#acceptances coming sooooon

[aritany]

Can you make a modern fantasy world? Like one with different countries and cultures, but with cars and phones and stuff.

buddy if you're writing you can do whatever you want

[kendallroydefender]

Somewhere only we know- Chapter 8 (Kendall Roy x Reader)

Masterlist

Series summary: You met Kendall when you were six years old. You have spent every summer together and now years later you and him are still just as close.

This story follows Kendall and his best friend through their lives. Will they realize their feelings for each other before it’s too late?

Chapter four summary: Your family is invited to England for Shivs wedding. Even though the bear hug is going on, you and Kendall find some moments just for the two of you until something changes.

Authors Notes: I am so sorry! I’ll make it up to you sooooon

Wordcount: 4.5K

You meet Kendall at the airport. He’s already in the jet when you walk in. It’s just him and Jess. Everyone else takes their own private jet but Kendall had asked you if you wanted to come with him and you had happily accepted. You like Jess a lot too.

He has to do some work things and so do you. You know about the bear hug so he stays in the area of the plane with you while making calls and you answer emails on your laptop.

After a few hours you shut your laptop and cuddle back into the seat, Jess went to bed hours ago. You eye Kendall for a bit. He notices you looking ”Hey.“

”Hey.“ you smile back at him

”What?“ he asks

”Nothing, just happy you and Stewy have each other.“ you

”Yeah, well I’m glad we have you too.“ he answers you

”I’m glad to have you too.“ you grin and he grins back at you before beckoning you over to him

”We should sleep a bit.“

You cuddle up in his arms, head resting on his chest. He presses a kiss into your hair. You think 'I love you.' but don’t say it. Instead you move your head and press a kiss onto his cheek. A little too close to his mouth and Kendall holds you a little tighter. He hopes you don’t notice his heartbeat increasing. His fingers draw shapes onto your back and you feel incredibly happy in this moment. You hope the wedding will be nice for the two of you, his father isn’t there anyway.

When you wake up it’s close to landing and you freshen up in the bathroom really quick. A car is already waiting for you when you get out of the plane.

The drive over to where the guests will stay your head rests on his shoulder while Kendall is talking to Stewy, who will arrive in a few hours. He’s absentmindedly playing with your fingers while talking.

You get the keys to your rooms. Your bags will be put in your place without you, so you follow Kendall to his room. He keeps your hand in his the whole time, not caring who sees. You collapse on his bed, still tired after the long flight even though you’ve slept on the private jet. Kendall lays down with you until he gets a message from Stewy that he has arrived and want to meet him at some pub. You groan when Kendall gets up

”Sorry, honey. I’ll be back soon.“ he says in a low voice. Putting on his jacket and kissing your forehead softly before leaving. You drift off with a smile on your face.

••••••••••••••••••••••••••••


You decide to drive separately to the rehearsal dinner, you’re coming with your family and he has to attend the church with his family beforehand to go through everything. You get ready for the evening. Its cold and grey out. You aware that Caroline somehow talked Shiv into doing the wedding here but you wish it could be somewhere warm.

You arrive with your parents at the location for the rehearsal dinner.

”Shiv, Hey!“ You give her a hug.

You talk to her for a little until a woman pulls her away to go through some details. Next you meet Roman who introduces you to an absolutely stunning woman called Tabitha. You talk for a little while until you spot Kendall. ”Excuse me.“ You smile at the curly haired blonde and make your way over to your friend.

”Hey, you.“ you smile while you are becoming more and more aware about how pathetic it is that you can’t go long without gravitating back to Kendall. He smiles back at you

”Dude, did you actually take Honey as your date for the wedding?“ Stewy asks his friend with a grin

”No, uh, no. We just both didn’t take a date.“ Kendall shrugs, it’s no big deal and doesn’t have to mean anything. Although he is glad you didn’t took some guy with you. He can’t deal with another Martin.

Stewy raises a eyebrow at him ”But you did come here together, right?“ he

”Yeah. But that’s just whatever.“

”So you haven’t asked her out?“

”Uh-huh, no I didn’t.“

He hasn’t told anyone about it but he actually is thinking about asking you out on a real date. It’s not a set plan yet but he thinks it could be a start. He has more confidence in not ruining your friendship with it these days. He has noticed that you don’t behave like just friends in the last months. Maybe Stewys words finally gotten to him. He wants to take you out to the best restaurant in New York City, no the best in the whole world. He wants to do something big for you. It has taken you such a long time to get here he can’t mess it up again.

Lately he thinks a lot about college when you two started to sleep with each other and he can’t help but ask himself how his life would look if you had come together back then. He had ran back then, not wanting to lose you by admitting his feelings. But history is history and he has the ability to change the future of you two now.

You sit next to him for the meal. The food is really good but that was predictable. You tell Kendall about some ridiculous client you had to deal with at work and he’s laughing. It feels almost careless and you love seeing the sparkle in his eyes. That’s until he overhears Shiv talking behind you in a quiet moment.

”Who’s coming?“ Kendall asks turning around to his sister

”Dad. And Marcia.“ Shiv answers him

”Wait- Dads coming… here?“

You swallow the soup while watching Kendall get up and follow his sister. You bite your lip, it could have been such a peaceful weekend.

Kendall takes his jacket muttering a little ”I’ll text you.“ To you to wich you give him a small nod.

Its evening and you still havent seen Ken for a while. He had sent you a message letting you know that he will be back for the party.

Toms parents tell you about the wine they bought and you tell them its delicious.

”Nate! Oh my god! Its been ages“ you tell him when you see him at the bar. You give him a hug. ”Hey, y/n.“ he greets you with a genuine smile. ”Wow it’s good to see you. Heard you work for the governor now, look at you!“ you tell him and he chuckles ”Yeah who would have thought huh? From partying in Shanghai to this. But you seem to do well too!“ you two reminisce about your times in Shanghai for a while and it’s nice to catch up with him.

You tell him to see him later and make your way away from the bar. You turn a corner on the way to the toilet. You run into the end of what seems to be a fight between Rava and Kendall. She seems angry as she leaves the scenes

”Hey, everything okay?“ you ask cautiously ”Yeah, I’m fucking fine.“ he says and you back off a little hearing his angry tone. ”Sorry… sorry.“ he says after a second, his hand giving your arm a squeeze. ”She was just trying to rile me up.“ you can tell that he’s high and you can imagine what their fight was about. You hum a little. ”Wanna go somewhere else for a moment?“ You ask him trying to get him into a quieter spot. He nods ”Yeah okay.“ You tell him to wait for you because after all you have to pee. When you open the door Kendall is nowhere to be seen. You huff out a breath but find him around the next corner talking to Frank and Gerri.

It’s dark when you step outside the venue. ”Do you- uh do you think it can work? Be honest.“ Ken asks you and you give him a look, he looks tired and a little stressed. ”Yes. I think it could. You and Stewy can do it. But it’s- it’s risky. But also I’m not a business freak like you so what does my opinion matter anyway.“ you smile a little ”Honey, you’re opinion always matters to me.“ he tells you and you are glad it’s dark so he can’t see you blush. He studies your face for a bit, there’s a strand of hair that has fallen on your cheek, he reaches his hand out to tuck it behind your ear. Your eyes snap up to meet his. He thinks it’s now he should ask you out. He opens his mouth but before he can speak he hears footsteps approaching.

”Any of you kids have a cigarette I can have?“ Caroline.

Kendall removes his hand from where it’s lingering on your cheek to get his pack out of his suit pocket.

