#ady watches the untamed

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you know what, i'm just going to finish the untamed. wild unprecedented breaking presidential news can wait for me to figure out what Nie Huaisang has been up to this whole time.

Ady finally watches The Untamed: Episode 50 FINAL

*sighs in just so tired* let's fucking goooooo

bro, just walk it off. you did it when you got stabbed for Daddy what's the big deal

i never hurt you! (just everyone you love over and over)

he just can't help himself can he

pouting Jin Ling is everything

he got himself caught on purpose? oh tiny JC

A-YUAN HUG

Wen Ning I love you so much

This wonderful little family that they built

are they really going to split up? you just got married! fucking censors!

or not?

they are so in love

so Huaisang tricked Mo what's his face into killing himself to bring back WWX? I still don't get why though. did he know JGY had the seal and he needed a way to deal with that? this is probably all in the novel

ah I see, they are doing the super open ended, 'and then they sorted out their own shit for a little bit but then met back up after an unspecified amount of time so that you can mentally insert any ending you want in here because we can't show them settling down and raising babies together' ending. "would have their wishes come true" indeed

So that's The Untamed! I had a lot of fun, and I now have 5 years of fandom to jump into!

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Welcome to This Ugly, Maddening World in All Its Beauty

Fandom(s): Star Wars: The Clone Wars, Star Wars (Prequel Trilogy), Star Wars Legends

Rating: Gen/K

Summery: Rumors followed the Battlemaster, with eyes too green and too knowing, with footsteps too silent, and a presence that drew people to fear him.

Faerie AU

AO3

Hello :)

This was inevitable if you know what happens on my main account

There were whispers that gathered when people talked about the Battlemaster.

They were not always good ones.

Full of superstition, and to some, it seemed right.

Cin Drallig had always been a figure within the temple for as long as many could remember. But humans had long lifespans, so that wasn’t the weird part.

There was just… too much about him that was strange.

Rava Hark, a Kel Dor Watchman, had brought the young Lavisarian to the Temple after their siblings tried to kill them.

They did not cry, the Watchman would murmur to his Kin, to the other Kel Dor within the Temple. And they all knew because they too had instances of similar things happen to their own Children. They knew and they watched the child silently.

The other Children were perceptive. Within the Crèche, the child was avoided.

A strange feeling, something that was like a warning, Master Tholme would later tell his student, Quinlan Vos, when questioned.

No Master wanted to train this child, rumors would say. A youngling who none wished to train because of their eyes.

Too green, too knowing.

The Grandmaster took them in.

And his other students were afraid.

Frightened Dooku of Serenno to the point of violence, frightened Ki-Adi Mundi to the point of physical pain, those eyes that were too green, too knowing.

There were rumors that followed the Battlemaster before they were the Battlemaster. Whose footsteps never made a noise. Whose eyes seemed to follow things that were not seen.

There was something off about them, as they reached their majority, how the soft and gentle features hardened.

But despite that, the Temple Guard opened their arms.

But there was something off about them too. There were those who had eyes that were too knowing, who moved with silent feet, who could come from the shadows without a hint of being there before.

But none like him.

And Cin Drallig’s eyes were always knowing, the Force around him wrapped in a way that felt wrong, felt dangerous, and if one stared at him for too long the feeling of an Uncanny Valley would well up in their chest.

Wrongness.

Those too-green eyes that knew too much, saw too much. The feeling of power being restrained whenever sabers crossed in a spar— even the strongest of Councilors were uneasy after a spar.

Those silent footsteps, the ones that the Guard emulated, but even they made noise. Even they could not easily appear from out of nowhere, they could still be seen if one looked. But Cin Drallig was able to vanish.

Yes, there was something wrong about the one with the name Cin Drallig.

And the shadow that was too deep, stretched too long. The sweet scent of the forest that followed him, even though he rarely left the Temple, even though Lavisar had no forests that were lush.

The children called him “The Troll” when he reemerged as the Battlemaster.

There were those who were afraid of him, those who were wary, and those who were not.

And then his student came.

Rumors followed Serra Keto, the wild and untamable child who fell silent and in line when Cin Drallig gazed at her.

The child with too-blue eyes.

The child who was too skilled, too powerful. The child who picked up on things too fast, who emulated her Master too easily.

Rumors followed them, Master and student.

One with too-green eyes, with the scent of flowers and forest, with footsteps that were silent and a shadow that was too dark and long. One with too-blue eyes who was wild as a beast, but kept herself restrained.

The sense of wrongness followed them, Master and Student.

Cin Drallig never changed after that.

For no matter how many years passed, the Battlemaster never seemed to age. At first glance, he would seem to be middle-aged, or older, but there was a sense of wrong.

But that feeling… was just a feeling, right?

And the whispers were just rumors, right?

For Cin Drallig could not be anything sinister. The Master who ensured their Children’s survival as the war raged onwards, who gave them the skills to fight.

Who took in the young child Bene McCallum (with eyes as brown as the ground under their feet, and holding just as many secrets), who trained her as well.

Who would laugh in an embarrassed manner when caught sneaking padawans out of the Temple to see the few stars that could still be seen on Coruscant…

After all, Cin Drallig was a Jedi, just like them… but a word of warning would go through the initiates as they walked together to the Training Hall—

Don’t offend the Battlemaster. Don’t question why his shadow is too deep, too long, or why it seems like sometimes there are thorns curling within it. Don’t ask. Don’t offend. And don’t break any promises made to him.

So technically it seems like Nick Gillard (cin's actor) has blue eyes, but also like. 90% of the human cast who aren't POC have blue eyes and tbh I saw Cin's eyes as Green when I first saw it. So Green-eyed Cin, at least for this!

