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shadoedseptmbr · 2 months ago
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aedan doesn't really do holidays, but here's a little story i wrote a while back (advent stories for space cadets)
winter prompts
this one was for candles and it ties back to the story distractions and alternatives. Aedan Shepard has been toting around an old style sniper rifle since just after she joined the Alliance. It’s the only thing she owns that isn’t Alliance or Cerberus (or Kasumi) issued and it was sort of her good luck charm.  She’s been known to tuck small tokens in the case along with it.
Candles  
o-o-o-o-o
Now that she’d hauled it out of the harsh light of Alchera, the gun case was definitely worse for wear.
It took a prybar borrowed from the shuttle bay to split the edges that had melted, a combo of liquid nitrogen and aerosolized graphite and oil to crack the fused latches.  
She wasn’t expecting much when she’d finally coaxed the lid open but it was a miracle to have found it at all, tucked safely in the hull of the MAKO.
But there it was, the old style sniper rifle she’d won from that jarhead on Luna, a lifetime ago.  The engraving of mountains on the stock just visible through the fine haze of rust.
  She wrinkled her nose as she drew her finger across the rough surface, starting to pit in places.  It was going to take hours to get it back in shape.  No time for it just now.  Aedan started to slide her fingers under the forestock only to have the velvet covering of the molded casing crumble under the faint pressure.  
 There was a black wool roll under the remnants of the velvet.  Frowning, Aedan tugged it out.  She didn’t recall leaving her tool kit…
Oh.  She could feel the tell tale slender objects. Nothing else felt like that.  How on …
Tugging the latch and hook closure open, she revealed 8 pale green candles, slightly misshapen, none of them longer than her pinkie finger and barely a half centimeter wide.  The tips burned down to almost the wax. One still had a crumble of chocolate frosting on the end. 
Ash’s candles.  Aedan had filched them from the shipping box when they’d cleaned out her locker.  Never had quite known *why.* Just…seemed like the thing to do.  Her family would never have missed them.
You know why, Skipper.
“Well, maybe.”  
“Commander?”  
“Nothin’ EDI, just talking to myself. Never mind.  Uh…wait.  Um. Do you know what day it is?” She shook her head as EDI rolled off the galactic date. “Uh, no.  On Earth, Northern Hemisphere, West of Greenwich?  What’s the day…month.  Whatever.”
“It is Sunday, November 30th.”
Oh. Okay.  “Thanks EDI.  Uh.  Hey, what are the protocols for, uh, burning materials aboard ship?”
“Is this an emergency, I have not detected…”
“No, no.  Just.  Wondering if I lit a match would anyone care.”
“I can…” Aedan can almost hear the AI’s processors grind, trashing another Cerberus protocol.  “I can circumvent the safety protocol for a short time, Shepard.  
She fiddled with the roll of candles and then tugged one free. 
Waiting was what Advent was about.  Waiting, preparing.  She remembered that much. 
“Do it.”   
In her thigh pack, there was a firesteel, part of an emergency kit Anderson…they’d always told her to carry.  Just in case.  It had saved her life once during N training and she’d replaced it as soon as she thought about it, coming back.  
A flick of the metal tongue against the stone and she had one of the tiny candles flickering in her cupped hand.
She sat down on the bed, still sheltering the fragile flame in one hand as she scootched back..  It dripped quickly and someone smarter would’ve probably stuck it to a plate or something.  All she had was a data pad. 
Probably shouldn’t use that.
It didn’t really hurt, though- little drips down her fingers.  A little sting was all.  She leaned back on one elbow and lifted the feeble light up to reflect off the view port, to dance with all the stars streaking by.  
She remembered the prayer.  She’d been able to recite it the second time she’d heard it. She had the saints memorized by the time she was six, since the nuns gave sweets to anyone who could name more than four.  
And tiny pictures.  And bookmarks.  She’d memorized a lot.  
She couldn’t feel less like praying to a saint.
“Hey, Ash. I don’t know if you can hear me.  I know you’d laugh but I don’t know. Seems right.
Things are gonna get grim if I screw this up. I’ve done everything I can think of.  I…can you believe that I’ve got a geth on board?  Tali freaked.  You’d have freaked.  Flashlight heads, right? But he’s a damned good shot, you know?
We’re making the jump in the morning.  I …think I stopped them invading a week ago but I’ve still got to make this jump tonight.  
No one’s ever come back.  
I’ve…told everyone to tell me if they want off, we can drop them off at Omega before we hit the relay.  But they’re all staying.  I should go and eat with them. I …it’s a lot.  But they’ve got the crew.  We have to go.