”Yeah, uh, one moment.“ he notices that you still haven’t stepped away from him and he finds that he doesn’t want you to. So he pulls you a littler closer with his arm on your hip as he takes a drag. In the distance you can hear the faint sound of an helicopter approaching.

”Your father is making a subtle entrance I see.“ She says and you chuckle a little wich the elder woman notices and smirks at you

Logan and Marcia arrive and you stand beside Kendall, his hand ghosting over the small of your back. You spot Stewy talking to Logan before Logan makes his way over to you.

”Kendall.“

”Dad.“

”So, what about it, son? You want to jump out the trenches and play a game of soccer? Can I bring you some corn to get you through the winter?“

Stewy and you meet eyes, it’s the same slightly worried look only you two understand.

”How ya doin? Whats the news?“ Logan asks

”Oh keeping busy.“ Kendall answers

”You need a reference for your resume? Relatively punctual. Prone to bouts of insubordination.“ Logan asks and you have to fight the urge not to scoff

”Yeah, well, you know.“

“So… how long are you gonna fuck about on the outside?“

”Uh-huh. You recruiting? What, new head of being continually thwarted?“

”How would TV network suit you? Huh? One of the big guys when I land it. Could that work?“

”You feeling the heat on your own? Yeah? A little? You want me back? Like to uh, like to put that on a press release?“ Kendall asks

”Im just a lovely guy.“ Logan says before he walks off, as soon as he’s off you mutter a small ”Asshole.“ To wich you get a small chuckle from Ken.

••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••

”Caroline Collingwood. Mother of the bride.“ Caroline interrupts your and Stewys talk ”Oh hi, im Stewy.“ He introduces himself ”And is this your date?“ she asks turning to Stewy, who chuckles a little. ”No.“ you shake your head with a smile as Stewy introduces himself. Wich is funny considering they’ve met multiple times before.

”So how long do you give it?“ She asks and you smile at Stewy in anticipation, he throws you a side glance before answering ”Uh I’d say forever. Or until Shiv goes away for the week, whichever comes first.“ He answers before walking off with you.

”You should take me as your date for this wedding. Maybe that would get Kendall to make a move.“ Stewy jokes ”Fuck off.“ you smile ”Jealousy works wonders.“ Stewy shrugs.

”Gonna talk to Ken quickly… about the thing.“ He tells you. You find him on a couch They talk about Frank and the Canadians. You only half listen - only when Stewy calls him the little prince you come back into the conversation. You laugh remembering his old nickname. ”Aw we should start calling him that again.“

”Yeah absolutely not.“ Kendall dismisses quickly

”Still cant believe you’ve never told me about that name when we were little! I had to find out in fucking college!“ You say with a laugh

”You shouldn’t have known it at all.“ Kendall says with a glance at Stewy.

”How could I keep this title a secret?“ Stewy shrugs

The evening is coming to an end. Guests are going up to their rooms. You are sitting with Kendall, who can tell that you’re getting tired.

”I, uh, I’m gonna meet the sibs but you can go to my room. I’ll- I’ll come soon“ he says

You smile at him, your chin resting in the palm of your hand, eyes wandering over Kendall’s features. You nod a little ”Okay, yeah.“ he grins back at you then, his heart beating a little faster. You get up and he wraps his arm around your shoulders, yours sneaking around his middle as you lean into him. You walk like this until you reach the elevators, there you part.

It’s later when Kendall comes back to his room. He smoked some weed with his siblings and it felt good, normal, like it did when they were teenagers. He takes off his clothes before coming to the bedroom. He lingers in the doorway. You are asleep in the bed, the moonlight hitting the side of your face perfectly. You look absolutely beautiful and he feels like his heart could burst.

In the morning you have room service in Kendalls room. It’s a few hours until the wedding ceremony and Ken has to leave even earlier to meet with Stewy to work out the details.

You quickly walk over to your room to meet your styling team and get ready.

The first people you see once you arrive at the venue are Rava and the kids. Rava says your name before telling you how good you look. ”Thanks, but wow you look so good too!“ you exchange some small talk before Sophie and Iverson come closer.

”Sophie, you look absolutely beautiful.“ you say as you hug the girl

”Thank you.“ she smiles

”And Iverson you look so handsome in your suit!“ you tell the boy. You walk in with the three of them.

Kendall gives you a nod across the room and you nod back knowing what it means. As soon as he’s out of sight your eyebrows furrow. You are worried how this will turn out.

The ceremony was nice. Not what you wanted for your wedding but well. You can’t help your eyes to drift towards Kendall from time to time. Remembering the conversation earlier where he told you he wanted you to sit with you. You both knew you couldn’t, Shiv would hate that and the press would love. You can’t help your eyes to drift towards Kendall from time to time.

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••

Logan’s speech is first. You sit next to Kendall. With your parents close to you.

”This has been a very memorable day, a day that, well, ill never forget as long as I live. And

I wanted it to be perfect- perfect for Shiv. And it is. No one- no one can ruin this.“ You see his eyes landing on Kendall, who’s hanging his head slightly. You can’t stop yourself and actually you don’t want to stop, you reach your hand out under the table until it finds his. You interlace your fingers with his. He holds onto it as your hands rest on his thigh. Your thumb starts softly caressing his knuckles. The rest of the speech is about how nothing is more important than family. Frank comes over and whispers with Ken. The rest of the speeches go bye without another incident. Your hand is still intertwined with Kendall’s on his lap, now it’s his thumb stroking the back of your hand softly.

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••

You go outside with Stewy to watch the fireworks. You find it a little too much, a bit tacky to have them at your wedding. Kendall is still nowhere to be found.

Its cold but the show is pretty in the dark sky. When it’s over you turn to your friend while the others filter back into the location.

”Hey, Stewy? Have you seen Ken?“

”No, not in the last hour or so. But we got high and then he wanted more but-“

You stop him

”You got high? Together?“ you ask and Stewy nods as if it’s obvious

”You got high? With Kendall? After- after everything?“

Stewy says your name

”No, fuck you Stewy. Why are you encouraging him? Why are you giving him drugs?“ you ask. You can’t believe it. Stewy knew about Kendall’s struggle, hell he was there while Kendall went to rehab. You knew Stewy was still doing coke, even if he wasn’t addicted but you had always hoped he would support your best friend being sober anyway.

”Oh come on it’s-"

”No, you don’t get to tell me that it’s nothing or that I should calm down or whatever. He’s my best friend and I am allowed to worry about his other best friend giving him fucking coke when he knows what he went through!“ your voice is getting louder now.

”He would have taken it anyway, what does it matter if I’m present?“

You narrow your eyes at him ”Are you fucking kidding me? You where there! You saw him right before he left for rehab! You knew how proud he was on his progress with being sober! I’m sorry that he’s not your coke buddy anymore but you should be helping him! Not make this whole stupid fucking situation worse!“

Stewy is not saying anything and you take a deep breath. ”I thought you were a better friend than that.“ exhausted and disappointed is how you feel. You turn and walk away, shaking your head. You head back out into the main hall. Kendall is still nowhere to be found

Kendall is dancing with Rava and his kids and a small smile breaks out onto your face. You grab a flute of champagne from a tray one of the waiters carries. Stewy doesnt come back to the wedding and you can’t see Nate anywhere either. Connor is dancing with Willa and Roman just left with Tabitha so you can’t do anything except drinking your drink and try to avoid Caroline and Logan.

