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A Family Attitude Part 7

Part 7

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Warnings: panic attacks, language maybe, adult/child fight

Words: 1700

Jensen x daughter!reader

Danneel x platonic child reader

Ally x platonic child reader

Jared x niece!reader

Mention of Haley- night nanny

“Dude, What happened to your ar-“ Jared walked over to his friend and reached for Jensen’s wrist. YN dropped her head with tears about to spill over, feeling horrible every time she saw the scratch marks on his arm. Jensen gave a warning glare to Jared and shook his head discreetly. Jared stopped mid-movement and moved on. “You doing good today, YN?”

“I think so. Thanks for yesterday.  I didn’t know what to do. I love you, Uncle Jared.” She walked over to him and hugged him.

“Anything for my favorite Ackles,” he snickered.

“Hey! What about YOUR BROTHER?” Jensen faked a jealous attitude.  “I am your favorite.”

“Are not.”

“Are too!”

“Shut up!  I have school stuff to do, so scram!” YN spread her feet in defense of the space around her.

“Party pooper.” Jensen gritted his teeth, teasing.

“I will call Grandma on you. Now get.” YN crossed her arms, cocked her head to the side, and waited.

“Damn.  Okay, going out. On it.” Jared smiled.

“Got your phone? Text me if there is s problem, okay?”

“Promise, Dad.  Scouts’ honor.” She saluted her father with two fingers extending from her forehead toward her dad. “Hey,” she started, “Sorry about your arm. Will they be able to cover it up?”

“This,” he looked at her,” was not your fault. Don’t blame yourself, understand?”

“But your arm is so scratched-“

“Stop. We are done with this, okay?” He calmly embraced her.

“Okay. Have fun out there.”

_______

When Jensen returned to his trailer, he found his daughter asleep at the desk. He frowned at her tiredness.

“Baby,” he tapped her shoulder. “Wake up.” She stirred and looked up at him. “If you sleep now, you won’t sleep tonight. Wake up a little and then do school stuff.” She whined deep in her throat. “I know, but you have to.”

“Ugfff,” she huffed. “Fine. But I hate you. Just for the record.”

“Part of the job description of being a dad.” He grinned. She sat up in her chair.

“I’m never having kids. Parents suck,” she groaned but smiled.

“I suck? What?” He dramatically responded.

“You’re okay,” YN giggled. “Okay, homework it is.  Remind me next time to not visit you for a week during the school year.”

“Will do.  Call me if you need me.”

———-

Jensen entered his trailer to bring his daughter lunch.  He didn’t see her in the desk chair.

“YN-“ he froze, taking in her body on the carpet.

“YN!”

“Daddy,” she barely whispered, “help me.”

“Okay, you’re okay.” He noted her shaking body and new scratches on the side of her neck. “Give me your hands.” He took them in his larger hands and saw blood under her fingernails. “We’ll get this under control.” Jensen saw her start to converse but he shushed her. “Relax. We’ll talk in a minute.”  She pulled her hand back and they went back to her skin. “Stop, sweetheart. You’re hurting yourself.” He tried to help her calm, but it wasn’t working. “Hey!” He caught her attention. “Stop!” Cutting through her thoughts, she ceased her movements. Jensen took her hands back into his and squeezed down so that she wouldn’t scratch again. “Baby, come back.  You’re okay. I’m here.”

————

“Hey,” Jared walked into Jensen’s trailer. “Again?” He looked at Jensen, noting YN’s still, tired body curled into her father. He nodded.

“Yeah, I don’t know what to do. Jared, what do I do?” He looked down at his sleeping daughter.

————

“Hey, YN.  How are you?” Danneel walked into Jensen’s Austin home.  

“Okay, I guess,” YN sighed. “Thanks for coming over tonight.”

“Of course. I want you safe. Are you good with me staying with you? I know you’ve got someone here at night, but is this okay?”

“I don’t really talk to her. She is not Ally,” YN sighed.

“You know you need to be nice to Haley,” Ally walked into the room. “She’ll be here soon, so be kind.”

“I’m always nice. I just want someone else here so I can calm down if I get stressed out again.  I hate this so much.  Why? Why do I have these attacks?!”

“I’m not sure, YN.  Don’t forget that we love you though.” Ally stood in front of YN on the couch. “I’m off the clock, so I’ll see you tomorrow. Thanks for helping my favorite girl, Danneel.”

“Wouldn’t want to be anywhere else,” Danneel responded with a smile.

“That’s not true,” YN said under her breath.