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My Favorite Moments from Mahakali: Anth Hi Aarambh Hai

Okay, this has been something I have been wanting to do for a while. I am current working a “Meet the Artist” thing so people can know a little more about me. While I was working on it today, I was watching one of my favorite tv shows entitled Mahakali: Anth Hi Aarambh Hai which means Mahakali: The End Marks the Beginning and is a Hindi mythological television show that airs on Colors TV every Sunday at 7pm IST. 

The show’s plot follows the Hindu Goddess Parvati and her alter ego, Mahakali and is loosely based on the events of the Hindu Scripture, the Devi Mahatmyam, with the writers creatively fleshing out emotions, drama and interconnected storylines to establish a continuity set within the Hindu universe. Mahakali’s plot also adapts stories from other famous Shakta and Shaiva texts that have to do with the evolution of the sweet and submissive Parvati into the wild and untamed Mahakali.

The show also feature familiar figures such as Parvati’s husband and Lord of Destruction, Shiva; Karttikeya, the War Lord; Ganesha, the Lord of Obstacles and Success; Vishnu, Lord of Preservation; Lakshmi, Goddess of Wealth and many other figures also I enjoy. I am not a follower of hinduism, but their are elements of the religion I have tried incorporated into my own life to help make me a better person. I also have a love for legends and folklore so that’s another reason why I love this show. 

So with that and saving me making one million posts about it, I want to share with you all my favorite moments from Mahakali. Before we go anything further, I want to give a very important note that these are not ranked in any particular order and do contain spoilers for most of the show. So if you have not seen the show, I would not recommend reading any further unless you have no problems with spoilers. I will also be using Parvati and Mahakali interchangeably since these two deities are considered to be one and the same. The same rule with apply to Shiva and his other names and forms for the same reason.

1. Parvati transforming in Mahakali

These are moments I really enjoy because that’s when you know something is about to get serious. There are so many ways that can make Parvati transform. It usually has something to do with some demon threatening the balance of the world or her family, friends, and/or devotees and this will anger her to the point of become Mahakali.

2. The precious moments between Parvati and Shiva

These are my favorites moments because you can tell these two deities truly love each other and will do anything to stay together. You want to cry along with them when they get separated and rejoice along with them when they are reunited at last. As Shiva says, “I am nothing but a corpse without you, Parvati.” and in a later moment, Parvati says “If you are nothing but a corpse without me, then I am nothing but smoke without you, Mahadev.” There is a custom in Indian that states that there is no kissing in public and when you look at this couple, you can feel their love for each other even if there is no kisses between them.

3. Shiva stoping Mahakali’s rampage

This is a moment that shows the most iconic and well known depiction of Mahakali through out religious artwork. When she sticks her tongue out, she is in shame for stepping on her beloved husband. This was organized by Shiva to make his wife stop her rage before she would have accidentally destroyed the universe.

4. Episodes that feature Sati

Sati is a very important figure in Hindu legends because it is her marriage to Shiva that lays the foundation for Parvati’s marriage to him after her death as she is Mahakali in a mortal form and Parvati is her reincarnation. She also show that no matter what happens, she will always love her precious Mahadev and will alway fight for his love.

5. Sati’s self immolation

This is one moment that makes me cry every time I watch it. After her marriage to Shiva, Sati finds out that her father, Daksha, is conducting a grand sacrifice and invites everyone in the world except Sati and Shiva. Sati goes to her father’s palace to confront him, but is met with humiliation and rage when her father insults her husbands honor and status of one of the three major deities in Hinduism. Sati in her rage, reveals her powers a Adi Parashakti and sets her self on fire and hopes that she would be reborn to marry Shiva again. Even thought this breaks her heart as she wanted to be with him forever and later have his children, but then was leaving him so soon and all alone.

6. Mahakali fighting demons

These are parts I look forward to seeing because these displays the powers that Mahakali has and how she uses them to put demons in their place when they threaten the world. In most cases, they don’t stand a chance against her.

7. The Tale of Parvati’s Penance for Shiva (The Tale of Brahmacharini)

This is one of my favorite legends involving Parvati and Shiva. I also consider it to be my favorite love story. The story of how after Sati’s death, Mahakali is reborn as Parvati and makes her way to Shiva and how she describes that her life is a journey and how home is a place where that journey ends, and when is before her lord (who has been in deep meditation since Sati’s death) she feel that she is truly home. She then engages in penance for him and when events happen that causes Shiva to open eyes, he sees Parvati before him and recognizes her as his beloved Sati reborn.

8. Shiva and Parvati’s Lasya Tandav and meditation to create a child (The Birth of Karttikeya)

This was a beautiful moment as I got see a  beautiful and iconic Indian dance and the power of these deities coming together to create their child.

9. Parvati transforms into Tripura Sundari

When a demon kidnaps Parvati and Shiva’s child and plans to destroy it, Oh you have awoken the darkside of a mother. Parvati transform into Tripura Sundari (She Who Embodies the Beauty of the Three Worlds) and uses her bow and arrow to destroy the demon and save her child.

10. Karttikeya’s entrance into the world and Parvati’s sacrifice

When Karttikeya is finally born, Parvati is overjoyed that she can finally be a mother. However, she is shocked and angry to learn that her child was discovered by the Krittika who want him as their child. Although she wants to be a mother, it would be wrong of her to take that chance away from someone else. So she leaves her child with the Krittika, knowing that he will be safe from harm, even though it breaks her heart.

11. Parvati reunites with her son

This one of the many heartwarming moments in show, where Karttikeya finds out that Parvati is his real mother and after some time, accepts her and Shiva as his real parents. Later on with their help, Karttikeya would full fill his destiny of defeating a demon who could only be killed by the son of Shiva and Parvati.

