank Pym’s lab the original Ant-Man helmet from the comics can be seen.

In the film Peggy mentions the name “Braddock,” noting that he hasn’t checked in for a while. This is a reference to Brian Braddock who, after getting into a motorcycle accident, is saved by Merlyn and Roma who transform him into Captain Britain. It could also refer to Brian’s father, Sir James Braddock, who was also a member of the Captain Britain Corps.

The man who drives Howard Stark is Edwin Jarvis, Howard’s, and later Tony’s, butler from the comics. The character is played by James D’Arcy, who also portrayed him in the Agent Carter television series, making this the first time a character from a Marvel Cinematic Universe TV show has appeared in an MCU film.

The Hulk holding up the rubble of the Avengers facility is reminiscent of the character doing a similar act in Secret Wars #4 (1984) to save his fellow heroes from being crushed under tons of rock.

Thanos breaking Captain America’s shield occurs in both media, the Titan doing so in The Infinity Gauntlet #4 (1991). The comic book incarnation of Captain America is also deemed to be worthy enough to wield Mjolnir, first doing so in The Mighty Thor #390 (1988).

Pepper wearing her own armour is a nod to how the character gets a suit of her own in the comics, adopting the identity of Rescue.

While the mainstream incarnation of the Hulk has yet to wield the Infinity Gauntlet, his Ultimate Universe counterpart has, this occurring in Ultimate Comics The Ultimates #25 (2013). In the Ultimate Universe there are eight Infinity Gems and two Gauntlets (with there being space for four gems on each). The Hulk was in possession of both Gauntlets, but only five of the gems. Iron Man using the Infinity Gauntlet has also occurred in the comic books, the character doing so in The Avengers #12 (2011). In the issue, Iron Man uses it to send the Hood back to prison and then make the Gauntlet disappear (in actuality he had it transported away, dividing the Infinity Gems among the Illuminati).

Thor joins the Guardians of the Galaxy, dubbing them the Asgardians of the Galaxy. This is the actual name of a team from the comic books comprising of Annabelle Riggs, Angela (Thor’s half-sister), Kid Loki, Thunderstrike, Skurge, Valkyrie, and Throg.

In both media Sam Wilson has indeed taken up the mantle of Captain America, with the comic book incarnation first doing so in Captain America #25 (2014). Interestingly, in both cases it’s an elderly Steve Rogers who appoints his successor.

With Endgame being the culmination of 21 films, it is absolutely filled with MCU Easter Eggs and callbacks. There are way too many to list, so I’ll just go through some of the more notable ones. The Avengers revisit pivotal moments from past films on their quest to obtain the Infinity Stones. These include the 2012 Battle of New York (as seen in The Avengers), visiting Jane Foster on Asgard in 2013 (as seen in Thor: The Dark World), stealing the Power Stone before Peter Quill is able to on Morag (as seen in Guardians of the Galaxy), and going to Vormir to obtain the Soul Stone (as seen in Avengers: Infinity War). Minor characters reappearing include Jack Rollins (appeared in Captain America: The Winter Soldier), Howard the Duck (first appeared in Guardians of the Galaxy), Harley Keener (appeared in Iron Man 3), and Thaddeus Ross (first appeared in The Incredible Hulk). We also see characters on screen again that have passed away such as Frigga (died in Thor: The Dark World), Howard Stark (death seen in Captain America: Civil War), the Ancient One (died in Doctor Strange), Peggy Carter (died in Captain America: Civil War), Agent Sitwell (died in Captain America: The Winter Soldier), Brock Rumlow (died in Captain America: Civil War), and Alexander Pierce (died in Captain America: The Winter Soldier), while Arnim Zola is mentioned by Howard Stark. And while Avengers: Endgame doesn’t have a post-credits scene, the sound of metal being hammered can be heard over the Marvel Studios logo, recalling the scene where Tony Stark builds his first Iron Man armour while in captivity from Iron Man.

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Things I liked about Endgame:

Natasha. One of the best characters in the film, her death was magnificent.

Scott and his importance in the film.

Scott defending Steve's ass. Funny and Steve's ass is a masterpiece.

Steve's face coming out of the elevator after saying Hail Hydra. Steve is a little shit, I love him.

Steve distracting himself by saying that Bucky is alive.

Loki who greets Hulk when the elevator doors close.

Lila Barton.

Peggy Carter and Howard Stark.

"On your left"

Steve taking Mjolnir. Pure poetry.

The power of Wanda.

"I am Iron Man"

Things I didn't like:

Tony blaming Steve. Everyone knows that it wasn't his fault.

The scene with all the girls. It could have been done better and it shows that it was made just to be able to shout "Girl Power".

The reunion between the various characters. Three hours of film, and 30 seconds for this. Ok.

Thor. They made him totally stupid.

Some characters were seen for a total of 30 seconds.

Thor's ending.

Steve's ending.

Captain Marvel was totally useless.

Bruce and Hulk. I like Bruce and I like Hulk, but I don't like BruceHulk.

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Intergalactic

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by yuniesan

In the aftermath of the snap, the Avengers work together to find a way to get everything they wanted back. With the help of new allies, and old friends, will they be able to achieve their endgame?

Words: 6286, Chapters: 1/20, Language: English

Series: Part 4 of Thanos Murder Squad

Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Guardians of the Galaxy (Movies)

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Major Character Death

Categories: F/F, F/M, M/M

Characters: Tony Stark, Steve Rogers, Hulk (Marvel), Bruce Banner, Thor (Marvel), Clint Barton, Carol Danvers, James "Rhodey" Rhodes, Lila Barton, Nathaniel Pietro Barton, Nebula (Marvel), Brunnhilde | Valkyrie (Marvel), Rhomann Dey, Duranna Dey, Thanos (Marvel), Sif (Marvel), Shuri (Marvel), Sharon Carter (Marvel), Everett Ross, Irani Rael, Natasha Romanov (Marvel), Vision (Marvel), Friday (Marvel), Rocket Raccoon, Cooper Barton, Pepper Potts, Happy Hogan