“Up, now.” Ally heard what she said. YN stood up, knowing where this conversation was going. YN followed her into the hallway. “Be nice. She doesn’t have to do this for you. You know that, right? She loves your dad, therefore she sacrifices for him and you. Don’t insult her acts of kindness, okay?” YN nodded. “Good,” Ally kisses her on the cheek. “Love you. See you tomorrow.”

————

“So what did the doctor say about your scratching?”

“To put lotion on it. He gave me this soothing stuff.  At least it smells good, I guess.”

“They can’t do anything else?”

“Unless I see a therapist to relax which I’m not doing. No thanks.”

“But-“

“No.” YN growled. “Dad said it was fine if I talked to Jared. I have to or he’s going to make me go see a psychologist.”

“I’m so happy Jared can be there for you.” Danneel smiled.

“Me too,” YN returned.

————-

“You ready for bed?”

“Yeah, I am tired.  Good night, Danneel.”

“Hey,” Danneel called for YN. “Your dad said he put a monitor in your room?”

“Yeah, so that he can hear me if I have an attack.” YN’s cheeks became red.

“It’s fine, YN. “Where is the other other monitor?”

“I think it’s next to my dad’s bed.”

“Okay, I’ll follow you up and get it.”

————-

During the night, Danneel heard quick breathing. As she took in the surrounding of Jensen’s guest bedroom, she saw the baby monitor. Danneel pushed her blankets off of herself and ran into YN’s room.  

“Hey, hey,” Danneel saw that YN was still sleeping. She watched as YN’s hands went toward her neck. “Uhhh…” Danneel took a breath and looked around the room.

Mittens.

“I got you, I got you.” YN woke up after a violent shake. Danneel put the gloves over YN’s hands before she could resist. When YN went to scratch, she couldn’t.  “Good girl.  It’s okay. I put your mittens on, don’t stress. Breathe.”

“Hug… please.”

———

“Hey, sweetheart. I heard it was a rough one last night.”

“I’m okay. Just a bad dream. Dee was there.”

“I’m so glad. Don’t forget to call Jared tonight,” Jensen commanded via FaceTime.

“Dad, this is hard enough. I don’t want Uncle Jared judging me.”

“He’s not, YN. He’s helping you. Remember what I said. Either talk to him or we get a therapist.  It’s not a bad thing, YN. You’ve seen how good Jared is doing. I just want you to be confident and healthy.

“I know. Can we change the subject please?”

———-

“You missed you phone call.” Jensen sternly stated.

“I didn’t want to, okay?!” YN yelled into the phone.

“You know the deal. Now you will have to talk to someone who doesn’t know you. If you would just have talked to Jared, it would be a whole lot easier!” Jensen spat back at his daughter. Voices were raised when Danneel walked into the YN’s room.

“Hey! Will you two shut up!” Danneel stood in the doorway of YN’s room and crossed her arms. “The Ackles’ lung capacities are astonishing. YN, let me talk to him.”

“No, he needs to go now,” YN ended the FaceTime session.

“YN! That was totally uncalled for!”

“He doesn’t know! He doesn’t understand, okay?!”

“But Jared does! When have you known the big moose to judge others? He loves you like his own. He is so proud of you, YN. Jared raves about how much you mean to him when he brags about family. I’ve heard him.  He would never betray your trust. Call him.”

“... Now?”

“Yeah. Now.”

“He’s probably on the phone with Gen or busy or-“

“Talk. To. Him.” Danneel demanded.  

“I hate this!”

“You’ll hate it less if you talk to him. He’s been where you are right now.  Do you want to talk to someone you already trust or someone who you don’t know?”

“Fine!” YN yelled and called her uncle. Once he picked up, Danneel left YN alone in her room.

“Hey, YN-“

“I hate my dad!”

“Uhh…”

“Can we have our conversation now? I’m sorry I ignored your phone call.”

“Sure,” he answered, surprised by her sudden willingness. “You want to talk about last night?”

————-

“I’m sorry, sweetheart. I shouldn't have threatened you with a therapist like that. Please forgive me.”

“I know.”

“I won’t do that anymore. I’m glad you talked to Jared. Did it help?”

“Yeah,” YN smiled to the camera on her phone. “He listened and didn’t judge me.”

“He’s a good friend, YN. Thank you for talking with him.  How is it having Dee there at night?  Does she calm you down?”

“Yes.  Jared taught her some calming stuff.  And she put mittens on my hands.  She found them somewhere.  Helps with the scratching.”

“That’s really smart.  What would you think about wearing them at night?  Just in case?”  Jensen was not sure if she would agree.

