#actually julia is delusional

[mr-nauseam]

See a post saying toxic yuri should win this year and I agreed. Its why I do an unhealthy attached between Julia Snow and Aelia Mars (whos a doble Snow bc she was cousin of Tigris dad...

[rubin-therubix-loverofblorbos]

CARMEN SANDIEGO INCORRECT QUOTES

Shadowsan: Goddamn it, the printer broke while printing out Carmen's birthday invitations. Ivy: Well, what are they supposed to say? Shadowsan: "Carmen's birthday". Ivy: So, what do they say instead? Shadowsan: "Carmen’s bi". Ivy: Ivy: Works out either way.

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Player: I’ve never asked someone out. How do you even do it? Ivy: Oh, what I do is, I look them up and down and I say: “Hey… how you doin’?” Carmen, scoffing: Oh, please. Ivy, to Carmen: Hey, how you doin’? Carmen: Carmen: giggles and blushes

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Zack: That’s the longest worm I’ve ever seen. Player: That’s a snake.

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Ivy: I love them both, but how do I propose to two people? Shadowsan: Two different restaurants, one person at each restaurant. Twice the dessert, twice the applause. Ivy: Won’t people think it’s weird if there is a third person just sitting there, though? Shadowsan: I saw someone feed their pet peacock crème brûlée from their mouth at the French place on the corner last week: I think faux third-wheeling at an engagement is the least of your worries.

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Vlad: To be honest, I'm kinda pissed that I'm not asleep in bed next to the love of my life in a cottage with no obligations other than watering my vegetable garden.

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{I really need someone to clarify whether they're brothers or two deadpan Russians that Just Look Like That. Because they give such Gay Stone-Faced Lovers but idk. hm. [Looks at the To Steal Or Not To Steal Dip™️*] oh okay}

Boris: Do you want to explain the text you sent me last night? Vlad: It was autocorrect. Boris: Autocorrect wrote "You're so hot. Please step on me."? Vlad: Yes.

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Boris: I want to be with you for the rest of my life. Vlad: Damn, that sounds like a marriage proposal. Boris, getting down on one knee: That's 'cause it is.

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Boris: We should be partners. Vlad: You mean like, partners in crime? Boris: Yeah… that’s precisely what I meant.

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Dr. Bellum: There are 20 letters in the alphabet, right? Cleo: Nope, there's 26. Dr. Bellum: Ah, I must have forgotten U, R, A, Q, T. Cleo: Aww, that's cute, but you're still missing one. Dr. Bellum: You'll get the D later ;).

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Cleo: The stars are so beautiful… Dr. Bellum: They're just giant balls of gas. Cleo: You know what, if you're just going to ruin this, then- Dr. Bellum: And yet none of them are as huge as my love for you. Cleo: Oh…

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Chase: I just wanted to say that over the years, I have come to regard you as… people I met.

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Chase: What’s up? I’m back. Zack: I literally saw you die. You died. You were dead Chase: Death is a social construct.

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The squad's reaction to being told they're the chosen one Chase: I will not let you down. Ivy: Sounds fun. Zack: K. Julia: No, I'm fucking not. Carmen: Do I have to be? Shadowsan: Please god, I am so tired.

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Shadowsan: Wanna hear some dark humor. Ivy: Yeah, I love dark humor. Shadowsan: Alright. Shadowsan: Turns off the lights Shadowsan: Knock knock. Ivy: Turn the damn lights back on.

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Zack, washing the dishes: Who the fuck used this pan?? Zack: Wait. I the fuck used this pan… Ivy: It was you the fuck. Zack: It was I the fuck… Shadowsan: Who cooks rice in a pan? Ivy: They the fuck.

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Carmen: trying to buy a Father's Day card at Hallmark Carmen: Excuse me, do you have any that just say "You are my dad?" Associate: Well, I- Carmen: How about "You witnessed the murder of my actual dad?" Associate: No…Wait, wha- Carmen: You know what, I'll just get a blank one. Carmen: writes You are a father. This is a day. Here is a card.

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Shadowsan: What must it be like to live in your head? Are there happy ponies in there? It’s really something how utterly delusional your optimism is. If I didn’t hate you so much, I might even be impressed. Chase: Huzzah! I got a heavily qualified and slightly sarcastic compliment from Shadowsan!

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Ivy: Its hard to resist, I'm really sorry- I mean, considering your approach so far, you had us tied here for- what? Hours? And you haven’t even had us confirm what exactly we are! Chase: What are you then? Ivy: I'm a Virgo!

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Zack: I once tried to play a pirated copy of Garfield Kart, when Garfield jumped out of my PC! We are currently married with three beautiful children and a summer house in Lisbon.

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*The Dip from To Steal or Not to Steal {no seriously they slayed. Those little gay boys served every bit of cunt within the timespan of three and a half seconds}

ALSO, The Entire Video, which is fucking amazing. Masterpiece.

[mythserene]

Ladies and gentleman of the jury, this is my case.

(*next day* I definitely got a little ahead of myself with that statement, but I was so happy to get through a single paragraph of a mild example without getting lost in all the other falsehoods that it made me giddy. I do feel unstuck though, and that's worth a lot.)

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This was supposed to just be a copy of my “Delusional Lewisohn” website post but I started talking and accidentally wrote what I've been trying to say for months.

It starts as my contrasting paragraph of “designing Lewisohn”—how he normally does things—so it's a little stiff and compact, but I spread out fast and while it's probably riddled with typos, this is what he does. It's just usually worse and about more nefarious things.

“It could be they didn’t see much of each other in the summer of 1958.”

In “A BEATLE DIDN’T SAY THAT!” one of my examples was Lewisohn very designedly making it seem like Paul wasn’t around for John after Julia’s death using a combination of an altered quote from George Harrison’s mother and the contextual phrasing surrounding it. Many know of Mrs. Harrison reassuring George that she wasn’t going to die, but Lewisohn cunningly alters the rest of her words and his supporting sentences to make Paul seem unaffected and distant after John’s mother’s death, and to paint George and Paul both as relatively unconcerned, when what Louise Harrison specifically says is that she sent George around to John’s to bring him over so that he could play guitar together with Paul and George, and that “they always helped each other.” For Lewisohn to surgically alter the words that he does quote, chop off the rest, and then sew them back up with misleading insinuations to create not only a false—but opposite—impression of the boys’ closeness after John’s loss is unforgivable.

TUNE IN – Lewisohn

Asked  some years later to describe how he’d been able to help John cope with the loss of Julia, Paul could remember nothing of the period at all. It could be they didn’t see much of each other in the summer of 1958. John was working at the airport, and Paul and George went on holiday together—adventurous for boys of 16 and 17. But Louise Harrison would recall how she encouraged George to visit John at Mendips, “so he wouldn’t be alone with his thoughts.” The awful fact that both his mates had lost their mothers terrified George: the penny dropped that his might die any moment too. “He’d watch me carefully all the time. I told him not to be so silly, I wasn’t going to die.”

THE BEATLES – Davies (cited)

Mrs. Harrison, George’s mother, remembers the effect it had on John. They were still practicing a lot at George’s house, the only house where they got endless hospitality and encouragement. (…) “When John’s mother did die, he didn’t seem to go off his head, but he wouldn’t come out. I forced George to go round and see him, to make sure he still went off playing in their group and just didn’t sit and brood. They all went through a lot together, even in those early days, and they always helped each other. George was terrified that I was going to die next. He’d watch me carefully all the time. I told him not to be so silly. I wasn’t going to die.”

Lewisohn doesn’t outright say that Paul wasn’t around when Julia died, but he strongly infers it—deceptively altering and truncating a supposed-Mrs. Harrison quote—turning George's mom talking about how close the three were at that time and how they helped each other, into support for his inference that Paul barely saw John at this time. He then adds an introductory statement that makes it seem as if Paul was nowhere to be found, without actually saying that.

Yes, that's what I said. It is all lawyer-speak narration. Look at his first two sentences.

Asked some years later to describe how he’d been able to help John cope with the loss of Julia, Paul could remember nothing of the period at all. 

It could be they didn’t see much of each other in the summer of 1958.

But we know the secret. We know what Mrs. Harrison actually said. And so does Mark Lewisohn, by the way.