Relationships: Steve Rogers/Tony Stark, James "Bucky" Barnes/Natasha Romanov, past Carol Danvers/Maria Rambeau, Carol Danvers/James "Rhodey" Rhodes, Clint Barton/Laura Barton, James "Rhodey" Rhodes & Tony Stark, Past Tony Stark/Pepper Potts, Nebula & Tony Stark Friendship - Relationship

Additional Tags: Thanos Murder Squad, Avengers: Endgame (Movie) Spoilers, Avengers: Endgame (Movie), Post-Captain America: Civil War (Movie), Post-Avengers: Infinity War Part 1 (Movie), Post-Avengers: Age of Ultron (Movie), Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Angst with a Happy Ending, Sad with a Happy Ending, Avengers: Endgame Fix-It, Fix-It, POV Tony Stark, POV Steve Rogers, Avengers: Engame Spoilers, Tagging as I go to avoid spoilers, Some of the dialogue from the movie, some dialogue from the comics, just adjusted to better fit the story, Fluff, They're not okay, I only kept the things I liked, because fuck that ending, This is a Steve/Tony Event, There maybe some Avengers Assemble stuff, I reject certain parts of Canon, We deserved better than that, Happily Ever After, This some how turned into a full AU timeline, the fighting and yelling happens, Some people that died in Infinity War live in my world, Not Beta Read, we die like heroes on this train, So many tags

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Endgame review that is really more of a Rant then anything else because Fuck you Marvel.

Disclaimer: I hate pretty much everything about this movie and am still pissed enough that there is going to be a lot of cussing. Also, this is going to contain spoilers. 

Let’s start with the character that I had the most hope for walking into this movie. Tony fucking Stank. I read the spoilers so I knew that he was going to get a heroic death. I also knew that he hesitated to save the world because he got his happy ending. 

I didn’t realize how much I would hate him for every word that came out of his mouth. Tony Stank really doesn’t give a shit about anyone but himself. He gets his happily ever after so fuck everyone else. Oh and he’s guilty over losing Peter so he’s going to blame everyone else even though he’s the one that split up the Avengers by locking up half of them in an underwater prison. He’s the one that had a way to contact Steve, knew about the attack because of Bruce, but was too petty to make the damn phone call. But nope it’s all Steve’s fault that he decided to go to Titan and fight Thanos there instead of regrouping with everyone else. He fucked up, but Tony can’t admit that so it’s on everyone else. Piece of shit. 

then Scott comes back five years later with an idea, but nope Tony can’t help save everyone because he’s got his precious little girl. Fuck everyone else who lost their families. At least the picture of Peter and him exists because otherwise, he wouldn’t have done shit. Oh and he insists that they keep the five years since the snap intact meaning that he’s robbing half the universe of five years of life because why the fuck not? Alright, I get him not wanting to lose his baby girl but I also don’t care because fuck him, fuck him so badly for not giving a shit about any of the other people in the universe. He’s such shit. Like honestly the only decent thing he does is die, oh and his conversation with Howard was interesting because it proves that Howard never physically abused Tony. Sorry stans, guess you can’t use that as an excuse anymore. 

Now the character that I love the most who was screwed... Steve. God, he’s fucking pathetic in this movie. Like where the fuck was his obsession with Peggy in any other movie that he was in? Where the fuck was it because this movie implied that it had been something that he had been holding onto for the fourteen (okay thirteen years) that he had been in the future, even though on screen we saw him moving on... No, he’s been carrying that stupid ass compass around with him since he woke up from the ice, just didn’t have a reason to pull it out until Endgame. Such fucking bullshit. He’s so damn pathetic when it comes to her in this movie. Not that she’s much better... Still having a torch for him in 1970 after he had been dead for 30 years. Super fucking pathetic. Like omg, they knew each other for a max of two years, kissed once, and had like five total conversations. But nope the love of his life, poor Sharon she was completely screwed. (I am so going to write out a fic where Steve goes back to the love of his life and finds out that she’s a pale comparison to the actual love of his life). Honestly, if you wanted a Steve that was hung up on Peggy still, having him move on was stupid, and this should have been set up in the previous movies instead of feeling completely out of the blue. Oh and as everyone else already has said, his ending completely ruins a lot of the great lines from the previous cap movies, such as his conversation about a situation going south, or the price of freedom. And it completely invalidates his relationship with Bucky, which was already kind of ruined in canon by Civil War. They owed the characters so much more. Oh, and they had to fuck over Steve’s other best friend. Like honestly, fuck you for what you did to Sam and Steve’s relationship. Just fuck you, Russos. I did like Sam getting the shield (course the question becomes how? because it was destroyed in the battle with Thanos, but who cares about that?) Oh and what happened to Mjolnir? because Steve was traveling with it to return the stones. Like the whole can’t move past the forties shtick is so boring and so old. 

Course for Steve to still be stuck on Peggy they had to ruin her. I can’t get over the disgust I feel for a woman that married another man, had children with him, to still be into a crush she had at 19... when she’s in her 50′s. it’s all kinds of gross. And sure I adore stories about sweethearts finding each other after a long time, but not when they are in committed relationships with other people. We all knew Agent Carter wasn’t worth anything to the MCU but this proves it. 

Bruce was just fucking annoying. Granted, I am not super fond of Banner in general, but Professor Hulk was cringe and annoying and no thanks. I swear I wanted someone to punch him every time he opened his mouth. The only time he was not incredibly annoying was when he talked about Natasha, course they played up the romantic angle for the two of them without ever addressing the issue of him ditching her for years. Like he still held a torch even though everything about the relationship was fail. 

Thor was just sad. He’s an alcoholic that has lost all confidence in himself, gained a ton of weight, something that is mocked throughout the movie and is afraid to fight. Until he talks with Frigga (not gonna lie that was a cool scene) but seriously the way they made Thor pathetic was just sad. Oh and so much mocking of his PTSD by pretty much everyone. I guess not being a dick about PTSD only applies to Tony. 

Natasha, I actually liked the majority of her plotline. Though that being said killing her off was incredibly stupid if the Black Widow movie is a real thing. I really liked her relationship with Clint, the way that she was helping coordinate the recovery, and the way she was willing to risk everything for a chance to fix things. She had a lot of personality, and I do remember why I adore the character again. I’m also glad that they didn’t put major focus on Steve/Nat. Oh no to make Steve’s storyline work he couldn’t be closely tied with anyone so no real friendships in the present for Steve. Nope, just taking advice from Stank to live life and thinking the only way to do that was to go back to Peggy...