12. The Navadurgas (The Nine Forms of Durga) These are Goddesses that are from very important events from Parvati life as Adi Parashakti or the Goddess of Power. They go in order from right to left, starting with Shailaputri (Daughter of the Mountains), Brahmacharini (The Goddess Who Performed Penance for Shiva), Chandraghanta (The Goddess Who Married Shiva), Kushmanda (The Goddess of the Cosmic Egg), Skandamata (The Mother of Skanda or Karttikeya), Katyayani (The Goddess Who Defeated Mahishasura), Kaalarati (The Goddess Who Defeated Shumbha and Nishumbha), Mahagauri (The Goddess Who’s Extremely Radiant), and Siddhidatri (The Goddess of Siddhis or Perfections).

13. Parvati reborn as Matsya Parvati When Karttikeya accidentally kills Lord Indra in a fit of rage, Shiva curses him but Parvati decides to take the punishment following which she takes birth as Matsya Parvati and is adopted by a fisherman. Shiva soon finds out where Parvati was reborn, disguises himself and asks for her hand in marriage. Later on, he recounts the tale of the Navadurgas which helps Parvati regain her memories and she is reunited with her beloved husband.

14. Parvati transforms into Durga

These moments are always specials as just like when Parvati transforms into Mahakali, the appearance of Durga is where one of the most powerful aspect of the Mother Goddess must be used to save the world. When the demon Mahishasura was given a boon by Brahma that he would be killed only a woman that will have the powers of the Tridevs : Shiva, Vishnu and Brahma, Parvati is blessed with the trident of Shiva, the discus of Vishnu, and the Brahmastra of Brahma which transforms her into the lion riding Goddess Durga or Mahishasura Mardini to kill Mahishasura. Another moment is when the demon Durgamaura hold Shiva captive, Parvati comes to her husband rescue in the form of Durga and slays the demon. This shows that no matter what, Parvati will never be keep away from her husband who she fought to have.

15. Parvati’s confrontation with Shumbha along with her friends and forms

Parvati takes the form of Devi Kaalratri to lure and fight with Shumbha and defeat him. When he believes he will win because women are weak, Parvati shows him the error of his ways by summoning her forms of the Navadurgas and her friends Lakshmi in the form of Vaishnavi and Saraswati in the form of Brahmani. They assert their power by fusing together and forming Mahakali for the final battle with Shumbha.

16. Mahakali’s victory over demons

These are very powerful moments for me because it once again displays Mahakali’s power and also show what happens when you disrespect people, most importantly women and their place in the world. It also makes me feel that there is a Parvati within us and there is also a Mahakali within us. We can be loving and empathetic as Parvati, but must also embrace the Mahakali side of us and when we want do the right thing under the proper circumstances, we must let is show. I want to be there for the people who I love and care for so I will let the Parvati and  Mahakali within me show.

17. Shiva and Parvati fuse to create Ardhnarishwara When Sage Bhringi reaches the Himalayas with his desire of obtaining a glimpse and doing the parikrama of Shiva, he does include not Parvati since he thinks that women are inferior to man and are not worthy of worship. Shiva disagrees as he believes men are not complete without women, so Shiva merges with Parvati into Ardhnarishwara to show the sage how much Parvati and women are important to him and men.

18. Parvati transforms into Kamakhya (The Goddess of Menstruation)  Parvati assumes the form of Goddess Kamakhya to annihilate the demon Narakasura when he holds Goddess Lakshmi and 16,000 other women in captive. I found all the episodes that feature this form of Parvati to be amazing, even though the demon in question is from legends of Vishnu’s avatar, Krishna. Then again the show is loosely based on the legends of Parvati and her many forms so we’ll let it slide.

19. The birth and moments of Ganesha

The episodes staring from Ganesha’s birth, death by Shiva, and rebirth by him was some of the best moments because we are happy for Parvati when she becomes a mother again and we also feel her devastation, disbelief, and later rage when Ganesha taken away from her. We then feel her joy when her child is returned and Shiva along with the other deities show their appreciation by giving him a honorable status among them. Ganesha is also a really cute character because we can tell he really loves his mother, father, and brother and he will do anything to defend them with his intelligence and big heart.

20. Parvati transforms into Bagalatmuhki When Ganesha and Karttikeya are threatened by a demon named Naadasura, a mother comes to the rescue. Parvati turns into Bagalamukhi to make Naadasura motionless with her radiance and kills Naadasura by severing his tongue to save Karttikeya and Ganesh. Just goes to show you how loving and protective she is when it comes to her children.

21. Parvati transform into Tara Parvati turns into Tara to save her beloved Shiva from a dangerous poison known as the "Kalakuta Halahala" and constricts the poison to his throat. This also another moment that show case how much Parvati loves and will over come any obstacle to protect her husband, even from a very deadly poison.

22. Parvati transforms into Annapurna Parvati transforms into Goddess Annapurna in order to provide food to the deities who had visited Kailash on a celebratory occasion. This is the forms of Parvati that displays the love and kindness she has for her family and friends and that is something I look up to.

23. Parvati transforms into Matangi Parvati leaves Kailash after her Chandala devotees were insulted. Ganesha, Karttikeya, Lakshmi, Saraswati and the demigods offer their sins as an offering to the yajna to bring back Parvati. Goddess Matangi appears from the yajna with green skin and a red dress holding a parrot, veena and a sickle in her four arms. When they come to her directly, she refuses until they have learned their lesson. That was a little bit of a sad moment because we saw little Ganesha cry. That was a very heartbreaking scene.