“Yeah, I think so.  I don’t like the scratch marks everywhere.”  YN answered with a defeated sigh.

“I understand,” he gave a reassuring smile.  

______

“Danneel!”  YN yelled for her dad’s girlfriend from her room.

“Yeah?”  Danneel entered.  

“Do you know where the mittens are?  My dad said I should wear them at night now.”

“Oh, umm… I think I saw them on the counter by your sink?”  Danneel guessed.  

“Found them!”  YN responded from the bathroom.  She giggled at her lack of awareness.

“Good.  Goodnight, YN.  Sleep good.”

______

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A Family Attitude Part 9

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Warnings: emotional conversations, mention of dead mother, child/adult fights, language

Word Count 1600

Shoutout to @chonisberonica and @rosie-winchester for their lovely feedback lately! 

“Thanks for joining us, Mr. Ackles. We haven’t seen each other for a while. I’m so glad you were able to support Jared when I met you the first time. How are you today?”

“I’m good, thanks. Glad to be here with my girl.” He smiled and took YN’s hand as they sat next to each other in Dr. Wiley’s office in Vancouver.

“Thank you for staying in contact with me, YN. You have been one of my easier patients to get ahold of.”

“I didn’t want to, but he made me,” she nudged her dad, laughing.  “And you’ve helped me,” she thanked Dr. Wiley.

“Mr. Ackles, YN wanted to talk about something that is alarming her. The three of us will be fully involved in this conversation, are you okay with that?”

“Umm, yeah. Of course.” He squeezed his daughter’s hand.

“She expresses the burdens you’ve been feeling lately in regard to her anxiety. YN mentioned you have been acting out of character.”

“That’s why you wanted me to come, YN?” Jensen took his gaze away from the doctor.

“Umm… Yes?” YN lost confidence in her decision.

“I’m fine, sweetheart.  Thanks for being worried about me though.  If there isn’t anything else, I’ll step outside.”  Jensen dismissed YN’s want for him to be there.

“Mr. Ackles-”

“No, I’m perfectly okay.  Excuse me,” Jensen quickly walked out of the office into the waiting room.  YN’s demeanor completely changed. She stood up and chased after him.

“Really, Dad?!” YN demanded.  “You wanted me to come to therapy, but it’s too good for you now?”  She stomped after him.  They stopped in the empty waiting room.  The office manager looked up.

“Baby, I’m okay.  Thank you for bringing me though.”  

“You are not!  You were crying the other night!”  YN pointed at her dad.

“People cry all the time, YN,” he hushed.

“Yes, but that is unlike you.  I wanted you to feel better.  That’s all.  I can tell you’re sad. Please just this one session.  Then you don’t have to come back.  Please.” Her face softened, almost teary.

“Oh, sweetheart.  I’m so sorry.  I didn’t realize this meant so much to you.”  He took a large step and engulfed her into a hug.  “Let’s try this again.”

The Ackles’ walked back into the room.  Dr. Wiley sat calmly.

“Mr. Ackles, please tell us what’s going through your head.  It’s obvious that you are working through something. Let her in.  It’s very apparent that you need to let it out.”

“Should I do this in front of her? I want to support her, but she’s my kid, and I-“

“I understand your trepidation of vulnerability, but I think she needs to see you work through this. From what I’ve heard, you two dealt with the loss of your wife separately. Show her you’re her dad but also human. She’ll open up more if she feels as if she can relate to you better. Right, YN?” Dr. Wiley looked to YN.

“Yes. He doesn’t have to be a superhero.” 

“I just hate to see her suffer.”  Jensen took his cue.  “She’s already been through a lot. Being the dad, I want her to feel better. Make sure she is protected.”

“Dad, you can’t fix this. I’m better, I promise. Just tell me you love me. That’s good enough.”

“I’m so sorry, sweetheart. I thought you were doing okay after Mom died, but I guess I was wrong,” Jensen backtracked.

“Let me stop you right there, Mr. Ackles,” he put a hand up. “You thought you had provided enough support at the time, correct? She had help?” Before Jensen could answer, YN responded..

“I saw a counselor at school for a year. It helped a lot. When my dad started dating Danneel the panic attacks started all over.”

“You hid those from me back when Mom died?” Jensen narrowed his eyes at YN. “Why? Did anyone know?” Jensen tensed again.

“Don’t be mad, Dad.”

“Who knew?” He interrogated.

“Jared and Ally,” she gave in. “You’re not home a lot, and I didn’t want you to worry while you were gone. You didn’t need that.”