••••••••••••••••••••••••••

In the morning you wake up in your room you feel like a bus run over you. After a really hot long shower you put on some clothes and a little bit of makeup before you go to eat breakfast with the others. Stewy was still nowhere to be seen but it made sense that he wasn’t here. After the whole bear hug thing. You grab a plate and get some food from the buffet.

”Hey, Y/n have you heard?“ Roman asks you as he steps next to you

”That you haven’t killed anyone? Yeah you told me.“ you answer, he pokes at the scrambled eggs making a "bleurgh“ sound before saying ”No, the waiter. Apparently he drove off a bridge last night.”

Your brows furrow

”Rome, what are you talking about?“ you ask a little confused

”The waiter my dad went off on.“

”Oh fuck is he okay?“

”Well he’s dead.“ Roman says and your head snaps towards him

”Are you serious?“

He acts offended ”Who would joke about such a topic.“ before letting out a high pitched sound.

You go and sit down at an empty table.

Kendall stops at the entrance when he spots you. He thinks about how he had planned out this day, would he have already asked you out by now? He won’t tell you now. You deserve someone who can give you the world like you deserve and definitely not a murderer. He needs to let you go, to let you find happiness with someone else. He doesn’t deserve you anymore.

You sit down with a plate and pick at your food a little when you notice Kendall coming into the breakfast hall.

He looks bad too. As if he hasn’t slept at all. Kendall smiles a little at you before Greg approaches him.

Colin comes and takes him to his father a little after. As they walk past you he stops for a second at your table.

”Can we talk later?“ he asks and you can tell he’s nervous so you nod at him ”Yeah, of course.“

•••••••••••••••••••••••••

”So I’m sorry but I don’t have much time right now.“ Kendall opens the conversation as soon as he comes into the room

”Oh okay. So what did you want to talk about?“

”Actually, uh, I don’t think this is working anymore.“

”What do you mean?“ you ask genuinely confused

”This.“ he gestures between you two ”This friendship.“

You feel like a bucket of ice water has been dumbed over your head

”What? What are talking about?“

”You spoke to Stewy about me, so I, uh I don’t know if I can trust you anymore.“

You are a taken aback by his words

”Are you serious? You don’t know if you can trust me anymore?“ you ask your voice growing a little angry

”Fuck you, Kendall. I’ve never given you any reason to distrust me. I’ve always, always protected our friendship and never in my whole life told anyone anything you’ve told me in confidence!“ you spit at him. He knows that you’re right and he does trust you more than anyone in his life. He just shrugs

”I can’t believe this is happening. There are so many people in this world that aren’t to be trusted but you decided I am the one who gets punished? Even your own family fucks each other up constantly!“

He takes a deep breath because even the thought of saying the words he’s about to say makes him feel like throwing up.

”Yeah, well they’re my family.“ he’s always considered you family too, even closer than that because he knew you were

”Ouch. Okay.“ you just say, it feels like you been slapped.

And Kendall hurts like hell. He needs you in this moment more than ever but he can’t. He can’t pull you down with him. So he just stands there.

He can see tears gathering in your eyes and almost backtracks everything he said but he thinks if there’s one good thing he can do right now, it’s keeping you away from him and there’s no other way than this. Even if he wants nothing more than to hold you. To be held by you. But you need to think that he’s an asshole, to not wanting to speak to him again.

You think this is one of the worst moments of your life, it probably hurts even more than after you found out the truth about Cody. You always thought Kendall would be a part of your life forever. And you have feelings for him now, you are in love with your best friend.

You wipe a tear away before you quickly turn to leave. You don’t want him to see you cry even if he already saw your tears a million times.

You hurry to get out of the room and along the corridors when you run in to someone. The other person is visibly annoyed until he realizes it’s you. ”Hey! Oh honey. Are you okay?“ you hear Stewy ask.

”I-“ you get out before the tears start flowing heavier

”Hey, hey.“ Stewy pulls you into a hug. Some of the bridesmaids walk into the corridor talking and laughing

”Lets get you somewhere else.“ he pulls you into one of the nearby rooms

”Should I get Kendall?“ he asks and you know it’s the only

You shake your head

”No. No, he doesn’t want to talk to me anymore.“

”I’m sure that’s not true.“

You swallow ”He just told me.“

Stewys eyebrows furrow

”He just told you that he doesn’t want to talk to you anymore?“ he has to ask you nod while wiping your eyes

”What the fuck? Listen I don’t know what crawled up his ass today but he will come back. You’re honey and ken.“

He rubs your back a little more until you remember something

”Shit, I came here with him. I need to find my parents.“

”You can come home in my jet if you’d like?“ Stewy asks knowing you probably don’t want to tell anyone else about yours and Kendall’s fight

”Can I?“ You ask and your voice sounds so sad that he can’t help giving you another hug.

”Of course, y/n we’re friends.“

You go back to your room to get your bags and fix your make up a little, you end up washing your face and putting on some big sunglasses. Without seeing or talking to anyone else you slip into Stewys car. Kendall had already left, apparently he went straight to the airport after your talk. Wich you take as a sign that he really doesn’t care about you anymore. You text your dad that you are leaving with Stewy so they know you’re getting home even if Kendall is off to god knows where.

”You’ll be okay. We can go out to eat or watch a movie… or pin a picture of Kendall onto a dartboard.“ he suggests and you have to chuckle a little, wich Stewy counts as progress.

On his plane Stewy has to make some business calls, he is extremely stressed over the failed bear hug situation. You feel sorry for him too, you know him long enough to know that he’s sad about his and Kendalls sudden fallout too. You have some time for yourself, you put on your headphones and listen to sad music. It probably isn’t the best thing to do in this situation but you feel like you need it now. At some point you dose off for some time but you can’t really fall asleep for long.

”Thank you for getting me home.“ you chuckle a little

”No need to thank me. You can always call me honey, okay?“

”Yeah, you can call me too.“ you give him a little smile and hug him. You love Stewy, you’ve known him since college and he’s a good guy even if he gets lost following the money sometimes. But he’s not Kendall and nobody is. You’re sure nobody can ever be as close as he is to you, nobody could ever know you like he does.

As soon as you’re in your apartment you start crying again. You curl into yourself on your bed, you find a shirt of Kendall’s in it. He left it there when he slept here a few nights ago. There are a lot of things of him in your apartment but you can deal with that later. You touch the soft, dark grey fabric with your fingers and pull it towards you. You hold it to your chest. It smells like him. Expensive cologne, a little like cigarettes and something just Kendall. It smells like home. You cry yourself to sleep holding onto his shirt.

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ADMIN UPDATE ;

just  a  heads  up  that  due  us  being  very  lucky  with  new  members  and  characters  coming  in  ,  after  a  little  more  thought  ,  we  will  conclude  the  event  on  friday  night  .  on  either  friday  night  or  early  saturday  morning  ,  the  conclusion  post  will  be  up  with  details  of  their  release  and  what  happens  next  so  keep  your  eyes  peeled  .  any  acceptances  will  take  place  on  saturday  too  so  new  characters  can  be  planned  in  line  with  that  rather  than  having  to  scramble  to  answer  event  threads  .  thank  you  for  your  patience  ,  as  you  can  tell  ,  a  lot  of  people  are  just  in  the  middle  of  their  first  threads  after  joining  so  we  want  to  give  everyone  a  chance  to  get  set  up  .  super  excited  to  share  our  next  twist  with  you  …  very  sooooon  .