24. Parvati transforms into Chinnamasta Parvati continues her journey and Shiva tells her that whatever happens to not transform into Mahakali and if she comes across a situation create a new way. Malla controls two women named Jaya and Vijaya who are both devotees of Parvati and manipulates their minds into quenching their thirst for blood and they come across Parvati and ask her for an offering of blood. Shocked, Parvati tells them to ask her for something else but they refuse. They try to hunt a deer but since she is Prakriti or nature, Parvati stops them. Meanwhile, the Chandalas come to aid Parvati in this situation. Jaya and Vijaya can't control themselves and start to the other Chandalas. Angered Parvati declares the Chandalas will be neither be harmed nor shall anyone be left hungry/thirsty. Parvati transforms herself into Chinnamasta and makes a great sacrifice by self-decapitating herself, with her own decapitated head in one hand with jet blood streams flowing from her neck one going into Jaya's mouth, the other in Vijaya's mouth and the third one going in the mouth of her own cut head.

25. Mahakal saves Mahakali

This episode was amazing to watch because this was the time where Parvati was captured the demons Mani and Malla, and Shiva, enraged by his wife being in danger, transforms into Mahakal and comes to her rescue. This turns into one of those precious Shiva and Parvati moments, but then the moment turns sour as the demon try to use a boon from Parvati to make her protect them. Since she can’t bear the thought of fighting against her husband, she decides to be born again in human race as Mhalsa. Which breaks Shiva’s heart again as his goal was right there and it was taken away from him again. Yeah I was crying with him too on that one.

26. Shiva transforms into Natraja, the Lord of Dance

This a cool episode because here we get see one of Shiva’s most iconic form. The context of the episode was Malla and Mani commissioned a demon named Apasmara who represented ignorance to make Mhalsa forget her locked memories of her as Parvati to never become Mahakali again. In order to subdue Apasmara and save his wife’s memories, Shiva transforms into Naṭraja and performed the cosmic dance of Taṇḍava. During this dance, Shiva suppresses Apasmara by crushing him with his right foot.

27. Parvati transforms into Dhumavati

When Parvati regains her memories and powers, she takes her Mahakali form to kill Mani. However due to the boon, she had to protect Malla again from Shiva. This time however, Shiva decides to stay back and asks Parvati to engulf him. She engulfs him and due to the grief of engulfing his husband, Parvati transforms into Widow Goddess Dhumavati. This where I cried for Parvati with her grief due to the loss of her husband and world crumbling down when her renounces her role as nature without her love just like Shiva when she was Sati and died. This moment thankfully does not last for long as with some help from Shiva from inside her, Parvati recovers Shiva and Shiva restore her to proper from.

28. Parvati and Shiva finally kill Malla

Parvati and Shiva return to Earth in their Mhalsa and Martand forms and, with the help of Mhalsa’s mother, villagers, Lakshmi, and Karttikeya, they engaged in battle with Malla and it ended with the divine couple conquering the demon who separated them and causing them great pain.

29. The episodes with Jalandhara

These episodes were defiantly the most important moments that displayed Parvati’s love and dedication to her husband as this demon can from Shiva’s third eye itself. What makes this worse is the demon look almost exactly like Shiva. What also makes this worse is that Jalandhara is married to a devotee of Parvati’s named Vrinda. This escalates to Jalandhara at one point capturing Parvati and making fun her husband, but she does save herself with her love of her husband. Jalandhara disguises himself Shiva to get close to Parvati. However, Parvati sees through the disguise immediately and exposes him. This all culminates with the death Vrinda with the actions of her husband and Vishnu for disguises himself as Jalandhara, along with a battle between Parvati and Jalandhara which ends with him being returned to Shiva’s third eye. Also, Vrinda cursing Vishnu that he would be separated from Lakshmi (something that would lay the foundation for a moment in famous the epic, The Ramayana).

30. Parvati transform into Bhramari

When a Demon named Arunasura captures the 5 main elements to resurrect his dead daughter and gets a boon from Shiva that no one, two, three, four legged but only six legged creature would be able to kill him, then Mahakali takes the form of Bhramari, the goddess of bees to kill Arunasura as bees have six legs. I also think this form is very cool because I love insects.

31. Parvati transforms into Shitala

To protect the children of the world and her precious Ganesha from Jwarasura with his ability to infect people with illnesses, Parvati takes the form of Shitala, the goddess of poxes, sores, ghouls, pustules and diseases, to cure all children and defeat Jwarasura and making him her mount as a donkey.

32. All the weddings between Shiva and Parvati

And here we are, these are my absolute favorite moments from Mahakali. These moments are always precious to me because I really love these two deities and their love for one another. So when there is an opportunity for a wedding of them and their various forms, I say yes to it and these make for some truly beautiful moments on the show.

So there you have it everyone, those are my favorite moments from Mahakali: Anth Hi Aarambh Hai. If any of you watch this show, let me know in my asks what your favorite moments are  because I would love to hear them. Also if anyone is interested in watching this show, I would recommend having the ability to watch international tv. This is because some services that have the show are only available in India and there is a YouTube channel that has the show but is only available under certain circumstances. Anyways I hope you all enjoy little fact about me and I can’t wait to finish my “Meet the Artist” thing so you can know a little more about me.

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The Start- Out of Reach- Vampire Creation Story Part 1

(Warning: Slight Gore and mentions of blood)

Out of reach.

Those were the words that taunted Anya every day of her life since the age of 12. Every forsaken day filled with nothing but agony and gut tearing pain. And the knowledge that the nourishment she so craved would forever be out of her reach.                                                                                                                         

 It’s been 13 long years since the last time Anya could eat or drink, yet the sweet taste has never left her mouth. It’s always tantalizingly near, yet inscrutably far.

Every morning, she’d wake up to her mother or sister cooking, only to have to go straight to chores. She would walk past the kitchen and gaze into it longingly as she passed, the sizzling of eggs and the delicious smell of sausages taunting her. She always kept walking. It would be no good to stop. No point in ruining everyone else’s breakfast with the slimmest of possibilities that she could eat again.