Clint was the only one whose storyline I didn’t massively hate. I liked the way they showed his relationship with Natasha and how both of them care so much about each other. We really got to see them being family in this movie so that wasn’t terrible. And it was powerful to see him lose his family (it wasn’t like the other dusting, they were there and then gone the next second... a much better way to show everyone being gone imo then that dumbass over the top speech by Peter in Infinity War.) And his scenes after returning with the soul stone, and the fight against Thanos were kickass. Also seeing Lila Barton have her daddy’s talent for shooting arrows was terrific. Clint is a great father, and I loved the hints of it and his love for his family in this film. He just wasn’t enough to redeem the bullshit for me. 

Wanda...barely in the film but kickass during the fight. It was great to watch her go head-to-head with Thanos, and having the call back to Infinity War with Okoye when the girls were trying to get the iron infinity stone glove away was great. I’m down for an all-women team-up movie a billion times more now then I was before this movie and I already knew that I still wanted that. Course now I would try to figure out how to pirate it because FUCK MARVEL. 

Sam, idk. There were things I liked. Him becoming Captain America (if you are going to screw Steve like this, I’d rather Sam then Bucky any day of the week). His on your left and reaching out to steve over comms when he so desperately needed that little push to keep fighting. I despise the implication that he doesn’t know Steve because of his freak out about the past, and the fact that Steve was keeping secrets from him even though other movies have shown that to BULLSHIT. 

Bucky, Steve fucked him over because he was too obsessed with Peggy to give a shit about his BFF being tortured by Hydra. It’s fucking gross and totally goes against who Steve is in the rest of the series. I did like the hug, seeing him shooting Thanos's army and the easiness between him and Sam. Other than that eh. 

Valkyrie was awesome in the movie. I don’t like her much because of the slaver thing, but she was really great for her five minutes, two of being a leader and three of fighting (and I’m only sort of joking)

Nebula- I’m not sure I understand why Thanos and his people were about to see what future Nebula’s memory system knew And I wasn’t super into her babying of the shithead but other than that I liked the character. I wish they would put more emphasis on the sisterly relationship she’s building with Gamora. 

Rocket- didn’t really like the way that he mocked Thor’s issues. However, he was a fun character. 

Rhodey- He was annoying at the beginning but I liked the fact that he didn’t follow Tony’s example and say FUCK THE WORLD. And I did enjoy some of his lines at the end of the movie. such as the way he addresses the fact that he’s disabled with Nebula, creating a connection between them. (much better than the condescending way that Tony talked to her at the beginning). And I liked how the disability impacted him negatively during the final fight. It was nice to see something that is actually a medical necessity. 

I did like the final battle. It was well done and I enjoyed the different fighting styles, bring back dusted characters, seeing who fought with who, and the devasting strength of Thanos. And the way that Carol really turned the tide. Tony’s death scene was incredibly dumb... Honestly, someone get Peter as far away from these kinds of fightings as possible because the kid doesn’t know how to handle shit. 

There is probably so much more to add to this but honestly, I’m tired and it’s already long af. This movie sucks, be prepared for it to be worse then you expect, if you wanted to see Tony actually be a hero without having be convinced other people matter. If you wanted to see Steve continue with the path that he’s been on since Winter Soldier and suddenly decides that he’s more into Peggy than he is anything else. If you wanted to see more of Ragnorak’s Thor. If you wanted more for Natasha then her death, something that only bothers me/Odin with actual issues. 

[deputy-ajay-ghale]

Okay, also, I just really love that the people who hold themselves accountable for the death of loved ones—don’t actually deserve the blame??? But it’s just refreshing to see four characters ranging in gender, age, and ethnicity holding themselves responsible for the death of a loved one that they aren’t responsible for.

Carter blames himself for Rachel’s suicide because he was angry and hurt and couldn’t forgive her for turning him into a mistress. And even after he was put on death row for her lies and actions, he believes he could have done more to prevent her death.

Brad and Lila individually hold themselves responsible for their daughter's death, and even during their therapy session they don't hurl insults and accusations at each other. It's them owning up for what just so happened the day Eva died because in the end, her killer is the reason she's dead, not because Brad didn't react fast enough or because Lila forgot to pack the markers.

And then there's Amy, a literal child blaming herself for her mom's overdose because of some hurtful words she said.

Just ugh, these characters.

[ao3feed-stevesharon]

My Name Is Searching, Since You Stole My Only Soul

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by on_the_moon_at_last

Dismissed by the CIA, a lost and confused Sharon Carter has been assigned to shadow an equally lost Bucky in the Tennessee mountains. Embittered due to the end of SHIELD, Sharon expects to find an emotionless assassin but instead discovers a kindred spirit of sorts. While bonding, the duo find themselves stalked by the mysterious Crossbones Killer and Buck faces his inner demon.

Words: 6825, Chapters: 10/40, Language: English

Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: Major Character Death

Categories: F/M

Characters: Sharon Carter (Marvel), James "Bucky" Barnes, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Steve Rogers, Brock Rumlow, Blackheart (Marvel), Natasha Romanov (Marvel), Johann Schmidt, Thanos (Marvel), Nick Fury, James "Rhodey" Rhodes, Jane Foster (Marvel), Thor (Marvel), Tony Stark, Clint Barton, Bobbi Morse, Loki (Marvel), Darcy Lewis, Jessica Jones, Karen Page, Frank Castle, Emil Blonsky, Maria Hill, Pepper Potts, Morgan Stark (Marvel Cinematic Universe), Wanda Maximoff, Pietro Maximoff, Lila Barton, Laura Barton, Cooper Barton, Nathaniel Pietro Barton

Relationships: Sharon Carter/Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes & Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes & Sharon Carter, James "Bucky" Barnes & Sam Wilson, James "Bucky" Barnes/Natasha Romanov, Frank Castle/Karen Page, Matt Murdock/Karen Page, Jessica Jones & Matt Murdock

Additional Tags: Loss of Identity, Character Study, Character Death, Implied/Referenced Character Death, Time Travel, Post-Captain America: The Winter Soldier, Pre-Captain America: Civil War (Movie), Post-Captain America: Civil War (Movie), Flashbacks, Demonic Possession, Psychological Drama, Seduction to the Dark Side, Pre-Avengers: Endgame (Movie), slight canon divergence after chapter 7, Unplanned Pregnancy

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[elenafisher]

chelsea watches (read: is agonized by) “avengers: endgame”

i just got home from endgame and i have a lot to say about it!