Now, Lewisohn tells us that someone, somewhere, "some years later" asked Paul this "question" that I literally cannot even comfortably end with a question mark:

“Paul, describe how you were able to help John cope with the loss of Julia?”

Really?

I'm not going to lie, I don't believe him, but even if we give Lewisohn the benefit of the doubt— **excuse me i can't stop laughing. one sec**

—even if we give Lewisohn the benefit of the doubt that someone, somewhere, at some unnamed time, asked Paul to describe how he was able to help John cope with the loss of Julia, just what exactly would we expect Paul McCartney's answer to that to be? Honestly, try to imagine the look on Paul's face if he was asked to describe how he helped John to cope after Julia's death.

“Paul could remember nothing of the period at all.”

Did an appellate lawyer write this? No, this is contract law genius. I can find the holes in almost any contract, and Lewisohn's own words around a misused quote are a work of legal art. He never quite says what you think he said.

But on the quotes, themselves, Lewisohn swings for the fences. He is without shame or fear. He has no qualms about putting quotation marks around any old thing he wants to say. One cannot go too many pages without finding something that shocks the conscience.

These are not “mistakes.” They are a very deliberate cutting and pasting together of historical figures' words to make them mean something different—and often opposed to—what the speaker intended. He then surrounds the misquotes with carefully worded insinuations that don't really say what you thought they did.

THE ACTUAL MRS. HARRISON “QUOTE”

Davies is very good at weaving together information-heavy exposition together with the quotes from his interviews, and since he interviewed everyone himself, he can tell us a lot in his own words.

What that does for you and me is that we get the context from the guy who asked the questions and spent time with these people, and that makes it a lot harder to get away with using these quotes out of context. Like, before we even get to the direct quote from George's mom, Davies is telling us what she remembers from the time. And it's a lot. Because that's when the boys practiced at the Harrison's almost every day. And it's awesome because her memories almost always include what the boys were eating at the time. (Seriously.) Like, she'd “given them all beans and toast” a few months before Julia died when she heard John say to Paul, “I don't know how you can sit there and act normal with your mother dead. If anything like that happened to me, I'd go off me head.”

Davies also calls Mrs. Harrison “one of nature's ravers.” 🥹

Everyone seems to agree that during this time the three were always at the Harrisons, and it's certainly the picture we get from Mrs. Harrison.

Davies is telling us all this, and leads into her direct quote by telling us what she “remembers.”

Mrs. Harrison, George’s mother, remembers the effect it had on John. They were still practicing a lot at George’s house, the only house where they got endless hospitality and encouragement.

And I trust Mrs. Harrison's memory because I am a mom, and I remember every trauma of my children's friends because I was the local Mrs. Harrison. We love those kids with all our hearts and they're so connected to our own kids that nothing happens to one without all of them feeling it. And the mom seeing it all. So how do we need Paul's answer to “Describe how you were able to help John cope with the loss of Julia?” when Mrs. Harrison has twenty stories, all with corresponding menus?

And Mrs. Harrison is saying that she sent George to get John out of his house so they could all play guitars together “in their group.” Not, George and John and no one knew where Paul was.

Where's Paul? Who could possibly know? “It could be they didn’t see much of each other”—but could it? It could be that Paul went ice skating in Sweden, EXCEPT HE FUCKING DIDN'T. Why are you lying to me in legalese in a Beatles biography?

“But Louise Harrison would recall how she encouraged George to visit John at Mendips” isn't true, but also isn't sane. If you pause and put as much thought into each sentence as was spent constructing them, you notice how many of them are patently ludicrous. Mrs. Harrison didn't encourage George to “visit” at Mendips because no child “visited” at Mendips. What are you even saying? To keep Paul and John away from each other you're talking nonsense. Visit? At Mendips? I can just picture John, Mimi and George sitting around having tea. But also, Mr. Lewisohn, those are not words that Mrs. Harrison said, and in fact, those words mean something completely different than the words she said.

What she said was she sent George over there “to make sure he still went off playing in their group and just didn’t sit and brood.”

And Nature's Raver Mom would see John not showing up like usual and would send her son out to make sure John knew he was wanted, and give him a little kick if necessary. She would want him in her house so she could feed him and make sure he was okay and to give him the comfort of playing music together with his friends.

They're the Beatles, and they got through it playing music. That's the real story, the true story, and a much better story.

And then she says “they all went through a lot together, even in those days, and they always helped each other.”

By cutting that out, leading into the quote you cut it from by speculating about where Paul was, and opining that maybe they didn't see each other much you are being purposefully deceptive and there simply is no other rational inference. None.

(I have tripled my website post now. I regret nothing.)

Let's take this baby home.

Because Mark Lewisohn completes the picture of John alone and ignored by George and Paul, and he does it by sneaking his own words into the mouth of George Harrison's dead mother.

I just want to make sure you got that. Like, let it sink in.

Mark Lewisohn changes Mrs. Harrison's actual words from “sit and brood” into “alone with his thoughts,” which further emphasizes the absolute absence of Paul and George. But he knows that John was not alone because he replaced Mrs. Harrison's words that said they were together playing music with his own words of John all alone. And then he has the nerve to even suggest that Paul and George are off together on holiday when John needs them most, while conjuring a parallel image of a traumatized John left separate and alone. (Except for his inner world.)

And I'm sorry, but I have to repeat it one more time: Lewisohn does all this by telling us that Louise Harrison said it. And although a lawyer could make a technical case that I am not being lied to here, I am.

Delusional Lewisohn is alive and well on my website. This has been Designing Lewisohn, signing off.

There's a lot, lot more and a lot, lot worse, but it's all of a piece. Not different in kind, just of degree. (But the degrees are significant.)

Tag 😏 @wingsoverlagos

[someones-here-for-sure]

hi! what are your opinions on the td23/24 canon couples?

~Remy

THANK YOU FOR ASKING. Imma be rating this on a scale of 1-10 btw

so, I hated ripaxel at first, but then I became delusional and said that they didn’t just make out the entire time and realized that their dynamic is actually kinda nice, soooo all in all 5.7/10

Now for… priyaleb- okay, so at first I loved their dynamic, and I loved Priya, but because of how the canon treated them, I began to realize how… toxic it became? Like, in the finale Caleb is has a light panic multiple times over how Priya feels, like when he saves Julia from falling to her death, he says “Oh- Just don’t tell Priya!” He seems panicked and dare I say… scared? Idk seems unhealthy I like Caleb without Priya and I like Priya without caleb 2/10

now rajbow was technically last season but idk if your talking about s1 or 2, so I’m gonna include this one anyway. I LOVED this ship in s1 it was perfectly written and stuff, just off of s1, 10/10 but, because of how they wrote raj this season(Istg that’s not my boy) 8/10, that’s all I have to say despite this being my favorite (canon) ship.

Also, I know you probably meant just the canon ships but just for fun I’m gonna talk about my otp for this series because I love it.

MKULIA!! they are my favorite ship, they are such enemies to lovers and I love them and they’re just generally the best 10/10 would recommend (I rlly hope they become canon next season. Like AAAAAA)

[real-total-drama-takes]

“why do people ship mk and julia?? they aren’t even canon!! bowraj is clearly the superior gay ship and it’s actually real!! quit being delusional!”

~ td youtube comment

[rhiannonsknife]

I'm going crazy. Delusional. Crying. Idk if you'll know it but like, the song Big Jet Plane by Angus & Julia Stone for Lottie. Just a thought, all I picture is post crash or just loving from a distance.

"they were like January and December. So close, yet so far" like- stab my heart out.

A private and secret relationship before she disappears in the wilderness and then she comes back like a stranger.

