#actually wait. (imagining a collage for that as well) MAYBE SOMEDAY

[sangre]

hell was full. so im come back

this is my doomed yaoi / doomed yuri dissertation. if you know you know. if not too bad, this was for me.

[breckens-blog]

i. AN INTERVIEW WITH BRECKEN SUMMERS

entertainment tonight’s amanda lau was able to get this exclusive interview with BRECKEN SUMMERS ! we got to learn a whole new side of them while talking about their latest project SUMMER NIGHTS — an upcoming that’s rumored to be more revealing than ever before.

al: so you were actually born in calabasas, yes ?

bs: funny story, ‘manda, i was actually born on a flight home from venice. imagine being that pilot, snakes on a plane? well, i mean i’ve been called a snake, nonetheless, props to the crew aboard that flight. and if there’s ever a sequel to snakes  — call me, i was born for this.

al: and what was it like growing up there ?

bs: growing up in calabasas was rather nice. you know, the nannies are great, high quality water  — imported of course, and school was rather laid back, literally, i took half of my classes in my pjs without even leaving bed. it was definitely an experience, but in a sense i wish i could’ve at least gone to a public school, or any school for that matter.

al: wow so you’ve always been as captivating as you are now. so did you always want to be a singer & model then ? or what gave you that idea ?

bs: model, definitely not. it took a lot of encouraging words from my nan to get me to even step in front of a camera. i’d done album covers and artsy shoots to promote my own work, but i never imagined myself as the face of someone else’s. as for singing, well there’s embarrassing home videos of me in a pull-up at age three with a ukulele putting on a concert for my family. who knows, maybe someday i’ll release them on a behind the scenes bonus tape.

al: so tell me about this latest project then ! your fans seem to be very excited about it. our twitter was flooded with notifications when we mentioned bringing you on the show.

bs: summer nights is sort of a coming of age album. i’ve learned a lot in the past few years, you know just about life, and transitioning into an adult, and sort of coming into myself. summer days was very lighthearted, upbeat and sort of the stuff you listen to while riding in the car with friends. summer nights is more personal, seeing as the moon is reflective of the inner self and secrets. the past few years have been filled with life changing experiences and obstacles, i want to share my journey with others. perhaps some of them can relate, you know, music is healing sort of. 

al: well we all can’t wait to see more from you, brecken. now we just have a few questions from our twitter to ask you.

bs: alright here we go demons, it’s me, ya boy.

al: @/summerniights asked: who is your biggest inspiration ?

bs: easy, elvis, the man was a legend. i wanna leave a mark as great as he had.

al: @/breckenators asked: who is your celebrity crush ?

bs: angelina jolie, i heard she’s single now. should i give her a ring?

al: @/summerdaze asked: what’s the weirdest thing a fan has ever done for you ?

bs: clever username, perhaps i should hire you to do my album titles. i love a good play on words. anyways, you know i’ve had some strange encounters over the years, but this one by far takes the cake. it wasn’t necessarily for me, but i was at a meet and greet and a fan gave me a collage. i thought it was the cutest thing ever until i closely examined it, taped to it was a positive pregnancy test and photoshopped pictures of our future family. like the effort was quite flattering and i appreciate they admire me enough to wish to marry me, but it was rather strange. i gave them a hug and thanked them for all the effort they put into it, like yeah — it was a bit odd, but i can appreciate another’s hard work. i believe i still have it somewhere at home.

al: @/benditlikebrecken asked: if you weren’t singing what would you be doing right now?

bs: i’d still want to travel, but on my own terms. see the world, explore all the local hot spots. i don’t really know what i’d be doing career wise, i’ve never given it much thought. perhaps i’d write a book, considering writing has always been a major outlet.

al: well i think that’s about all the time we have ! it was great meeting you, brecken and to everyone watching, be sure to check out brecken’s latest project summer nights !

[broken-hearts-lives-among-us]

Perfect (NewtxReader)

Pairing: Newt/Reader

Prompt: Even in war, Newt and reader tries to stretch their bond, with a forever promise. (Based on the song Perfect by Ed Sheeran)

Words: 1591

Disclaimer: Lots of fluff, mentions war.

In the middle of a war, two hearts trying to survive.

I found a love for me

He never understood humans beings, been more fond to creatures, but you were just... Different, unique, he could understand you, and you could understand him.

You two had something especial, a feeling that was stronger than a bullet, as soft as a petal, and passionate like an adventure.

You were in love.

Darling, just dive right in and follow my lead

Running out into the rain, mud getting under his shoes, but it didn't matter as long as he was with you, holding his breath, you keep running, trying to keep envolved in the sensation of your hands holding, trying to hide from the catastrophic outside. Because war was cruel and dark, and he needed time to remember how peace was.