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary244

5/18-19/24

saturday - sunday

day off tomorrow... but basically right now.

and i need to do some stuff, tomorrow/today, so i need to sleep sooooon.

i got 1 song done, and work was unpleasant but funny, all of my coworkers are always shocked to find out i'm 26!! how strange.

today was my gf's birthday and i wasn't able to go out, she's super drunk but it is fun.

anyway, what else.

the impossible, after a certain point, turns into poetry, which i am fond of. i am a fan of this couplet:

"chance in long white stockings / chance in a lace nightdress"

and then

"i approach poetry: only to miss it"

he is a great writer, his efforts to come to non-sense / sense, to avoid the problems of meaning/submission to the values of 'meaning' of the novel and things of that nature, in this very tense way which does not deny the way they are constructed. odd in comparison with agua viva, in a lot of ways this book is interesting as a work in a similar direction but ending up odd places. both approach sleep at points, lispector seeing sleep as a total kind of freedom, not the dreaming sleep, but the void, the entrance into or instantiation of the void in the self, bataille is similar but given his tension with that desire, and with the sense that it frees up desire's vehemence but cannot, i guess, go beyond, or it goes beyond but not far enough, at once, this tension, that it is an "abortive image of victory" of desire, that it cannot be embraced as lispector sees it. i think here it is important really to leave these two perspectives in tension, the restful, the inching to death and back out, lispector's weaving and adoration and not acceptance but writhing that harmonizes the "difficult harmonies" of living, and bataille's struggle, another sort of writhing, he is restless, but inert in ways. lispector would rest if she could, but she is possessed (by herself) bataille is in fever, resting and never fully rested (sick, with himself). these two centers feel part of me, and so they chase eachother as wolves stepping on the other's territory. the chase goes on so long, they lose track of who transgressed what, where illness and possession ever begin.

anyhow, i really must be getting to sleep so

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[scuderiamh]

home || n. de vries x reader

pairing: nyck de vries x reader request: yes / no summary: after a trip away with friends, your house never felt more like a home. word count: 950 warnings: child has a decided name.

sitting in by your flight's gate and surrounded by tired, hustling people rushing to and fro, you only had one thing on your mind.

two things, actually. but in the same category. your fiancé and your daughter. 

the joy the two of them brought you was unreal, but that also meant the amount that you missed them while they weren't present was just as unbelievable. you enjoyed your trip away, certainly. as much as you loved them the break was nothing if not much needed, and the time weekend spent away on some white sanded beach with a few of your closest friends could not have been any more enjoyable. but now after flight one of two home you were more than ready to fall into nyck's arms and hold little tess for hours and hours. 

your flight was boarding in just under fifteen minutes. luckily, it was a short one. so, you should be home within four hours. and considering the time now, you didn't expect much communication until you see them face-to-face... that is until your phone lit up with a facetime call from the contact titled “nyckie 💙” 

you wasted no time in connecting your headphones and accepting the call, only to be greeted with a close-up on your 10-month-old's face -- her very awake face. before you could say anything, the camera tilted to the side to show part of nyck's face. 

“shouldn't you guys be asleep?” you asked, attempting to be stern. but you couldn't hide the smile at the sight of them. the camera had since returned back to tess, but with your question nyck set up the camera against something, showing that they were both on your bed, laying down and now facing his phone.

“tess couldn't sleep,” nyck responded, a hand resting lightly on her back. “too excited, i suppose.”

“tess, or you?” you teased.

he grinned, watching you with a look in his eyes you'll never get tired of. “both?”

“uh huh.” you scoffed lightheartedly, switching the phone from one of your hands to another. “you should sleep. both of you.”

“but we want to stay up for you!”

“absolutely not.” you gasped. “you'll ruin her sleep schedule entirely, nyck!”

“but she misses you.” he pouted. “isn't that right, tessie?”

tess only babbled in response, making you deadpan at the whole exchange. this should've come as no shock, really. nyck had been wrapped around your finger since day one and then around little tessie's the moment she was born. this behavior was just about expected. 

you sighed. “let her sleep if she falls asleep, yeah?”

“yes, ma'am.” he responded with a grin, repositioning himself yet again as he sat up, took tess into his arms, and held the camera with one hand. “isn't your flight boarding pretty soon?”

“yeah.” you nodded. “few minutes, actually.”

“you hear that, dropje?” nyck whispered to tess, sounding about an octave higher. he placed a light kiss to the top of her head. “sooooon.”

you giggled, shaking your head. “i miss you guys.”

as soon as nyck began to respond, tess' babbling increased, muffling his response. making both of you guys giggle again. 

“think that's her way of saying she misses you too, hm?” 

“or a please don't ruin my sleep schedule, dad.” you chided softly.

“hey.” he gave you a pointed look, feigning offense at your light jab. 

you only smiled. before you could say anything else to him, a loud voice interrupted -- the airport announcer. your flight was beginning to board. you perked up immediately.

“hey, nyck? i've gotta go. flight's boarding.”

“okay.” he smiled. “stay safe, schat. love you.”

“love you too. and you also, tess.”

the last thing you saw was him picking up her tiny hand to wave at the camera before you hung up. 

by the time you'd landed, picked up your luggage, and took the uber home it was near 4:30AM. you were really hoping they were asleep, mostly for the sake of tessie's sleep pattern and how messing it up would ruin your daytime schedule. but also because you knew how tired nyck got with everything he had to do in a day. you didn't want him to waste sleep hours over waiting on you.

making it upstairs in your home, you made a point to be quiet. just in case. you opened the door to you and nyck's bedroom slowly, wincing when it creaked. a sense of relaxation came over you immediately with the sight you were met with.

nyck, laying on his back on your shared bed. tess laying on top of his chest, his arm slung over her protectively. you couldn't help but snap a photo before anything else.

climbing into bed with extra care to be as silent as you could, you lay your head on his free arm. if it wasn't the door creaking that's what woke him up.

thankfully, he didn't move so much as to wake up your daughter, he only craned his head your way, eyes unfocused still. then they widened, and his mouth opened in surprise. “you're back?” he asked, voice groggy from sleep.

“hello, my love.” you said, smile wide as you snuggled into him. “go back to sleep. greetings in the morning.”

“yeah... okay. okay, goodnight.”

it was hardly nighttime, you believed you both knew that. sunrise was in a mere few hours. but you let yourselves have this. “goodnight.”

and you haven't felt more in peace before. laying there with your family, feeling their warmth. you couldn't properly describe the feeling if you wanted to, but it's moments like these that made this plain old house home.

[ye-bloodeh-liar]

me: *finally comes to terms with the fact that i have enough guitars and accepting that i really shouldn't be eyeing any*

gibson: hEyY guess what noel gallagher signature guitar coming sooooon ~who wants one?~

me:

[longchunkytooth]

feeling like this moon energy is healing my core in sum way ..... of course its bc its is in cancer prolly 🤪 today i looked at my queer body for what it is and felt myself actually feel love for it, i think the closer i ascend in this twisty spiral of transfiguration the more my essence oscillates around an opposite pole that i never thought i would get to ..... havent felt the way i felt today since i first got home, sometimes i feel weird when i come home because suddenly all of what ive been working on is gone and i feel like a fail and flounder a bit ... going to accept this feeling and play with it if i can, coocoon sooooon craaackkkk

[prisma-does-things]

My Interpretation of Daganronpa V3′s ending (plus extra goodies)

Hey everyone! Long time no see, but I think I may finally have time to do things regularly now. I’m gonna try and split this blog across Writblr/Fic, Danganronpa, and Edits so we’ll see how this goes, lol. I’ll have a new intro out sooooon!

