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22degreehalo · 2 years ago

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Ahhhhhhhhh when I spend half an hour folding dumplings with my mum and come out so tense I need to close myself in my room until I can start breathing normally again 💖

#literally nothing bad even happens!!!!!#she's a perfectly lovely woman!!!!!!!!!!!!!#admittedly im not on my adhd meds rn #and also I was a lil behind on refilling my anxiety meds so idk maybe that's caught up #but ughhhhhh #why cant i just fucking. enjoy family bonding time like a normal person.#me being simultaneously the biggest baby and most selfish person alive #for hating when my mum wants to do a harmless family activity with me <\#im literally the life laugh love girl #like are people ACTUALLY supposed to take this seriously. actually feel sorry for me.#what a joke #ofc i didnt help with any of the cooking before or after #im just snarky reblog away from being the internet's daily laughingstock.#ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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airbenderedacted · 3 years ago

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#tfw u been away all day bc woke up late and doing chores and showering and doing some other stuff took a bit #and then the night's been kinda quiett and even when it wasnt u were away bc hhhh low energy workin on eating while on low appetite bc meds #aahhhhhhh #and uuhhh tl;dr aowubdgabagah LONELYYYY AAAAHHHHHHH #i mean i have people to talk to in my inbox but it just feels weird rn bc it's so late and i really. never got any energy in me #at any point. todaayy...#AND SOMEONE MESSAGED ME I BEEN WANTING TO HEAR FROM TO TALK ABT SMTHN I BEEN WANTING TO TALK TO THEM ABOUT AND I JUST #LEFT THEM HANGINGG!!! BC OF THE LOW EVERY THING AND I WANTED TO BE FOCUSED FOR IT BUT ENERGY/FOCUS NEVER CAME AHASUGGGH #ANYWAY 🎵 nnobody nobody nobody nobodyy nobody nobody noBodyn O body nobodyy #aaaaaa #im fine btw tonight was worse earlier but now it's um. fine #quiet and alone with my thoughts that admittedly are not great and kiiinda fucking sad but also are way better than they Could Be 😌#u know y #bc it's been a very long time since ive felt any pain at alll and this is like. way nbd. which is such a good sign like aaaaa #congrats me for being sm less fucked up than you used to be #this is a healthy amount of blahhagabsbahgghhhhhh #idk where im going with this anymore i lpst myself several words ago hahah wack #IT'S SO QUIET LATELY BITCHE-#aaaag h shababbabsbbbbhhhhhhhhhhh #the perpetual adhd perdicament... if engaging things do not happen enough. or i dont really get talked to by any best besties. well i die #i need to get into reading or smthn bro

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adhdandadhdadjacentthings · 4 years ago

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Hey, so since this whole blog is primarily to record and let me talk abt my adhd stuff... can i mention how fuckin *hard* it is to tell wtf meds are doing rn?

Like for abt a week when i was first prescribed my original dose, it was okay. Yeah the pandemic was stressful and worrying but still, i could obviously tell that after i took meds i could actually Focus.

A couple days ago we upped my dosage and im supposed to be seeing how it works, and if i like the differences from the last dosage.

I have had at least one breakdown a day since ive been on this dosage. I'm fucking scared and angry and i feel so incredibly helpless and no adhd pill is gonna make that go away. So how tf am i supposed to know if im "happy with this dosage".

And, admittedly, ive also had really happy moments every day. Is that because of my best friend being in my life so much lately? Yeah, honestly. But do the meds play a part? Probably?

Ik that I'd be Worse w out them but there is no way in fuck i can tell which dose i like more rn.

I sure can tell that all cops are bastards and every member of the national guard or military who goes up against these protestors are shit. I sure can tell that this fuckin president isn't even gonna pretend not to be a fascist shitbag anymore. I sure can tell that the future is incredibly uncertain.

But no, i can't tell if my 1.5x dose is doing much more than my last one.

And i also cant say whether im experiencing more side effects. Oh the main ones are no appetite and increased heart rate? Well, hun, if i got no appetite it's honestly more likely its because of the absolute dread im feelin. And panic sure will increase a heart rate.

Meh

Honestly s probably gonna be what i tell my dr. Im sure she'll get it.

#do i feel p stupid venting abt smn so tiny rn?#but its my fuckin blog about my fuckin adhd #also quick sidenote #fuck cops #yes all of them

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