Kaidan sent me a letter awhile back.  I…haven’t opened it, yet.  Hey…if we don’t.  Even if we do…but if we don’t come back…look after him, okay?  I’m gonna assume if I don’t come back I’m just gonna end up wherever it was I was before.  But …you.  You look out for…” Fuck, ow.”
The flame had eaten through the wax like ryncol through stomach lining.  It singed the tips of her fingers before she could shake it out.  
She chuckled at herself, smiling at the smudge of soot as she rubbed it away. If they could just make it through the Relay.  If they could do that…then whatever on the other side was just another fight.
Hope. Hope was the other thing. Waiting, preparing.  And hope in the growing darkness.  She remembered that much.  And maybe that was all anyone could ask for.  A little flicker of hope as the stars streamed by.
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occasionally-sketchy · 7 years ago
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         🚀👽THE GIRLS ARE BACK IN TOWN!👽🚀
Finally, after an eternity, I got to work on these two cuties’ story, “Fauna”! It’s pretty refreshing!
Other than some slight adjustments to space cadet Nia Adesina(left) and a redesign of the alternate form of alien princess Mira Ignolustris (right), their story is still pretty much the same! More on them under the cut! Do Not Repost
Ever since the year 2028, the universe, and even Earth has grappled with a steadily-growing, but dangerous group simply known the “Control”. Over a course of several years, they’ve been taking control of the galaxy through forcing various populaces to submit to them, primarily by turning their own people against them with the use of a strange cybernetic virus that transforms anybody into various types of mutated, powerful monsters completely under the organization’s control. Eventually, this dastardly group battled with Earth, and emerged victorious. Nia Adesina and Mason Chandrakant’s lives, as being some of the survivors who escaped the ravaged plant, had never been the same since. This advent which claimed the lives of Mason’s parents and Nia’s father was enough to spur the latter to urge the former to join the Intergalactic Siege Resistance, or better known as the “Resistance”, in an effort to prevent something like what had forever altered their futures ever again. Some years pass, and it seems like there is no hope to stopping the Control...until one day. On what seemed like a routine mission, Nia comes across an amazing discovery-she had encountered what she thought was a monster and had tried to eliminate it as she thought she heard a survivor denizen of the planet, an “Estellian”. As it turns out, the voice was coming from the strange, goat-like alien dressed in tattered clothing and equipped with psychic abilites that had walked out of the rubble. It was Mira Ignolustris, the alien princess of the planet’s kingdom. While she appeared vastly different from her true form, as described by Nia’s higher-ups, and very much like a stereotypical “soldier” alien led by the Control, Mira retained her individual sentience and sanity, as well as many others of her kingdom, including her mother, the Queen. Nia was at a crossroads soon after spending more time helping Mira and her people: she was distraught and sympathetic to Mira’s plight, as well as began to feel things for her as she learned more about her, but bringing her to her ship could be dangerous, as the others would be less likely to buy Mira’s immunity. Still, she had to try. This story, “Fauna”, follows a band of unlikely friends, Nia, Mason, and Mira, and two mentors, Andrea Carmine, a hardened veteran, and Cecilia Acacia, an allied alien mediator, as they travel the galaxy to help others and hopefully find a cure for the Control’s disease... BONUS, UNSHADED:
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automatismoateo · 5 years ago
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The United States Military is being taken over by evangelical Christians who are more loyal to their religion than the constitution. Are you as concerned as I am about this? via /r/atheism
Submitted February 03, 2020 at 12:03AM by Israel-is-Fascist (Via reddit https://ift.tt/2ucsakx) The United States Military is being taken over by evangelical Christians who are more loyal to their religion than the constitution. Are you as concerned as I am about this?
The military is being increasingly influenced and in some areas dominated by Evangelical Christians..”.
Some of these Evangelicals believe in a fascist like supremacist vision.
Many Evangelicals openly subscribe to a Dominion theology which are a group of Christian political ideologies that seek to institute a nation governed by Christians based on their understandings of biblical law.
Evangelicals are also known for commonly being very focused on eschatology to the point of being apocalyptic. Some of them even believe in taking actions to help accelerate the advent of the apocalypse.
There is immense pressure in particular at all the military academies to practice and profess adherence to Evangelical beliefs as well as in parts of the Air Force.
Non-Evangelical military cadets are being pervasively discriminated against, even Christian cadets from other denominations are facing discrimination.