OVERALL:

i... liked it? i think? i can’t tell. 

there’s probably going to be a lot of complaining in this post, yet i didn’t actually hate the movie. but there was a lot to digest, so i’m sure my feelings will change over the next couple of weeks.

this movie was edited weird and i think it gave me whiplash. 

the tone was dramatic and desperate, then lighthearted and fun, and then back to dramatic and desperate before i could so much as blink. it was very jarring!

it also made me cry. 

robert downey jr. has always been very earnest in his portrayal of tony stark, but he gave all he had in this one. i was on the edge of tears watching him the whole time, really. there’s definitely a sense of finality to his performance.

those last 20 minutes had me weeping a bit. when they put the arc reactor on the bundle of flowers... oh, my heart. :’(

THE GOOD:

(most of) our characters are back! 

but was there ever any doubt? the stakes were made to feel high, but they never really were. you always came away with the feeling that they were all gonna make it.

no word on vision, though! pretty confused about that one. i know he was killed after the snap occurred, so i don’t think they actually can bring him back, but i always thought that he would, since they have this to film still.

it was very well made. i hope they keep bringing back the people who work on the sets, the cinematography, and the lighting, because it was all so well done.

we need to raise one for alan silvestri and his amazing soundtrack. 

oh, did anyone else notice the emphasis on DAUGHTERS? 

tony’s daughter morgan

scott’s daughter cassie

clint’s daughter lila

thanos’s "daughters”, nebula and gamora

to me, it felt like they were setting up these girls for potentially taking up their father’s mantles, which would actually be cool as fuck.

morgan stark is absolutely the cutest little bean i’ve ever seen in my life. 

I LOVE YOU 3000!

her scenes with tony were so sweet.

that cheeseburger parallel... oh man.

really, every scene that every person shared with tony was really good. you can just feel that everybody was giving everything they had because they knew they only had so much time left to play these characters together, and they wanted to get these final performances right.

tom holland, you heartbreaker. the audience in my theater went absolutely nuts when he finally returned. but when he was crying as he was talking to tony for the last time, oh man. 

“i lost the kid.” please...

THE BAD:

i still don’t really get what they’re doing with thor.

i don’t share this opinion much because this is tumblr and everyone loves this movie, but i didn’t like ragnarok, and i don’t like what’s become of thor or bruce. i wasn’t really checking on these two before, but now they’re just the comedy reliefs of the MCU.

chris hemsworth is funny, of course, and thor is a badass, of course, but they were just trying so hard with him. 

it kind of feels like they’re just pulling him apart, like one group still wants him to be the noble leader of asgard and the other just wants him to be the court jester. so, rather than decide, they just mushed their ideas together.

captain marvel: i knew she wasn’t going to be in the movie much, because she would’ve done everything in, like, 30 minutes, but they really, really underutilized her. seriously, she was only in this one, at most, for five minutes.

but, in those five minutes, she got a new haircut and kicked all kinds of ass, which are both wins.

THE UGLY:

STEVE ROGERS, SIR, WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

i can’t believe they hit the undo button on cap’s story.

rather than have him grow and develop in his new role in the future he never wanted or expected to receive, they just had him go back in time to marry the one that got away.

but don’t get me wrong y’all; steve and peggy hurt me so good. i live for their angst. but they weren’t supposed to get together like this!

it’s gross because peggy moved on. she was able to pick up the pieces and create something wonderful for herself by having a fulfilling career and a happy marriage with another man.

steve should’ve accepted her choice. if he loves her so much, he should’ve accepted that he lost her and, since she moved on without him, he has to move on without her.

i can almost get the poetic cinema that they were going for: after tony loses his chance at having a family and living his life, steve is woken up and realizes how much he’s been missing out on, so he decides to go out there and discover what he’s been running away from all this time.

but, rather than do those things, or literally anything else, steve goes back in time to... marry peggy.

like, he could’ve traveled the world with sam and bucky, or gone solo for a while, or even hit up sharon again. 

sharon carter, what a waste. they really couldn’t commit to the idea of her and steve together, could they? 

but as soon as they confirmed sharon to be peggy’s niece, there was just no way a romance could blossom. it’s kind of hilarious how in a cinematic universe where raccoons talk, characters time travel, and AIs can be 3D printed, kissing the niece of your former flame is still considered to be the weirdest thing about it.

seriously: i find it all so vulgar and manipulative.

the one good thing that came out of this was sam wilson, the only worthy captain america, receiving the shield. 

i’ve read that some people are upset that sam got the shield instead of bucky. like, did y’all watch the last movie? let bucky have his plums and his goats. he’s done fighting other people’s wars.

THE EVEN UGLIER:

i got problems, y’all, and those problems have two names: natasha romanoff and clint barton.

i ship these two because everything in the avengers (2012) led me to believe that these super cool assassins who were fighting each other were actually in love with each other and it was them against the world (which doesn’t sound familiar at all, i know).

the characters had history and scarlett johansson and jeremy renner had chemistry. i saw it and i know all y’all saw it. 

so, y’all can imagine how goddamn appalled i was when i first read that natasha and clint were not only not lovers, but that clint actually had a secret family, with a secret wife, on a secret farm, and that we were going to be told this with absolutely no build-up whatsoever. 

but y’all could tell that the russos were as tired as i was when it came to accepting those facts! 

they decided to throw caution to the wind and show some more intimacy between natasha and clint, which was delicious. finally, some good fucking food.

i mean, the necklace? she was wearing her necklace again!

to me, it seemed like natasha had fallen in love with him all those years ago, but he was either already married or had turned her down (or both?), and she was never able to act on her feelings for him. i think that clint was also in love... and perhaps knew that he could never be with her, because of their lifestyles and her past, and chose laura instead. or something agonizing and unfulfilling like that.