Lottie with my heart 😭

i actually started working on a REALLY similar request from 🌿 anon a while ago!! i don’t know when it’ll be out since i’m working on the nat series right now but i will definitely post it…eventually 😭😭

[somewillwin]

I KNOW VI & JINX ARE SISTERS BUT THE *researching* ISHA?? was i misled 😔 LMFAO (big rant in coming omg my bad)

also yes!! I think if anything, Sidestep was the trigger to realizing they weren’t straight at least pfft or at least if it’s romantic between the two i’m not quite sure if it works for platonic chargestep (and that is dear to me)

but no that’s valid, i was struggling with the puppet/ortega thing for the LONGEST before i could actually do it cuz that’s my darling angel i dont wanna play them like that 😭 BUT story wise i felt like it made sense esp with my same sex chargestep…

how sidestep is dealing with the struggle of whatever the hell is going on between them & ortega and thinking how same gender ortega is straight (they’re coping & think they’re delusional, confirmed) purely because of how same gender ortega always flirts with the opposite gender (pain)… my sidestep in the beginning probably felt like he was only there for his ortega to be a “easy way to explore” (PAIN) since, you know, ortega being a hero n allat which is kiiinda canon with their dynamic?? depending on if you address it and how you address it in game which is rlly nice!!

same gender ortega always openly showing themself with an opposite gender partner in public so my sidestep practically thinking he’s a side piece fr (not knowing ortega is in love w him </3) and thinking his only way of being able to actually BE with ortega is through puppet (who is a woman) 😔 and hey, since ortega flirted with her first, he must have some interest (evim is depressed if you couldn’t tell)

and that just kinda helped me go “perfect. this is the story now.” LMAOO now the funny part is evim & ortega hunching before the big ol crash (i did not have the hospital ending so i wont spoil ;) hehe) n i just wanna see ex!puppet hanging out with sidestep & ortega catching them n going wtf?? 😭 ESP IF SIDESTEP AND PUPPET LOOK ALIKE? (malin plans to do an update on rebirth so im hoping ur puppet n sidestep can resemble eo even with opposite sexes bc that would make my walkthrough ten times better)

YOU ARE MAKING ME WANNA REPLAY AND I DONT HAVE TIMEEEEEEE (not like I’m gonna make different choices but I love Julia I need her back)

ALSO! Yeah isha is real lmaooooo I just thought you meant like a romantic trio and I was lost in sauce there for a moment bshshshhshshs

Ah Chargestep my beloved

[haveaclock]

(this was in my drafts, have it)

"Is the kind of person": Total Drama: Reboot edition yayyyy

I'll try to be versatile with characters but ranyebow man.. (platonic..of course)

btw..I haven't even watched the reboot (currently waiting for it to come in the u.s as of may 12th wait it's mother's day)

• Raj and Wayne are the kind of persons to be hooked on to Odetari, 6arelyhuman, Asteria, Lumi Athena , you name them (I'm still living on the 2000's cartoons.. 😞).. oh yea

creds: @goldfishontheceiling

-Raj: WAYNER!! ODETARI CAME OUT WITH A NEW SONG!!!

Wayne: DICE AND ROLL??

Raj: YEA.....

Julia: shut up

• Julia and Bowie are the kind of people to be enemies because if Fresh TV made them friends they'll be so unstoppable they'll cross dimensions maybe Amphibia's dimension

-oh and btw I'm very delusional about them

• Scary Girl is the kind of gal to not say "you'll never find the body"

it's "It's bold of you to assume that there even is a body to be found."

- aw man that's the only one I got for her

•Raj is the kind of person to be at one school since kindergarten it's one of those K-12 schools, and so he's like probably in the school band or something

-Raj is a trombone player fight me

Raj: Bowie you're holding the trombone wrong

Bowie: Sorry *adjusts*

Raj: you're holding it wrong

Bowie: sorry

Raj: try again

Bowie: ...okay

Raj: mmm try again

Bowie: Raj..

Raj: mm.. try again

Bowie: Raj I will stuff this trombone into your mouth if you ask me to try again 😃

-did anyone get the SpongeBob references..did anyone get the SpongeBob references..

• Wayne might be the kind of person Raj is in the previous one but I need to decide whether it is or it isn't

Hanukkah Dance is stuck in my head sorry

• Julia is the kind of person to believe in aura and in auras still

- I think she substitutes for the word ass because this is a kid show y'know..

- Julia: Bowie get your aura together..

Bowie: I thought you were already exposed

Julia: yea I know

Wayne and Raj are the kind of people to recognize 2018 YouTubers because when they were little tiny people they would watch "DRIVING TO [so and so] AT 3 AM"

- I bet they would have recognized Chase but they couldn't really do anything because they were on different teams belhh

Raj: bro..what if they drink the potion and then they become gay..

Wayne: crazy man..

*ding dong*

Raj: why did someone send me a package at 3 am

Wayne: what if it's a gay potion..

Raj: what 😰

Wayne: whatever you do don't drink it..

Raj: ...WAYNER..IT SMELLS LIKE CHAKOTRA..

Wayne: RAJIE NO DONT GIVE IN..

Raj: WAYNER.. IT'S CHAKOTRA..

Wayne: NO RAJ..

Raj: DAWG I'M GONNA OPEN IT

Wayne: NO-

-9 year olds..knee slappers.

-oh..and btw..I got chakotra off of google correct me if I'm wrong

•Raj is the kind of person to say "Gluteus Maximus" instead of ass Raj be normal

- Raj: Bowie did I ever tell you this one hockey team before Total Drama?

Bowie: No? But now I want to know :)

*I don't know anything hockey (YET) so pretend hes speaking okay okay*

Bowie: And you guys still won?

Raj: Yea! The Snow Owls are the best!! Go Snow Owls!!

Bowie: I wouldn't like that team if they played basketball..

Raj: yea..they were a real pain in the gluteus maximus..

Bowie: Raj what

• Priya is the kind of person to go to med school and go "yea no that term is wrong" or "y'know that's a symptom for cancer"

Raj: people who cheat are just one big pain in the gluteus maximus..

Priya: if you're saying that to substitute for ass btw your wrong

Raj: what..😦

•I feel like...I feel..I feel like Axel would be the kind of person to swear someone out in Spanish but either

1. Know perfect Spanish

2. Bring out random Spanish

Ripper is the kind of person to actually act old and ..older but was born in like 2013

-not that I'm saying he was

*1996 nostalgia*

"ah.ah..ah man! The nostalgia!!"

-okay you guys can jump on this

okay guess stay with me here..stay with me here..

Wayner..and the light skin stare..

okay I'm gone

🚪 🚶

[pawzofchaos]

Some predictions for the next 4 episodes of total drama season 2 bc they're coming out tmr

//SPOILERS FOR SEASON 2

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-This person on YouTube (Dawnsbubble) had a pretty neat prediction abt Raj and Bowie (and Wayne) being driven apart by the cheating, and Bowie gets voted out either by blame or by sacrifice I think it's cool

-I have like ZERO idea what's going on with the Ripaxel plot or how they're going to deal with it, I just hope it isn't cringe as balls 🙏

-Axel talking to team skunk butt: "DONT VOTE OFF MY BF 😡"

-The rest of the team: "oh shit ok" *continues fighting abt the whole cheating thing*

-speaking of Ripper, now that he has his girl, can he pls be more involved with his team. My guy has no idea that his entire team has been cheating 😭 I still hope he actually acts like a better person to his teammates bc of his ongoing character arc

-MK and Julia double elimination I can smell it, they might make it to merge first tho

-Damien starts his heroic arc, maybe winning a challenge for his team and overcoming his fears to either save his teammates or win the challenge

-animal related challenge??

-episode 5 is definitely an ice related episode so more Wayne and Raj screen time!!!

-Scary Girl BETTER come back and do creepy shit 😭 somethin like feral Zeke me thinks

-I'm so delusional I want Scary and Chase to have an aftermath show 🙏 I know that isn't happening but PLEAASEEE

-MK and Julia get together for reals!! They have to be gfs jm sobbing

-kinda want a campers cooking challenge at some point

-swimsuit episode 🤞

[beevean]

Another thing to point out is that it's very likely that Lisa is Elisabetha's reincarnation.

I mean we know through Soma that that's possible, and not only do the 2 women look almost identical, have seemingly very similar personalities but also have almost the same name but look at the inspiration behind Mathias' story:

His story was certainly based on Dracula's from the 90s Coppola movie, in that version Vlad Tepes goes mad when his wife dies and decides to become a vampire to spite God. When he meets Mina Harker he realises that she's his late wife's reincarnation (and she is, it's confirmed in the movie itself) and falls in love with her. The main difference is that the Dracula in the movie tries to turn her into a vampire and manipulate her into being his forever while in Castlevania he seemed to genuinely love Lisa

And really, Dracula must've realised that it was more than a simple resemblence, if Brauner can recognise two random girls as his daughters' reincarnations and Alucard could seemingly track down Soma before AoS, then surely Dracula could've realised that he had just met his wife reborn

And at that point if she's technically the same woman that he used to love (though not completely, given that Soma surely isn't 100% like Dracula, only showing more Mathias-like traits when he saw Mina "die"), if she has a very similar personality as before and is willingly in love with you...then is it really replacing her?

