#actually ig im gmt+2 now but im too lazy to change that

[kvngmin]

im never gna be able to use this gif again so enjoy !! dis is cecy ( 20, she/her, gmt+1 ) aka the uglie w 3 male charas bc she cant play females. fun fact: myungsoo is kangmin’s 6th fc bc i cant evr make up my mind .. this is his final form .. i think dlsfksl. y’all kno i lov angst n this rite here is my angst machine, king of angsty backstories, a goddamn mess ( no one hates my charas more than i do ) so hit that lil heart for the plots ! also a few triggers in this intro so pls dont feel obligated to read - if u wna plot n haven’t read it, just lemme kno n i’ll give u a v nice n considerably less trigger-heavy summary ! [ solar vc ] leggo ! 

TW: bullying, murder, rape, depression, suicide attempts, death sentence [all v briefly mentioned]

22 years old, born in daegu, moved around a lot before ending up in seoul when he was around 8

it was all pretty good tbh, his parents had their issues, but they loved him v much !

he did rly good in school n was rly kind n just such a model citizen !! he had everything !! so much potential !!

here come the Yikes™

bc of this he started getting bullied by this gang of assholes when he was around 16. it was… pretty awful

in an attempt to actually stop the bullying, kangmin joined them and they let him mostly bc it was amusing

they were bad ppl tho, destroying private property, setting things on fire, beating up others, all the fun stuff !! kangmin was always a bit in the background tho, always uncomfortable w it all

he actually managed to remain himself for the most part until The Thing happened

his so-called ‘’’friends’’’ had raped n murdered this 13 yr old and kangmin had only arrived there later, walking right into a trap the others had set up for him. at this time, kangmin was 18

all evidence pointed towards him, the actual cinnamon roll, the rl sunshine… he was devastated, even more so when they gave him the death sentence haha can u imagine the psychological toll yeah he was fucking crushed

got hella fucking depressed n tried to off himself 4 times, has some nasty scars after it

a year later his sentence was reduced to lifetime n he was allowed to speak to his parents again n they .. fucking hated him lol so he basically lost everyone n everything n kinda just accepted defeat ..

bc of the accusations against him he was treated rly badly in prison by the other inmates, but he also lowkey noticed that they were scared of him a lil, n then when was 20 he was like lol ok they want me to be a murderer i’LL B A GODDAMN MURDERER

hypothetically tho

so w his reputation as a heartless maniac he became the boss ass mafia of the prison fuck u aLL this is my house now

lol just recently the police found out that shit… u innocent… fukc

so he was released from prison fairly recently like couple of months ago ?? he was given a nice amount of money but had nothing to return to so ;))

he’s rly fucking bitter n angry but most of all kangmin is rly rly rly fucking sad n keeps pushing everyone away bc he doesnt !! want help !! yes he does

n he’s just so crushed his life turned out this way but he tries to kill every bit of what is left of him bc what is the point anymore lmao ? the boi i used to be almost got killed so ? but he’s too soft to b a rl meanie lbr so he just appears kinda emotionally Dead . he’s harmless for the most part y’all 

he has developed anger issues tho n he can get rl violent 9/10 dont recommend

if u dig deep enough u might find the old kangmin …….. maybe