(i really hope her upcoming movie expands on this.)

and i do think that she loved him. like, romantically. she couldn’t stop touching him the whole movie (HER HANDS ON HIS FACE!!! she’s so worried for him i’m crying) and was shaking, she was so relieved, upon being reunited with him.

it is some consolation that no matter what, you are never able to deny that natasha and clint love each other: even when they’re not romantic partners, they are definitely platonic life partners. their mutual devotion to one another, in almost every universe in the comics and in these movies, is incredibly strong and moving. 

so, rather than endure clint’s death, natasha chose to sacrifice herself so that he could get the stone and, ultimately, be reunited with his family. and, on paper, it sounds okay... except, it really isn’t.

y’all wanna know why it’s not okay?

it’s not okay because natasha was an original avenger, and we were never given the chance to spend time with her, or become emotionally invested in her journey, or to care about her reasons for making the ultimate sacrifice. 

like, i cared about natasha, but i felt that i would’ve cared so much more (and that the audience could’ve, as well) had we’d been able to have a front row seat to her “atonement” arc. 

because, as an audience, we sort of started in medias res: while she was not initially forthcoming with who she was or what she was doing, natasha came to be seen as a reliable and capable ally by the avengers, her second appearance onscreen. we are given no real reason to distrust her because she’s so desperate to find redemption, which she’s made apparent in almost every movie, and it’s hard to hate somebody working so strongly for another chance.

i mean, this journey would’ve been made so much more badass by us experiencing it firsthand, rather than relying on the hearsay from the directors, writers, and actors. we should’ve gotta a miniseries starring natasha romanoff as the black widow, so we could finally see what she did to become so disgusted with herself and so feared by everyone else. 

this is (partially) why so many people adore bucky. we’ve seen him as the best friend, the fellow comrade, before he was forced to become a mindless killing machine. we’ve seen him kill and cause absolute mayhem. but now we’re watching bucky grow out from that and become something more (and, hopefully, something better). 

basically, natasha romanoff should’ve received that same treatment. we needed to explore all of her facets, not just some of them. 

tl;dr: we should’ve had more time with natasha.

it’s also not okay because natasha’s sacrifice, one that was both irreversible and absolutely pivotal to the fate of the final battle, was not given nearly the same amount of respect that tony received after his demise.

while we all owe a lot to robert downey jr. for his choice to portray, and continue portraying, tony stark / iron man, he is not the most important avenger. 

it’s also worth noting that he did not have to be the one to snap his fingers. i mean, anyone could’ve been given what tony was wearing and then wielded the gauntlet. but, like natasha, he made a choice to sacrifice his life for the greater good.

yet, only tony was given an elaborate funeral. no matter how you slice it, it’s enormously disrespectful to a veteran team member. for this ultimate sacrifice to be made by the only woman on the original crew is doubly insulting.

AND ALL OF THIS IS MADE WORSE BY THE FACT that natasha’s death mirrors gamora’s. they’re identical, right down to the music that plays and how the camera focuses on their bloody bodies.

the russos were probably trying to invoke poetic cinema again here, but the scene comes across as somewhat lazy and insincere. like, they can’t even kill her right!

as terrible as this scene is, i want to give scarlett and jeremy a round of applause for it. you really got the sense that these characters were more than ready to die for each other, and that’s only because scarlett and jeremy were able to sell the emotional intimacy of the scene so well. 

all of it is too little, too late, however.

allow me to conclude this rambling nonsense by stating that i also think they condensed her character arc too much. like, i know this branches off of what i was just talking about a dozen bullet points ago, but even if natasha were to receive this ending, i feel that she received it too soon, y’know?

there should’ve been more scenes in the previous films dedicated to her, and her feelings, and how she relates to any given situation, because another problem that drags this scene down is the lack of any information about natasha. 

like, even when assembled with the other avengers, she feels remote.

perhaps that’s intentional, given that the character’s a spy and has been enigmatic about every other area of her life for so many years. but i think she’s been written to be too enigmatic.

[ao3feed-buckynat]

Intergalactic

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by yuniesan

In the aftermath of the snap, the Avengers work together to find a way to get everything they wanted back. With the help of new allies, and old friends, will they be able to achieve their endgame?

Words: 6286, Chapters: 1/20, Language: English

Series: Part 4 of Thanos Murder Squad

Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Guardians of the Galaxy (Movies)

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Major Character Death

Categories: F/F, F/M, M/M

Characters: Tony Stark, Steve Rogers, Hulk (Marvel), Bruce Banner, Thor (Marvel), Clint Barton, Carol Danvers, James "Rhodey" Rhodes, Lila Barton, Nathaniel Pietro Barton, Nebula (Marvel), Brunnhilde | Valkyrie (Marvel), Rhomann Dey, Duranna Dey, Thanos (Marvel), Sif (Marvel), Shuri (Marvel), Sharon Carter (Marvel), Everett Ross, Irani Rael, Natasha Romanov (Marvel), Vision (Marvel), Friday (Marvel), Rocket Raccoon, Cooper Barton, Pepper Potts, Happy Hogan

Relationships: Steve Rogers/Tony Stark, James "Bucky" Barnes/Natasha Romanov, past Carol Danvers/Maria Rambeau, Carol Danvers/James "Rhodey" Rhodes, Clint Barton/Laura Barton, James "Rhodey" Rhodes & Tony Stark, Past Tony Stark/Pepper Potts, Nebula & Tony Stark Friendship - Relationship

Additional Tags: Thanos Murder Squad, Avengers: Endgame (Movie) Spoilers, Avengers: Endgame (Movie), Post-Captain America: Civil War (Movie), Post-Avengers: Infinity War Part 1 (Movie), Post-Avengers: Age of Ultron (Movie), Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Angst with a Happy Ending, Sad with a Happy Ending, Avengers: Endgame Fix-It, Fix-It, POV Tony Stark, POV Steve Rogers, Avengers: Engame Spoilers, Tagging as I go to avoid spoilers, Some of the dialogue from the movie, some dialogue from the comics, just adjusted to better fit the story, Fluff, They're not okay, I only kept the things I liked, because fuck that ending, This is a Steve/Tony Event, There maybe some Avengers Assemble stuff, I reject certain parts of Canon, We deserved better than that, Happily Ever After, This some how turned into a full AU timeline, the fighting and yelling happens, Some people that died in Infinity War live in my world, Not Beta Read, we die like heroes on this train, So many tags

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[ao3feed-lokiangst]

My Name Is Searching, Since You Stole My Only Soul

read it on the AO3 at http://bit.ly/2ZP80YJ

by on_the_moon_at_last

Dismissed by the CIA, a lost and confused Sharon Carter has been assigned to shadow an equally lost Bucky in the Tennessee mountains. Embittered due to the end of SHIELD, Sharon expects to find an emotionless assassin but instead discovers a kindred spirit of sorts. While bonding, the duo find themselves stalked by the mysterious Crossbones Killer and Buck faces his inner demon.