I mean it's not like with Julia and Hector where we know for a fact that the former is a totally different woman

As an aside I feel like the best way to imagine what kind of person Mathias must've been before LoI is to just look at Soma

I don't have much to add lol. I haven't watched the Dracula movie but I knew that the Elisabetha plot point was inspired by it (also that has zero to do with the book but whatever).

I don't really know what to make of this reincarnation theme - yes, Soma is Dracula's reincarnation, but that's a special case. Why would Elisabetha reincarnate? Is Brauner actually right in seeing Eric's daughters as the reincarnations of his own, or is he just delusional?

As for the last part, I'm not sure how I'd describe Soma's personality other than slightly rude to people he doesn't know and bashful around Mina :P

[skzhocomments]

I can read your smile - Choi Minho SHINee Fanfic - Chapter 12 - A heartbreaking past

Story masterlist - please consult it for the summary of the story, trigger warnings etc.

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Chapter 11 | Chapter 13

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Chapter 12 - A heartbreaking past

word count: 2k words

~Crystal's POV~

Well, that went well. I grimaced taking back the two plates to the kitchen.

My other co-worker came to me and laughed. I bet he could barely wait to make fun of me.

"So, did the guy you like who came with another girl reject your free dessert?" He mocked.

"Guy I like? Where did that come from?" I asked with venom in my voice.

"Come on, Crystal, it's obvious."

"How is that obvious?"

"The way you look at him." He shrugged.

"And what is that way?"

"Come on, it's so obvious you're in love with the guy, it's painful at this point. You've been looking at their table the whole time, and it's like there's hearts in your eyes when you watch him. Not that hard to notice."

"We are just friends."

"Crystal, people don't look at friends the way you look at him. Be honest with yourself."

"You might just be really delusional." I started. "I don't have feelings for him. And he has a girlfriend."

"I think you're the delusional one, bestie." He shrugged and left, and I took a spoonful of the cake and ate it spitefully. It tasted good, at least, even if the taste in my mouth was bitter.

Fuck Julia.

Seeing her brought back all the negative feelings from my past, and I started feeling really shitty.

I couldn't wait for my shift to be over, but I had two more hours to go.

Oh, and I still have to take the check back to their table and see that bitch again.

~

My feet were killing me and I was unusually tired by the end of my shift.

I quickly grabbed my jacket – it tended to get cold during September nights – and I made my way out of the restaurant.

"Crystal?" A familiar voice spoke, and I turned my head in its direction.

"Minho? What are you doing here?"

"I came to pick you up..."

"Why? What happened to your date?" I raised a brow.

"About that... I'm so sorry, Crystal. I was wrong about her..."

"You don't have to apologise to me."

"I do... I had no idea you two shared a past together..."

"What, did she actually tell you anything?" I chuckled bitterly.

I really hated remembering that time of my life.

"Let's go home and talk. What do you say?"

I nodded and we started walking home together in silence, breathing in the night air.

At one point, a cold wind brushed past us, and I started to shiver. Minho then took his coat off and put it on my shoulders, and I thanked him, and I tried not to think about him, or Julia.

At least not until we got home.

~

"Okay. What did she tell you?" I smiled as we sat down on the sofa in the living room, Minho bringing me a hot cup of tea.

"Just that her family fostered you for a while, but you weren't a great fit..." he hesitated, and I let out a big sigh.

"Yea. I guess that's the gist of it. I was a spoiled child who didn't fit in, so they sent me back." I laughed.

"But what's the truth?" Minho spoke softly and touched my hand with his, and I let him hold it. It was warm.

"Do you really want to know?" I looked into his eyes, and he nodded. "We're going to be here for hours."

"That's fine. We'll sleep in tomorrow." He smiled kindly, and I brushed away two stray tears that made their way on my cheeks.

"Okay. I've never told anyone this story before, so... it might be a bit hard... to tell it."

"It's okay." His thumb rubbed circles on my knuckles in a comforting way.

---

~Flashback~

~12 years ago~

"She's such a smart little girl!" Mrs. Lewis said and touched the back of my head.

I never liked Mrs. Lewis. She was always kind when people were around, but as soon as they left, she would grab the Discipline Stick and hit my palms hard, and sometimes the soles of my feet, until they bled. I could never run during Sports the next day, and the teacher would get really angry and scream at me, and the sports teacher was old, and scary. I didn't like him either.

"Oh, is that so? We see she has perfect marks in maths-" The woman spoke, but was soon interrupted by the man next to her that was holding her hand.

"And she's already learning an advanced curriculum, even if she's only 9?!"

"Indeed, she's a really sharp-witted child." Mrs. Lewis complimented me.

"Oh, isn't that perfect, dear?" The woman teared up, and the man just nodded eagerly.

"She would get along with our little princess so well!"

"It would be a good environment to grow up in." Mrs. Lewis approved, and they signed some papers, and the next thing I knew, I was in the back of their car heading somewhere far away.

~

I now have to refer to Mr. and Mrs. Lee as 'dad' and 'mom', and they told me on the way 'home' that I now have a sister called Julia, and that I have to love her, and play with her whenever she wants, and also teach her things, because she is not as academically gifted, whatever that means.

Julia is cute, and she has blond curls that are hanging proudly over her shoulders. They are so different from my straight, black hair. She would always say 'I am beautiful, and you're not, but that's okay, because we are sisters.' and then we'd play until dawn.

I love Julia.

And she loves me too.

And I love playing with someone my age.

Kids at the orphanage are either older or younger than me, but me and Julia are both 9, and we play with her dolls. She has so many! I've never seen so many in my life!

If I'm nice to her, she lets me play.

Mom and Dad love me too. They feed me every day, and they are happy if I get a good grade.

I have a nice family, and I am happy.

~

~11 years ago~

"What do you mean, she stole your puppet?" Mom is frowning.

"I haven't stolen anything!" I defend myself. "I don't even like that puppet!"

"Shut your mouth, Christine. Don't interrupt us when we speak!" Dad is screaming at me. But why? I haven't stolen anything.

"My name is Crystal, not Christine." I mutter under my breath. I hate it when they call me Christine. They say Crystal is a bad name. 'It's the name of a whore', they say, and we'll change it if they adopt me.

If.

"No, it's not!" Mom slaps me, and my cheek hurts and gets red immediately.

Julia is crying, still claiming that I stole her puppet.

I didn't, but they don't want to believe me.

~

~10 years ago~

"You're old enough now, why aren't you more responsible?!" Dad shouts. I don't understand why he's so upset. I got 90%. It's a good grade.

"Look, Daddy! I got full marks!" Julia smiles happily.

"Just as expected from my princess! See, Christine? You could've done better. We used to think you're smarter than this."

"But I did her project too." I frown. "She got full marks off my work."

"What did you just say?" Dad gets up from the table.

Oh-oh. That's bad.

I start running away, realising too late that he is in a bad mood today. He catches me by the hair, and I scream, so he grabs my mouth and squeezes hard.

I shut up.

"Julia, darling, will you bring daddy the wooden paddle?"

"NO!" I start crying this time. I know what that means.

Julia smirks at me.

She is happy.

She loves seeing me get hurt. Says she hates me getting attention.

That's why she hid the puppet in my room one year ago, when Mom stopped loving me and hit me for the first time.

She brings the paddle, and Dad bends me over the table and hits me as hard as he can.

I wince in pain, and I scream, and cry, and cry, and cry, but he doesn't care. He hits me again.

And again.

And again.

It hurts walking afterwards, and I can no longer sit down, or lay on the bed on my back. I have to lay on my tummy instead.

When I look in the mirror the next morning, there are big bruises on my butt, and I know it's going to take a while for them to go away.

It's still sore, but I can at least sit down in school now.

I don't tell anyone, but I cry myself to sleep for two weeks afterwards, until the bruises fade away.

Mom checks them.