“Come on, you don’t trust me?” He growled.

“Mr. Ackles, please take a moment.”  Jensen became aggressive in his body language, defensive. All of a sudden, he was hit with something. Jensen looked at his chest and saw a suction cupped dart attached to his shirt.

“What the-“ Jensen protested.

“Now that I fully have your attention, Mr. Ackles, YN, would you like to tell him what this nerf gun is for?” Dr. Wiley waved it in the air. YN giggled at her dad’s astonishment.

“It’s to get you out of your own head. And to stay calm.  Therapy is calm. We can’t work through stuff if we are amped up.”

Jensen’s eyes were like saucers.

“Wait- huh?” Her dad didn’t see the correlation between a toy and psychology.

“Mr. Ackles, you became angry when you found out she shared information with others first.” Jensen agreed with a stern face. “Hear her out before you make judgements, please. And in the future, I get to use this on either one of you as much as I like if I need to. Understand?” He slyly grinned.

“Yes, sir.” YN smirked at the irony. Jensen nodded in agreement.

“YN and I have talked at length about why she decided not to tell you.  Would you like to tell him, YN?”

“Can you? Please? I don't think I can right now,” she stated, overwhelmed.  

“Sure. Mr. Ackles, she is much like you, I can see that. YN expresses that she saw a change in you, and she didn’t want you to worry about her.  According to her, it was affecting all areas of your life.”

“But, I-“ Jensen interjected.

“Please let me finish.” The doctor stopped him.  Jensen shut his mouth. “She is a very bright kid, do you agree?” The father nodded. “YN is very protective of you. She used her smarts to do what she thought was best. Children blame themselves for circumstances that they have no control over. Although she realizes that her mom’s death is not her fault, she wanted to make it better. In doing so, she worried that you would worry about her, to put it plainly. So she told others instead.  Make sense?”

“I don’t ever want you to feel this way. Please tell me the next time something comes up. We should deal with it together.”

“Your dad has a good point, YN. I want you two to work on communicating the smaller things more. If you share the small, things, big ones will be easier.”  Dr. Wiley changed subjects.  “YN, I know you have been around Danneel more often.  It doesn’t seem as though your attacks have increased.  Are you enjoying your time with her? And a question for you to think about, Mr. Ackles.  Do you think your worries and stress have anything to do with transferring your relationship from your wife to Danneel?”

YN answered while Jensen mulled over the question assigned to him.  YN explained that she really did like Danneel.  Sometimes it was difficult when she did things with Danneel that reminded of her mom, but she was able to work through it.  Dr. Wiley expressed how he was proud of YN for being open to a relationship with her dad’s girlfriend.  

Jensen took in YN’s response and answered his assigned question.  He told the doctor that he often had flashbacks of his wife.  Jensen felt that what he was doing with Danneel was betraying his deceased wife.  Being worried about YN’s reaction to the new scenario, he was constantly stressed.  YN interjected, saying that he worried too much.  She made him aware that she would let him know if there was a problem, referencing her sassy behavior over the previous year.  He chuckled.  Jensen took a breath, shoulders feeling lighter.  

“I will talk with you both next week, okay?” Dr. Wiley guided them to the door.

“Will do.” Jensen smiled and held the door open for his daughter to exit.

—————

“Do you hate me?”  YN snuggled into her dad on the couch in their Vancouver apartment.

“Huh?”  He looked down at his daughter with a quizzical look on his face.

“For bringing you to see Dr. Wiley today.”

“The only thing I’m mad about is the dart I was SHOT with!”  He gave a belly laugh.  She joined in.

“Do you feel better?”  She asked.  “I always do.”

“Yes, sweetheart.  Of course.  I’m glad you know how I feel.  And now I know that how I feel is normal for someone in my situation.  No more worrying so much.  He’ll shoot me with the nerf gun again if I do that,” he smirked.

“Right.  It’s going to be okay.  We just have to work at it.”

“Who are you, a mini-psychologist now?”  He grinned.  

______

“Ally!”  YN giggled at her nanny.  “Don’t tell that story!”

“What?  It’s a benefit of knowing you for so long!  Blackmail!”  She responded, roaring with laughter.

“That WAS pretty funny,” Danneel smiled.  “You sound like you were a rambunctious kid.”

“I was.” A grin representing memories crossed YN’s face. All of a sudden, YN showed fear.

“What… are you okay?”  Danneel saw her expression.  YN couldn’t breathe.  Ally ran to her side.  Before they could do anything, her lips became blue.

“YN!” Ally called for her as her eyes shut.

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