Soon you were in a little, slightly comfortable cabin, in the outskirts of the battlefield.

Well, I found a girl, beautiful and sweet

He saw you smile as you hugged him, and he couldn't help but laugh cupping your cheeks with his hands, happiness running through his veins, you were amazing because even in the sad and destructive setting of the conflict, you were strong enough to keep your light, to see him the same lovely way, to warm him up with your hugs, to kiss him like it was meant forever, and to smile with the innocence of a child.

Newt's proud to call you, his.

Oh, I never knew you were the someone waiting for me

He was seeing you directly at your eyes, and you knew how much that meant.

Caressing your hair as he kissed your forehead, Newt start to think about your past. Being kids since childhood, he never thought one day you would end up together, a good part of his life he believed that Leta was the one, guess he wasn't seeing what he really had in front of his eyes.

'Cause we were just kids when we fell in love

Not knowing what it was

Truth was, it wasn't that he didn't loved you, he did, since the first day he saw you watching from afar at the Hippogriff in his yard. But he was too young, he always thought about you as his best friend, the one who would be always with him, it took him a time to realized how did he love you.

I will not give you up this time

Maybe in the past, he hurt you without intention, with his doubts and insecurities, but no more, today he was sure, today he was promising you a forever.

"We're crazy" Newt whispered with a lopsided grin as he take out the rings from his pocket.

"No, we're just in love" you laughed winking at him.

"(Y/N)... We're getting married" his smile was the most big and beautiful you have seen.

"We're getting married" you reassured kissing his knuckles.

He hold you closer "Oh, love, I want to make you a lot of promises... I will care of you like a Demiguise, and treasure your shiny beautiful heart like a Niffler" Newt flushed slightly, avoiding your sight for a second "I'll be passionate as an E-Erumpent" you giggled caressing his arms "I want to protect you as mine, like a Bowtruckle, and I'll trust you as a Thunderbird. But most important, I'll love you with all my soul, my heart, my everything, forever."

"Newt..." just a single tear roll on your cheek, his words really had melted your heart.

"M-Maybe those weren't the most romantic words or the most appropriated, but-"

You cut him off "Those words were the most amazing and beautiful vows I've ever heard, and I know how much they meant, I truly loved them Newt, I truly love you, every single detail of you."

But darling, just kiss me slow, your heart is all I own

And in your eyes you're holding mine

You leaned forward to kiss him as you exchanged rings, formalizing your promise with the moonlight as a witness.

Soft sweet kisses you shared, like delicate flowing bubbles flying in the air, so natural, so innocent, so pure.

Baby, I'm dancing in the dark with you between my arms

Barefoot on the grass, listening to our favorite song

You two were humming the same song, the one you danced for the first time together at the Yule Ball, as your feet move slightly from one side to another, your skin heating at the touch of his, with your fingers brushing his hair, and Newt's hands stroking your low back upside down.

The rest of the world disappeared, the fights, the screams, the memories, everything, it was just him and you, inside the bubble of love.

When you said you looked a mess, I whispered underneath my breath

But you heard it, darling, you look perfect tonight

It didn't matter to Newt if you didn't wear makeup, or the fact that your hair was wet and messy. You were happy, smiling, looking at his eyes with love, and for him that was the most beautiful look.

Well I found a woman, stronger than anyone I know

She shares my dreams, I hope that someday I'll share her home

Newt blushed at the memory of Theseus' teasing.

"So, when is (Y/N) moving into our house Newtie? Momma loves her!" He said smiling "Oh, but if she moves in, you wouldn't snog her in peace!" Theseus bursted into laughs.

"What are you thinking about, Mr. Scamander?" You said playfully.

"In how much I want to snog you right know" he merely answered without thinking.

"Newt!" You giggled trying to hide a flushed smile.

Newt's face was red "N-No I didn't, I mean I wasn't, erm, I..." he stutter ashamed but his mood relaxed when you put your lips on his.

Newt smiled in between kisses, strengthening his grip on your hips. You never make fun of him, always kind with him and his quirky characteristics, so patient and lovely with his love for creatures, so perfect.

I found a love, to carry more than just my secrets

To carry love, to carry children of our own

You weren't just the woman he loved, his best friend, but the woman he wanted a home with, to watch your child running through the garden, teaching them about creatures and seeing them grow up, until you had grandsons to tell stories of his adventures while sitting in a rocking chair holding hands in the porch."

When the war ends, Newt dreams about taking you to adventures, to live, to save creatures, him and you, loving each other in every part of the world.

We are still kids, but we're so in love

Fighting against all odds

I know we'll be alright this time

Darling, just hold my hand

Be my girl, I'll be your man

I see my future in your eyes

You've choose him, even if you could have had every man you wanted, you chose him. Even if he wasn't the most rich or powerful, he could be clumsy and cause a lot of trouble sometimes and he wasn't the best at social interaction, but you loved him anyways.