Once they're gone, Julia does something, or says something, and Dad gets angry again, and he hits me with the paddle or with the bath brush.

It hurts.

It hurts.

It hurts.

~

~9 years ago~

"We are sorry to hear this one's been giving you trouble." Mrs. Lewis says and smacks the back of my head.

I no longer cry when being hit, and I don't move away.

I know better now.

"She is a monster!" Mom – no, Mrs. Lee says.

"She is a compulsive liar, a troublemaker, and she doesn't fit in with our perfect family!" Mr. Lee shouts. "We can't believe you raised such a horrible child!"

"Apologies, Mr. Lee. We promise you we're going to take care of her bad behaviour."

She sends me to the "Discipline room" - a fancy word for the cellar, and I am only given water and bread until I 'learn my lesson'.

But what is there to learn?

They let me out after two weeks, and Mrs. Lewis tells me I'm 'damaged goods' now. No one is going to want to adopt me with my record. I am just wasting the orphanage's money. I won't accomplish anything with my life.

I'm going to live under that roof until I'm 18, then I'm going to leave and never see them again.

That sounds good.

I don't want Mrs. Lewis to be right about me, so I will only focus on studying, and I will go to university and get a good job.

Yes, it sounds like a good plan.

I will endure the beatings, the hunger pangs and Mrs. Lewis' mean remarks, and I will study, and study, and study, until I move away.

~

~End of flashback~

---

"Crystal... I'm so sorry... I don't even know what to say..." Minho teared up and hugged me tightly.

"You wanted to know..." I spoke, crying as well.

"I did. I'm so glad you trusted me enough to tell me..."

"I just... it was so hard to understand why they did that... It felt like there was a huge gaping hole in my soul that was bleeding out sorrow and hurt, and I just couldn't comprehend what I did that was so bad."

"You didn't do anything. You were just a kid."

"I'm so sorry, Minho. You were so excited about Julia..."

"Who cares about her? Don't even think about her anymore, ever. She or her piece of shit family don't deserve to be even a passing thought in your mind." He caressed the back of my hair and held me tight.

I closed my eyes.

He smelled comforting. I haven't even opened his room while he was gone, not wanting to invade his privacy, and it felt so horrible to have his smell disappear from this house and be replaced with mine.

I missed his smell.

I missed him.

"I'm glad you're back." I whispered and hugged him tighter.

"Me too. I missed talking to you."

He let go and we looked at each other for a while, and it was the sea incident all over again, so instead of being foolish like last time and trying to kiss him, I averted my eyes first, not daring to cross yet another boundary and go through another rejection.

We were simply friends, and that was fine.

He heard me out.

It was the first time I ever told someone my story, and what abuse I've been through, and he paid attention, and held my hand, and hugged me tightly and cried with me.

That was good enough. I am content that this was the only type of relationship we were ever going to have.

That was okay.

"It's already 3 AM." I chuckled, wiping away the remaining tears that were still streaming down my face.

"Time goes by quickly in good company." Minho smiled, and I just nodded.

"Let's go to sleep." I stood up and stretched my arms with a yawn. Crying was tiring.

---

Chapter 11 | Chapter 13

[idle-soliloquy]

the lyrics "I kiss you on your neck / You were staring at the ceiling / I should've known right then and there you were a runaway" are very cheating microfic jegulus

and this part too actually, "These bad omens, I look right through them / That's what you do when you love somebody"

Fits perfectly... Thank you for sharing, just listened to it twice. I'm also partial to What a Time by Julia Michaels for this fic. That one is more of a "James' delusional perspective is making him romanticise and forget, to eventually bounce back to Regulus cause he just loves to suffer."

I have a new chapter in the works, it's almost ready. Btw, it's also on ao3, if you prefer to read there.

[valhala90]

Shall we date? Love Tangle, Timo’s and Paul’s route part 2

I already talked about the common route and Paul’s route in part one.This is Timo’s route in detail, with premium moments, for those who are interested.

Major spoilers below

So, you've chosen to get away from Paul's psychotic one-man act? Good for you, because you've chosen the sane option. MC ended up going with Timo, but he's confused why she followed him to his apartment when he only wanted to make her go to her place and rest. I laughed at this a lot because it's such a Timo thing to do. MC quickly says that she can't sleep and wants to help him with his research about K. leopard rehabilitation. Timo, once again manages to surprise me, by mentioning her answer has no sense, basically. He got into their argument because he wanted her to rest and says that he has no intention of getting involved in whatever was happening between her and Paul. I actually wanted to clap at this answer, because despite liking her he's staying sane and not hormone delusional. MC insists, saying that she wants his company and that she wants to talk to him. Timo is surprised by her behavior but agrees to let her into his research until she grows sleepy. I like how MC is the one insisting and making the first steps. IF you're still not convinced that Timo is a better, normal choice in this story, meet the kitten he saved and nursed to health and who's staying with him. MC gushes naturally, and is captivated by Timo's love and care for animals despite having the fucking allergies. She offers to help him look after it.

Fast forward to the day of the leopard's surgery, and it's successful. All the hopes of recovery are on the rehabilitation team which is led by Timo and MC. They start working hard together and MC's heart skips a beat when Timo says good morning instead of the no-nonsense or wasting time attitude. She has a whole internal monologue about the same old stuff like Timo being passionate about caring for animals, how he loves them blah blah. She's shocked when he hands her the key to his apartment, forgetting for a second that it's because of the kitten she promised to help him look after. MC is thrilled because he trusts her and makes a big deal out of it. Found it cute. MC gets home and goes to Timo's place to feed the kitten. She falls asleep while playing with her and Timo's like wtf are you doing? The funniest thing is that she fell asleep on the floor and Timo casually put the blanket over her (at least he didn't Kaiba that shit).

What is also funny, is Timo playing the tough guy when he's actually a big softie and MC quickly dismisses his sharp words and smiles. They bond again over work and he loans her the research materials, which she wants to return the next morning when she encounters Timo and Paul talking. To her surprise (bitch please get over yourself) they aren't speaking about her and have a civilized convo about K. leopards. Then, all of a sudden, Paul the psycho, drags Timo away to discuss something with him and shoos the MC away. I laughed so hard at this. Paul asks Timo if something happened between Julia and him to which he replies that they are a good team and that everything else is private and walks away.

The next day, Timo and Paul clash heads on a professional field. Paul wants to go with the rehabilitation plans and Timo thinks that the leopard should rest more. Paul turns to the other researchers to hear their opinion and they are like- Yeah, whatever he says because he's too stubborn to listen anyways. MC gets pissed for a reason and when Timo doesn't do shit about it, she realizes that it was like that before she came. Timo works in solitude without help and is isolated. Some time passes and the same question is asked, but Timo opposes again and snaps at Paul, walking away. The other researchers comment on his rudeness and that Paul should ignore him because he's like that. They even go as far as to say that he doesn't belong in the team since he can't work with others because he's a nut who only likes animals. Julia doesn't do shit, and I expected her to say something.

Paul ends the meeting on a neutral note, hoping to reach a resolvement in the next. He then says to Julia to see what's going on with Timo. Several days pass by and Timo is continuously monitoring the leopard's condition, barely leaving the institute. Julia begs him to take a break, but he stubbornly declines. She recalls the talk Paul had with Director and how he warned him if Timo doesn't cooperate, he would disband the team and give the responsibility to someone else. Timo knows that, but is still hesitant about doing any of the rehab steps and states that the leopard should be the most important thing to them instead of publicity and image. MC agrees to some point but thinks it's too much for Timo to handle alone, so she offers to stay with him, and he flatly refuses her. By now, MC has a pretty good idea of how Timo thinks, so she knows she can lower his guard by being equally stubborn and play on the animal sympathy card. She says she'll take the first shift and tells him to take a nap, to which he finally agrees. The next morning, he forces her to go home. MC complies, but is still very concerned about Timo. She knows he will collapse if he doesn't become a team player. She asks Josh to make Timo something to eat because she hopes he would get home at one point. Julia falls asleep on the sofa while she waits for Josh to make her sandwiches. An hour later Timo arrives. Josh calls out to him and offers him coffee and food saying that it was Julia's idea. Timo is stunned by the concern other people have for him and sees Julia asleep. He carries her to her room, muttering how she's troublesome because she worries about him instead of worrying about herself. Julia wakes up in her room and immediately thinks that Josh was the one who carried her upstairs and comes down to thank him. She thanks him and apologizes for having to carry her which he denies, revealing it was Timo. He informs her that Timo got the sandwiches and coffee and is back to work. MC confesses how she's worried about him and how she is afraid that her concern is a burden to Timo. Josh tells her some words of wisdom.