More than 60% of military chaplains are evangelicals at least, with some estimates as high as 80%.
In many instances Evangelical chaplains have used their majority influence in the military chaplaincy to sideline chaplains from other faiths and to promote policies that favor them in terms of access to military personnel, the types of programs being run, and the hiring process for new chaplains.
Another characteristic or even tenet of most Evangelicalism is proselytizing. Most Evangelicals believe that it is their duty to convert others to their faith and many have decided that they will proselytize their fellow military personnel as much as possible even if that means using methods that clearly violate the military code of conduct and infringe on other soldiers’ constitutional rights.
Evangelical Officers have taken the cue from their Evangelical chaplains and are proselytizing their subordinates in violation of the military code of conduct.
This is a serious issue that has been increasingly getting worse for at least two decades but the Trump era has accelerated it to an alarming degree.
Statistics showed in 2005 that at least 40% of active duty personnel were evangelicals and due to the military’s lack of adequate categories for reporting the actual percentage was probably higher. The percentage is also higher among officers than it is among the enlisted.
Trump is a controversial President who acts far outside of the norm in many areas. He has overtly threatened violence against his political rivals on several occasions and has now been impeached.
Many Evangelicals inside and outside of the military support him not only as the President and the Commander in Chief but also as a leader sent by God.
If Trump is removed from office or loses the next election and goads his supporters towards violence, either implicitly or explicitly, his Evangelical supporters in the military could represent a significant threat to democracy should they refuse to peacefully accept the results.
More attention needs to be paid to this issue and more reporting needs to be done on it. The next President who isn’t Trump will need to take decisive and widespread action in order to turn back the tide on this.
The Evangelical Christian Takeover of the Military
https://www.alternet.org/2007/11/the_evangelical_christian_takeover_of_the_military/amp/
U.S. Military being used as Government-Paid Missionaries
https://youtu.be/SB1UifGIqaw
Too much religion at military academies? West Point cadet revives charge.
https://www.csmonitor.com/USA/Military/2012/1207/Too-much-religion-at-military-academies-West-Point-cadet-revives-charge
Evangelicals Are a Growing Force in the Military Chaplain Corps
https://www.nytimes.com/2005/07/12/us/evangelicals-are-a-growing-force-in-the-military-chaplain-corps.html
Evangelical Chaplains Test Bounds of Faith in Military
https://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=4772331
TRUMP EFFECT INSPIRES RADICAL CHRISTIANS IN MILITARY
https://www.newsweek.com/christian-fundamentalists-us-armed-forces-national-security-threat-613428
Inside the Military's Campaign to Make Its Soldiers Christian [First of a three part series]
https://www.mic.com/articles/61629/inside-the-military-s-campaign-to-make-its-soldiers-christian
EVANGELICAL U.S. AIR FORCE GENERAL HAS SECRETLY BEEN RUNNING A CHRISTIAN ONLINE MINISTRY IN POSSIBLE VIOLATION OF RULES: EXCLUSIVE
https://www.newsweek.com/trump-evangelicals-god-prayer-air-force-secret-christian-online-ministry-1070772
U.S. Air Force: Swear to God—or Get Out
https://www.thedailybeast.com/us-air-force-swear-to-godor-get-out
Soldier Sues Army, Saying His Atheism Led to Threats
https://www.nytimes.com/2008/04/26/us/26atheist.html
Chaplains Wanted For Atheists In Foxholes
https://www.npr.org/2011/12/04/143057431/chaplains-wanted-for-atheists-in-foxholes
The Christian [Evangelical] Takeover of the U.S. Military
https://www.advocate.com/commentary/2018/3/29/christian-takeover-us-military
Onward Christian soldiers: Fundamentalist faith is proclaimed, and contested, in America’s forces [If anyone can find an archived version of this please link it]
https://www.economist.com/erasmus/2019/05/25/onward-christian-soldiers
Fundamentalist Forces?: New Report Highlights Ongoing Church-State Problems In America’s Military
https://www.au.org/blogs/wall-of-separation/fundamentalist-forces-new-report-highlights-ongoing-church-state-problems
FUNDAMENTALIST RELIGION RAMPANT IN U.S. ARMED FORCES, SAYS NATIONAL SECURITY EXPERT
https://centerforinquiry.org/press_releases/fundamentalist_religion_rampant_in_u-s-_armed_forces_says_national_security/
Army Base Can’t Coerce Soldiers In Missouri To Attend Evangelistic Services [They are still doing it]
https://www.au.org/church-state/september-2008-church-state/people-events/army-base-can-t-coerce-soldiers-in-missouri
Misguided Military Maneuver: Army’s ‘Spiritual Fitness’ Program Improperly Proselytizes
https://www.au.org/blogs/wall-of-separation/misguided-military-maneuver-army-s-spiritual-fitness-program-improperly
Meet the man who's trying to purge evangelical Christianity from the Pentagon.