Anyways onto what you clicked for:

This is a compilation theory of my interpretation of DRV3’s ending. I can justify why I think anything I say here if you want me to, but if I wrote down evidence for everything here it’d literally be 100 pages long so if you wanna discuss just ask me! Some of these things are just straight up indulgent but that’s the fun of interpretations!

1 | The Beginning of Team Danganronpa

After the events of DR3, and I mean LONG after the events of DR3--like at least a century--Hope’s Peak Academy has been diluted into a small and insignificant government program, totally out of the way of society. Talent isn’t as much of a big deal anymore and everyone’s chill now. The concepts of hope and despair, Junko and company are reduced to stories and paragraphs in history text-books.

Eventually, and slowly, the stories of the killing games entered into the world of fiction. The idea of the ultimate clash between Hope and Despair was quite enticing, and so Team Danganronpa was created to make these ideas come to life on the screen.. Reenactments, roleplays, museums, you name it and Team Danganronpa had a part in it. The hardships of the past lead to inspiration for the people of the present. Hope and despair became little aesthetics and concepts for people to attach themselves too, like coping mechanisms. 

However, as society grew to appreciate this, it grew more and more perverse. The reenactments became more and more realistic, and the people consuming it cared less and less about the specifics. All they cared for was the mindless and constant clash between Hope and Despair. Good or bad. It wasn’t even despair that society was experiencing, more like a perverted sense of sentimentality. If it sounds like I copied that I did, that quote was from Undertale.

2 | The New Killing Game

Anyways, at the rate things were going, it was inevitable that Team Danganronpa would eventually start recreating killing games using actual students, probably a combination of scouted out individuals and volunteers with actual murders. Remember that this is a society that bounced back from a near-end of the world decision, they’re all recovering, even the kids that were raised by the survivors. 

And please note that when I’m talking about the society in the Danganronpa world I don’t think that it applies to the fandom AT AL. In fact I think the society in DR is the exact opposite of the fandom, but let’s keep going.

3 | Rantaro’s Plan

We really don’t know the amount of ‘Seasons’ there’s been, but we’ll just call this one ‘Season 52’. Season 52 stares a whole new story continuing from the ‘fictional’ stories of Hope’s Peak. The only two members of this group that we know are Rantaro Amami...and Kaede Akamatsu, the two that chose to sacrifice themselves at the end of the 52nd killing game. Rantaro and Kaede both get survivor perks for their troubles, and the other two survivors are allowed to have their memories replaced so they can return to society with their sanity. Rantaro and Kaede can leave to the real world too, but they will be brought back for the next season, which is planned to be a sequel featuring them as the fan favorites.

Luckily for Rantaro, this is the perfect situation for his plan to destroy Team Danganronpa for good. Everyone else in the world is generally repulsed by Team DR’s actions, but their reliance on them is too great for them to break away or do much of anything.

He starts out by getting in contact with Kaede’s twin sister, we’ll just call her Haru as a temporary name. Rantaro needs to pitch a good plot for the next season, since it’s a sequel he’ll have the advantage in knowing where everything is, including the one weakness of the seasons mastermind. Because Kaede, being positive and bright, and Maru, being cynical and rude, are polar opposites, a twin vs. twin plot seems like the perfect thing to pitch to Team Danganronpa. 

In addition Rantaro also adds Shuichi Saihara and Tsumugi Shirogane to his little squad. Shuichi’s mind is analytical, but he lacks confidence. Rantaro knows Team DR enough to predict what they’ll do with him, so he becomes Rantaro’s backup. He adds Tsumugi only because she and Kaede were dating-A and he thinks she’ll make a good first victim, letting Rantaro get a bit more time to find the mastermind and convince the world to fight against Team DR.

 4 | Scouting of the other members

Before any of this, back when he was recording his Survivor Perk, he made sure to structure it in a way that would motivate a Rantaro in a killing game to get out and survive another game so he could try again. He really wanted to cover all of his bases, he was dealing with a huge corporation by now after all.

In another sect, Kaito Momota and Maki Harukawa, who are both dating, join in with Rantaro’s idea. And, somewhere entirely different, a prince by the name of Kokichi Oma, and his personal maid, Kirumi Tojo, are both scouted and kidnapped by Team Danganronpa for the next killing game. A shy but sweet mechanic whose father is friends with the Queen of the kingdom, Miu Iruma, decides to volunteer.

After much planning from Rantaro’s group, they strategically get everyone in the 53rd killing game, lying on their audition tapes...well-everyone except for Maru. Team DR accepts the whole twin vs. twin plot, and they start modification of the sets, making them seem dilapidated and old to show a passage of time. Right on the cusp of the plans success, Kaede succumbs to her guilt. After seeing the horrors of the killing game her spirit is broken, and soon before the game’s beginning, she commits suicide. The final note she leaves to her sister asks her to end the killing games, despite their differences. 

Without a twin to complete the plot, Team DR is forced to improvise. They bring out a beta for a project they were planning, a robot named K1-B0, or Keebo. Keebo’s purpose was to be the audience's eyes, something suggested by Miu to give her friends an advantage in ending the game. 

5 | The Start of Season 53

Finally, the killing game starts. 

The 16 students are brought to Team DR one way or another. Maru is especially shocked, as she’s never participated in a killing game before, but is treated like she did. Everyone’s memory is replaced, save for Rantaro who’s allowed to keep a set few memories that would’ve worked well for the sequel plan. Everyone wakes up in the lockers, with Maru waking up next to Shuichi, now forced to take the identity of Kaede. She tries to get the hang of her sister’s personality, as we see in pregame, but eventually her entire identity is replaced with a Flashback light when she receives her talent. You could also describe it as an Ultimate Revival if you wanted to. Maru becomes Kaede Akamatsu, now able to fulfill the role that her sister is now unable to.

After the events of the prologue (Which is called Ultimate Revival by the way, I don’t want you to miss that wordplay) Tsumugi wakes up in a locker, right next to Keebo. Something not even Rantaro accounted for happened, Tsumugi was chosen to be the mastermind. Not Kokichi or even himself like he was expecting. However, Team DR saw Tsumugi as a perfect candidate for a mastermind, as her obsession with fiction was seen as relatable. She was a perfect reflection of what society had become.

Tsumugi’s mind was barely touched by the Flashback lights, but all of her relationships with her friends and girlfriend were replaced. Upon waking up and seeing Keebo, he explains to her that they’re currently in a spaceship that was supposed to take off ages ago and the outside world is inhospitable. Panicking, she sets K1-B0 into it’s ‘friendly’ mode and lets him go off and talk with the others, entirely forgetting about his set role as a future traitor, as well as the Flashback Light machine. 

However, K1-B0 was set to teach the mastermind how to do their job, and now without that information in their memory, Tsumugi doesn’t know what she’s supposed to do. All she knows right now is that she has some involvement with the mastermind. As a result, the Monokubs, another set of helpers, also have no idea what they’re doing and have to rely on Monokuma, an AI the mastermind can’t control, for instruction.

6 | Tsumugi as the Mastermind

Tsumugi ends up wandering around, stopping and staring at an odd dragon statue. That’s when Shuichi and Kaede find her in-game. Tsumugi can’t explain why, but Kaede touching her cheeks made her feel all fluttery inside. After their ‘first’ interaction together, Tsumugi takes note of the big round ball in the dragon’s hand. 

The first motive, The First Blood Perk, comes around, along with the time limit soon after. The pressure of this definitely scares Tsumugi, but she wants to see Kaede get out okay, especially since she feels inspired by her.