Armed with Joshua's encouragement, MC returns to the lab and doubles down on insisting to give Timo a hand, and how he should take a break. Timo gives up on convincing her to leave him alone and listens to her. During the break, he speaks about his previous workplace. Turns out he was in a similar situation, where the animal had a shattered bone and he got an order from a superior to proceed with the rehab as fast as possible. The whole team agreed and ganged up on him when he objected. So, he cracked under the pressure and did what he was told. The leopard's injury worsen until it fell into a shock. He regretted it ever since listening to the others and going against his gut feeling, because if he stood his ground, the animal wouldn't have suffered. MC tries to advise him to explain everything to their current team, as they will surely understand the reason behind his behavior, but Timo says that his words don't carry enough weight, because he already tried and failed. He says he must work to prove his claim with the results and therefore, can't back down. MC finally understands why Timo is viewed as an uncooperative person and why he acts the way he does, but she also comprehends that he cannot endure much more. MC decides to persuade him to talk to the team again saying that if he managed to convince her he will do the same with them. Timo says that he only told Julia because they share the same passion for animals and that others might not understand if he tells them the whole story. Julia uses common sense against him, by saying that one person cannot handle all the workload, and that's why they have a team in the first place. In other words, if he continued to behave the way he does, he will eventually slip up and fuck shit up. He pokes her forehead in Itachi Uchiha style and smiles, saying that she became quite cheeky with him. Julia feels the pesky butterflies in her stomach, especially when he smiles widely and states that it feels great to finally have someone who understands him. MC is KO'ed and I do not blame her. Such a nice payoff with the slow built-up. I don't need them groping and kissing, because MC finally gained Timo's trust, and breached his barrier. He still isn't aware of it, though, and will soon start experiencing emotional glitches.

The next day, Timo does what MC advised him to and starts talking to a few coworkers explaining his deal and how he and Julia are at their limit. He is finally able to share his worries with the team and they accept his reasoning. MC approaches him when he's alone and congratulates him on managing to work through the misunderstanding, but she whispers it into his ear to which he blushes again. And hey, this is maybe the only route where MC isn't straight out copying the LI's attributes. If she started acting like Timo, the romance would never happen. She is the one who has to make the first move and act flirty because Timo is dense as a log when it comes to romance and some other things. So, everyone accepts Timo's advice and several days later it bears fruit when the leopard gets up and stands on his own. Meanwhile, Timo asks her out to dinner to thank her for everything. Julia is stunned but quickly accepts. There is ofc, another weird moment when she contemplates what to wear, and what would Timo choose. She goes to borrow something from Joy and we get the trailer for the premium moment. MC goes to work to pick Timo up and finds his note in the room for sleeping/resting to wait for him a bit. When he finally returns he finds MC asleep, and he smiles, not wanting to wake her up. He says they will have dinner some other day and he covers her with a lab coat.

He lets his feelings loose and while observing her sleeping face, he gently kisses her. I would have a semi-problem with that, but Timo immediately feels bad about it, scolding himself. I think this scene would be better if he caressed her face or kissed a lock of hair for example, and be like- oh, shit why did I do that? So, I kinda don't understand/fully buy the next scene given his shyness and the way he was reprimanding himself. I guess that the writer(s) saw that they needed to speed things up since they were running out of space for proper romance development and decided to push poor Timo. The writer(s) decided to recycle the same scene from the beginning with the waking up next to each other. Only, it's vaguely explained how she ended up in the bed when she fell asleep at the desk. She pieced it up as Timo carried her to bed but then why is he by her side? "They somehow snuggled up to each other" and I'm like wut? Anyhow, the two share another "awkward" how did we end up in the same bed in each other's arms moment and I decided to go with my own conclusion, where Timo carried her to bed and decided to observe her a bit since he finds her cute and played a dangerous game "let me rest my eyes for a moment." That would explain the fade-to-black scene and how they ended up in each other's arms.

They give the report to Paul about the leopard's recovery since he was away and Timo and Paul praise each other's work. Paul stops MC afterward to talk to her about the engagement since the surgery is over and the rehabilitation is near the end. MC is self-conscious and looks at Timo who's waiting for her at the door I assume, but he has his usual, blank expression despite hearing Paul's words. MC says she's flattered but that an engagement is a big step, and she doesn't refuse him so he gives her one more week to consider. Yeah, this is what I hate. They prolong obvious choices for the sake of fake and unneeded drama. She can refuse him regardless of how Timo feels since she likes him and needs to take her feelings into consideration and not lead Paul on. Timo has an unusual reaction, which I can understand because he's having difficulties with his feelings, given that up until recently he isolated himself and avoided social activities as much as possible, so he tugs her hand and leads her away to the dolphin pool again. There is a nice line here about how animals are unburdened by the thoughts and feelings that humans have, which ultimately makes us torture ourselves and do or not do certain things. And that's all that's good about this scene. I was a bit mad at MC since she showed promising behavior in earlier chapters, being the one who made the first steps and the one who pushed Timo out of his shell. I expected her to realize that she has a crush on Timo, but all of that is undermined for a cheap, unneeded drama, since the writer(s) decided to cling to a pathetic love triangle trope. This is the reason this route got only 4 stars from me. Bottom line is that Timo already has a hard time leaving his comfort zone and doing things that defy logic, you don't need to make him regret doing so by being an indecisive bitch who beats around the bush. Anyway, back to the scene. They talk about their dream again and MC discovers that she really loves Timo's smile. He reaches out to touch her cheek and she's so stunned (c'mon now) especially when he asks her what answer is she going to give to Paul. No, obviously no to the proposal. Is what I would like to happen but the shitty love triangle trope needs to be shoved in. MC shits a lot about the already decided thing, by saying that she needs to think about it since Paul is her friend and she owes him a sincere answer (all the more reason to reject him and not prolong it). Timo pats her head but is visually disappointed. She shits some more about how work comes first and although she likes Paul, he wants different things that don't align with her vision. Okay, go and say that to Paul. Timo changes the subject back to work, probably regretting asking anything, because her talk no jutsu can be interpreted as if she has feelings for Paul and is indecisive for that reason. On the other hand, I like how Timo is pushing himself out of his comfort zone and I can see his growth. They come home from work and immediately have to read more articles related to rehabilitation, but we all know it's just an excuse to keep them together and move the plot further. It would be interesting if they consulted real research and inserted a few professional sentences here and there. But sure enough, the plot mover comes in form of Naoki's gift from his hometown - sake. While reading, they sip sake and Timo suddenly kisses her. She doesn't reject it and he asks her if she likes him. He kisses her again before she can reply.

Just when it gets hot and heavy, Timo leans against her and she stops him saying that things are going too fast only to realize that he fell asleep. MC notices that Timo emptied his bottle of sake and, since was a small one, she concludes he doesn't have much alcohol tolerance. She manages to lay him down on the sofa and covers him with a blanket. Again, the scene is left blank and MC states the next day that she slept beside Timo, but can't remember how she got to do that. Timo fills in the blanks- he woke up at one point and carried her to his bed, but he can't remember how he ended up beside her. 

Let me tell you- you got in bed with her, mystery solved and it's fucking absurd how they used this shit for the third time. MC tells him about the alcohol episode and Timo is extremely embarrassed. Before he can say anything, his phone rings and they have to get back to work because someone from a renowned international research institute came. The big shot is disappointed that the leopard is resting because he wanted to see him run. Timo offers to show him data, but he quickly brushes it off and says he doesn't have time. Take a guess who's the antagonist in this story. Henry is the first to confirm that professor Dickhead doesn't like animals in case you had any doubts. Timo quickly agrees.

Several days go by, and MC notices how Timo is keeping his distance. She tries to use the kitten as an excuse to talk to him, but he curtly replies and says no. When she tries a friendlier approach and asks if something is bothering him, he walks away. Julia believes that he regrets kissing her. What did you expect? He probably feels awkward and ashamed of his advances because you're keeping Paul on the back burner. The rift continues to deepen no matter how many times MC attempts to communicate with him. Timo seemingly returned to his old ways, because even when she admits that she misses him, he says that he doesn't have time and that she should hang out with someone else. Like Paul for example.