Words: 487, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: Major Character Death

Categories: F/M

Characters: Sharon Carter (Marvel), James "Bucky" Barnes, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Steve Rogers, Brock Rumlow, Blackheart (Marvel), Natasha Romanov (Marvel), Johann Schmidt, Thanos (Marvel), Nick Fury, James "Rhodey" Rhodes, Jane Foster (Marvel), Thor (Marvel), Tony Stark, Clint Barton, Bobbi Morse, Loki (Marvel), Darcy Lewis, Jessica Jones, Karen Page, Frank Castle, Emil Blonsky, Maria Hill, Pepper Potts, Morgan Stark (Marvel Cinematic Universe), Wanda Maximoff, Pietro Maximoff, Lila Barton, Laura Barton, Cooper Barton, Nathaniel Pietro Barton

Relationships: Sharon Carter/Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes & Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes & Sharon Carter, James "Bucky" Barnes & Sam Wilson, James "Bucky" Barnes/Natasha Romanov, Frank Castle/Karen Page, Matt Murdock/Karen Page, Jessica Jones & Matt Murdock

Additional Tags: Loss of Identity, Character Study, Character Death, Implied/Referenced Character Death, Time Travel, Post-Captain America: The Winter Soldier, Pre-Captain America: Civil War (Movie), Post-Captain America: Civil War (Movie), Flashbacks, Demonic Possession, Psychological Drama, Seduction to the Dark Side, Pre-Avengers: Endgame (Movie), slight canon divergence after chapter 7, Unplanned Pregnancy

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[laukora1030]

Endgame 2

So, first of all, what the fuck? Jesus Christ, I am not ready to watch this movie. 

Recently I reblogged a small post I did on the first trailer that you guys might not have seen, but I don’t care because I need to vent. That post was me talking about the first trailer. And I intended to do this post when the trailer came out but I haven’t had any fucking time, and tonight, considering I have no homework, I decided to do it. So, let’s go.

Let’s start with, I don’t think the trailer showed much, as in, important information, anyway. While it gave good info, like the whereabouts of Tony, Nebula, and Carol, I don’t think it gave a lot of info regarding the movie.

The first scene that appears is one of my favorite scenes in the whole MCU, Tony not giving up. The scene with the Mark I all destroyed. And the voice over is so dope. Everything Tony is saying got to me. Also “realized I love you”? This movie will be the end of me.

I want to mention something before I continue. I once was speaking to my sister and she told me that when red is really remarkable in a scene like it looks out of place, it means someone will get hurt. So, having the first part of the trailer be all black and white with the only color showing being red makes my heart ache.

Next, Peggy Carter, my queen, speaking. Scenes from The First Avenger showing up and then we see Clint and possible Lila Barton in the farm. I read a lot about people believing she was Kate Bishop, and I thought that, even if she’s not, which she isn’t, it might be MCU’s way to introduce the new generation of Avengers. You know? Instead of Kate Bishop being the new Hawkeye, they use Lila. Also, let’s talk about how that probably is the last time Clint sees his family before the Snap. Because after that we have the scene where he’s Ronin and I guess it kind of gives it away.

Thor in Asgard. Thor’s hair. The Snap. Sam disappearing, Okoye’s look of terror. “I saw all these people die.” Thor is young and has seen death like it is a normal thing. I hear his voice and hear defeat. I am not sure how the sun will shine on him again, but I believe it will. 

Note to self: I fucking hate Natasha’s hair. It looks horrible. I know some of you liked it, but I didn’t. It just feels off. I hate it. 

Scott seeing the “missing” posters. He is so lost. And I hope Cassie didn’t disappear in the Snap because everything Scott has done he has done it for her and Thanos will not live if she was dusted. 

Clint and Natasha in the Quinjet. (Unrelated. You guys think we’ll finally learn about Budapest in this movie?) Clint running, and Rocket with Rhodey, being happy with the giant gun. ANd also, someone noticed he’s wearing a suit from the comics, and I find it really cool.

“Whatever it takes” says Steve, and we see my blue baby (Nebula) fighting someone who I hope is Thanos because I hope she kills him. Also, her war scream? Incredibly hot.

“Whatever it takes” says Clint. Let’s speak briefly about Barton’s mohawk (I think that’s what it is called). What the hell happened to him? He looks weird. 

“Whatever it takes” says Natasha, while she practices in the firing range even though her guns will do nothing on Thanos. We also see Steve strapping his shield because I refuse to see anything else, and Antman running on a pencil and jumping to God know where.

“Whatever it takes” says Tony and I die. We see them all walking in the Quantum suits, that by the way, I hate. They look so weird. Seeing Steve taking the lead is not something I was expecting, but at the same time I was, does anyone understand? We see Nebula and Tony being back, which made my heart happy. Also, does anyone knows where the hell are Bruce, Thor, and Rocket and why are they not wearing the suit?

And last but not least, the scene that made me realize I am a hopeless pansexual. Thor meeting my new wife Carol. Jesus fuck. Carol with straight hair makes me weak on the knees, and Thor’s just to perfect. Also, has anyone noticed that this scene, Thor calling Stormbreaker, is a lot like the scene in Ragnarok where he calls Mjolnir to uncover Loki? I feel, deep in my heart I know I am wrong tho, that he was trying to see if it was his brother. What could be an actual reason as to why he did that is that he was trying to prove Carol, to see if she was powerful enough, or just at least not easily scared. 

Unrelated note: the little smirk she has and the smile Thor has after saying “I like this one”? I am happy with my life. I can die peacefully.