And Newt was convinced to be the best for you, to cherish you as a queen and work hard, so one day he could give you the lived he thought you deserved, although the only lived you wanted was a one where he was with you, kissing and loving each other, being man and wife.

When I saw you in that dress, looking so beautiful

I don't deserve this, darling, you look perfect tonight

Maybe she wasn't in a glamorous fancy wedding dress.

Or he didn't wear tuxedo sweet.

You wear your last clean nurse uniform, Newt was in his dirty battle clothes, but you were immersed in each other, he was admiring you as the most beautiful creature he would ever seen, with the moonlight in your face, your messy hair, the way your face flushed as you see him, simply astonishing.

He felt so lucky, having you between his arms, dancing, your lips on his, what on earth did he do to deserve you? To deserve your love?

"I'm so blessed to have you, Mrs. Scamander"

"It's my pleasure to be with you, Mr. Scamander"

I have faith in what I see

Now I know I have met an angel in person

And she looks perfect, I don't deserve this

You look perfect tonight

In the middle of a war, two hearts trying to survive.

Loving in each other, in their own world.

They found the peace, in the middle of a storm.

A/N: It's short I'm sorry </3 it's more like a drabble (a li'l bit longer that a drabble actually) but it was more about feelings than an actually plot, although the backstory is kinda interesting, I may write an imagine about it (tell me what you think ;))

Also I'm considering about opening requests (I already got one actually (? JAJAJA) but I don't know ('cause of collage) I'll see. Also, I'm sorry for the grammatical mistakes

Hope you enjoyed it!

Be a limited edition in this world full of cheap copies!

And remember, your existences matters.

[pauliflower-blog]

Final Poetry Portfolio Spring 2016

From my past semester of English 570 aka Techniques of Poetry.

We wrote various poems, different forms, workshopped each others’ work and it was a blast. I learned about meter, the intention with each line, as well as other sonic patternings!

The portfolio was required to be comprised of 3 extensively revised poems already submitted in class (which I only revised about once for each poem… don’t tell my professor lol), and one new poem (which I am actually very proud of).

Without further ado (In the order I have written them):

Coalesce

Can we be much more fluid, like a silver night swaying over pinkish hues? Do a headstand on the sky. Notice how it looks at you blending with its endless view.

—-

Sonnet: Shallow Diving

The waves are my blood without oxygen, crashing against my heart, mesmerizing up and into the skyline, quivering. I never thought I’d feel this way again, didn’t realize butterflies can swim, run, up my spine into new horizons and create exhalation so vibrant. I thought the chances of drowning were slim, but I’m submerged under waves I can’t surf. And I’ve dedicated air to learning about a you who bleeds red and blue, plunging into fluid feelings of hurt. Skin grazing the jagged seafloor, yearning to come up for breath once more, I sink in you.

—-

Collage Found Poem: Not Tonight (Lines from E.E. Cummings and Pablo Neruda)

My Terra, constantly dancing, spinning, why do you wobble the night around you? I don’t know days you can turn to disarray but you shake the stars from their always

Maybe

because you have loved me moon and sunset stars and flowers glow, grow, in me and you I feel you keep going, luminous against a soundless reassurance so

someday

the dark matters could fade to a light blue I like it when you break through these wavelengths as if you were on fire from within The moon lives in the lining of your skin

I

try not to notice oceans you’ve drowned in I wish to run my fingers through your air but their impacts, like comets, race instead along your surface already jagged

Will

My vastness, to recognize these crashes hallucinate a space that reminds me this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart: I’ll carry your heart for light years

—-

Terza Rima: Static (New Poem)

When a room stills and settles upon dry, untouched objects, dust collects. Shameless nestles

against the both of our necks dissolve among burning memories, consumed wholly by heart-wreck.

Uninhabited rooms of you and me shying away from each other, creating distance without feet.

Two quiet, neglected lovers wishing to gently caress everywhere the dust will cover

don’t acknowledge their rooms a mess. Spreading stillness like it’s for the best.

—-

I probably could have spent more time on these, but I feel like I work better under pressure. But damn, imagine what I could accomplish with much more time on my hands (me speaking to myself, in hopes of motivating me to drop my horrid habit of procrastinating and waiting until the last minute).

The portfolio was due at 7 pm on Friday, May 20th.

I literally started writing my new poem in my notes on my phone at around 4 pm, as my dad and fam and I were coming out of the movie theaters after watching the new Angry Birds movie lol. We got home around 5 pm and I went straight to my laptop, scrambled to finish, and turned it in late…. (7:30 ish).

I still got an A- in the class though. But yes, I admit mistakes were made.

What can I say? You live and you learn.