MC takes his advice and she encounters Paul, and... this bitch I swear...  has a thought that he must have realized that she doesn't want to marry him. Yeah, I was really frustrated with this. Just fucking say that you don't want to marry him already. While they chitchat, Paul mentions the rumor that Timo got a job offer from that big-shot Dickhead. Despite saying praises about Timo, she becomes more depressed since she's convinced that he will leave. Paul continues to talk about how it's a great opportunity and how he will organize a farewell party for him, while MC tunes out. She remembers their time together, the talk about dreams, and wants to cry. Paul interrupts her train of thought and insists on her confiding in him, but she reassures him that everything is fine. She thinks how things would be easier if she had fallen for Paul.

I... already ranted in part 1, so I'll restrain myself from mentioning Paul's rapey vibes in his route.Anyway, this is the moment when she needs to get advice, and I would be totally fine with it if it didn't undermine the great moments between Julia and Timo. It's reasonable to think that MC understands him better than anyone at this point. She should be the one to know how Timo is struggling and that his defense mechanism is to push people away. The only advice she should get is about the obvious thing that Timo likes her, since Paul knows, and can offer a male POV. BUT NO. Instead, this happens.

Paul can literally read her mind by observing her frown (dude, maybe she's constipated). He tells her how Timo is a socially awkward person and has burdens on his own, especially now. This scene essentially takes a massive dump on all the earlier relationship development. Timo walks in while Paul is hugging her, and apologizes for interrupting them. If that wasn't forced enough then the next scene sure testifies to that because MC literally screams "Don't go!" taking Timo by surprise. Paul makes his exit thankfully, whispering something to Timo.

Timo and Julia go to the second floor to talk, and he admits he got a job offer from professor Dickhead. She congratulates him and Timo is about to say something but the story cannot be resolved because there is still some space left for the artificial conflict and more bullshit writing. Timo gets interrupted by Lucas who starts tugging on his clothes. MC comments on how the dog saved them from an unpleasant topic, forcing me to take a little break in writing this because I started to get enraged at the well-established writer's M.O. to shove the unnecessary, ridiculous circumstances as much as possible.

So, Lucas drags them to the yard where they see a cat and Timo quickly concludes that it’s the mother of the kitten he's looking after (let's say I buy all of this because I had some extremely clever pets over the years, but the reality is that the writer(s) need(s) to get rid of the kitten since Timo either has to go away or stay), so he brings the kitten and it's reunited with its mother. MC asks if he'll feel lonely without the kitten, and he says that he's used to being alone. 

Wait, Timo, don't blindside me like this, I was mad

Back in her room, Joy's waiting for her (MC never locks the door) and dumps some clothes she wants to get rid of. Joy can read her mind as well, and MC confesses to her that she loves Timo and that she is sad that he's going to leave because of the job offer. Joy then reminds her that a long-distance relationship is a thing and MC's mood lifts. She tries some clothes on because it's time for another premium moment. Julia finds Timo and decides to finally have the talk that she was conveniently postponing up until the last chapter. Timo asks her if she's going somewhere because she looks different than usual, and when she asks if she looks weird he bluntly replies that she's quite attractive. Lol, smooth. MC tells him everything she was suppressing, how she hates that they grew distant and how she's sad about him leaving despite being glad that he's recognized as a great researcher. Timo shares that he put some distance between them because he's been conflicted between logic (to accept the amazing job that would help him advance to his dream) and the feelings he developed for her. In the end, he confesses.

Despite it, the next scene shows us Julia crying in her room because Timo is set on leaving. If it feels like a chunk of the story is missing, you’re right. Turns out you purchased the premium moment for nothing, because there is a huge difference between the premium and normal moment.  

In normal route she goes to his apartment and is saddened when she sees that his apartment is almost empty. The reality hits hard, and Timo asks her what she wanted since he doesn't have much time and needs to pack. MC apologizes for interrupting him, and says that she needs to get something off her chest. She confesses that she loves him, and Timo is visibly uncomfortable saying that he's not good at that sort of thing. MC says that she's willing to wait for him but he says that this is his answer and that he doesn't want her to do that.

She receives a call that one of the leopards is missing. She collides with Timo on her way out and decides to set private things aside to focus on the job. They leave together.

-Supreme ending- The leopard has gone missing, and Timo reminds MC that they had an attempt of breaking into the leopard's cage and he wants to call ALERTE GENERALE! and get the cops..

MC suspects that the poachers could be behind it, but Timo says that the injured leopard is the one who's missing, so poachers couldn't sell it at full price. During their search of the animal reserve, they encounter professor Dickhead trying to escape with the leopard and a few other henchmen. Dickhead wants the leopard for his institute and to take all the credits. He tries to convince Timo that it would be beneficial to his career too, and Timo loses his shit and tells him politely to go fuck himself. Dickhead doesn't fail to mention that he only offered a job to Timo because of the leopard case and that he doesn't intend to leave the results of his research behind. Timo says that he can shove the job offer where the sun doesn't shine.

Police arrest them and the background plot is over and it's meh as usual. MC consoles Timo, saying that he will be one of the most renowned researchers n the world because he works hard and deserves it. He blushes and Andrea makes another creepy appearance to take their picture. Timo tells him to get lost (how the fuck did he enter?) and they make it to the papers.Timo is not going anywhere, but MC thinks he wants to put his job first and decides to keep her feelings to herself. What the fuck was this then? Why is this not acknowledged in the slightest? At least you shouldn’t do something major like this if you plan to continue as if I played it for free. 

They have to test my patience ‘till the very last minute. Mr. C decides to throw them a small party to celebrate their success (as if he needs a reason to party) and Joy urges MC to confess her feelings... again. Paul teases Timo about being rivals in love. Timo says they aren't, to make the dramatic effect so that MC can draw all the wrong conclusions. Naturally, he loves her and taunts Paul.

After he kisses her, MC assumes he had a drink or two, and everyone congratulates them. Timo apologizes for taking so long to make a move, but he promises she won't get rid of him easily, 'cause he'll stick around forever. MC asks about the sudden kiss and he just replies that he got tired of watching Paul make moves on her.

So we really don't count that fucking premium moment, huh?  

-Happy Ending-

In this version, the leopard wasn't stolen. It wandered off and was trying to jump on a tree. Timo stops him, worried about the rehabilitation. He tells Julia that he decided to accept the job, but is concerned about the leopard's recovery. Fast forward to the day of his departure, and MC is trying hard not to be sad. She hides behind the others because she thinks she might break down in tears, but Timo walks up to her and asks her if he can shake her hand. It's a bittersweet moment where MC wishes him all the best and thinks about how they will see each other again since they chase the same dream. After Timo leaves, Paul asks her if she wants to have dinner. MC knows that he's trying to console her, and refuses. She also rejects his proposal, thinking how it would be easy to let Paul patch up her wounds but it wouldn't be fair to him since she loves Timo. Finally some common sense. A year passes and Paul informs her that Timo is back because of a collaboration and he will potentially stay for a year. MC is happy because her feelings grew even stronger, so she rushes to see him. When she finds him in the leopard area, she welcomes him back enthusiastically, but Timo can't look her in the eyes. He questions her why she's excited to see him when he chose work over her, and she states that she understands why he did it. It was a difficult choice to make, and she would be in a dilemma too. She admits that she still loves him, and Timo is torn and conflicted, stating that she makes it difficult for him to leave her. Although she is hopeful by his answer (confession from the premium moment never happened), Timo says that he's an awkward person who doesn't know how to properly balance work and relationships (it's realistic I admit it, but I'm still mad about the premium moment). Despite it, MC states that she won't stop loving him and that she wants him to love her back. Timo is stunned again and reveals that he didn't stop thinking about her since the day he left. He asks for forgiveness, and they hug each other and confess their love.