She would go work on the farm and take care of the animals, always brushing and bathing, never feeding. On the way to the sheep enclosure where she’d trim their wool, she’d walk past Lyra picking apples. Her younger sister always smiled and waved before going back to her day dreaming, and Anya would stop for a moment and stare at the beautiful red apples her sister was picking and putting in a basket. There orchard was large, and Lyra’s job was to pick all the fruit off of all the trees by herself. Anya felt terrible that it was solely Lyra’s job, but the animals didn’t like her and Ruben and father were too busy doing everything with the animals that Anya could not. Mother was to sickly to leave the house, and the youngest children couldn’t even leave mother’s side yet. Anya wished she could help Lyra, dreamed of it even. Their childhood had been filled with picking the fruit off these trees together, where Anya would pick the fruit on the top of the tree whilst Lyra picked them from the bottom. The usually boring hours where filled with them talking and laughing. It had been a much happier time, where Anya’s cheeks were round and pink with life, but know they were slim and pale. Shaking those memories away, Anya turned and continued to the sheep pen. There was no point in wishing to help Lyra when the reality was that she couldn’t. Anya couldn’t even hold the basket the fruit goes in without her curse turning all the apples into dust anyway.

At dinner, the rest of her family would sit at the table and talk while they eat, but Anya just went to her and Lyra’s room upstairs. She used to sit on the stairs, where her curse couldn’t touch the food, and try and be involved. But she had given that up long ago, watching them eat had been more torture then she was willing to bare. So she always laid down with a book, or started sewing clothes to sell. But this time she paused at Lyra’s vanity. Anya hated looking at mirrors, the lack of food and nutrition and turned her once light brownish red hair to a whiteish gray, her skin, once as full of life and color as Lyra’s and Ruben’s, was now as pale as the moon. Only her eyes were the same emerald green. And that brought her some comfort.

She had given up on many things, and sleep was one of them. During the night, there was nothing to distract her from the pain twisting in her stomach, and sleep was neigh impossible. Though no one knew that. Not even Lyra, though that was because Anya always pretended to sleep when Lyra snuck in and out of the house. After Lyra left, Anya would always leave herself. The house was to quiet, but the forest was always alive.

And it was in the forest when Anya discovered one, horrifying, loophole to her curse.

 Wolves always roamed the forest at night, vicious and untamable, Anya always avoided them. But that night she wasn’t able to. Her stomach was twisting and pulsing with pain, double the pain as usual and it left Anya crying out on the forest floor. Clenching tufts of dead grass out of the ground in hopes that it would relieve her pain. The wolves heard her screams and gathered, circling her. Anya bitterly prayed for them to attack. To kill her. Death, would be a sweet mercy to the foul life she was living. But as she lay waiting, she smelled something. Something she hadn’t in a long time, something…. Desirable.

It overwhelmed her senses, and her stomach and mind cried out to find that scent, to feed them. To relieve this pain that hadn’t left for 13 years. Anya fought through the pain keeping her on all fours and sat up, gazing around at the wolves, tears obscuring her vision. Desperately trying to find the source of that delectable scent. And then she found it. Her pupils contracted as she her vision focused solely on the freshly killed deer laying just outside the circle. Blood dripping into a pool on the ground.

Anya’s vision got even more blurry, and all she saw and felt was red. And the pain that tore at her insides.

And then, her vision cleared. She was kneeling in front of the deer with her hands cupped and filled with its blood. Anya realized with delight that the blood is what was smelling so delicious, and drank it. The deer carcass in front of her turned to dust, but the blood didn’t. The blood felt like a breath of fresh air after hours of near suffocation as it passed over her lips and down her throat. Anya’s body shuddered as it landed in her stomach, and it took all she had not to vomit it back up. Her body hadn’t had anything in it for so long that it didn’t know what to do. After minutes, it settled down, and Anya felt… different. Something was wrong. Something was missing… something… was gone. Standing up slowly on shaky legs, Anya looked around at the surroundings.

The pack of wolves lay dead around her. Deep slashes riddled their necks, and fear welled up in Anya. Something killed those wolves while she was so entranced by the deer, and the possibility that it was still around was strong. She stumbled back, her hand flew out to catch herself on the nearby tree and as she steadied herself, a shock went through her as she got a good look at her hand.

It was covered in blood. Not just the palm, but the back of the hands as well. Her breath got caught in her throat, and when it got unstuck it came out in quick, heavy breaths. She tried reassuring herself that it was just the deer blood, if she had been the ones to kill the wolves their fur would be left on her hand as well, not just the blood. Forcing herself to look at her hand closer, Anya felt her stomach drop.

Clumps of fur were gathered under her long fingernails, as was congealed blood. Not only was her hands covered in blood, but so where her arms. And not just wolf blood. A long gash was on one arm, and her own blood was mixing with the wolves. Anya didn’t know what to think, her mind was a flurry of thoughts and panic. She couldn’t have done this… could she? She never so much as killed a chicken, the chances of her being able to kill one wolf- let alone an entire pack- was incredibly slim. Yet… if she didn’t kill the wolves, then what did? She racked her brain, trying to remember what happened before she was in front of the deer. But she couldn’t. All she remembered was the red and the pain… the pain from hunger.

HUNGER

That’s what was missing! The pain of hunger, the one that had tormented Anya most of her life, the one that kept her up at night with how horrible the pain- was gone.

The blood… had stopped her hunger.

All thoughts of whether she killed the wolves or not were thrust out of her brain. She must see if it was the blood that stopped her anguish, if it stopped her thirst. Her eyes landed on the nearest wolf body. Blood was still seeping from its wounds.

Minutes later and Anya sat up from the carcass and wiped her face. After another minute of waiting while the wolf turned to dust, a smile broke out across her face. There was still no pain.

She had found it. A way to satisfy her hunger. She looked up at the sky, the moon wasn’t overhead anymore. Anya sprung to her feet, she had to get back before Lyra! But… She couldn’t go home dressed in a blood covered dress. Or rather, a blood covered body.