At some point Tsumugi goes to the bathroom and discovers the hidden room entirely by accident. Once into the room with Motherkuma, she asks about the whereabouts of Kaede, and Motherkuma gives her details about her and Shuichi’s plan. Wanting to help out, but not wanting to seem suspicious, she gets about the bathroom a.s.a.p and goes back to blending in. She’s planning to get Kaede out as soon as she can, but she doesn’t know if she can do it.

Time goes on, and eventually that really loud music starts playing. Tsumugi knows Kaede’s gonna make a move, so she rushes to the hidden room in the library again and starts her own little plan. After stealing a shot put ball from the warehouse, something she did out of inspiration from the dragon, Tsumugi opens up the hidden door in the library to see Rantaro lying crumpled on the floor by the bookshelf.

Without thinking, she smashed the ball into Rantaro’s head and finished him off. She initially thought him to be the mastermind, but after checking his survivor perk she realizes that there’s a lot more to Rantaro, and this game, than she realizes. Desperate for more time to solve the mystery, she rushed back with everyone else to get on with the investigation.

7 | The First Trial

As the investigation rolled around, she started panicking. She formed a quick alibi in the form of her cospox, but planned to explain herself more in the class trial. She wasn’t quite ready to face reality yet. She knew Monokuma was supposed to punish her, so she let herself act like she was innocent until the time came. 

Once the class trial DID come around, she realized what Kaede was doing. Once Monokuma declared the voting right, she was confused, but took it as an opportunity to defeat the Mastermind. Her death made her distraught, but she bit her tongue and promised to solve it for Kaede’s sake.

The night of the Class Trial, she went back into her secret room when she was greeted by a Flashback Light. This one, on top of the one everyone else received, was built to make her be a more efficient mastermind. 

8 | The Trials After…

Trials 2-4 were largely the same. Just after each Class Trial, Tsumugi was given a different special Flashback Light to get her to question everything around her more, specifically targeting the idea that everything Danganronpa, including Hope’s Peak, isn’t actually real. Monokuma had been no help, fully content holding the truth over her and making her dance around to find it. I don’t have any idea what those Flashback Lights could’ve been, but I DO know that one of the ones meant for Tsumugi was nabbed by Angie in chapter 3. Tsumugi planned for her to find it, but didn’t expect her to destroy it.

By Chapter 4, Tsumugi asked Monokuma to show the “outside world” for the first time, confirming what Keebo said. During this time, she fully believed the scene outside to be real, mostly because she had no other evidence to disprove it. After this, Tsumugi decided to start a plan of her own that she’d enact by herself.

9 | Tsumugi’s Plan

Before getting a look at the Neo World Program in Chapter 4, Tsumugi used a Flashback light on herself to replace the memory of her seeing the outside world with her doing something else. This was because she needed a fresh reaction to seeing the outside world, but also because she needed to avoid Kokichi, who was definitely the closest to being able to figure her out and expose her.The other one she needed to keep an eye on was Shuichi, who could also figure her out if he ever caught his suspicions. In her desperation she never noticed the secret of the Flashback Lights, which lead to her replacing memories instead of erasing them like she was excepting. 

The next step of her plan involved her overhearing Kokichi and Miu’s plan to create the Electro hammers. She knew they’d be used to escape the ship at some point, and with a fresh reaction everything would be in place for the next step, which was getting Oma killed to give herself time to figure everything else out so she could finally come clean. Of course, since she really believed the world outside was destroyed, she really just wanted to trick everyone into not committing any murders. That just happened to mean getting rid of Kokichi. 

With all of this in mind, she wrote down her plan and used the Flashback light on herself. After having her memories erased, she went through the game as normal until trial 4 passed. Luckily for her, it gave her just the motivation she needed to want to kill Kokichi. She wasn’t quite able to see through Kokichi’s mask, she was blinded by a mix of power, confusion, and rage by then. 

Immediately after trial 4, she was hit with her usual mastermind Flashback Light, however this one made her remember something extra important, the script of season 53.  

Tsumugi actually wrote herself a fake set of plans as part of her plans. That was the whole ‘script’ thing she was talking about in chapter 6. She set the plans up so that way she truly believed she was the mastermind. She was taking the risk of Kokichi finding her, but she figured the confusion would throw off any secretive actions she could’ve done. The reason why she did this was to give herself confidence. If she made herself think that everything in her plan was already set to happen, she’d believe in herself enough to make it so. 

Going into Chapter 5 now, after seeing the outside world for the ‘first time’ she blended in with everyone else, but she did know that Kokichi wasn’t actually the Mastermind as she read the script she made for herself. Tsumugi didn’t plan for this, but it did help her out because it got everyone to go again Kokichi. 

After trial 5, and his sacrifice, Tsumugi was hit with her final flashback light. This one made her ‘remember’ her time as a part of Team Danganronpa. This didn’t mess with her plan too much, as she already knew that something would happen to her head before she made herself forget the secret of the outside world. However, after all of those lights..her head couldn’t take much more. There was too much stuff going on in her head, too many confusing contradictions for her to process. She ignored this originally because she thought that the Flashback Lights erased and created memories instead of replacing them, but it was too late. Keebo started destroying the academy, something she DEFINITELY didn’t plan for.

10 | The Final Trial

Without any way of solving the mystery of Team DR, she scrambled around and put together a class trial of her own, leaving the shot-put ball Kaede used in the trash for Shuichi to find later. All of her attempts came crashing down, but she was able to convince Monokuma to shamble together something to make season 53 end with a ‘good climax’. 

Trial 6 starts, and after Tsumugi’s found out as the mastermind, she uses a series of Nanokumas to help her cosplay. By now she believes that the stories of Hope’s Peak are fiction, so she’s able to cosplay them...and only them...all she wants. She doesn’t know anything about Team DR’s history, so she makes it all up, including the titles of the seasons, which she shambles together from her favorite fandoms. Monokuma plays along, and even adds in a huge audience set to make it look like everyone’s watching. In fact he’s so wrapped up in how good everything’s doing that he doesn’t realize Tsumugi’s baiting Shuichi into helping her.

During trial 6, she even brings up the motive that no one had a chance to see in chapter 5, the Pre-Game tapes they did when they were together ages ago. 

By presenting herself as an ultimate evil, Tsumugi took Shuichi’s will to find the truth and twisted it so that he’d end up finding what she wanted him to. She wanted Shuichi to discover the truth, that fiction can change the world. 

At the end of it all, Tsumugi allowed herself to be killed, succumbing to the after effects of the Flashback Lights and letting herself be consumed by the lies. Believing herself now to be some kind of replacement to Junko Enoshima, and thus a ‘cosplay-cat killer’, she allows herself to be killed and finally rest. She wanted to admit what she did more carefully, to say a final goodbye or at least hint to the fact that she meant to help them, but she couldn’t. 

Shuchi, Maki, and Himiko all survive, finally able to leave Danganronpa together. Team DR allows it, as it feels satisfying, but they do look forwards to seeing the 3 of them try to truly end Danganronpa for good. Tsumugi doesn’t know what’s on the other side of the End-Wall, but she trusts in her friends to face that truth.

11 | Conclusion 

And that’s it! I hope you enjoyed this read/arrangement of evidence for what I think happened behind the scenes of Danganronpa V3! This took sooo much thinking it’s not even funny. Seriously I spent at least 4 full school periods doing nothing but thinking and taking notes. A lot of this is indulgent, specifically the parts with Kokichi being a prince and the whole Kaede + Kaede Twin Sister switch, I just thought those were neat. 