Final thoughts: I think Timo's route is the most realistic one I've read in this otome. It has great insights into the work MC does, why she loves it, and what's her goal/dream. You should definitely read it to get the whole picture of her as a person, regardless of the romantic route. Each route more or less contains some information about Julia Darwin and the way she will behave depends on the circumstances and love interest. I already mentioned how MC tends to take the personality which would suit the LI, but her core traits such as loving her work and animals, and being a workaholic don't change. Although I liked Timo's route, it's far from perfect with all the artificial drama, some inconsistent parts, not caring about the premium scenes, and other minor flaws. I gave it 4 out of 5 stars.  As for the endings, I like elements from both supreme and happy ending, and my ideal ending would be a combination of both. All in all, I really liked Timo's route and don't regret the money spent despite the last premium moment failure. 

If you read all of this, thank you!  

[tea-with-evan-and-me]

thank you for being so reasonable about the police report thing. people keep bringing it up but honestly i think they are lying or having mandela effect like you said because it’s pretty much impossible to scrub things off the internet of that magnitude. like are you going to tell me nobody saved these aledged pictures of evan being assaulted? they arent saved on web archive? there’s 0 evidence of these things being online other than people saying they saw them. meanwhile other equal or worse things keep resurfing from time to time (including the suicide letter from julia roberts’ sister where she blames julia for her death. you would think if her team could scrub emma’s public arrest from the internet, they could easily scrub that).

these doesn’t take away from the fact that she was arrested for assaulting him and is in general a horrible human being by all acounts (aside from being a terrible actress). but these lies need to stop, it’s just unnecessary and then her stans cling to it to show how people “lie” about him being assaulted.

i really appreciate your nuanced takes on things. people with gossip accs are usually delusional with hatred.

thank you, i just feel like in general, facts matter and it’s important to stay focused on what we do know, because it’s more than enough for us to speak out against. i care about people knowing what actually happened and what is true, we don’t need to lean on things that we have no proof of. i don’t actually think anyone is being malicious, i think it’s been a decade since the news broke and people likely have filled in the blanks in their memory.

now.. that’s not to say we can’t discuss things like blind items but everyone will have to use their discretion and decide what seems feasible to them. personally, my rule of thumb is.. where there’s smoke, there’s fire. if there is a never ending list of accounts saying emma is a nightmare, then it’s true.

[malue-505]

Appearance

Basic Info

Title: The Pacifier

Other Aliases: Unknown Babysitter, The Feminine Shadow

Real Name: Sydney Alexandria McQuoid

Species: Human

Gender: Female (Cis)

Age: 25

Birthday: March 3rd

Sexuality: Heteromantic Demisexual

Personality: Sly, Delusional, Motherly, Childish at times and a bit arrogant.

Height: 5ft 9in

Side/Affiliation: (Will later on be revealed)

Relationships Info

Relationship Status: Taken by BlackJack, her boyfriend (An OC of mine)

Known Family:

Mathew McQuoid (Father, Alive)

Venessa McQuoid (Mother, Alive)

Heather McQuoid (Daughter, Deceased)

Mary Anderson (Aunt, Alive)

Julia Svensson (Aunt, Alive)

Chloe Anderson (Cousin, Alive)

Harry Anderson (Cousin, Alive)

Viktor Svensson (Cousin, Alive)

Friends: (Will later on be revealed)

Enemies: (Will later on be revealed)

Killer Info

Weapons: Scissors (If she doesn’t have them currently she’ll make due with whatever is around her)

Strengths: Athleticism (She has a bit more stamina and is quite flexible) and stealth

Weaknesses: Any normal human weaknesses (Being stabbed, being shot, pain, etc.)

Catchphrase: “Cat got your tongue?”

Activity: She exclusively becomes active at night and is close to never come out at day.

Killer Signature: Tongueless babies, toddlers and children accompanied with a handwritten note.

Who does she kill?

She doesn’t really kill, though what she does to her victims might end up killing them afterwords. Her victims are usually babies, toddlers and children up to the age of 6. She does not kill teenagers and adults because, due to her past, she feels like she can sympathize with them. That does not mean she wouldn’t kill for self defense however.

What does she do to her victims?

She first sneaks around a neighborhood and pears through windows to see if the household has any young children. Once she is sure, she will break in when all the residents are asleep and sing lullabies to their children. However, if the victim begins to cry/show signs of not trusting her when she’s “nurturing” them, she will use her scissors to cut off their tongues as a way to “silence” or to punish them. She will also occasionally leave a note behind for the parents warning them to properly take care of their children.

What is her motivation?

Most of this is explained in her origin story but for short: since she’s a former mother, she feels as though she was given the right to judge if a child is misbehaving and if the parents are at fault. She basically acts like an entitled parent.

Origin Story

(Summarized version)

Sydney’s parents were always busy working at their university so they never had the time to fully raise her, the nannies that they hired did that responsibility for them instead. During high school, she was a cheerleader thus making her popular and eventually gaining a boyfriend, in which he has gotten her pregnant leaving Sydney to find out at the day of her senior graduation.

He had left her after hearing the news therefore leaving her to raise their child on her own. Throughout most of her early adulthood, Sydney had become devoted to taking care of Heather by working several jobs, making her sacrifice her own wellbeing. On Halloween night, she was then tricked by Laughing Jack into accidentally killing her daughter.

Ever after doing something horrendous, she actually felt liberated from overworking herself. She made up a new alter ego for herself: The Pacifier, the woman who mercies the good children while punishing the bad ones who don’t enjoy her motherly presence.

Extra Info

Likes: Cats, singing lullabies, baking and children who behave.

Dislikes: Messes, being in broad daylight, crowds of people and misbehaving children.

Trivia:

She sometimes collects the tongues to add to the collection she has, it’s not uncommon for her to leave the tongue behind.

Her mask was originally made for her daughter for Halloween as part of a black cat costume.

Her parents own and run a university called “McQuoid Institution.”

She regularly exercises whenever she isn’t out stalking.

She has an odd fascination with baby dolls and sometimes steals them from victims.

She hates messes, especially messy crime scenes and will very often clean up after herself.

The necklace she currently wears is from her daughter since they used to wear matching necklaces.

Her ancestry is Swedish and Indian however she is not connected to either of her cultures due to her parents not raising her.

If she met Laughing Jack knowing that he was the one that he was the one that tricked her into killing Heather, she would actually be grateful and thank him considering that he was the one that helped liberate her from her stressful lifestyle, albeit indirectly. (This is purely hypothetical since they will never cross paths again, this is not canon to Laughing Jack)

Theme Songs

(More will be added)

Milk and Cookies - Melanie Martinez

Come Little Children - Hocus Pocus

- Malue <3

[realhousewives-fan]

The Star is Borderline Delusional!

Last season Alexia Echevarria might have been the star of the show, but she’s acting like a villain who’s spiralling out of control.

The way she proclaimed that she was defending herself “because everything was about her and everybody was attacking her this season”, was despicable.

She is undermining everybody, with of course the exceptions of Larsa Pippen and Marysol Patton. And the other women are tired of it.

Alexia maintained that she was a star, but all the women have interesting lives.

Lisa Hochstein is going through a crazy divorce, Nicole Martin struggles with her relationship with her father, and Julia Lemigova struggles with her wife Martina Navratilova’s two cancer diagnosis!

It’s not always about you, Alexia.

And the way she argues! Ay por favor! She’s so obnoxious! She’s loud, rude, condescending, and dismissive. And why is she so defensive?

She exclaimed that Guerdy Abraira was difficult to work with, but everybody can clearly see what a nut case Alexia is.

Nicole made an excellent argument that Alexia forces everybody to apologise – and work so hard to prove how apologetic they are – while she expects everyone to forgive her as soon as she says: “I’m sorry”.

It’s exhausting!

Alexia has made it seem like Adriana de Moura was dating a married man, when he actually was divorced…

And Adriana kept on dropping excellent receipts. And they weren’t in a folder, or bejewelled box, or printed on posters. It was just folded papers from her bag.

She showed a text message from Alexia where she tried to fix her up with a married man, to which Adriana said she would never do.

But why was she trying to shame Adriana now?

But the last straw for me was when Alexia said, while defending herself as “a star”, that if Lisa thought of herself as a star, Lenny Hochstein would’ve never treated her the way he has.

Everybody was shocked! After the season Lisa has had, why would you disrespect her like that at the reunion?

What looked like a season of sisterhood, has now returned to being a hot mess.