Well, that was all. Thanks for coming to my Ted talk.

[cruzrogue]

Carter’s story! The Passage

THE PARANOIA SURROUNDING THE VIRALS REACHES A NEW HIGH ON AN ALL-NEW "THE PASSAGE" MONDAY, FEBRUARY 4, ON FOX In an attempt to protect Amy, Wolgast convinces Sykes and Lear to let them outside of the facility for exercise. As emotional flashbacks reveal Carter's life leading up to his death-row sentencing, Fanning's hold on those kept inside Project Noah grows stronger. Meanwhile, the virals gain power over the facility's staff, leading Richards and Wolgast to reunite so they can take down a rogue soldier in the all-new "Whose Blood is That?" episode of THE PASSAGE airing Monday, Feb. 4 (9:00-10:00 PM ET/PT) on FOX. (PSG-104) (TV-14 L, S, V) Cast: Mark Paul-Gosselaar as Brad Wolgast; Vincent Piazza as Clark Richards; Henry Ian Cusick as Dr. Jonas Lear; Saniyya Sidney as Amy Bellafonte; Jamie McShane as Tim Fanning; Brianne Howey as Shauna Babcock; Caroline Chikezie as Major Nichole Sykes; Emmanuelle Chriqui as Dr. Lila Kyle and McKinley Belcher III as Anthony Carter; Guest Cast: Alain Uy as Dr. Pet; Kecia Lewis as Lacey Antoine; Elizabeth Alderfer as Rachel; Brett Gentile as Winston; Adam Aalderks as Paulson and Trieste Kelly Dunn as Sierra Thompson. SOURCE:FOX

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The Passage this week revolved around Carter's story, in another fast-paced, but character driven episode.  Carter's past changed considerably from the book, where he was instead a yard worker accused by his employer of abusing her daughter. This would lead to a tussle where the woman would fall into her pool and drown. This is a far cry from the show's version of Carter who we find out was unknowingly in a relationship with a married woman, who kills herself due to his inability to console her. This version does make for better drama on the small screen, as it is more personal than just a random woman he worked with, and I guess you could say it added some sexiness to the proceedings as well. The essence of his story though remained the same, which is what mattered, and the episode did a great job in empathizing us with him.  It's great how these character's pasts are being used as a way to push the narrative forward, whether than just a random flashback. Babcock last week showed her past to Richards to win his empathy, and this week, Carter's past was brought up in his dreams by Fanning in an attempt to bring out the vampire within him. The arc of Carter was so well developed that his eventual turn into the vampire felt earned, on top of it being absolutely horrifying. We see in this episode just how powerful Fanning is to be able to intrude into another's memories and manipulate them as he pleases, and it is hard not to feel for Carter as we see him spiralling into darkness. Amy's mind was also intruded upon in 'Whose Blood,' but by Babcock, whose attempts to manipulate the headstrong Amy weren't as successful. It was great to see Amy interacting with someone other than Carter or Brad, which by the way was endearing as always as she exchanged letters with Carter and then her treehouse scene with Brad. But in her interaction with Babcock, Amy's fortitude was on full display - keeping her head high and resolutely demanding for Babcock to leave. The powers of these vamps are quite strong, and having the soldier go mad, as he shot down the facility, really drove the point home of just how close we are to catastrophe. This is only the tip of the iceberg. Elsewhere in the episode was Lila's storyline as the scoop of the missing 12 convicts that Lila provided to the journalist was released. It seems like Lila has put herself in dangerous territory upon finding out that the journalist she was in contact with had got murdered soon after, a storyline, to be honest, that is hard to care about one bit. The Passage could do without Lila's investigation and still not miss a beat. As is, it slows the pace down and takes away from the main action at the lab.  Overall, 'Whose Blood is That' continued along the main narrative at a very brisk pace. Flashbacks can often be a detriment to a show, but The Passage has so far used it well as a vehicle to move the narrative forward while developing its characters, without ever getting boring. Now, if only full focus was put on the going on's at the lab without the distraction of Lila's storyline.

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The Truth About Lilith.-Got7 Series

Trigger Warnings: Death of a character (Murder labeled as suicide). Mention of rape, physical abuse and drugs. Cussing involved. Mentions of struggles with homelessness. 

A/N: As I have said this is going to be a long and rough series. Got7 is not yet mentioned. PLEASE IF YOU ARE UNCOMFORTABLE WITH THE TRIGGER WARNINGS DO NOT READ THIS. All these characters are o/cs. There is probably some mistakes. I will go through this again tomorrow and if tumblr will let me I will correct those mistakes. I hope you enjoy!  ALSO THE SONGS USED IN THIS CHAPTER ARE:

ROOTS BY IN THIS MOMENT & NOBODY'S HOME BY AVRIL LAVIGNE. THESE SONGS WERE JUST INSPIRATION FOR THESE CHARACTERS!

Chapter One: Crystal And Lila’s Introduction

     All I could hear was the band's name. Tiger Bloods. The crowd just kept shouting it in excitement. Tiger Bloods. Now is the part in the chant where they would shout the members names too. Tiger Bloods. Crystal. Mia. Harper. Lila. Here we go again. We walked out on the stage. Now is where we perform. The songs we wrote. The songs we hold so dear to heart. The songs about our own lives. Every damn concert. This feeling did not know when to stop bothering me. Worry. Worry of our music being shared with the rest of the world. It was like sharing pieces of ourselves. 

     The first song. "Roots". It was the song I probably hold closest to my heart. This song was about my struggles as a child and how I grew stronger from it. How these days, I don't mind welcoming pain. Worse pain can do is make me stronger. I will not break. I always tell myself that. I will not break. You can not break me. I look into the crowd and found the very face I was looking for. Elijah. He was the light of everyday for me. For all I know, he's the one reason I did not break these days. He always knew when to be there for me. 

     I continue singing.

     "I bite down a little harder. My blades a little sharper. My roots, my roots run deep into the hollow. I strike back a little harder. I scream a little louder. My roots, my roots run deep into the hollow. I'm stronger than I ever knew. I'm strong because of you. I hit back a little louder. Fuck you a little harder. My roots, my roots run deep into the hollow."