After climbing a tree and orienting her position to her house, she ran to the nearby river and washed all the blood off her face and arms. And the wolf flesh and fur, it took a lot from her to not vomit back up all the blood she drank as she pried the dried flesh out from underneath her nails.

Scurrying home after she made sure she was all washed up, she stealthily climbed up the tree and into her room. Quickly she unlaced her dress and placed it beneath her bed and bed board, she’ll burn it tomorrow night. After putting on another dress, Anya was starting to crawl into bed when the thought to make sure she washed all the blood off her face entered her mind. Slowing her pace as to not make too much noise, Anya looked into Lyra’s vanity mirror. And let out a loud yell.

Her eyes, were a glowing, crimson red.

Panic filled her, and the sound of her parents door opening downstairs and Ruben’s door scared her more, and she quickly scurried into bed were she flung the herself into the covers and rolled away from the door. Seconds later it burst open with Father and Ruben peering in to see what was wrong. Lyra and mother peeking in-between them.

“Anya, why did you scream?”

Father’s voice was harsh, and Anya’s mind raced to find an answer.

“I-I think I’m ill. I saw something in the mirror and it startled me, but I’m sure know it was just my mind playing tricks on me.”

Anya heard her mother try to enter the room, but heard her father hold her back. “if she’s ill Ady, we can’t risk you catching it as well.” Her mother’s faint protests grew fainter as father hurried her back to their room. Their door being shut was quickly heard. Silence filled Anya and Lyra’s room, until Ruben, quietly whispered he hoped Anya felt better before closing the door behind Lyra.

Lyra crept over to Anya’s bed and sat down on it, peering over at Anya.

“Are you all right?”

Lyra whispered. Anya nodded her head, face never leaving the covers of the blanket.

“Ok good….”

Lyra got up from Anya’s bed and crawled into her own. Anya decided to chance it and rolled over and peeked over at Lyra.

“Did you manage to sneak back in before father could catch you?”

Lyra froze, but slowly nodded her head. Anya let out a sigh of relief, and rolled back over, and slept for the first time in months.

The next morning at breakfast, Anya felt overjoyed when she was able to walk past the kitchen and not be bombarded with pain as the smell of the food washed over her. She walked with a spring in her step that day, and later that night, after Lyra snuck out, Anya snuck out herself and went hunting.

A couple of days later at dinner time, Anya and Lyra walked in together, with Ruben behind them and father already inside. Lyra and Ruben stepped in front of her and sat down at the table, and instinctually she moved to start walking up the stairs. But then she paused, and sat down on the stairs and listened to them talk. Across from where she was sitting was the closed window above the sink, and she could clearly see her reflection in it. And after a couple minutes of smelling all the delicious food but getting no pain or having a desire to eat it, Anya looked at her reflection and smiled. Not noticing her know much more pronounced canine teeth. After that, she walked with her head high past any food that was offered to her, the smell no longer enticing her.

Cause food and drink will forever be out of her reach… but blood will always be on hand.

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Ady finally watches The Untamed: Episode 7

still in the cave of exposition

nothing gay happening here, just two wet besties on top of each other tied together by his super special marriage headband

Jiang Cheng ship anti

oop that smile at the bunny, this boy has it baaaaaad already

was that the zerg symbol?

he's in love love. that look said 'im going to break all my rules for this boy'

he said wei ying, that's a thing right? that he used the given name?

did he deck prissy face? hell yeah

love how the dads are just like "kids, what can ya do!"

lil paper guy!

"you want to take your crush on your special quest?" Xichen trying to hard to float this ship

he raised secret bunnies for his bf? cu~~~~te

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Ady finally watches The Untamed: Episode 6

poppin' a cold one with the boys!

lightweight mf even i'm not that bad!

ooo the headband has lore

"no woman would marry you" I mean you're not wrong, but i am going to need you to go put on the clown wig

oh no sad donkey lore

flop (boy you had 1 shot how are you like this)

this is not an ethical punishment method

does the sister just hang out at the soup store? please give her a personality other than soup

did the uncle have a crush on his mom? is that why he's so grumpy?

look at his little gay-ass run down to his shirtless boy

older brother told him where wangji would be hanging out shirtless? oh he shipping!

getting swept into a freezing cave with your sopping wet in all white classmate that you totally don't have a crush on? gay coming for lwj

magic bunnies!

he touched the headband I think that means they are married

I know straight people are blind to coding a lot of the time but can literally anyone watch this and not see how gay this setup is lol

quiet while i commune with this windows screensaver

Black Tortoise of Slaughter? metal as fuck

I know cdramas are dubbed over sometimes and whatever but the matching on this lady is very not good

well i bet no parallel of this story will play out in the characters it's being told to!

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Ady finally watches The Untamed: Episode 49

JGY: yeah i did all those things, but like, remember how good I was boo?

LZ: bro, you let me be whipped and locked in a cave for 3 years for trying to be there for my bf hen he was accused of shit he didn't even do. i will not stand here and watch you let this bitch off

"should I let the whole world step on me and beg them for forgiveness?" I mean, yeah

did they really make those gorgeous red robes for a 15 second flashback?

jgy: I had to marry [my half-sister], I had no other choice! xichen: I WAS RIGHT THERE!

why is he getting the sad music for this fuckass story about how he had to fuck his sister because 'uwu i was sad'

GET SMACKED!!!!!!! FINALLY XICHEN!!!

su shit is the second flute player?

LMAO GET KICKED DOWN THE STAIRS AGAIN!

can someone cut his head off already

oh you bastard (literal)

did Daddy possess Wen Ning?