I didn’t say it there but I think that The Ultimate Talent Development Plan was actually two things. The first was a board game released alongside Season 53 featuring all the characters, and the second was actually a real program, sorta like the Izuru project. I don’t really wanna consider the implications of what this could do to my interpretation though, lol. 

But yeah, V3’s ending is really important to me. It upsets me wayy more than it should when people consider it to be stupid or lazy or insulting to the audience of the games. I think what they were trying to do with the ending was both stupid ambitious and super cool. Killing Harmony is like...my 2nd favorite piece of media ever. It’s so important to me, and as a storyteller I totally respect them for what they did with the ending. The idea of using the enjoyment of the franchise against the player was so brutal and effective for me. Danganronpa helped me grow as a person, and being undermined and told the emotional connection I had with everyone was all just bullshit hurt. Buuuut then Tsumugi and Shuichi helped me realize that even if it is just a bunch of silly bullshit, the emotional response that it gave me...and all the happiness I got from it, that’s all real. Ain’t no black and white bear taking that from me.

So yeah, thanks for reading.

Thanks for everything, Danganronpa.

[avengerofyourheart]

Fic Statistics Tag Game

Ooh, this looks fun!! Thank you for the tag @beccaanne814 and @angryteapot!  ❤️

Author Name: Anika

Fandom(s) You Write For:  I write for Marvel, mostly Steve and Bucky but I’ve dabbled in writing Tony, Scott, Thor, and Sam a bit. I have ideas outside of the MCU, though. Hm. ;)

Where You Post: Tumblr primarily but I also have accounts on Wattpad and AO3 under the same username. 

Most Popular One-Shot: I think it’s still Cheap Thrills, which is so funny to me. It was a blast to write randomly at 2am, but never imagined it would be so popular! Guess you never know what people might like.  🤷🏼‍♀️

Most Popular Multi-Chapter Story: Over on Wattpad, Accidents Happen, my very first series, is winning by quite a lot, followed a bit behind by In the Arms of Justice because who doesn’t love some Police Officer Bucky?? haha. It’s harder to tell here on tumblr. Flour Girl has done well and Leave This Town gets a lot of love too. Depends on what people are in the mood for! 

Favourite Story You Wrote: Oh gosh. It’s usually the one I’m working on/obsessing about at the time. Leave This Town lived in my head for almost a year before I got deep into writing it and I’m still amazed I finished it. I’m definitely a fan of mechanic!Bucky. ;) The Lucky One also kind of has my heart. It was so much fun to adapt from the movie and make it my own. And Flour Girl is kind of my actual soul, having included so much of my baking experience and my love for You’ve Got Mail. Yes, I’m cheating on this answer. :D 

Story You Were Nervous To Post: Oof. I’m always a tad nervous, to be honest. The stories where I used experiences from my real life were especially challenging cause I felt very vulnerable, but writing them was cathartic and everyone received them well. White Blank Page and You Are My Heaven were probably the hardest to hit post on. Nothing like heartbreak for writing inspiration. ha. 

How Do You Choose Your Titles?: A lot of song titles, since I’m so often inspired by music. Song lyrics, too. Whatever fits the story, honestly. 

How many of your stories are…

In-Progress: At this point, I’ve wrapped up most of my outstanding series except one but I think people have forgotten about it and that’s okay. Maybe I’ll finish it some day. And I’m planning on adding more to my rockstar!Steve miniseries, Simple Kind of Man but I’m working on something else right now. ;) 

Coming Soon: As mentioned above, I’m working on more rockstar!Steve but I put that on hold for the moment because I’m hoping to finish my newest modern Bucky AU very soon! :D It combines two of my greatest loves: Bucky and travel. ha! But I’m determined to have it ALL written before I share. Sooooon. :D 

Do You Accept Prompts/requests : No, I don’t. I did for a short time but my “muse”/inspiration, whatever you want to call it, is really fickle. Plus, any time I tried to write anyone else’s ideas, it just came out as forced. Kudos to those whose brains DO work that way! I have to be completely possessed by an idea in order to use my limited spare time to write. 

Upcoming Story You Are Most Excited To Write: I am SOOOOO EXCITED to share my Bucky travel fic!! I’ve been working on it off and on for about a year so it’s been torture to wait and I’m near BURSTING, almost ready to share more details. I hope others will be excited too! ❤️

I’m going to tag (under no obligation): @sebseyesandbuckysthighs @imhereforbvcky @buckyywiththegoodhair @sebbytrash @redgillan @avengersandchill @imaginingbucky

[lenievi]

spoilers for Manifest season 4 part 1

soooooo note to self don’t look at other people’s opinions they’re probably gonna be a mess

anyway I love this show so much. idk it’s just really good, imho anyway. It’s not a type of a show I usually watch but I’m happy that I gave it a try. And I obviously like the story and all characters but 

there’s just something about Jared and Michaela’s relationship that I personally enjoy because 1. it’s fiction 2. I like a little bit of a mess in my fictional relationships 

the thing is, I also like Zeke and Michaela, pretty much from the beginning of their meeting, but heart chooses itself, and since a certain point I just wanted Jared and Michaela to get together again (or rather, for the show to end with them together... or even just admitting they love each other - which we as viewers know anyway - while one of them, or both of them die, I’m not actually that picky), but also after a certain point it could only happen if Zeke died. Like there was no other viable option that I would be able to accept, because petty and silly arguments wouldn’t cut it (and cheating would be the WORST) and it wouldn’t be good storytelling and would be absolutely unfair to all characters. 

So I was like, ok, they probably decided to keep Michaela and Zeke together (because they were forced to cut the show short, or it was always meant to be, and the point is, I wouldn’t have minded), and your solution is just your bias speaking because having Zeke die just so Jared/Michaela could happen again is some crazy shipper talk, in my mind anyway lol (even though I don’t call watching the show and liking a dynamic as it is in the show shipping but that’s beside the point)

but yeah, so anyway, they... actually let Zeke die. And it just makes sense overall because he died before and was brought back. He was given a second choice. To be there for Michaela and to sacrifice his life for another. And as tragic as it is, and as sad as it was, it’s a rather good solution because it won’t diminish anything even if Jared and Michaela will get back together again at some point in the future. 

And it isn’t lazy writing or lazy solution either, imho anyway (I’m sure there will be people not agreeing with it lol). It’s all connected. And the possibility for Jared and Michael to get back together were nicely planted throughout part 1.

Because despite everything that happened in the past, they grew and are in a good place. Michaela, despite still having feelings for Jared, chose Zeke and continued to choose him every single day, because she loved him too, and it’s choices we make that make our lives. Jared, despite still loving Michaela, moved on and accepted that Michaela wouldn’t come back to him, he stopped guilt tripping her, and after months long separation, they were finally able to be just friends again, work together like in the past, and simply enjoy each other’s company. And most importantly, Jared accepted Zeke and if given time, they would become great friends as well imho

Under the assumption that Zeke is truly dead (because bringing him back to life again would be bad storytelling, unless there’s some weird time warp at the end which I hope isn’t the case), Jared now knows how to approach Michaela. Zeke didn’t die while Jared kept holding a grudge or being terribly jealous, he didn’t die while Michaela and Jared were in the middle of unresolved stuff, Zeke and Jared and Michaela were all in a good place. 

So now, if they’re going to bring Jared and Michaela back together in part 2, it’s actually set up in a really good way for it not to be forced, and it will be done in hopefully a natural way (might be a bit rushed though), and in no way that it will diminish Michaela/Zeke.

anyway want part 2 sooooon.