https://foreignpolicy.com/2010/05/25/mikey-weinsteins-crusade/
Backward Christian Soldiers: Jesus Not Only Saves, He Shoots
https://observer.com/2012/12/backward-christian-soldiers-jesus-not-only-saves-he-shoots/
A Refuge For Powerful Lawmakers
https://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=130070569
Why the US Military Wants Fewer Generic Christians [Why the military’s categories for self reporting religious affiliation have left evangelicals underreported]
https://www.christianitytoday.com/news/2017/may/why-us-military-fewer-generic-christians-216-religions.html
The Military Religious Freedom Foundation (MRFF) condemned the blessing of an "official Bible" for the swearing-in of commanders of the newly created Space Force.
https://thehill.com/policy/defense/478049-group-criticizes-space-force-for-blessing-official-bible-for-new-military
Help get this issue on the radar of your representatives in Congress and your state governor by emailing them and calling them.
https://www.usa.gov/elected-officials
A good organization to get info and support from is the Military Religious Freedom Foundation (MRFF):
https://www.militaryreligiousfreedom.org/
Not being a member of a major Christian denomination can apparently be a lonely experience in the military.
The Military Association of Atheists and Freethinkers is a community for atheists, humanists, and other nontheists in the military.
http://militaryatheists.org/
An organization dedicated to advancing the separation of religion and government in all walks of life is Americans United for Separation of Church and State.
https://www.au.org/
Evangelical Influence in Other Parts of the Government
Evangelicals have attained positions of influence within other parts of the government outside of the military as well.
Critiques of the unconstitutional and potentially dangerous infiltration of the US military by Evangelical forces need not rely on or even make any reference to the issues that arise from the influence of Evangelicals in other parts of the government but I include this additional information because it is related.
The influence of Evangelicals in the US government is partly to blame for the push to go to war in Iraq. Evangelical figures held a lot of influence within the Bush administration.
Evangelical lawmakers, administration officials, and policy wonks joined forces with the Israel lobby, as they often do, to cheerlead for that war.
Evangelicals and the Israel lobby have shared reasons as well as their own separate reasons for pushing for war in the Middle East.
Bush and Evangelicals
https://www.pbs.org/wgbh/pages/frontline/shows/jesus/evangelicals/bushand.html
Profile: Silent Evangelical Support Of Bush's Proposed War Against Iraq
https://www.npr.org/programs/morning/transcripts/2003/feb/030226.hagerty.html
Evangelicals Flock Into Iraq on a Mission of Faith
https://www.latimes.com/archives/la-xpm-2004-mar-18-fg-missionary18-story.html
Looking Back at Conservative Evangelicals Support for the Iraq War
https://www.dallasnews.com/news/faith/2007/08/07/looking-back-at-conservative-evangelicals-support-for-the-iraq-war/
Bush’s Evangelical Politics
https://slate.com/news-and-politics/2008/03/the-bush-tragedy-bushs-evangelical-politics.html
Most Evangelical Leaders Still Support Iraq War [from 2008, five years into the war after almost everyone else had recognized it as a disastrous mistake]
https://www.christianpost.com/news/most-evangelical-leaders-still-support-iraq-war.html
AIPAC and Iraq
https://www.theatlantic.com/politics/archive/2007/10/aipac-and-iraq/46561/
The Iraq war coverup: What did AIPAC do and when did it do it?
https://mondoweiss.net/2012/02/the-iraq-war-coverup-what-did-aipac-do-and-when-did-it-do-it/
I don’t mean to say I told you so, but…
https://foreignpolicy.com/2010/02/08/i-dont-mean-to-say-i-told-you-so-but/
Now Evangelicals and the Israel lobby have joined forces once again and are again cheerleading for war, this time with Iran.
They have almost unanimously been praising Trump’s decisions to blow up the Iran Deal and to assassinate Iran’s leading general Solemanni.
They are also unanimous in their praise for Trump moving the US embassy in Israel to Jerusalem and in his recognizing Israel’s sovereignty over the Golan Heights.