     Most of our fans, when asked what their favorite thing is about us, say it's the realness. The raw emotion in the songs and performance. It's true. It's real. The emotions pouring out of me right now are real. It's anger. It's pain. It's sadness. It's sorrow. It's grief. It's strength. It's growth. It's everything. I pour my heart in these songs especially this one. My fans noticed that too. They love when I sing this song. They sing with me so loud, they don't need a mic to be heard. 

     This song always brings me back to what my past was. The rape I suffered and the beatings. My father and his best friend were evil creatures. Sure, my father kicked his best friend out of his life once he found out about the rape but that didn't stop the beatings he landed on me and my brother. The hellish blood bath he gave us when we stood up for our mother after he beat her too. The drunk finally left our lives when I was sixteen. Took sixteen long years of survival but by then, my mother was so lost. It took me and my brother to save her from herself and her drugs. Took another two years. I was eighteen when the nightmare of my parents ended. Eighteen years, I put on a warrior's face scared to show my emotions to my family. 

     Sure, I was publicly releasing music about my emotions but I used a false name til this year so they didn’t find it. I used to known as Lilith Gold. Now the world knows my real name. Now the world knows all of our real names. We stopped hiding. We were sick of it. 

     "You want to know why I like the pain, you say? There's a sick part of me thankful for the hate. I, I stay positive and I, I push forward, you see? I, I got to do the right thing for my family! So I smile and I say that the world is just fine, as these fucking parasites eat up my spine. So I ask you once and I ask you again. Where do your roots start and where do your roots end?"

    This part hit the hardest. This part was the part I always choked back the tears. Oh, you should have the look on my mother's face when she heard it. She cried. She cried for so long. She apologized. She kept apologizing. Mother you're only human. Just like me. I already forgave you. I forgave you. I forgave Carter. I forgave him too. I forgave you most of all, mother.

     I remember she replied. 

     "You don't forgive David?" She asked.

     One last tear past my cheek as I replied, "I do. Not for him. Not like I do you and Carter. What David did to me? It wasn't humane. It was pure evil."

     "My roots, my roots run deep into the hollow." I finished the song out still choking back tears.

     I see Elijah in the crowd letting a few of his tears flow past his cheeks. 

     The agony I go through with sharing this side of me to the world never overloaded the happiness and relief I got every time I finally got it out of my system. 

     Next song. This is one isn't written by me. It's Lila's. This is something else that our fans loved about us. While I can sing. I can also play some of the instruments the band requires. We all can. We can all sing. Me and Lila trade places. I take the guitar and watch her begin to pour her soul in the song that she holds most to her heart. 

     "Nobody's Home" is about Lila's time after her family kicked her and her sister out. The pain she suffered going through the shame that family told her she was to them. You see, Lila's a lesbian and her family is conservative Christians. When they kicked her out, Juliet stood up for Lila causing them to kick her out too. During this time in her life she was thirteen and Juliet was twelve. Not a year later, they met me. While I had nothing I could do about where they lived, I let them sneak in my room at times. Mia let them sneak into her too room at times. Lila and Mia became fast friends, even faster than her and I did. I fed them every chance I got. Every dollar of allowance I could give, I gave to them. They still had to go to school, you know? I let them borrow my clothes as did Mia. I even lied to my mom and said I lost my journal or my pens and pencils in order to get more even though it oftentimes made my father angry. 

     "She wants to go home but nobody's home. It's where she lies broken inside. There's no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes. Broken inside." Lila sang on about the pain she watched her little sister go through because once Juliet stood up for her, their parents refused to let her back in.

     Her parents refused to let either one of them back in. 

     They just kept standing by their decisions. Lila even said that her and Juliet lived off of breakfast and lunch at school and off the showers in the gyms. They had finally developed a system where they just stayed in the school to live. They hid wherever they could to avoid getting caught. The process continued except for when Mia and I let them sneak in with us and eat whatever we could sneak into our rooms at night. I remember the stories they used to tell us to play it off as if it wasn't as bad as it was. They used to say they were staying with an aunt but that the bed was painful and that she refused to give them money. Mia and I figured out quickly that it was a lie but let them say what they wanted. It lasted at least a year before a fight I had with Lila brought out that Mia and I knew they were staying at the school on the days they didn't spend with us. That fight nearly teared us apart but thank goodness it didn't. We ended up apologizing to each other and making up. 

     "Her feelings she hides. Her dreams she can't find. She's losing her mind. She's falling behind. She can't find her place. She's losing her faith. She's falling from grace. She's all over the place. Yeah." She shook her head to the left just enough for me to see the tear run down her cheek while singing with such passion.

     Lila continues to say that the hardest part of it all was losing Juliet. 

     Juliet died just before Lila was able to start working to help them out more. Lila was so excited to finally be able to take care of her baby sister better. Her death nearly killed Lila. Juliet was fourteen years old. She was murdered. The killer was never caught. The cops tried to play it off suicide. In fact, they did write it off as suicide. You see, they didn't see her face that morning like Mia, Lila and I did. She hadn't smile that much in a long time. Why was she smiling? She was smiling because she was excited just as Lila was. Finally, they could begin the new journey of maybe being able to make enough to feed themselves. They knew if Lila was to do good and stick with job, she would keep getting raises and she could maybe one day, just maybe get them out of the gutter. That one day, she'd be able to get a job too and do the same leading to maybe not living in the school anymore. 

     Someone murdered Juliet Kayla Chaplin and to this day we don't know who it was. It kills all of us inside but it took the light out of Lila. Juliet was her world. She almost felt as if instead of Juliet being a sister,it felt like she lost a daughter.

     "She's lost inside, lost inside. Oh. Oh. She's lost inside, lost inside. Oh. Oh. Oh." In Lila's voice it was oblivious that she was choking up as she ended the song.

     The crowd started shouting. Justice for Juliet. Justice for Juliet Chaplin. The tears finally started coming to a halt as the dark brunette stood strong and raised her mic in her hand letting the crowd shout into the mic. 

     That. 

     That was Lila's way of saying that this is what I am. I am strong and I am going to find the killer. I am going to make sure the person who did this fucking pays.

TO BE CONTINUED.

A/N: I will be posting Crystal and Lila’s profiles after this! That way you have a way better feel for who they are. I hope you enjoyed reading loves.