(I also enjoy Jared and Drea, but Drea was smart to keep it sex only, even though who knows how it progresses in part 2. Maybe Zeke will be back, or Michaela just stays mourning forever, but... the seeds are there anyway)

yeah, anyway, just wanted to ramble about this. I’ll enjoy whatever they come up with anyway so it doesn’t really matter... as long as Jared doesn’t die... unless he dies for Michaela (I like tragedies, let me be lol)

[lunaticlabs]

The last paper

Kind of a misnomer since this is definitely not THE last paper, but it’s paper four of four. The fourth paper in my roadblock of papers where things were coming in, but for whatever reason nothing was moving forward. Now with two of the four published and one in review again after a request for edits, I’m assuming it will be accepted (sooooon!). That leaves me with exactly one paper left and…

[durm-ff]

Your Favourite Heartbreaker

wooooo a one shot from september (don’t hate me) but I’m almost done with my request so I’ll open them sooooon. I hope I did some justice to anon’s request about being Mats’s cousin and getting tickets for the world cup, leading to an affair with draxler. it was fun writing it. sorry for the delay, as always! enjoy! xx

“Your parents will never forgive me for giving you these tickets.”

“I won’t have time for you, you’ll have to take care of yourself.”

“I know you can’t stand Cathy, so behave, because you’ll most likely be around her.”

“This really doesn’t seem like a good idea.”

“I don’t want any of my teammates die of heartbreak throughout the tournament.”

Bla bla bla. I could go on with the arguments coming out of Mats’s mouth, listing all the reasons why I should not go to Brazil and watch one of his games. However, my arguments seemed to be more convincing.

“You know that I’m your favourite cousin. I deserve this.”“I could tell everyone about the times we played House together, or how we played with your dolls”.

“I’m twenty-one. Second year at uni. My parents can handle this. Besides, you’re the family sweetheart. They’ll trust you with me.”

“How come you’re never concerned about my heart breaking?”

Alright. The last one was a joke. I wasn’t one to get heartbreaks. I never let my relationships get that far.

But the whole point of me visiting Mats was so that I could escape the hellish, boring little town called Böblingen, somewhere near Stuttgart, where nothing ever happened. Knowing this could be the only time I have the time, energy, and lack of thought to do something like this, I begged, and begged, and negotiated, until Mats gave in.

“Fine. But I can’t pick you up from the airport. And you’ll barely see me. But you can come into the locker rooms and hotel if you want.”

“See that’s why you’re my favourite cousin.” – I smirked and ignored Mats’s sulking and warning monologue while I was thinking just how I’ll tan next to the Atlantic Ocean.

-

My parents were used to me going out and not telling them exactly where I went or when I’d be back. Sometimes I’d stay out for a night, sleeping at a friend’s, or, during holiday’s I’d sleep over for several nights. The initial heart-attack I caused them vanished when I turned eighteen and since then, it just became a habit that they had to accept.

Finding out that their daughter was in Brazil, and not at some friend’s house, was more for them stomach. I was waiting for their phone call, especially because this summer I decided to spend some time home and so far, we’ve watched all of Germany’s game together so obviously, they wanted to know if I’d be coming home to watch Germany play against Algeria.

“Honey, where are you, the game is starting soon! There will be a press conference before!” – my mother squealed into my ear and I had to concentrate not to tell her to tone it down. “I know mom, I’m sorry but I’m not gonna bet here cause I’m watching the game from Porto Alegre!”

I guess she thought I was going to say one of my friends’ name and when the information finally hit in, her anger/shock was impossible to bear. “You WHAT?” – I had to hold the phone away from my ear to prevent my deafness (which i would get anyway in the stadium, but oh well). “You can’t just-“ I heard her shouting at me and while knowing the bulk of what she was saying, I was scanning the crowd for someone I knew so that I could get away.

In less than two seconds Julian Draxler appeared from his locker room and headed towards other teammates standing at the end of the tunnel, when I grabbed him by his arm and put the phone next to his face. “What is going-“ “Oh, mum, Julian Draxler is here, I have to go, he’s got something really important to tell me, see you in a few days, bye!” – and with that I locked my phone and let out a sigh.

Julian still didn’t quite understand what was happening, as we have only been introduced to each other so my action must have confused him, so I explained it. “Forgot to tell my parents I’d be watching the game from here, rather than from home”. – I shrugged. “Ah, happens to me all the time!” – he said easily then his face got serious and he silently shook his head. I let out a laugh. “My partner in crime. Are you playing today?”

“Don’t think so. Coach hasn’t said so yet, so everything is going according his plan and there are no last minute changes.” – he shrugged. “Hm.” – I added but there wasn’t really anything else to talk about. “Wanna prank call my dad? You could call him and explain everything, adding how much of a pleasure it is to have Mats’s favourite cousin here.” – I smirked. “I think you did enough to upset your parents today.” – he laughed.

-

The match had already started and I was anxious to see Neuer so much out of the goal. But to my amusement, things were going on outside the field too. Sitting to the right of the substitute bench, having perfect view on it, Julian seemed to have found me early on and has occasionally glanced in my direction, imitating a phone call, which made me laugh.

Mats, on the other hand didn’t seem to aprecciate what he saw and implied that he was going to kill me if I didn’t stop. Wasn’t too hard to understand from his gestures. The game had gotten more intense so the glances stopped (to my disappointment) and the tension continued after the game.

I waited in the tunnel with Cathy, who I graciously ignored, amongst other wives and girlfriends, and scanned the crowd for the players. Mats was the first to arrive and after giving a quick kiss to Cathy, he immediatley turned to me. “Stop.” – he pointed his finger at me. “With what?” – I pretended to be innocent. “Don’t play games with me. I know exactly what you’re doing.” – he squinted and I shrugged. “But Matziii, I really don’t want to cause trouble.” – I said in a sing-song voice to which he huffed. “Shut up. I’m going to change.” – he shook his head but I saw him smiling as he left.

“So, caused any heart-attacks while I was gone?” – I heard Julian’s voice from behind and I turned to him with a pout. “No, I guess the game itself did that anyway, so I had no job to do.” “I’m sure you’ll find a way.” – he stepped closer to me. “Well, Draxler, I know exactly how to shock your teammate.” (meaning I would have an affair with him, leave Brazil, and give one more reason for Mats to think I’m heartless) – I grinned and his eyes widened when Cathy, still standing next to me suddenly said “Oh, get a room. And by the way, Mats is standing there.” She pointed towards the locker rooms, where a half naked Mats was anxiously staring at us.

He started walking towards us, when I quickly grabbed Julian’s hand and ran past the crowd, which was just enough to block us from Mats. “Sorry, Mats, love you! See you later!” – I shouted with a laughing Julian running behind me.

[madlyher]

@cauterizedfear​ ( stephanie ) asks ⫽   you’re being too quiet … what have you done?   ⫽   shit i say to my dogs sentence prompts   ⁕   accepting !

“  it’s no fun if i tell you now, stephanie !  you have  to wait it out like the rest !  ” she wondered;    would  her old friend  use  her  newly  forming abilities to drag the truth out of her ?   would she   have the ability at all to do so against  alice’s  own  long-formed  defenses ?   they both stood on  either side of   the  line— one having sided with the  thirst for truth and knowledge  and  one   deeply  consumed  and  becoming  a  monster of  deceit.    

“  soon,    soon,    sooooon —-   you’ll get your answer.     but,   you’ll have to see if   you can survive   what comes before  it.    truth  comes at a price,  stephanie.    lies,    lies make you feel freeeee~!  ”

[books-n-wine]

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