HIS WHOLE ARM? (thank you Lan Zhan)

Xichen, give the fucking flute to WWX, he has the knockoff tiger seal and can probably deal with this if he has something more powerful than whistling

JC, BRO, MOVE JIN LING

THIS IS THE BEST PLAN Y'ALL HAVE????? GET JIN LING OUT OF THERE MORONS!

DID YOU HAVE HIS GODDAMN FLUTE THE WHOLE TIME JIANG CHENG??? ARE YOU STUPID????? I MEAN I KNOW YOU ARE BUT JESUS CHRIST!!! THIS COULD HAVE BEEN OVER HOURS AGO!

oh thank god that sequence is finally over. normally i would be annoyed by that weird cut to the aftermath but also the last 3 eps could have been 1 ep so I'll take what I can get

Sizhui: dad, could it be possible that your husband my other dad?

YAAAAAAASSSSSSS finally

Huaisang out-sneaking the sneak

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Ady finally watches The Untamed: Episode 48

Last 3! We finish this ride today! Previously, everybody got themselves captured, JC showed up to rescue and did nothing helpful! Su Shit got beat up by a Good Boy offscreen, Wen Ning is... somewhere

JC: what, you risked your life to save me and told the only 2 people who knew to never tell anyone? god you're such an attention whore. I bet you only did it because you think you're better than me!

everyone in this show needs therapy buy JC needs the most therapy

did JGY just leave them unattended? bro y'all could just leave. even if your qi is locked, he didn't take away your swords and there's 5 of you (+pretending to be passed out Huaisang) and 1 of him

oh hey, Huaisang. good of you to let the two bros talk it out before pretending to wake up

wait, JGY, did you have someone go get the body, re-attach the head, bury it in a place you own, then make a show to unbury it, and get cursed for doing so? what is the point of this?

oh thank goodness it's WWX explains time bc idk what is going on

so what was he originally looking for?

NOW YOU TIE THEM UP?

did you really forget that you are in a room with the person that invented controlling resentful spirits with sound?

hey look who finally got their agency back!

WY: omg stop talking you little bitch

JGY: now that i have confessed to all 2 decades of my horrific crimes killing thousands including the families of everyone in this room ... can you pwease let me go uwu

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Ady finally watches The Untamed: Episode 47

previously on The Untamed: Wen Ning finally got to call out Jiang Cheng for his bullshit, Wen Ning finally got to have an actual conversation with his bff's husband after 20 years, Wen Ning third wheeled but it was kinda just really sweet

Wei Ying friend matchmaking for Wen Ning because he knows they eventually need to have separate lives ;_; It's okay Wen Ning, he just wants you to be happy!

we should leave before we are noticed, but first let's talk to someone that works here in our extremely recognizable outfits

Xichen? jgy's ass can't be that good

Good Boy: master the plot is trapped down a well in this temple!

oh, he nerfed Xichen, that makes more sense

JGY: jin ling, the adults are fighting, go sit in the corner

do we finally get to find out what Huaisang has been up to this whole time?

strategic fake passing out is going to end up being the OP move of this whole series

Don't. Touch. The. Husband

JC: I heard some dumb bitches needed to owe me a favor

you have a sword, why are you scared of a dog?????

JGY used "that's the thing I'm sensitive about!" It's super effective!

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Ady finally watches The Untamed: Episode 46

thank you wwx, something about this feels off

this feels significant but I don't know enough about ancestor practices to know how

JC is still blaming WWX for the Lotus Pier massacre? the fuck bro

oh boy coded homophobia from JC now

LZ: hands off the husband he needs to faint dramatically

Wen Ning, don't let yourself be punished like this

oh shit, can JC draw the sword because he has WWX's core?

fuck yes Wen Ning, finally getting to defend WWX in the way he's always wanted to

let me gently cradle my man while the two of us have probably our first conversation ever despite devoting ourselves to the same person like 20 years ago

they just left A-Yuan behind?

hey babe look I broke a rule for you

is this the thing the boat jokes are about? that wen ning is there during cute lotus cuddle snack time? I was expecting something funnier ngl

weren't you a feudal lord of this entire area? how do you have to ask if this is the city you are looking for?

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Ady finally watches The Untamed: Episode 45

bitch-ass teleporting motherfucker

there's our self-sacrifice complex boy!

that's a dope shirt, did they sell that as merch?

wow my dads are so cool

HE SAID THE THING!

this is so sweet im cry

would someone please hug these kids? they are so broken and need so many hugs

JC you are not helping

the last 2 wens finally have each other again ;A;

you're making him wait outside? smh

time for two random women!

fucking ew he was getting sex workers for his dad wtf and he died during it?

I feel like I'm suddenly in a different show

wat. this is such a wild bizarre tonal shift. they've never even mentioned sex before but now there is incest and brothel massacres?

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Ady finally watches The Untamed: Episode 43

WWX: this may sound crazy, but what if the guy that spied for you during the whole sunshot war was... good at spying?

"You are not qualified to talk to me" holy shit Lan Zhan showing no mercy!

they whipped him and then trapped him in a cave for 3 years? jesus christ that's (literally) cold

this is some extremely disturbing parent lore

so Lan Zhan has spent literally his whole life waiting for dead people. cool cool cool cool cool

let me quick throw in a flute solo for no reason in the middle of this very important discussion

hair down softness bringing you liquor? that's got a to be a proposal

"saying it really is not allowed by the censors too mushy"

and then they fucked right? they had passionate, loving, possibly kinky sex in their beautiful snowy cottage right?

he's sleepy while trying to meditate because they were up all night having sex right?

time for a breakup!

JGY: WWX has been doing so zombie shit over at the burial mounds Xichen, who knows for a fact WWX has spent the last week in the snow cottage banging his brother: hol up a minute

awww lil apple got to hang out with the bunnies!

are they going to let him say the ship name?

lol nope

MIAN MIAN!!! OMG HEY GURL HEY! YOU SURVIVED THE NARRATIVE! FUCK YEAH!