Evangelicals Love Donald Trump for Many Reasons, But One of Them Is Especially Terrifying...End Times.
https://www.motherjones.com/politics/2020/01/evangelicals-are-anticipating-the-end-of-the-world-and-trump-is-listening/
The Rapture and the Real World: Mike Pompeo Blends Beliefs and Policy
https://www.nytimes.com/2019/03/30/us/politics/pompeo-christian-policy.amp.html
What the Christian Right Sowed, Trump Reaped
http://nymag.com/intelligencer/2018/03/what-the-christian-right-sowed-trump-reaped.html
Why Evangelicals Love Israel
https://www.thedailybeast.com/why-evangelicals-love-israel
Why do US evangelicals support Trump's Jerusalem policy?
https://www.bbc.com/news/world-us-canada-42402350
Trump, With Netanyahu, Formally Recognizes Israel’s Authority Over Golan Heights
https://www.nytimes.com/2019/03/25/us/politics/benjamin-netanyahu-donald-trump-meeting.html
Jerusalem Embassy Is a Victory for Trump, and a Complication for Middle East Peace
https://www.nytimes.com/2018/05/14/us/politics/trump-jerusalem-embassy-middle-east-peace.html
Listen to WSJ’s Bret Stephens Secretly Plot With “Pro-Israel” Evangelical Group Against Iran Deal
https://theintercept.com/2015/07/30/listen-wsjs-bret-stephens-secretely-plot-pro-israel-evangelicals-killing-iran-deal/
Amid Debate and Violence, Trump Delivers Embassy Victory to Christian [Evangelical] Base
https://www.nytimes.com/2018/05/15/us/politics/jerusalem-embassy-trump-evangelicals.html
Explainer: Trump and the politics of the Messiah
https://www.ncronline.org/news/politics/explainer-trump-and-politics-messiah
‘Brought to Jesus’: the evangelical grip on the Trump administration
https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2019/jan/11/trump-administration-evangelical-influence-support
President Trump promises support to military, evangelicals at Fourth of July event
https://www.deseret.com/2017/7/3/20615203/president-trump-promises-support-to-military-evangelicals-at-fourth-of-july-event
Trump’s foreign policy looks a lot like Rapture Christians’ plan to welcome the apocalypse
https://qz.com/1270516/jerusalem-embassy-trumps-foreign-policy-looks-like-rapture-christians-plan-to-trigger-apocalypse/
Apocalyptic Christianity Returns to U.S. Foreign Policy
https://ips-dc.org/apocalyptic-christianity-returns-u-s-foreign-policy/
Trump launches evangelical coalition after strike on Iranian military leader
https://www.cbsnews.com/news/trump-marks-launch-of-evangelicals-for-trump-in-miami-today-2020-01-03-live-stream/
The Evangelicals Who Pray for War With Iran
https://newrepublic.com/article/156166/pence-pompeo-evanglicals-war-iran-christian-zionism
Any criticism of Israel and the Israel lobby is bound to receive intense pushback and false accusations of anti-semitism just as any criticism of Evangelicals is sure bring on false and patently ridiculous accusations of religious discrimination.
In addition to false accusations and pushback by establishment forces any criticism of Israel and its lobby is also sure to attract actual anti-Semitic forces who will try and and latch onto such critiques in order to gain legitimacy.
Unlike the ridiculous charges of religious discrimination from Evangelicals that can simply be ignored, those critiquing Israel and its lobby must forcefully push back against these anti-Semitic forces and denounce them.
Ferment Over the ‘Israel Lobby’
https://www.thenation.com/article/archive/ferment-over-israel-lobby/
Ilhan Omar’s Criticism Raises the Question: Is Aipac Too Powerful?
https://www.nytimes.com/2019/03/04/us/politics/aipac-congress-democrats.html
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shadoedseptmbr · 4 years ago
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winter prompts
this one was for candles and it ties back to the story distractions and alternatives. Aedan Shepard has been toting around an old style sniper rifle since just after she joined the Alliance. It’s the only thing she owns that isn’t Alliance or Cerberus (or Kasumi) issued and it was sort of her good luck charm.  She’s been known to tuck small tokens in the case along with it.
Candles  
o-o-o-o-o
Now that she’d hauled it out of the harsh light of Alchera, the gun case was definitely worse for wear.
It took a prybar borrowed from the shuttle bay to split the edges that had melted, a combo of liquid nitrogen and aerosolized graphite and oil to crack the fused latches.  
She wasn’t expecting much when she’d finally coaxed the lid open but it was a miracle to have found it at all, tucked safely in the hull of the MAKO.