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Ady finally watches The Untamed: Episode 42

Previously on The Untamed: Wei Wuxian cast legend lore on Daddy's decapitated head. Lan Xichen told his soon to be ex to let everyone see the sex dungeon. Su Shit, who i had completely forgotten about, showed up.

oh damn. I mean, i'd want out of that relationship too girl

classic Nie Huaisang! what's he up to this time?

why can he use his sword now? i don't get that

Lan Zhan not letting go of his man this time

is this a confession scene in the novel, because that felt like a confession with that soft swoony little smile

poor Jin Ling

why are they just letting them walk away????

LZ: why is it that every time i get you in my bed it's because you are super injured, now let me stare at your sexy chest under the pretense of injury checking

babe lemme tug on your sword for a second

Xichen: How do you decide to trust a person, because if it's sucking dick, then we are at an impasse

time for a music lesson

to the restricted section!

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Ady finally watches The Untamed: Episode 41

MY: oh god i'm so hard rn saber mustache daddy

say what you will about everything else he's done, saying "It wasn't me" as you drop the bloody sword he saw you pull out of the guy is still such a hilariously insane power move

Lan clan go to flirt move is eye fucking over the guqin

did he music him into a qi rage?

has he figured out the missing core thing yet? because don't you wrist feel for that?

PFFFFFFFFTTTTTTTTTTTTT that's so many stairs to get kicked down

don't go over there Huaisang, you'll get hit by the blood packs exploding!

oh shit Suibian?

how can he control his sword, he doesn't have a core and isn't that why he stopped using it?

Xichen: baby let me see the sex dungeon

this mf still here???

oh wait, he would know lan sword shit, is he the mask guy?

that will have to wait for tomorrow!

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Ady finally watches The Untamed: Episode 40

40/50, it's gone by quickly! how will the mystery of 'we all know it's you sneaky twink, we just can't prove it yet' be solved? will the production team be able to imply that a wangxian wedding happens without the censors catching it? what is the really funny thing that happens in a boat bc I still don't know what that's about? let's get started with the home stretch!

are we supposed to know who this kid in the red is?

sticking the chicken back in his mouth lmao great prop work you two

Wen Ning you are the cutest man that has ever lived

why does he need to hide though? LZ already knows he's with them

that sexy little hip wiggle? fuck your man LZ he is gagging for it

insert a month of them fucking in the cloud recesses to fill this hard cut time gap

this gd mask shit is so dumb, is this how it is in the novel? because he would get clocked immediately by Jin Guangyao

and would nobody question why the crazy guy from a random nobody family is along with the Lan bros?

Xichen: Jiang Cheng used his full aggro polite greeting. He defo knows it's him already.

sup clan leader bitchass, you keep Daddy's head under your pillow at night so you can kiss it and pretend he still loves you?

JGY: why is he here

do we finally get Mo family lore?

WY: I'm worried I'll embarrass you LZ: don't worry, I built up an immunity to that back when you did it constantly for like 5 years

Jin Ling knows some shenanigans are afoot

did Meng Yao get a beard?!?!?! lol

Huaisang! he's playing somebody somehow, i just haven't figured out who or why yet

WY: wait for me LZ: don't worry, I practiced for 16 years

oh that's why he's getting weird looks from the beard

these two are such a cute team, it's gonna suck when he finds out

he taught him a move? that's adorable

beat people up when you are young and won't fuck up the whole government with it. fantastic advice

you could just move your head back JL

lil paper guy!

DID IT JUST BLOW A KISS?????? DID THEY GET THAT THROUGH?

PLAYING WITH THE HEADBAND? oh they fuuuuuuucking

omg is he doing familiar spying with the paper guy? put his hand on your shoulder Lan Zhan, he's going to do some perception checks!

this music is so bad holy shit

JGY's Beard: are you still fucking Xichen?

THEY HAD A SON? HE SLEPT WITH A WOMAN ENOUGH TO MAKE A BABY?

why did the baby have to die sneaky twink? did he catch you sucking dick?

magic portal mirror? the fuck?

uhhh, portal leads to a well decorated torture room?

and a head on a shelf!

EMPATHIZE

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Ady finally watches The Untamed: Episode 39

Ah Qing ;_;

HIS WHOLE ARM?

jfc this is the first thing in this show that actually made me cry. I don't know how they even got half of that last bit to air but goddamn that was compelling storytelling right there. and the beautiful way it ties back to WangXian just by showing a glimpse of how lucky they are to get a second chance? fantastic fucking television.

a secret coffin under the other coffin! and the super drama score! who's in the box?

it's Daddy! rip

cut from that shit to shopping time with the babies!

A-YUAN CONFIRMED!!!!! i don't know how LZ got him, but good for the show for not killing another kid!

awww does he not remember? well, the Trauma will do that to ya

emotionally significant bunny lantern! and it has two on it this time i see what you did there prop team

the softness, i can't take it

Lan Zhan, y u no tell Wei Ying about your son?

LZ: here son, have this lantern that represents the moment I realized I was in love with the man who is the reason I raised you

come on Xichen, you're supposed to be one of the smart ones, will you realize this is WWX

this man looking so good in this soft dip dyed gradient outfit, sorry your bf got decapitated

having late night "talks" with you almost every night has he Xichen?

doesn't have signs of learning that spell on his body? and how would you know that dearest Xichen?

you know LZ is mentally like "hey Xichen, how does it feel to have people call your bf evil? huh? doesn't feel good does it?"

ayyy, he may have been fooled by his bf for 16 years, but at least wasn't fooled by the mask!

you not gonna ask how he's back from the dead after 16 years there important sect leader and Lan Wangji's brother? nah? okay.