But there it was, the old style sniper rifle she’d won from that jarhead on Luna, a lifetime ago.  The engraving of mountains on the stock just visible through the fine haze of rust.
  She wrinkled her nose as she drew her finger across the rough surface, starting to pit in places.  It was going to take hours to get it back in shape.  No time for it just now.  Aedan started to slide her fingers under the forestock only to have the velvet covering of the molded casing crumble under the faint pressure.  
 There was a black wool roll under the remnants of the velvet.  Frowning, Aedan tugged it out.  She didn’t recall leaving her tool kit…
Oh.  She could feel the tell tale slender objects. Nothing else felt like that.  How on …
Tugging the latch and hook closure open, she revealed 8 pale green candles, slightly misshapen, none of them longer than her pinkie finger and barely a half centimeter wide.  The tips burned down to almost the wax. One still had a crumble of chocolate frosting on the end. 
Ash’s candles.  Aedan had filched them from the shipping box when they’d cleaned out her locker.  Never had quite known *why.* Just...seemed like the thing to do.  Her family would never have missed them.
You know why, Skipper.
“Well, maybe.”  
“Commander?”  
“Nothin’ EDI, just talking to myself. Never mind.  Uh...wait.  Um. Do you know what day it is?” She shook her head as EDI rolled off the galactic date. “Uh, no.  On Earth, Northern Hemisphere, West of Greenwich?  What’s the day...month.  Whatever.”
“It is Sunday, November 30th.”
Oh. Okay.  “Thanks EDI.  Uh.  Hey, what are the protocols for, uh, burning materials aboard ship?”
“Is this an emergency, I have not detected…”
“No, no.  Just.  Wondering if I lit a match would anyone care.”
“I can…” Aedan can almost hear the AI’s processors grind, trashing another Cerberus protocol.  “I can circumvent the safety protocol for a short time, Shepard.  
She fiddled with the roll of candles and then tugged one free. 
Waiting was what Advent was about.  Waiting, preparing.  She remembered that much. 
“Do it.”   
In her thigh pack, there was a firesteel, part of an emergency kit Anderson...they’d always told her to carry.  Just in case.  It had saved her life once during N training and she’d replaced it as soon as she thought about it, coming back.  
A flick of the metal tongue against the stone and she had one of the tiny candles flickering in her cupped hand.
She sat down on the bed, still sheltering the fragile flame in one hand as she scootched back..  It dripped quickly and someone smarter would’ve probably stuck it to a plate or something.  All she had was a data pad. 
Probably shouldn’t use that.
It didn’t really hurt, though- little drips down her fingers.  A little sting was all.  She leaned back on one elbow and lifted the feeble light up to reflect off the view port, to dance with all the stars streaking by.  
She remembered the prayer.  She’d been able to recite it the second time she’d heard it. She had the saints memorized by the time she was six, since the nuns gave sweets to anyone who could name more than four.  
And tiny pictures.  And bookmarks.  She’d memorized a lot.  
She couldn’t feel less like praying to a saint.
“Hey, Ash. I don’t know if you can hear me.  I know you’d laugh but I don’t know. Seems right.
Things are gonna get grim if I screw this up. I’ve done everything I can think of.  I...can you believe that I’ve got a geth on board?  Tali freaked.  You’d have freaked.  Flashlight heads, right? But he’s a damned good shot, you know?
We’re making the jump in the morning.  I ...think I stopped them invading a week ago but I’ve still got to make this jump tonight.  
No one’s ever come back.  
I’ve...told everyone to tell me if they want off, we can drop them off at Omega before we hit the relay.  But they’re all staying.  I should go and eat with them. I ...it’s a lot.  But they’ve got the crew.  We have to go.
Kaidan sent me a letter awhile back.  I...haven’t opened it, yet.  Hey...if we don’t.  Even if we do...but if we don’t come back...look after him, okay?  I’m gonna assume if I don’t come back I’m just gonna end up wherever it was I was before.  But ...you.  You look out for…” Fuck, ow.”
The flame had eaten through the wax like ryncol through stomach lining.  It singed the tips of her fingers before she could shake it out.  
She chuckled at herself, smiling at the smudge of soot as she rubbed it away. If they could just make it through the Relay.  If they could do that...then whatever on the other side was just another fight.
Hope. Hope was the other thing. Waiting, preparing.  And hope in the growing darkness.  She remembered that much.  And maybe that was all anyone could ask for.  A little flicker of hope as the stars streamed by.
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